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dinosaurs-last-day · 5 years ago

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I was thinking 1 through 70, but I realize it's a lot. How about just 1 and 70 to let you off easy 😊❤️.

Nah, you asked for 1 through 70 and I am always up for a challenge. I’m going to do that now! CHALLENGE ACCEPTED YAY!

Plus, I love how you saw the list and though “ALL OF THEM!” I really made me laugh. Thank you for that.

here we go!

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

Not really. I mean, we get along and we try not to fight. But we have very different beliefs on very big topics, so I have to keep that to myself. They definatly have their faults and it definately affected my childhood and our relationship. In the future, after I move out, I will distance myself from the a lot, but I hope that I won’t have to cut them out.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

My little brother. He’s adorable.

03: Do you regret anything?

So many things, I could write a book about my regrets.

04: Are you insecure?

Very, I’m insecure about almost everything. Ask literally anyone close to me and they will tell you.

05: What is your relationship status?

Single, single, single. And at this point in life, with all of my past relationships, I doubt I will even consider a relationship for a long while. Too much pain and fear for rejection and that type of stuff.

06: How do you want to die?

Honestly, I think it would be cool to die from alcohol poisoning or something like that. But if we are being realistic, any way that isn’t painful, like in my sleep.

07: What did you last eat?

a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

08: Played any sports?

In the past, I have played both baseball and softball on teams. I haven’t played any sports in the past 8-9 years and I doubt I will any time soon.

09: Do you bite your nails?

nope, never did.

10: When was your last physical fight?

My dad and I will roughhouse a lot. I tend to stay away from real physical fights.

11: Do you like someone?

I do like someone. Sadly, that didn’t work out and I am currently trying to figure out how to get over her.

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Yes. I have gone to multiple youth group all nighters where they lock you in a building and give you a bunch of stuff to do so that you don’t sleep. I’ve done it three times and have never lost it.

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

I mean, I always hate myself, does that count? Honestly, a little. For almost a year now, I’ve hated this girl who was talking shit about me because she heard a rumor and decided to hate me. I’ve mostly gotten over it, but I still really don’t like this girl.

14: Do you miss someone?

@trixxyneko. I miss her a lot.

15: Have any pets?

Does a little brother count? No, I do not. My family rents a house and our landlord says no pets. We almost adopted a dog that broke into our house, but we couldn’t because of the landlord.

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Tired, sore.

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

Made out, yes. In a bathroom, nope.

18: Are you scared of spiders?

Not really. I don’t like them and think they are creepy, but I wouldn’t say that I am scared of them.

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Depends on where I was allowed to go back in time. Plus, do I have to sit back and watch for fear of ruining the timeline, or can I participate? These are all questions I would want answers to before making that decision.

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

At a party, a year and a half ago.

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

watch anime. Quarantined rn, so not much to do.

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

I want to adopt one kid. Maybe two depending on where I am and life and who I marry.

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

Only regular earring piercings, but I want more.

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

Best subject is probably math. Even though I hate math...

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

not really. I can’t think of anyone. I’ve had to say goodbye to a lot of people because I move a lot. But if I’m super close to someone, I will stay in touch one way or another.

26: What are you craving right now?

chocolate

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

I wouldn’t say BROKEN, but I have broken up with a dude who followed me around like a puppy dog. He fine tho, at least, that’s what I’ve been told.

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

no.

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

I don’t think so, I hope not.

30: What’s irritating you right now?

This virus and the quarantine. Usually, I stay inside on my own accord, but I hate the fact that my choice has been taken away. I understand why, and I agree, but it does cramp my style.

31: Does somebody love you?

I doubt it. I’m a potato and if someone loved me, I’d call them crazy and insane.

32: What is your favorite color?

I love blues, specifically aquamarine, gray, and purple.

33: Do you have trust issues?

Yes. I have had a good number of bad friendships that have given me trust issues.

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

I don’t really dream, and if I do, I forget it immediately, so idk...

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

My mirror. Honestly, I cried watching RWBY a few weeks ago, so my siblings.

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

Yeah, I trust people even when they don’t really earn that trust. And for me, that means believing that people will change even if they don’t.

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Forgive. I very much live by the forgive but don’t forget thing. It’s not that I try to remember, I just have a really good memory.

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

Absolutely not. I look around at what is happening in both the entire world and my personal life, and I feel despair.

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

14 years old.

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

NO. I have no self confidence, I can’t even walk around my house without two or three layers of clothing on and be comfortable.

51: Favorite food?

PICKLES and ICE CREAM. But not together, that’s gross.

