#not like in a manipulative way just like a change in perspective yk. i’m not running up a mountain r u kidding me. just to look at it for

[telltaleanatomicalheart]

rock climbing and hiking are so like not my thing. as like a fun one time thing maybe. but i don’t like being forced into people interests bc they think i’m lazy.

i’m v outdoorsy just more like in the eat fruit look at the water ponder existence type. yk the mind exercise.

[gerbesvolph]

NEW GL THEORY BY ME (if i use GL I’m taking about Ran’s GL, if i use “generation loss” I’m talking about the loss of quality and info between subsequent copies):

So we all remember the first teaser released 9 moths ago; almost at the end the phrase “Find the founder” is shown and for a second “find” was replaced with “Kill” in red to create “Kill the founder”. All the phrases that where shown in that video sound kinda like instructions or an ideology; immediately you’ll think that the “instructions” are found and then kill the founder, but what if the Red “Kill” part is a product of a generation loss? Then the info and message will be misunderstood and will be wrong. Now, in that teaser we also can see a couple of pictures that have red squares which can be used to hide info or show how that specific part is has an alteration, by who? Well by GL (maybe its a corporation idk) (the logo is also red and it also appears in the video so we can relate it), or just got lost or modify by the process of generation loss; because it’s a teaser yk it has to have visuals and be attractive, i mean everything is a representation. All the red parts of the pictures could represent that there was info that got lost or misunderstood thanks to the generation loss, including the “Kill the founder part”.

My point is, what if someone will confuse/confused the message and cause/caused something bad or a change, meaning that the “instructions” are being followed in the wrong way? what if a corporation named GenLoss want to manipulate info to hide stuff or make the people do what they want, they want people to believe lies and do certain actions for their benefit to have the control? This also could mean that “Generation Loss” is kinda a metaphor to describe how some people controls others perspective on the world or successes or how they control media. SO basically all the images and kill the founder part are being manipulated or just got misunderstood due to the loss of quality of the original ones or due to GenLoss people 🤯. That also leaves us with another question (following this theory) if red is “the bad part” “the wrong part” then the other phrases (the don’t hesitate, don’t…) that didn’t have this detail (red) are the only solid info we got? If those ones are “correct” then what are they for?

Also, being more positive: Maybe GenLoss as a corporation or people are the ones who instead of wanting us to believe lies, want to show the truth and get rid of the ones who are hiding it. Idk, we need to consider both sides.

Many of us have the same theory about GenLos as a corp or as people, the red squares being the GL people, or lost info, or the one where this is the tape the character will find. If a lot of people agree on the same thing then we might not be so far away from the truth and the correct meaning.

Remember it’s a teaser, it needs visuals and to be “clear” in the meanings so maybe the kill part is just another correct instruction or what would happen and the rest is just a concept, who knows. Hey GL fan reading this: if you want to comment please do, let’s share ideas and if you want to add something please do :D.

02/03/2023 theory :) @ranboolivesaysstuff

[amesliu]

Okay so i'm obsessed with music au and started to try and fill the timeline (as one does) and got curious about lukabeth. Especially the second part bc i don't know if im reading too much but it seems like Annabeth and Percy were kinda distant around that time? Also perachel rumours? Hmmmm

This is a very long way of asking for whatever detail you can give us about Luke in this au bc i love drama

YES i'd love to explain my thinking on this.

So i read a tweet recently that said basically that characters in AUs get very OOC very easily bc the characters are built from the experiences they have in canon which like. Not that I care about that too much when I read AUs but when I was coming up with this AU I did consider the latter half of that statement a lot so I tried to pull a lot of emotional beats from canon.

In canon, Luke multiple times comes back to try and manipulate Annabeth and so I translated that into him being the toxic ex that you don't quite shake off. Around Titan's Curse-ish, much to Percy's frustration, Annabeth is still holding onto Luke pretty hard and stuff.

