#no bc i follow a good amount of rp blogs

[mors-pulchritudo]

Me after seeing a blog I really wanna RP/interact with but I don’t have the guts to reach out yet

wtf yall are so cool. I’m here ig. 💔

[brokentoys]

is it me or .... are people just more reluctant to follow blogs now? or maybe the RPC is just not as big as it once was and it feels that way? now, i'm not saying this is a bad thing -- after all, ppl are def free to have their boundaries and choose to write with whoever. but... i am noticing it's way harder to new blogs o' mine to gain traction. like i have blogs that practically "fail" just because nobody rly wants to interact with 'em or follow me back. HELL, when i started this blog, it actually took 3 months before i started getting new followers. for those 3 months, i only wrote with like 3 other ppl and those were friends or followers of my prev blog. and it's not a reaching out prob because like, i ACTUALLY did follow others and either never got any follow backs, or got a declined message (which that's fine too) and now this blog has a fairly good amount of followers.

but like i've had blogs that i've given up on or practically gave up on BECAUSE i have barely anyone to write with. usually it's my more niche muses with no rp scene. but like why i think this must be a new thing is because i was actually looking through my old RP graphics and i found some from a blog that was around 2016. it was another niche muse from a very old show (liek 1960s) and liek that fandom ALSO had no rp scene yet i had a "follow forever" graphic for reaching 200 followers???? that was so long ago that i don't remember much on that blog, but to see i had that many followers is just surprising. that's liek half the followers i have here.

and it just makes me wonder if people have just become more reluctant? more reluctant to follow and more reluctant to get out of "comfort zones" and write with characters they're not as familiar with? which again! is ok. if somebody wants to keep writing with characters they know, that's fine. but it does get a lil disappointing when you have ideas and they virtually go nowhere due to disinterest. it also just makes me wonder why things seem to have changed. is it due to how toxic the rpc became? is it bc the rpc in general is less active? is it because ppl just decide to stick to familiar canons / ocs 'cos that's more fun to them? hmm.

i guess to end this on a final note is that... personally, i care about muses but i don't care about them at the same time. like the whole reason i LOVE RPing and why i did it in the first place isn't to write with certain characters, it's to place my silly blorbos into situations -- it doesn't matter WHAT situation it is. it doesn't matter if we're doing "tails gets trolled" style rps and crossovers. my goal is to have batshit insane fun with other people. that's why i do follow muses from canons i've never heard of. it's also why i struggle to fill in interest checkers or when a mutli asks "what muse do you wanna write with?" because frankly? i'd be happy to write with ANY muse. like you can throw any muse at me, and i'm happy. oc? canon? niche canon? unfamiliar canon? i want it all.

[nanistar]

Kinda surprising you got that many apps, usually people are iffy about control like that being taken away from them ( not that it's a bad thing, I just notice rps like that are less likely to get a lot of apps or players )

Question though, do you think you promoting it could've led to the uptick in apps? If so, I'd watch out, bc another rp on Tumblr had the same thing happen ( Aspenshadow joined/helped with an rp server, they got a huge number of apps, but the rp died, and many speculate it was bc those people that applied just wanted free art of their character/to try and be buddy-buddy with a famous artist ). I just don't want the same to happen to this one because it seems genuinely interesting.

hmm i'm not sure. maybe we should have had a "how did you hear about this rp" section in the apps to see how many people came from tumblr. in all honestly i think people are interested in it because it's a new type of rp and the concept of having full control (except random events (including the murders)) is fairly unique.

as for my involvement idk i personally don't know if i am a good judge of my influence. i have a fairly decent amount of followers, which is why is sometimes use this blog to boost important posts rather than my main, and maybe im undercutting myself but i wouldn't call myself a "famous artist" especially not to the degree that someone like aspenshadow is.

if anyone wants to be buddy buddy with me they can hang out in the public sbc server . but i will not be doing any extra art or pmvs of this rp regardless of how cool it ends up being, as my heart and effort belongs entirely to our small private Unholy wcrp. and especially since i will be doing official art for this project, on TOP of SBC pages. which already take up 4 days out of the week. i never get time to draw for myself anymore, i certainly wont have time to do art for other people unless they pay me.

[chevvy-yates]

WIP WEDNESDAY

Decided it is time for another update so here's a longer post to what I've been up to and stuff that circles around in my head lately.

tagging:

@medtech-mara, @imaginarycyberpunk2023, @itzsassha, @humberg, @kittenchrissy, @rosapexa, @cinnamon-mey, @heywoodvirgin, @dreamskug, @drunkchasind, and everyone who sees and wants to do as well.

No pressure as always!

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1. CHARACTERS & LORE

Let's begin with sth. first I have on my mind for a while: As this fandom (sadly) seems to fall more and more apart, I would like to know if there are still people interested in reading actual lore content or not. As some of you know my dear friend @nervouswizardcycle and I are continously building up some sort of our own expansion after the main game events with rp/fic, character builds, backstory lore and support by vp and it eats a lot of time. The lack of interactions on tblr during the last few months and in several discord servers has led to me not posting a lot anymore either (beside my mental exhaustion phases that come and go). It seems more active again though, as majority already played Phantom Liberty by now or are right into it, so they slowly come back bc they presumably avoided spoilers. —————— So, here is me wondering how many following my blog are 'really' interested to see me sharing all lore of the boys (including story parts) or does the majority prefer just to see pretty pics and that's it? —————— (I've wanted to add a poll here but it doesn't let me save my post so I might do it in a seperate one a bit later) I know: it's my blog, I post what I like in the first place, and I'll likely continue that way but somehow I would like to know if it's worth the effort of formating and thinking about how the posts could look or if I can take that time to do something else with it instead if there's less interest. So, I would just keep it in my tiny discord server I share with my rp partner(s)/in private chats with those interested bc it's gotten to be a lot and we are still at the very start it feels.

