#ngl I got a bit scared that ppl were judging me

[elsartzz]

I really love your art! your style is so pretty, it's like eye candy fr. you're such a skilled artist! also, I wanted to mention that I saw a couple of your thoughts posts and I wanted to suggest possibly investing into a journal to write them down into instead—I've found it helps to get the negative thoughts out, and then you're not broadcasting them to random strangers on the internet. not trying to throw shade, just genuinely concerned for your mental health. I really do enjoy your mha and genshin art, and it makes me happy when you post it! I love how you added both kaeya and klee in your recent contribution to the barbie meme lol. I hope you're having a good day, and if not, I hope things start looking up real soon! stay safe, and don't be too hard on yourself, alright? you're an awesome person 🩷 this is your sign to keep going

Hello!! Thank you so much for the kind words, I’m happy you like my art :))

Regarding the comment abt my thoughts posts – aw thanks for your concern! But first off, it’s actually been a while since I posted those (I checked and I think it was more than a year back? same w my mha art tbh– either you’ve been following for a while or you must’ve scrolled a lot LOL either way I’m impressed.) and I did delete a bunch of older emo posts and shifted some stuff to a more private blog, cos I realised it wasn’t too healthy to post everything online.

And I do have a journal!! It helps me a lot to get my thoughts out of my head and reason through emotional issues. I highly recommend keeping a journal too (even though I haven’t updated mine in a few days lol).

As for why I have the tendency to post more personal thoughts online… sometimes I want to share about smth ppl might find relevant, and sometimes I simply want the space to quickly vent about things that I can’t share with people in real life (for whatever reason). And I only do it cos I know I’m a small account (half my followers are bots) and it doesn’t really “endanger” my reputation and all that.

It’s a bit like shouting off a mountain or into a void, except sometimes the void speaks back and is kinda somewhat decent to you.

And occasionally people have replied!! (not on Tumblr tho lol) to share help/advice/support, which has been really nice.

But yes, I’m aware venting on the internet is probably not the healthiest and can be potentially dangerous as well. Also maybe it’s a bit of a turnoff if an artist you like keeps complaining about how miserable they are lol.

Don’t worry I’ll be sure to keep to myself more since my account is growing a bit, and draw a line between how much and what I share on the internet. I’m aware of Internet safety!!

…but just wanna say I’m probably not gonna stop random posting about unimportant things in life like how horrible my sweaty palms are lol they’re the literal worst FRRRR 😭😭

[mxgvmiii]

Aone and Aran with a mixed!fem!s/o

Ooooh first time writing for both of these let’s see how this goes. Ngl I have a good grasp of Aone’s personality but not that of Aran, I watch the anime that’s why, but I’m gonna try with what ppl wrote in fics and what his wiki says abt him so if he’s a bit ooc pls forgive me 🙏🙏

@kara-grayson04 is the one who requested this via dm btw

Takanobu Aone:

- shy babie was surprised to see someone with light caramel skin and curly like you, since in Japan statistically speaking mixed race babies account for about 3% of births, but the number is growing with the rise of intermarriage there

- He probably got captivated by your “different” (meaning uncommon in Japan) looks and thought you were gorgeous

- Cuz you are, fight me on it😤😡

- He was very surprised when you struck up a conversation with him

- “Why is this pretty girl, who’s probably out of my league talking to me” - his thoughts

- He was quiet all the time except for when you asked for his name since you were in a different class

- When he asked you why weren’t afraid of him since he seems quite intimidating

- His heart flutters and breaks when you tell him you know what it’s like to be judged for your appearance

- He definitely wants to know more but won’t pressure you

- At that moment you he decided he wanted to be your boyfie

- Yall are real cute with each other ngl

- You always have each other’s backs if anyone makes a comment about yall’s appearance

Ojiro Aran:

- idk if yall agree but imo Aran is definitely mixed

- I mean Aran is just the Japanese way of saying Alan so I’m assuming his mom is African-American and his dad is Japanese

- As soon as he sees another mixed student he definitely feels drawn to you and wants to protect you, since he knows how vicious people can be

- You first meet when a student was making fun of your complexion(literally punch that bish if someone says something about your appearance in GENERAL😡😡😤😤😤)

- He steps in and scares them

- From then on you two hang out whenever you can

- After some time you two notice you have a lot in common and started seeing the other in a romantic light

- You gather enough courage to ask him on a date

- And yall are like a power couple now🤧

[imbriums-blog]

hello my angels ! i’m sorry this is so late but i’m sarah & i’m 18 yrs old & live in the hellhole that is ohio so the est timezone ! i’m ur token harry potter nerd & lover of all things musical... anyways u can hear more about 5/10 of my problematic children under the cut ! i’m gonna try to keep it short but i lov to talk so we’ll see ! if you’re willing to plot give this post a big mf like & i’ll come crawlin’ to ur ims !

