#never really done one of these properly before so like forgive that it was kinda fun even if im conflicted on the ending product

[jubileedeeznuts-posting]

please please please draw hasemura

CHAPTER THREE SPOILERS BTW!!!

i Hope this is okay and isn’t too janky, i wasn’t really gonna post it anywhere except for me and my mate bc,,, yk how it is but i couldn’t think of anything hasemura/hasegawa and kamimura vibing and stuff to draw for this ask since i just did a whole session today drawing this,,, so i hope this is okay =]

[plathfiles]

𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐁𝐈𝐃𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐌𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒 | 𝐅.𝐂

pairing: lord!felix catton x fem!reader

warnings: saltburn au, use of y/n, angst, fluff, social hierarchy bullshit

a/n: lmk if you want a part two, kinda want to make this a series

Lord Felix had never been in love. Not until he saw you, one of his mother’s ladies in waiting. You were a breath of fresh air to him, but if he pursued you he could never truly have you as his equal. You were a lower rank and he was the first born and only son of the Catton family. Also known as the heir to the estate.

Everyone noticed Felix. All of the other ladies always talked about him and how handsome he was. You always thought Felix was handsome but you never really mentioned anything when the other ladies in waiting talked about him.

You knew it was a fantasy. Lord Felix would never notice you. It was silly to even imagine him looking your way.

Elsbeth had taken pity on you as an orphan child and raised you as one of her most devoted servants.

Most of your life had been spent in the servants quarters, while Lord Felix spent his days roaming around the castle or in school to learn to become a man.

One afternoon you found yourself by the lake in the woods. It was your escape from lingering eyes and gossiping servants.

You were swimming in the lake, tall trees, grass and fresh flowers hiding the place from others. Your peace was disturbed when you heard a noise from the bushes.

You jumped and went to find your escape when a tall and broad shouldered man stepped into the cove. You recognized him immediately as Lord Felix. He was dressed down in a flowy white shirt and pants. His hair had grown out since his last time at Saltburn.

“I see here is one of Aphrodite’s children, for a beauty like yours temps me to come into the water,” Felix said with a cheeky grin.

“My lord, you must forgive me for I am not properly clothed,” you said, ignoring the blush on your cheeks.

“Shall I cover my eyes?” He asked. You nodded and Felix moved a hand over his eyes. You escaped from the water and put on your ladies maid covering.

“You may uncover your eyes my lord,” you said meekly. Felix did so and when he saw you his heart skipped a beat.

“Why is a lady like yourself alone in this part of the estate?” Felix asked curiously.

“It’s calm here. I come here to think, my lord,” you replied.

As much as Felix loved the sound of his title on your lips, he laughed under his breath and shook his head. “Please just call me Felix. What is your name?” Felix asked.

“Y/n,” you answered. You shouldn’t be alone with him. You knew it was wrong but something about being with Felix felt so incredibly right.

“I see you Y/n, waiting around and aiding my mother,” Felix says stepping closer to you.

You back away, “that would be because I am just a lady in waiting, my lord,” you curtsied and then walked passed Felix to exit the cove.

“Will I see you again?” Felix asked before you left.

“I’ll be around the castle. But I’m sure the future heir of Saltburn will have better tasks than looking at me,” you said, leaving the cove.

☙☙☙☙

Felix couldn’t get you out of his mind. He has to find some way to woo you. He needed to have you. But it felt more than just a conquest. Felix really wanted to get to know you.

So he slipped a note under your door in the servants quarters.

Y/n — meet me at cove at midnight. I will be waiting

— Felix

You decided to meet him at the cove. There was no harm to be done, except your reputation could be ruined. If anyone found out Lady Elsbeth would cast you away and you would be shunned from society.

But your heart told you to go and that’s exactly what you did. Your long sapphire cape made you invisible in the dark, as you snuck out of the castle that night. You made your way to the cove, the full moon protecting you from above.

At the cove, you saw Felix with a lighted candle in his hands. “You came,” he smiled softly. You nodded, “you summoned me, my lord—Felix,” you corrected yourself.

You sat down on the grass and Felix sat next to you, curiously admiring you. “I have seen you for many years, except you must have changed. I do not remember you being so beautiful since my last stay at the castle,” Felix admitted.

You turned to look at him, eyebrows furrowed. “Your flattery will get you no where. We are not meant to be,” you said.

Felix frowned, “I’m serious in my intentions. I think you the most beautiful woman I have laid my eyes upon.”

You both looked into each others eyes. You couldn’t draw yourself away from his longing gaze. Felix leaned close to your lips. When you didn’t back away he light pressed his lips to yours and kissed you softly.

You returned the kiss, it was sweet like forbidden fruit. That is what you were to each other — forbidden fruit.

Felix’s arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you closer to him. He was intoxicated by you. You fit perfectly in his hands. Your lips connected to his like a perfect puzzle piece.

You disconnected, needing air. Your face was flushed and you had realized what you had done. “This is wrong. I could lose my place at the estate. You should be falling in love with a Lady or a Princess but not me. Not a servant,” you said, standing up.

“But I am falling in love with you,” Felix insisted.

You felt like a disgrace to Elsbeth, she had been so kind to you. “I can’t, Felix. I want to…but I shouldn’t,” you said, heartbroken.

You went to leave the cove, but Felix grabbed your arm gently and pulled you to him. You kissed eachother with passion. This forbidden moment passing through you.

“It can be our little secret then,” Felix offered and you reluctantly agreed. His thumb grazing your bottom lip and a soft smile pulling at your lips.

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OH IM SORRY IM STUPID ASJAJXNXN svt !!

#SVT MTL — humiliation kink!

note. UR NOT ITS OK!! i assumed svt anyway, but i just wanted to make sure ^^ — i kinda formatted this weird so forgive me :p and if this has been done before, im so sorry hssh

—MOST LIKELY TO HAVE A HUMILIATION KINK!

MINGYU - receiving end

he’s so fucking pathetic. call him a slut, make him get on his knees and beg, make him feel small— he absolutely loves it. it makes him so hard when you degrade him and it turns you on so bad because he’s on the verge of tears yet he’s begging for you to be meaner to him <3

WONWOO

i feel like wonwoo loves making you feel humiliated. especially when you’ve been bad. he’ll make you get off on your own while he watches, burning holes into your skin with his lust-ridden eyes. he’ll laugh when you beg for his help and laugh even harder when you cry in response </3

MINGHAO

MENACE. A MOTHERFUCKING MENACE. the type to rile you up on purpose just to see how wet his words alone get you. when he finds that you’ve soaked through your panties— then he embarrasses you for being so easy. he’d be like, “wow, i haven’t even touched you and you’re already about to cum? needy baby.” in the most patronizing voice :/

JOSHUA

SO MEAN. he’s can be so mean to you omfg. he’d be mocking your moans and cries. he’d make you beg for everything and he’d say, “i dunno, it doesn’t really seem like you want it.” reduces you to tears just so he can laugh in your face </3 but he always ends up giving you everything you need, so you can’t be too mad about it

SOONYOUNG - receiving end

i don’t know what it is, but something about this man screams humiliation kink. he loves feeling like a loser. he loves that you make him cum untouched. he loves that you edge him until he’s a pathetic mess in tears. please, please, please humiliate this man.

CHAN

look, i know dom!chan isn’t a popular agenda… but it’s something i wholeheartedly believe in. lee chan is mean. lee chan will make you suck his dick through his boxers, soaking the fabric in drool and spit just to call you his needy little whore. lee chan will make you so desperate to suck him off just so he can make fun of you. lee chan will humiliate you. case closed!

JUNHUI - receiving end

oh my god, please call this man every degrading word in the book. i think he’d love every second of it. you could have your hand wrapped around him, fucking his nth orgasm out of him while telling him how stupid and pathetic he looks and he’d just bust another load like a loser :(

JEONGHAN - BOTH SIDES

a little wild card. you never really know what you’re going to get with jeonghan, but you do know someone is going to end up in tears at the end of the night. his humiliation kink is very lowkey— jeonghan is more of a tease than anything so when he’s humiliating you, it’s more like he’s tamely making fun of you for being so needy for him. when he’s on the receiving end, he’s just taking everything and letting you fuck him stupid.

SEUNGCHEOL

he’s not that into it, but, on rare occasions, he’ll let it all out. say he comes home one day to find you’re desperately humping a pillow or fingering yourself, he’ll make you keep going and make you feel so so embarrassed for not waiting for him. let’s you cum and then ruins your orgasm because he says, “slutty girls don’t get to cum properly.”

SEOKMIN

he’s kinda enjoys it on very rare occasions, but sometimes, poor baby can’t handle it :( he’d rather be reduced to tears because you’ve praised him so much. loves being called a good boy and loves it when you dote on him so much more. he cums harder when you’re nice <3

JIHOON

why would he need to humiliate you? you’re perfect— he loves when you cry for him and beg for him, but he never wants you to feel embarrassed for being a little very needy. he’d only ever do it if you asked, but even then, he’d still be really hesitant about it.

SEUNGKWAN

not him. he’s kinda romantic and more into sweet praise (both giving and receiving), so i don’t think he’d have a humiliation kink.

VERNON

doesn’t really see the point in embarrassing you and doesn’t really like feeling like a clown for wanting to fuck. no seriously, he literally just wants to fuck akmdhshs

—LEAST LIKELY

[muzicgenerator]

pls could u do a tom kaulitz angst? like he’s arguing w reader and mentions something he knows the reader doesn’t like bringing up, and he has to make it up to her, then it can turn into fluff <3

yep here it is!!

hope u like it and sorry for late reply T_T

(BRO OHHH MY GOD THE ORIGINAL STORYLINE DIDNT SAVE 😭😭😭 so i just made a new one which is this one AGHHH SO MAD RN btw i didnt proof read the entire thing)

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Atonement

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Pairing: Tom Kaulitz x Reader

Genre: a bit Angsty, Fluff

Warnings: None

Request Status: closed :(

✩°｡⋆⸜ 🎧✮ Last Night on Earth : Green Day

Playful bantering was one of the things you and Tom would do everyday in your relationship.

