#nienna Kitskaether

[nekohooch]

DnD left me with a lot of feelings last night so have a snippet i couldnt sleep because of:

"you have eternity"

the phrase echos in Niennas head as her companions, her friends, her family ask Melora more questions.

questions she was sure were important but she only barely heard them, the phrases of a god repeating over and over in her head like a drumbeat.

"you may still be killed but you will not die. Age will not touch you"

what?

the incredulity was slowly morphing into despair

"your humility is endearing but you are the most capable to do these tasks"

she nods as the plans to get Virxinias mother are solidified, an automatic response, her mind racing as Melora teleports them back to the outskirts of Valinya with a snap.

She distractedly answers Shaes well meaning questions, Kadirs concerned looks vaguely registering on the emotional scale as she realizes she is not holding together very well.

Ah, a walk. Melora was still there, creating a seat for herself as she waits for them to be ready to continue their journey.

She has to get away. Needs to think. She cant process, the Gods presence a blanket, slowly suffocating her.

she starts walking, getting some fresh air, not caring which way she was going as long as it was away.

what would happen if she said no?

Melora was a forgiving goddess, maybe she would understand that Nienna wasnt strong enough to carry this weight.

Not strong enough to watch friends and family grow old and pass on while she remained.

Not strong enough to see her mirror, the other half of her heart, her Nuri, change and morph into someone who she would never be.

To watch as generation after generation of Kitskaethers be born and die while she stagnated, seeing her familys legacy grow and be forgotten to the eons of time.

"You have eternity"

She is a twin, the minuscule details of their faces is only known to them and those who know them best, but they are known.

Her mother and father could always tell them apart. Vestor could always tell them apart. The kits, Esteo, Olorin, Suilan arent consistent but they, like her older brother Nestor, can see them when they look.

She doesnt want to explain why Nuri is getting older as she stays the same.

If by some chance her companions, her second family, the people she had fought and cared for through countless trials, are granted the same then at least she would have them.

But what of-

a presence.

Perhaps it is Shae, such a wonderfully kind and worryful soul, a newer addition but no less dear.

She doesnt stop walking as her senses are attuned to who is walking behind her, trying not to be seen.

Its not Shae.

Nienna is in no mood to suffer someone who thinks they can follow her, a stranger even, in her woods, her home, her territory.

She gathers her magic around her and disappears.

an instant, only long enough to breathe in and breathe out and she is back, hidden and silent watching this stranger who thinks that they can intrude without her noticing.

she watches as they shuffle and write something in the dirt before heading back the way they came.

She leans back and relaxes slightly against the tree. taking in the birdsong and the wind as it blows steadily through the forest.

But she has a destination in mind and needs to leave enough time to get back before her friends start to worry.

She swings down from the tree and lightly lands on her feet, continuing up the mountainside.

"Age will not touch you"

"you have eternity"

the phrases play steadily in her mind as Nienna follows the path she knows so well.

She reaches a small hole in the rock and in a blink becomes feline, squeezing into the crevice that opens into ruins.

A small waterfall to the side that drips into a creek, the sunlight dappling the structures that have been lost to time and the elements.

She and Nuri came here long ago, as kits, accidentally falling from a cliff above, waking to the sight of a large figure made of quartz, a small creature by his side talking to them incessantly, reassuring that they would be ok.

She curls up on some moss next to the water and allows herself to fall into the between, relaxing into her most natural state.

After-all, cats cant cry.

she strokes her tail in a self soothing gesture as she lets the tears fall and allows herself to think on feelings she has hidden for so long.

What of Vestor?

Her brave, foolish, fiercely intelligent Vestor. The one who made the duo a trio and came up with all their most ridiculous schemes and pranks.

The man who traveled across the ocean to fight in a battle for a continent not his own because it was the right thing to do.

Nienna loves so strongly, and fiercely, and silently. Overt displays of affection were always Nuris wheelhouse, Nienna primarily along for the ride.

"you have eternity"

Nienna sobs for her family, her friends, her lost love, and herself.

The weather turns dark, clouds gathering, winds whipping and thunder rumbling as her sobs turn to screams of anger and anguish.

She slowly collapses back to the moss the energy leaving as suddenly as it arrived.

"you have eternity"

there isnt anyone else.

She knows her powers, she was shocked to be called the most capable but if she is honest with herself she knows the truth.

No one else is handling the Great Spirits.

Hell most people dont even know they exist.

She has asked person after person for knowledge, help, anything they might know and time after time come to the realization that she knows more than any of them.

to be a Gods chosen wont be so bad will it?

"Age shall not touch you"

A heavy hiccuping sigh and she sits up, looking to the sky, judging the passage of the sun.

Its been too long, her friends will be worrying.

almost right on time she feels the tingle of magic as she hears Virxinias voice in her head.

"Ill be back soon. Fuck. Sorry, ill be back soon"

another deep breath and she looks around.

"thanks buddy" she chokes out through the lump in her throat "I miss you"

a blink and shes feline again leaving this place of solace and memories.

She makes good time back to the city, familiarity speeding her way.

She ponders on what Shae encouraged, saying goodbye to her family (well the family that is here) but she did that right before they left for Meloras temple.

It has only been a few days and THEY havent gone though a literal earthshattering trial, best not to worry them.

"Nienna!"

Kadirs familiar voice startles her as he waves her down bringing her focus back to the present.

His concerned face makes her stomach drop.

She thought she would be ok but when he asks if theres anything she needs she cant help but bitterly say through her tears "I need to not watch my sister die"

His eyes are full of sympathy and compassion as he tries to reason through the same thoughts she did and she chuckles a little bit inside.

Her friends are amazing.

"theres no one else Kadir"

"yeah but maybe you can do this and then say I dont want to be your chosen" his mouth is in a stubborn line and she cant help but smile a bit

"yeah maybe" a big hug and she sighs into it, putting the emotions away for now.

"Shae got us bonbons, here" a small offering, but delicious as they continue back to Melora and back to her new future.

[nekohooch]

Part 2 of the latest episode of “Victoria has a problem with the concept of moderation.” Ft. DnD character Nienna Kitskaether

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Highlights of tonight's game: - I don't people very well - had to have a friend possess me to make my flirting for information passable - Nienna is so done alltha time -Nienna tried to not dance on the party ship but is in fact fantastic at dancing so could not resist. - I don't diplomacy - Liches suck - traveling without cars sucks - I love playing dnd with my friends it's so wonderful.

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Discussing what daily I'm taking for level five in DnD. I am grace incarnate and totally did not just smack a book onto my face.

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Tim knocked me unconscious but I rolled a 20 on my saving throw i am conscious on spite alone at this point