— ✯ | barbara delaney savenkov ! + pinterest board !

tw: death, murder

laura harrier, cisfemale, she/her — have you met barbara delaney savenkov yet ? the twenty-three year old is known for being both poised and enticing, but also very skeptical and deceiving. born in san francisco, barbie now lives in soho, waiting tables at the fork and assassinating people on the side for some extra cash. + wanted connections !

so barbara was born n raised in san francisco, california to a solidly middle class family. her parents were divorced growing up, although they were friendly & got along well enough to be friends & co-parent barbie. she’d always been quite an idealist like Yes The World Is Good but when she was twenty, her dad had died due to a rogue heart attack that seemingly happened for no reason & it completely shattered barbara.

that’s when a local gang found her, at her ultimate low, & roped her into their business. she stayed w them for two years or so & at some point or another barbara started to realize that she didn’t think this business & way to make money was a good one. eventually, they starting cutting pay & barbara started to feel like she was bein manipulated. working w the gang kind of made her give up her optimism & is what truly formed her into the stone cold but somehow still elegant & captivating barbie she is today ! her idealistic attitude & never-ending optimism died with all of the shady shit that gang made her do.

then barbara was offered a job as an assassin for a powerful man doin some shady shit & she was unable to refuse even tho her first instinct was to turn it down – it offered great money & stability, & with the impression that she’d only be hurting people who deserved it, barbara shakily accepted the deal & left the gang !

she’s not pleased w the fact that she’s murdering ppl for a living, obviously, but she tries to make do with what she has & tells herself that the ppl she’s killing deserve it but !! messy !

personality-wise, barbara comes off as super intimidating at first n like she just doesn’t have feelings… super proper n always sitting upright n stiff as fuck… scares ppl away bc she seems like a robot at first

she's that kid who studies for the test like 3 weeks before it actually happens and has color coordinated highlighting and bullet journals.. she wants to be on top of everything, constantly – she doesn’t like feeling unorganized or like she’s falling apart ? i think it’s partially bc she tends to over perfect areas of her life like that, and like color coordinating her closet and making sure everything is tidy to make up for the Mess that is her secret career ??

one of the most annoying things ever is how perfect she seems on the surface ?? like, she likes everybody n is probably the type of person who rescues stray kittens from trees n sings as little birdies fly down & comb her hair or some shit but anyone close to barbie in real life knows she is a hardcore mess

that friend who’s like “oh my god i look so fat in this picture” n literally everybody groans bc shut the fuck up karen ur perfect

could literally say “fuck off” to somebody n the tone of voice she uses would make them think she was complimenting them

— ✯ | cordelia esther king ! + pinterest board !

alycia debnam-carey, cisfemale, she/her — have you met cordelia esther king yet ? the twenty-two year old is known for being both affable and buoyant, but also very whimsical and corybantic. born in salem, delia now lives in lambeth, working as a wedding planner and forming unrealistic expectations of true love.

so ngl cordelia is very inspired by jane from 27 dresses but w/ some twists so i’m not completely unoriginal

she was born to a pastor for a father in salem aka witch town ! cordelia was raised as kind of a perfect goody goody two shoes u know.. classic girl next door who sleeps w a teddy bear even at twenty-two & her entire room is covered in pink, she spends her spare time baking n blushing over boys smiling at her wtvr... she was always strong-willed & opinionated but shut up out of fear of being made fun of u know, kids these days r mean

so then when cordelia is old enough to leave her parents house ( let’s say like a year ago ) she decides that she’s tired of being the nice girl in the shadows & that she wants to live life more on the edge so she vows to start living life dangerously & being badass... whatever that means

it’s actually kind of funny, because she’ll stroll into a bar & bat her eyelashes at the bartender & single ppl in the room to try & get them to order a drink for her solely bc she doesn’t know the names of any drinks... has no common sense & is too naive for her own good ( what is a handjob... what does “on the rocks” mean ) but the girl’s trying to [ troy bolton vc ] break free so who am i to judge ?

she’s a wedding planner who’s actually in love with the idea of love & has watched the notebook 1 too many times... despite her being wildt nowadays she’s still into the whole “when i meet the one for me my foot will pop when we kiss & i’ll feel fireworks” thing.. it’s cute but also sad but ! cute !