Sure, serious arguments would rise up which a simple kiss and genuine apology would quickly fix.

However those two won't do it right now.

"The hell do you mean I have trust issues?!"

"What?! It's true! Your ex cheated on you so you're scared to trust me; It's not like I'm gonna do what that guy did!"

Definitely, Tom shouldn't have brought your ex up who has no relation to this quarrel.

He knew how much of a prick he was to you and how he treated you; he even witnessed how devastated you were when you once came to him to seek comfort when you found out for the second time he had been cheating.

And he knew damn well you never wanna hear about the jerk ever again.

However, you did appreciate him admitting he wouldn't repeat the history you had with your past lover.

"The fuck, Tom? That bitch has no connection whatsoever about what we're fighting about right now.

And I saw the way you looked at her! It's like, if I didn't interrupt you both would've shared spits by then." enraged by what he said; you raised your voice to match his volume - which was unlike you since you're the composed one out of you two during serious arguments.

"Sorry but he kinda does! This issue you're having surely started with him. I remember the way you wasted your snot and tears on him and I dried it off.

And please stop being overdramatic, she's just a fan and I wanted to make sure she's happy. Not only with her; I mean with everyone of them!"

Tom tried hard to defend himself instead of admitting his wrongdoing.

"You are such an ass for bringing that shit up again when you know damn well your ass had issues too that I helped you get over with and all I've ever done was try my greatest to understand and care for you!

All I ever wanted was for you to stop looking at other people and look at me.. Am I asking for too much?" your voice whispered in offence and slightly croaked which made you resent yourself more.

Tom realized with wide eyes of what he had done,

"No, no of course not ____. No, look- I'm really sorry for what I said, I really am and-"

"Just shut the hell up, Tom. Save it, I don't wanna hear it right now." you harshly brushed past him to storm off to your apartment's bedroom in fear of hot tears falling down to your cheeks.

He sighed; ashamed in himself. Tom truly regrets letting those harsh and unnecessary words slip his blunt mouth. He knew he was better than this - definitely, he should control his mouth more and think about what he should say carefully during times like this.

The night spent alone in the bed you'd always share with Tom felt cruel.

Not for the reason he's not by your side; it's rather the fact that you're in bed without properly making up with him since you'd always forgive one another the same day.

A big part of you wanted to forgive him - believe that he truly didn't mean what he told you and only accidentally slipped because of the heat in the moment; that we all say things we don't mean when we're mad, and that he really wouldn't stab you on the back with a woman like your past lover did.

The smaller part of you scolded for being such an idiot; for believing a man would stay loyal - that you should call it off before he could do any further damage.

Honestly, you felt devastated just thinking about not being with him; so you eventually came into terms with yourself that the fire will settle down and you'll forgive him and he'll do better.

Don't know when it'll die down but it will. Hopefully soon.

Some relationships are worth fighting for, like you have with Tom.

Hence you will stay strong and prepare for many wars.

But tonight; you wanted and allowed yourself to fall asleep being upset and disappointed at Tom.

You'll let tomorrow do its thing.

✮✮✮

It was the next day and the back of your head was pounding alongside a stiff neck.

You sat up and glanced at the digital clock placed on your night table that read 11:37 AM.

After stretching your limbs out while reminiscing the night before; you decided it's time to wash your face and start making lunch for yourself.

When you turned the knob and pushed it open; you were greeted with the aroma of your favourite dish; one that was always served to you as a child when you still lived with your family - one that you shared its recipe and process with your lover.

"Tom?" you asked in disbelief. You were certain he had left since your ears picked up the sound of the front door being pushed open then close in the middle of the night.

Certainty assured your mind that you'd rather not see his face first thing in the morning after such a night. Boy, were you wrong.

Your lover turned his head quickly; unaware of your presence since he's so caught up finishing, as well as perfecting the dish.

"Oh- love, you're awake. I um.. made breakfast but you didn't get up and it's uh, it's almost time for lunch so I thought I'd make your favourite." he stumbled over his words; which is bizarre.

"The pancakes are on the table, you can eat them later as a snack."

You nodded your head with a tight lipped smile and mumbled a thanks before heading to the bathroom.

Once the door had shut; you quickly drowned your face with water to remove the image of Tom cooking without a shirt on.

It's not like it's the first time you've seen him like that; but the way you're reacting right now is how you feel when you catch him in these types of situations - preferably without the post-fight shit going.

After peeing, washing your hands, brushing your teeth washing and drying your face, and doing your skin care - you forced yourself to go back outside for you cannot stay in the bathroom forever.

When you opened and closed the baby blue painted door; your eyes wandered off to the table and drooled at the sight of the newly cooked meal.

Tom patted the seat beside him with a smile; gesturing you to sit beside him.

You had no choice but to join him for lunch; after all, you are starving.

Instead of giving in to his request, you sat in front of him.

Instead of painting a frown on his lips; he still kept his genuinely proud smile (from cooking such a delicious dish) and handed you your plate and utensils - to which you accepted.

"Let's eat?" Tom asked.

"I don't wanna eat without talking about last night." you said with a straight face.

The man in front of you softly breathed a sigh,

"You're right." he agreed with a nod

"I'll start by saying I'm really sorry, and I didn't mean what I said. I just want you to know I would never even dare to think about betraying you like that, and I was an ass for what I did." Tom seemed to look everywhere but your eyes.

He couldn't bring himself to look at your mesmerizing hues for he was certain his shredded heart would be turned into dust.

"I don't even know why I said those things, I- I know this sounds like bullshit but I swear I really don't mean those things and you're the only person who I have my eyes on.

Please give me another chance I- I'll be better now, promise!" he trailed off and fearfully continued;

"But y'know if uh.. if you don't and wanna call it o-"

"Shut up Tom we're not breaking up." you sighed

"I know you said those to defend what you did, and it slipped out because of the heat of the moment. We all say shit we don't mean when mad, I understand. But what I don't understand is why you'd caress her cheek and look into her eyes like that?" your eyes examined his facial expressions and only saw genuine regret on his face. You hoped he'd look at your eyes and tell you directly why.

Hence, before his ready mouth started to explain; you tell him, "Tom, look into my eyes, please."

You caught the way the ball of his throat bopped up and down; swallowing his saliva. His eyes slowly trailed up from the table to your chest, neck, chin, nose, then eyes.

"She said she'd been a fan since the very beginning of the band's debut. She loved all us a lot, especially me. I asked her if meeting us was a dream come true, she said yeah, and we talked a bit more. Then she asked me to touch her face because she really couldn't believe that it was all happening, which I did."

Tom would look away from the two windows of your soul for a second before meeting again.

He was replied with silence; which kind of scared him.

"____? Please say something."

"For God's sake Tom, why didn't you just start with that last night when I brought it up?"

Tom rapidly blinked once, twice, thrice, then for the fourth time. "... I must've forgot to bring it up because I was so caught up in the moment."

You laughed; a true one, "You mean too focused into bringing my ex up?"

He was speechless by how just a second ago you were dead ass serious, and now crying laughing at what you said.

"Sorry, I'm done laughing now." you giggled before continuing, "Fine, I'll forgive you if you tell me where you went last night."

"I went back to my apartment and did some thinking how to make it up to you and slept there. I went out really early to buy groceries so i can cook your favourite food here."

It was your turn to be speechless.

"...You seriously did that?" you asked with doubt in your voice.

"Yeah, I mean the proof is on the table." Tom chuckled.

You said nothing and finally dug into the 5 star looking meal, soon your lover did as well.

"Sooo, are we good?" Tom hopefully asked after sipping his water from the cylinder glass.

"I guess so." you blessed him with a small smile to which he returned with a big one.

Conversation flowed naturally between you as you ate the savoury food.

If Tom didn't make it as a famous guitarist, he'd definitely be a winner in Hell's Kitchen.

After Tom cleaned put the dishes to the sink; you insisted to wash it since he cooked. He declined numerous times but it wasn't going anywhere since you're more stubborn than him.

"All right, fine. Only if you let me hug you from behind." Tom made a deal.

"Pshh, why're you asking as if you don't do that whenever I do shit in the kitchen?"

Tom rolled his eyes with a smirk drawn on his lips as a reply and proceeded to snake his large hands to your waist; then pressing his chest to your back and resting his chin on the crown of your head.

Nothing could be heard other than the clanking of pans, plates, and utensils, along with the flow of the running water from the faucet.

The comfortable verbal silence and physical contact was very much needed after a fight.

After drying your hands with a cloth; you walked towards the couch and sat with your boyfriend still embracing you from behind.

"What do you wanna watch?" you turned your head to the side to look up at his face.

"Whatever you want, I'm fine with anything." Tom looked down to your eyes, then lips.

Slowly, he leaned his fave closer to yours so he could taste your lips.

Once contact had been made; you couldn't help but melt even more to his touch and wrap your arms around his neck - and he couldn't help but deepen the kiss and caress your waist and back.

Soon enough, the passionate kiss had come to an end to catch their breaths.

"I love you so much. You know that, right?" Tom stared into her hues as the tip of their noses touched.

You slowly nodded and brought your hands up to his hollow cheeks, "I love you more." you said before pulling his face closer to kiss each other's lips once again.

Tom mumbled in-between the kisses, "I love you the most, sweetheart." before deepening it. His tongue soon entered your mouth and both your hands rubbed and caressed your bodies.

The hot post-fight make out session would last as long as half the length of the movie you played in the middle of the session; playing Atonement for the millionth time from your entire life.

After pulling your mouths away due to your jaws hurting; you slept and cuddled like babies.

Feeling the safest in each other's arms.

[marner2tavares]

cardigan series: begin again❣️

cardigan masterlist

The game was amazing. You forgot how much you missed watching hockey. You avoided it like the plague since… well, you know. The Devils wiped the floor with the Sabres and you got to see Luke score a goal in the NHL. Not his first, but the first you saw in person. You were so proud. He invited you down to the family room after the game but you didnt go. What if Jack didn’t want to see you? What if he just ignored you? Your heart couldn’t take that. You figured going to the game was a big enough step for the night until your phone lit up as you stood outside the arena with a text from Luke. You let out a sigh as you read it. 

