#not sad about the blog's decision tho I very much agree with that

[vim-flam]

waited too long to add marty to smashorpassgilf ... now he's too young.... sad.

[angstywildcats]

lol hey, I know this blog comes off as a “for content/art” blog and I generally intend to keep it that way but this evening the warrior brainworms are back in town and I don’t have many places to share my thoughts for this kinda stuff,

this isn’t an official post or trying to push people to get to agree with me (I am not enough of an elegant speaker).  dfnjsdfn read if you want, but don’t feel inclined. I’m not trying to be groundbreaking or anything.  I think it’s just a lil vent about how I feel about how squirrelflight as a character is approached

CW: I discuss a little bit of the abuse, but not in detail

I AM so very glad we are past the early 2010s of Warriors amvs for sure at least. Back then “Ashfur did nothing wrong” was a common thing to say and everyone just went along with it, not knowing better from being young teens lol. But man the sexism still sticks and it sucks that Squirrelflight and what she went through is still debated. At least its going in the right direction?? But whew. It’s best to ignore and just go along my day, but seeing a random commenter or even someone who has Ashfur apologist as a name still bothers me more than I want LOL It’s hard to figure out how to consume a book series which... is pretty badly written and has many many many loose ends and issues, and I don’t really wanna police or judge on how people consume stuff. (As long as you’re not being a Freak. This is not a proship defense post get out) BUT I GUESS sometimes the way Ashfur is still perceived makes me uneasy? Like don’t get me wrong. he sounds like a pretty cool villain when he possessed Bramble, and while I personally don’t feel its true to his character to have?? Done whatever he did in the later books (I have . only read One chapter of ALITM and done no other warriors reading in a WHILE) it sounds kinda cool as a premise ig. And like many situations its easy to twist characters into their fanon, I think it’s just.. a little. Just a little. upsetting to have Ashfur to be seen as Such a Cool Character (tm) or whatever.

I think it really stems from the fact that. Ashfur’s decisions and actions all start from the fact he was the rejected love interest that went too far after Squirrelflight very maturely told him that she wasn’t interested. Just because of this, he assists in a murder, threatens Squirrel’s family and even after death seeks revenge and Succeeds when he targets Squirrelflight again. 

So far I don’t think there’s been any levity or relief from Squirrelflight having to go through grief or sadness and it really sucks at this point. I think the thing drives me insane is that Squirrel’s situation of getting such a backlash over a rejection is. Something that still constantly happens IRL. And Squirrelflight is almost Never acknowledged as a victim. Not by the other characters, and I don’t think the authors really grasped the weight of her situation they wrote her in either. It’s exhausting, really. I think i should really focus my blame the Warriors writing team for not approaching it better, but as someone who mostly hangs around for the fandom, it does feel like it’s sometimes thrown around too lightly :(

This is probably just a nitpick, and I’m not harshly criticising participants, hosts or artists of any kind who create the content, but a lot of AU or just, general projects and videos I see revolving squirrel is often about the miserable events of her life, either twisting them maybe to be Worse as a bad end or just. Highlighting them. 

I don’t blame anybody tho lol, it’s not like the source material has given much else but then again, we’ve had AUs and explorations of other background characters that end with brighter outcomes, so what’s stopping that from happening to Squirrel? It’s sometimes just a bit sad that there isn’t much chance to give anything else JDNFJNDFN

animal media huh. lets authors write dark things in Childrens books. And get away with poorly writing dark and sensitive topics.

[lonelyasawhisper]

yikes I just saw this post u reblogged before (https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/lonelyasawhisper/690359968666386432?source=share) & I wonder how true it is....its a tabloid that only cites 'sources close to them' so u need a grain of salt but it sounds believable & it makes me wonder if Chrissy really was willing to stay married to Brian if he 'worked Anita out of his system.' if so that's sad--girl get self-respect! & re: your tags I agree, Brian implied there was some kinda custody fight so it makes me wonder how true the article is. sad situation no matter what tho

Hi! yeah that is one hell of an article! I don’t know whether it’s 100% credible but I find the part where Chrissy gave Brian time to “get Anita out of his system” believable at least. The “ultimatum” narrative was corroborated in at least one other article. We have heard from both Brian and Anita that they tried to “resist” the affair, that apparently they had an actual split where Brian returned to Chrissy in the Autumn of 1987, a year before the article you linked was published (I estimate it’s published around October 1988? With mentions of Budgie the musical which opened on 18/10/88.)

If this were true, I wonder if Chrissy also knew about Brian’s infidelity prior to the affair with Anita and was practically fine with staying married as long as he was able to get whoever he was with “out of his system”? If so, damn that sounds miserable and I feel for her. But I also understand why she made this decision - staying married means not uprooting their lives or their children’s lives, and I’m sure they felt like their marriage was still salvageable up until a certain point. I mean, Emily had just been born! I totally understand where Chrissy was coming from, it probably seemed like the easier path to choose at the time, although I also don’t necessarily disagree with you. Children deserve happy parents, not necessarily married parents.

About the children, yeah I'm not sure. Maybe it weren't his visitation rights that were being contested, it could be that Brian wanted joint physical and/or legal custody and Chrissy objected. We don't really know much and I don't want to make any conclusive assumptions about it. All we know is he was devastated and depressed about not having his kids in the house with him after the separation, and spent as much time as he could with them. Very sad situation overall. As he said, the marriage was on the rocks and going to break down regardless of Anita. Even though I do not agree with or condone the cheating, it's clear that he cared a lot about his children and being a good father. So I feel for all parties, there is no winner in divorce.

[eeunoia]

An Idol’s Girl | l.ty

Note ⚠⚠⚠ : This will be my first blog so I’m sorry if it’s not good??? I really just can’t help but to write this ehe. Adios.

Summary: Y/N as a trainee and Lee Taeyong as her boyfriend. Kind of sum up everything.

This is so terrible but I can’t stop myself from writing this and posting it so rip to those who will encounter this to their newsfeeds??? hehehe. Don;t hate me tho, I’m like new to all of this so bare with me??

"To the world, NCT! Annyeonghaseyo NCT-imnida." I smiled as I watched them bow their heads in front of their fans. My eyes stared from the first boy from the left up until to the last one. They sure crowd the whole stage with all of their members.

I can say that SM Entertainment's future will really be bright because of them. With their visual like faces and their unbelievable talents, they will surely be remarkable.

Everyone's eye catching I can say that, but one man surely captured my eyes and my heart.

I smiled when he slightly caught me staring, Lee Taeyong. He was smiling while waving at their fans but when we locked our eyes, his smile disappeared for a while.

I pursed my lips as that hurt me. Why am I even surprised? And why the hell did I went here even though I know he won't be happy with it?

I sighed heavily as I slowly squished myself out of their loud fans. They were screaming and pushing each other but luckily, I made it out alive and a whole piece.

When I was already making my way out of the venue my phone rang so I fished it out from my pocket as I slightly hugged myself because of the cold breeze.

"Hello?"

"Where are you right now, Y/n? Did you make it in NCT's showcase?"

I smiled when I heard Jiguem Unnie's voice at the other line. She's a trainee from the Sm Entertainment together with me. We've known each other for years since we started training.

"Neh, but I'll be there in 15 minutes."

"Eh? Why?"

Of course she'll wonder why! The showcase is for 4 hours and I've been gone for only 1 hour.

I stayed silent, didn't really find the right words to say. I heard her heavy sigh and I knew she already figured out what happen.

"What did your asshole boyfriend did once again?"

The corner of my lips rose up not because I'm happy. But because of how I find things awful. He's my boyfriend and I'm just trying to support him.

"N-Nothing," i almost hit myself in my imagination because I stuttered.

"You know what? I can't believe why you still endure that relationship of yours with Lee Taeyong when you can just break up with him."

"I love him." that's the sad fact here. I love Taeyong but I'm not sure if he still feel the same way towards me.

We met the first time when our President wants the trainees to perform in one of the company's family concert. We were thrilled when we first heard about it. It will be the time Sm Ent. will introduce their trainees.

So all of us were gathered in one of the meeting halls to discuss about the said event. There is where I met him. I didn't like him at first because I don't like the way he makes me nervous.

With his visual that looks like he's been pulled off from an anime, he surely looks unreal. He have this sharp features that made him look intimidating.

It was hard for me to get close with him when I find it easy with the others. I'm a very friendly person and I get along with other people pretty well so I find it odd for me to feel different around him. That's when I realize I like him.

After a month of knowing each other, Jaehyun told me that Taeyong wanted to be close to me. I didn't believed it at first as I never saw him try. But then he started showing interest at me. He asked me out in coffee dates during our free days. It was fun!

Soon we slowly grew feelings for each other that pretty much led into a relationship. It was great actually. The first three months were just us showing how much we cared for one another. The management even knows about us and didn't really went against. I was close with his co-trainees as well.

We were doing fine until they started getting busy for their debut as NCT U. I was very excited for him and really rooting for his success. I knew how hardworking he is so he deserves this.

But as he slowly approach his dream, thats when we grew apart. We started hanging out less. I understand it of course. We started having big fights that led me to sleepless nights.

Our relationship went from a happy one to a dull commitment. My friends kept on telling me to just let him go because they think it's just not meant to be, but I'm just stubborn. I want to hold on. I don't know why, but I want to.

"Still no text?" I glanced over one of my co-trainee when she asked me that. She probably noticed I've been checking my phone too many times today.

I shook my head slowly and pouted my lips because of unhappy feeling that I've felt.

"Maybe he's just busy, Y/n-ah." Jiguem unnie said trying to lighten up my mood.

"I'm texting Mark, he said they're not busy today." Koeun said frankly.

I sighed heavily as it slowly sink into me. I get it! He's avoiding me. But I just don't know his reason! I can't remember that we argue about something? The last time we talk is me saying good luck for their comeback! I even let him do as he please, I don't confront him for all the days he's been so cold to me. I let that pass since I want him to focus with his comeback.

"Maybe he's cheating behind your back?" My thoughts were interrupted by one of the other trainees. We all looked at her in unison.

"(Trainee name)!" the other trainees called out her name with their warning tone. I saw how she just gave us a shrug.

