#not an '08 baby tho gosh no

[liverpool-enjoyer]

how am i only JUS NOW finding out that i share a birthday with PRETTY. ODD.

[foryouthegays]

spreading propaganda [Dream SMP] liveblog yall lets go. this is so long i am sorry but the end is an actual summary of what happens asldkfa

sellout timer pog: 00:30:20, 01:00:40, 01:31:35, 02:02:03 (for like a second), 02:03:00, 02:34:35

time spent reading donations: 10 minutes, 20ish seconds. 

fanart credit he puts up (all from twitter i think): snumkt, reinneart, lihnsu, sestqr, jester_u, Brigade_Lost, natonyy

also taggin @antarctic-empire-technoblade​ :) theres an actual summary at the end that isnt just me ramblin so,,,,,,ye. i am so sorry its so long a;dkfja i dont know how to condense things 

00:00:35 “i stole a lot of sand recently,” ah yes, a casual conversation starter, the admission of theft 

00:03:55 hE HAS A VILLAGER TRADING HALL CHAPEL IN THE VILLAGE SIR THAT IS ILLEGAL 

00:04:13 

tubbo: -..--...--- 

ranboo: that means beans right

no, ranboo, not it does not (i put it into a translator and it just. it doesnt mean anything. i didnt see any spaces so im just. what was mr tubbo trying to say

00:04:35: relationship advice with technoblade! [reading donation] “‘techno, my boyfriend said he’ll never sub to you, how do i handle this travesty?’ uh, clearly you need to break up with him, and send me more money, is the most- that’s the most unbiased opinion I can give you, it’s just a good life decision, alright? It’s just a good life decision.”

00:16:00 ranboo hi!!!! him garden :D 

HOUND ARMY HOUND ARMY 00:18:10

00:20:15 ‘i have not made a tier list [for dinosaurs] yet’ Y E T? ? ? ?? ? 

00:20:55

“‘Hey, are you uncomfortable with being part of the SBI family dynamic?’ Uh, I don’t really- it’s not a matter of being uncomfortable, it’s just a matter of people making massive revisions to my character and the lore three months into the story without telling me, and it’s like, ‘no, that doesn’t- the story doesn’t- so many things don’t make sense now! What?? What???’ but if you want to make like, fanart of it, it’s fine”

00:21:25 imagine believing in airplanes, couldnt be me

00:21:35 SKLDJFAK a dono is like, hey can u call my new cousin a nerd, and technos like [claps] yOUVE COME TO THE RIGHT MAN im all about bullying infant children 

lakjshdfl 00:26:15 ‘philza this does not sound lore at all please’ poor techno

00:27:30 HKJSFDL :crab: TUBBO IS GONE :crab: also i cant tell if techno says ‘KILL HIM DEAD’ or ‘KILL HIM, DAD’ 

00:30:20 ‘we should have a grinch episode, where i go around stealing presents from l’manburg’ DO IT

also i was in chat at 00:31:25ish and i said ‘subscribe to technoblade’ and RIGHT AFTER techno said ‘did i hear subscribe to technoblade?’ and i felt so heard 

00:33:25 why is his only response to being seen in enemy lines to just stay realllyyyyy still a;lkdfjasf 

00:39:45 ‘this is crucial information coming to you live from anarchy news’ A;LSDKFJA;LSDF

00:46:25 :CRAB: RANBOO IS GONE :CRAB: DEAD MEN TELL NO TALES 

alkdfja; 00:47:55 techno talks (sarcastically) abt how great it is when chat tells him where his stuff is

00:48:50 awww techno showin his not-dad his hound army!!! so cute 

00:55:30 techno specifies that theyre all characters/roleplayin!!!

techno talkin to phil is literally like a kid talkin to his dad after not seein him for a while. like yeah yeah family isnt canon in this but KSJDFLA hes like ‘phillll tommys being annoying also look at this new poster!!!!’ its so cute

01:09:20 A;SDJFADSL THE VILLAGER JUST. FALLS THROUGH THE FLOOR

techno nd phil reference smp earth at 01:19:50!!!!

(ik some people dont like enbyctechno so heres ur warnin, its just for this line tho) techno says ‘no one man should have this power’ but he HAS that power. therefore. mr c!blade is not a guy 01:35:00ish idk im not goin back to check

01:38:35 alright gang lets split up and look for clues 

01:45:20 ‘my chat’s sayin theres a 0% chance this is gonna work,,,,thATS A CHANCE I’M WILLING TO TAKE, CHAT’ skjdflasl;dfjaf (also, bit after, after readin the wiki say its 0% chance: ‘i like those odds’) 

01:48:15 [abt the zombie villager baby] 

Techno: on the bright side, we may have inflicted the optimal amount of trauma onto this child for it to become funny? 

Ranboo: ooooh yeah! it can become a minecraft youtuber!

techno: yeeeeeeah!!

pls get some therapy

a;ldkfassa the mental image of techno ownin an orphanage,,,,paldkfajslfasf 01:51:35

a;ldsifjasdklf ranboo is canonically a villager now, pog 01:56:50

01:57:50 ranboo: ‘they say that im built different, i am built different, in the fact that i have no moral backbone.’

01:58:30 BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD also why is techno so good at the bow like WHAT he looks in third person and turns nd shoots in like a second and hits most of the time its scary literally look at ranboo a;ldsjkfadsf hes like a porcupine 

ASKLJDFASLDF RANBOOS ‘OH NO HE KNOWS HOW TO OPEN DOORS’ AT 02:02:25 JUST HAS SUCH TECHNO SKYBLOCK VID VIBES ADLKJFALSDFJA OH MY GOSH

02:06:35 “i feel there has been an attempt on my life,” "no thats just how we greet each other in our country” nether lore pog?

02:08:45 why does techno casually type at 120 wpm?????  god i hate him so much why is he like thisssss ugh (also it took ~3 seconds to type 7 words (34 characters) which is 140 wpm and 680 cpm if i know how to do math i hate it here) /lh

nd then he types ‘punz we’re all outside your house get over here’ which is 47 characters nd 9 words nd it took him 5 seconds to type which is 564 cpm and 108 wpm so his average (from these two samples which. isnt a lot. should i do a post abt this in the future?) is 124 wpm and 622 cpm. hes so fast. 

SDA;FKJASDF PHIL WHY R U SO VIOLENT 

02:17:00 PUNZ POG ALSO MANIFOLD KILLED IN THE HOLY LAND

technos complainin bout the fights bein boring,,,,,,,fight them all, techno. do it. 1v8. do it, coward. 

02:24:02 ‘maybe the real combat was the friends we made along the way’ 

02:25:16 i love that technos first instinct when someone dies is to check what sword/axe killed them nd what enchants r on it aldskfjads

i love how techno calls the manhunt music ‘dream music’ its so funny to me

right before he ends the stream he says ‘p e r h a p s’ to techno plushies and i just,,,, wa n t 

if ya just want an actual summary and not that MESS:

Technoblade starts the stream in his house. the first thing he does is put another piece of fanart in his house, this one by snumkt on twitter. he goes to l’manburg, where he sneaks around very sneakily (/s) and replaces anti-techno propaganda with pro-techno fanart, stating that “If they take it down, it’s ‘cause they hate fanartists.” (00:09:18). 

While placing posters, Techno checks in on his hound army, and reveals that he thinks someone had been in the area, because a wolf teleported to him while he was home. He thinks someone placed water, the dog stood up, and then teleported. (00:18:25)

After breeding the dogs, Techno reads donations and one of the questions is about the SBI family dynamics. Here’s what he says at 00:20:55 

“‘Hey, are you uncomfortable with being part of the SBI family dynamic?’ Uh, I don’t really- it’s not a matter of being uncomfortable, it’s just a matter of people making massive revisions to my character and the lore three months into the story without telling me, and it’s like, ‘no, that doesn’t- the story doesn’t- so many things don’t make sense now! What?? What???’ but if you want to make like, fanart of it, it’s fine”

He then meets up with Philza, who is being escorted by Tubbo. Techno goes to Philzas house, and hides in his new basement. He joins their VC and finds Phil, Wilbur, Tommy, and Tubbo. talking about birthdays. Tubbo goes to the basement and sees Technos invis particles, hits him, and he is revealed. Techno kills tubbo, and declares it canon as a joke. 