2. SKILLS, CYBERWARE & HUMANITY LOSS

As I'm the type that can't have ocs with no background/lore, I sat down the other day and did a build for each with their skills, wrote down what chrome everyone got (incl. additional c-ware from the lore books plus I'm reading e.g. into what programs my runner twins are likely to make use of). It went this far that my friend used the amount of the game's 'cyberware capacity' as 'humanity loss'. It is used in the lore books/ttrpg anyways. So I've counted all my boys possible capacity* and use it as humanity loss (HL) now which led me to thinking about which one of my ocs goes to get treatment and how often they go to see a MedTech on regular base. I thought I could give them a certain minus amount to reduce the HL for each depending on how much or less c-ware they got — e.g. Thyjs as soldier has most (but all is good Militech chrome) and used to go and still goes regularly so his HL gets a huge reduce — whereas Ryder's gets always nulled no matter how often he gets threatment, because BEAST (rogue AI) eats it away each time (to understand that in full you probably have to know the story). Ry must have most HL loss as he often walks along the edge towards cyberpsychosis, so I'm forced to reduce Thyjs' with most c-ware installed a huge amount. And that's how I made it now. It's probably far away from canon ttrpg as my 'canon cp world' consists of 75% game, 20% lorebooks and 5% own added ideas I haven't seen on the lore yet. And I like it that way I gotta say. On a little side note: It also had me thinking about creating a new support character for the team that could be in fact a MedTech. But I won't do that anytime soon.

* some things might still change as I slowly started playing their playthroughs and skill them for real now. I love each build so far because it's a whole different experience! And playing someone with noe netrunning ability is hell as I was only usedto paly netrunner before.

3. FIC SNIPPET TIME

I decided to give you an insight of what I've roughly written yesterday about Ryder and Thyjs having a talk about how they feel for each other:

“Ik ben eerlijk. I liked that accidental kiss we shared a-and i-ik find je leuk, Ry. Probably more as— a friend is supposed to do.” De Wit instantly starts feeling nauseous and something tightens around his stomach but he needs to get it off of his heavy feeling soul. “I-I guess I have stronger feelings for you than I had expected and it’s confusing me.” He frowns, “It’s not usual for me. Never felt any kind of such an attraction towards other men. I-It’s just you— I think I might be into you, Ryder.” The last sentences came in a mere murmur than spoken and Ryder’s name was only a light whisper. Thyjs didn’t dare to look to his left. He feared he would lose his new gained friend now because he said his stupid thoughts aloud. Instead he continues staring at the distant horizon feeling the lump in his throat only getting heavier. The sun was already half arisen and the sky was painted in a bright orange and yellow fading out into never ending blue. After de Wit seems to have finally finished his long talk, Ryder realizes the pack has fallen out of his hands. He needed to repeat in his mind what Thyjs just told him. Did the man really pour out his heart to him at this very moment? He couldn’t believe it at first. The pale soldier he obviously secretly fell for just told him he was having feelings for him that reach further than friendship? It took him what seemed like an eternity to get out of his frozen state. Ry moves up into a straighter position, still supporting his body with his right forearm, turning more towards Thyjs, who is still watching the rising sun with a rather sad look on his face blinking every once in a while. Eventually Scharfenberg brings up his left hand to reach for the older man’s face and de Wit suddenly feels two fingers under his chin making him look at the younger man again. He sees a tiny smile on those dark lips he caught himself looking at so many times in utter secrecy. That tiny smile that’s usually the base for a brighter even more heartwarming smile baring dangerous fangs who make the man look frightening, but smiling like that? Thyjs often caught himself thinking Ry looked cute with these fangs as well. Ry sees Thyjs’ confusion as his eyes look questioning right back at him. So Ry better says something now. “I-Ich äh—” he clears his throat, “—I don’t know where to start. How to talk feelings in the first place.” Letting Thyjs talk himself off seemed to be right for Ryder and it was worth it, because he thinks it’s the most earnest confession someone has ever made to him, yet he doesn’t know how to answer to all this best. So he decides to place himself into a sitting position, to look the soldier boy straight into the eyes. His gaze gets distracted by Thy’s slightly opened lips for a split second. It is the same situation as earlier downstairs, only that Ry has his fingers still under de Wit’s chin and starts to lead his face towards the other man. Just a few inches are left between them and Thyjs can feel the younger man’s warm breath on his skin. He also has this incredible sight at those beautiful male black eyelashes again the very moment they cast down and then he feels those same lips from before on his own with such a soft pressure that again he closes his eyes in an instant and starts to revel in that same electricity running through him but also the revenant paralyze surrounding him again.

It is just a brief kiss, similar to the one in the apartment downstairs but shyer in its move. As soon as it happened it ended. Ryder opens his eyes afterwards immediately because he fears somehow the man in front of him would get up, step back and turn away but instead he still feels his chin pressed softly against his fingers. It casts another tiny smile onto Ryder’s face as his now racing heart skips a beat or two, seeing that Thyjs didn’t make a move nor a sound. His eyes open now as well and Ry swears he’s never seen heterochromia looking so soft but also surprised at the same time at him like Thyjs does right now. He waits for a reaction but Thyjs just keeps looking at him, lips parting shortly just to close again. “What? — Did that make you that speechless now?” Ry asks with nearly the same surprisement. Thyjs lets out a heavy breath and nods, eyes totally lost looking at him which lets Scharfenberg put on a warm smile. “Want to— try again?” Thyjs swallows his unspoken words that gathered in his throat he couldn’t speak aloud and nods again. Heavier, his lips turning into a smile as well and his eyes are suddenly filled with happiness and relief, like he’s telling Ryder that he cannot wait to have their lips meeting once more and to feel that intense buzz from before as it spreads through his entire body like when he’s powering up electricity. This feeling right now? It’s strong and sends an entirely new sensation through him. Is dat het gevoel van vlinders in je buik? He wonders but doesn’t get much more time to think about it because Ryder choses to lean in for a second time.

