#my twt oomf was keeping me updated

[miloway]

Life update: I have been REALLY GOING THROUGH IT GODDAMN 😭

1. Saw Taemin in concert, that was dope

2. Bsf got a promise ring from her bf which now means my stereotypical first lesbian situationship with best friend is finally over 🥳 the tension that was once there for YEARS is now gone and I feel light but...

3. So it started 2 weeks ago, I had been interacting with my twt oomfs and realised 3 of them have a similar name, so ofc for funsies I made a list with just the 3 of them and put notifications on for all 3 just cuz I liked interacting with them, no biggie! Right?

Well... then they started flirting with eachother under each other's posts and replies which I could see all of and I also joined in, cuz flirting is fun. Then the flirting started getting serious and shit... And I'm like damn, I'm starting to feel a bit left out 😢 THEN in the middle of the taemin concert on Tuesday during a short break I saw the notification...

One of them claimed the other 2 as their wife and husband and I'm like oooh so i can't tell if they're joking or if they're legit in a relationship... Hahaaaa let me leave a joking comment asking them not to forget me (which they answer to saying they won't)

Then in the following days their notifs started harassing me... The flirting, so much flirting, and that point I realised oh shit I really like all 3 even if it's just platonic and not romantic, I just wanna be a part of their polycule 😭

Then they start to post screenshots from a group chat and a discord server with just the 3 of them, so at this point I'm feeling alienated and I don't even have the guts to flirt with any of them anymore. And I kinda lose my shit on my priv account (I am very dramatic) I even post something about being depressed on my main and one of them responds comforting me 😭😭😭 and I'm like goddamn you don't even know this play is about you 💔

The flirting continues and slowly I start seeing more "I love you"s in the notifs and I'm like, Oh. They're actually in a relationship aren't they, well shit. Now I feel like I'm butting in where I don't belong but I still like all of them and still want to interact with them so I keep their notifications on.

Then I stupidly make the mistake of mentioning on main that I have a priv and one of them replies asking to become moots on each other's privs... Well ofc I accept, but not before deleting every single twt I made about them, then another one makes a priv and I'm like sure fuck it, I'll add them to my priv too, so now I can't vent on my priv without outright saying what I'm talking about (I have to be vague and shit) so I'm venting here instead :D

Now I'm getting to the point where idk how much more of this I can take, I'll be waiting until the end of this week to decide if I turn off their notifs or not 😭

This keeps reminding me of situations that I've ended up in with my bsf like... Sighhh I wanna vent about it but I don't wanna air out her business so now I feel a bit stuck (I should write some songs) anyways there are many similarities to situations I've been in the past 🥲

I always end up stuck as an outsider trying to get in to another's relationship, or atleast it's feels like it, it never happens but I just crave to be apart of it but ik thats impossible for me. I just can't help but think I'll never be good enough for that and I'm never worth being someone's priority, so I stick to the sidelines, just watching as my heart cracks every time I witness a scene. Why can't I be a part of that, why can't I love right, why do I know that if it actually happens, I'll hurt the other with the only way that I'm able to love.

Fuck.

[ibunyang]

Hi! Despite tontontwt being in shambled rn.. just know i will never hate ur art.. u carry tonton nation non-oomf :) ive always never really cared about peoples views on fictional themes, and honestly i dont get why it has to be a big deal. It doesnt have to be a us vs them argument. I wish antis would learn that you can curate your own space without having to bash people over the skull just for viewing things differently. The block button us right there lol.. Anywho! Ill be following your wonderful tonton art up here for now, since tumblr is a much happier and quieter space for anti-harassment :) have a great halloween!!! 🧡🫶

Thank you for being so kind... and agree! I don't like fighting... 😭 if I'm not gonna get through to you, and you're not going to see my point of view I don't feel the need to try anymore... I grew up around this kind of mindset already with exposure to fandoms/convention and just talking a lot with different people in spaces like tumblr/deviantart and stuff.. I know what I like and I can curate my own experience in fandoms, I don't want to interact with people who immediately persecute someone just because they like something they deem problematic (in fiction.) These kinds of people make Fandom space awful for me...makes me warry of people.... OTZ idk if I'm making sense.