He goes back outside, deafened on Discord, and puts down more propaganda. Philza joins his call, and they meet up to try and find Technos stolen items. They don’t find the barrel, but they do find a hidden room under the podium. Techno puts a piece of propaganda in the room. (00:43:30)

While Phil is killing an enderman, Ranboo finds them, and is killed by Techno. (00:46:25) 

Techno takes Phil to see his Hound Army, but they’re stopped by Tubbo. Techno tries to pretend to be Ranboo, but Ranboo goes up to them, so his cover is blown. Techno’s chased to the portal. Phil and Techno meet again in the Nether, and they go back to the house. 

At the house, Phil and Techno talk about the SBI characters, the sellout timer goes off, and then they go downstairs to cure a zombie villager. While it’s curing, Techno gathers books to make a new bow, with Power V, Punch II, Unbreaking III, Flame, and Mending. 

Philza reveals that Ranboo is coming over to give Phil a present. Techno seems excited at this, mostly at the fact that Ranboo can be his new bows test subject. 

Before Ranboo arrives, the villager is cured, and they find out it is a nitwit, meaning it can’t trade or get a job. Techno and Phil start working on a tunnel to bring the villager to a lava pool, so the other villagers won’t gossip and raise their prices. 

Ranboo joins the call at 01:15:35, right before they’re going to bring the villager to the lava pool. He gifts Techno and Phil four Netherite ingots.

After struggling to get the villager to the right height, Techno forces Ranboo to boat the villager into the lava. Ranboo escapes by throwing a pearl, and the villager dies.

Ranboo, Techno, and Phil talk about duping Netherite, and the current plot, and then Techno finds a zombie baby villager. It’s caught in a boat, and Techno nametags it ‘Orphan.’ They talk about the cobblestone tower, Philzas’ death to a baby zombie, and how if you don’t see a child's parents, you should assume that they are an orphan and attack them. 

Techno talks to Jack Manifold through chat about his axe. Techno, Philza, and Ranboo go around and look for zombie villagers. Techno finds an igloo, with two villagers. Techno was going to try and turn them into zombie villagers, but decides to not when he finds out that theres a 0% chance of that happening on Easy mode. 

They all go back to Orphan, and bully it when they find out it still hasn’t grown up. Techno and Ranboo make a joke about how it’s traumatized, so it’ll be funny and can be come a minecraft youtuber. please get some help. (01:48:15)

After Orphan grows up, Techno trades and gets the Bottle of Enchanting trade for one emerald. They all joke about Techno owning an orphanage at 01:51:35.

Phil, Techno, and Ranboo decide go to the Hound Army, but Techno remembers that Ranboo is part of L’manburg, and tries to kill him (with his new bow) when they enter the nether. He doesn’t succeed, and he continues fighting until he drinks and invis pot on the Prime Path. Techno and Phil meet up in the Bee Dome, where Ranboo finds them. Techno tries to kill him, but runs out of arrows. 

After reading donations, Techno, Ranboo, and Phil are back together at the Bee Dome, and they decide to team up in case someone finds them. They go outside of the Dome, and chase Jack Manifold out of his own country.

Manifold joins the VC, and they try to blame Punz on his attempted murder. After Manifold says “i feel there has been an attempt on my life,” Techno says that that’s how he greets people in his country.

Manifold asks if they want to help him get revenge on Punz, and Techno agrees. They gather more people, and by the time they get to Punz’s tower, their party is Manifold, Techno, Phil, Ranboo, Fundy, and Antfrost. Punz is in the Nether, so they wait until he gets back. 

Ranboo and Techno have a whisper conversation:

Ranboo: are you just going to jump fundy

Techno: no im gonna make jack 1v1 LMAO

Ranboo: good plan

While Fundy is taking a screenshot of Techno for his thumbnail, Philza attacks Fundy with a crossbow and his sword. He claims it was because he was getting bored. 

In the same spirit, Techno asks if they could kill Manifold to pass the time. The mob, which now includes Fundy, chases Manifold. He runs to the Holy Land, and the mob boos him.  Techno tells Antfrost to kill Manifold, and that the mob won’t tell that he was killed in the Holy Land. Manifold hands Antfrost his sword. 

While Antfrost debates killing Manifold or not, the mob chants ‘peer pressure!’ at him. Techno quickly realizes that Antfrost isn’t in the VC, and is extremely confused. The sword gets handed to Fundy, who gets into a battle with Manifold. Philza tells Fundy that he’s forgiven, if he can kill Manifold. The battle calms, and neither of the contestants die.

Techno convinces the mob to go to the pit trap, and tries to lure someone onto the trapped blocks using rotten flesh. Fundy takes the bait, but moves out of the way before the button is pressed. Antfrost sneaks up behind him and punches him into the pit. Fundy survives the fall, but is shot by Manifold to death. 

During the commotion, Punz makes his way back to his house, and the mob moves towards him to end his life. Manifold says that he’s going to kill Punz, and Techno says that the mob’ll have his back. He tells the mob to not have Manifold’s back. 

at 02:17:00, Punz joins the call, and is confused as to why Manifold wants to kill him. Manifold explains that Punz tried to kill him, siting his source as Technoblade. 

also, 2:17:15 technoswear!

Techno encourages Punz, saying “Punz, he actually dropped his sword by accident and now I have it, so it’d be really easy to beat him up,” and “he also just killed in the holy land, so you have a sort of...religious motivation to take him out.”

Punz tries to fight Manifold without armor (Manifold is wearing a full enchanted set of armor, with a Netherite chestplate and everything else Diamond), which fails miserably, and Manifold is killed. 

Techno decides to fight Manifold with his goons (the mob) for the audience retention, and Manifold’s quickly killed. The final hit was from CaptainPuffy. Ponk rushes in and grabs some of Manifold’s items. Puffy takes the rest.

Manifold complains about getting bullied, so Techno gives him his sword back and tells him to avenge himself. While looking for Ponk (or Punz? this is kinda unclear), Punz swoops in and kills Manifold in two hits. 

Manifold finds Ponk and chases after him, trying to kill him. The mob follows, and Ranboo kills Ponk with thorns. Manifold takes Ponks stuff. 

Right after respawning, Ponk was blown up by a creeper, and Techno claimed both as canon. 

The mini fights continue, and Manifold is killed by Punz. 

Ranboo changes the ‘Days since last war crime’ sign to 0.

Phil tells Techno that he’s going back to the base, and the L’manburgians question him as to what base he’s talking about. Phil tells Fundy that he ripped off his ankle shackles and left. While they talk, Techno starts running back to the base, and Ranboo whispers “lets run back” to him. Ranboo follows Techno, but quickly looses him.

Phil and Techno join a separate VC together and they go back to the base. 

At 02:29:15, Phil says “I trust you” to Techno and I am going to cry. 

Right before getting to the base, Phil drinks some honey, and Techno says “that’s the only thing we have honey for, now that we’ve uh...uh I guess you don’t know about that.” He’s referring to the Vault, I think, because the redstone required honey to work properly. 

Philza responds, “the honey- wait, what did you use the honey for?” 

“uhhh....food.” Techno, for some reason, doesn’t want to show Phil the vault. 

Ranboo whispers to Techno: “My alliance isnt with lmanburg, its with the people who help me. phil helped me.”

out loud, Techno laughs about it with phil, saying, “well, I’ve stabbed him like twelve times this week, so, I [laughs] I don’t know if that entirely qualifies here.”

Techno messages Ranboo back with “new phone who this” 

Ranboo replies, “no one,” and then, “:)”

Going back to the honey talk, Philza asked if Techno had been hiding anything diabolical from him, and Techno asks if he would do such a thing. Philza guesses several things he could use honey for, such as a flying machine, TNT dupers, and a door.

