#not really Ivy league bc I'm not from the US

[adventuresinpyjamas]

woke up like two hours ago and was so stressed out I was literally paralysed, I have so much to do.... ugh

qotd

ye are many, they are few - P. B. Shelley

Day 5/28

99

To do

calm the hell down

start a new book maybe?

find ID docs for financial support

clean prop room

email exchange people for funding

fix resume???? maybe

more throat tea

try to find any fucking money at all

look at visa + plane ticket costs for budget

Duo:

1/3 lessons

1/4 +80%

0/1 stories

Forest:

0/25 mins any tree

0/2 any tree

0/90 mins sunflower

[cdragons]

Hey! I miss interacting with u, hope you are doing well :)

What is the song that will most describe farleighs and y/ns friendship?

Hey! This is really sweet, anon! THank you! I'm doing great, I have a ton of exams and projects with school that are kind of kicking my butt rn, but today's my birthday so I am excited to share that with my family!

This is a really tough one, mostly because I never expected this friendship to be so popular with everyone. Although I shouldn't be surprised because Farleigh Start was actually so superior in the movie.

Personally, I think these songs really fit them

Gimme More by Brittany Spears

Bad Girls by M.I.A

That's My Girl by Fifth Harmony (also works for Annabel and Y/N)

So What by P!nk

Is You or Is You Ain't My Baby by Louis Jordan and His Tympany Five (look up Marvelous Mrs. Maisel with this song and TELL me that this won't be the most amazing duet with the pair)

Let me know in the comments of your opnions!

I feel like this is a good opportunity to give off some headcanons to describe the vibes I get from Fareligh and Y/n! There are also just my personal headcanons of Farleigh and his story in my AU! I made up these with the help of my internet soulmate @ethereal-athalia!

Here are some headcanons of my personal take of Farleigh's backstory in my AU and in general:

Is it weird if I can see Fareligh coming from New Orleans, Louisiana? Because I can absolutely see him giving off those vibes. He would fit PERFECTLY as a New Yorker, but I can't help but feel he would thrive in the Crescent City.

Farleigh really misses the States, and a big part of the reason he parties so much is to forget how homesick he is. I find it very odd that we are given this extremely intelligent character who would no doubt thrive in an Ivy League like Yale, Harvard, or Brown, but he's stuck in England. James definitely could have just paid for his education there, so why send him to England? Furthermore, why does James cover him up so much? Is it really just because he's family?

Remember when Felix told Oliver that Farleigh got kicked out of every school in England bc he "sucked the teachers off"? First off, ew. Secondly, sure, Farleigh is a bit of a hedonist, but all of his behavior just kind of screams to me that he's really and genuinely unhappy in England and wants to go back. That might be a reason why he was so reluctant for Felix to get close to Y/N since Chapter 1 of 'Fuck Everything.'

Furthermore, it really bothers me how nonchalant Felix is about telling Oliver that piece of information. Even if he knows that Farleigh wouldn't really care, that is still very private information about a young boy who was taken advantage of by teachers who were in a position that allowed them to abuse their power.

Also, for a film that exposes so much about its characters, we really don't know a lot about Farleigh Start and his story, specifically his family in the States.

The part where Farleigh's mom is terrible with money and constantly needs handouts from her brother, James, is very realistic - that part, I believe. But I feel like there is a lot missing with his dad.

Was his dad actually as brutish and abusive as Felix said to Oliver? Personally, I don't really see it. Even at first glance, the way Farleigh carries himself is leagues different from the rest of the Cattons. He's observant and takes in details. He uses all this information as a weapon for any opponent he goes up against.

In my opinion, I could absolutely see Farleigh's dad being a completely normal and decent person with a job as a librarian or English professor. This idea is mostly stemmed from when Fareligh made the 'thus' argument against Oliver's essay at the beginning of the movie, and this seems like something Farleigh knows as if being explained about it from a very early age.

The reason I think his father is ill-portrayed is because I feel like Farleigh's mother met him while she was in America and was intrigued by his unassuming self and married him. But then she got bored because she wasn't living the high and expensive life she was living in England with her family.

Eventually, she got bored and decided to use Farleigh as an excuse to get money from James. Farleigh's dad might have wanted custody of his son but was threatened by his ex-wife that he would never see his son again.

Farleigh is aware of his mother's toxic tendencies, but she's his mother and he loves her anyway. He know she's leeching off of him to get to her brother. But what are his other options? Let her fend for herself?

This is probably so far-fetched and a huge reach, but the Cattons are portrayed as people who love to feed off their own sense of entitlement over others by showing of 'generous' and 'charitable' they are to take of other people. When anything bad happens to them, they wear it like a trophy. Maybe that's what happened with Farleigh?

NOW! Onto Farleigh and Reader (also ft. Michael Gavey bc he's bb):

Being around Y/N is like being at home for the first time in forever (cue Frozen song) for Farleigh. When they start talking, Y/N is extremely skeptical of his intentions because she thinks that he's just trying to help out Felix. But nope! He just wants a genuine friend.

Y/N makes it clear to Farleigh from the beginning that if he wants to be friends with her, he needs to be friends with Michael. Michael Gavey and Y/N L/N are a package deal. You want one? You get the other.

Farleigh keeps his friendship with Reader a secret from Felix and is helped by Annabel (our girl got a taste of true kindness, sees Felix Catton for the leech he is, and is now part of the Y/N protection club)

With Y/N, he doesn't feel the need to party or drink until he gets alcohol poisoning to have a good time. He learns to have quiet nights doing homework or playing stupid board games with made-up rules.

Michael and Y/N introduce him to DnD, and he's the classic Bard player who rolls for charisma and ends up f*cking his party out of danger every time. Michael is a paladin, and Y/N is a monk, in case you were wondering.

Y/N sometimes uses Farleigh to model for some of her portraits. She learns to appreciate him because she and Michael do need to be reminded sometimes that it's okay to cut loose at times and that spreading their wings won't kill them.

Y/N and Farleigh definitely geek out over art history and literature (symbolism, plot holes, motifs, etc.) and are BIG soul and blues fans. When they all hang out in Y/N's dorm, they will be listening to James Brown, Ella Fitzgerald, and Ray Charles till dawn.

Y/N is someone whom Farleigh can have actual mind-stimulating conversations with in a manner that's respectful but also wildly entertaining. They will discuss everything from rousing debates about politics and current events to philosophical queries about the omegaverse and mpreg.

Michael pretended he wasn't a fan until they caught him singing along to 'Hit the Road Jack' and they never let him forget it.