I'm close to all of them and they're all just worried about me. They don't want Taeyong taking me for granted.

"What? We can't just feed Y/n lies! We have to be honest here. We all know her boyfriend is being an asshole so if he's cheating behind her back won't shock me at all." She said then rolled her eyes.

I understand her. She cares for me that's why she's like that. She doesn't want me to be hurt.

I unconsciously bit my nails as the possibility suddenly kicks in my thought. My heard thump in distress as I silently wish it won't be true. I knew for some reason that he loves me. Not as much as I probably love him but I'm sure he still loves me, right? I mean he won't stay in a relationship with me if he doesn't.

"Just confront him about it. Ask him why he's acting this way." Jiguem unnie suggested that I ended up just agreeing to. I don't have a choice because I also think that will be the best decision to do right now.

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I'm here waiting for him outside their apartment building. It's just a couple of blocks away from where we're staying so I just walked myself here. It's already night time so nobody's around. The streets are dead silent and almost scary if it wasn't for the peaceful vibe.

I breath in some fresh air and tried to sit at the corner to wait for him. Jaehyun said that Taeyong usually go in the convenient store during this time to avoid people so he'll be out anytime soon.

I snapped my head over the other side when I heard some noise and there he is. Lee Taeyong wearing his hoody and a sweat pants. He didn't have his hood on so it was easy for me to notice his bright red hair color.

I smiled at the sight of him and felt how I badly I missed him. I was about to walk towards him but my steps halted when I saw him happily talking through his phone. Who is he talking to?

"Taeyong oppa." I called him. He looked at me and his smile slowly fades.

"I'll call you again." He said. He hangs up then looked at me. I wanted to ask who it was but I just want to hug him. I haven't seen him for weeks!

"Y/n? What are you doing here?" There isn't a smiling Taeyong anymore. Now, only a slightly mad with furrowing brows Taeyong is present.

"Jaehyun oppa said you usually go out during this hour so I tried my luck and hoped I'll see you." I said then pout. I saw how he clenched his jaw then sighed heavily.

"Come on, I'll take you back to your dorm." I just gave him a nod before walking behind him.

At least I got to walk with him and spend a couple of minutes together, right?

The girls and I are now sharing a dorm since they're already planning our debut. Finally.

Since it wasn't that far, we arrived fast. I was pouting and a little sad since we haven't really talk even during the walk.

I faced him and bit my lip as I saw him staring at me intently. It wasn't the same way he stares at me but I don't care. I believe that I can still fix this. I can still fix us.

"Taeyong, can we hang out tomorrow?" I asked him smiling. He sighed.

"You know I can't be seen in public, right?"  He sounded a bit sarcastic that made me sad even more. He never been sarcastic to me before just when he wants to tease me.

"I didn't mean we go out in public places. We c-can hang out in the Sm Building like before." I said really trying to spend some time with him.

His eyes were cold while staring at me. Like as if he was staring at someone he doesn't know, someone he doesn't care about. And it hurst me. It hurts me big time.

"I'm busy. Why tomorrow?" he asked carelessly.

I felt my eyes heated up after what he asked and I just tried to pull up a smile so he won't notice it.

"Ah~ Nothing! Nevermind, thank you for walking me here and take care on your way back." I said then bowed my head before hurrying myself inside.

I sighed. A deep one. How come he always forgot our monthsary?

When I entered the dorm, they were all in the living room watching some kdrama. They were laughing but when they saw me, their mood changes up.

"What happened? Why are you back so early?" one of them asked.

"Where is Taeyong? Did you guys talk?"

"Hey, are you okay?" Jiguem unnie asked and it almost made me breakdown right there. But I stopped myself. I put so much trouble in us already. I don't want them getting messed up because of my emotions.

I tried smiling but I didn't know if it went well.

"I'm okay. I'll head to my room first." And I didn't wait for their response. I just walk my ass in my room like a lifeless creature.

When I made it inside the room felt quiet and empty. I hated it. I used to fill this room with laughter and giggles because of him but now it's plain... lifeless. Like me.

I was about to lay down when my phone beeped. I lazily fished it from my pocket and saw that Jaehyun sent me a message.

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Jaehyun

I think Taeyong is cheating behind your back, Y/n. I'm sorry.

Part 2

[tomorrow-human]

MY THOUGHTS ON iDKHOW'S ALBUM DEBUT: RAZZMATAZZ

So I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME have just released RAZZMATAZZ today and heres what I think...

[SIDE A]

¹LEAVE ME ALONE:

A bombastic opening track. Was released in the beginning of August...? Probably? This song just SCREAMS at you with retro futuristic funkiness. It has 8-bity flourishes in the instrumentation and seems to be maybe talking to the same person as Choke (from 1981 E.P.) and the title track Razzmatazz have been (or maybe a separate entity as suggested by the vinyl booklet and Indoctoration?).

Anyway, fantastic track, great opener, and nice mood-setter.

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²INDOCTORATION:

It's... eerie. It's not a song in the same sense as Leave Me Alone, despite having a wobbly backing track. It's a spoken interlude that seems to be initiating you into Tellex maybe? It yet again mentions the White Shadows that will be overseeing your progress with Tellex. It seems oddly nostalgic for some reason. That's strange. Overall, solid little piece of lore building that really reinforces the concept aspects.

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³MAD IQs:

It's the first song from this album that wasn't released as a single and it made my jaw literally drop. It has a similar lyrical and vocal structure to the opener and New Invention, but what I like is how much they were able to do with it, though it makes you wonder about how far apart these songs were written; but In the context of the albums concept and the Tellex stuff however, it could be interpreted as a corporate decision, this repetition. The minimal instrumentation in the verses with Ryan's sturdy drumming and Dallon's bassline makes me go fucking bananas. It's so fucking great and full of this punchy energy. And the HARMONIES. YES. "Voluntary victim~" "I'm burning~ in your mad IQs" SIR STOP BEING SO VOCALLY TALENTED. Also I think i heard him shriek right before the bridge which? Snazzy. So Mad IQs, energetic track, filled with more of iDKHOWs signature darkness.

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⁴NOBODY LIKE THE OPENING BAND:

Ah yes, Opening Band. Ironic considering how often iDKHOW are the opening band, but I'm sure that's obvious, seeing how they usually sing this one at the start of their gigs. It was actually (I think) the first or second song I didn't know how but found through youtube so I might be pretty biased here. It's a sweet sounding change of pace with the instrumentation being made up of only the piano and tambourine that tells of a typical opening band, that no ones ever heard before and likely will never hear again, via a sympathetic narrator with a hint of the typical iDKHOW teasing. In all honesty, it would've worked better as the album opener, which then could've been followed by Leave Me Alone, but it's a nice change of pace overall.

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⁵NEW INVENTION:

I already reviewed this song on my other blog right here so imma keep this brief. It shares similar aspects to Leave Me Alone, with the music video concept and song structure, but It manages to darken the narrative, and the choir-esq harmonies sound like ultra bright neon lights that only push this mood further. It still is a magnificent song and by far one of my favourites in the album.

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⁶IN THE GALLOWS:

MASSIVE SHIFT IN STYLE HOLY FUCKOLY-. The track opens with a very cutesy old timey little piano intro and starts the verse with a little funny beat. If you don't listen to the lyrics, it sounds like a silly little oldie song. But as we all know, iDKHOW doesn't do silly. The lines "For you, I'd die▪︎Or kill myself▪︎which ever makes you smile," From just the first verse are a prime example of this. The narrators murderous and suicidal intentions have clouded the romantic attraction into obsession- And I kinda like that, in a poetic way. The chorus is a standout, with the calm start to the explosion in the line "I'd swing from the gallows and wave" that just swings at you with a baseball bat to the chest. Oh, and the sax solo? Magnificent. This whole song is a chefs kiss from me.

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⁷CLUSTERHUG:

I love the lyrics of this song the most of it all. It sounds like a rebellious teenager wrote it after thinking about how shit their hometown is and wanting to get out. It also incorporates how much the narrator would want to do all this with their crush, adding that slightly goofy and pretend-aloof chorus of "only if you'd like me to I could fall in love with you" as if they weren't already in love or at least that's how I see it. The vibe of this song is more pop-y than the rest of the album, but that's more likely because it was repurposed for Razzmatazz after being originally written for The Brobecks, their older band. It's a nice little tune :).

[SIDE B]

⁸SUGAR PILLS:

This. Will. Get. Stuck. In. Your. Head- and. You. Will. Like. It. Basically, just seems like a song about drugs that, for some reason, reminds me of Gorillaz (who I dont even listen to). But the BASSLINE AGAIN- Jesus help me live. It has more of that energy we saw with the first few tracks and adds even more electronic elements. It's probably my second favourite song from this album that's not a single because of how fun the chorus sounds. What else can I say? I can just imagine myself bopping to this in the car screaming 'SUGAR SUGAR SUGAR PILLS' On a hot day.

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⁹KISS GOODNIGHT:

It's so sweet 🥺. It's one of those songs I could imagine a character in a movie singing to someone from a stage. If you want pretty song vibes just listen to it. Because it is a pretty song. And that's all I have to say on it. Now allow me to take a moment and shove it into my pretty song playlist that acts like my personal lullaby machine.

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¹⁰LIGHTS GO DOWN:

Yes. F u n k y. Give me that sweet sweet disco energy, thank you. It's just filled with all these *☆~blingy and sparkly~☆* effects, and, combined with the drumming, the result is just glorious. The best part of this song is in my opinion the bridge where it goes darker lyrically and in sound that just naturally slides into another funky-ass sax solo. I can definitely see myself dancing to this at a party and then in later years growing nostalgic for those days.

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¹¹NEED YOU HERE:

It's supposed to be happy in tone and hopeful slightly but it just makes me sad. It's a song about how, because Dallon has to tour because it's his job, he has to be away from his family often. And he had nO RIGHT ADDING HIS DAUGHTERS VOCALS AND RECORDINGS INTO THE MIX ITS LIKE HE WANTS US TO CRY. It's not my favourite of the album, not going to lie here, but it's also such a sweet song with nice instrumentals and vibe 🥺 so that's all I'll say.