Techno takes him to the vault. 02:32:00. i LOVE peoples reactions to the vault, it’s always so good. Philza responds with a surprised ‘HOLY SHIT’ and some laughing. Techno also confirms my math of 55 withers. 

02:34:10 “i’ve seen this government, on the server, and everything to do with government is just bad. I’ve watched it completely destroy and tear down people’s wills and change people, I’ve seen it change the nicest people into complete and utter tyrants, so...I think it’s about time--”

“We need revenge. [sellout timer goes off] and more importantly, we neED SUBSCRIBERS ON YOUTUBE DOT COM” phil joinin anarchy pog? 

anyway that was it ;alskdfjas;f

[wychive]

𝙪𝙣𝙨𝙥𝙤𝙠𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨

summary // you found your pile of ‘letters’ to hyunjin that contain thoughts that have never been said and decided to write to him one last time.

pairing(s) // hyunjin x gn!reader, hyunjin x oc, slight minho x reader

genre(s) // angst, letter fic 

warning(s) // mentions of food, themes of being forgotten, vulgar wording, humiliation, overthinking

word count // 2.0k

author's note // happy birthday @noya-sannnn​ !! im sorry this was so late hhh you know how i am irl,, but i hope you enjoy this! i love you so much, jane <3 i apologize for the many grammar mistakes gn. i recommend listening to iu’s ending scene while reading this! btw y/n/n means your nickname.

[10/01/14, 3:55am]

dear jinnie,

hi there! it's y/n <3 i hope you're doing okay - i mean of course you are pfft anyways, just writing this short letter (more like paragraph)  sort of as a venting mechanism? for things i cant tell you about lol  im not so sure how you would call it, since you're so much better at words than i am. basically were like:

hyunjin: ow a brain freeze!

me: haha brain go brrrr

anyways haha yea <3 it's 4am so like,, ill see you at school!

signed,

your loser,

y/n/n

[15/02/14, 12:34am]

yo heartthrob!

im back with this kinda stuff haha it's been a whole? week? since ive written one of these so like yes..hi! i just wanted to say thanks, for today. you really know how to cheer me up huh? you really outdid yourself by setting up that little picnic for us. congrats on making the strawberry cake so perfectly <3 this day will always stay as a core memory in the back of my brain. you're too caring sometimes,,, istg you'll pay for this [maybe hugs?] >:) 

signed,

your partner in crime,

y/n/n

[30/02/15, 01:29am]

jinnie-senpai~~

LMAO you hate me calling you that, doesn't change a thing though. hehe,, nways i hope you enjoyed your birthday present :) i got you that really cool skateboard that you wanted. i worked my ass off for that in my mother's garden so like,, you gotta thank me for that a thousand times :D nah jk, its a sincere gift, from me to you. i rarely do this for ANYONE so consider yourself lucky to have a best friend like me -3- also, seungmin is like….kinda the cutest person ever. introduce me to him pls, thank!

signed,

<your bestest friend3,

y/n

(p.s. you're kinda cute too,,,, ig,,, still stinkee tho)

[13/04/15, 9:04pm]

hey 'baby' (HAHAHA ihy for this)

i hope your day was okay! i didn't see much of you today (which was sort of a bummer but wtv) so like…. uh yea. you told me you were doing okay over text, which kinda surprised me because like?? we always video call lol this is kinda the first time,, but its okay, i trust you! (i really hope youre doing alright tho, i'll beat anyone up if they make you sad >:( ) you also called me 'sweetheart' today which was like…. omg wtf haha????????? that was so weird to me for some reason… a good kind of weird :D we haven't done those kinds of nicknames in a while so…. happy to know that they're back in session <3 i talked to the new girl today, she's really cool! like she knows the bean song on tiktok so like its a total win heh, ill introduce you to her tomorrow! you'll love her a lot

signed,

your 'lover',

y/n/n

[08/06/16, 10:23pm]

hey howl (hehe go back to that movie night we had)

this spring break sucks so much,, esp because youre not here (you still couldve brought me along :'[ ) but wtv i hope youre enjoying yourself. ive been hanging out with yeonnie lately and i found out she likes conan grey too like pls i love her sm. can we adopt her?? please???? she told me you guys have been video calling too and that makes me so happy!! you two are getting along so well aaa my precious babies </3 

what if you developed a crush on her? haha…..jk unless?? (no jk dont shes all mine, stay away >:) ) anyways, i hope the three of us hang out soon. maybe go to that ice cream parlour where they serve the best cookies and cream?  

signed,

your daisy,

y/n/n

[19/07/15, 01:23am]

peepee poopoo hello

heyheyhey!! (heh, haikyuu thingz) i hope youre doing okay! i mean sure you are, with everything going so well. also i feel like you're not telling me something. maybe it's just me? is it? i hope it is because you tell me everything,, we've been talking less these days but its okay! i know how busy you are, especially with your dad always bugging you,,

also, i think yeonbin likes you :0,, she keeps talking about you whenever we hang out. don't get me wrong, its not bad that she likes you but...something doesn't feel right. i feel like i'm being the third wheeler here and like ugh idk. haha laughs yea i think its just me.. im sorry, i didnt mean to do you like this,, anyways, ill see you soon + her too ofc- yall are inseparable lmao

signed,

your moonlight,

y/n/n

[23/07/15, 01:56am]

greetings, kind sir

lol more like mean sir but like aight KSKSK,, anyways,, how have you been? we haven't really talked in a while,, our convos are always so short with it being one-sided :/ i wish you were online more. yeonnie is ignoring me,, do you know why? i think you do,,, but when i asked you just said you didnt know. did i do something wrong? pls tell me.. 

she blocked my contact the other day and she won't even smile at me when i pass her in the hallways. its,, sad and stressful especially because she was the only one that would genuinely talk to me. i hate to say this,, but i miss you. us, hanging out like the best trio we are, yknow? but i dont think you miss me the same way. sorry, im getting out of hand. i know im just overreacting. im just gonna sleep ig,, good night! sweet dreams,,

signed,

your pink lemonade,

y/n/n

[25/07/15, 03:25am]

hi there

i heard you and her got together?? congrats, jinnie! im so proud of you,, especially because you never had even considered getting a girlfriend a few months earlier lmaO you really woo the ladies huh? anyways,, i hope you've been well since we last talked,, how many days has it been?? i would say nearly a week or so but honestly it feels like a hundred years,, considering you and i used to talk every day. but you have her now to keep you company.

keep this a secret but can you possibly tell me why it hurts when i see her? or when i mention her or even think of her?? is it because she's connected to you? but.. you're my best friend, so why? is it because i miss you? is it because im alone now? is it because you left me with a simple 'i have to go now,, bye y/n/n.'? im not sure either. im being silly, i apologize. ill figure it out sooner or later. sweet dreams, jinnie

signed,

your asswipe,

y/n

[25/07/15, 04:30am]

jinnie

it's because i love you. 

signed,

your butterfly,

y/n

[??/08/??, 05:??am]

you

i miss your lame jokes. i miss your smile. i miss your laughs. i miss your funny faces. i miss the way your eyes twinkle. i miss th way you would make me happy just by doing the bare minimum. i miss the disaster you made when cooking breakfast. i miss the night when you snuck me out just to go to that pretty lantern event. i miss when you would call out my name everytime we met. i miss when we would share earbuds in train rides. dont you get it, hyunjin? i miss you.

[??/??/15, ??:??am]

asshole.

please tell me that isn't true, please. you're too kind to do these kinds of things, right? + i was your best friend,, then, why, why did you hurt me like this. i didnt do anything wrong.. you couldve just told me you didnt like me,,, why did she have to tell me? out of all people. 

youre so pathetic for this,, i thought you were brave, bold - but youre just a fucking coward. i loved you, i really did. and i realised too late… im sorry. she,, i shouldn't have talked to her in the first place, right? i bet you knew she humiliated me, in front of everyone. of course you did, you were the only one that knew. you told her. fuck, i hate you so much (yet why do i long for you on a night like this?). you know how much that'll affect me and yet, there you are, laughing about it with her.

signed,

fuck off,

you know who i am.

