#n when ive hooked up w ppl i don’t know it’s just not right like ive had good sex but im just not fully there and anxious

[graevs666]

i wish i was normal w affection and intimacy like i do crave it now and then but it also feels so alien, uncomfy and sometimes scary

[thepringlesofblood]

Casting My Opinions Into The Void: d20′s Neverafter ep 1+2

this is the first d20 campaign im going to be following live and i am excited enough to do a lil post each week or so about it. mostly bc recycling and adapting and retelling and retranslating old stories that “everyone knows” is my whole shit. like i got a degree in the study of ancient greek and roman civilization (classics). my whole thing is reading old myths and plays that “everyone knows” how they go and seeing what each author/translator brings to the table.

anyway i watched episodes 1 n 2 and i am excited and my observations are below

(like if you were really into the Sisters Grimm series as a kid and are similarly excited for this lol the modernized fairytale characters in that series are literally called “Everafters” and its because it’s really good shorthand for the audience. i see you brennan i see you)

normally ppl who do the whole ‘dark/horror/thriller fairytale’ thing fuck it up bc they think it’s about the shock value, or about seeing how nasty you can get with it, so I usually avoid them, but after bingewatching a kadrillion d20 campaigns, I trust brennan to do it right. you have to find the core value/crux of what is horrifying about the story and tease it out, and play with the symbolism and icons of the original story to reflect that. and brennan fuckin delivered.

ep 1

folks, give a hand to the people who put detailed yet non-spoilery content warnings in the description. tbh dropout shows are setting the standard for sensitivity and inclusion in media. it’s so lovely to see a show w content warnings or pronouns put up onscreen and it just not be addressed. i am forever spoiled for any other kind of media tbh

at some point in the past, brennan found out he could make a really good realistic choking/gagging noise, and he has used it in every campaign since.

i appreciate the ‘scare off the meek early’ approach of it all.

th. the briars. the concept. the dead princes - UGH good backstory yall

i very much like the idea of becoming a ranger out of necessity, and because plants obey you on account of that whole feeding-on-your-blood thing

puss in boots using ‘pib’ as a nickname instead. of ‘puss’ or ‘boots’ - inspired

also zac is using his ‘smart little shit’ voice like he did w lapin and i am v excited.

look ill say it - the little red hen did nothing wrong and thats on that. i read that one when i was very little, it was on electric company or sesame st or between the lions, and i’ve always liked it.

so......anyone see how mother goose’s husband has the last name hubbard? like old mother hubbard lol

also there really is a Jack in so many stories, i’m glad we’re addressing this. little shit gets up to so much trouble

it feels like I have seen so many tired rewritings of little red riding hood, even though I can’t think of any off the top of my head. it’s usually a sort of surface-deep ‘girl power!’ situation. i’ve never seen one like this. i LOVE it. it was terrifying. the fact that we all just sort of accept ‘barbarian’ as a normal dnd class is kind of wild tbh, i like exploring that rage and its source.

Ep 2

saying the actual nursery rhyme in the context of being the nursery rhyme is so powerful. i fully didn’t understand what was happening to nat king cole (v powerful) until he was gone.

also, herr drosselmeyer - fantastic get. you have to talk about the sugar plum fairy at some point and they already went in hard on her in acoc so i love that they were like you know what, it’s weird uncle time.

(context: herr drosselmeyer is clara’s eccentric uncle with a bunch of automatons and he gives her the nutcracker)

also every production ive seen has his drip immaculate. 

my gender is this man’s cloak

Murph is the fucking ball again

“Please tell me how you’re a monster too so I don’t feel so alone” - Jesus Christ Emily Axford

Almost getting distracted by a bird instead of picking up v obvious plot hooks: pt 2

cinderella.......dude

Brennan really looked at K’s finale scene from mismag and went “how DID the mice get lithium?”

The POV of the mice - simplifying it makes it sound ridiculous, but if you really dig into the idea of the mice as sentient beings it’s horrifying.

Dude the symbolism…stepmother eating her kids bc they were always either a tool or an obstacle to her, of course they would be a sacrifice to her hunger for power.

i’ve always liked endings that have the stepsisters reconciling w cinderella bc in the end they were also victims of abuse and it wasn’t the same or the same degree of abuse as cinderella but they were still constantly on thin ice

can you tell that i rewatched d20 live recently and sobbed at adaine and aelwyn’s ending?

Cinderella stabbing the fairy godmother with the broken heel of the shoe that symbolizes both the ending she was meant for and the life that she was forced into. Turning that into glass armor. dude.

The pumpkin carriage rotting bc the fairy godmother is trying to make the happily ever after stay exactly how it is forever but nature decays and time passes and she can’t acknowledge that without realizing both that her role is in the story is over and not only does cinderella not need her anymore, cinderella doesn’t want her anymore, and maybe never wanted her in the first place. 

When puss in boots was asked what he wanted in life and he just said ‘to be comfortable’ #relatable like I know all this is gonna end with him realizing the value of love and friendship over material goods and I 100% agree with that but i feel like this goal or some variation of it are v common today and not often addressed in stories like this

Pinocchio swearing - 10/10. Also how the fuck is Lou doing a Pinocchio voice that perfectly straddles the line between hilarious and annoying. It’s ridiculous enough to always be funny, but sustainable and varied enough that it doesn’t grate on you.

i think we’re getting into “all the princesses in all the stories are all sisters” territory and i for one am THRILLED

"mirror, mirror.......leaned up against the wall”

we learn in this adventuring party that the OG concept for lou’s pinocchio is that he snapped off his nose so he would be able to lie, which is AMAZING. i fully did not put that together.

i am v excited for this battle, and v terrified.

[kiicn-blog]

did you hear about the monaco trip? it’s legendary at ucla. KIAN KANG is going, i’m so jealous. their instagram makes it seem like they’re pretty dynamic and they’re all about “do what you do best” & texts left on read. can you believe they’re only twenty-three and they’re going on a free trip to monaco for the summer? hopefully they don’t let their aloof side show too much on the trip. • HAS FIVE SIBLINGS • BROKE UP WITH PARTNER OF THREE YEARS TWO MONTHS AGO

uh henlo, quick intro before i disappear for the evening and write my second paper :( you won't see me till like tuesday :(( afternoon :( after class :(( anyways LMAO i'm aye ! i am twenty three :/ she/her pronouns and in the est timezone ! if u haven't already added me, add me on discord new girl could be the 1 for me#8402 , some of u added me and didnt come say hi so i hOPE after u read this u hit me up :( bc . i rly dont kno who is who tht added me JKFMGDSG dont be shy i do not bite :DDD

okay ima keep this fairly simple, let's start w stats ! 

full name: kian kang, no middle name, call him kk haha nickname(s): kiki, k, ki, do not call him ian he won't ever talk to you again, respect his vegan white ass name age: 23. date of birth: november 2nd 1995. hometown: new york, new york. ethnicity: korean. gender: cis male. sexuality: bisexual. hair colour: black. eye colour: brown. height: 5'11. tattoos: has a tattoo of a lion on his right index finger and a tiny heart behind his left ear. piercings: ears, three on the right, two on the left.

okay quick background ! im not gna write a lot and keep it brief bc ive been writing for school and my brain is DEAD i dnt have the mindset to go into depth bout anything but if u wnna know anything else just ask 

kian comes from a well off background like his mom ? a sugar DADDY ! like his dad married into MONEY !

they live in greenwich village in NYC n tht area is so expensive so u can say he had a nice upbringing, went to the best school

anyways ! quick family talk, his dad rly didn't love his mom , and rly only married for money and security and when kian was born he wanted kian to have all the things and opportunities in life that he didnt so he stayed w his mom

n his dad ? gay as FUCK kept tht hidden for god knows how long

it wasnt till kian was like 15 when he was like o ? father thoust r gay huh

yeah so tht marriage ended LMAO and kian wasnt rly happy that his family broke up

at the wedding when they asked does anyone object ? he stood up and said ME bitch but he was joking but he wasnt joking he was serious , u can say hes .. happy .

