#no one will believe me but this is NOT a parasocial relationship i swear *** **** is my soulmate fr i believe this genuinely

[lunarflwrs]

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[lunecosm]

— sunday x gn reader

In which no one believes you and Sunday are actually dating.

crossposted on AO3 ft. gallagher, aventurine, firefly, robin, sunday fluff, established relationship, everyone thinks reader is just being parasocial about sunday lmao, not a lot of sunday screentime for an x sunday fic oops

You took a sip of your drink, leaning on the bar. “So…” Gallagher started, getting you to look in his direction. “Anything happen with you and your ‘boyfriend’ lately?” The sarcasm in Gallagher’s voice didn’t evade you, but you chose to ignore it and answer in earnest.

“Yes, actually. We had a lovely dessert date the other day. Sunday got a strawberry sundae—heh—and I got a banana split. It was really good, actually. We were thinking of visiting again,” you smiled, thinking about your recent date. You chuckled a bit, remembering how Sunday flustered when you wiped a bit of ice cream off of his cheek.

“Uhuh.” Gallagher looked at you with clear disbelief with an undercurrent of… was that pity?

You deadpanned. “Why are you looking at me like that?”

Gallagher sucked in a breath and set his drink down. He leaned in like he was about to deliver some devastating news to you. “Listen, bud—”

“Don’t call me that.”

“—I hate to break it to you, but just because you happened to be in the same restaurant as Sunday does not mean you were on a date.”

You stared at him. “You can’t be serious.”

Gallagher’s face contorted. “What’s that supposed to—No way you actually think that constitutes a date.”

“Wha—no! What do you take me for? I’m saying I’m telling the truth about us being on an actual, normal date. Not that…stalker stuff you’re insinuating.”

Seemingly giving up, Gallagher leaned back. “Whatever you say.”

You grumbled, “I’ll prove it to you, I swear!”

“His hair is so fluffy, Aven. I want to fluff his hair so badly.” You held your hands in front of you, mimicking patting the soft, blue hair of your boyfriend. “Ugh, and his wings! They look so soft.”

Aventurine nodded along. “They do, don’t they?”

You put your head in your hands. “I miss my wife, Aven. I miss him a lot.”

Aventurine laughed and pat your shoulder. “If you miss him that much, maybe you should start taking fancams or something.” You snickered. “Maybe I should.”

“Here’s a start for your fancam adventures,” Aventurine leaned in with a sly smirk. “Did you see that interview he appeared on recently?”

“Yes I did!” You clasped your hands together, stars in your eyes. “Whoever was in charge of lighting really knew what they were doing! He was practically glowing,” you gushed.

Aventurine grinned. “Right?”

You dramatically leaned into his side, pulling a hand to your forehead. “He’s just so pretty, Aven! I can’t take it.”

Aventurine chuckled. “He is rather handsome.” Deciding to match you in your theatrics, he put a hand to his heart with a little flourish. “I envy whoever manages to score him. Why, I might just keel over from heartbreak at the loss!”

“Well, I guess you should get ready, then.” You crossed your arms, shooting a smug look at your companion.

He sputtered and looked at you incredulously. “I—pardon?”

“I’ll have you know that Sunday and I have been dating for—” Aventurine cut you off, putting his hands on your shoulders.

He muttered something along the lines of, “not this again,” before saying your name somewhat solemnly, his brow slightly creased in concern. “Do you really think Sunday’s your boyfriend??”

You gave him an indignant look. “I don’t think, Aven, I know.”

Aventurine wiped away an imaginary tear. “Damn, I didn’t know you were parasocial like that.”

“I will punch you.”

You skipped down the streets of the Golden Hour, Firefly trailing after you.

“I’m so excited for tonight!” You beamed.

Firefly looked at you inquisitively. “Oh? What’s happening tonight?”

You did a giddy little hop and spun around to face her, “I get to spend time with my lovely boyfriend!”

Firefly’s eyes slightly widened in surprise as she gasped. “I didn’t know you had a boyfriend! Who is it?”

At this point you both had stopped walking, pausing in some random street. You tilted your head and asked, “Eh? I didn’t tell you?” You put your hands on your hips with a proud smile. “Well, I’m dating Sunday!”

Firefly’s expression immediately changed to one you were becoming annoyingly familiar with. She opened and closed her mouth like she was trying to figure out how to break something to you.

Your tone turned flat. “What is it? What’s with the face?”

“I…” Firefly tried a few more starts before landing on, “Listen, I know you walked next to him that one time but I don’t think that means you’re dating…” She trailed off, chuckling nervously.

You slumped, Firefly letting out a little “ah” at the motion.

“Oh come on, I’ve walked—and talked!—with him on multiple occasions. Wait, that’s not the point. Do you not believe me either?” You frowned, beginning to resemble a kicked puppy.

Firefly waved her hands around slightly panicked, “Well, it’s not like I don’t believe you!” She paused and mumbled, “Actually I guess it is…” Shaking her head, she turned back to you. “It’s just… I know you and Robin are friendly and all—”

“What.”

“—but I don’t think that automatically extends to Sunday, y’know? Especially to the degree of a romantic relationship.”

You stared at Firefly incredulously. Bringing your hands up to your face, you sighed. “Why does no one believe I’m being genuine when I say Sunday and I are dating?”

“Maybe because it just sounds so unbelievable?”

You didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. “But why though??”

Firefly simply gave you a comforting pat on the shoulder.

You were practically draped over Sunday, lamenting over the fact that no one believed you when you said Sunday was your boyfriend, even after all this time. Sunday pat your head in consolation as Robin tittered. “Well, on the bright side, they’ll have to believe you after tonight!”

You sunk into Sunday’s shoulder. “I guess…”

Sunday pressed a kiss to your head. “Look alive, dear. Like Robin said, they won’t be able to refute it next you see them.” He paused. “Well, I suppose that depends on if they’re watching or not.”

You perked up at that. “Actually, I told them to watch this interview, so they should see it. I expect at least 10 texts the second I show up on screen.” You held your phone up and waved it. “And if they don’t watch it live, I’m gonna send them a recording. That way they have to acknowledge our relationship!”

Sunday chuckled. “That’s so like you.”

At that moment, someone in the film crew alerted you all to get ready. Sunday gave you a squeeze, leading you over to the filming area, Robin walking at your other side. The three of you smiled (yours a little less practiced) at the interviewer as you approached. After exchanging pleasantries, the film crew started the countdown to go live.

“Three!” Robin gave you a soft smile and a nod, which you returned.

“Two!” Sunday adjusted his hold to your waist, pulling you a bit closer.

“One!” You turned your gaze to the camera.

“And we’re live!”

The interviewer immediately greeted the camera. “Good evening, Penacony! Thanks for tuning in for today’s exclusive interview! Today I have with me everyone’s favorite pop star, Robin!”