[31/08/15, 03:41am]

ah, jinnie

please tell me this is just a nightmare. please, please. stop just reading my texts, please answer them. jinnie. i miss you so much. i dont care bout her, please just let me be in your arms. i dont care if you love me back, please just talk to me at least. tell me what i did wrong,, jinnie,, please,,, clear these tear stains on my cheek with kisses.

signed,

your fuck-up,

y/n

[15/09/15, 04:59am]

jinnie

why do i keep crying because of you? its been a few weeks since everything has happened. please, nothing has changed. i still love you the same even with all the hatred i have pent up in this stupid brain of mine. i wish i could just walk back in time, to where it all began.

when i first met you in third grade and you pushed me while playing soccer or maybe when we took those ridiculous prom pictures, remember those? i hope you still have them,, because i do too. i hope the pictures of us on your wall still hang there,, it'll remind you of the happy times. hm,, maybe you don't need them. 

you already have millions of pictures with you and her,, i bet you printed some and replaced those with ours right? sly dog. 

signed,

friend,

y/n/n

[04/02/16, 12:57am]

hey

i went to the park today and saw both of you being happy. it's nice to see your smile again. im sorry i didnt go up to you,, i just thought it would be awkward. when i heard that adorable laugh of yours, it made me realise that i lost something special. but it's okay isnt it? as your happiness matters more than mine. 

signed,

y/n

[06/01/20, 08:00pm]

dear hyunjin,

im doing fine here. how about you? gosh,, how long has it been? years? since we last talked to each other. i havent heard from you since. i would just like to say i still think of you sometimes, when watering the plants or dancing while making pancakes. sometimes i think you're here with me too, just being the pals we were. 

sometimes i'd see you out, just reading a book in the park or buying pasta sauce at the grocery store. it's nice to see you having a stable life. im not sure if you're still with her or not, but its good to know that you still have that large friend group. also! you're never gonna guess who im dating--

it's minho! do you remember him? the one that i used to hate,, uh yeah. he asked me out the other day- you may wonder how tf,,, i too do not know how tf but he gives the best hugs ever. he gave me the love i wanted from you. he stitched my heart back together after it broke,, i love him so much, jinnie..

it's snowing,, do you remember when we would skate on the frozen lake in front of your house? are your parents well? i wonder if your mother still has those earrings i bought for her birthday. i never told you this but your laugh and hers sound so similar. 

i would just like to say thank you, for everything. you were a big part of my life, up until now. when we see each other after this, we would just be strangers. maybe flash a little smile or give a little wave whenever we greet each other but nothing more. some memories of us would flow in every now and then but it'll just be a short teaser. well, i'll be going now. smile for me, okay?

signed,

the one that loved you the most,

y/n.

taglist // @/noya-sannnn, @crvgio​ , @neo-shitty​

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[silverheartsystem]

@lemonleafy you asked and I shall receive. I am now going to rant about the STUPID PLAYSTATION ACHIEVEMENTS FOR THIS GAME

Okay so let's set the scene. It's April 11th, 2017. I have watched Jacksepticeye's playthrough of this game and I finally got enough money to buy it myself. This game is my life. Everything about my life and personality, from the way I act to the friends I keep, were all rooted in this game. The friends from this are a story in of itself, so let's focus on the game. I'm finally getting to play it and I am having a Blast. I get through the game, I try and explore everything I possibly can, and on April 14th at 11:08, I beat my first playthrough. However, me being the greedy autistic I am, it's not enough. This game is my everything, it occupies every waking thought. It invades my dreams too. And so I keep. Playing it. Granted I took a break between my first and second because. Anyone who has played this game KNOWS how much of a wreck it will leave you. And hoo boy did it leave me sobbing for days. Genuinely think it hit me about as hard as SU:F finale which is saying a lot. Regardless, I beat the game again on May 12th. I now decide, I'm gonna get every achievement in this game! I make a list. I plan out every single day. Making sure I feed the vermin babies, talk to Selmers, talk to Lori, hang with the violinist and sax...ist. What the hell is the name for a saxophone player?? Regardless, I do that. I talk to mom every day so I can go stand in a field and cry. I think about kissing Mae. That part isn't a trophy but I did it anyway! I played Demontower and died so. Gosh darn. Much. And rage quit at least 7 times. I played every bass song perfectly. Well...nearly perfectly. I think I still messed up one note on Pumpkin Head Guy. I did everything!!

But it didn't matter

Because you see my dear friends, there is one small problem. I was playing on the PS4 version. And unbeknownst to me, the game was BUGGED. 3 trophies were impossible to get on the current version. Echoes was the first one. This one is a story progression achievement, which means you don't have to do anything extra, it should unlock just by playing the game. But nope!!! Locked out of it. The next was Make It Last. This one should proc after beating the game on your third playthrough. It might also require you to do all the extra content. Regardless, it was bugged and never unlocked. The final trophy...oh the final trophy really hurt. It was called Seriously? and it was obtained by collecting every single one of Mae's sketches. The PlayStation details for this trophy are "All sketches? We made the game and have never gotten this. Wow." Like okay Finji frick off taunting me like that. Not only is that hard as hell, it's BUGGED and won't unlock even tho I played this game like 10 TIMES THROUGH TO GET YOUR STUPID TROPHIES.

Two years later, something happens. I forgot Exactly what it is called, but the team released a new update on all platforms. It added new content, new scenarios, allowed for playthrough of the Longest Night and Lost Constellation supplement games, and, most importantly, fixed the PlayStation trophies. On March 19th and 21st, I got Echoes and Make It Last. Now, one final challenge stands in my way.

And it won't get the best of me again

[claire-starsword]

tag meme thingy

I must have been tagged at like five tag memes lately but i didnt have the energy sorry lmao I’m cool with doing one today tho

Tagged by @luna-myth​, thanks ^^

A - Age: 19  B - Birthplace: São Paulo, Brazil C - Current time: 23:22 PM when I started, 00:08 now. I hate that it takes me so long to type out something this simple but yikes here we are. D - Drink you last had: soda/pop/whatever the hell you say on english i guess every region has a different word lmao why are you like this E- Easiest person to talk to: probably my friend @neecha​ though to be honest I still suck at talking like, always. F - Favorite song: I can’t pick just one but Heir of Grief from Homestuck and Dialga’s Fight to the Finish! from PMD: Explorers of Sky have been the mood recently. Gotta love final boss songs. G - Grossest memory: idk if it’s the grossest but it’s the one on my mind right now: last year, one of my cats had the brilliant idea of eating over 50cm of string, and the stuff... doesn’t come out nicely. I thankfully wasn’t there to see the worst part but still came home to a panicked family, a bunch of dirty bed sheets (because of course he vomited in the bed. where else would it be) and a cat with string dangling from his butt. If that’s the kind of stuff emergency vets deal with all the time then I really don’t envy them. (he ended up fine tho. Despite the panic and the mess he did poop most of the thing at home and the last centimeters came out two days later. I never thought that a piece of string mixed with poop in a litter box would ever be a relieving sight, but apparently that’s what the pet owner life teaches you)  H - Horror yes or Horror no: usual horror? no. weird glitchy game creepypasta stuff? hell yes I’ll always watch and always love it and always mock how utterly silly and cliche it is and always be unable to sleep for a week anyway. That stuff is ridiculous and only babies would get scared of it. And I’m the baby, oh what a baby I am.