Also, Farleigh is a MAJOR Michael Gavey x Y/N fan. He wants them to get together SO BADLY! But he won't do this in a productive/uncomplicated way. Nonononono, he plans to make the most convoluted, dramatic, and needlessly complicated schemes to get these two nerds together for his own amusement. *Nudge* *Nudge* *Wink* *Wink*

Real talk though, Fareligh genuinely loves Y/N and her presence as a friend. He has all these expectations placed on him and fake friends who only want to be around him for his cousins. To be around someone who not only misses home like him but also truly appreciates him as an individual and not as a commodity for networking means the world to him.

If Y/N ever does go to Saltburn for the summer (*foreshadowing*), Farleigh will do everything in his power to make sure she won't get sucked into his relatives' fake and shallow schemes.

Also, as a bonus, he loves ranting and trash-talking Oliver with Y/N and Michael. It's like free therapy with better snacks because Michael always brings candy.

These are all the ones I can think of for now, but let me more in the comments or in my ask box if you want more! It really means so much that you guys love this AU so much!

Let me know if you want to be tagged in the comments for future Saltburn AU stuff!

"Fuck Everything, But Mostly Fuck You" Masterlist

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[childrenofcain-if]

Loving this work but just worried I'm not/ won't be smart enough to fully understand, get, or relate to the mc/ros (I know I'm not as smart as them, but I'm more worried just about being smart enough, bc they're really smart.)

Eh, I'll get over it. The very introduction outside of the letter was amazing to, of the poor staff being that afraid of it all. I don't want to insinuate that Elias is an unreasonable man...well actually that's what I'm doing. Firing an employee just because they may have inconvenienced mc is wild. This isn't criticism of the writing, just noticing a character flaw and my heart goes out to them. And the letter from Persephone was amazing, I very much loved all the little tiny pieces it gives us. Fitting it into the lore has been great, and I'm sure as the other nonnies have pointed out, Persephone may be mc's mom, and Hades is probably just Elias.

It was entertaining seeing mc fret over the application. I know your Yale is different from this worlds Yale and is about academic merit, but goddamn, I'm sure less qualified students got in.

The customization was absolutely insane and fun to go through. Just sat there for several minutes clicking on and off options and envisioning it.

Genuinely can't wait for more, and can't wait to simp.

thank you, dear bonnie 😌 i was waiting for people to kind of realise that firing an employee for slightly disturbing your child’s peace, or even the being in the realm of possibility to do so, is unhinged 💀 but hey, we’re all clapping and cheering atp cause dear father can do no wrong.

i got so many people telling me about persephone (proserpine) and hades (pluto), being MC’s parents but... are they? because how would that work 🧐

as for this universe’s yale, the only way someone academically average got in would be through a sports scholarship. yale is not playing when it comes to only bringing in the students they see a huge potential in. this works since no yale alumni has ended up working a less than stellar job and companies are notorious for immediately preferring their graduates than any other ivy league, aside from harvard.

don’t worry about not understanding it as i’ll be very happy to explain the points that you can’t grasp. i didn’t want to spoonfeed my audience all the things cause y’all are smarter than anyone can give you credit for. but if you don’t get it, it’ll also be partially my fault for making it too complicated. i have concepts that i don’t understand either and half the time i’m researching for M’s dialogues, i have no clue what they’re talking about in my head.

point is that you don’t need to feel stupid or ashamed for these things, nor should anyone make you feel bad about it.

i hope chapter two and three will be up to your standards! there probably would be more answers than questions when it comes to MC’s family tho 💀

[mirror-imaged]

idont think anybody understands sheffbrien the way I do (insane) I'm sorry they're literally so bad for each other (affectionate) I could go on and on forever. I will actually. sheffbrien post be upon ye. thanks to ashe for talking about this w me on discord. this is a kinda obrien centric post bc of that loll but I'm obvi getting into sheffields whole deal too

having reread tc22 again and done some literary analysis a few days ago on a plane at 2 in the morning (I'm out of the country rn helloo ^_^) I picked up on a lot of thematics for them I find very interesting. long post ahead!

1 - the dynamics in their relationship are so wildly interesting. I think their characterization in tc22 does wonders for them. firstly, there are a lot of false differences id say? they seem so different, but when you boil it down they have a lot in common. sheffield is affluent and intelligent but has a spiteful and hotheaded side, obrien is seen as angry or rude but is taken for granted with his intelligence quite often by others. he got into an ivy league school at 17. there's also how sheffield seems so charismatic while obrien is abrasive and lonely, but they both really have no other friends when you get down to it? and last example for now, sheffield sees himself as divine while obrien seems to have renounced religion, but he really hasn't done the work of removing his mindset from a catholic(?) framework. expanding on that,

2 - obrien has religious trauma and this is heavily established. he doesn't actually ever move past religion as a concept though, he just moves on from God. he replaces his concept of God with his concept of his sister. more on this later. sheffield also has a relationship with religion, but more in the sense that he inherently sees himself as something unlike humanity, something greater and to be revered. he refers to himself as an angel in a way that doesn't strike me as being ingenuine the way he does in other places. I need to draw art about this it makes me abnormal

3 - for obrien specifically, there are some insanely interesting threads left about his trauma creating a savior complex within him. obviously shown at the start of the story with professor harris, but there are also the times he mentions going into genetics due to his guilt and wanting to entirely eliminate the disease that disabled his sister and when he says he feels an involuntary sympathy for stella when he found out she didn't mean to kill harris. it also makes me wonder if that plays into his protectiveness of sera later on.

4 - obrien has some severe internalized ableism going on that I wish more people actually picked apart. I know tc22 is a small scale story and a lot of people haven't read it, but it's fascinating stuff. he obviously grew up with the mindset that his sister was somehow contagious and describes how he felt he would somehow fall ill because of this, and that sort of mindset does a lot to dehumanize somebody in a person's mind. after eventually passing on an illness to her that results in her death, he is driven entirely by guilt as a character. he becomes certain that if God were fair and true, he would have died instead of her. but, like I mentioned before, he never really renounces religion in any specific way aside from this. he even mentions how he now prays to his sister instead of God, which I think is so fascinating. he never saw his sister as a person, and by elevating her to this status of somebody he needs to grovel to or even just uses as a holy figure in his life, he continues to see her as inhuman. he recognizes his past ableism, but he never does anything to deconstruct and rebuild from it. much like with his relationship with religion!

