#no questions on the last pic pls. just. accept it. Tumblr posts

[spghtrbry]

this and the brainrot again

yeah. don’t ask.

bonus: my ranking of saul’s suits. that orange shirt + green tie makes me feel things for some reason

[shimkongzlove]

Ryouhei x reader

A/N - loved windbreaker but I couldn't find many fics related to it so I decided to write one on my own . It is terribly written with a bunch of spelling mistakes and a basic plot. Read at your own risk ❌️❌️

Warning- mention of blood , violence , a bit of angst , sexual themes ( ig that's it )

You were working as an intern in the xyz hospital ( choose any name u like ) for your winter break . U loved working there , the staff was sweet and u received a good pay . But there were a lot of things which dint particularly suit your liking ,first and foremost it was situated in a rather shady area , the patients who came there during ur night shift were let's just say interesting .

Night shifts were something that u did not enjoy even hated to a certain level . They were tiring, boring and deprived you off of sleep . Yet what was important had to be done

4:30 am

A cold gush of winds welcomed u as u exited the hospital . The walk home was rather quite until u heard grunting from a nearby alley . Normally u would have ignored it but today u were feeling rather curious

U peeked into the alley way only to find a man surrounded by blood , lying on the cold floor . U stood there Debating whether to help the man or not and atlast ur heart won over ur mind .

U made your way to him cursing yourself for even stopping in the first place . Kneeling down next to him u observed his features . He was handsome no he was hot as fuck , the scar running down his face Made it 100 times better maybe it wasn't that bad of a decision to stop

While u were in your little dream land the man in question had regained his consciousness, his instinct led his hand to your wrist breaking u away from your thoughts .

The panic started to set in 'fuck he's awake man I hate my self for this ' , " who are you " said the stranger in question not letting go of your wrist which was starting to hurt " you're hurting me let go , please " ur plee fell on deff ears " I'm a doctor ur bleeding profusely if we don't sto-" ur words were cut short by the man pulling u closer "I asked who the fuck are you " he asked once again ignoring ur words . His deep voice sent shivers down ur body , ur face was just inches away frm his " si-sir I'm y/n , I can help you , your wounds look deep we have to stop the bleeding "

"I'm fine " he said letting go of your wrist " don't need help frm a complete stranger " "sir pls these wounds look serious I promise I mean no harm " as much as u hated the man's attitude u were still a doctor by profession it was your duty to help those in need

"My house is just 5 minutes away from here I can help stop ur bleeding and then we can both go our separate ways forgetting this ever happened deal " before he could argue his body gave up and he fell right into your arms

'Fuck he's heavy ' u somehow managed to drag him to your apartment . U laid his body down on your bed and started collecting all the medical supplys needed for the treatment .

Ryouhei's pov - 'man does my head hurt ' regaing back his consciousness he started to realize that he was not in an alley fighting people but rather he was lying on a bed one that was not his , his vision was still quite blurry from the hit he had taken , realizing he could not do much in his state he layed there accepting his faith

"Oh, ur awake I was just collecting the medical supplies needed for your treatment " "where am i" he said once again ignoring u " ur at my house, I promised I won't harm u so rest assured" u said walking closer to him " I dint quite catch ur name " " ryouhei " he said In an uninterested tone " well ryouhei-san you'll need to take of your um... clothes for me to help you..." u said as blood creeped up to your cheeks

He adhered to your request without any further question . He had a well toned body with a few cuts and scratches here and there . U caught urself staring a little more then needed, face as red as a tomato "take a pic it'll last longer " were the words that broke ur train of thoughts u felt an ache between ur legs ' this is so unprofessional, but man he's so hot ' "so-sorry, ehh anyways I'll start your treatment it's gonna sting a little so try not to move that much k?"

Sitting next to him on your bed u started your treatment , u felt him shiver under your touch "why are u doing this " he asked " I'm a doctor, it's my duty to help those in need " ur words sounded sincere to him " I'm a bad guy ukw that right " " I'm just here for the intern ship , i dont know the dirty business that goes around here " u said eyes still on his wounds , somehow u dint feel scared by his declaration , his hands went to your waist pulling ur body even more closer to his , stopping ur movements " everyone here knows who I am , many are scared to even approach I could do anything to you and ppl won't even bat an eye "

"U could have harmed me the moment you woke up yet here we are , so ik u won't do anything to me , atleast that's what I'd like to believe " " tch, ur way too confident " u decided not to reply , the time after that passed by silently

After about 15 or 20 minutes u were done putting bandages on his chest, arms and shoulders there were still a few cuts and scratches on his back so u asked him to turn around . He was now laying on his back

The spots were hard to treat because of the position u both were In , the only best possible way for u to reach them was to sit on his back "ryouhei-san ...the wounds on your back are kind of hard to reach so I'll need to change my position to treat them " " do whatever u want"

So u did what u had to , your theigs were now on either side of his body ( u were wearing shorts) touching his bare back.

Ryouheis pov

He was going crazy , the feeling of your theigs deff caused him to get a hard on not only that ,since the moment he met u . He was doomed. U were so pretty ,ur skin shining in the moon light, ur sweet voice, ur scent everything about u was intoxicating he couldn't take it much longer

He turned around causing u to yelp and hold on to his shoulders for support u were now basically straddling him " ur driving me nuts " "what did I d-" before u could finish , u felt smth poking ur inner thigh "oh" " yea feel that , that's what u did , you gotta help me now babe "

The end

( this is sooo poorly written 👎 but I had to to justice to my man ryouhei , there are barely any fics about him 😭😭 lemme know if yall want a pt2 )

( ps- this is the first fic iv ever written so please go easy on me and I hope yall enjoyed it)

[dojunie]

MESSENGER; HRJ [PT 12: SWITCH UP]

➥PART 12 OF MESSENGER; a smau about a stranger, a whole lot of animal pics, and a relationship you would never have expected to come from texting a random number written on a public bathroom mirror.

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FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME, YOU’RE VERY THANKFUL THAT DONGHYUCK EXISTS.

When you’d texted him about your predicament in the library, you’d expected about a hundred more messages of him dicking you around before you got your answer. More roundabout replies and suggestive emojis, a million questions on who, what, where and when, regarding your sudden interest in his friend. Yet miraculously, even after figuring out your intentions were not quite as innocent as a simple thank you gift, Donghyuck had actually been... helpful.

He even gave you the hint about the croissant— of which was currently tucked safely in the outermost pouch of your bookbag; two, of course, so it would appear to Renjun like you just so conveniently had an extra for him as well— which he didn’t really need to do after the heads up about the earl gray. A tea and a pastry, and you’ve got him locked down. It was a surprisingly straightforward conversation. 

Until he’d asked the question that had you double-guessing your motives.

Can’t allow one person to be a little distant with you, huh? So nosy.

As incorrect a guess as it was, it stuck out. He thought your interest in Renjun was just refusal to accept that the guy just might not like you? 

If it was as simple as Renjun just not liking you, you wouldn’t have even hesitated in your stride past the library. Not wanting to be your friend wasn’t illegal; if that was the case then you would’ve just left him alone, because you weren’t in the business of sticking around where you weren’t wanted— and at least then it would be a clear answer. 

The problem was that his weirdness around you didn’t feel very clear at all.

Your curiosity started because of the way he’d reacted when he first saw you. That nervous, almost uneasy look on his face, like he was waiting for someone to notice something. You aren’t the reigning authority on how strangers are supposed to act when they meet someone for the first time, but you’re aware that there’s some sort of script; a hello, how are you, my name is. Renjun had stared at you like you were about to pull a knife on him. Even Doyeon thought something was weird. Were you wrong to be curious?

It popped up again when he’d come over to help you study after practice even after you told him he didn’t need to, and it grew even further when— despite your genuine best effort to make him more comfortable by being as normal and subdued as possible— he could still barely look you in the eye for the first half an hour he was there. In a last ditch experiment you tried being yourself just to see if anything would change, and then it happened. You made him laugh. A snort, a shake of his head, all because of something stupid you’d said; but he’d laughed, mumbled, “Seems like something you’d do,” and in that moment you swore something clicked.

He realized why you were staring at him a second later and his smile melted back into that awkward, hesitant grimace, like he’d just let the mask slip too far— but it was too late. It was the inkling of proof you needed. Proof that somewhere in that head of his you weren’t the problem; something else entirely was making him act so odd. Proof that he had a secret.

Donghyuck was right about one thing in his assessment. You are nosy. And if it was the reason for Renjun’s weird attitude with you, you were going to figure that secret out no matter what. 

White hoodie. Silver glasses. Pale blue jeans, a little oversized by the looks of how they pool a little around his ankles; beige converse, one of them untied. Dark eyes diligently scanning the textbook propped up on the table… or they were, before you appeared in the corner of his vision and he looked up.

“I passed my pop quiz,” you said without preamble. A very, very long beat of silence passed before he opened his mouth to reply… except still, no sound came out. However clumsy it felt, you held your ground as he stared at you— you’d prepared yourself for the sheer levels of awkwardness this conversation may reach in the Starbucks line.

(Considering, though, that you were half expecting him to stand up and run away screaming once he realized who you were, even the clear hesitation on his face seemed like leaping progress.)

“Oh,” he finally said, jolting as if shocked, “Did you?”

“Yeah.”

You stared at him. He stared back. When he eventually realized that you were waiting for him to say something else, not just hovering at his table for the pure thrill of taking up space, he stiffened a little bit and hastily closed his textbook. 

“By— By a lot?” 

You nodded. “Definitely. I got a B plus, which is a lot if you’re considering that the last grade I got on a stat pop quiz was… not that. So I brought you a thank you gift. As a thank you.”

You thrusted one of the paper cups forward, careful not to jostle it too hard, and his eyes followed it only briefly before flitting back up to your face. 

“A gift?”

“Yeah. Hyuck told me you like croissants so I got you one of those too, even though bread with tea is kind of—” You shift your bag on your shoulder, letting yourself ramble a little. “I mean I tried it once because a friend told me to but sweets are still my vice. Do you want it? I’ll only judge you a tiny bit.”

Renjun’s eyebrows raised. “Hyuck said?”

“Huh?” 

“You asked him what I like? Donghyuck?”

“I—” 

And then you wince. Shit. First snafu. Yes, you did, but that wasn’t something you were really planning on letting him know. The convenience of him having the same drink as you made it easy to play it cool, to pretend like you’d just decided to get an extra (like you didn’t just harass his friend into telling you things about him without asking, like a creep), but Renjun was staring at you funny now so you swallowed down the vague embarrassment and held your head high. 

“Yeah, well it’s not much of a gift if I get you something you don’t like, right?”

“...Right,” he replied politely.

“Right. So, um. Anyway. It comes with a caveat.”

“The croissant?”

“Yes.”

“The gift comes with a caveat?” 

“The tea is the gift,” you correct, “Just the tea. The croissant, however, comes with strings. You have to— You have to help me study again.”

In your head, when you stood in the cafe line and pored over every detail of how this might go, this was the point where everything stood the greatest chance of falling apart. This could be where he finally understands that you have ulterior motives and jumps up to leave, quoting previous obligations to get away from you faster, or where he suddenly remembers who he’s talking to and gets all apprehensive again. You held your breath as Renjun just stared, eyes flickering around your face like he was contemplating a hundred things at once. When the silence stretches on a beat too long and you add a belated, “Please?” Renjun appears to reboot.

“Well,” he said. “Okay.”

You frowned in suspicion. Without protest like last time? “Okay?”

“Yeah. I’ve been studying here for hours, so a croissant sounds pretty good right now. A break from this Econ textbook probably wouldn’t be a bad idea either. Are you going to sit down?”

“Sit—?” 

Pause. You caught yourself before you could parrot him again like some sort of busted answering machine. Sit down? 

Holy shit. What? Like right now?

You never thought of what you’d do if he immediately said yes; because why the hell would you, when the last time you’d seen him he acted like you were going to jump out at him like a Halloween lawn toy? Your perfect theoretical outcome had been for the bribery to simply get you in his good graces, enough for him to sheepishly tell you he’d have to ‘check his schedule’ or something instead of rejecting the idea outright, with the eventual goal of Renjun getting back to you with a favorable answer later. Like a few days from now, later. 

But… now?

It’s already 5:15, which means you have to be in the gymnasium for practice in a little under an hour. That was hardly enough time to really get into any actual work, not to mention how woefully unprepared you were for studying considering that your class had only started a new lesson in Statistics today— it wasn’t to the point that you actually needed any help yet. 

And yet as you took in his expression, you hesitated to say as much. He looked… amused, by your visible disbelief. Somewhat pleased. The last time you’d spoken to him alone like this he looked like he was being held at gunpoint, so the vague waves of indifference he’s floating at you is a noticeable improvement.

What if he’s all… closed off again, if you reschedule? What if whatever’s making him so generous right now wears off, and next time he’s just as uneasy as before?

You couldn’t risk it. Without another second of deliberation you flung yourself down into the squishy library chair across from him, barely managing to slip your bag off in time to not crush it, and the precious croissants, between your spine and the backrest. You pucker your lips and throw a guilty look at the clock. 45 minutes until practice. Just 45 minutes. You'll leave here early enough to be on time.

“You’re really okay with it?” you asked suspiciously, looking back at him. “You’re not just doing this because Donghyuck is like, threatening you or something? I’ll can get him back for you if he is. I know the code to his front door.”

Renjun smiled, and the sight of it drained any violence you had brewing for your mutual friend. You’ve never seen him do that before.

“I'm doing this because you asked, not because I was threatened. Which I wasn't. Hyuck has the intimidation factor of an angry puppy.”

You were still focused on his expression. Wow. He should smile more often. If you thought he was cute when he was scared half to death on the volleyball court, then the look on his face right now was downright adorable—

“Ready?” he said suddenly, and you realized with a start that you’ve been staring at him without saying anything for the last fifteen seconds. 

“For?” you said stupidly.

“To tell me what you want to go over in Stat. Or are we going to start with a staring contest? Is this how I win my croissant?”

“Your—” Oh shit, yeah, “Oh, right! Right, here, sorry. One croissant, coming up!”

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General:

How long will they last?  It depends on a few things. Technically they have never been, within canon, and both are dead, in different ways, to different ends, but if they were to last, it would also depend on their responsibilities. I don’t know if Colum would walk from his duty, ultimately, not without a large push, but if it was compatible within that, but I don’t know if they need to last. 

How quickly did/will they fall in love? I always see Ortus as falling so much easier, I think. I think in my mind he falls hard and he falls fast and he falls for potential–all things I don’t see Colum doing. They are parallel, they are foil, they are distorted reflection. I think if Ortus saw Colum’s conviction and honor and strength, that he would swoon, and I am not kidding.

Colum would need to see something else. Maybe himself in Ortus, in the opportunity he should have had to turn away, in the path he’d never had and that Ortus should not have had and yet somehow tried to stumble, and then ah. He was killed. Because while your path is death, it is also death to leave it. But something in him can admire that Ortus walked off of it anyway, even if it was out of cowardice, because he also can be moved by the way Ortus learned from this and came away with a weird balance. Ortus is right to have qualms with their lack of choice in the path. Colum has always questioned it, but it has been a harder thing to state. And I could see him liking the poetry, lol.

How was their first kiss? Missed. But I understand the context of this question. I think it was quiet and heavy in the chest but light at their lips. I think there was hesitation from both of them. I think they did not talk about it for a time after it happened. I’m not even sure who initiated it, but Ortus thought about it a while before it happened.

Wedding:

Who proposed? I think they discussed it, and I think Ortus maybe wasn’t sure if they could, and I think Colum was the one to actually step forward and do it. I think he had to be sure he could, and Ortus had already accepted that they couldn’t, and I think Ortus cried about it, and that it was very private, and it was very meaningful, and I think Colum did it in verse, and I think Ortus wanted to reply in it but was also very overwhelmed and touched and startled and maybe could not speak for long enough Colum wondered if he misunderstood their relationship, but he is also good at being quiet and patient, and when Ortus finally answers, there’s a bit of relief because he had been very sure Ortus would say yes and it was correct.

Who is the best man? I’m still dying on the hill that Gideon is Ortus’ best man and I do think it’s out of weird guilt and obligation towards her. I also cannot see Silas as a bridesmaid or a groomsman, honestly. I don’t even really know how he’d cope with the marriage. I don’t know enough about Colum’s relationship to his brothers to say if they’d be groomsmen–I could see them having a very strained relationship, honestly.

Who is the bridesmaid(s)? If she’s willing to be a part of it, Harrow maybe, if she was not literally ordaining it, and yes she has her own guilt to deal with here. If she is not in the bridal party, she is a very valued guest with first seating, although I imagine they’d seat her and Silas very far apart if he was willing to come. I have no doubt she’d be in the wedding some way or another, though. Abigail could be a bridesmaid, and Magnus might also be in the party similarly. 

Who did the most planning? I just see Ortus as having the most dreams and goals about a wedding. I think he’s very romantic at heart, and thus he has so many things he’d want, but he might not ask for them. Colum himself is not without drama, despite the Eighth House not acknowledging that they definitely are dramatic, and I could see him working with Harrow (to both of their discomfort, honestly) so that they coordinate to the taste Ortus has painted with his words. 

Who stressed the most? Ortus, though I do see Colum as stressed over it being a large affair.

How fancy was the ceremony? Back of a pickup truck | 2 | 3 | 4 | Normal Church Wedding | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Kate and William wish they were this big. I honestly think Colum would personally like for it to be private and small, but he will prioritize what it means to Ortus for it to be large and beautiful and ceremonial. I chose both 8 and 10, because it can only be 10 with Harrow’s guilt-help and a pool of resources they may or may not have. It’s okay, though, for their ceremony, Colum has different, private vows to give. The vows Ortus gives at the ceremony take a minimum of an hour, and that’s if he abridged them, and he has a captive audience and they will be dealing with it.

Who was specifically not invited to the wedding? Crux. If he’s still alive, he’s not coming. A silly part of me says Ortus may narrow his eyes at Naberius for hitting on Colum, but I don’t think he’d push that if they wanted the Third House to be there (although I could also see Harrow being down for not inviting the third house because I imagine she has unexplored beef with Coronabeth that has nothing to do with Gideon, obviously). If Colum’s relationship with his family/brothers is bad, he may not have many on his side, but if he can tolerate it, he’d bring them for Ortus, I think. Unless they cause problems with that, in which case, they can stay uninvited.

Sex:

Who is on top? I think Ortus thinks he’s a bottom, but I think something in the wary weight Colum carries makes him consider just laying him down and ravishing him and trying to make him feel good and somehow this leads to him considering topping him, and then I think he realizes he’s versatile, and also that he doesn’t want Colum to feel used by him, and I think he tops the first few times they have penetrative sex, and I think also he likes to give Colum oral, and one day Colum just asks if it’s his preference to always top, and he gets flustered and a bit overcome and explains himself, and Colum understands it, but then, yes, he tops Ortus and Ortus realizing it’s not using him, because they are enjoying it together, and it is weirdly healing to recognize that. I also think both of them have weird trauma they’d understand with each other about ejaculating, however, considering they’re both from long lines of intentionally bred cavaliers who have weird purposes correlated with collecting semen/ejaculation, but I also think the sharing of this understanding is part of what’s healing for them, and I think Ortus likes swallowing, send post.

Who is the one to instigate things? I don’t… know. I think they’d eventually reach a conclusion on it somewhat together and it would open up from there. I just see it as kind of slow-moving and mutual, but I can see Ortus taking the final step towards actually instigating? I just think the kind of position Colum is in is very complicated, and Ortus is braver than he thinks of himself.

How healthy is their sex life? I think they both probably have some trauma and some repression and some weird hang ups that they have to work with, but I think they both have patience and understanding for it, so that’s good. I also think sometimes a trigger is found but not communicated and then that’s less fun and good, but we’re all living and learning, I suppose.

How often do they have sex? Barely touch themselves let alone each other | 2 | 3 | 4 | Once a couple weeks, nothing overboard | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They are humping each other on the couch right now

This is so hard for me…. My problem is I feel like sometimes Ortus maybe goes a bit stir-crazy and wants to fall into it and have a lot of cathartic, engaging sex, including to make up for lost time. But I also think he has periods where he’s very wrapped up in other things, or gets hit in a different way by those feelings, and then they don’t for a while. I also view Colum as relatively busy/still having a lot of obligation, and them not always being able to? I see it as an ebb and flow.

How kinky are they? Straight missionary with the lights off | 2 | 3 | 4 | Might try some butt stuff and toys | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Don’t go into the sex dungeon without a horse’s head

I put it in the middle again for Ortus. I don’t really know how to fully get into this, like I just think he has some things he really wants to try but also is it not already very kinky within their society that they’re together at all, the cav of the eighth and the cav of the ninth and they’re not even together to have children, in fact, please, they cannot stomach that. But then both of them are intended to be such subjects of violence, that I feel like often, there is a need for the comfort of something more tender?

I think they are constantly marked beasts and tools and I think certain ways of engaging with kink may be triggering for them, but I think some of them might be easier? I’ve already said before I think Ortus would like to write on a lover’s body, and some level of that can be sensory play even. I could see blindfolds, some restraint, an APPEAL to roleplay, but I also am keeping in mind that I think Colum has a lot of problems himself. Although I could see him being vaguely interested in knife play (a very gentle, mutually explorative knifeplay?) as a reminder that he is flesh and he is blood and he is present. 

What’s their most surprising kink? Maybe the knifeplay? It makes sense, but also it’s on a line with their histories of being used for and wanted for violence, etc. Making it so tender I think would really shape it for them both. 

How long do they normally last? I could see them not usually having a goal or a set standard for it. Slow, not necessarily focused on an ‘ending,’ and I’ve already said before I could see Ortus being interested in edging/chastity devices. I’ve also already said this, but I think Ortus also is someone who gets kind of spent after he’s orgasmed, and then it leans into cuddling and talking. Mostly Colum listening, honestly, since I imagine he might be the kind who likes to reflect internally on the feelings he experiences from it. Idling petting Ortus’ shoulder or the pricks of where his head is about to need a shaving again or the soft give of his collar, flesh and fat shielding bone.

Do they make sure each person gets an equal amount of orgasms? I don’t think they focus on it, actually. I think Ortus might have had some anxieties about it, but once he understood Colum’s own relationship to it, they settled in, and it wasn’t really about having an ‘equal’ amount, so long as they were both enjoying what they did. 

How rough are they in bed? Softer than a butterfly on the back of a bunny | 2 | 3 | 4 | The bed’s shaking and squeaking every time | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Their dirty talk is so vulgar it’d make Dwayne Johnson blush. Also, the wall’s so weak it could collapse the next time they do it.

I think it’s usually very soft, for the reasons I’ve listed above, but I think sometimes it can get really intense. I think they’re both perfectly capable of it being something where someone is being thrown around, I just don’t think they often devolve to that? Although, you know, if Ortus wanted to practice sparring, I could see that leading to some interesting and passionate exploration, considering it’s an environment where at any point they have the ability and right to ask it to gentle. 

How much cuddling/snuggling do they do? No touching after sex | 2 | 3 | 4 | A little spooning at night, or on the couch, but not in public | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | If they aren’t touching each other something is very wrong because they are always cuddling.

I’m putting an 8 because I feel like they touch very often, especially if they’re not disallowed to, but I imagine it’s often subtle things. Domestic things. I think also though Ortus was smothered by his mother a lot and sometimes wants a bit of physical space, and I think Colum has had constant demands made on his physical presence, and so they can be separate from one another and they can be understanding how the other may need physical space.  

Children:

How many children will they have naturally? If we’re being very honest, I think if they had the choice to not have children, they would take it. I think they both have a lot of trauma around it, especially around the expectations within that. I think Colum has already raised a child, one he was built to be used by, and he suffers the fear of having to put a child through what he has been through. I think he would for duty, but I think especially with Colum’s trauma adding to his, Ortus would be even more likely to refuse. 

How many children will they adopt? Again, they’re both very traumatized and have their own history of responsibilities and horrors with children. They could adopt, I guess, I just really don’t see it being an easy choice for them, especially if there was any other option.

Who gets stuck with the most diapers? Colum knows how to change a diaper. Ortus would leave that task to anyone else, but knowing why Colum knows that, I think he tries to learn and engage despite dissociation. Colum still does the most.

Who is the stricter parent?  Colum. Ortus is throwing up. But it’s a gentle sternness, nothing like Ortus’ father, and with the patience of someone who knows what it’s like to not be allowed a childhood. Seeing how Colum navigates it makes Ortus hate his father even more.

Who stops the kid(s) from doing dangerous stunts after school? Ortus is still throwing up. The kids are considering not doing it just so Ortus isn’t dying. Colum corrects the behavior, but calmly. 

Who remembers to pack the lunch(es)? Exactly like with Matthias, Ortus gets incredibly anxious about it and is definitely considering making them, and stressing over making them, and stressing over if something goes wrong with them or if some gas is released into the cafeteria or what if what if what if. Colum is sitting him down and calming him and taking care with what he packs. Colum checks them to give Ortus some peace of mind again before the kids leave with them.

Who is the more loved parent? I think they’re both loved, in different ways. But Ortus is a bit smothering and anxious and constantly reciting his own poetry, so maybe Colum is the cooler dad. That doesn’t mean they don’t love Ortus, of course, but it’s hard when you can see a parent dissociate every time they look at you, and while Colum might be doing that to, he does it much more calmly.

Who is more likely to attend the PTA meetings? Colum. He goes to every one. He recounts important details to Ortus later, and is sure to convey some of Ortus’ complaints if it’s relevant to do so.

Who cried the most at graduation? Ortus. But Colum is filled with deep emotion.

Who is more likely to bail the child(ren) out of trouble with the law?  Ortus is doing something he avoids and that’s using Harrow’s guilt to make her bail his kids out and he will absolutely feel bad about it but he must. Colum is reflecting on if his children have learned the correct values. Ortus and Colum have a very tense disagreement over it, but nothing relationship-ending.

Cooking:  

Who does the most cooking? Colum. I imagine he has more experience with it, but maybe sometimes they work together on things as he goes over some of the basics. Ortus likes hearing him talk, and he’s more likely to talk if it has a purpose. Also it’s pretty to watch him work with his hands.

Who is the most picky in their food choice? I feel like Ortus. I feel like he just has had even less exposure to things that taste like anything and so he’ll have to approach it carefully.

Who does the grocery shopping? I think they both will, and maybe even enjoy doing it together as a domestic task, but if they’re in a hurry, Colum will volunteer because otherwise Ortus is going to spend two hours choosing a single item, as he painstakingly weighs the pros and cons and then gets distracted thinking about how to describe them in verse.

How often do they bake desserts? I think they could both enjoy a sweet. But maybe still rarely, since I’m not sure how much access they have to the materials/the indulgence.

Are they more of a meat lover or a salad eater? I’ve said this before and I’ll say it now. Soup. Meat or tuber or bone stock, it doesn’t matter, I think they’re more likely to eat soup. Although I do think Colum might need meat for the amount of nutrients he’s depleted of, so if I have to choose between meat and salad, meat, and Ortus would eat it alongside him.

Who is more likely to surprise the other(s) with an anniversary dinner? Ortus one day finally figures out how to cook everything right enough, so he tells Colum to go out to do something, because Colum always cooks the anniversary dinner, and while he’s out, he makes the best meal he’s ever accomplished in his life, but forgets the bread in his list of a million tiny details, and while he’s ready to panic over it, Colum returns, notices, and has already picked up bread he intended to toast up for the dinner he planned. His eyes do that soft thing, where the corners show you he’s smiling even if his lips haven’t followed, and he is touched and a little amused that Ortus rushed around him to do it. They bake the bread he bought and Ortus feels nervous again like early on but also giddy, and Colum feels cared for, and then instead of cleaning up, which they usually do immediately following food, he moves aside anything he’s too worried about getting involved, and then he thanks him for his thoughtfulness at the table with a prayer at his lips.

Who is more likely to suggest going out? Hm. Colum, I think. He notices when Ortus is getting a little too consumed in his cocoon of creativity and suggests they go out, and then they do. Ortus appreciates the fresh air, especially if he’s been frustrated with a specific piece, and they do simple activities that they can slip into. I think Colum has to be told to take time away from work, too, but I think he tries to be mindful of how much they’re self-isolating together. 

Who is more likely to burn the house down accidently while cooking?  Ortus, bless him.

Chores: 

Who cleans the room?  They both clean, but Colum probably cleans faster. He needs the busywork. Ortus at first was anxious Colum felt he had to, but it’s one of the few things he finds soothing and distracting from his other responsibilities, so Ortus doesn’t fight him for it. He still picks up after himself, though, of course.

Who is really against chores?  Neither.

Who cleans up after the pets?  They do not have pets. If they did, then both. [Whoever got there first].

Who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug? Ortus, because I think Colum is very thorough. He would not appreciate if Ortus did this in a rush, but he’d just put things where they actually belong after and maybe remind him he can ask him for help if he’s overwhelmed.

Who stresses the most when guests are coming over?  Ortus, for sure.

Who found a dollar between the couch cushions while cleaning? Ortus. Colum left it there so he felt like he was catching something he missed. He likes the way his husband lights up when he’s noticed a detail.

Misc:

Who takes the longer showers/baths? Ortus. He got caught up in his daydreams.

Who takes the dog out for a walk? There is no dog, but if there was, probably Colum, as one of the tasks he engages in to let out steam. A little mindless, a little simple, a way to be grounded and present anyway.

How often do they decorate the room/house for the holidays? Ortus might. Colum would where it was necessary for duty. Maybe nothing huge.

What are their goals for the relationship? Peace. Comfort. Understanding.

Who is most likely to sleep till noon? I don’t think either does, but I also think Colum wakes up always at dawn, so maybe sometimes he watches Ortus in the dim new-morning light and he thinks about these things and he considers if Ortus will sleep in. Ortus wakes up not long after, because he doesn’t want to miss the way Colum seems so soft at the start of the day. They eat together and it’s quiet, but comforting.

Who plays the most pranks? Ortus. That’s okay. Colum has a few of his own. Ortus has still not noticed that three of his socks were darned with silver thread instead of black.

[sapphicsandscience]

20 questions for fic writers

Not going to lie - no one tagged me in this lol - but I am doing it .

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

47.

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

322,829.

Crazy number for me. I know some have literal millions but I can’t believe I’ve written that much in like the last two or three years??

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Currently Star Trek (TNG/VOY/PIC & some DS9). ER and Criminal Minds more so in the past. But ER I’ll never leave you.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

Aster

- my labor of love - no pun intended.

- i WILL finish her (manifest it pls).

A Flame In Your Heart

- going to be honest writing post s3 isn’t something that interests me the most.

- however, this is a cute story and i wish i had some more ideas for it as i feel like i lack direction.

I Should Have Moved Moons For You

- ahhh.

- a fic I really should have pre-written before posting but i do have fun with it.

- i am half confident she will be finished in time but it stresses me out thinking about it and my outline lol.

- but like most of my WIPs the chapters are all outlined and i do have semi-concrete endings for them or at least know the main plot.

A Lot Of Things Can Happen In Two Months

- like the concept but i think i could have written it better ?

- feels a bit messy but also there are a lot of feelings in it.

- but happy i got it finished !! and i am proud of it overall.

Eighteen Minutes

- ngl I forgot I wrote this lol.

- the only one-shot here.

