#no i don't want to see you romanticizing your bpd

[bladeofthestars]

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[icyg4l]

PAC: Romanticize the Fall 🍂

Hello beautiful people! Welcome to the season of fall! I hope you all are having a wonderful start to this season. Today's reading will be all about how you can improve your fall by adding simple things to your routine. If you would like to book a reading, go to my pinned post and check out my guidelines and then click on my booking website to confirm the details. So without further ado, select the pile that resonates with you.

Top Left-to-Bottom Right: (1-3)

Pile One: As I was pulling for this pile, I heard the word "pathologize". It basically means to treat someone as abnormal or unhealthy. You guys may be Vitamin D deficient or are prone to depression/anxiety. You may even struggle with OCD or BPD. There is nothing wrong with acknowledging this properly. The best form of action may be for you to get diagnosed in order to fully enjoy this season. It feels like you need something to look forward to when it gets cold. Try to get out of your house and see what's going on in your community when it comes to fitness. If you're trying to save money, look out for some free fitness sessions. Go attend a pilates session if your school has one. You give me 2000s soccer mom vibes. Just show up and you will see how quickly your life changes! Your health will become of utmost importance to you. Treat it as such. You only have one body so treat it with kindness while you're still here. Lock in and you will see the world more clearly.

Cards Used: 8 of Swords, Prince of Cups, King of Cups, 10 of Discs

extras: ibs symptoms. seasonal depression. freedom. jimmy fallon. attachment issues. snoring. pleasers. mirror by the bed.

Pile Two: Pile Two, I can tell that you have a playful side to you. You're someone that is tapped in with you're inner child. I am seeing a kid run in front of their tv in their pajamas and admiring what's on it. You should get back to doing that. Make it your goal to watch something that you loved to indulge in as a kid. For some of you, it was Spongebob. For some of you, it was Hannah Montana. For others of you, it was Henry Danger. Grab a snack after work or after school and just watch whatever your childhood self loved! Another thing that you could do is bake cookies to welcome in the fall season. I am seeing those pumpkin sugar cookies that Pillsbury makes in my third eye. Eat some pumpkin/chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream! Buy some fall chips from Trader Joe's. Engage with your senses, lovely!

Cards Used: The Moon, 4 of Discs, 6 of Discs, The Emperor.

extras: italiano. foxy brown. vic mensa. doughboy. fallen branches. freezer burn. retired partier. wintrust bank. forman mills.

Pile Three: This diva! Baby, if you are feeling lonely, then you need to open up your mouth! If you want some company, then just say that! You're way too prideful and it's costing you in human connections, whether it's romantic or platonic. Some of you could be into ghost stories or conspiracy theories. There is someone around you that is into the same shit. By refusing to make connections with other people, you are rejecting a part of yourself. Some of you may be traumatized by past experiences. Others of you may be in a codependent relationship. It's time for you to branch out, babe. I am channeling the movie 'The Perks of Being a Wallflower' (hopefully your experience is nothing too similar like this movie lol). I am seeing two people walking through the leaves, talking enthusiastically to one another. You don't have to dream about it! Actualize it, love!

Cards Used: 2 of Cups, The Devil (RX), 5 of Discs, 3 of Cups.

extras: brass kunckles. humming at night. spooky season. pride events. hamptons. labor day. simon says. comic book nerd.

[transfemme-sys]

Addressing A Racist Issue In The MOGAI Community (TW : discussion of racism, sexualization, and mentioned SA)

hey. this blog isn't active, and the part behind it isn't active in my system either, but i do still exist. this used to be a MOGAI blog, as i am someone who considered myself (and still do consider myself) a part of the MOGAI community. unfortunately, i kept losing motivation to make flags and the blog has since been abandoned.

that's not what i'm here to discuss. i'm here to talk about an issue i've noticed in the community that has been irritating me for a while : yandere related genders.

for those who don't know, a yandere is a japanese anime trope used to a describe an individual (most often, a woman) who is madly and unhealthily in love with someone, often going to extreme lengths to try and achieve that person's attention.

i am a japanese trans woman with BPD. those who self identify as yanderes most often claim its a label exclusive to those with BPD or OLD, but this is where i see an issue begin. out of everyone i've seen 'reclaiming' this label, *none of them are japanese*. they say the term yandere is harmful against those with BPD and OLD and romanticizes the disorder, which i don't even necessarily disagree with, but here's the thing; the term yandere, most often, is used to sexualize, oppress, and stereotype japanese women. i have experienced things like this myself, firsthand, and i'm sure i'm not the only one out there.

we are fetishized, treated like objects of nothing but attraction. every white weeb wants a yandere anime girlfriend, it'd be so cool to be loved like that to them, but they see a japanese woman on the street and catcall her and call her slurs. asian fishing white women love to cosplay yanderes, but constantly steal and appropriate japanese culture without a second thought to it. the white man may joke with his friends about his new japanese girlfriend, calling her kawaii and yandere and unique for showing even the slightest bit of affection and love for him.

i have never been called a yandere for my BPD. i have seen myself and plenty of others be called yanderes for being japanese. it is, in my opinion, not your term to reclaim. you are not viewed inescapably as 'nekos', 'lolis' 'anime girls', and yes, 'yanderes' in the way that we are. you are not sexually assaulted and harassed and hatecrimed for your BPD like we have been.

i ask, respectfully, that non japanese people stop self identifying with this term. please help spread awareness to this issue with me, share this post in any way you can. i am tired of experiencing constant racism even in safe spaces like the MOGAI community, and i ask that you help me bring an end to it.

thank you, and please be mindful of your actions.

[ask-miasma-ghoul]

I'm not the one writing a fucking roleplay to romanticize mental illness, what the fuck are you talking about? It doesn't make you fun or quirky. Literally just make a roleplay about anything else. Nobody wants to see you shit on mentally ill people. I keep anonymous on so that I don't get flooded with fucking hate for calling you out.