I - In love?: nah this is an aroace zone J - Jealous of people?: Hardly. Anytime I get jealous of people’s achievements I remember that to achieve the same they did I would have to live life the way they do, dedicating myself to the same things they like, and I don’t want that. Overall I like the way I’ve been living and my own interests, so I wouldn’t trade them. L - Love at first sight or should I walk by again?: again, aroace zone.  M - Middle name: don’t have that. Actually I’m pretty sure these aren’t a thing here in Brazil, but I could be wrong I guess. N - Number of siblings: one (1) older sister  O - One wish: uh the world peace thing would be a cliche and sounds fake but damn if it wouldn’t be nice, if you want a personal thing tho it would be being able to meet and talk to my pokemon, and if you actually want a realistic thing, it would be really nice if one day people loved my works as much as I love my favorite series. Like, at this point it’s basically my life goal I think. P - Person you called last: My dad Q - Question you are always asked: “So, how is it going at college?” is basically a greeting at this point. The good part is that it immediately gives me a subject to start the conversation, the bad one is that I’m never sure what and how much about college people actually want to hear. R - Reason to smile: Pokemon S - Song you last sang: King Dice’s theme from Cuphead but I don’t actually know much of the lyrics yet so I just sing the first verse a billion times.  T - Time you woke up: 10am U - Underwear colour: I don’t care much, but anything darker tends to be cooler. gosh I can’t believe I just sounded this edgy about panties and boxers. I can only hope the ‘gosh’ up there balance things out. You gotta have your edgy and dork levels properly evened out that’s how it works. V - Vacation destination: no clue, just being able to take a vacation sounds good enough already. W - Worst habit: This biting nails things went a bit too far i would like it to stop  X - X-rays: Only dentist stuff. I’m actually kinda lucky at this stuff and never broke or hurt bones or anything. It’s half cool for obvious reasons but half scary because I have no idea how I’ll react if I ever get that kind of injury. F - Favourite food: see this is a terrible question because the answer is technically ‘mayo salad’ but I think there’s a billion different mayo salads out there and I don’t know if any of them is the one my mom makes. Either way, it’s got potatoes and carrots and apples and eggs and string beans and etceteras and it’s awesome. (btw I love how this ‘alphabet questions’ thing was doing so well until here and then it all goes to hell here with this second F. I wonder how many other alphabetically themed things get wrecked by the solid fact that there’s nothing to do with a goddamn ‘Y’, even if it sorta sounds like a question all by itself. y this)

Z - Zodiac Sign: Virgo 

[omousvarii]

all of them

      you’re the worst lmao    -------- @jobikilled

01. What makes you the most emotional about your muse?oh gosh, probably the amount of guilt he carries. you’ve all seen gifs of him like “looks like he could kill you but is actually a smol cinnamon roll” and thats what gets me. also he cries a shit ton and just cute broken boys crying is legit my kryptonite.02. What made you decide to write this muse?gosh i dont even remember, its been like four years. i think after the episode I am become death, because it was when i really started growing attached to him. he was still a sassy pants but you could tell he was trying. also the whole thing that happened with him and murphy, the hanging. also i think when clarke and him had that moment where he admits hes a monster. him crying there set a trigger off and i was like i need to write this angst of a man now.03. If you could change one event in your muse’s life (in their main or canon verse), what would you change?ooo… this is a good one. uhm, probably the whole pike situation. i know he kinda leaned on pike as a leader and was hurt by the betrayal of lexa and trikru but idk, it always seemed weird to me. but i dont think i’d change it, the show would be completely different i think if he didn’t go with pike. so /shrug/04. If you could tell your muse one thing, what would you tell them?that i love him ; ~~ ; lol on a serious note tho, im not sure there is anything i could say that hasnt been said by the ones he loves. he’d take their words over mine anyways xD05. If you could give your muse one gift, what would you give them?like a thing? or can i be a god and give him back gina? lmao. maybe for his time in the ark i’d give him the book gina gave him—something he can read over the next 5 years lol. maybe i’d give him a whole library of greek mythology books on the ark rather than just re-reading one? maybe the gift of knowing that his sister is fine in the bunker?06. If you had to take one positive thing away from your muse, what would you take away?oh gosh he has so limited positive things why take them away ;_; can i say things he’s already lost? like gina, jasper and clarke (post s4) idk what else i could take without breaking him completely. he doesn’t have many physical things i can take from him. how about a gun? yeah that.07.  If you could “borrow” one aspect of your muse and apply it to yourself or your own life, what would you borrow?his undying love for his sister. dont get me wrong, i love my baby sister but to get the courage to—–if my sister was in octavias position and was on the ship to the ground, i would have the guts to do what he did and make sure she would be okay.08. Do you genuinely want your muse to be happy? What do you think would make them most happy in life?honestly i prefer writing bellamy as angsty as possible but of course i want him to be happy. there is nothing better than the rare times in the show he gets to experience it. i think the thing that would make him most happy would for the wars to be over, and earth to be livable. to be able to not have to worry about his friends and sister’s life being in peril. i dont think he’d ever get over the guilt he feels but i think him falling in love (kinda like with gina) he would lowly begin to forget about it, and the weight lifted from his shoulders would also be pretty great for him.09. Do you enjoy putting your muse through angst? What do you think would break their heart the most?lol, go to question 08. i do really like putting him through angst and i think it just might be how fun it is to explore his mind during the process. there are many things that could break his heart. witnessing the death of any of his friends but the thing that would break his heart the most would be the death of his sister. it kinda reminds me of the hunger games where (spoilers?) the whole point of the first two books were to save her little sister and then in the end she dies anyways. i think the feeling not only of loss but of being useless, failing at saving her would break him. you get a glimpse of it in the show but yeah. my sister, my responsibility and i failed. 10. What do you love about your muse?pretty much everything. hes adorable, his personality, the odd times he makes jokes, the way he hugs people like it could be (and sometimes is) the last time. his freckles, the way he sniffs when he feels emotions. how hes not ashamed to cry (or just too emotional to care), how sassy he was in season 1, the amazing amount of character development he has. just endless things. he legit genuinely cares about everyone.11. What do you hate about your muse?honestly the only thing i don’t like about him was his stupid greased back hair in the first episode lmao. nothing else that i would dislike enough to say i hate it.12. What about your muse amuses you?“taking a walk in the forest, princess?” his little snarky comments, his smirks, the way he was with gina, when in the first episode of season 3 and everyone is singing in the jeep he makes that cute little smile.13. What about your muse makes you sad?WHEN HE CRIES, WHEN OCTAVIA BEATS HIM UP, WHEN CLARKE LEAVES HIM AND THEN REPETITIVELY TELLS HIM SHES STAYING IN POLIS, WHEN HE THINKS OCTAVIA IS DEAD, WHEN HE’S TORTURED IN MOUNT WEATHER. etc, etc.14. How would you describe your muse to someone about to meet them, in person, for the first time?his bark is worse than his bite /whispers/ he’s a smol bean15. Would you like your muse as a person if you met them in real life?i think i’d be too intimidated to meet them, i would obviously want to be his friend but i think i’d rather be bob morely’s friend instead (less troubled …from what i know anyways)16. In what ways are you better than your muse? In what ways are they better than you?uhm. im not a killer?? he’s better at using a gun, more fit, cuter, overall probably a better person than me.17. Why do you think you connect to your muse?bellamy isn’t the first angsty broken boy i’ve written about, i’ve written as loki, jem carstairs, personal oc’s, jace herondale. i have a thing for diving into the mind of sad troubled boys lol. it comes easily to me, idk why just does.18. What aspect of your muse’s personality is most important to you? What aspect of your muse’s personality do you think is most important to them? Is it the same? Why or why not?i admire his ability to hold onto guilt. i think the most important part of his personality is tbh he actually forgives people really quickly or at least people he cares about. he forgave murphy, forgave clarke, etc (except kane lol forgot about that) but yeah. as for him i think he thinks his most important aspect would be his desire to always try to do the right thing, (after his selfishness in season 1). everything he does is either for his sister or for his people and even if it may be wrong morally he really wishes to believe what he’s doing is right.19. If you had to judge your muse and sentence them to a “fair” fate, what would your judgement be? Would you punish them? Reward them? How?honestly he’s suffered enough for his wrongs. the guilt he feels is punishment enough. the death of his friends around him, loved ones, his people, etc. obviously he deserves better than the fate he has in the show but i wouldn’t be able to just reward him when i say i think they should have a peaceful life on earth lol.

