#n then i rlly just have a lot of worries abt that but yk thinking abt how if i was actually alone then i don't think i cld've rlly made it

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Shivers quivers shakes trembles…. Hello :3 giggles I think this ask will be shorter than my others but… yk how we talked about how sugu would react to u getting cheated on a while ago? I’m curious now and. How do u think satoru would react?? ALSOOO how do you think stsg would react if you told them together……….. i hope u don’t mind that this is a less of a “me telling u my thoughts” and more of a “what r ur thoughts on this” kinda thing :,3 brain juice has not been flowing recently 😞 but ur takes are always amazing so…………….. I know whatever u say will be yummy and I will devour it all >:) — stsg anon 🧁🥧🍰🍨🍩🍪🍧🧇🥞 < all of the treats for yew!!!!!

me when stsg anon appears in my inbox

FIRST OF ALLLLL pls never ever apologize for your asks 🔫 this is a threat 🔫🔫 i love chatting w you no matter how long/short they r!!! and you don’t ever have to feel pressured to come up w your own thoughts either!!!! i love yapping at you!!!!! :3

w that being said ….. i shall yap >:3 HONESTLY THOUGHH i think stsg are very similar when it comes to this concept!!! in the sense that. i think they’ll comfort you first and foremost, then deal w your cheater ex later. i could see satoru being in Actual Disbelief? like?? he almost almost asks if you’re joking. but you’re crying so?? obviously you’re not????? but the idea that anyone would cheat on you genuinely makes him Flabbergasted. he wants to laugh. he doesn’t but he wants to. he hates seeing you sad. he’s almost offended.

it’s just a mess of emotion n lots and LOTS of hate aimed toward your ex 😭😭 he’s like. no fucking way that loser cheated on you???? it’s obvious that he’s rlly pissed but i think he has enough control over his emotions that it sounds like he’s just making jokes to cheer you up. and he IS but he also feels so????? genuinely angry?????? and he doesn’t know how to deal w that. he’s worried abt comforting you too…… i don’t think satoru sees himself as someone who’s good at comforting others At All but he actually kinda is. he’ll hug you tightly and sit down on the couch w you in his lap. and he stays quiet until you’ve calmed down. then he starts a very passionate, hateful rant abt your ex in hopes of making you laugh/calming himself down…… and if he manages to pull a lil smile out of you he just goes 🥺 . you’re his baby. he doesn’t really know how to treat you when you get this fragile but it also makes him feel so complete somehow. this man lives for cheering you up.

ANYWAYYYY satoru will then do the same thing as sugu would <333 which is <33333 to confront your ex. tbh i think suguru is more likely to get violent than he is LMAO but i doubt either of them would (unless your ex said something Awful abt you in front of them in which case… good luck bud)…. he just wants to make it Very Clear that your ex has no business being in your life anymore. he’s very firm and very scary. if your ex tries to start something he will laugh in their face. might also subtly declare himself as your boyfriend…. not explicitly bc. he’s Not your bf. but i think he makes sure your ex understands that he loves you + he’s better than them + they can forget abt crawling back to you once they realize the mistake they’ve made.

and when it comes to stsg together……. i think. the only difference is that one of them will stay to soothe you while the other one instantly goes to confront your ex 😭😭 they’re saving time!!! and let’s be honest, suguru will be the one staying behind. the caretaker of all time. (even tho he really really wants to tell your ex off himself… but that can wait for now). so satoru runs off, suguru makes sure you get the tears out, and then satoru comes back w a bunch of your favorite treats :3 they’re sweetiepies.

i also feel like they’d have a talk together once you’re asleep… likeee maybe you’re all sleeping in the same room bc you’re still very very upset and in need of comfort :((((( and as soon as you start to snooze they talk…… abt you……. and abt how soon they should start hinting to you abt their Own feelings. satoru would want to do so immediately, bc he can’t Stand the idea of you being hung up on your ex while they love you so fervently, but suguru would convince him to be patient. he doesn’t want them to end up rushing you in any way…. but deep down he also wants you to know how loved you are by them. sniffle.

plot twist you’re still wide awake :3 and blushing furiously :33 but that’s another story…..

[pendwelling]

Etta.. (에타는 idk how the eng name is so I'll just go by the mtl..) when christelle first saw her she was like "omg so beautiful.. not as pretty as prince Jesse tho" and when we got cedrics POV to sum it up he looked at her n was like "boring" like LMFAOO BRUTAL THEY LOVE YESEO SM UR HONOR??? and the scene where christelle was like "yea ik u don't like being touched ok but just tolerate it!! imagine it's someone you like ok!! like her Majesty or her highness" but then ETTA TRIED TO KISS CEDRIC??? I haven't even finished the chapter yet but when I read it I was like what!! bc my guy isn't doing anything and he's definitely not imagining his mom or godmother.. a certain brunett idk who has purple or brown eyes idk idk might've came to mind but idk could just be me idk he was probably thinking abt christelle or smthing hahaha!!! and I love the blatant refusal Cedric and christelle currently have at calling each other partners despite yeseo's past insistence.. instead they'll only refer to each other as "my partner's partner." Maybe I'm just being mad delusional but yk what.. I'm gonna embrace it.... yeseo style

ANYWAYS THANKS FOR ALWAYS READING MY TANGENTS IT FEELS SO NICE TO JUST HAVE A PLACE TO PUT THESE JDBSBSB ALSO DW ABT RESPONDING... I RLLY AM CLUTTERING UR INBOX SO IF U EVER JUST WANT ME TO STOP SAY THE WORD I WILL DISAPPEAR LIKE JESSE DID IN THE TEMPLE OF VIGILANCE 🗡️🗡️

Omg the way Chris refers to Yeseo sometimes really warms my heart because she really does adore him dearly :')) She compliments him a lot and I melt whenever she calls him "our/my palace lord" and other titles with possessives attached!!! I just really love seeing Yeseo be loved by his friends 😭😭💕 (CÉDRIC YOU SHOULD LEARN FROM HER MORE TSKKKKK)

ALSO YES OMG LMFAOOOOO CEDCHRIS REFUSING TO CALL EACH OTHER AS ANYTHING BUT "MY PARTNER'S PARTNER" ALWAYS MAKES ME LAUGH HAHAHHAJDJAH THE DENIAL IS AS STRONG AS YESEO THINKING THE SHIP IS STILL AFLOAT

Oh and never worry about cluttering my inbox!!!!!!! I really enjoy it haha, as always it never fails to make me happy seeing people scream about TWSB :') (though I might be slow on responding because out of all platforms tmblr is the one i check the least obsessively wkdjdkdkd but i do hop in every once in a while for sure!)