- def benefited kudos wise from being posted after the second episode aired.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes! And I love to give comments regardless if I get a reply from the author. But personally, I like to reply back as the commenter has taken their time to do this. And you can have some really lovely and funny interactions in the comments haha … I just love talking about fic.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Well…it would have to be either of the ones I killed Beverly in - Last contact or Too Late.

Not sure which is more angstiest?

However, as for a multichap ending that ends the most angstiest and wasn’t written to be a character-death-fic - maybe - A Lot Of Things Can Happen In Two Months. Which sucks cause it’s pretty much canon compliant LOL.

Hmm now I am tempted to write another multichap with a less than happy ending…

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Most of my fics that have an ‘ending’ are WIPS that I haven’t finished yet lol.

But maybe Our Turn - it’s just Beverly and Jean-Luc enjoying everything wonderful in their lives <3

8. Do you get hate on fic?

Not really - I doubt anyone cares enough lol. But I am ‘fortunate’ that some of the more ‘controversial’ ships I may write have had writers come before me and take the brunt of any crap :(( but they’ve created a lovely sandbox for the rest of us to play in <3

9. Do you write smut?

Not often but I have yeah…and *deep breaths* … I have no idea if I am even acceptable at it LOL. It’s definitely something I sometimes want to add to my fics and lately I’ve been giving in a little.

Okay, someone tell me if I am terrible and I will stop.

10. Do you write crossovers?

It’s not my go to thing but yes I have. Including the fusion ER/TNG fic that three people have probably read (but three people I love).

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Nope.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No but that would be cool as!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! With my lovely and supportive ER fic buddies ❤️

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Not sure how best to answer this. It is very dependant on my current hyperfixation and I am one of those sapphics that very much is into the woman more than the man in terms of interest in f/m ships…

However, at the moment it’s Beverly/Jean-Luc and I can say I am definitely more invested and interested in Jean-Luc’s character than I have been with other men in f/m ships. So that’s another reason.

But I love to read/write Crusher/Janeway ❤️ and LOVE those characters. Kerry/Sandy too is special to me.

Can honestly say apart from helping me give Emily Prentiss a baby in my fics I never cared that much for any of her ships I wrote (sorry 😭).

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but probably won't?

Probably better I don’t answer this. It stresses me out cause I want them all to be done 😭

I’ll answer with a WIP I never posted which was a dystopian AU with Kerry and Sandy. Field medicine, babies (it’s me so ofc) and friends trying to survive together.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Hmm - I think I can come up with some good ideas. I can be good at description and introspection … probably more than dialogue.

And I am very strong in the art of giving Beverly Crusher lots of babies. And also making her go through angsty stuff. But I make up for that with the babies I think.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Long intricate plots ? I would love to be better as balancing many themes and plot points in one story. I struggle with dialogue sometimes as well.

Also I am very word count preoccupied at times which is a hindrance as a writer. I sometimes really struggle to get anything out in a session then can overcompensate later by writing too much? But honestly either way I just let myself go with the flow these days otherwise I stress about it.

Yeah and I probably need to edit better.

And smut.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Is this controversial?? I don’t have any issue with it.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

(redacted)

20. Favourite fic you've written?

These are both not what I would consider my best work (idk what that even is) but probably Gone (Ice)fishing or It Takes A Village.

Both were written as gifts and out of my comfort zone (for different reasons) but I am really proud of them both.

But I also love some of my Kerry/Sandy one-shots I did here on this blog. And Aster is definitely a personal accomplishment in terms of length as a writer. I love it too ❤️.

Oh, also - To Build A Home - cause it’s tragic & angsty but also BABY🥹 - it’s just my brand.

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Okay -I’ll shut up now.

Anyone feel free to do this and tag me.

[surrealsunday]

yesss it really is eliott, the way once he realizes and accepts his feeling truly he's 100% in it. exactly lucas deserved his intimate moment to be this vulnerable, all the hugs in the world too 🥺 yeah that make up moment was truly so well-written, not too rushed but not too slow either. you can really feel they're taking their time even tho it won't be 🌸 easy and paradise 🌸 right away. IKR this is so eliott to have a contact name like that for lucas pls, just so soft 💗 the paintball scene is probably one of my favorite tbh! so i'm glad you took your time and wrote it when you where in the mood bc it was totally worth it! :))

and well said! so those last moments with them will be worth it (as always), they deserve to have that perfect closure (us as well btw). i don't wanna say goodbye to my babies either tho, but it'll be a great way to finish my vacations since i'm going back to uni next week (yay 😐) shshfhizk

looking forward for this last chapter, i feel like it's gonna be EPIC! ❤‍🔥

wishing you a great weekend as well <33 :)

hey! also i just saw the asks abt max and axel bday pics and it was everything, made my week and all 🥺 their friendship is just so awesome 💗

but i 100% agree on their…hair/facial choices? 😭 like i love them with all my heart but this…guys…please…the moustache is kinda questionable to me so i don’t really mind it that much ? i guess ? but the bleach…oh god it’s a big nope sorry (not sorry) bleach maxence enjoyers but…like u said with the grown roots it kinda is better, i won’t lie, but still 😭(i also agree abt a bleach eliott in a band fic, would really fit 😌)

Lucas vulnerable moments are definitely precious in this story and I was pretty careful with them (destroying him the once was enough). It's been really nice to get to the soft and happy part of the story. It all feels very delicate when I edit it and I hope it'll read that way. You'll have the chapter I just posted and an epilogue to get you through the return to uni. I wish you all the good vibes! Going back to work after holiday was... not it 😂. I'm still really struggling to get back into work mode.

And yesssss how cute are Maxence and Axel? I love that they really did have a soul connection and they have stayed friends. It makes my heart happy.

I am laughing over your comments on the hair/ facial choices. They are both just such... boys in their 20s aldkfjalksdfj. Good for them truly. I will just complain lmao. And I am SO SURE that Axel thinks his 70s pornstar mustache is hilarious. Like, I have no doubt he will revel in people being horrified by it. He and Lucas definitely share that little shit quality 😌.

Hope you have a lovely weekend too! 💖💖💖

[feuqueerfire]

Only Friends Live Blogging

I usually just binge one show at a time but I currently have 23.5 ongoing (while it's on-air) and am on episode 4 of I Will Knock You. So I'm not quite sure why I'm starting Only Friends right now but I guess I wanted something messier than those 2, since they're pretty lighthearted shows.

I'm... somewhat nervous to get into this because there seem to be so many different opinions on the show. I wasn't really in the BL sphere while the show was airing since I took a bit of a break from watching shows in the second half of last year but I did get the general vibe that there was discourse and disagreements.

Hopefully, I'll enjoy it. I'll also try to watch just 1 ep a day while also watching 1-2 eps of I Will Knock You a day so that I don't just neglect that show but maybe I'll become hooked and binge this one, who knows.

Ep 1 (May 7)

1-1

omg 1-1 has 5.9m views another part in a diff ep has 8 million, that's wild, feels like it's been a while since a GMMTV show had that many views on Youtube, think Bad Buddy had higher views than this (though it's had 2 years to accumulate). also this has made me realize that 2gether isn't available for me on youtube anymore lol

is that First's voice singing...?

Sand-Ray argument at first meeting

Book looks so cute with the glasses, just like gives :) vibes

chaotic intro but intriguing

August

hostel business plan in Ray's father's house

lol laughed at Nick and Boston just eyeing each other up the whole time

Lookjun is so pretty

pls Top sick of the "fierces ones who already know it all" experienced sexual partners and wants to try it with virgin Mew

Does Boston have a weird reaction to Mew saying he always gets what he wants?

Drake, hii

one of these days somebody's gonna call Ray burden again and he's gonna combust fr

heh Sand driving Ray's drunk ass home

1-2

Top gulping down the water, mans was Thirsty

having ice cream instead of sex, sounds good

lol Sand's gotta take Ray to his own dorm

the vomiting sounds terrible

damn, Nick gonna get off to Boston's vid?

I'm skipping through the nsfw scenes tbh

I get Top, Mew's quite cute

1-3

the fucking Poor Boy shirt on Ray lol

"I can tell who is being honest with me. My sense is always right." well, I sure hope that's true, Mew

So freaking bold, Nick leaving his own shirtless pics in Boston's phone and getting him to check it right in front of him

1-4

damn, both Sand and Boston just constantly side-eyeing Top and Mew as they're being cute

I've remembered that there's some storyline about Boston liking Top despite hooking him and Mew up? I wonder if Ray likes Mew since he's also iffy about this relationship?

hm so Top has intentions to actually date Mew

the handwashing icked me out lol

ah, indeed even Top knows that Boston likes him

trying to watch the show and not be sucked into embarrassment at public gestures like this + my aversion to these public questions anyway because of the pressure to accept

Started 1.25x already tbh but not to the fault of the show, it's just what I like. Actually, pretty good first ep, it set up the characters and relationships well and gave us a taste of what's to come. Also, I've been seeing people mention that maybe Mew has a more sinister/manipulative underbelly and I'd be into that, some people brought up "you're the company you keep" and if he's in the company of Boston and Ray and such, then he's probably not a saint.

I know there's some cheating involved (Top cheats on Mew?), and Ray has an addiction problem I think?, and also from the talks, it seems like the expected pairs neatly end up together rather than any curveballs being thrown at us.

Also, Nick is gonna be pitiful later on when he falls for Boston but like he's also wild in this ep, not only jerking off to Boston's pics but leaving some of his own, that's sexual harassment but works out in this case.

I ended up skipping through all the nsfw scenes this ep cuz idk I feel awkward watching it right now but that's a shame tbh cuz that aspect is also supposed to be a draw for the show

Ep 2: M.F.M. - My Favourite Man (May 7)

Whelp, screw watching just 1 ep a day haha, I'm gonna be out for several hours tomorrow, so I'm gonna watch ep 2 now as well and listen to the podcast recaps while I'm out so that I have something to do while waiting (it's not like I can watch the next ep of Only Friends in public with my mom beside me...)

2-1

wonder what Sand's got against Top, mans has been sighing and rolling his eyes and giving him stick eye through this whole asking-Mew-to-be-his-bf ordeal

wonder what these cut scenes are about? like Cheum referred to the camera/whoever's asking the questions as Phi. reality show-esque

I hope Yo plays a bigger role as the story goes on and she's got a faen too

I don't know what Lookjun did (other than her lips) but she looks kinda like Wonyoung. pretty hehe

neither Boston nor Ray are into Mew's relationship but obviously they each other one half of the Top/Mew pair lol but Mew's strong-willed enough to not get swayed by their dislike while he's also not fully committed and in love with Top or anything

Ah, Nick and Sand are already phi-nong friends. I think I've seen an edit where everything and everybody is chaotic af but Nick and Sand are just buddies (each heartbroken over red flags Ray and Boston ig)

Nick and Sand are so fun what the hell

interesting that Mew brought up being embarrassed by the public asking the other night. feels like a rare thing in these BLs where public gestures are common but seen as a special, romantic thing only

Top just gives me the ick like every few minutes

lol Mew idk how many of your apparently simply standards Top actually meets

Sand selling drugs?

Ray following Sand to Roxie club

Is Ray into women as well?

Sand's selling plum wine. I thought a post also said sex worker Sand after seeing the trailer (which I haven't seen) but Idk if that's true still or if they misinterpreted (similar to Ray lol)

aghhh the drinking buddy for pay thing is getting to me, KhaoFirst my beloveds but I mustn't fall for them so easily, since it'll be episodes of pain and misery from what I can tell

also 10k baht is like almost 400CAD, that's insane

2-2

oh man, Nick looking at Boston afterwards so cutely and prettily rom the bed. save yourself my guy

[Linguistics] Boston has started using gu/mueng with Nick (and Nick follows suit)

rich, rich boy Ray

his mom passed away

have to keep reminding myself to not freaking fall for SandRay

Cheum's gf April makes an appearance

ah, Top helping Cheum

not Boston just taking everything off in the locker room before approaching Top lol, reminds me of the Army and Joe endless locker room scenes in Warp Effect. Jojo lol

girl already?! I... knew that there's a scene with Top cheating on Mew with Boston (and thus the Mew kicking Boston into the water scene) but it's not happening already, right? It's too early, they haven't even started dating the second time, Mew's still a virgin, it's only ep 2. they'll somehow wiggle out of it lol

2-3

okay, Boston managed to sneak out into the next stall thing

pls this cookie feeding/eating. stupid and silly lol

mutual masturbation my beloved

ah, Nick's already so into that he's gotta lie saying he's not that into it to keep Boston around

not Ray ruining Sand's hookup plans. let him take the girl home before he becomes inescapably into you and can't leave !!

pls Sand being like bruh no threesomes, leave me out

"Instead of going home with a girl, I'm driving a drunk man home" whelp I was hoping you'd get one last night with somebody else before you're way too into Ray to do anything else but ig it's already too late

girl he's Driving !!

why are Sand and Ray so cuteee

2-4

insomniac Top

who's that in Boston's photo? Mew and Ray?

Sand offering to be Ray's friend for free. they're so cute for now

Sand who's open to all genders

hilarious that Sand's the one who's like yeah you're gonna want more of me but we're strictly friends like girl... ok

well, I didn't skip this makeout session. i'm biased about KhaoFirst, what can I say? also, it doesn't matter that smoking in real life is gross, it looks hot when they do that

Ep 3: What Am I to You? (May 8)

3-1

nick asking the internet if fwb can turn into lovers lol

lol jojo twitter cameo

damn nick-boston sex montage

not Nick being hopeful when Boston says "who knows, we might promote our status again in the near future" like girl...

oof, Nick finds Boston's photo from the photobooth with Top

Ray's huge ass comfy looking bed

Sand and Ray can't be cute nowwww, y'all have 10 more episodes of shit to go through ahhhh

hmm CCTV and blind spots. will this come into play?

why are you singing out loud laksdfjalk;sdf it's silent disco, dkm

3-2

lol interaction with somebody who Top clearly used to sleep with and idk if it's weird to just move past it easily but ig there's nothing to talk about since the guy clearly said Top's not replying to him

Boston-Sand-Nick meeting

hehe Yo

I actually hate how into SandRay I am like they're sooo cute to me

3-3

Boston knowing Nick wants their relationship to be more but he just always placates him without giving in

feels like I've def seen gifs or clips of these characters from this party, esp like Sand's outfit here

Sand and Top fr have beef, like at the end of ep 1 when Sand was over Top's public gesture, it was like well does he dislike Top or does he just dislike some dude making a scene? but now Sand's flipping Top off

First is such a good actor but he's truly not a singer

Boston couldn't easily get to Mew to break off with Top but now he's using Ray's crush on Mew to try to see if he can do something

and now sowing the idea of Mew and Ray in Top's mind, oh Boston you're so into this, it's fun

where and when tf is that Ray/Mew kiss photo from? Is it the angle? Edited? It's real photo from before and that's why Boston asked Ray whether he STILL likes Mew because they'd kissed and Mew was like lol that was nothing, let's be friends while Ray was into it? messy

Only Friends Stay - the hostel name lol

oof, before Ray had a problem with Top but now, Top also has a problem with Ray lol

3-4

girl how am I supposed to be impartial about Ray and Sand like fr? Ray saying 'you saved me, so it's now my turn to save you' about giving Sand a ride lol

I'm fucking screaming, no way Ray poked and prodded Sand until he finally gave in but then immediately pulled back and stopped their hookup the second Mew called...

...and we have arrived at the Top-Boston car

2 year old video, long enough time man

bruh Boston getting to Top's head lol

if Mew can do something 2 years ago, doesn't mean y'all should mess around Now bruh lmfao

oh crazy

okay, Boston and Top hook-up in the car: Cheating or not? It seems like a violation of trust and indeed seems like cheating to me that even though technically Mew and Top are not "boyfriends" they sort of still are because they were already boyfriends for a day before restarting with the plans of again becoming boyfriends. They weren't boyfriends but they seemed exclusive nonetheless.

Damn, Nick wire-tapped Boston's car? It's probably from the preview right? Cuz I didn't see if but people in the reddit comments are mentioning it. I kind of expected him to go through the CCTV (esp since he was mentioning all the stuff about cameras with mics and seeing it through your phone and stuff) and catching Boston and Top in the car through one of the videos but this is much more intentional

oh wait! it's after the credits but not Next Week's Preview?

ah, so he put a mic thing under the seat earlier and he's also physically seeing them have sex in the war, whelp

lol nine pinta (the screenwriter whose college friend group this show is based on) also tweeting to nick

Ep 4: Emergency Contact (May 8)

4-1

2 Years Ago oh flashback

oh dang, Ray called Mew as sort of a cry of help before trying to commit suicide

the burden thing really gets to Ray

no wonder why Ray's so hung up on him, not only did Mew show up, but he hugged him in a way even his mother never did and also told him he loved him when he needed to hear it most

lol Boston really took that video of Mew and Ray kissing for fun lol

watched the opening credits for the first time

don't kiss him !!

agh Ray actually kissed Mew while he had his eyes closed trying to sleep

Mew is shown to be pretty strong-willed, whether it be to Top or his friends

Nick and Sand are cute friends

is this is the photobooth where Top and Boston hooked up? Top's dad's hotel photobooth would be crazy tho

Top's rich guy attitude icks me out so bad like he and Mew are just talking at the room, why is Top sitting like he's giving an interview T.T

airplane model with the letter B... Boston? Top seemed to not be truthful about it

4-2

Sand being mad at Ray and Ray trying to make it up to him

I actually hate Sand and Ray, head in hands

Top's disgust at seeing Boston

Mew at every turn talking about how he's not like Boston and Boston feeling like he's superior to Mew, what great friends they are

well at least this time Top pushed off Boston but making Boston angry doesn't bode well

omg ?! Top inviting this over guy over... for a good time? mans didn't have sex for 3 months, had sex with Boston and now is like fuckkkk I can't not have sex

did Nick get Top's number from Boston's phone?

Boston's father is planning on running for House Representative and so he can't risk a photo getting out...

Nick likes to just listen to the sex audio and torture himself fr

ah, Nick's texting Top?

4-3

Nick talking to Top about staying about from Boston like girl... Top's not the one hunting Boston down. you gotta get over Boston frrrrr

Nick saying that he knows Top's a dick and he is too... I mean, you did bug his car and now have their sex audio so you're not incorrect but well

bruh Top literally back onto Sand in his motorcycle?!

Top and Sand animosity once again, let me know where it stems from !!

"It's clear you just can't take care of what you have" did someone Sand was dating or something cheat on him with Top?

fake ass punches

did Nick tell Sand that Boston hooked up with Top?

oh he did. and is telling him about the bugging too, that's wild lol lots of trust

Top stole Sand's ex indeed

Ray apologizing to Mew, tbh idek how I'd show my face to Mew if I did what Ray did

and Top arrives to the scene, along with the stuff Boston'd told him about Mew and Ray. meanwhile Mew-Ray don't know anything about this Boston whispering in Top's ear stuff

lol Ray unknowingly admiring Sand for punching Top

ah, Mew actually telling Top about Ray liking him + the kiss from 2 years ago (not about Ray coming onto him yesterday though, which honestly I wouldn't either lol gonna make Top even more mad and he's already mad about it)

Why does Top think Ray and Mew did more? What was the video Boston showed him?

ah, Mew also picked up on the fact that Top was hiding something about the model airplane. wrong B name though

okayyy I've seen people mentioning Top doing drugs but I hadn't seen anything about it so far, so I kept forgetting but now we know he's done coke and stuff

Top's soooo sleazy while he's insinuating that Mew should sleep with him if he quits drugs ew ick ick ick

how is this a deal between two people who want to be boyfriends and have a long-term relationship lmfao

4-4

bruh, Top straight up brought drugs to Mew's place in a little teeny ziploc baggie? or like what is that? he just poured it into water? to show that it's unusable now?

oh... Boeing???? that's Mond's character right? He's Top's ex? also watching this amidst all this Boeing controversy

skipped the sex scene like I tend to but the lead up to it was so uncomfortable for me lol

Top only caring about whether he came or not and not whether his partner enjoyed the sex, who would've thought

so Ray's taking Sand seriously as a romantic interest now?

The Mew Top scene made me so uncomfortable and I don't think I can articulate why. "I'll sleep with you if you give up drugs" is just so ?? Like I thought you needed to be boyfriends or love Top or something and that's why you weren't having sex? So what's up with this, i don't get it. and what kinda exchange is this, virginity in exchange of quitting??

Also, Top could get more of that or have more at home lol, he's into it enough that he literally just carries some around with him, I don't think destroying a teeny bag is gonna do much

Ep 5: (May 9)

5-1

Sand's life of sleep, working out, and work

this is all recent right?

why are Sand and Ray so cute, I'm gonna lose my shit when problems occur in their relationship tbh

my toes curl up and I can't control my smile when watching them fr

Sand's sausage eating tease

Nick trying to become a "new" him and also somewhat trying to emulate Top at the same time i guess?

why do Mew and Top never feel... genuine

the stall is just a curtain not even doors omg

ewwww Sand jerked Ray's dick a few times and with the same hand, grabbed one of the shirts (from the store!! not theirs!!) with the same hand i'm dead, they better buy it

5-2

weird interaction with the server

bruh someone took a sexual video of Boston to make money off of it? scary af

5-3

I would not be able to do the Blind Dining thing where you don't know what you're eating

What's up with all these people noticing Top? Is it that Top has slept with the entire gay population in Thailand? Is Top's dad keeping an eye on him or something dramatic like that?

oh, Top shivering/shaking from withdrawals or what?

bruh not Sand's mother being the manager of Roxie and tricking him to get here by using the ruse of debt collectors

oh it's Sand's birthday

ah, Ray singing such a romantic song for Sand

“I just feel like If he doesn’t sleep with me he is going to get bored of me” whelp

I wonder if Boston's gonna become insane now that he knows Mew's gonna sleep with Top

5-4

The Top/Mew scene is supposed to be romantic. It does not feel that way and I wonder if that's intentional

Is Sand's mysterious father ever gonna come back to the story?

ah, good scene with "She drank herself to death" and Sand's hand pouring the liquor faltering

Ray sharing some of his story and past with Sand

oh, I'm kinda into the way Nick grabbed Boston's wrist and lead him home

Sand is so into Ray man

Boston needs to shut his fucking mouth, why is he talking about Sand liking Ray

and now talking about how Ray's been in love with Mew for years oh Bostonnnnn you instigator. but it's good that Sand also knows now ig

so does a video of Mew and Ray actually exist? like Mew pushed Ray away that night... and I've been wondering wtf video Boston showed Top

I wonder why Nick even likes Boston fr

Sand T.T

Do I not feel Top-Mew's scenes because I'm not meant to and they're being artificial on purpose or is it because ForceBook can't pull it off? I also wonder how TopMew's gonna go now that Mew's slept with Top?

Interesting to get Sand's perspective this ep.

I didn't comment on it but there are lots of moments where we can see the wealth disparity between Sand and Ray (the second-hand shop stood out to me first but also the debt collectors moment where Sand was so worried but it just seemed like a bit of fun to Ray).

Ep 6: Happy (F*cking) Birthday (May 9)

ep 6... feels like things are gonna go down this ep, esp after the debacle that was 5-4.

I'm quite enjoying this show and the characters so far but I know people have problems with the character writing, I guess that's maybe toward the latter half of the show?

6-1

The way Ray and Sand sharing the cigarette smoke in ep 1 (? or 2?) and the cookie in ep 5 mouth-to-mouth drove me insane yet I feel nothing toward TopMew sharing their cookie or this apple slice mouth-to-mouth, man I hope the artificialness of their relationship is on purpose and not just bad writing/acting/directing. I mean tbh they're cuter/more normal in this ep so far, so idek

omg Mew has two moms

Ray and Boston tension while they have to be around each other in the friend group, esp Ray sending glares toward Boston who's playing at nonchalance

omg is Drake's character (Gap) the one who fucking recorded Boston?

Boston's cold reception and rejection of Drake's character right in front of Nick who... also recorded (the audio of) Boston having sex. also not to mention Boston having recorded Mew and Ray's kiss lol

Gap's video of Boston is def gonna come into play again but I wonder... if it'll be Gap's doing or maybe Nick will acquire it from Gap?

damn, Sand and Top once again and Top always seems to know where to hurt Sand while Sand's quips roll off of Top

6-2

omg???? is Sand destroying his fucking phone so that he can use Nick's phone to send Mew the recording of Top and Boston?! my god let's go vengeful Sand blowing things up and being the instigator

what did Nick notice about his phone? did he know Sand sent himself the audio or did he notice Sand didn't actually call his mother

okay Top's hanging out with Mew and getting him Lasik and taking care of him even after they've had sex, so I guess they really do like each other

how can you know that it's Top and Ton from just their moans lmfao ?? anyway seems like Sand's passing it around to Ray instead of sending the audio to Mew himself, which is smart since Ray's closer to him

I wish Sand didn't tell Ray that he got it from Nick tho??

girl something or other is def gonna fuck up Boston's dad's campaign rip

Boston possibly going to New York

Nick once again mad/sad at Boston but still gives in

6-3

and Boston knowing how to get under Ray's skin even while Ray sought him out first to give him a piece of his mind (kinda like how Top gets to Sand)

Mew's reaction to Top's gift... I thought it'd be a little more happy since it's a pretty good gift for a rich guy? Wtf is this fake ass barely-there reaction that even Top has to ask if he likes it

Does Mew know something already and is uncomfortable?

damn, Ray went to the stall to get high?

nah, Mew definitely looks significantly better with glasses, I must say

omg Ray getting cross-faded and just airing out everybody's dirty laundry? yikes. even sowing discord among the lesbians pls I wonder if April and Cheum are gonna have drama now

he's an asshole to Sand too

damn, even Mew getting violent, alright

6-4

holy shit he keeps calling Sand a whore and insinuating he'd take money for sex or whatever?? and even pushed him down, Ray you fucking jackass but I'm kinda glad that there's now some sort of rawer, more terrible conflict in their relationship beyond just Ray liking Mew

"While we are together, can you not lie." yes plsss I think if Cheum and April can get that together, they'd be so far ahead of the other 3 pairs

Is Top not at all concerned that Ray at the end seemed to target Boston about Top, meaning he maybe knew about them? Because at first, I get him being like wtf what does ray even mean when he doesn't know shit but shouldn't he now wonder whether Ray does indeed know some shit

Mew being unconcerned about hitting Ray and what happened to him afterwards is kinda interesting. I'd at least expect some more anger like wtf why did he do that fuck him but now he's so... nonchalant about it all, doesn't care at all, so strange

skipping through the sex scene less bc I'm not in the mood to watch a se scene and more bc I lowkey hate TopMew but hoping I catch the dialogue

Mew likes Top's sounds during sex... which he will recognize when the audio is found?

ohhhh okay good hah he has it

okay, so Mew knew about it since he and Ray met in the bathroom, right? still don't know why he seemed guarded/uncomfortable at the beginning of the party though

I think the way Mew revealed the audio and everything was so fun + the rant at the end showing he's had so many thoughts about it and wondered why Top had done it etc. It's a good scene I think but still felt... somewhat lacking? I think I'm just being too hard on ForceBook because in a different show, this would've been Great but this show just has too many good scenes and conflict scenes and dramatic fights and this one doesn't quite deliver as well as it should.

It’s still a really good scene in general though and I’m gladI hadn’t been spoiled for it

Ep 7: After Effect (May 10)

Okay, let's see how the Aftermath is dealt with

7-1

god drunk driving is truly just so.

random ass car crash lol, would've been better if Ray'd fallen into a ditch or crashed into a tree off the road lol

will Sand have to save Ray's life in the future again too cuz this is the 2nd time Ray's explicitly thanked him for it already

random emergency reference since it's not like Sand knows Ray's emergency contact thing

I want Sand to be more mad bruh like Ray was quite harsh to him earlier and I want him to be like yeah I saved you but doesn't mean we're now made up

oh, Ray's got a dad who sometimes shows up lol

put Mew into this damn glasses again, it actually irritates me that they took them off when he looks significantly better with them on

Mew deciding to be terrible to deal with terrible people

The way the last person among the 6 guys to know about the audio is Boston himself and second-last was Top. meanwhile Nick knew for longest, then Sand for quite a long while too, and Ray and Mew became aware recently

damn, Nick didn't remove the bug?

Nick looks so pathetic

what fucking video clip man like did Boston engineer some sort of fake (deepfake?) sextape for Mew and Ray??

Mew's burning just one page, I was hoping he'd burn the whole sketchbook but ig it's fine. love the drama of it anyway

Glad BostonNick and TopMew had actual breakdowns in their relationship, kinda disappointed that SandRay are just fine and dandy. I get that they give sort of a balance and they didn't do as much shit to each other the way Nick and Top did to the other person but still... some sort of apology or conflict due to Ray calling Sand a golddigger or a whore or something, c'mon

7-2

I wonder what the father asked Sand to do. I hope it wasn't "I'll pay you to take care of Ray" or something lol

I want to enjoy the SandRay moment and bath and shaving and whatever but it feels unearned. maybe I'll try real hard to just watch the scene and enjoy it outside of the narrative

Ray is such a spoiled brat man "you wouldn't get me" girl, why would Sand who is working day and night to support himself and paid off his mother's debt and who doesn't have a father not understand? He might not explicitly understand having a dead mother who hated you but it's not like his life is roses without a reason to be stressed. annoying ass

I mean, none of y'all cared that he was driving drunk and high lol

If Ray doesn't get over Mew soon, I'm pushing him into the water as well

interesting to see Boston being iced out by all 3 of them + he doesn't have Nick anymore either, so he's gonna be alone for a bit?

the kick into the pool

7-3

okay at least Nick yells at Sand about the clip stealing

Nick is so pathetic I actually cannot. okay you love him, so what? literally so what? get over him, distance yourself, and just because you love him doesn't mean you have to be with him

aw fuck, Sand relating to Nick in terms of loving someone and not needing to be loved back

was he about to love you? Was he, Nick? but I do like the contrast of crying and being hugged by Sand while still being mad at him

Curious to see Mew being evil

Why is Nick giving intel on Boston to Mew bruh?

get in a stall

okay, so Mew now possesses Boston's secretly recorded sex tape...

7-4

my skin crawls at Mew threatening to show Boston's dad the sex tape... he's just bluffing and wouldn't actually do it, right? He even threatened Gap about the cops, so I think Mew's just bluffing

okay good he wouldn't actually post it

He still has the clip on his phone right?

Top coming in to give Mew books in public in front of the rest of the group is so gross, mans will never stop giving me major ick. kinda reminds me of the first ep ending or whatever when he put Mew on the spot by asking him to be his bf in the club

bruh, Top still calls himself Mew's bf?

how did Top even punch Mew, obviously he was right in front of him, how did he think he'd get anybody else. the fight choreo in Only Friends is a rip fr

Mew Ray is so silly to me lol idk cuz I guess I know nothing's gonna come out of it but I guess we'll see how they navigate it

Sand also needs to grow a backbone and some self-respect lol

Each person in this show is doing bad things and having bad things happen to them and I think Boston's the one who's having the worst happen to him. Wiretaped by Nick, who he trusted, and he was secretly recorded having sex by Gap, thought he got him to delete but was doubtful it's all gone, then finds out now his ex-friend Mew is in possession of it too, and threatening to show his father. To Mew, Boston's just a shitty fucker friend who slept with Top while they were dating and so it makes sense that he'd hate Boston and beat him up like the pool but doing stuff with the video is too far. Some people are shitty, doesn't mean I want their rights to be violated.