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Yes, otherwise, I wouldn’t be able to live in this chaos. I have to believe in that for my own sanity.

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Read fanfiction.

54: Is cheating ever okay?

No. What type of question is that? Cheating is never okay. If you enter a relationship, you are dedicating yourself to that person until you two break up, if you do that. If you want to be with someone else, you need to leave the relationship you are already in.

55: Are you mean?

I don’t think so. I can be mean at times, but I am not mean in the sense that I get joy from it and am mean regularly.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

zero. again, i don’t like fighting.

57: Do you believe in true love?

yes, I do.

58: Favorite weather?

rain.

59: Do you like the snow?

yeah, but I don’t see it often. I could probably count the times I’ve played in snow on one hand.

60: Do you wanna get married?

yes.

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

Depends on my relationship with them. I have been called babe by dudes hitting on me and I hate that. But if it is someone I am close to, I don’t see why not, it’s them trying to show affection. though why they would like me is beyond me

62: What makes you happy?

fandoms, music.

63: Would you change your name?

maybe. I’ve thought about it, a lot.

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

YES, VERY HARD. Let’s just say that the last time I kissed someone, I wasn’t in the best mental health place and them giving me attention felt good. Looking back, they aren’t a good person and I hate myself for falling for all that.

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Seeing as how I am a lesbian, I’d tell them that I’m not interested, but I would love to still be their friend.

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Yeah. He’s amazing. We both have crackhead energy, though he has more of it.

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

Same friend as the last question. We texted last night in a group chat.

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

My discord server and I have had a few deep conversations. I’d say them.

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

I don’t really know. I guess? Yeah, I do.

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

All of my close friends.

Welp, that’s done. Thank you so much for the laugh and the questions. I hope these answers of satisfying and if they arent, oh well.

#ask #anon #anonymous #ask game #thanks for the ask!#long post #took me about half an hour to answer all these #but it was worth it

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hypmicscenarios · 6 years ago

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Anime Attraction

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A/N: High School au. Fic with ichiro, you two slowly falling in love over the span of a 4 day convention and bonding over the fact that you’re closeted weebs. (So he would like tdd era ichiro) And again! I use neutral pronouns! hope you enjoy~

Day 1: You were very excited, happy, elated, every happy word in the book! This year, you were finally going to your first anime convention. Unfortunately, you were a bit of a closeted weeb. People knew you watched anime….just not your extreme obssession with it. Maybe extreme was too harsh for you case, but you were sure that would be the situation if they ever saw your room, filled with anime posters, merch, etc.However, those were all bought online or in stores….youve never actually been to a convention.

Online, you heard many good things about it, and that people there, for the most part, were friendly. You smiled as you got off the train, an empty backpack on your bag, besides essentials, inside an empty tote bag for you posters. You had planned for this for months. Saving up all the money you could from your allowances. Your wallet, besides money for the train and food to eat, was going to be completely emptied by the end of the day. Finally, you took your jacket off, revealing a ( favorite anime) anime shirt on your person. One of your favorites. You could never choose. You could talk about it for days. However….it was Under rated. It was also a bit old...and you were late to watch it, so the fandom dwindled down.

You were amazed as you saw many cosplays, a bit too nervous to ask for pictures, or even compliment them, but you hoped they received your compliments in spirit….something like that. It was….also really big and crowded. You got too into your head, overthinking a bunch of things, that you didn’t see the larger man in front of you, hitting his back.

“O-oh im sorry, I wasn’t paying attention,” you said, bowing quickly. You looked up at the man, gulping, quickly taken aback by how pretty he was, different colored eyes, red and green. It almost seemed like he was in cosplay, but he was just wearing a naruto shirt with black jeans on, a naruto headband around his forehead.

Ichiro blinked and smiled,”no need to apologize, I was kind of standing here in the middle of everyone anyway,”his eyes went down to your shirt and his eyes sparkled,”wait….thats a (favorite anime) isnt it! Whose your favorite character?”, he asked. You were taken aback about how eager and happy he seemed, but it definitely managed to make you relax a bit.

“My favorite character is [ ],”you said, stating your reasoning,”oh- sorry….I didn’t mean to talk that long,” Ichiro chuckled,”thats fine, I love them too! For mostly the same reasons, theyre kind of cool. This is my first convention so Im excited its going off to great start, thanks.”

