#n i cant even go on abt that rn (tired) but ive been..thinkin abt it
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things have been scary n hard n a lot but i do feel good sometimes..theres good things too they might not seem like big things or as meaningful but it still matters n makes a difference! things might get scarier n harder etc overall n probs will at least sometimes.. even when it feels like things shld be easy theyre usually not but im trying ! n thats smth i suppose
#p#work was so bad today had to socialize w family which went ok but not ideal situation for me after#might see a friend tomorrow n walk my dog n thats makin me anxious for a few reasons but mostly cuz idk how to talk to my friends anymore#for reasons that arent even only just me being a freak#the next day im having cavities fixed n itll take hrs#i rly to set up a dr appointment n its been ages cuz even for a normal appointment its v stressful n scary n bad for me#for a variety of reasons but i also just fuckin hate it#n this is cuz i think there coulddd be smth more serious goin on that ive been trying to ignore n avoid bringing up#cuz what if it is actually smth#n i cant even go on abt that rn (tired) but ive been..thinkin abt it#aaaand i need to try n get an appointment w a psychiatrist so i can maybe get back on meds again cuz i think itd be a good idea#like i think on em i didnt think they made a big difference but i feel like im way worse now off em so#n i hope i dont have to go thru the regular dr abt that cuz i got my refills thru them but i guess ill be seein her anyway n overwhelmed!!!#oh n the friend thing is scary cuz my lil group is all broken up now n i feel like im choosing sides when i hang out w some of em now#which sucks so thats the main thing abt that. ok enough bye <3#idk what the original post not the tags even meant im tryin to be . positive! or smth jeez :/#dlt ltr !
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so anyways. long story short uh. yesterday Rei clicked on an ad, got redirected to a shady site, managed to download a virus on the professorās computer and p much bricked the damn thing. so Prof. Rowanās not very happy w/ us rn :ā) but yknow what im kinda impressed he even managed to do that
so the Prof. kicked us out for the day to do fieldwork instead while Mizuki tries to undo Reiās lil mishap.
oh wait you guys donāt know who Mizuki is. or who me or Gougar are for that matter. hm. iāll get to that later sometime ig
but anyways i figured we get Rei started on getting used to Pokemon, so small steps yknow? I took him to Route 201 to find some calmer Bidoofs than the ones on Route 202. He seemed to be a lot more chill abt these guys actually! i tried to get him to catch one, but when i handed him the Pokeball he just stared at it and studied it and got a far-off look.
eventually we had to go back to the lab n report our work for the day. Mizuki managed to work her tech wizardry and restore the computer (dont ask me how man idefk). Prof. Rowan was worried abt Rei messing up anything else in the lab so he sent him home w/ me instead. thanks :/
after that, not much else happened yesterday. on our way back to Jubilife he seemed a lot more relaxed abt Gougar and the wild Pokemon. we were both way too tired from fieldwork and went to bed after some takeout for dinner (Rei was fascinated by the fact that someone will bring you warm food without you even having to step outside the door).
today was much of the same. walking to Sandgem, clocking in w/ the Prof., getting sent to do fieldwork by Lake Verity. atm it looks like Rei is observing a family of Bidoof and Bibarel building a small dam. i think heās been drawing all the Pokemon weāve been seeing lately. i say āi thinkā bc he like. does it in secret. like he keeps his lil sketchbook to himself and tries to hide it whenever i come by. iād like to ask if i can see it, but i dont wanna force him to yknow?
im thinkin abt taking him to get some clothes for himself later today. ive been letting him borrow my clothes as of late and they fit alright bc i wear oversized clothes anyway but. he cant keep wearing my stuff forever yknow? or. at least until we figure out how to get him home. wherever (or whenever) that may beā¦
Hokay. Got busy but quite a bit happened while I was gone lmao
Iāll update yāall in a lil bit, Reiās wandering around Lake Verity rn
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