And Ray being a drunk driver... fucking hell. It kinda feels like the writing is not treating Ray's actions as bad enough. like we're supposed to feel bad that his father yelled at him and he hurt himself but he's the one who drove drunk! Sand also doesn't require an apology from him for treating him terribly that previous night, like huh??

Ep 8: Save Me (May 10)

8-1

We're starting off with Mew and Ray at the club from last time

Ah, self-destructive Mew has started drinking every day and skipping classes

a non-breakup breakup for SandRay. "Let me go already."

omg not Yo's relationship also in the trenches

age diff relationships hit in this specific way sometimes where Yo's older and has had past relationships that have all ended and is scared to repeat it again with Plug while Plug's young and eager

TopMew antagonisms are good.

8-2

Ray trying to coax Sand into doing his community service with him, shut upppp. Sand, stand up and say no!

they probably meant kiss ass but wrote licking ass plss

Nick and Papang's character are cute

Not Boston looking at his and Nick's photo damn

Mew inviting legit everybody, friends and enemies alike, to this Halloween party lol

Mew and Ray dressing up as Joker and Harley Quinn lol suits their parasitic dynamic I suppose?

damn Mew also doing coke now

"You're someone I should love" well if only love worked that way

oh Cheum invited Top

Mew looks pathetic despite trying to seem cool

Cheum looks so pretty, is she Wednesday?

whelp, avoid the kiss Ray leans in for in private but kiss him in public in front of Top to throw it in his face (just like that drink)

8-3

Papang's character is Dan

Detective Conan Nick and Freddie Mercury Sand

Glad Boston brought up Nick telling Mew about Gap's sex tape because that was actually still so wild like why the hell did he do that? It turned out well in that hopefully Mew took Gap's copy so that he doesn't have it anymore (+ threatened him with cops) and won't actually release it to the public but Mew had told Nick that he literally wants revenge so like ?? Why tell him about that omg

lol Sand about to kiss another dude in a Freedie Mercury costume before getting interrupted by Sand

Ray keeps angling at threesomes with people Sand's trying to hook up with

hello??? Why is Ray kissing Sand, isn't he with Mew now

Ray is so gross though at least Sand stood up to him this time

ohh Boston/Atom hookup is exciting somehow? similar to Dan and Nick

aw, Cheum put an end to that

I guess I like Top following Mew and giving him a shoulder? surprisingly, I think I can come around to them despite not liking their dating arc the first time

8-4

bruh, Sand gotta let Ray take the L and get caught using drugs or smth fr tbh

If Sand gets caught with the drugs instead, I'll start destroying things tbh

ACAB tho

bruh why is that cop's knee on Ray's neck

bribery too? girl... but rich people get away with anything so i'm glad that at least sand isn't gonna get caught in this mess

damn, Cheum blowing up too, makes sense although it's not like she's very kind to Ray or Boston in general either lol

bruh, Top bringing Mew to bed is Enough, why is he taking off his outerwear and giving him a sponge bath or whatever like don't overstep and be a creep... and cuddling him in bed... be serious wtf

idk why I'm into Boston and Atom lol like okay what's another bad decision? let's do it

Ep 9: The Return (May 10)

9-1

damn, we don't even get a scene of Mew waking up and being mad at seeing Top cuddling him but now have to witness Top jumping in after him into the pool

glad Sand's mad that he almost got put in jail and doesn't just easily give in to Ray but Ray's nothing if not somebody who wants everything

loll Top talking in on them while recording. Mew isn't gonna give a fuck about Ray wanting Sand but probably thinks Ray should've broken up with him first

Atom and Boston hooking up

Team Second Option talking about being masochists lol

Top has devolved from an intentionally irritating, low morals type of guy to typical BL love interest who is possessive and controlling as they act as if the main character is a child whose decisions they should oversee, agh

9-2

"Why did you do it with Top but not with me?" Ray, girl... I thought he was gonna be like when in private, you keep pushing me away but no. what even

Atom, wtf lol this isn't a freaking relationship. also, you just found out you like men... if anything, you should be finding other guys to fuck now that it's a whole new world wtf maybe ask Boston if he knows safe/good men for ONSs

SandNick kiss hehe but apparently it's nothing for either of them loll

Ray showing up at 2am

THIS IS THE THIRD COUNT OF RAY WANTING A 3SOME, they've gotta give this man one omg. but in all of them, Sand is present and idk if my man can do threesomes all casually with Ray like this...

Gorgeous, gorgeous boys First, Khao, and Mark

Nick having to be the third wheel at his own Second Option hangout T.T

agh, i got spoiled that Sand and Top kiss in a comment and that's my own fault T.T I wish I hadn't clicked Read More but I thought it was just gonna have Boeing mention

9-3

Top showing up to be all gentlemanly and helpful to Mew's mothers like man... why is their story now so typical random BL LI-tries-to-win-over-MC arc

Ray wanting Sand to be his secret lover, I gotta kill this man

"I'm not just stuff you have in your possession" okay exactly because Ray really treats Sand like an object

not the Daddy and Nick having to EXPLAIN it to him?!

oof, Nick giving his goodbyes to Boston who was also touched by it (idk about the 'you don't have to change' part though lmfao)

9-4

"Compared to Boston, you're a saint" Is he? Is Ray at all better than Boston? In which way?

cheating sex but I still like to watch KhaoFirst getting it on, what can be done? the thrusting caught me really off guard tho lmfao

crazy to see SandRay having sex in a camp at night 2 hours away then cut straight to Ray with Mew during the day in broad daylight in public

That's it? No explosion? Where are Mew's feelings about being cheated on by the first guy he seriously dates and now his rebound friend-turned-date? like what about his self-worth and such because when he found out Top was with Boston, he had the "did you guys laugh at me?" moment and now shouldn't he be having a "oh does everybody I'm with want to cheat?" moment. at least he mentioned that Ray's doing the same thing as Top and ig he's saying he can't be mad since he's also using Ray to get back at Top

"Is being a lesbian easier?" "Life is tough whatever the hell you are"

Boeing has arrived heh

oh crazy ass scene tbh, if I was watching this while it was airing with no spoilers, I would've lost my shit fr

So when Mew called somebody to come spend the night because he can't fall asleep, was that Boeing?

a very... mellow episode with typical BL-progression for each couple somehow hmm but maybe the drama will pick up again for the next episode since Boeing is introduced.

I... wonder if this episode is when this show started kinda going down for people? like the characters have become more tame and palatable? but idk if it's just a pause or if they'll end like this as well

Ep 10: Redemption (May 11)

10-1

oof, Boeing coming over and sleeping over

ahh, I'm pretty sure Boeing's gonna be trouble because it seems like that from how people have spoken about him, even though I don't actually know what he does or in what ways, so it just makes me nervous

Ray's still convinced he's not addicted and can stop whenever...girl

"You're totally his type. Like an upgraded version of me" crazy

Nick saying they can kiss or have sex, it doesn't matter because it'll always end

Boss and intern hook-up but it feels less disgusting than usual, maybe because they're similar in age and have known each other a while and also nobody's uptight and in a suit

there'd no doing rehab "for you" man you gotta do it for yourself

Also, I've realized that Atom calls Cheum Jie

omgggg Atom why are you lyinggggggg. Boston tricked you into his house and took your nudes?!?!?! I'm gonna kill you. Enough! Especially bad because Boston's somebody who has actually had sex tapes recorded of him without his consent

bruh at the very least, the texts should show that Atom's the one who's been texting Boston and Boston's been leaving him on read?

10-2

They really do get off on just... being better than Boston despite Mew and Ray having done terrible shit as well, sometimes worse than Boston

like I get that they believe he raped and took nonconsensual photos of Cheum's brother and is blackmailing him but the 2 guys are just acting superior and condescending towards him while Cheum's the only one seeming distraught

I hated Cheum suggesting that Boston preyed on some young guy though like okay he dated girls... he can also be curious about guys... that's not a crazy insinuation

Mew's smirk as they leave gives me the creeps, disgusts me a bit

I cannot believe I hate Mew and Ray while I feel for Boston

I might've been more into this Top/Mew scene if I wasn't just previously disgusted by Mew

oh, I think I'm just losing it. 10 episodes is too much. the next time Ray says he's going to rehab for Sand, I'll punch him

at least Sand says "Not for me. for yourself"

The Top-Boeing parallels of coming in to answer the trivia question

and would this other ex possibly be Sand?

Top has become so meek

not Mew accidentally liking Boeing's pic on IG, god so embarrassing

Boeing talking about whether he can check out the plants in Mew's room someday plsss

This Boston and Nick scene, fucking hell T.T talking about taking care of things because some things are irreplaceable

what do I even want from them like fr?

10-3

rest of your life? girl...

Boeing's so... girl pls this innocent act

Boeing coming onto Mew, it was in the thumbnail

I'm expecting they'll show Ray doing alright the first few days and then falling off the wagon hard

ah yikes, indeed Ray's dad wanted to pay Sand for whatever it was he asked... why have this interaction at the fucking house where Ray also is though lmfao stupidddd

whelp

10-4

once again, we're at the point in Top/Mew relationship where it... doesn't quite feel real, doesn't feel genuine

and Boeing is here too

hm, so Boeing wants Mew for real or what? And he's had a secret hatred for Top this whole time despite being his little sleeping pill?

hm, Boeing said he and Mew kissed. all this is like a cycle, reminds me of the Mew/Ray kiss thing

ah, Nick and Boston again

crying kissing

romantic sex

oof, Ray's dad telling Ray about Sand

interesting scene but Ray hasn't actually apologized to Sand for real about anything so hm idk

Ep 11: Move On Move In (May 11)

Only 2 episodes left, how will we wrap everything up man?

11-1

why am I not getting subs on my laptop?? My phone has subs on youtube agh

bruh, I restarted my browser and still nothing?

okay it suddenly works again after trying a few diff vids

Aw, P'yo :(

Yo and Plug T.T cute

what is the point of Mew doing all this song and dance with Boeing, I doubt he actually likes him but just... wants to make Top jealous or what?

"Mew, seriously. What are you doing?" Hate to agree with Top bc he's so boring to me now but so true

no why is Top saying what I'm thinking. If Mew's gonna give Top a chance, that doesn't mean he gets to now just push Top around and treat him badly and hang the cheating over his head forever. "If you think you can't forgive me, we should just separate" indeed

Nick being unable to make himself break if off with Dan yikes. surely doesn't help that he gave Nick the job, this is why the boss/employee thing is frowned upon

oof, what was that look, is Dan gonna turn out to be shitty too?

Ray's yelling and pushing resulting in bruises on Sand's back/shoulders, that's quite fucked up

Okay, Mew stops the thing with Boeing

11-2

okay Nick and Boston teaming up to take down Atom. maybe Nick's penchant for illegally bugging people to find out secrets/truths will come in handy lol

Are Atom's pants down in those photos or what? damn he lowkey stooping to the level Atom painted him as

Boston being like "How can you love me after sleeping with me once? Is it because I'm the first man you slept with?" meanwhile Nick being like whelp (is Boston the first guy he slept with?)

remembering all the stupid only-gay-for-you trope BLs while watching Boston talk about how he didn't "turn" Atom gay because nobody can do that (No Touching At All gets a pass lmfao)

not Sand helping with Ray's social work lol

never-ending cycle of back and forth with Top and Mew frr

Boeing having had enough fun with Mew and Top, how to haunt Sand and incite more Mess

11-3

oh, Top's crying

I would never show my face at the store again if I was Ray and accidentally sang aloud at the store

good thing that Atom's telling Cheum the truth but she should be more mad that he lied about somebody being a rapist + taking noncon photos + blackmailing to leak the photos

Boston's promiscuity continues to not be one of his despicable aspects

Boston/Nick are cute... though idk what I want to happen with the New York thing. I hope they date happily for a few months and then Boston goes to NYC and they break up and it's sad

11-4

TopMew moving in together?!

oh, the Boeing dumping Sand for Top thing happened just a year ago?

bruh, Sand's gotta say "no, no chance, sorry" like c'mon

Ray coming in and inviting Boeing to his house hah 3some plssss

omg pool... I've been spoiled from a Reddit post that Sand has a 3way kiss in a pool... omg. also I've been spoiled that Sand kisses Top? whennn

Ray keeps suggesting 3somes this whole show and I don't think he Actually wants them but rather just wants to throw the other person off of Sand but I just want him to offer it here again and for Boeing to say yep why not

why is there so much tensionnn if they don't have a 3some i'm gonna lose my shit and if they do have a 3some i'm also gonna lose my shit

I was expecting more of a Ray falls off the wagon and accidentally binge drinks and gets drunk af sort of conflict, not necessarily this craziness but sure.

I also think it'd be the funniest thing ever if Boeing's just making his way through every pair and we think it's because he's a menace and causing chaos everywhere but he's just being the villain on purpose to get all the pairs to end up together lmfaooo

Ep 12: Begin Again (May 12)

The final episode but... idk if it really feels like that. Doesn't feel like we should have only 1 ep left to wrap up the rest of the story, idk. Maybe I'll do a little thoughts section of what my reaction is so far to each character and the ships.

Top: Who is this guy? Very different from the beginning of the series and that's fine, people grow and change but I don't know who this man is now. Was glad he was checking Mew last episode though like either move forward or don't but enough of the revenge bs

Mew: Annoying, idk. Either move forward or don't. idc.

TopMew: Why are they trying to move in together already omg let it be a few months and also I'm so over them. I occasionally think I could be into them but nothing about it feels real to me unfortunately, doesn't feel like something lasting.

Sand: 0 boundaries, 0 self-respect. Takes Ray back with open arms every time and now Boeing comes in and we see he can't stand up to him either.

Ray: I don't quite trust him to not be a jerk and asshole and needlessly hurtful at the drop of a hat. He's going to rehab but the journey is too easy so far, it's not supposed to be easy.

SandRay: sure, idk. Their scenes have chemistry and are cute because KhaoFirst play them that way but in the narrative, I don't think they're like a cutesy, beautiful, grand romance. Which is fine to me btw but sometimes it feels like people interpret it that way and it probably has to do with KhaoFirst lol

Nick: Interesting that he's not super receptive to Boston wanting to be boyfriends, that's fun actually. Also fun that he teamed up with Boston to ambush Atom.

Boston: I just don't think his promiscuity itself is a flaw and so I don't think he needs to be monogamous to show Growth and Improvement or whatever. however, he has been talking about how he doesn't find sleeping around as fulfilling anymore and stuff, so I don't think him wanting to be boyfriends with Nick is out of the blue or anything. Also, it sucks that he's cast out of the friend group is just a cruel way over lies and nobody apologizes to him this episode either. I kinda... don't want him to make up with them, like these people have their own problems but act as if Boston is beneath them all, so I hope Boston hangs out with Nick and maybe a few new casual friends before going to NY and finding new people.

BostonNick: I want them to be dating or boyfriends but I want Boston to go away to New York and for them to have the good memories and leave their own lives because you don't need to be Big Commitment for Life with your first boyfriend at 21/22.

Cheum: She's so flawed but she's also treated like a minor/side character, so it's never like seen as that? Or idk. but the way she was fine and dandy with Atom admitting to the horrible lies is just... no.

Also, very long episode comparatively, it's like 70 minutes instead of the usual 45-55, which is par for the course of finales

12-1

so when is Ray allowed to drink vs not vs how much

Sand avoiding Ray's question of whether he still loves Boeing

SandBoeing and SandRay kiss and then BoeingRay omg

Ray and Boeing are both insane while Sand has no backbone, so he's just being puppeteered in the middle lol

I fully get Ray in this situation but I also can't help thinking about how Ray was chasing around Sand while actively being in a relationship with Mew and making Sand his sidepiece

Ray once again has valid points about Mew having to depend on Top too much if he moves in like this

man, I just... don't ask to be their friend again, Boston :( Mew is even still like "hey did you ask us?" about putting Boston's name on the project like okay kys you're giving a second chance to Top but still acting all high and mighty above Boston, dpmo

I feel like we're gearing for a happy ending for the couples and friendship group and that is so not what I care for, like one of my stand-outs so far this year is DFF Dead Friend Forever where I thought the lack of happy ending was a great choice and on the other hand, I watched Good Bad Mother, and thought the happy ending was too much and it should've had a more conflicting relationship at the end still

stupid, what is Top talking about not inheriting from his father, shut uppppp at least Mew said to be serious lol. idk why they annoy me so much but omgggg

the Boston/Nick date is cute hehe, i wonder why their date feels genuine while the Top/Mew ones... didn't and felt more calculated

they really do keep talking about "time left together" so I hope at least Boston/Nick don't end up together forever, just a sweet few months

no! stop moving to New York idea! although find at least Nick works in animation and says he'd move there for himself with Boston as a bonus

and Boston's at least like short term plans only!

girl, idc that Sand's here, why the hell is he helping so much with Ray's community service pls

Ah, Sand learning from Ray that Boeing went to Top first

12-2

"Booze?" "No. I quit" Ray's rehab is going so easily, I'm startled fr

the dog comparison well at least put Sand in a collar pls

well, seems like the 2nd couple has now defeated Boeing

discussing each other's strict habits after having already moved in together lmfao okay

Boston and Nick slow dancing and kissing in public my goddd they're so cute

pls dying laughing at Nick: I want you to introduce me as your boyfriend to your friends. Boston: Now that's a problem, I'm friendless.

pls now the 3rd couple must defeat Boston too?

Boston and Nick aren't in an open relationship where Boston can fuck other people, right?! Are they?!

broooo Boston straight up left Nick on the dance floor to go makeout with Boeing?!?!!? girl. be so serious.

okay even if you talked about it, you should've let him know before just leaving him alone and disappearing... girl

he's lying to Nick?! So they hadn't discussed it?! Boston I'm gonna knock your skull open, be sooooo serious

ahhhhh so we're back to Nick and Boston just have fundamentally different things they want from a relationship. Boston saying being boyfriends is a mental, not physical thing for him and he wants to do sweet, fun things with Nick but be able to make out or whatever with somebody else, I think that's such an interesting thing to explore, including how it can strain relationships as that's not necessarily how most people see being in a relationship. it's like obviously he's wrong in this instance because he was not being truthful towards Nick but I like seeing it.

12-3

December 31

party with everybody including Boston

Boston making up with Ray and trying with Mew and half-succeeding ig

truth or dare spin the bottle, who's surprised?

Mew only knows the skills of one person bruh

omg as soon as Mew's dare started, I paused and slapped my hand down on the table because I have remembered... apparently a Sand/Top kiss exists.

as'dlflkasjfk;ladsj hehehehehhhehe why was that so fun, mostly Sand's playful doing

Boston and Nick man, i don't even know

In The Bedroom by Boston is crazy lmfao

Nick avoiding Boston's kiss at midnight despite saying he wants that when they were still playing at being boyfriends owwwww

I'm at least happy that Mew and Boston aren't gonna be friends even though we're apparently getting happy ass endings for everybody except Boston for some reason

SandRay are cute

12-4

The thing isssss I do want this, I want Nick and Boston to pursue what they each want instead of being tangled with each other because they're not getting what they want out of the other and the compromises just hurt them but it just sucks that like... they're the only ones not getting the happy ending and I wanna know how this show might've been different if SandRay and TopMew weren't established couples

seeing Boston sitting here all alone while there are 3 other pairs + Nick who chose to walk away is like... did Boston deserve this? or at least did Boston alone deserve this? idek

unfortunately I don't have the strength to not lowkey skip through TopMew's scene

Top's fire scenario coming back but ig he has Mew this time

oh interesting, feels like there's some actual conversation about Ray's rehab since he started and him having to overcome it himself and that Sand can't just quite all his sources of income (plum wine, bar singer) just so Ray's never around alcohol

Feb 2024 oh that's like 3 months ago

P'Yo you are sooo cute

I hate seeing the 6 of them happy and together in couples and in the friend group while there's some random photo from Boston (and that would've been fine!!! if the ending wasn't this lol) and Nick is nowhere (this does make more sense bc he wasn't in the group)

oh lol Mix here and certain ominous ending but not enough For Me

Conflicted because messy people, those who make mistakes, those who haven't figured everything out still deserve to be happy but... everybody other than Boston deserves to be happy?

Overall

I'm just glad that I binged this by watching 2-3 eps a day for a week instead of watching for 3 months to arrive to that ending. Great first half of the show IMO (~6 eps), then there's a weird narrative shift there somewhere, then the last 1/4 of the show was dragging and then the last episode was boring and upsetting. SandRay and TopMew feel weirdly happy, artificially happy while Boston is the only character who is left to rot by his friends and Nick. I didn't need a happy ending for Boston/Nick but Boston's storyline felt... cruel and since the only character who wasn't monogamous got a bad ending and had all his faults amplified (while the others just had their faults or mistakes forgiven or never even apologized for them), it felt pointed at Boston's promiscuity.

Rating: 6/10

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Enhypen as dates they would take you on <3

tags: gn!reader, established relationship au, fluff, bf! enha

members: all members !!

wc: 400-800ish for each member ?? this is very long uh I’m sorry I got carried away

a/n: hi, welcome to my first piece of writing on this blog 😁😁 I tried to write so that these matched the members and their personalities the most! Also as this is my first post any interaction is so cherished 🥺 but anyways,, I hope you enjoy :D

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Heeseung

he would take you to so many fun places!!

Your dates would consist of going bowling together, theme parks, a walk in the park — you can count on having a fun time with heeseung!

He would just want to impress you );

He’s be always so attentive to you and remember even the littlest of details about you

You’d be in a shop together looking around and he’ll tap your shoulder, showing you a lace shirt that you instantly fall in love with

It’s just your style!

You’d ask him how he knew you would like it, to which he would simply mumble  with, “you told me a few months ago that you like shirts like this.”

You’d just stand in shock like :ooo

Not even you remember telling him that ):

Please he loves you so much, if it’s something that you tell him you like or don’t like, he’ll immediately store it in his memory! He wants to know so much more about you 🥺

Your dates are definitely what you look forward to whenever you see him!!

As much as you love fun day outs with him, you also love your chiller night dates at him <3

Meeting each other late at night after practice? A must!! No way can you let your hee go home alone when he’s the last leaving the practice room after a long day ):<

You would often surprise him by showing up at belift at ungodly hours, and as much as he would scold you with a light frown for coming to see him when it’s already half past midnight,,

You still always catch that small little smile he has whenever you do surprise him hehe

to be aware of just the fact that youre there? is enough for him. you ground him and its especially those spontaneous dates youll throw upon him and inevitably show him without the words uttered that you care for him and you love him? 

those are secretley his fave (: but he doesnt have to tell you that - youve already guessed :D

But at the same time on those late night after-practice dates he just wants to make sure that you’re not staying up too late all the time just to make sure he’s doing okay after practice, his y/nnie needs their sleep too ):

And what you’ll do together? Eat ramen of course!!

Although these little late night dates with him usually dont last no longer than an hour, he still treasures them so dearly in his heart ):

Hee sometimes needs a lot of love and assurance, even if he doesn’t mention it

And you’re the best at making him feel better instantly 🥺

but we seriously cant forget about your daytime dates too! each date of yours is always filled with so so many jokes and giggles that your hearts burn with longing for the other whenever you part ways ):

i can see that he’ll even store the memory of your dates even weeks after they’ve happened - he’ll store those memories of you; all in his heart (and the polaroid he took of you in the back of his phonecase 😳) and tucked close.

Jake

as for dates, to me he seems the type to be into really spontaneous and random things!! He’d love going somewhere fun or just simply randomly travelling with you without a destination!

He especially loves to sneak out of the dorm late at night and meet you at you and his favourite park.

It’s located at the top of a really tall hill, and you’ll both spend hours sitting on the swings, chatting away with little care for the rest of the world or the time as you both simply giggle at each other’s jokes and contentedly talk about anything and everything; watching the city lights glow from hundreds of metres below you

He’d offer you his jacket when the temperature drops by a few degrees suddenly

You’d be like no!! It’s okay you should also stay warm, I’m okay 🥺

But then because he is such a sweetheart he’d huff and sit next to you on the swing, making the single-seater far too cramped as he tries to supply you with his body heat if that’s the only way that you’ll accept not freezing to death 😠

But then you’ll both slip due to there not being enough space for both of you on the wing, and your both fall flat down on your butts lmao

You’d both freeze, staring at each other blankly on the floor

but then you’d both crack up and laugh for the longest time — hushing each other in-between giggles from the fear of maybe you were being a bit too loud and could wake some people up?

But then you’d both fall into giggling messes once again as you blame each other for causing the other to fall down ):

You’d eventually sit together huddled on a bench, sitting in silence and simply staring out at seoul’s twinkling night lights as you share his leather jacket: heavy and warm as it drapes across you and his’ shoulders

But eventually you’d both finally head home! — your eyelids soon growing too heavy and both of you afraid of accidentally falling asleep at a park at 1am lmfao

idk why but i can just see a lot of late-night dates with jake,, such as

baking cookies together at 1am???? probably has happened twice already in your relationship aha 😁

honestly you both spend so much time together casually that you end up arguing on whether that time where he randomly showed up at your house wanting to make relationship bracelets together was really a date or not lmao

he is also so <3 so incredibly sweet too though uGH. he is a sweetheart and like heeseung he will remember every little detail of you which will be useful for when he comes up with more date ideas in the future (

on dates such as eating at a restaurant together he will always bring you flowers like the gentleman he is.

it’s kinda funny because when youre both on a date together alone with no other people around you both become complete crackheads

but when meeting in front of others he acts so mature and serious suddenly lmao ?? 

but honestly he just trusts and loves you so so much that he doesnt even feel like he needs to act a certain way or try to become someone complteley different on a date just to impress you

but its okay because you love the duality of jake sim <3

someone get me him pls. i want one </3

Jay

With jay, shopping dates ??? yes of course (;

he’d simply love taking you out either down a road with many well-known clothing brands or maybe even the mall, entering several clothing stores with you

he never mentions it, but its obvious how much he simply adores seeing you wear the clothes he picks out for you :D

oh and matching couple outfits are obviously always chosen whenever you go out on these fashion dates!!

he will pick out a selection of items he thinks will look good on you, and - to admit it to himself: he does a pretty good damn job

tell me why this boy will get so flustered whenever he sees you walk out of the changing room,, looking so pretty in what he chose for you ??

he’d also one day surprise you on a date with matching couple bracelets :D

you’ll get so excited and he’ll get so shy and try to hide his smile as you compliment how good his sense of style is !! and as much as he denies the fact that he’s blushing you luckily do manage to snap some pics as evidence of the rosy colour in his cheeks hehe

and especially earlier on in the relationship, he’ll always try his best and prepare cute little dates for you both )): and the members would tease him to DEATH for how unbelievably soft and considerate he is when doing things for you when he is so cranky towards them lmfao

chill dates (:

walking in the park together, getting ice cream, going for late night drives and listening to music together </3 with jay it never has to be complicated

Just as long as he gets to be with you, talk with you and touch you then that’s more than enough for him (: he just likes to be in your company

and Idk why I can just see this but he wILL have playground dates with you. dont question it

Because like ?? hanging out on the swings or climbing frame of a kids park at 11PM when there’s no one else there but you both?? Talking and swinging quietly next to each other? very romantic to me hmm

Yes <3 

he will stare at you as he silently swings a back and forth a little; brushing the hair out of your face and looking at you with so so much love in his eyes it’s unbelievable

he especially loves just relaxing with you. watching a show on the tv together while cuddling and staying close to each other is something he loves

hearing your giggles and listening to you talk while engaging in teasing banter where he’ll pretend to think the things you say are stupid by scoffing and rolling his eyes when in reality his heart is swelling and he’s trying so hard not to laugh at how cute you are? 

shut UP

those are definitely one of his favourite types of dates with you

he’ll constantly try to impress you and will be willing to try so many different things with you

i can see him as either being openly interested about going on typical couple dates together such as painting or eating at romantic restaurants,, or every time you mention something of the sort he’ll be groaning at yet another mention of the ‘couple bucket list’ you had created lol

but actually he’s secretly really excited for that couple mug-painting session you booked for you both. but he will never tell you that 😳

in conclusion, with jay it really never has to be something complex for you both to enjoy your dates <3 he just loves being in your company, even if its one of those nights where you both share no words between the cuddling and content sighs and various little soft kisses he presses to your forehead.

sunghoon

with sunghoon gOSH

whatever you two get up to, it’d be so so soft and gentle and perfect and just ):

he would always ask the members what to take you out on as a date and you bet his naver search history would consist of questions like ‘what does my s/o like’ and ‘where should i take out my partner on a date’ lmao

he just wants to make you happy and comfy ):

dates with him are usually really cute!! Like going to cafes, going ice skating etc!

But you’d also love those dates at home with him, giggling shyly as you both sit together and watch a film 🥺

he LOVES those dates! he always gets so shy whenever he comes over and it takes him a little while to get comfortable enough with you to even hold your hand pls

So when he one day pulls you in closer from where you’re sitting side by side on the couch,, bringing you closer and tucking you under his arm ??

You’re so so surprised, and you feel your heart clench a little at how gentle he is with you and how he’s finally opening up ):

And from then on,, he only will become more and more comfortable with you!!! To the point where he’ll start pouting a lil when you don’t snuggle up next to him on the sofa like you usually do );

So cuddle dates with hoon? Yes you bet they’re his fave!!

and then when its quickly approaching your 100 days anniversary, he’ll be wracking his brains for so long trying to decide what to do for you

but then it will hit him like a light bulb switching on!

he’ll suddenly remember you mentioning this specific thing that you really liked and would want to do one day, and guess what he would plan for u both!!

he’d prepare 💔💔 a picnic 💔💔 for you 💔💔

ugh youre so lucky

he’d text you the day before your anniversary telling you to expect to go on a date with him the day after and to dress up prettily :D

he’d wake up super early on the day of the date, preparing all of your favourite foods and meals into a cute lil basket ):

and when you finally both meet at a really rEALLY pretty secluded area that you somehow had no idea existed despite you living in the area for so long - you’d maybe start tearing up?? 

because your boyfriend is so so sweet and you never saw this coming from him at all ): 

and he’d just stand there shyly in front of the picnic he set up, hand at the back of his head and looking down; cute lil blush tainting his cheeks from how nervous he is!

but then you’d run over and give him a big, big hug, exxclaiming how much you appreciate what he did for you and how youre so so incredibly sorry for not bringing him something as well to celebrate your anniversary (you were dying inside fo guilt please!! how could u forget to get him something when he went out of his way like this for you )):  )

but he’d simply shake his head, smiling and not minding at all

because if he gets to see you happy, gets to see those twinkling eyes of yours that just stare up at him with so so much love before bringing him in for a sweet kiss - then he simply doesnt mind at all.

r u crying at this like i am lol

sunoo

sunoo absoloutely adores you.

and he cant stay away from you !! lmao

you’ll leave after a date and ten minutes after youve arrived you’ll get a text from him saying how much he already misses you and wants to see his bun again ):

but its okay!! because y’all would meet up again really soon again :D

sunoo really doesnt mind what you both do together, he just loves being in your company !! if he’s doing something with you, its certain that he will have so much fun and be so so comfy!

you often like to go to cinemas together, watching a film

film/drama marathons are also something that you both do very very often as a date! he loves it when you hug him tight and throw a leg over his as you both lie down in his dorm bed/your bed, watching something on your laptop

he is very very cuddly and whenever you both do have cuddle dates/sessions (which is all the time btw) he’ll like it when you absentmindedly play with his fingers or stroke your hands through his hair soothingly

and then he’ll complain and whine when you stop lmao

seriously though, without a question if either of you meet at either his dorm or your house - its always:  ‘so what are we gonna watch?’

he also likes doing very very cute couple-y activities with you! of course he does,, youre his baby ): 

(he’s more YOUR baby actually - but he doesnt need to know about that shh hehe)

funfair dates where you will go on a ferris wheels and eat cotton candy together? sharing a kiss when you reach the top? yes! and so is going to those sets designed for couples to take cute photos together as a lil photoshoot!

he is so so sweet with you ): 

and has it been mentioned yet that you’ll go on food dates? this is a very obvious date you both do very often !! 

going to food markets and trying out different street foods from different vendors? yes.

having mini dates at the korean convinience store late at night where you’ll both sit by the window and eat tteokbokki & ramen together? yes.

its all honestly really really chill, but he also knows when to be serious when he needs to (:

he’ll take you out to the your favourite restaurants often!

and whenever youre celebrating something he’ll take you to a really good and famous restaurant with mouth-watering food, and you’ll be left wondering for the longest time how on earth he managed to get a seat in since its always so booked

or ordering take-out is good too :D

in conclusion (because i just realised how long this is help 😭): dates with sunoo are always a variety of fun activities which always leave you feeling tired yet so, so happy and content at the end of the day !!

he loves you so much <3

Jungwon

Since you both go to the same school, a lot of your little dates are actually spent there

He’s pretty shy with you at times,, but when you’re both alone it’s then that dates with him are usually so so goofy and silly; days filled with his teasing and your eye rolls and giggles.

