#nick sturniolo nation

[muwapsturniolo]

𝑮𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝑳𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝑩𝒂𝒃𝒆 💫 Nick sturniolo (m! reader)

"i-i made a mistake, please, please just..."

✘ angst, i can't lie i had trouble writing this so I'm sorry that it isn't that good😭 i promise i will do nick justice next time, angst isn't my strongest genre.

It's dark in the bedroom, the only light being the moonbeams cascading down and illuminating a figure sitting on the edge of the bed.

He couldn't sleep, his mind toying with him and replaying his happiest moments that he took for granted and ruined - He felt guilty.

A soft shuffling is heard, his whole body tensing and his throat constricting. He slowly turns his head, his eyes landing on his sleeping wife.

She was a beautiful girl, she had a good heart and tended to forgive people too easily....and yet he found himself hating her

He knew it was wrong, the girl never did anything to harm him or make his life a living hell - He did that all on his own.

He was the reason he hates his life, not the woman he calls his wife.

He clenches his fists and faces forward, his eyes beginning to burn from the salty tears forming. He closes his eyes and lets out a shaky breath, his hands coming to his face as he rests his elbows on his knees.

"God, what is wrong with me..." He questions himself softly, the tears now running down his face.

He knew if anyone saw him they would think he was pathetic.

What kind of man sits on the edge of his bed in the middle of the night, head in hands as he cries next to his wife, all because he wishes he was with a boy?

A silent sob escapes his mouth as he recalls all the memories with him.

The day they met, the first time they hung out, the first time they got drunk, their first kiss, the endless nights of fooling around - He missed it, he craved it.

He couldn't believe he gave that all up to be nothing more than a husband in a picture-perfect American family.

He could hear Nick's voice as he replayed that day in his head.

"You can go and kiss 100 fucking girls Y/n, you can drink all you want and try to forget the feelings you have for me, but that doesn't erase the fact that you're gay!"

"I'm not gay Nick! I don't have feelings for you! This was a mistake o-A mistake? A mistake is spilling your coffee on your shirt when you're in a rush, not telling me you only want me to call you baby as your dick is shoved down my throat!"

The two males stare at each other, their breathing harsh as they try to come to terms with the end of their beginning.

Y/n sighs and allows his body to relax, "Nick...I'm sorry, ok? I-I...I'm sorry."

"Yeah well when you wake up regretting this choice, just know I told you so."

I told you so...

He was right.

He regrets everything.

His gold band glimmers softly in the moonlight, a reminder that he’s bound to a marriage that he doesn't even want.

He couldn't take it anymore

Without a second thought, he rips the band off, setting it on the nightstand and jumping up. He’s quick to change out of his pajamas, stumbling out of the house as he makes his way to the car.

His heart thumps loudly in his ears, his breathing erratic as he swings out of the driveway, heading towards his destination.

It wasn't long before he arrived at the infamous bar "Pink Cadillac." It was mainly known for being an LGBT+ bar, a place where people of different genders and sexualities could be with their own, and feel safe.

He hadn't stepped foot in this bar since that night, attempting to erase all the memories and a part of himself.

he sits in the car with sweaty palms, staring up at the neon sign as he debates going in.

he knew it was too late to back out, he already left her and his ring at home - He didn't have a choice anymore.

He climbs out of the car and slowly makes his way inside, the interior of the bar starting to look and feel familiar. He finds himself smiling as he sees pictures plastered on the wall from 7 years ago, recognizing the faces of his old acquaintances. He stops when he comes across a picture of him and Nick, the two of them smiling as they were crowned the kings of the "Pink Cadillac Prom".

He remembers that night as if it was yesterday, but he doesn't have enough time to dive into his memories due to someone approaching him.

"Look at what the cat dragged in! Long time no see Y/n"

He turns around and smiles softly seeing the familiar face of Damon. he was dressed up, makeup covering his face and his neon green wig laid to perfection.

"Damon...hey," Damon gives him a quick up and down before crossing his arms. "Didn't think I would see your face here ever again after that night..."

The smile on Y/n's face falters, his eyes now cast downward as he feels an ache in his chest. Damon sighs and drops his arms, pulling Y/n towards the bar.

