#nisa rambles

[cuntressgoingdigital]

forcing my way through my writer's block so this isn't my best work BUT have some more mma! abby x model! reader - click here for my series masterlist

cw: kinda nsfw

this is all just kinda silly goofy idk :P

☆ abby is obsessed with taking photos of you. you’re a model and you could pretty much pose in your sleep, so naturally abby takes advantage of that. it doesn’t matter where you are or what you’re doing and that girl absolutely loves a candid. she made you breakfast? she’s taking a photo of you, fork in hand, taking your first bite. doing your makeup in the mirror? abby snaps a photo of you with the lip gloss applicator gliding across your lips. she’ll even take pictures of you after you’ve fallen asleep mid movie just to tease you about it later. 

something that absolutely astounds her is that you always look good. she has yet to take a bad photo of you. even when your back is to the camera, completely oblivious to her, your silhouette is somehow perfectly outlined against the halo of the sun. abby almost sees it as a challenge. take just one awkward off guard photo of you. you two have been dating for over a year and she’s genuinely amazed by how unintentionally flawless you are. whenever she brings it up you just shrug and laugh it off.

“i don’t know, model training is intense. i guess the mannerisms are naturally ingrained in my everyday movements. or i’m just perfect in every way. jury’s still out on that one, though.” 

abby never posts the photos she takes of you. the only time her camera work sees the light of day is when you ask her to take pictures of you on your phone for social media. at first, abby was off put by the amount of time you spent taking photos of yourself, the scenery, and everything in between, but she quickly adjusted. first of all, this is what you were paid to do and you loved everything about your job and she loved everything about you. secondly, this meant your walls were covered practically top to bottom of your friends, family, and abby. before she met you, she might’ve interpreted the absurd amount of photos of yourself as a grand show of vanity, but she knows you’re just thrilled to have documentation of the beautiful parts of your life. you were surrounded by reminders that you are deeply loved by the people around you. abby was grateful to hold a place on your wall. 

on a whim, abby decided to invest in a film camera. she was ready to embrace her official title as your personal camerawoman. 

most of the pictures were tame, but the photos she loved taking the most were staged in your bedroom. before sex, she would capture a few photos of you sliding off your dress, makeup still perfectly intact after an hours long red carpet movie premiere. you were always careful to hang up your dresses, as they were often on loan from different designers. your back turned to the camera, pulling a hanger from your walk in closet, abby would always find the perfect angle of your bare back and the lace panties that clung to your ass in a way that always took her breath away. 

your favorite photo captured by her that would never see the light of day was an up shot angle, head tilted back, mouth slightly open, while you took in the length of abby’s strap. 

that one never left it's spot at the back of her wallet, covered by several layers of cards and IDs.

☆ on a less serious note; your favorite thing to do is force her to learn tik tok dances and guest star in your videos. she pretends to hate it, but secretly she enjoys the absurdity of it all. ultimately, she knows it makes you happy so she is always willing to be a reluctant participant. both of you end up bursting out laughing by the end of it, leading to the majority of the recordings never leaving your drafts. 

it’s all fun and games until she’s doing a press conference and weigh in for her rematch with ellie.

“she’s a fucking joke. why don’t you go back to doing little dances with your girlfriend on tik tok?”

bold words for someone who blacked out and fell like a plank during their last match. 

you’re at home, arms crossed, watching it live. fucking bitch, you muttered under your breath to the empty room. 

when the day came, you're front row in the stadium screaming as the match progressed. after a few illegal moves, you were joining in with the crowd booing the ref.

second round came along and abby managed to secure ellie in a choke hold. ellie fought hard and long to get out of it before finally tapping the mat and giving in. you jumped out of your seat cheering as loud as you could. abby couldn’t hear you, but she could certainly imagine the scene of you jumping for joy. 

later in the infirmary, after she had gotten looked at and cleared by the doctors, you set up your phone and performed one of the dances that you two had rehearsed long before the match. the post was captioned:

back to doing little dances with my girlfriend on tik tok

☆ the two of you are invited to be interviewed on a segment consisting of abby reading thirst tweets about herself. neither of you took it too seriously, on account of you both being obviously disgustingly in love with each other. 

“god, i’m nervous. i can’t imagine what any of this says. she’s the one who’s addicted to twitter.” abby nods towards you. 

abby clears her throat and proceeds to read the first post.

“abby let me peel those dirty sweats off of you after a workout”

abby looks astonished, meanwhile you’re trying to hold in a laugh.  

“are they all like this? this is awful.” abby’s face is already hot with embarrassment.

“what do y’all think abby’s bush tastes like after a match?” 

you can’t hold in the laugh anymore, it all comes out in a snort. “am i allowed to answer?” 

abby shoves her elbow into your side. “stop it.”

“i will not stop working until i can find a way for abby anderson to get me pregnant” 

“dude, me too! i’ve said the same thing! you guys get it.”

finally, abby loosens up and laughs. “stop encouraging this.” 