he has two siblings, they're still babies, twins, they're like 12 thats baby ok he loves his siblings theyre annoying but loves them ! assuming the other three are gna be from the step sibling plot xoxo i can alter this

ok here's a rundown on  kian now

kian , is a very blunt individual like he can be straightforward about a lot of stuff, he doesnt rly sugarcoat his words, it's just how he was raised

sometimes he can come off mean but like it's just.. how he talks and sometimes he doesn't realize what he says is wrong he just says it like this man has never been told to shut up,

he was always favored in school for the way he talked but sometimes tht warranted eyebrows raising left and right but he was still adored for his stupidity and lack of sense

he's an alright kid , can be nice when he wants to be , gentle soul once u rly get past whatever walls he put up

like he doesn't like to show that side as often unless u LOVES u but i feel like he should have air signs in him ..hmm.. will think bout it KFMDG

what am i missing ..

i feel like i missing something,

oh comign from n y of c he's super into looking good, even when he bums it down he looks good, he'll also call u out on ur choices and be like ur wearing tht ? today ? yikes...

if u want an honest opinion he's not afraid to be honest , v brutal xoxo

i think thts it

anyways PLOTS

so. . this is a possible plot ! and im gna base it off the song 'the wall' by anders if u wanna go take a listen teehee anyways, imagine this . it's all lovey dovey for a year and it was going well like over the moon relationship like you almost think these two would have gotten married but then after the year mark, things began to go down the drain? they started to hang out less, fights would break out, sex that would follow the fights but like that's it.. tht was the only intimacy, and sometimes they'd pretend they're okay for a day or two but then have a complete fit over like idk the wrong food order, cheating speculations could have arose and then they really really tried to make it right their third year, trying to go over what went wrong but then they decided to call it quits BUUtt since it's a fresh wound, they could have some slip ups if ukno what i meaaan anyways yeah if u wnna do this xoxo pls be prepared to plot back FKDG

a possible familial relation, like cousin . only cousin really, obv ur chara would have to be korean or half korean but someone who just knows kian inside and out this could be like an angsty familial relationship or a good one

ok another anders based plot ! listen to don't call :)) anyways this one, sometime after his break up he decided to have a few hook ups here and there, meaningless ofc but this specific hook up left a mark on him , maybe by the way they talked to him , he kept coming back for the four second intimacy, it left him confused n dazed , confused bc why am i feelin weird i just had a heartbreak

honestly im just down if anyone just wants to have a simple hook up plot thts cool too no thinking just lmk ! bc he's had a few after his breakup

enemies / ppl who don't get along ? idk kian could have come off COMPLETELY wrong and ur chara could have taken it the wrong way, insults were thrown here and there and they just don't talk with kindness

a sugar baby ! kian got MONEY ! i told u his mom ? a sugar daddy xoxo he doesnt mind spoiling ppl but only one he aint tht generous also u have to build a relationship with him if u want him to spoil u

uh thts it if u have any other plots just lmk xoxo we dont have to just do these

[xz017]

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oof. okay so imma do the latest tea???

got out of shower to hear my mum talkin to Agnes spillin the tea abt their friend/coworker

the one with that Kid my mum wanted to have a playdate with or whatever the annoyingly studious and clearskinned halfasian lookin girl i really envied.

her mum has a live in boyfriend who is basically like...an alcoholic mental case rip god i hate alcohol and i hate people who drink it like i only do it so i hate myself more and die but like this guy basically playin with knives n guns in the house and the kid who is like 19 idk why im callin her kid is so Over it like apparently she hasn’t been coming home and like

basically me in 2016 era when my mum was too generous n Helpful lettin ppl back into our lives and our House so i spent christmas morning 5am walkin in the cold n watchin 3 films until it got dark and stuff like that

girl be actin homeless---mood

so it came to a head today so Agnes is spillin the tea n her husband in the bg(omg it weird hearin him rip he was my military hs instructor wild) n my mUM is so selfrighteous n mad like

‘blablahblah well rosalie is being dumb she should put her daughter first she being sick in the head it her Choice’

n im like eavesdroppin havin warflashbacks of the dumb hypocrisy she has DOne lmao

‘has she no thought like what if Tyler gets raped/sexually abused by that man she’d let her daughter be in that environment???’

i mean it wouldnt be fair of me to be like...eyemoji on this cos she technically doesn’t know? but 19 may 2018 never4get lmao

anyway so my mum’s like our room is for rent and it’ll be far cheaper they dont even have to pay rn!!!

cue me being like...um...Money...generosity...i dont...LIke

i was conflicted here like idk i met the girl like 3-5 times im envious of her work ethic n her better asian disposition than mine cos she obviously prettier but she has better prospects and that’d suck if her life be like that

but also??? like...life be like that it was like that to me like who saved me????????????????????? 

um...no one

like why is that on me or US TO BE NICE n helpful im so tired like damn which is relevant to the next point anyway

cos earlier had a convo with my mum i was eyemojing healthcare profs i was like ‘pls stop bein on ye phone pls tell me info on ye opinion on respiratory therapists...what abt PA’

n deadass she be eyemojing me like STICK TO YOUR COURSE

n i was like...-ugly pleadin emoji eyes- n i was tryin to explain that i didn’t want to be so focused on one thing that if i decide this medical thing is what i want to pursue i’d need 1-2 years just for the PREREQS which is like 5 classes and 1000 clinical hours or minimum 6 month healthcare paid job. like if i decide i want to go to school for that i already have the Stuff and just Apply.

n she was like...you had your chance i bothered you to be a nurse a few years ago you were stubborn if you did as i said you’d be earning good money now but you wasted time

n i was like...oof i can’t say anything to that it’s tru. it real life tea it fax i wasted time n im old n im ruunnin out of time i hate myself alot i hate hate hate

and idk we got to talkin abt money n life cos she was like you have to find something you can learn to LOve

n i was like??? WHY I GOTTA SETTLE N FOOL MYSELF TO DO SO im super annoyed abt that mindset

cos the thing about a bloody Arts degree is there’s too fuckin many broad possibilities n they all aint even that good. like deadass if i was a STEM major ugh like if i was a Bio major prospects are so clear: forensics, research, premed,labtech. Meanwhile polsci for example: uhhh teacher? prelaw? politician? uhhh government work? n there’s like 111 different subdivisions of that n it’s like??? wat the fuck

deadass what am i gonna do with international security is that even gonna pay well like...the fuck do i know is it relevant ??? Doubts

n she was all like...PEOPLE JUST GOTTA DO WHAT THEY HAVE TO TO SURVIVE YOU GOTTA FIND YOURS N STICK WITH IT

n i was lowkey panique n frustrated cos i really REALLY hate being stuck in 1 ting n im like i HAD ACTING YOU SAID NO

n she was like pFF i wanted you to have something REAL cos if you dont make it in acting you’d be on the STREETS

n i was like...lmao lil did she know imma be on the streets next year smh this year actually

n she was like talkin abt the harsh reality of the workforce and how you gotta make do at how ppl treat you (patients) n how you might not even like your coworkers but you gotta deal with it because that’s what ppl do to survive

n she was talkin abt undeserving patients with no healthcare n i was like did you just hear yourself so you want them to die cos they dont got money and she was like 

no??? why get hooked up in the ICU when you’re braindead wasting government money taxes we payed for you don’t understand cos you dont have a job and dont get your salary cut cos of taxes and these people come in acting like they got something to give when they yell at your face acting like they know what they’re talking about they act entitled when they have nothing homeless ppl getting money and illegal immigrants are selfish bringing their kids to be hurt here

n im like...theyre life is ...shitty what are you talkin about n she was like so? why dont they stay and make it better??? one of my very first patients asked me why i was in america and i said i come from a poor country and they said why didn’t you stay and try to make it better? and i couldn’t say anything cos u know what they were right why dont illegal immigrants do that??? n im like...

