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illusionsofdreaming · 5 years ago

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Liquid Courage

Prompt: Drunk confessions

Notes: So it’s my birthday and I thought as a gift, I’d finish this prompt I’ve been looking forward to for a while. Fun fact: I don’t really drink much and I absolutely HATE dealing with drunk people but it was incredibly fun to write this nonetheless.

FT: Saizo, Gaius

Saizo: “You drink too much.” He growled as he steadied you from nearly tripping again. His eye narrowed and he took a deep breath to contain his withering patience when you giggled. He did not find the situation funny at all.

It wasn’t that Saizo didn’t understand or was immune to the desire to let loose from time to time, after all, he was known to enjoy the occasional cup of sake but he also knew when to stop. He hated clouding his senses, anything that might impede his judgement could lead to deaths.

But there was also one disadvantage in being the most sober one in a group of idiots. Babysitting duties.

“Stop. Stop!” He pulled on your shoulder, halting another fall. With an aggravated sigh he swooped to carry you in his arms. You clearly hadn’t expected to be manhandled so suddenly and had struggled against the new arrangement. “P-put me down! I can walk!”

“Stop squirming!” He hissed, tightening his hold under your knees before you could flail yourself off. He was surprised when you actually listened, settling down with nothing more than a laughable attempt at a petulant glare. He rolled his eyes. Small mercies.

He did not focus on the heat of your skin through the thin material of his uniform, the same way he did not focus on the way your breath tickled his neck. After this night Saizo was going to his lord to petition for all consumption of alcohol to be banned until the war’s over.

He flinched involuntarily when he felt something touch his neck and looked down to find you nuzzling like a kitten.

“Stop that!” He snapped, patience thinning as his hackles rose, a chill ran down his spine when you did it again.

“You smell nice.” You whined.

He glowered, face heating up as you did it again. “Stop that or I will drop you.” he growled as if for some reason, his threats would mean anything to you in your current state.

You stared at him and he stared back. “You won’t.”

His expression darkened. “I will.” He loosened his grip but you only tightened your arms around his neck, your legs clamped around him as you clung to him.

“You won’t.” You glared, your gaze surprisingly clear for one so clearly drunk out of their mind. “Because you’re nice.”

Saizo halted in his steps, he met your daring gaze with bewilderment like you had grown two heads. Saizo has been called many things in life, none of them flattering, but nice was definitely not one of them.

“You know nothing about me.” he snorted resuming his journey, his arms unconsciously returned to their previous positions, supporting your weight without much thought.

“Yes I do!” You argued. “You’re a jerk, a meanie, a brick wall, a jerk, a... a...!”

There, were the familiar insults on his person.

“A big softie!”

“I am not a soft-“ he bit down on his words, angry, because he didn’t need to defend himself, especially not to you.

“You are!” You wailed. He glanced down in horror. Dragons are you tearing up?!

“You are! You’re a big, stupid, softie!” your fist thumped his chest in emphasis. “I know because I don’t like meanies and I like you!”

He nearly dropped you out of shock. “What?”

“You’re a meanie!” you grabbed his face. “You!”

“Whet gwo oph muai faef!” You’re crazy. Saizo decided. Absolutely mental. He reared back to free himself from your grip but you were hellbent on making his night worse it seemed. In his fight to drop you (damnit he’s had enough) and your determination not to get dropped, gravity swooped in at the last minute and won. The two of you fell down in a heap of limbs. When the dust cleared, somehow you ended up on top of him, pinning and straddling his chest.

There were tears on your lashes framing your eyes as you hiccuped and if it were any other situation, perhaps Saizo would’ve found it endearing. “Stop this nonsense and get off of me-“

“I’m lonely.” you hiccuped.

He froze.

“You hate me. You probably think I’m evil, or weird, or…. weird.” you emphasised the word with a wave of your hand like it made a difference. “You watch over me because I’m the eneh… enemmem… nenemey..” you frowned, and Saizo watched in morbid fascination as even more tears welled up in your large eyes. “..not friend. You hate me.”

He watched as you scrubbed at the tears on your face, missing most as they continued to bloom at the corners, a seemingly unending flow. He knew his actions are often interpreted as malicious but he never bothered correcting any assumptions. After all, he’s not obligated to explain anything to anyone but his lord. His job was his life’s mission and what others thought of him never bothered him.