"Whiskey coke?"

Y/n chuckles dryly, nodding his head as he sits at the bar. Damon whips up the drink before sliding it over to the male, Y/n taking a long sip before sighing. The two sit and talk, catching up on the years of missed events and laughing with each other over old memories.

It wasn't long before Damon finally questioned him, "What are you doing here Y/n?"

"I...I need to see Nick..."

Damon sighs and places his hands on the bar, "Y/n I don't think that's a good idea.... It was 7 years ago, you need to forget it, you're married!" Y/n shakes his head, refusing to give up.

"I-I'm not married anymore."

A lie.

A big fat lie.

He was still married to her, but he planned to get a divorce after tonight.

"I-Is Nick here?"

Damon stares at him for a moment before nodding, "he is, but Y/n I don't think you sh-Where is he?" Y/n cuts him off, eager to see his long-lost lover. He notices the tense look on Damon's face and finds himself begging.

"Damon, please... I messed up, I-I need to apologize and tell him I'm sorry.”

“He’s on the patio…”

Y/n has never moved so fast in his life, maneuvering through the bodies of dancing couples and heading straight towards the patio exit.

He makes it outside, his eyes darting around before they land on him,

Nick.

It was like a scene out of a movie, the fluorescent lights shining on Nick's face as he laughed loudly with his friends, unaware of the person walking up to him and prepared to spill their heart out.

"so I told hi-Nick?"

The shorter boy whips around at the familiar voice, his brows furrowed in confusion.

"Y/n? What are you doing here?"

he goes to answer but stops seeing Nick's friends looking at him, "Can we talk...In privet?"

Nick scoffs and sets his drink down, "No, I don't want to talk to yo-Nick please...?" Nick stares at him for a moment before sighing and standing up from the table. He walks off, motioning for Y/n to follow.

The two boys stand off to the side of the patio, hidden from the curious eyes and in their own world.

"Speak, what did you want to talk about?"

Nick's dismissive tone was expected, Y/n had hurt him. However, Y/n couldn't help but be hurt himself.

"I... I miss you."

Nick chuckles and shakes his head, " Nick please! Just hear me out! I'm sorry ok? I fucked up, I fucked up big time, I know that. I-I hurt you and I'm so so sorry."

Nick can see how distraught the man is, the bags under his eyes evident and the tone of his voice proving such, but Nick doesn't feel bad at all.

He felt smug.

He knew Y/n would come crawling back, claiming he was sorry and crying because he knew he was lying to everyone and himself when he claimed he was straight and getting married to a girl.

"I hate to say it, but I told you so," Nick states, his arms crossed right across his chest. Y/n couldn't even be mad at the words thrown in his face, he knew Nick was right.

"I-I know. You were right, you are right. I-I was struggling Nick, I-I'm-" He struggles to find the right words to express his feelings and thoughts.

"I'm sorry...What we had wasn't a mistake. I did - No I do, have feelings for you. I was just scared Nick, it was one thing to be gay in private with our friends here, but it was another for me to be gay in public, and I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry for being a coward and lying to you and myself-" Y/n moves closer toward Nick, slowly trapping him between his chest and the pink-painted bricks of the club.

"-B-but I can handle it now, I-I want to try again...I want to try us again." Nick begins to look uncomfortable, the words and closeness of Y/n being too much. Nick gently pushes him away, his mouth dry as he tries to speak.

"Y/n...."

The taller male could already feel the tears forming in his eyes, he knew by the way Nick pushed him back and said his name that he was being turned down. He shakes his head, pleading softly with Nick as he holds his arms tightly.

"Nick please"

"Y/n let go..."

"Please just give me a chance!"

"Let go!"

"I-I made a mistake, I just-"

"I'M ENGAGED !"

Silence stands between the two, Nick looking away awkwardly as Y/n feels the bile rise in his throat. He's lying, he has to be lying. There's no way he was engaged...Right?

"W-what?"

Nick holds up his hand, "I'm engaged Y/n.... "

he looks at the shiny diamond ring, the ring reminding him of the one currently on his nightstand.

"D-don't say that...D-don't marry him, please!"

Now Nick was angry.

