#nnNNGGGG

[semiotomatics]

just some venting

climbed a ladder for the first time since leaving work/going on meds yesterday, and it was. eye opening. one of the side effects of my meds is muscle tremours and it didnt even occur to me that that wld make ladders difficult, but BOY did it. esp since i was on an old as balls aluminum 10ft-er 😭 now today im so sore and i assume its from clenching all my muscles as hard as i can trying not to fall off.

sometimes i think abt going back to work, and what that wld look like, and obvs i knew there wld have to be changes so i didnt have another breakdown, but like. i cant even climb ladders now. or at least, i can only climb short ones (like 4ft), and only very slowly. i cant climb more than a single flight of stairs, i cant stand for more than 5 minutes at a time w/o support, i certainly cant walk around for more than, at most, a few hours (and ill still end up in pain + sore the next day). i do believe some of this is muscle atrophy from lack of use, but not all of it. cause if im being honest, it still fucking hurt like hell to try to be Normal before, i just pushed thru the pain. but now that my tolerance is shot, i just cant do that anymore. and i know i shldnt be doing it.

one of the hardest parts abt becoming/accepting that im disabled has been figuring out what my limits actually are, cause im so used to blowing past them every day. and if i want to be able to work sustainably AKA in a way that wont make me want to kill myself, i need to respect those boundaries. but its hard. im not used to listening to my body, im really not. i still struggle with even realizing im in pain, let alone what causes it/how to prevent it. and now that im trying to listen more, im noticing how dissociated ive been for like. my entire life. i think thats also why my memory feels like its getting worse—its prolly actually abt the same, im just actually trying to remember things now instead of repressing/dissociating from them.

anyway, yesterday was kinda rough and i just had to get that out. when im at home, sitting comfortably, i can sometimes forget what my body's like now. its only when i have to actually do things that i realize. and its kinda scary, ngl. esp when every dr ive talked to abt it either dismisses it, attributes it to my depression, or just tells me to "exercise more" :/ like maybe there isnt a treatment/cure for whatevers wrong w me, but id at least like to know. hopefully one day i will.

[fvedyetor]

everyone go read @itotypes fics on ao3. theyre so scrumptious and well-written.

(drawings are from courtship strategies of a writer and its really good)

[disasterbuck]

i'm not a facial hair girlie but uhmm when. when eddie diaz hfnjksg with the. hnng you know. when he has the mou- hnngggg. the moustache nfjdgngnnbjbkgdm,nnnngggg I want to bite it

[darkicedragon]

THEY GOTTA DO IT, NO MATTER WHAT. Just a vibrating ball when they stick to one form and then they just gave up on that, because their body feels nicer, their thoughts more calmer when they flow with their formmssss.

NNNNGGGG, YESSSSSS.

[miscling]

🗜️Nipple clamps <3

nnnngggg my nips are so sensitive rn my whole body is like on firee this is such a good ask imma not be able to think for the next five mins im so horny for thisss....

thank you thank you thankyouuu

mmmmmmmmmnnggg

ooooooo! wait.... you;'ve gotta do it too go put clamps on our own as welll!

Thank you for the ask task! (3)

[watchingspnagain]

Rewatching Are You There, God? It’s Me, Dean Winchester

Welcome to “I Think That Means Sam Is Grover: A Supernatural Rewatch Blog” with Lor and Mace!

  Up today, s4e2: Are You There God? It’s Me, Dean Winchester.

 Dean’s not convinced Cas is who he says he is—not just because he’s having a hard time wrapping his head around angels, but also because he thinks it’s unfathomable that God would choose to save *him* or recruit him for anything. Meanwhile, hunters are dying off weird and bloody. Sam, Dean, and Bobby look into it and discover that spirits of the dead are being risen and bound to someone to do as they are bidden. The spirits of Meg, Victor, Ronald, and two little girls that Bobby couldn’t save come for the boys and Bobby, and Dean, in particular, is eaten up with guilt over his inability to save everyone. The episode ends with a late-night visit from Cas where he reveals to Dean that Lilith is trying to break the 66 seals that will allow Lucifer to rise. You could cut the sexual tension between them with a floppy feather.