~ y'allllll I'm romanticizing mental illness by writing a slasher dude who actively seeks help but keeps failing and feels miserable about it, and this person is making mental illness realistic by yelling at someone for writing "BPD/NPD" in the same character sheet as a murderer

You must have a lot of confidence in your argument to think what you are saying will receive hate and disagreement :3

[lxndmine]

Hii I recently learned the term Jirai (is that how it's spelled?) but idk anything about it!! Aside from being a fashion style it's also a lifestyle and by extension I'd assume a mindset and/or set of behaviors. I was wondering if you could explain it to me, if that's not a bother? I'm just very curious and I'd like to hear about it from someone who knows what they're talking about and you seem like that person!

You totally don't have to ofc, thank you for your time and I hope you have a lovely day!! :)

HIHI im pretty glad someone thinks im someone who can do that !!! ill do my best to explain but theres a ton of other really amazing blogs who have some really good information as well, and i can point you to some if youd like ^^

"Jirai" means "landmine", essentially. It's a Japanese slang term that refers to women who seem cute and nice on the surface but are actually prone to "exploding"- it's essentially a negative term used against women by men. Basically like calling someone a psycho or insane or crazy. Particularly used against mentally ill women, often as a negative BPD or Bipolar stereotype. It also has associations with a gang in Japan called the "Toyoko Kids"- mainly runaway teenagers in Kabukicho (a "red-light district"). I won't get too much into that though as I'm personally not the best source on that information and tons of people online cover it.

A lot of the community around it is essentially embracing this stereotype- so its very important to note that the community is not always the best place for someone going through recovery. You'll see people romanticizing their illnesses, addictions, and other behaviors. You're going to see people have emotional outbursts and breakdowns and generally fit the exact stereotypes i talked about. That's the "lifestyle" aspect- embracing mental illness no matter if you're recovering or not. And that includes the ugliest bits that people don't want to see.

People like me and other lifestyle landmines particularly dislike "fashion-onlys" for this reason. We perceive it as people invading a space for the mentally ill and people who are generally being abandoned by society and trying to make it for them, even if it is not. So we especially dislike people who try to change what Jirai is to make it just the clothes- because this is a community we relate to and is something for us.

As for the clothes- the Jirai clothes you're likely thinking of probably fall under "Dark Girly" or Girly-Kei. Companies call them Jirai-Kei clothes as more or less a marketing tactic- and it IS true that most landmines are associated with Dark Girly fashion. You don't need to fall under Jirai Kei to wear the clothes we're associates with, and not all landmines wear Dark Girly! I personally wear Dark Girly clothes, but there's plenty of landmines who don't and that is perfectly okay.

I'm hoping this helps !! And other Jirais seeing this please feel free to make corrections if i forgot smth or accidentally messed smth up. Knowing me thats entirely possible !!

[mewos-laptop]

Yoooo intro post ???? ‼‼‼

Hey gamers, uhhh I'm Mewo/Albedo/Fruity and this is my general/mix of so much shit blog !!! My other one is strictly alterhuman based primarily, but I wanted one that my irl friends are permitted to be privy to lmao

Abt me: I'm queer, generally using the label "gay" for myself, an agender trans boy, and polyamorous aromantic/fictoromantic. I use a shit ton of pronouns, but I primarily use it/its and he/him. I'm diagnosed with clinical anxiety (over most of the anxiety disorder spectrum, so including OCD and social), depression, and (localized) Hypermobile Spectrum Disorder (HSD), and am self diagnosed autistic, ADHD, BPD and UDD.

Recognized dissasociative traumagenic/multigenic collective of five and counting. Questioning UDD. We do not tolerate fakeclaiming of our identity, nor do we owe you the information of us being traumagenic or recognized as dissasociative in the first place. Know your place, because you are on OUR blog.

SPEAKING OF WHO I AM, KIN LIST JUST DROPPED Y'ALL (Subject to change/being outdated bc I don't have enough time in my day to add and remove every single questioning kin everytime smth happens in my brain XD)

We also have a list of fellas which may front, and information about them.

I'm an alterhuman, a xenogender user, and generally the cringiest person you'll meet !!! I enjoy alt fashion, horror media, poetry, music, Honkai Star Rail and other Gacha games, character design, psychology and the science of mental illnesses, and much more !! Sunday mainly posts abt political opinions and shit, so watch out for that and block his tag if need be :3

I'm a scene kid in style/music taste and a punk in ideals, sparkledog nightmare cringe boyfailure, baby Kandi kid, and the scary faggot transspecies the conservatives warned you about.

Oh yeah, I'm also a minor (16-18 age range) sooo NSFW/NSFT dni plsss Xp

Other DNI shit. I don't cover everything, but I do just block ppl who make me uncomfortable :3

-Including an entire new paragraph for this bc holy shit. THOSE WHO ARE NOT PLURAL WHO ENGAGE IN SYSCOURSE DO NOT INTERACT. You do not belong in the conversation regarding them, and do not have the experience of those who are plural. Absolutely do not interact with me. I would also prefer for anti endos and anti-leaning neutrals to not interact. If I see you are anti endo and following me I WILL clown on you. It's quite frankly none of your business if sum1 is disordered or not, and I'm fucking tired of dealing with this bullshit. Live your life how you want, endos are not opressing you, and I do not give a shit if they describe their lived experience as plural. The brain is confusing and we do not fully understand the origins of systemhood fully. There are many debates still ongoing in the medical community, and until they come to a concensus that 100% is agreed on and 100% proves that endos are secretly lying to you, until that point comes, if it ever does, then we accept endos on our page, no questions asked.

-Identity police (specifically ppl who hate "conflicting" queer identities, bc literally sum1's identity has nothing to do w/ you XD), proshippers (I am fully aware it's fiction, no, I do not hate those who engage with hard topics in fiction, but that does not mean I want the romanticized view of those things for the titillation of the viewer on my dash, ESPECIALLY due to it triggering my intrusive thoughts), racists, homophobes, transphobes, Zionists, pro-cringeculture, anti-recovery blogs, anti-alterhuman, intersexists, radfems, radqueers, xenosatanists, transmisogynists and transandrophobes blah blah blah y'all get it.