[michaelguyyo]

1 thru 70, go binch

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

Yeah I love my mom a lot, I talk to her almost every day. I’d like to believe I have a good relationship with my dad, but he passes a few years ago. So it’s more of an emotional relationship than anything real and back and forth. There have definitely been rough patches though!

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

Yikes, I haven’t really said ‘I love you’ nearly as much as I used to nor as much as I think it. But probably my mom, sorry that’s a cop out answer lmao

03: Do you regret anything?

The fuck who doesn’t regret things. Yeah I regret hurting people all the time, I still have regrets for things I’ve done to people.

04: Are you insecure?

Nope. Yes. Ummm….. Fuck. Physically? No, not at all. But I definitely think everyone hates me all the time lmao. If you don’t hate me, actually if you like me, hmu and tell me it would always make my day even if we’re close friends and I should know it.

05: What is your relationship status?

In a relationship with a dork, she far away tho

06: How do you want to die?

Honestly? I don’t. I can’t think of a single way I’d die and be satisfied about it. Growing old and passing in my sleep sounds like a torment of age. Old age is kinda a nightmare to me. But it’s not like I want to die in my 50′s either, that’s sad af.

07: What did you last eat?

If we talkin like real food, chicken nuggets last night. Not real food? Candy. Don’t judge me. I know I should eat. Telling me won’t help I’m dying.

08: Played any sports?

I was a competitive gymnast at a super young age, but besides that I wouldn’t say I’ve played any real sports. Marching Band? Some would argue for that, but ehhhhhhhh.

09: Do you bite your nails?

Nope, not really. And I don’t really get nail biting. I think my nails are too thick cause it just makes me super uncomfortable

10: When was your last physical fight?

I punched a friend about a year ago I believe. Wouldn’t really say I’ve ever gotten into a real physical fight. They always dissolve.

11: Do you like someone?

Sometimes

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

I really don’t think so, I think I’d die.

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

I don’t think I’ve ever truly hated anyone. Some people I find annoying, or hurtful. But I still have positive opinions of them. People are important.

14: Do you miss someone?

Yeah I miss tons of people all the frickin time!! Lizz is too far away from me, my mom is all the way up by Santa Barbara and so is Nikki. Hell Amber is in freakin Germany for christ’s sake. All of that and I haven’t seen Zany in months????

15: Have any pets?

I have two cats! They’re sisters and I love them.

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

I have a bit of a headache, I’m stressed out of my mind, I haven’t really taken care of myself today, but otherwise I’m enjoying the day. Much like every single day.

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

Yeah of course lmao make out everywhere

18: Are you scared of spiders?

They creep me out yeah, not as bad as some people though

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Reaaaaallllyyy depends. If it’s just like a re-experience of a vivid memory, hell yeah. If I had to make choices all over again? I doubt I could do much better. If I had to live through certain points in my life all over again I’d probably die. And finally if it were like FAAAAR back to see some cool shit and then go back to the future, hell fuckin yes I would.

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

In my home I believe. Although I hate the word snogged.

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

:)

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Yikeees. Probably??? I’m too young for this I don’t know if I want to adopt or have my own kids or dammit. Probably both?? I don’t want more than 4 or less than 2 I imagine.

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

Nope, zilch

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

I’m usually really solid in math, but I’ve come to find that those skills don’t carry super well past Algebra 2, my favorite of maths. Besides that, I’m killing it in programming right now and somehow I have an A in French.

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yes??? Again, my dad of course but also Amanda and her family left a pretty sizable hole in my life but I’m doing okay. It’s not like I’d ever consider getting back with her, I think we weren’t healthy for each other but gosh do I just miss their personalities and all. 

26: What are you craving right now?

Affection. That’s it. Sleep maybe?

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

I wish I could answer no, but lmao that’s unrealistic. Yeah I’ve hurt people.

28: Have you ever been cheated on

I’d say so, but I guess it’s arguable. Not really is the real answer.

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Again, of course. Don’t have much details for this one.

30: What’s irritating you right now?

Nagging head and neck pains as always. Copious stress makes me wanna cry. But generally I just wanna find a place to move in next month because we got denied for the last one for some pretty bullshit reasons.

31: Does somebody love you?

Lmao I hope so

32: What is your favourite color?

Purple! Always

33: Do you have trust issues?

…No? I don’t think

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

I never remember the majority of my dreams. If I answered this this morning I probably could give you a better response.

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

My landlord and her husband I think, fuck them tho.

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

Absolutely not, I’m usually the one who needs a second chance. I give people the chances they deserve, which in my opinion is as many as they’re willing to genuinely try.

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Forgive. People don’t forget when others hurt them, that’s not a thing.

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

lol, no

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

14 I think? That sounds about right.

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

Hm…… Probably, but I can’t quite remember

51: Favourite food?

Beef with onions and bell pepper, with some rolls. Always kills me. Maybe throw in an artichoke. No need to make it complicated.

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

I think people who believe in this concept either have a ton of faith or they’ve never experienced real tragedy. But no. I think people do shitty things sometimes and you can’t excuse them because of some master plan.

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

I was playing some PUBG with the boys, then I watched a bit of Gotham.

54: Is cheating ever okay?

What? No. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t happen but no it isn’t okay

55: Are you mean?

Yeeeaaaaah I probably get that a lot, talk to me though I really do try.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

Again, I’ve punched maybe 3 people? But I wouldn’t really call it a fist fight.

57: Do you believe in true love?

Believe? Eh. Hope? Yeah I hope there’s true love.

58: Favourite weather?

Generally I like Summer weather, but recently I’ve been really vibin with this Fall shit. It lit.

59: Do you like the snow?

Don’t know, never seen it fall

60: Do you wanna get married?

Eventually?

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

Yes! Of course!

62: What makes you happy?

Lizz makes me happy most the time! Friends make me happy a lot. Receiving snapchats from people when it isn’t their streak? Giddy af.

63: Would you change your name?

Nope, love my name.

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

At this point in time? Ya she’s far away. But if she were here I think I could push past the nerves and do it.

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

kiss. them. on. the. mouth. (just kidding, right now I’m not single. So nothing but try and talk em out of it obviously. But in the world where I am single, see “kiss them on the mouth”)

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Yeah of course, I’m not fake around my friends. At least I don’t think I am. So all of em honestly but mostly Nikki and Amber I’m pretty straight forward with.

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

Talking to Lizz right now, in person? Bethani

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Ummm…. I just talked to Amber bout some things that bothered us if that counts. But I don’t really know. The people I talk to when most of my problems come up are Lizz, Nikki, Amber, and Hunter I’d say. Sometimes I think they get sick of it (especially Amber lmao)

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

See answer 57?

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

I’d like to believe I would, but again, no death for me pls, so I’d have to really think on it. I think most people believe they’d dive in front of a car for someone they cared about but I really don’t know how I’d respond in that case

Hell yeah thanks for the questions you’re the best!!!! Haven’t answered questions on Tumblr in forever

[forever5hines]

GETTING TO KNOW SHINEE WORLD

Tagged by awesome and smart @freakeyhyun and amazing, cute @fairykibum

01: How did you get into SHINee?

like I said in the previous post, there were weird dudes with feathers on their jackets, I thought that was funny and never stopped watching

02: Your favorite member in SHINee is?

pssh who? who? Idk maybe this guy?

yup definitely

03: Bias wrecker anyone?

Jonghyun and Key both tbh they’re both too amazing 

04: Your favorite SHINee OTP (if you have one)

*points to url* *points to icon* *points to blog*

jongkey baby~

05: Is there a SHINee ship you don’t like?

I used to dislike Ontae because of the age difference but as they got older it doesn’t really matter anymore so no 

06: The SHINee member you think is most easily shipped

that’s easily Jonghyun! king of skinship anyone?

07: Your favorite Korean song by SHINee

Prism at the moment 

08: Your favorite Japanese song by SHINee

Love

09: Favorite album

1and1

10: Your favorite live performance

any of their ballads tbh it’s like ascending to heaven

11: First SHINee MV you saw

Ring Ding Dong, I remember well

12: Your first impression of SHINee

haha look back at answer 1 oh boy I just thought they were funny now we’re here

13: Is there a SHINee member that recently impressed you?

