#naila 💜

[effervescentdragon]

you're tempting me to watch the movie now

i sobbed like a baby. its a war movie and a grief movie and its beautiful and it made me SOB

[livetogether--diealone]

happy birthday 💜 @lewishamil10n

[haecien]

@slytherinshua, @weird-bookworm, @eternalgyu, @blue-jisungs, @rubywonu, @fairyhaos, @etherealyoungk , @wheeboo <3

New years is comming so, happy new years!!! I've spent like 2 months with you guys and I swear that was the best two months of my life. We created so many memories in such a short amount of time and you people have made me so happy its unexplainable. I love talking to you all, you make me feel so safe around u guys. I hope it will stay the same in 2024 I love u mwa <33

Tagging some of my other moots/friends bc ilyilyily > @glosskirt , @woozvc , @welcometomyoasis , @liveyun , @jungwonswife , @candewlsy , @seokminded , @seuonji , @hanggarae , @aisclosed , @idubiluv , @icyminghao , @amxlia-stars , @kkooongie , @aaniag , @addicsvt , @/wray , @evalevaeva , @mangocustard16 <33 if I miss anyone I'm sorry:((

[lewishcmilton]

ooh i want one too pls! 🌼

[effervescentdragon]

its about seb. because ofc its about seb. ✌🏻

genuinely scared to open it

[nancylou444]

Also, hi, jaytwo/naila here, letting you know I changed my url temporarily for pride month 💜

Ah, thank you for the heads up, Naila. 💙

[gunnerina]

💌💜

Naila babe!! Supernatural, specifically Jensen Ackles, Lewis of course, Charles being your blorbo in law, and Jab We Met ���

[effervescentdragon]

your raceposting is genuinely so delightful

i have zero fucks to give, football is kicking my ass and now im.making it everyones problem

[vettelewis]

happy birthday! 💜

thank you naila!! 💜💜

[haecien]

Lovelies. . . <3

@woozvc Nora! #nora!☂️ AAAAA my first moot on this app! I literally love whenever you post! Best older sibling figure frfr also my fav Woozi & Hansol stan ong <33

@glosskirt Gloss! #gloss!🍊 Thank you for not making me not fail in my essays!🤭 my fav bts stan:D AND I MADE U STAN SVT HAH. <33

@amxlia-stars Amelia! #amelia!🔮 FELLOW CARATONCE❣❣❣ AAAAA FAVE SHUA AND MAURMAUR STAN <33

@itadorins Naila! #naila!🌹 I love the series of svt being abysmally down bad😊🤭🤭 JJBA>>> fav hannie stan!!! <33

@seuonji Aya! #aya💬 Svt x idol reader au>>>> AJAJSJS ay fellow pinoy?! <33

@welcometomyoasis Shu! #shu!💜 Hi shuuu!! Hope we can interact more in the future:DD , ur genuinely funny to me &lt;;33

@mitsukifilms Mitsuki! #mitsuki!🧸 I'm one of your favorite writers??? Hsjvqjegdjdh🤭🤭🤭I HAVENT SEEN U IN AWHILE!! <33

@anemoiant Wray! #wray!🍃 I'm literally re-reading "rhythm of the rippling sea" I FUCKING LOVE IT SM OMGGG????????😭😭😭 idk i'm a sucker for when the story i set in a beachy setting or near the water. PLUS ITS MINGHAO. I'm looking forward to interacting w u more! <33

@icyminghao Noelle! #noelle!☎️ I don't know much about you YET. But i'm looking forward to interact w u moreee! <33

@addicsvt Ari! #ari!🏠 I love you, you seem so fun to chat with HAHA <33

@slytherinshua Zanna! #zanna!🍒 My stardew buddy along with aiya🙏 favorite multistan!! (100 idols impressive but omg?😭😭) AOZ>>>> main reason for my kpop addiction. I hate u for it/j <33

@aisopen / @\aisclosed / @\aisnextdoor Aiya! #aiya!🌙 AIYAAAAA *showers you with bnd pictures*, OTHER STARDEW BUDDY ALONG WITH ZANNA! <33

@weird-bookworm Sky! #sky!🎵 Huehahjwhdjdjd please omg I just found out that ur a lunè too OMFHAJEHDJ ur literally so sweet and ur so fun to talk too omfg <33