5 - obrien is treated by dds2 as the morally virtuous character, but he's really not (if you get the context from tc22). my boyfriend put it as him being just on the right side of history, which I absolutely agree with. I know tc22 was probably written after dds2 and doesn't necessarily inform the writing decisions for the games, but it definitely adds juicy layers to me. obrien is seemingly not motivated by any true desire to help sera or the nameless sufferers of CATCH22, he is motivated by the guilt from his sisters death hanging over him like a shadow. not to say he doesn't care at all, but it seems more like a quest to make up for his sins in the eyes of his sister than a desire to do good, which seems awfully catholic to me. this is absolutely the most interesting part of his character presented by the narrative. God I wish they did this better in the games.

6 - moving on to sheffield, sheffield is actually one of the most interesting and real depictions of a character with NPD traits I've ever seen, hands down. I know I talk about this frequently, but it's especially strongly done in tc22 and one of my favorite parts of his character. to start, he's mostly presented with extremely minor and often-masked aspects of the disorder a lot of people don't really pick up on. vouching personally. he quickly becomes passive aggressive and seemingly personally offended when challenged, like by inspector Harvey for instance. he is a practiced and seemingly compulsive liar, able to make things up on the spot that nobody but obrien questions due to his confidence. he seems to get along swimmingly with people he doesn't know well, charismatic and understanding. he pays exceptionally close attention to other people's emotions, expressions, and demeanors to adjust and match theirs. he also is debatably depicted with real delusions of grandeur. he only seems to be able to let his guard down around obrien, actually. and my absolute favorite moment of his, really relatable for me, is that when he stops masking he does not become dangerous. he does not go into a rage, he just goes blank. entirely and visibly unable to express emotion "normally", and obrien is initially scared, but realizes he just doesn't understand sheffield as well as he thinks he does. this is incredibly accurate to real life for me. it's actually insanely well depicted. and what I really appreciate is that sheffield is never presented as truly malicious [IN THIS STORY]. with dds2 context, he can be seen that way for sure, but he isn't actually shown being morally reprehensible. he's dubious and seems to have trouble understanding where he crosses a line, but that's also very true to real life for me. he isn't necessarily trying to be evil, he's just nosy and invasive of boundaries on occasion. they also never actually label him as or call him a narcissist, which is so good?? props to tadashi for once?? I think he is one because I have the disorder and can more accurately assess this sort of thing, but labeling every character who's like Abusive as a narcissist is so tacky and distasteful to me. it diminishes the harm they inflict on other people as being something born of mental illness, which isn't necessarily true. he is definitely abusive to sera, but that is not related to his narcissism.

7 - sheffield is just such a good character in this. I raved already about his npd stuff but I want to get into other things a little too. firstly, he does seem to genuinely view himself as inhuman, which is something I also believe contrasts obrien a little. obrien has this deep internalized self hatred, while sheffield has this genuine belief he is on a different level from other people. despite this, he sees obrien as being his Equal in some way. as being worthy of his presence, his assistance, his friendship. the pizza scene really really drives this home for me. (that's another subtle npd ass trait but I've said enough). in addition, sheffield tries so desperately to present himself as worthy of something more, maybe backed by doubt, or maybe even just true belief. he tries to appear intimidating, has knowledge of how to get into people's heads, etc. maybe this is because he's young and people see him differently for being so ahead of his grade, but I also see it as a display of insecurity in an implicit way. his delusions of grandeur also play into this characterization, because delusions of grandeur are often born from extreme and severe self doubt (at least in those with mental health disorders, which I've already mentioned I believe he strongly aligns with). him coming from a wealthy background in Portland of all places would not help any of that kind of thing.

8 - i don't even know what else I could say about them. they make me so abnormal. not even a toxic romantic relationship between them (which I do like think about but obviously post tc22 I don't like their age gap) but simply their dynamic as two characters. sera is a figurehead for their conflict, really. all the things we learn about both of these characters really makes me question how much BOTH of them care for sera, not just sheffield's two-faced lies. she is representative of their ideological dispute. she is a small child who has the potential to save the world, but obrien is too scared of letting another child die as a result of his inaction and sheffield is too focused on his end goal of getting what he believes he deserves, divinity and becoming a revered savior of the world, no matter who falls along the way. they are built to contrast each other. you even see this through heat and serph to a degree, with how sera mixed them up. heat declares he is on the same level as God during the jp text of the vritra fight, while serph inevitably sacrifices his own life for the sake of sera.

9 - what happened between tc22 and the dds2 flashbacks? I actually need to know what caused their relationship to split so heavily. I'm fucking obsessed with them. post over please join my sheffbrien Island there's like 2 other people here

[lycan-subscribe]

hi! I saw your post about Springfield and while I appreciate where you heart is, I would really appreciate if you did not say things like we have crumbling infranstrucre and no public transportation (we still have public bussing) and no education (many Springfield kids go on to very good colleges bc of the education they got here or even go to our city's university or community college). We have had students recently get admitted to Ivy League schools. We have so many programs for students to earn college credit while in high school.

Springfield isn't the best city around but there's been a lot of good things happening, and a lot of the city is a lot better off than it was when I was kid. Most of all, a lot of us are not taking kindly to other people speaking on our behalf. We're tired of people not from Springfield talking about us. Your heart was in the right place, and I appreciate what you did. But please do not make it sound like we're living in some destitute city. All my life I have heard from people outside of Springfield asking me if I'm scared to live here, etc. bc of the stereotypes that every inch of us is crumbling buildings and drug addicts and gang violence.

We have: beautiful murals by local artists, teachers who care about all their students, a really good public library system, thriving local businesses. There's a lot of things not going well in Springfield, but please don't speak for us.

i appreciate you starting a respectful discussion about this, i really do. looking back on what i wrote, i do think i came off as dismissive of the city as a whole in a way i didn’t intend.

i’ve been ruminating on what i said last night and i do think i could’ve and should’ve worded some things better and made my intentions a little more clear - i don’t want to speak for the city, as my experience with it is colored by the fact that i don’t live there. i meant only to speak for my experience with it in an extremely condensed manner but in doing so i think i left out some crucial context.

you’re right, it is better in a lot of ways than it used to be! i’ve noticed more art, more local businesses (especially the restaurants!!) and snyder park in particular is absolutely beautiful - my aunt and uncle are actually master gardeners that help take care of the gardens there. so i know there is beauty, both in the physical landscape and in the people living in it, in springfield that is absolutely worth talking about and celebrating and i really should’ve brought more attention to that.