cos theyre literally...RUNNIN and they want ppl they care abt i.e. children to be far away from that as soon as possible bruh ye think imma wait for change deadass there a reason why we suffer duterte he actually get shit done??? we dont have to wait for change the same way ppl who speak nice n are polite do but is stuck with bureaucracy and lowkey bein corrupt deadass stay in ye lane

n she’s like well i hope you’re right im done bein an idealist im a realist now i believed in good i wanted to help the world now no more

n im like...no you’re not a realist, you’ve just been hangin out with a republican

and she gave me a sideeye 

but deadass im ...scared like i really hate the empathy because when she was being serious n talkin n being honest abt things for once i started to unwillingly see things from her point of view i really felt it n i was scared i’ll be like that im scared she’s right

im scared i’ll end up Real n selfish like...i already am ? n bitter? like i care about so very few Personally and am willin to let others suffer to keep it safe n prioritised?

im scared.

like especially with racism all these years my mum’s been telling me it’s not that im racist just wait til you work with them they act so entitles and loud and make everything about race

n i almost told Her abt it earlier i skyped w her earlier we had a tea spillin moment about our ethnic relations bein racist but then idk we talked alot i guess the text got buried or unseen

like i said i was scared n didn’t get to unpack it like im scared because ive been livin with my roomate and like...ive been excusing it as a personality thing and that if it were anyone else different skin colour id still hate them just the same which i still maintain is true but like?

my RM is loud n she makes everything abt race like deadass me n my FM be just eating dinner and she passes by us and goes on a rant about harvard asians being a Blok to black ppl from getting There n im like...im tryna have dinner so i can get energy to deal with this stressful ass school

n she always talks like she knows what she’s talking about like ‘jewish ppl control the federal bank’ n im like...it 1am in the dark quiet of our shared room deadass i dont wanna tell the binch thats antisemitism cos she gonna be like im black how can i be racist smh

im!!! scared alright like i hate my roomate for proving my mum right when i try so hard to set things right like maybe that’s why i dont tell anyone about my situation other than Her. i never told my parents about the berkeley livin situation they already warn me enough to be careful n i just keep tellin them thats racist

i have so much........THOUGHTS n........DILEMMAS...n FEARS but like i just have this blog i cant trust anyone else to talk abt it n the only person i am willing to talk to abt it will be busy and im so ashamed abt these things but she was so sweet about givin me the heads up about her schedule 

like i hated that i had to get an ugly ass haircut today cos she came back to me n we couldve talked so i guess rip she was complacent n did stuff cos she replied late from then on like that dumbass haircut was 15 minutes ugh. our talkin pattern today was like...dashed lines timereply wise? i asked her if she packed earlier (pre haircut)n she said yes but rip a few hours later she was like...I need to pack 

wat is the truth rip

the tablet bein emo like...mood but my child rip.

my love be packin n spendin time with fam before leavin for london tomorrow

n even after that she doin...Stuff. rip.

which is ye know good for her rip.

i just hope she dont go iceskatin deadass one slip n she can crack her head open or break her neck or paralyse her spine like...??? why do humans wanna do dumb activities

like omg she admitted to me today she a serial jaywalker and WORSE with music n headphones like

binch thats why i didnt wanna enable you further by gettin ye airpods deadass bye

n she was like??? tryna equate it with my risky risk like ummm

mine is for science n validity

hers is just carelessness n chosin lazy convenience over idk...the responsibility of self vigilance like...

bruh ppl shouldnt promise someone 91 years if they be continuin to do dumb stuff consciously oof rip

but other than that like...im...really proud of this resolution she be undertakin officially on the 14th?

im nervous abt it cos i really want it for her too. i want her to get the proper sleep n i always hated her givin excuses like ‘IM FINE ON 4 HOURS OF SLEEP’ ‘I NAPPED 3 HOURS 38293820 HOURS AGO IM FINE I MADE UP FOR IT’ um...blokt. get proper sleep binch i love you tf???

prioritise work cos ye gonna regret not givin it yer all??? n ye payin for this???

what fun??? we capitalists now we want that money rip.

i see that shift you know rip i saw it comin a year ago.

that dont mean we republicans rip we still care about others n the inequality? but like i foresaw us getting acquainted with the harsh reality of the world n how difficult it is to get a job--which she experienced along the way.

n rip she wants many things bookmarkin them n honestly same rip

i want a stable warm home for this family n a shiny diamond to get disassociated by extra im a simple man

meanin im selfish n im ready to prioritise meanin im ready to make the choice for others to fall apart/behind if it means puttin This first rip

god pls dont make me a republican this so ugly

# 1 she’d hate me #2 i’d hate me

now im sad

im dead.

omg rip earlier too as she said goodbye i told her i loved her and she was like ‘i love you more’

DEADASS I WAS LIKE LMAO!!! girL i dont think you understand im literally Ready to put you and our possible future First like...im not messin around what skitrips with rich ppl what friends my love is potent n extreme n COncentrated like im sorry ik you feel love for me but you cant top This rip she not ready 

like the um ‘partially wanna make my life’s work abt knowin what might hurt n kill ye so i can kill it first or blok it well’ kinda love

the ‘im already savin for at least HALF a first month deposit in an overpriced london in case you wanna settle down wit me Mayhaps n im not touching it for ANYTHING’ kinda love

the ‘im thinking of a winter home in the tropics so you suffer less n im plannin the floorplans already rip just in case’ kinda extraness

but anyways the gall of this cute lovely human rip ‘i love you more’ ummm try Again smh

bruh i love her too much i bet that’s scary for her rip it might be a Burden tbh she so young rip 

meanwhile im old n ready to rot but like...

i wanna be mortal wit ye before i do

but ye know wat lads i saw myself in the mirror today like 5 times OOF. this meatform...keepin me...Humble. 

bitter but like...humble

‘like of course sHe not ready not only is my personality like dis but also...my outward form how could she introduce me as a Spouse’

‘wow i look like that oof it good i remembered i am undeservin of full intense love like in the films n fanfiction they always between attractive ppl after all it only 1/2 it not Equal’

‘wow bruh ye really upset she spendin time n resources elsewhere when you be lookin like That? ye dont have much to offer bro take the L’

oof so that’s the personal tea i can think of?

had a meghan marke talk rip i can’t believe i was right??? i had twin vibes!!! but i was hoping for like a variety situation rip im worried a lil abt the whole birthin Late ting but she can afford the highest care rip it fine she rich.

my love was talkin abt how pretty MM was n i was like rip is she triggerin Her a lil rip worrirooni

rip speakin of babies like she was showin me this smol gummybear n im like same das me heart n she was like :( n i was like it only fits you

n she was like so no children then:(

n i was like!!! rip if it Ours of course that Counts n i was a lil shook like rip she said she didn’t want them Really so i always get guilty when i talk abt the future or realise i mentioned kids or carelessly name drop Hyaline n Benzion like...im dead rn just typin that like what if she read this big shame bro

but ye know what this is already long n she gonna be busy maybe that’s the key. TOo Much puts ppl OFF so ye mayhaps we sneaky ! ?

anyway i was tryin to get her thoughts on it rip but like she was all iDK ASK ME IN 13 Yrs n i was like...

sighemoji + sandemoji + resignedemoji

rip we talked FAaC a lil. cos she Dared!!! to liken me to her brother just cos i showed her my cheap youth boy shoes smh

At first i was super offended n disgusted but then i was like rip eyemoji if ye into that

then she was like ew nO

then i was like um ye already play the ‘daddy u like me young huh’ card

which is like idk is like technically? joking but it’s like that post ye know abt ppl bein ‘whether or not im actually jokin or flirtin depends if you into it’ but also like schrodingers racism like ‘it was a joke bro!!!’ but they actually bigots.

so it DIFFICULT for my brain to Confirm rip like...eyemoji what is the truth

but like??? im rip. willin. rip. to. rip. Try. rip.?

really i am rip. it Her. bruh. im only hopin she dont have a golden shower kink but. trust i...Will follow thru.