@wheeboo Rania! #rania!🐶 MAMAMOO WORLD DOMINATION!!! Hi stop with your angst/j 🤧<33

@candewlsy Mizu! #mizu!💿 Hi I do need harua medicine🤧🤧 MY kid fr im the best father in the world fr <33

@eternalgyu Hannie! #hannie!🍚 Reason why aoz was born fr, fav person to attack zanna with. AOZ>>>> <33

@kkooongie Sarah! #sarah!🐝 finally someone else who stans victon AASHAUEFHDHSFS, im looking forward to interacting w u more!!1&lt;;33 also hey we're the same age! That's cool

@blue-jisungs Axe! #axe!🪓 AXE (im sooo funny i gave axe the axe emoji im so hilarious) im looking forward to interacting w u more!! &lt;33

@seokminded Artai! #artai🗡 IT'S SO EMBARRASSING THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO CALL U EVEN IF WE'RE MOOTS:(( Ur so sweet tho!! Looking forward to interact w u<33 (ps pls tell me ur name when u see this please omg)

@evalevaeva Eva! #eva!🎞️ ur so sweet tho im :((( <33 ALSO UR FUMA FICS R HHEAHHDHSFD

@nonononranghaee Hafs! #hafs!🍉

I NEEDED MORE GHOSTIE MOOTS IM SO HAPPY HAJWNJEJEJAJEJJEKANWKDKD<3

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[ If I made any mistakes in typing your name/url pls don't hesitate to tell me!!! <3 ]

[ohnoitsthebat]

*tight tight hugs* i love you so so much 💜

*hugs you back tightly* I love you too, Naila. you're one of the only people i can count on, you've always supported me, and i just appreciate and love you so much.

[milflewis]

confessing my undying love for you 💜💜💜

naila my beloved i love you sm even if you bully me

confess your undying love or hate for me on anon

[effervescentdragon]

you get a part of redredred, the 2022 season sebchal that runs parallel to niamh's valewis. it follows the 2022 season and has flashbacks. its around 50k or more and dont think i'll ever finish it because it hurts, but who knows. 💜

Bahrain 2022

Seb wakes up on the couch and groans in discomfort. No matter how persistently he’d searched for the most comfortable couch out there, he still woke up hurting. It’s the age, not the couch, he thinks and sighs. Then he remembers yesterday.

A grin overtakes his face. Charles won.

Charles won, and Seb couldn’t help himself. He’d almost screamed when Charles was informed by Xavi that Max had engine problems, and hearing Charles scream and laugh in joy was… wonderful.

I’m not the last Ferrari GP winner, he thinks, and the thought doesn’t even hurt. Charles is, he thinks, and grabs his phone with a smile.

Two (2) new messages.

He’d congratulated only two people on the grid yesterday, because he couldn’t not. He was too tired to even contemplate picking up the call from Lance, or Lawrence, and he wanted to talk to Mick on the phone sometime today, because he knows that he would’ve taken finishing just out of the points very hard. He is still smiling as he opens the first message.

From: Charles

Please don’t hate me. Wish you were here.

His smile falls instantly.

“Fuck.”

Seb stares at the words on the screen. Please don’t hate me. Fuck. As if he would hate Charles, God. As if he could, for fucks’ sake. His head hurts. His fucking heart hurts.

“What have I done to you,” he mutters to himself, getting up to get some coffee. He knows he needs to eat, but he can’t stomach anything at the moment. He does take a glass of water and the coffee, and goes back to the couch.

One (1) new message.

“Fuck it,” he repeats. He needs to talk to someone. “Might as well.”

From: Lewis

Hey man, how are you? And thanks, I rly wasn't expecting it. It was a bouncy ride, a bit too bouncy if I'm being honest

Their chat history is open, the congratulatory message for the podium Seb had sent him the night before the last interaction they've had.

Seb hesitates for just a second, and then starts typing.

To: Lewis

Glad you made it through. I'm alright, feeling a bit better. Still tired though. How was Toto at the party? :)

From: Lewis

Susie was there, so you can imagine :) I think he wants to cut off even more parts from the car. He was pretty happy that ur home team had a bad day tho :)

Seb can't help but chuckle at that. The animosity between Christian and Toto always went deep, but it reached new heights in the last season. Seb gets it, and privately he thinks Toto is right about most things, but there is still a part of him that's probably always going to be uncomfortable about bad-mouthing Christian, even though the man has changed much throughout the years.