((ALSO THE REFERENCE TO JESSE'S TIME AT THE TEMPLE IM IN TEARS THAT WAS FOUL OF U TO SAY WKTNIRKFNEKDLLDK))

[appreciatingtokrev]

my excuse of invading ur inbox today is to tell u abt my tr ocs 😁😁 and we will be discussing three of them today!! (mind u i havent thought abt these kids since like end of last year so bare w me if there are any blanks left)

OK SO first oc’s name is haitani reiko. if u havent already noticed she is in fact a haitani 😭 her nickname is sleeping beauty bcuz for abt like 2-4 years she’d been in a coma n shit but during a battle the haitani brothers were in against another gang she had woken up 🤯 and as the good bros they are they immediately left the battle to see their sister. so its kind of a given that theyre a bit overprotective of their lil sis. but she doesnt like how her whole identity in the gang world is being the younger sister of the haitani brothers so she wants to go out n kinda create her own identity yk? she isnt rlly a fighter but she joins a few minor gangs to get her name around. and i dont rlly think im gonna write her in anything rn cuz her character is rlly weak. but here is an old fanart i did of her :3 (i do have a picrew of her that i’ll show u at the end of this ask <3)

next is i think my fav child, futamo aisume<3333 im not even gonna lie he was kind of a self insert oc but i still love him 😭 hez written as shion’s child hood best friend, having the nickname “the great’s shadow” so hez kind of the side guy that patches up shion when hez injured, but he can still fight. he was in tenjiku w shion but once they were defeated shion kinda just left him behind (also cuz he went to jail lol) so idk prob wakasa took in futamo and brought him into brahman. hez got a similar kind of loyalty as sanzu to mikey and koko n inui and hez rlly blunt. the black cat to shion’s golden retriever imo<333

and last but not least there’s takumi! ngl i kinda just doodled him a bit in an old notebook but i loveddddd him. hez basically just bonten’s bartender, the guy who deals with everyone’s worries n someone they all trust to vent to a lot. sometimes all of bonten go to visit him at once but most of the time they all just go for a quick drink by themselves. takumi’s closest to maybe ran ig? ran’s a bit of a flirt to everyone so hez naturally like that when he meets takumi, and like takumi was kinda just like this is kinda funny, i like this guy. so he kind of matches ran’s energy at a subtle level. i wanna say takumi is an ex gang member from like a different region but when he moved to tokyo and started looking for a job, he had his connections from the past that led him to bonten.

so yeah! a bit messy kinda made some stuff up on the spot but those r my ocs<3333 love them all v much and i miss them so much my ocs era was good. so so good. but here are their designs :3 (in order of reiko, aisume and takumi)

taku you don’t need any excuses to talk to me <3 (actually nobody does i’d be happy if i got an anon ask that says ‘hi’ n nothing else tbh) but you especially don’t need one okok. but yes ocs!! 👁

ngl i love reiko’s nickname you’d assume that she’s like. idk pretty and always tired or smth idk but the actual meaning behind it is so much better...

no no no self inserts are cool >:( don’t talk him down like that adhjgdhf

honestly i have. not rlly any other thoughts 😭😭 but but but so far i really like your little guys (especially aisume-) they are. they make my brain go brr kinda but like just vibes and feelings no thoughts. idk. but i like them a lot yes yes

also. picrews <3

[m1ckeyb3rry]

SHINAH SO REAL bring my man back….

I’m ngl I fully forgot Lorenzo existed errrrr but yeah there’s the purple eye rep..!! Wait you know what kinda confuses me is Nanase’s aura….his name means rainbow so I was assuming it’d be rainbow but it’s some sort of blueish white? Maybe it’s a reference to how when all the colors come together they make white but anyways….considering his name they could’ve made his eye color a little more interesting but whatever I guess

I’ll be waiting LMAO just thinking of the ideas makes me want more beach day esque side quest shenanigans between the characters!!

Hoping this last match helps boost their rankings a lot because just looking at it right now the rankings do NOT seem accurate LOL

FIC INFLATION REAL my perception of length has been so thrown off these past months

LMAOOO imagine 60k kiyora fic /j quite literally would be carrying the entire tag on your blog HAHA

Imagine you did convert to gagamaruism though that would lowk be really funny

HE WHO SHALL NOT BE NAMED omg…ok but I get it some edits are fire and are way too good at converting….lowk I think a tabieita edit was what pushed me into tabieitaism….it’s ok you got cleansed by other edits you’re in the clear for now o7 ok but wait drop the edits?? If you still have them saved LOL

FRRR WAIT STOP THE OTOYA IDEA IS FIRE??? Otoya getting trained into a gentleman and y/n becoming a heartbreaker bitch LOLL Its funny because we keep discussing ideas for people being wingmen for other characters LMAOOO atp it should just be the wingmen series

Also BAROUUUUUUU>>>>>> ok his little moments where he’s eating or has his hair down doing some sort of wind down/cool down routine>>>> if u20 Barou doesn’t get a glow up the Ubers match one fs will….but manifesting s2 glow up for Barou!!!

- Karasu anon

shinah…hak…kija…bring my boyfriends back to me 😭 honestly the author of yona of the dawn ATE w the character designs!! like even though all of the dragons were a certain color they still felt interesting?? maybe it’s the eyes like kija + zeno i think having the blue, shinah’s being absolutely gorgeous, and jaeha’s being purple iirc

LMAOAAO lorenzo is always in the back of my mind bro is such a phenomenon…for some reason i pictured him having brown hair and brownish reddish eyes?? and i haven’t seen many colorings of him so ig i never realized he has my fav color palette 😓 maybe it’s time for me to convert to loreonzoism /j also i didn’t know that abt nanase!! that’s def annoying that they made him knockoff isagi when there was the potential for smth cool 😭

hopefully after the nel arc we will get more downtime and fun ☝🏻 and next req should be up shortly!! like within the next three hours i think 😏

i’ve done it to myself too tbh 😭 consistently writing 100-200k word fics has made me view anything less than 100k as short…like unless it breaks 100k i won’t even consider it a true long fic!! i need to write smth that massive for bllk though 😵‍💫 hollyhock might make it but that one will be slow going because it’s a lot of external work to write 😩 peregrine i don’t think is going to be that long though 😓 i think if i do undertake a rlly long fic like that it’ll have to be for one of my absolute favs (so nagi karasu barou) or else i won’t have the motivation to finish it

HAHAHAA bfb kiyora’s version fr except he doesn’t have any sisters…i’m trying to think of what trope i want for him 🤔 i have some vague ideas but we’ll see what sticks!! i’m actually more worried abt karasu FJDKKS i’ve written sm for him that coming up with something different might be a struggle…what if i pick zantetsu for that req instead /hj

YUP IT WAS HE WHO MUST NOT BE NAMED!! although technically reo mikage would’ve fit in the censor too LMAOAOA but yk i’d never censor reo…only an itoshi bro could get that reaction from me 😫 and yes i saved all of the ones that cleansed me hold on i’ll post them here

barou edit

otoya + aiku edit

nagi edit 1 and nagi edit 2

third nagi edit that i just thought was really funny

not the edit i was referring to in that post because i didn’t save that BUT the edit of rin that made me post abt bllk on tumblr for the first time and get convinced to watch it by my mutual

the amt of saved edits i have is crazy 😭 mostly karasu and nagi ones but there’s more than a few otoya reo and barou ones in there 🤩 plus a couple of sae and rin ones that i couldn’t help but save

THE OTOYA IDEA HAS ME CACKLING especially if i do like a split perspective thing with it?? omg i’m just envision a line like “you had a crush on eita otoya, which meant you had to go to the one man on campus even worse than him: oliver aiku” and it’s all dramatic for the reader meanwhile aiku thinks it’s SOO funny that someone like her likes OTOYA (and conversely karasu and yukimiya think otoya is trying to be a gentleman to manipulate the reader better so they’re like “fuck no we’re not helping” but then they realize he’s serious so they lock in and do their best to help him)

barou…barou…barou…i think my 50 reblogs of my own post sum up my thoughts atm very well 😭 omg wait is BAROU my third rewatch man 🤔⁉️ that’s crazy if so but lowkey no complaints 🤤 the best part abt liking nagi and barou is i KNOW they’re not going anywhere for a while because they’re two of isagi’s main rivals + episode nagi is literally right there 🤩 so lots and lots of content coming for them (although lowkey epinagi artist does barou dirty at some points i fear…rn their hard work is going solely into nagi and karasu though so i get it)

[thekidsarentalright]

holy shit i meant to send this way earlier and then this week got rlly chaotic… anyway hello i’m alive!! how are u?!?

my fave paramore song is last hope bc… emotions :3 in the mourning is such a good choice too, it reminds me of watching a sunrise! and my favorite disney movie is either tangled or lilo and stitch <3 there are a lot but those are my top 2 i think!!

also shoutout to the anon who noticed all the dance miserable parallels bc i had similar thoughts the other day! (noticed the parallel between it and heartbreak feels so good) but the way they explained it and connected it to kintsugi kid? and finding EVEN MORE parallels?! galaxy brain moment fr!! i’m so intrigued abt what the other parallels are now 👀

this album is giving v strong vibes of like… healing and seeing the good but through gritted teeth (if that makes sense lol) and i’m so excited for all of it! the (ten years) after kintsugi kid is making me want to explode 😭 can you believe we’re only 20 days away from hearing it??