BYI: I will post the occasional vent, I have a godawful memory, and I am severely mentally ill. I will often react before thinking when I am in states of distress, and my BPD can make me inappropriately angry, or inappropriately emotional. I have a hard time remembering trigger tags at times due to my bad memory, so please give me gentle reminders if I mistag something, or if I forget to tag something for you. Just in general, if I do something that makes you uncomfortable, give me a gentle reminder, because chances are I just literally didn't realize/or I forgot.

Alr bye bye :3

[justalilpearlie]

!! Intro !! (updated)

Hello everyone, my name is PearlescentMoon

Hihi! I'm Pearl! Magic is quite a fine name aswell. Although I'm a man of many names ;)

I am a minor, my gender labels are gendervoid verinix, tho I also ID as bigender and ftm (fem presenting tho! not transmasc, just trans man)! I'm queer, leaning on mlm, tho I also like girls here and there.

I go by He/Xe. I can She/Her myself + close friends/mutuals are allowed, but refrain from doing so without explicit permision please. (I also use neos: Void/Moon/Sweet/It/Fluff/Love/Fizz/Paw)

I'm from Argentina, born and raised, never moved. Speak fluent english and spanish.

I'm autistic and I have ADHD aswell as BPD and a few other things I wont list right now! But yeah I'm psychotic (ooo scary word.. lmao)

Matching with @teapot-of-tyrahn !!

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I'm an IRL of many, mainly c!Pearl (mcyt), c!Magic(outsmp+psmp), Samuel Emily (fnaf [games canon]) and Shin Tsukimi (yttd). If you don't like it you can leave, block me, or whatever, cause you aint gonna change my life or how I am. I'm in therapy, which unlike random hate and harrassment online, does help me :)

I like to stream, roleplay, draw, sometimes make playlists or moodboards.. And my biggest interests right now are the Outsiders SMP, The Hatchetfield Musicals, Life Series and Empires 1.

I use kin tags for reach cause I'd love interaction from any mediamates!! Specially from Outsiders <3

Fictionkins, therians and traumagenic systems all welcome!

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DNI prefferably:

- Basic DNI criteria (proshippers, homophobes, transphobes, racists, TERFs, ableist, etc)

- Endos/non-traumagenic "systems" DNI. block me if u want, i wont argue abt it in the comments/reblogs. or interact if u want but im not gonna follow u back or anythin shrugs.

- reality checkers or anti-IRLs DNI. I aint "romanticizing" shit, I'm existing and living my life, if thats a problem to you too bad cause my psychologist aproves of what I'm doing, since I aint harming anyone and I myself am doing dandy.

- anti-kin also DNI cause most of my friends are fictionkins and if you talk shit abt my fellas idk i wouldnt like having u around much

CCs I'd rather if you didn't interact, but if you shall do so anyways, do so at your own risk, you've been warned. /lh

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"Disclaimer"

- I talk about MajorMoon (Scott x Pearl) a LOT, if u didnt notice by the acc theme. These are my romantic memories, its a gay ship, not woman/gay man, so if it makes u uncomfortable or u hate it or whatever then ur probably not gonna like my content lmao. COUGH, consider joining us if you do like what you see... /nf We're a small comunity of supporters.. just me.. and a few of my peeps... that was a joke, sir. /ref

- This isn't roleplay, its my main acc where im ""unapologetically"" myself, but if u do wanna rp outsiders/life series/empires/fnaf u can always shoot me a dm and maybe I'll give u my discord.

- I talk about myself (c!Pearl) using 3rd person in many posts tagged with main fandom tags. This is to cause less confusion to casual fans slash ""normies"" (lhj) that well.. don't know what IRLs are! Also that way I feel safer and don't have to worry as much abt getting harassed and such for my identity.

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Special People Mentions!! fps = * (1 or more.. wouldnt say in a priority sorta order but. more or less yea)

Family! <3 🌼 @pehpurr* SISTER!! YOU'RE AMAZING, DAISY. SO SO GREAT. YOUR ART IS INCREDIBLE, YOU ARE SO PASSIONATE ABOUT EVERYTHING YOU DO, YOU ARE SO VERY CARING FOR OTHERS, SO KIND AND TALENTED, A GREAT WRITER AND THE BEST BEST SISTER I COULD EVER ASK FOR!! Scar, you changed my life, you were there for me when I needed you the most, I know you ALWAYS have my back. You're kind to me even when the world isn't, and know that even if we fight or if you do things I disagree with (ehem forgiving too much ppl /lht), I will never leave you, and I will never stop coming after you. I love you, Kanna. You're the best Peeps, keep it up, for you're a beacon of hope in everyone's lives. I'm so proud. ♡ ⚙️ @gentlexmadman DAD!! I FREAKING LOVE YOU DAD OMG!! I am SO very happy we got to spend our first fathers day together even if just a little, you made this the first year I was actually happy to celebrate it, looking forward to it and making a gift of my own :) Im so so happy to have you in my life. You are, likewise to Pepper, an AMAZING artist, so much detail, just so awesome in general. I love hearing all your silly stories about work and the people you know, old man. Thank you for being with me, papá, I never thought I'd actually find you again. Thank you so so very much. ♡

🐸 @bigb-enthusiast SIBLING!! MY SIBLING IN ZAYA OH MY GOODNESS IS THAT USER BIGB ENTHUSIAST?? YES IT SURE IS!! Bro I could listen to ur analysis and rambles til the end of the world u got the best ideas ever wtf!!?? Ur very freakin insane but also ur my best buddy, my nosey neighbor for life!! I appreciate u a lot, Bee, my favorite insane asylum escapee ♡