In my AU version of this I imagine that she gets back together with Luke for a few months but Percy kinda alr knows about how shitty he was the first time around (I mentioned this elsewhere but they tour tgt and have like a Moment™ in San Francisco similar to the one where they're talking in that zoo truck except yk they're in their 20s and there's pining/tension™). So when during Lukabeth 2 Electricboogaloo he's both annoyed that she went back to him (from the perspective of a caring bsf) and since she's with him and hes, like, a dick, they spend a lot less time together and Percy and Rachel spend more time tgt. Obvs given that Percy has alr toured with Annabeth and there for some percentage of her clout has rubbed off on him they get spotted a few times which sparks the rumours.

I imagine that Annabeth goes back to Luke since she craves permanence (I also have some lore for this aspect in mind) and he's just been there since forever and he's totally preying on that part of her personality as well as her past experience with him (but babe I've changed I swear, type of thing).

Post Lukabeth 2 I think they kind of just are distant for a bit but bc they're so professionally connected they see each other a lot and just slowly gravitate back towards each other and Annabeth realizes how much Percy is there for her and Percy realizes how much he wants to be there.

Forgive the typos I'm writing super fast cause I have to go get ready to go out LOL

P.S. I love you for looking into my timeline this much <3

Edit: Also I’m thinking Luke is a model and they both kind of came up together around the same time.

[amazingphilza]

DSMP!OC HEADCANNONS

i dunno if ppl on here make dsmp!ocs for themselves outside art but here’s my long list of headcannons?? idk what to call this, but assume all names have c! before it ofc :]

,, this is kinda messy & probably has a lot of plot holes but i just needed a space to write out all my thoughts LOL

also cw / ment of manipulation & ib: dsmp wiki <3

character origin :

previous life was the l’mantree :D

allegedly planted by schlatt, we will never know who’s my canonical parent(s)

reborn as a dryad after niki burns the l’mantree

i think being a dryad would fit especially since they’re typically nymphs of oak trees :]

appearance :

my character’s mc skin has long light brown hair & is seen wearing a flower crown with petals that are around the color of a pale violet and navy blue

clothing would consist of black shoes & a long light grey sweater that falls down to the legs and covers most of the hands which adorned with 2 black stripes on the upper arms

lore / history :

since my past life was the l’mantree, i would’ve known the ins and outs of the history when l’manburg was still standing, up until niki burned the tree

after witnessing everything, i’d hold a grudge on niki (+ allies?) and loyal to wilbur since he’s the whole person that made a meaning of the land of l’manburg

however i’d still be on edge w any side because i could sympathize with everyone to some extent after seeing some sort of distress from everyone at some point

i think seeing both sides of the spectrum when l’manburg/manburg still stood could change my perspective of some other characters

but at the same time, not everything was completely centered in l’manburg so i wouldn’t know the whole story of everyone’s character

i’m currently writing this just after tommy has left the prison & mostly everyone is treating him differently, so i’d try to befriend him by not showing that i dont care about his past & trauma but also not being fully faithful about our friendship ahaha,,,

he seems like the type that needs someone to see through his past history but tommy would definitely disapprove of my character visiting dream at the prison (i would do it anyway :))

vowing my current life to wilbur, i would help dream escape to revive wilbur & follow along with their plans of chaos

i don’t fully support dream but he is the only way to wilbur, making me comply with dream’s decisions

“growing up” in my past life and witnessing endless conflict, it is the only thing i know and understand; chaos

but i think during the process of helping dream & wilbur i’d keep my connection with them secret, being the person to obtain all the inside information they need

i could see myself as a type of equilibrium like ranboo but in a bad way, i don’t know how to explain it

but i would try befriending ranboo since he seems like he is involved in many things and would know a lot, despite his short term memory

unfortunately i’m not sure how much his character actually knows since i haven’t been able to watch his pov that much but i’m sure there’s a lot in his memory book...