But it seems things aren’t ever that simple. “…I don’t hate you.” He sighed. This was why he stayed away from others. People can find surprisingly complex ways to hurt themselves over nothing.

“No?” You whimpered.

It was true that when you first joined he had been suspicious of your true intents, but it’s hard to say when that skepticism changed into grudging respect. You dream of peace and unity and he had scoffed at your naivety. In his eyes you were nothing but sheltered royalty, spouting idealistic dreams founded within the security of four walls as you knew nothing of the true horrors of the world. Even if you weren’t planning on betraying them, he had expected you to fold upon realising the truth of war. That the realisation of pretty words such as ‘peace’ and ‘unity’ can’t be supported by dreams and vision alone.

Except, you didn’t.

Instead of despairing at the blood you must shed, you agreed and understood the necessity of sacrifices and paved the path, dragging everyone else along in your tailwinds, towards your vision. Such vague and faraway notions of unity and peace - things he believed could only be brought to fruition by the strengths and efforts of his lord - suddenly, he believed you could do it too.

“No.” Saizo doesn’t hate you and something in his chest twisted painfully when your face brightened immediately. Really now? He averted his eyes and ignored how his heart raced. “Get off, you’re heavy.” He grumbled.

“Mmmkay..” you giggled, and he rolled his eyes at how quickly your moods fluctuated. You paused awkwardly halfway through moving though and your next statement immediately drained all the heat from his face. “…I don’t feel so well.”

“No wait-“ He sat up as fast as he could- “Dragons! Not down the front of my-!!”

Gaius: “Who’d knew you’d be such a lightweight Bubbles.” Gaius chuckled as he guided you back to your tent.

“I’m not usually..mmm..” you were having a hard time keeping your head up and relied mostly on your companion to lead you the right way. “..mmaybe I had too much tonight..” you grinned and he laughed in response.

“Maybe.” Gaius agreed as he pushed aside the tent flaps. He eased you onto your bed and steadied your swaying by your shoulders. “You alright now?” He raised an eyebrow in amusement.

“Mmmmm Yeah?.. yeah.. of course.. thanks.. Gaius.” You mumbled and bent over to undo your shoes but your fingers were having a hard time finding the strings until gentle hands batted yours away.

“Don’t hurt yourself Bubbles.” the thief laughed as he helped you unlace your boots. “In your current state you probably won’t recognize your own name.”

“_____________.”

He glanced up in surprise, not expecting you to actually respond to his jest. Your cheeks were flushed from the drinks but the look in your eyes was somber.

“It’s _____________.” You whispered. “The one thing I had even when I forgot everything else.”

“Right, of course.” He swallowed past the lump in his throat, forcing out a laugh. “Cheer up Bubbles, it just means you get to rediscover the joys of finding your favourites again.”

“Hmmm really?” You sounded dubious and he flicked your nose lightly.

“Yeah like your favourite animal?”

“Dogs.”

He grinned at your instant reply. “Favourite pie?”

“…Chicken?”

“Are you asking me?” he laughed at your confusion. “I’m more of a dessert pie guy.” He set aside your boots. “Favourite color?”

It was a habit of yours to nibble on your lip when you’re puzzling through a particular difficult problem and Gaius found it charming in a way, that such a simple question in your current state would trigger your unconscious habit. Your eyes strayed around your vicinity searching for a clue and he knew you found it when your eyes brightened and your lips twitched in a satisfied smile.

“I think it’s red.”

“You think huh?”

“Yeah..” you mumbled and your fingers reached out and patted his head. “Red.”

“I ain’t gonna wag my tail for you Bubbles.” He laughed brushing off your hand which had begun twisting strands of his hair distractedly. Your pleasantly buzzed expression wasn’t a common sight and Gaius made sure to remember the details of this moment - for blackmail purposes of course. It wasn’t often one got to witness Ylissean’s all famous tactician let down their guards, for once free of the stress and burdens of war. You’ll probably answer anything at this point. A devious grin slipped onto his face.