Come to the bar with us tonight I’d really like to see you

You can just imagine the look on Luke’s face if you don’t go, the look of him waiting around all night, looking for you every time the door opened. Against your better judgment you agree, and tell him you’ll meet him there. 

You take the Uber back to your apartment to freshen up a bit and wait for them to get done with all the press. You really didn’t want to get there before Jack. Or maybe, you pondered, it might be better to get there before him, you'd still have time to leave. But, if you got there before him, he could see you and turn right around and walk out. And that made your head spin in the worst way. 

You decide to wait until 11:00 before leaving, hoping they’d be well into their night and already a little tipsy. 

Pulling up at the bar Luke said they’d be at, you thanked your driver, but stayed put. You couldn’t go in there. What were you doing? You have talked to Jack, let alone seen him in the past 4 years. You missed everything you once wanted to be there for. His first NHL game. His first NHL goal. Every milestone you promised yourself and him you’d be there for. How could he ever forgive you with the way you left him?

“Excuse me, the ride is over.” He said, pulling you out of your anxious spiral. You blinked a few times and then forced a smile. 

“Right, sorry.” You said as you opened the door and exited the car. 

The building looked fun and lively. People in the windows at booths drinking and talking, smiling. You weren’t sure how much smiling there was gonna be tonight. As you took a breath, you decided this was a bad idea. You started walking down the street a bit, then back, then away, then back again. 

Turning away for the final time, you settled on a bar down the street. As you walked in and took a seat at the far end of the bar you pulled your phone out to text Luke. 

I’m sorry, Luke. I can’t do it.

A few minutes later, Luke texted you back. 

Where are you?

You texted him back the name of the bar but told him not to come. You didn't want to ruin his night more than you already had. 

“What can I get you tonight?” The bartender asked. You hadn’t even noticed she came over. 

You ordered a drink and fell back into your head. Spiraling on thoughts of being pathetic, drinking away the thoughts of reconnecting with your first love, how stupid you were to even go to the game, how you thought Jack was the one, how stupid you were to let him go, how if things were different you’d-

“Excuse me, can I buy you a drink?” You snapped out of your thoughts immediately. Normally, you’d say no and ignore them, but you could never ignore that voice. 

You turned over your shoulder to see Jack standing there with a smile on his face. You didn’t answer, too shocked to talk. Four years of your daydreams led up to this moment right now. Jack let out a small laugh before asking. 

“Can I sit?” You huffed out a laugh as you nodded 

“Luke gave me up?” You asked. Jack let out a laugh. A real one. The one you remember. 

“Yeah, kinda.” Jack ordered himself a drink and saw yours was empty. “What are you drinking nowadays?” 

“Just a vodka cran.” Jack laughed again. 

“An old favorite of yours.” You laughed and smiled, looking over at him, properly, for the first time in years. 

“I can’t believe you remember that.” Jack gave a smile and a small shrug.

“Of course I do.” He said it so sure. It made you think for a second, maybe he missed you as much as you missed him. The two of you talked for a bit, and it was going well, but the thoughts from before crept back into your head. 

“What’s wrong?” Jack asked. You dropped your head before replying quietly. 

“I don’t know why you’re even talking to me right now.” Jack tilted his head to the side. 

“What do you mean?” You picked your head up. 

“Like I don’t get why you came tonight.” Jack shrugged. 

“Because I wanted to.” You sighed. 

“But why? Jack, I-” 

“Tore my heart into a million little pieces? I know.” He laughed, which made you laugh. He thought for a second before he spoke again. “You know, it’s probably better that you did.” 

“What?” You looked at him in shock.

“When I got to Jersey, I was an idiot. I would have fucked up, and lost you and we wouldn’t be here, having this conversation right now. You’d just be gone forever.” You paused for a moment. 

“You really think that, Jack?”

“I do.” You replied in a heartbeat. You smiled at him and he smiled right back. There was a moment of quiet. 

“You know, I saw your graduation pictures.” He smiled. “You looked amazing. I was really proud of you.” You smiled and looked back at him. 

“I watch your games sometimes.” Jack’s face lit up.

“Oh yeah?” He questioned. 

“Yeah I do.” 

“How much?” He had a cocky smile on his face that you both missed so much and wanted to wipe right off his face. 

“Just when they’re on. I usually don't finish them.” You said quieter than the first sentence. 

“Get bored?” You scoffed without meaning to. 

“I never got bored watching your games, Jack.” You took a pause, unsure if you should say the next words. “It just hurt seeing you.” Jack took a breath.

“It hurt seeing you too.” Now it was your turn to take a deep breath. You felt tears sting your eyes. 

“I never meant to hurt you.” You said just above a whisper. 

“I know.” A tear fell down your face. 

“I was just young and-”

“I know” Jack wrapped an arm around you and pulled you into a hug. 

Once you calmed down, you started talking. About everything. Every little memory you had together. The good, the bad, the funny, the sad. All of it. Eventually the bartender came over and said the bar was closing. You slipped your jacket back on and Jack called you an Uber. Not wanting to overstep by offering you a ride. The two of you stood outside the bar and looked at each other. 

“I really missed you, Jack.” He smiled.

“I missed you too.”

It was a quiet moment on the sidewalk at 2 am. Just soaking in the little time you had left together for the night. He gave you his new number and eventually your car came. Jack opened the door for you and you got in. 

“Text me when you get home safe, okay?” Jack asked. 

“Yeah of course.” You smiled at him again as he smiled back and shut the car door. You looked at the new contact in your phone and smiled. Who would have ever known, in a tiny little hole-in-the-wall bar, you watch you and Jack begin again. 

[13eyond13]

hello — do you have any death note fic recs that occur in the canon universe? they don’t necessarily need to be canon compliant, and i’d specifically prefer gen or lawlight. thank you so much :) your blog’s really fun to scroll through whilst putting off doing assignments

Aw, thank you anon! I quite like scrolling through my own blog too lol

And you got it, pal. I'd say it's about time I dust off my rusty fic recommending skills (I haven't been reading fanfiction regularly since probably about 2018, so these recs are not going to be the newest of the new, jsyk)...

Also, I'm ASSUMING this is the same anon who asked recently for fics a bit similar to

(X) Nights - youremyqueen [E, 400k+ words] L imprisons Light and then Light imprisons L and then L imprisons Light again. Sometimes they have sex, too.

? If not please forgive me, because I also used that as a guide when picking out these recs.

Also most of these recs are explicit and many of them are dark, so please check the tags and content warnings on the fics before reading them, just in case there's anything listed there that might be a dealbreaker for you! Should go without saying, but it's entirely on YOU if you end up reading something you're not comfortable with linked here, dear reader(s)...

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CANON UNIVERSE + LAWLIGHT FIC RECS

SOME YOTSUBA ARC PWP ONE-SHOTS:

(X) Slap Fight - Shipaholic [E, 2k words] L makes a request. It gets out of hand. -(the girls are fiiiiighting...) (X) Love is an Open Door in My Ass - Shipaholic [E, 4k words] Matsuda gets very excited about an email forward. The task force despairs. -(technically meant to be taking place in the dramaverse, but you can easily imagine it as the anime/manga characters too. Rough sex but done with a lighter/softer tone) (X) Losing - Twyd [E, 2k words] L knows what losing feels like. -(depression!L is having a bit of a bad time... this writer makes L so quiet and sad and cute, and even though that's not often my cup of tea I still love everything they write) (X) Tresemme - Twyd [M, 2k words] L x Light slash. Set when they are handcuffed. Light just wishes L would dry his hair properly. He takes matters into his own hands. -(understated bittersweet fluff-smut) (X) Brilliant Bodies Disintegrate - Tartpants [E, 5k words] "L gives Light flesh made fact. L is the wayward flock for him to tend -- he’s Lucifer, the dawn-bringer, delivering light back to Light. Put bluntly, L’s the one who keeps shit interesting." -(L keeps being a big ho and making Light jealous on purpose to goad him into some rough sex-having, basically? Good if you liked that aspect of Nights...) (X)Trash Note - Tartpants [E, 3k words] "The character whose name is written in this note shall obey the writer’s every trash whim, no matter how out-of-character, preposterous, unsavory, carnal, humiliating, or cracktastic." -(if you ever want some goofy handcuffs smut that isn't taking itself too seriously at some point...)

SOME LONGER CANON UNIVERSE + LAWLIGHT FICS:

(X) Coexistence is Boredom - Sakurazukamori6 [M, 232k words] A new deathnote. A new plan for world sanctity. And an entirely misled Catholic clergy. Raito and L take their respective places on the sides of their own justice. A final battle waged in the Garden of Eden. -(This was my very fave Lawlight fic back in the 2000s, and a lot of it still holds up for me now and has a very special place in my heart even though it never actually got finished. I just love how L and Light and all the other characters are written in it, and appreciate that it can be angsty and suspenseful while still being funny and kinda lighter in tone for a canon universe Lawlight fic - it frequently makes me lol when I'm reading it. From what I remember it was the first fic that convinced me they'd potentially make a good couple beyond just unresolved sexual tension, too) (X) The Lies of Light Yagami - Kildeer [E, 38k words] “You’re pretty good Light, but I don’t see how you could hurt someone more with love than with death.” It was Light’s turn to smile as he leaned back in his chair. “Well then Ryuk, prepare yourself for a good show.” -(a bunch of missing scenes from the canon storyline, mostly smut. Very angsty and well done) (X) A Tithe to Hell - Aja [E, 34k words] Light has thirteen days to find out how it will feel--not just to kill, but to destroy. -(considered a fandom classic. I remember finding it intense and well-written, and that it also has a few interesting twists and turns) (X) Between the Black and White - Serria [M, 103k words] When L captures Light, he finds himself unwilling to relinquish his kindred spirit to the police, and instead has other plans to make Kira atone for his crimes. But the saga of Shinigami, genius intellect and old memories - BB - has only just begun. -(I haven't read it since it was new, and I don't think it ever got finished, but I remember this one being my fave of Serria's fics back in the day when I was a very fussy reader and only wanted to read fics set in the canon universe. Serria wrote a lot of great early Lawlight fics, and was my first friend in the fandom back in 2008 as well!) (X) A Cure for Love - halfpromise [M, 230k words] Light and L fall in love during the Yotsuba arc and Light's master plan is derailed when an assassin steals the Death Note. The threat of Kira is dwarfed when Kira's powers seem to have fallen into the hands of a terrorist organization known as Astraea and Light and L are united to find the culprit, but for how long... -(you've heard of the legendary Hinterland Doctrine fic series, now get ready for what I believe is halfpromise's very first fic? I don't think I actually read this whole thing so I don't know if it's finished, but I remember finding it fun to read her take on the canon characters too, and that what I did read had a pretty interesting plot and at times was quite funny as well)

[clownsalot]

uhm i come bearing milgram ocs can i come play in the sandbox with you guys 👉👈

anyways here are my silly guys!!

