#my sweet sixteen sucked but my terrific twenty is gonna be amazing

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anyone else who had a streak of shitty birthdays suddenly realize they got “better” once you raised your expectations for yourself instead of feeling like you weren’t worthy of that. like, usually i don’t invite friends over now unless i can be sure they’ll come and won’t flake. and most of my friends from college either have jobs or other obligations so i don’t take it personally if they can’t always visit me. i also started engaging in my hobbies not for others but for myself. but also i’ve learned to enjoy my solitude so my birthday can just be cake w my parents and watching a fun movie and that’s fine so inviting friends so i feel “cool” enough is no longer the first thing on my mind