Oh? It was his first time as well? “Its my first time too, I came here alone, I didn’t expect to be this big, theres so many people.” Ichiro nodded,”Im here by myself too, are you here all four days?” You nodded. “If you dont mind it, we can walk around together, ah! Sorry if thats a bit too forward….”,he trailed off. To be honest, Ichiro was a closeted weeb. So he had no one to talk to, let alone drag to a con. “Oh no, Um, its fine. I would like that...even though I know everyone here loves anime….”,you trailed off, the guy, whose name you still didn’t know, finished your thought,”because theres so many people conversing and being you feel like everyone already has their own cliques and you realize youre alone.”

Well. That. Yes that. You smiled,”Yeah, its that, and my nerves and anxiety.”

Ichiro stuck his hand out,”Yamada Ichiro, 2nd year high school student in Ikebukuro. Nice to meet you.”

“ l/n, f/n, also 2nd year in a high school located in yokohama, nice to meet you”m you said and shook his hand. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad after all.

Day 2:

The first day, the two of you had walked around, played games, went to panels together, learning much more about each other. You agreed to meetup at the same place in the morning. Of course, you were even more excited than you were yesterday. You were dressed in more casual clothing, but backpack was now decorated with buttons you found. Soon, you heard your name being called out and waved your hand,”Good Morning Yamada-san”, you said, greeting him.

Ichiro smiled and spoke,”Morning! Did you sleep well?”, he asked. You shook your head in disagreement,”I barely got any sleep, I was excited for today.” Ichiro laughed,”so did I, so what should we do today?”,he said, taking out the convention program guide. “Hmmmm, theres a bunch of panels,”you said, going to the side of him and looking at the program,”how to successfully master naruto hand signs….”,you trailed off. They really….had a panel for everything.

Ichiro’s face lit up,” that sounds cool, want to go? Although I already know a couple…”,he said, and you laughed,”what? You going to become the next hokage Yamada-san?”, you teased a bit, but he went along with it, of course he did. You found out about this from yesterday. That he was like this. “I am gonna be next hokage, just believe it!”, he said.

“Thats naruto’s punchline you cant just steal it,” you said, watching Ichiro as he thought, then spoke again, very excitedly,”Im going to be next hokage, because I said so!”, he said, putting out a thumb. For some reason, it had you laughing a lot,”b-bbecause you said so? Ahahaha, well, you sure have a passion like naruto, I think thats all you need, its cute”, you said, realizing that you had just called the other cute.

Ichiro blushed and put his hand behind his back,”Sorry...I just cant be like this a lot in real life without getting teased for it, so its a bit refreshing,”he said and you nodded,, understanding completely.

“Well, lets go learn some jutstus even though they wont help against a gun but who cares, because its an anime convention, and we’re doing what we love,”you said confidently, more confident than you would expect from yourself. Ichiro nodded,”Dattebayo, lets go!”, he saidm turning around and walking. You were really having too much fun. Being attracted to him went way over your head for now, simply enjoying the time the two of you spent together.

Later on in the day, the two of you found an anime photo booth, Ichiro dragging you by the arm towards it,”for memories!”, he said. The two of you got in and hit the naruto theme poses. Of course, you indulged him, he was cute when he got his way. And, you didn’t have to worry about poses. Instead, they gave you poses to do.

The first was a naruto sign for any jutsu, the second peace signs, the third you had to stick your tongues at each other, seeming annoyed, and the last one….got you. It was only a hug, but they way Ichiro hugged you quickly and tightly, pushing both of your faces together, eft you shocked, and you were sure the picture didn’t turn out well. Once you got out and looked at it, Ichiro pointed to last one,”its like you were trying so hard not to blink, but we’re cute, arent we?”,he said and you laughed:yea we really are”, you replied, more focused on the current pace of your heart...beating very rapidly. You paid for two copies so you could keep it. The rest of the day, you two kept up your shenanigans. It was tough leaving, but you were going to come back tomorrow and, hopefully, your heart would learn to behave.

Day 3:

The two of you sat down to eat lunch on the third day, already having gone through a couple activities.

“Theres Jiro, then theres Saburo, and Saburo is the oldest. We’re all pretty close but Saburo and Jiro always fight a lot, typical sibling stuff…..and a lot of the times it includes me. I keep telling them I dont have favorites but they never listen,”Ichiro sighed with a smile on his face. It wasn’t an exhausted sigh though, he was used to it, it was just how they worked.

You smiled as he rambled on about his brothers. It was very clear that he cherished the both of them dearly and would do anything for them. “That must be nice….Im an only child so I could never relate to these type of things. Thats why I got into anime really, theres was no one that I could play with at the snap of a finger if I wanted to-oh Im not sad about it or anything, I love anime, it was really there for me in trying times, plus the internet.”

