#not “win” Internet arguments with strangers or “trigger” or “roast” anyone

[the-kirbe-anon]

Absolutely molten take but I immediately don't trust someone Christian or not if they throw around words like sjw libtard etc. If your hatred of leftists/anything you perceive as "woke" or progressive outweighs your duties as a Christian to preach the word of God, you really need an attitude adjustment. I've blocked so many people because it just frustrating thinking oh hey a Christian blog lemme follow then seeing no actual posting about the bible and just getting slammed with WOKE!!! SJW!!! FORCED DIVERSITY!!! Like what the heck!!!!!

I agree and I don't throw words like that around because I literally avoid politics on this blog. Other than speaking against abortion and LGBT ideology, I don't do politics here. And the speaking against abortion/any sin really has more to do with my Christian beliefs than political.

[loveissilentlyworthit]

Integrity of self-expression

I have to be honest though.

I’m not a good talker.

Never was.

I sometimes ended up saying things unintended and unawaringly triggering someone or whoever else.

It’s hard to open up to someone you rarely talk to. Especially the ones who kept on protecting the importance of their own selves. No matter how hard and kind you are to open up to that someone based on your own traits, that someone tends to be very disinterested with you. I find this very unacceptable because that someone lacks understanding.

Yes. People lack understanding. So I got shot down deep down in my heart.

Being overly happy and cheering can get you carried away sometimes and lead to mistakes. When things are too easy for you, you’ll end up creating one mistake that you’re struggling to undo and fix it. 

I’m done trying to win over a pointless argument. Even if the latter is determined to win so much even though he knows he made that mistake and refuses to admit defeat and give in while twisting words to us because he’s the one who did it - of course, I’ll leave it at that. Until he regrets one day. You won’t go anywhere with that naivety of yours.

My head was all over the place.

I want to enjoy time for myself, I feel like I wasted my talents in my head and my hands by not doing what I wanted to do, but instead I go out and frequently hang out with friends, won’t take no for an answer, in the end, I kept wounding myself deep in my heart that I didn’t expand my creativity when I’m alone - instead, I ended up sleeping and doing things that aren’t creativity - Games for skills and achieving 100% completion, sleep, opening up phone to chat with people, watching rule 34 and other various porn fetishes from my inside that I crave so much.

Its hard to find another partner that you really want and you can enjoy talking whatever you have to that partner.

I have this sense of insecurity evaluate and express my very own creativity - it’s outdated and not meeting to company’s or people’s standards of creativity. Not to mention I learn by my own way and not looking into internet and stuff, until I keep delving into the internet I know now how to follow their standards of creativity. I felt like I have the talents with me but I was pushed into it indefinitely like I’m terribly unprepared. Yes. Unprepared. You do know all kinds of art takes time and even perfection - And I know what you’re thinking - Balance. Yes, that’s the right word for it.

When you see people who kept expressing themselves of being insecure and like you’re talking to yourself like “You’re being insecure because of that? Dude on that situation I’m normal and being cool and talk to them without any problems” Sorry, you’re wrong. When you’re afraid and struggling to say something while talking to the client or anyone else and you keep swallowing your words - Yes, there’s insecurity in you. There.

I may let everyone down, but it’s not the end of the world for me, but I can see it from here, there and anywhere to my surroundings. 

FUCK YEAH, THERE’S MORE I WANT TO EXPRESS.

I don’t care if you think “My life on love is just on video games and nerdy stuff and rather not having a girlfriend in my life just because I’m lifeless” and YOU  want the opposite thinking in you rather than sharing the same agreement or kind of thinking just you want yourself to be distant and tame/pet your so-called precious behavior. But excuse-fucking-me, my hobbies and interests I use right now will attract someone I love who would carry the same thing with me, and I AM GONNA PROVE THAT, and there’s no way you’re gonna turn yourself away from me. Yes, we’ve met for a day and we let it out ourselves crazily for months (I can sense your boredom to me cause I’m nice, smooth and a bit of less teasing) until it gets noisy face to face each other in public and YOU HAD TO TONE DOWN MY LOUD NOISY CRAZINESS. Sorry I thought we can live around ourselves together and don’t give a single damn what others think while being so noisy but NO. You favor some people if you downgrade and people roast you just to have them like you/support you/give love to you rather than just compliments, coolness, smoothness, my personal fandoms and pulling out my inspirational internet jokes I’ve collected. I fucking get it, cool, nice, smooth, eccentric and cocky people are so fucking boring <-- even I am these. I’m sorry, good guys finish last? Why do you want to waste your fucking time getting attracted to bad boys? Okay, fine, be that way.

^ I apologize if this is too harsh, I just had to let it out cause it bothers me deeply. I may feel at times I get stabbed in the back silently because of this and I just leave them like strangers cause I don’t fucking care BUT I FUCKING DO.