#n i cant even go on abt that rn (tired) but ive been..thinkin abt it

[monsterbisexual]

things have been scary n hard n a lot but i do feel good sometimes..theres good things too they might not seem like big things or as meaningful but it still matters n makes a difference! things might get scarier n harder etc overall n probs will at least sometimes.. even when it feels like things shld be easy theyre usually not but im trying ! n thats smth i suppose

[magamasubitu]

i cant sleep

i cant fuckin sleep

why is the fucking sky so bright its like two in the morning

wHY IS THE SKY ILLUMINATING MY ROOM AND WHY DOES IT MAKE ME INCAPABLE OF SLEEP???

I USUALLY CAN FALL ASLEEP IN BRIGHTER CONDITIONS???

WTF???

I HATE THIS SO MUCH LET ME FUCKING SLEEP I AM SO TIRED PLS LET ME SLEEP

edit: its ~2:30 and am still awake, at least its slightly darker now (i think) so i might actually fall asleep

2nd edit: ~2:40 i imagined it being darker earlier, it is actually as bright as it was at ~2:00, so i either tire m'self out or i am doomed to no sleep tonight...dammit

3rd edit: ~3:00 still awake i am an idiot i havent even been trying to fall asleep just doing nothing will i even sleep tonight??? man wtf so stupid anyways yea still awake

4th edit: different day (1/1/2023, oh wow its 2023), ~3:15 what am i doing awake? i decided i shall add onto this post every time i am awake and remember this...ive got a headache and am not happy abt it

5th edit: (5/1/2023) yea its like 1:20 rn but i cant sleep, its not like m too busy thinkin bout sum bullshit, oh no no no, m just awake bc its brighter than at 17:00, bc like when its 17:00 i think its near midnight but rn? rn i think its right before evenin so like yea abt 5pm which fuckin sucks cuz i cant sleep cuz o that fuck man wtf this is bullshit

6th edit: (15/1/2023) fuuuck not again wtf why is it happening again it was going so well n now its ruined wtf this is bullshit man fuck everything

[isekaid-by-lord-sinnoh]

so anyways. long story short uh. yesterday Rei clicked on an ad, got redirected to a shady site, managed to download a virus on the professor’s computer and p much bricked the damn thing. so Prof. Rowan’s not very happy w/ us rn :”) but yknow what im kinda impressed he even managed to do that

so the Prof. kicked us out for the day to do fieldwork instead while Mizuki tries to undo Rei’s lil mishap.

oh wait you guys don’t know who Mizuki is. or who me or Gougar are for that matter. hm. i’ll get to that later sometime ig

but anyways i figured we get Rei started on getting used to Pokemon, so small steps yknow? I took him to Route 201 to find some calmer Bidoofs than the ones on Route 202. He seemed to be a lot more chill abt these guys actually! i tried to get him to catch one, but when i handed him the Pokeball he just stared at it and studied it and got a far-off look.

eventually we had to go back to the lab n report our work for the day. Mizuki managed to work her tech wizardry and restore the computer (dont ask me how man idefk). Prof. Rowan was worried abt Rei messing up anything else in the lab so he sent him home w/ me instead. thanks :/

after that, not much else happened yesterday. on our way back to Jubilife he seemed a lot more relaxed abt Gougar and the wild Pokemon. we were both way too tired from fieldwork and went to bed after some takeout for dinner (Rei was fascinated by the fact that someone will bring you warm food without you even having to step outside the door).

today was much of the same. walking to Sandgem, clocking in w/ the Prof., getting sent to do fieldwork by Lake Verity. atm it looks like Rei is observing a family of Bidoof and Bibarel building a small dam. i think he’s been drawing all the Pokemon we’ve been seeing lately. i say “i think” bc he like. does it in secret. like he keeps his lil sketchbook to himself and tries to hide it whenever i come by. i’d like to ask if i can see it, but i dont wanna force him to yknow?

im thinkin abt taking him to get some clothes for himself later today. ive been letting him borrow my clothes as of late and they fit alright bc i wear oversized clothes anyway but. he cant keep wearing my stuff forever yknow? or. at least until we figure out how to get him home. wherever (or whenever) that may be…

Hokay. Got busy but quite a bit happened while I was gone lmao

I’ll update y’all in a lil bit, Rei’s wandering around Lake Verity rn

— Hikari