Robin gave a charming smile and waved at the camera. “Hello everyone! I’m so glad to be here!”

“Charismatic as always! Along with her, we have the esteemed head of the Oak Family, Sunday!”

Sunday nodded and gave a placid smile. “Hello. It’s a pleasure to be here.”

“The pleasure is all mine! And last but not least, we have a special guest! Care to introduce yourself?”

You greeted the camera and stated your name. “Nice to meet you!”

“How charming! For those of you wondering, if you haven’t guessed their identity already… Why don’t you introduce them, Sunday?”

“With pleasure.” Sunday pulled you in and kissed your cheek. “They’re my significant other.”

As expected, your phone started buzzing incessantly, making you grin. You glanced at the screen, seeing glimpses of texts along the lines of ‘YOU’RE ACTUALLY DATING???’ and ‘NO WAY YOU WERE TELLING THE TRUTH’ before they were quickly replaced with more texts and even a few calls (mostly from Aventurine). You smirked, silencing your phone and returning your attention to the interview.

[love-belle]

yeah my boyfriend's pretty cool !!!

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ in which they're living the childhood best friends to lovers trope.

or

for when you just can't help falling in love. ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

social media au // charles leclerc x fem!reader

warnings - language

author's note - just had the most amazing idea for a daniel social media au omg!!! anyways i hope u like this i love you thank you for reading <3

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paddock.news charles leclerc and y/n gasly spark dating rumors after "soft launching" simultaneously on various social media platforms. rumors have always surrounded the pair through the years, but this time we believe that they're not just rumors. they have also been spotted out on "dates" as y/n has been attending various grand prix to support her brothers and friend and now apparently, boyfriend. they've also been posting each other on their instagram stories a lot lately. neither of the parties have made a comment about this, though we are rooting for them. for more details, click on the link in our bio.

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[mllersjoel]

you're obsessed

you're obsessed

Pairing: Jamie Tartt x fem!actress!reader

Warnings: swearing, no use of y/n

Summary: jamie tartt fic where he has a huge crush on an actress and sees her at a richmond event and she flirts w him he’s really shy bc he likes her but they hook up after idk

Wordcount: 1.6k

A/N: didnt manage to write any smut bc this was getting way too long teehee :D general warnings for swearing.

writing comms are open!

“Oi, Tartt! Stop stalking your actress and give me some laps,” Roy yells, shaking Jamie from his reverie. Jamie is not stalking her instagram. He’s just not; because a stalker would have notifications on as they obsessively checked their profile at least four times every minute. Jamie is only checking once every five minutes, and he doesn’t even have her notifications on. So there. Suck it, Roy.

“Fine, don’t give yourself an aneurysm,” he mutters, taking a quick minute to stretch before he’s running around the pitch. He just has a crush. That’s all. A little one. He first saw you in some thriller that came out last month, and something about you had him hooked. Initially he thought it was just the character you played, a regular yet charming civilian, pulled into the crime world. After watching (admittedly, way too many) interviews, he realised it wasn’t the character. It was you.

You with your witty remarks and comments. The way you laughed good naturedly and poked fun at your costars. The way you were clumsy and scatterbrained, in a terribly endearing way.

It didn’t help that you were also gorgeous.

So, yeah. Jamie had a slight crush. It was fine, though, because you were currently based in Los Angeles (you were in a new Marvel movie) and had no plans of coming to the UK anytime soon. 

“She’s right fit, though,” Isaac says, nudging Jamie as he runs past. 

Jamie feels his stomach tighten with jealousy before he catches himself. Why was he jealous? He didn’t know you and you probably didn’t even know he existed. Well, maybe you did, because he was sexy and a hot football player. Did you even watch football? Would you watch it if you knew he was in it?

Jamie remembers hearing something about a parasocial relationship from Keeley and resolves to not think about you.

At least while he was training.

***

He’s spraying on cologne in the locker room when Keeley bursts in, all smiles and pep.

“Oh. My. Fucking. God!”

“Is everything alright?” Ted asks, breaking away from Coach Beard who as far as Jamie could tell, hasn’t said anything but is managing to have a full conversation with Ted.

“You will not believe who I booked for this years’ Gala!”

Roy’s ears perk up at this as he slides into the conversation. “The Muppets?”

“No, Roy,” Keeley says, exasperated, “not the fucking Muppets. Only the hottest new actress on screen right now!”

At this point, all the boys have gathered around Keeley, jostling each other and trying to see the screen of her phone. Jamie fights his way to the front, and when his eyes focus on Keeley’s phone, he’s pretty sure his heart drops into his stomach.

It was you. There. With your smile and your eyes and your name and a headline.

You were coming to their Gala.

You.

He feels his heart drop into his stomach. This couldn’t be real. Maybe it was a mistype, or someone accidentally said they scheduled you but in reality you were on the other side of the globe. It was faked. It had to be.

He broke away from his team, practically running back to the changing rooms. Opening up your instagram, he pulled up your story. There, you had reposted the announcement.

Oh. Oh fuck.

***

On the day of the Gala, Jamie seriously considers hiring a stylist rather than just going with his gut. He needs to look good. Tonight is most probably one of the most important days of his life. His favourite actress, coming to his club’s Gala. Maybe, if he plays his cards right, you’ll bid on him.

Wait. Who was he kidding? He’s Jamie fucking Tartt. Of course you’ll bid on him. He could wear a trash bag and you’d bid on him, because he is just that fucking sexy.

Right?

He shoots a quick text to Keeley, desperate for a second opinion.

Me:

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thoughts? Xx

Keeley:

Ur hot babes!!

Gonna knock em dead xx

Lose the tie u look like a prick <3

He takes one last look in the mirror, running his hands through his hair. Yeah. He’s gonna show up and be so cool. He’s so cool.

***

They’re taking pictures on the carpet, and everyone can tell Jamie is not all there. He barely tells the paparazzi to take pictures of his good side, following it up with “And that’s any side.” His eyes keep darting around, every scream and shout of delight sending his stomach in knots in case you’re the one to step out of the limousine.

Maybe you just won’t show up. Maybe you were already inside.

He can’t decide which option is worse.

When he’s at the end of the carpet, about to head inside, he hears whistles and screams, different from the ones before. These sound a lot more excited, filled with more adrenaline and anticipation. Or maybe he’s just projecting. 

He turns, and sure enough, you’re there.

Stunning. That’s the only thing he can think of. You smile beautifully at the photographers, working the crowd with ease. It was as if you were friends, had a solid rapport with them with the way you were conversing back and forth.

“Close your mouth. You look like a fucking basking shark,” Roy says, elbowing Jamie in the stomach.

He flinches back, giving Roy a shove in return. “Oi, what was that for?”

“You’re not gonna make a good impression with you gawking like a fucking idiot. Go say hi or something. Be fucking normal.”