i also wanna make something else clear: i don’t think springfield is uniquely affected by propaganda and racist/right wing rhetoric. my city (which is a hop skip and a jump away) has been affected by it too, and long before the haitian immigrants began to settle in springfield. this whole /country/ is seeped in it, especially right now, especially in places like the ohio/the midwest (hello rust belt).

i think i was just angry. angry that somewhere so close to my hometown was making national news in the worst possible way, angry that i had to speak out to my coworkers who were making jokes about it, angry that the problems springfield DOES have are going ignored because of targeted misinformation and corrupt politicians. i’m sorry i misrepresented the city as a whole, i really am - but i do want it to be known that my intent wasn’t to trash springfield or make it sound like there’s nothing there worth making note of. there is! it is a diverse city and there are so many people working to make it a better place. that’s worth celebrating. i just want people to understand that the blatant racism and bigotry being touted by some of the people who live there didn’t spring up overnight, and i wanted to emphasize the thing that make people more susceptible to propaganda: a sense of disenfranchisement.

i still don’t know if i’m getting my point across entirely effectively but i want you to know: i’m sorry, truly, for letting my anger and frustration turn into boiling down a very complex and multi-faceted issue down to a few paragraphs of text. springfield is worth fighting for, for the refugees and the city natives both.

[clatoera]

if the characters in arwbfb got tattoos, what would they be?

also would love to hear what songs from ttpd u thought fit the characters best!!

This is such an interesting question! In regards to tattoos I honestly don't imagine many of them. I feel like it's definitely not a D1 thing at all. Like absolutely none of them. Not Cash, Gloss, Glimmer, OR Marvel. That does not seem like their thing at all ESPECIALLY in D1. So I honestly do not think any of them would have tattoos at all in D1.

D2 I can see it a little more but personally I think they sort of would wear their like..games scars as something they're proud of in lieu of tattoos. Brutus may be into it. Enobaria might have like..a snake tattoo around her wrist or idk she feels like maybe linework ivy around her wrist but it's not major it's not large. Cato and Clove don't seem like they'd do it either, I think they'd either CARVE a C onto each other with a knife/blade of some sort, but if they had to go the tattoo route I think they'd literally just get a C of some sort in each other's writing somewhere on their body. Specifics on where are vague because it would depend but that seems like them maybe!

Finnick and Johanna may have tattoos. That feels like them more so!

Okay so I answered this in some depth on this post here so I'll list the ones here and you can use this link for the details because it was PAGES long. This is 1000% ARWBFB au DEPENDENT it HAS To be this au for these to make sense

Glimmer:

Down bad

I can do it with a broken heart  (one of my 2 fave songs)

Glimmer and Cashmere

The prophecy 

I hate it here

Cashmere

Clara Bow

But Daddy I love him (read for the explanation)

Clove

(CLATO specific) being Fresh Out the Slammer and I Can Fix Him (no really I can) Which I feel STRONGLY about

more clove alone is

Who's Afraid of Little Old Me? (my other fave song)

So Long, london

The Albatross

Enobaria

The Bolter

Cassandra

I'll give you some bonus tho

Guilty as Sin?: This is soooo Clato i'm sorry. I had to say it. Because i'm so correct. It's specifically them pre his games at like 16 trying to be normal and not at all into each other. "What if he's written 'mine' on my upper thigh only in my mind?" I keep recalling things we never did, messy top lip kiss how I long for our trysts. Without ever touching his skin how can I be guilty as sin?" "Taking all of me, we've already done it in my head. If it's make believe why does it feel like a vow we'll both uphold somehow?" This song is unbelievably feral, this a song for when you're in heat, it's an ovulation song it's literally horny I don't know how else to say it. "What if the way you hold me is actually what's holy?" I literally could list the whole song and I wont but .yeah this is it sorry to defile everyone's eyes I'll have to tag this bc this is..yeah!!! Guilty as sin Clato NEXT

The Alchemy: Surprise it's also Clato!!! "Ditch the clowns, get the crown, baby i'm the one to beat. Cause the sign on your heart says it's still reserved for me. Who are we to fight the alchemy?" "there was no chance, tryna be the greatest in the league. Where's the trophy, he's just comes running over to me." "This happens once every few lifetimes" Sorry!! IT's them!! I make the rules!!!

thanks friend!!!! This album is my new personality trait!!! So is this au!!!

[wrongcaitlyn]

hi! i'm sorry if this is a bit random but i wanted to know if the process of college aplications is hard in the US ?? in my coutry we only do one big exam and the higher the grade the more courses and universities you can pick from ( like, for medicine you need 900 on this test but for music you only need 400)

oh GOD okay you're gonna set me on a bit of a rant bc i have so much to say about college apps here,,,, it's so horrible 😭😭 (nothing against your ask lmao, i'm down to talk abt how much us college apps suck ANY TIME)

so im just gonna split this up into types of college, expectations of colleges, and what we actually have to do to apply:

so there's a bunch of different types of colleges with varying levels of prestige, which is what's really important here. to get into community college, you just need to graduate college and send in an application! but the problem here is that a lot of people look down on that option, and especially with parents, there's a lot of pressure to get into a "good" (high-ranking) college. there are people who will do literally anything to get into an ivy league. but that's neither here nor there, the point is: when you're trying to get into college in the us, the process can actually be very easy, but most people (including myself) choose to make it harder for themselves. partly bc of better opportunities, internships, extracurriculars that are offered in higher-ranked colleges, partly because of the "college experience", or partly just because their parents/friends/counselors/media (have you ever heard of a not uc or ivy league talked about in tv shows??? very little at least, and if you have, it was probably a college that was ALSO super prestigious with a 3% acceptance rate) pressured them into it and make them think that they'll never make it in life if they choose community college.

now onto expectations - again, this depends on the type of college that you're trying to get into. but for the purpose of this entire thing, i'm gonna be talking about how hard the college app process is when you're trying to get into like a high-ranked college with a small acceptance rate. so many colleges these days are down to like 5% acceptance rates, and that's ridiculous. but anyway, they accept you based on a weird combination of gpa, extracurriculars, essays, SAT score (optional in some colleges), recommendation letters, and intensity of your workload.

that means you don't just need to get good grades in high school, and you don't just need to do important things outside of hs. it's not a make or break thing to just have like one b or something, but *so* many people applying to these prestigious colleges have all a's, run five clubs, do three sports, and take all ap/honors classes (aka really hard college-level classes).