(im kinda too lazy to come up with my own entire prisoner roster and Es, so i basically just plopped my guys straight into canon. also, im only throwing in stuff from trial 1 because i havent really thought out trial 2 yet beyond vague ideas)

details and stuff below the cut!!!

introduction

015

t1 songs of the prisoners

No, I'm too scared to—!

t1 voice trailer

Ah, my name is Takahashi Naoto. Just Naoto is fine. I'm 18, in my graduating year of highschool. Nice to meet you, Warden. I think asking me about how I feel will just sway your decision making. It's straightforward, so let's keep it simple. Just take the facts. —"—"- What the hell...what the hell? I didn't think it would...it wasn't supposed to...

016

t1 songs of the prisoners

This is...payback!

t1 voice trailer

Yo~ I'm Hashimoto Akane. I'm 15 years old, 3rd year middle school. That makes us a similar age, doesn't it? Let's get along! Well, I will admit that what I did definitely made some people very upset. You'll be deciding if I should be punished on their behalf, right? —"—"- You deserve this. You deserve this! You're the one who chose to go that far...!

interrogation questions

Q: Family?

015: Both my parents. An older brother, too. I don't talk to them often since I stopped living with them.

016: Myself, my mom and dad, and my younger sister. She's 14, I love her very much!!

Q: Who was your victim to you?

015: A schoolmate. Her name was Asuka. You could say we were friends.

016: She wasn't anyone important to me or anything, so don't get weird ideas. I only knew about her because of my sister.

Q: How is your experience in Milgram?

015: It's not all bad. I've never had this much free time before.

016: It's alright but I still kinda want to go home. I worry about how my sister is doing...

Q: What do you dislike?

015: Just in general? Well, it doesn't matter i guess. I don't like things that are bothersome.

016: People who mistreat others for no reason. They're terrible. Terrible!

Q: Are there things you regret?

015: I try not to think about them. Regrets don't erase your mistakes, so what's the point?

016: I did everything believing it was the right choice at the time. But I wish I'd done more sooner. It would have saved my sister a lot of suffering and I might not even be here if I had.

Q: Do you have apologetic feelings for your victim?

015: You're the one responsible for judging if I should, aren't you?

016: Who knows. But I don't regret what I did.

Q: Any prisoners you're close with?

015: I'm on good terms with everyone. Though, I like talking with Kayano. He's a bit like an older sibling.

016: I like taking care of Amane and always try to look after her, we're the youngest in the prison after all. But I don't know if she likes it...

Q: Which prisoner would you say is most like you?

015: Mr Mukuhara. There's just something about him, like if he looks at me too long he'll know what I did. That he'll know that I broke a promise too.

016: Not that sure actually...maybe Kotoko?No...Kajiyama? I don't know. But Kajiyama's actually kinda nice when you get down to it, isn't that surprising? He looks out for Haruka, like I try to do for Amane.

Q: Is there a verdict you hope for?

015: That would defeat the point. I want to be judged properly by an outside perspective. Whatever you decide must be correct, right?

016: I'd like to be forgiven, since I think I did the right thing. But I know what I did also hurt others, so I understand if you choose not to forgive me.

bonus notes!!

i was thinking that the trial results would go something like:

for naoto (015) it'd be t1 guilty t2 innocent, something like fuuta. because his mv and song would be super vague and the prevalent theory would paint him in a terrible light, kinda like shidou except without the pretty privilege, and like fuuta whether he feels bad or not is hard to tell, so he gets guiltied. then somehow his trial 2 would garner him a crap ton of sympathy again like fuuta and his vote would turn around

for akane (016) it'd be t1 innocent t2 guilty, kinda like a reverse of naoto. she might be like muu or kotoko where the trial 1 paints her as super sympathetic/heroic, leading you to root for her, but in trial 2 she gets painted in a more negative light so she gets guiltied then

funny side note is that in terms of character parallels by complete accident i accidentally gave naoto like a wild number of paralles to kazui?? like i reached the 'which prisoner would you say is most like you' question, looked at it and suddenly realized, hey isn't this guy just like kazui??? it's that 'i personally relate to kazui a staggering amount' swag ig

akane's parallels were a lot harder to think of because she paralleled a lot of characters in different ways, so the way i ended up writing her response was deliberate and it's great fun to me lol.

i actually couldn't decide if akane would like fuuta or hate his guts, so i didn't include a 'who do you get along with?' question here since i didn't know how to answer it

for their names i ended up going down the 100 most common japanese surnames list on wikipedia and choosing ones that i thought fit, then put them in combination with their given names. i think what i came up with is a little morbidly funny in relation to their crimes that i still think i was kinda clever for, but i didn't write anything about their actual crimes beyond the vague hints in the interro questions, and i havent included the actual characters for their names. idk is that interesting to you guys

so anyways i was wondering if it'd be better if i elaborated on the crimes and wrote them out as it happened in another post or..? idk what do you guys think? should i continue to just be super vague about them

i did also come up with these guys with a prisoner pair theme in mind and it's supposed to be something like 'how much of yourself would you give for your loved ones' but im a little afraid that might be too similar to shidou and mahiru's theme about love? even though their crimes are vastly different i think

anyways that's it, have a nice day!! if you were interested enough to read all the way to here thank you so much <3

[lovediives]

secret, mistake and midnight for…erm…lets see…skims thru…yes…all of them 😊

haii oomfiee thank you for feeding into my craziness like usual ehehe

secret: What's one secret your OC never wants anyone to know about them?

sloth; the fact that she has her friends soul trapped in the doll. no one can know the true meaning of the doll. thats why she carries it around. shes afraid someone will hear the doll one day. hear her friend talking back to them so she has to make sure no one is alone with her. theyre together forever even if its not what she wants.

envy; :/ her shrine. her shrine is really fucked up in a sense of the fact shes been following this idol around as a "fan" taking pictures when in reality she was capturing different angles so she can get a better image of what her face looks like so she could replicate it. its kinda insane. she hates herself for it. but she thinks its what needed to be done.

pride; if anyone finds out he sometimes cries himself to sleep. they might unironically go missing. no one will ever know that.

greed; he's a mommas boy. he misses his mother from the bottom of his heart but he cant get her involved in his lifestyle. he knows that if anyone finds out who she is. they can link back everything to him. plus his mom wouldnt be proud of him. shes still convinced her precious baby is a lawyer whos gonna get married one day.

mistake: What's the worst mistake your OC ever made? What led to them making it? Have they been able to fix it? How have they moved on?

sloth; girl falling asleep one the day she promised to show up to the hospital to visit her friend. she PROMISED IT WEEKS IN ADVANCE after putting it off for so long just because she didnt want to see the state her friend was in. it haunts her every night because the reason she took a nap was because she was up all night watching TV. no she cant fix it, its too late to fix it, and HELLL NOOO SHES NEVER MOVED ON!!

envy; changing her face/her deal with the devil. she HATES that she did that. she HATES looking in the mirror when that woman exists and she has that life that envy can never have still until SHES GONE. she cant fix it but she "can" the second she can kill her... it will be over and she can take that life and live it instead of the horrible excuse of a life she has now...

pride; lemme scratch my ass. he doesnt THINK anything he does is a mistake. its intentional. he can NEVER do anything wrong according to him. but if i had to say off the top of my head. taking over the company when he has no expertise. hes lowkey getting told what to do to properly run it by the devil while he takes the full credit. he doesnt realize the hell hes in when it all comes crashing down. but everyone just thinks hes so smart so he doesn't' care. 💗

greed; HIS WIFE. he could have had a WIFE but he gambled that away. if anything he would have had MORE money to gamble if he wasnt such a greedy bastard and lied to her and exploited the money she was giving him. if he ran into the negatives, she'd bail him out. if he didnt lie to her and she didnt find out how much of a sleazy dirt bag he was because of it. he would have still been a lawyer lol. he only fixed it by giving up on the law and doing what would make him cash fast. he thought about having her killed before but he has no way to do it scott-free.

midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

sloth; buddy. what doesnt keep her up at night? replaying the funeral, replaying showing up late at the hospital to see her dead friend. everything keeps her up. her guilt, the pain, the regret, even her deal. the doll is her only "peace" and even that torments her so much. she talk to her friend then. apologizing for not showing up. apologizing for locking her in the doll just so she can say sorry until her friend forgives her. she knows she cant sleep because of her own mistakes. but she cant stop herself from blaming her friends death on herself.

envy + pride; theyre part of "i drank too much coffee so fuck now im up all night" by themselves, they just do whatever they focus on. envy ends up doing more search on her idol... or sometimes she looks up the latest fashion to maybe one day find an outfit that will make everyone find her super hot and attractive. pride likes to look at pictures of cats and watch dog videos. TOGETHER oh my god. its so annoying. its just pride annoying envy all night like "hey you up ;)" and she responds with a "no" and the two of them end up "bickering" because pride wont leave her alone and envy is trying to do work since he OBVIOUS has nothing for for him!!

greed; answered!