Jamie sends Roy an affronted look. “I am normal, you old bastard. Just because we don’t act like how you did in the 1800s doesn’t mean I’m being an idiot.”

Roy just growls, shoving past him into the building.

Jamie takes a step forward to follow when a voice catches his attention.

“Hey! You’re Jamie Tartt, right?”

He turns on instinct, a winning smile already plastered on his face. “I’ll do autographs once—you.”

You raise your eyebrows slightly, waiting for him to go on. “Once I what?”

“You’re, um, you’re her.” He says your name, almost reverently.

Your grin widens, almost giddy. “You know who I am?”

“I follow you—” before he could say more, your manager rushes in behind you, ushering you inside. You wince at him, apologetic, before heading inside.

Jamie stands there, dumbfounded. 

I follow you?  That’s what he had to say? Now he really does sound like a stalker. He scrubs his hand over his face, groaning in disappointment.

He’s gonna make it up to you. He has to.

***

Inside, he sees he’s sat with Ted and Roy as well as a few other people and an empty seat next to him. He largely ignores his own table, trying to catch sight of you and not succeeding in the slightest. He huffs a sigh of annoyance, sliding into his seat.

Ted notices his glum aura, nodding sagely. “It’s the oysters, isn’t it? Because I know they have to try to make the flavour appeal to everyone but adding this much lemon is just downright insultin’.”

“It’s not the oysters, coach.”

Ted frowns. “The placemats? I was never really an eggshell white person myself but—”

“Jamie’s pining over an actress he thinks I don’t see him stalk on insta when he’s supposed to be running drills,” Roy cuts in, tired of Ted’s guessing.

“I’m not pining,” Jamie pouts, crossing his arms in a decidedly not childish way.

Before Roy could get another rebuttal out, the seat next to him is being filled, and once again he sees you, smiling at him. “Actresses are overrated,” you say, placing your napkin over your lap, “trust me.”

Jamie’s blood runs cold, convinced the universe is playing a cruel trick on him. Running into you is an absolute dream, he’d never deny that, but running into you with both Ted and Roy there? He may as well be taken out back and shot.

He must’ve been sitting there agape for too long, because before he knows it, Ted is reaching a hand over and giving yours a shake.

“Ted Lasso, it’s a pleasure to meet ya’. I absolutely loved you in that thriller that came out last June. Had me on the edge of my couch! And I know Jamie here liked it as well, he was bawling a right mess by the end of it.”

You turn to look at Jamie, and having the full force of your attention on him made him nearly choke on air. “Were you really?”

Jamie licks his lips, trying to gain some composure. “Bawling is sayin’ a lot, really. More like a reasonable cry.”

You nod along, clearly not buying it. 

“I’ve been keeping up with your games this season. The goal you scored against West Ham the other day was seriously impressive. You were practically miles away from the net.”

Immediately, Jamie perked up. “You like football?”

“Well, I’m no expert, but I definitely try to watch all your games if I can.”

Jamie leans in, feeling bold and taking your hand in his. “Richmonds games? Or my games?”

You shrug. “Depends on the hair.”

He laughs, leaning back in his chair, body turned towards you. Maybe tonight won’t be so bad after all.

[mixterglacia]

Content Warning: VIVZIEPOP CRITICAL/STOLITZ CRITICAL UNDER THE CUT.

TL;DR: The episode felt very disjointed, with an extremely weak opening and a decent end.

Biggest takeaway from this episode is how incapable the team seems to be at balancing themselves. Their humor is mediocre, but fine, with moments of brilliance. But when paired with the serious elements, it cheapens both to the point of totally undermining themselves.

The first half DRAGGED on, and got old pretty instantaneously. I am begging this writing crew to get better material than "haha tit dick swear word laughter pls". Often times, it takes away from a potentially great gag. Take the bellhop/igor guy. His initial reveal was hilarious, and got a full on belly laugh out of me. The moment he spoke totally ruined the bit.

You had it in the bag! You don't need to gild a lily! This is the penguins all over again. The decent end was so bogged down by the first half that it dulled all that followed.

The one through line that I enjoyed was Moxxie spiraling over the finances. Very well done.

I'm not particularly pressed about Blitz being this distressed over the breakup, but they're not focusing on what I feel is realistic for him? If you started it by having him panicking over losing his one source of income, that makes more sense.

Have money be the beginning, then transition into his deeper feelings. This way it doesn't feel at odds with his motivations in previous episodes. His meltdown is believable, but you've done nothing to show the path he took to get there. It was like a switch flipping, rather than natural progression. It wasn't earned. Especially when their relationship is nothing short of emotional abuse.

Abuse victims often go back to their abuser, but they're trying to frame it as something romantic. This. Is. Abuse. Financial, emotional, and social abuse.

Speaking of earning, the second half's payoff. As I said, the humor being so lackluster in the start tarnished the good writing at the back end. There's no balance. The jokes weren't strong enough to contrast the heartfelt parts.

I really do appreciate them actually putting effort into Millie for once. I wish it was more consistent, because often she's totally shoved to the sidelines. She's not a main character, but that doesn't mean you can neglect her until you need her to make the boys look better. I'm also a bit ???? about her saying that Blitz makes her life better? She's constantly in trouble and financial duress because of him.

If they really wanted to make the end feel more cohesive, they needed to spend time focusing on her relationship with Blitz in the rest of the series. There's practically nothing beyond him bitching at her. Or harassing her and her husband. You need to lay the foundation so your house doesn't sink into the earth.

Once again, the Helluverse's greatest flaw is them not wanting to spend time to earn their cool shit. It's nothing more than a series of loosely connected drabbles. That structuring can work, but you need to commit to the nature of it. The team can't decide what they want from their product and it shows.

What. Is. The. Point?

Is this slice of life? Is it telenovela? Is it the Office, but in Hell? What is the goal? Because it's getting EXHAUSTING to try and follow. There's nothing wrong with wanting to change the plot of your work. But you have to put in the effort to make that transition solid. This is something they don't seem to grasp.

Additionally, if this if going to be used to set up Blitz finally cutting Stolas out of his life, it would be a decent frame for that. The entire office is circling the drain because a rich, pompous, pathetic little prince formed a parasocial relationship with someone that never liked him in that way. This episode would hold a lot of weight to swing at Stolas. But I fear they're just going to use the "uwu he secretly misses him" aspect, and neglect the owl RUINING FOUR PEOPLE'S LIVES BECAUSE HIS FAKE BOYFRIEND DOESN'T WANT TO COMMIT TO A FAKE RELATIONSHIP.

Small bits:

The antagonist was fun, and honestly surprised me with the quality of his writing. If the first half was stronger, or not present, I'd consider this one of the best episodes overall.

I'm not entirely clear on why Blitz is so fixated on fucking a ghost? He has no issue getting dick/pussy in hell so what's the issue? Is he mildly addicted to the softcore he's watching? Dunno. It's just one of the bits that bogged down the start.