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¹²DOOR:

It seems like this one was written around the time sad ukulele music was really at its peak but am I complaining? Fuck no because this song is great. It just gives it to you straight, that if the narrator ever does anything that the recipient doesn't like, they can always cut them out of their life. It's nice in that regard- you don't usually get songs that don't try to deflect the pain or gain pity. We need more of these kinds of songs. The shortness of it really adds to the effect of this being more like a regularly said thing, even though I'm always a bit sad that it ends so fast. It does, however, nicely close the near end of the album before Razzmatazz.

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¹³TOMORROW PEOPLE:

Creepy Tellex thank-you note. You're welcome..? I want no part in your conspiracy tho. Go away weird American corporate man voice.

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¹³RAZZMATAZZ:

And there it is. The title track. Like new inventions, I have already reviewed it here on that same blog so this will be brief also and more just thoughts. It's a great closer and is more old timey than most of the songs here as well. And with the last instrumental and sax solo, we come to the albums inevitable end... until next time.

[GENERAL THOUGHTS]

Overall, this was a fantastic little debut for iDKHOW and I loved it. So worth the pre-order. The songs were great and the lyrics were just excellent. My only real criticism is that the song order on Side A was a bit strange. I feel a way to fix this would be to throw Nobody Likes The Opening Band into the beginning, then have Leave Me Alone as a second track, and maybe even switch one of the songs on this side with one from Side B (either Mad IQs or New Invention with something else but then that would be kind of stretching it). Or maybe even switching Clusterhug with Mad IQs or New Invention could work. So in general? Razzmatazz good album. Next question.

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Thank you for reading, anyone who happens to see this and have read this. Hope you've enjoyed some of my thoughts on the debut and agreed with at least 2 points I made. See y'all on another review (or shitpost)!

-L.J

[elaizahramirez]

THE JOURNEY TO FINALLY FINDING MYSELF AND LOVING MYSELF AFTER YEARS OF BEING LOST STARTS NOW

Hi, sooo I really made this tumblr account not to be famous or whatsoever but to be my outlet like a virtual diary... A blog where I can freely post whatever I want because this is the only platform that most of the people I know don’t use. Last Saturday [October 12, 2019] was hard for me. I broke up with my 5 year boyfriend after realizing how much he’s been verbally abusing me. It was too much to handle that out of impulse I said I wanna broke up with him. He agreed without a fight, He let me go... Sunday, October 13 2019 — After feeling the impact of what I did I kinda regretted it. Because of course, I super duper love him with my whole heart that I can take everything, even pain just to be with him. So I messaged him, tried fixing it, asked him if he still love me... the only reply I got was “I love you, but I don’t wanna fight for you. And if you really want to, then it’s up to you. But for me, I really don’t want to anymore” fuck. All I can say is fuck. Well my reply was “okay, thank you so mhch for everything. I promise you won’t hear anything from me. I love you. Goodbye” and after that blocked him. it was painful. So fucking painful to the point Im having a hard time to breathe. It was so fucking painful. I put my heart and soul to that relationship. Putting him first before me, loving him whole heartedly, giving him all the love, money, patience, understanding that I can give. I FUCKING FORGIVE HIM A LOT EVEN THO IT’S WAY TOO PAINFUL FOR ME. All i do is forgive and forgive and forgive so yes when I say it’s painful to be slapped in the face that the person you love and willing to dodge a bullet for, can’t do the same for you IT’S TRUE. I’m mad because I felt like left when he found an open door to leave... HE GRABBED THE CHANCE THAT HE WAS THE ONE BEING LEFT BEHIND SO HE DOESN’T LOOK BAD TO OTHER PEOPLE.. SO I’M THE BAD PERSON IN THIS STORY BECAUSE IM THE ONE WHO BROKE UP WITH HIM FIRST RIGHT? but no, i have my reasons. AND ALL MY REASONS ARE VALID AND WITH PROOF. after crying the whole night. I then realized a thing. That this is partially my fault. You know why?? because I didn’t love myself enough to fight for myself. And that’s why I just let people manipulate me, and step over me again and again and again. I hated myself for letting me get hurt and get mentally tortured. After realizing this, I realized that no matter how much it hurts.. I will never want to go back in that relationship again. I WILL NEVER GO BACK. before, i would always go back as soon as he cries begging for my forgiveness. it’s also one thing I hate about myself. I AM VERY FORGIVING AND A LOT OF PEOPLE TAKE THAT FOR GRANTED. So I learned. I learned that I need to stop forgiving people who doesn’t even deserve it in the first place. I love my ex boyfriend so much. I loved him more than I loved myself. and that’s my mistake. I shouldn’t love anybody like this. After all this realization. I made a firm decision, that I will abide by my promise (which is he will never hear from me ever again). I atleast owe myself that. I should respect myself enough to be firm in every ultimatum and every thing I say. Life without him is hard, and sad. I’m not used of not taking care of him. not waking him up to go to school and work, not waking up early to talk to him, not saving his ass whenever he fails and many more. But I guess this is the end of that chapter of my life. And this is where self love, self care and self discovery begins. after 4 days since the break up... I decided to disappear and isolate myself. Because I felt like I seek too much emotional support from friends that I can’t handle myself alone.. I don’t need that. I wanna learn how to be strong alone. And Also, I am obsessed by looking if my ex viewed my ig stories, if he’s thinking about me or if he’s miserable without me. It is draining. even tho disappearing and isolating myself will be hard for me because I am a person that likes to socialize. I just don’t wanna be a burden to my friends because they have their own problems and life too. I don’t wanna spread negativity everyday

I don’t wanna give that heavy energy everyday. That’s why I’m doing this for me. I’m doing this for them too. I was lost because of my past relationship. I was a happy girl before, and now I have depression, I isolate myself and have trust issues. clearly thi relationship broke me piece by piece and it’s my responsibility now to put myself back together wthout the help of anyone. ONE MONTH OF FULL SELF RECOVERY AND DEDICATION. im just giving myself one month to back off, breathe, think and see my life in a different perspective. I love my past relationship, and i’m grateful for it. Because if it weren’t for him. I wouldn’t be so motivated to be stronger and better today. Today is the start. Sooo for this I will post everyday like a usual journal of what happened, what I learned and etc. So I can have something to look back at.. SO I CAN HAVE SOMETHING THAT I WILL BE PROUD OF MYSELF. I’m proud of myself for breaking up with my ex, because finally after so many years I had the guts to choose myself. even tho i regretted it a day after... but after that I just wanna focus on myself more. And just be happy I did it. Because if I didn’t probably i’ll just be crying again everyday because of how my ex treats me. he’s not a bad person. it’s just that we all have our issues and maybe he has his issues that he doesn’t know how to deal with. anyways I just love him. so for this challenge that I put myself on, HAHA i will not be talking to my friends, I will not be going through social media, I won’t be posting anything on any social media accounts except my youtube channel and this tumblr account. That’s it. I will post another blog about my checklist and how I plan to do it lol. anyways to whoever is reading this. I love you, and whatever it is that you’re experiencing right now, YOU WILL SURVIVE. My goal after this challenge, is to be okay, happier, stronger and braver 🥰

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full thoughts on the ace attorney anime/a review under the cut. if you don’t want to be spoiled you can skip this but i just wanted to ramble for a bit:

i didn’t hate it as much as i had thought i would, maybe save for the farewell my turnabout episodes (you already know how i feel about those lmfao but i’ll elaborate more later). it was okay; a fun watch, but i have a lot of criticisms. since i’m better at lists i guess i’ll start doing things in list format now, let’s go!

pros:

-MAYA IS DRAWN REALLY CUTELY, LITERALLY ALWAYS. THE STAR OF THE SHOW

-the second opening honestly is pretty badass

-franziska is here, what more could i want

-characters like phoenix, maya, mia, oldbag and lotta have REALLY fitting voices, imo. maybe because they’re close to my headcanon voices for them but i think these five sound excellent

-after the first half of the series the characters start to look a lot more consistent. i was unhappy with how they were drawn and animated in the first 12 episodes but they got better, i think

cons:

-on the whole, despite the progression of the art from the first cour to the second, the show is pretty visually unappealing. the animation is choppy in parts and some characters (notably adrian) get renditions of themselves that are inferior to their game counterparts

-court breakdowns are INCREDIBLY underwhelming. i honestly cannot remember a single one that was handled or transitioned well

-adrian’s entire fucking arc oh my GOD i am NEVER going to shut up about this i’m just so MAD i don’t see how ANYONE COULD DO TH

-i know it’s hard to fit these stories into 24 episodes but the pacing felt rushed at points i feel it shouldn’t have. it glosses over or leaves out entirely plot points that were more emphasized in the games (see the above point for an example) and jumbles around dialogue that was meant for other parts of the story that were cut. the latter part is understandable, but it’s jarring if you’ve played the games

-speaking of breakdowns, i already mentioned this (in the tags of another post tho whoops) but franziska’s breakdown in 2-2 should have been much, MUCH more significant. i’m gonna talk about this for just a brief moment, if you will. remember her fist banging animation from the games?