🔪 @skywardspecter OECAAAAA HEY ZACH ILYSM BROTHER!! YOUR ROLEPLAY AND WRITINGS ARE AAAAA-MAZE-ING !! I RLLY WANNA MEET U IRL!! UR SO GOOD AT ROLEPLAY AND ART, YOU'RE SO CREATIVE AND BRIGHT UR LIKE A BALL OF SUNSHINE!! U PUT UP W A LOT RUNNING SM SERVERS BUT U ALWAYS GET BACK UP AND I THINK THATS ADMIRABLE!! AND IDK VIANS TUMBLR BUT SHOT OUT TO VIAN AND ORCA TOO !! VIANS SUCH A GREAT SUPPORTIVE FRIEND FR NO MATTER WHAT AND ORCA IS SUCH A KIND AND FUNNY GUY, VERY UNDERSTANDING <33 I LOVE U GUYS!! U MAKE ME FEEL SAFE, LIVE LAUGH LOVE MAGIC MAZE ♡

🥣 @rennyus SOUP OMGGG HAI SIBLIIIING ILYSM !!! GGHHH YOU. YOU ARE SO GREAT AND PATIENT WITH ME, YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED YOU AND YOU'VE NEVER EVER JUDGED ME FOR ANYTHING!! I LOOOOVE HEARING ABT UR MEMORIES THEYRE ALWAYS SO SO SWEET <33 I RLLY HOPE U FIND UR WIVES SOMEDAY CAUSE ALL I WANT IS TO SEE U HAPPY SIB ♡

🐟 Aussi, MY AMAZING COUSIN OMG?? IDK UR USER HERE BUT!! WE'VE BEEN THRU SOOO SO MUCH TOGETHER, EVEN WITH THE PERIODS WE DONT TALK MUCH IN, I LOOOOVE GETTING INTO THINGS U LIKE OR WHEN U TAKE THE TIME TO GET INTO THE STUFF I ENJOY TOO!!! UR FRIENDS ARE ALSO VERY SILLY N I LOVE PLAYIN PHASMO WITH YALL! I LOOOVE ALL THE MEMORIES WE SHARE TOGETHER AND THESE TWO YEARS OF COUSINSHIP HAVE BEEN AMAZING!! TO MANY MANY MORE YEARS COUSIN!! LOVE YOU TONS ♡

Simply special <3 ☕ @insomniac-coffeehouse** You're all simply so very special to me. I love every second we spend together. I love seeing yall thrive. I love your insane yet endearing behavior. You might be a bit unhinged sometimes, and admittedly not the healthiest person when it comes to your schedules, but I'm just so proud of everything you create and accomplish. I hope you get to accomplish all your dreams, and I hope I can be here to see that happen, if you let me :)! For many years more, cause I'm just oh so glad I met you. You spark joy in my brain and my heart <3 From the bottom of my heart, I'm in love with the hope you bring to this world. 🍊 Jack***, Oh my dearest, where do I even begin with you, sport... you trully are my soulmate, my other half... mi media naranja, if you will, heh.. Every second I get to spend with you is like heaven, no matter whats going on, I know everything will be alright cause I have you. You mean absolutely everything to me, my Hero, I know you'll always be there for me. You are the sweetest man I've ever met, and I'm so proud of the person you've become. If I had to choose between you or the world I'd choose you 10 times over, and I can say surely, that you'd do the same. I love every single detail about you, thank you for being so patient with me, you're wonderful, cielo. I love your voice, I love your eyes, I love your smile, your laughter. I love your use of words, the way you speak, your humor, your seriousness and stupidness. You stiff fuck, you were made for me and I was made for you, and I wouldn't have it any other way. You're my everything, mi vida, mi luz, mi estrella. Mi amor, mi mundo. ♡

Friends! 🏜️ @thecranewivesrpf My right hand man!! OMG we havent talked in a WHILE but ILYSM !!! MY SECOND IN COMMAND IN THE MAJORMOON SERVER FRFR!! WE SHOULD TALK AGAIN, I MISS U POOKIE </3

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That's it for now folks, love yall and see you around!

[dinozarr]

› ˖ ͘ ★⠀TRACK BYLAWS . . . ❞

CZAR o YOCIÉL ⸝⸝ ❪⠀ABBY ANDERSONS L♡VR⠀❫ ♱⠀please read everything that is listed below. therefore, if you ever have any questions or concerns don't be afraid to dm them to me, i will try my best to answer them at a timely manner.

(ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ BEFORE YOU FOLLOW . . . i don't necessarily mind if my works are posted on other platforms, as long as proper credit is given. i also don't mind translations either considering the fact i speak spanish myself. however, if i find a work of mine posted to a different platform, or even on here, without any proper credit, then there will be a problem.

⠀ please do not overly like my posts because tumblr will think i am a bot, when i am not. do not like more than five posts at a time because that can/will affect the state of my blog. if you do not listen to this, then i will have no other choice but to block/mute you.

(ﾉ´ з `)ノ I DO NOT WRITE FOR . . . sukuna. anything that is sexual content with minors, seeing as i am nineteen. this also includes aging up minors for sexual desires (you're fuckin weird if you do). dubcon. noncon. cnc. incest/stepcest. grape/s3xual 4ssault. pregnancy anything. somnophilia. pedophilia. teacher x student (only teacher x assis. teacher is acceptable). feet kink. piss kink. orgies. ed’s. race play. pet play. scat. mpreg. large age gaps. breast feeding. age regression. DDBG. MDBG. suic!de/s3lf h4rm. scat. yandere (this romanticizes ppl with bpd so absolutely not).white readers. eating disorders. abusive characters. p3dophelic characters. vore. necrophelia.

(♡-_-♡) I DO WRITE FOR . . . on my blog i will write for any/all of the things that i'm interested in. ranging from the marvel cinematic universe, to five nights at freddy's. if you request a character or idol i am unaware of/have no knowledge on, i will try my best to do research on them. if you do so happen to request a minor character x reader, i will only write sfw content. if you request anything else you will be hard blocked. don't try to be slick with it either.