Rodgers and Nixon did a very good job with what they had voice wise. Major kudos.

[thenickgirl]

it caught me off guard when that sturniolo tumblr account called only fans workers "whores" just bc chris followed them ???😳... WHY are the little kids on this app so crazy... The younger people in this fandom who are possessive over the triplets need help... also I swear it wasn't a huge group of crazy minors on this app till a couple of months ago... I deadass just saw an 11 year old writing smut ?😂😂LITERAL INSANITY. 😂😂😟

11???? like ngl i was reading smut then too but i definitely didn’t make an account to do so, i was sneaking around 😭

but no fr that was insane like why you mad?? these girls didn’t beg and plead for chris to be following them, he the thirsty one!! 😭 i don’t see the point in looking at their following anyway it’s kinda weird but that’s just me, to each its own fr. however, i don’t believe in putting other women down, but not everyone has that mentality and that’s their business i guess. idk some fans just seem to have this weird unhealthy parasocial relationship with matt and chris that they need to get checked out. i thought i was the most delusional person in this fandom, but they’ve got me beat!

[papaziggy-devblog]

trigger warning: suicide and death

I wanted to thank you so much for your posts, art, and sharing your passion project. I also want to extend this thank you to queenlilithprime as well. I was struggling during my senior year of college. I didn't want to continue going to university. the pressure to be successful after university was crashing me, and I was very lost and confused. this coupled with the impending fear of student loans, bills, and the decline of my physical health, I was not in a good head space. I often thought about ending it and entertaining the thought while going to college to save my parents from having to further support me or shoulder my debt. it was hard to want to wake up or continue, but I randomly found restart heart and wanted to see more, which made me not so ready to leave. which eventually led me to find your game, which gave me another reason to stay. I would often read your post and laugh, which made me feel that I could at least weather what was going on with my life, which eventually led me to believe I could overcome my troubles and be successful. Now, I'm a pharmacy student while working as a pharmacy tech, which I'm transitioning into being a pharmacy intern. I don't know where I would be if I hadn't decided to stay just to watch your guys' games develop, but I'm thankful, and I hope you know how much your projects mean to me even if you think your just making silly yandere games for fun. they mean a lot to me, and I hope you know the significance of your work.

(I know this sounds parasocial, but I swear I'm not mistaking this relationship as an intimate one.)

Holy balls, I really wasn't expecting something like this, I'm so happy to hear I could bring you some joy and laughter when you needed it, at the end of the day that's all I really wanna be here for. qwq I know you got this and I'm so proud of you for how far you've come and for sticking to it! Keep on going and we'll all be rooting for you every step of the way!!!

Hi lovely! It's Lily. I appreciate the kind words and I'm glad you're still here! I'm extremely honored that my game has helped you so much and I'm overjoyed that you've found a way to keep going. Even in your darkest hours things can still get better if you hold on long enough! Sometimes you just need something to keep your attention til you're back on the right track. I'm proud of you for doing your best and holding on. You did a wonderful job and you're going to continue doing great! Remember to always hold on tight when the waters get rocky my dear, you can still find happiness even when everything feels hopeless. I believe in you ♥✨

[faecaptainofdreams]

Hey ya’ll. Just wanted to get real for a sec.

Reminder that Presidential elections are this year, and there’s something about young voters that bothers me today. Many of you believe there has to be a “perfect” candidate to run this country, and you must understand that that is simply not a possibility. Politics do not grant us the better of two goods; it grants us the burden of choosing the lesser of two evils. And that sucks, but it’s reality.

Young leftists swear that “blue no matter who” is the only way, but we also preach that the Right needs to progress…and then when it does, we don’t reward it. This time around, there may actually be a viable Republican candidate, and it’s not JUST because she’s a woman…but my god it helps.

If a politician has policies or ideologies you disagree with, please keep in mind that presidents do not have absolute power over the country. If someone is a safer option than TRUMP, OF ALL THINGS, with a few policies you disagree with, that’s still better than just electing Trump or not voting at all. Because things that a candidate may try to pass as president could be blocked by House/Senate or whatever.

People have this toxic absolutist mindset that if someone messes up or isn’t handling every single thing gracefully, or not every single view aligns with theirs, that that person shouldn’t be or shouldn’t have been the President when they’re literally one person trying to run a country that, at this point, literally influences the entire world. There are going to be mistakes, there are going to be lines that don’t meet in the middle, and sometimes the solution they come up with for a problem is also a “lesser of two evils” situation, and when we have to face the consequences of that choice, we can’t see the bigger picture of how a different answer may have been worse.

People today hate the fact that few things are black and white and when it comes to politics, there’s no perfect answer… but there are wrong answers, and those ought to be obvious. People also develop such weird parasocial relationships with politicians and it’s embarrassing… Presidents, senators, Speakers, etc they’re not your friends. They’re your leaders and they are here to do a job. Some are not fit, and some are more corrupt than others. You don’t have to like someone enough to die for them in order to deem them worthy of a job.

I’m not telling you who to vote for because i don’t know who I’m gonna be voting for either yet and it IS a personal choice, but I’m trying to inspire you to have an open mind and be reasonable. Think about the bigger picture and weigh the options one candidate may present.

That is all.

[lostfracturess]

JEJJSHSSHSHSHSJSHDHDHDHD FINALLY PUT MY HANDS ON THE LAST GAMES AND MATCHES CHAPTER, the fucking work 🥲🥲🥲 ANYWAYS, CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR ANOTHER COMPLETED STORY, THAT WAS FUCKING GOOD I SWEAR I AM TRYING TO PUT MY MIND INTO SOMETHING COHERENT BUT I FAIL AS USUAL firstlyyy, i AM FUCKING IN LOVE WITH THIS SATORU, AND ALL SATORUS OF YOU AT THAT POINT. i absolutely adore his humour and demeanor, and of course the way he's so pathetically in love with the reader, makes my toes curl and giggling. absolutely like the way you describe it ❤️❤️❤️ secondly, their chemistry with the reader, though it was only three chapters (😥😥😥) the tension, unreleased and fully released, their banters, their casual tasks are described so good! they feel so real, that's the thing i absolutely adore in your stories. the realness of their struggles, rawness of their emotions make all of your stories so precious to me (maybe i hyperanalyze a little at that point, but 😭😭😭). thirdly, though it was a short story, i could clearly seen the fun you were having while writing! believe me, we enjoyed it as well ❤️ fourthly, the smut??? i really don't know what to say at this point, it was so fucking good and delicious, tears rolled down my thigh © (as you said "received the stamp of it" 😅). dirty talk was absolutely heavenly and the way satoru was in charge (for almost all of the times ofc) yet was so gentle towards the reader made my heart swell ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ (daddy issues were present as you said in the description) fifthly, i am so fucking happy they got their happy ending (well, they weren't even suffering like a certain someone cough cough thanks to nici's mercy).