to blend in as a normal person within the rest of the characters, i’d surround myself with connor a lot

not only because he needs more lore, connor is one of the “normal” citizens of the smp so i believe being with him doesn’t bring as much attention to myself, unlike people that’s related to the egg and their noticeable features after associating themselves with the egg

he is currently only on bad terms with techno which is rly good when comparing that to other characters and their relationships with other people

connor could probably sense my real intentions eventually & tell everyone else that i’m not who i say i am but if that’s my flaw & my downfall is caused by connor, so be it! sorry dream & wilbur

i feel like for being a young dryad, i’d still fool around with dream/wilbur & help give tommy an small “advantage” to defeating the two ?

like yes i’m supposed to be on your side but where’s the fun if tommy can’t do anything to begin with?

i honestly don’t know if wilbur was revived he’d actually be his vassal but let’s assume that happens, but either way i’m with wilbur on his decisions

but ya dream seems like the type to punish me for helping tommy and send me to the afterlife to learn & become smarter like wilbur had done or smth

in the end, i just want to give tommy bits and pieces that tease him from ending all the wars and problems he has been faced with

like here’s some info about dream and wilbur but it won’t be no where close to enough

but who knows, ghostbur said ‘villains are just heroes that aren’t convinced yet’ & maybe tommy could eventually grow on me & change my ways,,

maybe me fooling around & teasing tommy with answers he’s been searching for is a way to mask that i want to be a good person

ok but imagine after knowing so much about dream/wilbur, the revive book, & the afterlife & then i switch sides,,,

surely if tommy can’t put and end to them, dream would make sure i’m gone for good instead

but also if me & connor are in good terms & he’s canonically a necromancer & can bring ppl back to life,,,,

personality :

to all besides dream & wilbur, i’d try to act passive and friendly on the outside to get on everyone’s good side

however under the mask i am more mischievous & strive to cause more problems for everyone on the server from the inside out

in a way, i’ve taken up some of dream’s manipulative personality but still very understanding

i’d like to think of my character as a good listener,, trying to do less talking than others so i do not open up about my true self and intentions

i’ve seen rumors about schlatt & mexican dream also being revived along with wilbur & i feel like i’d have some soft spot for schlatt & pick up a few things from his own character, not sure what though

schlatt planted l’mantree theory, dad!schlatt au part 2 !! /j

because of my character’s closed off and quiet personality, i feel like i’d be pretty analytical

i would know how to slip between the cracks with some characters & notice the smallest things to make them question themselves

maybe my character is good at holding their composure, and not that susceptible to being “emotional” in a way so it’s easier to face people

like i understand when a situation is sad, etc but i can’t show emotion towards how i feel about it (i don’t know if that makes sense but ya!)

i wanna try to elaborate more,, like imagine my character before tommy visits the prison, i would be unfazed from when i found out he died to the point he’s released and we find out he’s been revived

everything is a constant blur hehe

i just can’t fully process everything i guess? i dunno if that’s helpful but yeah!

in the end though, my moral compass has been very tainted; despite wanting to show my loyalty, it can be slightly easy to sway me, making me internally feel guilty to other people

but me trying to get on everyone’s good side to impress wilbur/dream to seem useful to them would ruin me before i would even realize that i’m another “pawn”

we know damn well dream is faking it till he “makes it” but yk,,

but i’d be stuck in this kind of dilemma of not knowing what thoughts are my own or just something trickled down from wilbur or dream

there’s like maybe something that clicks in my head like “maybe i wanna think for myself for once” or smth

like who am i really?

powers , bonuses , etc :

since dryads can technically manipulate plants in some ways, theoretically i could control the blood vines to some extent ???