(๑˘︶˘๑) DO NOT INTERACT . . . wattpad writers/new tumblr users that come from wattpad (y’all r so unoriginal i cant fathom). men/male identifying people (this is literally a lesbian account). white people. dsmp fans. stray kids fans (specifically bangchan fans). leia apologists (black swan). kids under 15 (you're a middle schooler and i'm in college, so it makes me a tad bit uncomfortable). racists. white celebrity stans. homophobes. transphobes. fatphobes. ableists. yandere lovers. he/him lesbian haters (kys fr).

⠀genderfluid/nonbinary lesbian haters (kys ×2). female-identifying venom simps (he's literally fucking gay, you're weird). female-identifying BL/yaoi readers. coryxkenshin haters (you deserve absolutely nothing). you age up minors to write smut for them. miles morales antis. you anti any of my favs !!

♡ ～('▽^人) FOR MINORS . . . i won't block you if you're a minor because that'd be extremely hypocritical of me since i was introduced to wattpad/smut at a young age. however, it does make me uncomfortable when i'm AWARE of the fact that minors are on my account. so i don't care if it's in your bio, just don't explicitly tell me you're under 18. i am not responsible for what you read on the internet nor am i responsible for you not liking my works. if you don't, then leave cause it wasn't for you in the first place.

(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ FOR REQUESTS . . . you can send requests to my inbox whenever you'd like. but, just know that i have a job, so i might not be able to always get to your requests as quickly as you'd like me to. i also always put my works first because they mean the most to me. if you want to request anonymously then dm me and i will turn them on for you. but only if it’s a request because i won’t turn anons on otherwise.

⠀when it comes to writing actual fanfic STORIES (not oneshots), i will only ever write for “x oc”. i don’t write real stories for “x readers”, only oneshots, drabbles, and thirsts.

[biribaa]

bpd anon again. respectfully, and apologies for the bluntness, but its still weird as fuck to treat the behaviors and traits that come directly from an already stigmatized personality disorder and turn them into a scary "twisted romance" or whatever, especially for a romantic fantasy. even if its not your intention, it still comes across as VERY fetishizing, and it makes a LOT of people uncomfortable. I myself have the flavor of bpd that makes me look VERY similar to the typical yandere! (unstable mood, extremely clingy, destructive behaviors, etc) and its led to some of the people I meet to either think the worst of me because of my behaviors, or think its "hot" and view me as their ideal "yandere partner." because even if you can separate them, a lot of people don't.

sure, there's people with bpd out there that don't mind the yandere trope and in fact embrace/reclaim it. I did that myself for a while. but at the end of the day it is still a VERY harmful trope that HAS affected how people view bpd. I myself stopped identifying with the trope bc it just led me into more spirals of me being an awful person- bc thats how it's treated, whether it's out of hatred or fetishization. I don't think you have ill intentions by any means I'm just. Trying to educate you on a matter that is incredibly important to me yk. I don't mean to traumadump I'm just trying to illustrate how the trope has caused harm to people like me. it genuinely pisses me off to no end to see people post about traits and behaviors that I've struggled with for YEARS, apply them to fictional characters, and treat them like this "morbidly attractive" thing for their own romantic fantasy. it feels really gross.

because again, you may be able to separate them, but the yandere trope still takes a lot from bpd. and as a result it has harmed people with the disorder whether it be by other people viewing them as such, or the bpd person themselves thinking they're a monster because of this trope that exaggerates their behaviors and traits, further contributing to the stigma around an ALREADY SITGMATIZED disorder. it's almost like how the trope of "evil split personality" has contributed to the stigma surrounding people with DID and other similar disorders. it's great you can separate fiction from reality, but that doesn't the effect it's already HAD on reality. you remember that "irl yandere girl" case ?? yeah that's an extreme case of what happens when a trope based off a mental illness becomes popular 😭

I apologize again if this came across as aggressive or like an attack. lemme reiterate I don't think you have any ill intentions and I especially don't think you're a bad person. I'm just trying to genuinely educate you on a serious topic like this. I am just tired and upset and Im not very rational when Im feeling like that :') ur welcome to disregard everything I said and continue on with ur life, as I obviously have no control over what you do. but at least give it some consideration, please.

Alright, I will think about it and thank you anon for spending ur time to write this to educate me.

I still like the trope but I dont want to contribute to that stigma. So with all you gave me I will think of a way to prevent readers romanticize it themselves(maybe put mor warnings about it? Not sure but im open to suggestions jddhdjjdjeh)

Again im sorry my content made you uncomfortable, and youre not traumadumping at all so dont worry and im sorry for what happened to you. I will be more considered in the power my words hold.

[raincamp]

i feel like i might romanticize/glamorize SH too much, as someone with BPD + histrionic traits, romanticizing harmful/self destructive acts that get me attention is just a part of my disorder, and i try to keep it to just myself & not expose other people to it unwillingly, bc i dont believe in encouraging other people to start or to relapse

but i decided to make a post talking about the cons/bad parts of SH to cancel it out

obvious trigger warning

why you shouldn't self harm / the cons

- blood stains on everything. your mattress, your bedsheets, your favorite blanket, your comfy sweatshirt. how bad it feels knowing your whites will never be perfectly white again.

- it hurts. i mean. listen. you can say pain feels good etc etc but be fr our human instincts really don't enjoy it we just like the afteraffects/endorphins that come from it, pain by definition is uncomfortable

- having to get medical attention, or acquire medical knowledge that most people dont have. knowing the layers of skin and where all the arteries are. the fear of hitting arteries. hitting arteries and having to get help. having to pay for stitches.

- the constant need to be deeper, the never feeling like its enough, almost, almost feeling the satisfaction but never actually achieving it. the frustration after you fail. the shame of even trying.

- the addiction. the fact that its going to haunt you for the rest of your life. you could be clean for 10, 25, 40 years and you will still instinctually want to SH anytime something goes wrong and you dont feel like you can cope. you'll constantly be fighting yourself for the rest of your life.

- scars haven't ever really been a con for me tbh. but sometimes i think about the fact that i did it to myself, that theyre permanent, and theyre never going to go away, and it hits me, how a single decision can affect the entire rest of my life. permanently. and i have nobody to blame but myself. and it sucks.