literally, thank you so much for this story, i was enjoying it endlessly ❤️

p.s. I've just thought how we all here are in the parasocial relationships with satoru and enjoying it 😅

i was writing my thoughts as i was reading as well, and i swear i want to make my comment as a whole more coherent but I don't know how to 😭😭😭 so I'm so sorry for this mess ❤️❤️❤️

"You went through the motions of college life, attending classes and studying late into the night, all the while your thoughts wander back to the man that changed your whole world in mere days" oh my god oh my god OH MY GOD I FEEL THAT. THE FEELINGS™

"There was something about his voice that always managed to put you at ease, no matter how stressed you were feeling. It was like a soothing balm, washing over you and melting away all your worries" 😩😩😩😩 girl you're so fucking down bad to him, totally understandable

“Yeah, I figured as much. My jaw still hurts like hell. Can't say I blame him though. If I had a daughter, I'd probably want to throttle any man who looked at her twice, too." noooo his handsome face suffered 🫡🫡🫡 totally understandable tho

"But somehow you genuinely wanted to know, wanted to know what's happening in his life" GIRLS PLEASE YOU'RE (WE'RE) COMPLETELY SMITTEN

I don't it's just the way the reader imagine him by her side??? she's doing it subconsciously and doesn't even realize that she needs him not just for fuck, i can't-

“You miss fucking me,” you say eventually, needing to break the intensity with a quip, a tease. "That's what this is really about. You're hard up and looking for a steamy bedtime story." denial is the river in egypt-

"When I say I miss you... I mean you. Your mind, your heart, your ridiculous snort-laugh that makes you sound like a drunken piglet." awwww the man of my dreams, calling us a drunken piglet, so cute ❤️

she imagines him AGAIN. reader girlie, wake up already!

"His words echoed in your mind, 'you love me', and suddenly it felt like the air had been sucked out of the room. Your throat went tight, your chest constricting as the weight of those words sank in" uhmmm it's more like she denies her feelings because she can't believe in his true feelings for her, to not get attached i guess? because she was the one constantly drawing the line between them

"I'm already so wet just thinking about you." aren't we all here?

OKAY phone sex, dirty talk, talking through it and older satoru??? AM IN HEAVEN??? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE SUCH A BLESSING

no, but seriously, I can't help but notice her constantly imagining satoru beside her, like she's a constant need of her presence, and i wonder if you did that on purpose or is that just me hyperanalyzing 😭😭😭

"This, whatever this was between you, it had an expiration date" NO IT'S NOT, I REFUSE. WE NEED HIM. IN ALL SENSES

omg i absolutely adore their playful banters

"Let the whole damn world know who you belong to. How fucking gone I am for you." oh my goodness i am so fucking bad for this you can't even imagine, he just krjejeejieekwiwi i need him like air, so hot and pathetic in his total smitteness

"Not even a little bit, love. You can do anything you set your mind to. And I'll be right there in the front row, cheering you on every step of the way." what if i actually cry? he's so nice to the reader 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 really so good and reassuring :(((( squeezing him gently, but for real, anyone needs such a partner in their lives

"You did win, of course" let's pretend he didn't lose on purpose (tho i know the reader totally crashed him) just to put his grabby hands on the reader (and something else)

"He hummed, setting the trophy back in its place with care. "I remember. I was stuck in a conference room, listening to some blowhard drone on about market fluctuations, but all I could think about was you. Must've refreshed the score update page a hundred times, nearly wore out my phone battery." 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩 HE'S SOOOOO

"You're everything to me, you know that?" Satoru murmured softly" what's the thing with your gojos confessing in the middle of sex 😅😅😅 but don't stop, im in awe

"It's one of the things I lo—" He caught himself, clearing his throat roughly. "One of the things I admire most about you. GOJO FUCKING SATORU STAY HERE AND SAY EVERYTHING ALOUD, EVERY WORD, I MEAN IT, YOU'RE IN LOVE.

"As if your dismissal of this thing between you had struck a physical blow, knocking the air from his lungs and the hope from his heart" NOOOOOOOO PLEASEEEE NOOOO SHE'S JUST CONFUSED AND IN DENIAL, SHE LOVES YOU GOJO PLEASE 😭😭😭 CAN'T BELIEVE I AM GONNA CRY

"Because falling for him, letting yourself want more than stolen moments and secret meetings — it was a distraction. A beautiful, tempting, utterly destructive distraction" it literally pains me when she says he's a distraction to her, no, when she makes herself think he's a distraction. because she doesn't believe it and tries not to let this fling or whatever she calls it ahead of her dreams, but babyyyyy you two can be together 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 because you clearly want it both

oh my god 🥲🥲🥲🥲 sad sex🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 yes im totally okay- NO IM NOT THE WAY YOU DESCRIBE IT JUST SO AGONIZINGLY BEAUTIFUL IT MAKES ME BIT MY PILLOW, THEM POURING ALL THEIR EMOTIONS IN IT, LETTING THEIR BODIES SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES, CHASING THAT DREAM OF LOVE AND LIFE TOGETHER 😭😭😭

actually i think taylor swift's maroon kinda fits this scene 🧐 or maybe i am delulu, anyways, if you like to, you might check out!

"So what right did you have to feel betrayed, to feel abandoned, when he was just following your lead?" actually i think at that moment she finally realised she needed him more than tennis indeed, but still kept denying it. that's so complicated yet truthful at that same time? i just can understand both of them, really love when you create moral dilemmas like this

"For the way he made you feel seen, known. Understood, in a way no one else ever had. Like he could look into your eyes and see straight to your soul, to the heart of you. Like he knew you, inside and out" YES THAT'S THE FUCKING THING, IT'S NOT CASUAL, IT'S NOT JUST SEXXXX

"So with a deep breath and a racing heart, you made your decision" YESSS YOU GO GIRLLLLLLL FINALLLYYY YEEHAWWWWW

but it's totally understandable for me tho. when your heart isn't the right place, your head won't be as well.