- 🧋 anon

ah no worries!! i'm pretty good, have had a couple of busy weeks and am having a couple days of nothing which is nice!! i hope ur doing good too, aside from the chaos!!

oughhhh last hope is probably one of my other favorites too it makes me so. words can't describe it actually just. emotions. yeah fkrnfkd in the mourning is So like watching a sunrise i love that :,) n those are both such good picks!!! i love tangled sm too, taste as always

yeahhhh for real that anon is so smart for making all those connections Immediately based off A song title like?? i'm intrigued to hear more of their thoughts too! i love hearing everyones thoughts rn like. deciphering this album has been soooo fun! plus if this is how we are w just titles i cannot Wait till the album comes out omg

those are the exact same vibes im getting from it too!!! very much a "if i can live through this i can do anything" vibe, yk? which is just. such an incredible theme to explore in an album. and the (ten years) is making me crazy too, made a whole post abt it earlier actually fjdnfk i Cannot believe we are so close to it being out, i'm so excited!! which song are you most excited for :0?

[writingssummit]

Hi I just read you’re tsukishima story and it was so cute omg but I have an idea

Let’s say y/n has a huge crush on tsukishima since they were children right. But tsukishima never rlly liked y/n in that way. So he would always like be kinda aggressive but like not in the physical way, like he would be cold to her whenever y/n would constantly say something abt them dating. In reality he did like her but he didn’t realize it. Then suddenly a new guy shows up, he’s like really handsome and he’s in a small band, he plays the bass. Y/n actually listens to that band and she was so excited so the two of them click really easy, that’s when she starts being distant with tsukishima and stops the talks abt them dating, tsukishima starts to miss everything y/n would say to him and he wanted to get y/n back, but when he tries he sees y/n and the guy sharing a peck 😔‼️ sorry if this was longgggg ugh

a/n: ahhh! I’m glad you thought so, haha! don’t worry about the length, specifics are always welcome! <3 this is a really good idea! i think it ended up on the longer side, but yk, more content is good? i also ended up naming him, so it’s easier to refer to him. i keep holding on to highschool settings i’m sorry LMAO- i haven’t finished season 4 and i’m not reading the manga yet :( but anyways, here’s a bit of angst/unrequited love to balance out my recent fluff posts !

asks/requests: open !

word count: 2.6k

warnings?: some angst/unrequited love

worth a try.

- TSUKISHIMA KEI -

growing up with tsukishima had been a whirlwind of experiences. ever since you had moved and transferred to his school the last year of primary school, you’d been drawn to him. the tall, blonde kid with glasses. you found his pride in volleyball admirable, and you even found him to be so much cooler than you ever would be.

you originally didn’t know anybody when you first moved, but you fit right in with both tsukishima and his own friend. it was a strange combination, but it worked somehow. while tsukishima was rude, and yamaguchi timid, you were loud and energetic. you were lively. you challenged him just for the fun of it, you poked and prodded, just having fun being around him.

you were his self-declared best friend.

looking back on it, you probably always had feelings for tsukishima. back in those days when you tried to get into volleyball yourself. wanting to be like him, you tried your best, but you weren’t all that good. he would make fun of you for it, but you weren’t bothered by settling for being supportive of him and your freckled friend. You were just as passionate as they were about it.

you were even there when that passion jaded. watched as he stared at his brother from across the game.

it was when you started junior high, that you came to the conclusion that you were in love with your friend. but unlike most people, you did nothing to hide it. why would you? you were always open, always honest and straight to the point. you just weren’t one to hide that.

“go out with me, tsukki!” you poked his side with a cheeky grin, your eyes bright. your friend wasted no time in rejecting you.

“no.”

“aw, you sure?”

“i would never date somebody so stupidly annoying.” you shook off the blatant insult, laughing instead with your hand on your neck. a small thing you picked up from your other friend. yamaguchi.

“you’ll come around one day!”

“i doubt that.”

it went on like that all throughout your remaining years until high school. a constant back and forth that became a schedule at that point.

it was decided that tsukishima would be going to karasuno, as would yamaguchi. and so would you. you would go where they go, you’d never thought about leaving them both. you’d stay with them as long as possible, holding on to their friendship like it was your lifeline..

and holding onto tsukishima even more so.

you were there with them on the first day, when they joined volleyball club. that first practice match against aoba johsai.

you weren’t always watching their practices, since you had your own club duties to attend to of course. but you always made sure to stop by the clubroom while the boys were getting ready, just to say hi to everyone and to a certain someone.

“hey, hey!” you poked your head from around the door, waving a hand. the team greeted you cheerfully enough, minus tsukishima. who looked annoyed to no end.

“tsukki, wanna go grab something to eat after your practice? i know a really great spot!”

he didn’t even look at you, only giving you the middle finger.

you laughed, shrugging. “worth a try.”

the first time the team had witnessed your very forward approach to asking the extremely salty and crude boy out, they were surprised. the way he turned you down so effortlessly too, threw them off. the added shock of anybody even liking him was the cherry on top.

“is this normal?” sugawara asked, a chuckle falling from his lips. asahi was beside him, sweatdropping at the sight of your affectionate display, and tsukishima’s obvious lack of reciprocation.

yamaguchi smiled awkwardly, nodding. “well- yeah, actually. It’s been happening for years.”

“i’d kill to have somebody all over me like that! lucky bastard!” tanaka held his fist up dramatically, as if clenching his heart in it. he even had a tear in the corner of his eye.

“well then, i’ll be on my way! good practice, everyone!” you chirped, finally leaving them.

“l/n’s got some serious determination.” tanaka whistled.

“misplaced determination. they won’t shut up about dating, it’s annoying.” tsukishima didn’t sound as impressed as his loud senpai was.

yamaguchi tilted his head to the side. “really? i would’ve thought tha-”

“shut up.”

a small laugh. “sorry, tsukki.”

it would forever continue, it seemed like. you never thought you’d give it up, you always knew that you liked tsukishima. your heart would pound, your stomach would feel fluttery. but even though you’ve been with him since you were children, it didn’t seem like he’d grown to feel the same. it would get you down sometimes, his mean and harsh words whenever you’d bring it up. either casually, or intentionally.

you couldn’t help being so hopelessly whipped!

you were walking down the sidewalk with yamaguchi and tsukishima, humming along to a new song that had been dropped recently. you were so into it, strumming your fingers like you were the one playing in the recording. tsukishima watched you with critical eyes, but yamaguchi watched as if this was entertaining.

“new song, l/n?” yamaguchi asked you, and you paused the music. you nodded right away, grinning.