Meeting at the rooftop before school to simply talk and giggle and drink chocolate milk? Yes.

Staying after school for small study sessions in the library? Yes.

With jungwon, you’re not able to see him as much between school and him being an idol, so every little moment together means so much to both of you ):

To me jungwon also seems like a cuddler!!! cause like?? Have you seen him ?? Tell me he doesn’t look so soft 

So, dates at home when he’s free where you can both cuddle together in your bed while eating and doing homework? They’re so so cosy,, and definitely your favourite kinda dates!! not to mention that your parents absolutely adore him too

With jungwon, lots of lil spontaneous dates are definitely his and yours trademark (‘:

He’ll turn up at your house randomly with a grin and dimple poking at his cheek, holding a bag of convenience store food and asking you if you want to go on a date with him even if it’s 10pm and dark outside lmfao

And then he’ll take you to an arcade!

You’ll be the only ones there and he’s keep flexing about how he’s going to win you this cat plush from the claw machine because he says it looks like him

He’d try several times and end up spending almost 8,000 won on the machine trying to win you this plush and at this point he’s already making up several excuses about how oh, ‘it’s rigged’ or ‘give me one more chance I will get it this time!!’

You’d giggle at how he grows flustered, gently asking him if you could have a go for fun, sighing and with him and agreeing on the fact that the claw machine is definitely rigged

You’d complain together; scolding the machine and asking it to please be nice and stop ruining your date when it’s then that the claw actually picks up a plush and you’re both like ;oo

You’d both stay stood in shock as the cat plush is dropped into the receiving box, before laughing loudly

He’d stand there flustered, blush tainting his cheek before he just walks away 🚶🏻‍♂️

You’d quickly pick up the cat plush and chase after him, giggles tumbling out your lips

and uhm after that you beTTER go check up on your boy and see if his ego wasnt too damaged by that 😤

so of course you’d wrap your arms around him from behind, tucking your face into the back of his neck ): and pressing gentle kisses where you know he’s ticklish until he finally relents, a small grin and dimple lighting up his face

and phEW because you thought he was upset ): but he laughs and says youre better at the claw machine than he is so,, all good dont worry !! 🥺

It’d end up being him taking the cat plush home, which you both name ‘jungwon-two’ because of how much it actually looks like him 😭

Expect many references and inside jokes to that date and jungwon-two in the future

and tbh you love dates with won so so much. theyre so fun plus they’re always secret.

and whenever you’re out doing whatever the hell you both get up to,

It’s like there is no one else in the world. It’s just you, and him, and the blooming you both feel in your chests.

Niki

I don’t know but I can just see niki as being so romantic

You’re both young, and although niki is the biggest dork and always likes to play around and make jokes 24/7 - he’s also so mature compared to the other boys your age

So would he take you out to a date where he’d set up classically romantic candles and rose petals for you both to eat at for your 1 month anniversary? Yes ):

And you’d be so speechless and shocked as you blush quietly and thank him before he‘s accidentally knocking over his glass of water all over the table cloth and you’re laughing out loud

But expect every other date with him to be filled with so so much food and comfort!

He’d feel so comfy around you, and really the only word he thinks is perfectly able to describe you is home. He thinks you feel like home to him.

So he’d show you all of this favourite things, the things closest to his heart and you can’t help but feel your own heart clench at how much you adore this boy

He’d take you out to traditional Japanese restaurants and show you his favourite foods from back home and teach you the customs of how to eat sushi

You’d 100% be so so interested and excited whenever he reveals to you a vulnerable part of him, and he’d stare at you so lovingly as he kisses your cheek, blushing and smiling like the 15 year old he is

Ugh ): niki ):

Dance dates!!

You claim you can’t dance to save your life LMFAO (or maybe you can 😳?) but he only grins shyly instead as he takes you to a small dance studio he rented (he didn’t want to take you the belift building where there would be other people - he’d want you to feel completely comfortable).

You’d simply stand there with your mouth dropped open as you watch him freestyle to a random song he put on like it’s nothing

You’d spend the day getting taught some moves by him and although you’re sure you look like a cat getting electrocuted, he still smiles and  nods and even claps, giving you compliments and teasing remarks

Overall, dates with niki are so so fun and goofy and perfect. You feel your heart swell every time he takes you out on another little adventure, feeling so complete and carefree between his warm hugs, jokes and words that he has to say to you

(’:

[myherowritings]

All That Ass

— One night at the gym, you see a handsome guy with so much ass, you take a picture on the sly and send it to your number neighbor, Bakugou, to freak out over. But what you don’t expect is for him to reply with a picture of you from the same gym.

pairing: bakugou katsuki x f!reader word count: 1,876 genre: number neighbor au!!, fluff

a/n: this is a bonus “what if” scenario based on these asks i received about baku and y/n meeting at the gym while he’s doing leg/butt day LOLOL,, just to be clear, this isn’t a canon part of the nn-verse! it’s just a hypothetical oneshot answering the question “what if they had met this way” AND I THINK IT’S SUPER CUTE!! i hope you enjoy and pls lmk what you think !! xx

“So… Does anyone want to go to the gym with me?” you asked cheerfully, sending a pointed look Shinsou’s way.

You knew Midoriya had already gone this morning (though, if you asked, there was no doubt in your mind he would go again), and Todoroki had just come back from swimming laps at the pool, so your roommate, Shinsou, was your best bet.

Too bad said roommate would rather stay home and play outdated games than workout with you. 

When he didn’t reply for a solid five minutes, you poked him on the bicep-- How he actually had muscles considering how lazy he was would undoubtedly remain the world’s biggest mystery. 

“Hello? Earth to Shinsou?”

He slowly tore his gaze away from the television, looking up at you from his seat on the couch. “Did you say something?”

Giving him your best smile while fluttering your lashes, you sang, “Does the best roomie in the world want to go to the gym with me?”

“No.” Shinsou hardly blinked. 

Your mouth formed a small ‘o’. “Wha--? That’s it? You’re not even going to give an excuse?”

“Nope. Just go by yourself,” he dismissed. “You always talk about how you’re a ‘strong, independent woman’, correct?” 

You scratched the back of your neck-- A habit you picked up from him over the years. “Well, yes…”

“And strong, independent women should be able to go to the gym by themselves, right? 

The only way you could respond was with an incredulous nod. 

“Glad we could agree,” said Shinsou with a wry smile. “Have fun at the gym, then!”

“I… Thank you…?”

And with a slightly confused expression you grabbed your keys and duffle bag and walked out of the door to the recreation center near your apartment, vaguely hearing Shinsou chuckling in the background.

It wasn't until you felt the chilling breeze of the outdoors that you snapped out of your trance. 

“Dammit,” you muttered under your breath. How was he always so persuasive? Sure, at times you could be the slightest bit gullible, but regardless, his skills were almost inhuman.

You huffed, shaking your head as you entered the reception area of the gym. After showing the workers your membership and brushing your hair out of your face, you headed upstairs to do some cardio. 

“Excuse me, are you done with the StairMaster?” you asked the blond-haired guy wiping down the only open machine. 

A bead of sweat trailed down the side of his face to his neck and you had to avert your gaze before he could catch you gawking. 

“Just finished,” he said, his voice a gruff timbre that was surprisingly pleasant to the ear. He finished wiping down the handles and nodded your way. “Go for it.” 

You beamed, setting your water bottle and phone on the machine to get situated. “Thank you so much!” 

He huffed. “Yeah, whatever.” 

That wasn’t exactly a warm ‘you’re welcome’, but you shrugged it off with a small smile, stepping on the stairs and starting a light warmup. 

You placed your earphones in and played some music to set the mood, ready to work up a sweat. Cardio was a pain, but it was worth it if it meant having a nice butt. (As well as making your heart stronger and increasing your lung capacity, you supposed, but those were mere seconds to the booty gains.) 

As you upped the speed and got into the swing of things, you felt your eyes wandering around the room to your favorite part of the gym-- The squat and deadlift area. You noticed a handful of people were littered among the equipment and after your short inspection, you hummed to yourself.

Yup, things were definitely looking good there.

Absentmindedly, you saw your screen light up out of the corner of your eye and you unlocked your phone, briefly checking your messages. Or rather, checking for a certain message from a certain someone.

Still no reply? you sighed, placing your phone back on the StairMaster and trying to distract yourself by looking back at the students doing some leg exercises.

Almost instantaneously, your eyes were drawn to the blond who was using the cardio stairs just before you came. 

StairMaster plus squatting what was easily 75 kilograms within ten minutes? You had to stop yourself from practically swooning on the spot. That was some serious gluteal strength he must’ve had.

He was finishing up his current rep of back squats, cheeks flushed pink and hair sticking to the sides of his face with sweat. Not only did he look unfairly handsome, but he had a hot body as well. 

His arms were toned with a nice amount of muscles on his biceps and triceps--oh, goodness, his triceps were really something else--and he had impeccable posture as he squatted. (Not that his posture was the first thing you noticed about his squat, of course.)

You were staring so intently at this beautiful specimen of a man that he himself noticed, pausing briefly to try to find the source of the laser beams he felt on his behind. Before he could catch you gawking, however, you tore your gaze away and grabbed your phone, trying to pretend you were on it this whole time. 

When he looked away, you sighed in relief, opening your camera app and peering at him through the screen.

You weren’t sure why, but you had a gut feeling your number neighbor, Bakugou, would’ve loved to share this beautiful sight with you. He seemed to be having a bad day and you figured a nice booty would be just the thing to cheer him up. So, really, you only wanted to take a picture of the hot gym guy out of the kindness of your own heart. 

After snapping the photo, you sent a quick series of texts freaking out to your ‘bakubestie’ along with an attachment of the image of the blond guy’s backside.

Y/N: *Attachment: 1 Image*

Y/N: HDJSJDJD IK I’M LIKE QUADRUPLE TEXTING RN AND I’M SORRY (but rly what’s new)

Y/N: BUT I THOUGHT YOU WOULD APPRECIATE THIS PIC IDK WHY DON’T QUESTION MY IMPULSES OK

Y/N: i’m at the gym and this hot (albeit a lil bit of a grumpy grump :/) guy is here and woW

Y/N: like i’m just trying to work out in peace but his ass is all “hi there (       )(       ) how are you (       )(       )” AND I FEEL SO ATTACKED,, how is one person allowed to have all that ass? save some for the rest of us pls bro

After getting a good percentage of your thoughts and thirst out, you let out a sigh of liberation, upping the intensity of the StairMaster to further get your jitters out.

As you continued scrolling through your phone to check for texts from your roommates, you heard a bark of incredulous laughter from the other side of the room. You distractedly looked up, but after seeing nothing out of the ordinary other than the hot guy grinning at his phone, you shrugged and placed your cell down to get back to your workout.

The intense climbing only lasted for about three minutes before you got a text message from Bakugou (which you knew only because his text tone was ‘It’s so fluffy!’ from Despicable Me while everyone else’s was the default chime). A bright smile made its way to your face as you lowered the speed once again, taking a drink from your water bottle to cool down before eagerly glancing at your screen. 

bakubestie: *Attachment: 1 Image*

Curiously, you took a look at the picture Bakugou sent. It was one of someone in the gym that looked quite similar to the one you were in, wearing the same workout clothes you were currently wearing… In fact, it looked like the photo was taken just now from inside the room, right next to the squatting area… 

bakubestie: Too much ass, huh? I could say the same about you

You blinked, taking a few moments to process just what exactly was happening before you yelped in surprise. “What the--?!” 

Your face fumed, head snapping up from your phone so fast you lost your balance and tripped on the incoming stair of the machine. Losing footing, you barely had time to let out a brief, “Oh, shit!” before falling down the StairMaster and onto your butt on the hard floor. 

“Ouchie…” 

There was a moment of silence before a booming laughter was heard from the opposite side of the room, and a mixture of dread and excitement filled your stomach.

Dread because if your suspicions were correct, the guy from the gym you were thirsting over to your number neighbor was your number neighbor. And excitement because--hello--you were finally going to meet your number neighbor! (That was, of course, if he didn’t run out of the gym at the very moment.) You were so excited that you couldn’t even dwell on the utter embarrassment any normal person would probably be feeling.

The scuffling of footsteps moved closer as you rubbed the side of your hip that landed on the ground. 

“Tch,” you heard from above you. You looked up to see an amused expression on the blond gym guy’s face as he extended a hand out to you and checked for any injuries. “You really are a dumbass.” 

Your heart skipped a beat at his all too familiar tone, and you winked cheekily at him while accepting his hand and standing upright. “And you really have a nice ass.” 

Bakugou rolled his eyes as he fought off the blush on his face, your compliment catching him off guard. “Okay, well-- Now I know for sure it is you.”

With an excited grin, you jumped up and down on the balls of your feet. You were filled with nerves and butterflies and you wanted nothing more than to tackle your number neighbor into the biggest hug you could muster.

“You are okay though, right?” he asked, the smallest hint of worry in his features. 

The little crinkle between his brows was so adorable that you just couldn’t help yourself. Your grin widened even more and your face began to hurt from smiling so much. You were certain you looked like a fool, but you didn’t care. 

Before you could second guess yourself, you stood on your tiptoes and threw your arms around his neck to tackle him into a proper bear hug. Bakugou was still a bit sweaty and warm from working out--and you most definitely you weren’t looking any better yourself--but that didn’t change the fact that he felt cozy and safe and smelled faintly like your favorite caramel treat at the candy store. 

“Yes. I’m better than okay,” you murmured into his shoulder. “It’s nice to meet you, bestie.” 

Bakugou froze in shock before letting out a breathy chuckle, slowly wrapping his arms around your waist as you shifted so your head rested against his chest. His hand lingered on the small of your back as he peer down at you with what looked like a smile of his own and you wished you could capture that moment in a frame and relive it forever.

“It’s nice to meet you too, Y/N.” 

[milkybonya]

Ahhh Milky I hope you're having a good last week! It's unfortunate you can't do more during your last week but I'm sure packing is very time consuming and saying good bye is so important! I hope your flight home goes smoothly too btw!! When I studied abroad I had a layover in turkey which took me in the wrong direction from getting back home so it ended up being like a 12 hour flight home when it could've been 8 😭 it wasn't very fun 😭 I'm sure it'll be really long coming home all the way from Korea. I hope you're able to sleep well or stay entertained~

I have exciting news! Or well it isn't that exciting but I've really started learning Korean now! I was doing it very casually earlier, but now I've installed the Korean keyboard and I'm trying to write little mini letters to Kingdom all in my own Korean! I used to solely use a translator even for short messages bc I couldn't spell or anything 😭 but I'm taking my duolingo more seriously and I'm actually making a lot of progress! I was able to tell Kingdom that I love them and introduce myself but I also did more complex things (at least imo LOL) like say their songs are cool~ I felt so proud of myself hehe one of the members who speaks English cheered my message where I told him I was going to write out a short message to him in Korean and then I did it and I'm just 🥰 Dann is our polyglot king so for him to cheer me on (literally) was so special. This might be a silly question, but what was your favorite word/phrase that you learned while in Korea??? Like it made you feel cool to know it or you were proud of yourself for learning it. I wanna feel cool too hehe 😎 Milky는 멋있습니다 😎

And now, comments on the smau 🤩 why is no one commenting on sunwoo's destroyed can??? 😭😭 It was just in there and everyone was like yep nothing to see here LOL but I mean it is fair that reader not liking rapunzel is a CRIME that's one of my favorites 😭😭😭 and like YES I'm biased bc she has a reptile but STILL I uwu over her and Flynn's romance so like.. I love it. Also reader calling Younghoon a hag LOL I love that they are Savage 🤩 also Eric is so funny like "I'm just covering my arms so you won't fall for me" ITS TRUE THO??? Eric is unofficially my bias wrecker with sunwoo (idk why I say unofficially like.. They always have my attention when watching mvs jfjdsj) and I WOULD fall in love with him don't test me 😭 I'm excited for changmin to come into things~ it'll be so cute, I know it!! And pls slow burn is the best 😭 I'm sooooo excited 🤩 you're going to make my heart yearn for love I just know it jdjsj

Oh and Im glad seeing treasure was so fun!! I'm sure it was heartbreaking to see only 10 of them up there :(( I'm just glad they were still glowing and full of energy for you 🥰 I hope your sunburn is doing better by the way!! I'm sure it is by now since it's been a while since you responded, but I hope it wasn't too painful for the first few days! I haven't gotten a sunburn in ages thankfully but all that does is attest to me never going outside LOL what songs did they perform?? Do you have any pictures?? I'd love to see them 🤩

Sending you lots of love!! Here's a Stalin pic for you hehe he crawled into my banana flavored candle (we call it the banandle) and did a "banana split" LOL he smelled like banana after I took him out lol he's so silly~ love you!

okay tumblr. pls dont delete my reply to my bestie's ask this time. there i'm manifesting that it won't be deleted >:O i was so mad it has taken me days to come back and reply T-T

but even though i was a bit busy packing during my last week, i still had a lot of fun and squeezed a few things in ! also,,,, the universe just aligned and i ended up getting accepted for kard's comeback showcase, which was 3 days before my flight,, and again by luck i was front row! kard are actually my ults and finally meeting them after 6 years and their 2 year hiatus meant to world to me T-T and then each member gave a polaroid away to someone in the crowd and i received Jseph's T--T so insane..

but layovers are confusing and the worst ㅎㅁㅎ that's why i feel so lucky we found a flight without one! so even if it was long and rough, we at least were not so confused <3

waHHH you're learning korean?! i'm so proud T-T learning a language takes a lot, especially when the country you live in doesn't speak it, and i'm especially touched that kingdom have become a motivation for you to learn this new language :")

ah! rather than learning any big cool phrases, i found learning smaller things like how to greet a restaurant owner or store worker goodbye cool. ah but!! i find it interesting that to ask if someone has eaten, you say have you eaten rice? (밥을 먹었어요?) rather than have you eaten food? (음식을 먹었어요?) because rice is such an important part of the korean diet that rice is the equivalent of food and vice versa :D

p.s. Kelsey 씨도 멋있어용~

omg the smau :(( i wanna say thank you for always commenting on it even though it's so messy and slow aH i appreciate you saying you like the slow though!! now that Changmin has finally been introduced officially, i wonder what you'll think :O

seeing treasure as 10 was so good definitely!!!! even though Mashidam were gone, the rest of them did so well <33 and you're so sweet ahh the sunburn healed quickly !

(i figured out why tumblr deleted my reply to your ask--the treasure festival photos didn't save to the ask properly and it ruined everything T-T so imma just direct message them to you hehe)

STALIN IS SO CUTE AND TINY IN THAT CANDLE I COULD CRY!! also omg i love banana scent/flavouring 🥺 so i just know i would live the banandle (i love the name) as much as Stalin hehe,,

i love you and Stalin so much and hope you have a good weekend!! ♡

[miyaniacs]

their style pt.2 ( Sakusa, Aran, Suna, Tsukki  )

A/N: sorry went overboard with Sakusa so the others are kinda short 

ALSO catch one of my friends in Suna's inspo pics - wasn't intended but this picture actually showed up on Pinterest lol - leave a comment on what pic you think he is lol 

pt.1 ( twins and Bokuto )

Sakusa

Look don’t touch - no wait don’t even look at me you peasants - I’m way too good for you anyways

Yes all of you will say eboy all the way

But no.

No.

Yes he has those tendencies BUT not the oversized chill stripy shirt eboy stuff you see everywhere

No

Gucci goes techwear

BLACK and white

With some pops of color aka Yellow and maybe red

SUITES

Not top and bottom tho - at least not the classy way

Also wide leg pants if he’s feeling fancy

Leather - wide pants or blazers

Simple tshirts

Also wide flowy shirts

Pls note everything of those are black or white - mostly black

The highest would be a neon yellow belt or a one word print

Also docs also the platformed ones

ONE PAIR IN WHITE TOO

tshirts are always tugged in

Black gucci belt

Oh also turtlenecks - only in black tho

Ok the obvious now

CHAINS lots of them sooooo many

On his neck, on his belt, over his blazer

Oh and for all the kicky ones - also harness.

Over his blazers

Oh and those on the leg too!

Ok the rest is up for your imagination

three last things tho

Rings overloaded

And obviously everything high quality

HE OWNS A COLLECTION OF BERETS

Aran

The effortlessly cool guy you always ask for fashion advice

Okay I feel like he has a sorta 90's hiphop look??

Idk how to explain it but some of my friends have the style if feel he’d wear too lol

So colors are more neutral browns, dark greens and also blue tho oh and mustard

Like wide dressy pants and a slim tshirt andddd a wider shirt over it

Also leather jackets? The ones that are more of a blazer style?

Like - classy and fancy but make it vintage too??

Definitely second hand high fashion stuff !

Besides this tho

He’s also a typically jeans and sweatshirt guy - fight me but he also has those chill days okay

Oh and also when he’s feeling ... fancy and lazy - then it’s time for some oversized editorial looking fits

I'm sorry this is so bad but I can’t find the right words nor pictures to show what I think his style is 

Suna

The layed back but still fashionabe guy -you always question if he’s actually taking effort in his fits or if it comes naturally

So SUNA ( I’m simping so badly because of the latest episode omg)

Oversized

Lighter colors - light blue jeans and lilac tshirt also vans

AGAIN VAANNNNSSSSS

He skates. Let me just say this now. And i don’t accept any other opinions (I do tho lol )

So also Nike SB

Oh also Nike and Vans are his go to brands in everything

Probs also gets stuff sent by Nike too ( yes one of my friends just sent me a pic of some new nikes he got sent to to wear at this interview he’s doing for an skate Magazin )

Ok back to fashion.

Just effortless

He’s not paying much attention to what he’s wearing yet it all fits perfectly together

Also kinda basic? But cool basic?? The kind of basic you want to be too? Because it’s not basic lol

Oh and one thing

Shoelaces as belts !

Tsukki

Bitch why are you even looking at me - look at my fit - I’m too good for you -Sighhhhh

Alrightyyyyyy

From all of them he's got the most model like body type ( you know typical runway model ) - besides Sakusa tho lol 

so he owns his hight to the fullest and wears long stuff ( coats lol ) 

He loves coats. he also owns way too many

Just classy and elegant

In mostly brown tones lol

Oxford / Cambridge style

Pants are more fitted, shirt slightly oversized and loose, coat reaching at least to mid-thigh

OHH AND HIGH QUALITY

Not really any patterns - just on his coats

Oh and he wears 3 rings - all the time - in gold. He’s a gold person

Shoes : docs in all forms - but only in black and brown

When it’s hotter he Switches the coat for a lose and flowy shirt over a tshirt OR only one of those

OH DAMN FORGOT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING

TURTLENECKS!

I'll just tag you two because I know you wanna see this lol Esp the Sakusa one ahaha @saucysamu​ @shoyosun​

[jiminrings]

homebound

pairing: yoongi x y/n

glimpse: race car driver!yoongi is a tiny bit fond of pit stop crew!y/n, grumpy crew chief!jimin will be the bANE of your existence, and jungkook is ur saving grace for bumper stickers whenever u wanna surprise yoongi :D

wordcount: 21k

notes: ok if u know charlie leclerc from F1, he was the inital reason why i wanted to write this au with yoongi!! think of this as an au with a mix of F1-level type of class and racing, but with a NASCAR type of pit crew that only has five members instead of formula one’s twenty!! i also asked my close friend for info since she’s an avid f1 fan to add on to my prior knowledge!! this is a work of fiction and accuracy does nOt always result to fun so pls just enjoy this!!! i also made a poll to what i should write next and this was one of the options and tHEN d-2 dropped and i was !!! ok it’s settled then // pic is from pinterest but i just edited it since it looked like it was shot with a 3210 hihi

also: you can talk to my characters!!! send in an ask anytime :D

(๑>◡<๑)

jungkook, as a person, is an excellent one

he’s talented, he’s kind, he’s driven, he’s gonna buy you your meal when you don’t have enough cash on you and would say “yA PAY ME BACK LATER” but in the end, he’ll just wave it off and say “nah i was kidding it’s my treat :D”

he’s also h*ndsome but you won’t say that again and again because his ego?? his bragging rights?? what then

jungkook, as a friend, is a fun, attentive, food-inhaling and money-draining carebear that can be pERSUASIVE if he needs to be

he lets u have the last slice of pizza!! or the last pringle or the last pearl in the massive cup of milktea you split with two straws and a giant butter croissant

he holds the umbrella up for the two of you when it’s raining and you’re sharing it

if he feels extra kind then he’ll be in the side in which there are more splatters and puddles to go through

if he feels like a sAINT then yes he may piggyback u but only if u hold up the umbrella because he’s a saint not four-arms from ben ten

7/10 times that he screenshots what’s in his cart but wouldn’t checkout, he genuinely just wants to show you because he’s excited and when you dO decide to get it for him, whether it was an actual shock or he just kept sending you screenshots until you got the hint, he makes sure to hug you until you physically can’t breathe anymore

he once saw this you liked that didn’t become your boyfriend because it turns out you were just a bet and you’re only worth a month of fucking gatorade

you’re not the most confident person ever in the worls but you’re sURE

you are worth more than month’s supply of glacier freeze for a no thoughts, head empty football jock senior

jungkook was sure too

if ur gonna be an asshat that he’s gonna hate anyway, aTLEAST make it cool blue because that belongs to top tier

he made sure he went to TOWN on that punching bag while looking at that dude

whatever he did, jungkook did with much more power and intensity and he is still maintaning eye contact after the airhead caught on and recognized him

HE NEVER SAW THE DUDE IN THE GYM AFTER

jungkook, as an athlete, is a beast and u gotta admit that

he played basketball in college while u played softball!!!

you were handpicked by your coach if you wanna try out for this once in a lifetime career opportunity aND it was sketchy at first

u kept asking on what was it about but all she said was “that’s for you to know.,.,., if you wanna accept the offer :))” and you were eventually driven to the edge because you wanted to know so badly

and then it turns out u were the ONLY one in your softball team to be handpicked as she said and then u were instructed to go to the gym in which there were chairs lined up

oh god is this a cult

there were a couple other people too and you could recognize some of them from the swimming team and this girl from weighlifting and that dude from football

they too did not have any idea at aLL

you just decided to sit by the last row... y’know... just in case....

and then jungkook strolls in confused as fUCK but in the same time excited and he sits beside you because he’s thinking the same thing of what if this was sketchy shit!!

you just knew him then because he looked familiar and you may have seen him asleep in your calc class a couple of times

and also because his hair was peach

how could u possibly forget that aha

“oH i like your uniform!!”

jungkook immediately spoke what was on his mind and pointed to your softball uniform u were still in and then your response was to freeze

ok that might have been too forward and-

“i know right?? oH MY GOD!! i signed up for softball in the first place because the uniform was sO COOL!!”

“bro i joined basketball because i heard that tHE WARMERS WERE SO SOFT”

:D

and then a friendship was born

the both of you were not thinking anymore about the fact that you’re both in a gym with no instructions whatsoever bc you’re too excited to be talking about what’s happening!!!

you joined a sport jUST for their uniforms?? oh my god i did that TOO

turns out that jungkook was actually great at basketball and he just knew then

also turned out that u were a gifted natural in softball even if you didn’t fully grasp the mechanics at first

“but when do i oH IS IT MY TIME TO RUN??? no?? not yet?? oh aha yeah i guess i run that fast :D”

the two of you bonded so good that it was immediately decided that u are really meant to be friends with each other

sometimes people mistake the both of you as a couple and u know what,,, sometimes the two of you take advantage of that because a fREE DESSERT?? ice cream on the house?? celebratory cake because jungkook one time jokingly went down on one knee and proposed a ring pop to you that he just saw LYING on the ground???

don’t mind if u do :)))

jungkook, as a fellow pit stop crew member, is a really comforting (and sometimes annoying) presence

he doesn’t question when you get whiney from the fatigue settling in and instead? he just whines with you!!

the impromptu meeting in the gym? it was actually an orientation and introduction to try out for a pit stop crew program for this really really popular racing organization :D

athletes were in-demand because the discipline and the speed and the skills were needed

and you were filtered furthermore and it just ended up with only the handful of you

of course you could opt out but if you do pursue to go through, and if you do exceptionally good, then you might just be one of the two people they’re gonna hire as a part of the pit stop crew after you graduate!!

god training was rigorous and the practical test was even more nerve-wracking

you were put in pairs and in groups to see how the camaraderie and teamwork would show and bEST BELIEVE THAT YOU AND JUNGKOOK.,.,.

exceptional

breathtaking

best work

not to toot your own horn or anything ://

aha and those two positions? of course it went to the two of you!!

but jungkook, as a fellow pit stop crew member but for your oPPONENT TEAM is beyond irking

you see...

it was guaranteed that you and jungkook would be accepted into the organization

what wasn’t guaranteed, however, is that the two of you would be a member of the same pit crew

u found that hIGHLY confusing because what for... you guys saw how kook and i work together.... don’t you want that idk intact?????