[barneswilsonrogers]

loustat brainrot got me reading Anne Rice's books and watching the old movie (which feels weird, LOUIS IS JACOB AND JACOB IS LOUIS) can we skip to October I think I'm ready for Halloween

[vam-piritz]

Stares at you lovingly

Hello<3

[noxiatoxia]

do you have any favorite or standout things in the japanese version of dr2 that doesn't get translated properly/at all into the english version? anything from jokes to speech quirks or differences in characterization. anything at all! i'm just super curious about the differences so i want to give you an opportunity to ramble.

Thank you, anon! I'm sorry this too so long. I've been busy and I had many different things I wanted to share.

I'm sure there's gonna be a lot of stuff I'll miss...I'll just tell you what's on my mind.

Well, firstly, I'd say what I lament most always is how everyone's speech patterns got largely phased out. You see it here and there still with Souda and Owari - occasionally they try to keep the urban accent. Komaeda's filler words got removed, as already discussed. Really, everyone had something unique to them that got removed, and that makes me so sad! Granted, I understand some of it can be quite tricky.

For example, Mioda is a big one. Remember in the NISA translation, she always refers to herself in third person? This is a somewhat clunky translation. Mioda does call herself "Ibuki", but in Japanese, this isn't as weird, and is seen as a sort of cutesy thing. You can pull it off if you're a young/cute woman.

Mioda also calls everyone first name-chan, making her appear childish/quirky.

She also ends her sentences with っす ssu, which is a version of です desu. This makes Mioda, technically, one of the few Danganronpa characters to use keigo speech, although it's so quirky/casual I wonder if it counts...

Souda also uses keigo, but only when talking to Sonia. He calls her Sonia-san, which got translated as "Miss Sonia" (great translation choice btw!) and is the only character he uses honorifics for - well, typically. There is a part in chapter 5 where Souda calls Hinata "Hinata-chan" to tease him, and it's so cute to me xD

By the way, I don't talk about V3 much, but I know there's contention with how they translate Gonta. From what I've seen of V3, the thing that sticks out about Gonta is he, too, uses his first name as his pronoun. I believe the ENG version went with a Tarzan-esque choice of translation, but the joke in the JP version, I believe, was - as said - first person self-pronoun is reserved for young, cute girls...Gonta neither looking like either.

Most of all I lament Hinata's speech...he sounds so similar to Naegi in English, which is a shame, as he was meant to be Naegi's opposite. In Japanese they're night and day, and Hinata really loses that bite he had in the NISA version. It's what makes me sad most :(

On the game itself, there's a joke I think about a lot, that (understandably) loses it's meaning in English. It's in Tanaka's freetime event.

I have no issue with the translation itself. It's sadly just a joke that's lost in English as things are.

It's in the word kotodama. Kotodama refers to the idea that words hold spiritual power. Like a spell, or something. The joke here is Hinata...actually is a kotodama user. Literally.

In JP Danganronpa, truth bullets are called...kotodama. It's a cute little meta joke.

On the flip side, here is a translation I do take issue with:

I understand how they made this error, but it's still a little shocking to me.

First, let's look at context. Context is important in any language, but in Japanese especially. The context is this: Komaeda has a dramatic buildup, talking about how it's time he's gotten a little good luck, that now he can finally say it, and then dramatically pauses after saying Hinata's name...

Let's not be naive. This reads like the buildup to a love confession.

And then, Komaeda just asks, "Can you be my friend?"

It's a wonderful scene. Perfectly captures Komaeda's life in that asking just to be friends requires this much forethought, and it's wonderfully hilarious at the same time. Very Danganronpa, isn't it? Makes you think about the character, gives you some emotion, but also makes you laugh.

I digress. Now that we have context, let's examine Hinata's response.

First he goes, "What?" or え？in Japanese.

Then he says: ああ...なんだ。

"Ah...oh, that's it?" is a fine way to put it here. Literally speaking, the line basically reads: Oh...what? but なんだ is used as a sort of emotional signifier. The words are failing me right now but here are some examples of how なんだ could be translated when used like this:

"What the hell. Okay."

"Jeez, really?"

"That's crazy!" (in response to a story or suchlike)

Does this make sense? It expresses disbelief, shock, surprise, irritation...stuff like that.

So "Oh...that's it?" is good in this context. Clearly, Hinata also expected Komaeda to say something more heavy.

It's the last line that bugs me.

"So that was all just for fun..." is not how I would put it at all. I see how they got that, but I don't know why they didn't realize it sounds super odd. I will break it down.

...そんなことで、よかったのか... ...sonna koto de, yokatta noka...

そんな means "that" or "those", as in "that person" or "those books", etc.

こと means thing, but usually is abstract for an idea. It's a bit hard to explain, but think of it like the English word "it". You say stuff like "it's cool" when someone screws up. "it" represents an abstract idea: referring to the accident a person just made. Instead of repeating that all, you condense the idea down into the word "it". Very similar.

で is a particle that marks "direction" here. All you need to know is that here it's saying "everything that comes before me is what the words after me are referring to".

よかった, literally speaking, is the past form of "good". This is a very flexible word, and we will come back to it.

のか is some sentence ending particles. Again, we will come back to this.

Strictly and literally speaking, the sentence goes:

In response to those words you just said, it was good...

The issue that occurred here is how they read よかったのか. They took よかった to literally be the past tense of good (fun), and のか to be questioning in tone. These are both correct ways to read these individual words, but not in this context I think. It's how we got:

So that was all just for fun...