-yeah, so you may think this is a pretty small, not-so-impactful animation, right? well, the anime manages to capture none of the character, the anger or the expressiveness of it. it’s so underwhelming it may as well have been cut too cuz you know they like to do that. all she does is stand over the bench and pound her fist a bit while talking to herself. no whipping, no lashing out, NOTHING. and i think that’s pathetic!! this is her first loss EVER since becoming a prosecutor; it’s a MAJOR event in her life and she’s PISSED and they just failed ASTRONOMICALLY to convey that

-speaking of franziska, again, would it kill them to have made her more expressive? i mean, it matches with the range of expressions she has in the game, i suppose, and she is supposed to be composed and refined.....maybe this one is more subjective though. i’m a person who regularly consumes and creates cartoons and it just made me kind of sad to only see basically one or two types of faces on her. augh

-another subjective thing but i really hate how much they emphasize lips on women. like yeah, people be out here having lips, but i guess there’s something that irks me about them having to be so....pink and prominent in anime (and this isn’t just a problem with this show. it’s a problem with media as a whole, tbh). gonna pull up some game sprites once again to show you what i mean:

(yeah i know i use franziska and adrian a lot as examples but my blog centers around them mostly i don’t know what to tell you)

then....you have the anime:

uggggh

again, very subjective. whether or not franziska for example wears lipstick in canon depiction really depends from appearance-to-appearance, and it’s not as if these characters can’t wear lipstick-- that is not at all what i’m getting at. the reason it irks me is that it just reeks of a creative decision made to emphasize beauty, or to say “hey! these characters are girls!” et cetera, which BOTHERS me on a personal level. you don’t have to be RADIATING FEMININITY to be a girl. end of story. you’re in no way obligated to agree with me on how much i hate this part but that’s just.....how i feel about it

the psyche-lock segment that was present in the games is completely gone in the anime, which is strange to me seeing as it’s still a major part of the series well past the second game. probably was cut to fit into the episode limits

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in sum: it was enjoyable, but there is quite a bit of room for much-needed improvement. honestly i feel that you may enjoy it better if you’ve never ever played any of the games in your life because you won’t have the same expectations of someone who has. if you have played the games, i still think it’s a worthwhile watch, but be warned you may or very likely will be disappointed

and.....to touch upon the last few episodes (case 2-4) briefly once more, since i’ve already screamed about it beforehand: this was a major letdown for me. i was expecting it because i had heard things about it, but it still kicked me in the shins with more disappointment i did not expect. in addition to changing celeste to be her sister (euugh why), they left out the bits about adrian’s mental illness ENTIRELY which...is a HUGE part of this case, and i don’t know why they did that. it feels that in this iteration she’s more of a throwaway character than anything--even in what bits they did leave for her after all the changes, her backstory and motives feel unimportant. they’re just thrown at you for a brief moment at the beginning at the case and only brought up once at the end. you don’t feel like she’s fighting for celeste; you don’t feel like she’s trying to hide her past, you just feel like there’s.....nothing there. this is not adrian, this is, ironically, a hollow husk of the character she is supposed to be, and honestly, how dare they

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that’s it thank you for reading this all if you made it this far lmao, you get an honorary attorney’s badge and an oatmeal cookie. toodles

[wickedlyqueer]

random question: who are your favorite glinda and elphaba actresses, and why? (also this blog brings me great joy. thank you for giving us the good gelphie content we deserve)

(Ayyy i’m just glad I have a place where my gelphie feels and rambles are appreciated *finger guns*) 

I’ve talked about my faves before, but not so much why they are my faves so here goes:

Katie Rose Clarke is my favorite Glinda. I don’t know how she’s done it, because I usually don’t have a favorite performer. But I do, and it’s her. KRC!Galinda believes in her own goodness, which works really well for the stage version. She’s innocent, sweet, and by all means good. It makes sense why she keeps getting called ‘good’ by everyone around her. She’s also secretly a dork (WHICH IS TOTALLY GLINDA LBR). Even when she’s supposed to be mean to Elphaba, (”she’s phosphorescent” “the artichoke is steamed”) it comes across more as an Observation (although tacky)  than it’s actually meant to hurt Elphaba. 

But what I appreciate most about KRC, is she takes her goddamn time to let moments hit. With the dance scene, she lets it sink in how this is such an important and difficult decision for Galinda. She takes her time letting the words “you’re beautiful” hit. She is ONE OF THE TOUCHIEST GLINDA’S OUT THERE! That’s always a plus. 

AND WE HAVEN’T EVEN TALKED THE SECOND ACT MY FRIEND!!!! Katie Rose Clarke, first and foremost, is the angstiest Glinda ever. It’s painful. It’s heartbreaking. No other Glinda can convey the emotion of Thank Goodness better than KRC. It was like it was fucking made for her. After Elphaba’s death, she isn’t just sad, she’s fucking bitter and that’s exactly what adult Glinda is all about. She’s bitter. She’s only pushing through because that’s Elphaba’s wish. But even in scenes like NOWTM it’s written all over her how much she only doing this for Elphaba... if you know where to look. 

I could literally talk for hours about all the decisions she made. I actually had to cut some of it out bc it was getting too long. I just. I LOVE HER OKAY!?

Very honorary mentions of other Glindas I absolutely adore: Kara Lindsay (I know she’s your fav, and I agree, she’s awesome!), Megan Hilty, Annaleigh Ashford, and even though I’ve only ever heard her perfomance, I think I’d also very much dig Suzie Mathers’ Glinda. 

Come to think of it, my interpretation comes closer to most West End Glindas, than Broadway ones. This is mostly a cultural difference. Because in the US The Blonde trope is closer to “popular, shallow, dumb” whilst in the UK The Blonde trope is “classist, rich, spoiled, bratty, arrogant” which is waaay more Glinda-esque. Like the only West End Glindas I’ve seen are Sarah Earnshaw, Gina Beck and Suzie Mathers, and I think they’re all great, even tho I am a very specific about my Glindas. 

Not so much with Elphabas! (awesome segue) What I like about the role is that it can be pretty stylized, and that’s what keeps the role new and refreshing. I have talked before that I prefer my Elphabas to be rough around the edges (you got some who play her soft and innocent and NOPE), but here goes anyway.

Elphabas that I absolutely love to death in alphabetical order so it doesn’t look like I show any bias because I genuinely love all these ladies equally and for different reasons:

Eden Espinosa GAWDD She’s so good. I just. Yes. YES! I need to rewatch her some more so I can been more specific but YES!

Emmy Raver-Lampman deserves all the FREAKING LOVE okay!? She’s a deadpan Elphaba and sings like a goddess. What more do you need in life?

Donna Vivino this lady can SIIINNGGGG. Her Elphie is smol and bitter and angry and I love it. There’s also this one bootleg where she goes “As you can seeee~ she’s a PERFECTLY normal color!” and she accidentally kind of sings the “see” and sometimes I just replay that tiny bit because I love that line delivery so so much. 

Jennifer DiNoia is just an all-rounder Elphaba. Really good singer and actress and it shows how long she’s been with the role and how much she loves playing Elphaba. 

Lindsay Mendez look. okay. I haven’t been able to watch a bootleg of her in which she’s Elphaba. But I rewatch Fly Girl on the regular, and I’ve suffered through Dog Fight for her so I’m pretty sure I’ll love her Elphaba once I find a bl of her

Mandy Gonzalez so far the only real softie Elphaba I enjoy. She’s soft but bitter. Also she’s the only actress who gave me sibling Nessa&Elphie feels. She. WOW. I did not expect for her to rip my heart out, but I love. 

Rachel Tucker listen. when. Tucker. GROWLS. in her songs. I. Am. LIVING. also she looks exceptionally pretty in green, even tho all these women look gorgeous in green BUT SHE LOOKS SO GOOD IN GREEN!?!? I’m still furious she wasn’t allowed to talk with her gorgeous accent and she’s also just a genuinely good actress with a lot of passion that comes across really well on stage.

Stephanie J. Block I’ve only watched her bootleg once bc the camera quality is pretty bad but SHE’S SO GOOD!!! Also love love LOVED her in Falsettos and 9 to 5.

Willemijn Verkaik I mean, do I have to mention why? We all know why!

Also, I know you didn’t ask this, but there’s only one and I mean ONE Fiyero that genuinely charmed me and that is Derrick Williams. He’s does the most with the little that’s given to him and he’s actual a man of colour like Fiyero should be. My musical!Fiyero scale goes somewhere between “you’ve nice line delivery. thanks for that” to “i skip your scenes bc you’re an insufferable brat” but Derrick is the only Fiyero I look forward to seeing. He makes me get why every Ozian is so enarmored with Fiyero. Also he somehow managed to give me fiyeraba feelings???? ME!! one of THE biggest gelphie shippers out there. I mean, that’s impressive buddy. Well played. well played indeed!

[briteboy]

yelling @ santi, i’m evil again (what else is new), SOME REALLY REALLY OLD ASKS, one GoT spoiler at the very bottom (beware)

*angrily slaps santi* GET YOUR SELF TOGETHER YAH POOP HEAD

Lou and Fiona deserve happiness pls let it happen ty

they do ;-; it will happen, don’t worry, no one suffers forever <3 i’ve actually been planning out lou’s story and i’m excited to actualize it hehe

I just read all of Santis story. Dear god, it is amazing. I cannot begin to describe how much I love it. I have been really sick lately and have such a hard time concentrating on anything for more than one second but I have not been able to look away from this story, not even when I re-read it for the third time. You are an amazing writer and I have fallen in love with every charachter you have introduced. I teared up so many times and my heart began beating fast, it was really an experience.

OH MY GOD ;___________; YOU READ IT THREE TIMES WHAATDOSOIGODFSKL holy shit thank you so much, i don’t even know what to say right now lmao ;-; i’m just kinda in awe that i was able to grab your attention like that and that you enjoyed it so much and just askjdjfsd THANK YOU i can’t say anything else but just thank you, people like you make this all worth it <3 

A case of the novembers is the kinda story you read and you just know its going to stick with you for awhile. Like ones day, you'll be long gone in the future, doing something totally different, older wiser, all that bullshit, and you'll just randomly remember what a bittersweet story it was.

OMFG ;___; holy heck asjdjnfkdkjs this really got me right in the heart lmao. that’s the kind of story it’s always been for me and seeing other people interpret it that way as well is just mind boggling, thank you <3 

You are evil. My poor heart hurts. ;______________;

you've ruined my life

Life hack: listen to the entire Hamilton soundtrack whilst working out at the gym. By the end of it, you'll have lost half your body weight due to sweating and crying at the same time (pls help this was such a bad decision)

OMG that’s me with grimes’ art angels lmao i go hord to kill v maim and venus fly

hamilton fans also go hord i respect it. learn more about history get swole killing two birds with one stone

Okay this is so fucking random but a while ago you did a post where you talked about perfect bby gianni saying that he spent a lot of time in introspection and like Thank you 'cause now I have a word to put on this thing I do when I try to figure why I feel certain things or what my relationship with people/random shit is and why and yeah I kind of understand myself a little better now so thx a lot!!! 😘😘😘 Also, you're great.

i think i was actually talking about santi (’cause that’s where we’re at right now, in that period of introspection for him heheh) but YES omg that makes me so happy ;-; it’s a good word lmao and i do the same thing, in fact i’m always trying to figure out my relationships with everything in order to understand myself more. that’s kinda why i’m so into astrology haha. i’m glad you finally got to pin down that feeling for yourself, it’s the best when that happens <3 YOU’RE GREAT TOO 💫

NOOOOOOOO MY FAVS THIS CAN'T... LOU.... SANTI PLS... THIS IS A RIOT 😭😭

let’s start protesting santi in the streets

Hi!! Umm I'm guessing you do but just in case, did you know there was a tear accessory? I think it's an eyeliner (cause you mentioned having to draw them yourself)

yeah i do! i mentioned the ones by s-club, i’ve used those a couple times. but i like drawing them myself because i feel like it’s weird to have the same single teardrop every time one of my characters cries (and we all know they’ve been crying a lot lately lmfao) if they didn’t cry often i probably wouldn’t feel compelled to draw the tears. but i don’t mind drawing them honestly, it’s kinda fun lmao. thanks for your consideration <3 

so im sitting here thinkin....... what if santi goes on this trip and coms back and lou is in a relationship!?!?!