[icejinlov3r]

Ideas for “Final” Fanfic

(warning this post is a lot longer than I anticipated 😅)

I mentioned it before, but I plan on taking a long hiatus on fanfic writing in 2025 so I can focus on writing/publishing an original book (maybe even a few). And there are several ideas I’m playing around with in my head for my “final” fic (that’s not to say I’ll stop writing fanfiction forever, but definitely not a full length one for a long while). I have several ideas that I’ve come up with at this point, and can’t seem to make up my mind. I wouldn’t even start this though until Little Tykes is done. I guess I’m just planning ahead.

But anyway, I thought I may as well share my ideas and hear your thoughts:

“Partners in Crime” - A mafia AU fic where Frieza takes over his father’s old gang, and hires some new members of his own (Frost, Cell, and Zamasu). For awhile, this was the one I was leaning towards the most, and still kinda am.

It’d would be more like “Dungeons and Dragon Balls” in that it’d be more comedic, have silly adventures, but also mixed with deep rooted drama. Although since it is “mafia” it’d probably also be a bit more adult rated - gun violence, drugs, swearing, sex scenes (though not explicit). The only reason I’m hesitating to do this one is because I imagine to do a properly flushed out story, it’d be pretty long - like as long as “Dungeons and Dragon Balls”. And considering how often burnout likes to hit me lately (especially with my job getting more busy) I’m not entirely confident I’d have the motivation for something that long - but hey who knows. I might still be willing to try.

“Taboo Feelings” Rewrite - I mentioned awhile ago I would rewrite this one and just never got to it. But I still could, and even have an outline prepared.

It’d be very different from what I did before -story wise, Frost would be an Angel that accidentally causes an incident with Satan (King Cold) and his son, Frieza. However, Frieza is willing to forgive him if he spends a year in hell with him as his servant. Over time, they’d unintentionally form a taboo relationship.

This time around, the focus would be far more on romance and drama rather than adventure (because that’s just simpler to me). And it’d mainly be a Frieza/Frost fic, with some light Cell/Zamasu on the side. Warning wise, there would be much more sexual content (including explicit sex scenes), drugs, language, and probably light violence. If I had to guess the length, somewhere around 30 chapters, which is easier to manage. I think it could be a fun supernatural story to bring to life.

“Unnamed College AU” - this would be a direct sequel to “Little Tykes” where the main four (Frieza, Frost, Cell, Zamasu) would go to college together.

This would be a lot less fluffier than the first story for several reasons. It’d have far more drama and also romance, since these young adults would be learning new things about themselves. But there’d definitely still be comedy too. The chapters would be more episodic, but still connecting. Warnings would include light violence, swearing, drinking, drug use, and sexual content (because come on, this is college). Lengthwise, this would probably be somewhere around 30 chapters too.

“Unnamed Slice of Life AU” - Basically the two couples Frieza/Frost and Cell/Zamasu living in the “normal” world. Just going through their lives and participating in their daily jobs, facing occasional issues, and raising their new families.

This is probably my “fluffiest” idea, where these guys just kinda enjoy their lives through our world. It’d be kinda like a rewrite for “The Emperor’s New Reign” but in a different setting - which means Kuriza and Glacia would return, and I’d also introduce Cell Junior as Zamasu’s and Cell’s adopted child. Since this would be a very episodic fic, I’d pretty much just keep writing ideas until I run out of them, so there’s no telling how long it’d be. The only warnings to really worry bout would be swearing and sexual content.

“The Adventure Continues” Dungeons and Dragon Balls Sequel - This would be a continuation of my fav fanfic, where the group continues to go on several more adventures in their world.

This was a brilliant idea a friend brought up to me awhile ago. There wouldn’t be exactly a specific plot, just episodic chapters of the group’s challenges and life. There wouldn’t be quite as many fight scenes, but plenty of adventure, romance, drama, and comedy. Warnings would pretty much be the same as the first story, with light violence, swearing, and sexual content (though nothing explicit). Again, as an episodic fic, I have no idea how long it’d be, only that I’d keep writing till I ran out of ideas.

“The Prince and The Fugitive” - A different AU where Frost would be the emperor of his empire, and Frieza would be the wanted criminal. When Frost captures Frieza for stowing away on his ship, he makes a deal that the fugitive exchange his freedom for helping him create an heir for his empire.

Another Frieza/Frost focused idea. If I don’t make a full fic of it, it might become a two part oneshot. But anyway, once again it’d focus more on romance and drama. And while their positions will be switched, Frieza and Frost would still have their respective personalities (mostly). The only real warnings would be swearing and one or two explicit sex scenes. This fic would also be much shorter, like maybe 10 chapters.

“You’re My Antidote” - Taking place in Renaissance times, Frost is selected to assassinate Prince Frieza. So he goes undercover as his new servant to get his chance - though developing feelings make the task more difficult.

Another Frieza/Frost idea more focused on romance and drama. Though it would be a bit darker than some of my other stories, mostly cause of how harsh I plan to write King Cold (you’ll fucking hate him). There would also be Cell/Zamasu on the side. Warnings would include physical abuse (not sexual), swearing, light violence, and sexual content. Lengthwise, somewhere between 15-20 chapters probably.

Okay, I think those are all the ideas I had in mind. Obviously, several of these might not become full fics (at least not now). If not, I’d either rewrite them as oneshots or come back to them if/when I come back to writing fanfic. What’re your guy’s thoughts? Should I set up some sort of vote for you to decide? Let me know.

[chxna-cheeseycake]

Was bored and kind of had a neat little MCD idea where Gene and Dante swap roles but only kinda?? It's weird but I'll try to explain it I guess lol. Also will probably be a long one again cuz I have many thoughts and need to put them somewhere lmao.

So at first,nothing with Gene and Dante's whole backstory changes, Gene is still a scheming dubious hoe that Dante still looks up to anyway. But things change regarding the issue with the lord's daughter. Idk what to do exactly but I was thinking that either Gene doesn't come up with this idea at all or he does think about it but ultimately never goes through with it. Either way, one of those things happen so in the end Gene never messes with anyone's memories and life is still the same as always... or is it?

While taking a break of sorts from his duties, Gene spends some time with Dante and they probably have like a picnic or something idk. Anyways, they end up getting attacked by bandits and unfortunately said bandits snatch up Dante and use him as a ransom of sorts against Gene. The bandits basically demand that Gene steal a huge amount of gold from the lord for them or else they'll kill Dante. Gene obviously doesn't want to lose his precious little bro, so he leaves the area hesitantly and heads straight to the lord's home. He explains to the lord about the situation and essentially asks his lord if he can just willingly give the gold to the bandits so that Dante can be saved. The lord thinks about this but ultimately says no as he claims that the village was on hard times and really needed that gold to stay afloat. Gene understands this but is also very upset about the situation as he desperately wants to save his brother.

Gene does consider just stealing the gold behind his lord's back but he then comes up with a plan that's better in his mind. He'll just order his guards to perform some sort of sneak attack on the bandits and brutally kill all of them for even thinking of trying to harm Dante. After creating the plan, properly organizing it and going over it with his men, they launch this plan into action. Everything seems to be going okay at first but it wouldn't stay that way forever. With most of the bandits distracted, Gene goes to grab Dante but the bandits' leader steps in and blocks Gene from doing such a thing. The two get into a fight and when Gene tries to stab the leader in the chest, the bandit does something supremely fucked up. He grabs poor Dante and uses the child as a human shield, meaning that Gene ends up stabbing Dante instead of the leader. Gene is obviously in shock and is mortified at what he's done. The bandit leader laughs in Gene's face before telling the bandits to just surrender and retreat which they do.

Dante dies in Gene's arms almost instantly and Gene... he has no idea what to do or say. I imagine he doesn't even cry because of the amount of shock of what just happened. Dante's funereal happens but nobody in the village blames Gene for what happened, not even Gene and Dante's parents who reassure Gene that there was nothing that could have been. And Gene hates it so much. Because Gene thinks himself as nothing but a filthy murderer that doesn't deserve forgiveness so it pisses him off that people are being so understanding towards him. He probably snaps at his parents at least once because how DARE they forgive him for murdering Dante, for murdering his own brother, for murdering their son. Gene quits being head guard and isolates himself from everyone, including his own family because of the guilt that's eating him alive. He failed his little brother, that he always swore to protect, so he doesn't feel worthy to be trusted with protecting an entire village of people. There's also the guilt that settles in from the fact that he schemed his way to get that position so he especially doesn't feel worthy of such a job. He's actually becoming aware of what a shithead he was.

The pain and the guilt from all of this became too much for Gene and eventually... he decides to leave his village and never return. Without Dante, Boboros didn't feel like home anymore. He also couldn't walk around the village without being constantly reminded of his sweet little brother that should still be alive right now. Gene just couldn't do it anymore so he packed up some of his things and quietly left his old village behind in the dead of night. But not before using his magicks to make everyone, even his parents forget who Gene was completely. He didn't want anyone coming after him but he also believed that someone as awful as him shouldn't be remembered by anyone. Everyone still had the memory of what happened to Dante but Gene altered it so that everyone would think that Gene was just some random disgusting killer that took Dante's life, exactly how he viewed himself now.

Gene proceeded to just wander around the Ru'aun region, staying in random villages for a little amount of time before moving onto the next. He became a lost soul of sorts, growing into a reserved and quiet person who keeps to himself. All motivation for life had died the day his brother died and for awhile it seemed that it would stay that way forever. Until Gene accidentally gets too close Eastern werewolf territory and finds himself being thrown in their prison. He kind of shrugs it off as he's been through worse on his travels. Of course he meets Donna and Logan who also accidentally trespassed onto this territory and got thrown in jail for it. But he also doesn't know how to react when they treat him rather nicely (well that's mostly Donna but still). After so many years of being alone, he isn't sure how to accept other people being kind to him whatsoever especially when his self-esteem is horrendously low. So he prompts to not say anything in response (not like he was much of a talker anyway). But yeah just like canon, Donna escapes with Gene from the Eastern werewolf tribe but unfortunately have to leave Logan behind. And it's the first time in a long time for Gene when he feels this great urge to help someone in need like this. And maybe that has to do with the fact that this situation is a little similar to what happened with his brother and Gene will be damned if someone else had to go through the same pain he did.