But yeah, blocking is the best option for me, I'm really sorry for being the bullet in this situation 🧍‍♂️ I feel like it's somehow my fault, but I wanted to be firm with my boundaries, and respect theirs as well.

To me fiction has always been fiction, and it's the only place where you can explore darker themes safely. 🧍‍♂️ so idk OTL

But again...Thank u nonoomf... I hope tumblr is better for you 😭❤️❤️ I'll try to update here as frequently as I update twt, but I have no promises ( ´,_ゝ`) keep safe and have a great weekend!

[jaeminslattes]

IVE BEEN GOOD TOO i’m seriously enjoying my summer holidays and meeting w friends and all and i’m gonna go summer job hunting next week so yeaahhh 😸 i hope you enjoyed your trip to your home country too 🥹❤️

ALSO I FELT YOU ON THE GROWING OUT OF KPOP STUFF me and oomf on here have been talking about it too 😭😭 i swear i don’t think i’ve actually watched any kpop content and the only stuff i see is from my twt timeline, which i don’t even tweet much on anymore as well cos it just feels like i’m forcing the tweets 😓 football and youtube really got me like sorry haechan i lowkey want hamzahthefantastic more rn.. still tuned in for the music tho (barely because i’ve been listening to western music more too 😭😭😭😭) HAECHAN YOURE LOSING ME!!

YOU SOOOO AHOULD IF YOU WANT TO SERIOUSLY!!! if you have doubt just check the tags for the fandom that you want to write for and see how the usual engagement on that stuff is!! i 100% support you in it, whatever you do :w another oomf also stopped writing for nct and has moved to f1blr so atp don’t be too worried about switching !!!

ANYWAYS ILY I MISSED YOU DONT GET IT i think its gonna be almost a year since we’ve become mutuals on here too, pretty cute 🫂❤️

IM SO HAPPY FOR U BAEEE IM SO SURE ITS FOING AMAIZIGNNGGN !! i hopw u get a job thats easy i donr want u to tire urseld fast 😞

NO LIKE IM SAYINGGG im starting to think it was a pha- [GUNSHOTS] ok but like not phase??? i do listen to kpop time to time or when i get a few songs on my fyp and i feel like the phase was obsessing WITH the groups, not their music, since ots js music in another language. AND I AGREEEE TWT IS WHAT IS KEEPING ME UPDATED AB KPOP 😭🙏🙏🙏 i also be forgetting to listen to kpop sometimes, i feel like its cause im surrounded by ppl who dont listen to kpop so eventually when u dont have ppl to talk to it about smth u kinda grow out of it?? I UNFERSTAND U GIRL DOYO IS LOSING ME TOO 😭🙏🙏🙏

f1blr.. 😅😅 fun fact im into f1 too and i was thinking ab also opening a f1 blog but theres sooo many vlogs i wanna open: a marvel one, a f1 one, dc one, & a harry potter one but i also wanna post on my kpop blog but the message app i have SUCK and it demotivates me sooo much 💔 BUT TJANK UUU SO MUCHHH URE THE BESTTTT MWAH

iMISSED U SO MUCH TOO GIRL. 😭💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 AND IT IS??? THATS SO ADORABLE YAYYY HAPPY ALMOST ONE YEAR TO US THENNN

man i love talking to u like this lets do ir more often :3

[phant0m-ch3rry]

rip to fukusaku in the rarepair tournament but heres my propaganda from twt

[wonuism]

Your jihoon au 😭😭😭 bestie im in TEARS why is yn actually me. Like, the level of deluluism is on par for me and thats saying something. Never thought I'd see it in a fic before, i feel SEEN. The whole au is so funny, it feels more realistic than i might normally see with yn being called oomf and oomf-in-law by jun, and some people not being able to see the convo while others can, reminds me of my not so good old days on stan twt. i followed you with notifs on bc i don't wanna miss an update 🤍

“i feel SEEN” that made me giggle. i keep rereading this cuz this is giving me so much serotonin right now thank you so much :(