nO IM REMEMBERIN THE DOO DOO POST DESPAIR

rip anyway that whole thing reminded me of FAaC origins which was porn n then somehow sHe was like imagine if egggsy was a singer he’d sing like ‘age is just a number’ shit n i SPILLED THE TEA ABOUT A TING IN PT 3 im so weak sand

i miss the gays

i wanna give them justice n happiness but the 2027 excuse is rl nice for my ugly procrastination issues oof but i wish them well

add: rip had another talk with my mum i really wanted her to understand my thought process about wanting to get the prereqs for medtraining done beforehand

n she was like...I UNderstand but Normal people--

n i was like ‘IM NOT NORMAL I DONT KNOW HOW TO CHOOSE I HAVE NO IDENTITY’

n she’s just like SHOOKE n mad n clearly dont understand that im fukt up in the head ‘...IC AN’T BELIEVE YOU!!! iF YOU’RE ABNORMAL YOU WONT GET HIRED N YOU WONT HAVE A NICE JOB’

n im like...well i mean what can i say to that it’s not like it’s not tru rip

Big sand honestly.

it gonna be a long few days imma do my best to leave her alone she needs her time rip i love her so much rip sand

i feel like a dumb ugly dog god fljækadfkøad h8

[chocosvt]

Hey Choco! I was just wondering if you ever feel a lack of motivation for writing? Currently I have so many ideas for stories I want to write but I'm just so bad at following through.I've just found so many inspiring creators on Tumblr especially you!!That have encouraged me to want to provide something to the community and not doing that just makes me fall down into sad ville (T_T) Regardless I hope your keeping well + staying healthy.Love always (•^_^•) - bad spelling.(Sorry for being weird?!)

hi!!!

let me stop u right there. I EXPERIENCE A LACK OF MOTIVATION EVERY DAY BC I PROCRASTINATE 2 A POINT WHERE I DONT EVEN WANNA DO THE THING I WAS ORIGINALLY HYPED FOR. (n tysm i never imagined being a creator ppl would look up 2 u know im rly just a casual speck!!) but yes!! im pickin up what ure putting down my pal bc inspiration can come from so many things!! it’s like a tree n her roots/branches. u have the main premises of the story n all these little details tht build up the hook n the climax n the suspension n the list goes on. the primary struggle is tht these ideas tend to build up and coalesce into this big mass of w o r k tht makes it difficult for a writer 2 separate just one idea n translate it to words. u just wanna open the document n have the whole thing already typed.

my biggest fault is tht i don’t “strike while the iron is hot”. when i get inspired i solely think of new plot lines instead of finishing projects ive already started (which results in a culmination of stress bc why so many unfinished documents) n then i waste all my inspo on these ideas n realize wow u essentially did fucjing nothing gr8 job u big idiot. so my advice would be, once u get an idea n the itch to elaborate on it is consistent, THEN JUST WRITE. OPEN THE DOCUMENT N LET UR FINGERS DO AS THEY PLEASE, EVEN IF IT’S NOT THE GR8EST. it’s important 2 not override urself with all these story lines, but more or so focus on the ones ure most excited for. dont force anything, just be ready for when tht inspo strikes bc it’s ur biggest ally.

[dangoghz]

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i kinda forgot who tagged me in this but it might’ve been my love @cyxical toe and if not IM SO SORRY BAB I LY EITHER WAY

the last 1. drink: water 2. phone call: i literally don’t call ppl except for my mom djjd 3. text message: toe in the aes dnp gc: “yeah that’s dumb :/” 4. song you listened to: the beekeeper'a daughter by american rejects 5. last time you cried: when i watched a slowed down version of dan curling phils hair (in the time lapse part) 6. dated someone twice: i haven’t dated someone period 7. kissed someone and regretted it: never kissed someone peRIOD 8. been cheated on: my nutella cheated on me w my knife :’( lost someone special: my great grandma :( 10. been depressed: im pretty sure ive been a bit depressed my whole life but it’s all good it’s not that bad and i handle it quite well on my own !! 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: ive never gotten drunk periOD bc im a Smart Child favorite colors dusty pink, #ester green, and mustard yellow in the last year have you 15. made new friends: yes all of my lovely internet friendsies i would die for them 16. fallen out of love: ive nEVER BEEN in love 17. laughed until you cried: probably but i can’t pinpoint an example 18. found out someone was talking about you: yupfhhfh 19. met someone who changed you: ye i guess so bc people change people always 20. found out who your friends are: not irl yet but imma try rlly hard to do it this year 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: refer to question 7 general 22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: i don’t hav a facebook djdj 24. do you want to change your name: maybe my last name bc it’s not pretty but i don’t know what to 25. what did you do for your last birthday: i had a sleepover w some irl friends ! 26. what time did you wake up: around 7:00 bc my ireland group had to catch a ferry 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: i was writing in my journal about how happy i was :’) 28. name something you can’t wait for: meeting @eucalyptusdan and @sharkdan on august 3rd 😫 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 2 wks ago in the airport, i miss her n my dad :(( 30. what are you listening to right now: birds sqwking outside DUBLIN IS L OUD 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: probably but i don’t remember it 32. something that is getting on your nerves: the bIRDS 33. most visited website: have u heard of tunvgllr dodot corm 34. hair color: dirty blonde/light brown/what the heck 35. long or short hair: medium length 36. do you have a crush on someone: idk man idk 37. what do you like about yourself: i am funny and smart Occasionally, my fashion sense is decent 39. blood type: triple AAA battery bc im electrifying ⚡️🌶😜 (no i actually have no idea) 40. nickname: est, easter by my stubborn friend @phansterdam 41. relationship status: im dating my nutella jar again 42. zodiac: virgo binch (chinese: horse) 43. pronouns: she/her 44. favorite tv show: long ago. the four nations lived in har- 45. tattoos: im only 14 so i can’t get any but i kinda want two lil simple hearts on opposite sides of my torso when im older (get it like lovehandles hehee) 46. right or left handed: right 47. surgery: do braces count dhjd 48. sport: lol what’s that 49. vacation: japan n greece both sound beautiful 50. pair of trainers: wtf r those more general eating: me n a roommate just ate some cookies and popcorn, which i then proceeded to promptly spill all over the floor (but then we just ate it off the floor so it’s all good) 52. drinking: my SALIVA MAN 53. i’m about to: ponder how im going home in a day and i don’t want to 54. waiting for: we r getting brunch tomorrow FINALLY WE’VE BEEN EATING CEREAL FOR BREAKFAST LITERALLY THR WHOLE TRIP 55. want: to talk to someone all night 56. get married: only if m truly in love 57. career: art something w art it has tomb art which is better hugs or kisses: i love both !!!!
59. lips or eyes: lips bc eyes sometimes creep me out if i think too much ab them 60. shorter or taller: taller 61. older or younger: if this is relationship wise same age would be preferable 62. nice arms or nice stomach: i don’t care much as long as their face is cute 63. hook up or relationship: relationship bithcb 64. troublemaker or hesitant: idk if this is ab me or what i want in a person,,,, me both and i would want both … vers have you ever 65. kissed a stranger: REFER TO QUESTION SEV- 66. drank hard liquor: no ty 67. lost glasses/contact lenses: im in like my tenth ?? pair ?? ive lost or broken at least six of those 68. turned someone down: well i mean recently me pal danni told me she liked me but i didn’t like her back so i told her that but it’s all good we r still as tight as we were before ! 69. sex on the first date: no ty 70. broken someone’s heart: hope not 71. had your heart broken: not really and if so it’s my own fault for not telling ppl when i like them 72. been arrested: no im pee yoor 73. cried when someone died: no 74. fallen for a friend: mmaybe do you believe in 75. yourself: occasionally 76. miracles: idk man how r we lowly creatures supposed to know 77. love at first sight: attraction? sure, but the deep selflessness and care that love actually is? absolutely not 78. santa claus: fun fact i actually never did hdhdjdj i just told my parents when i was little that i did so i would get more presents 79. kiss on the first date: depends on how it goes obvs 80. angels: HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW <b>other</b> 81. eye color: lightish brown 82. favorite movie: totoro it’s always been totoro 83. lust or love: both preferably ??!!!! 84. favorite item of clothing: a black super comfy stretchy ballerina top 85. favorite song: the louvre by lorde

i tag @pityhowell @punkgoesphan @purepastelphan @phantastic-dan @phiru @philscurls @phan-you-not @philester @philfreckles @phursonas !!! 🍦💞