Meeting Aphmau is... kinda awkward at first. Because for one: Gene hasn't interacted with a lord in ages and he still has some bad blood towards his old lord that he served once upon time. But then there's also the second thing: Aphmau reminds him a little of Dante and that is definitely still a sore spot for him. So yeah, Gene's even more quiet around Aphmau then he is with like Donna or just other people in general. Aphmau at first thinks she accidentally offended him somehow but learns from Donna that Gene is just kinda like that for whatever reason. Aphmau understands and tries to not make Gene uncomfortable but conversation proves to be hard with how quiet Gene is. They're very awkward with each other until they end up in Malachi's castle. Gene being a magicks user himself immediately senses that something is very off with this place and his protective instincts kick in. It doesn't matter that he hasn't known Aphmau for long because again, he's not going to make the same mistakes as before. He's not going to let someone else die because he didn't do enough to protect them like a proper guard should. Like a proper older brother should. Gene used to be a hardcore con artist but now he's given up that lifestyle, now he's going to prove himself worthy to wear the armor and wield the sword of a guard.

Aphmau is unable to convince Gene to not go by himself so she waits until he's deemed that the coast is clear. But then she gets tired of waiting and goes after Gene herself. And just like in canon, Aphmau eventually finds Gene but he's cast under Malachi's fear magick, muttering the name 'Dante' over and over again. Aphmau as per usual sees her own worst fear which of course shakes her but she was certainly not prepared to be hit with Gene's worst fear nor the contents of what said fear was.

The vision Malachi shows her, tosses Aphmau into a middle of a fight between what she assumes are guards and bandits. Things are clearly intense but in the midst of all the fighting she sees a 12 year old boy being held against his will but what she assumes is the bandit leader. Then she sees Gene, who looks a little younger, running towards the leader and engaging in a fight with him. She sees Gene make an attempt to stab the leader but what happens next makes Aphmau sick to her stomach. The leader grabs the young boy, using him to shield Gene's fatal attack, meaning that Gene had accidentally stabbed the boy instead of the enemy. It's clear that Gene felt the same way as Aphmau as he dropped his sword, immediately holding the boy close while being almost in a complete state of shock. She hears the leader laugh and sees him run off with his fellow bandits. The boy had died by then and Gene was still in a horrified shock at what just happened. Then the world around them turns into a black abyss, the young boy's mouth suddenly turning into a twisted grin as he looks up at Gene. The boy begins telling Gene that he's awful, that he's a terrible murderer and that he'll never forgive Gene for what he's done. Gene finally starts sobbing as the boy continues to say these things over and over again, blood pouring out of his mouth as he continues to talk.

Aphmau suddenly snaps out of the vision and looks over at Gene in great concern. She had no idea what she just saw but it chilled her to the bone nonetheless. The rest of this section would be the same with Garroth and Laurance losing their shit with that fake illusion of Aphmau kissing someone else (which I personally find DUMB but that's a post for another time). Gene is definitely not pleased to be woken up and have a very angry brunette threatening him for some reason. Boy is just highly confused and has no idea what is going on anymore. Also I imagine Gene is very uncomfortable/scared of Malachi at first due to the fact that the ghost straight up psychologically tortured him and that's not something you get over so easily. He warms up to the kid eventually but he's gotta have some time to recuperate after reliving one of the most traumatic moments of his life. And speaking of trauma, Aphmau being the way she is will inevitably try to talk with Gene about what she saw but it doesn't go well initially. He just brushes her off and says he's fine despite the fact that he's clearly not. Aphmau lets it go at first but is still concerned and hopes that Gene talks with her eventually.

Gene does do that and for the first time in awhile, he actually tears up as he tells Aphmau his story. It feels weird to him as expressing emotions hasn't been something he does as of late but he almost feels comfortable doing that around Aph. Probably because at that point he would've warmed up to her more but also her reminding him of Dante had something to do with it. After hearing this, Aphmau proceeds to hug this poor, traumatized man and reassure him that what happened to Dante was not his fault whatsoever. Gene has a hard time believing it but appreciates the comfort anyway. It's been a long time since Gene has been hugged too...

Because Gene never died and became a Shadow Knight, he actually does age here. I hc specifically that Gene is about 4 or so years older than Garroth and Laurance so the dynamic is a little different here. Garroth gets a tad nervous around Gene because he sees Gene as an authority figure that should be respected as he has more experience than Garroth. Garroth lowkey thinks Gene is a little cool even if he's weird. Laurance, however, does not give a fuck about respecting authority and does not like Gene at first (which partially has to do with the kissing incident lmao). But Laurance starts viewing the other differently after he overhears Gene talking with Aphmau. Laurance feels a little bad for Gene as no one should go through such a thing. He still sasses Gene but it becomes more playful rather than full on venomous like it was before. Gene is confused but just goes along with it. But as for Gene's POV of his relationships with Garroth and Laurance, he's awkward at first (as per usual with this sad, pathetic and technically homeless man lol) but soon enough he ends claiming the two guards as his younger brothers. Whether they like it or not does not matter because nothing will stop Gene from his spontaneous adoption tendencies. And while I don't think I need to say this at this point but he also adopts Aphmau as his younger sister.

There's more I can add to this for sure but right now I kinda ran out of ideas so maybe I'll do more with this another time. Also I'm unsure if I should either keep Dante dead or turn him into a Shadow Knight. Cuz if I did do the Shadow Knight route, I'd make it so that Shad alters his memories and like makes Dante hate Gene or something. Idk I still have to think about it more.

[vault81]

Hi, a little bit new but I love your fallout OC's! For the 60 questions, how about #3, #41, and #55?

Welcome!! and thank you sm! It makes me so happy when people end up loving my lil blorbos!!! (you didn't specify which oc so im gonna do all 3 if that's ok?)

(60 OC Questions Ask)

- [3] What emotion is the hardest for them to deal with?

Jack: For Jack I would say the emotion he has the hardest time with is anger, not just because he hates feeling angry and the way it affects him physically, feeling dizzy, tensing up, trembling etc. The thing he hates most is the way he deals with it (or doesn't) he's the kinda person to just bottle up those emotions until they go away themselves, not having a healthy way of venting them out. Which, sometimes, leads to him just exploding and lashing out at people he isn't angry at! Of course, he'll immediately feel bad for doing so and apologise (cue bear hug and tearful apologies) This being said though, Jack does not get angry easily! You really have to try to get him cross, the best you'll usually get is annoyed! I also think the older he gets, the better he'll get at dealing with this.

Eliza: In Eliza's case, I'd definitely say the one she has the biggest time dealing with is guilt, overwhelming guilt. She's worked hard at building up her spiky, flippant exterior, but underneath all that is someone who cares deeply for the world and the people around her! And because of this she's always being weighed down by guilt, the guilt of never feeling like she's done enough, that she's letting her friends and family down. But most of all, she feels guilt for the way she's left things with her father, before she could apologise for the way she treated him as a kid, and forgive him for abandoning her. And the guilt of abandoning Arthur Maxson, the person she swore she'd protect from the Brotherhood and that she'd always be there for.

Stephen: I'd say Stephen's hardest emotion to deal with is stress, he's carrying so much on his lil shoulders! Not only does he have to find his nephew Shaun, he's the General of the Minutemen, Knight of the Brotherhood of Steel, a Railroad Agent and (Part-Time) Detective! He has so many fires that are all demanding his attention, he's stretched thin all over the Commonwealth, not to mention the fact he's also dying and only has a limited amount of time to do all this. He's lucky he has Danse and all his friends to deal with this, but it does take a massive toll on his physical and mental well-being. Danse encourages, forces him to take breaks the first time he gets sick from all the stress.

- [41] What’s their usual morning routine?

Jack: he is very much a lazy morning person, you will not physically get this man out of bed before 10pm (if you even try he'll drag you into bed with him), would lounge in bed for as long as he can before he has to get up. He'll drag himself to the kitchen before having breakfast lunch and running out the house while brushing his teeth, because odd's are that he's definitely late for whatever he had going on that day!

Eliza: She is very much a morning person, like early morning person. Most days she'll be up by 4/5AM, it doesn't take her long to wake up either (she's an insomniac too, so chances are she probably hasn't slept) after a quick cold shower and skin care (mainly around the scar where her left eye used to be) she'll be fed, dressed and out the house to start the day!

Stephen: I'd say Stephen is also a morning person, but not by choice. As much as he would love to stay in bed cuddling Danse, he has an entire militia to run. He probably has the quickest morning routine compared to the others, very rehearsed to be as efficient as possible so he can be on his way quicker! Wakeup -> Shower -> Get Dressed -> Leave. He finds it easier to just skip breakfast all together (it also makes him feel nauseous in the morning) Danse probably ends up joining him during this routine so he actually gets ready properly.

- [55] How long does it take for them to make a new place feel like home, and what do they need for it?

Jack: I feel like for Jack, a place can feel like home pretty quickly, as much as he travels and is constantly moving he can really settle in and make a place his. He mainly does this by making a place smell like home! He probably doesn't look it, but he's big on scents! Likewise, he needs for himself and his home to smell nice, or he can't properly settle in. I feel like he'd stick to more basic scents though for his home, so it'd probably smell like Vanilla or Fresh Linens, anything that'll remind him of his time in the Vault.

Eliza: for Eliza it takes her a while to warm up to a space and make it feel like home, like Jack she's always travelling and on the move. So why bother decorating if she's just going to move out in a week or so? It'd probably take her a couple of months to finally really settle into a place long term, she does this with clutter! Eliza is a hoarder, if she feels like anything has some kind of value, be that monetary or sentimental, she'll keep it! This means over time, her home will just start filling with clutter. To her, it makes the place feel cosy and lived in.