It can and probably will be rewritten or changed but I definitely want to have it this way! Thjys starts talking and talking almost doing a monologue instead of a dialogue until he comes to the final point and Ryder wants to respond with words but doesn't know how to (he may find them a bit later) and just does what's best: kiss this soldier. I'll max out this kissing scene for a lot more pages just because I can.

I love the idea of Thyjs as war machine being totally romantic and getting super takative when alone with Ryder. And Ryder definitely is a soft romatic boy, alsways was bu Beast made his life harder to show this side more but Thyjs gets to see it also in private.

4. VP

Since I do more 'actual play the game' now even though I have installed most of all mods back, I rarely do pics atm. If I do, they are just rather nice pics where I try to use the ingame light rather than to spawn spot lights. here's a preview of what comes next:

I have so many ideas I want to put into reality. Especially pics that underline the rp/fic chapters mentioned above. But I'm not going to force myself. I'll see what I can realize for the rest of the year and what gets to be stamped as a New Year's resolution. I'll probably focus on a few blorbo pics this weekend because Ryder's birthday is around the corner (31st October) and Jay's boyfriend Enzolino has just a day prior. So if I can manage, I'll do that in the first place.

Thanks for reading! <3

[crows-evil-blog]

((Yo! A very quick hello and passing wave! Figure I should do a written update.))

((So yeah, this blog is basically kaput at this point. I had a lot of fun Rp'ing as crow over the years. As it stands right now, Ive past 200 followers on an RP account, good lord.))

((But... since I've havent touched this blog other than for a few moments here and there, since November 2019 essentially, I kinda think Im at a point of just basically accepting where the blog is and was.))

((Ive had a habit to unfollow people after a certain point of inactivity from the blog, originally bc I was following like x5 the amount that followed me back, but now I think I have like- 10% of my followers being mutuals... so interactions are few to say the least.))

((Ive made many friends and keep in contact with them over discord, and I am so happy and proud of the communities I help create, and was part of.))

((I think my Rp days in general are done. Maybe a rare thing on discord under tight rules, but otherwise I had a exceptional run, and I thank every single person who looked at the blog and took the time to read my shenanigans.))

((Yall can find me under my main username on discord, without the numbers, but glad that I have this to look back fondly on. Love ya all, and catch ya around!))

[eclipsecrowned]

🚩// @dollhidden

Something wrong with people who think that canon stole from them.

I've seen this happen multiple times across fandom spaces and it is a one-two punch every time. I have seen multiple people take creators/showrunners admitting to looking at tumblr to mean not that they found thousands of posts of gay porn about their leads, but that they somehow found a specific independent rp blog in a specific corner of fandom and ripped off the mun's interpretation of an established canon character with various past incarnations in media. I have seen people witness a plot twist in a new release coming that bears the barest blush with a fic they wrote 15 years ago and go on pages of delusional rants about how a multi billion dollar company ripped off a fic that barely cracked 5k views on fanfic.net.

It's especially weird to me bc I had a friend basically call their muses arc in an upcoming game. You know what they did when their roleplay neatly reflected what played out in canon? Patted themself on the back for being able to follow narrative patterns, foreshadowing, and call based on established canon where an arc was going. I once dreamed the ending of the same game almost beat for beat, and while it was neat, it's not like the creator hacked into what amounts for a dream about my OTP for setting Inception-style. We joke about Apollo's Dodgeball but sometimes that's all it is -- luck. Being able to follow patterns. Fandom conjecture come true.

I just feel like this behavior should not be coddled. It feels truly unwell and like something above tumblr paygrade if it's not just like. An entitled meltdown bc reeee only I can have the special insight to canon! They're MY divine visions!!! It's this weird slant on parasocial dynamics with creators that they are only good because you, a fandom member, create content for them to lift.

[phantom-freak]

hiii mod! sorry to kinda hijack ur post! buutt.

dearest anon: i dont like you. so i am going to pick apart your argument. because in my opinion it makes 0 sense.

I. "[...] when you use RP tags in everything you post, you make it really difficult for people -- even those who already follow you -- to find other folks who post in the same RP community as you."

if someone is using tags, it makes it EASIER to find people like them because if you click on the tag, it brings up other posts that are tagged with it! isnt that neat? so unless someone is posting every minute, it's not that big of a problem, especially in tags with a lot of people that post in them! while pkmn irl has like 4 related general tags, the blog you posted this to uses all 4 which means you can see what goes on in all 4 tags. that is good, bc some folks such as myself only use one or two. so if you don't check all four you might miss out on quality posts!

also, tags are MEANT TO BE USED !!! theyre not just decoration or something to staple on to plump up your post!! they are like the bay leaves of tumblr! is that a good analogy? i dont cook much.

II. "using a tag too often can get you autoflagged for spam, which can get your profile restricted or shadowbanned."

this is NOT true! first of all, look at tumblr. this website is held together by tears, tape, and a copious amount of caffiene. do you think it can have a full fledged autoflagging system? and if it did, wouldn't they use it?

second! shadow banning does not exist on tumblr, as far as im aware! which means that this spoooky punishment can't happen!