👏santi👏get👏it👏together👏

HE’S TRYIN

i want to die

AAAH SOLE DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN CUTE DEVIL CHILD AND I ALMOST DIED TWICE TATOO MAN YES

I HAD TO READ THIS LIKE THREE TIMES TO UNDERSTAND IT LMFAOSDOJDKF BUT YES their relationship kills me the most ;__;

wait santi tried to kys :'(

WHERE U BEEN he did  :{

what font do u use in your histories?

arial!

hi u have a really pretty blog and I hope you have a good day

THIS IS SO SWEET I DON’T DESERVE IT ;-; I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY TOO HONEYBEE 🌻

nyooooooom

I WENT M.I.A FOR A LITTLE AND I COME BACK TO READ UP ON THE STORY AND HOW DARE YOU ASHDDJFKL

@teishajenaie on instagram looks like Rooney to me, idk if you'd agree but ??

i see it!! definitely in the eyes and nose. also sorry i answered this literally like 3 months later lmao

gooey by glass animals gives me santi vibes :) ive been listening to it on repeat (bc im tht bitch) and it was making me think of you and his story! c: i hope you dont mind me over here lmao anyway, im excited to see where it goes and real excited for a back story for lou!! <3 lots of love

omg haha that’s actually funny because i used it in that one scene of him tripping, although it’s like completely a gianni song to me (at least personality-wise, it’s even on his playlist on my character page) and noooo i don’t mind, i love that song and i love when people recommend me songs!! i have a whole bunch of recommendations in my inbox that i need to acknowledge omg. anyway I’M EXCITED THAT YOU’RE EXCITED, especially for lou’s story, it’s coming up reeeeeal soon <333

i feel so late to the party but i Just started reading your story like five minutes ago and im absolutely entranced by it already and i cant wait to catch up and finally understand what to heck is going on

this was sent literally forever ago when santi and molly were out there being wild in the desert lmao so i hope you caught up and everything. “entranced” omg that’s such a wonderful word i’m honored

i didnt think i could love you more but the fact that you watch arrested development makes me so happy. i cry. my boyfriend has a mr manager, bluths frozen bananas shirt thats literally my favorite thing ever.

OMGGG YES i watched it once forever ago and i need to re-watch it asap lmao. I’M PRETTY SURE I BOUGHT THAT SAME EXACT SHIRT FOR MY BROTHER FOR CHRISTMAS ONE YEAR

Just a biiig prank. Huge

this one is from so long ago i don’t remember the context but i laughed at loud when i read it. huge

i was playing with uncharted for the first time today and they said Navarro in it and i was like THATS MY BOI SANTIII

santi infiltrating everyone’s lives my bf played uncharted tho!! it looked cool. like indiana jones. i liked the marketplace part. a monkey stole his apple

Hi sunny! I really am in love with your story (even if it's tearing me apart at the moment) and just wanted to say you're cool Stay strong ma dude

HI THANK YOU <333 you’re also cool my dude and i’m sorry for tearing you apart (if it makes you feel any better this story tears me apart on a daily basis)

what packs and expansions do u have for ur game?

ummmmmm all of them except vintage glamour and fitness stuff. i wish i didn’t buy some of the stuff packs lmao but what can ya do i actually didn’t even get vampires or bowling or parenthood until like a month ago lmao i’m late to the party

Oh shit she's been dead hasn't she. Like this is all a drug or alcohol infused bender of mollys memory, she's probably never left. They're probably still at the hospital. I hope I fucking wrong but shit I also hope not. Poor santi

we’re so far past this but i just wanted to publish this anyway lmao it was a good theory! and this person was so sure of it it kinda made me wish it was true lol. sorry if that disappointed you but i’ll always remember this one in my sad sad heart 💔

how long did it take for you to make friends here? I started a simblr because I really like storytelling with my sims & I thought it'd be fun to meet people who enjoy that, too, especially since I don't have many friends irl...but I've been here for quite a few months now and it seems like no one even cares that I'm here....everyone I try to interact with pretty much ignores me after a message or two....I'm just feeling really discouraged about my presence here :/

I’M REALLY SORRY I DIDN’T ANSWER THIS SOONER ASKJDKJFSDKA (i’m sure it didn’t help the fact that you feel ignored, i really really hope you see this) but okay uhhhhhhh i only had acquaintances from 2015 up until like this year? then i started really becoming close with people. so it took a while lol, but i think everyone starts off slow because it’s mostly about the actual game we’re playing at first and then making friends just happens through that. don’t get discouraged, like i said it took a while for me. you really just need to reach out to the people you’d like to become friends with, reply to their posts, give your genuine thoughts, say something that’ll make their day...people notice that no matter what they have going on, i promise. i hope you’re still here and hanging in there. don’t get caught up in who’s talking to you or not talking to you, just do your thing, enjoy what you do, and people will notice you. <3

3. Hi so I just wanted to say that I love your story, I'm here for every update. I'm an s3 player I play s4 every once in awhile but s3 has my soul. I love Santi and I know he will be happy in the end, whether it's with Lou or not(hopefully it is tho) I only want him to be happy. I go through so many emotions in one post, like this is a tv drama and I can’t wait for the next episode. This is the end of my cut and paste. Have a nice day.❤️

HI HELLO <3 this is so sweet and i can’t believe you actually care about my story lmao thank you i’m glad you have faith in his happy ending, i don’t want anyone to think i genuinely like making my characters suffer lmao. i only do it to make the happy ending more satisfying. asjdfjksd comparing my stuff to film or tv always makes me so giddy so THANK YOU ily <333

"Suicide before you see this tear fall down my eyes" (Beyonce) reminds me of Molly's situation soooo muchhhh aaaahhhhh

OMG YES what a good connection. good song good connection yaeeahhh better call molly with the good hair

Ummmm... hello! I just read through your whole story with Santi and I'm like... holy fuck. Not only is your story wonderful, your editing is so good. I'm surprised I didn't shove my eyes up against my computer screen. Please continue making wonderful things and being great. Signing off 12:31 in the morning, I hope you have as much fun as you want to

“as much fun as you want to” omfgasdkngjd why did that make me laugh so much. don’t have too much fun, have the responsible amount of fun anyway HELLO thank you soooooO much ;-; pls don’t shove ur eyes up against the screen i’m almost positive that’s not good for them. but i appreciate this so much thank YOU for being great <3 signing off at 2:18 in the morning after ignoring this message for months now (i’m sorryyyyyyy) but um ily

HELLO??? I JUST READ A SERIOUS CASE OF NOVEMBER FOR THE FIRST TIME AND I'M LIKE CRYING???? y u do dis to me I hate you and love you at the same time

(I need to rant I'm sorry) My uncle is really positive towards the army and war and stuff like that and all day he's been going on about how it should be mandatory to serve in the military, especially for "little brat girls" like me? And it's stressing me out so much I want to cry :( The army and war is something that genuinely scares me and I don't want anything to do with it, but he's just going on and on! What should I do?

this is literally sooooooooo late and i feel so bad i’m sorry, i hope this still helps you out and i hope you see it tho okay. i’m pretty sure this was even before the trans military ban like whew idek what your uncle must think about that. tbh just ignore him, like i know it’s hurtful but like...what is his point in telling you this? i would’ve literally been like (sarcastically) “ok then sign me up” but i’m also a lil shit so that’s probably not the best thing to say. but really like the only thing he’s trying to do is feel powerful by means of expressing his militaristic (no pun intended) opinions to someone far younger than him. it’s so that he feels bigger and better than you (especially by calling you a brat). he’s a sad man and anyone who relies on the military, of all things, to shape a person probably doesn’t have a strong sense of self anyway. i love you okay, just ignore him, don’t let him stress you out <3

I'm a little high and it's late but I have a lot of courage now so I've been following you for a while and I just want to tell you how much I love your story! I have come across other places on tumblr who do this but none have captured me as this one did! You are amazing and I am in love with this story! Thanks fo being you! :)

ONMG YOU HAD TO BE HIGH TO SEND THIS LMAO that was me this weekend anyway thank you so much, it floors me every time anyone says these kinds of things to me and it never gets old ;-; you are so amazing ok <333

you can't possibly be offended by a homophobic joke in game of thrones, it's set in medieval times. they had several lgbt characters in it, it's not the show that's homophobic, it's the characters, which is accurate for that time period.

o i can and i will lmao i mean i get where you’re coming from but with that logic you could say it’s only accurate to put homophobic jokes in today’s media just because people are still homophobic in the time live in. i know it’s the characters, but you do understand that someone writes those characters, right? it’s bad writing. it’s lazy and pandering and because of that it’s offensive. idk if you know the exact dialogue i was referring to but it was so completely unnecessary lmfao. they could’ve made a million other jokes. regardless of how it offended me it was just BAD lmao

SPOILER BELOW OK DON’T SAY I DIDN’T WARN YA

@ I wanna watch GoT anon: don't. It's just so fucking bad. The definition of overhyped tbh (and btw, sunny, PLS HELP HE SCREWED HIS FUCKING AUNT WTH)

LMAO SOMEONE ACTUALLY AGREES WITH ME? wow bless u. it is definitely overhyped, like it was good at first but it’s been riding that hype through these past couple of seasons to disguise the bad writing. i understand being entertained by it, but i’m always surprised when people think it’s actually well written at this point...it’s so cringey and now thanks to the season finale this fanbase will be justifying incest. great!

