#not beating the buck kinnie allegations tonight

[autisticjoshrusso]

okay the eddie cheating storyline is crazy to me because i have a story from high school that uh... well. the parallels are there! so im gonna tell the story and let you guys draw your own conclusions about how i think buck finding out about eddie cheating is going to go <3

(for the sake of their privacy AND to illustrate the point i will be changing the names of everyone involved to the names of 911 characters)

so coming into my senior year of high school, i was a bit in between friend groups due to Unrelated Events, and found myself becoming closer friends with an acquaintance of mine, marisol. i knew she had a boyfriend, eddie, who she'd been dating for quite some time, but i didn't really know the guy.

until low and behold, him and i have a film class together! we were told up front that there would be group projects, so naturally i decide that a vague acquaintance is better than a complete stranger, and end up forming a group with eddie and some mutual friends. the class is fun, we make film projects together where we get to act like we're actual professionals working together on a set, and generally i start to consider him a good friend of mine rather than just my friend's boyfriend. eventually id start to consider him one of my best friends, even.

all is well until, for some fucking reason, eddie decides to cheat on marisol with someone that went to a different school. and when i say i was livid. i lost my damn mind. everyone who sat near us in that film class was stressed because the ice was palpable. i told myself that the rage was a righteous anger, that i hated him for what he did to marisol, and that was all there was to it. i was lying to myself.

see, the truth was, somewhere along the way id started falling for him. i couldn't admit this to anyone, obviously, because marisol was my friend, and i had no desire to hurt her in that way. and yet. when i found out eddie cheated on her with someone else? that cut so deep. i felt jealous, i felt rejected, i felt thoroughly unwanted. like, oh, so you are willing to cheat. you just aren't willing to cheat on her with me.

i stayed so mad for so long. even after marisol forgave him i still refused to let him come back and sit with the rest of us at the lunch tables. i focused on my coming out, which he'd so rudely interrupted, and tried not to think about the fact that all my friends were starting to find my anger unreasonable. were starting to wonder about how i really felt about him. they couldn't understand why i was more angry than the person he'd hurt, because we were just best friends, it's not like he cheated on me.

he eventually won me back over, and the story goes on in unrelated directions that make me sick to recall, so we'll end this tragic tale here for now. i think this is enough for you all to get the picture anyway. hope you enjoyed <3