III. "[...] stop using RP tags for every post, and instead simply make a basic promo and repost it every month [...]"

you claim that this will increase visibility! HOWEVER! when you use the handy tag search mentioned in part I, you only see ROOT posts. which means that reblogs will not be seen! since, under your advice, the user is only using a tag on an original post once a month or so, they will rarely- if ever- show up in the tag! this means LESS visibility, which means LESS interaction! the EXACT OPPOSITE of what you think will happen!

IV. The mighty Block Button

based on the fact you seem to have copied and pasted this to some specific blogs, it seems to me like you have a problem with just that: a few specific blogs. that's what this handy button is for:

dont like that blog? block em! you can do it for a lot of reasons: theyre too political, theyre being kind of an ass, or even just because you dont like em. its quick, its easy, and its free! you curate your own experiences! it also removes them from the dash! which means you wont see them if they really are Spamming It Up!

V. Back to your regular programming

aight rant over. have a nice day, dont forget to take your meds, and go touch grass (or dirt sand or snow) sometimes. its good for you.

Hiya. Please be aware that when you use RP tags in everything you post, you make it really difficult for people -- even those who already follow you -- to find other folks who post in the same RP community as you. Additionally, using a tag too often can get you autoflagged for spam, which can get your profile restricted or shadowbanned. I firmly but kindly recommend that you stop using RP tags for every post, and instead simply make a basic promo and repost it every month or so for visibility in the community. Have a good one! :)

// Hey anon, I respect you trying to help, but i dont use a ton of tags. and even then, i dont put tags on every post of line anymore.

// I haven’t even made any proper posts on this blog in almost a week, let alone tagged anything. Of the last five posts on this blog, only 2 of them had any tags at all.

// Edit: Also, if you just don’t like seeing my blog then just block this blog instead of acting like someone who’s above everyone else. This community is based around fun for everyone. You’re not the manager of this community, so respectfully buzz off.

[halfrest]

* emilija baranac, demi woman + she/her  | you know siobhan ivers, right? they’re twenty-three, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, a couple days? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to manta rays chloe moriondo like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole tears lit under grocery store fluorescents, existing in your mind as a hollowed space, and manicured hands riddled in pen marks thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is september 27th, so they’re a libra, which is unsurprising, all things considered. 

pinterest.

background wise, she’s the daughter of former child actors that fell in love and had her quite young. then they grew into early-2000s reality tv star fame where they played the part of the young hip cool parents, toting siobhan around in the midst of drama amongst other washed-out former child stars. the show only lasted for a few years, but it made up most of siobhan’s toddler life. from then on, her parents got involved in different facets of media. her mom jumped on family vlogs, kept up a huge social media presence as instagram and the sort rolled around. her dad got involved in a company like buzzfeed as a producer? it might as well just be actual buzzfeed? sue me. but anyway, they had money and a pretty great lifestyle just based on their past fame, but i wouldn’t say their family is notoriously famous by any means. there’s probably a small fanbase from their heyday and now they’re basically a Family of the Internet. moms that like to wear knee high suede boots are obsessed with them!

siobhan grew up in this sort of flashy, always on the move, los angeles socialite-esque lifestyle tho! so yes, she’s insufferable! that being said after her time in the limelight as a 3 year-old baby...she was probably forced into the usual things like gap baby campaigns <3 n other miscellaneous stuff that kept her face out there as the lovechild of america’s sweethearts <3 in a way every single aspect of her life was sort of on show for everyone!

as she grew older, she began to resent her upbringing. she didn’t like that people felt like they knew her just bc of her parents. she didn’t like that she was a sort of trophy on display (altho this is quite a dramatic way of her to look at it...her parents were doting altho i’ll also admit that at times it was an extremely suffocating amount). but either way siobhan ended up with a warped view of the world. a constant struggle between figuring out who she really was vs. how people viewed her.

siobhan’s tried on many hats (metaphorically) thru her life just to help her grasp onto something more substantial in her life. writing quickly became her One True Love. in a way it was for her to get her thoughts out there in a safe way where she was the only one in charge of her words. it’s admittedly gotten out of hand! like aaron eckhart once said in a batman movie “u either die a hero or u live long enough to see urself become the villain.” i’m kidding but going back to siobhan’s warped view of the world/social media... in a move she thought was So Powerful she decided to take the narrative back into her own hands. and by that, she meant building up a substantial social media following. she has two twitters and two instagrams. one twitter and instagram is her public self curated n all under the username @siobhanivers (saved by her parents immediately). the second is sort of her sad girl twitter/finsta where she tries 2 keep things secretive and on the DL but everyone knows it’s her? the username for that is @yrworstgirl (edgy!!!!!!!). she goes on long rants about stuff. posts ab everything w long-winded captions ( parallels to having her own life all over the internet but still continuing the trend in a different way ). very weird relationship with social media as a whole. but i guess the way she was raised On The Internet does that to u sometimes.

as a person...siobhan’s quite intense.....for a lot of reasons. she has a lot of feelings about a lot of things that are expressed in different ways, not all the healthiest but it’s to cope. <3 figuring herself out is still an issue so u can catch her slipping into different selves and starting new regimens which she may drop or continue with. the stuff she’s doing this week is probably drastically different from the stuff she’s doing last week.....she likes to consider herself cultured n is always listening, reading, watching something Grand (i can’t relate so i can’t rp this out?). has good intentions despite all of the intensity. always willing to speak up for someone if she thinks they r being wronged in some way. big on social justice. very loud! likes to b social. has a problem where she can get fixated on a person for a bit but wants to be loved :pensive: but also doesn’t :pensive: no she does....does she? yes she does.

anxiety / she does have problems w anxiety and occasional panic attacks just from the pressure she puts on herself n just always being under scrutiny. sometimes she has it handled. sometimes she doesn’t. leaves it vague x / end tw

she’s into journalism n thats what she went to college for. this is real writing unlike her dad’s buzzfeed gig. spits. pretentious fuck. she has her own blog on top of things where she writes articles n sometimes she’s been able to get into magazines. she’s trying to develop her own small online publication but that’s pending. she likes to write about people in her life, her feelings, n she’s very candid about things to an extreme at times. she has a series where she writes about her sexcapades? no names mention but u know who it’s about, she knows who it’s about. it can b good or bad. it’s just a lot. probably involved in the school paper to an extent. probably involved in other stuff too.

at irving for A Lot of reasons. she’s writing a book. i won’t say anymore. bt also….she has to deal with some ghosts of her pasts (ambiguous). she lives at a beach house w cecilia n [insert anna muse].