“You know, family dinners are going to be really awkward from now on." AGAINNNNN WHY'S HE SO STUPID

also love the contrast you described with when she was practicing, thinking about tennis (head, constant doubting) and when she finally talked to satoru (heart, happiness and calmness, FELLING LIKE HOME)

"Satoru's hand found your ass one last time to give you a playful, proprietary slap as you walked away. You didn't see it, but you were sure your dad gave him a death glare for that" poor suguru, his old dad's heart 🥲

"I know it's unconventional. I know it's not what you would have chosen for her. But I swear to you, I love that girl with everything I have. I'd do anything for her, be anything she needs me to be. She's it for me. The one." okay that's it, i fucking cried. he's really perfect for her 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

"Seriously though," your dad continued. "She's happy. Happier than I've ever seen her. And that's all that matters to me." really respect suguru on that, he put his daughter's happiness over his own doubts and anger. truly a supportive father

Satoru watched you for a moment, then turned to Suguru once more. "By the way, should I've asked you for permission or something? You know, since you're her dad and all." ANOTHER PATHETICALLY IN LOVE AND COMPLETELY SMITTEN GOJO OF YOURS ASKING FOR A PERMISSION TO MARRY A READER. THAT'S MY JAMMM

"Okay, okay, fine," Satoru relented, holding up his hands in surrender. "I'll stop. But just so you know, I expect you to give a heartfelt speech at the wedding. Something about how you always knew I was the one for your little girl, even when we were kids." SHUT UP SATORU I PHYSICALLY CRINGED 😭😭😭 he's stupid 🥲

thank you so so much for your kind words ahhh, love you forever for this !! so so happy to read that this funny little story feels reel even tho we all know what it was heavily related to lol. didn't even plan really to make it angsty at the end too, but you know a girl must do what a girl must do sometimes.

anyway, i always try to include some kind of real struggle or issue into my writing that i feel is very human? idk, maybe it's just my brain and y'all think im crazy but anywayyyy again, so so so glad that landed well for you <3

but don't worry you're not hyperanalyzing, it was definitely meant to have some kind of deeper meaning underneath all that smut haha.

and yes the tears rolled down my thigh © thank you so much !! it's like a quality sign at this point :'))

well, they weren't even suffering like a certain someone cough cough thanks to nici's mercy

i feel attacked (lovingly)

denial is the river in egypt-

laughing out loud bc i love this meme pleasseeeee

"You're everything to me, you know that?" Satoru murmured softly" what's the thing with your gojos confessing in the middle of sex 😅😅😅 but don't stop, im in awe

now let me explain !!!!! *stares into the void* i'm a simple girl, i wanna have my men lay their love to my feet while he has something other very deep in me i'm sorry i cannot stop AND I WILL NOT STOP !!!

didn't even realize but i think i did it in every story ahaha. there is just something about gojo being pussy drunk and then can't stop himself from saying all those stupid and inappropriate things <3

actually i think taylor swift's maroon kinda fits this scene 🧐 or maybe i am delulu, anyways, if you like to, you might check out!

i love every song of her

actually i think at that moment she finally realised she needed him more than tennis indeed, but still kept denying it. that's so complicated yet truthful at that same time? i just can understand both of them, really love when you create moral dilemmas like this

yes !! very much the turning point !! and omg i love writing dilemmas and complicated emotions ahhh

also love the contrast you described with when she was practicing, thinking about tennis (head, constant doubting) and when she finally talked to satoru (heart, happiness and calmness, FELLING LIKE HOME)

so glad you noticed that hehe

ANOTHER PATHETICALLY IN LOVE AND COMPLETELY SMITTEN GOJO OF YOURS ASKING FOR A PERMISSION TO MARRY A READER. THAT'S MY JAMMM

NAH WAIITTTT. okay i have a problem with gojo confessing during smut and asking for permission to marry i see ahaha. upsiii.

& yes gojo is so stupid at the end ahah, making it more weird with everything he said and i love it ahahah.

thank you so so much again for your words and letting me be part of your thoughts while reading, hope your week is filled with rainbows, unicorns, and maybe even a winning lottery ticket (or at least a crisp $20 bill on the sidewalk). sending you all the virtual hugs <3

[wayhaughtn7]

I swear every day I find the Critical Role fandom as a whole more insufferable than the day before. There are some amazing people in the fandom but some fans parasocial relationship with the cast and complete lack of understanding of how the real world works makes being a fan of the show online exhausting. Also, as someone who firmly believes that folks should help others and donate to charity because it’s something they care about, not for some imaginary activist points, the demands for the company and the cast to perform their activism to suit your demands pisses me the fuck off. No one owes you their thoughts, feelings, or activism, not even z-list celebrities like the cast and crew of CR.

[with-the-flickers-of-light]

Ok, so.

[deep breath]

Since this is a Taylor Swift fan blog (even if it's one with zero (0) followers), it feels important to address my thoughts on the Matty Healy situationship.

Warning, this is going to be a post critical of the relationship. I absolutely do not believe that being a fan means that I have to support all of Swift's decisions. Also, content warning for swearing, light discussion of exploitative/abusive pornography, anti-Semitism, racism, sexism, and just general shittiness.

If you want anything tagged or fact-checked, please let me know!

Before diving in, my general thoughts on celebrity relationships:

As a general rule, I don't believe in speculating about celebrities' relationships. I am only really looking into Healy now since the publicization of the Swift/Healy relationship seems to be quite intentional at this point. And while I don't believe in holding women to a higher standard than men, or in erasing their professional achievements to gossip about their personal lives, I also believe that we as consumers get to choose who we support. Professionals are entitled to privacy, yes, but "privacy" is not a free pass to ignore moral wrongs.

For me, my basic stance is that I understand "The Man", but that many of the behaviors discussed therein should not be appropriate for anyone, whether a man or not. So no, this isn't about me being a misogynist and overriding Swift's professional achievements with gossip about her love life. This is about me pointing out that no one is free from accountability -- whether or not the media holds you accountable, somebody will.

I do believe the rich and famous have at least some responsibility to do good in the world. You have privilege, you have a platform. Hell, the world could refuse to ever give you another cent and you'd probably remain better-off for the rest of your life than most people. And especially if you choose to cultivate parasocial relationships with your fans, you have to realize that making shitty choices will feel like personal betrayals to them. As a celebrity, you know that your public decisions will be held under scrutiny and that they will impact the general population, because you hold influence.

And finally, on the nature of romantic relationships: I identify as aromantic-asexual, so I will be the first to admit that I do not understand all the urges that go into dubiously intelligent relationships. Nonetheless, I hold that while attraction may be involuntary, a relationship is a choice. (There are, of course, cases of abuse where the "relationship" is really not a choice on one side, but based on all we've seen I do not think Swift/Healy is one of them.)

That said, we arrive at the issue of Healy.

Healy is not the kind of person I am interested in supporting, financially or otherwise. I'm not going to list off all his crap -- it's well-known enough to be on Wikipedia at this point. (Which I hear is in a bit of an editing war? Never a good sign, y'all.) This post is about my response, because you can find the facts elsewhere (and you've probably already read them elsewhere).

If he was middle-of-the-road questionable -- like, if all he did was eat raw meat -- it could be excused. Whatever, I'm not going to ever be a fan of that, but I'm also not going to give a damn aside from doing a double-take at the headline and then sighing.

The licking fingers and kissing fans thing... that's. A, uh. It's a choice. That's the point where I'm kind of like... what? But sure, I guess you could argue that it's a morally gray area, because it's weird, and dubiously consensual, but I dunno, fans could be into that or something? Definitely not something I'm into, but pending further investigation on the case, I could bring myself to just roll my eyes at another trashbag.