“hobi-hyung’s gonna win this time. i guarantee you that. i bet you HALF of my food allowance”

hobi aka jung hoseok is a force to be reckoned with

you always see him in races and u know enough about him because jungkook just won’t shut up about how great he is!!

he’s a very giggly and joyful person and sometimes you just can’t help smiling when you see him getting interviewed over by their spot

kook’s introduced you to hobi a couple of times eagerly now and hobi does not!! forget!! names!!

it’s a lil conflict of interest for you and jungkook to be openly best friends while being in oppositing teams, but that doesn’t seem to stop heh

hoseok shook your hand firmly and eVEN added another hand so your hand is sandwiched by his and he has a permanent :D on his face

u immediately got why jungkook was so fascinated and happy to be working with him

“i mean nO offense to hobi, kook, and he’s like a rEALLY really great guy and a great driver and i have tons of respect for him also i totally get why you’re whipped for him bUT-“

“ᵒᵏ ʰᵉʳᵉ ʷᵉ ᵍᵒ ᵃᵍᵃᶦⁿ”

“he’s great, but not min yoongi great!!”

he already had that coming

how can jungkook not anticipate that when you have said that to him a million times already

that guy barely even talks to you but he’s so chatty with literally Everyone But You

he has a theory

theorieS actually

ok first one is that ur a guardian angel for yoongi

WAIT NO HEAR HIM OUT FOR A SEC

you just gravitate towards him!! you wanna be around yoongi as much as you can in non-stalker way but rATHER in guardian angel ways

you and jungkook are almost always in the same place at the same time given your jobs

also sketchy for kook because it could be seven in the evening and you’d call him using the hotel phone and go

“eY JUNGKOOK do u wanna come with me to this pub :) to celebrate yoongi’s win today :) do you :) please :) say yes pls :)”

“y/n baby hOW many time do i have to remind you that i am yOUR team’s opponent,,, jung hoseok is the OPPONENT of min yoongi,,,”

“... how many drinks do u want”

...

...

“fINE i’m gonna wear a hoodie again and i’ll get a cab to tail your team’s car and i’ll come inside the pub five minutes after again and tHEN i’ll pretend to bump into you. a g a i n”

plus you always have the heart eyes for yoongi no matter how blank he is with you or frustrated he gets after a sucky race

second theory: you’re not a guardian angel; you probably just have a crush on yoongi

:O

wait does th is mean that lovers are like angels, and angels are like lovers?

goddamn

omg he should’ve just become a poet or something

get those hands busy with typing up the same message but in different wordings and nOT lifting up cars under time pressure or change a wheel like your life depended on it

lmao maybe he should become a singer or something

“but it is true!”

“you use his name as an adjective now!!”

“lol true the sunset was yoongi today”

god jungkook’s thinking if it’s possible to drown himself in this glass of water because eW you’re so in love and for WHAT

“what’s tHAT supposed to mean??”

“beautiful!! c’mon jungkook think every now and then!!”

yoongi just isn’t a name in the game

he is the name of the game

his dad was a famous racer up until his retirement

and then his grandfather set the family name into racing because boi is he a legend too

AND THEN HERE HE IS

yoongi’s been karting ever since he was like what?? six years old??

ultimately ever since he was a kid, he knew he wanted to do racing too

he just didn’t want his family’s reputation preceding him

(he was also thinking of wAIT do i actually have skills oR do i just have “skills” because it’s expected from me)

plot twist he did have skills

he tried out and just had his name as suga

and then when he knocked out those officials and got them sTANDING up from their seats because they really needed what was happening to sink in, that’s when he just dropped the truth bomb

“oh aHA actually i’m min yoongi!! nice to meet you!!”

he was just talented like that

so talented that he almost went with moto racing instead because he knew how to drive motorcyles!!

rode a bike twice and he immediately went pSH give me a motorbike nOW PLS :((

one time he fell out of balance and dislocated his shoulder and yoongi then decided that will never do that again lmao

the thing is, you haven’t had a proper lengthy conversation with yoongi that had some substance to it

it’s your default congratulations and you’re “oMG you killed it out there you were a bEAST!!” and him just going “thanks!” and then walking off

you wanna call him nicknames

if it’s not yoongi, then either it’s sir or it’s mr. min

and it’s no fun :((

how come jungkook can call hoseok HOBI

you really just wish you were as close

sometimes if you’re lucky, yoongi gets your name right!!

it’s okay!! yoongi’s just a little bit reserved with you!! that’s all!! :)

it’s a race day anyway and you all just headed out to the circuit fairly early

yoongi’s sitting by himself wearing a white shirt underneath his racing suit and uWu he looks so comfy :((

normally in practice days and practice drills, he’d be also sitting by himself as he looks wistful staring out

but no not really

he would pull out his phone a couple seconds later oR pass out and wake up when he feels like falling because one of his talents was to fall asleep sitting

sitting.,.. the seat doesn’t even need to have a backrest.,..,

the season is about to end and you dON’T want to pass another season without atleast attempting to invoke some reaction from him with how much you interact with him

you smiled at him more than a hundred times already but he just goes :] and then walks off AGAIN

you’re gonna be proactive!! you’re gonna do these moves!! yOU’RE GONNA OWN IT :D

you’re striding very confidently to where yoongi’s sat and he doesn’t take notice because his back’s turned to you and you’re walking too fast and motivated that he probably doesn’t hear you

wait maybe you need to back-track a little

“am i — am i supposed to know why you’re giving me a pill and what is this pill?”

maybe you should have done a better way to do this aHa

“w-what?? oH nO NO it’s not — it’s a caffeine pill!!”

yoongi’s mouth forms into a lil :O and he tilts his head, trying to register and find your face in the memory bank for his pit crew

“i just — i just noticed aND uh y’know it’s not only me?? it’s just that i- we know that you drink coffee a lot and you aren’t allowed to drink it when it’s an actual game and not practice, because it’s gonna make you pee-“

maybe you shouldn’t be talking about pee

this is the longest (one-sided) conversation you’ve ever had with yoongi without him walking away and you’re talking about body fluids!!!!

it’s okay it’s cool

he probably knows what you’re talking about anyway

everything he wears is heavy-duty fire-proof material from his undies to his racing suits aND so does the pit crew

it’s gonna make you sweat a lot!! it was a given

yoongi doesn’t drink much water in the first place and he only gulps down liters of it when he’s officially done with his race

he doesn’t drink coffee before an actual race either because it just does these things to him

caffeine makes him focused but the particular one that he favors makes him tOO focused

and also coffee makes you pee more than any other!!

plus yoongi swears too that he’s nEVER peed in his racing suit ever and he’s gonna stand by that no matter how much stoopid questions he gets or teases

“point is, you can be a liTTLE bit out of yourself when you don’t have your fix a-and i mean absolutely nO offense yoongi sir aha mmmmh just!! here!! a caffeine pill!!”

he’s looking down on your palm and he takes into detail that the pill was lying snugly on a bed of pREMIUM tissue paper

hmmm this looks like those soft tissues from his hotel room???? is it just him???

you put it there not oNLY for presentation, but also because giving it to him with your bare hands that are gettin sweaty with how nervous you are is unhygienic

god ur struggles

“jungkook is this tissue tOO crumpled?? like does it look intentional crumple, or like an effortless cUte crumple???”

“are u out of your fucking mind?? oh my gOD no it’s too crumpled!! let me do it”

y/n!!

that’s it!! that’s your name!! you’re y/n!!

yoongi can’t believe that there’s this girl from his pit crew that is giving him a caffeine pill because-

“this is nice of you. very considerate.”

yo

did yoongi just talk to you

u have officially lowered your goals in life!! you can nOW perish peacefully knowing that yoongi has said something else to you besides “thanks” :D

he snatches your lil napkin bed and takes the pill and your other hand is a bit lonely because you’re holding a bottle of his special water and-

did he just

did he just swallow a pill dry

people who swallow their pills dry SCARE YOU

they are to be feared honestly

however there are exceptions hehe

tHIS ONLY MAKES YOU WANT TO KNOW YOONGI MORE!!

although you really can’t

not when you can literally hear your crew chief’s footsteps towards you and you’re just smiling through :D

you don’t know a park jimin

no you don’t aha :D

sometimes denial is the key!!!

“y/n, go do some stretches with your crew.”

sometimes u really really just wanna rattle jimin back and forth

he’s a grumpy crew chief!! a strict one!! one that wouldn’t let an ice cream man give out treats, because in his words, it is completely unnecessary

vernon got assigned as ice cream man and his feelings were HURT

jimin’s exceptional, no doubt about that

his strategies coincide well with yoongi’s and it contributes to the winning formula

what you just don’t like is how he’s grumpy with almost everyone else, but he’s extra grumpy with you

you offered a piece out of your packet of gummy bear ones

jimin just stared at you up and down, eyes narrowed as he looks as if he’s been offended big-time

“are you trying to woo me with your citric acid obsession?”

woo wHAT

yOU WHAT????

“jIMIN-“

and then he crossed his arms across his chest as you’re trying to reason out that you were just being considerate and nOt trying to woo him!!!

“aish. if you’re gonna woo me, atleast go for a proper attempt. a granola bar. that’s good. i’m gonna deny you anyway, but atleast that one isn’t laughable.”

you cannot

you seriously cannot comprehend wHY is jimin like this

he has this habit of clicking his tongue and shaking his head and THEN walking away

people walking away from you is a trend apparently

“but jimin i already stretched aND warmed up today”

he hums at that but you have a feeling that your words are just going through one ear and out of the other

you just love being chastised by your crew chief in front of yoongi <3

“with jungkook?”

wait who is jungkook

yoongi suddenly has more interest into this conversation because uh who is jungkook and why does the name itself kinda intimidate him

he’s kinda familiar with the name but nOT the face

:(

is this your thing

is your thing giving out caffeine pills?? this is just a normal occurrence and he shouldn’t feel this AWED at the sentiment??

“yeah!! and we did both our warm-ups!! tWICE if i might add!!”

jimin knows about jungkook tho

he knows how you’re best friends and opponents in a technical sense

he’s a little wary of that still but he guesses that it just can’t be helped???

there’s a lot of talk on the field with how great jungkook is as a pit crew member anyway!! they were surely a bit confused too on with how the two of you were separated but it’s for the better (?) anyways considering that you’re both aces

good for hobi

good for yoongi

bAd for jimin!!! and you’re his favorite

his favorite when it comes to scolding even when you particularly haven’t done anything

tough love

“.... hmmmm”

“mmmmmh”

yoongi feels like he has to add on to the conversation because he’s gotta admit that it’s somehow entertaining

he’ll ask jimin later about this jungkook guy anyway :))

“i didn’t see it though. do it again.”

smile thru da pain :)))

yoongi placed second in this race though and although that isn’t entirely bad, he is still kinda upset because that just means he’s second best :((

hobi placed first!!

he’s all cool about it and yoongi doesn’t wanna be bitter but he iS mad at himself for not getting pole position for this race

so for every race for the season, there’s three qualifying sessions to determine your position in the grid!! if it all adds up and you’re the one with the fastest times, then u become the pole-sitter

acquiring the pole position aka being the pole-sitter puts a driver at an advantage because they’re first in line!! aND they don’t have to weave in between cars at the back and fight for getting ahead

it’s cool that’s cool :))) yoongi’s got pole position more than a handful times anyway :))) he’s just giving out chances for the others :))) 

he’s kind like that :)))

[ yoongi is bURNING in the inside tho ]

there’s what?? like eight more races in this whole championship season?? yeah he could make this work no pressure

the caffeine pill,,, however.,.,.,,

“well?? how did it work out??”

jungkook is beyond impatient now because you keep getting into telling the story of how it went with yoongi but you jUST kept getting distracted

it’s only fair because yah the race just ended and you and jungkook didn’t opt to go back to the hotel with your teams so you could eat out from the stalls here after a really tiring day!! you deserve it!!

“okAy so like i was really nervous, yeah?? so i walked and then oOOOOOH CHEESY BEEF FRIES!! jungkook look omg cHEESy beef fries!! hold on lemme-”

you are aging jungkook and he swears by that

“nO no!! here!!! i already bought them!!! can you just oH my god!! y/n please stand STILL”

he’s holding you still with both of his hands grounding your shoulders wHILE his hands are still holding up his food and drinks and none of them are spilling?

that’s: talent

he’s been antsy ever since you texted him before the race started that you’re diving in head-first without a proper plan!! he was writing an elaborate plan in bullet points on his dotted notebook and tHen you’re telling him that you’re gonna dive straight in??

first of all how dare u

second of all pLEASE just tell him how it went

“five bites of fries, two minutes of telling how it went.”

ok he is a really great negotiator and also you’re already shoving like three in your mouth so this is more favorable than what he bargained for

jungkook does find you a pain in the ass sometimes like there is nO denying that absolutely

but he can attest to the fact that you are a GREAT storyteller

like damn your emotions?? hand gestures?? how you’d eVEN switch positions so he could get visuals of how it went down?? perfection like so good that jungkook feels so flustered because omg?? so tHIS is why you have a crush on yoongi aha

you’re not gonna lie,, jungkook sometimes decreases your lifespan for a solid seven months at the least

but you’re lying too when you say that he isn’t a dAMN good listener/audience

his doe eyes get even bigger and he is dang expressive and he’s never insincere and doesn’t exaggerate tOO much to the point that it’s obnoxious!!

and he doesn’t pick any story of yours!! he is vERY genuine!!!

[ sputters while drinking his iced tea ] “jimin cockblocked aGAIN???”

[ crouches to the floor when you went out to the mall alone because he didn’t want to and ended up meeting owen wilson, the guy who voiced lightning mcqueen ] “WHAT??????? YOU WHAT????? YOU’RE TELLING ME WHAT???????”

[ sobs because he didn’t meet owen wilson ] “i’m just so *wails* i’m just rEGRETTING every *heaves* single decision i made a-and *fans tears* i should’ve just went with you :(((”

[ giggles and shrieks continuously for ten minutes and keeps hugging you because you bought him those big boots that you call romper stompers for his birthday ] “you did nOT!! oh my god they’re really mine?? MINE??? you’re telling me that these are mINE now??? omg omg i could die rn y/n i swear i LOVE YOU!!! i’m not gonna step on u i swear :(( thank you thank you :(((”

yoongi couldn’t be anymore smiley

like sure enough, his mind should only stay in the game when he is in the game

he can’t think about what he wants for dinner later that night or let his thoughts drift because otherwise, hE’S the one that’s going to drift

but maybe

just maybe when he’s at the last stretch and hobi’s already crossed the finish line and the closest driver behind him is like lmao a kilometer away

he just can’t help thinking about you!! and the napkin bed you made for his caffeine pill!! and how he doesn’t get why he’s never talked to you before because like you’re cute n all :D

he’s never seen a pit crew member talk back to jimin like that before and yeah sure you’re playful but not overstepping it ya know

“so jimin,,, y/n, amirite?”

jimin’s a lil bit confused because uhhh yoongi has never talked to him

about you before but he’s not that bothered

“... yeah?”

...

...

“jimin this is the part where you tell me about y/n”

“how was i supposed to know? you only said her name!! is that like a signal or wHAT??”

“couldn’t i be anymore obvious??”

the bottom line is that yoongi got a crash course when it came to you and he couldn’t be any more grateful for jimin

he’s also confirmed that jungkook isn’t ur boyfriend but that’s kinda debatable because jimin added an “i’m not eNTIRELY sure though” and yoongi hates him for it!!

there’s just something about yoongi that you can’t shake off

and you don’t wanna fall that deep because it’s just a crush!! just a harmless crush and u know you aren’t probably gonna stand a chance :((

although you’re just gonna keep that to yourself because kook will probably lecture you for five minutes and THEN smack you in the head because you’re bringing yourself down again

jungkook knows you’re a natural ace like c’mon yoongi’s just gonna be a piece of cake!!

yeah sure yoongi doesn’t initiate conversation with your or barely holds eye contact and can barely remember your name, only recalls you as part of his team, and can be ignoring the things you’re doing for him bUT I MEAN THAT’S NOT ALWAYS THE DETERMING FACTORS, RIGHT??right??

pls say right

jungkook’s convincing himself as much as you’re convincing yourself that u have a chance with yoongi

you can’t help it :((

you love that smile!! that smile when he knows how good he’s done that he automatically could tell that he’d be getting an extra point since he’s the one who was the fastest on that lap!or that laugh when he pops out a cork of champagne once again and he’s getting the hang of it

his calm demeanor looks so cute even when he isn’t even doing anything in particular and how it could be so hot especially when his stare’s just rigid

you’ve been in celebratory going out parties in bars with your team to know that yoongi’s just boisterous and chatty when he gets drunk

he even gets cLINGY to whoever’s sitting beside him and it’s usually jimin and he can even make jimin yield to having oNE more shot with him :((

in meetings too!!!

yoongi’s personal style is just mostly black and sometimes when he’s feeling spicy, he’d add in some random pastels or perhaps even a small nEON detail

his cheeks tooyou just wanna kiss them so bad :(((

they’re so plump and full whenever he pouts and smiles and you have to gRIP your fist just to get rid of the l*nging in your system

YOONGI HAS PIERCED EARS TOO

MULTIPLE PIERCINGS!!!you’ve never seen him wear earrings tho and that’s saddening

jewelry, most especially on drivers, is just a big no-no because just in cAse the driver catches on fire or not, it’s still a big hazard

you once saw yoongi walking in the hallway just as you were about to exit the elevator to go to ur hotel room and he was wearing a wATCH

u almost went feral goddamn

you see yoongi again after your caffeine pill advance on him? a necklace, maybe? those thick chain bracelets like the ones jungkook wears? him wearing rings? it could be a blinged-out diamond band or a heart-shaped plastic ring from a kinder egg and you would sTILL GO FERAL

“i just wish — j-just wish that red string lovers exist in real life, y’know, kook?? do you get what i’m saying?”

jungkook wishes that was a real thing too

you’re just a bit vulnerable because u have some alcohol in your system

a little bit emotional

meanwhile jungkook is just straight up bland and is up for no fun

three-drink jungkook is boring

you should see five-drink jungkook!! hE’S A WILD ONE that could backflip with a 70% success rate of not throwing up after

“i do. i wish that red string lovers do exist. kind of like that movie, kimi no nawa. i love that movie.”

...

“... jungkook. omg a-are you saying i should like, tie a red string on my pinky and tHEN on yoongi’s pinky!! in this way, i could always be connected to him and we’re like never gonna stay away from each other!!”

...

“i believe that would be called stalking.”

“no i meant fIGURATIVELY”

this three-drink jungkook is no fun

what you’re gonna do is get him to drink more because the motto for pit crew members is “drink as if it’s your last because it IS!!!”

drinking kinda messes up workout routines and the semi-strict diet the members are put on to ensure you’re all strong and enduring

so drinking is just reserved for wins or when the crew chief allows it and MAYBE just maybe when you and kook decide to get a lil sip and sharing a can won’t hurt :D

“okay, okay. another one!! drink another one!!”

you have to physically make jungkook drink because he doesn’t wanna hold the shot glass claiming that it’s too dirty and before he gets iffy even more, you just bring the glass to his lips and even put a hand underneath his chin because you are tHAT great of a friend

sometimes you just need to credit yourself for being a really great best friend to jungkook

four-drink jungkook is a BUNNY

he’s starting to ascend to his five-drink state and therefore through the process, he’s crinkling his nose more

the nose crinkle and the smile that highlights his two front teeth has always been in effect but this one’s just more persistent

he doesn’t hop like a bunny tho or like even stand because that’s six-drink dance bot jungkook’s moves

instead

he just-

cHOMPFS

jungkook’s just biting down on your shoulder SOFTLY

the same gentleness of a golden retriever with an egg on its mouth!!he’s not nibbling or biting down or anything!! he’s just oMPH :D

there’s no rhyme or reason to why he’s doing this and you’re unsure either lmao you’ve told him before what he does drunk when he’s sober and he goes?? lol what i do tHAT???

you don’t mind honestly

you’re thankful that you’re wearing a black hoodie and it’s made with a fluffy cotton material!! it’s a win-win and u can even feel jungkook smiling

the alcohol isn’t hitting you JUST yet but u. r aware that you’re getting a tad more chatty now and then suddenly you’re telling jungkook a summary of this sugar stars episode in which they were supposed to make cupcakes for this luxury jewelry brand and in oNE of the cupcakes there should be like a necklace worth thousands of dollars bUT THEY FORGOT IF THEY ALREADY PUT IT IN THE BATCH AND-

“hey, is this guy bothering you, y/n?”

you hear a velvety voice interrupting you and it’s oddly familiar

said person extends his hand to put on your shoulder and you kinda jolt at the sudden contact and it’s just goosebumps“.... yoongi?”

:O

yoongi’s on your left side and u could clearly see him nowhE LOOKS LIKE HE’S ABOUT TO SQUARE UP

i mean truth be told he wASN’T supposed to be here because after placing 3rd he just didn’t wanna go part because for wHAT and he wanted to go to bed instead

but them jimin called him and asked if he was sure because like... the entire team is here and the owner of the bar is a FAN and all drinks are on the house so,,,

he jUST got here and while he was looking for jimin, the first thing he sees is the back of your head (he’s memorized it hehe) and a guy bITING DOWN ON YOUR SHOULDER and yours hands are gesturing and shit

and so he’s beyond confused to see you confused over seeing him all confused and perhaps protective

“yoongi!!”

u practically squeal and ur not gonna hide that

although he just ignores that because he’s focused on some more pressing matters at hand

“man, seriously, what the fuck? can you just back off-“

yoongi is literally about to pull jungkook away from you because up to now this dude is NOT reading the room and the fact that he is 2 seconds away from decking him

“no nO yoongi!! it’s okay lol he’s my best friend! he’s not-“

there’s a delay on words sinking to jungkook’s ears so he’s just now reacting lmao

“mfhsIR thif if mY EMOFYONAL FUPPORT MFFSHOULDER”

jungkook’s angrily lifting his eyes but not his face with it so he’s-

oH THAT’S YOONGI :D

“this is my friend who’s kinda drunk and bITES my shoulder when he’s drunk aha jungkook!! say hi, gguk”

“hI YOOMGIIII!!! i’m jungmkook :D”

kook takes a quick second to lift himself off your shoulder to give an eager wave to yoongi

oH that face is familiar

jungkook?

jungkook jungkook oH THIS IS THE JUNGKOOK HE ASKED JIMIN ABOUT

whew

honestly he was kinda scared because when yoongi got a closer look when he was fuming, jungkook looked like a big buff guy and he was a little scared because-oh jungkook just went back to biting your shoulder ://

“i thought you weren’t gonna come?”

“i thought i was gonna fight sOMEONE”

hehe

you can’t help but feel a lil bit happy that omg yoongi cares for u

and although he’s mistakened jungkook as a pervert whose modus operandi is to bite at shoulders, it’s still the thought that counts!!!!

your right shoulder that has kook attached to it feels indifferent and your left shoulder that yoongi touched for a second is ON FIRE

be still, be calm. be still, be calm. be still, be — OMG YOONGI IS SITTING BESIDE YOU FUCK

“it’s jungkook, right?”

he, for sure, knows that it is jungkook alright but he just wants to ask u know

just to be sure

although you’re kinda oblivious to the fact that he’s directing the question to you more than to jungkook himsELF bc you’re very much swayed by his gummy smile

“yeah!! he’s jungkook, alright :D”

“this might be a stupid question to ask but uh i’ve just never seen him oR like maybe it might just be my memory but jungkook’s in our team, right??? or like nO?”

“o-oh aHA about that yoongi,, sir,, actually jungkook isn’t in our team, ya know? but he DOES support us and is like whoosh a fAN of you :))”

he is having too much fun with this one

“really? but i saw him in the box before, with you, i think? lol u silly goose if you have a boyf-“

“jUNGKOOK ISN’T MY BOYFRIEND! he never was!! yoongi trust me i am very single right now i mean it!! 100%”

“are you sure? like-“

“he’s just my best friend ever since college and we’re not a thing i sWEAR!! you see him in the box sometimes because he just needs someone to buy him nachos from the stalls aND he’s a pit stop crew member for jung hoseok-“

you’d like to think that you are diffusing this situation very well

“-and that tOTALLY doesn’t matter because pfft?! i don’t even know jung hoseok like wHAAAAAT does he uhm race or sth?? whew am i right lmao can i get an amen? ᵖˡˢ ˢᵃʸ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰᶦⁿᵍ ᵖˡˢ”

yoongi already knows this bit of information and his eye does twitch at the mention of hoseok like how mr. bean is with mozambique but it’s COOL seeing you flustered is getting a really cheesy smile out of him

“do you rap?”

“no but do you want me to”

yoongi snorts and giggles at that and meanwhile you are getting THE nervous sweats because obviously you weren’t prepared for this

damn it :( you should’ve just kept jungkook sober so he could “wingman the fUCK out of you” in his own words

the only thing you could do that’s the closest to rapping is have jungkook beatbox in the background while u go bow chicka wowow bow cHICKA WOW :((

“you’re funny.”

yoongi’s still kinda dying at giggling throughout the whole interaction but he really means it sincerely ok

QUICK IS THAT A COMPLIMENT OR AN INSULT

“thanks :))”

fUck it you should’ve just said a one-liner or something, not a timid thanks or would that be trying too hard

you are getting too panicked and nervous now and the only out you see is-

“ggukie!! you want another drink?”

bless up

bless jungkook’s soul for immediately agreeing and before you know it, you’re lifting another shot glass to his lips with a hand underneath his chin

you’re gonna help him with his hangover tomorrow because he’s saving yOUR ass by easing the tension of how pATHETICALLY nervous you are with yoongi

yoongi’s persevering too because this jungkook guy has hands.. what?? does he drink his water from a formula bottle??? DOES HE NEED MILK

chile why is he getting jealous

it’s not like he’s become fond of you nor got attached to this girl that gave him a caffeine pill placed on a napkin bed after much observation of him and the sentiment behind it just makes him mushy

lol

couldn’t be him :))

:)

...

....

SIKE IT’S HIM THAT’S HIM :(((

“YOOOOOOONGIIIIIIIIIII!!!”

oh god 

oh no

it’s a drunk jimin :(

a drunk, happy, gIGGLY JIMIN

“Y/NNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!”

you’re quite surprised at the sight because uH you’re used to jimin the grumpy crew chief

nOt jimin the giggly person who’s giggling at the little rainbows ur bracelet makes when the light hits it and who’s complimenting your hoodie sO HARD

mom come pick me up im scared

“y/n O-M-G where did you get those earrings because they r the bomb dot COM”

“jimin what did u drink because i am LOVING it”

“a pomelo gin mix or like fOUR of them.”

yoongi answers for jimin because he knows all too well

woop jimin’s hugging him now and his grip is tight o-okay i guess i’ll... keep you... still?

it’s not jimin’s fault :( he just likes pretty drink i mean could u blame him :(((

“aish those pack a punch for sure. you could barely taste the gin because of the juice-“

“-but it gets you drunk nonetheless no matter how much you drink it.”

:D

:D

you and yoongi are straight up CONNECTING right now vibing if u will

“yeah and some light it up on fire then take it out so it would taste smoother and seamless!!”

that’s it he’s had enough yoongi will propose to you rIGHT NOW he thought he was the only one who knew that fact

oR KNEW THE DIFFERENCE

or knew the reason for it that isn’t just to make it look cool

oh man you feel so sorry for pegging yoongi as just one of those “all beers taste the same” dudes in senior year :’’’)

“jUNGKOOOOOOOK!!!”

jimin kinda ruins the moment by opening his mouth being all excited as he points excitedly to look at who’s beside you

“YOOOOOOOOOONGIIIIIII!!!!”

“oh oh! shh!!! you’re not supposed to be here but it’s ok jungkooooook!!! i’ll just close my eyes!!!”

“h-hey guys *hiccup* have you seen jimin? because i can’t see him!!”

that’s not... that’s not how it works...

jungkook is giggling so hard and jimin’s gonna roll over anytime if it isn’t for yoongi holding him

“omg jungkook’s earrings look like windchimes :D”

“y/n omg jIMIN’S RIGHT! they do look like windchimes :D”

“i bet they also sOUND LIKE WINDCHIMES :D” jimin’s leaping out of yoongi’s hold eagerly and the both of u just know that this is gonna go bad

he’s about to faceplant because he’s slipping the moment he decided to break free

it’s a good thing you’re catching him and jimin’s embracing you now while

his legs are slack on the floor and jungkook the drunk dumbass thought it was an emergency

and in times of emergency apparently, jungkook’s move is try and hop on your back for a piggyback ride“okay, okay, time to get off y/n now!!”

yoongi chuckles as he pries jimin off of you and onto himself instead

jungkook sTILL won’t give up into having a piggyback ride from you hmp

“hey, wanna split an uber?

”you like that idea very much :D“who’s gonna sit with them at the back, though?”

“you can give me your number and i’ll volunteer tribute :))”:D

that’s good

this is good

yeah sure yoongi might’ve had to sit in the middle of jimin and jungkook that are messes

and has to endure it when young, wild and free by wiz khalifa came on aND

jimin went owo “young sound like yoongi omg”

and jungkook went and followed and the whole lyrics were yoongi wild and yoongi free

but that’s ok

that’s okay!!!

he had to say goodbye to you two floors early because that’s where jungkook’s room is and u need to tuck him in

the most he could do was walk you to the door while having a sleepy jimin use him as a crutch

all worth it though :))

“thanks for tonight, yoongi :))”

and there’s just this tentative silence because the both of you kinda felt dejected because you didn’t want tonight to end, truthfully

you press a tentative lil kiss on his cheek and

:O

“good night.”

yoongi’s cheek is tingling aHHHHHH HE’S ABOUT TO BURST

that’s so precious

YOU’RE SO PRECIOUS

alcohol doesn’t fix everything bUT ON RARE OCCASIONS IT COULD BE A BRIDGE

jungkook woke up with a killer headache because apparently when you and yoongi weren’t looking, jimin let him have a sip of his drink and he was immediately :O

but you did lessen it to an amount!!!!!

he could barely register what happened last night but what he did remember is yOONGI

just yoongi

aND THAT MEANS HE COULDN’T REMEMBER UR LITTLE CHEEK KISS :D

eventually you’d tell him but not now

jungkook’s all smiles when you were telling him on how you tucked him to bed and eVEN caved into giving him a piggyback ride

your explanation of you making him drink a full bottle of water and then some more is the reason to why he felt bloated and every time he moved in his deep sleep he was just sLOSHING around

although you didn’t get to do his skincare routine on him because he likes tapping his face

and tapping jungkook’s face while he’s drunk is like choosing death because he’d think that there were little ants on his face and he’d freak the fUck out

so you just took a makeup wipe to get the dirt off his face and put on a face mask!! minimal effort!! maximum results!! efficiency :D

yours and jimin’s dynamic is chANGING FOR THE BETTER he’s getting warmer to you now!!!

you did tease him one time about the pomelo gin drink and he glared at you

but then you whispered to his ear

“if it’s between your choice of pomelo pink gin and yoongi’s whiskey? i’d pick pink gin all the way :D”

jimin gasped out loud

friendship? bUILDING

you and yoongi??

safe to say that you’re on the closer side :D

i mean tECHNICALLY you aren’t on the commitment boat yet or like… you haven’t had a date yet…. or held hands…..

but you’re getting there!!! iT’S A PROCESS

you’ve always been his supporter in the sidelines but now u r a full-pledged cheerleader for him in the moments that you aren’t tending to his car or tending to work

practice sessions are held starting two days before the race

it’s literally just for practice and it’s for the driver to get familiar and to test out some things that may need to be tweaked furthermore

this is the only time the drivers get to drive the cars besides the actual race itself

and the race is held on sunday!!!!

two practice sessions on friday that last one and a half hours each

and a final practice session on saturday that lasts for an hour

obviously you’re there

bUT when you’re not in use, you just completely revert to cheering for yoongi by the barrier!!!“GO YOONGS!!!!!”

jimin sends you a look to keep it down because even though he has his headphones on he could sTILL hear you

you shut up of course but not without waving your hands in the air whenever yoongi’s car comes into your view :D

in qualifying sessions too!!! these are to determine the driver’s grid positions in the actual race

and eVERY driver’s goal is to earn pole position, the front-most and most advantageous position from the starting line!!!

pole position doesn’t automatically mean that you’re the winner but it does help the driver to ace at that closer!!!

you shut up in qualifying sessions because in fact, you’re nervous too there are six more races to this whole season and each one is important because yoongi and hobi?? they’re just neck-to-neck with their scores and although yoongi’s on the lead, he could nEVER BE COMPLACENT

yoongi’s pole-sitter undoubtedly with his performance and then could you breathe a sigh of relief :))

he’s stripping his racing suit slightly and by that he means taking off the velcro and getting the zipper undone and taking off his balaclava and

oBVIOUSLY his helmet

fact: race suits are extremely light but are sO HOT

yeah sure there’s been upgrades to it and that it has cooling properties now but u can’t exactly feel that when you’re gonna be in it for atleast an hour doing a proper race

his routine lately is going sTRAIGHT to you after he finishes whatever he’s doing

“you didn’t cheer me on :((“

“that’s because i was too busy rooting for you in my mind :))”

“well then root for me with your mOUTH”

“what”

“wHAT??”

yoongi’s just being a little petty and cranky, that’s all

it doesn’t mean that he doesn’t give much affection, he automatically doesn’t want to rECEIVE it :(((

admittedly, you’re kinda cutting off from the physical affection with yoongi lately because jungkook quizzed you and you’re pretty sure that you were in a default :O after

“who texts first?”