But I think it's obvious よかった is supposed to be read as it most commonly is in this past-form: an expression of relief/happiness, while のか is supposed to be more monologue-ish.

I emphatically think the line should be read as:

Oh, thank God that was it...

I think it's pretty obvious Hinata is rejoicing that Komaeda, in fact, was not going to suddenly dump something like a love confession on him out of the blue.

Sorry that was a longer one. I don't know how many of you care to hear the in-depth technical talk of how it got mistranslated. Usually I just provide my translation, but I know some people out there probably like the explanations. (I also get a little embarrassed because I often run in circles worrying I'm getting stuff wrong myself....and the fact I'm aware I suck at words. I'm just writing how I read it, and putting it in a way that makes sense to me. I'm always open to discussion if you are a beginner speaker or a native and anything between.)

OK, moving on...I want to talk about Owari's island mode ending. Not because it was translated badly per se, but because it hinges on an element that's impossible to translate. To be fair, the team did their absolute best with it.

Owari never talks about wanting to talk more "girly" outright in the Japanese version. Rather, this is what the line (plus the last as it is part of the sentence) reads literally:

OWARI: So, would it be weird if...I started using a-atashi for myself?

Through the whole game, Owari talks in a very rough manner. She uses オレ(ore) to refer to herself, which is a very masculine pronoun. The Katakana script makes it even more rough. I believe in SDR2, only Souda and Kuzuryuu also use this pronoun/script combo (I can never remember if Monokuma uses オレ or ボク).

However in the Island Mode ending, Owari wonders if it'd be weird if someone like her uses あたし(atashi) for herself. By contrast, "atashi" is at the complete opposite end of the spectrum. It is a very feminine pronoun, and would be a complete 180 from ore.

It is also written in Hiragana, further lending it to be "feminine" and "soft".

So the translation change to her saying she wishes to speak more girly is pretty apt. I dunno if there would be a better way to do this. It's very difficult.

Speaking of Owari and pronouns, her pronoun changes again when she catches the despair disease.

When she has the coward's disease, Owari no longer uses オレ(ore), but instead 私(watashi). This is considered a rather basic/default casual pronoun for women, but it is exceedingly more polite/feminine than what Owari normally uses. Coming from her also, Kanji is a very odd script choice, almost opposite to Katakana.

She also never uses honorifics for people, but while sick, she calls Nidai "Nidai-kun" 弐大君. It's sad this detail, unlike in Island Mode, did not get translated whatsoever.

If I'm on the topic, I might as well talk about some other script changes that weren't translated into English well (or at all).

Remember fake Naegi in Ch.6? Well, I always thought this part was strange:

To me, nothing Naegi is saying warrants Sonia to respond in such a manner. Bryce Papenbrook's delivery of the line doesn't make Naegi yell or anything, either.

But this line makes a whole lot more sense in Japanese.

Fun fact, I'm getting these screenshots from a (mostly silent) let's play by a Japanese channel. The let's player almost never talks, but during the first screenshot, he let's out a questioning "Hm?" and then the second, he chuckles and says, "What's with this sudden sharp turn, man?"

That's because in this scene, Naegi completely changes the way he talks. I've talked about it before, but to reiterate: Naegi talks in a very mild way. He's casual, but he never uses any masculine particles, or employs the imperative form.

However, in the first screenshot, Naegi ends his sentence in ぞ, which is a masculine sentence ender (Hinata uses it). Then in the second one, he uses やろう, which is a very rough/derogatory way to say "you guy(s)".

Anybody who's played DR1 would instantly know something is wrong, since Naegi never speaks like this.

To be honest, it could've easily been translated as making Naegi swear at them, since Naegi doesn't swear a lot - certainly if you had him use "fuck", it would have achieved the same effect.

Next, Twogami's final free time event is full of quirky things that get translated a little poorly.

Firstly, there's this line from Hinata:

While not a mistranslation on a technical level, I feel like it sort of misses a joke here.

Twogami asks Hinata if he likes him (好き). In Japanese, 好き is often used to declare your (romantic) love to someone, or ask someone if they love you. I think then Hinata's answer being "I don't hate you" is him skirting around saying "I like (love) you" to not sound like he's confessing his love, or something.

Then, there's this:

Much like we've seen before, this line makes more sense in the context of Japanese.

Since Twogami is impersonating Togami, he speaks like him, too. And when Togami refers to others (the "you" pronoun, as there are multiple in Japanese), he uses お前(omae). This is very masculine and pretty rude.

However, in this scene, Twogami suddenly calls Hinata キミ(kimi), which is much softer and warmer. Hinata picks up on that, but in English, it comes across a little weird, because what exactly is Hinata picking up on in the English version, then?

HINATA: But you've got to stop using "kimi", it's making me sheepish. And besides...the you I know has always called me by "omae".

Here's a literal translation for you, to illustrate this scene better. I don't know why they cut out the part where Hinata directly tells Twogami to stop calling him キミ because it makes him flustered (very cute by the way), but I feel there was probably a better way to go about this anyhow...

