#my supervisor would tell me nothing abt how shitty i am at my job

[princeyadon]

ive been avoiding making this post cuz i needed time to process and get over most of the anxiety around it

during the week, just after labour day weekend, my supervisor started to really do a verbal beat down on me. it was made worse by the fact that for 3/4 days we were alone together all day. each day she got worse and worse, it got to the point where she would go out of her way to set me up to fail to get angry at me and basically yell at me.

i would go on break and would plan to finish a task when i got back, only to come back and find her doing it for me without having asked, then she would get angry at me saying how she has to do everything for everyone and how her part of the counter she can’t keep up w because she was always having to do my job for me. she would give me something to do and as i start to do it, get angry at me for not doing something she never mentioned i should do.

she put me on fruit station, which im rarely on, knowing full well i rarely do fruit, so im not very good at it or fast at it. i guess she figured i was being too slow at salad station, she expected me to fill it in 3 hours when we ran out of lettuce and i had to manually cut it all. she didnt even finish the counter in a day when it was more full than the day i ran out of lettuce. 

just things like that, all day. any time i came back into the bar from break, or from going to the back, she would be telling me off for something. slamming things, groaning, huffing, giving me scary looks, not giving me normal behaviour [so if she bumps into me normally id get a light hearted, oh sorry aibou!! but instead i dont even get looked at, much less any sort of vocal response]

it got so bad i told my manager how she was treating me, and i told him not to talk to her until i wasn’t alone w her. i didn’t want to deal w her lashing out on me for it.

but i couldnt last long enough, and i ended up having a panic attack. i blacked out for a second when it started and i slammed my stuff down while she in the middle of yelling at me for something, and i went to the back of the store to find my manager. WHILE im going to the back, shes STILL yelling at me.

im full on freaking out, hyper ventilating, i was too terrified to leave the back out the way yer supposed to because she would see me. so he took me out the other way to see the store owner because it was too serious.

i talk to him[store owner] abt it and he was very understanding, and spoke to my supervisor abt it. he told me there wont be any repercussions and that she won’t be bothering me anymore.

i knew she wouldnt. not directly. i knew she’d pull the cold shoulder instead.

and she did, she wouldnt speak to me, she wouldnt even look at me, if she did, it was to make an intense glare at me. like, sorry you did this to yourself, i guess.

she made sure to leave the max amount of time you can leave early, never said bye, took her stuff and walked on out. it was so tense in there that i had indigestion and felt sick when i got home and had to call into work yesterday. she wasnt there yesterday, but i physically couldnt do it

i have to see her all week starting tomorrow. im nervous........ were alone for a number of hours each day;;;. our coworker is back after she fucked her knee, and theyll be together in the morning. im only w both of them for abt an hour or so, and some days itll just be my supervisor and i

store owner told me if she does anything else, to immediately go to him, so i will. but... yanno.....

i usually get up at abt 10am on days off because i get up soooo early for work, that i no longer sleep past 10am for the most part. i ended up sleeping till 12:30pm the day i called in because of it;;;