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Endings Create New Beginnings

Burning in a Hopeless Dream | The Prologue: Part 2 (final part)

(Joel Miller x f!reader)

A/N: I genuinely feel like this might be the most complicated piece I have written in the sense that I went out of my comfort zone a little bit. Rather focusing on dialogue, I used a lot of descriptions of what the reader is going through, what she is mourning and what Joel is feeling as she goes through this. To be completely honest with you? This is beautiful. It’s tragic in the sense that these two people have no idea just how meaningful they will soon be to one another. I feel like I have done them a justice by writing their true beginning. There are dark themes throughout this piece so please tread carefully. Please read part 1 before this piece and while this is Joel and Gwen’s story, I have written it as a readers perspective. There are no physical descriptions of the reader.

Thank you for reading ♡

~word count: 5.1k~

Summary: after losing your lover, and friends of 5 years, you find yourself running straight into Joel Miller, and his partner, Tess Servopoulos. You don't know it then, but your life is about to drastically change forever.

Warnings: dark themes, depression, mourning, suicidal thoughts, guilt of one’s death, feelings of being trapped, isolation, dark thoughts in both the reader and Joel’s mind, hinting at soulmates without directly stating it, stubbornness, banter, empathy, jealously, secret pining, feelings of denial, mistrust, anxiety, brief depiction of a knife wound, stitches, alcohol consumption, confusing thoughts, fear of the unknown, no use of y/n, no physical descriptions of the reader, (+18) minors dni!

Songs Used:

“I Wonder” by Shawn Mendes

“The Alcott” by The National and Taylor Swift

“Lift Me Up” by Rihanna

“The View Between Villages” by Noah Kahan

“Everything Has Changed” by Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran

“My Cell” by the Lumineers

“Second Chances” by Gregory Alan Isakov

“Dear Patience” by Niall Horan

“After the Storm” by Mumford & Sons

You quickly came to the realization that Joel and Tess’s ‘empathy’ only stretched so far. You weren’t even sure if empathy was the right word to use, especially when it came to Tess. She had no issues showing her glaringly obvious distaste towards you. You really couldn’t blame her, simply for the fact that only a mere few hours ago, you had thrown your knife at Joel’s face. If you were in her shoes, you would have felt the same way that she did.

Joel and Tess didn’t take you to the QZ right away. It created a rather awkward, and tense situation given the circumstances. Your mind played tricks on you, and made you believe that maybe the pair had changed their mind. Maybe they were going to kill you after all. Joel could smell the stench of your fear from a mile away as he slowed his heavy footsteps down.

“Easy.” He spoke softly to you. “We have to wait for nightfall before we can sneak you in. There’s a set curfew that starts at 6pm, till 6a.m. Tess and I are always breakin’ the rules, and this ain’t our first rodeo. FEDRA only patrols specific blocks at a time. Our apartment isn’t far from the main entrance. So, once it’s late enough, we’ll sneak you in through the tunnel system. You won’t have to worry about runnin’ into any QZ residents either. If we do happen to be caught by FEDRA, you run, and you don’t don’t look back. Do I make myself clear?” His back was resting along a nearby tree, arms crossed over his chest. His tone may have been soft, but you averted making eye contact with him regardless.

“How long have you and Tess lived in the QZ?” you scratched the outside of your arm absentmindedly. The rain had since long passed, but your clothes were entirely soaked through. Joel could see your body trembling, shivering from where he was leaned up against the tree.

“A while. I’ll be honest, ain’t no one really keeps track of how many days, months, years have gone by. They’ve all blended together for me at this point.” He gave a small shrug of his shoulders before he gently pushed himself off the tree, taking a few steps towards you. “Hey, are you cold? Would you like my jacket?”

You took a hesitant step back when he approached you and Tess scoffed at your inability to recognize that Joel wasn’t going to kill you. He wasn’t going to harm you. She turned her nose up at the fact that you were still acting like a frightened cornered animal.

“No thank you. I’m fine. Please..don’t come any closer to me.” You whispered.

Joel let out a visible sigh as he shrugged his thick layered jacket off of his body. “You’re gonna catch a nasty fuckin’ cold shiverin’ like that. Take the jacket.” He firmly demanded as he held the coat in his outstretched hand towards you. “I won’t come any close to you, but take the damn jacket.”

You knew he was right and despite wanting to show a hint of stubbornness, and to prove that your brain hadn’t entirely been fried by trauma, you reached for his coat, grasping the material between your fingers. You briefly made eye contact with him as you slipped your arms through the sleeves. The material was warm, warmer than you had expected. The outside layer of fabric had a residual scent of whiskey, pine, and woodsmoke. A wave of nostalgia washed over you, and Joel could see the emotions swirling through your pupils, as if they were trying to tell him a story; mapped out delicately in your irises.

“Thank you.” Your tone was barely above a whisper.

“Don’t mention it.” He returned to his prior position against the evergreen, arms crossed, stern gaze falling on you.

When the sun began to set, and the sky grew into an endless black pit, with only the pale moonlight to guide you, Joel and Tess guided you to their secret entrance into the QZ. A series of underground tunnels that ran under the QZ. Smuggling routes that Joel and Tess knew by heart.

The tunnels had you feeling claustrophobic in some moments. With only Joel’s flashlight as a light source, it was easy for your heart to start racing in your ribcage. Everytime you could hear the sound of Fedra trucks driving above ground, you squeezed your eyes shut tight. You had heard hushed whispers of what the quarantine zones were really like and more than ever now, you were missing your close knit camp with your once living friends.

Tess was the first to climb out of the hole in the ground, surveying the area while Joel offered you his hand and carefully hoisted you up. The streets were quiet sans the distant shouts of FEDRA soldiers. Joel was already nudging you up the street, gun drawn at his side. You were overwhelmed with the newfound stench of the quarantine zone. A mixture of filth, soot, and ash burned your nostrils and watered your eyes. The smell of rotting flesh nearly had you gagging, feeling lightheaded. Had they lied to you? Why did they bring you here? Was the quarantine zone just disguised as a raiders commune? Joel promised he wouldn’t hurt you, he promised–

“Hey, hey. Easy now darlin.’ You’re safe. That smell? It’s..not what you think it means.” He whispered under his breath as he gently grasped your arm. “When FEDRA brings in potential new residents, they’re put through a series of screenings and tests. If you’re found to be infected..they administer a shot that puts ya to sleep. Pretty much is like euthanizing a dog, or a cat. After they put you to sleep, your body is burned in a huge pit. It’s one of the more grueling jobs in the QZ, but it pays well with ration cards.”