[rosiests-remade]

tagged by @srrybabe! thank u avaaaa Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 ppl LAST... Drink: water

Phone call: i don’t even know when the last time i made a phone call was tbh

Text message: it was to my mom lolol

Song you listened to: supercut by lorde

Time you cried: uhhh like an hour ago

HAVE YOU…

Dated someone twice: no

Kissed someone and regretted it: no

Been cheated on: no

Lost someone special: yeah

Been depressed: the real question is when am i not depressed

Gotten drunk and thrown up: no (fun fact: i’m scared of alcohol bc i’m scared of throwing up)

Made new friends: yeah 

Fallen out of love: no

Laughed until you cried: yes

Found out someone was talking about you: no but i’m constantly paranoid abt it

Met someone who changed you: definitely Found out who your friends are: yeah lol it wasn’t fun tho

Kissed someone from your Facebook list: no

Kissed a stranger: no

Drank hard liquor: no

Lost glasses/contact lenses: yes  Turned someone down: yeah skjdngkjng

Sex on the first date: no and also that sounds?? terrifying Broken someone’s heart: idk??? i hope not

Had your heart broken: yeah and it was 0/10 would not recommend

Been arrested: no

Cried when someone died: yeah

Fallen for a friend: YES AND ITS HTE WORST. -9/10.

Kissed on the first date: no

GENERAL

List 3 favorite colors: pastel yellow, dusty rose, light blue

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: i don’t have facebook so none i guess 

Do you have any pets: a dog n two cats 

Do you want to change your name: i’d change my first name which is kinda lame imo but i like lizzie 

What time did you wake up: seven i think

What were you watching at midnight last night: probably a “yesterday i asked you” video that i’ve already seen 10 times Name something you can’t wait for: my anxiety dying in a hole

When was the last time you saw your mom: earlier tonight What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish my anxiety would die in a hole

What are you listening to right now: los angeles by the bird and the bee

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i think so

Something that is getting on your nerves right now: i’m exhausted but i’m on the verge of an anxiety attack and i’m angery at my brain for it Most visited website: tungblr dot com most likely

Mole/s: no

Mark/s: i have some cat scratches on my leg and some bruises on my arm and knees does that count 

Childhood dream: i wanted to be a judge on american idol but now that show is dead so that dream is crushed >:( i also rlly wanted to be a service dog trainer

Do you have a crush on someone: yeah and i wish i didn’t 

What do you like about yourself: i’m nice and i can be kinda funny sometimes

Piercings: i just have my earlobes pierced (the hole is still there even tho i havent worn earrings in over a month sjdkgn)

Blood type: idk??? 

Nickname: lizzie is a nickname. i don’t have any nicknames other than that :( Relationship status: single (thankfully)

Zodiac: aquarius

Pronouns: she/her n they/them are cool 

Favorite TV show: the only shows i watch are twin peaks and saved by the bell interchangeably. also any competition show on food network.

Tattoos: none (0)

Right or left hand: ambi but i write w my right hand

Surgery: none

Hair dyed in different color: nope Sport: what is sport

Vacation: idk what this is asking. yes ive been on vacation.  Pair of trainers: i have some black/white nikes 

Current and all-time best friend name: my pets’ names (daisy, darcy, scout)

Eye color: ugly

Favorite movie: i hav a lot but 1996 romeo + juliet is good. WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or kisses: hugs!!!!!! i love hugs so much

Lips or eyes: eyes

Shorter or taller: taller (i’m only 5′2 binch) 

Nice arms or stomach: a nice personality :)

Sensitive or loud: hmm. i’m more sensitive but i think loud can be good?

Hook up or relationship: relationship Troublemaker or hesitant: idk honestly both can be good 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

Yourself: depends on my mood honestly

Miracles: i guess? i mean. the princess diaries had that really cool song about miracles.

Love at first sight: not rlly 

Santa Claus: no :/ i tag anyone who wants to do this! u can say i tagged u.

[peachyhyvck]

…SHOULD WE KNOW US A LITTLE BETTER TAG…

tagged by @sunny-feeling-9 thanks babe (’:

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 ppl…

THE LAST: 1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: my brother called me and asked me to drop some stuff off at his friend’s house for him 3. Text message: I just pulled in! (to my mama) 4. Song you listened to: Young Dumb & Broke - Khalid

5. Time you cried: last night because I was watching a really sad youtube vid (Idk why???)

6. Dated someone twice: kinda? I mean we broke up for 3 hours then got back together... so idk if that counts or not.... 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: sadly, yeah //: 8. Been cheated on: nope (knock on wood......) 9. Lost someone special: my great grandma passed away when I was 9... that was fucking hard.... 10. Been depressed: when am I not 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah I don't drink 

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14: blue, black & grey

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yep! 16. Fallen out of love: nope 17. Laughed until you cried: pretty much every time I laugh 18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah, my damn coworker !!! 19. Met someone who changed you: indeed (’: 20. Found out who your friends are: pretty much an ongoing thing for the past 3 years,,, 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: do my parents count ???

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: almost all of them 23. Do you have any pets: I have a dog (a Boston Terrier) named Buddy!

24. Do you want to change your name: nah, i'm good. I like my name! 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: spent the day at softball practice and celebrated with my family 26. What time did you wake up: 12pm oops 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: probably scrolling through Tumblr and listening to music 28. Name something you can’t wait for: my anxiety to calm the fuck down and let me be at peace for like,, a second (’: 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: literally 10 mins ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: not being lazy/stop procrastinating 31. What are you listening right now: Summer 127 - NCT 127 !!!! 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: omg yes and he’s the biggest fuckboy I've ever met.... 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: myself lmao 34. Most visited Website: tumblr and youtube 35. Elementary: finished 36. High School: gonna be a senior yo 37. College: jfc dont even talk about college to me rn 38. Haircolor: naturally dark brown but I've gotten blonde highlights and I think I'm gonna get more whoop whoop 39. Long or short hair: long (I look like an egg with short hair) 40. Do you have a crush on someone: does my bias count? 41. What do you like about yourself: my sense of humor, my ability to give good advice/make people feel better, and my caring/loving nature (’: 42. Piercings: my ears are pierced 43. Bloodtype: I'm actually not sure...?  44. Nickname: ali, al, aya, ayaboo, ayabee, aligal, aligirl, aligator, etc. 45. Relationship status: singleee 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: law & order: svu, king of queens, Chicago PD, golden girls, etc 49. Tattoos: none but I definitely want some in the future!

50. Right or left: right 51. Surgery: I got my tonsils and adenoids removed when I was in first grade 52. Piercing: didn't I just answer this ?? 53. Sport: softball/baseball 55. Vacation: South Korea or Italy 56. Pair of trainers: air jordans (I stole them from my brother lol)

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: W A T E R M E L O N !!!!!

58. Drinking: water, milk or apple snapple 59. I’m about to: try and get some of my damn requests done 61. Waiting for: me to stop stressing over every little thing in life and take a damn breath 62. Want: to be genuinely happy and stress-free 63. Get married: hopefully by mid to late twenties 64. Career: as of now I'm a hostess, but my dream job is to be a behavioral analyst (criminal profiler) for the FBI !!!

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: I'm a sucker for skinship so why not both (’: 66. Lips or eyes: well, I love a pretty smile, but if your eyes draw me in, I'm done for... so imma go with eyes 67. Shorter or taller: probs taller 68. Older or younger: hmmm older? tbh I don't really care about age. If I like ya, I like ya 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: honestly I could care less. I look at personality rather than appearance 71. Sensitive or loud: I'm gonna say both 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship, hands down 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: urrrr both, again?