Ichiro nodded and then spoke,”Well, you have me now too, and you can be as passionate as you want, no holding back. You have my number now and its already fun texting you when we’re not at the convention.” He was right. After you guys left, you were quickly texting each other at home before you went to sleep. You sent each other memes,pictures, and talked about a bunch of different topics, that often you had smiling or laughing at your phone.

At that point….you knew had a crush. It was only two days but he was just so…..it was the little things really, not just the fact that you had anime in common. When you were walking through the convention center, going through a massive crowd, he told you to hold onto his jacket, so you wouldn’t get lost. Or how he quickly offered to help hold your stuff when you were buying merchandise. Or even him talking about how much he loves his brothers. Rather than weird, it was insanely cute to you.

It wasnt love per say…..well. Lets be real. You were a sucker when it came to love. Honestly, you dont even feel like counting how many crushes you had but none of those ever came to fruition. You should just focus on your anime boys but the moment some other boy is even the slightest bit kind to you, like helping you carry books, your heart falls. Despite that though, you felt like this was different. More than just a couple simple acts of kindness.

“Im really enjoying our time here, we’re going to the cosplay masquerade today right? We still have some time to kill, want to go to the game hall?”, you asked,”then we can see which one of us is better at dance dance revolution.” Ichiro smiled and nodded his head,”Yeah! Youre on!”

After that, the two of you managed to spend all of your time in the hall. Ichiro was by a claw machine and you commented,”I suck at these things,”then looked inside, seeing what plushies they had. “I think im pretty decent,”Ichiro said, walking up,”sometimes I won stuff for saburo when I was little...he grew out of it though,”Ichiro said with a laugh.He wanted to try it.

“Good Luck Yamada-kun!”, you said, cheering him on. You were amazed by how focused he looked. “Do you want anything specific?”,he asked you. “Wait, me?”, you said, trying to clarify. Ichiro laughed,”I think you’re the only l/n here,”he said. That...kind of caught you off guard. But you walked up and placed your hands against the glass. “Ummmm, that cat in the middle is kind of cute.”

Ichiro nodded. The first time, he managed to pick the plushie up for about three seconds before it fell, but that was better than what you could do! The second time, he managed to grab it again, your eyes wide in anticipation as you followed the claw and plushie to the drop off slot. “Oh my god, you did it!”,you said, going to high five both of Ichiro’s hands but, instead of letting go, he held them and put them down,”Yeah I did! Guess I didn’t lose my skill after all.” “Yeah...youre amazing”, you said, trying to not comment on the fact that he was still holding both of your hands. God….your heart was a mess. There was no denying you fell for him. At most, it was very high like at this point.

Day 4:

Ichiro was excited to see you again. Well, half-excited and half-sad. He really liked hanging out with you. More often than not, he found himself thinking about how you look best when theres a smile on your face. So, he always did dumb things to make you smile, no matter how stupid it may have looked. Maybe it was because you didn’t think his obsession was weird. When you guys talked, your interests lined up more than he thought they would. It was perfect.

Of course, he eventually figured out that he’d want to see you, in a more romantic context, that it is. He knew his feelings towards you were different. Honestly, he even weirdly got a little bit jealous when you mentioned how hot a specific anime character was. Ichiro didn’t necessarily plan on confessing that day….but who knows how things would turn out. Yes, it had only been three days, but he felt like he knew you already. Really, you guys always messaged each other.

The conversations would go dull for an hour or so but one link to a meme and that sparked a conversation that continued for a while. It was great. He had never felt so validated.

“L/n-san! Hey, morning!”,he said as he walked up to you. You looked like you were thinking hard about something, but Ichiro didn’t comment on it.

In fact, you were. Thinking about how you wouldn’t be able to see him so frequently. It made you….sadder than you expected. Granted you could travel to see him, but it was also due to the fact that it was the last day of the convention. Here, you could be yourselves without glancing over you shoulder every couple seconds in fear that someone you knew would spot you. It was so much fun, especially because of him!

Its for the best though….your funds were just about dried out. You couldn’t help but smile as you saw him though,”hey, good morning to you too, ready for the last day?” Ichiro laughed,”Yes and No because this has been very exciting.” You nodded in agreement,”it has, it does suck that we cant experience this everyday.”

“well!”,Ichiro clapped his hands,”lets not worry about that and focus on having fun, okay?” Your smile got wider,”yes, okay!” Ichiro spoke,”Datteba-”, then he pointed towards you,”Yo!”, you said, the two of you giggling. This had become your thing now, apparently, but you two werent used to it, hence you laughing off you embarrassment.