“yeah! there’s this kind of new band I found a bit ago, i think around the time you guys met nekoma for that first practice match? their music is so cool!” you could go on and on about them, to be honest. they may be small, and very underground, but you liked them anyways.

“wahh, they sound cool- right, tsukki?” yamaguchi and you both looked behind at him, faces expecting the same sentiment.

he only scoffed.

you roll your eyes playfully, sidling up to him for the first time today. “you want to go get some ice cream, tsukki?” you wished, hoped for him to just say yes for once. your heart was begging at this point.

“get out of my face, l/n.” he said coldly.

with a defeated sigh, you walked a few steps quicker, before unpausing the music. the humming resumed, and yamaguchi glanced back and forth between you both with a weary expression.

“you could try to be a bit nicer, tsukki-”

“they can’t take a damn hint, it’s not my job to be nice about it.” He said stubbornly.

yamaguchi sighed himself, nodding along. there wasn’t a point in continuing the topic; he always shut it down whenever yamaguchi brought it up. he’s never been so aggressive about something before.

interhigh had come, taking up your friend’s time with it. you were upset that they’d be so busy now, but with the new tournament coming, came a new student.

he was friendly, and cheerful, and honestly probably one of the most charming people you’ve ever met in your life. he even looked familiar to you, like you’ve seen him somewhere before. you couldn’t figure it out, so you just opted to the conclusion you must have just passed him down the street at some point. or some strange case of deja vu? either way, he was in your class now.

you were just coming back from the bathroom, your earbuds plugged into your ears like they usually were nowadays.

“l/n, please take your earbuds out, it’s class time.” iour teacher scolded you gently, and you pouted a little. It was just getting to a good part-

you had tugged on them a little too hard, and instead of just getting them out of your ears, they came out of the headphone jack completely.

you were embarrassed as your new favorite band’s music started blasting out of the phone’s speakers, and you hurried to turn it off. You were blushing, laughing at yourself as you went to go sit back down.

ahh, dang! everyone heard that! you were just laughing at yourself in your head now.

there was a tap on your desk, and you turned your face towards the hand. it was the new kid, and his face looked bright.

“you listen to my band’s music?” he whispered to you, his face beaming, and you gasped quietly.

“is this you?” you pointed at your pocket, where your phone rested. he nodded.

“that’s so- wow, i go to school with one of the people in my favo-”

“l/n, do you have something to say about the lecture?”

you shook your head violently, holding back a huge grin. “n-no, miss!” your teacher sighed, and continued past the interruption.

the looks you both shared didn’t go unnoticed by tsukishima.

everyday now, you were hanging around the new kid. you had come to learn his name, which was ishiwaka teruo. you both had hit it off instantly, it was like you guys had known each other forever, and not just a few weeks. it was almost like some crazy twist of fate, or luck. you guys were both alike in a lot of ways, held similar passions, too.

“see you, ishi!” you waved a hand, grinning as he waved a goodbye back. you guys didn’t take the same way home, so he ended up leaving the opposite direction, while you walked with tsukishima and yamaguchi. you were humming again, one of ishiwaka’s band’s songs.

“you seem pretty happy, l/n.” yamaguchi chuckled, watching as you danced a little. 

“oh yeah, you bet! ishi actually invited me to sit in for one of his practices, isn’t that so cool? he plays the bass, and he even offered to teach me a few chords. i don’t really mess with instruments, but-”

“can you shut up about him? all you do is just yap on and on about this guy, hanging out with him isn’t enough for you? what’s so special anyways?” his tone was harsh, and condescending. “if you’re just going to talk about him all the time, i’m not walking with you guys anymore.” your eyes widened as soon as you heard what tsukishima had just said. your heart was pounding, like it had been caught in the act of something terrible. you even felt slightly ashamed.

“wow, nice, tsukki. sorry for being excited about something.” you muttered, clutching your bag straps tight. what did you expect at this point? he didn’t like you as much as you thought, if he was so ready to just leave you behind. yamaguchi sensed the tension between you both, which made him uncomfortable.

you were all quiet for the rest of the way home.

interhigh came and went, the loss against aoba johsai stung the volleyball team, leaving their spirits broken, and cracked. you hadn’t been to the game that day, busy with a certain band member. and your missing presence hadn’t been looked over.

“where were you?” tsukishima had confronted you in the hallways, while you were walking with ishiwaka to the water fountain. it was break, which meant he could freely talk to you now.

you looked away from him, a nervous air around you that wasn’t like you at all.

“i’m sorry i couldn’t make it, tsukki- i heard that you guys lost, and i’m really sorry i couldn’t have been there!” your words were careful and slow, like you were thinking on how to say the right thing to him.

the blonde closed his eyes, and looked off to the side. he didn’t look pleased in the slightest. “were you with your precious band member? like some kind of groupie.” 

ishiwaka raised an eyebrow, and you just shook your head. tsukishima was really doing this right now? you said sorry, what else were you supposed to say?

“you know what, yeah. i was with him. it’s not like..it’s not like i have to be around you or yamaguchi every second of the day, okay?” you sighed. “look, i’ll make it to your next practice, and skip my club activities. is that fine?”

he hesitated, before giving you a curt nod. you smiled in relief. “great! i’ll see you then. now, about that specific measure-”

you had left him behind, and tsukishima had been hit with a realization.

you hadn’t mentioned going on a date at all. not today, not even within the past few weeks. was something wrong with you? he’d gotten so used to that, but now even that wasn’t a constant.

it was like you were slipping away from him, day by day.

and he realized that he didn’t like that.

as the days went on, thoughts about this ran rampant through his mind. it was maddening, he was trying to focus on school, and now, as he was walking to the clubroom, volleyball. he was scarily silent, and yamaguchi caught onto it right away.

“tsukki?” he asked quietly, not wanting to push. but he wanted to know. ever since tsukishima had come back from break that day, he’d been acting strange. he was even saltier, if that was possible.

“am i not enough for l/n?” he spit out the question, like it was a disease.

taken aback, the freckled boy could only blink. the two stopped walking, looking right at each other now. “what?”

tsukishima barked out a laugh, running a hand over his face in frustration. “you heard me, yamaguchi.”

yamaguchi’s jaw dropped. “do you miss them?” was he for real? was this jealousy actually coming from tsukishima?

“hell if i know.” he muttered. but he knew the answer, and that’s what upset him.

“i knew it. tsukki, why did it have to be now, though?” he shook his head in disbelief. at the utter obliviousness of this boy. yamaguchi knew himself that there was something there in tsukishima, something resembling feelings for you. but of course it was when you were no longer always around that he saw it.

“what?”

“l/n isn’t a puppy anymore, they’re not following after you. if you haven’t noticed, they’ve given up. you need to do this yourself, and fix it.” yamaguchi stated. he wouldn’t be lying if he said that he’d been frustrated with the back and forth between you both, it was so obvious to him, but apparently not obvious to tsukishima. or you, for that matter.

“i know that.” he muttered. he would have to confront you about this. was he stupid? why didn’t he get this before? 

“then do something about it.”

tsukishima was quiet.

it was decided by him that he’d catch you outside of practice, since you said you’d be coming to watch. it was a quick, and impulsive decision from him, but he needed this to be figured out. his head was at it’s most unclear, and that was affecting him.

you were affecting him.

he looked around the outside of the gym, trying to see if he could spot you coming. it took a minute, before he saw a figure off to the side. it was you, he could tell by that bag anywhere. he stepped out, only to be met with the full picture.

you were with ishiwaka, and you were kissing him.

tsukishima hurried back into the gym with a stone-cold expression. oh. so this is where he stood now.

no longer at the top of your list, no longer important.

you walked into the gym, beaming. it angered tsukishima, more than he should have been. he yanked your arm, and held you by them with a vice grip. you looked up at your friend with nervous, maybe even scared eyes. you hadn’t seen tsukishima like this before.