Tess was already a few lengths ahead of you and Joel as she impatiently waited for the two of you. “Uh, any day now would be really fuckin’ nice.” She harshly whispered through the dead of night.

“C’mon. Our apartment is just a couple blocks east. We gotta move fast though, alright?”

All you could do was nod as Joel nudged you in front of him to keep moving forward. He couldn’t see your face, but he just had a feeling that his jacket was bringing you some form of comfort similar to the way you felt earlier. You were indeed using his jacket, and the nostalgic smell it gave off to pacify your apprehension. Whether or not Joel saw you turn your face into the collar, was the least concern on your mind.

Whiskey, pine, woodsmoke. Whiskey, pine, woodsmoke. Whiskey, pine, woodsmoke.

Home. Home. Home.

Joel and Tess’s apartment was not what you were expecting it to look like. There was an odd sense of comfort that the small living area particularly gave off. Perhaps it was the dense multi-colored quilt that rested along the weathered couch. The quilt itself looked well loved, and you imagined being wrapped in it must have felt as close as a warm hug did. She gave the best fucking hugs. She’s dead now. You left her for dead. Her body is rotting away in the earth, and the insects have made their home in her flesh and here you fucking stand. You hadn’t even heard Tess shuffling around in the tiny kitchen behind you. You hadn’t detected the sound of a liquor bottle being popped open. Nor the splash of amber into a chipped crystal glass. All you could hear were her distant screams, and your ears painfully ringing in your skull.

“..Darlin?’” There was a certain edge to Joel’s voice. A low rasp that was ridden with exhaustion, and his own terrors. He wanted to tread carefully when approaching you. He wasn’t sure why he gave a damn in the first place. Why did his last shred of humanity fall upon your trembling shoulders? He could see your lower lip wobble in the faint reflection of the grime covered windows. He knew your friends were dead. Raiders had murdered them and you ran. There was more to the story. There were always more pages left unturned. Whatever words were written on your parchment, he imagined they were painful. The kind of pain that had you clutching your fist to your chest, clawing at the skin to rip your heart from its strings. The kind of pain that wrecked silent sobs through your body. Where tears were un-shed because your body had spent them all. The kind of pain that dried your soul to dust, ash between your trembling fingers. The kind of pain that would have your arms squeezing your broken body so tightly, you couldn’t breathe. Rocking yourself as a mother would rock a crying child except, no one was there to hold you. No lullabies were to be sung, no soft touches were to be felt. No one was there to tell you that the world wasn’t always this cruel. That the sun would always shine another day, warm your skin, feed your soul. That you wouldn’t feel trapped, clawing desperately to reach the surface as the current drags you further and further into darkness. Waves crashing, tumbling, jostling what is left of your withered being until you give up. Phantom shadows, enveloping you in a never ending chill. So cold. So alone. So broken. So beaten.

Joel knew the inner turmoil that you were facing as if it was the back of his hand. It was in a sense. He too knew of indescribable pain not that long ago. When his own soul was turned to dust between his fingers. When her body went cold in his arms as he clutched her to his chest. When he felt like breathing was the hardest thing to do. When his own tears were spent, deep salty caverns laid their claim on his cheekbones that used to ache from joyous laughter and smiling too hard. He knew of the pain you presently endured all too well.

His hand gently clasped over your shoulder, squeezing the worn fabric that encased your skin in warmth. “C’mon. I’ll uh–I'll show you to your room, okay?”

You shuddered from his touch, feeling your senses being knocked back into you like a wrecking ball turning concrete to rubble. You pulled away from his touch, caving in on yourself.

You felt his hand retract and fall to his side. He let out a deep sigh as he made brief eye contact with his partner that wasted no time on giving him the “I told you so” look before she downed her glass of whiskey in one harsh gulp, slamming the glass down on the counter with a crashing thud.

The sudden sound sent your body jolting as you followed Joel’s heavy footsteps down the narrow hallway. He pushed the door at the end of the hall open, standing off to the side. “It ain’t much, but you got a bed to sleep on and a decent blanket to keep warm. I’ll have to convince Tess to lend you some of her clothes. I imagine you ain’t got much in that bag of yours. Anyway, you should get some rest. You’re safe now.” His arms were crossed over his chest as he leaned against the peeling wallpaper.

“Thank you.” Was all you could muster out as you stepped into your new living space. Joel was right. It wasn't much, but it was more than you had in years.

“You’re welcome.” He softly pulled the door shut to give you the privacy that you didn’t realize you were desperately seeking. You listened to the heavy creaks of the floorboards beneath his boots disappear. You stood there for what felt like hours before you slowly sunk down onto the old mattress. You didn’t move. You didn’t cry. You didn’t sleep. You sat there all night long staring into the void as your mind ran excruciating circles. Head rocking like a pendulum with no end in sight. Eyes glazed, lifeless, dull, ghostly. As if all the wondrous color had been sucked from your soul. The world through your eyes now was dark, dismal, tenebrous. A swirling black pit oozing with sorrow. Dripping in overflowing guilt. Like toxic sludge bubbling and bursting through the cracked crevices in the fragments of your vanquished heart.

It's all my fault.

I did this.

I caused this.

She’s dead.

They’re dead.

Here I am, surrounded by darkness in an undeserved warm bed.

Wishing I was dead too.

Two broken heartstrings, bleeding the sad sad blues. Separated by thin walls, peeling wallpaper, creaky floorboards. Two shattered souls; unbeknownst on how devoted they would soon grow for one another. Silent sobs, nightmares, darkness consumed. Struggled breaths, dealt the same cards; fortunes foretold, they have met before.