Stephen: for Stephen, I'd say he's more middle ground, doesn't take as long as Eliza but also isn't as quick as Jack, give him around a week or 2 before really settling in. And for a place to feel like a home to Stephen, it needs people! What's the point of having a home if it's empty? So he fills his home with friends and family! It ends up being a communal meeting place for his friends, always full of laughter and conversation. It adds a certain warmth to his home that Stephen just can't be settled in without! (It being in central Diamond City helps too)

[lisutarid-a]

[Gakuen K] Totsuka Tatara Route Translation

Sneaking out from the party

LIST OF CHAPTERS

[Translation under the cut]

Everyone: Merry Christmas!

Kamamoto: That's great, Yata-san! I'm glad you could make it to the Christmas party.

Yata: Yeah! I finished the supplementary class a little while ago, but I made it just in time. As expected from me!

Kamamoto: Instead, your homework for winter break is doubled… Good luck with that.

Yata: Uggghh…Kamamoto, you bastard. Don't say anything that lowers the mood!

Yata: It's Christmas today, I ain't gonna think about studying at all!

Kamamoto: It feels like you don't think about it all the time, though. Oh, this food is so good!

Yata: Seriously!? Let me try some too!

Kusanagi: I'm glad Yata-chan was able to come, it's lonely without a mood-maker. Speaking of mood makers, Mikoto is a mood maker, too.

Mikoto: Mood-maker…? I'm not a character.

Kusanagi: Yata-chan is loud like a rumble, but he's a charismatic member of the Red club and a great mood maker.

Kusanagi: You heard that? It seems that you took all the finals obediently, didn't you?

Mikoto: I just felt like it. Besides, Totsuka…

Kusanagi: Hm? What's with Totsuka?

Mikoto: …Nothing.

Kusanagi: Haha, you almost said that, but refrained.

Totsuka: Hey, how are you enjoying the party?

Saya: Senpai, you did a great job earlier.

Totsuka: Hm? Ah, you mean the charades.

Totsuka: I had a part-time job as a mime before. It was thanks to that experience.

Totsuka: …Hey, can we sneak out from here now for bit? I've got a place I want to go.

Saya: A place you want to go?

Saya: Senpai, where are we going?

Totsuka: It's still a secret. Don't worry, it's not a weird place.

Totsuka: It's really Christmas here and there. …Last year it was a hard time for me.

Saya: Last year?

Totsuka: I got a part-time job where I had to dress up as Santa Claus and sell cakes. It was heavy labor, though it was fun.

Totsuka: Because it's Christmas, all the customers are smiling and in a good mood. That's puts in a good mood too.

Totsuka: …Hey. Did you believe in Santa Claus when you were a child?

Choice: [I belived]

Saya: Yeah, I belived.

Totsuka: I thought so. Could it be, that you believe in him until recently?

Saya: !

Totsuka: Could it be, that I hit the nail on the head? You're so pure.

Choice: [I didn't belive]

Saya: I didn't believe in him. My parents said he's not real.

Totsuka: I'm surprised you seem to believe that. Well, if your parents said so, nothing can be done.

Saya: What about Totsuka-senpai?

Totsuka: Hmmm, I guess I never really believed in him.

Totsuka: Come to think of it, I haven't talked much about Santa Claus with the others. Did King believe in him, I wonder?

Saya: It would be cute, if Suo-senpai belived in him.

Totsuka: Fufu, you're right. I'll ask him later…

Totsuka: I was so caught up in talking that I completely forgot about our original goal. Come on, let's go.

Totsuka: Eh, it's closed?

Saya: It's quite.

Totsuka: Even though it's Christmas…Ah, it's unlocked.

Totsuka: Good eveni-ing…Hmmm, no one here.

Saya: Is it okay? Get in here without permission.

Totsuka: It's going to be okay. The priest said the church is open to everyone.

Totsuka: Whether or not he's gonna be angry, we'll just say "It's Christmas" and I'm sure he'll forgive us.

Totsuka: Uhm, it feels pretty good.

Saya: Yeah, it's a lovely church.

Totsuka: Ha-ha, that's true, too. I finally got a chance to be alone with you properly.

Saya: Ah…Thank you. I'm very happy.

Totsuka: No-no, you're welcome. But, it's kinda cold here, since there's no one around. Are you okay?

Saya: Yeah. I'm fine….Achoo!

Totsuka: …I knew you were cold. Alright, I'll be your flame.

Totsuka: How's it feel, a little warmer now?

Saya: Yeah. Senpai's flame is useful.

Totsuka: It's helpful in situations like this.

Totsuka: …But I don't have much endurance.

Saya: A-Are you all right?

Totsuka: Ahaha. I'm out of stamina already. I take a break for a bit, okay?

Totsuka: Sorry. I made you feel cold.

Saya: No. It's all right.

Totsuka: Hey, would you like to test your power, Saya-chan?

Saya: My power…You mean to put out the flame?

Totsuka: Right. You've learned to put it out on your own will, haven't you?

Saya: That's true, but …

Totsuka: …You scared because of situation with backed potatoes?

Saya: …Yeah. I'm glad that nobody accidentaly got hurt that time…

Saya: I'm afraid, that something similar could happen and someone else would get hurt.

Totsuka: I understand. …But, do you think it's okay to leave it that way forever?

Saya: Senpai…

Totsuka: When you joined the club you said that you wanted to face your ability.

Saya: …

Totsuka: I'll be right here by your side. I'll always be with you. Don't be afraid, believe in your own power.

Saya: …What if something happens?

Saya: What if the church breaks down and people nearby will be injured, what if senpai get hurt……?

Totsuka: It's fine, it's fine. It'll work out somehow.

Saya: (When Totsuka-senpai says it, I really feel like I somehow can handle it)

Totsuka: No matter what happens, I won't let go of your hand.

Totsuka: I believe in you. So you have to believe me, too.

Totsuka: And more than that, believe in yourself.

Totsuka: If you do so, the power will respond.

Saya: …Okay!

Saya: (I have lost many things because of this power. Butーー)

Saya: (Thanks to this power, I met new friends. I found a new place to belong to)

Saya: (…I met someone I like)

Saya: So I accept it. I accept who I am now and this power…)

Saya: Ah…

Totsuka: Looks like you made it. Congratulation.

Saya: Thank you. Thanks to senpai.

Totsuka: To me?

Saya: Yeah. Without senpai's encouragement, I wouldn't have been able to move forward for a long time.

Saya: Not just for now…Thank you for everything you do.

Totsuka: …You got me. I'm the one who's supposed to be saying that.

Saya: Why? I--

Totsuka: "Didn't do anything"? That's not true. You're the center of my life right now.

Totsuka: May I tell you an old story? It wasn't that long time ago though.

Totsuka: One summer night, you and I went out to look at the stars. On the way back, I screwed up and got trapped in the cage.

Totsuka: I'm used to taking risks, but I didn't want to get you involved. I urged you to go back.

Totsuka: But you, you didn't leave me. Not only did you not leave me, you helped me.

Totsuka: My heart was pounding so hard at that moment. Because there were someone who can take my hand.

Totsuka: This girl in front of me, was looking me in the eyes and worrying about me. She took my hand…

Totsuka: I know it may have been a small act from your point of view. …But I was very happy.

Saya: Senpai…

Totsuka: There are many other things that made me happy. And each time I grew to like you more and more.

Totsuka: I really like you.

Saya: I also like senpai very much.

Totsuka: Thank you. Can I touch you?

Saya: Yeah…

Totsuka: …You're warm.

Totsuka: Merry Christmas, Saya-chan.

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[lovelycreativetragedies]

Dating lloyd💚

lego niniago fic, requested by no one( re upload from my wattpad) no trigger warnings! feel free to request.

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— horrible at relationships, he'll say it himself. after Harumi, he never really trusted people again.

—— it'd take alot for him to tell you he loves you, and when he does he'll probably be a nervous wreck, but at least he'd have done it!

—— the sweetest, he'll hug you, kiss you and just overall wants to be with you at all times. he's not great with it, but he wants it.

—— wayyyy to embarrassed to ask you to hold him, but if you do he'll immediately melt

— so considerate, he knew what it was like to be treated badly in a relationship so he'd never ever want to do the same to you. hes also scared you might turn out to be like Harumi, but you of course prove that you're never going to hurt him.

— does get super angry sometimes, and he does shout but he'll end up crying and apologizing anytime he does shout at you etc.

- gets super overwhelmed a lot, and he'll shut everyone out, except you. all he'll want from you is comfort.

- he's extremely protective of you, but always listens to you and allows you to make your own decisions.

- likes touch, but doesn't know how to properly ask for it, so he'll hope that he gets it every once in a while.

- loves poetry. he'll write poetry about his love for you, and then get embarrassed when you find out

- sleeps with you wrapped in his arms, or you wrapping him in your arms. he can't sleep without you.

- cooks for you, he's one of the only ninja (other than zane) that can actually cook

- kinda childish, obviously. since he skipped years of his childhood yk, so sometimes he acts like a bit of a child but nothing you can't handle!

- protects you with his life!! if you ever got hurt he'd never forgive himself.

☞ in addition, hes always nervous to spar you incase he hurts you. One time he gave you a black eye on accident, and he refused to spar you for ages, but you assured him it was okay!

- always works with you during missions. you two are the golden duo and work best together!

☞ whenever your reckless on missions it always ends with him shouting at you. not in a mean way but because you give him a heart attack.

- whenever you do well on missions he's the proudest. he'll give you the biggest hug, and when theres a close call and you fix it or you save him he'll cry out of being so proud and happy you saved him.

- he loves simple dates. he's awkward as hell, so he just likes simplicity but he never fails to make it seem special and for you to feel loved.

- LOVES cats. he has cat pillows and stuff and honestly sorta acts like one.. he's super cuddly.

- will definitely get superrr jealous over you. even over small things like someone talking to you, and you laughing.

art creds 🎨 : haaa_om707ls on Twitter.