And then we get into his recent, shitty statements. "It was just a joke/ironic/satire" is a bullshit excuse and in the year 2023, we all know it. If you're a celebrity who has a PR team, I sure as hell know that you know it. I am willing to forgive misguided jokes if they were from a bygone era and the offender has since apologized for the harm they caused.

Hell, maybe I could bring myself to accept the "ironic Nazi salute"; sure, maybe he was trying to bring awareness to Trump/Kanye-gate by drawing that parallel. I could convince myself that he really was acting in good faith, because there is a maybe possibly potentially decent outcome he could've been angling at.

To be clear, I don't believe it. I think we all know to not do the Nazi salute, even in satire.

But even if I did, well.

I am not willing to forgive Healy "joking" about masturbating to exploitative pornography of black women in the year 2023, without even an apology (to the best of my knowledge). I'm not going to speculate on whether or not he really was joking, but whether it was a fact or a joke, it's fucking disgusting. Whether it's a stage personality, a joke, an ironic comment, or satire, if it's you causing harm, then it's shitty. At best, it's ignorant and reckless; at worst, it's... I don't even know what to say. And again, in the year 2023, it's not hard to tell what could be harmful in said "joke" about porn, so I don't put much stock in the "ignorant" column.

There is no possible good outcome from a "joke" like that, which means there is no possible positive spin for me to try to play. There is no reason to be that shitty.

The evidence is clear and simple, and it leads to the conclusion that supporting Healy is not something I can be at all interested in or tolerant of.

What about the good things he's said?

Well, let's keep this short and sweet: human decency is not a transaction. Good actions don't cancel out bad actions, except for when the good action is a fucking good apology that genuinely seeks to make reparations for the bad action.

Okay, but why should Swift take responsibility for that?

Straight up, whether or not Swift is a "feminist" is irrelevant to this conversation -- this is the standard I apply to people regardless of what beliefs they claim (although it would come with an extra helping of hypocrisy if you do want to claim to support women and POC). What's relevant is that she has chosen to publicly and positively associate herself with a known piece of shit. And being in a relationship with Healy is tacitly supporting his views. There is no way she -- a self-proclaimed "mastermind", a "calculated/smart businesswoman" -- doesn't know this.

There is no professional benefit to associating with Healy, either. The David O'Russell movie could be hand-waved with "it was a professional opportunity". Where the Crawdads Sing could be reasoned away as "separating art from artist". But her dating life is 100% a personal choice. The only benefit to dating Healy is dating Healy. There's no other opportunity here, just the chance to spend time with and tacitly support a dirtbag.

(I know that she knows that "they're nice to me" does not magically make a shitty man a good person. You know how I know that? Because that's what she said during Scooter-gate. So there are no excuses here.)

She is a grown woman fully capable of cognitively processing the consequences of publicly supporting Healy. I don't care what she says in "Don't Blame Me", I am blaming her, because it's her own damn choice. She is making the choice, consciously and with no other benefits, to publicly take the side of someone known for racist and sexist behaviors.

And that's something that we can absolutely hold her accountable for.

Because at this point, supporting Swift is also tacitly affirming Healy's problematic behavior.

So how does this situation resolve?

There are 3 parties in this situation: Swift, Healy, and the fanbase. At least one of us has to step up and do better.

Swift could wake up, realize just how bad this is, and do better.

Healy could have an epiphany where he realizes just how bad his actions have been, and make a concerted effort to do better and make reparations.

We as a fanbase could walk away, because we are unwilling to tolerate the bullshit.

At this point, it seems kind of unlikely that wither Swift or Healy are going to change for the better. That leaves it up to us.

And now for the tricky part: deciding what to do as a fan.

Blech. It's easy enough to come to the conclusion that Swift's recent behavior has been unpalatable. It's harder to figure out what to do about that.

As fans, I know that there are a lot of emotions involved. There's the parasocial relationship that you want to hang onto; there's the importance her music may have played for you personally; there's basic appreciation for the technical construction of her work. And I know there's definitely the undying hope that maybe this is all a misunderstanding and maybe she really is better than this.

Either way, to me, there are 3 steps to getting clean from supporting problematic artists:

Stop public support. There's a time for silence, and there's a time to fucking speak now. Stop wearing merchandise, or repurpose it. Don't keep running a stan account as if nothing has happened.

Stop active financial support. Don't put money into her. Don't buy albums, merchandise, or concert tickets.

Stop passive financial support. That's streaming on Spotify, things where you might not be paying, but she's still getting money.

And then the final step is severing emotional connections. Stop singing her music for fun; stop listening to already-purchased music. I don't include this in the 3-step process because in my opinion, it's not a prerequisite to cut out a problematic artist's art to stop supporting the problematic artist (unless that art is reflective of their shittiness). What you choose to do in private without any interaction with the artist is your own business. It impacts no one but you if you continue listening to your existing downloads of Swift's music.

With all that in mind, for now, I'm not deactivating this blog. I'm going to let my queue finish itself off. And then I'm probably going to write a few reflections on some of her more questionable lyrics, because I do think there are some... interesting things in there that deserve to be discussed.

When all's said and done, though, this blog is probably going to go into indefinite hiatus, because I'm not interested in running a hate-blog, nor am I willing to continue running a fan-blog.

So. Yeah. That's where I'm at.

[taegularities]

wow I’m the exact same way as that other anon in the sense that I’m also scared of intimacy and truly would only feel comfortable with our boys but I’m not delusional either I swear😭like tbh I get really scared and sad because I’m like am I crazy to only be attracted to 7 men who don’t know I even exist but honestly men irl just don’t live up to these high expectations I have in my head :( and I feel like I’m going to be alone forever really and that makes me even more sad as well as the fear that once BTS disbands then I’ll have no men to look forward to seeing(?) if that makes sense? I sound crazy😭but I’m not(?)😭 also these parasocial relationships drive me crazy like I’m trying to stop following BTS simply because I worry for my own love life or life in general but it’s so hard :(

there we go. there's always someone who understands what and how someone else is feeling. i believe you that you're not delusional! you don't have to be. media affects us in a way that we develop parasocial relationships with celebrities we adore; it's why it genuinely feels sometimes like we're in love with them – because we definitely feel like we just know them inside and out, yk?

so that's okay, and i won't judge anyone for feeling that way. i sometimes catch myself too and think, "well, okay. maybe i need to adjust my expectations, bc no one's perfect."

i think we need to keep ourselves grounded in reality, and find a balance that allows us to enjoy their presence while simultaneously not letting it disturb our lives. remember that they're not perfect either!! i'm sure we'll be happy one day with what we get, with someone who's not perfect but who'll be ready to compromise... i promise you <3

[purposelynana]

What Did I Watch: #32

This week, what? Been drowning in work and Eid. But I'm back.