I understand it's a very tricky thing to translate since both キミ and お前 mean "you" in English, but surely there was some better way to word it...

I'd have Twogami talk to Hinata more friendly-like, and have Hinata say "The Togami I know has always been a bit mean to me" - or suchlike.

Moving away from scripts but sticking to Freetime events, here's a mistranslation from one of Saionji's:

There's one big issue in both of these that changes the meaning of the scene entirely. Firstly, 人好し means more than "kind-hearted" - it comes with the impression that the person is easily exploitable for their kindness.

Likewise, 勝手に言って is more than "I don't care" - I think they got that because it literally translates as "say what you want", but it's used as a sort of angry statement. See, it literally translates as "speak as you'd like", but 勝手に is usually used to show that someone will do something in spite of anyone else's wishes. So, really, the phrase means "say whatever you want jerk, I know I can't stop you".

I'd write this scene as:

SAIONJI: You're a really big pushover, mister. Well...I guess that's good for me. HINATA: No one fucking asked.

(I would assume Hinata is doing the equivalent of swearing, as he is using an already antagonistic phrase + imperative form + よ).

Also, if you're wondering...while "say what you want" is a valid English phrase, I feel it doesn't really work here...? Though that's how 勝手に言って translates, the phrase focuses more on the disrespectful aspect of speaking out of turn. I feel "nobody asked" is then more accurate.

This line is also interesting. It's not a mistranslation, but I'm just interested in the Japanese text, because I don't think Hinata's ever replaced ない (nai) with ねー (nee) before? It's a sort of urban accent - Owari, Kuzuryuu, and Souda all have it. It makes you sound rougher.

Like instead of "Jyanai yo" ("that's not it") you say, "jyanee yo" ("Tha's not it") <- I'm unsure how to convey an Urban accent...

"Hell no", then, is actually quite appropriate since it is rougher-sounding (meaner). But it interests me since Hinata's never (?) used this accent before. I guess he was so pissed off he didn't even think about it.

Actually, because of the nature of Saionji's talent and fixation on her home country, her Island mode and FTE is full of references to Japanese culture that doesn't get translated well. It's a tough spot to be in - do you not translate it for the sake of staying accurate to the Japanese culture, and let the Western players stay confused, or do you change it to something more understandable, but lose that nuance? I think it depends case-by-case on what's decided.

I sadly don't have a screen cap of the JP text, but I do have it from the game's files, so I'll write it down here:

SAIONJI: あー、馬鹿とナントカは高いところが好きって言うもんね。 HINATA: そっちを伏せるのかよ…

This is a Japanese saying, the full saying being 馬鹿と煙は高いところが好き - "Idiots and smoke like high places". It refers to people who foolishly advance "higher and higher" without thoughts of the consequences (when they come crashing down).

This saying though gets often changed to "idiots and so-and-so like high places".

I don't really agree with the English translation because "you-know-what" sounds...sexual? To me, at least. While there is nothing sexual about the original phrase whatsoever. The reason it gets "censored" to ナントカ (nantoka, literally the quotation marker とか with the word "what/something", making it "that 'something'") is unknown to me, but the phrase with ナントカ instead of 煙 is pretty popular especially in spoken Japanese. I think it literally just has to do with the fact that "baka to nantoka" flows out the mouth easier than "baka to kemuri", and isn't because of actual censorship.

Hinata's response then may be to Saionji specifically or in general. Either he's A) asking why Saionji bothers to censor the second part (implying he's never heard the abbreviated version before) or B) he's wondering to himself why people bother to censor the second part in general (implying he is well aware of the abbreviated version).

So, the convo may actually look something like:

SAIONJI: Oh well, as they say: "Idiots and so-and-so like high places!" HINATA: I wonder why that's the part that gets skipped over...

I think this is more plausible. It really has nothing to do with Saionji in particular.

Actually, if you'll recall from earlier in this post with the Komaeda Island Mode ending, we touched on のか, and Hinata is using it again here. Funnily, if we go with my translation, then they ran into the same issue with Komaeda. They read のか in the same erroneous way.

I could be wrong of course...but given the surround culture of the phrase + common sense (I find it hard to believe Hinata would have never heard 馬鹿とナントカ before), this makes more sense I think.

An English version is hard to think of, since this is related to the option "Climb the Statue", so Saionji whipping out that metaphor is a joke in the fact she's calling Hinata an idiot for literally wanting to climb a tall statue.

The closest I can find is a quote form the bible, "Folly is appointed to great heights, but the rich sit in lowly positions". This seems to be somewhat known, but I didn't know of this quote before researching for an English version, so replacing it would make little difference, then...the whole point is the phrase is a common one, but I don't know any common English phrases about idiots in high spots.

...I think this is a good stopping point. There is surely so much more to talk about - more I am forgetting and more that I'll find in the future (and other small things that could not make this post due to image constraints) - but this is what I have right now! I do have more SDR2 translation post I'm working on, but that's it's own beast so it's not something I can really go into here.

Hope any of this was interesting! Thank you!

[remnantsofthepast-if]

Monthly Update - August 2024

Well, this month we finally started Act 2! I'm excited to show everything I have planned for this story, especially after hearing this song that made me take notes upon notes about the ending of Remnants!