OK MOVE ALONG NOW

[masterserris]

the rise of skywalker = good

spoilers under cut you were warned

we love sheev the movie

best movie? no. room for improvement? yes. a really good movie overall and the characters were good and made overall good/decently logical choices? absolutely.

 fin good. i love him. and the obvious hint he can use the force is 10/10 he did so much work in this movie. i like poe/fin or rey/fin. or all three together, fuck it, they all hugged in the end anyways

poe is good he’s a good boy him and finn are so good. poe gets a lot of development and care and we love that he struggles but loves his friends and wins in the end by believing in others to come. (he did think they lost but only for a second. he was proven right that people would come. thanks lando we appreciate you here.)

rey is amazing and her growth/struggle is great i love that she’s a palpatine that’s so metal. and she stays good oough yess. palpatine wins in the end? or at least A palpatine? the only survivor? no more sith OR jedi. just. rey palpatine and any other new force users like fin. FINALLLY, evil wins! kinda lmao hahhaahhaha

i like how technically the series stared with palpatine and ended with rey. 

it started with a slave child in the desert (anakin) who became dark, and ended with a child soldier in the dark who became light at the end (ben)

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the sheev-ening. we love emperor step peppers. he’s so good in this. force storm ya’ll!! 

“hiS pLaN MakEs nO sEnSe!!1!”

shut tf up. either he possesses rey once she killed him, or he sucks the life outta her and restores himself once he found out about that bond power with ben or force healing whatever it was if she refused (like he did), or just kills her and sends his troops out to take everything over like. that’s not a bad plan bro. he wins either way. the only reason he lost is because the dummy killed himself with his own force lighting (AGAIN, DIDNT YOU LEARN FROM EPISODE 3 OLD MAN????). she did not strike him down, she defended. he killed himself, technically. she pulled a luke in that sense. it was not the jedi way. (though i guess by the end she is neither sith nor jedi)

plus he made an armada in secret the man was geared for success and had access to cloning tech too, as shown by snoke. if he couldnt have rey, he would have cloned himself or some shit. he has space voodoo, the man is scary and i love him for it. 

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ben was. ok. kylo was much more intimidating and straight forward with his actions at least. and ben switching sides made sense. what i didnt like was his ending very much. why tf did he and rey kiss????? they were enemies for 2 and 3/4 movies. they didnt even speak until he showed up to help fight palpatine. 

there is a bit of tension but not romantic whatever, he just poofed once he resurrected rey anyways. rip all skywalkers 2019

she is an adopted skywalker and that’s nice.

side tangent bc i’ve been seeing some fans crying over ben’s death, which i get it if you are a big fan of him:

((i guess i was just way more invested into rey as a character than ben solo. he was. there. he was alright, i could see the struggle but the tone-shift from TLJ really threw things wack and i just ended up not caring too much when he died unforntuately. i wish i did more. i mean it was sad, it would have been neat if he lived, but i kinda saw it coming as soon as rey “died”

im like, oh, he’s gonna climb up bc of course he’s fine and then save her since he saw her use force healing, so he’s gonna try it. he’s resurrecting the dead so it’s either gonna kill him or really make him weak. we got the former so. yeah. it was anticipated kinda. leia dying was much more emotional for me i guess. the love between her and her son was way more impactful than ben and rey. 

like i said!! they were enemies for so long!! he tried to reach out, but he was a slimey dark side bitch who was trying to convert her and she knew it and wasnt down with that shit!! that aint romantic ya’ll!! christ! he was only good for 20 minutes before he died and they didnt even talk before he just showed up! if they had more time really getting into it and if he was good and reached out to her to talk, that would have been way better and more convincing is all im saying. 

sure they fought together on snoke’s ship and talked, but it was still very. scary for rey. and then he attacked her friends and rebellion again! bitch, why did she kiss him!?

nothing against reylo shippers, i really dont care, that’s your business, i personally enjoy fin/rey much more, im just saying it seems forced in this situation. they tried to kill each other so many times. that’s animosity, not love.))

WHERE WAS ANAKIN AND OBI FORCE GHOST UGH. at least we got all of the voices of the jedi past helping rey in the climax that was awesome (including jin, obi, yoda, anakin, luke, leia, ect)

yeah also rip leia. she should have died in the second movie but she was good in this and it really hit the feels since carrie is... dead for real.

luke was good in this!!!! helpful boy!!! nice boy!!! i liked the flash back to when he trained leia it was so sweet to see them young again, if only for a moment.

the han solo scene was good ough my heart. 

all of the character’s choices were overall good and made sense in the scheme of things, everything was streamlined bc it had to be.

it kinda felt like 2 movies crammed into 1 but it kinda worked and that makes sense bc of TLJ’s.... choices and changes in direction. 

i dont think this movie was a train wreck. it’d place it as my 3rd fav star wars movie. for now, i may shift things around but you get the idea.

my current rankings so far for main line live action sw movies 

(rogue one would be at 4 along with revenge of the sith and i didnt care enough to see solo.)

1. empire strikes back (obvious pick)

2. a new hope (luke is best boy)

3. rise of skywalker (as listed above)

4. revenge of the sith (clone wars show really got me to like older anakin. and obi is just. 10/10 in general. speaking of generals, i love grievous. and commander rex. rip all clones and jedi tho. F)

5/6. return of the jedi/force awakens (about even) 

[the thing about return of the jedi is that the ending whole section with the death star and vader and palpatine and the struggle against jabba were really good! it just a lot of other stuff is... meh in the film]

7. the last jedi (sorry had to do it to ya. also rip Phasma)

8/9. phantom menace/attack of the clones (ya’ll know why)

im so glad im rewatching the clone wars show it was so good and oughghghg so good. i love the clones so damn much and everyone so much

star wars good ya’ll

anyways, i already loved palpatine and im just wildin’ right now we love a emperor. a queen. a bad bitch you cant kill. just vibin. like damn, iconic. he said “do it” and everything. a meme legend and godsend

in sheev we trust. you belong with sheev. real sheev hours. the sheev-ening. palpatine-ception. you name it, we vibe with it

NOW I WANT A NICE AU WHERE THE CHARACTERS LIVE AND PALPATINE IS JUST A GRANDDAD. scary but nice granddad to rey or some shit. anakin is still around, they are all still around. just silly fun alright?

LMFAO ROTTEN TOMATOES PUTS IT AT A 56% BUT HAS AN AUDIENCE RATHING OF 86% WTF LMFAOOOO THESE PEOPLE ARE HACKS

the reverse of TLJ and i can see why the stupid irony lmFAO

the “thank you rian johnson” tag trending on twitter is wack and it’s dumb. his movie was dumb ya’ll. that’s my take and im not alone. im not some crazy hardcore fan either nor do i care that much about the politics or what ever. the characters in TLJ made REALLY dumb decisions that got their butts kicked and people killed over and over and it was not fun to watch everyone being dumb and dying, alright? wack. bad vibes. 

i didn’t care for the “thank you jj abrams” tag either bc both tags ended up just being one taking pot-shots at the other and it was full of nasty vibes. just a lot of negative bullshit and only a few good comments just saying what they liked about those movies. i appreciate when people just say they like something. even if it’s something i PERSONALLY dont like, it’s neat to see. but when people bitch and moan, even if i agree personally, it isnt that fun. it’s annoying as hell, esp if it’s mostly unfounded or just repeated a million times.

like months later, or also about something from years ago, people still havent shut up about it. that’s when i get pissed off. like, sure, hate something. say you hate it, whatever. your blog your platform, go off queen, but then shut up please and dont drag it out forever. people dont like negativity so expect people to leave your ass behind if you keep at it. or get blocked or whatever. 

negative shit all the time just aint a good look is all im saying. just love what you love and show it. it’s nice. the good part about fandoms is sharing love for media.

but hey, it’s your life. you do whatever, who am i to say anything?

[detbestefraislammp4-blog]

thoughts about the whole situation in skam’s season 4

i thought about it a lot and i guess i have to write my 1st post about skam because i love this fandom and i need to share my thoughts about this season with you guys

1st : i don’t have many blogs about skam in my dash so if you post/reblog posts about skam just like this post and i’ll follow you :)

2nd : english isn’t my native language so i’m sorry if i make mistakes i'll try to be as clear as possible

so here we go : 

I) YOUSANA !!! while listening to i feel it coming bye

i have to admit that it is the very first otp i ship this hard. i loved jonas x eva, noora x william (i respect each of your opinions but i hate when you guys slander this otp and especially william but i may talk about it in an other post idk) and of course isak x even but these otps didn’t/doesn’t affect me the way yousana does and knowing that we’re only at ep 3 makes me wanna die because i know this isn’t the end of this WHOLE MESS surrounding these two puppies but anyway. i read a lot of your opinions about it and i kinda agree with what some ppl said : it’s obvious that they really like and appreciate each other idk we don’t even need to debate about it BUT now that we know that yousef isn’t a muslim we just can’t figure out what will happen in the future between these two since the decision belongs to sana and even if it’s a fact that her faith is really important to her we don’t know much about what she thinks about having a non-muslim boyfriend etc. i read a lot of posts written by muslims and it’s interesting that each of your beliefs differ, i literally love when muslims explain things and their lifestyles so that non-muslims ppl can have different point of views and can be educated about islam !!! anyway, i think we just have to wait for the next episodes to know what will happen while cheering for sana no matter what she chooses for herself and yousef (i still hope these two will have twelve child tho)

II) this noora x yousef x sana thing 

okay so i have 2 theories :

- noora really likes yousef and she just CAN’T KNOW that sana likes him too because she’s so quiet about her feelings and i’m in despair because i KNOW that noora wouldn’t do anything that could hurt sana so stop being mad about noora this girl deserves love and support even if we don’t always accept her character development yup

- noora knows™ (sorry sana) that yousef kinda likes sana thanks to the conversation they had during the party where the balloon boys join the girls squad or just because of the looks yousef could have give to sana during this mess party. idk if it’s a weird theory but whenever noora talks about yousef it seems like there’s something more than the fact that she liked him but i can be wrong