Step By Step was a nightmare and it was fucking good. Nightmare is such an understatement. It was thorough portrayal on being a corporate slave. That's why I called it nightmare. And a blessing.

For the longest we'd been served by half-assed representation about office workers. Before Step By Step, there was A Boss and A Babe, and I swear to God I should know from the title alone, this would be a complete trash. And also Bed Friend, where definitely the focus wasn't on the office. Too bad. I know the sex scene was the talk of the town, but well lemme emphasize once more, if you want to watch porn, just watch porn, instead of pushing porn onto contemporary show. Or at least if you take out the porn, it still makes a decent story.

Yet Step By Step is different. It was scary because how similar it was to my office life. I had this unsettling feeling while watching it. I don't think it was bad per se, but definitely that was something I don't want to repeat. Yes, this is written by someone who has been in the office, worked in the office and maybe get abused in the office. And for the love of God, thank you for its depiction of office love story that it's believable. Love in the office does happen very slowly, delicate (dude it'll involve HR at some point it has to be delicate), and full of understanding.

Such a good watch.

Skam-fication of Korean BL.

The Eight Sense is why we need Evak-coded characters grace our screen. The moment Jihyun and Jaewon met is a constant reminder that to me Skam will always be the greatest queer media out there. Because it was true to themselves. And heck, I don't think anything will ever get close to it, until now. Wow.

There was no necessary side couple. Weird filler. Every scene has its purposes and actually push the narrative. The characters did develop. Great cinematography and directing. Phenomenal acting by rookies??? And I had the loudest sigh after finishing it. Thank God for your mercy.

I got shredded in pieces, then stitched bit by bit, and the wound healed in the most pleasant way. I lived by angsty stories and beautiful resolve. From time to time, I wonder when will we get a story that it's just beautifully heartbreaking and still giving a sense of hope at the end of its run. Maybe it will take so many years and a great deal of trial and error until finally we're going to come across something like this.

And finally on a whim, I decided to watch La Pluie. No idea why. Perhaps because the color palette on it seemed soft. Or the idea of having to listen to your soulmate on the rain sounded too whack but somehow I was convinced of the world building that had been going on in the back. Plus, this little pulp never wasted any moment and I appreciate that. There are plots going on in the times when BL just having only vibes without substantial context.

My only beef for now, is the sound. The background sound was too loud, sometimes buried the surrounding sound that supposed to come out. Such as when they talked on the side of the road, I barely couldn't hear any cars or as simple as other people talks. It lessen the believability of this world.

Yet, it's still a good recommendation. Up till now it doesn't make my blood boil for having some stupidity shit that no one couldn't explain. Fingers crossed it could land smoothly. Well somehow it makes me think why I couldn't accept Oxygen but I could embrace this. Big question indeed.

There will be rants coming shortly....

I promised myself to watch Our Skyy then naaah. I kept thinking about the way GMM does things. I've never seen an entertainment agency that bad of handling the misbehavior of their actors. The very obvious way that the only thing they care is just making more money from shitty fan services and merchandises. To make more money from parasocial relationship that they build over time. I don't care if in real life the actors actually close or not. We suppose to don't care in the first place. It's their privacy, in which should not be trading commodities. It's fucked up. Our Skyy is a trading commodity. Well, it has always been trading commodities. But at least don't make that obvious. Dolls, blanket, snacks, it's not fucking smooth at all. I'm bothered. It's not helping the narrative. The narrative is already over. It is a walking ads. That's for sure. You're fucked when the dolls is the one taking over the discussion rather than the story. But well, these days who cares right? People need money, not some substantial storytelling. Not every production house can act like HBO right?

[not-another-lesbian-stereotype]

hellow seduce me fandom there are literally like 10 of us so i'm making my presence known. i've been lurking for like 3 years cause hot girls forget to verify their emails. i am entirely unable to avoid over analyzing every piece of media i consume so you better believe i'll start posting long winded diatribes about things no one asked for!!

here are some of my defining characteristics to promote some funky parasocial relationships on tumblr dot com

🪷infp, 2w3, all that jazz

🪷 classic literature enjoyer but in a silly billy way i swear

🪷 good for her movies have fundamentally defined my personality

🪷 my top 5 artists are: Hozier, Melanie Martinez, Lizzy Mcalpine, Mitski, and Lana del Rey

my messages/comments are always open to other seduce me superfans (none of my irl friends know ab it plz)

#scaredtoputthisundertheseducemetag #guysillentermyactivepostingeraiswear

[djxiao]

what is the mot naive thing you believe in kpop? that you also hold for a long time? mine was idols diet were always like that ie eating potato, apple, protein shake etc etc. took me months to discover that they actually not even eat 💀 also their skintone. deadass thought they're as fair as white A4 paper 😭 while they're actually being whitewashed in photos.. (although there are some idols who naturally fair)

you’ve really stumped me on this one sorry i took so long to answer but i really had to give it some thought! i try to be as realistic with myself as possible like i know not to believe everything that is presented to us and that not everything is always at it seems. but i guess i like to believe idols in real life are more or less how they act on screen. i’m not talking about being extra energetic for the camera or having to pretend they don’t know about swearing or sex or whatever and i’m not taking about the friendships either because i know some of them are just coworkers and i’m fine with that. what i’m saying is for my own peace of mind i don’t like to worry about whether any idols are secretly assholes or awful people etc. like if something comes out about them being shitty or they have a major fuck up then i’ll deal with it but until something happens i want to just enjoy my delulu parasocial relationships without constantly doubting if the version we see of them is their authentic self.

the whitewashing is so pervasive that you almost never see them without those awful filters on :/ and as for diets i don’t think we can make such generalized statements. it’s definitely not easy coming to the realization that the body standards are super toxic in the industry, but i don’t think it’s right to assume what they are or aren’t eating. they’re already under so much pressure from the company and even from critical comments online so i try to let idols be without speculating about what they eat or how their body looks. as someone who has struggled with ed issues it would be my worst nightmare to have thousands of people analyzing every bite i take (regardless of whether it’s well-meaning or not). personally i prefer to stay out of those sorts of discussions because the ways i see most people talking about it seem to be doing more harm than good.

[ghostfilecabinet]

Thank you for saying that it’s good to be aware when it comes to parasocial relationships. I do think Shane and Ryan are best friends but really, you do never know. I mean a good example is One Direction. They would swear up and down that they were brothers and would side eye people who dared to think they were faking being friends, but it turns out their friendships were for the most part fake. 🤷🏻‍♀️

And before that, I was a huge fan of Panic! At The Disco, and watched live as that band fell apart, messier than Zayn and One Direction. Gotta thank these bands for teaching me over and over again how little we know about what goes on in the background.

I like to believe that Shane and Ryan are 65% sincere in the things they show us; which for me, is the sweet spot - healthy for themselves and for us. But I refuse to be caught off guard again, and I think Shane and Ryan would absolutely want us all the have a healthy dose of skepticism.