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What did they do to my sillies... these two specifically look wayyyy younger than they should lol

If Adrien looks like that what did they do to beloved Félix 😭😭

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Week 2: First Time for Everything

Hey friends! 

I had a very overwhelming week 1 in Atlanta. But thats not a bad thing. Let’s talk about it. 

I started my week exploring, but not truly enjoying the scenery and things happening around me. I was so stressed out about getting a job, getting my acting classes started back up here in ATL, and just getting used to being a city girl. While I was so stressed out I deep down knew that it would all work out so I needed to just GO OUTSIDE, BE PRESENT, LIVE A LITTLE…that isn’t what I did. I went outside and explored cool running places to de-stress but I didn’t do anything out of pleasure. 

At the end of the week I got a Hostess job, so I started that (Ive never worked in a restaurant. First time for everything) and I really like the people. They already treat me like family and I’m already invited to outings with all of them so I think they like me. Or, I guess they could have invited me to take me somewhere to kill me but I’m going to assume I am wrong in that assumption and choose positivity by saying they just want to hang out with me! Yeah. I like that. 

The second I was hired I worked the next three nights. Honestly, I enjoy being the face people see when they first step into the restaurant (maybe they will remember me!) but it definitely got overwhelming. My first day was a Thursday and their busiest day is Friday. So I got to start on a night where it was a pretty frequent flow, but easy to get used to. But then Friday came and I swear I blacked out for those 7 hours because HOLY SHIT IT WAS CRAZY. There was live music, people everywhere, reservations all night and I had to take care of basically everything. Good thing that wasn’t my first night because they would have fired me right there. Thank God I had that Thursday to get somewhat adjusted to the restaurant life. You people that had serving as your first job ever, good for you. I cant imagine what 18 year old me would have done…cried? Left?..I don’t know but it wouldn’t have gone well.

HOWEVERRRRRR, I guess it went pretty well because when I went in on Saturday they said I did great with such an un-ideal evening. So yay, go me! 

So thats how the job went. Now on to better things, I. MADE. FRIENDS. 

Now I knew that this would be hard to do especially because I have changed my standards on people. I know that unhappiness is directly connected to toxic and negative people you have in your life. I didn’t want this to happen to me, especially in such a delicate stage in my life. I don’t want toxic people and I want to utilize my positive vibes as much as possible so I need positive people. These friends I have made this week meet the criteria for friendship :)

My job introduced me to a couple of pretty cool people. One is a bartender and sometimes my manager. She’s like the realest person. She always checks on me and doesn’t care if I have asked the same question twice (which I have noticed I do a lot so SORRRYYYY to all of you that this has happened to with me. Short term memory loss. Just call me Dory…..interesting…new stage name?). 

Sorry. 

Back to what I was talking about. 

So yeah she’s cool. The other person is a server there. He like took me under his wing the second I stepped through the doors. He always comes up to the hostess stand to chat with me so yeah, we are for real friends. He knows me now. And I know he is in a band so what more do I need to know?

So those are my work friends. I wish I could name drop…but I’m sure they will both pop up on my instagram in the near future. 

Alright alright, now to one more friend I made. 

This one is a sibling of a friend from Florida. WOAHHHH COOL RIGHT? I can finally have conversations about Florida and the people there and she understands! Dope. But anyways, I met up her at Ponce City Market (go there. Do yourself a favor, drop what you’re doing and begin your drive specifically for Ponce City Market. I will talk cool stuff about it in my places tab of the blog) and we had drinks. We went to a place called “The Tap” and it was magical. It was like a Yogurt Land for beer/wine/cider. AMAZING, Y’ALL. Now I had to be at work at 5 and still chose to go hang out with them at 3 because I wanted to be a dedicated friend. It was so worth it. I made other friends in the group she was with and when I left they all said I can hang out with them any time. SO YAY. Things are working out for me! I can totally see that group being a solid choice for me when I want to have a fun time. 

OH but I forgot to mention a crucial part of this week. I came home from work one night and the airbnb couple that is hosting me were THROWING A PARTY. Big party. Cars parked all over the place..up the street, down the street, driveway, yard, the whole sha-bang. But this wasn’t just any party…it was their engagement party….? Like thanks for telling me! Congrats???? 

In all seriousness though, it was cool. Made some friends that night too. They invited me to get sushi. It’s a real friendship now. 

But now it’s time for real talk. Even though there are so many good things happening around me, I am still a wreck. It has been two weeks from the day I left the place that everything was good and comfortable. That is my biggest struggle, I think. Realizing that it is okay to be alone and that I need to embrace it while I can. Realizing that the only way I am going to accomplish and crush my goals is through getting out of my comfort zone. I need to break every single mold I have for myself and create a new one. I mean, after all…I am a whole new person now.

I truly believe that in just a couple of weeks I have changed. I am less independent, but I can tell my brain wants to change that. I am so much more scared of my surroundings, but again, I want to change that. I also think the more positive aspects of me are changing (for the better, of course). I am so open to new adventures. I am more driven and passionate about my dreams turning into reality. I am so much more loving and caring (who knew that was possible?) because apparently absence does, in fact, make the heart grow fonder. I miss everyone, but I know this is the start of something CRAZY BIG. 

To be honest, I am feeling good. I am scared a lot, but I know that is a good thing in this case. I cant wait to see what unfolds in this next week and to experience many more “Firsts”!

And for anyone who wants to move to a city or different state, or even country, where you don’t know anyone….I say do it. Do it. Be scared. Be alone. Once you have gone through those things you begin to realize who you are and you see the beauty of the things and people around you. You create a whole new self and it is so rewarding. Plus, you find out there are so many people around you that have gone through/are going through the same thing. You got this. 

Alright, this was week two everyone. Lets see about week three!

Talk soon, 

 Kiersten 

(p.s. don’t forget to check out the other sections of the blog! My thought bubble page is gonna get pretty interesting with all the shit that is going on. Love you all!)