The fact that Lewis can tease him about Red Bull is a good sign, though. He still refuses to address them by name, which is a bit petty in Seb's opinion. Then again, Seb himself is far from being immune to pettiness.

To: Lewis

I know you don't mean Ferrari, because they wiped the floor with you :)

He regrets the message as soon as he sends it, especially when the answer comes back instantly.

From: Lewis

Yeah, Carlos was so good, man, easily one of his best drives. Your boy was on fire tho. The way he defended, damn. Did you see it?

Seb hates the way his pulse quickens. He hates the way Lewis' words make him feel. He shouldn't be feeling like this, because. Well. Because nothing and no one in Bahrain is his. Lewis' message is calculated to provoke him, but Seb doesn't mind it that much. He knows what his friend is doing - giving him a push and an out at the same time. It's on Seb to take it or leave it.

To: Lewis

Yeah, I watched the race. Wanted to see what the cars could do, and some of it was surprising. Good for Kevin and Mick :)

He pauses. He could leave it at that, and Lewis would accept it. They don't have to talk about it anymore. He can just leave it all at that.

Seb can't help himself. He never was one for avoidance; at least not with Lewis. Maybe only with Lewis.

To: Lewis

He's not my boy.

The reply is instantaneous.

From: Lewis

Not for lack of trying on his part

From: Lewis

Did you at least congratulate him?

Seb closes his eyes for a moment, covers them with his hand. He wants not to have this conversation. He wants a Jäger shot. He wants -

It doesn't matter what he wants. A lot of things don't matter, even though he wants them to. A lot of things matter, even though he tries to pretend they are as unimportant as possible.

Lewis could always see through him, though. Seb owes him honesty, and cares for him too much to try to mislead him; the only person he lies to regularly is himself, really. He appreciates Lewis too much to lie to him in any way. They’ve been through everything, and they’ve faced it all more or less together, and there was no reason anymore to keep up pretenses, when they knew one another inside and out in both the best and worst ways.

He knows why Lewis texted him, and he can't help but smile. Lewis always saw too much with those eyes of his, and he knew Seb needs the push.

To: Lewis

He asked me not to hate him.

To: Lewis

As if I ever could.

The reply is slow to come, or it just seems that way. Seb stares at his phone the whole time after sending the message, his heart in his throat. All the reasons for his avoidance of the topic come to mind, and he tries to take a deep breath to calm himself. He opens Lewis' message.

All that he manages to do is choke on air and almost cough out his lungs when Lewis' messages come in one after the other.

From: Lewis

I asked him if he wanted to be lifted in the air. He said, and I had to google this to write it right jsyk, "Nicht jetzt, danke". His pronunciation is terrible tho, worse than mine

From: Lewis

I think he missed you on the podium

From: Lewis

I think he misses you a lot

I miss him too, Seb thinks. I miss him so much, but it doesn't matter. It's better this way, Seb thinks. "Il Predestinato," he whispers to himself. He sighs and types.

To: Lewis

It's better like this.

Lewis' reply is angry, and Seb should have maybe expected it, but it still takes him aback.

From: Lewis

For fucking who, Seb?

Sebastian has committed himself to this course of action, or, well, inaction, and he will stick to it. He has to.

To: Lewis

For him. He has the car now, and his whole destiny. He is older, and more experienced, and he isn't impatient any more.

He hesitates, then adds on the phrase he's been repeating to himself for the past two years at least.

To: Lewis

He doesn't need me. Not anymore.

From: Lewis

Is that what you tell yourself so you can sleep easier?

From: Lewis

You were always bad at lying, man, but this is just pathetic

Fuck, Seb thinks. Lewis always sees too much, and this time he's not backing off for some reason. "Fuck you," he says out loud to himself so he doesn't say it to Lewis in a fit of anger that's bubbling under his skin, because Lewis is right. Seb loves him and hates him for it equally.