You went to the artist alley and exhibit hall one last time, taking a lot more pictures together than usual, even with cosplayers! Ichiro helped you out a lo with expressing that you wanted pictures with them and that was yet another thing that you loved about him. Without even asking him to do so, he just did it on a whim, and that made you incredibly happy.

A bit later, it was closing ceremonies. It wasnt much really, but anything to just spend even a little more time with Ichiro. However, that ended sooner than you expected. And you didn’t know what to do with yourself.

The two of you sat outside on a bench.

“So, I suppose this is it…”,you said. You had to get back early today anyway. Yet, you really didn’t want to. You looked up as Ichiro spoke,”no, its not it. We still have each other’s numbers, we can make it work, I-well….these past few days have been really fun for me,”Ichiro blushed, placing his hand behind his neck. Was he going to confess? If he didn’t do it now he knew he’d procrastinate on doing so forever. He didn’t necessarily have to make sure you were his in this exact moment, but his heart wanted an answer as soon as possible, before he got in too deep.

“The thing is….I want us to be more than just friends. I just….the more we talked, the more I found myself drawn to you. Like I can tell you anything. Its really easy to be myself around you, l/n, I want...to get closer. So, would you go out with me? Or not now, I mean you can think about it but...yeah.”,he said, face blushing. He had only confessed once in his lifetime and that was during elementary….he was quickly shut down.

You….couldn’t believe your ears. Did you really manage to find someone who was interested you at an anime convention. Well, you were sure there were more interesting stories but this was still way out of your league. You even thought he was way out of your league.

“I….we can date. I feel the same, about you, I like talking to you. And I think whats making me so sad is that I cant see you...not the convention part,”you said, looking towards Ichiro and seeing his grow excited. He grabbed your hands quickly and held them,”really?! Thats great.”,he said, letting go than hugging you. Oh. This was happening. It took you a couple seconds to process the hug before you reciprocated it.

Ichiro pulled away, looking down at you, a smile on his face,”when I talk with you, I feel like the happiest and luckiest man in the world. I know love is too strong of a word right now, but I want to do my best to make you happy.”

You were so flustered that you made no response, even more so when you felt his hand on your cheek and saw him leaning in. It all happened quickly. You closed your eyes and suddenly his lips were on yours. No movement, but it lingered for a moment, before he pulled away.

That was your first...kiss. You didn’t mind that it got taken by him but still….it was so much to process. Ichiro brought you back to reality,”Ikebukuro isn’t too far from Yokohama on the train, maybe we could meet in the middle on weekends, or switch up, ah, well I guess we can talk about this letter, getting ahead of myself,”he said and chuckled, which only prompted you to let out a soft laugh. He was like an eager puppy that you wanted to pet. Weird how he so easily calmed your nerves by the sounds of your laughs.

“Datteba-”

“Yo!”

#ichiro yamada #hypnosis mic #hypmic #hypmic x reader #hypmic scenarios #ichiro yamada x reader #ichiro x reader

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lenillusion · 2 years ago

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hope u dont mind my extension to this topic op

this weird ideology that ppl have in this fandom is so wild to me bc people will treat this cast of characters which consists of summer camp councilors, a sketchy hillbilly family, and a traveling show runner like actual war criminals 😭😭

(note: its perfectly fine to dislike a fictional character (especially ones that do wack shit and arent well written) but the way some people go about expressing that dislike is,,,,, distasteful to say the least)

and a lot of the way people r treating them is stemming from misogyny, racism, ableism, and a severe lack of media literary skills. unfortunately

like i can not count the amount of times ive watched a streamer immediately call Emma a bitch, a hoe, and "for the streets" after she kisses Nick (which while it was fucked up, it doesnt warrant a lot of the shit thrown at her) and then continue treat her like some unearthly hell spawn from the bottom of their shoe for the rest of the game, even when she shows plenty of times that she's not that awful.

Abi and Kaitlyn get it less, ive noticed, but even still it doesnt take much time time to find people giving them the same variety of treatment as Emma (+ the added bs that comes from Kaitlyn being an asian woman)

Not a lot to say about Jacob because i understand that he is a pretty hit or miss character for a lot of people. However it is somewhat infuriating to see people define his character solely by his actions in chapter one and refuse to acknowledge his other attributes.