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: nope 75. Drank hard liquor: Ive had champagne, but not hard liquor 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yeah... 77. Turned someone down: yeah... a few different times.... and it makes me feel so bad omg 78. Sex in the first date: woah no thank you 79. Broken someones heart: I sure hope not ?? 80. Had your heart broken: at the time I thought so... but no lmao 81. Been arrested: no, thank god 82. Cried when someone died: yeah )’: 83. Fallen for a friend: yes... AND I STRONGLY ADVISE AGAINST IT !!!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: at times.... but it’s a work in progress 85. Miracles: yeah, sure? 86. Love at first sight: ehh no 87. Santa Claus: ho ho no see what I did there (; 88. Kiss in the first date: sure, go ahead and lay one on me 89. Angels: very much so, yes (’:

OTHER: 90. Current best friends name: Aubrey and Adriana

91. Eyecolor: get ready... they’re mostly green, a little brown, with a grey rim on the outside, and on some days theres even a little bit of yellow in there, as well !!! 92. Favorite movie: oh god I have too many... if I had to pick one, probably Bad Boys 2 YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT IT’S SO DAMN FUNNY 

I’m tagging: @houseofvmin @rook-10 @jae-yoonie @mystic-astro-trash @b00mingsystem @chittaporno @thereisnofuckingreason @secretlymadeoutofcups @nctreacting @markhyuck-is-real-af @smoltaek

if you've already done this, or just don't want to, then ignore this and sorry for bothering you !!!

[syua]

92 qs tag + 30 qs tag!

tagged by @soonsyoung and @y0ungmins for each of these !!!! thank u

/first game/

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people (its?? not?? 92 questions??? lol)

THE LAST:

drink: bai peach juice

phone call: idr probably my mom?

text message: i’m about to leave home & have dinner with ryan downtown

song you listened to: uhhhh ive been listening to youtube videos all day but maybe vibrato by stellar

time you cried: uhh i think i cried out of pain when i came home from getting my wisdom teeth out friday or if not i def cried cos my sunburn hurt so much like a week ago

date someone twice: no

kissed someone and regretted it: ehhhgfhghhhh 

been cheated on: i mean not that i’m aware of but that’s not always something ur made aware of u know.

lost someone special: lost like died? no but if like lost contact then yes lol

been depressed: yes son

gotten drunk and thrown up: no ive never thrown up from alcohol hhhaha 

LIST 3 COLOURS

12. yellow

13. pink

14. black

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. made friends: ummmm closeish lasting irl friends? no…

16. fallen out of love: thats uh

17. laughed until you cried: i can’t remember a particular time but probs lol??

18. found out someone was talking about you: not that i can think of? no one knows me they wouldn’t have anything to say lol

19. met someone who changed you: guess nottt

20. found out who your friends are: ?? not to repeat myself but i don’t have any

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: i don’t haaave one

GENERAL:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: again lol don’t have one

23. do you have any pets: a dog (ginny) & a cat (phoebe)

24. do you want to change your name: yeah i never liked my name i always wanted to be named austin???

25. what did you do for your last birthday: umm took a final moved out of my dorm and bought myself chinese takeout

26. what time did you wake up: 1pm

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: i think i was just laying in bed watching buzzfeed unsolved over and over

28. name something you can’t wait for: when my mouth doesn’t HURT 24/7 and i can chew anything

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like 3 hours ago

30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish i didn’t give up art after high school & i actually tried to get into art schools?

31. what are you listening to right now: still youtube in the background

32. have you ever talked to a person named Tom: uhmmm i think

33. something that is getting on your nerves: everything really

34. most visited website: tumblr or youtube

35-37. well these questions dont exist apparently

38. hair color: blonde

39. long or short hair: longg i wish my hair was longer rn

40. do you have a crush on someone: i guesss

41. what do you like about yourself: ?

42. piercings: just one in each ear but i want more

43. blood type: noo idea

44. nickname: none

45. relationship status: single

46. Zodiac: taurus

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: game of thrones BUT i haven’t watched the start of s7 yet so shhh

49. tattoos: none but im trying to get one if i can get my shit together before school

50. right or left handed: right

51. surgery: wisdom teeth just friday like i mentioned;;

52. piercing: u already asssked

53. sport: none man

54. vacation: ?last vacation favorite vacation??? i just went to st augustine florida w my family but my best trip ever was suzhou/shanghai/beijing at the beginning of the summer

55. pair of trainers: what about them??? i never wear sneakers

MORE GENERAL:

56. eating: nothinnn the last thing i had was ice cream since that’s 50% of my diet in the last week (the other 50% is mac n cheese)

57. drinking: water

58. I’m about to: maybe sleep lol

59. waiting for: once again just until im not in pain

60. want to: literally nothing just lay in bed

61. get married: probabbbly

62. career: ?? art director or maybe something like front of house manager in a theatre or something in film production or ui eng

WHICH IS BETTER:

63. hugs or kisses: hugs

64. lips or eyes: eyes

65. shorter or taller: tall but most ppl are taller than me lol

66. older or younger: uhhh i guess either as long as it’s within a couple years of me, tho since im 18 right now i guess not younger. i guess for guys it would always be older but i. dont think i want to date guys

67. nice arms or nice stomach: well for ME i have neither and i would prefer to magically gain a nice stomach so

68. hook up or relationship: relationship

69. troublemaker or hesitant: ??? i don’t like loud annoying people so hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

70. kissed a stranger: no

71. drank hard liquor: yes

72. lost glasses/contact lenses: no ive never had them lol

73. turned someone down: yes

74. sex on the first date: excuse u im 12

75. broken someone’s hear: i don’t think so ive never been the one doing the breaking up so

76. had your heart broken: i dunno that’s a strong phrase

77. been arrested: nope

78. cried when someone died: not that i remember

79. fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. yourself: ehhhhhhghfhhhhh

81. miracles: no

82. love at first sight: it’s a strong no from me

83. santa claus: i wysh

84. kiss on the first date: sure

85. angels: no

86-89. there were no questions asked…

OTHER:

90. current best friend’s name: current What

91. eye color: blue green

92. favorite movie: the fall or only god forgives

/neeeext game/

Rules: answer 30 questions then tag 20 blogs you would like to know better.

1. Nicknames: noneee

2. Gender: female

3. Star sign: taurus

4. Height: 5'1″ / 157cm

5. Time: 7:37pm

6. Birthday: may 4

7. Favorite Bands/Groups: uhhm for kpop it’s svt, omg, loona, wjsn, etc... english it’s brand new, bad suns, stop light observations

8. Favorite solo artists: suran, heize, dean, childish gambino, hyuna, bruno mars

9. Song stuck in my head: vibrato by stellar 

10. Last movie watched: uhhhh i think i watched like half of the grand budapest hotel lol

11. Last show watched: game of thrones (tho once again not the 7th season yet lol)

12. When did i create my blog: this acct is just about to be a year old but my first one was from probably summer 2012 or 11

13. What do I post: nothin exciting, kpop + whatever pictures i like

14. Last thing googled: “red velvet red flavor” idr what i was looking for tho lol??

15. Do you have other blogs?:  too manyyy orz

16. Do you get asks?: yahuhh some

17. Why did u choose your url?: i just wanted smth short like i was surprised this wasn’t taken less than a year ago hhhu

18. Following: ~120

19. Followers: an amount;;

20. Favorite colors: yelloooow, pink, black, plus lately i like red more

21. Average hours of sleep: in the summer like 12-14 a day ha

22. Lucky number: 27

23. Instruments: nooone

24. What am I wearing: tshirt and boxers the only thing i ever wear

25. How many blankets I sleep with: just 1 comforter (+ the fan on tho)

26. Dream job: answered in the other game^^

27. Dream trip: baaack to suzhou

28. Favorite food(s): steak, shrimp, mac n cheese, red velvet cake, smoothies

29. Nationality:  american

30. Favorite song now: uhhh i’ve been listening to 1+1=0 by suran and that’s what i like by bruno mars a lot. all time favs r wishing well by blink 182, jude law and a semester abroad by brand new, and shark attack by grouplove

okiee that’s more than u ever wanted to know about me!!! tagging anyone who read this far cause this was really far so u yes u i tag u