personality-wise... she’s outspoken & friendly & incredibly flirty, but at the same time she probably either assumes you’re flirting w her when you’re really not or has no clue that you’re hitting on her when ur literally kissing her

is totally sandy at the end of grease when she’s like “tell me about it, stud” acting all badass but then doesn’t know what to do w her cigarette butt & looks nervously at her friends like WTF DO I DO

please come corrupt her or fuck her up... or be nice 2 her & teach her how to be a human being

— ✯ | dexter leroy bates ! + pinterest board !

torrance coombs, cismale, he/him — have you met dexter leroy bates yet ? the thirty-one year old is known for being both inventive and idealistic, but also very farouche and indecisive. born in hackney, dex now lives in croydon, editing badly filmed videos and gluing himself to a camera 24/7.

basically a nerdy starving artist based on mark from rent with a lil bit of peter parker in him

a broke ass bitch living in croydon trying his best to make it as a photographer / film maker

he has huge dreams of hollywood but his films r probably kinda bad... but he tries his best n i love him for it

kinda nerdy & word vomit-y... super cute... would die for his friends but also would kill u for insulting one of them

is that nerd that is actually hot n buff n shit but u never notice bc he wears hoodies n hides behind a camera bc i lov stereotyping apparently

i don’t really have his backstory worked out yet tbfh so really ? go wild w connections for my son

— ✯ | davina leigh cordero ! + pinterest board !

lauren jauregui, cisfemale, she/her — have you met davina leigh cordero yet ? the twenty-one year old is known for being both intuitive and diligent, but also very seclusive and obstinate. born in whitby, davina now lives in soho, studying journalism and avoiding as much human interaction as possible.

100% based on rory gilmore bc apparently even tho i’m on season 2 i luv the characters Too Much

basically everything i aspire 2 be in a person... hardworking as fuck, loves school so fricking much, antisocial as hell ! 

davina is deadass brilliant & her idea of wild is staying up past 11 on a school night or waiting to do her homework on saturday instead of friday

sweet, a lil bit awkward, but the cutest ever n i would die for her

would much rather be chillin w her books than anything else tbh & doesn’t know how to hold proper interactions but it’s more charming than anything else

grew up with only her dad mostly, since her mom worked full time & lived out of town for reasons but they both love her a ton. her dad would give her the whole world if he could, & owns a quaint little coffee shop in whitby & is constantly calling davina to check up on her... when she got older her mom moved back in w her dad so since then she’s gotten a lot closer to her but there’s still just such a bond between her dad & her u know

what is romance ? davina doesn’t know

come fuck her up

— ✯ | sawyer maisie pitman ! + pinterest board !

josefine frida pettersen, cisfemale, she/her — have you met sawyer maisie pitman yet ? the twenty year old is known for being both undaunted and driven, but also very apathetic and blunt. born in bristol, sawyer now lives in wandsworth, being a tragically pathetic starving artist & student.

so sawyer was adopted as a baby, unnamed, to two moms who love her more than anything in the world. one’s a publisher & one’s an english professor, & they’re both huge fricking nerds, so she was named after tom sawyer !

as soon as she could walk she was talented with art & everything that had to do with it & not long after entering high school she decided that that’s what she wanted to do & nothing was going to get in the way of it

now, as a student & hopeful artist, sawyer is dead set on getting where she wants to be & has no tolerance for bullshit... like if u ain’t helping her further her career, ur unimportant to her

relationships ? cancelled. romance is a DISTRACTION from her work & only complicates her life !

blunt as fuck & doesn’t sugar coat things. she says things like they are & expects others to do the same bc she has no time for drama or whatnot

stubborn as fuck & nearly impossible to talk to sometimes bc she’s so set in her ways but hey love me a strong woman amirite

sharp-tongued & sarcastic as fuck but can be incredibly kind when the time is right !

[knifenymph]

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aria youre such a dork lol i love u

putting all of these under the cut bc lord have mercy

1. What is you middle name?

jumbotron

2. How old are you?

7 and a half

3. When is your birthday?

jan! 

4. What is your zodiac sign?

capricorn

5. What is your favorite color?

pink! or yellow

8. Where are you from?

georgia! born and raised

10. What shoe size are you?

i range from 6-7 depending on the brand lol but if its adidas,,, then like 4 and a half ngl

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

legit like 3 bc i really don’t care abt shoes in the slightest

13. What talents do you have?

i can fit my whole fist in my mouth.