“what is he to you?”

you blinked. “wh-what?”

“who is he to you? that little bass player.” his eyes were searching yours, for anything, anything that he could hold on to. you didn’t respond, only looking away from his intense stare.

your eyes didn’t hold that same look that they used to whenever you looked at him. 

he had his answer. and he didn’t like it. so he let go of you, maybe for real this time. things had changed so much, right under his nose. and he had let it happen.

[yjwonz]

ok time for kpop drama, keeping up w zj ig </3 TLDR at the end btw

so basically enhypen/epipen, my main slayers, went live on vlive (kpop streaming app) a couple days ago like 2 or 3?? and it was only 4 members,, ill tell u the names just for reference err seating chart was like jungwon, niki, sunoo, jake. and basically they were using their bixby (their company or whatev is sponsored by samsung yk) and idr what they were talking abt the bixby ai has said 'when someone ways a lot-' and niki's stupid ass says 'kim sunoo!' implying sunoo weighted alot/was fat. and sunoo in the past has been constantly fatshamed by like the media and a couple times (like 7 or 8 idk rlly) by his own group members... and we all know that it is never okay to speak abt someones weight like that n shit but then everyone laughed abt it too ?? and also keep in mind, sunoo has really chubby cheeks, if u remember when i had u guys rate kpop idols -- the one with the pink hair ?? yeah him. and like the worst thing is that this isnt the first time someone like this has happened too like its happened before with members like sunghoon and jay. and everytime like all the members laugh?? and then this sparks up a bit ol thing, why wouldnt it yk? and people are like giving their opinions and shit saying niki shouldve never said that and he was so wrong like wtf was wrong w him (which i agree w). BUT theres also engenes (enha fans) are like even DEFENDING niki saying shit like 'oh but he's only 16!!' AND??? UR POINT??? but yeah and as someone whos been niki biased for like ever he's so fucked up for this !! theres even ppl tryna putt the blame on sunoo?? but yeah a lot of ppl have been unstanning enhypen (i dont blame them) bc like if they think sunoo, whos pretty fit and skinny, is fat then what are engenes who are bigger than him?? but yeah a huge wave of ppl becoming like sunoo solo stans or just completely unstanning so yeah im rlly mad at enhypen minus sunoo my boy does no wrong literally

anyways me personally im taking a break from enha minus sunoo until their comeback on july 4th so

TLDR ; sunoo's member fatshamed him, and everyone laughed and now the fandom is rlly mad at said member (as they should be) and im worried for sunoo and mad at enhypen

[bluealmondpie]

hi can u write hcs abt some haikyuu boys asahi,tsukki,tendou,kenma and iwaizumi with y/n that’s nervous for doing ~it~ for the first time doesnt have to be smut but yk😔😔i just liked the idea

yay first request ٩(^‿^)۶

it took sooooo long bc i rewrote it twice and also bc i have been in a very depressed mood so i wrote a very very soft and fluffy hc. may the fluff cushion you and i from all the terrible things 2020 has been throwing at us ♡

this was way longer than i expected. more than a little suggestive but i wouldn't call it smut (*^▽^*)

iwaizumi

* he's such a gentleman will never force u to do something you don't like. king of boundaries

* so you'll have to initiate (don't lie about not wanting to try, have u seen him topless ugh muscles should b illegal)

* probably at his place. you'll probably b making out and you decide (!!a bold move) to tug at his shirt and he is like ?! oh but are you sure

* you'll b a blushing mess hahahahha he will think it's so cute but he will never admit it out loud

* ofc you will b suuuuuuper nervous like not just is it your first time but like. it's iwaizumi. greek god incarnate. whatifyourenotgoodenoughahhhhhhhpanic

* it'll start off very soft and slow. he will keep checking if you're ok with it in case u wanna change your mind.

* he also wants to make sure you're ok with the pace and all that. perfect gentleman

* he will also b really careful. he doesn't wanna hurt u (;-;)

* he's very affirming. he will murmur soft little words into your ear and mmmmmm just melt into his embrace istg he is so SOFT for u

* "you're doing so good"

* "mm is it okay like this?"

* "tell me if it hurts"

* "damn y/n you have no idea how much i rlly wanted this" ohmyGOD inner squealing.

* aftercare is great. iwaizumi will let u cuddle. he is warm. many many cuddles. ٩(^‿^)۶

* you'll want more of this (〃ω〃) iwaizumi will be happy to oblige ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

asahi

* boy's just as nervous as u are

* not that he hasn't done it yet but you know, doing it for the first time with someone important to him makes him nervous

* he wants to make sure u feel super loved. it's such an intimate act, he feels pressure cos it's so so important and significant for you two.

* and he knows it's doubly significant for you so yep. just piling on the pressure there

* anyway it'll probably happen when you guys are slightly drunk. mostly bc neither of u have the courage to initiate anything. sexual tension for weeks and weeks... so a little bit of liquid courage helps you two along (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)

* it sort of just, falls into place really easily. like somehow just really natural, as if you've always done it together.

* asahi will go slow but he's observant. he pays attention to what makes you feel good and will definitely make sure you come first.

* his worries will go away when he sees that you like where things are going and that you like whatever he is doing.

* he takes his time. there's a lot of buildup with asahi. he will play with you, just to learn the ins and outs of your body for future reference since it's the first time.

* you'll probably find out a lot about yourself too because of that (〃ω〃)

* asahi is quiet. talking is not really a big thing. he will tease, but only when he starts feeling confident about making u feel good.

* "let's do this again soon" ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

tendou

* ah adorable. he will tease you a lot until he realises it's making you uncomfortable. then he will apologise

* tendou is always paying attention to you. he will definitely be able to tell when you're ready and when he can push your boundaries.

* he probably will set things up in advance. he will choose a day that's special to the both of you.

* very very reassuring.

* "it's very fun i promise" ٩(^‿^)۶

* "i'll make sure you feel good k?"

* "it'll be safe, we can go slow at first so it won't hurt and you can get used to the feeling"

* lots of soft kisses to help you feel comfortable.

* tendou will make sure you're used to each step before he moves on to the next level of intimacy. he will follow your pace, so that you won't feel anxious.

* music? he's got it. lights, candles, he's got it. tendou is Well Prepared™️

* will definitely push boundaries or go too fast sometimes. but he's quick to readjust when it shows on your face or body language.

* tendou will teach you about your own body. will touch you a lot. a lot lot. he likes watching your reactions. he also likes being the first one to see your reactions. he considers himself lucky, he treasures u so much

* he really really likes your face when you look up at him and he's on top cos you're so cute he can't help himself but to kiss you ♪( ´▽｀)

* he likes the feeling of coming together with you. so he'll definitely make sure he matches your pace, or even get you to match his (≧∀≦)

* cue pillow talk until you fall asleep on him. he will watch your sleeping face, and feel accomplished.

tsukki

* tsukki is, a proud ass bitch. knowing he gets to be the first to ruin you is a huge ego boost. damn this top.

* he doesn't want you to worry, because you're important to him. he wants it be something you also want to do.

* even so, this boy is slightly manipulative ( *｀ω´)

* he's probably been setting you up for weeks.

* things like pushing the boundaries every time you snuggle. holding you really really close. touching you suggestively.

* at first you'll be slightly uncomfortable. each time he pushes the boundary just a little more. a little closer.