[piraticalarchive]

i followed you bc i found you in the ouat rp tag. NO but ok listen sometimes you can just tell at first glance if you’re going to vibe w a blog or not and i got good vibes from you and i’m so glad i followed EVEN THOUGH neither of us are actually ouat canon bc look at us now! WE HAVE LAYERS

WHY’D YOU FOLLOW ME???

I literally just liveblogged my struggle of trying to find a gif for these two to you for the last hour - and look at you ... coming through like the sneaky little dark one you are! Okay, but, we were talking the other day and we realized we had .. what? Only been talking for like two months maybe? I should have known from the very beginning when you sent me a crack ask about Killian and Rumple’s son that it was gonna be a writing match in heaven. From that day forward you have me laugh out loud every single minute of every single day. I see a little notification number pop up on your discord handle and i’m like OH HELL YEAH, MATE, WE’RE IN IT NOW - and you never fail to deliver. I loved when you were like “okay I don’t know if we’re close enough for me to show you this...” and i was like “mate, thats how the best stories start.” .. and you sent me sexy minions and your nsfw rumple joke and I just.. I just.. *clenches fist*. 

We clicked so goddamn fast and so did our two idiots which is funny because you would think that (im)mortal enemies wouldn’t vibe so hard with each other but god do they. The amount of times you helped me deconstruct their entire history at like 3 and 4 am my time when I couldn’t sleep is just insane...and I think those random conversations are what led us to where we are. I never thought pitting Killian against Rumplestiltskin would lead to one of the greatest frinedships of my life and it did. You are literally so fucking funny - I’ll literally look at stuff you tag me in or things you say in discord and choke as I try to not laugh and wake amy up or to not disturb her from work or writing or whatever it is she doing. 

And your portrayal - jeez, mate. Your portrayal. You capture that absurdness of Rumplestiltskin so well and at the same time you make him threatening and scary as all hell. Also, the way you threw him into barrie style stuff after reading the original play? Good fucking food !! The depth, the introspection - it’s all there. You paint him for what he is - a man gone south, chased by insecurities and his own haunted past and molded into what he is by people he had trusted and loved .. and by the own choices he has made. Whether it’s crack or deep heart crushing angst - the level of dimension you bring to him is truly astounding. It’s not something I’m capable of putting into words. I love that like two weeks into writing with you I was like “damn I love this person” and we both edged around it like “yeah, mains. mains is good” and then finally one of us just broke down that barrier and was like L ISTEN. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT - *slides across desk* - EXCLUSIVES?? Honestly like - I can’t believe it’s only been two months because I seriously feel like I’ve known you for so long. I can be my best and worst self with you with no judgement and you put up with my crazy jokes and how slow I am and every day you leave me in awe - both at the kind of person you are and at the character you manage to create. And its not just rumple. You’ve followed me into asoiaf hell, you have fenrir and umbridge aND NOW A MULTI AHHHHH. You are so fucking talented and I love you my Irish banana shaped onion and I love our friendship and writing relationship with all of the onion layers.

I guess all i can say is - egg tu brute? And ejaculate a big I LOVE YOU as menacingly as I can possibly make it.

[queer-cosette]

30 questions about me

Thanks for the tag @noirshitsuji!

name: everyone here calls me Coco! gender: i had one but the rope broke and it got away star sign: aries height: 5’11 time: 21:12 birthday: 12th April fav band/group: tied between Bowling For Soup, The New York Dolls and La Oreja De Van Gogh fav solo artists: Kesha, David Bowie, Marina, Lenka, Avril Lavigne song stuck in my head: Carpetbaggers by Jenny Lewis and Elvis Costello but it keeps fading into Atrevete Te Te by Calle 13 because of that stupid Mike Wazowski video last movie: Easy A last show: the last show I watched a full episode of was probably Gravity Falls when i created this blog: circa October 2016 what do i post: ML, Les Mis, HTTYD, a lot of writing and art including my own, basically anything I see and like last thing i googled: aw christ it was ‘Kardashian West’ bc I wanted to know why they were trending other blogs: @whalemiraculousau (an ML OC AU blog) and @on-ce-sent-comme-par-magie (my writing blog for my current project) do i get asks: on occasion why i chose this url: I’m queer and I formed a very strong attachment to Cosette when I played her in a whatsapp RP group (but pls don’t ask about this experience as I was very mentally ill in several different directions at the time and am not mad on remembering some of the shit I got involved in) following: 334 followers: 985 (Hey, only fifteen followers to 1000!) average amount of sleep: 9+ hours if no one wakes me up. About 6-8 hours if I’m working. lucky number: 3 instruments: guitar, piano, bass, violin, and I’ve done two different kinds of vocal training (opera and MT) what i'm wearing: red wool trousers, black sweater with puffy fishnet sleeves, bunny slippers dream job: at the moment I really want to be a cetologist dream trip: Paris so I can do the Victor Hugo tour again, then a train journey to Erstfeld in Switzerland bc I miss the mountains fav food: Gambas con Gabardinas nationality: Scottish (but I’m legally allowed an Irish passport, fuck yeah) fav songs: Take A Good Look At My Good Looks by The New York Dolls, Dance To Another Tune by First Aid Kit, Picture Of Success by Rilo Kiley, Muñeca De Trapo by La Oreja De Van Gogh, Last Call Casualty by Bowling For Soup, Me And Mia by Ted Leo And The Pharmacists last book: Goodbye Malory Towers by Pamela Cox top 3 fictional universes i'd love to live in: How To Train Your Dragon (the TV show specifically) (I really want a dragon), Miraculous Ladybug (my Kwami would be a Sperm Whale, as you can see from my sideblog @whalemiraculousau), and Winx Club (I want to be a fairy, dammit!)