OKAY NOW ONTO THE ACTUAL COLLEGE APP PROCESS LMAO:

so the main thing we use is what's called the "common app" and essentially you submit your application, and then you pay fees and choose which colleges you want to apply to. problem is, not all colleges are part of this common app, some colleges want supplemental essays, and every college you apply to has a ridiculous fee.

so first you have to choose the colleges you want to apply to (usually a range of like 5-15), and divide them into 'safeties', 'targets', and 'reaches'. safeties are the ones you can definitely get into, targets are ones where you match most other applicants who got in, and reaches are like. all the ivy leagues and other top-ranked colleges. this whole process in the first place is a ridiculously long college because there are over 1k colleges in the common app, and even more outside of the common app. for example, all uc's (universities of california) have their own separate application form. a bunch of other colleges also decide they want to be special and have their own application.

once you do that, you need to write an essay for the common app. and another few supplemental essays for colleges who wanna give you a harder time. and different essays for uc's if youre applying there (sorry, being from california, i just know a bit more abt uc's, idk if it's different on the east coast or anywhere else). then you create a list of every single extracurricular you did in your hs years and choose which ones are most important, show leadership, passion, and interest in your chosen major. it's basically a resume of ur hs career. you need to get a letter of rec from two of your teachers and your counselor, and you will most likely also take the SAT or ACT (two standardized tests. lots of schools have it optional now, but it's still a big deal in some colleges - often, though, you'll even take that test several times to get a good score).

and then repeat that for any colleges not part of the common app that you want to apply to

and THEN. youre done with your college application! except youre also spending that entire time working on essays/applications for scholarships and filling out a FASFA form (financial aid) because colleges are EXPENSIVE AS HELL. like, just from a california standpoint, the cheapest UC tuition is ucla, with a tuition of $15k for in-state students and $45k for out of state, not including your living situation (and trust when housing will never be cheap in la).

so, yeah. that's the general gist of it all. i probably skimmed over some things and forgot some, but!! im in hell and college apps are the literal worst here😭

[vizthedatum]

Decisions to protect myself

More and more, I am giving myself permission (it was always within my power) to protect myself.

I couldn't when I was growing up with my mom - not even to the police who showed up when she physically abused me so badly when I was six - I didn't want them to take me away - I lied - I kept lying my whole life - I knew she loved me but I also knew what she was doing was wrong - and I thought I was wrong and that I deserved it. I thought I deserved it all. I deeply thought I was stupid and if I tried harder, I wouldn't be such a stupid child. Nothing I did in my life made them think I wasn't ruining my life. They'd mock me telling me how I wouldn't get into community college... and I fucking made it into an Ivy League (I made it broken and shattered but regardless). And now, now that I'm out as trans and completely redefining my life... they think I've lost it.

--

That's it, right?

The moment I show who I am... when it goes against what you wanted me to be, that's when you think I've lost it.

After all the excuses and the effort I put into ALL of you - the moment that I need support... real support, you leave.

I was completely discarded by my spouse and their entire family - FAMILY who I considered my own. They did nothing to help me. My MIL, who I loved, .... she didn't get it. I had to cut off ties with her because she didn't understand why I was calling it domestic violence. I knew she would side with her child so I let her go.

--

What did it look like from the outside??

It's so easy to look at me like I'm crazy, I guess. I'm unreliable when I'm being gaslit and controlled. When I'm pleading with myself that they're not really doing anything wrong. When I only showcase the good and not the bad. See me crying - trying to reason with my abuser who I loved - listen to them explain how crazy and unreasonable I am....

I went to therapy for years. I maintained my friendships. I have documented how physically ill I was - in my medical chart. I was having severe flares. I was having symptoms I couldn't explain. I'd go nonverbal. Sometimes my body would just give up.

I fought for our relationship to the best of my ability until I realized I was in serious danger.

They did not fight for us - they just thought they were right.

They had a six-figure job, kept me trapped within our home due to fear of covid, berated me, denied how serious the emotional abuse was, didn't work on repairing our relationship, did NOT seek therapy or any external help, refused to come up with solutions with me, imposed ultimatums, convinced their ex (babe, you're not a great mental health advocate if you're going around telling people I'm having a psychotic breakdown - bc even if I were, that's ableist! You literally could have done the noble thing and refused to interact with me - but you didn't - you cruelly defended your ex because you sided with them) that I'm making shit up, tried to get me to block my lovers (and they knew about each and every one of them - I did not keep shit from them) despite not blocking their exes, convinced me systematically to let go of friendships and isolate myself, undermined my sense of worth, REFUSED TO GET HELP FOR OUR MOUSE INFESTATION THAT WAS WORSE THAN OUR RISK FOR COVID OMFG WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU, tried to take my meds away, judged me for being so ill I couldn't do things, threw tantrums when I needed my own space, probably called me abusive when I left food in the sink which I tried so hard not to do (it only happened bc I needed to stage how I did dishes (Oh yeah, I did dishes most of the time because they couldn't - did y'all know that? Did y'all know how much household coordination I did while being chronically ill and in pain? They hated asking for help so I had to either beg them to help me when I was physically weak, pay for people to help, plead/beg for them to allow people to help us, or do it myself) because of my fatigue and illness you ableist dumb motherfucker... and more. And the last time we had sex, it was rape. It undoubtedly was. You had such little empathy for me that you can't even tell. You made my life miserable because I went to MN and left you alone because I had to go help my brother - something you knew I would do in a heartbeat. You denied how badly you were hurting so you hurt me instead. You hurt your best friend and spouse who LOVED YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. Look at me now - does it look like I'm having a breakdown? Is my rage all a joke to you? You think I'm insane because you don't think I'm allowed to have my valid feelings? Does it make you happy to know that you destroyed your relationship with your autistic, trans, brown, traumatized spouse who loved you so much? Do you acknowledge that I'm finally able to live my life? I can move more - look at how different I look - my inflammation is down - and I do not care if I am putting myself at covid-risk (I'm vaccinated and more knowledgeable about my risk because I'm a fucking epidemiologist who knows that my social needs are just as important than preventing infection). Do I need to spell it out for you? I tried so hard to diagnose what was going wrong with my life... it was you (and my mom and all my trauma), but acutely, it was you.

And if you had worked on yourself and us - I would have stayed with you forever.

I really hope the divorce gets finalized this year.

Next time, I'm having a prenup, a huge wedding, couple's therapy wayyyy before we get married, an insistence on inner work for the both of us (this is a requirement for all relationships from here on out), and more.

