#nia stop being a danger to yourself and constantly self sabotaging challenge (failed. miserably) | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

malachitezmeyka · 11 months ago

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If you’ve never wrestled with yourself for four hours straight practically begging yourself to go eat because yes, you don’t feel hungry now, but you haven’t eaten since breakfast so in the morning you’ll be completely miserable, then that is an experience I absolutely do not recommend

#I failed. btw #still haven’t eaten #and I still don’t feel anything #if my stomach was hurting I would’ve forced myself to do it by now #but since it doesn’t #I just stay here. all warm and comfy and safe in bed. and neither eat or sleep #it’s 2 a.m I should’ve done at least one of those things by now #tomorrow is going to be awful #today. technically. but whatever #and I was so fucking proud of myself that I didn’t have a breakdown over not drawing when I said I would #guess I can’t go one day without something being the matter #even now. I’m close to crying over the whole thing and I still can’t bring myself to go eat #maybe I should start keeping snacks in my room or smth #then it would be a matter if just reaching over which would be easier #even if I’d still have to force myself #nia stop being a danger to yourself and constantly self sabotaging challenge (failed. miserably)

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