#not any of the regular wof tags tho

[buggy-is-a-warrior]

i've been doing a lot of thinking about Arc 2 and my memories and all that...

um this got really long. kind of a ranty venty kinda post. not super bad, i'm just talking about canon and darkstalker (arc 2) and stuff. if u know wof canon. uh. yeah.

I really want to say that I had a happy ending. That I'm living proof of a fix-it fic and that everything ties up perfectly and there's sunshine and rainbows forever.

But that's not what happened.

I am very close to canon. There are some minor changes- I was in a relationship with Turtle and Blue, for example- but for the most part, I am canon-accurate.

I had a bit of trouble with this, because I act so different from how I did in the main series, but... I haven't been put under the same conditions. Of course I would act different.

Doing some introspection, I am very reactive and snappish when I'm upset. If I'm frustrated, or not being listened to, I yell. It's something I really don't like about myself. I have kind of a silly, dry sense of humor. I really do act much like I did in canon, but just.. healthier, if that makes sense?

But, aside from a few minor changes, I am canon-compliant.

Including the entire Darkstalker situation.

I was never told about Darkstalker. I never found out what happened. What my Winglet did to him. What they allowed to happen. After swearing up and down that changing someone with magic was awful, after going through it and witnessing its repercussions over and over, they fucking did it.

I find it very hard to not start yelling about this. I'm mad! I have the right to be mad! I don't think I'm wrong for this! They changed him into a completely different dragon, erased his memories, his heritage, for what? Teehee, he's part RainWing, take that? I don't think that's right.

And after all that, I never found out. They never told me. I had to come all the way back down from the Ice Kingdom to reunite, all for what?

"Oh, sorry, he's gone for good we swear!! No we can't tell you what happened. But he's gone!!!!!! Noooo he won't wake up this time we proooomiseeee."

I suppose I kind of see where they're coming from? I was discussing it with Turtle, and he said that if he were braver, he might be worried about what he'd do. I understand that. I was angry. It's awful, what he did. I was angry. I'm still angry.

But... did Qibli and Moon really think that I would be so angry I'd harm a child? A child? I understand not telling me right then and giving me some time to calm down- I was honestly a little scary. I threw a vase. Not at them, but still.

The thing is, they didn't give me time to calm down. Or they did, depending on how you look at it.

They never told me. I don't remember how I found out. Turtle didn't tell me, I think he thought I already knew (he did say that he felt bad and that he should've told me/would've if he knew).

STILL. They never told me. All I remember is that when I was told, when I did find out (because really, were they going to keep it a secret forever?), I wasn't angry. Maybe a little mad, at Qibli and Moon, but I wasn't angry. I was just sad. Upset. After all of that, all those kind words and uplifting stories and everything, they didn't trust me.

This is not directed at anyone reading. I'm a little upset about all of this still, but I wouldn't say I'm mad, and certainly not at anyone seeing this.

Moon, Qibli, if you're reading this... number one, hello. I miss you both so much. You were incredible. Number two, I'm not mad. I just want to talk. I want to know why you didn't tell me. I want to know your reasoning. No more secrets, no more lies. Tell me, upfront, what you did to Darkstalker, and why.

^ If you're not my Moon or Qibli, this doesn't apply to you! Not in a "grr go away" kind of way. Don't feel like you have to explain actions that weren't yours.

Kinkajou (not going to tag you, but Mewo, you know who you are /nm), I don't think this applies to you either. I don't know if our memories line up. I don't say this from a place of hostility, I'm just thinking out loud.

Peril (liquidjuice), same goes for you. You're fantastic. Keep burning. <3 /p

THAT ALL SOUNDED REALLY CONCERNING. I'm fine lol. dw i'm okay :3 I just wanted to talk about this, try and talk myself through it?

If you're sitting here going "Wait, what about this scene?", assume yes. Assume it's canon to me. You can ask, I don't mind (/gen), but know that yes, it's probably canon.

The Peril scene (book 8)

The vase scene (book 10)

All of them!!!

Alright, that's it, bye bye!! Thank you for reading this far lol