- when you sh for attention and it works, and the shame you feel immediately afterward. and worse, when you get attention/validation from your scars after youve been clean for a long time and you feel like you conned & faked your way into it, and it taints the validation you were recieving.

- "promise me you'll stop 🥺 youre too pretty to do that 🥺 stop for me 🥺" when you roll up your sleeves after making a new friend and they dont get that its an addiction/that youve been clean for a while/ that you cant promise to stop because relapse is inevitable and promising will make it worse/ that its none of their fucking business jfc

- being unable to look at normal, mundane objects like razors, pencil sharpeners, exacto knives, box cutters, knives, etc. without being triggered.

- when you realize its been 10 years since you started and you STILL think about it on a regular basis.

- the itching. the nerve/sensation loss on scars. the weird zapping pains that happen years afterward. infections. the pain lasting for days/weeks. constant aftercare.

- scars fading and being triggered. seeing your scars in the mirror and being triggered. seeing other peoples scars and being triggered. seeing people score bread and being triggered. when people cut normal things and it looks just like sh and being triggered.

- clothes sticking to fresh cuts.

- either urges to relapse during winter because its easier to hide everything or overheating in the summer because you couldnt wait till winter. or both

- other people starting sh because of you. other people shing because of you. this has happened to me multiple times. i started someone's self harm addiction on accident. i can never forgive myself for it.

- forming other addictions to stop relapsing sh. being unable to stop one without leaning hard into the other. or doing both at the same time.

[neuromantis]

every time i want to talk about dissociation, i... just don't know how to approach it. i get ashamed of myself. i feel like. well. you know i am a liar. but i never think i am more of a liar than when i talk about my "family". sure, i kind of made them into characters that have a story, but like. what is actually happening inside my head is not at all reflected in that story. it's not like... it's not like the people in my head are really... like... people.

i did the thing with characters because it was a way to make myself "normal". as in "i am just a creative person with ocs and i wonder how far i can take it", but when your "ocs" are based on your fragmented identity that is a result of trauma... it's like. sugar-coating it? romanticizing? also playing into the common thought that dissociation is about dress-up and characters.

in 99% of the cases you won't even notice i switched. the point of dissociation is masking. you don't want people to see that. it's for your protection. with my shitty memory i can only remember a couple of times other people really noticed. the disparity between my "worksona" and the identity you perceive me to have is much larger than between me and sis for example.

sure of course my sister is a pastel gay bpd mess, but also my sister is not at all that. i just put that on her like a costume. but i did not put her like a costume on myself. and i don't feel comfortable at all to talk about what she actually is. and even if i do, i feel ashamed. i feel like a liar, i feel like a faker. like. how do you talk about these things?

all my life the only real descriptor i could use for myself was "ambivalent", but my ambivalence is equal to being stuck between a rock and a hard place. how do i explain my trauma when i convinced myself that i don't remember it? or that i liked it? or that it was my fault? how do i explain to my little sister and warn her without... being a bad person?

because i fucking hate the person who explained it to me. i would kill him zero hesitation for that. for putting it all into perspective. realising that the person i loved the most in the world, was actually a monster, i just split off a part of my own fucking psyche to deal with it with a smile and still love him.

and i don't think my little sister would have to deal with significant dissociation (at least i hope not) but i have to somehow explain to her. how trauma happens. what trauma does to people. that she doesn't have to be afraid to talk to me if something happened. but if nothing happened to her specifically... she is smart. and i am not good enough to step around the issue gracefully. so if i poison her by that knowledge... if she hates me as much as i hate the person i hate for opening my eyes... if i destroy all of her happy memories... i am not willing to risk it. but then again. what if one day i am too late?

i don't really care if people think i am cringy or a faker, but like. how do i choose between my sibling's safety and my sibling's happiness?

[lovesick-desires]

MAIN MASTERLIST • ARCANE MASTERLIST

REQUESTS: OPEN (READ REQUESTING RULES SEGEMENT BELOW BEFORE REQUESTING) CURRENTLY WORKING ON: A CORRUPT COVENENT CH. 2 ART/WRITING COMMISSIONS: COMING SOON

INTRODUCTION

Hello! My name is Lovesick and I am a fanfic writer (shocker, I know) and this post is to tell you a little bit about myself and what to expect on this account! I have been writing for the past 12 years and I have my Bachelor's of Art in Creative Writing as my secondary degree. While I am moving forward in my professional life into becoming an Artificial Intelligence Researcher, I would like to use this blog to post my various fanfics. I am currently really into Arcane and will be posting mostly that as well as other various fandoms listed in my masterlist linked above. My requests are currently open but understand that I work full-time and I am also a grad student, so writing fanfic isn't my top priority lol.

DISCLAIMER

I do not condone any of the actions done in my fanfics. I am also saying to not romanticize these actions in individuals in real life. I understand fully that yandere can be seen as a slur(?) to people with BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and it is not my intention to mock those with the disorder. This blog is strictly for fun and nothing more.

GENERIC ACCOUNT RULES

As most fanfic writers do, I have a list of rules you must follow:

I. NO MINORS

I am aware the content on my blog is not explicitly NSFW content; however, I am personally uncomfortable with my content being read by minors. If I see an ageless account follow me, I will block them. If I see an account of someone who states they are under 18 who follows me, I will block them.

II. DO NOT RUSH MY WRITING

I have a life outside this blog. Working full time while being a graduate student is a lot of work. I will try to be consistent with uploads as I understand people want the next chapter asap but understand that I have a life.

III. I WRITE WHAT I WANT TO WRITE WHEN I WRITE IT

At the end of the day, this is my blog and I will post what I want when I want (not to be rude lol). Just understand that I will not do every request sent to me or immediately post chapter after chapter of a fic. Sometimes it could be weeks to months. Understand that please.