“Say Bubbles,” He drawled lazily, catching your attention. “You wouldn’t happen to know where Lissa stashes her honey cakes?”

Your smile was equally lazy with contentment, and this, he decided was definitely an improvement from the pitiful expression you wore earlier. “Yeah... it’s in the condiments box...within the ugly green sugar tin,” your nose scrunched as if the memory brought a bad taste to your mouth. “.. a removable partition underneath.”

Jackpot! Gaius couldn’t keep the victorious smile from his face as he patted your head in reward. “Thanks Bubbles. Lifesaver you are.”

“Save me some?” You pouted and Naga would strike him down should he refused those puppy eyes.

“Alright,” he acquiesced, “Teamwork and all that right?” He secretly wondered if you’ll remember this deal come morning. He decided to distract you.

“You’ve got a crush on anyone Bubbles?”

“Mmmm….yes.”

“Oh?” he grinned, “Someone caught your fancy eh? Who is it?”

You glanced at him blearily, your smile stretched into a wobbly grin as you giggled. Cute. “Something on my face?” Gaius smiled, eyes half lidded with fondness.

“I like..” you smiled.

“You like…?” he prompted.

“..I liiiiike..”

“Yeeeees?”

In a surprising feat of agility you leaped at him and although startled, Gauis reacted instantly, lurching forwards with wide eyes to catch you. His knee knocked on the bed post but he barely registered the pain when your next words, muffled in his shirt set off ringing in his ears. “..you, silly!”

He righted you immediately - and felt a little guilty when you looked a little green from the abrupt movement - but he couldn’t ignore the panic that clutched his heart at that moment. He must’ve misheard. Surely you meant someone else- he had expected to hear Blue’s name, or kind hearted Padre, perhaps even the women fearing swordsman from Ferox- but him-

His heart was galloping like he’d just consumed a bit too much sugar and the ringing in his ears were deafening. “You,” his voice faltered and he tried again, firmly this time. “You shouldn’t like bad guys Bubbles.”

“Don’t you dare insult him!” You kicked out and it connected with his shin, Gaius doubled over with a yelp.

“He’s a good man! A real good man! Not like you, you villain!”

“You just contradicted yourself there..” Gaius groaned as he rubbed his offended limb.

“I will not have you slander him.” You huffed and Gaius snorted. Boy, if only you knew the colorful names others had for people like him.

“What’s there to like about a criminal Bubbles?” He challenged, a bit miffed because for being the smartest person in the army you sure have dubious taste in men. “There are better people out there worth your attention.”

“It’s bad to judge someone by their past.” You declared. “I’m Plegian does that mean I’m scary and plotting the fall of Ylisse?”

“You’re plenty scary as is.” He barely avoided another kick to the shins. Right, you’re not in your right mind right now. If only his filter would remember.

“Everyone has something in their past they want to keep secret and nothing’s wrong with that. He might be cunning and sneaky and a trickster, but at the end of the day, he’s the one who’s taking the jobs no one wants.“ There’s a glimmer of tears in your eyes and they truly have come full circle now. “He’s the kindest, gentlest one in the army and I like him.”

Gaius wilted, truly torn. For someone trying to convince you find someone better (because there’s always someone better, someone without a scarred record, someone who isn’t guilty and bore physical mark of their crimes) for your own good, he was feeling like scum doing so.

“You really do don’t you?” he sighed, reaching out ruffle your hair. Silly fool.

“He smells really nice too.” You added as an afterthought.

“Why do I get the feeling the latter matters the most to you?” He asked wryly and couldn’t help but grin despite himself when you blushed.

“Alright, I give.” he grumbled but it had no heat as he flicked your forehead. “He’s the nicest and coolest, like a cuddly teddy or something.” A cuddly teddy with knives on its body and well versed on the ways to end a life from the shadows. Villain. He nudged your shoulder lightly and that was all it took for you to tilt over and flop sideways on your bed.

“Yeah, pretty squishy.” You agreed with a sleepy murmur, you were barely keeping your eyes open at this point.

His eyebrows rose, “I’ll have you know I’m fighting fit. Not even one bit of squishy on me.” He tucked you in and grinned as he watched you snuggle deeper into the warmth.