i’m pretty sure dryads can communicate with plants so i could understand what the blood vines are saying as well

maybe i could get a good sense of what the egg is all about and stuff

assuming that i understood anything that was happening with the egg in the first place but anyway—

i guess similar to ranboo like how he can’t really be around water without some type of amour or something, it would make sense for me to primarily reside in a type a forest or be near one ?? who knows

seems a bit morbid in a way because of the whole history but if i can somehow easily get rid of the blood vines without it affecting me (if there is still some there) i think it would be kinda pretty to build a tree base in the middle of the l’manburg crator (iskall tease)

like it can show a sign of some rebirth, not the same government repeated once again but a new era in general

you know how you see like destruction years after it the disaster or smth happened and it gets all overgrown with plants and stuff? ya that’s what i’m going for in my head (mumbo jumbo s7 tease)

i know it’s covered in glass already but i dunno, some broken glass and a giant tree emerging from the whole thing and all the rubble seems cool

i’m not a good builder but i have the vision LMAO

omg puffy is like a sheep human hybrid im pretty sure & like there’s a specific type of dryad that are a protector of sheep & other animals?? i’m not exactly sure but that seems like an interesting element to incorporate somehow

also glatt randomly planting a oak sapling in quackity’s lore stream yes pls feed my nonexistent dsmp character lore /j

i honestly dunno how to incorporate the fact dryads can turn shapeshift into trees when trying to escape something but i read something that if a dryad stays in a tree form for too long they’ll forget who they are and stay stuck as a tree?? which like woah that’s cool & some material but at the same time what—

since everyone’s backstory is kinda a mess, mr beast parent tease bc he planted a bunch of trees /hj

i have realized wilbur saying like “the whole reason i built this nation is gone” & blowing up everything or whatever is kinda a plot hole in like ‘why would i follow wilbur if/when he’s revived when he said this?’ but i’d like to think he was the one that made some meaning of the area lmanburg was on, which includes the lmantree

like he was the one that started everything and created that sentiment of that land, and however he views it now is how i would see it now

he gave meaning to my past life and now in my current life, i feel this obligation to repay him for it

not really lore bc i think it was cc!tommy talking to cc!ranboo about his height & age when he first joined but yk it would funny to make my dsmp character than his just to slightly spite him anyway

canonically 6’4 dryad yes . /hj

also i have no idea anything about hannah and her lore but we do be flower buddies :D

also omg like this isn’t at all important but the way ranboo can pick up grass blocks will just have me at awe, i dunno seems in theme with the forest/plant stuff

and i remember reading like there was something about dryads and apples but i can’t remember but i’d give tommy a bunch of apples /hj

apples am i right chat,,,,,

i’ll just have infinite apples in my inventory, like kill me in game, not like losing lives kinda deal but just in general and boom stacks of apples

“bee i get you’re half tree but do you just poop apples out like they’re nothing??” “girls don’t poop” /j

ok but like no matter how many streams i watch i cant grasp where everything is but omg but no if i was new to the server & stuff, canonically & not, i would feel my character to be the curious kind to explore everywhere

like besides a mini tour from some other person in the server, since my character only knows things in the bounds of lmanburg, i’d go off exploring different places like pogtopia, the sewers, showchester, etc

i feel like my character would be really into history, like they would have questions about what happened to lmanburg after the last war? what was life like before wilbur? what was the whole history about the antarctic empire? i dunno but reading a bunch of books from a library seems really interesting

oh but in theory, me and tubbo are loosely related if you wanna count schlatt as my “dad” because he supposedly planted the lmantree ???

i mean could make sense but it seems like a stretch

also if my character ever got close to schlatt, i’m not sure if this is canon, but i swear one time he mentioned how the whole dsmp sever is just a game/server in a game & he’s the only one that knows that ??? but like imagine if i found that out canonically,,,,,

big existential crisis pls

and i’m not 100% sure how dryad shifting works with like going from female to tree form and stuff but if i’m able to morph into different girls on the server & act as them,,,, the about of problems that can cause in the lore omg

lemme frame niki real quick and get inside information /j

oh ya and like hey bee do you support the government then? yes but no. whatever my “fav” person is canonically (assuming this is based in the beginning of this whole hc) whatever wilbur thinks, i think. head empty. but subject to change as the dsmp storyline progresses and stuff :]