Taemin’s Sayanora Hitori performance was really extraordinary and very impressive 

14: The SHINee member you think has changed the most over the years

Taemin, just because he started so young and also his singing improved a lot

15: The SHINee member you think has changed the least

Key, he still has the same amount of sass but also his soft insecure side

16: Your favorite SHINee MV

Married to the music just because it’s so all over the place 

17: Your favorite SHINee lyric 

The morning sunlight is like you  If I’m by your side when you wake me up I have nothing more to wish for I want to see you Don’t think that we can’t love because we’re young Before it’s too late Before I grow older, can you hold onto me?

18: The SHINee member you think has the best face

Minho

19: The SHINee member you think has the best body

Still Minho, tbh they all have great bodies but when I saw SHINee live I was just amazed by Minho’s legs and like he just has a nice body 

20: The SHINee member you think has the best personality

still Minho? I don’t know but he has a very tender heart and cares very much about everyone, otherwise Jonghyun

21: A SHINee picture that makes you smile

it sums them up too well 

22: A SHINee picture that makes you nostalgic

not a picture but eh

23: Your favorite quote by someone in SHINee

Life is full of chances, take it lightly 

24: A picture of your bias with someone else you like in another group

25: Have you seen SHINee live?

yes :3 at Kcon Paris and it was the best thing ever, I am pretty sure Minho noticed me and Key passed by me really close and waved so happily to the fans gosh it was amazing

26: Do you have a favorite variety show moment?

nope don’t really follow them

27: How would you describe SHINee in three words?

5 shining stars (lame I know)

28: Which SHINee video would you show to someone who has never heard of them before?

aaah 1of1? really depends on the person I am talking to tho

29. Is there a memory in connection to SHINee that you will always treasure?

kcon paris :)

30: If you could tell SHINee anything you wanted…what would that be?

how lovely they are and how talented and how loved they are 

whew! that was a long one! I am tagging @flowercrownshinee, @theloveablemaknae and @foxpuppylove

[justanotherboyinblue]

01. do i have a good relationship with my parents? well yes and no, they’re abusive fuckers and i hate them a lot of the time but they can also be really nice and cool and fun so idk, mostly a no 02. who did i last say ‘i love you’ to? my friend ella when we said goodnight 03. do i regret anything? pFFFFFT of fucking course i do, many many things 04. am i insecure? oh you betcha 05. what is my relationship status? single as a pringle, my gf that i’ve mentioned in some posts broke up with me a few days ago so lmao 06. how do i want to die? weird question but okay, in my sleep i suppose, like most other people 07. what did i last eat? uhhhh honey wheat twist pretzels last night 08. played any sports? competitively no, and i’m homeschooled so no school sports, but i’ve played gertball and volleyball and other backyard partyish sports 09. do i bite my nails? nope, i either keep them to the quick or long with nail polish so i don’t get that dysphoria ya feel 10. when was my last physical fight? i have no fuckin idea bro, we fight with our words in this household 11. do i like someone? i still got feelings for my ex so yeah 12. have i ever stayed up for 48 hours? tf no, i’ve stayed up for a solid 20-24 tho 13. do i hate anyone at the moment? not that i can feel no, i do have a strong distaste for a lot of people but not hate i don’t think 14. do i miss someone? oh hell yeah, i miss old friends and my aunt that i saw literally yesterday and i miss my kitty Trinity who passed away over a year ago 15. have any pets? yessire i do, four cats and one dog inside and like five cats outside  16. how exactly am i feeling at the moment? pretty meh, i’m real hungry tho, waitin on my brother to make sum mac n cheese for us, but overall chill ig 17. ever made out in the bathroom? i have only had one, count em, one, kiss in my entire life and it was nonconsensual and they were drunk so that’d be a no 18. am i scared of spiders? oh FUCK yeah i am, if i see one it’s usually fine enough as long as they’re stationary and not near me, but if it’s in my room i will hyperventilate and it will be dead shortly. i once had an attack bcuz my fucktard of a brother kicked on at me so that was fun 19. would i go back in time if i was given the chance? i mean probably but i don’t think i would change anything really 20. where was the last place i snogged someone? ‘snogged’? what are we british. uhh the above mentioned kiss was in my best friends guest room of their house, the same best friend that mauled me with their face 21. what are my plans for this weekend? idk, work on my play probably. i have to get it done by the 15th or i fail my grade so woooo 22. do i want to have kids? big fat no 23. do i have piercings? how many? i do, i have the standard two in my ears. i want an additional three that i’m gonna get most likely around christmas 24. what is/are/were my best subject(s)? i don’t think i really have one tbh, writing maybe? ohhhh no definitely art, i love art when it’s fun and they give good assignments 25/ do i miss anyone from my past? just Trinity i think 26. what am i craving right now? well i’m always craving thin mints but a bowl of that mac n cheese that my brother’s making would be absolutely fabulous rn 27. have i ever broken someone’s heart? i know of one instance, but there were probably others as well. i broke up with this abusive fuckboy and had to then talk him out of suicide immediately after so that was fun 28. have i ever been cheated on? no idea, probably 29. have i made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? again, no idea, but probably  30. what’s irritation me right now? nothing particular, just the usual homophobic/transphobic/abusive bullshit i get from people  31. does somebody love me? not romantically i don’t think, but i have people who platonically/familially love me yeah 32. what is my favorite color? i have three, sunset orange, black, and a very specific sea foam blue color 33. do i have trust issues? i do, but i think i’m getting better the more good and non-abusive relationships i have 34. who/what was my last dream about? so if i dream at night it’ll be like three dreams a night, the last one in the set of dreams i had was about greek gods and where everyone stood in the pantheon and why, no clue what that was about 35. who was the last person i cried in front of? uhhh i walked past my brother while i was crying on my way to lock myself in the bathroom 36. do i give out second chance too easily? oh fuck yeah, but i’m working on it 37. is it easier to forgive or forget? forget for sure, my memory is shit XD forgive tho, i never forget when someone has wronged me. usually the deal is when i’ve gotten over the pain, or forgotten about it, i’ll give second chances to the offenders, which i’m working on not doing 38. is this year the best year of my life? i mean probably, i’ve had some of my happiest and worst moments this year 39. how old was i when i had my first kiss? 13 40. have i ever walked outside completely naked? hell naw 51. favorite food? mashed potatoes for sure 52. do i believe everything happens for a reason? i’m Christian so i kinda have to lmao, but yes 53. what is the last thing i did before i went to bed last night? uhhh stuff 54. is cheating ever okay? only in very very specific circumstances 55. am i mean? a lot of the time i think so, but i also think i’m kind a lot more 56. how many people have i fist fought? uh, one? my brother lol, and it wasn’t even fighting i was just so angry i kinda flailed at him 57. do i believe in true love? i guess, i don’t know 58. favorite weather? rain, bonus points if thunder 59. do i like the snow? oh absolutely  60. do i wanna get married? eventually, when i’m ready and have met the right person yeah 61. is it cute when a boy/girl calls me baby? only if dating, and not boys cuz i’m not attracted to them so lmao 62. what makes me happy? oh gosh so many things. baking, cooking, hanging out with friends, reading, writing, petting/playing with cats, ferrets, snakes, drawing, coloring, watching tv, playing video games, music, etc. etc. 63. would i change my name? lmaoooo already did 64. would it be hard to kiss the last person i kissed? uh yah, for obvious reasons 65. my best friend of the opposite sex likes me, what do i do? well if my best male friend liked me then i would have to turn him down bcuz don’t like boys, and if my best female friend liked me i don’t know what i would do tbh, i might date them? as much as i love them and support them and they’re valid as fuck, she’s a transwoman who still looks like a guy so rip 66. do i have a friend of the opposite sex who i can act my complete self around? my best male friend absolutely, other friends unsure about 67. who was the last person of the opposite sex i talked to? female was ella and male was like a casual friend tim 68. who’s the last person i had a deep conversation with? damn, probably my best male friend or my ex  69. do i believe in soulmates? yepper (69? nice) 70. is there anyone i would die for? ending with a big one i see, okay i see how it is. yes, there are many people i would die for.