“…suuree…” you murmured. “..not.. one.. biiiit…”

He watched as your breathing slowed and the slight crease between your eyebrows loosened. “____________?” He tested softly. When no reply came he finally allowed himself to relax and lean back, settling his weight on his haunches as he ran fingers through his hair.

“Guess what?” He mumbled softly, “I like you too.” Even though he’s the last person who should. Even though he doesn’t deserve happily ever afters.

But after all he’s heard this night… He stood up slowly and stretched his body. “I’ll give it a shot Bubbles. Work to become the man you think I am..” How could he not at least try?

He brushed your hair back gently before turning and leaving your tent. “Sleep well ________.”

#fire emblem #fire emblem imagines #fe14 #fe13 #fire emblem awakening #fire emblem fates #imagines #saizo #gaius #fluff #drunk confessions #confessions #i actually wrote more #but i only finished the ones for saizo and gaius for now #i love these two husbands #saizo can't deal

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musicalmoritz · 2 months ago

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Hey uh ,,, do you have any songs that reminds you of tbhk? Like specific characters or relationships ?? (Also I plan on updating my mitsukou playlist I have for coping reasons so some recommendations on that would be nice) ( little cat ^. . ^ / )

OKAY so a little bit embarrassing but the way I listen to music 99% of the time is by imagining my hyperfixations with whatever I’m listening to so I am the perfect person to ask this question. Fair warning tho my music taste does dabble in basic territory. This is gonna be looooooong so fasten your seatbelts

• Using You by Mars Ago is such an AoiAoi song to me. There’s always one specific ship in a fandom that fits this song perfectly and for TBHK that is 100% AoiAoi

• Heart-Shaped Box by Nirvana gives me HakuSumi and Sakuhiko vibes. I lean more towards HakuSumi tho bcuz…well…those of you who know the meaning of this song will get it LOL

• Soooooo many Beetlejuice musical songs remind me of TBHK. I started to make like a whole playlist that told the plot of TBHK through musical theatre songs but I gave up after the Mitsuba arc and it never made it to Spotify. Maybe someday…

• Say My Name from Beetlejuice is obviously very HanaNene coded. And The Whole “Being Dead” Thing is giving Hanako coded. Dead Mom is very Kouded

• I Know It’s Today from the Shrek musical always makes me think of Nene

• Drift Away from Steven Universe…very Yako. Her waiting for Misaki every day before learning he died…oof

• Dear Theodosia from Hamilton Remind’s me of the Minamoto Siblings. With Teru as Burr singing abt Kou and then Kou as Hamilton singing abt Tiara

• Beautiful Boy by John Lennon reminds me of Teru and Kou

• On a similar note, I Wanna Hold Your Hand by The Beatles is soooooooo NeneMei coded. Yes I’m talking abt that scene where Nene asked Mei to hold her hand to trick her in an escape attempt. I think about it often

• Townie by Mitski makes me think of Teru. “I am not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be” yeah…

• Ever since I heard HISS by Megan Thee Stallion it has made me think of Teru. I feel like he would be her biggest fan

• Mine by Taylor Swift works so well for any Aoi ship but specifically Aoinene or AoiAoi. “You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter” I mean c’mon her fears surrounding love all stem from her father abandoning her so yeah

• Okay you specifically asked for Mitsukou so I should probably talk abt them

• To me they are so Lana Del Rey core…Video Games…Ultraviolence…the Diet Mountain Dew demo…Summertime Sadness…Yes I know I’m making her most popular songs, hush

• Line Without A Hook by Ricky Montgomery. It’s extra gut-wrenching when it’s from Mitsuba’s pov imo but it works both ways

• Waving Through A Window from Dear Evan Hansen is so Sousuke core

• All of Taylor Swift’s Red album reminds me of them but specifically All Too Well (both versions), Red, Sad Beautiful Tragic, Stay Stay Stay, Begin Again, Better Man, Come Back…Be Here, The Very First Night, and…yeah basically all of Red (Taylor’s Version)

• Northern Downpour by Panic! At the Disco also makes me think of them, this is embarrassingly my favorite song of all time I can’t lie

• Lacy by Olivia Rodrigo is so Aoinene core, yes I have written a fic abt them with that title (a lot of these come from my fic titles ngl)

