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takeyourcyanide · 20 days

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my words don’t sound like my own anymore I wish I could be told if they still are but I don’t think they are whose are they then I know they crawl inside of the vessel sometimes but I didn’t think they’d stick but I’m unsure if it’s purely them or if they put others inside idk idk but I want to be the only one inside of the form please can someone tell me what’s happening to me but I know what’s happening it’s just them and if they say it they are lying to me are they not fooling me attempting to

#I’m so confused #no more timeline no more nothing all just distant blurry memories I struggle to visualize and make sense of at times #but i get hit with it #I’m confused #do I sound overdramatic and stupid because if I say this or something adjacent I get those looks #I swear to you I’m not or am I now I hope they’ve not replaced me I don’t think they have #I’m rarely hit with an old burning memory #caretaker reference #but then I see one #and it confuses me #it’s disorienting #even if only from months ago when I was first on here #I don’t remember anything and I don’t recognize that individual in many ways #I can’t recognize anyone anymore they all look like strangers even if somewhere in my brain knows who they’re technically supposed to be #can’t recognize my own vessel actually it is sincerely disturbing to stare at sincerely #I don’t even know who it’s supposed to be until I remind myself I’m looking in a mirror #the replacements too #yes?#I shouldn’t allow them to gaslight me and I’m not but I’m scaring and confusing myself a lot and I partially don’t even know why anymore

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