Lewis is one of Sebastian's best friends on the grid, and the one who understands him the best in some ways. It wasn't always like that, but after 2016, many things have changed. Nico left, and Seb didn't think about that anymore, like he didn't think about many things anymore. In another life, where they weren't racing drivers and each others biggest competition for a whole decade, and where they met at a later point in life, and where there was no Nico and no Mark to shape them into who they were when the time was right, Seb would've been in love with Lewis, and vice versa. Maybe he is a bit in love with him anyways, because honestly, who isn't? Lewis is amazing, and kind, and one of the strongest people Seb knows, and he respects him too much as a person and a competitor, and loves him too much to push for something that just would not work. Not the way they are, and not with their history, and especially not in this world where both Valtteri Bottas and Charles Leclerc exist.

Because no matter how much Seb loves Lewis for pushing him, a part of him is angry, because Lewis is being such a hypocrite right now. He is right about Sebastian, but he is still being a hypocrite, and Seb is too tired and hurting a bit too much to let him get away with it.

To: Lewis

How's Valtteri?

He gets up and refills his coffee as he waits to see what Lewis will say.

From: Lewis

There's the bastard I know

From: Lewis

He's fine. Didn't ask me if i hated him, bcs I'm a normal person who still speaks to his former teammate and friend normally

To: Lewis

So you normally took him up on that normal coffee date?

From: Lewis

Fuck you

To: Lewis

Once wasn't enough for you? :)

Seb couldn't resist reminding Lewis of the one and only time they slept together in 2016 occasionally. It wasn't something either of them dwelled on needlessly, even though it was definitely some of the best sex Seb's ever had. It was fun, and amazing, and heart-breaking, and just an inch shy of too much at the same time, and neither of them ever regretted it. They did both agree the next morning not to repeat it, because the bruises they left on each other were just a bit too painful, and the way they looked at each other as they were fucking was just a bit too raw, and for the whole time their thoughts were just a bit too focused on the men who were their teammates, and they both knew it. Neither of them resented the other for it, and that fundamental understanding that it was just not the right time for them and it never would be may be the reason why they became and stayed such good friends.

From: Lewis

It was at least two times that night, and stop changing the subject :)

To: Lewis

I'm really not. It's the same thing.

From: Lewis

I know

From: Lewis

Man, where did all our bravery go?

To: Lewis

We left it on track sometime in late 2010's :)

From: Lewis

You might be right there

From: Lewis

Fuck we're old

Seb chuckles, because Lewis is both right and wrong. Being on top of the world in your early twenties screwed them both up in some fundamental way, and with both of them being overachievers and determined to win, their perception of the world and their age was impossibly skewered. Seb knows he is going to have to re-evaluate what he wants to do in his life again really soon, but that was a conversation for another time, and to be made in person. Another text from Lewis pulls him out of his thoughts.

From: Lewis

What will you do now?

Seb sighs for god-knows which time and scratches his beard. He should shave soon; he has that video-conference with Aston Martin on Wednesday, and he should look less like a hobo and more like a professional who has his life together. I should look less like a lovesick fool, he thinks and then rolls his eyes at his own propensity for dramatics.

To: Lewis

I have no idea. You?

Lewis' reply makes Seb bark out a laugh.

From: Lewis

Get a bloody muffin. Feelings are exhausting

To: Lewis

Yeah. Maybe we shouldn't talk about them then :)

Lewis doesn't reply, and Seb takes that as a sign that his friend is as tired as he is of the emotional turmoil they've both been going through. It's probably for the best. Seb needs to sleep some more, his body rebelling against even the little exertion he's had today.

He puts his phone on the table and lays on the couch. Maybe the universe will be merciful to him today, and he won't dream of heart-breaking eyes and French-accented voice speaking to him in terrible German.

[effervescentdragon]

i am going to shower love on u here too. cope.

i think you're the greatest ever n i think we should hold hands and never let go (until someone's palm gets sweaty) and we should walk around a city somewhere n do silly shit that makes us happy. i also think that the universe keeping us on different sides of the earth is by design bc we're simply too powerful together. also i love you lots and lots and lots and i am hugging you SO tight <33

happy birthday from this fella and me <33333

12/10 for the fella's stache and 12000000000000/10 for you i refuse to cry this early 💜 i think a rooftop and lemonade is the way sooner or later. i love you

[effervescentdragon]

[effervescentdragon]

hot take. you and i are always right about everything ever

absolutely perfect 12/10 we just gotta remember it next year when we and our respective special boys find ourselves in the red ferrari hell amd the urge to go down conspiracy lane is as strong as the hold the church had on everyone in the 12th century