[noecat]

88 qn tag meme

thank u 2 the lovely @jiminieboi for tag!!

holy shit this was long,,listen i tag no one but my wife @wingjk bc im literally too lazy to breathe rn

the last:

1. DRINK: passionfruit red tea. it was too sweet i wish i’d gone w green but that’s too sour,,,,honestly a representation of my personality as a whole

2. PHONE CALL: school friend who was wondering where i was

3. TEXT MESSAGE: if messenger counts, @wingjk bc i was going to sleep

4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: come back home by bts

5. THE TIME YOU CRIED: i don’t recall!! perhaps a couple weeks ago?

have you:

6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: don’t call me out like this

7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: not really? i dont regret many things

8. BEEN CHEATED ON: ha

9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: yes

10. BEEN DEPRESSED: listen

11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: i don’t get drunk

top 3 favorite colors

12. black

13. pink

14. in your area

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: yes and i love them

16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE:  L I S T E N

17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: rarely, but yes!!

18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: yall. assholes. love to gossip. and i love finding out about it so it’s a mutually beneficial thing

19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: doesn’t everyone change me to some degree?? yes, though i do think a lot of the char dev ive undergone was internally motivated and not bc of a specific person,,,i just want to treat people better.

20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: yes and i Love Them

21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: ppft no who the fuck even facebooks in the year 2k17,,,tho,, @wingjk​ hmu ;(

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: none

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: a kitten !! listen he’s an asshole but i love him

24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: as in legally?? i wish!! hopefully soon

25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOU LAST BIRTHDAY: ha ha dont talk to me

26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: i overslept today bc my sleeping schedule is,,,,,very good,,,,,,,,,,,

27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: readin fanfic rip

28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: hobi. wheres. ur. mixtape. where. also MY BDAY IS IN LESS THAN A MONTH !!! LOVE ME !!!!!!

29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: uhm yesterday

30. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: listen,

31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: the sweet sound of everyone being loud as fuc

32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: i dont think so ??

33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: people breathing around me

lost questions

34. MOLE(S): ya

35. MARK(S): scars ?? i fell into a ditch once and i still have the scars from that,,also depression isnt ideal

36. CHILDHOOD DREAM: to be a lawyer

37. HAIR COLOR: brown but im gna bleach it someday

38. LONG OR SHORT HAIR:  short-ish

39. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: not romantically but i am currently interested in someone, yeees

40. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: sometimes the planets alighn just right and i say something quotable that im proud of

41. PIERCINGS: that havent healed completely already ? 2, in my ears

42. BLOODTYPE: red

43. NICKNAME(S): q, ‘that asshole’, kyu

44. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: not looking

45. ZODIAC: leo

46. PRONOUNS: im agender. i strongly prefer it/its for Reasons but some of yall fucks take offense bc ‘but u are not an object!!’ and like. listen. if u think that using ‘they/them’, which i do not want to be called, is somehow more respectful to my identity ???  ? ?  ? i dont rly have much to say. in spaces where people are less tolerant and presentation overrides id, i go by she/hers.

47. FAVOURITE TV SHOW: i dont watch them anymore but ill always have a special spot in my heart for hannibal and my earliest experiences w bbc sherlock (ahahah can u believe i used to be a sh blog tho)

48. TATTOOS: not yet!! i want to get mine right the first time

49. RIGHT OR LEFT HAND: technically ambidextrous but ive been using my right hand for so long (bc u dont rly realize how inconvenient literally everything is w left hand until u try it skdfjgfg) that it’s now my dominant one

50. SURGERY: yes, but minor

51. HAIR DYED A DIFFERENT COLOR: nop but ive shaved it all off once

52. SPORT: used to sail, used to kayak, now i possess no skills. i actually ish i did have a sport i play regularly, but, i am a Lazy Fuck,

53. VACATION: aksdjfd i dont rmbr !! i travelled a lot when i was young. now we just go to neighboring countries over breaks sometimes.

54. PAIR OF TRAINERS: not converse low, that’s 4 sure

MORE GENERAL

55. EATING: nothing, but hopefully about to

56. DRINKING: nothing, but hopefully about to

57. I’M ABOUT TO: eat, drink, go home

58. WAITING FOR: senpai to answer my anon ask. senpai pls. senpai im dying here i only get wifi sporadically for like 10 min at a time senpai plsease

59. WANT:  see hoseok irl someday, to not fail my year end exams, to have a good future after this. if we’re going wildly unrealistic, give me financial stability and the power to play piano proficiently.

60. GET MARRIED: honestly i think this would depend on where i am in life, where my partner(s) is/are in life, and what we want out of our relationship (plus, my generation supposedly killed marriage, so)

61. CAREER: listen i used to want to be a lawyer real bad before i grew up and realized im a fuckign depressed idiot who cant do shit so now im just hoping for some kind of stable job that i wont hate,,,,,,i lean towards the social sciences, and they’re what im best at, but my fucking dumb ass is currenly taking natural sciences instead because ????? no fuckin clue, past me, what the fuck,

62. HUGS OR KISSES: i dont like hugs much, so kisses. though i do like to cuddle ??? i think ??? theoretically ???? normally i just dont let ppl touch me

63. LIPS OR EYES: lips

64. SHORTER OR TALLER: couldn’t care less but theres smth hot abt someone being taller than me (unrelated news kuroo is 187cm holy shit fuck T O W E R O V E R M E)

65. OLDER OR YOUNGER: as in ?? romantically ?? to be friends with ?? if it’s the former, almost definitely older. for the latter, i prefer older, but personality matters more than age does.

66. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: dont care. tho if u have arms that could snap my neck, 

67. SENSITIVE OR LOUD: as in me ?? listen im both. im both. but if we’re talking partners, i imagine kuroo is plenty loud, so that,

68. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: listen i dont care as long as it’s enjoyable and mutually beneficial

69. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: hm

have your ever:

70. KISSED A STRANGER: nop

71. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: nop

72. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: yes, but found them

73. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: ya!!

74. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: nop

75. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: not intentionally ??

76. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: : l i s t e n

77. BEEN ARRESTED: nop im a good upstanding citizen

78. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: as in irl ?? i dont think so

79. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: hm, no, i,

do you believe in:

80. YOURSELF:  ya im great. im a piece of shit but *insert trash can not trash cannot meme*

81. MIRACLES: nah

82. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: nah

83. SANTA CLAUS: nah. attraction, maybe

84. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: do what u want !! 

85. ANGELS: @wingjk is one so i can confirm

86. CURRENT BEST FRIENDS NAME(S): van, iv, jess are u a best friend or am i reading u wrong, id say drea but she’s my soulmate, id say nastya but she’s my wife and will complain i friendzoned her

other

87. EYE COLOUR: greenish

88. FAVOURITE MOVIE: casino royale !!! also all the ghibli things were my childhood

[likespidey]

ty ironcaptains!! ur a babe

i tag hahwkeye, damnreys, lieutenantsteverogers, spideypooly, and anyone else who wants to!!

this long as hell lmao rip

my last:

1.  drink: lemonade bc happy summer yitches 2. phone call: my fave thai food place lmao 3. text message: one of my best friends 4. song you listened to: make it to me - sam smith (i forgot how talented he is w o w anyway) 5. time you cried: like three days ago bc it was my first time closing my work by myself and i had no idea what i was doing and i was sO frustrated 

have you ever:

6. dated someone twice: never dated anyone sO 7. kissed someone and regretted it: i don’t think ive ever regretted it 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: yep 10. been depressed: maybe? never figured that out but im v good now 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nope

favorite colors:

12. to wear: black blue and red

13. in general: purple or green

14. lip stick: i never really wear it im more of a tinted chapstick type of hoe

in the last year have you:

15. made new friends: yep! 16. fallen out of love: yee 17. laughed until you cried: yeah good timez 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah but it wasnt really anything bad? 19. met someone who changed you: yeah!  20. found out who your friends are: ehh still working on that 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: yeah general:

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: everyone except the like ~50 people i’ve friended bc we’re gonna go to college together next year so i haven’t met them yet 23. do you have any pets: yes my dog tucker hes a rescue and the literal love of my life 24. do you want to change your name: my real name is elizabeth but i’d really like to officially change it to liza bc everyone calls me that anyway 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went to an art store w my madre and then got dinner w friends (and became an adult lmao oops) 26. what time did you wake up: 10ish bc no work god bless 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: doodling 28. name something you can’t wait for: COLLEGE i want to leave tomo 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: like 20 mins ago 31. what are you listening to right now: sam smith 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i dont think so?? maybe? 33. something that is getting on your nerves: work and my demonic sister 34. most visited website: tumblr facebook or cbs? or m school website

35. hair colour: blondish

36. long or short hair: medium

37. do you have a crush on someone: yes rip but only lowkey 38. what do you like about yourself: i am funny on the occasion. also i have long eyelashes lmao

39. piercings: two on each earlobe (getting a cartilage soon tho!!)

40. blood type: bruh idk man 41. nickname: liza i guess? bc its not my actual name 42. relationship status: single 43. zodiac: aries n v v proud about it 44. pronouns: she/her 45. favourite tv show: right now prob big brother but the office and it’s always sunny save me 46. tattoos: nope but maybe one day! 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery:  i got my appendix out in 3rd grade that was wild 49. piercing: 50. sport: ROWING i have a passion for obscure white ppl sports 51. vacation: i came back from hawaii a couple weeks ago it was wonderful 52. pair of trainers: i have a pair of white vans that i wear almost all the time and then also those black vans w the white stripe are my #2s

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: i just ate teriyaki chicken (if u live in SF or NY go to glaze teriyaki it is an experienceTM 54. drinking: lemonade 55. i’m about to: get my ass 2 bed!! 56. waiting for: college fucc

57. want: a more lit summer 58. get married: ehhhgdkf idk may prob but deffffff not anytime soon 59. career: i want to be a marine ecologist!! and do work in costa rica bc best country in the world sorry not sorry i will fight you on this

which is better?:

60. hugs or kisses: hugz 61. lips or eyes: lips 62. shorter or taller: taller 63. older or younger: older 64. nice arms or nice stomach: stomach 65. hook up or relationship: hook up oopz 66. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker i guess???

have you ever:

67. kissed a stranger: no 68. drank hard liquor: yeah 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: nope

70. turned someone down: yep 71. sex on the first date: nah 72. broken someone’s heart: i think so 73. had your heart broken: yeah 74. been arrested: nope 75. cried when someone died: yeah 76. fallen for a friend: yep yep yep rip me!

do you believe in:

77. yourself: occasionally 78. miracles: sure 79. love at first sight: maybe? 80. santa claus: i wish 81. kiss on the first date: yes y not 82. angels: not atm

other:

83. current best friend’s name: meredith 84. eye colour: blu 85. favourite movie: b r u h idk may either homecoming or civil war (sorry not sorry i know what i said) but besides marvel the to do list is AMAZING and hilarious 2o3et4959234/10 would recommend

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all the valentine questions ;))

im only doing this because its you

1: Do you have a crush at the moment?yes on my gf beeb 2: Have you ever been deeply in love?i am right now oops 3: Longest relationship you’ve ever been in?almost a year4: Have you ever changed for someone?i have bpd fuck u think 5: How is your relationship with your ex?its alright we dont talk much but she’s nice 6: Have you ever been cheated on?no7: Have you ever cheated?no !!! never will8: Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating?probably not im wayyyyy too paranoid for that 9: What’s the most important part of a relationship?its cliche but its true so trust n communication. n not fucking abusing each other oh my GOD10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?ive only been in one serious relationship n i plan on keeping it so. the first one 11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on “breaks”?maybe??? i probably wouldn’t be able to if i went on a beak w someone and they started like seeing other people and then wanted to come back like nar 12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?none ! 13: What’s one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?being too clingy 14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?i mean. technically when they’re ready. but like as long as they’re educated and safe and doing it w someone their age ig15: Do you believe in the phrase “age is just a number”? yea as in if ur old u dont have to let it hold u back from doing fun things like climbing a fuckin mountain but NOT WITH SEX AND RELATIONSHIPS fuck no date someone in yr own age range. at least if ur a fucking child. if ur an adult do what u want just don’t date children 16: Do you believe in “love at first sight”?i have no idea 17: Do you believe it’s possible to fall in love on the internet?i did ? so yes 18: What do you consider a deal breaker?if they’re. smelly n mean19: How do you know it’s time to end a relationship?when theyre not talking to you w the same spark as they used to and they’re always making you feel useless and clingy. when ur the only thing holding it together 20: Are you currently in a relationship?yes !!21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?maybe ? very much depends 22: Do you think people should date their friends?its honestly none of my business. like. i did. but if u break up it might be a lot harder because you are really close n have a bond23: How many relationships have you had?224: Do you think love can last forever?yes!! the lil cute old ppl who are still in love that’s who i wanna be25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?no but i wont get into that26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of?no ??? thats rlly not their place 27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?breathe. take it easy n stop worrying all the time 28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?yes but they’re so so so hard :;:((29: What do you notice first about another person?their voice?? their hands n their eyes30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?this is v binary but im pan !31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?not at all im literally a mess if they can deal with me i can deal w them 32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?no33: Do you want to get married one day?some day in a long time maybe. but im a child of DIVORCE ok im v cynical about marriage 34: What do you think about getting your partner’s name tattooed?don’t do it idc how long u think ur gonna be together stop it35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?im in a ldr. yes36: Are you still a virgin?yea37: What’s more important: Looks or personality?personality!! but im not gonna sit here n say looks aren’t important like u have seen my girlfriend a true 10 38: Do you enjoy love films?there are films i appreciate more but ill watch them39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?no40: Have you ever had a valentine?i mean. kinda 41: What’s your imagination of a “perfect date”?DOING NOTHING 42: Have you ever read “Romeo & Juliet”?no i watched the leonardo dicaprio one though43: What’s more important: Your partner or your friends?go away. BOTH44: Would you consider yourself “romantic”?im a Pisces i eat that shit up45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?no46: Have you ever been “friendzoned”?no also its not real 47: Which “famous couple” is your favorite?barack and michelle obama. idc. iconic. 48: What’s your favorite love song?the first song that came to mind was love at first sight by the brobecks HFJDJNC so i guess that 49: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?i hope not 50: If you’re single, why do you think you are?not51: Would you rather date someone who’s rich but a douchebag or someone who’s poor but a nice guy?poor but nice wtf ??? unless its my sugar daddy n he’s dying anyway id just. u know 52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?i hope i am,,,,,because i give a lot of it53: Are you jealous of couples when you’re single?when i was yes54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on Facebook)?not at all. but like if u want. but that’s not the actual way to make it official,,,, fuckin youths 55: Would you consider yourself “clingy”, “overly attached” or “jealous”?ALL OF THE ABOVE56: Have you ever “destroyed” a relationship?probably 57: Do you think it’s silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?no but dont do it though 58: Are you the “dominant” or the “submissive” part in a relationship?,,,,,dominant. in all the matters am i right ladies 59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner’s birthday or your anniversary?i dont think so 60: What’s your opinion on open relationships?do what u gotta do 61: Who’s more important: Your partner or your family?my family is literally A SHIT so right now id rather spend some time w my girl62: How do you define “cheating”?everything from talking romantically/sexually w someone else to fucking them. flirting counts boo63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?HFJDJFN OF COURSE NOT 64: Do you think Valentine’s Day is overrated?a little. but its cute 65: Would you consider yourself a “cuddler”?i cuddle everything n everyone i wish i was cuddling right now