Tagging @marvelousmsmol and @sukker-sugar

[sentryworm]

what was the fandom like in the early days (it seems like sorta dying but not quite dead rn?)

Woah this is gonna be long, sorry!

It was just more lively, really. More fanart being produced, more ask/RP/AU blogs popping up, more fic being made (ao3 barely updates now), A LOT more memes and shitposting or other humorous shenanigans. I never looked at this particular part of the fandom but, I had no clue that people were also making So Many baldi animation memes..? I rarely saw them crossposted to tumblr so I guess that’s why.

Like I would describe the early fandom as being a lot more... funny? There was lots of hilarious posts and really good blogs like ‘baldibuthesugly’ (deactivated, rip) that gave me lots of laughs. It did get pretty crazy and I (and others) got lots of crazy ask. Like the one anon who wanted to lay eggs inside of Baldi’s stomach or something.

Also because we were more active we often got attention from the outside, people just being like “wtf y do u guys exist??” or taking peoples art and putting it in cringe comp vids lol

Another thing was- from my perspective- we had surprisingly little drama for a fandom like this..? Like stuff did happen and people did fight but there was never anything really major (that I witnessed) that caused a divide in the fandom, or mass deactivations, or even cause the dev to step in and tell people to stop like I have seen and heard of happen with other fandoms. Which was always kind of funny bc I remember back in 2018 people outside the fandom kept yelling about how we were super toxic when......we werent... at all?

I would definitely ask other blogs who have been around this long this same question, anon! Sentryworm has always been a side blog, and I never followed many bbieal blogs (and still do) because I’m already following too many blogs to properly keep up with my dash. So my exposure is mainly through the baldi tag, asks ive received, and looking at the few blogs I did follow. Honestly I feel like I probably missed out on a big chunk of the fandom because of this. i’ve always regretted keeping this as a sideblog and not turning it into an account of its own but its way too late now.

But yeah to answer the other part the fandom is dying and everyone whos still hanging on is hoping that it will pick up after baldi’s basics plus comes out. You can actually see how the fandom is dying by going into the archive of any blog that has been around since 2018, and compare the amount of notes that posts received back then to what they receive now.

Currently the most active part of the fandom might be the japanese part of the fandom on twitter. They really love baldis basics and put out tons of great art all the time. the fan games like alex’s basics and billy’s basics are also really popular there too, so theres lots of fanart with baldi and the characters from those games.

[nya-nya-nyan]

nyan cat lore momence

[time 2 actually make a post about this bc i realized i probably. yknow. should.

so like. i have nyan cat w the whole “mysterious past n amnesia” thing but i Do actually have proper lore for where he came from. it’s. just. is this Too silly? is this too much?????

ok skipping straight to the point: nyan cat is an escaped rogue superweapon created by space lolcats of questionable morality. yes i have lore for the space lolcats. no i dont know why i’m like this.

ANYWAY - SO. an unclear amount of time ago, there were two warring deity-like figures known as Ceiling Cat and Basement Cat residing on earth. i will not go into the backstory of them bc this is a nyan cat rp blog not a “the entire lolcat mythology” rp blog.

through an increasing level of shenanigans, the war between their respective followers (nearly all of which being cats, of course) grew too intense for them to easily hide their presence from humanity, and so the two factions agreed to take the battle and all the followers willing to go with them To Space. i am not sure what their current homeworld is called but it’s probably something like “Cheezburgeria” or something. on this planet, the two warring factions continued their shenanigans unhindered and eventually built up a whole proper society with their own weird phonetic spelling-based offshoot of english - informally known as lolspeak, by the way. and yes, you can somehow tell how it’s spelled even when spoken. note that while ceiling cat is the “good” faction and basement cat is the “evil” faction (by their own definition, in fact!), they have a completely different set of moral standards than humans and so are much harder to cleanly categorize.

Nyan Cat was actually created by the two factions working together to create “teh kitteh 2 end teh war!!!!!” but you know both sides were mutually planning to backstab each other to take Nyan Cat for their own first chance they got. the reason he is a pop tart is because lolcats find foodstuffs hilarious and thought it would be awesome if their ultimate weapon was a pop tart.

however, creating a magical rainbow superweapon cat and immediately trying to tear him between two different factions kind of... immediately backfired. incredibly overwhelmed by it all and panicking, the very young nyan cat tried to escape the research base, and with little control over his powers eventually accidentally blew up the Invisible Highly Explosive Reactor (which, of course that’s a thing a society of highly advanced lolcats have) in said base and got launched into outer space by the resultant explosion.

nyan cat was left confused in space with no memories, while the lolcats who survived the explosion (...the grand majority of them, actually) were like “o shiet we just lawnched da super raynbow wepon kitteh in2 spayse........”

from here, the followers of ceiling cat and the followers of basement cat took two different directions in trying to reclaim nyan cat. ceiling cat’s followers took a more direct approach and most of them just try more directly going after nyan cat, which has brought the increasingly over the top and dangerous shenanigans of lolcats much closer to earth than they’ve been in a long time, while basement cat’s followers took a subtler approach of just....... making knockoff superweapons to send after nyan cat - one of which, of course, being tac nayn, built directly off of what remains of nyan cat’s “blueprints”! but, of course, reflavored to be more “evil” since evil is kind of the aesthetic of the basement cat guys. (tac nayn is a waffle because they figured part of the reason nyan cat failed is that they used the wrong breakfast food. not a day goes by that tac nayn doesn’t wish he had a normal goddamn torso instead)

tac nayn was raised in a much more controlled environment and so has a somewhat skewed view of morality, being raised by, yknow, guys who are evil just for the hell of it. however, ever since being released to hunt down nyan cat, he’s had a lot of outside influences and honestly really does not harbor much in the way of positive feelings towards his creators.

i don’t actually have much else to say here just. evil space lolcats and their rebellious breakfast food children !]