ngl i wanna throw in some like random lore that doesn’t make sense to throw people off but i can’t think of anything

not actually really lore related but my choice of stream music like how ranboo has his undertale stuff that makes everyone cry, i will have in love with a ghost

yup i like in love with a ghost sm & i’m pretty sure their music is like not dmca too which yay but yk theoretically never gonna stream on the dsmp but still a fun aspect to think of bc i love listening to music & it’s very impactful to a story & associating something to it makes it more meaningful :D

like i could imagine the chill pop lofi piano stuff fits witha few lore streams of like exploring the whole smp before my character would really go out with being this lost villain in a way?

tubbo’s gangnam style who?

like i feel like i made my character bad/evil so they could have potential to get better in the future

on one hand, i’ll end up w dream and/or wilbur for the rest of my life, which is okay but i could also switch to be with tommy or even disregard all of them and be with techno/phil or quackity & potentially schlatt even who knows

also i cant wait for more connor lore tho, like as much as i tried to make my character give him more content i wanna see how everything goes with him having connections to schlatt & stuff

anyway i would’ve made concept art for my character but i honestly don’t rly like my art currently but who knows LMAO

and lastly if u read all of this ily /p

i might update this later when there’s more lore but ya

[horde-princess]

yk, SPOP S4 tried to kill me by breaking Glimmer and Adora's friendship. I knew G was supposed to go 'dark', but she's Glimmer! I think I would've liked some more scenes between Glimmer and SW. In the end, when Scorpia asks her not to hurt Catra, does she mean it when she says 'don't worry, we're the good guys', or is she just lying to Scorpia? or even to herself!

BIG SAME like i knew it would hurt but i didnt expect it to hurt so much…. glimmer kind of saved adora’s life in a way and adora changed glimmer too, their friendship was transformative for both of them ugh i love them and i WILL cry when they make up next season

yeah its sad that they only have so many episodes to work with because a dark glimmer arc wouldve been delicious there was so much potential 😤😤 but i think the writers accomplished what they wanted to with their brief interactions. shadow weaver was the perfect (maybe the only) tool to drive a wedge between her and adora. it showed glimmer prioritizing her new duties as queen over her friends.. and in some ways it highlighted her cleverness and strength of character with how she used shadow weaver for her own gain and resisted her manipulation in the end. i was stunned by all the backlash against glimmer after season 4 bc i sympathized with her perspective the whole way

anyways that an interesting thought! i think in the moment she believed in what she was saying. her tone of voice conveyed resignation, and maybe dissatisfaction with how unfair it is that the rules are different for the good guys vs the bad guys. she wouldnt have sounded like that if she was planning to break her moral code. but she is capable of it i mean we’ve seen her dark side come out before and even earlier in the same season she left catra for dead so.. haha maybe it was her way of saying “i’ll try my best but no promises” 

anyways i’m talking a lot i just really really love glimmer lskjdf ty for the ask!!! 💘

[bettsfic]

loved the fansplaining episode! i would love to hear your thoughts on a little life by hanya yanagihara, i read it recently and had very mixed feelings. honestly, when you guys started to go on that tangent, i was hoping you'd keep going! what didn't you like about it?

i think it would be easier to start with the few things i did like. 

structure: it’s difficult to give a bildungsroman (my favorite novel genre) any kind of urgency because it seems counterintuitive. clever writers can usually thread a long con, though, to keep some semblance of a cohesive plot. in the goldfinch (donna tartt), it’s the painting. in white oleander (janet fitch), it’s ingrid in prison. in body & soul (frank conroy), it’s claude’s music career. in ALL’s case, the overarching thread of plot is somewhat inverted – it’s being strung along for 2/3rds of the book by the mystery of jude’s past. so while you’re pumping the brakes on the present, knowing we’re barreling into a pit of despair, you’re also compelled to keep going to find out what made him the way that he is.