 Below is a log of our real-time reactions as we watched. Remember that there may be spoilers for any part of SPN’s 15-season run here. Note also that the nature of our conversation is adult and thus it may contain adult language and themes.

 [and we begin:]

  Lor:

 nnnngggg Cas

 Mace:

 CAS

 YAS

  Lor:

 LOL YES

Mace:

 this is a LONG intro

  Lor:

 I was just gonna say!

did they think people FORGOT?

 Mace:

 “because we have work for you” I have some work for you, Cas...

  Lor:

 LOLOLOL

 ooo Hunter living in a space that could just as easily be 25 years ago as it could be when it is set

 Mace:

 YES

 she looks amazing in that shirt

  Lor:

 YES

there is nothing like a woman in a scoop or v-neck t-shirt that fits her perfect

 Mace:

 YESYESYES

  Lor:

 "groped by an angel"

DEEEEEAN

 Mace:

 OMG

 DON'T EAT THAT DEAN

  Lor:

 "yeah, you just did, Dean"

Hahaha Sammy

 Mace:

 Fairy dust, Dean? I don’t think that’s PC

  Lor:

 omg Dean in his Henley over a t-shirt. he's all snuggy

 Mace:

 YAS

  Lor:

 HAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA

 the way he rubs his shoulder

 Mace:

 it’s not “cuniform” Bobby. Christ.

 YAS

  Lor:

 LOLOLOLOLOL

 Vegas money has been on yeah ALL ALONG. your incantations and shit WORK

 Mace:

 “who actually gives a crap about me?” OH DEAN

 oh DEAN HONEY

  Lor:

 RIGHT?

EVERYONE HUG HIM

 "I don't like getting singled out at birthday parties" oh MUFFIN

 Mace:

 aw, he’s an INTROVERT

  Lor:

 he IS

 "you're gonna get me some pie"

 Mace:

 YAS HE NEEDS PIE

  Lor:

 remember later when the bunker is full of strangers and he hides in his room? MY SOULMATE

 Mace:

 ALWAYS YOU ALWAYS FORGET THE PIE SAMMY

  Lor:

 RIGHT?

when has he ever REMEMBERED THE PIE

 Mace:

 HAHAHAH

  Lor:

 (actually my headcanon is that he never forgets the pie. he deliberately doesn't get it because he's a little brother)

 Mace:

 (oh i assumed that that’s actual canon because OF COURSE)

  Lor:

 no, Sam, she's a waitress at a diner who needs to know about angels

 (YES)

 Mace:

 HAHAHAHA

  Lor:

 "something's up, huh?"

pets him

 Mace:

 YES

 ew

  Lor:

 yeah, seriously gross

 Mace:

 “they’ve redecorated. in red”

HAHHA BOBBY

  Lor:

 BOBBYYYY

 OMG Dean asleep and letting Sam drive

 Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 nope. Victor would 100% appear to Dean first

 Mace:

 HAHAHAHA

agreed

 ooof

  Lor:

 spooky kids. always with the spooky kids

 Mace:

 “don’t think at all” omg Dean

  Lor:

 YES

 Sam gets all in his head and fretful and Dean is all frantic nervous energy

 Mace:

 YES

 i love Bobby’s half creepy half cozy half absolute fucking mess house

  Lor:

 YES

 Mace:

 look, I don’t like demon meg much either, but lady? women can dress the way they want without judgment

  Lor:

 RIGHT?