“me!! our schedules don’t exactly match up because he has a different trainer than our pit crew does but i just wanna wake up extra early to send him a text :))”

“who sleeps earlier?”

“yoongi!! lmao he loves resting whenever he can aND he even brings this diffuser with him whenever we gor from hotel to hotel!!”

“who goes to who more frequently?”

“oOoOhhh i love visiting yoongi!!! whenever i surprise him he just looks so shocked and eventually it sinks in to him”

“who exerts more effort?”

“kook i — oH.,..,.”

of course jungkook is so happy for you because look at you!! you went from admiring yoongi from afar to hanging out with him actively and even going so far as to have him kiss your cheek once!!

but no matter how supportive he is, he jus wants to be as realistic too because he doesn’t want you hurt

yes he admires how you are with him but like mAYBE you’re far in too deep and yoongi is not on the same level

and so you just came to the conclusion that maybe you were just being too enthralled in it to not see that yoongi doesn’t find the concept of you

and him together as desired as you found it to be

:((

and so maybe you’ve been detaching yourself lately

you stay in bed sleeping for as long as you’d like, and the only alarm clock you have is jimin ringing the bell on your door to let you know that training

was to start

jimin quickly catched on to what you were doing because he’s seeing less of you around yoongi??? surprisingly???

and he just couldn’t keep it in to not know what was happening so he asked jungkook

then jungkook was positively surprised and happy because jimin???? coming to him personally to ask???? omg he is gonna spill of course and so jimin was like eh… it’s the least i could do i guess….

five rings of the doorbell to wake you up

seven rings to let you know that training’s gonna start in ten minutes

ten rings to oPEN YOUR DAMN DOOR

you didn’t linger around yoongi unnecessarily and you weren’t sending those specifically niche templates you see on instagram that make you laugh

he doesn’t receive the “you’re a daughter of an astronaut and a swimmer and you’re not sure which aesthetic to pick because you’re too dizzy from accidentally inhaling chlorine in the big-ass man-made pool since you intern at nasa and u just need to lie down” lookbooks :(

he thought of it as nothing at first because eh they’re just little things!!! he barely notices anyway

WRONG

yoongi feels so devastated because why :(( won’t :(( you just :(( hUG HIM OUT OF THE BLUE LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO

these days he feels so on edge because aHa!! anytime now, y/n’s gonna hug me :D

but then you dON’T

yoongi put on extra perfume because you like burrowing your nose to his neck whenever you hug him and wHY aren’t you hugging him

wait maybe it’s the perfume that’s throwing you off??

nevermind he’s gonna buy another hundred-dollar bottle of a different perfume it’s ok nO WORRIES and sometimes you don’t join the team breakfast and yoongi’s all lost

because hMmM??? i got u these pancakes a-and i already put the butter and the syrup….. why aren’t you here…

you’re with jungkook and his team knows about your friendship and how it came to be and they’re all just eH it’s okay y/n’s cool anyways :))

hobi’s so kind

jungkook sits in the same table as hobi and therefore that means you sit beside kook and u have no choice because he WILL insist

not because you’re his friend but also because he’s too lazy to stand and get another serving so he’ll just steal some from your plate

hobi eVEN offers to refill your glass with orange juice because his is gone too and he’s gonna get more anyway :))

yoongi can’t go over it though and he’s just wallowing because first, hoseok’s aiming for his title that he wants to retain, and nOW HOSEOK’S COMING FOR HIS Y/N???

ok his might be a little bit of a reach because he hasn’t asked you out yet but he iS getting there

he swears that he feels so lost without u :((

and so yoongi’s persistent and he vouched his day-off to be aligned with your gym day aaaand he’s here now :D

he’s right behind you!!

“hiii.”

yoongi squeezes in on the space left at your side

well you dIDN’T expect yoongi today clearly“hi pls back up a little i mAY accidentally kick you :D”

you’re doing pull-ups at the moment and you’re getting the hang of doing them!! even if this used to be the bane of your existence in your workout program and you’d sell your soul just for jungkook to call you and cry on the phone and pretend he stubbed his toe or something to get out of training

so tHAT’S yoongi’s greeting??? :((

“i haven’t seen you lately”

“hmm? i see you everyday, yoongs”

“rEALLY??”

you’re only discovering now that while doing pull-ups, you can aLSO make and maintain conversation!!

yoongi’s a bit sarcastic because your full attention isn’t on him and he guesses that it’s a given when you’re working out bUt are you even hearing what he’s saying :((

“doesn’t feel like it, though.”

ok that one made you falter a little bit

“how can you say??”

he practically huffs at that and that also goes noticed

how can you not know that???

he’s a patient person but with you, he just gets sO eager and whiney and now he just can’t cope!!!

just when he thought you were finally go down because you were slowing your movements, you were oNLY doing that just to regain your momentum for another set AND!!!

fine then :))

yoongi’s jumping up and his hands wrap around the higher bar snugly, his body pressed to yours

he’s so close oh my god yOONGI’S SO CLOSE TO YOU

you’re suspended in air and a bit breathless and yoongi’s just hanging slack and he’s about to burst into a smile because uH success!!!

his lips look so kISSABLE and his cheeks are plump and his eyes are v enchanting and wHEW you’re sweating at this point and it’s nOt from working out

yoongi only tilts his head as he earns the reaction he wanted and more :D

“who’s your trainer? sehun?”

“y-yeaHh???”

“m’kay.”

he’s not content just yet and for a split second, yoongi tilts his face to the side of yOUR face and his lip barely brush to the shell of your ear

“i’ll pull you out of this one. eat lunch with me.” the sound of yoongi dropping back down to the floor makes you jOLT because oh.,., oh that rEALLY DID JUST HAPPEN HUH

what a menace

your heart is too weak for yoongi

you are sO whipped :’’’)

so whipped that you cave into jungkook’s demands

jungkook’s aLWAYS been your sticker guy

he just has stickers… that he either makes or acquires but he isn’t telling where from… and either gives or sells them to u

he has this label maker too that could print your name on or whatever you want to put on your stuff

he would even input little stars or little hearts or even lil dinosaurs if you want him to!!!

you don’t know how and why but wHEREVER you go, jungkook always has stickers on him

AND THIS IS REALLY SPECIAL OK

you specifically told jungkook to curate like a ten-pack out of the things you told him about yoongi

he has the reigns aS LONG as he thinks (and it better be) that it screams min yoongi!!

it’s just that you wanna give gifts to yoongi and you don’t need aNY occasion just to give presents

you were deep in thought and your head blanked and then went…

stickers…. get him stickers

snickers???

…. stickers ….

sNEAKERS???

…. stickers dUMB BITCH i said stickers!!!! …..

lol u love ur mind

and when you said that to jungkook, he fell both honored AND pressured like what if yoongi decides not to like you anymore because of your (his) sticker choices

what then

damn ur wrong for this

jeez jungkook’s becoming the backbone of your blossoming relationship ://

sigh but it’s cool,, jungkook’s used to becoming a fundamental part to society

jungkook’s ringing your bell so early in the morning because he just got done last night with completing his collection!! and you iMMEDIATELY need to see it as per his insistence

ok they r pretty cool

there’s yoongi’s name in a really cool yet sophisticated font that just screamed yoongi to you!!

there’s Agust D in a big bold formal font!! you remember that story of how yoongi was born and raised briefly in daegu then they had to move and he misses his hometown

he was about to use Agust D as his name when he first tried out for racing but the name itself made so many heads turn so he was just,,, too spicy,,,

i’ll make it suga

OMG YOUR INITIALS

jungkook’s wild for that one but omg you’re giggling because wow u like that

“clouds?? and the sky’s purple??”

“i think eVERYBODY likes clouds”

“well some pilots don’t”

“what makes them think that clouds like them back?”

wait

“a cat??… flipping me off???”

“lol ok funny story but yoongi flipped me off once LMAOOO”

“… he did what”

“i’ll tell u the story later but this, THIS — okay i don’t know if it’s just me, but yoongi looks like a cat, y’know?? like i sWEAR i could see cats in him, and then i see him in cats. do you get me??”

“gguk-“

“and he wears headbands, right? LOOK I EVEN DREW HIM A HEADBAND!! :D”

ok you aren’t gonna lie

this ten-pack goes pretty fucking hard if you may say so

“how much do i owe you, kook?”

“that would be fifty dollars :D”

“fifty wait wHAT?? FIFTY DOLLARS?? WHAT??? JUNGKOOK SAY SIKE”

psh atleast it was worth a shot

“fine. tHIRTY dollars.”

“THIRTY DOLLARS?????”

you know for a fact that these ten stickers aREN’T worth tHIRTY DOLLARS

the highest jungkook’s ever charged you is $10 for a pack of ninety-nine he even took one from the sticker booklet and he only said that after he sold it to u

you both know that these aren’t $30 :((

it’s always a take it or leave it situation because you know hobi is a sucker for stickers :((

“…. fine.” you pull thirty dollars from your wallet and that’s thirty dollars ur never gonna get back

jungkook’s a bit frazzled because wHAT

you actually gave him tHIRTY dollars??

they don’t even cOST _____ dollars!!!

it’s just awkward now when he tries to take back what he said

“… as a special gift.,.,. i’m gonna put them.,.,. in a nice envelope.,., that i uh doodled hearts on…”

quick if jungkook was a seller on redbubble, how many stars would you rate him

this better have a gREAT PAYOFF

spoiler alert: it did!!!

YOONGI LOVES THEM

“i mean i’m not saying you should put these on your race car because i kNOW every gram matters on it and like — sTICKERS!! u can stick them anywhere am i right :D”

:O

“do you uh,, do you like it? ˡᵃʸ ᶦᵗ ᵈᵒʷⁿ ᵍᵉⁿᵗˡʸ ᵒⁿ ᵐᵉ ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉ”

“y/n bABY ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? i love them sO MUCH!! like look aH OMG IT’S ME THAT’S — I’M SUPPOSED TO BE THIS CAT RIGHT???”

it went great!!!

above and beyond than what you expected

“thank you thank you dO YOU KNOW that you’re the best eVER :(((“

yoongi is so touched and awed over a pack of sTICKERS and it’s the little joys and you that make him the happiest

he’s so excited and pumped because he can’t pick on where to put them because they’re so precious and in the same time he doesn’t wanna use them because they’re tOO precious

yoongi’s about to kiss your cheek in the same time you wanna explain some of them and-

oh

he’s kissing the corner of your mouth

he only realizes when you squeak a little and he feels just so unexplainable with pure bliss that’s going through his body omg

and then yoongi pulls away to gauge your reaction because he was iNITIALLY gonna go for a cheek kiss but now that’s out of the bank because he wants more and-

oh god his cheeks are already on fire and tHIS WAS JUST A KISS TO THE CORNER OF YOUR MOUTH ACCIDENTALLY

it’s time to clear his throat and attempt to clear his mind“is uHhH sehun? 

sehun the trainer today?”

“yeaH it’s sehun…”

yoongi please say what i want you to say

pleathe

“i can — i cAN bail you out, if you want.,.. you uH ˢʰᶦᵗ do you wanna go karting with me?? like, right now??? it’s okay if you don’t wanna bUt i mean ᶠᵘᶜᵏ uhHhH-“

“yeah :)) i wanna go karting with you :))”

yoongi’s a mess and hE’S the nervous one now and he keeps scratching the back of his neck and he can’t maintain eye contact

he was about to explain that he’s not pressuring you wait dID YOU JUST SAY

“yes?? yeah?? oH that’s cool :D”

“do i need to get changed or-“

i mean you’re still in your workout leggings and a big black shirt jungkook has an aBUNDANCE of so u just stole one and tried out embroidery!!

it’s not the best aha

kinda ugly because it’s massive on you and u just take it off whenever the workout progresses to be harder

“no!! no!! don’t worry!! i’ll bring my backpack!! just take yourself, y/n, i’ll take care of you ʷᵃᶦᵗ ʷᵃᶦᵗ aHA!!! i’ll pack my shirts for you and water and like snacks omg i will be back in fIVE minutes!!!”

there’s kinda no protest since yoongi’s already dashing out of your hotel room and into his… and he’s leaving you alone and he swears that this will only take fIVE minutes

he’s a nervous wreck

but yOU are too

because wait

this is your first date!!

THIS COUNTS AS YOUR FIRST DATE

oh god you are gonna cOMBUST

it did take five minutes and perhaps even earlier!!

yoongi’s managed to even get a cap for you and sUNBLOCK

he has a driver hired and that’s kinda ironic because hE’S the driver but he doesn’t mind!!!

he’s sitting with you at the second row and you’ve never really properly been out the city ever since you got here because leisure trips aren’t exactly in your schedule

the buildings and the scenery are so cool and authentic and yoongi’s just staring at you as you stare out :(((

why are you so beautiful :(((

he’s envisioned taking you out for go-karting as your first date but nOT NOW

yoongi’s accidentally kissed you once on the corner of your mouth and he is now forever a changed man

his mind immediately went wOOP take y/n karting nOW

yoongi has a pinterest board with ideas for a first date

picnics are cute but there’s just so much aNTS and mosquitoes and flies would go to ur food when you turn away for a single second!!!

not to mention that he never checks the weather reports lmao

and grass with how soggy they could he eVEN if it didn’t rain???

disgusting

there’s always the option of dinner dates too

but sometimes they could be just SO boring and it’s a hit or miss whether you’d like the food because you don’t like overly fancy restaurants y’know

not to mention that they r overrated and the food isn’t that good to your taste bUT maybe that’s just you

he’s searched this place up a couple days ago and look!!! they have karts that have tWO seats on them

maybe he could rent out the place or pull out the “no it’s MIN YOONGI” card and he can drive you around and stuff :D

it’s postive to say that you’re vERY excited

“last one to cross the finish line buys the winner gifts for a whole week bYEEEE”

wait

that’s not-

tHAT’S NOT HOW THIS IS SUPPOSED TO GO

apparently this is how yOU want it to go

the idea of yoongi driving you around in go-karts didn’t cross your mind once

you thought that you were gonna race against him and gOD ARE YOU SO EXCITED

you work on cars not drive in cars

the closest you’ve ever went to karting is going on bumper cars when jungkook took you to the amusement park!!!

it’s not racing because all you and kook did was bump the other as mUCH as possible to the point that the attendant was :/// are they ok

you know how to drive!!!

not to flex or anything but u dO have a professional driver’s license aha :D

although that doesn’t mean shit if ur kinda being honest

do you know how to drift a car like what they do in fast and the furious?? probably yes

jungkook was “breaking in” his car and he took you to the dealership with him and the car just felt so sTIFF and then he saw an empty parking lot….

and well you didn’t exactly STOP him because it isn’t your car

how could you stop someone from doing something that you yourself wANT to do

can you drive as fast as yoongi?? possibly yes

will it be as clean and as easy as he makes it to be?? heck no

yoongi’s chasing after you because oh you are dEDICATED now to racing against him

you’re even scrambling to put your race suit on iN FRONT OF HIM and it makes him all flustered as he tries to keep up by turning and putting on his own

“now don’t go easy on me, okay???”

yoongi’s a bit confused because what did u just say

not to fuel his ego or anything but madame he is a race car driver and it runs in his blood and the skill is in his name

he loves u (although he hasn’t said that yet) but he doesn’t want to ruin all your hopes and dreams

“just race as what you normally do and i’ll do my oWN!!! :D”

o-okay

you’re fast!!!as fast as go-karts could go!!!

you even turned down yoongi’s offer of a ten-second head start because wHERE’S THE FUN IN THAT

you are as happy and as giddy as you could ever be

yoongi, on the other hand, is worried a ton

you’re still a bit cautious when it comes to curves and to turning and

yoongi’s heart physically stops whenever you go through them because now you’re starting to pick up the pace around them

you’re getting used to the curves as you go on and you’re starting to maintain speed aND go through curves smoothly

he’s happy that you’re happy but god he’s just tERRIFIED okay

the list of what could possibly go wrong is evading his mind and for god’s sake, he’s a rACE CAR DRIVER HIMSELF!!!!! with custom top-speed cars and not go-karts!!! and not once did this list cross his mind whenever he drives

it’s just now hitting him that his profession’s dangerous

but your profession tOO is dangerous!!!

you may not be the driver put you are a part of the pit stop crew that tends to the car the driver’s racing!!!!

fIRES!!! pneumatic torque guns that are sO DANGEROUS!!!! wheels!!!!! gas!!!!! the driver himself when he’s in a rush and could possibly injure people along the way!!!!!

yoongi’s going down on a spiral so harsh that he didn’t even notice that not only did you pass him, but you’re also farther away from him sIGNIFICANTLY and before he knows it, you finished first!!

:D

“yoongs yoongs did you see me dID YOU SEE ME?????? :D”

you jump up to yoongi the moment he gets out of his kart and he instantly catches you and puts his hands underneath your thighs to secure you

your arms are even around his neck and you are incredibly close to yoongi more than you could ever wrap your head around

“mhmmmm ‘course i did!!”

he mindlessly hums and he just takes the time to see you up close like this before you realize and yelp later on because ur flustered

god yoongi’s never cared for anyone this much before

he’s falling in so hard

and that’s not necessarily a bad thing, right?

the moment you stop talking and gushing is the moment you realize that yoongi’s been awfully quiet all throughout, making you look down and-

yoongi’s kissing you

for rEAL this time

god he is putty in your hands and he’s extremely mushy

your lips are sO soft that he feels like he could die a happy man

you don’t know if your getting this adrenaline from the rush you got from winning or if it’s just the desire to kiss him for so long that’s fueling you but either way

yoongi feels a little tug on his roots and that instinctively makes him kiss you a little deeper

his kisses taste so gOOD TOO

although you DO need to breathe every once in awhile

:D

yoongi has the biggest gummy smile on his face and his legs feel like giving out because he feels sO HAPPY

you don’t fight the grin on your face either because wow :D that was just wHoosh!!! the suspense built up to it was incomparable oh god the tENSION before

he doesn’t mind losing then :)

“one more? :D”

oh god u are rEALLY whipped for yoongi

and this puts the two of you on ANOTHER level okay

he’s gotten more affectionate and showy almost

jimin’s kinda concerned because sometimes he sees yoongi smiling out of the blue and he’s just…. what is this guy ON…..

jungkook’s so excited and happy for you!!!

he keeps pushing that this wouldn’t have happened if it isn’t for his overpriced stickers

he wants you to tell him EVERYTHING

“yeah?? and tHEN WHAT????”

he is a little jealous however because not all your time is spent on hanging out with him anymore

or how a particular someone would be joining your hangouts from time to time aka yoongi being a third wheel

…. or maybe jungkook’s the third wheel ….

lol impossible :)))))))

[ jeon jungkook continiously tries to deny the truth to himself as always ]

he could be nosy yes bUT he’s always curious

although

“so he’s finally your boyfriend?”

he makes sense most of the times

now that you think about it.,.,.

wait

oh

wAIT YOONGI ISN’T YOUR BOYFRIEND

you aren’t sure either if there’s a label already set?????

because as far as you know, kissing someone doesn’t automatically translate to gREAT UR MY PARTNER IN LIFE NOW

oh no

it’s all good!!!

all good!!!!

you could open this up to yoongi later!!!

oh wait he’s busy

tomorrow then!!!!

uH nope he’s busy

the other day then :))

yoongi keeps getting busy and busy as he explains to the point that you’re in the same floor but you aren’t even seeing each other

he isn’t lying to you, right??

this isn’t about the kiss, right?????

goddamn you jungkook :((

the gears in your head are turning because oh god what if yoongi’s realized that he doesn’t want to commit to you

or that this is as long as a free netflix trial and your time’s up and you need to gO

it also feels oddly sketchy too because yoongi’s only become suddenly busy and almost unreachable ever since the kiss

it is, in fact, about the kiss

god yoongi himself feels that he’s an asshole

he’s suddenly second-guessing his decisions

he’s went down the rabbit hole of thinking that mAYBE you deserve better than him

his name’s kinda big and some rumors follow him too, whether it’s inside or outside the track

yoongi has a track record of ex-girlfriends as what the media wittily dubs it aND HE WON’T DENY IT OK

he does have some ex-girlfriends and his lovelife isn’t talked about within the team because they just treat rumors as rumors and it’s yoongi’s life anyway

but what if news breaks out that you and him are dating

and his track record is brought up once again

aND NOT JUST THAT

because yoongi also feels like he isn’t worthy enough for you :((

he could be bland and too blunt at some points

as opposed to you :(( who’s sometimes too kind and always tries to understand situations and won’t also take shit from anyone

he’s not as spontaneous or charismatic as jungkook

he can’t be as spontaneous as jungkook who’s willing to go to a halloween party with him as mater and you as lightning mcqueen aND PERHAPS IN THE LITERAL COSTUME KIND OR SOMEHOW CLOSE TO IT

he’s not as avid in things that you like as much as jungkook is

he’s just yoongi :((

and he feels like the whole yoongi for y/n thing isn’t enough :((

you haven’t seen yoongi though

and since today’s for the practice sessions, this is the time that you’re sURELy gonna see him!!!

that’s the problem though

because seeing someone doesn’t exactly guarantee that they’re gonna pay attention to you

in other words: you think that yoongi might be avoiding you :((

he wasn’t alone as he normally was and just when you were about to approach him, that’s when he left to go get changed

you have no choice too since he goes straight to the track and that was it!!

you’re sneaking in to reply to jungkook who’s asking for updates because he’s as committed to this scenario as much as you were

this is the last practice session anyway

you just want to get this over with so you could go confront yoongi and fix whatever is this that’s happening :((

it doesn’t help, really

doesn’t help when the practice session is over and what yoongi does the first thing when he finishes is not go back to where the team is

or perhaps just hop over the box like he usually does

he goes to kim dahyun,,

kim dahyun

she’s a heiress?? a socialite?? maybe both???

she’s someone who’s known to be always in the front seat when it comes to events

she’d be placed courtside in basketball games and in tennis tournaments and by the side of the runway when it’s fashion week

no one for sure knows why

but her most recent appearances have been banked in these racing weekends and wherever she goes is where articles follow :((

she’s just something else :((

she’s pretty and she’s rich and she’s kim dahyun 

she’s wearing your team’s novelty shirt and she has it tied up in the front 

dahyun has her hair up in a bun and she has this ribbon that corresponded with your team colors wrapped around it

she has these perfect-looking gel nails!! gel nails!!! you could see the shine all the way from here when she’s flashed at the monitor and is in fact a couple of feet away from you!!

the jewelry too :((

gel nails and jewelry are things you’ve always wanted to try out but could barely wear due to the nature of your job

and although they’re just little things, it kinda drives you crazy because you can’t help but feel like you’re having a burnout with your profession

the fact that yoongi’s going to her for reasons unbeknownst to you is enough to make your stomach drop

even puts his hand at the sMALL of her back and-

oh

even does this lil cheek kiss and she does it back with him and they talk

they talk

min yoongi goes to talk to kim dahyun and greet her like that

when you can’t even get the bare minimum of even a glance from him

“aRE YOU SEEING THIS??”

jungkook texts you and it’s the only momentary relief you get because this way, your eyes aren’t focused on them and your heart briefly stops hurting

“yeah.”

you wanna go back to the hotel

you don’t even wanna look at yoongi

you retreat to the furthest area away and just sit there while all this fuss blows over and how there are even some cheers upon seeing yoongi and dahyun up on the monitor

cool

that’s cool

your cheeks feel wet and you’re just wordlessly setting up and putting back the things that were needed for this session

mingyu, the fellow pit crew member who’s aloft from you and the other ones for most of the times even noticed and he was just ???

“y/n, y’okay?”

you can’t even bring yourself to be in surprise that he spoke to you because you’re too busy being sad 

“dust :)) it’s just dust :))”

but it’s not.,., it’s not even remotely windy.,..,

jungkook crashes to your room later that afternoon and stayed with you until you fell asleep

you’re not exactly cHATTY when you feel your heart breaking and kook’s well-aware

just wordlessly puts on whatever’s trending on netflix and puts it up for background noise :((

orders room service and nudges you until you agree to eat 

even strokes your hair because he could see some tears pricking at the corner of your eyes and jungkook automatically presses you to his chest

damn yoongi ://

yoongi’s kinda missing the texts and the calls you’d usually bombard with him 

but this time his phone’s silent

he knows at the back of his mind that this may be about dahyun awhile ago but at the same time, he doesn’t wanna entertain the thought because it’s harmless,,,, right??

dahyun was a friend before she became his girlfriend and tHEN his ex

and now they’re friends again

that’s not exactly harmful isn’t it

yoongi’s eyes keep going back to check his phone every two minutes just to see if there’s a notification from you

and if he gets one? he won’t ignore it he sWEARS

just atleast give him a text

even a passive-aggressive one that just has a single period on it

and hE knows that all of this is building up because of him :((

he’s not quite ready to admit that to himself though

oh my god is this the end for you and yoongi???

you haven’t even started with proper labels aND you’re already over???

this isn’t exactly the high road you always try to go through

but yoongi’s just beyond confusing and angering at this point and is being really uNFAIR

so if he won’t be open no matter how much you try to coax him at his won pace and decides to be immature about it.,.,,,

well you’re gonna stop adjusting :D

today’s the third to the last race and just like any other, it’s heated

you support yoongi the driver but you’re not in the best terms with yoongi the loVER

not a bad start honestly

yoongi didn’t get pole position but instead the third and he was a more than bummed because usually, when he didn’t get pole-sitter, he’d lean on to you for comfort and you’re gonna soothe him throughout

but no that didn’t happen yesterday

jimin just sighed and patted him on the back and said “just do good tomorrow” and how is tHAT gonna be on par with how you comfort him

he’s through about 3/4 into the race

and gOD it’s going seamless

but some things are just piling up and it’s making him completely confused

hobi’s already passed him and at this stretch, he typically wouldn’t be able to because yoongi knows hoseok’s pattern

yoongi’s only had a pit stop once and that’s the strategy that gets him winning most times

but god something just feels odd

jimin comes at the right times as he speaks through the radio and yoongi couldn’t be any more lost

“yoongi you hAVE to box now”

and box equates to him having anOther pit stop when he usually wouldn’t because this isn’t it!!

this isn’t the strategy!!!!

“jimin iF i box now then that means-”

“yoongi!! listen to me!!! jung’s gonna pass ahead wHETHER you box or not. if you wanna save face and finish this race ranking atleast within top 10, box. right. now.”

fuck

his tires are thinning and normally he could sTILL go through the final stretch without another pit stop but fuck is jimin ordering him with so much ferocity

he has no other choice

and yoongi’s angry

he’s sTILL heated up because these circumstance have never happened before

then he finished 7th in this race

and that’s the lowEST he’s ever placed this season!!!

yoongi can’t exactly control his anger when it comes to situations like these and jimin’s very well-aware

he has faith in yoongi and his driving but tHESE technical reasons are what made him to go through this last-minute strategy

jimin’s crew chief and he stands by his decisions and his strategies

there’s no denying tho that he kNOWS yoongi’s gonna be heated

yoongi marches off the moment he finishes

and he’s looking for someone

anyone

you’re there by jimin’s side

and of cOURSE you were shocked by the sudden strategy and you just can’t help going to him to discuss it

you know too that yoongi’s gonna be mAD but after analyzing the situation with jimin when he explained and when you visualized, jimin did make the right call

before you know it though

yoongi’s already there

“Y/N!!!”

oh

this is the first time that yoongi’s speaking to you and you couldn’t be anymore shocked and confused at the same time

the two of you aren’t exactly alone,.,,

he’s had this sudden recollection of yoongi eating dinner with you in your hotel room and you kept asking him questions about racing and strategies and the philosophical aspect of it

and he delved into his strategies with jimin and retold them to you

you were in so much fondness too because he looks so focused and passionate when he was laying them out to you

“dID YOU TELL ABOUT THE STRATEGIES TO JUNGKOOK?”

what

wHAT????

yoongi isn’t level-headed right now and the story’s immediately flipped in his head of how this must have possibly went

jimin’s eyes are bulging at what’s unfolding, but even more so to the fact that you and yoongi aREN’T alone

and he’s here and the other crew members are here

and they can heAR YOONGI!!! loud and clear!!!

“yoongi wHAT are you talking about???”

“don’t play dumb!! you told them to jungkook, didn’t you???”

for a fact, you didn’t

you didn’t tell jungkook nor aNYONE else

what would you benefit from that??

what would yOONGI benefit from that??

“shut up!! you tOld about the strategies to jungkook and he told it to hoseok and nOW look at what happened!!! all of this, all of what i did, is gonna fall through just because you couldn’t keep your mouth shut!!”

jimin’s heart is dropping at this and he can’t imagine what you’re feeling right now

he knows to his heart that you wouldn’t do such a thing

or that all of this has to do with his decision and a series of coincidences that piled up for yoongi to mindlessly think that you’re the reason for what he’s pushing to be a leak

“yoongi, i would never-”

“dON’T TALK TO ME!!”

he’s burning

actually burning

so much so that he’s walking towards you and looking down on you

“you’re fired.”

wait

what the actual fuck

“yOU CAN’T DO THAT!”

