#nell rambles ᝰ.ᐟ

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hello and my apologies! 🌼

i’ve been so inactive lately and i know i don’t really owe an explanation, but i feel guilty if i don’t :(

i’m someone who struggles a lot with mental health, and in the past weeks it reached a new low so i decided to step back and look for myself. i’m doing much, much better as of now but i still need a little time to feel like myself again.

so once again, apologies for the inactivity, specially to all of the people who sent a request (i promise i’ll get back to them soon). remember to take care of yourselves!

much love, n <3

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not like anyone cares and i’ll probably delete this by the morning if not in a couple of hours but i kinda need to get this out right now. i can feel myself about to relapse again for the second time in the last three? months and honestly it’s so fucking exhausting when something so stupid like an innocent comment (not even towards you) triggers you to the point you lose all sense of self and suddenly you don’t know who you are and what defines you anymore and all you want to do is crawl out of your own skin and never be perceived again

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going through some of the hurt/comfort reqs on my inbox this week :’)

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trying to write more than 100 words in one go is getting so damn hard lately 😭😭😭

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trying to give an angsty fic a happy ending as someone who loves angst more than anything:

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can someone tell me if the links to my masterlist on my pinned post/the links to the fics themselves are working because they aren’t for me for some reason right now

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just met part of my bf’s fam today and two of his nieces and god do i want a kid

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boyfie came back of his weekend trip with a huge vs bag… oh how i love being spoiled

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the heat in london these days is intolerable i feel like i’m gonna melt any second now

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going through some more of the requests in my inbox this week FINALLYYYYY

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today’s race has been so bittersweet :(

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omw to silverstone rn 🥹

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my bf saw i wasn’t coping well with the race result he’s been in the kitchen baking something to make me feel better 😭😭

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finally gonna sit and catch up to the race after a very long day

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do you ever just have a bad day and want to delete your whole existence

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doing a little rebranding of my whole blog so i’ll be editing some of my posts during the day. i’ll also be posting some smut tonight so bare with me