I deserve the fucking world, and I hate that you all almost had me believing that I did not.

[pabotofus]

lord how on earth did i GET here (derogatory)

[pumpkins-s]

I feel insanely bad bc my undergrad school let me into their Masters program and offered me like...full-funding + a TA position with a stipend, and now one of the professors who literally wrote one of my letters of rec has emailed me like “hey want to talk about the particulars of the program” and I’m somehow going to have to be like “hey I know y’all are offering me a literal free degree but I’m leaning towards going somewhere else and paying an ass-load amount of money for it instead so I can say I went to an Ivy League”

[secretlystephaniebrown]

pitch your perfect stephanie brown comic run, one where you have total creative control?

*slams hands down on desk*

OKAY

assuming that I'm allowed to write this in my own little universe, don't have to deal with continuity stuff that I don't like. Just like, an out of universe maxi series where i can use any characters I want, don't need permission or to work around what other people are doing.

So one of the things that has been grating on me lately with how DC is writing Steph is that they just make her a permanent package deal? Either with Tim or now with Cass, and I think it does a disservice to both characters. So while Cass would be a big player in this, I'd probably have her as a reoccurring major character while she's up doing her own thing rather than as a deuteragonist.

Okay but.

So like, the real way that I'd want to have this would be as a Steph graduation road tour type thing. Steph has just graduated college, and she's going to go on a cross country road trip through the fictional cities of DC USA, while she tries to decide what she's going to do next with her life, since she's outgrowing Batgirl at 23-24 ish.

... fuck it let's do the full 12 issue outline.

Batgirl: On The Road!

Central/Keystone: Bart team up! We open with Steph on the road, calling home, chatting with Cass. She's got the Compact, the back is full of fast food wrapers, and Steph goes to the Flash Museum and wonders about her legacy.

Metropolis: Kara team up! Steph and Kara hang out, Steph talks with Kara about the Nightwing identity which she has been offered, talks about moving on from the "-girl" part of the identity. Kara shares her own thoughts.

Gateway City: Wonder Woman team up! Steph hangs out with Diana, gets to do a walking tour of the city with Diana, talks about mythology and legacy, gets to do goofy young twenties stuff while drunk in a gay club because Gateway if DC's San Fransisco.

Coast City: Steph teams up with Jo Mullein because I say so. They solve a murder together, say fuck cops together, and Jo gets to be awesome and inspirational.

Star City: Connor reunion! Steph and Connor get to hang out, team up, fight bad guys, and generally have a fun adventure together.

Blue Valley: Steph teams up with Stargirl! Don't really have concrete ideas for this one. But I think Steph gets to punch an alien.

Fawcett City: Steph and the Marvels! Steph feels totally outclassed by the literal gods of it all but then she gets to hang out with them as kids and she does some combat training for them in civilian versions bc she's worried about how often they get depowered.

Hub City: Steph gets to team up with Renee, and what do you know, Kate's visiting! The lesbians take Steph to a gay bar, talk to her about sexuality and growing up.

Dakota City: Steph and Rocket team up! Steph gets to hang out with Amistad, and she and Raquel get to talk about being the teenaged moms of the comics universe.

Amnesty Bay: Steph gets to hang out with Jackson and Lorena and Salty the Sea Dog. She then gets to punch Orm.

Ivy Town: The weird issue. Steph hangs out with Ryan Choi, gets shrunk, and has an adventure in a miniature civilization.

Gotham City: Steph returns home, reunites with Cass and her Mom and Nell. She then hands off Batgirl to Nell in a scene and reveals that she's going to be the new Nightwing. Then she and Cass team up and punch bad guys.

Things that are happening in the background during all of this/themes

Cass is Batman, this is not commented upon, she is fighting some sort of massive thing, we never find out exactly what. Cass appears via phone call about once an issue.

Nell is the next most common phone call appearance, she's Spoiler right now, and she's reporting in on her training and things to Steph, and doesn't seem aware that Steph is about to pass off Batgirl to her.

Steph calls Dick a few times, he's also Batman, he's with the Justice League, he's sometimes in space.

Steph grappling with her bisexuality realization is a big part of this because I say so. Fun lighting for the gay club scenes.

Duke and Damian appear in one phone call, both of them are Robin.

Each issue opens with a map of the United States showing where the city is and then a little blurb about the city and local superheroes, with Steph narrating about what she knows about them, mentioning cool things they've done, etc.

Generally, it'd let Steph get to interact with things she doesn't get to interact with a lot, expand her relationships, bounce off new things, while still being a rather introspective piece with Steph thinking about her life, her place, and her legacy.

Steph does most of the comic as Batgirl, but she puts on a Batwoman costume and a Nightwing costume at various times.

[welcometohelllosers]

Some more Angel x David HCs because I'm hyperfixating again (and using them to write a fic)

(btw I am absolutely projecting while writing these, I'm fairly certain Erik makes the listeners vague so we can do that) also, I used she/her pronouns because that's what I use in what I'm writing rn

Angel collected stuffed animals she got from vacations and holidays (her dad and human best friend both buy her new ones for Valentine's Day every year) and Davey got so tired of going into one of their guest rooms and seeing dozens of plushies that he built her a shelf to keep them on, only after he made her cry by telling her to get rid of a few.

Angel is actually super smart, and she got her bachelor's from an Ivy League college, something Davey didn't find out about until she A. showed up at his apartment 3 months into their relationship wearing a hoodie from her Alma Mater and then proceeded to solve a really hard math problem Baabe was working on for an online class they were taking like it was nothing.

Davey secretly loves it when Asher and Angel get into shenanigans, because the sight of his best friend and his mate absolutely makes his heart soar, he just won't admit it.

Angel openly called him Davey at another pack meeting, and the biggest reaction they got was Tank going 'awwww', so now she gets away with it

because of this, the whole pack knows Davey fucked up when Angel calls him "David"

Davey will never not smile like an idiot when he sees Angel playing with the pups at meetings

Angel always puts wayyyy too much thought in what she's going to wear to pack meetings bc she wants the pack to respect her as the pack "mother"

[beez-nutz]

Some college au ppg headcanons

Blossom

law school ?

would survive on coffee and 30 min naps

could see her being in an ivy league away from Townsville and feeling really guilty and at the same time relieved because hero duties and all (this would be fun to write)

misses her sisters and calls them as much as she can

professor is so worried about her sleep schedule

Brick

computer engineering major

software engineering minor I guess

also survives on coffee

would probably also be in an ivy league

if he and blossom could possibly be in the same uni, I think they would either hate each other even more because of the exhaustion or bond over the exhaustion and even go get coffee together just to complain (complaining about common hates is their love language)

I said either but they can do both, isn't that their thing?