IV. DO NOT REPOST MY CONTENT WITHOUT PERMISSION

I do not mean like the reblog function, I mean copy-pasting my fics onto another site or using my art without permission. Just so you know, I am a witch and all my fanfics and art are protected with a protection spell, so I wouldn't test me if I were you. (damn that sounds mean, sorry lol)

WHAT I DO/DON’T WRITE

This is a list of what I will write: (ignore the format I’m doing this on mobile rn I’ll fix it on my laptop later)

➼ Yandere x Reader Fanfics (One-Shot or Chaptered)

➼ Yandere Character Headcanons

➼ Yandere Character Alphabets

➼ Yandere Oneshots w/ Prompts

➼ Non-Yandere Character x Reader

➼ Fluff/Angst Character X Reader

This is a list of what I don’t write:

➼ Character X Character Fics of any kind

➼ Smut

➼ Teacher X Student Cliché

REQUESTING RULES

If you are interested in sending a request, please follow the rules below.

I. NO SMUT

I will not be writing smut on this account due to being apothisexual. It makes me uncomfortable to even think of, sorry.

II. NO RUN-ON SENTENCES

I know this is a weird rule, but I am neurodivergent and run-on sentences make it hard for me to properly understand the request. Simple requests would be preferred such as: Character: [CHARACTER NAME] Fandom: [FANDOM NAME] Concept: [yada yada yada] This would help me a lot to better comprehend your request and I would be more likely to do it!

III. BE CONCISE AND CLEAR

Please don't ramble for a while about possibilities, just give me the basics of what you want the fic to be so I can at least get some creative liberty.

IV. NO STRICTLY GENDERRED READER REQUESTS

Please do not ask the reader to be a specific gender or biological sex such as Male, Female, AFAB, AMAB, Transgender Male (FTM), Transgender Female (MTF), Nonbinary, etc... I want my fanfics to be enjoyed by all and grouping them into a subgroup like that makes it harder for others to enjoy.

V. NO REQUESTING THE FANFICS WITH THE FOLLOWING TOPICS

➼ Non-Con/Dub-Con ➼ Forced Pregnancy ➼ Significant Age Gaps (unless its like a mythical character who is like 100+ like Malleus Draconia, Lilia Vanrouge, etc...) ➼ Suicide or Self Harm ➼ Sexualized Age Regression ➼ Questionable Kinks (Piss, Feet, etc.)

VI. NO CHARACTERS UNDER 18 YEARS OLD

I am barely comfortable writing characters who are 18. I won’t write for any characters under 18 years old.

If you have any questions or concerns, feel free to comment on this post!

[chroniccoolness]

the notes are super worth everyone reading, I'd like to add (and/or reiterate):

the way pw eating disorders, and also untreated people, are not allowed to have opinions on our disorders. this might just be my experience, but I've been treated as if my input on eating disorders is not valuable because i have not recovered and frequently relapse. essentially, because I still experience symptoms and anorexia still shapes the way I think, I get discounted, treated as bad/dangerous/anti-recovery, and told I can't possibly understand how eating disorders work or how to support pwEDs, even though IM LIVING IT. additionally, as someone with paranoia, I see a very similar attitude towards paranoid + psychotic people who aren't fully on meds/in therapy/functioning as or close to an abled person. *we can know our disorders*. ask *us*.

the treatment of PDs. cluster A and C are completely ignored. ASPD, HPD, and NPD only exist to people when they want a scapegoat/"monster" or insult. BPD is the one talked abt 90% of the time, but even then, the information is often inaccurate or incomplete, romanticized, sexualized, refuses to discuss "unpretty" symptoms, and lacks support for anyone but the mythical Perfect Borderline Who's Never Hurt Anyone And Is Totally Self Aware And Has No Bad/"Evil" Thoughts Or Actions

the emphasis on work, value coming from what you can contribute, etc. additonally: the "parasite" excuse for hating landlords. landlords are bad, but it is not because they don't work.

low support autistic/adhd/mentally ill (often ablebodied, often white) people demonizing people with higher needs or more stigmatized symptoms, or refusing to acknowledge that others can suffer more than them.

the common "gay aesthetic" being an able-bodied one

focusing more on language ("Stop saying crazy! stop saying lame!") than actually weeding out the ableist IDEAS in leftist spaces (eugenics is eugenics regardless of whether you're calling us insane cripples or "vulnerable populations with disabilities and mental health conditions").

body positivity being focused around "You can be fat and healthy, so being fat is okay!" as opposed to "the state your body is in does not affect your value or the respect you are worth". fat disabled people still have worth, even if they are never going to be healthy. hell, even if they are unhealthy BECAUSE of their weight (though that's much rarer than fatphobia wants society to believe)

hey fellow crips/neurodivergent individuals,

im considering making a video on ableism within leftism, e.g self-proclaimed leftists saying cripple and using "narcissistic" as an insult. what are some things you'd include?

reblog for a bigger sample size :)

[ari-the-rockstar]

Bpd win !

I have a (now ex) friend with BPD and she was constantly romanticizing BPD. I love rebzyyx's songs but she takes them to another level, constantly obsessing and basically getting such bad euphoria from her new boyfriend. I don't want the same to happen with me and my girlfriend, and she was just...idk. She would regularly brag about her ED and SH and even posted on her IG story that she wanted her GW to be (tw) 45 kg which is MY weight, and she knows that.