 And she's not exactly not showing skin herself. like, don't be misogynistic and especially don't be a hypocrite about it

 Mace:

 EXACTLY

  Lor:

 ooooof Dean

hon, it's not your fault

not EVERYTHING is your fault

 Mace:

 he needs all the hugs this ep

  Lor:

 he really does

 he doesn't think he's a hero

 Mace:

 no he doesn't

  Lor:

 oh Dean

 Mace:

 yep

 SAMMY

  Lor:

 oooof

they are getting so beat up

 Mace:

 SMARTY DEAN

  Lor:

 oooo clever Dean

 Mace:

 they really are

  Lor:

 I call shenanigans on Dean being able to stand up straight and walk around (more evidence for our theory about when the injuries last)

 Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 "I had a weekend off"

 Mace:

 YAS

 “you’re awesome” DED

  Lor:

 I love that Dean tells Bobby he's awesome

 YES

 "if he is out there, what's wrong with him?"

"why doesn't he help?"

I love that Dean has this crisis

AND that they come back to it waaaaay later

 Mace:

 I’m still having that crisis, Dean

  Lor:

 YEP

 "tourists"

 aaaaaah I love it when they say something at the same time

 Mace:

 YES

 They need Buffy to give them a seminar on apocalypses

  Lor:

 he wants to go to the Star Trek Experience. LET’S GO, DEAN. LET'S GET SHIT AT THE GIFTSHOP

 YES

 Mace:

 HAHAHAHA YES

  Lor:

 "aim careful"

I love Bobby

 Mace:

 i love bobby

 HAHAHAHA

  Lor:

 HAAHAAAAHAHA

 awww Ronald

 Mace:

 oh boy

 “don’t talk” HAHAHA

  Lor:

 okay, Ronald, hon, I like you, buddy, and I KNOW Dean feels terrible about your death, but you are dead because of you

 YES

 Mace:

 yep

 “opium?”

  Lor:

 YES

and the little hand gesture he makes when Bobby tells him to go

 Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 this is SUCH a good way to set up some of the major themes of this season. Sam's a monster, Dean doesn't think he's worthy

 Mace:

 AGREED

 but there isn’t any Cas and that’s a problem for me

  Lor:

 I think he shows up for a minute at the end?

 oh DEAN

his trembly lip I CANNOT

 Mace:

 omg DEAN

  Lor:

 I LOVE when Dean says no when someone asks if he's all right

 Mace:

 “you alright?” “no” the truthiest truth he’s ever spoken

 YES

  Lor:

 YAAAAS

 "I'm not a cheeseburger" SNORK

 Mace:

 HAHAHAHA

  Lor:

 ...dammit. now I want one

 Mace:

 and now I want a cheeseburger

 AHAHAHAHA

  Lor:

 MACE

OMG us today

 Mace:

 YAAASSS

  Lor:

 where do they get these little girls who do the creepy thing SO WELL?

 Mace:

 RIGHT?!?!

  Lor:

 actually, you know what, never mind. I remember being a little girl. we dark as fuck sometimes

 Mace:

 SNORK!!!!

  Lor:

 Dean sleeps on the floor so Sammy can have the couch

(though I do not believe for a second this house doesn't have more than one bedroom)

 GOD Cas just leaning on the sink like that

 Mace:

 right?! what does bobby have in all those upstairs rooms!

 YASYASYAS

 “not dicks” HAHAHA

  Lor:

 "Michael Landon. Not dicks"

 YAAAAS

 LIAR. you are 100% there to perch on his shoulder

 Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 omg Cas raising his hands and Dean's little "did I just threaten an angel of the lord?" face

 Mace:

 HAHAHAHA YEP

there is SO MUCH TENSION

  Lor:

 RIGHT?

they are standing SO CLOSE TO EACH OTHER

 the LIGHTING

 Mace:

 YES

  Lor:

 the EXTREME closeups where you can't NOT focus on their lips and their eyes

 Mace:

 YEP

 Misha doesn’t blink and I love that

  Lor:

 and the Dom/sub undercurrent. I like this scene a normal amount vibrates at a frequency unknown to science

 YES

 Mace:

 HAHAHAHA AGREED

 the way Dean gets uncomfortable when Cas leans in

  Lor:

 omg that lean in and "you should show me some respect"

 YAAAAAS

 Mace:

 YESYESYES

  Lor:

 and then he's gone and Dean's leaning on the sink

I cannoooooot

and the cut to him waking up on the floor

 Mace:

 sock-footed Sammy OMG

  Lor:

 the first time I watched this ep, I wondered if only Dean could see Cas

 YES

 Mace:

 oh INTERESTING

  Lor:

 which would have been an interesting way to go, at least for a little bit

 Mace:

 Ha! Cas as Snuffleupagus to Dean’s Big Bird I LOVE IT

  Lor:

 OMG YES

I need that fanart

 Mace:

 YAAASSS

[missouri-and-woe]

nnnngggg i wamt scallion pancake

[yee-haw-wizard]

nnnngggg pikmin holding a gun

[big-barn-bed]

I love your theme it's quite yummy. puple

- paulscunt

nnnngggg purble 🍆👾💜☂️🪻♋️

[psynoidal]

katatakutang babasahin ngayong mahal na araw...

Nakayuko pa rin si Liza. Bahagya niyang inuugoy ang sarili habang tinatakpan ang magkabilang tenga. Hindi siya pinansin ni Ricky, sa halip, sinimulan na lang niyang kopyahin ang sinusulat ng guro. “Hnnn...” umungol ang kaniyang katabi, “A-ayoko...” Bahagyang natigilan sa pagsusulat si Ricky. “Nnnngggg...” Huminga nang malalim si Ricky at nag-aalalang humarap sa katabi. “Okay ka lang-“ “AAHHHHHH!!!” Napaatras si Ricky sa upuan. Nagtaasan ang mga balahibo niya nang may makitang tatlong mapupulang galos na biglang gumuhit sa kaliwang braso ng katabi. Tumayo naman si Lisa sa pagkakaupo at muling sumigaw. “Tama na! Tama na!” Nagkagulo sa klase, lahat napatingin sa likod. “Ayoko na!” muling sigaw ni Lisa, tapos ay bumagsak ito sa upuan at nawalan ng malay tao.

*** Are You There? by: Psynoid Al

read in Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/story/357265628-are-you-there

Dekada nobenta, nagkatuwaan ang magkakaibigan na magtawag ng espirito gamit ang isang pirasong barya. Pero hindi nakakatuwa ang natawag nila, at hindi ito aalis nang walang kasama.

[fattestwriting]

Nnnngggg... GOD I gotta shit.

Here, @catgirldumpy, hope you don't mind-

I shit hundreds of gallons into your mouth, using you as my own personal toilet.

Aaahhhh, thanks!

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Ok I did an updated version of the P5 ages (here's the old one) this time including Sumi! and having the actual birthday dates jfdskljf;

I decided to include a few other characters from P3/4 (I don't think any from P1/2 are that young nor do I have a more concrete date/face to put them to). I only went as far back as P4 1st years/1995 just for perspective (you can thank Kanami's kitchen for most of that)

But man the overlap is surprising! Sumomo's age didn't really surprise me (even tho it should've), but Nozomi's sure did! I'm surprised that Kanami is like only a year older than Mako (but is two grades ahead, see this is why I did the P4 first years! Perspective! TT0TT)

I'm gonna hold off on publishing, only until I can get the Maiko situation sorted out. (Fun Fact, Shu's Birthday is also fucked up! :'D I mean it's unknown because of the game, but the anime FUUUUUUCKED it right up TT0TT *sobs* orz)

[incorrectpot]

Mukahi: Sorry I'm late... horrible nightmare visions.

Hiyoshi: It's called life, Mukahi. Sit down.

[sonechkaandthedynamos]

random piercing headache hours

[bardaholic]

Ok but seriously all the women in this show are fucking gorgeous, the younger ones and the older ones, and they’re all witty smart asses and I can’t deal.

[edwardnashtons]