How dare Y/n show up and expect him to forgive him right away and live happily ever after. How dare he demand that he not go through with the marriage.

"That's rich coming from you! You're a fucking hypocrite Y/n, you left me to get married to a girl! A girl! Now you're telling me not to get married to the person who helped put me back together after you broke me?! Fuck you!"

"I'm not married to he- I don't fucking care Y/n!" Nick shouts. He sighs and removes his glasses, rubbing over his face in annoyance.

"Look... I'm happy now Y/n, I actually love myself now to not keep up with your bullshit. You coming here was a mistake....Go home."

Y/n swallows harshly as Nick's words hit him harshly.

He was right once again, this was a mistake.

"I-I...should go...Sorry for bothering you...'' He whispers softly, slowly backing up before turning around and starting to walk away. Nick's voice calling out for him makes him stop, hope filling in his chest.

"I'm glad you finally stopped lying to yourself...I hope you find the love you deserve...Good luck, babe."

Y/n smiles faintly despite feeling like shit. With a heavy heart, he leaves the bar, his whole body feeling numb as he drives back home.

He silently walks through the door and throws his keys back in the bowl, dragging his feet against the carpet as he enters the bedroom.

She's still sleeping.

He strips himself of his clothes and slides the gold band back on his finger. As he climbs into the bed, she awakens, her eyes fluttering open softly.

"Babe? Where did you go?" She questions.

"Needed some water...Sorry for waking you." He lies effortlessly. She hums and curls into his body, missing the grimace on his face due to the darkness of the bedroom.

"I love you," she mutters as she begins to go back to sleep.

"Yeah...Love you too...."

Another lie.

[thenickgirl]

the way these are all from this month…he would never let nick nation starve!

[meerkatzthings]

guys i love nate with my whole entire heart ☹️

[colbie-sturns206]

no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponential, logarithmic, while I gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cowgirl, doggy, backwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the pool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick throbbing, fist clenching, ear ringing, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling, teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy,moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious,gushy, creamy, beastly, lip biting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, can't walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail scratching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tango ever.💕

[sturnioloszn]

a/n; thank you guys soooo much for 100 followers, I'm veryyyy new to tumblr (but not new to the fandom, been here since 2021 lmao), so i didn't think i'd ever be in this position lmfaoo. also, 340 notes on "JEALOUS"!! that's unbelievable. i'm so, so grateful to everyone who likes, reblogs, and follows. love you all soo much. 💙

[floralsturniolo]

oh matt how you’d love the new forest national park in england 🥹🥹

[sunrisemill]

The air is tasting a little bit salty today…

[sturniololuv08]

Abdominal Aorta (Unreleased Chapter)

Warnings: GSW, Blood and Light description of graphic actions, mention of death, Drugs in the form of a nickname.

Normally I sleep in and you would think since I was up all night thinking about everything I would have, my brain was in overdrive at 9 a.m. I lay in bed scrolling my phone for a bit to waste time.

"Fuck!" I sat up straight hearing the yell. "Can you fucking not?" It was Nick yelling. I tossed my phone and walked quickly to the living room.

"Just hold still." Percocet Polly was here. She was hovering over Nick who was sprawled out on the floor shirtless.

"Just let her get it out." Chris' voice was concerned instead of domineering.

"What is going on?" My voice wavered. I wasn't feeling fully awake yet.

"Nick still has the bullet in his side." Chris didn't look at me.

"I thought it was just -"

"A flesh wound." Chris finished with attitude. He finally turned to look at me with his arms folded. His eyebrows were pressed down. He was mad at me.

"Yeah." I croaked.

"Chris, it's not his fault." Nick panted.

"This never happens when I'm there. It was your one chance to not fuck anything up and Nick got shot."

"I'm sorry. I didn't-"

"Didn't what? Think?"

"Chris!" Nick yelled. "Oh fuck!" He hollered right after. Chris forgot about yelling at me to point his attention back to Nick.

"I got it." She held up a little fragment. "Oh no." She shrieked.

"What!?" Chris and I both asked urgently at the same time. I walked closer to my brother on the living room floor.