[hatchibomitar]

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alright this has been sitting here for like a month and im tipsy so im gonna fkin answer it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

i have a great relationship with my mom!!

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

my girlfriend 😊😊😊😊❤❤

03: Do you regret anything?

oh sure i do! lots of little things. that’s anxiety babey. but i don’t regret any choices that have got me to where i am today

04: Are you insecure?

it depends on the day, i am some of the time - but it’s a huge improvement from the past omg

05: What is your relationship status?

in a RELATIONSHIP with the LOVE OF MY LIFE 

06: How do you want to die?

i do Not like this question ! goodbye thot

07: What did you last eat?

salsa chicken and rice, and zucchini!!!!! and i might annihilate a pint of ice cream later

08: Played any sports?

yes omg i played soccer and lacrosse!!! i love lacrosse sm.

09: Do you bite your nails?

nope i never have! i used to rip them off though lmfao! not the whole thing!!!!! jsust bits

10: When was your last physical fight?

never lmao

11: Do you like someone?

yes

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

no oh my goodness i would literally die

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

sober kaiden might be all dramatic and say yes but white claw kaiden says No :-)

14: Do you miss someone?

yes :( i want to be Kissed!

15: Have any pets?

yA omg i have 2 cats at my mom’s house!!!!! i cannot wait until i can have my own pet

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

i’m actually feeling fgreat, it’s basically my summer break rn and usually i’d feel terrible with no strict plans of what to do, but today was so much fun. i had a great time just fuckin around. im very optimistic

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

HEHEHE oh my gosh, i don’t kiss and tell, but yes i do actually. ok so not a public bathroom but someone else’s bathroom at a party, yes, and my own bathroom, yes, and someone else’s bathroom, yes! i just love bathrooms (wow i sound so cis)

18: Are you scared of spiders?

not especially ! i am Not good at capturing them and also i cannot kill them, but i am sometimes ok with just letting them chill. ok maybe i lied. it depends

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

no 😤

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

the brit Popped Out! the last place was, the airport when i dropped my girlfriend off :(((((

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

omg well it’s still the weeknd rn? it’s sunday night. and my plans were: d&D!!!!!! and it was SO FUN!!! but next weekend, im seeing my bestie graduate college along w my other mt friends, and then on sunday i’m driving home 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Yes I Do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i ‘m not super sure, maybe 2? 1 would be fine too but also i feel like siblings are great, even tho they’re terrible at the same time. like i’d face my brother in ritual combat but i would also slap a high schooler in the face for being mean to him, yknow

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

i do! i have 2 closed up ear holes. 

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

i was always great great great at english/reading/spelling! now i’m in college so like uhhh . i get to choose my subjects. so my best is photography ahah!! but i’m not bad at writing :-)

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

not desperately. sometimes i feel the urge to reconnect with old friends tho

26: What are you craving right now?

a Kiss!!!!!!

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

wait omg first i have a story. so on facebook they used to have those things where you’d answer questions, like this, in a note. i got tagged to do one so i did. let me set the scene. it was sophonmore year of high schoool. im 16. i’d broken up with my first “real” boyfriend a few months ago. so i was tagged for this shindig right.? it got to this very same question: have you ever broken someone’s heart? and i thought about this kid who i dated for 2.5 months...and i was like....well, clearly, he’s devastated we aren’t together! so i answered “Yes. Unfortunately.” ooohhhhh..... the drama.......the absolute emotion..... riveting.... who was he ? i was probably listening to jonas brothers SOS at the time.

anyway, how am i supposed to actually know ? like does sometone have to say “u broke my heart?” bc if so no one’s said that. but my last gf took the breakup v hard so maybe ? but i don’t wanna plant emotions in to anyone’s skull!

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

one of my exes sexted her friends. jury is still out on whether that counts, please lmk me know ur thots. kaelin, if ur out there, i’m so.................................happy that i haven’t spoken a word to you for 3 years. fuck off !

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Yes

30: What’s irritating you right now?

real quick, an update on the chocolate ice cream situtiaon. i’ve cracked open my pint, as well as another hard seltzer. i’ve also lit a candle. it’s a real production

anyway, no ! oh hahahah. sorry. thought it shaid who’s irritating you. ummm, personal stuff! but im not like mad. just personal drama

31: Does somebody love you?

lors of people do! and lots of people love You Too!!!!! you’re a delight!

32: What is your favourite color?

i LOVE yellow !!!!!!!!!!!! and blue, specifically teal! but not too dark of a teal you km,now ?

33: Do you have trust issues?

depends what im trusting them with !

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

i had a nightmare that i was sabrina the teenage witch and another witch was chasing me on a rooftop trying to kill me :(

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

hmmm idk actually bc it’s hbeen hard for me to cry lately :( probably maya ?

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

to be honest i don’t think i’ve often had the chance to Give a second chance

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

idk man iuhhh it’s kinda hard to just literally completely forget! and mnaybe not as healthy!

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

that’s kinda premature, it’s only april!!! but i suppose may is soon. idk im not sure! maybe every year is the best year of my life :-)

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

20 bb

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

i have ANaughT

51: Favourite food?

i would give up everything for a bgagel. i also LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEE sushi! my fave roll is i think either spicy tuna w the spicy sawce or seared salmon ora spicy tuna hand roll. i fuck sushi

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

this is a hard question for me to answer bc i want to say yes but also i don’t think abuse or murder or bad things or unnecessary death happens for any reason other thna, it just does sometimes and that sucks real bad. so idk. i don’t think everything has a grand purpose. but i blieve in my life, everything that’s happened to me has in fact led me to where i am today and i’m learning and healing and growing. that being said i could do without some of the things that have happend to me!

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

read a storm of swords :00000

54: Is cheating ever okay?

no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the point of cheating is it’s a breach of Trust! and that’s not okay!

55: Are you mean?

i hope not :(

56: How many people have you fist fought?

what is with u brits

57: Do you believe in true love?

depends what u mean by true love...like in fairytales? i think true love is just loving someone so much you’re willing to work on whatever you need to to keep them. not unconditional in the sense of “even if they’re mean i still love them” but unconditional in the sense of “even if u fart in front of me i don’t care, and even if you go through hardship and aren’t yourself for a while i will still love you because im with u for real”

58: Favourite weather?

SUN SUN SUN my favorite is when it’s warm out, but there are clouds to gaze at. it’s kinda humid. there’s a slight breeze. oh gosh i can’t wait for the summer :*( im currently cyring

59: Do you like the snow?

i am so fucking tired of the snow LMFAO it snows 8 months of the year here and i’m here, guess what, 8 months of the year! i fuckin hate it! go shit on someone else, clouds

60: Do you wanna get married?

YES more than anything, so much, i want to, so badly

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA OH MY GOD I DIE I MELT

62: What makes you happy?

sunshine, late night drives, laughing so hard my stomach hurts w/ my best frineds, playing d&d, writing poetry,  thinking about how small animals’ feets are, petting my cat and making him purr, talking to my little brother about real stuff, kissing my girlfriend and seeing her smile, warm blankets when it’s cold, eating cookie dough, dancing, singing in the car, holding hands, walking in the summer and listening to my favorite podcast, talking about harry potter with my mom, playing overwatch in the summer with andy, going to council crest

the list could go on forever :-)

63: Would you change your name?

already did PAL!!!!!!!!!!!

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

only hard bc she’s not physically here rn. but no, it would be easy, beacuse she’s so kisssable

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

if you define sex by GENITALS YOU BIG BIBNCH then i don’t Have one

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

stop omg......

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

STOP OMG

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

hmmmmmmmmmm..... idk maybe jamie

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

i don’t necessarily believe that there’s 1 perfect person for everyone out there romatnically, but i believe thaere are people destined to be in your life and i believe there are people that you will click with just absolutely instantly and feel an incredibly deep connection with, whether it be romantic or not

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

kinda morbid :/