You mourned the loss of your lover and friends for what felt like endless years. In reality, it was two weeks of you isolating yourself in your room. Two weeks of numbing yourself to the pain where all that was left was the outer shell of who you used to be. Where was she now? You had yourself convinced that part of your soul died along with the ones that you loved. Maybe it had, and maybe that part of you was never going to reach the surface again.

You soon learned that Joel Miller was a persistent man. He respected your privacy, but that didn’t mean that he didn’t go out of his way to make sure that you hadn’t offed yourself in those two long weeks. He would leave food outside your door in hopes that you wouldn’t let yourself wither away entirely. Each morning, he’d find the wrapped jerky, and long since stale biscuits untouched.

On the nights where Joel was unable to relax into sleep, he’d quietly, and carefully untangle his limbs from Tess’s before leaving their shared room. He’d find himself seated against your door, back aching at the uncomfortable angle he was in. For whatever reason he was feeling desperate to know anything, and everything he could about you. Your name, where you were from, did the sorrows and grief of your past haunt your dreamless nights just as his did?

“Can you just fuckin’ let me know you’re alive behind this door? ‘Cus I’m sitting here with an achy back for whatever goddamn reason so the least you can do is let me know you’re alive. Would greatly appreciate it.”

He was met with no answer from the other side of the door.

“Can you tell me your name, darlin?’” You heard his whisper through the thin door that separated him from you. Maybe he needed to take a softer approach, despite the fact that Joel Miller was anything but soft.

“I can’t tell you my name.” You spoke soullessly through the impending darkness that surrounded you.

So you weren’t dead behind the door, thank god. He thought to himself.

“Why can’t you tell me your name?” He pressed you further.

A pregnant pause, seconds ticking by as he awaited your answer. The floorboards creaked beneath your feet as you slowly rose from the crumpled sheets, and padded quietly to the door. You sunk down, back against the thin wood right where he was resting on the other side.

“Because everything that’s mine is a landmine Joel. Every single fucking person that knows my name is dead. Every. Single. One. They’re all dead. You’re better off not knowing my name or who I am, or where I came from. Knowing someone’s name is personal. It becomes a personal interaction and I don’t want that to happen. I don’t want anything to do with that.” You pulled your knees up to your chest, resting your chin against them with a heavy sigh.

“Now listen, I ain’t into all that superstitious crap. So you’re tellin’ me that you think everyone who knows your name is like fuckin’ doomed or somethin?’ That’s the most ridiculous thing I have ever fuckin’ heard darlin.’” I ain’t gonna die if you tell me your name.” He fought the urge to scoff but you could feel his demeanor through the door.

“Well, fine. What about you? What’s your story?..Joel…?” You paused, realizing you only knew his first name.

“Miller. Last name is Miller, and wouldn’t ya like to know, darlin.’” He was smirking to himself as he crossed his arms over his chest taking in a deep inhale before exhaling.

“Well, yeah. That’s why I asked.”

“Yeah? Well, I’m not tellin’ you anythin’ ‘bout myself till you tell me your name.” He stated as a-matter-of-factly.

“Oh? Well, guess that just means you’re gonna be sitting there for an awful long fucking time, Joel Miller from Texas.”

“How the hell did you know I was from Texas? Is my accent really that thick?” His eyes were open now as he gently rested the back of his head against the door.

“Yeah. It’s a pretty obvious southern accent. Hard to miss it.”

“Fair enough. How about this, can you give me the first letter of your name?” He was still on the topic of your name? For fuck sakes, did this man ever give up?

“No.” Was your immediate response.

“C’mon. Just the first letter, and then I promise I won’t ask ya again. Deal?”

You rubbed your fingers against your temples taking a deep breath when you realized that Joel was absolutely persistent in the most insufferable way possible. You mumbled out the first letter of your name begrudgingly.

“Was that so hard to tell me?”

“Yeah, it was. Now can you please fucking drop it? I don’t want to tell you my name, and I’d really would just appreciate the fact if you would just fucking accept that, alright? Thanks.”

Joel could sense your frustration through the door as his nails picked at the skin around his cuticles till they would tear and bleed. The light sting of his skin being split open was one that was familiar and oddly soothing. “Alright, darlin.’ I won’t pry any further. You have my word.”

A few minutes of silence had passed between the two of you. The floorboards creaked beneath his weight as he turned his body, resting his cheek along the splintered wood with a heavy sigh. It was frustrating to him that he couldn’t quite figure out why he was so immediately drawn to you. That he was causing his back to ache even more and for what? Just so he knew that you were alive? Why the hell did he care so much?

This became a routine for the two of you on the nights that sleep would not come. Sometimes you’d sit in complete silence and other times Joel would press for you to talk about anything. He wanted to get to know you, in whatever way you would allow him too. It was a challenging task and you proved to be tougher than he thought.

You never wanted to admit it, but Joel Miller wasn’t the most awful company to have in the odd hours of the morning.

It took just about a month for you to find your footing. Your body physically could not handle mourning what was no longer physically there in your grasp. Your brain was constantly in survival mode. Even now when you clearly were safer than you had ever been before, your brain hardly let you rest. Joel was not lying when he said that the most grueling jobs in the QZ paid handsomely in ration cards. You took every shitty job you could get your hands on. It was a good distraction from the constant thoughts racing through your mind. It was tricky, but somehow you had avoided working any jobs with your new “roommates.”

Despite your efforts to remain neutral with Tess, you still managed to evoke the woman in showing a deep distaste for you. She was far more intimidating than Joel was. It was obvious who was the brains of their operation, but you were also aware that Tess packed a lethal bite. It was only a short time ago that she threatened to gouge your eyes from your skull.

Some weeks you wouldn’t see Joel or Tess for days at a time. Not that it really bothered you because having the apartment to yourself had its perks. The biggest one being you didn’t feel like you had daggers trained on the back of your head. The downfall was that you were alone with your thoughts..and they weren’t going away.

“You enjoyin’ those late night chats with our new house guest?” Tess bitterly asked as Joel was patching up her arm alongside a crumbling alley outside the QZ. They had just traded a couple guns for some pills when 2 outsiders ambushed. Joel of course made both thugs regret that they had ever been born, but Tess had a fairly large gash along her forearm from a switchblade. Luckily for her it wasn’t muscle deep, but she’d still need stitches.