III) v..il..de....x...mag..nus

vilde is a lesbian and deserves her own season that’s all i have to say @ julie xx

IV) the girls squad

sana has always been kinda apart of the girls squad, tbh the girls squad’s relationships are all so weird like these girls just rarely talk about their feelings so they literally CANT understand each other and i’m so frustrated about it because i love them all. i’ve the feeling that sana, noora and vilde especially can’t manage to talk seriously about some of their feelings to the other girls  : 

- sana always has this boss ass bitch appearance yet when we all know that, even if she can be tough (and we all love this don’t we), she can be the softest human being. she ALWAYS defends her friends no matter what, especially vilde who isn’t even grateful smh (and this time where she literally jumps over iben to defend eva omg great times). nobody excepts noora knows sana’s soft side and i think it’s the saddest thing ever since sana is the friend everybody deserves + she’s complex and just so interesting in her own way 

- if noora talks more frequently than sana about her life and her feelings, the last episodes still prove that she’s kinda secret with the other girls. for example, she didn’t tell them she was in oslo during the trial when she clearly needed her friends to cheer up for her. she also didn’t tell ALL the truth about the fact that she left london, telling the other girls she came back because william worked too much blablabla. even if a lot of ppl are mad about the fact that sana’s season doesn’t really revolve about sana only (and i must admit i’m a lil bit better about it too), i hope noora’s character development will improve so that she becomes the noora we all loved in season 1

- vilde. vilde, vilde, vilde...this girl is so weird but i still love her. she’s annoying, noisy, most of the time idiot but i feel like this character has a lot of potential. when we think about it, the girls, and therefore us, don’t really know a lot about her if not her sexual life with magnus. i’ve the feeling that her personnal life (especially her family life) is a terrible mess that needs to be cleared up. it would be crazy if julie doesn’t increase this character, even a little bit since it’s sana’s season but i hugely need answers aND ALSO a great conversation between her and sana since their relationship isn’t that good (as a weird vilde x sana shipper after all, it would be a gift)

so what i’d like to have in this season is the girls taking care of sana for once, like sana took care of them when they were sad, disrespected or in danger

V) evak x mikael (+ balloon boys???)

i don’t really have theories about this storyline tbh but i’ve the feeling that it’s not that enormous like you know like i’ve said before sana is a loyal friend (remember this iconic line where she said that she’s not friend with the pepsi max girls because sara said that vilde was a slut in october 2015 like???? GIRL), she’s still in good terms with even as we saw in the 04x03 and she loves isak so much she couldn’t let him with someone who’s bad. to all my fellow evak shippers, don’t be scared. i’m pretty sure it’s not something who could break isak and even’s relationship 

VI) the russ bus storyline

so i’ve got a theory (i didn’t see nowhere btw) about the fact that skam is still talking about next year’s russ period even if we’ll see nothing (i’m crying while writting these lines). what if the sana and the rest of the girls just don’t participate ??? it’s kinda logical for me since i don’t see the point in talking about something we’ll never have the chance to witness you know ? the fact that they’re joining the pepsi max girls kinda consolidates this theory but idk

now, things that need to be appreciated during this season :

- sana’s healthy family relationships (i love mama bakkoush she’s so cute and fair with her daughter + elias and sana’s brother/sister bond is to die for)

- julie literally breaking all the stereotypes associated to islam

- sana’s yousef soft smile™ and dimples 

- the balloons boys squad serving some LOOKS in every scene 

- evak being the cutest puppies on earth

- evak x sana. we need more scenes btw

- sana praying, i need a full scene of her praying without being interrupted or disturbed (even by yousef okay)

- the SOUNDTRACK !!!!! (they’ve been amazing in every season tho)

[dreamwithallyouhave]

Hi.

I recently decided to rejoin the world of tumblr- I never deleted my profile but I deleted the app off many of my devices for the sake of not wanting to look back at the things I had written or posts I reblogged for the sake of not wanting to remember the sad things I felt or how desperate I was to feel anything but. I have since been curious as to how tumblr looked now and how things have changed (I got this email about an update in terms so I figured why not take a little look). I also know that although I was sad and a huge mess, the blogging part, the actually writing part I would do on here helped me find words to describe my feelings and thoughts and I have missed writing. So here I am, September 8, 2020 writing some updates for whomever reads this which I know is like maybe 1 person. 

I quit my job. I quit my job in the middle of a global pandemic and boy did I think that was a good decision. I mean it is- the job I had, I felt like no matter how much effort I put in, no matter the lengths I would go to do the very best, I would always be support staff. Always low man on the totem-pole. I was accused of some shit and instead of wanting us to confront others with issues we had with them in a professional manner we were told that we needed to tell the head person first and then they would talk to the person and I’m sorry, but have these people never played telephone before? Things get mixed up, tones are heard differently, shit becomes a bigger problem. Nonetheless, I had had enough and at the end of the year, after all the remote shit and the countless hours trying to make it work from my home, I gave my notice. I cried. I cried a lot- I loved my coworkers, I loved the people I was with daily and I was sad to leave them. But it was for the best....or so I had thought but now i’m unemployed and home all day by myself and it’s tiring doing the same thing over and over again but it’s not like I can do much of anything else since ya know COVID. I keep applying to stuff and then get rejected or left to wonder if they even got my application. I need insurance and a steady income but I have neither and it feels like this is what I should have happened once I graduated college instead of finding a job right away.

I got engaged right before shit hit the fan in the US. We were on a cruise (and luckily made it back the day we did since the next group got quarantined and was not allowed at any of the destination stops) and it was magical and everything I had hoped it would have been. We’re planning on a wedding next year (I want a small thing with just immediate family because who freaking knows when this will be over and I will not be the family on the news that got 50 people sick) and then the plan is to find a house and within the next four years have a cute little chubby baby. So there's that.

I’m still stuck in my head a bunch of the time. It feels like I’m running and I’m just going in a circle but then there's a detour and I run that for a while but I then find myself back at the first circle and the saga continues. I need to see a therapist (no insurance tho) but I’m afraid that all the things that are wrong with me and my relationship I caused or that I can’t be fixed and it just makes me afraid to even make the call. I promised myself that when I got a job with benefits that would be the first thing I did- I have to go. But man I am so afraid too. 

But yeah, there’s an update for the two of you that may read this. Life’s okay and 2020 is shit but hey we at least can all agree on that right? 

xoxo, S.  

[lilietsblog]

Sailor Moon 34 (your cowardly tricks!)

So! Episode 34! Is this the one with my favorite scene with Usagi and Mamoru mutually realizing their secret identities? LET'S SEE

...and the preview (WHY DOES IT EXIST) absolutely spoils that yes! yes it is indeed <3

also Usagi's word for Mamoru is 'obnoxious' thank you beautiful rabbit child

"We fell right into their lap and big trouble!" oh god this translation is so cute

Usagi did Minako actually TELL you she's the Moon Princess

oh look she just told her she's not shittiest cliffhanger XD

but still awwww five of them together <3

Minako is acting so SWEET I guess the shrine is public space, even if Rei lives there?

yeeeees Beryl it sure was the great ruler who told you to not kill him ...okay it might be some info from jet's blog that makes me think it wasn't but also she sure is acting suspiciously defensive

awww Mamoru is so sad for not being able to protect the brave and kind girl he has no idea he's been bullying all along

I like that they show that his wound actually hurts

I'm pretty sure TV screens don't normally come with cameras but then again magic

Zoi you lying liar with no concept of 'fair' at all

oh god they are just exchanging 'sure' 'yes' with absolutely emotionless faces jfc guys will be guys

...okay you know it's really hard for me to APPRECIATE REI AND USAGI'S FRIENDSHIP when Rei shows up in Usagi's mental space yelling at her for something that's not her fault as a representation of her low self esteem urghhhhh #UsagiDeservesBetter

oh! The Queen has noticed a hurting person on the street! yeah that is clearly priority over the meeting I ACTUALLY AGREE

Luna with her no idea where to even BEGIN looking for the princess can get bent in the face of any immediate problem ever honestly

USAGI OH NO OMFG ...well that was well deserved payback although I'm p sure Usagi did not intend it but how many times did Mamoru hit her where it already hurt... and that WAS intentional

I can't believe that Mamoru is actually NICER when he's hurt was he, like, putting conscious effort into pissing her off Mamoru why are you an actual 5 year old

Usagi's response is the best though

oh my god Mamoru you sound like you're walking to your death ...which, granted, is pretty close to truth, given the circumstances but just JESUS CHRIST YOU DRAMATIC GIRAFFE WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO

Mamoru is the WORST at decision making

oh and Usagi actually notices he's injured is she gonna follow or yes yes she did do that awwwwww

yeah Mamoru you have no clue what kind of person you've been picking on all along there is no such thing as 'not Usagi's business'

awww and Usagi is acting like a scared kid again WHICH GRANTED SHE IS but honestly Mamoru has no idea just how much she actually knows what she's getting into

hi Minako also fashionably late or what? jfc the disguise definitely magically obscures their features

jfc everyone is so disbelieving of the idea Usagi would go confront danger by herself

AS IF THIS IS THE FIRST TIME

like honestly HALF of their fights start with Usagi on her own and the rest joining in to support her there's some serious cognitive bias going on there with Luna's dismissiveness, Rei echoing it, and others following suit

like for real when someone Usagi knows is in danger she will face ANYTHING head on and literally everyone present knows that BUT I GUESS THIS IS INCONVENIENT TO REMEMBER WHEN IT'S SO MUCH EASIER TO JUST BADMOUTH USAGI

Zoicite you fucking lying liar I just look I like honorable villains ok? i like people who keep to the rules of the game and keep at least the letter of their promises Zoicite is just none of it and I'm pissed hopelessly )=

awww Mamoru is trying to protect Usagi ACTUALLY SHE IS THERE TO PROTECT YOU BUT NICE TRY

I bet Usagi passed out /just/ so she can have a nice slow reveal

wow they're using her as a hostage, too they didn't even know she would be there, just rolling with the punches the only actually competent villains so far

omfg and Usagi missed THIS entire thing she's ONLY JUST NOW waking up that's terriBLE I WANT HER TO HAVE SEEN EVERYTHING