A bit early, I know, lol! But I've always had a clear idea of how it would be, and that song created a vivid image in my mind of how it will turn out :D. In fact, the ending of the whole story and each character is already written ;)

But that will have to wait a bit until we get there. For now, let's focus back on Act 2! I’ve already written the beginning of Chapter 2. It was supposed to be something simple, but the characters got a bit rebellious and wanted longer scenes for each of them, so that’s what I did. After all, they’re the ones telling the story, I’m just writing it down, haha! That said, we're close to a scene I've been eager to write for a long time. It’s a silly thing, but it makes me laugh a lot because it’s not just comedy for the sake of comedy, but the characters would genuinely act that way in that situation! You’ll see when it’s published, and I hope it amuses you as much as it does me, xD

By the way, I’ve started using the option to schedule posts on Patreon and now I regret not doing it sooner, lol! I’m really bad at social media :’). But anyway, I’m happy because I’ve got all this month’s posts, and part of next month’s, prepared and everything is more organized.

This weekend I’ll keep preparing stuff for Patreon. I want to publish a couple of Q&A sessions for the characters, but since I already know everything about them, it’s hard for me to come up with questions to ask them, ^^’. But it’s all right, I’ll think of something. And if any of you have questions for the ROs, Enid, or any other character, don’t hesitate to let me know! The characters would be happy to answer :D. Just be careful what you ask Belicar/Nisa… that could go very wrong xD

Without further ado, I’ll stop rambling and let you enjoy your weekend. I just want to end by thanking all of you for staying with me on this adventure, for reading, sharing, and buying this story. Thank you all for the tremendous support you’re giving me, it means so much to me <3

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Have a great month, and see you at the end of September ;)

[vespertin-y]

i think we in this corner of the v3 fandom (and i am very much including myself in this!) have a bit of an unhealthy tendency to treat the JP version of the game as some kind of a mythical promised land, where nothing is ever poorly-written or problematic, and all would be at peace if not for the horrible crimes of NISA. and this breeds a horrible environment where blatant lies run rampant and people will just. claim their headcanon is actually in the bible the original japanese, because who's going to correct them?? not me! i don't fucking speak japanese! almost none of us do!

and i'm not saying the game isn't poorly translated (it is. it's one of the only times i have clocked poor translation as i was watching something) or that the translation issues aren't worth talking about (they are. tumblr user oumakokichi we miss you), but like. 'atua' being 'kami-sama' does not actually make angie less of a racist caricature, you guys. the game still has issues!

and anyway, like it or not, this is still the game that we have. you'd probably have more fun if you cut out the middleman and started yelling WHAT IF IT WAS GOOD THOUGH instead of I BET IT WAS SECRETLY GOOD.

this is kind of rambly nonsense, sorry...i just get tired of seeing people be uppity about a text they Have Not Read and never will. come frolic with me!!

[a-ghost-with--a-beating-heart]

How's it you look even more gorgeous? The words instantly sent a flush to her cheeks and Annisa couldn't help but notice the difference in herself when receiving this compliment. Really, it was quite strange--usually, when people complimented Nisa, especially her looks, she'd change the subject or shy away. For so long, she'd struggled to see herself in any sort of positive light, let alone beautiful. And even though she might not use that word to describe herself, for once, she didn't feel like pushing off the compliment. Perhaps it was simply because it had come from Hermione--maybe they were magic, suddenly allowed to give her compliments when no one else was. But maybe, it was also because of the work that she'd done for years and years in a desperate attempt to fix her fucked up relationship with herself. Maybe it was a little of the two. Either way, she couldn't help but giggle and say "Stop, you're making me blush."

Annisa had also felt that closeness when Hermione had been helping her with her brand new necklace--she'd felt the actress' warm hands and for a brief moment, she'd felt the urge to turn around and kiss them, but she didn't. It felt too forward, too...much. But was it? Jesus, Annisa was so bad at this kind of stuff. How about they start off small? Gently reaching for her date's hand, she said "Thank you so much for the necklace. Yours looks amazing on you as well--I hope the drama masks aren't too...cliché." She let out a small nervous laugh and looked down at her lap before looking back at Mione. "I'm really happy that we're doing this," she said with a smile. She was about to continue to ramble on but thankfully, the waitress had come back with their hot chocolate to share. Nisa had so much to say and yet, she didn't know how to say any of it--though she was grateful for the distraction. Looking at the drink, she said "That looks delicious." While the thought of the drink made her a tad nervous, she figured it couldn't be that difficult to drink it--besides, they'd be sharing it.

This is so perfect. Hermione couldn't have agreed any more wholeheartedly. Possessing a million dreams, not in a single one did they ever predict they could've found this kind of mutual admiration. When they were younger, a precocious child, they displayed the upmost obsession with whoever had momentarily harnessed their attention; those people, however, never once returned the affection that pulsed from the heart that so inconveniently was all-encompassing enough that it lived outside of Hermione's chest. This, though, Annisa, she was another story entirely. She was fulfilling all of the wishes that ten year old sprite prayed for at their bedroom window at night, and effortlessly at that, which impressed and wooed the budding starlet even more so. Their heart was truly stricken with gratitude, something they had only experienced when it came to work and not any personal relationships.