* a touch too high up your thigh. a hand too near your butt. is that. is that a squeeze???? just barely. a brush past your chest.

* such a long buildup. days and weeks even. tsukki plays a long game.

* he will drive you up the wall with this long drawn out teasing, until you're practically wishing for him to fuck you. what is nervousness? it's gone.

* you'll probably get nervous right when it actually is going to happen tho. but tsukki is firm. he will complete his plans ( *｀ω´)

* tsukki will lead. he will guide you to where he wants you to be. you trust him. after all, he's spent such a long time preparing. and it's also made you a lot more comfortable being so intimate.

* it's easy to fall into his pace. he will make sure you feel great and come first (*^▽^*)

* all in all, exactly according to his plan, but you'll never know you're playing right into his hands. ( *｀ω´)

kenma

* another one who worries. but he doesn't worry a lot. knowing that you trust him makes him want to please you.

* he likes being your first time. it's an achievement. his gamer instincts are all like, yes i won the game. now i get a bonus round (*^▽^*)

* kenma is quiet. his main method of communicating and checking on you would b through touching. squeezes your hands a lot to calm you down. it's very reassuring ♪( ´▽｀)

* he will touch his forehead to yours a lot and hold your hands if you're really anxious. he will murmur that he won't do anything you aren't comfortable with. his soft voice will send shivers down your spine, settling around your stomach.

* he wants to know if you're ok with it. he's shy, so there's probably many times you almost did it but you both backed off last minute.

* when you two finally get to it, he will make you want it.

* kenma plays a mean foreplay game. you'll be stretched out and dripping before you know it.

* he listens to the sounds you make and adjusts accordingly to make sure all is good.

* he likes watching you come. he will probably make you come multiple times, whether it's with his fingers or whether he is fucking you. he likes the way you look all flushed and fucked out.

* kenma also makes sure to clean up nicely. warm towels, or a warm bath together. you'll end up asleep and all tangled up together.

*******

i hope this is what you wanted!! ♡ fluffy sweets.

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[noxtivagus]

I'M DOING GREAT YEAHHH

[chil2de]

hi bb:) sorry i took so long to respond i have a bunch of things to do today (·•᷄∩•᷅ )

HSJAHDJJA i’m actually a childe main !!!!!!!!!!!! i’m AR 52 and i love my boy sm. I also really really love xiao i want them both to destroy my body so bad The biggest number i’ve ever hit in genshin is 91k which was with childe but it was a vaporise so it’s not super impressive :,) I wanted thoma so bad and i mean i got him but i’m #polearmuserphobic and i’m not a fan of his gameplay :0 Seriously tho i fucking hate polearm users i’m so close to benching my raiden. I also use noelle a lot !!!!! i have a phys noelle but she’s not built properly so she’s not amazing,,,,,,

PLEASE OMG I LOVE THE SOUL EATER INTRO SO MUCH ITS SO COOL i am a #certifiedmakastan SHES SO COOL I LOVE HER SYTHE AJGDJSVEJVAGEJSVRIBEGSHE i used to have a big fat crush on kid but maturing is realising he actually isn’t hot like at all tbh

yesyeyysyeysyyes :) thank u sexy. Rn i’m in the middle of writing a paper abt control and how it effects our lives and psychology n stuff which is cool bcs i love that sort of stuffs yk

I LOVE PSYCHOLOGICAL HORROR SM OMG u should definitely play ddlc and yttd (ddlc is my favourite but yttd is still super good) it’s free u can download it on steam !!!!!!! big big warning tho if u don’t already know there’s a shit ton of scary stuff and suicide and self harm and stuff so proceed with caution

i have a 5 star animal crossing island tehe :] i also have marinas emiibo in my phone case it’s my lucky charm

MY PHONES ON 3% HHHHHHHH

IVE BEEN SAVING FOR GANYU FOR SO MANY BANNERS TIME SO IM WAITING FOR THAT TO PULL OKAY BYE BB <3333

-🦕 <3333

(istg if this doesn’t send through )

don’t worry about responding<3 gotta do what u gotta do first.

childe mains have my fuckin heart. honestly and truly. deadass the other day someone joined my co-op and just stood next to me so I could hear childe’s idle dialogue LMFAOO i want that man so badly it’s not even funny. xiao is certified daddy if i ever see someone maining him i make sure to tell em that they’re sexy.

“vaporise so it isn’t impressive” stfu stop downplaying urself wtf. that’s hella good even for an elemental reaction anyway?? u should be proud </3 smh a large sum of kisses is going to necessary for me to forgive u after saying that👺

LMFAOGJOAS i can’t. i genuinely cannot thoma’s gameplay sucks so much ass and for what reason... it pains me to the utmost degree when he says shit like “don’t get too close!” n “supporting fire!” but.... then he misses? 😐 baby, thoma i love u but i gotta let u know that ur not even on the field for more than 3 seconds.

thoma’s auto looks sexy but i don’t think anything can top zhongli kicking his polearm. and xiao.... man... what. i love him but how do people not get headaches wtf the camera panning every time he lunges w the polearm makes me wanna cry? i saw a clip of c6 xiao and what on god’s green earth. he’s just perpetually stuck in a washing machine why does the camera shake around like that

noelle <33333 im using her as a diy 5 min craft phys too until i get the characters i actually want for my main team. sorta? i just can’t be bothered to ascend her bc she uses the geo hypostasis and so does albedo😭 god knows i’m not ascending both of them

i rlly luv maka’s attitude and the way she dresses???? she’s so cool. her character design is lowkey so normal but it’s really pleasing. the cape is very girlboss on her. love when women are strong we don’t look at damsels in distress in this establishment (lmao genshin barbara who)

good luck on your paper, princess. sounds really fucking interesting i’m not gonna lie if you made it into a 40 min documentary i’d watch it. afraid i can’t give you any insights with my qualifications in fine art LMFAOO but i’m more than happy to support u regardless. u got this<3 pass ur exams n get that bag baby

actually starting to sense a pattern here. avoided genshin like the plague cause i thought it was a paid game and ur out here telling me they’re both free. genuinely dashing to my pc later when i have more time and fingers crossed i actually have a speck left of storage for me to download it😍 ily thanks for the warnings i have no issues w it but you singlehandedly made my day. very sweet of you even if it is common decency. tell me ur hot without telling me ur hot

marina!!!! tried hunting for her once and i ended up with... octavian... not even zucker. OCTAVIAN. and he was an autofill as well. i wanted to suffocate him his house infuriates me to look at it’s physically sickening. dude has a whole NASA spaceship crammed into such a tiny dwelling :/ that’s the same island where i got beardo as my first campsite villager and it was at that point where i decided to restart

do you have a theme that you decorate ur island w? or do you just throw shit down randomly because me too.

please charge ur phone. although it would be funny if it died the same time as when you plugged it in. i love when that happens

ganyu rerun is going to break all hell loose it’s the funniest shit i’ve seen this month LMFOAIFOA. everyone i know is either “pull for ganyu” or “why aren’t you pulling for ganyu?” but i’m tryna get xiao and his constellations so... i say this, full confidence, knowing earlier that i was dissing xiao’s play style. sacrificing it all for the sneaky link adepti baby

rip my wallet i’m terrible at saving primos i instantly spam the wish button the second i have 160 so i have to give u major kudos for being able to save. i love when ppl are financially responsible it’s very attractive actually. good luck for when she does roll around! ganyu wanters shall be ganyu havers. maybe you can get her cons too and if you don’t it’s bc genshin hates hot people

[realmzenith]

benke !!!!!!