HOW DARE YOU LEAVE A SCAR ON MY FACE ZOICITE THAT IS A SCRATCH IT PROBABLY WON'T EVEN SCAR YOU DORK

omfg and NOW is going to be the elevator scene I remember this is going to be fun

awww she DID notice Tux was injured just there yesterday

I love that they are falling into familiar dynamic of working together in danger here? even if Mamoru doesn't realize it

guys um the elevator is NOT a safe place when the building is getting broken like it's kind of the most dangerous place actually

IT LOOKS LIKE JUST ANOTHER BUILDING REALLY??? FUCKING REALLY???? I'M PRETTY SURE THAT IS STILL NOT WHAT MOST BUILDINGS LOOK LIKE IN JAPAN

I love Mako's direct approach hit it with lightning first, think later

aww Zoi your scratch has even already healed XD

OH MY GOD USAGI YOU DELICATE FLOWER Mamoru why do you think she's even asking are you wondering why she's so calm about this do you take it for granted that she knows these words

Plot Convenient Car Accident

this clueless boy sure did deserve better he's not even going to get the kind of past he wants

I LOVE USAGI AND HER WAY OF PHRASING THINGS I USED TO THINK YOU WERE THE MOST OBNOXIOUS GUY IN THE WORLD BUT NOW I'LL MOVE YOU UP TO SECOND PLACE AND IT SOUNDS SO SWEET AND AFFECTIONATE WHEN SHE SAYS IT ??? <3333333 ????

and Usagi is just In Denial or rather, refuses to leap to conclusions I guess? even though this conclusion is kinda obvious

oh huh some kinda dismensional bullshit

POWER OUTAGE REALLY USAGI GO USAGI PROTECT EVERYONE

COME ON YOUR SECRET IDENTITY IS NOT THAT IMPORTANT omg this is??? so pretty???

LOOK THEY ARE GIVING US GLIMPSES OF MAMORU HOW HE SEES HER HIS POINT OF VIEW IN WHICH SHE IS INCREDIBLY COOL RIGHT NOW <3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333

NANI?! THAT'S RIGHT ARE YOU REGRETTING BEING AN ASSHOLE YET

but since when does Usagi have shield powers tho

ZOICITE THAT IS NOT WHAT AN ACCIDENT LOOKS LIKE

And Usagi is back to her heroic speeches <3

oh hey I think she DID hear what was going on, just not quite come to her senses yet

aww Usagi is still in denial she REALLY doesn't want it to be him

OH GOD THE GUITAR MUSIC IT'S SO CHEESY THAT'S OKAY USAGI I ALSO DON'T WANT IT TO BE HIM I LOVE THIS MONTAGE OF 'WTF HOW IS THIS THE SAME PERSON'

'You were very brave today' FUCK YOU ASSHOLE NO

also NO YOU CANNOT PROTECT HER RIGHT NOW YOU CAN BARELY PROTECT YOURSELF

dude how are you still falling for this shit

so could you push her aside and not take the bullet for her Nephrite pulled off the whole 'heroic rescue' thing better Mamoru is just a dramatic giraffe who makes the worst decisions HOW IS SHE SAFE MAMORU YOU IDIOT ZOICITE IS STILL RIGHT THERE

okay the girls have arrived maybe he noticed that

sorry Kunzite just because you have the crystals doesn't mean they're yours :> that was a prophecy not an instruction manual

and Luna has no idea what they were even looking for

huh and this is where Serenity is aseerting herself over Usagi or rather, remembering herself in Usagi I still feel like they are the same person, except there are memories from Serenity's life and memories from Usagi's life and Serenity had more or less CHOSEN to forget her past life and prioritize the present and being the best Earth Moon Rabbit she can, to the degree of forgetting this decision has been made, but there are moments when the past comes flooding back - and this boy dying is one of them

[zindagigulzarhai-blog]

Kuch Rang Pyar Ke - Episode 235 and 236 (23rd Jan and 24th Jan, 2017)

Since the show started, I’ve (pretty much always) been on Team Dev. I always felt that he’s sensible and knows what he’s doing. I hate saying this, but today, Dev was downright rude, ill-mannered, and most importantly, not the Dev we all love.

I get that he’s hurting and really just wants to be with Sonakshi, and that’s why he relates everything Shruthi says to what Sonakshi used to say to him. We know they both wish they could forget everything that happened pre-leap and just be happy with each other, but we’ve got time for that to happen. Right now, they’re both just trying to prove to each other who is better at hating the other. But that’s no excuse for Dev’s behavior with Shruthi. I was actually shocked seeing that, because I would’ve never thought Dev could become like this. Yeah, he’s a “casanova” now, but come on, none of us are going to buy this act of his. His whole idea of ‘love’ being fictitious is kind of funny, since he told Sonakshi on his birthday that he’s began to love ‘love.’ This act has got to end soon, because I don’t think I can see Dev being this forced playboy, it’s really unconvincing.

I really liked the contrast they showed between Sonakshi and Elena in terms of their parenting skills. Sonakshi, no matter how busy, always takes time out for Soha, making sure she gets everything she wants. She even treats Soha like a big girl, rather than babying her all the time. Elena, on the other hand, isn’t a bad parent, it’s just that her first priority is her work, and then Golu. The scene in which Dev is telling Golu a bedtime story over the phone goes to show that Dev will be the nicest and most caring father. I liked how the writers also addressed the single mom issue. But Sonakshi doesn’t have to act like she’s the only single mother out there.

Sonakshi’s behavior was very immature in today’s episode. She somehow wanted to get back at Dev for, I think, the whole award snatching scene, so she decided to insult him through Shruthi. That was a very juvenile thing to do. To bring up personal issues like calling Dev ‘Mama’s boy’ and ‘spineless’ in front of someone who, Sonakshi knows, isn’t important, was very childish and, to be honest, not something our old Dr. Bose would do. Sonakshi, too, has got to stop acting like a cold-hearted, stern person. This exterior of her is not fooling anyone, not even Dev.

The one thing I noticed during Shruthi’s rant on Dev to Sonakshi was that Sonakshi didn’t like the fact that Shruthi was insulting him. You know how only you are allowed to make fun of and trouble your loved ones? Sonakshi feels the same way for Dev. Shruthi says, “Dev duniya ka sabse bada badtameez aadmi hai,” to which Sonakshi says, “Enough, ye sab bolne ki koi zarurat nahi hai.” Even Shruthi, after that, felt like Sonakshi was taking Dev’s side, and then Sonakshi, to make herself feel better, insulted him through Shruthi.

The only word that affected Dev was ‘aubodhro.’ I feel like had Shruthi not said that word, his reaction wouldn’t be so extreme and unnecessary.  When Sonakshi opened the door, I could definitely see Dev forgetting why he was even there. Seeing Sonakshi made him feel better, even if it was just for a few seconds. During their face-off, Dev, for the most part, didn’t say anything because he didn’t find the need to. He only questioned her reaction of calling the security by asking her, “tum do saal ki choti bachi ho kya?” True that, Dev! She is acting like a do saal ki bachi. Well, we all know that Dev isn’t behaving like a grown up either.

I looooove how Dev gave it back to Sonakshi by using her own new “Bada ya chota faisla, main banane mein paanch minute se zyada waqt nahi lagati” mantra against her. When the cops come to arrest him, he says, “Paanch minute mein liye gaye faisle aksar galat hote hain. Aur jo faisle galat hote hain na, tho unn mein aur zyada waqt barbaad hota hain.”  And that’s what happened. Not even ‘paanch minute’ later, Sonakshi was calling up the cop, asking him to let Dev go. Dev knows her too well. I feel like he was also referring to the fact how she just decided to leave him, without giving her decision a thought, or without even giving Dev a chance to explain.

I know Bijoy Bose is a great father who is understanding towards everything that Sonakshi has been through. Stood by her everytime, even when he wasn’t too happy with her decisions. In fact, he always wanted Sonakshi to marry someone who can love, support, and understand her as much as he did. Sonakshi did marry someone like that. Dev loved, supported and understood Sonakshi; it’s just that Bijoy didn’t get a chance to see that. But ever since the first episode post-leap, Bijoy Bose has been getting on my last nerve. He needs to take a chill pill. I understand that he’s going to be concerned as a father, but please, Sonakshi has her own daughter now, and honestly, wants Dev to see her new attitude. That’s why, Sonakshi purposely interferes in issues related to Dev, like dedicating the award to him, returning the trophy, insulting him through Shruthi, getting him kicked out of the hotel, and then herself asking to let him go.  

Dev’s indifference towards Ishu is such a weird thing to watch. The viewers aren’t used to the fact that Dev does not take his mom’s blessings everyday, doesn’t meet her as soon as he comes home, and doesn’t even eat the food she cooked for him. But regardless of all this, Dev still knows when his mom’s feeling down, that’s why he calls her back and ensures that he’s fine, and tells her that these things don’t affect him anymore. And not to mention, the best part of the episode: Golu asking Dev why he looks sad. I really want to see Dev in a scene alone, maybe a soliloquy, which will tell us what he actually feels.

Suchi-rambles, in her blog, said, “I have admired Sona’s independent, self-sufficient modern young woman avatar of earlier. But this new Sona disturbs me. Her attitude reeks of extreme insolence, arrogance & scant respect for anyone. Whether it’s her employee, the hotel staff, the security guards, the police, the school principal or Dev, she talks to people with disdain. Politeness is seriously missing in her speech. Treating people like crap doesn’t make you a successful person, Sona. Nor do these traits make you a feminist. They only show how you have let your true self degrade.” So true, I agree.  

I read in this article which said relationships sometime become so bitter, that you end up reliving and remembering only those moments, rather than the good ones that you spent. Both Dev and Sonakshi only keep remembering the last few days they sent together, which clearly don’t count as good memories. Don’t they ever think about the good times they had when they were dating? Or even before that, when they liked each other?

To be honest, I’d rather watch Dev and Sonakshi brooding for each other, like they did during their break-up, because this facade of their’s isn’t convincing. I really hope the writers just speed this up, and take us back to Ishu-Dev-Sonakshi drama, because that would at least be more real.