"Chris go get more gauze." She demanded. Without missing a beat he was gone and back. I blinked once. "It must have been containing the bleeding somehow." She was speaking aloud. I assume more to work through her thought process and less to inform us. Nick looked pale and woozy. "Nick, I'm sorry." She said. I stood there watching Chris frantically trying to clean up the crimson liquid oozing from the hole in his body he tried to hide. She shoved two fingers into his open wound and stretched his skin open further.

"Aaaagghh!" Nick shot up awake and alert.

"No stay down. Matt." Polly pushed him back down. I couldn't move. I was paralyzed watching this scene. Chris was covered in blood. Polly was covered in blood. Nick was bleeding out and I couldn't move to help. He took this bullet for me and I couldn't help him. "Matt, hold him down!" She yelled again. This time her voice snapped me back to the scene still happening before me. I slid down to my knees and held Nick's shoulders down. She continued ramming her fingers into his side hole.

"Fuuuck." He screamed and thrashed.

"Almost done." She was completely focused on her fingers. "Chris hand me that clamp."

"What clamp?"

"They look like scissors."

"These?" Chris held out a random tool. She quickly snatched it and threw it down.

"No, those!" She pointed frantically. Chris was panicking looking at all the intertwined silver tools. I reached over and grabbed what she needed. "Thank you." She didn't look at me but instead focused her attention on clamping whatever she was holding in between her fingers. Nick wasn't thrashing anymore. I looked at his face. His eyes were closed.

"Is he unconscious?"

"Yes." Polly didn't seem concerned at all.

"What the fuck is going on?" Chris touched his forehead leaving a bloody print on it.

"The fragment clipped his abdominal aorta. He is lucky it didn't rupture it." She stood up and looked around at the mess.

"What do we do now?" I asked.

"He needs a hospital."

"Elmer won't like that."

"He is your fucking brother Chris."

"Think about it. A gunshot wound like this, they are going to ask a lot of questions."

"Let's take him." I looked at Polly pleading.

"He needs to go or he'll die." I couldn't believe Chris even had to think about this. After a moment he sighed.

"Let's go. I'll handle the questions. You two don't speak." Chris was visibly stressed. I nodded and lifted Nick. We made it to the hospital and Nick was swiftly taken away from us. I went to walk with the doctors but Chris looked back and glared at me. My footsteps halted. I stood in the hallway. I couldn't believe he would not only take a bullet for me but lie about its severity. Nick never wanted us to worry about him and was always looking after us, mainly me. It was my fault. My eyes started misting over.

"He's going to be fine." Polly went to put a hand on my shoulder as comfort but I brushed it off and walked out of the doors we brought him in. I left the car for them and started walking the downtown streets. I had one job for the drop and I still messed up. Since I messed up I got Nick hurt. Since Nick got hurt because of me if he didn't make it, I killed my brother. I rubbed my eyes before the mist turned to actual teardrops and looked around. I noticed the coffee shop I always go to at three. I looked at the time; it was 1 p.m. Too early for her to be there. I shook my head. How could I seriously be thinking about her right now? For the first time, even though I was nervous as hell when I was talking to her, I didn't feel immense anxiety. I just felt normal. Of course, I was nervous to have accidentally stumbled upon her at the party but it wasn't soul-crushing anxiety. I didn't feel like I needed to take two or three pills to breathe normally. My thinking was clouded but I didn't feel like I needed to sit in a dark room for hours. Being around her made me feel normal. Before I knew it I was walking into Grinds.

"Hey, you are early." The barista looked at her wrist.

"Yeah, my day started sooner than I was ready for." I stifled a chuckle. She started making my drink as I reached into my wallet and grabbed extra money for a tip.

"Thank you." I smiled weakly as I grabbed my cup. I was going to have to miss out on seeing her today. I was most likely going to sit by Nick's side and make sure he was okay. I turned around and instantly felt my heart stop. She was here. She was here early. I was also here early. What was happening today? Everything was wrong. Nonetheless, I felt a sense of ease since I got to see her today after all.

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[sturnioloszn]

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[deareststurns]

Nick and his drama rn.