Bubbles

fashion design major

has transformed blossoms part of their bedroom into a whole workspace with a sewing machine, dress forms, fabric rolls and everything

started a small business selling clothes and accessories and honestly couldn't be happier about it

despite having dress forms, she still uses Buttercup as one mainly because she misses her sister quality time with BC and Blossom

Boomer

music major

not doing great at school because academics isn't his thing and he's mainly doing it because bubbles convinced him to

"why the fuck do I need to learn music theory if I'm already thriving?"

is not thriving (sort of)

has released a couple songs that did ok

is trying to make a TikTok hit so bad

Buttercup and Butch

go to community college? (I'm not American I have no idea how that works)

haven't exactly figured out what they want yet

this is me telling you I don't know what they would study

butch only goes to college because he likes seeing people

buttercup actually wants to transfer to an university eventually

they are living that 20 year old dream life

but also buttercup is this close to having a mid life crisis because "what am I doing everyone else I know is doing something meaningful meanwhile it's 3am and I'm playing Minecraft at butch's house"

butch is really just having the time of his life tbh

feel free to add your own headcanons !

[hshouse]

Umm so I think we might be going into the same field but like i just started grad school a month ago and I'm struggling so fcking hard keeping up with all the work (my adhd meds are NOT doing the job i need them to be doing) and socially i have not clicked with ANYONE and I feel so intimidated and isolated and I know I stick out not talking to anyone bc EVERYONE in my section is always talking to someone and people have already started forming groups and made friends but I just dont know how to I guess??? Idk but I feel like im 8 years old again with no friends which is a bizarre fucking feeling to have at 23. But like its BAD and I can't even speak up in the classes that don't cold call and ask for volunteers even though I want to do well so badly bc I feel so fucking small amongst all these people. I just kind of completely shut down as soon as I walked into the first day of orientation and haven't recovered from that.

And like I'm so fucking scared to start working bc even though i took two years off from undergrad I'm so burnt out already and jumping straight into the corporate world seems terrifying for my mental health (and general health tbh) but like going into PI isn't really an option bc if I'm going to go through with this I NEED to be making money to make it worth it and I guess what I'm trying to ask is like does this shit actually get better??? bc I'm highkey spiraling and have been since I started school and I honestly don't know if I'd be better off dropping out and going back to teaching even though I'll be absolutely broke and living at home for the foreseeable future or if I should just stick it out and be able to afford to support my parents and fucking take my siblings to disneyland for the first time. Like i knew this was gonna be hard but I guess it's just hitting me actually being here how fucking miserable I am and just I dont know. Sorry for dumping all this on you 😬 I guess I'm just wondering if you have any advice? Like I'm so scared I'm not gonna make it, like I'm not cut out for this field and am just gonna get absolutely crushed by it. And like I know that on paper I'm fucking smart af and definitely deserve to be here, like I'm at a fucking ivy league rn, they wouldn't let me in if they didn't think I'd make it. I just am finding it very hard to believe that I'm actually going to have a successful career if I'm struggling this bad at the very start.

Also idk how tf you went to school in a completely different country, like MAJOR props to you bc that must have been SO fucking hard. I'm struggling with moving across the country to a state where I know absolutely no one, but at least I know one of my siblings is an hour flight away and the rest of my family/friends are an 8 hr flight away. You should be VERY proud of yourself (I'm sure you are) bc I've only been in grad school for a month and this shit is SO HARD to handle and like fuck you're almost done with it and about to start your career and that shit is fucking AMAZING and BADASS and I genuinely wish you all the fucking success in your future

Hi bby,

Oh we are definitely doing the same thing. Thank you for the wonderful compliments, I really really appreciate it. And congrats on getting in!

I’m sure you know that this is the hardest year. It also has NO no NOOO bearing on your talent for the job. First thing they tell you at the job orientation is “nothing you learned in grad school will be useful here.” Shdjsh it’s a completely different thing that is muuuuuch more enjoyable than the boring ass stuff you are learning rn. For me it felt very much like year 1 is one program and years 2&3 are a totally different thing. Once you get your job during summer 1, all bets are off lmao. You just need to finish the thing. So really the pressure is only for 1 year. So that helps with the mindset of like “I only need to get to May.” In terms of getting the job, I have to be honest: they only care about your school. I had straight Bs and got like a major one. On the first group of the rank if you know what I mean. So go into knowing that you WILL get an offer and most likely many. I always tell people that getting into the school is the last real hurdle. Now, you just ride the wave. Once you get the job you will really feel like it’s done.

About the job itself, there is genuinely no better job out there. Yes it is a shit show in terms of commitment and amount of work but it is absolutely disproportionally well compensated. Like in a bizarre way. You will not get fired (unless you like assault a person etc). So you have this job kind of for life? It’s extremely secure. Do not get intimidated by it. It’s mostly you alone on your computer lmao it’s lit. You are so close to this DO NOT drop out. It is worth it. The money will change your family’s life. It will change your life for ever. Even if you leave at one point.

You are the same age I was and I get the vibe. It’s annoying but *none of it matters*. I just treat it like its drivers ed lmao. I’m there to be able to do the thing. I don’t care about yall wihdishshs. Speaking in class is meaningless and getting it wrong is like whatever. Do you care when ppl get it wrong? I barely notice it. So I think shifting your mindset from “this is undergrad 2.0” to “this is a prep course I am in and out of here” really helped me. I felt very alone during year 1. But as soon as year 2 starts everyone gets shuffled around so that cliquey feeling goes away massively.

I hope this helps! Pls come back if you have more questions as you move through the stages. But I promise you, you are in the worst part of it. Hang in there!!!!!

[sureuncertainty]

🌌📏 or ❄️ for any of ur antagonist ocs

🌌 MILKY WAY - what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them?

(I'm just gonna answer these for Kat bc she is an antagonist that I'm currently hyperfixating on) It's funny because I never planned on Kat being like a major character anyway, originally she was just some asshole whose main purpose in the story was to fuck things up for Nyx and be annoying but then she ended up developing past that and it just kind of happened. But that was kind of the inspiration behind it (she was also named after this girl I hated at the time, Katrina, fun facts, and the name stuck but other than that she's developed far past that. Also in her case, Kat is short for Katherine but she'll kill you if you call her that)

📏 RULER - is your oc well educated? where did they get their learning from?