"Thank you," they returned, a simple phrase made gentle and intimate by the quiet voice they found themselves adapting for the occasion. Normally, it was quite difficult for Hermione to maintain an inside voice, but with their date, it felt easier to allow themselves a moment of respite. They needn't perform for her, as she was interested in them for exactly who they were, not some marionette that theatrically articulated their every move. With a smile shining with full brightness, they slid the necklace carefully around Annisa's neck and narrowed their eyes so they could focus on securing the clasp. They tried not to think about the exchange of warmth between them as Hermione's fingertips coasted along the back of their date's neck; how much blood had surfaced on their own cheeks from the amount of giddiness flooding their senses. "Wow," they let escape once stepping around Annisa to see her in the necklace. "How's it you look even more gorgeous?"

[etirabys]

Reading Nisa: The Life and Words of a !Kung Woman.

I somewhat believe(d) that "historically not-quite-monogamous societies had less poly drama bc norms had adapted and people had cultural scripts on how to deal with competition" sometimes the script is that you chase away your rival with a knife

[cuntressgoingdigital]

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i feel like abby would thrive with a really annoying pestersome girlfriend. a yapper with no off button. 

at first she found your endless chatter a little irritating. to you, silence felt cold and awkward and you were trying hard to befriend her. when patrols were uneventful you’d start on your little tangents, analyzing the philosophy of whatever book you’d read recently. she never understood what you were talking about, but never had the heart to tell you to be quiet. you always took her nods and “mhms” as the go ahead to keep talking. you weren’t too good with social cues. it took some time, but abby started to find your observations endearing. 

you loved to be big spoon and lay in the dark with her. when her insomnia acted up and her thoughts grew too loud, she knew you didn’t mind being woken up for a bit just to chat. 

“would you still love me if i were a bug?” your eyes were still closed, the need for sleep hanging on your eyelids. you rubbed abby’s back trying to coax her into relaxation. 

“yeah probably. i think i would keep you in my pocket.” 

“would you still love me if i was infected? like full blown fungus face, completely out of my mind, nearly unrecognizable.” 

“i would let you bite me so we can be together forever.”

“what if i were a shambler?”

“i would happily breathe in your spores. can’t be any worse than you smell right now.”

you playfully bite her shoulder. 

[barneswilsonrogers]

I love when I see people defending Sam in the ao3 comments.

Sometimes I would read fics (samsteve, sambucky, stucky, stony or whatever) and find myself being sad and dissatisfied with how sam was being portrayed. there would be like 100 comments like, 'i love this fic!' 'omg it was brilliant' bla bla but not one pointing out the flaw with sam's treatment.

i would do it, but im really bad at expressing my feelings and my english is not the best so i tend to hold back. i would just left and dont leave kudos, despite me liking the fic. (because sam's treatment is #1 priority for me, you can write 100k words about sambucky falling in love but if u dont do sam right i will not leave a kudos or a comment)

HOWEVER

sometimes i would find a fellow sam fan defending his rights and it makes me happy. they usually make a good point so the fic's writer don't get defensive and they even promised to fix things in the future. yay.

in the sea of shitty mcu fans, at least sam still have few people who would go to war for him. i love yall

[a-ghost-with--a-beating-heart]

Come to think of it, Annisa had never really understood any sort of pencil-to-paper, paint brush-to-canvas art and maybe it was simply because it wasn't their personal chosen art form. To be fair, they weren't one to just scoff at what was considered to be 'high art'--they did fucking ballet for crying out loud. Of course, ballet hadn't always been seen as high art but they were certain this stranger wasn't interested in the ramblings in their brain about the history of ballet. Still, they just really didn't get how seemingly throwing paint onto a canvas was...difficult per se. "I've just always wondered if... If they really have some vague, deep inspiration for these kind of paintings...or if they just tossed paint onto the canvas and insisted there's some deeper meaning to it that we're all just too stupid to even begin to understand." Once again, though, for Annisa to insinuate this type of art of pretentious was a bit hypocritical of them. "Still, it's not like I could do that... I mean, I could throw paint onto a canvas, but... At the very least, all the colors are vibrant and they all stand out from one another... If I did that, all the colors would probably just fade together to a shade of grey... But what do I know? I'm a dancer so this kind of art isn't really my forte..." It wasn't until then that Nisa realized they'd just spent the last two minutes rambling. To a stranger. Maybe they were learning how to get out of their comfort zone after all. Still, they felt a little embarrassed to have rambled so much. "Sorry, I... I don't know where that came from, my bad..."

Her head bobs in a slow nod, her high ponytail bouncing behind her with the movement. "This doesn't even have those… those…" Isra lifts a hand, rolling it in a loose circle about the air and pointing to the lower corner, where the details of the artist were plastered to the wall. "Those… little blurbs the other works have. Where the artists prattle off about whatever inspired them- you know? Like not even the artist can come up with something to defend this." She scoffs, folding her arms over chest. A couple that had been murmuring quietly to themselves over another painting- undoubtedly by the same artist, though this time they had used oranges and pinks and even a splash of green to create something that looked far too much like the inside of a playground's trashcan after a child's birthday party- cast both her and the unknowing stranger that had saddled up next to her a wayward glance before walking away.