[dotsz]

How does one join the phandom? I know there's a discord server and a baby server but I have not yet learned how to use discord :') Or do you have to be a content creator to join?? Cuz my phic has been sitting in my drafts for 3 months and it ain't gettin done anytime soon

man, when i tell you this is one of the easiest fandoms to get into, i’m not kidding. just start liking/reblogging posts, talk about your fave fics, whatever!

a lot of us are really meme and shitpost friendly so whatever dumb headcanons you have, spew em out. or give us genuine good content we eat that shit up too.

we just!! love any content!!! it doesn’t matter if it doesn’t make sense, we pretty much ignore all of canon anyway so whatever you have to offer we’ll love!! no matter your skill level!!! like this was originally an art blog but i’ve made more shitposts than actual art haha and it’s rly fun

we do loads of phandom events too, the phandom phight club just started and while you can’t join as a contestant anymore, you can still vote and participate in other ways! i’d recommend checking out the official blog for it @phandomphightclub

we also do regular calendar type stuff, like danniemay, some others i can’t think of off the top of my head, but usually when there’s an event there’s a bunch of posts about it

we’re fairly laid back, not a lot of discourse except the ungodly amount of memes people sometimes get tired of. also!!! wips are really cool too!! if you wanna give a preview of your fic or just post random stuff about it, go wild

here are some blogs i’d recommend following for the Phandom Experience:

@lexosaurus official cursed phandom memer and super funny

@reallydumbdannyphantomaus you can submit your danny phantom aus, whether it’s something genuine or just “au where danny wears disco pants” whatever!! bug, the person who runs it, is also super fun

@dannyphandump another really good dp blog, tali also co-runs the phandom phight club together with @babypop-phantom!!!

@ceciliaspen makes RLY neat art!!

@amitynews is a blog for amity park, the posts give off a certain Energy that i think really encompasses the phandom well

@dalv-co-official rp account for the employees of dalv co, also really fun to look through!!

as for the discord, you may want to ask one of the mods for it. i can’t remember off the top of my head who that is so if anyone knows pls comment aha

and of course, a nod to the fact that a lot of the new people haven’t even seen the show. we’re so far away from canon at this point that anything vaguely related to ghosts with a dp character in it fits right in. so don’t stress about content bc we literally eat anything up 

welcome to the phandom i hope u enjoy your stay!!!

[amortentiando]

I’m going on an official hiatus with this blog.

Ever since I discovered the HPRP community I fell in love with the idea of it being a safe place for everyone to express their art in forms of cosplay and roleplay and etc, and I was obsessed with all of it for a long while.

I met fun, talented, incredible people here, people I’m happy to have met and people who were always kind and nice to me. I met people I genuinely admire for their talent and wish all he best, always.

I also met people that think they’re really important and better than others just bc they have a pretty face and a few thousand of followers in a blog on the internet, and think that bc of that, they have the right to treat others like shit. It wasn’t only one, two or three times that some people in this so said “welcoming and safe” community were rude to me or didn’t even bother to answer me bc I obviously didn’t have a blog that was “famous enough” for them to waist their time or something like that (like? Calm down Beyoncé, people only hype you so much bc you’re pretty or rich enough to buy good things to RP with or North American/European or basically only white).

So let’s be honest and cut out the bullshit, there are tons of people in here that try to join in the RP community but are completely ignored by most of yall bc they just don’t fit in the physical features idealised by most of you. And, yes, there are a few “big” blogs whose owners are poc’s and/or don’t have as much resources to use to RP as the other big ones, but they’re not too many and clearly have to work way harder to have half as many attention as the usual ones.

I’ve had this blog and tried to make it work for about two years or so. I wanted it to be a fun place for me to escape reality a bit, like I saw it was for some of you. I actually didn’t have any kind of contact with most of the people that everybody knows and loves inside this community, and most of them are probably nice people, but after I’ve tried to reach a few of them (not gonna quote names, cuz if I did yall would just pretend it never happened just to keep hyping them) and was treated really badly I just lost the courage and the will to try to make friends with people I’ve always admired and wanted to be friends with in here. I felt, almost all the time, like I was invisible in here, and it was a bad feeling, considering how 99% of all those people are always posting and rebloging discourses about social inclusion and things like that.

Soooo, that’s why I’m putting this little babe on a hiatus indefinitely. Thanks for everyone who helped me with anything and were nice to me, and I hope if I come back in the future I’ll find more of these kind of people and less of those who have a superstar complex and think their content is worth shit when all they have to rely on is a basic look and the same amount of face expressions as the eye of Sauron.

Bye 🤘🏼

[tenacityblitz]

🥔

MUNDAY MEME

🥔 - What’s the dumbest mistake you’ve made in rp?