“What’re talkin’ about Tess?” Joel met her burning gaze as he dabbed away the blood. There was a stray sweaty curl blurring his vision and he paused his movements when she gently brushed it away.

“You don’t know what I’m talkin’ about? Bullshit, Joel. The walls are paper fuckin’ thin. Look, don’t you think she’s more than capable of bein’ off on her own? I agreed that we not kill her, but for fuck sakes. I don’t like the fact that she’s livin’ with us.” Tess didn’t want to admit outloud, but the main reason for her distaste towards you was because she viewed you as a threat. To what exactly? Well, it wouldn’t take a rocket science to figure out that Tess Servopolous was finding herself growing jealous anytime Joel diverted his attention from her, onto you. She knew it was silly, and a little embarrassing at the core, but Joel was hers. She was his, and she’d be damned if anyone got between that.

“Do’ya hear yourself right now? Look, you wanna be mad at me because I just wanted to make sure she didn’t off herself during those two weeks? Fine. Go ahead and be upset with me. I know it ain’t like me to take in strays and bring ‘em home. You and I both know that if we left her in those woods, she would have died. Hell, if Tommy were here? He probably would have killed her as soon as she threw her knife at my face. Do ya remember when he and I found you? Alone, and afraid? It wasn’t that fuckin’ long ago that you were a shell of yourself too, Tess. Tommy and I took ya in. We could have killed you, we could have left you for dead but we didn’t. Not long after you told me what happened to your husband and son. You told me about your loss, and the sacrifices you made to stay alive. I get it, you don’t like her for your own reasons, but you ain’t all that different from each other.” He concluded as he finished stitching up her wound, wrapping it firmly in some cloth before he grasped her hand and helped her up from the rocky ground.

“Fine. All i’m gonna say is that she’s gotta start pullin’ her own weight ‘round here too. You’re the one who said she might be useful to us. So, lets get some good use out of her. Today was a perfect example as to why this operation ran much smoother with three people.”

“Don’t worry. She’ll be goin’ on runs with us soon enough.” Joel zipped up his backpack and slung it over his shoulder along with his rifle. “Let's go home.”

It was springtime now. The air was warmer, there were birds outside the window that could be heard. The sun shone brighter. Despite all of this, you still felt trapped. Trapped in this apartment, trapped in your thoughts, trapped in a droning routine that was draining you day by day. You were desperate to get out. To let your lungs breathe the fresh forest air once more. Your wish was manifesting faster than you thought it would. Joel and Tess were meeting up with their two unlikely friends, Bill and Frank. Tess was against the idea at first, but you learned that Joel could be incredibly convincing when he wanted to be. That’s how you ended up outside the QZ walls after months. Joel would never say it outloud but he wanted to give you a taste of normalcy after everything you had been through. He wasn’t expecting you to thank him or anything. You owed him your life, this was true. However, he’d never ask you to repay him. He only hoped that perhaps you and him could become friends. If friends was even the right word for the journey you and him would find yourselves enduring together.

Frank adored you the moment he laid eyes on you. You believed that people had many different soulmates in their lifetime. Frank had to be your platonic soulmate in every sense. The older man was like a breath of fresh air in your lungs. His hugs reminded you of home, and his eyes were welcoming and kind. He doted you as his “little bird” when you explained why you couldn’t tell him your name. Soon enough you were being whisked into his world of art, music, books, and the simple pleasures in life that you weren’t sure if you’d ever have the privilege of experiencing again.

He showed childlike excitement when you gushed over his artistic abilities. He had all different sizes of canvases in his art room. Many of which were paintings of his polar opposite lover. He also loved to paint nature, flowers, and his favorite plants. The colors were warm, vibrant, and full of life.

“One day I'll paint a portrait of you in the wildflowers out back, how does that sound to you little bird?” His warm arm was wrapped loosely around your shoulder, a warm smile gracing his gentle features.

You were almost certain that you had met Frank in a past life. You felt as if you had known this man forever, and now you were catching up over coffee, and spilling secrets of your shared pasts. You adored him just as much as he adored you. “Wait, there’s wildflowers out back? A whole field of them?” You looked up at the older man with a bright full of life smile. You couldn’t remember the last time you had smiled this hard.

“Yes! An entire field of them. They’re all in full bloom. Would you like me to show you?” He offered you his elbow like the true gentleman he was.

You nodded enthusiastically, grasping his elbow gently as he led you out into the backyard. Your eyes watered when you gazed upon an entire field of different species of wildflowers that sprouted up between the tall thick wild grasses. Asters were your favorite, as Frank came to learn. They were all beautiful of course. Butterflies danced around your head like a fluttering halo. Their delicate wings were different hues of purple as you carefully plucked the flowers into a homemade bouquet.

Joel had been watching from afar. His arms were crossed over his chest, broad muscles bulging through the worn fabric of his flannel. He was half paying attention to the conversation Tess and Bill were having as he was too distracted by you. There was something so surreal to him, seeing you relaxed, and in your element. Could flowers truly bring one person that much pure joy? What was so special about these particular flowers? Did they remind you of home? Were they your favorite? Or did you simply just think they were pretty? Joel wondered as his jaw clenched tightly. Why were you able to find happiness in the littlest of things, and yet he couldn’t. He wondered what it would be like to see the world through your eyes at that moment. A world full of color and life. A world that wasn’t black and white.

Joel Miller wondered, and it terrified him.

He wondered if he was always being real. He wondered if he always spoke his truth, or does he filter how he feels? He wonders why he is so afraid of saying something wrong, when he never claimed to be a saint. He wondered why on the loneliest nights when he would cry into his hands, it conditioned him to feel like he was less than a man.

He wondered—

And then you met his gaze. Eyes sparkling under the warm rays of the sun. A soft smile gracing your lips. A smile different from the one you portrayed around Frank. No, this was a smile that would make any man weak in the knees. A smile that would send a man to his early grave if he never got the privilege to see it again. A smile that would now rot Joel Miller's brain to mush for the rest of the day. A smile that he felt like only he was supposed to see. A smile that had him wonder if one day you’d be by his side and promise him that the world would end up alright.

Your smile hit him like a freight train colliding with his body over, and over again.