Isra huffs, amusement coloring her tone. "It's all a bit pretentious. The only "meaning" I get from these kinds of works is... 'lookie here, I'm so amazing, I don't even need to try to make art'."

[nisafm]

🌻🌷💀

send me a symbol and i’ll tell you about...

🌻 - their father

kaan sunay is an unassuming man. he looks almost.. professorial, with his practical, if slightly disheveled, wardrobe. he’s warm and charismatic, with a deceptively easy going nature and a jovial sense of humor. 

however, he is anything but laidback. he’s an only child, and the first in his family to go to college. and he is brilliant. kaan considers himself a perpetual learner, always reading, and he often takes classes just because he wants to know more. he has two master’s degrees, one in business, and the other in english literature, just because he wanted to get it. and within all of this, he holds himself to ridiculously high standards. he’s a perfectionist, and has this great ambition, and it’s paid off.

in the business sense, he’s absolutely ruthless. he’s built his immense fortune from the ground up and has never been scared of making a hard decision that hurts someone else, if it benefits him. with his demeanor, no one quite expects him to be as cutthroat as he is, and he often uses how underestimated he is to his advantage. although, with how far he’s climbed and everything that he’s built, there aren’t many people that are still dumb enough to underestimate him. 

with the expectation he has for himself, he also holds everyone around him to high standards. he surrounds himself only with those who push him, who can serve him in some way; in a business sense or educationally, he loves being around really bright people. 

that being said, he sees his family through rose colored glasses. he’s incredibly tribal and his family is his tribe. he would do anything for them, no questions asked. 

which brings us to his relationship with nisa <3

no one could ever say that nisa is kaan’s favorite. she’s too detached from the things he cares about for him to like her the way he likes his wife and his sons, but he undeniably has a soft spot for her. he loves that she has his sense of humor, he loves how bright and full of life she is, and honestly, he loves that he has a daughter. he’s the one who was always cleaning up nisa’s messes, and he loves her no matter what shit she gets into, because she’s a part of his tribe. now, the difficulty comes in the sense that most of the interactions end up feeling like an intervention. there’s a quote that really fits them that goes like “then he said: don’t you know i’m trying to make you great. and i said: i do not want to be great, i want to be loved.” kaan pushes nisa to be less like herself; to be more driven, more motivated, to have ambition, because he assumes she has those traits because she’s a sunay. but she doesn’t.

kaan’s love is given freely, without condition, but it’s incredibly clear that it has very little to do with who she is, and more to do with her being his daughter. she knows she has traits he likes, but she’s heard him describe countless people who are more intelligent and motivated than she is as “charming, but ultimately a waste of space,” and she knows she would be in the same boat if she wasn’t his kid. 

also, kaan watches nisa’s bank account like a hawk, and every time it gets too low for his liking, he transfers money to her account. he’s terribly disappointed with her decision to leave home, but the only thing worse than her running away is the thought of her genuinely struggling. of course, the way to get her home would probably be to cut her off, but he can’t turn off his need to provide for her. nisa knows he’s doing this and won’t say anything because he will use it to guilt her into coming home. kaan won’t tell her this because he always makes her mother be in the room for their bimonthly phone calls and he doesn’t want ayda to know he’s sending nisa money. 

🌷 - their mother

ayda sunay (nee bolat), on the other hand, looks every bit the cold bitch she is. one of the things ayda and kaan bonded over were how similar their pasts are. she’s also the first in her family to go to college (though she’s not an only child, she has two younger brothers), and holds herself to high standards. the difference is, ayda is a woman in corporate law. she doesn’t have the luxury to be laidback and jovial, though even if she did, that simply not her personality.

ayda is super type a. she’s a planner. she wants to be in control of things, because she really trusts herself and she trusts her instincts. and she should! she’s passionate and driven, self-assured and incredibly stubborn. if ayda sunay can’t see a way to do something, she’ll make her own way; failure is not an option. she pursues the things she wants relentlessly. 

her life has very much been defined by a want of more; a life that is her own and that she has created with her own hands. and she got it! she has a (almost) picture perfect family, and more money that she could ever know what to do with, and is general counsel at some big corporation that i don’t feel like picking right now LKFJWEL. 

and she’s very proud. which again, as she should be. she has put so much time and effort and so much of herself into her work and her life, and she has so much to show for it. she places a lot of her identity in how hard she works, in everything she’s accomplished. which begins to lead me in to her relationship with nisa! ayda believes she deserves the world because she will work for it. she’s confident in her abilities because she has so much to back up her confidence. nisa, on the other hand, has self-assurance that is more... inherent. she deserves the world because she wants the world and she should get what she wants. she’s worthy of love and respect because she’s nisa! and that’s one layer of resentment that ayda has for nisa; the fact that she’s never earned, well, anything! even though kaan and ayda spoil their children, sure, but they have always been an example of the importance of hard work, and nisa is the only child that doesn’t see the value, the necessity, of hard work. so while kaan’s love is given freely, ayda has a tendency to withhold hers from nisa, because nisa hasn’t earned it.