Kat has a high school diploma, but she never went to college. She argued with her parents on where to go, because they wanted her to go to an Ivy League school and she didn't want to, but she didn't really know WHAT she wanted to do. Either way, her parents were killed and she joined Silence Agenda when she was 19, before she went to school. She did theater in high school too, fun facts!

❄️ SNOWFLAKE - do people consider them cold? if so, what made them this way?

I mean. Yeah. Kat is pretty much the least personable person you'll meet. She pretty much just uses being a dick as a coping mechanism bc if she hurts other people first, she doesn't have to worry about them getting close and hurting her! Also 'cause she's literally never really had support or community or even really friends, so she doesn't know how to Act

[jayflrt]

HELP i just copy and paste bc i type way faster on my computer and i normally rmb to delete what i respond to but. not that time ig.

i got accepted into 3/4 i applied to, it's just. choosing. that is v hard for me bc 2 of them are really good schools.

TURN DOWN HARVARD????? the one i got denied from was ivy league equivalent i cant even imagine getting in omg

im so out of shape too dw LMAOOO i used to do like... 8 mile hikes and shit easily but now??? gl getting me to do 1.5 miles 😭😭😭i used to take the bus, yeah, it would be 2 hrs in the morning and 2-3 in the evening. sucked!! do not recommend!! my mom drives me now, and when i go to college im just gonna take the shuttle or walk everywhere

NAUUURRR i hope u get qiqi soon!! i have her c1 on na and c0 on asia, she just. rlly loves me. speaking of my asia acc my luck is absolutely mf INSANE there why do i have c3 lisa and like c2 kaeya... starter chars are so rare HELLAUR???

my yanfei is c6 and i need to fix her artis and crown her, but she hits a good 50k when she crits. my highest on NA is 61k melt from ganyu,, but thats bc none of my dps chars are nukers, yk? like xiao and ganyu r both multihit

my eula hit 135k w a lvl 6 ult on asia but her artifacts are awful, i need to farm for her more. it's so annoying to farm for two accs tho LMAOOOOO

i was helping brooke unlock and run the new domain a couple of times ( we were... very slow) and eula hit at most 45k bc her ratio and talents r so awful LMAOOO albedo carried yes king

i got into 127 first, i think it's just that dream is closer to my age? so their humor matches mine more. and mark/jaehyun were my first biases and i still have soft spots for them so ig i can be considered loyal? like i stan half the group in almost every group i like,, but it doesn't change once i find the Ones.

i kind of hate the beach bc it's... boring? LMAOOOO like when u go frequently it's like 😴😴😴ok seen it im done. we normally go once or twice a year for a week </3 that is so long to do nothing but sit on SAND i hate sand

i want to write on my sideblog bc im trying to regrow a following that's more active and reads longer fics, since my current one is so reaction-centric and i know most of them r from 2 years ago and have deleted tumblr </3

it's working so far, i think? like i get asks sometimes or people at least wanting to be on the taglist which is more than i can say for main 😭😭😭

omg yeah dw abt it, i was just curious <3 i do know im a lil nervous making new mutuals now and i've only been on the very fringes of the plagiarism dramas and everything

HAHAH NONO UR GOOD when i just have my laptop, i copy paste it into notes and then reply and then type and then paste my response into the ask again LOLL it's so complex for what 🤧 

deciding on my college was also rlly difficult for me :'') i took like a good month to weigh in all my acceptances and eventually went to the one i felt the most comfortable at and thought would be the best for me <33 omg yeah my high school was pretty competitive so quite a few people got into ivy leagues, but everyone was surprised that that one boy turned down harvard bc he's always had high ambitions and is a genius 😳 but i think it all came down to finances and he's happier at the college he ended up choosing tbh so i'm glad for him 🥰 plus ivy leagues are corrupt and scary and i don't think i want to go to a university where the student climate is so cutthroat LMFAO 

god yeah my thighs are dying rn <//3 i hiked 16 miles with my friends once and tbh that was the worst HAHAH i was fine for the 7(??) ish miles there but walking back was sooo painful + 2 of those miles was on sand so it was a struggle. i don't think i could walk properly for 3 days after that HAHAH and i cut my ankle mid-hike so 🤕 2-3 hours ??? god i would fall asleep or something i could never 😭 

my luck kinda sucks on both accs 💀 i don't think i've ever hit pity early and i have like c3 mona and c2 jean LMFAO but omg yeah starter cons are sooo good 😭 my friend manx mained kaeya for a while and kept getting lisa cons instead of kaeya HAHAH and i always get amber cons even tho i never use her 😳 cat got a kaeya con the other day and i freaked out LMAOAO where's my kaeya constellation 😩 

i want c6 yanfei soooo bad i have her at c4 rn but her build is kinda good so im itching to get two more constellations 🙏 i feel like i barely use my NA acc anymore HAHAH i just spend so much time on my asia one and don't have time to work on both 🤧 but maybe i'll start working on my NA acc again so that i can build diluc !! 💖 i still need to play the new archon quest i've been doing a bunch of world quests but im proud bc i usually never get those done and push it off to the end <//3 

ooh yeah i get that !! i adore 127 and wayv and watch content for them but dream is like the group i always go back to to watch content 💗 lately i've been ditching them to watch svt content tho sorry dream <//3 

yeah where i am people go to the beach like every week so it gets tiring after a while. i hate sand in my shoes and how cold the ocean is and how scary the waves are so !! im out. my roommates actually invited me out to the beach with them today and i was like nooooo so i hid out to write/do homework :'] but yeah same i hate sand when it gets wet and sticks to you but i like it when you don't get wet and just can like ,, lay on the warm sand :') 

ooh yeah that makes sense :o i just make sideblogs bc i'm so nitpicky with the organization HAHAH when i made this blog i didn't tell anyone i was hyuckworld/tyonfs for a month or two because i wanted to build my own rep 🌸 

omg yeah im traumatized from my wattpad days because i would stumble upon clout chasers who only wanted to be my friend to either get me to read their fics or become friends with my friends 😣 i was so wary about reading rec’d fics for a while HAHAH but now i’ve just started finding my own fics to read and it’s fun discovering more <33 i have a list for ao3 too 🥰 

i try to handle all plagiarism issues privately bc i hate bringing discourse onto my blog but the ask someone sent me sort of made it impossible for me to not post it publicly 😞 plus it was clear that person was just blatantly copy pasting a bunch of writers fics sooo <//3 i rlly hope this all ends soon gosh