On the same vein as Jacob, Nick did not have a lot of time for us to get to know him and im not expecting people to comb through the game and overanalysis the stuff we DO get from him however the amount of crazy, near baseless accusations this dude gets because of his behavior when he was TURNING INTO A WEREWOLF is absolutely insane. Its understandable for you to think that "oh maybe he was always like that" "maybe theres a hidden dark side to him" bc its not like theres too much else for people to theorize based on his behavior. However, the amount of people taking this to mean hes an "abuser", a "predator", and "has been preying on abi" is wild to me. Like theres people writing near think pieces on these "theories" even though it takes even the slightest bit of "actually listening to the dialogue" and "understanding meta" to disprove that. (and even if u couldnt do that Evan Evagora literally confirmed it so)

I dont feel that theres anything to say about Dylan on this topic (other than general homophobia and slight ableism) considering hes relatively well liked in the fandom. Though there are definately other conversations about weird character treatment that he fits into.

Same goes for Laura and Max. For some reason people were a lot more understanding about Max's werewolf mood swings than Nick's and as far as im aware, Laura is incredibly well liked (heard some streamers say she saved the game even 🤷🏽?)

Ryan is a another case entirely, an incredibly baffling one at that because, for the most part ??? he never did anything outrageous to warrant the sheer amount of hate this dude gets. Like I admit, hes not an amazingly written character (there's not many in this game that are) and there's definitely a lot than can be said under the "boring and underwhelming" umbrella (again same with a lot of these characters) + the general annoyance that comes towards a character that denies the very obviously weird shit happening to them in a horror game. BUT the amount of people that dislike this dude for things that are very clearly just autistic / neurodivergent traits is astounding to me. Like ? just because hes "monotonous" and not great in social situations, he has "weird vibes" or there's "something up with him" ? I couldn't count the amount of streamers who got mad or annoyed at this dude for things that were very clearly jokes but just because he said them all "monotone" its like a personal slight. (the "define yellow" comment has about a 7/10 annoyance rate id say). Not to mention the weird way people treat him when he's interacting with Laura and Dylan especially (i cant exactly find a way to word it properly but like if uve noticed it, u get it. antiblackness probably)

Theres a lot to be said about Travis here too, but I havent put much thought on this dude or the fandom's treatment of him since my hyperfixation lies elsewhere. Theres definately someone out there that could talk about this better than I could.

honestly i might just be thinking too much about it (sorry for the word vomit) but STILL some of yall in this fandom need srs self refection🤥🙏🏽

The Quarry fandom has a huge problem with “purity”. Any character with obvious flaws or not so admirable traits is deemed an awful person and given a number of weird, untrue labels. Characters are canceled for having complex and messy lives and personalities. No one is perfect, no one is a saint, and that’s okay. None of the councilors have done anything worthy of the treatment they get from the fandom. They make mistakes and say some pretty shitty stuff but they’re not vile people. They’re young adults who are still exploring their identities and finding their places in the world. This isn’t in defense of any one character’s actions, but no one can be expected to learn and grow without making mistakes. And I know you’re probably wondering why I’m so insistent on treating fictional characters a little nicer, and it’s because they’re important to people. These characters are loved and admired by people, and it hurts seeing a character you care so deeply for equated to the most vile shit imaginable. They represent real personalities, real people relate to these characters and see themselves in them. What you say about a certain personality trait can affect someone else who shares that trait. Fiction is not reality, but it reflects and can absolutely influence reality.

#the quarry #heres my think peice on this 🙁#its fine if u disagree lol #but as per my kpop pfp im not willing to change my opinion #venuspeak #the quarry game

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Relentless | Calum Hood Series Pt.10

Part T E N

Request: Being the cousin of Ashton Irwin was exciting, especially when invited to their tour to hang out with his best friends. You found yourself becoming fond of Calum Hood, who finds you annoying from your constant appearance. But what would happen if you stopped giving him that attention?

Word Count: 4.5k +

A/N: ahhh im sorry in advanced! this isnt extremely jealous!cal but it is there! i hope you all arent disappointed in me ahaa i really hope ya’ll enjoy this and please get it to 100 notes, as usual ! xx

Parts: one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty. [DONE]

I M A G I N E

Dublin, 19:35 P.M.

The Jeep full of you and the band finally began pulling over by a large home. It was lovely from the outside, seeming lavish with beautiful stone tiles and sugarcane plants. But it was extremely lively with bodies hanging around it, music blasting from the windows, and lights of all sorts beaming out.

“Hey, you okay?” Ashton asked softly, poking your cheek to capture you from your mind. You look over at him and nod, half-assing that to him. You were unable to convey how nervous you were. There are several famous bodies with net worths higher than your intuition.