u truly want me dead but ily so- BUT OK BENKE my meme child

What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?.2 seconds i hate him. if he HAD to sit still and he was feeling slightly more chill than usual he could prbly go five minutes. tops. he’s just rlly antsy. he needs to be doing smth w his hands

How easy is it for your character to laugh?EH not super easily but defo more easily than a lot of my other ocs from one to ten one being laughs extremely easily he’s prbly a 4. the key is to find him memes esp political nihilistic memes or fall in front of him bc he’s terrible

How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)he doesn’t sleep. e v e r. who do u think he is?? nah jk on a more serious note, he actually doesn’t sleep very easily so usually he just listens to music until he dozes off

How easy is it to earn their trust?gosh that’s. difficult to say. p hard actually?? surprisingly hard for how much of a meme he acts like and how relatively extroverted he is. from one to ten w one meaning it’s very easy to gain his trust i’d say 7

How easy is it to earn their mistrust?he doesn’t rlly attach himself to ppl easily so it’s p easy to get him to not trust u. like he’ll be chill w u but he wont trust u all that much it’s a weird dynamic w him. w one being v easy to get him to distrust and ten very hard, he’s a 5. p much in the middle not rlly too much to one side or another

Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?rules are great until they impede him from getting what he’s aimin for :) on a more serious note, he doesn’t rlly give a damn abt most laws like he doesn’t want to go to jail but at the same time if he’s not going to get caught he’s going to do it bc hey wtf yolo

What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?LOL NOSTALGia thats a joke he dislikes sappy things n nostalgia falls into that category but he will on v v rare occasions reminisce. certain musical pieces have that effect on him esp the classical ones as he’s grown up w music (being a practical prodigy on the piano and all). he guesses that sometimes it is kind of nice to remember. just once in a while tho. in a while being the key phrase here

What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child?I MEAN he’s sixteen he’s still technically a child but basically the most common thing he hears is stop slacking and work harder. being an asian kid getting As is? absolutely crucial he’ll be smacked upside the head by his parents if he doesn’t so they always tell him to stop slacking tf off n actually study for once (tbh it’s fine he’s a genius practically he gets As easier than u can say banana split)

Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?absolutely and he doesn’t rlly remember but he thinks it was “shit”

What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?once he set out twenty peeps just behind the wheels of his mom’s car and when she backed out the entire wheels got covered in peeps and when she came home saying there was all this weird gooey stuff on her wheels and looked pointedly at him. he just blurted out that it was god exacting judgement on her for her sins. it didn’t end well. he ended up washing the entire car by himself. it still haunts him to this day

How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?he’ll literally just say “what the fuck” and laugh

How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?whine about it until someone scratches it for him dependent on how comfy he is around the ppl he’s with. if he’s not comfy around the ppl he’s w he’ll just sulk internally or scurry off to the bathroom and like, rub his back (presumptively that’s where he can’t reach) against the edge of the stall until the itch is gone bc he’s high

What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?he thinks he looks best in all colors also he doesn’t rlly care abt fashion. he looks best in HM like purple or royal blue?? 

What animal do they fear most?he has this weird fear of armadillos and no one knows why it has smth to do w an incident at the zoo when he was six

How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?he honestly doesn’t say everything that comes to mind even tho it SOUNDS like he does but he also. basically says everything that comes to mind. it’s odd bc he ends up being rlly engaging in conversation anyways. however he isnt immune to being at a loss for words and when he’s under pressure he will stumble a lil thru what he’s saying. but most of the time what u hear is what he’s thinkin

What makes their stomach turn?ok he’s not SUPER big abt justice or anything like that but if someone’s being torn down he’ll get rlly uncomfy unless he’s the one who initiated it bc he’s like hey hey haha guys dont say that abt them. also he dislikes roly polys w a passion bc they remind him of armadillos :)

Are they easily embarrassed?on one hand he has no shame on the other he does get p flustered if ppl flirt w him and it hits a spot (in a good way)? like he does get embarrassed moderately easily but it takes him a few seconds to realize he should be embarrassed if u get me

What embarrasses them?flirting, if u get a well aimed compliment in that he didn’t expect. also realizing he’s made a fool of himself bc that oftentimes happens but he also rarely realizes it so if he REALIZES he’s made a fool of himself he will get flustered

What is their favorite number?420 duh

If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?he’d be like wtf why r u asking me this but if someone he does trust and is close to asked him he’d try his best to give a serious answer after a bout of awkward laughing to make sure they were serious. prbly like “familial love and platonic love are the same thing basically right? i guess platonic love is how u love ur friends so yk brofists and shit and then romantic love is more? special? idk it’s fucking great tho *fingers guns at sev*”

Why do they get up in the morning? his mom makes him get up for school otherwise what is leaving his bed when he can just pull his comp onto his lap while STAYING in his bed and game from there

How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)? oh he’s very possessive. he’ll defo keep whatever he’s worried abt losing close by to start and if it’s a person- friend or s/o- he’s going to be touching them a lot more. a hand on the back, a hug at the side, running his hands through their hair casually. anything to assert that no back off ur not taking them from me. but if it continues, which it v well may, knowing him, he’s going to start getting snarky n verbally fighting the other person. basically Messy pls reassure him if u are the object of his affections and he’s getting side-eye emoji abt someone 

How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? he defo becomes resentful a bit. like he doesn’t get envious over most things- it’s mostly fear of losing the thing once he has it- but when it does he will get resentful and hole up a bit and generally just seem a little ticked

Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom?yeah he’s comfy talking abt sex. prbly a little too comfy. so basically anyone willing to engage him in the conversation topic will likely hear abt it but he’s calmed down ever since he got involved w sev

What are their thoughts on marriage?marriage is good? but far off and amorphous in his mind. for the most part he’s like there’s nothing wrong w it but it crosses his mind EXTREMELY infrequently   

What is their preferred mode of transportation? preferably in the back of a private plane, squirrel suit gliding or on a giant eagle, none of which he’s ever experienced in his life. but out of the things he has he is fond of sailing when it’s calm out bc he does get seasick a tiny bit. he likes fast cars too

What causes them to feel dread? his mother :) she may be small but she is Frightening

Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth? he doesnt rlly give a damn so lie most of the time but at the same time if he cares abt the thing and he’s asking u abt it pls do urself a favor and tell him the truth. it’s what he prefers and it’s rare anyways that he actually asks after smth

Do they usually live up to their own ideals? nope. he wants to win a nobel prize, publish a meme compilation book, become a world class pianist, go to pluto- u get the idea. ya boi has many high hopes for himself which he’s not rlly meeting atm. he’s a little all over the place, so despite his many talents he isn’t quite living up to the ideal version of himself he’s seeking after and prbly never will it’ll be very hard to get him to admit this not bc he’s an edgelord or smth but it’s hard to get him to talk abt deeper things but he does sincerely want to be a good moral person which dependent on the day and his level of seriousness he may or may not be living up to in his own eyes as well as in the eyes of others. what can i say he’s kind of a hoe

Who do they most regret meeting? life…. when life’s hand touched upon his little heart and gave him the gift of herself he immediately was filled w Ragret- on a more serious note it’s prbly the armadillo from the zoo

Who are they the most glad to have met? sev? he also adores his piano teacher but good luck getting him to admit that w heartfelt sincerity 

Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke? it’s honestly whatever’s the most recent thing he observed, heard or experienced when it comes to stories. he has no shortage of words to say and his fav sort of memes and jokes are politically nihilistic ones. so those are? in a way his go to?