It was true, Joel could not stop thinking of the way you smiled at him earlier in the day. He thought about it at the dinner table where he was sitting across from you. He thought about it when he found you and Frank seated side by side at the piano, giggling like two drunk fools after a few too many glasses of wine. Heads leaning against one another like old friends.

He thought about it during the odd hours of the night while Tess was asleep at his side. He stared up at the ceiling, picturing what it would possibly be like to be loved by you. Your smile was etched into his brain like a fucking tattoo. He blinked, and it wouldn’t go away. His thoughts were flooded with you.

darlin’, if my memories of you were ever stolen from my mind, my only hope is that you’d forever haunt my dreams, as someone I used to know; who is now a phantom of my past unknown.

Fin

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corneliastreetapartment · 3 days ago

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Feels Like Pt 9

FEELS LIKE PART 9

Niall Horan x Y/n swift

Story Masterlist

im not even apologizing at this point, its been like over an year, i just wanted to feel notaligic after liam's death.

this week on, y/n verbally eviscerating her sister's boyfriend: “Fun?” “You mean your Oscar-worthy goose monologue? Riveting stuff, Harry. Really.”

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Y/n’s London apartment buzzed like a beehive on caffeine. The music thumped erratically as Taylor and Conan’s playlist oscillated between indie anthems and bizarre internet memes, blending into the sound of clinking glasses and overlapping conversations. Every corner of the room was packed—celebs crammed into the cozy space like it was the hottest club in town. The air was an intoxicating mix of spilled champagne, high-end cologne, and a faint whiff of charred something from the kitchen.

Taylor was sprawled across the couch armrest, roaring with laughter at Louis miming an interpretative dance, while Harry stood in the middle of the room, reenacting what he claimed was a life-or-death encounter with a rogue goose. Diana, the epitome of angelic marshmallow vibes, was perched on a chair with a pink cocktail in hand, furiously interrogating Conan about his childhood dreams. Olivia lay flat on the rug, gesticulating wildly as she debated with Finneas about whether chairs had souls.

Leaning by the door, Y/n sipped her drink, her expression a cocktail of boredom and sharp amusement. Her sharp eyes scanned the chaos like a queen surveying her court.

“Y/n, love, why’re you hiding over here?” Harry called, grinning as he approached, gesturing dramatically. “Come join the fun!”

“Fun?” she deadpanned, tilting her head. “You mean your Oscar-worthy goose monologue? Riveting stuff, Harry. Really.”

He laughed, unbothered. “You’re such a delight.”

“Go flap somewhere else before I stuff you,” she shot back, smirking as Louis burst out laughing nearby.

Shawn stumbled past her, balancing a drink precariously. “Y/n, hey. So... uh, do you think—”

“Whatever it is, no,” she cut him off. “Unless it involves taking Diana away before she makes Conan cry.”

Shawn blinked, baffled. “I wasn’t—”

“Go, Shawn,” she insisted, giving him a mock-serious glare. He sighed dramatically and wandered toward Diana, muttering something about being misunderstood.

Y/n glanced at the door for the tenth time in as many minutes. When it finally creaked open and Niall stepped inside, it felt like someone hit pause on the pandemonium. Taylor spotted him first, shrieking with delight.

“Niall! You’re here!” she cried, barreling into him for a hug that nearly knocked him back out the door.

Harry followed, scooping Niall into a bear hug. “Finally! Thought you got lost or something.”

Louis wasn’t far behind, clapping him on the shoulder. “Good to see you, mate.”

Y/n rolled her eyes, the corners of her lips twitching upward despite herself. When Niall’s gaze found hers, her sharp demeanor melted like ice under a sunbeam.

“Hey,” she greeted softly, her voice a stark contrast to her earlier quips.

“Hi,” he replied, his voice quieter than usual, cheeks faintly pink. “This... uh, this is quite the crowd.”

“Welcome to my madhouse,” she quipped, stepping closer. “You alright?”

“Yeah, yeah. Just—good to see you.”

The exchange didn’t go unnoticed. Taylor leaned over to Harry, whispering loudly enough for everyone to hear, “Did she just smile? Like, genuinely smile?”

Harry smirked. “Mark the date. It’s a miracle.”

Y/n shot them both a glare. “You two can choke.”

Diana, however, was already on the move, her marshmallow aura replaced by investigative intensity. “So, Niall,” she began, hands on her hips. “What are your intentions with Y/n?”

“Diana,” Y/n groaned, pinching the bridge of her nose. “Shawn! Remove her.”

Shawn appeared like a summoned butler, gently steering Diana away as she protested. “But I’m not done!”

“Come on, Marshmallow. Let’s go check if Olivia’s started a chair cult,” Shawn said soothingly.

As they moved off, Niall chuckled nervously. “She’s... thorough.”

“She’s a nightmare,” Y/n corrected, though her fondness was clear. “Come on, let’s find somewhere less insane.”

They squeezed onto the couch next to Taylor and Billie, who were now embroiled in another absurd debate with Olivia.

“Niall,” Taylor started, staring at him like she was about to unveil the secrets of the universe. “Do you think stars get lonely?”

“Uh...” He blinked, clearly caught off-guard. “Like, actual stars?”

“Duh,” Olivia said, rolling her eyes. “They’re out there, burning, dying, and for what?”

“To look pretty,” Billie added solemnly. “Tragic, really.”

Y/n groaned, leaning into Niall. “Don’t encourage them. You’ll never escape.”

He chuckled, his earlier nerves melting away. “I’ll take your word for it.”

For a moment, amidst the absurdity, it felt like the world had narrowed to just the two of them. Y/n hesitated, the words she wanted to say tumbling through her mind.

“Hey,” she began, uncharacteristically tentative. “Do you maybe wanna—”

A deafening crash interrupted her, followed by Olivia’s wail. “No! The pumpkin! It had so much potential!”

The room turned to see Finneas and Shawn guiltily holding the shattered remains of a pumpkin. Olivia was on her knees, cradling a piece like it was a fallen comrade.

“Who does that?!” she cried, glaring at the culprits. “It didn’t deserve this!”

Taylor stood, grabbing Billie’s arm. “Let’s make them pay.”

“With interest,” Billie agreed, cracking her knuckles.