I nearly let someone run me out of the Free! fandom many years ago bc a duplicate suddenly decided that I was threatening her status as ‘top’ RP blog for Rin, she decided I was copying her solely because of things such as theme color scheme, the fact that we had mutual friends/rp partners, and I gained a lot of followers in a shorter amount of time and apparently it rivaled her enough. She nearly turned a close IRL & rp friend against me for good just from the sheer amount of complaining about me she did, and how much she got on my case for things that weren’t really my fault. I could literally be here for an hour recanting the whole story and details of it that I still remember, but that’s the bare bones of it. Don’t let people harass you out of a fandom, it’s pathetic that they feel the need to take so much time out of their day to go after someone on the internet when the block button has been and still is a feature on here. I’m glad that I chose to not let this girl run me out of Free and prematurely abandon my Matsuoka sibling blogs because I didn’t want to give her the satisfaction of thinking she won or had the power to win over me.

[siobhanfm]

『EMILIJA BARANAC ❙ CIS FEMALE』 ⟿ looks like SIOBHAN IVERS is here for HER SOPHOMORE year as an ENGLISH student. SHE is 21 years old & known to be CANDID, AMBITIOUS, PRETENTIOUS & MELODRAMATIC. They’re living in NOLAND, so if you’re there, watch out for them. 

basics: libra, pansexual, from los angeles. that’s all u need to know. :~)

as many know! i’ve had to workshop her bg a bit so i hope this makes sense! background wise, she’s the daughter of former child actors that fell in love and had her quite young. then they grew into early-2000s reality tv star fame where they played the part of the young hip cool parents, toting siobhan around in the midst of drama amongst other washed-out former child stars. the show only lasted for a few years, but it made up most of siobhan’s toddler life. from then on, her parents got involved in different facets of media. her mom jumped on family vlogs, kept up a huge social media presence as instagram and the sort rolled around. her dad got involved in a company like buzzfeed as a producer? it might as well just be actual buzzfeed? sue me. but anyway, they had money and a pretty great lifestyle just based on their past fame, but i wouldn’t say their family is notoriously famous by any means. there’s probably a small fanbase from their heyday and now they’re basically a Family of the Internet. moms that like to wear knee high suede boots are obsessed with them!

siobhan grew up in this sort of flashy, always on the move, los angeles socialite-esque lifestyle tho! so yes, she’s insufferable! that being said after her time in the limelight as a 3 year-old baby...she was probably forced into the usual things like gap baby campaigns <3 n other miscellaneous stuff that kept her face out there as the lovechild of america’s sweethearts <3 in a way every single aspect of her life was sort of on show for everyone!

as she grew older, she began to resent her upbringing. she didn’t like that people felt like they knew her just bc of her parents. she didn’t like that she was a sort of trophy on display (altho this is quite a dramatic way of her to look at it...her parents were doting altho i’ll also admit that at times it was an extremely suffocating amount). but either way siobhan ended up with a warped view of the world. a constant struggle between figuring out who she really was vs. how people viewed her.

siobhan’s tried on many hats (metaphorically) thru her life just to help her grasp onto something more substantial in her life. writing quickly became her One True Love. in a way it was for her to get her thoughts out there in a safe way where she was the only one in charge of her words. it’s admittedly gotten out of hand! like aaron eckhart once said in a batman movie “u either die a hero or u live long enough to see urself become the villain.” i’m kidding but going back to siobhan’s warped view of the world/social media... in a move she thought was So Powerful she decided to take the narrative back into her own hands. and by that, she meant building up a substantial social media following. she has two twitters and two instagrams. one twitter and instagram is her public self curated n all under the username @siobhanivers (saved by her parents immediately). the second is sort of her sad girl twitter/finsta where she tries 2 keep things secretive and on the DL but everyone knows it’s her? the username for that is @yrworstgirl (edgy!!!!!!!). she goes on long rants about stuff. posts ab everything w long-winded captions ( parallels to having her own life all over the internet but still continuing the trend in a different way ). very weird relationship with social media as a whole. but i guess the way she was raised On The Internet does that to u sometimes.

as a person...siobhan’s quite intense.....for a lot of reasons. she has a lot of feelings about a lot of things that are expressed in different ways, not all the healthiest but it’s to cope. <3 figuring herself out is still an issue so u can catch her slipping into different selves and starting new regimens which she may drop or continue with. the stuff she’s doing this week is probably drastically different from the stuff she’s doing last week.....she likes to consider herself cultured n is always listening, reading, watching something Grand (i can’t relate so i can’t rp this out?). has good intentions despite all of the intensity. always willing to speak up for someone if she thinks they r being wronged in some way. big on social justice. very loud! likes to b social. has a problem where she can get fixated on a person for a bit but wants to be loved :pensive: but also doesn’t :pensive: no she does....does she? yes she does.

ANXIETY TW // she does have problems w anxiety and occasional panic attacks just from the pressure she puts on herself n just always being under scrutiny. sometimes she has it handled. sometimes she doesn’t. leaves it vague x // END TW

decided to go to radcliffe after spending a year traveling post-highschool. liked that it was on the east coast and that it was lesser known than other schools she was considering. she felt super proud that she got in on her own merit thru her writing bc....at the end of the day siobhan wants to succeed by her own doing!!!

she’s into journalism. this is real writing unlike her dad’s buzzfeed gig. spits. pretentious fuck. she has her own blog on top of things where she writes articles n sometimes she’s been able to get into magazines. she’s trying to develop her own small online publication but that’s pending. she likes to write about people in her life, her feelings, n she’s very candid about things to an extreme at times. she has a series where she writes about her sexcapades? no names mention but u know who it’s about, she knows who it’s about. it can b good or bad. it’s just a lot. probably involved in the school paper to an extent. probably involved in other stuff too.

plots? brain empty? but i’m down 2 clown if u are! message for plots! we can brainstorm! smiles w all my teeth!