“i can.”

jimin’s about to step in as he’s standing behind you and he’s already gripping at your arm

he needs to say something

and you know your standing with jimin isn’t the best but you’re just thinking about him

you know how he’s due for a promotion and a raise

and you know yoongi’s above and beyond gonna ruin his career if jimin dared to speak and atleast attempt to defend you and pin the blame on himself

“and i’m gonna get my father involved if i have to.”

that’s it

that’s the end of your career

you didn’t wait to get fired

knowing yoongi, he means what he says and so you didn’t waste a single second in packing up your bags and rounding up your documents

you already knew enough that yoongi’s dad have connections with the association and a single phone call could flip things over

so whether yoongi’s already made the call to his dad or not, you’re gonna leave either way

you’re making calls to your manager, the same one who came to your college and recruited you and jungkook, and had to explain as much as you can while pulling at all stops

said managers was saddened at the call and then she had to make that call to the ones in the upper positions so could aLSO explain as much as she can

honestly you don’t know either what’s gonna come out of this

either your name would be defamed wrongly, or nO one’s gonna notice at all and your sudden disappearance would have 99 versions and not one confirmed

they think it’s best to respect your decision of letting go and even if you’ve signed a contract, this “firing” is as good as official

also they think it’s best to relay the statement of you making an “indefinite leave” due to a “family emergency of grave importance” which translates to no this isn’t an indefinite leave but instead you’re leaving for good

it’s both a blessing and a curse that this happened far into the season

a blessing since there’s only two races left after this and that means less adjustments with the team dynamic and the news of your departure won’t be as focused on because yeah last two races

a curse since these last two races are critical and yoongi just couldn’t wait until the last one to blame you and then fire you

no worries though

there are always replacements

aka which just points that you’re despensable and it’s nOT helping your self-esteem

backups are there in case the event a pit crew member gets injured (or worse, incapacitated; and they’re familiar with the work and the dynamic so it would be just a seamless fit

and all of that got arranged in less than two hours :)) there was even a flight you managed to book within that time

you didn’t even get to say goodbye to jungkook :((

he had to know all of it by a short n simple goodbye and see you soon text you sent before boarding and by asking jimin what happened

he was cOMPLETELY bawling his eyes out because his best friend left him :(( and he counts on you so much and you help him stay sANE

he’s beyond angry at yoongi and didn’t even bother to bat an eye when he walked past him

jimin feels so guilty and sad

he was a shitty crew chief to you for the most part and after all that, you still went through this considering hIM and his job and his dIGNITY even if it means you lose all three things and you already did

jimin cried when jungkook’s lip started trembling and he lost it completey by then

yoongi’s lost and empty and oblivious to all of this

he figures that it’s better to let some hours pass so he could cool down and reflect

that’s his second mistake however

yoongi’s complacent

and three hours have passed and he knows that at this time you’re still awake so he walked over to your room and just rang the bell

oh

he’s rung it three times now and uSUALLY you wouldn’t even let it pass two when it’s yoongi by the door

that’s weird

yoongi’s about to pull out his phone to call you to open the door but before

he could even press at your name, the door already opens

… it’s a middle-aged man …

“yOU’RE NOT Y/N”

…

…

“wrong door, kid.”

but that’s your room

yoongi knows you’ve left the circuit earlier than everyone because of what happened

that much he knows

but not this

yoongi dials jungkook instead because for sure he’d know where you are but then another door opens and that’s jUNGKOOK!!! leaving jimin’s room that’s a couple of doors from your room

“yA. do-…”

jungkook literally just walks past him and into the elevator

what

what is going ON

then yoongi’s jogging to jimin’s door that’s closing then he manages to wedge into his foot before it closes

“where’s Y/N?”

little did yoongi know that the answer would make him regret even asking you don’t have the slightest clue on how could possibly bounce back from this

maybe take a break; a week perhaps

get a job that’s for sURE

ignore yoongi’s texts and calls

reply to jungkook whenever he contacts you as much as he could in free time that he gets

assure jimin that you’re okay and he has nothing to apologize for

be eternally grateful for your friends that have your back no matter what and help you stay afloat and even giving you a job

bless the kim line

jin, namjoon, and taehyung were your ultimate friends in college besides jungkook

they are the most awesome and sWEETEST friend group you’ve ever had in your life

you didn’t get to hang out with them as frequently like you did with jungkook since the three of them were in the business course and you and kook on the student athlete side

but that didn’t change the fact that you give are inseperable and wHOLESOME

you and jungkook ended up being crew members for a famous and multi-million team in formula racing but you’ve retired wAY too early lmao

the three of them

well

not to brag

but they’re the proud owners and the brawns and the brains of kim kradle

KIM KRADLE!!

it’s a one-stop shop for everything that automobiles could possibly need

but why kim kradle do you ask???

well first of all,,, jin, namjoon, and taehyun have the same family name which is Kim so write that down

kradle? aha well :D

so for babies, there’s cradles, right??

they serve kinda like havens, right??

wHERE was ultron from avengers: age of ultron made??? the cradle. although their shop’s vision and mission are wAY WAY different from ultron’s

and like why name it kim cradle

when you can name it kIM KRADLE

they’ve had calls when they were starting out asking if they were selling baby cradles and the answer is N-O

it’s now a huge successful shop that’s like an open warehouse type!!

basically, the kim kradle is divided into three major operations

general services to intensive repair of parts and basically what goes on internally!! jin is in charge and heads that sector!!

he could see your car for two seconds and go “hey man, did you ever ace your karate lessons? lmao you have a broken fan belt not a black belt”

carwashes and waxing and all that good stuff!! namjoon is a beast at thus and your car could be like from 1997 and he’d clean it so good that it would look like it’s from 2030

customization!! from leather seats to metallic foils to coating!! taehyung has an instagram dedicated to his finished works and ongoing ones and like wHAT?? he has half a million followers?? no big deal

kim kradle is on the massive side and is therefore separated to three floors

namjoon and his carwashes are at the basement in which you’d still get sunlight in because there are inclined pathways on the side that lead out to an outdoor waiting area

jin is on the 2nd floor and basically in the same ground level where the civilization is because his section’s more critical and it’s the obvious option

taehyung gets the 3rd floor, and one part’s covered and the other is like a car balcony so when he finishes?? you could see that sunlight hitting the custom coat he did on your car

either kim kradle is so good, the placement and marketing are perfect, or the owners are just sO attractive and unparalled as to why so many people avail their services and most go through all three levels

maybe the formula is all three of those variables

you came home without knowing a sINGLE thing and being alone in your apartment is appreciated but it gets eerie and so isolating

and you called namjoon late into the night because he always knows what to say and you ended up having more than what you hoped for

you just wanted to have some comfort and ease because also,, namjoon’s voice is really soothing and u miss hearing it

not oNLY did you get some peace of mind

you also got a job without even actively looking for it at the moment and you couldn’t be anymore fulfilled

namjoon said that you could come in at kim kradle anytime at your own pace and they’d still welcome you with open arms

also said that jin and tae miss you sO much and it’s a good thing that namjoon is the one you called because if it’s either from the other two, you wouldn’t be able to sleep and perhaps you’d get visitors to your apartment at 2 in the morning

and this is it!!!

for once, you don’t want to confront a problem to the core

you’re just gonna distract yourself and make your way around it aha :D

two days later??? you’re working in kim kradle now!!!

and you know what??

you eVEN get the overalls

the only three people in kim kradle that wear overalls are jin, namjoon, and taehyung themselves

and it’s to kinda highlight the fact that they’re the owners and the heads of their sections

the rest wear boiler-style like suits 

all their uniforms are cute

like sERIOUSLY

jin is in charge of the color and there are actually multiple ones!! a pale pink to a nice lavender and a dark navy blue!! the first two are kinda impractical because it’s impossible to not get dirty in this job but they ARE adorable and stylish though

namjoon pushed for this uniform and so he really searched and handpicked fabrics that won’t be tOO hot and in which u could actively move in them

but sometimes there are tasks in which involve the straps for the overalls sliding down so tHE next big thing????

namjoon sewing but actually it became tAEHYUNG’S job because he’s gonna poke himself with the needle multiple times before even getting to put a thread in

made a lil hook by the custom shirts down to where it draped by the shoulders and it could hook the straps so like wHATEVER the four of you do, the overalls won’t slip :D

innovation amirite :D

and then it was taehyung’s job to have kim embroidered in really cute cursive by the back and the initials of their first name in a lil formal font below it

and the first names are embroidered in the front!!! 

tae was the one who wrapped the overalls into a large box and you genuinely didn’t expect that you’d be even given one

and it’s just that you’ve been so much on eDGE lately and every little thing turns you emotional these days ever since that incident with yoongi

“is she,,, she’s,,, is y/n sobbing??”

taehyung sputters because oh my god did his gift wrapping throw you off?? jeez he kinda knew at the back of his head that the bright neon green with some balloons saying “happy birthday” even if it’s nOT your birthday looks REPULSIVE and he didn’t have any other gift wrapper left but he didn’t know that it would be too repulsive to make you cry :((

“did we do something??”

jin looks worried because oh god maybe it was the joke he did awhile ago about you suddenly working here now

although namjoon eased their worries and oH you’re hugging the three of them!!!

“i-it’s just that-...”

you were only supposed to thank them for the overalls and the opportunity bUT it took some turns and it ended up with you telling them the story and namjoon having to fill in some gaps when you get too pouty and too sad to explain

tHEY GET IT NOW

anyways

it’s very easy to be thrown in the spur of things at the moment because you’re just grasping at every opportunity to distract yourself!! :D coping mechanisms!!!!

you’re with jin in his section because that’s your work!! that is your work before you got fired and you just got to continue it

but this time with all the time in the world

not really but an hour is a lifetime for you and you’re just used to repairing things in mere seconds

in mere seconds and you have to train for it like almost every second of the day sO this is a nice change :D

“a wrench?? i’m gonna replace the tires using a wrench??”

jin laughs at that because you’re holding it in disgust as you stare down the car that just got brought in

they don’t have a flat tire or anything!! they just wanna get new tires that are as exaggerated as their very-embellished and exaggerated jeep with their specs :D

“they don’t teach you that in racing school????”

://

you know how to replace tires with a wrench and a jack of course

but it’s just hitting you now that oh god this is very alike and different at the same time with your past job!!!

“you dON’T have pneumatic guns?? yeah sure they mAY be expensive but like work would be done quicker and you’d go through more customers?? oH my god jin??? you know what, i’m gonna call jimin right now. let me get you some things!!!”

well then,,,

actually,,,

jin mAY have a pneumatic gun lying around but they don’t use it because a) it’s not as fast and as efficient as what yOU use in the track b) what for honestly,,, c) this is not formula racing and most people aren’t in a rush

but you know what

this is going good for you!!!

jin’s learning new things from u and the other way around and you’re not wallowing in sadness tHAT much anymore :D

and you do feel that kim kradle is doing so much good on you!! you’re constantly with jin but sometimes you spice it up an transfer from floor to floor :))

pressure-washing with namjoon is very therapeutic and having excessive knowledge now about how to properly give your car the shiniest wax ever in your lifetime??

it’s excessive knowledge you wouldn’t trade for the world

you even go work with taehyung sometimes!!! you help him plan out color schemes and pick out fabric with him and go measure dimensions and eVEN do 3D mock-ups

watching and aLSO being able to mix custom coats to go on cars is very satisfying ok

tae even gives you the password to the instagram account :))

he gets you to do the close-ups sometimes and eVEN tells you a thing or two on how he edits these clips to be as satsfying and pleasing as possible

today’s just a slow day

only three cars have come to the shop and to your floor in the past hour nothing from the three of them needed that much TLC

two of them just needed to get their tires’ air pressure checked and have them pumped to match

the other one was just towed here because it’s the nearest shop and just has a dead battery :((

you don’t know how you and jin could pass the time because there isn’t any tv in the area since sOMEONE (jin himself) got distracted too much by watching sherlock and he jUST wanted to know how sherlock pulled off operation lazarus!!!!

it clearly wasn’t his intention to keep pumping up the jack and almost have the whOLE car tip over because he had it up all the way

that was an accident :))

he didn’t even notice that so many of his boys were dashing for the side of the car to keep it from falling and when one of them called out his name, jin had the aUDACITY to shush him because there goes the climax!!!

wOOpS aha oh no what happened to the car :D

the next big thing that jin could do? ask you and catch up about all the technical stuff in formula racing so he could learn too ya know

“what happens if a wing gets dented or like dEFORMED?? how would that be fixed that quickly??”

“ooh!! good question!! actually-...”

that sound

you miss that sound :((

someone’s driving in your floor by the sounds of it and you don’t even need to turn your head to know that it must be a rEALLY cool car :((

it reminds you of the sounds you hear on the track and it’s one that you dearly miss

the growl of whatever car this is loud but like nOT obnoxious of pricks that just wanna show off in traffic and rev up their engine, y’know??

jin could only be so happy because fINALLY

another customer and another task to do to pass this day and it’s nOT a prius!!!!!!!

fucking finally

jin stands up immediately and you immediately follow him and this car’s getting attention from the other workers at the floor because whew

they all know to back off and go back to working on previous and existing projects because aH they see jin smiling giddily and almost jogging and you’re in tow from excitement

it’s a nice car!!!

a maserati granturismo in sleek black!!! jin’s only saw one of these come in the shop driveway but only for them to pULL out and it’s just because they needed to maneuver to go back to a u-turn

what a prick ://

he was excited that day and for wHAT??? someone to use their driveway just so they could reverse their car???? that’s just rude

the owner in mystery comes out and is aLREADY TALKING and- wait

isn’t that yoongi?

yOONGI?????

“hey man, could you check on my radiator real quick? the airconditioning’s a bit wack and i’m not entirely sure if it’s the radiator but i don’t wanna tweak it, ‘cause maybe it’s the compressor too. not sure. can you-“

that’s

oh my god that’s yOU

the season’s wrapped up like a week ago and the last races were tough so tough than he could’ve ever imagined and it was even harder without you

yoongi won the season

but he lost you though :((

he was so enraged at himself the moment jimin told him about the verdict you took and how you quit before he could fire you — for good yoongi has no one to blame but himself and god he’s just so mad at himself

even up to now actually

his pride was so enormous that he didn’t even tHINK that he might be the problem as to why he placed 7th in that race

and instead, he just needed someone, anyone, for him to blame and you’re the fIRST person he sees and he immediately takes his anger and frustration out on you

you would never do such things and he’s disgusted at himself for even tHINKING that you’d ever betray him like that

he was regretting every bit of his words and actions that he said and did out of blind spite

if he could punch himself he would GLADLY do that and knock himself out yoongi was both panicked and livid

had a hard time breathing too because oh gOd he just can’t stop thinking about you and the things he’s caused that are too late to bring back and reverse :((

he kept pleading to atleast follow you home even for just some hours and he’ll immediately go back to the hotel as if he never left

but he can’t do that and he hATES it

god this wouldn’t have happened if he wasn’t a big fucking aSSHOLE!!! throughout the whole week ever since you left the team, he was a gigantic mess

like he still is now

but he had dark circles under his eyes that were swollen from crying so much

his lips were set in a frown as a default

yoongi was doing well with the streak of not biting and picking at his fingernails and his cuticles but now tHAT’S broken alright

he’s tried reaching out to jungkook multiple times

he’s tried apologizing but he always gets a deadpanned response of how he isn’t the one he needs to apologize to

kook sees the sincerity of yoongi trying to apologize because he’s hurt you, his best friend, but that’s not the important issue here

you called jungkook unknowingly in the middle of his and yoongi’s conversation and the boy just almost jUMPS at jungkook to try and borrow his phone with his pleads and as much as his heart goes out (he still hATES yoongi ok), jungkook’s not gonna let him

he tries getting jimin to let him borrow his phone and call you and jimin won’t let him either because this is not his place and you’ve been through enough

the closest yoongi’s ever got to you??

jimin still feels so sorry and guilty to this day

and he’s conflicted and confused and a lil sad

but jimin did call you in front of yoongi on speaker :(((

and yoongi got to hear you answer with a chipped-out voice :(((

and he’s just so tempted to speak out loud but if he does that, then jimin will forever be mad at him too probably and he’s also promised that he’s gonna pretend he isn’t there

ask her if she already ate dinner

yoongi won’t stop typing in his notes tho and wave it frantically for jimin to ask you

and you’re responding truthfully because what’s jimin gonna do?? fLY to your home and cook you spaghetti?????

of course not

that’s what yoongi wants to do :(( if only he can :((

his win felt so empty and it just feels so dull without you here

also knowing that he’s drived out one of the only people that puts up with him and is always patient and is the reason to why he’s been so inspired lately

and one of these days

just one of these days, yoongi wants to drive to your apartment and camp out the door if he needs to just so he could redeem himself and earn forgiveness and try to mend what he’s broken

not today though

not today when the moment yoongi finally gathered the words and the courage to go to you, with the blessing of jungkook giving him his address but with a very sTRICT warning that scared the shit out of him.,.,.,

but also with his airconditioning broken and something just tells him that he needs to take it to a shop because it’s been awhile ever since he drove normal cars

and yoongi actually forgot the gravity of all this so he’s a bit nervous because maybe this is a more serious case with his car and it’s just the universe’s way of telling him to go to you tomorrow

or as soon as his car gets taken to the shop

maybe he needs to polish up some lines and try practicing them better from the heart

yoongi could go to jimin and have it fix it for him but like that’s tOO far of a drive and he just needs a quick fix

ooh

kim kradle!!! it’s the nearest shop to his place that has five stars on it

and he’s still a bit wary because his face and his name and win did land on the news and he’s been trending lately and like wHAT IF someone takes advantage of his car or scams him because they know who he is this car is his frequent and it holds a sentimental value to his heart ok

kim kradle is bigger than he’s pictured it in his mind

woah it actually looks cool and promising

christ it’s so hot inside his car god he needed to open up a little bit of his window but mosquitoes would creep in and tHEY’RE annoying and a real hazard to kill while you’re driving down the road

he wants to get this over with quickly

yoongi just needs to drive to your place and see you asap

“hey man, could you check on my radiator real quick? the airconditioning’s a bit wack and i’m not entirely sure if it’s the radiator but i don’t wanna tweak it, ‘cause maybe it’s the compressor too. not sure. can you-“

oh

that’s you

wAIT THAT IS YOU

“y/n?”

his hands are literally shaking right now oh my god

it’s been some twenty-seven days ever since he’s last saw you and here you aRE

here you are in a place he’s least expected to see you because he’s on the way to see you but actually yOU’RE HERE

“yoongi.”

you acknowledge him back and god you don’t know what to feel

jin immediately senses what’s happening and deep-down he is pANICKING alright

he’s been in contact with jungkook and in the back of their minds, they knew that yoongi won’t let this go without his ever-present persistence

and eventually like maybe yoongi’s gonna know that you work here and the last time that he checked, yoongi doesn’t even know kim kradle

bUT JIN DIDN’T KNOW THAT THIS TIME WOULD COME THIS SOON OK

he immediately steps in and insert himself in between you and yoongi that he’s trying to close the distance to you and that surprises yoongi completely

“airconditioning, right? keys please. i’ll check it out!!”

yoongi wastes no time in shoving the keys to jin’s hand and he couldn’t be anymore desperate to talk to you

he doesn’t wanna cross boundaries obviously even if jin’s already moved out of the way

you’re still glued to your spot trying to process the situation and your fight or flight response is not exactly working right now

is there a disbelief and yearning and standing in sadness and anger option in that fight or flight choice

“i haven’t seen you in so long.”

that’s what usually happens when you become an asshole yOONGI

god how are you supposed to react

“you too.”

there’s this awkward distance in between the two of you and it’s too deep to even get between 

yoongi suddenly forgets the words that’s been in his mind for the longest time,, just brewing and evolving and always changing as he just wants to fix the damage he’s done :((

he’s about to get closer but

“the cooling fan’s just clogged. it could be finished within like fifteen minutes man :D”

jin doesn’t exactly know what he’s doing but he ‘s dOING whatever this is ok

although that is factual

the cooling fan is just a bit dirty and there’s some debris in there that could be cleared quickly

but he just needs to do it extra carefully because this is a nice car ok

i mean he sTILL cares for cars in the same way even if not every car he gets in the shop is a maserati granturismo 

he’s just a lil bit nervous even thOUGH he’s an expert at this ok

“fIFTEEN MINUTES???”

yoongi’s freaking out and he’s gripping at his hair in panic because wHAT

THAT SHOULD TAKE AN HOUR

goddamn why does kim kradle have to be a five-star shop :((

“y-yeah.,, i can do it in ten if you’re in a hurry-”

“aha nO NO :D i’m not in a hurry at all!!! please, take your time!!”

oh god what does he do now

yoongi walks over to his car and that confuses both you and jin

because what

he has half of his body in the driver’s seat and it sEEMS that he’s fishing for something in his glovebox

it’s a lil swiss knife

bUT WHY

he kept it in the gloveboxes of his cars because seatbelts are not exactly fool-proof and you could be stuck in them and he’s scared of that

and also if he’s gotten a takeout of a burger and it’s too big and he’s driving with one hand so he’ll just whip out his lil swiss knife and cut haphazardly

“what’s your name, man??”

“jin!! kim seokjin :D you’re-”

wait

what the fuck is yoongi doing

oh 

did he just-

“also forgot to tell you!!! my tires are running flat and i tHINK they need to be changed!! so sorry man it just came up”

deadass

yoongi literally just slashed his four tires

jin’s sPUTTERING

and he’s looking back and forth to you and to yoongi and his car

“are you -- are you sEEING -- y/n tell me wait what the fuck iS YOONGI SLASHING HIS TIRES????”

whatever it takes

whatever to buy his time with you and so as much as he can

you’re quite taken aback because oh did yoongi just do that

jin has only known yoongi personally for like eight minutes and he could positively say that he is on aNOTHER level

yoongi’s approaching you again and it only hits you nOW

“have you eaten lunch already?”

your mouth is dry and you absolutely can’t look at yoongi because it just feels so unreal 

“no. hEy uh-...”

“no?? oh my gOD hold on just stay still, yeah? i’m gonna get lunch hOld on-”

yoongi’s immediately scarmbling for the exit

he has no concrete plan but he sure is hellbent in getting you lunch even though his car’s tires are slashed and he’s gonna be walking in an area he’s unfamiliar with

you really haven’t eaten lunch 

you were just about to say a half-assed reason of namjoon calling you just to exit this situation because you are nOT ready and yoongi’s already off before you could mutter it

jin’s gears are just on a frenzy

“oh so that’s min yoongi.,.,,. jusT slashed his own tires,.,,. that’s.... endearing.,.,,”

you’ve detached yourself from the situation and you couldn’t really stand seeing nor interacting with yoongi

you’ve cooped up yourself in jin’s office and the moment yoongi came back holding up take-out for boTH you and jin, his car’s already all-done

jin gives him a look that’s telling and yoongi gets it

“oh. that’s okay. just uh, just leave this for y/n, can you? there’s enough for the two of you. thanks, jin :))”

you need a moment

that one’s obvious

taehyung insisted that you come home early and you obliged because oh god you nEED a moment

you come into work the next day and sure enough, you’re all well-rested and this time they could ask about what happened yesterday

even hear jin’s point of view on how yoongi is just so wILD

taehyung is in alert and so in namjoon

they’re all ears ok

jin’s telling his story and tae’s nudging you discreetly and makes you look at a box!!!

a box he’s ordered online a couple days ago after he saw you breakdown and you’re looking in awe as you whisper because u don’t wanna disrupt jin

“gel nails???”

the same one you always wanted and it’s flashing back to when you saw yoongi talking to dahyun!!!

oh this is really happening???

“dO IT YOURSELF!!!”

taehyung’s grabbing your hand immediately as he opens the box and he’s sO pumped for this because he stayed up all night watching how to do gel nails yourself!!

he even bought a nice uv lamp for it!! he’s tHAT dedicated

this takes your mind off of yoongi for awhile

a car pulls up yet again and you’re getting the chills again bUt it just turned out to be jungkook

aND HOBI!!!

hobi finished second this season!!

they immediately flock to the lot of you and you’re not sure on who flocks who because everyone’s just genuinely happy to see each other

even the kim line meeting hobi for the first time is such a fun experience

jungkook immediately goes to you and he sEES taehyung doing something to your hand

he’s not sure what he’s doing

but he knows that he wants IN okay

he wants to these gel nails on your other hand

he doesn’t know shit on how to do them but he’s gonna learn along the way aND he is not backing down 

taehyung wasn’t aware that this is a competition now but apparently iT IS NOW :O

it’s not ensured that your two hands will look the exact same because you think they’re going for the what looks better competition and not let’S DO THIS IDENTICALLY because these are y/n’s hands y’know 

you’re about to fall asleep with how this is lowkey soothing

this is not the quickest manicure to do on anybody

especially if it’s someone’s first time and they’re really aIMING for it to be perfect

although it’s not easy because another car pulls up and you’re pANICKED that it might be yoongi 

oh nah it’s okay that’s not his car anyway!!!

you sometimes forget.... that yoongi’s a race car driver....

and there’s a possibility.... that he has multiple cars....

that’s yoongi alright

he steps down in a hurry and makes a beeline for you because he could immediately spot you!!! even in crowds!!!

you’re somehow ensured that yoongi’s gonna decide against going to you because you’re not alone

taehyung’s on your left and jungkook’s on your right and they’re not leaving your side until they finish their masterpieces for like another half hour

oH HE’S GOING FOR IT

“y/n, hI!!”

coming in strong but that’s ok

“jungkook :]”

he acknowledges kook and you’re not exactly up-to-date with how these two stand with each other 

but kook kinda just gives him a confused glance (jIN CALLED HIM LAST NIGHT) and nods back to yoongi

what

taehyung has his lips parted because what,,, why.,., 

yoongi’s about to open his mouth to talk to this guy that’s holding your hAND???

oh this is the part right

“i’m,,, kim taehyung.,.,.,”

“min yoongi. nice to meet you :))”

he sticks out his hand and tae blindly reaches for it and he doesn’t know wHY he shook it and he’s still confused up to to now

what is yoongi doing

wHAT IS HE DOING

you only realize now that yoongi has something in his hands and he’s looking dead straight to you and he doesn’t falter once

(he’s nervous on the inside trUST HIM)

“i know you’re not that comfy in seeing me and that’s tOTALLY okay!! i respect that!! it’s just uH i realized that uhm,.,., do you remember that time we were karting? and you won and we ki -- when you wON?? and you said that the winner gets one week of presents,,.,, and i just want to fulfill that.”

yoongi’s voice is wavering because oh shit this iS hard to swallow down

“even if i might be a little late.”

he wordlessly sets down a wrapped present by your feet, just in the middle of a sitting jungkook and taehyung who are listening all this time and have curious eyes on the neatly-wrapped present that’s been laid down

he leaves and stalks over to jin

“what happened now yoongi.,.,.,”

“my guess is that there are some rocks stuck in the wheel bearings. maybe even in the mags. four on the left, three on the right.”

....

hmmmm

“that’s nice, man. just a hunch??”

“yup :)) just a hunch :)) aLSO: can i have a stool?? i’m just gonna wait here, y’know :))”

yoongi’s not expecting anything from you

he doesn’t mind rejection or you ignoring him all throughout because he knows that he deserves it

he deserves it for sure

sometimes he sees you in the corner of his eye

or you helping out jin on fixing yoongi’s other car

or the other one

your own pace

your pace is what matters and yoongi isn’t gonna take any shortcut or undercut

this isn’t formula racing

this is yOU and him being patient until you feel like acknowledging him

of course he still apologizes

texts you even if you’re across the room

sees you open the text and you’d send him a look and you’d be giving him the slightest smile before you occupy yourself again

yoongi’s okay with that.

he keeps coming back

this is the third car and it’s nOT EVEN HIS ANYMORE

he’s just texting friends asking “yO do u need you car washed or fixed or something??? i’ll take it to the shop for you fREE OF CHARGE!!!”

he’s that invested in this and he doesn’t see himself giving up this is good for kim kradle of course but oh god this is aMUSING TOO throughout the week, yoongi hasn’t faltered either in continuing at giving you the gifts

the first one he’s given you?? a box full of trinkets he’s been collecting for every country that he’s visited ever since you gave him that caffeine pill!!

just random things he’s seen in malls or souvenir shops or airport boutiques that reminded him of you, all in a box with a single note

i miss you. - yoongi

you’re not gonna lie

you do miss yoongi too

but the things he’s done still make you wince when you’re thinking about it and even though he’s apologized in all ways but a face-to-face one

because you’re not that lax with him, the both of you know that this isn’t just a one and done thing

things take time and yoongi’s taking it at your pace and you’re grateful for it

warming up is always relative and so is forgiveness longing’s still there but it’s just a matter of suppressing it and yeah you dO miss yoongi

you’re lost without him too although you’re not gonna make that anymore obvious because that’s just devastating to think about you think he’s about to reach the end of his rope and it throws you in the whirlwind of oH

this is the sixth consecutive day that yoongi’s been coming to kim kradle yesterday was the first bIG interaction you’ve ever done with him

because since you don’t talk to him as much, he just takes his time as he waits for the services for the cars that he brings by making conversation with the guys

he’s gotten to know jin and joon and tae aND YEAH they like him but they do grill him separately though because they’re mad at what he’s done to you

but he’s also apologized to them and made promises that he’s gonna be keeping

jin doesn’t cook by the kitchen anymore because yoongi keeps bringing takeout or sometimes hE’S THE ONE WHO COOKS in his home and brings it to u guys

is it bad that he all bought you lunchboxes

is it bad that your lunchbox is the fanciest out of all of them and you have more portions and yours are always cut up like he did with the pork.,.,..

it’s not bad as lonG as you pretend to unsee the three kims stealing food from you and just go about to eating your food

but the big interaction did happen yesterday

and it was you suddenly calling out yoongi’s name as he’s sat by the car but he sTILL heard you and he swears he’s gonna cry

because oh god it’s been a long time ever since you said his name in that tone

“you’re not gonna eat with us?”

OH DAMN

he’s a mess

“uhm weLL do you want me too?? it’s oKAY uhm pls just-“

“don’t make me regret asking, yoongs.”

yOONGS

Y O O N G S

yoongi is instantly walking his ass to the little makeshift dining circle because oh my god YES

he doesn’t overstep tho and he just sits in between namjoon and

taehyung as he eats and every few minutes he sneaks a look at you and sometimes you look at him aND IT’S JUST LIKE the start all over again there’s the last piece of tteokbokki and everyone’s just feeling it out and looking at it

and yoongi

the bold man that he is

picks it up with his chopsticks aND

oh he’s putting it on your lunchbox

:))))))))

the night’s late and taehyung called yoongi to say that the car (it’s actually yoongi’s) he’s brought in for a ceramic coating and custom leather seats are all finished and wrapped up

and if he wants, he could go to the shop right now and pick it up since namjoon’s finishing up by the basement anyways and it would still be open then

and he does pick it up

he knows his way around the store

you could either take the stairs or the lift if you’re coming in into kim kradle without a car to go up and down the levels but he’s patient so he’ll just take the stairs

what he wasn’t expecting though

something that makes him cease his whistling as he goes up to the third floor to fetch his car

is you

rIGHT there

besides his car

and this is the only time that the both of you are alone and his throat is suddenly dry

you know this too though

you were intending to staying up late here just to finish on the car that’s been brought in two days ago with the broken engine that you think is worth salvaging

and you just wanted to see the view :((

reminisce to how you’ve been seeing yoongi in the flesh for six days straight and how you wanna tackle this conflict right to the head but you’re unsure to how :((

it doesn’t take a genius to know that yOONGI himself is right behind you

as you are aware too that this is his car that taehyung’s been working on thank u very much

“i want you to know that i’m not giving up on you.”

his words cut through the cold air and it surely gets your attention even if your back is still turned to him as you’re hunched over the balcony

“i’m running out of cars to bring, the one week of presents is ending, and

i’m so cLOSE to putting up a cot so i could sleep here.”

he’s serious about that one

seeing you just makes everything better no matter the circumstance it calms his heart and everything in him and he’s not gonna stop at nO matter what to try and make up for the things he’s done

“but you’re worth all this.”

yoongi dares to take a step closer and this time you could already see him by your peripheral vision

“you’re worth it,” and he needs a collective second to exhale the heaviness that’s sitting on his chest because oh gOd he was really an asshole huh

“i don’t know how long it’s gonna take, but i’m willing to wait.”

this is more nerve-wracking than any report card or championship results he’s been ever given and he’s not ashamed to admit that

“i love you, y’know?”

that’s the thing he’s been wanting to say for a long time he doesn’t know in the first place on wHY the hell was he scared because now that he says it to you, he feels like he’s never been more sure of anything in his life :(((

“good night, y/n.”

and the main purpose to why he’s here completely escapes his mind

he just misses you sO much that it’s so painful and all he could do is imagine scenarios and look back at all the pictures he’s taken of you half of it he’s sure that you never even noticed him taking

aND IT HITS YOU

something that hits you with the way that his car keys have the sticker of your initials on them

or the way when taehyung asked you out to help him with the leather interior for yoongi’s car and your scrunchie that you must’ve left is wrapped snugly on his handbrake

or how in the final checking for his car did you know that your playlist that you don’t even rEMEMBER mentioning to him is the one that’s on repeat in his radio

yoongi stops the moment that you call out for his name and god he’s closing his eyes because all the worst possible scenarios of you calling for him to stop this is enough to make him cry

you’ve also never been more sure of anything in your life

your hand just barely grips yoongi’s arm, staring up at him as you get to notice the features of his that you’ve always loved and missed all this time

yoongi’s hand’s open and so is your heart for all this

it’s the same keys that he’s went here for the first place, the ones with your intials on as he only realizes now that he’s done that

“drive me home.”

