#nightmare of an experience!!!!!!!!!! 😻😻😻😻😻😻😻😻😻 awesome. love how i still have not healed from that and never will and this is rubbing salt | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

pepprs · 1 year ago

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in april 2022 this phd student researching study abroad experiences interviewed me and my mom bc her dissertation was all abt the return experience and how that impacts the family and ive literaly been looking forward to getting her dissertation and reading it for over a year and she just sent it to me at last and. it turns out she excluded my contributions to it bc her study doesn’t encompass experiences of ppl who were sent home early / had their study abroad cancelled when covid started and the world shut down bc that experience was “non-normative” 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 i get it but i am also feeling murderous rage

#purrs #like. i was rly looking forward to being part of it bc at least SOMETHING good would’ve come out of that absolute nightmare of an experience #and it turns out i didn’t get to be part of it at all despite pouring my heart out in the interview and being so excited because… i had a #nightmare of an experience!!!!!!!!!! 😻😻😻😻😻😻😻😻😻 awesome. love how i still have not healed from that and never will and this is rubbing salt #in the fucking wound lol. she asked me for my feedback and to see if my experience is represented and i don’t even know how t reply to it bc #it’s like… you quite literally say on page 51 that you are not representing my expeirence so 💖#delete later #brighton #i feel bad for complaining bc she was really nice and i loved talking to her and im sure her dissertation will be an eye opening read for me #but it fucking sucks like. can those of us who got our experiences ripped away from us not have anything in this world <3 #like why did she interview me if she wasn’t gonna include me in it 😭 i did all that just to get let downnnnb

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