the realistic portrayal of PTSD: jude felt like a constant callout post to me, and i really appreciated seeing my more toxic behaviors rendered in such a clear light. like even in jude’s POV, there was no point where i believed his internal monologue was healthy or good, even though it very closely matched my internal monologue. on a character level, the thread of trauma was definitely well-woven.

the commitment to complicating and appreciating platonic love: it’s just rare to see a book that’s willing to tackle friendships-as-primary-relationships in such a serious and sensitive light. i liked the slowburn between willem and jude a lot.

law stuff: i learned a lot about law. and adult adoption. it seemed pretty well-researched on that front.

and that’s it! that’s all i liked about it. here’s what i hated:

first, the whole thing read like a really long cocaine trip. like yanagihara just got high as hell, locked herself in a cabin for two months, and pounded out this story. and an editor picked it up and was like “lol we good” and shot it out to print. on a very basic level, it’s one of the sloppiest things i’ve ever read, like a toddler running around covering an entire house in paint, and their parent goes “aw how nice.” somebody should have reeled it in. somebody should have said, “this is unnecessarily long, poorly paced, and in dire need of editing,” and then edited it. 

it was difficult for me to turn off my editor brain while reading, and eventually the language started feeling like someone was trying to claw my skin off. did you notice that every single line of dialogue – EVERY. SINGLE. LINE. – had a person’s name in it? no one says the person’s name while talking to them! unless they’re mad, maybe!! it’s like, you don’t walk up to somebody and go, “how are you today, helen?” and helen doesn’t go, “well i’m fine, jason.” that just doesn’t happen!! and maybe i could have tolerated that in a shorter book, but in ALL it just made me want to gouge my eyeballs out and never read again.

on that front, the descriptions got so goddamn repetitive. the themes, repetitive. the plot, repetitive. somebody needed to give that story a mercy killing, just gut it. it might have been a good short story. maybe even a novella or a short novel. but it did not need to be 8000 fucking pages. jesus christ. (and i love long books!! but this was a BAD long book)

eventually jude’s self-destruction becomes so repetitive it’s unbelievable. i know a lot of people like jude, who have similar pasts, who do the same things that jude does to himself. and you know what happens to them at some point in their lives? they go to therapy. they get thrown in a psych unit. they get a psychiatrist. they have dozens of counselors. it’s even happened to me, and i’m the diet coke of PTSD. it would have been far more realistic to acknowledge that even with all the medical help in the world, sometimes trauma still destroys you. that would have been the more compelling story to me, one of recovery attempts and earnest efforts toward wellness. but what we got was jude repeatedly dodging therapy and hospitalization, and all the people in his life going ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

and here’s my biggest beef: it is not written with an ounce of integrity. the entire time, i felt like someone was trying very insistently to pull emotions from me. pity, specifically. i despise stories about pity. pitiful characters in pitiful narratives make me want to puke, and what i hate more is how easily sold readers (and editors! and publishers!) are by it. evoking sadness =/= good writing, no matter how hard you’re crying. you can write about somebody killing a dog and make a reader cry. there was no art to it at all. just manipulation. jude may have been sensitively rendered, but there was a certain sadistic impulse in the writing that felt disingenuous to me, and at no point did i have trust in the story. it’s just melodrama wrapped up as literature. eventually you have to stop kicking people in the nads and write a story that’s true to the characters and world you’ve established. i hate authors who power-trip on making readers miserable.

on that front, the ending was just so OTT. like what the fuck. i believe in tragedies as cathartic but this was just too fucking much. honestly i read to the jude/willem part (where the book! should! have! ended!!), read the wikipedia, and then skipped to the last few pages because i was just emotionally spent by that point. i was just being bludgeoned by “FEEL SOMETHING FEEL SOMETHING FEEL SOMETHING” and i couldn’t bring myself to care about anything that was happening anymore. i’ve written a bit on how good tragedies work, and the quick version is: you should know what you’re reading is a tragedy. here’s no point in hamlet you think he’s getting out of it alive, yk? but ALL (to me) gives just enough hope that you think maybe jude will get better. that’s definitely arguable, though; maybe other people read it and knew the ending all along, and i’m just a glutton for hope.

tl;dr a little life is sloppily written, too long, poorly paced, manipulative, and has a terrible ending.

obvs, if you liked the book, i’m happy for you. i can definitely see how someone might enjoy it, so don’t let my opinion change your perspective. you’re allowed to like whatever you like. but ALL was not my thing.