“Just a little nervous,” you muttered, staring distantly at the crowd. But then Calum slipped his hand into yours and gave you a light squeeze. You turned over to him, being greeted with one of his warm, reassuring smiles.

“It’ll be okay,” Calum said quietly. He gives you a gentle peck upon your cheek as the boys begin to hop out the car. Music exploded into the car once they opened the door. “Just stay by me and it’ll be just fine.”

“Okay...”

Hesitantly, you left the car and waited for Calum to come by your side. Once he did, the Jeep pulled away and Calum wrapped his arm around your waist. The music was loud and surrounded the entire place. Calum began guiding you inside while greet people along the way. You were definitely sure you saw Hayley from Paramore grab Calum’s arm briefly before you two entered the home.

“Oh shit, it’s Calum fucking Hood!” Yelled the owner of the voice who you never thought you’d see in the flesh. Harry Styles, wearing a blouse of roses and black skinny jeans, said with a large smile. Pulling his curly hair back, he gives Calum a side hug while rubbing his back enthusiastically. “You boys came awful late, yeah?”

“Michael didn’t want to seem like a loser and said we should be ‘fashionably late,’” Calum said with a sigh, sharing a laugh with Harry as you watched in awe. It was insane to see one of the One Direction boys at a party this far from England. But then again, what do you expect from a worldwide sensation like One Direction?

“What the hell did you guys do to pass the hours then?” Harry asked, genuine curiosity in his green eyes.

“Isn’t it obvious? We watched some Glee and fucked,” Calum joked, getting a harsh laugh from Harry as he covered his face with his free hand.

“I’ve fucking missed you, mate!” Harry says, planting a kiss on Calum’s cheek as they shared another laugh. His attention was then handed over to you, who stiffened and became breathless. “Who’s this lovely glass of water here, lad?”

Did Harry Styles just call me a glass of water?

“Hold your horses, Styles,” Calum began, playfully shoving him away as Calum held you tighter. “This is my girlfriend, Y/N. She’s also Ashton’s little cousin.”

“Oh really?” Harry replied, eyeing you up and down as he offered you his hand. You widened your eyes, looking over at Calum as he reluctantly gives you the OK. With hesitance, you placed your small hand in Harry’s large on. He then brought your hand over to his lips and placed a gentle kiss on the top of it. “It’s nice to meet you, Y/N. You’re very gorgeous.”

“Th-thank you...” You choked out, having it barely audible as you were still in awe over being in the presence of Harry Styles. Goosebumps spread all over your arms from that kiss, still feeling the light chapped, but smooth lips on them. Harry chuckled softly from seeing your shocked expression.

“She’s never really met many celebrities other than us,” Calum amuses, having you blush even more as some Panic! At The Disco began to play. “And she hasn’t been touring with us, so this is just a matter of firsts for her.”

“That’s actually quite charming then,” Harry began, giving you a smile as he released your hand. “No worries though, Y/N. I’m just as dorky as Calum and them.” You found that very hard to believe, but you took his word for it. With your lips still slightly parted from shock, Calum goes and lifts your jaw up by the chin.

“Anyways,” Calum says with a chuckle as he turns back to Harry. “Where’re the other lads? I was hoping to see Horan right when I entered through this door.” Horan? As in... Niall Horan?

“He’s over at the back, by the pool,” Harry said, jabbing his thumb over to the back of the house. “D’you guys want any drinks, by the way? Might as well get yourself buzzed now that you’re here.”

“Let me get a beer,” Calum spoke in his ear as someone rose the volume of the music. “I’m gonna share it with her.” Harry obliged as he disappeared into the frenzy of people. Calum guided you over to the side so you were no longer by the entrance.

“Calum, why can’t I have my own?” You asked, more in curiosity than sadness.

“Because I don’t trust myself if I get wasted,” Calum began as his lips were only inches from your ear. “I also don’t know how much you can tolerate before you make a bad move you might regret.”

“That’s understandable,” you replied, giving him a warm smile as he gives you a quick peck on the lips. It warmed your heart that Calum was not only worried about you, but also himself. He seemed so cautious already, and you two just started dating. It seems like he doesn’t dare want to make a mistake.

“Alright, c’mon. Let’s go find the rest of the dickheads.” Calum held you by your hand as he began guiding you through the crowds. You kept passing familiar faces, those that are splattered on TV and the internet. You tried not to freak out while Calum finally led the both of you to the backyard.