Could they be considered lazy? yes. he only applies himself if he’s interested and for most of school he has no qualms abt being a lil sus and casually “accidentally” getting the answers to things so yeah that’s. that could be considered lazy. however, when he does care abt smth he will absolutely dedicate himself to it. he practices piano consistently and diligently day in and day out so it honestly depends on if he cares or not

How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? v difficult. he rarely becomes guilty for longer than .4 seconds but when it does he’s srsly going to internalize that bc if he’s feeling guilty he prbly f-ed up real bad. he also won’t rlly talk abt it to anyone so it’s even more likely it’ll just get internalized 

How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive? that’s extremely dependent on who it is and what it is. if it’s sev he’ll b v supportive but sev is a VERY big exception in most cases also sev rarely gets visibly excited abt things so it’s usually a cause for celebration when he does. if josie (his bff) is excited abt smth? if he can relate he’ll be excited for her but if he can’t he’ll TRY his best but there will be some teasing involved bc that’s how he diffuses confusion. their other bff will get the same treatment but w slightly more effort bc she’s more sensitive but gosh if it’s someone he doesn’t know rlly well he’ll be rlly confused he’ll be like good for u ha?? or someone he knows casually. they’ll get teased so he tries but he also sucks at life. for such a great analyst he’s terrible at being socially delicate

Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap? tbh prbly actively seek it. he defo pursued sev before they got together

Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)? he doesn’t rlly give a damn abt ppl’s names but if it’s say a piano piece it’s honestly just cold, hard repetition 

What memory do they revisit the most often? he doesn’t reminisce often hes a p go go go type of guy but if he does it’s prbly abt sev. neither of them voice it often but they’re both rlly grateful for the other

How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people? see, he’s kind of oblivious he doesn’t rlly think abt these things but when something annoys him? oh it annoys him and he’s going to make no effort to hide it or ignore it. so he’s honestly rlly bad at ignoring other ppl’s flaws. he’s a bit of a b like that 

How sensitive are they to their own flaws?very

How do they feel about children? no particular opinion! he’s the younger sib by quite a bit so he’s always been kind of the baby. he thinks kids are fine and he’s actually p good w them but he’d prefer to not babysit or anything like that. there are better more enjoyable things he could be doing w his time. as for having kids he almost never thinks abt that so he’s got no opinion there either. what happens happens after all

How badly do they want to reach their end goal? he doesn’t particularly have One End Goal but he has many aspirations and if he cares abt smth he will do everything in his power to reach it at least within reason. so p badly relatively speaking? 

If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so? he’s bi so if someone asked him to explain it he’d be like “it means idc what someone’s gender is when it comes to whether i want to fuck or not ;)” yes i hate him too

QUESTIONS FOR CREATORS

A) Why are you excited about this character?MEME KING but also i’m excited to try and work out the balance between apathy, drive and subtle but very much present care for the ppl around himB) What inspired you to create them?i need a best friend for the main chara of the story benke is a part of! additionally, he shares a lot of character traits w an irl friend of mine so it’s a bit of a nod to themC) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?nope! benke was created for the purpose of filling a role tho honestly he’s spun a wild story for himself somehow looking @ u sevD) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?i must admit benke does NOT have a set appearance as of the present. he’s afab nb and does nothing to present as more masculine than he naturally appears. he’s indian, 5′4″ and he’s got short hair w highlights but beyond that i’m still working out his appearance E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?yes on a surface level to both. we’d meme together but at a deeper level we wouldn’t make good close friends. benke’s brand of caring for ppl is nearly opposite to mine and bc we’re already both unconventional in how we show we care abt someone we’d prbly both end up feeling neglected. there’d be a lot of miscommunication and honestly, ya boi would get on my nerves n i’d prbly get on hisF) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?TIRED he TIRES me but also a bit of pride bc he’s growinG) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?where do i begin. prbly how he’s unintentionally self centered. benke is far from uncaring abt his friends he will do crazy stupid brave things for them if it ever came to that but it’s hard for him to see why some of the things he says hurt other ppl’s feelings esp if they’re diff from him. he’ll be like ?? why u offended i didn’t say anything mean. he’s also RLLY bad at handling serious emotions even when they sometimes do need to be dealth wH) What trait do you admire most?HM prbly his knack for being a great conversationalist. ppl like him even if he isn’t the most popular bc he’s funny and p chill. he doesn’t have too much drama so it’s like hey there’s the meme guy even tho he’s kinda weird and tbh goals. being a good conversationalist can get u places and ease up SO many social situationsI) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?PRBLY but also i think he’d do rlly well in a sci fi universe eyes emojiJ) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?nah not rlly?? not yet at least ! 

[viirtuosa]

  guess who got a new muse ?  damn right dat me . so lets skip the blabber &  go straight 2 the info abt this smol angel :

( imogen poots , cisfemale & she/her ) › › did you just see sienna collins ? she has been in d.c. for a year now, and i heard she is a baker/waitress. pretty surprising, considering she is twenty four. then again, i hear she is very selfless & gullible, so i’m not that shocked. rumor has it she has heart arrhythmia, but who knows if that’s true. all i know is people call her the cherubim.

sienna comes from a middle-class family ,  but she’s always been content with what she had . she was born in missouri ,  rocheport , a small town in the middle of basically nowhere and that’s where she spent most of her life .  her dad’s a preacher and her mom was a high school teacher before she got ill ,   sienna was always taught very good manners , and to always be thankful for what she received ,  turn the other cheek ,  yk the drill

her mom got sick when she was around 11 and it absolutely devastated her and the whole family ,   she passed away when a week before she turned was 12 and just a couple months down the road her sister ran away from home because she got caught up with drugs n some nasty shit, and it was basically just her and her dad from then on

tbh she was always used to being alone .  she’d spend time with her dad ,  and when she didn’t you could always find her playing with the animals ,  horse riding ,  milking cows ,  shit like that .  if not she’d be collecting bugs or talking to plants … that’s just … how my smol child rolls

she also  LOVES  reading   &  baking ,  always has .  she loves horror even though she cries during horror movies , and her favorite author is stephen king  .  she just has a fascination for all things spooky .

she moved to dc with her father because his mom fell ill and they decided it was best to be close ,  with their family being so small now .  it took a long time for her to adjust ,  but  once she did she quickly picked up a job as waitress at a local café  & eventually after getting into the rhytm was also offered to help out in the kitchen ,   so she does some desserts n sweets for extra $$ to help out with the hospital bills n all

also studying 2 be a nurse so her life’s a bit hectic

she found out she had heart arrhythmia after she fainted at work .   she didn’t told anyone though ,  because she just doesn’t wanna worry her family more with things the way they are

hmm lets see, fun quirks & traits :

she’s always late

SERIOUSLY ALWAYS

she actually owns a ball python???? she escapes all the time but sienna loves her v much ok dont talk shit abt kc

she spends an awful lot of time at the cemetery bc she likes 2 be alone idk ??   she’s just sad a lot of the time & if she sees dusty graves n shit she will buy flowers  &  put it there bc she feels Bad

anyways she’s smol n helpless and trusts ppl she shouldn’t save her

doesn’t rlly kno how 2 do the dating thing…  i think she’s dated like one boy at the first grade .  they held hands once lmao she’s oblivious 2 ppl who have feelings for her and she denies to herself if she has a crush like   i’d prob make a better friend than girlfriend    |:

goes to church every single sunday n sings at the choir ??? she’s an actual angel

she will literally sit w u in the middle of the street n listen to ur problems so yk be her friend she’s nice

im still figuring her out but i’m open for all kinds of connections so hmu ??? ily all