She's also been super fucking unhelpful when I try and vent to her, but when she vents to me i'm expected to just yk understand everything. She literally said that she was going to commit unalive if her gf broke up with her, then she sent me a text at fucking 11 pm saying they broke up and did not reply till the next day ✌️anxietyyyy

Anyway I was just so sick of it, she pressured me into showing her my SH and showed me hers UNWARRANTED in broad daylight. She bragged about SHing in class and letting other people see. She bragged about not eating anything & made it intentionally incredibly obvious. I get that she wants validation but that is honestly not my problem and I am not going to stick around someone who is bad for me just because they are dealing with shit (bc i am dealing with shit too)

So yeah, after our latest argument I just snapped and blocked her. And I'm so glad I did ngl, she was just a terrible fucking person to be around and just so soul draining. The way she melted into whoever she was dating was terrible. I know that the whole FP relationship thing and obsession but goddammit I am exhausted of this shit and I am so fucking tired of obsessing over people it is about FUCKING time that I obsess over myself and make MYSELF my new FP

This post was really fucking rambly and stuff but I just needed a place to vent and dump, also I'm just honestly really happy (not euphoric, ik how euphoria feels but this feels like more of a stableish normal joy ?) that she's gone, seriously. No more constant "your partner my partner," no more "look at my SH look at my ED" no more "whos trauma is worse" bullshit

This is also a post to cut off the person who is bad for you, the test is: if they were gone from your life, would you be good or worse? Worse = cut them out that's bullshit

[justalilpearlie]

Introduction/Fun Pearlie Facts

Was abt time I did one of these.

Hello everyone, my name is Pearl, Pearlie or Sam/Sammy if you're feeling like it. Friends also call me Martini sometimes.

I am a minor, my labels... we dont talk about them (fem presenting ftm gay/mlm + trying out gendervoid and verinix + bigender??) uhmm and I go by He/She, tho mostly He/Him by strangers- I can She/Her myself and close friends/mutuals are allowed! (I also go by neos: Void/Moon/Sweet/It/Fluff/Love/Fizz/Paw)

I'm from Argentina, born and raised, never moved. Speak fluent english and spanish.

I got the 'tism and the adhd, aswell as BPD and a few other things I wont list right now! But yeah I'm psychotic (ooo scary word.. lmao)

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I'm an IRL of many, mainly c!Pearl (mcyt), Samuel Emily (fnaf [games canon]) and Shin Tsukimi (yttd). If you don't like it you can leave, block me, or whatever, cause you aint gonna change my life or how I am. I'm in therapy, which unlike random hate and harrassment online, does help me :)

I like to roleplay, draw, sometimes make playlists or moodboards.. And my biggest interests right now are Life Series (+ evo + new life), Empires1(+ a bit of e2) and FNaF! (i dont rlly like the books tho lol..)

I use kin tags for reach cause I'd love interaction from any fellow lifers or empires ppl, hermits aswell!! Tho I havent finished s8 or s9 yet...

Fictionkins, therians and traumagenic systems all welcome!

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DNI prefferably:

- Basic DNI criteria (proshippers, homophobes, transphobes, racists, TERFs, ableist, etc)

- Endos/non-traumagenic "systems" DNI. block me if u want, i wont argue abt it in the comments/reblogs. or interact if u want but im not gonna follow u back or anythin shrugs.

- reality checkers or anti-IRLs DNI. I aint "romanticizing" shit, I'm existing and living my life, if thats a problem to you too bad cause my psychologist aproves of what I'm doing, since I aint harming anyone and I myself am doing dandy.

- anti-kin also DNI cause most of my friends are fictionkins and if you talk shit abt my fellas idk i wouldnt like having u around much

CCs interact at your own risk. This is my domain, cyan man & moon lady. /hj

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"Disclaimer"

- I talk about MajorMoon (Scott x Pearl) a LOT, if u didnt notice by the acc theme. These are my romantic memories, its a gay ship, not woman/gay man, so if it makes u uncomfortable or u hate it or whatever then ur probably not gonna like my content lmao. COUGH, consider joining us if you do like what you see... /nf We're a small comunity of supporters.. just me.. and a few of my peeps... that was a joke, sir. /ref

- This isn't roleplay, its my main acc where im ""unapologetically"" myself, but if u do wanna rp life series/empires u can always shoot me a dm and maybe I'll give u my discord.

- I talk about myself (c!Pearl) using 3rd person in many posts tagged with main fandom tags. This is to cause less confusion to casual fans slash ""normies"" (lhj) that well.. don't know what IRLs are! Also that way I feel safer and don't have to worry as much abt getting harassed and such for my identity.

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Special People Mentions!! fps = * (1 or more.. wouldnt say in a priority sorta order but. more or less yea)

Family! <3 🌼@pehpurr* SISTER!! super duper cool, her art is great and you should check it out!! YOU. You're the brightest little girl (i say like ur not older than me) I'VE EVER MET ACTUALLY! You're so passionate and loving I freaking adore you!! I love you so much Scar, you're one of the best things to ever happen to me, Kanny &lt;3 ⚙️@gentlexmadman DAD!! you are my daaaad, you're my dad! woogie woogie woogie! ANOTHER amazing artist! mr "I know that guy-", very funny, Henry "Autism" Emily... the copper king, my father. Speaking to you is always comforting. Love you so much papa, you're amazing :)

Simply special <3 ☕@insomniac-coffeehouse** You're all simply so very special to me. I love spending time with you guys and playing stuff together, you mean a lot to me and I'm so glad I met you. I hope we're still close for this year and many more! You're incredibly talented, not only at art, at everything you do. You spark joy in my brain and my heart <3 From the bottom of my heart, I'm in love with the hope you bring to this world. 🍊Jack***, oh my dear Jacky, where do I even begin, sport... you really are my other half. Mi media naranja if you will. haha.. I love every second we spend together, I love your voice, I love your eyes, I love your smile, your laughter. I love your use of words, the way you speak, your humor, your seriousness and goofiness. You stiff fuck, you were made for me and I was made for you, and I wouldn't have it any other way. You're my everything, mi vida, mi luz, mi estrella. Mi amor, mi mundo. <3

New friends! 🍓@strawberrystarfield I know we met fairly recently but you're all incredibly fun to talk to, your art is also amazing, your accent is real pretty (cough for a bri-💥), you're real sweet and I love reading all your thoughts and critiques about things :} (love ya Aspen /gen) 🏜️@fagdykegtws My right hand man! I know we just met through the rarepair server but oh my god we're in the same brainwave!!! You're so fun to vc and chat with and you got the best ideas ever fr fr, love ya Chewy, you're real sweet even w how lil i know you ;)

That's it folks, love yall and see you around!