#not gonna say anythign else bc i got nothing else to say

[ganondoodle]

man, totk has truly broken something in my love for the zelda franchise, saw the new title announcement and didnt feel anything :I

[rcyharper]

every day i come on here and see an essay from the lobdell guy in my inbox

[asthewxrldturns-blog]

((stressed))

((breaking news--I’m a horrible person cause I get worked up over random things, sometimes even nothing at all! but once I start being stressed it takes a while for me to stop! and I feel the need to vent it to others when that only leads me to people hating me more! so I just sit here lettin it bottle up and stuff cause people don’t wanna see me as the bad person I really am!!!))

((and to make matters worse, I let anxiety get the best of me, convincing myself that everyone hates me and everything I do is bad in some way! and if I say that I need more time off school cause stress is killing me, my mom will just get mad--making me stress more!! and y’know what’s great???))

((I always expect the worst from everything, and then the worst always happens! and yet people tell me it’ll get better!! and they’re supportive!!! I mean I appreciate it but where is the improvement? when does getting better happen?? why am I so stressed over absolute nothing rn???))

((I have no idea!! at all! yet I still stress my ass off and no one seems to understand how much it affects me until I say something! that’s when they notice--no one cares otherwise! and wow I’m a bad person for expecting em to care abt me aren’t I?? I’m just lookin for attention that’s what they think??? everyone looks for attention it’s somethin people need in order to not die of loneliness!!!))

((and yeah guess who’s lonely?? me! and guess who also shuts herself away from the outside world and doesn’t know how to let her emotions out in any way other than rambling and distancing herself??? ding-ding, also me!! correct! wow I never would’ve guessed--oh wait that’s right why would someone like me be lonely??))

((”oh, but someone like you can’t be lonely! you’ve got over 500 followers and you have people to talk to!! why don’t you just go wallow with them huh?!?!” like do people think that’s just. easy? sure it helps sometimes and sure I do it anyway but no it’s not easy!))

((in fact this isn’t easy either! I’m just typin whatever comes to mind first and not thinkin of consequences cause man what even are consequences am I right?? never think of em til they have an impact on me and by then it’s too late! so like yeah wow I don’t even know what I’m doin here!!))

((and I’m gonna regret this the second I’m done typing and yet I do it anyway!! why? hell if i know!!! no one would understand anyway cause I suck at explaining things and I don’t even know what’s goin on myself!! like damn!!! get a life Lexi learn how to be a decent human being instead of failing at everything and only providing one source of interesting media!!! actually be interesting for once when you’re not writing demonic edge-fests like can you do anythign else???))

((nope! can’t! don’t know any better! the public only wants one thing and I can’t provide interesting content at any other point in time! what’s a personal life gotta do with that plotline huh? does it have demons in it? no? then it’s not interesting!! do somethin else omg go be useful you lame kinnie!!!))

((like,,,y’gotta have somethin interesting in that brain of yours, me! once PEP ends, that’s it! game over, nothin else, no more ideas, nothing interesting! done! waste of space! lame blog to be remembers as the one with the mun who’s just a big crybaby!!! not worth revisiting or re-reading or anything, lost to the tumblr archives never to be looked at again!!! and that! that’s just,,,it uh,,,))

((,,,,,,,,,I am not ok. not at all. idk how to explain it and now I look like an insane freakshow who just busted out of an asylum. way to go, me,,,clearly that’ll help with your self-esteem. clearly if you try to get outta school tomorrow bc stress, your mom will listen! obviously! she totally cares!!! she doesn’t think you’ve missed too much school, not at all!!!!! school definitely isn’t the only thing that matters to her, nope, she clearly understands your mental shit and how you need breaks!!!!! even if it’s pretty much every week!!!!!! I. need. b r e a k s!))

((and UGH there I go gettin the public involved in my personal shit!!! not worth it anymore is it? venting only leads to negative feedback you know this you edgy 16-year-old buffoon you’ve had people tell you to kill yourself and wow it was over dumb venting but you don’t know better and yet you sit in anxiety and let everything out on accident cause you can’t control your emotions and wow there you go again you worthless piece of absolute shit get off the fuccin computer jesus christ get a real social life my god stop wastin time Lexi make yourself useful and talk to real people face-to-face for once despite no one understanding anything you say cause that’ll work))