moving right along, ayda is the parent that really vocalizes how nisa doesn’t meet their expectations. ayda feels that she did so much, worked so hard, to provide nisa with an incredibly place to start, but nisa spits in the face of that with her unwillingness to do anything with her life. she feels a special kind of disappointment for nisa, one that her brothers would never face even if they were anything like nisa, because nisa is the only daughter. ayda suffered in a very particularly sexist way, so it would be easier for nisa. now it is easier for nisa, and nisa doesn’t appreciate it. 

there’s love there, don’t get me wrong, but it’s a love born from obligation. nisa has never been neglected; she was a mouth to feed and a body to house, so ayda fed her and homed her. but ayda doesn’t like her daughter. she can’t get over the wasted potential. and ultimately, ayda doesn’t understand how her daughter came out this way. nisa is a reflection of ayda’s failure as a mother. nisa is perhaps ayda’s only failure. 

nisa feels the resentment and the lack of care, but unfortunately for both of them, she inherited her mother’s self-assurance and stubbornness. no matter how badly she wants her mother’s love, she refuses to change, so she’ll never get it. 

💀 - someone deceased

nisa didn’t know jerry gordon that long. she was only in woodstock for about a month before he died, so i would say she was working at high volume for maybe three weeks at most. 

a week and a half after she got hired, jerry took away her music picking privileges because she was played too many songs by boybands (nisa’s an *nsync stannie) and he took over. she whined, of course, but ultimately didn’t put up too much of a fight because she wasn’t mad about his choices.

she took her break that day because she got a phone call from her mother. she ducked outside to the alleyway out back to take the call, because she didn’t think it was going to be good. she was correct. they got in a pretty bad fight (this is the only time she’s actually spoken to her mother since she’s been in woodstock) about nisa’s immaturity and irresponsibility, and nisa couldn’t make her mom understand that she couldn’t be in new york anymore; this was something she just had to do. it didn’t go anywhere productive; nisa didn’t have the words to explain herself yet, and her mother knows how to make her cry like no one else on the planet. and if you put yourself through the torture of reading the above, you know nisa and her mom just don’t understand each other. but at least she knew she was the only one of her coworkers on break at the moment.

what nisa didn’t know was that jerry was out on a smoke break when she stepped out. she didn’t realize it until he was done, slipping past her to get back inside as she finished up the call. immediately, she knew he heard the whole thing and was humiliated. 

when she came back from break, he didn’t say anything. he didn’t even acknowledge her. instead, he turned off the stones and put on tearin’ up my heart. she teared up while she was re-alphabetizing the jazz section, realizing that it’s not so remarkable for someone to understand what another person needs.

[likethesword]

black and orange...

Black: you told me to watch you scan in medbay

Yeah c'mon man we don't have all day!! *Hides spear tongue very poorly*

Orange:

Whoaaa down doggo everything's fine buddy

[kaedesfleawaltz]

All thats left is dumb and dumber now I think. Busou should get away fine but I’m worried about Yamato’s name

[fandomsarepainful]

That ending just made me curious about what we could see from Jake.

I don't think he'll stay with the same dumb pranks- well maybe he might- but he'll be more wary of what he's doing on camera more.

This series makes me hope that all the bad blood between him and clout gang is cleared up and maybe he slowly grows a friendship with Banks. And maybe Alissa even though that would take longer.

Before the series, I didn't really bother with him cause his videos just don't interest me and now I'm curious about where his videos will go. Where he will go.

Shane’s series proves exactly what everyone was already saying about Jake Paul except now there’s a solution

The internet has been calling Jake Paul immature for so long, and it’s true. Jake is immature. He doesn’t realize how stunted he is because, well, if he did then that would kind of contradict the whole thing.

Jake is obviously more than capable of living independently and providing for himself. As Shane said, his immaturity is on an emotional level.

His family situation is obviously… not great. We still don’t know exactly what the Pauls are like but whatever his childhood was, it left him desperate for attention and unable to internally process his experiences, all while having a blurred conception of right and wrong.

This is clearly due to a lack of healthy boundaries in his early life (among other things), and, as a result, Jake has grown up to do a lot of shitty things that have created horrible situations for both himself and those around him.

What kills me is that people still think he’s purposely manipulating others when, all throughout this last video, he is literally BEGGING for some guidance. I get the impression that he sees Shane as this big YouTuber who knows what he’s doing and has it all together, and it’s totally transparent that Jake agreed to this series because he wanted Shane to help him clean up his messes. And that’s GREAT. It means Jake WANTS to be better.

He listens to Shane (even when Shane is telling him things he doesn’t want to hear), when Shane says he should delete the video, Jake does it right there and then, and he even inadvertently asks Shane to be the yes man on all of his videos. It’s played off as a joke, but Jake was serious. He wanted Shane to tell him what to do.

Jake actually just wants someone he can trust to come into his life and teach him how to be good. That’s usually the job of parents, but unfortunately, that doesn’t always happen. And when it doesn’t, you can end up with cases like Jake Paul.

I hope Shane and Jake continue a friendship. I think with Shane’s unlimited empathy and Jake’s need for a healthy role model, this could bring about some real change in character and help Jake to finally grow up.

[dengswei]

i love this drama