Listen I know I'm probably gonna get some hate for this but I don't even care tbh. Nick needs his shit clocked so badly and Imma do it (even if it he's not gonna see it I wanna inform you guys and just speak my opinion). Nick has been such a shitty human being recently. 1. I want to talk about how he is going to be the absolute downfall of Sturniolo's nation. He needs to start respecting his fans better number one, simply because without us he wouldn't be where he is now. I get that some fans go absolutely over the top and I get that, but saying his chat is “Helen Kellers” and just being downright negative towards them isn't okay. 2. I want to talk about how not just him but all of them have a tendency to not speak about anything. They choose to ignore everything. 3. Speaking of that lets talk about his abelist comment. Whether he had the intention or not for it to sound that way, it was damn right not okay to his brother at that too. Now Chris has mentioned he feels like he has ADHD or such, but he's not diagnosed. But still, that doesn't mean anything, it's still highly offensive to others. And I feel like if he DOES decide to talk about It 1. He's gonna act like he's hot shit and be all like “I don't care what you say.” or he's just not going to speak about it at all, but he needs to apologize to fans, and his brother in my opinion. I'm excited about Twitch streams with Nick simply because you cannot cut anything out and i do feel as though other things will be said and i don’t believe this will be the first or last time this happens. And speaking of Twitch streams, I feel like the energy is so much better without him there. That's just a hot take of mine. Matt is more energetic, and chris can honestly be more himself without Nick constantly talking down on him, they actually talk to fans more. And honestly, I'm a Matt girl at heart but I feel like he seeks Nicks's approval in stuff and just follows his lead in things. In my opinion Chris is the only real humble and grateful one of the group and I love that for him. And Chris I feel like is always the odd one out if that makes sense. Nick is highly rude to him. And I know that they're “brothers” and its going to happen but its like constant in Twitch streams. Anyways I just feel like I needed to speak on this because its been pissing me off.

All in all he just needs to calm his shit and what he says on stream and in general and they’ll be fine. 😬

[mattslolita]

STURNIOLO TRIPLETS as LANA DEL REY SONGS!

nick!

🎵.𖥔 ݁ ˖🎶๋࣭ ⭑👾🎵.𖥔 ݁ ˖🎶๋࣭ ⭑👾🎵.𖥔 ݁ ˖🎶๋࣭ ⭑👾🎵.𖥔 ݁ ˖🎶๋࣭ ⭑👾🎵.𖥔 ݁ ˖🎶๋࣭ ⭑

001. white mustang!

002. summertime sadness!

003. ultraviolence!

004. the other women!

005. high by the beach!

006. art deco!

007. cherry!

008. summer bummer! ft. asap rocky, plaboi carti

009. norman fucking rockwell!

010. young and beautiful!

011. video games!

012. fuck it i love you!

013. born to die!

014. carmen!

chris!

𐙚‧₊˚🧡✩ ₊˚🎧⊹♡𐙚‧₊˚🧡✩ ₊˚🎧⊹♡𐙚‧₊˚🧡✩ ₊˚🎧⊹♡𐙚‧₊˚🧡✩ ₊˚🎧⊹♡𐙚‧₊˚

001. off to the races!

002. diet mountain dew!

003. million dollar man!

004. lolita!

005. west coast!

006. serial killer! ( unreleased )

007. doin time!

008. venice bitch!

009. dealer!

010. jealous girl! ( unreleased )

011. radio!

012. black beauty!

013. groupie love! ft. asap rocky

014. cola!

matt!

✩°🌊⋆⸜ 🎧✮🫧✩°🌊⋆⸜ 🎧✮🫧✩°🌊⋆⸜ 🎧✮🫧✩°🌊⋆⸜ 🎧✮🫧✩°

001. trash magic! ( unreleased )

002. national anthem! ( @angelbrainrot i giggled )

003. ride!

004. body electric!

005. pretty when you cry!

006. music to watch boys to!

007. in my feelings!

008. lust for life! ft. the weeknd

009. you can be the boss! ( unreleased )

010. love!

011. shades of cool!

012. happiness is a butterfly!

013. say yes to heaven!

014. peppers! ft. tommy genesis

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i love making these so much, & i love lana so much. anyways i love u guys, u can always request an artist if you'd like !💌