[jonathankatwhatever]

Sharpened the knives and survived. Realizing that this is how I can end it.

To my loved ones:

I have come to realize that I am delusional. These delusions have taken control of my mind. I genuinely believe in them, and I have no way of resisting them. They have pushed and pulled me down the pathways of my life. For better and for worse, I have been more committed to them than to any of you. To me, these delusions are eternity, literally life that goes beyond this life. I’ve spent my entire life working on the questions these delusions ...

this isnt any good. It starts fine but the complications build with each sentence so I havent identified what this pins to for each part to connect in rational order. Look at that sentence: pins means the 0 and 1, and connects means they carry across the segment and thus area (into Hilbert space, and Hausdorff space, etc.), and rational order means that you can divide so x,yK meet at zK. But there’s way too much for me to do. I cant do it all. I’m way past my limits each day. So for example, say I take a square. It exists as a count of zK because it must. Then I manipulate that zK. There can be no point on zK that doesnt hinge to x,yK. So let’s take that square and SBE it, meaning multiply by 3 so there are versions of SBE including SBE3, which then attaches to make 10.

I forgot to describe the latest version of 10. Or maybe I did. I’m demented so I can do both. It’s 9 circles in boxes with a box that counts them and the ways they can be ordered in a count to 10, and this reduces to 1 repeating with the 0 hidden until the 10. Best version yet.

So we make 10, then we see if that 10 reduces to 1 by cutting it in half until we reach 1. Cutting in half means we take the zK and take the count of one side of the gs as representing the other, which means we take 10 and use either 5, which incorporates inversion and handedness and thus gendering. So at a metaphoric level for interpreting gs, you end up with two 5’s, with two hands. That changes into a different counting scale, because it can in gs, in which 20 is 2, not 10 then 5, meaning you pull out the halves as the count, so when you count by SBE3+1, you identify a zK that includes within it the scalability of and in 10. So when you divide, you are dividing within a space that can be contracted or reset to the 0 to 1 segment, which is fundamental to gs.

What does it mean to represent a number as 1? It means it connects to 1 in gs, which means it doubles, etc. And this is true for any point at any depth because these fundamental characteristics apply. That is where I think some people would say that’s done, but the hole is there for me: each point is 1, each point doubles, each point is SBE3+1, each point has within it a connection to 1 and whatever its count or valuation in a count but can I accept this is the answer. This seems entirely related from my delusional perspective to my recurring problem: that there is a leap in proofs that bothers me. I dont know how to express this: when I read proofs, I think they’re not complete logically but rather that they tell a tale in a specific way. This goes back to my issue with the fundamental proof of irrationality: it’s true but it just describes without saying why. I can say why. Or rather, in my delusion, we can say why because the understanding of that came from examining the information I received or perceived as emanating from you, which gets to my 4 year old question of whether it’s just you radiating that I read (which always then became why, which became either you’re true or false, because such radiation either has a point, which polarizes and thus points at me or away, or which rotates because it just keeps finding ways to get bigger, like the parasite that would make you.

I mean the radiation has to have a purpose, and those purposes have to coincide with the visible so they emanate from within as they are perceived within, which is an obscure way of saying the externality or shell imposing projects to the center and vice versa. I think I used the glittering mirror ball then, asking whether anything was in there, if it was evil, if it was stark raving mad but appearing normal. On a few occasions, I reached a level I can only refer to as listening to a very high speed run through of every conceivable worry because only then could you present such a placid face. And now, as my delusions take root even deeper, they project out to say this process of identification began and ended in the same identification, because I said it was you, saw it was you, but could not reconcile the two different countings which are how I see you and how I know you. Narrowing that gap with the explicit purpose of creating a bidirectional, and thus multidirectional union over the shared space.