14. Are you psychic in any way?

LOL……hmm….i don’t know….

15. Favorite song?

IT HURTS UNTIL IT DOESNT BY MOTHERS !!!!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH !!!

18. Do you want children?

if i want to, then ill def adopt! i want to adopt a teen tbh bc teens don’t get adopted ever really 

19. Do you want a church wedding?

i have no idea lol

20. Are you religious?

yep

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

never for myself

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?

nope im not wild

24. Baths or showers?

showers are more ideal

25. What color socks are you wearing?

the left one is purple and the right one is blue

26. Have you ever been famous?

yes i’m famous right now as we speak

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

nope

28. What type of music do you like?

alternative for sure

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

LOL yea when i was like nine

32. How big is your house?

a pretty decent size

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

i don’t like eating breakfast

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

nuh uh

35. Have you ever tried archery?

yep when i was in like girl scouts

36. Favorite clean word?

dove

37. Favorite swear word?

i dont swear

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?

38 hours lol coincidentally

39. Do you have any scars?

yep yep but theyre all from falling or tripping or something like that LOL when i was younger

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

probably

41. Are you a good liar?

no clue

42. Are you a good judge of character?

for sure

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

heck no!!! except for when i speak in french then yea

44. Do you have a strong accent?

at times, i sound really really country and it freaks me out LOL

45. What is your favorite accent?

im not sure tbh

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

like, i really don’t buy expensive clothes at all bc i see it as a waste of money. but my most expensive piece of clothing is probably a dress or something

48. Can you curl your tongue?

yep in 4 diff ways

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

a little bit of both

50. Left or right handed?

righty ftw

51. Are you scared of spiders?

not overtly so but cockroaches and palmetto bugs can suck it i fricken hate those guys

52. Favorite food?

fruit

53. Favorite foreign food?

i haven’t traveled out of the country in a very long time lol idk

55. Most used phrased?

probably “what the heck?”

56. Most used word?

probably “mega”

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

around 20 mins

58. Do you have much of an ego?

its a healthy size lol

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

a little bit of both

60. Do you talk to yourself?

if I’m reading something out loud that is hard to understand then yea

61. Do you sing to yourself?

oh heck yea who doesnt

62. Are you a good singer?

id like to think so lol

63. Biggest Fear?

no idea but i don’t want to find out lol

64. Are you a gossip?

i really try my best not to be

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

wonder woman was so good

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

i used to be able to, idk if i still can!

68. Favorite school subject?

french for sure

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

i have!

71. What makes you nervous?

the idea of ppl twisting my words

72. Are you scared of the dark?

nope

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

usually yea but it depends on the mistake for sure

74. Are you ticklish?

a little bit lol

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

i really prefer to not talk abt ppl so not to my knowledge i don’t think

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

oh yep for sure. i always assume the leader role when i’m in groups for the most part

77. Have you ever drank underage?

yea bc it was a dare and i wanted to look cool in front of my online friends but it could’ve been really bad and in the future, i don’t want to drink ever. plus, it didnt help that it tasted like cold pee

78. Have you ever done drugs?

absolutely not

79. Who was your first real crush?

there was this boy in 6th grade who i really liked named Ethan but he was a douche to me and stood me up which sucked 

80. How many piercings do you have?

my ears are pierced but i might be getting a belly button piercing with my mom in the future LOL

81. Can you roll your Rs?

i sure can 

82. How fast can you type?

somewhere around 70-100 words per min give or take a few. i can’t remember the number i got when i took a test for it

83. How fast can you run?

i can run really fast but i don’t have good endurance bc i don’t exercise

84. What color is your hair?

red! but i plan on dyeing it again

85. What color is your eyes?

brown!

86. What are you allergic to?

nothing to my knowledge

87. Do you keep a journal?

yep

88. What do your parents do?

my mother works for an exhibition company and my dad has his own counseling company 

89. Do you like your age?

i have mixed feelings abt it

90. What makes you angry?

i dont really get angry, more just annoyed but like, when ppl talk behind your back but then try to pretend like they like u to your face. it just,,, really irks me

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

i truly love the name Michael for a boy but i don’t know for a girl

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

preferably a girl i think

96. How did you get your name?

i was actually going to be named jalyn but then my parents saw my name somewhere in a restaurant/store of some sort and just loved it for me

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

no idea but probably. i’m so mixed there honestly is a really good chance

99. Color of your bedspread?

pink comforter, pink loose sheet, yellow stretchy sheet lol