As chaos erupted once more, Niall leaned closer to Y/n, his smile soft. “Quite the party.”

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As the chaos spiraled into something even louder, Niall glanced at Y/n, his eyes soft with concern. "Should we... do something?" His voice was tentative, unsure if he should push her to leave or let her stay in the madness.

Y/n, however, barely looked up as she reached for a bottle of wine. "This is just another Tuesday for them," she muttered with a half-hearted wave of her hand. "Come on, grab some glasses. we're going upstairs"

She led the way, both of them sneaking out to the roof, the noise from below slowly fading as they climbed higher. The night air felt cool against her flushed skin, and the city sprawled beneath them, a sea of twinkling lights. Y/n kicked off her heels with an unsteady laugh, plopping down on the edge of the roof, her body moving a little more recklessly than usual. She poured them both generous glasses of wine, her hands slightly shaking as she passed him his.

"To surviving whatever that mess was," she said, the words light, but her smile hinted at something deeper, more uncertain. She clinked her glass against his, her fingers lingering on the rim just a second too long.

They drank, the tension between them dissolving with each sip. The quiet of the night seemed to make the air feel heavier, charged. Y/n leaned in closer, her gaze fixed on him, and though she tried to hide it, there was something in her eyes that made Niall’s pulse quicken.

"You know..." she murmured, voice thick with the alcohol, but something else too—an unspoken emotion that curled under the words, "your accent... it’s... it’s unfair, Niall. It’s like you were born to make me melt."

Niall blinked at her, startled, his heart giving an unexpected jolt. "Uh, thanks?" His voice was quiet, but his eyes couldn’t look away from her, even as the warmth of her body seeped into his side.

Y/n didn’t respond at first, her head drifting onto his shoulder, her fingers grazing his arm absently as she sighed softly. "I’ve... had a thing for you for a while, you know," she said, her words slurring just enough to feel less guarded, less aware of the weight of them. "It’s not just the accent or the way you laugh or... just the way you are. It’s everything. You’re... amazing."

Niall’s breath caught in his throat. He wasn’t sure what to say, so he just shifted his weight, fumbling with his glass in his hands, suddenly more nervous than he could ever remember being. "Wow," he said, his voice betraying him with its shakiness. "That’s... really sweet of you to say."

Y/n tilted her head, a knowing smile spreading across her lips, her eyes locking onto his with a gentle, almost teasing intensity. "Oh, I know. But it’s nice to hear it from you," she said, her fingers skimming along the collar of his shirt, making him shiver despite the warmth of the wine in his chest.

His breath hitched, and he looked away for a split second, trying to steady himself. His phone buzzed in his pocket, and he quickly checked it, his heart thudding against his ribs. When he opened it, the name "Y/n" flashed across the screen in his search history. His eyes widened, heat rushing to his cheeks as he stared at the screen, unsure of what to do next.

Y/n noticed immediately, her lips curving into a mischievous smile. "Wait," she said, her tone playful but with a hint of something else beneath. "You’ve been Googling me?"

He groaned, burying his face in his hands. "I swear, it’s not as weird as it looks."

She laughed, the sound more carefree than she’d been all night, and for a brief moment, Niall felt like maybe—just maybe—he wasn’t the only one trying to hide what was stirring between them. "Relax," she teased, nudging him lightly with her shoulder. "I think it’s kind of cute, actually."

They fell into a comfortable silence, both of them leaning into the quiet night, but the air between them felt electric. Y/n could feel the tension between them like a thread pulling them closer, but neither of them was willing to fully tug it just yet.

Y/n hesitated for a moment, her gaze dropping to her glass, then lifting it to meet his. "Niall..." Her voice softened, quieter now, as though the city below them wasn’t there at all. "Would you... would you want to go out with me? Like, properly? A real date?"

There it was, the question that had been hanging in the air for so long, and suddenly, Niall wasn’t sure how to breathe. His mind raced, but he wasn’t ready to admit just how much her words had affected him, how much he had been hoping she might say them.

He smiled, slow and unsure, but with a warmth that reached his eyes. "I’d like that," he said, his voice steady but filled with something deeper—something he hadn’t allowed himself to fully understand yet. "A lot."

And for just a moment, they sat there, the city beneath them still and vast, both of them unsure, but knowing somehow that this moment—that them—was only the beginning.

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lucienarcheron · 1 year ago

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Eris x Iris — two sides of the same coin; finding love in an unexpected way.

. ivy - taylor swift / . iris - chris lanzon / . cowboy like me - taylor swift / . waiting game - banks / . swoon - beach weather / . heaven - julia michaels / . willow - taylor swift / . ghost of you - 5 seconds of summer / . leave the door open - silk sonic / . be kind - halsey / . like real people do - hozier / . eavesdrop - the civil wars / . i found - amber run / . make up your mind - florence + the machine / too sweet - hozier / . war of hearts - ruelle / . shallow - lady gaga / . armor - landon austin / . dandelions - ruth b. / . waking up slow - gabrielle aplin / . us - james bay / . dust to dust - the civil wars / . beginning middle end - leah nobel / . this is how you fall in love - jeremy zucker + chelsea cutler / . take on the world - you me at six / . all to myself - dan + shay / . slow hands - niall horan / . hunger - ross copperman / . someone to you - banners / . nobody - hozier / . hardest of heart - florence + the machine / . love again - dua lipa / . no plan - hozier / i can fix him (no really i can) - taylor swift. at my worst - pink sweat$ ft. kehlani / . you - dan + shay / . i believe - jonas brothers / . i wanna be yours - arctic monkeys / . don’t blame me - taylor swift / . remedy - william black ft. annie schindel / . better days - dermot kennedy / . something i need - one republic / . fire and the flood - vance joy / . burning bridges - one republic / . all fall down - russell dickerson / . i hope you know - sofia carson / . flowers in your hair - the lumineers / . say you won’t let go - james arthur / . love me harder - ariana grande / . all of you - leadley / . where I sleep - emeli sandé / . lavender haze - taylor swift/ . labyrinth - taylor swift / . always been you - shawn mendes / . the great war - taylor swift / . invisible string - taylor swift / . peace - taylor swift / . work song - hozier / . sweet nothing - taylor swift (eris pov) / . before you - benson boone

#eris vanserra #eris vanserra x oc #smtb playlist #playlists #eiris #smtb

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nialls-gorgeous-colors · 11 months ago

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Shawn Mendes and Niall Horan Timeline

Year 2019

Jan 12 Niall and Shawn are spotted attending a Rams game in LA with friends

troy832001 When your trying to sneak a picture of Shawn Mendes to show my oldest daughter lexikay222 how cool you are and he catches you red handed! LOL

Later, they head to 40Love (upscale restaurant and sports bar in West Hollywood) and sign the wall.