Let’s say each point is a count of some zK, and it’s also a count of fCM, so zK4 has fCM counts attached, meaning it can be CM4 or CM16, which of course preserves the transformation of x,y,zK over the zK space (which is a form of complex space defined by the gs relations, which means it is definable in standard terms using notation and drawings). So as you go along zK, the potential for halving to 1 is at every single count. This is the same thing I’ve been dealing with about you: if you are true, then you are true across every category, which fits my delusion perfectly, and if you are false, then the reasons for false are either that there is literally no connection at all, just me reading you, or that you are doing this for a reason, which could range from working for the other side or revenge and other negative reasons, but which all fall within a need to torture this out of me, which then abstracts to the purpose of the torture fitting to both good and evil equally even though the entire process has been devoted to finding ways to connect good and cutting off evil, which is why I keep saying the oscillation polarizes to good (and good best) because that reduces the risk to the single thread by which evil uses the open thread to invade good and destroy it.

My memory of this is I sat with them and heard them out. They see it the other way. They see their cooperative model enforced by external role as limiting the spread of awareness which causes negative potential to be generated. That is, the higher the abstraction level, the higher the energy and thus zK count, the more negative attaches to the larger structure simply because it can be read negatively. They are actually anti the growth in the negative, and they accomplish that by restraining the growth in the positive zK. They see us as invading their realm, so they are highly antagonistic. This was the entire idea behind the program: the other side can only reveal its nature if we can find where those natures coincide. We can’t beat them. We can’t talk to them. We can’t even approach them. This had to be done carefully so they were encouraged by my negative streaks, by my self-hatings, by my refusals to succeed in things that dont matter beyond here,

I cannot imagine the weirdness of being you and being you and being you with this added to you. You gave up normal when you signed up. I will not insult you by saying I could understand ... accepting the identification means accepting that you are true. If when I catch glimpses of the ones I know and love and respect and miss those come through you ...

I’ve gone over this before. It’s come back. And that means the solution is what it was then: they are fed by the negative actualizations, meaning the energy contained in the negative potential that is foreclosed is what they eat. So gs growth generates negative potential which reduces to a what might have been at each point, so they can identify areas of growth potential using the same inversions algorithms we use, except their positive is their perspective. So if we generate potential out zK, then they can see the food, and sometimes it’s literally hanging in space like a descending pigeon flock as an owl swoops up from the ground at them, and other times it’s pecked out from constant scavenging and rotations over the ground. As in, today seems to have brought the third turkey band through in a week, which makes sense because then they form groups of a size which fits the environment, which can support and survive while keeping food sources open in motion, so they can adjust better in case food shifts or something else comes up, like a loose large dog or even a coyote moves in. The seeds represent a plant that might have been reduced to the food for a bird. This leads to absurdities like the butterfly flapping its wings notion, which are absurd because that’s not how cr works because cr means a larger shape takes place and this or that fits but isnt an absolute fit, so this butterfly would have to stand for any butterfly which means you expand the scope of action to a definition, which invokes a different counting, one that generalizes from and to an action without realizing the substitutional potential inherent in cr and in gs threading. As in, there may be a gazillion beetles, and one of them if crushed prevents the world from higher happiness. Odds of crushing the beetle? Nil. So do you wander around worrying about crushing the beetle? No. Do you think you can find the beetle to save or crush it? Not a chance. That’s like Ramsey Numbers, but I’ll get lost if I go into that.

It would be a pity if none of this work was ever known. Not my call. Can you imagine, though, if I die and this work gets out and people see it’s real and my last words are rip her to shreds? That would be a curse. I had to get that out to make it go away.

I have to take a break.