• Tainted Love by Soft Cell gives me strong Terukane vibes from Akane’s pov

• I Wanna Dance With Somebody and So Emotional by Whitney Houston both remind me of Aoinene as well, basically all of her album Whitney does ngl

• Edge of Seventeen by Stevie Nicks makes me think of Natsuhiko

• Bernadette by IAMX reminds me of Sakuhiko

• She Liked A Boy by Nxdia is very Aoinene coded

• Stupid With Love from the Mean Girls musical makes me think of MeiAoi, specifically the version with No.4 Mei

• Music of the Night from Phantom of the Opera is canonically Hanako coded like c’mon we have a whole au for this

• In addition, Think Of Mei is very Nene coded, All I Ask Of You is Mitsukouded, Notes is v Terukane coded, and the title song is so HanaNene

• Valley Of The Dolls by Marina is lowkey Aoi core with the whole “pick a personality” line and the concept of losing your identity as a woman due to the boxes society puts us in

• Gemini Moon by Reneé Rapp reminds me of Kou or Akane (mainly bcuz of the “I could never pick a side” line…bi kings)

• Fly Me To The Moon by Frank Sinatra makes me think of HanaNene (any old music does tbh, I have a whole playlist for it)

• Me and My Husband by Mitski is, like, THE Hakusumi song

• There Is A Light And It Never Goes Out by The Smiths is so Mitsukou like “to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die” ?? C’mon

• Violently shaking trying not to name every Fall Out Boy song in existence

• The Pros and Cons of Breathing is SO Aoinene guys (“wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel”)

• Hum Hallelujah could theoretically be Kou

• HOT TO GO! by Chappell Roan is the vibe I have assigned to Minami and Himari

• Stacy’s Mom for Mitsuba’s mother. No elaboration needed.

• You’re On Your Own, Kid by Taylor Swift makes me think of Teru :(

• Lithium by Nirvana reminds me of Akane but also every Nirvana song ever reminds me of Akane, I have assigned Akane to Nirvana

• Whitney Houston’s iconic cover of I Will Always Love You for HanaNene…yes indeed

• Taste by Sabrina Carpenter with Terukaneaoi (Teru sings it to Akane so instead it’s “you’ll just have to taste me while SHE’S kissing you”)

• I have assigned Olivia Rodrigo’s Guts album to HanaNene and Sour to Mitsukou

• Bcuz c’mon, Deja Vu is such a Mitsukou/Soukou song

• Maneater by Daryl Hall & John Oates is Ghost Hotel au Kou and then Maneater by Nelly Furtado is main universe Mitsuba (get it? bcuz cannibalism but also they’re gay-)

• I like the concept of a “maneater” being a gay man and a “womanizer” being a lesbian. Therefore Womanizer by Britney Spears is Mei’s song

• Oops! I Did It Again by Britney Spears is Aoi with AoiAoi

• Espresso by Sabrina Carpenter is Aoimei with OG Mei, Bad Chem is HakuSumi, and Please Please Please is Sakuhiko

• Holding Out For A Hero by Bonnie Tyler is a Natsuteru song I have dubbed it that way

• Landslide by Stevie Nicks is so Aoinene it hurts… “well I’ve been afraid of changing ‘cuz I built my life around you”

• Every Breath You Take by The Police reminds me of Mitsukou from Kou’s pov…my boy can get a little obsessive

• Obsessed by Olivia Rodrigo is THE Sakunene song, especially since Nene thought Sakura was Hanako’s girlfriend when they first met

• Honorable Mention by Fall Out Boy is lowkey Mitsuba like hear me out…or maybe more-so Sousuke

• Their song Pretty In Punk reminds me of both Mitsukou and Hanamitsu

• Two Player Game from Be More Chill is HanaKou and then A Guy That I’d Kinda Be Into is Mitsukou

• Part Of Your World from The Little Mermaid makes me think of Nene and then Poor Unfortunate Souls is Sakura (or Tsukasa). Kiss The Girl is HanaNene or Aoinene

• Kiss Me by Sixpence None The Richer is Terunene, I’m sorry Ik a lot of ppl hate it but I adore them