[axemetaphor]

If you want a more SA2-accurate depiction of Movie!Shadow's backstory, I recommend watching the fan film "Project Shadow"

you are So Correct. i sat on this ask for a few days cause i honestly had forgotten about Project Shadow from Joao Filipe Santiago, I had avoided it at first just cause I didn't have the time when it released, then I didn't want to subconsciously be comparing the movie to it since I'd heard it was really fucking good but considering I ended up ... I wouldnt say i didn't enjoy the movie, cause i did, but the movie is what it is, and this fan project is what it is, and the fan project aligns more closely with the kind of story about Shadow that i want to see.

Also i sat on this ask for days because i knew i wanted to use it to yap about comparing/contrasting the two so i'll do that under the cut for the sake of no spoilers

i love that the model was pretty close to Movie!Shadow's model, that's so fucking impressive. the rig is impressive too, he's so expressive!

as i think i stated before, i honestly dont remember much of SA2 since i never properly beat it (my goal this year is to play more games, though, so i hope i will--i do own it on Steam!) but i like this adaptation of the story much better. i love that it's entirely focused on his backstory, i mean i get that the film couldn't do that cause thats jsut not what the film was about. but what i love that they did here, which the movie could have done as well, is that from jump it's clear what Shadow, Maria, and Gerald's relationship is. They're all a family. I like that Gerald is a loving grandfather who becomes vengeful after his granddaughter's death; I didn't get that impression from Movie!Gerald. Movie!Gerald feels more like he jsut Was A Dick. idk. we didn't get to see hardly any of him interacting with Shadow before the present-day things so I can't get a bead on what their dynamic was. here? theyr'e family, and it's even more heartbreaking. Gerald is far more human here than the movie let him be.

speaking of heartbreaking, i love the way they decided to tackle Maria's death scene here. focusing entirely on Shadow's reaction and again with thsoe stellar expressions, we really understand that this is the most horrible thing this little guy has ever seen. and keeping the original narrative of her being directly shot by one person is so interesting. i had forgotten it was just Some Soldier Following Orders who shot her, not a bigger character (for some reason i thought the guy who became the head of GUN in sonic's time was involved?? not sure where i got that idea from) and that he seemed so hesitant; i didn't really like the movie soldier being like LEMME AT EM LEMME KILL THIS CHILD (just didn't really feel realistic in the moment) though i do appreciate the slight anti-military bent of the movie. this is more overt though, i think. the soldier hesitating is interesting and also kinda makes it worse (for Shadow and Maria) in a way. because it's obvious he had a choice, and he chose wrong.

outside of narrative choices and completely unrelated to the Sonic 3 movie i really appreciate how this fanfilm clearly had some limitations but they played to it pretty well. it's a little cheesy in parts but to be honest so is SA2 so it fits just-fine. i'm definitely more forgiving of cheese here than in the Sonic 3 movie tbf like these are fans not necessarily professionals. there's some bits that feel very "we do not have the budget to do a Whole Thing here so we're just gonna skirt around it" and i genuinely respect that. they have good knowledge of their scope here. something i absolutely struggle with in projects lmfao it's a wonder i ever finish anything frankly.

anyway i'd love to see some behind-the-scenes stuff for this fan film. im definitely following the creator on youtube n artstation. god damn i cant believe this dude is 2 years younger than me. i gotta get my ass in gear and make cool shit too.

in conclusion tysm for this ask cause my stupid ass absolutely would've forgotten to go check out this film again, my memory is a sieve. open message to my followers to remind me of shit if it seems like ive forgot cause chances are Yes I Have And I Swear It's Not Personal My Brain Is Just Like This

[erigold13261]

How do queerplatonic relationships work? Are they different from regular friendships? Because I’ve seen them with stuff like a lesbian Heather being with Alejandro.

Heather and Alejandro from Total Drama? Neat!

And yea, to me, technically a lesbian can be in a QPR with anyone because it is more like a committed and intimate friendship (or just relationship) in a SIMILAR way a romantic partner is.

That is probably not the most correct way of explaining it, but to me, that is how I see QPRs (since I'm pretty sure it is a very loose label).

Like I would want a QPR for me to be with a friend who I have been with for years and want to spend my life with them, but I have no romantic feelings at all for them. I don't really feel romance for real people (fictional is an entirely different story), and it would also not be a physical relationship, but it would be very intimate in different ways such as through trust, sharing stuff I would never share with anyone else, and wanting to spend my life with them all in the same way most people want to spend with a romantic partner.

This is how I personally see a QPR. Other people might see it in a different way. Some people might have sex with their QPR because they don't view sex as anything intimate or special (kinda the same way Friends with Benefits work for quite a few people).

I think it is kinda in the same area as polyamoury. At least that is what I would see it as. When I was in a relationship before figuring out I was AroAce, I told my partner that he could go get his sex from anyone else, just let me know and I'd be fine with it. I didn't want a sexual relationship at all, and we barely touched. I made it well known I was like this and we basically stayed in the same dynamic we had before getting into a relationship.

Which I think is what caused the downfall of our relationship and friendship, or was at least a factor in it. Other stuff was at play, but we were not compatible in this area as I don't believe (at the time at least) that either of us could properly have multiple partners without neglecting the other person (as when he did get another partner, it was another emotional bond instead of just a physical one or both physical and emotional).

Anyway, that is kinda drifting away from the topic but not really, since I still kept that relationship platonic even though the beginnings of the relationship were designated as a "normal" relationship so we both had a misunderstanding.

That being said, yes, I think a lesbian Heather could be in a QPR with Alejandro. You don't have to be sexually attracted to your QPR partner to be in that kind of relationship (I think if you are sexually attracted then that might not be a QPR, at least to me it isn't fully one, but like I said the label is pretty vague kinda because it just states QPRs are without romantic attraction and some people view romance and sex as completely different. This is just a general note, not a note specifically for this relationship example).

So yea, I can see a version of Heather who wants to spend the rest of her life, or a good majority of her life, with Alejandro in it even without having any romantic feelings for him.

Some people (like me) see QPRs as more as an extra stage to a friendship, some see it differently from friendships entirely but also different from romantic relationships. Even when I've done research on this label I still get confused with it because it seems to change and be very forgiving, so really it's what you make of it.

Again, that is at least how I take the label. Other people have different definitions for what intimate actions are and what romantic feelings are which is why I think it's hard to pinpoint one solid variation of how a QPR should be structured as (which I think is a good thing).

[chaoskiro]

Voiceteam roundup part art

Since there´s still a couple of the round three works I contributed to that haven't been made public I figured I could make a cover art round up today. I ended up making a lot of cover art for other people's podfics and turns out I really enjoy it! I have learned so many new things in photopea, it's been great. I'll try to go in chronological order from first to last. Here goes!

I (as always) began very ambitiously (is it even a bite if it doesn't look like more than you can chew?) with this coverart:

It was quite a bit of work isolating all the hats from their background and covering the musicians on the stage in a way that looked natural by copying other parts of the background. This was also before I found out you could make a border around text in photopea so that was done by putting the same words in a slightly bigger font behind the other words and fiddling and cursing until it looked decent, I do think it's a nice effect.

Then comes this one:

This story is so beautiful. It's a moment between Max and Robin right after Starcourt where they sit and talk on the edge of an ambulance. I really wanted to show their backs, but I couldn't find any good screengrabs that would fit, so I went with this idea of the silhouettes. The robin one is actually taken from the bathroom scene and I can't remember where the Max one is taken from, just that I made sure she had the two braids in it like she has in the final Starcourt scene. I had to do so much fiddling to get their silhouettes properly shaped, because both of them had complicated backgrounds that photopea wanted to lump in with them. That is also part of why there's the slight glow around them, it softened the edges and made them more forgiving. This is probably the cover art I've ever made I am the most proud of.

I had so many ideas for this one. I'm pretty glad I ended up going with this one though. The neon lettering was harder to get to work than expected, I spent ages fiddling with that, and then making the poster fit in more with the picture and not feel stamped on took a bit too. I was really glad to find that background on pixabay since it really helped making the edges of Eddie's hair not stand out so much (that hair is a nightmare to remove background for). This one feels like a study in crucial details that no one would know that I spent so much time on, but would stand out if I hadn't spent that time.

Speaking of things I had a hundred ideas for. This one is actually the one where I worked on the most separate ideas. I think I had four beginnings on drafts that all looked wildly different plus an idea that never saw light of day because I am still suffering from the lenovo AAAA prank.

See, the thing is there is this bouquet of flowers that is absolutely central to this story and also extremely well described, so I at first wanted to include that on the cover or at least something resembling it. As it turns out when wondering the free-to-use pictures on the net that might not be as easy as that and even finding a bouquet with just about the right colourscheme turned out to be hard, and so did tuning the hues of a bouquet nicely.

In the end what decided it most of all was also having to include so many names and that I really fell in love with this specific flower mentioned in the fic.

Making the coverart for this one was mostly about learning how to manipulate the shape of text and exploring the many different colours of fire until I found the right one to pick for the text. (It's a Dutch translation of a Good Omens fic for those of you wondering)

This one, for me, ended up being an exploration in remembering what my grandma's videotapes used to look like, and yet not at all being able to find a good base image for making a more film-like tape case before going with this simple option. I do kinda enjoy making covers that seem like real things that could exist.

Aaaand last, but not least:

This one caused me trouble. Mostly because my ideas where too hard to execute and also because it's a very short fic that doesn't give many visuals. All the others are rooted in some visual from the fic, but this one is a conversation on parenting that doesn't include many visuals that I felt like vibed with the fic as a whole. So I ended up grabbing onto the fatherly aspect of it all.

This photo originally had a black background, but I felt like that would clash with the vibes, so I decided to change that, then cursed a bunch when I found out that was easier said than done, did a bunch of things that felt illegal and arrived at this little thing.

Thus ended my voiceteam cover art journey. I have really taken a liking to doing this, which maybe shouldn't have taken me by surprise since I also love illustrating songs. There's something about having text and a story and a picture all mixing together that I really enjoy. I plan to make many more, I kinda had a day where I was just itching to make some, two days after the regular rounds of voiceteam ended, but I didn't want to take any points from tie-break participants. We will see what the future brings.