40love On the wall BakerMayfield ShawnMendes & NiallHoran tagged us up last night.

Jan 21 Niall talks to fans on Twitter about Shawn x/x

& Shawn replies

Jan 24 Shawn posts about Julia Michael’s new song with Niall via IG Stories

Feb 3 Shawn and Niall hang out with friends at 40Love

Feb 8 Niall tweets about Grammy weekend

Feb 10 Niall and Shawn hang out at the UMG Grammys after party

Feb 13 Niall posts the above picture to his Instagram with the caption: So proud of this guy . He alongside mileycyrus gave an incredible performance at the Grammys and its been unbelievable to watch him grow into this worldwide superstar and still manage to stay as humble as he does . Congratulations shawnmendes !

Feb 20 Shawn mentions The Collab at the Brit Awards: I’m really good friends with Niall and we wanna write a song… We just literally have not found the time yet… I think the truth is, We do a lot more hanging out than writing music when we see each other.

MARCH 2019

Mar 8 During a Q&A Shawn reads a text from Niall: “Congrats Shawn, I’m really happy for you, everything looks amazing”

Mar 10 During a Q&A: If I woke up in another celebrity’s body, who would I want to be? I want to be Niall for a day. See what it’s like to be him.

Mar 11 During a Q&A when Shawn is asked if he’s in WhatsApp group chats with any other celebrities, “Yeah, I do actually. I have one with Niall.”

Q: Only with Niall, or with others?

Pretty much just with Niall.

Another Q: Who do you want to collaborate with in the future?

Shawn: I mean, a lot of people. I think it would be great to do something with Niall. I know you guys want that.

Mar 14 Niall responds to an IG Q&A

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xsylcuenco · 1 year ago

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CreekFest Duet Duo - setlist

Join Sylvia and Jamie for a laid back performance of some favorite duets. Pop, country, and so much more! Sing along if you know the words and enjoy!

September 20th, 2-4pm

Meant to Be - Bebe Rexha ft. Florida Georgia Line

Two is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

I Was Made For Loving You - Tori Kelly, Ed Sheeran

Craving You - Thomas Rhett, Maren Morris

Speechless - Dan + Shay, Tori Kelly

The Bones - Maren Morris ft. Hozier

Take Back Home Girl - Chris Lane ft. Tori Kelly

Our Song - Anne Marie, Niall Horan

I Bet You Think About Me - Taylor Swift ft. Chris Stapleton

Just a Fool - Christina Aguilera, Blake Shelton

If We Never Met - John K ft. Kelsea Ballerini

You Are Mine - Secret Nation ft. Holley Maher

Peer Pressure - James Bay ft. Julia Michaels

Who Saved Who - Mindy Smith, Matthew Perryman Jones

Share Your Air - Kate Miller Heidke ft. Passenger

More Than Friends - Jason Mraz ft. Meghan Trainor

We Go Down Together - Dove Cameron ft. Khalid

Who You Love - John Mayer ft. Katy Perry

Cold Heart - Elton John, Dua Lipa

Lie to Me - 5SOS ft. Julia Michaels

Nobody Wants to be Lonely - Ricky Martin, Christina Aguilera

Floating - Alina Baraz ft. Khalid

Die For You - The Weeknd ft. Ariana Grande

Like I'm Gonna Lose You - John Legend, Meghan Trainor

Lover - Taylor Swift ft. Shawn Mendes

playlist [x]

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chloes-laddy-lads · 1 year ago

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Summer Love : Shiall ⛱️

I Knew that when Niall dropped the third album, " The Show" that it would have references to Shawn somehow as well as a follow up to Shawn's album "Wonder".

I'm back again here to prove I was right.

What Happened First:

Niall released two bonus songs on "Heartbreak Weather, " Nothing " & "Dress".

In "Dress", Niall sings about 'a little white number' that his lover wears. Keep that in mind.

Here's the lyrics:

What Happens Next: What does Shawn do as a follow up? He Releases his song

"Summer of Love". And in the Music Video, guess what he's wearing???

~ A little white number~ :

What Happens Next: Now what does Niall do as a follow up to this? Release his third album of course. Most tellingly is his song " On a Night Like Tonight" ( My fave on the album 😌)

In the song, Niall sings about "wanting your summer skin pressed on mine " ❤️‍🔥

(We don't blame you Niall. I know that's right. )

Really, summer skin?? Whose summer skin? How more obvious can the lyrics be, right? Shawn in Summer of love was the first someone I instantly thought of.

Here's the lyrics to On a Night Like Tonight:

That Summer skin Niall's talking about:

Who knows how unhinged Shawn is gonna be in the next follow-up song, or even what song on " The Show" he is gonna make a follow up single to?

But be on the lookout, cuz we know it's coming.

#on a night like tonight #summer of love #shiall hendes #Hendes #shawn x niall

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not just smut fic fest fics

fics from all rounds of this fest :)

round 1:

lives in daydreams by @lhhomefics / lhhome

“Okay babygirl. I’ll take the best care of you. I promise.”

2. heartbeat (fire on fire) by @larryficwriter / theifinlife

"When he presented officially at fourteen, his dad was overjoyed. He had to sit through an entirely too descriptive sex talk. By the end of it, he knew way too much about how to please an Omega - how to be a good Alpha.

“What about if it’s an Alpha and an Alpha?” He had asked at the time, for no other reason than sheer, innocent curiosity.

He instantly knew that even asking this question was a mistake. A look of absolute disgust clouded his father’s face. The look is immediately filed away in his core memories.