• On that note of overhated ships I love, Jessie’s Girl by Rick Springfield reminds me of TeruAoi

• Ooooh and Uptown Girl by Billy Joel is a MeiAoi song

• My Girlfriend Is A Witch by October Country is so Aoimei and Sakuhiko core

• I Fall In Love Too Easily by Chet Baker makes me think of Nene

• I could make a whole separate post abt TBHK and Taylor Swift songs so I’m trying not to yap abt her too much but When Emma Falls In Love also reminds me of Nene. And The Archer is Hanako. And Mirrorball is Akane. And The Lucky One is Aoi. And-

• The Masochism Tango by Tom Lehrer is so Mitsukou but specifically the way I write them, you guys have to see the vision (Natsuteru as well)

• Miss You Much by Janet Jackson is lowkey AoiAoi core, ngl I just wanted an excuse to bring up Janet Jackson

• And Escapade by Janet Jackson is Aoinene so real so true

• I have seen ppl attribute Picture You by Chappell Roan to Meinene and I agree. I will add that Casual is Sakuhiko core from Natsuhiko’s pov

• Rock ‘n’ Roll Suicide by David Bowie reminds me of Terukane, both as individual characters and as a ship

• I Know You by Faye Webster is like THE AoiAoi/Terukaneaoi song to me

• Paper Bag by Fiona Apple is Mitsuba to me, trust I will be writing a fic that uses a line from this song as the title (unless it’s already been done before…it’s a very popular song so like that’s possible…)

• Lonely Hearts Club by Marina makes me think of TeruAoi

• Animal Cannibal from Possibly in Michigan fits both Sumire and Mitsuba imo

• No Surprises by Radiohead makes me think of both Teru and Kou

• Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want by The Smiths also makes me think of Kou

• Our Last Summer by ABBA reminds me of the Severance arc in a very bittersweet way, specifically the ending

• Silver Springs by Fleetwood Mac fits like so many ships. Hakusumi, Mitsukou, HanaNene…

• Killing Me Softly With His Song by Fugees and Ms. Lauryn Hill makes me think of Sumire/Hakusumi

• I Put A Spell On You by Nina Simone is very Sakura core to me

• Heart Of Glass by Blondie with Mitsuba hear me out hear me out

• Smooth Criminal by Micheal Jackson with Aoi and the amount of times she’s almost died lol

• The Boys Of Summer by Don Henley with Hanako and Kou, or Kou/Yokoo/Satou

• Moon River with HanaNene. Now cry.

• Romeo And Juliet by the Indigo Girls with Aoimei

• Psycho Killer by the Talking Heads with Tsukasa

• And circling back to the musical songs. A Lovely Night from La La Land with MeiAoi

• Fight For Me from Heathers with Mitsukou. Candy Store with Terukaneaoi. Seventeen with HanaNene. Meant To Be Yours with any ship tbh these guys are all insane. Lifeboat with Aoi. Much to think about

• Stars from Les Misérables with Teru. Let me repeat. STARS FROM LES MISÉRABLES WITH TERU. He is so Javert coded Javert my babygirl from my favorite piece of media of all time that literally shaped who I am as a person

• Right Where You Left Me by Taylor Swift with Sumire

• Also all of the Sweeney Todd musical gives me TBHK vibes with all the cannibalism, I could make a whole au

• Camisado by Panic! At the Disco with Teru

• No Good Deed from Wicked with Hakubo snapping after Sumire’s death…Hakubo my beloved

• Popular from Wicked with Aoinene, What Is This Feeling? with Terukane

• The Confrontation from Jekyll & Hyde with the Yugi twins

• Don’t Rain On My Parade from Funny Girl with Nene

• Suddenly Seymour from Little Shop Of Horrors with Aoinene, AoiAoi, Mitsukou, or HanaNene

• I like to imagine Unlikely Lovers from Falsettos with Aoinene and Terukane

• Two Wuv by Tally Hall with Teruaoinene

• American Beauty/American Psycho by Fall Out Boy with AoiAoi

Okay I’m cutting myself off because the music + hyperfixation brainrot will never end. I hope this was somewhat enjoyable to ya’ll lol ty for giving me the chance to yap abt this

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