[nomintokki]

Shouldn’t Be | Lee Jeno

PAIRINGS: Lee Jeno x Girlfriend!reader 

GENRE: angst, just angst kslajsajdla

WORDCOUNT: 1.4k

Synopsis: You found out you were being played by your partner for a year and a half.

A/N: Inspired by the song Shouldn’t be by Luke Chiang. I wrote this 2am in the morning and I was craving some angst so pls bear with me. 

It was late at night the moon was fully up, you just got back from your favorite cafe finishing your reviewers since finals were coming up. As soon as you arrived home you dropped your stuff and dove right into your bed letting the sheets swallow you up. As you rest you remembered you haven't seen or heard anything from your boyfriend, Lee Jeno. You and Jeno have been together for a half and a year by now although the past months were rough the two of you made sure to make up. However since finals were around the corner it was rare for both of you to see each other, even through texting and calls since both of you were too occupied by your own works. Thinking about him made you fish out your phone from your bag. You opened your phone having unread messages from Jeno and your best friend. You opened Jeno's message first "y/n sorry for replying late. I'm tired I’ll call you when finals are over. I miss you 💕" You miss him too you really do you just wish the finals will be over soon. You miss his scent, the scent of his minty cologne mixed with the citrusy scent of his shampoo, you miss his deep voice, and most of all you miss seeing his eye smile, his eyes that turn into two crescent moon shape whenever he smiles. You texted him back "I miss you too Jeno. Good luck with your finals! I love you!".

After clicking send you checked on your best friend's message "y/n I really don’t think Jeno and Cassie are just friends. I saw them again they were at Baskin look" *pic attached*. As you read your best friend's message your heart sank but once you opened the picture your heart even shattered. You have been suspecting that Jeno was cheating on you with Cassie, a random girl from your uni,  however, you keep on denying at convincing yourself they were just friends. You turned your phone off, not having the energy to reply to your best friend, lying down on the bed you feel nothing, numb perhaps, a lot is going through your mind.  You didn't want to confront Jeno yet, you don't want this to affect your performance in school most especially that finals are nearing. It hurts After staring at the ceiling long enough to gain back the energy to move, you stood up dragging your feet to the bathroom hoping a shower would help you clear your thoughts. 

Sadly, the shower was of no help. While the water was rushing through you thoughts keep coming. You kept on asking yourself ‘where could have I gone wrong?’ ‘Am I not enough?’ ‘am I too toxic for him?’ ‘why does it have to come to the point wherein he would cheat’. Knowing the stubborn you, you kept rebutting the last question you keep on telling yourself that Jeno can’t do this, he wouldn’t cheat even though proof was already there. You stepped out of the shower got dressed to your PJs and dove back to your bed. You snuggled yourself in you didn’t realize tears were coming, soon enough you fell asleep tired from thinking and crying. 

You woke up to your alarm, trying to open your tired and puffy eyes you turned off that annoying sound. You noticed that you have a notification from Jeno, just great what a nice thing to start your day with, you sarcastically thought. You clicked on the notification reading “Hi y/n today is your first and last finals for the sem! I hope you are well rested! Good luck” You wanted to convince yourself that what he said was genuine. Again you are too stubborn to see that he was lying, again you convinced yourself that they were just hanging out in that picture. But you were too tired to reply, You just threw your phone to your bag and started to get ready for the long day ahead. 

Finally, all of your written finals are over, some of your finals were practical and physical and you have already submitted them also. While walking toward your locker with your best friend you finally see Jeno, he was leaning through the door frame of a random classroom. The whole week you haven’t seen him, his back was facing you and you were planning to surprise him, but it was you who was surprised. As of on cue Cassie walked out of the classroom Jeno as near she gave him a hug and Jeno offered to carry her bag. You froze at the scene you were witnessing your best friend also froze probably didn’t know how to handle the situation. While your feet were still stuck on the ground Jeno turned around and saw you. His eyes grew big and called your name softly. He tried to reach out for you but you were fast, you started running away from him. 

After running far enough for your energy to drain you end up in the university’s parking lot. You dropped down to the ground and started crying harder. You couldn’t believe you witnessed your boyfriend for a year and half cheat on you. You weren’t surprised because you already knew that there is a possibility that he was cheating on you but the pain you were feeling was gnawing. It was really painful for you to think that he wasn’t honest when he was saying he misses you, he was playing with you, he hurt your pride. You realized that he told you words he didn’t mean. 

Your best friend found you in the parking lot she comforted you by patting your back. She waited for you to calm down and offered to bring you home. As soon as you got home, you let yourself be drowned by your sofa. You didn’t have the energy to go to your room and fix yourself anymore. Your best friend got a blanket from your room and put it on top of you. She fixed and placed some tissue, water, and anything you might need before she left. A few minutes after she left you fell to sleep while crying. 

Knocks from your door woke you up, too tired and drained you didn’t bother answering it. But then you heard his voice call out for your name. Tears started to form from your eyes again, you were already tired from crying but as if your tear ducts were broken and can’t stop from producing tears. “y/n please open the door let me talk to you” you heard him call for your name again. After a few more knocks you heard a heavy sigh from the other side of the door. ‘I don’t know if your in here or not if your listening or not. It’s okay if you don’t open the door I don’t really deserve it. Im such an asshole for doing this to you.’ you wanted to open the door for him but you were too hurt to do so, you decided to just listen instead. ‘‘There are no acceptable excuses as to why I cheated on you. I don’t know what gotten into me and how I did that. I won’t try to defend myself and throw excuses anymore cuz the fact is that I still cheated on you. Even though me and Cassie were not a thing I still cheated on you I admit that I’m sorry. If you won’t accept my apology I respect and understand that. But I’m really sorry.  You alone is enough I swear its just that... I couldn’t resist the temptations around me and I am really sorry It is totally my fault. I guess this will be the end for us huh?’’ he chuckles but you heard his voice crack and this made you cry harder. “ I want to say I’m really thankful for you y/n. With you, I was able to experience different things and feel the happiness I have never felt before I met you. Having you beside me was probably the highlight of my life. I swear I would regret doing this to you. I probably can’t even forgive myself for doing this to you. I was too dumb to ruin what we have. I am sorry y/n I really am.”

Hearing him makes you want to open the door and forgive him already, you miss him so much you wanted to smell his scent again. But you just can’t. everything is just too painful for you to brush off. You want to keep him so bad, keeping him close to you shouldn’t be this hard. But you can’t it made you feel the lowest and you don’t think you can stand up yet and keep him near you again. 

[sero-sphere]

Writing Prompt : Serial Killer Tomura Shigaraki

listen so i know its been awhile. alot of things happened. i got a new job, my computer broke, my computer got fixed....bnha season 4 ended. Tiger King was a thing, and obviously quarantine.

also sorry this is what i decided to post first. youve all been warned!

Prompt: a serial killer who finds their victims through dating apps has finally chosen their next target. they've been texting for a while and had planned what would've been a fatal first date, but then the country went on lockdown. the killer keeps in touch figuring they might as well keep around another potential victim except...they’re kinda starting to like this one.

(Serial killer Tomura x f reader)

Warnings: murder, non-con everything? , mention of rape? idk its bad he kills people. maybe a little hybristophilia if you look real close.  (pls just remember none of this is real and proceed with caution....thnks)

1 week before quarantine:

It had only been three days since you re-downloaded tinder off of a whim. There had been some pretty interesting matches up until this point, but you were flip flopping between two guys mainly. One was tall with dark hair. He was covered in burns that only seemed to add to his allure. He was hot, figuratively and literally. The other was another kind of mystery all together. He had denied all your requests for any more pictures of himself. He obviously had the standard few shown in his bio, but those were mostly all body pics. It’s not like he was even that big, his muscles were no doubt toned as anything, but, like the first boy, he was littered in scars that intrigued you. The chemistry the two of you shared seemed stronger in your opinion than with the first. You were dying to see him in person, after all you had only been able to see so much during your facetime calls.

After some time, you finally narrowed it down. You decided to take a risk and go with what was behind door number 2. Tomura Shigaraki.

 1 day before quarantine:

After a few days of chatting, the two of you had teased each other so much you couldn’t stand it anymore. You were just dying for him to ask to see you in person. You and your friends had stopped going to the clubs recently, and you just hoped your now empty schedule would line up with his at some point this week. Everyone around you was getting sicker and sicker so the club was definitely a no go for now. Plus, with the way you looked, it might be a bit dangerous. Still, you hoped to play your cards just right, and finally get him to give in. You decided a little impromptu face time session was the next step. Removing your sweatshirt, leaving you in only a tank top, you grabbed your phone.

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Halfway through the call you were starting to tune him out when you heard him snap at you. “What are you paying attention to? Those eyes should be on me.”

Bashfully, you turned back to your phone. “Sorry, I mean, have you seen the news? Not only do they talk about the virus 24/7, they also talk about those murders all the time.”

“Oh…yeah?” He hardened slightly at the unintended mention of him.

“Yeah, I mean if the virus doesn’t take me out…I’m pretty sure this guy might. All the victims look almost exactly like me.”

He really was a sucker for your innocence. “Oh, I guess he must have a type...”

“Yeah it’s quite interesting.” Your eyes flicked up to your screen, then back to the T.V

“Interesting?” Shigaraki was genuinely confused.

Returning your gaze to your phone, you finally answered him. “Yeah I think so, why you don’t?”

Interesting was the last thing people called him. Freak, psycho, yeah, but interesting? “I’m not sure…why, are you interested in him?”

“Well, you just said he has a type…I just wonder what it is about girls like me that make him go crazy….I bet you he has mommy issues!” You said with a giggle.

“Hah, mommy issues…”

“Either that or he’s got one of those weird brother sister relationships…maybe if I pretend he’d let me live.” You moaned slightly into the speaker. “Oh, oniichan~”

He coughed to stop himself from moaning. “Maybe it’s a bit of both.” Admittedly you did look like his mom and sister. More similar to which, was the real question.

“Oh, you think?… Who doesn’t have family issues these days….”

He was silent as you continued to theorize about him unknowingly.  He couldn’t stop himself from asking “What would you say to him, ya know? You said you look like his victims…haven’t you thought about if it was to happen to you?”

“Hmm….. I guess I’d ask him why?”

“Why what?”

“Why kill them? Like I wonder what happened in his life for him to be able to do something like that?”

“That’s what you would say? Not scream for help?” All of his past victims screamed, God he hated that. That’s why he ended up shoving his cock down their throats half the time. Anything to get them to shut up.

“If I’m going to die anyway why not take the opportunity to get to know him a little. Might sound morbid, but he doesn’t let people get away.”

“Seems like you know a lot about this guy?” He asked probingly.

“I’ve been curious, nothing really going on in the world other than this virus...”

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1 week into quarantine:

After that conversation Tomura became intrigued as to what you would think when you finally realized who he was. If you would really be brave enough to ask him ‘why’, right before he decided to take your life.  He was looking forward to the day you would finally agree to leave your house again. You were in the middle of a global pandemic after all. Until then, he had his ways of continuing his mission.

He started by hacking into the local hospital records. Truth be told he wasn’t ready to die, or be caught yet, so every week he would hack away for the names of the women who had recently been tested, and were found to be negative for the virus. He then sifted through their social media for girls that fit his profile. There weren’t too many, and he had to settle for a few that were a bit out of his age range.

A few weeks went by, the two of you keeping in touch every night. Tomura still finding suitable replacements until you were finally in his grasps. He didn’t want to give himself away by dragging you out, there were no excuses he could even think of at this point. It was better to wait, at least that’s what he kept telling himself.

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3 weeks into quarantine:

“Victim? Victim, honey you’re my fifth one….”

After the deed was done, and he was just about to head out of there, Shigarakis phone started to ring. He was going to ignore it at first until he saw it was you.  It was rather unusual for you to call this early. You both kept to a strictly late night schedule. Curiosity got the better of him.

“Hey…” He answered, huffing into the phone. He was ashamedly out of breath after everything that just transpired.

“Oh hey, I didn’t think you were going to answer.”

“Well. I did…so what’s up?”

“Why do you sound so out of breath? What were you jerking off…” You said teasingly.

“No, I was about to though…” He wasn’t lying, he usually goes home to finish himself. Maybe now was the chance to take a little risk.

“Wanna help me get there?” Yup, he was doing this.

“Yeah, of course I do.” You replied, unaware of what the person on the other end of the phone was really about to do.

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3 weeks and 2 days into quarantine:

“Hey Tomu, you hear about what the killer left behind this time?” You all but nearly shouted, as soon as Shigaraki accepted your facetime call.

“Hmm, what was it?” If he had to take a guess, he bet he could figure out what it was.

“He came all over her face, he’s never done that before!…do you think he killed her before or after?”

“Probably before…” Probably? Yeah right, he knew for a fact he killed her before your little call to him.

“Yeah you’re probably right. They said this one was a bit older, I wonder if that helped him out more…ya’ know cause his supposed mommy issues.”

“Somehow I don’t think that’s the case…”

He couldn’t really tell you it was you, who indeed got him there. Staring at that body that somewhat resembled you, while you were saying all those things to him. He really couldn’t wait to have you. He usually wasn’t a man of patience, so he couldn’t figure out why he hasn’t actually killed you yet. He kept making up excuses but deep down, he knew he was growing quite fond of you. He couldn’t help that you were stroking his ego every time he did something riskier and you would comment on it.  

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4 weeks into quarantine:

 The last girl was different. They no longer felt right to him. He knew he had to have you. He wondered if he would miss you after it was done. Was he going to fuck you before or after? You weren’t going to be alive to theorize with him afterwards, that made him a little sad. He picked up his phone and shot you a text.

[tsukikoayanosuke]

ueee- Congrats on the milestone!! hehe can request Oc x Canon hsbhsbshbs-- With uh-- Jamil. 🤩 Romantic, angst to fluff pls i would like 🤲 thank uu // Her name is-- Aiennor, Diasomnia 2nd year, long pink hair with faded yellow tips and light pink eyes-- She has braids in her hair, and often wears lolita outfits, shes-- shy? to an extent, but sometimes shes loud, but overall very nice, her magic type is wind. Uee? Thats pretty much it~ You can dm me for more info~ i'll send a pic ueee

Angst to fluff, he~? Well, nothing says 'angst' better than your usual reincarnation au. Well, the angst part was very soft in this. I hope you don't mind. And I think I went a bit to overboard on this. ^^’

Now, I hope I portray Aeinnor well. Sorry if I made some mistake in her personality or characteristic.

Slightly inspired by Ai no Scenario by CHiCO with HoneyWorks. Not gonna lie, I always wanted to write this scenario

(This will be put under the 25000 Hits Celebration)

Heartbeat Scenario

It was a tale as old of time. A tale of forbidden love.

Once upon a time, there lived a boy who worked as the palace gardener named Jamari with hair and eyes as dark as the night sky. A talented young boy who must suppress his talents for a servant should never be better than the royal family they served. He couldn't protest or raise his voice. Which was why when a foreign prince came to court the princess, he didn't say a word to object.

Even knowing she was engaged, it didn't stop Gardener Boy Jamari to visit his best friend, the princess herself. He would climb the tree next to her bedroom window when it was open and the princess was seen doing her paperwork. They would exchange small talks and listen to her sing a small melody. These were the special moments where Jamari could be free to express himself through whispers and he loved every moment with her.

It didn't take long for him to find out about the unfair abuse the princess must suffer because of his daring acts. He would see the bastard prince glared at him through the closed window. It was a silent declaration from Jamari: "You dare to hurt her. I'll make you regret it."

~~~

It was a tale as old of time. A tale of forbidden love.

Once upon a time, there lived a young princess named Aira, with hair as beautiful as the cherry blossom petal and eyes in a light pink rose color. A kind princess maybe the most gentle. She would never hurt a fly or speak up for herself.  Which was why when a prince from the land across the sea named Tobias came and offered a hand in marriage, she didn't say no.

Even with her engagement, it didn't stop Princess Aira from hanging out with her best friend, the sweet gardener boy. She would come by the rose garden with a book in hand to chat with the boy while he was working, exchanging small talks and giggling from his jokes. These were the rare moments where Aira could come out from her shell and she loved every moment with him.

It didn't last forever for Prince Tobias soon knew about her meetings with the gardener boy. He didn't take it well and would slap her for being disloyal. Aira could only cry as he ordered, "Don't you dare meet that lowly peasant again!"

~~~

That night was a magical night for both of them.

When Princess Aira woke up from her light sleep, the wind blew into her room, the curtain danced along with the breeze. And crouching on the windowsill with the bright yellow moon shining behind him was Jamari.

"Just take my hand. I promise I'll protect you and never leave your side."

Thus, when Prince Tobias came to check on her, Aira was nowhere to be seen. The pair ran off into the night, laughing at their newfound freedom, never to be seen again.

~~~

"Wait!"

"E-Eh?!" The pink-haired girl's eyes were widened, almost terrified as her eyes glanced to her wrist that was being held by Jamil. "C-Can I help you?"

Jamil wanted to smack himself of how out of character he was acting. What was he thinking, going up to the Diasomnia girl who he had never spoken to before, only noticing her during their first year sorting ceremony?

Jamil gulped. "Sorry." He slowly took off the hand which she pulled her hand almost immediately, caressing her wrist close to her chest. "I think I have mistaken you as someone else."

"O-Oh." She ducked her head, blush dusted his cheeks. She stole glances at him, didn't know how to act. "S-Sorry."

"It's alright. We should start over." He stretched out his hand. "My name is Jamil."

The girl hesitated at first but she slowly reached for him. "I'm Aiennor." Her smile was gentle, her blush was adorable, and her cherry blossom hair brought something that made his heart beat faster for a foreign nostalgic feel.

~~~

"Hey, Aiennor. Did you know?"

"What?"

"I think we're fated to be together."

"What the heck, Toby!" Aiennor giggled. Her boyfriend Toby always says nonsense stuff like this, but Aiennor would always fell to his charm over and over again. They had been dating for a few weeks now, maybe almost a month, and the giddy feeling was still there for Aiennor.

The student in front of them turned toward him, glaring at the pair. "Can you be quiet for a moment?" he hissed, "Some of us here is trying to study."

"Oops~" Toby sheepishly scratched the back of his head. "Sorry, Jamil." Aiennor meanwhile closed her mouth, ducking her red face because of embarrassment.

Jamil's eyes lingered at her a bit longer before he rolled his eyes and turned back to Mr. Trein. Aiennor felt quite bad really, especially when Jamil was the one who complained. That boy had been nothing but nice toward her.

~~~

Jamil always felt that the world had been conspiring to make his life worst.

It wasn't enough that he came from a family or servant, but he also had these cryptic dreams. Of a crying princess with cherry blossom hair, reaching for his hand. He never really took her hand for he didn't understand their meaning.

That was until Aiennor came and the princess' face became clearer. He had heard about soulmates whose soul kept being reincarnated but he never thought that it would happen to him as well.

~~~

Aiennor always felt that the world had been pushing her to a revelation.

She still questioning whether it was a great decision for her to study in Night Raven College or if she would fit in Diasomnia. During those times of doubt, she would dream. Of a gentle farm boy with night sky eyes, offering her a hand. She never really to his hand for she didn't understand their meaning.

That was until Jamil came and the farm boy's face became clearer. The tale of soulmates whose soul reincarnate is true, and she's one of the lucky soul. Is this a blessing or a curse?

~~~

History tends to repeat itself and it happened right now.

Jamil knew that Toby was the same bastard prince that abused the princess in his dreams. He knew his agenda of manipulating Aiennor to be his bitch. Oh, he wouldn't let him get off like that.

"You tricked her! I don't wanna see you anywhere near her, you got me?!"

That bastard just laughed. "Hey, she was the one that was dumb enough to believe me!"

It hurt Jamil when Aiennor came in Toby's defense. She trembling when facing him. "D-Don't hit him! G-Go away, you jerk!"

~~~

History tends to repeat itself and it happened right now.

Aiennor once again fell for the sweet talks of her boyfriends after his confrontation with Jamil. "Great Seven, are you okay?"

Toby smiled gently at her. "Yeah... You're so brave!" She went to a blushing mess and her heart fluttered. But something about Jamil's sad looks made her feel guilty.

It was only a few days later when she accidentally overheard Toby's talks to his friends. "I bet if I told her I loved her, she'd be like 'me too'!" He cackled. "That stupid bitch."

She ran away, crying. She had never felt so stupid in her entire life. Didn't this happen before in her dream/memories of her previous life? How could she fell to the same trick? Why did she accept that jerk proposal?

~~~

That day was a heartwarming afternoon for both of them.

Aiennor crashed into Jamil's chest but quickly recovered and stepped back. She kept sobbing. "You knew all along, didn't you? I'm sorry for calling you a jerk..."

But Jamil had already forgiven her. Thus, he stretched out his hand. "I told you I'd always protect you, didn't I?"

Aiennor let out a tearful, but happy chuckle. "What the heck?"

This time, their hand met.

~~~

The princess and the gardener boy were once again reunited in this life.

And may they always be reunited in this heartbeat scenario.

[immortalled]

Nathan and Simon for the meme if you want? 👉👈

send 2 names for the ult. ship meme! || x || accepting

Oh, absolutely, Nonnie! Nathan’s very shippable with just about anymore, but Nimon (Nathon? Sathan?) is one of my favorites!

General:

Rate the Ship -   Awful | Ew | No pics pls | I’m not comfortable | Alright | I like it! | Got Pics? | Let’s do it! | Why is this not getting more attention?! | The OTP to rule all other OTPs

How long will they last? - I like to think that Nathan and Simon balance each other out well enough that they could potentially be life-long. They’re both starved for attention (albeit in different ways) and I think that where Nathan falls short in terms of communication, Simon is observant and patient enough to help him work through what he’s trying to or won’t say. Simon’s ride or die for his friends and Nathan, despite it all, is no exception. If they were romantically involved, I think he’d fight tooth and nail to keep their relationship strong, and Nathan, who craves something loving and stable, would do the same... even if he screws it up a couple times.

How quickly did/will they fall in love? - Slowly. I think the feelings have always sort of been there, but Nathan didn’t start questioning his orientation much less his feelings for Simon until after the tattoo incident. Simon didn’t start questioning until within the fame AU/”Brian’s World”. I think he’d have kept avoiding the question, though, because he also has feelings for Alisha and he would be dating her at the time. He wouldn’t entertain dating Nathan until after he and Alisha eventually split, realizing their relationship was built more on Alisha’s desire to touch someone than real romantic love.

How was their first kiss? - Technically their first kiss was in the community centre’s loft during the tattoo episode. Nathan doesn’t remember it very well since he was under the love tattoo’s influence and Simon would rather forget it. Their second kiss (but they like to consider it their first since it’s consensual on both sides) happens years later after their ASBOs are up. Simon and Alisha have broken up, and Nathan has moved into Superhoodie’s hideout. The arrangement isn’t romantic; Simon was only being a good friend by offering and it wasn’t like Nathan took up much room. Anyway. After a while of bunking there, Simon kisses him. It’s in the middle of Nathan’s usual playful jeering, trying to get on Simon’s nerves (”Oh, what, are you gonna kiss me?”). So Simon does just that. It’s chaste but firm and startles Nathan so much he doesn’t know how to respond—until his brain catches up and he kisses him back. It’s a little awkward, a little sloppy, but they both agree it’s one of the best they’ve ever had.

Wedding:

Who proposed? - Surprisingly, I think it would be Nathan. Simon wouldn’t because he assumes Nathan wouldn’t want to get married. Nathan presents the idea casually while they’re watching Battlestar Galactica. Simon accepts.

Who is the best man/men? - I don’t think they’d have a wedding, primarily because their parents wouldn’t be pleased about their relationship. And neither have male siblings (unless Nathan wants to invite a ghost) or any close male friends besides Curtis so... 

Who is the braid’s maid(s)? - Similar answer as above. However, Kelly would have liked to have been part of it, had they had a wedding.

Who did the most planning? - Surprise again: Nathan, but only because he’s the one who proposed. “Planning” may also be a bit generous. He was responsible for finding someone to marry them and picked the restaurant to treat Simon to afterward.

Who stressed the most? - Neither, really. Since they weren’t having a proper ceremony, all they had to be worried about was each other and that wasn’t an issue.

How fancy was the ceremony? - Back of a pickup truck | 2 | 3 | 4 | Normal Church Wedding | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Kate and William wish they were this big.

Who was specifically not invited to the wedding? - This isn’t totally applicable to how they decided to get married, but if they had decided to have a traditional ceremony with guests and everything... Nathan would not have invited Mike. As tempting as it would be to rub this little note of success in his dad’s face, he’d be too afraid of the reaction his dad might have to finding out that not only is he into guys, but he’s getting married to one, too. Louise and Jeremy would be invited purely out of love for his mum, but Nathan would conveniently “forget” to include the date or time of the wedding on their invitation. 

Sex:

Who is on top? - They switch sometimes. At first, Nathan insisted on always being the top, but eventually he grew more comfortable switching and prefers to be on bottom.

Who is the one to instigate things? - Nathan, mostly, but they’re both pretty handsy.

How healthy is their sex life? - Barely touch themselves let alone each other | 2 | 3 | 4 | Once a couple weeks, nothing overboard | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They are Nathan is humping each other Simon on the couch right now

How kinky are they? - Straight missionary with the lights off | 2 | 3 | 4 | Might try some butt stuff and toys | 6 | 7 | 8 (It is Simon... I really shouldn’t have to say more) | 9 | Don’t go into the sex dungeon without a horse’s head

How long do they normally last? - Nathan has a lot of issues with premature ejaculation, even when he’s relaxed, so he doesn’t usually last more than a few embarrassing minutes. Fortunately, he’s good to go a couple rounds in a row. Simon typically lasts anywhere from 15-20 minutes.

Do they make sure each person gets an equal amount of orgasms? - That’s ideal, but given how quickly Nathan cums, they usually don’t. Simon doesn’t mind, though. He’s really more of a giver than a receiver and is happy as long as Nathan is happy.

How rough are they in bed? - Softer than a butterfly on the back of a bunny | 2 | 3 | 4 | The bed’s shaking and squeaking every time | 6 | 7 | 8  | 9 | Their dirty talk is so vulgar it’d make Dwayne Johnson blush. Also, the wall’s so weak it could collapse the next time they do it. (Listen... it varies way too much. Sometimes they can be very soft, sometimes they’re both freaks.)

How much cuddling/snuggling do they do? - No touching after sex | 2 | 3 | 4 | A little spooning at night, or on the couch, but not in public | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They snuggle and kiss more often than a teen couple on their fifth date to a pillow factory. (This is Nathan’s fault.)

Children:

How many children will they have naturally? - Nathan would initially be against children if asked, but I think he’d secretly want them, eventually. Simon would catch his smiles and half-longing looks at parents with their kids, and ask him if he wants them. It would take a little nudging and convincing, but I think they’d have at least one. Surrogacy, of course.

How many children will they adopt? - One, but this is only if they didn’t get a surrogate. I don’t think they could manage (or would want to manage) two.

Who gets stuck with the most diapers? - Nathan complains, but they try to divide diaper duty up evenly.

Who is the stricter parent? - Simon.

Who stops the kid(s) from doing dangerous stunts after school? - Simon.

Who remembers to pack the lunch(es)? - Both. Nathan is surprisingly good at remembering things like this for their child; he wants to be a better father to his kid than Mike was to him.

Who is the more loved parent? - They’re loved equally, though their child knows Nathan is the one that go to if they want something. He spoils them rotten.

Who is more likely to attend the PTA meetings? - Both used to go, but Nathan was eventually banned. 

Who cried the most at graduation? - Nathan.

Who is more likely to bail the child(ren) out of trouble with the law? - Simon. He’s probably bailing out Nathan, too.

Cooking:

Who does the most cooking? - They take turns or cook together. Neither are exceptionally good at it, but when they work together, they can make some pretty decent meals.

Who is the most picky in their food choice? - Simon. 

Who does the grocery shopping? - Both, but Simon is usually in charge of making the list.

How often do they bake desserts? - Once every two weeks if they can afford it.

Are they more of a meat lover or a salad eater? - Balanced.

Who is more likely to surprise the other(s) with an anniversary dinner? - Simon.

Who is more likely to suggest going out? - Nathan.

Who is more likely to burn the house down accidently while cooking? - Nathan.

Chores:

Who cleans the room? - Simon. Being OCD, he always has to keep things just so. Lack of organization stresses him out and cleaning relaxes him.

Who is really against chores? - Nathan. He’s not the slobbiest, but he’s not neat either. He has a bad habit of leaving the most junk out. He’ll clean, he just whinges about it.

Who cleans up after the pets? - Both.

Who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug? - Nathan.

Who stresses the most when guests are coming over? - Simon.

Who found a dollar between the couch cushions while cleaning? - Nathan.

Misc:

Who takes the longer showers/baths? - Mmm.. they’re pretty close. I think Simon might take slightly longer showers, but only because he’s a little more meticulous about getting clean (scrubbing his fingernails, always shampooing his hair twice, etc.) and has a few compulsions that make him take a few minutes longer.

Who takes the dog out for a walk? - Both, if they had one, but personally I can see them getting a cat. It would have to be a breed that is hypoallergenic, though, like a sphynx, as Nathan is allergic.

How often do they decorate the room/house for the holidays? - Christmas is about the only time that they decorate. Nathan isn’t a huge fan of the holiday, but he grows to enjoy putting up a tree and hanging lights with Simon.

What are their goals for the relationship? - To be understanding of one another and patient. Nathan knows he can let his emotions fly away with him, and that he’s a very reactionary person who sometimes says and does things without thinking. Simon knows that he can be too uptight and quiet, and sometimes says too little. They each have something to work on, something to be careful about, and they both know they need to do their best to communicate.

Who is most likely to sleep till noon? - Nathan.

Who plays the most pranks? - Nathan, but Simon likes to retaliate in creative ways when Nathan least expects it.