“That’s not right. Alphas belong with Omegas. It’s simply not natural any other way.” He shakes his head. “Even discussing two Alphas being together makes me sick.”

Harry remembered nodding in agreement. Message received.

Or,

Harry is an Alpha who grew up using all of his energy to be a mirror. He learned to be everything everyone wanted him to be. Make as little waves as possible...

Louis, the extroverted Alpha with a passion for Social Sciences, comes in like a tidal wave."

3. just tell me you love me (that's all i need to hear) by @finelinelarents / finelinelarents

Harry has always been insecure about her the lack of experience surrounding her love life and is not helped by the fact her best friend - Louis, can get anyone she wants, just with the bat of an eye. She's everything Harry wants to be, confident, charming and incredibly gorgeous.

When Louis decides to help set Harry up with someone in an attempt to make Harry feel better about herself, it doesn't go particularly well. On the verge of giving up and thinking she's destined to die alone, Harry finally finds a man who is interested in her. He's the man of her dreams with his big muscles and suave demeanour, Harry can't believe her luck.

The only problem is that Louis doesn't agree.

The one where they just can't get it right, until they do.

4. understanding you, discovering me by @always-in-love-x / alwaysinlove

Following his most recent break-up, Harry finds himself in a difficult position when his friends play a sexual drinking game.

Unsure about sex, his housemate decides to help Harry understand what he enjoys in the bedroom. Along the way, he finds himself discovering a little bit more than just orgasms.

‘Ready?’ Niall poised the question, but before Louis had chance to answer, a firm hand landed on Louis’ denim-clad cheek. The sound echoed around the room, accompanied by shocked gasps from both Zayn and Harry.

‘Fucking hell Ni! Remind me never to have sex with you!’ Louis glanced over his shoulder, throwing Niall a glare. He sniggered in response, unashamedly comfortable with whatever madness was descending in his living room.

5. findin' pieces that can fit by @kingonafiftymetreroad / lsforever

When they’ve about finished eating, just snacking on their breadsticks and sipping the last of their wine, conversations about anything and everything tapering off, Louis sets his glass down and leans forward over the table.

Harry perks up a bit, sitting straighter to be more level with Louis and his serious expression. He feels nerves prickle across his skin before Louis absolutely confuses the hell out of him.

“So when are you gonna introduce me to your family?” he asks, tone and face serious enough that Harry is thrown so far off course.

“What? Wait, what?”

or, an Omega/Omega Established Relationship AU where they’re figuring it out as they go along. There’s a road trip in there, lots of cuddling, some cats and dogs, and, of course, the best first time Harry could ever ask for.

6. feel my body come alive by @panye / eynap

Shawn feels his breath pick up and his heart rate skips a beat. His throat starts tightening up and he thinks he’s probably going to have another panic attack.

“How could I forget them?” Shawn says, defeated.

“It’ll be okay,” he hears Niall say distantly in the background. He can’t focus too much on anything other than the fact that he’s going to have to experience the one, awful thing he’s been running from for the first time in years.

Or, Niall and Shawn are meant to be on a long weekend trip to celebrate their six-month anniversary, until they realize Shawn forgot his suppressants at home.

7. i was yours and you were mine (let's try it again) by @larrysballetslippers / kikiberoski16

Seconds later, Louis pushed him against the wall, startling Harry. Louis leaned in and whispered in his ear again. “You changed a lot, baby boy. Used to be so obedient. Now you're just a brat.”

Harry gasped; he couldn’t believe Louis would call him out on his behaviour when Louis was the reason he had to change. “Haven't been your obedient baby boy for a long time.”

“Did you become someone else's brat then?” Louis’ voice almost sounded like a growl. It was deeper than Harry remembered. It made him realize he’d never seen Louis angry.

Or, after many years of working in the modelling industry and putting his past behind him, Harry was completely taken aback when his old feelings for his ex, Louis, resurfaced. He wanted to be his good boy again.

8. obviously, genuinely by @larrystylilou / katicature

Louis never thought he was gay, it just hadn't crossed his mind like that. That is until Harry comes along and discovers it for him. Harry decides that he sees fit into sending Louis into a gay panic causing all sorts of tension and confusion.

round 2

together unfold by @marcythesassykitten / marcythesassykitten

“Oh you’re gonna die, Andrew Scott can use me as a doormat and I’d say thank you.”

The group eyed him in silence and as Harry’s wide gaze flickered across the surprised faces, he stuttered to continue.

“I–I’m not, like, into that in, like, a kinky way I– though there’s nothing wrong if people like that! I’m just saying that I don’t want people to walk on me or, like, clean their shoes on my face because what if they’d stepped on something nasty and I just have to lie there and take it without being able to say something– or would I be allowed to say something? I guess there’d have to be some sort of safe word system in place if one were to do that because everyone should always follow SSC, or they really shouldn’t be dabbling with that world because it could be so unsafe ‘cause, like, I heard about a friend of a friend whos colleague once went to this club with a bloke on their first date and she–”

“Harry, love, take a breath for me, yeah?” Louis chuckled.

Or, the one where Louis is determined to be insecure and stubbornly lonely forever, until Harry comes along to mess up that particular plan.

2. i'll look after you by @elmeiko88 / elmeiko88

I mean, when Harry inherited his late uncle's hybrid, he didn't necessarily expect this...

Where Louis is a nice hybrid cat who's never lived with anyone but an old man, and who discovers the freedom of living with Harry...

3. make confessions and we're begging for forgiveness by @wishingforloushair / wishingforloushair

On tour for their fourth album, all the boys in One Direction are starting to feel the strain, but Harry seemed to be the worst. Snippy and rude, he becomes unbearable to live with, until Louis realises that what Harry needs is someone to just keep him quiet and well behaved. After a particularly uncharacteristically sassy comment in an interview about Zayn's departure from the band, Louis fulfils one of Harry's sexual fantasies as punishment.

Tender kink exploration with the tiniest dash of angst, but mostly lots of orgasms. Submission for the Not Just Smut Fic Fest for the prompt: "Character A has been acting bratty and snappy and stressed for a while now. Character B knows just exactly what A needs to let go. Overstimulation fic with vibrator and bondage and maybe other toys and many orgasms"

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