There were cliques of people all over the backyard, sat in all the seats and on top of the tables. A series of empty beer bottles were ornate all around the pool. People were already swimming in the pool, with bottles in their hands as they held conversation. Lights were blaring everywhere by the DJ, who was on top of the hill that held a waterfall. It spewed out water into the pool, like in that one High School Musical movie.

“Yo, Hood, over here!” A voice screamed, having you look over to see Luke waving his arm at the two of you. Calum guided you through, shaking hands of multiple famous faces before reaching the destination. You looked to find Luke and Ashton sharing a laugh with Niall and Louis Tomlinson.

“Shit, Hood, how goes it?” Louis started, his voice fairly raspy but excited as he goes to give your boyfriend a big hug. You let go of Calum’s hand to let him hug Louis back.

“Oh, don’t think I’ve seen you before.” Looking over, you see as Niall’s blue eyes dart into yours. You were starstruck again, feeling yourself stiffen up as your heart raced. “Are you a groupie?”

“I-I...” You tried, but your words failed you. Luckily, Ashton rushed to your side and placed his arm around your shoulders.

“This is my little cousin, Y/N!” Ashton said proudly. “We’ve invited her for part of the tour as her ‘study abroad’ program for her studies.” Niall smiled, now informed of the situation. He suddenly opened his arms to you and grinned.

“Nice to meet ya, Y/N!” Niall began, waiting for you to fall into his arms. You felt your stomach churn, having you look over at Ashton for reassurance.

“Is this okay?” You asked, having Niall chuckle.

“Of course it is, c’mere!” Niall answered for Ashton, having you shyly enter Niall’s arms as he gave you a tight squeeze. He smelled nice, wearing a not-so pungent cologne. You reluctantly wrapped your arms around him, still in shock that you’re even in contact with Niall.

“This is really just... wow!” You began, pulling away to stare at Niall. “I’ve listened to all your stuff and have been to a couple of concerts, but I never thought I’d meet you guys-- I’m just so!” You couldn’t formulate your words properly from the shock of just meeting 2 members of One Direction.

“Aw, that’s so kind, thank you!” Niall said, getting such a polite smile from him as your cheeks continued to burn from shyness. Suddenly, an arm wrapped itself around your waist as you looked over to see it was Calum.

“So I see you’ve met my girlfriend, Niall,” Calum began, a touch of what you believe to be jealousy rung in his words.

“Wow, really?” Niall was amazed as he took another good look at you. “You’ve really scored, Calum. She’s absolutely beautiful, without a doubt.”

“Th-thanks... wow...” You breathed, still unsure how to take this all in. “I’m really rocking this strong case of starstruck.” Everybody laughs as you give them a shy, small smile.

“You’re starstruck?” Louis popped up in front of you. He bent down enough so his face was just a fair few inches away from yours. “I’m out of breath to see Calum with a very beautiful girlfriend.” You blushed, having Calum tighten his grip on you.

“Thanks,” Calum said for you. “But now I feel like my jealousy is gonna explode if she goes and meet Liam now.” Everybody shares a laugh, with Calum joining in. But seeing in his eyes, he still had this sort of jealousy in his eyes.

“Calm down, I’ve still got Eleanor by my side,” Louis teased with a cheeky grin. “And Liam is off with Cheryl playing beer pong, I think.” Everyone shared another laugh while moving on to another conversation topic. Harry came over and passed the opened beer to Calum.

“Thanks, mate,” Calum said as he began clinking his glass with the rest of the boys. “Oh, Y/N-- Niall is the host of this party.”

“Oh! Thank you for inviting me then!” You chirped shyly, having Niall laugh a bit.

“Have you seen Michael?” Calum asked Ashton.

“He’s with Crystal, playing beer pong,” Ashton informs, having Calum nod before he squeezed your hip lightly.

“We’ll see you guys around, yeah?” Calum began, waving them away as you could barely raise your hand. You never thought that One Direction would be so kind to you. Especially with the audacious compliments in front of your boyfriend.

“Where are we going?” You asked Calum while he dragged you back inside the lovely home. He stays mute, turning into a hallway that led into the living room. A large tennis table was ornate in the middle of it, with a large crowd around it. Calum shoved the both of you through to find what was expected. Liam Payne and Cheryl, playing against Michael and a pink-haired beautiful.

She’s quite beautiful, you thought, watching the two play with such focus. Michael quickly shot his ping pong ball into Liam’s cup, having the crowd scream in enjoyment as Michael puts his arms up in success. Calum guides the both of you behind Liam, seeing as he taps him behind the shoulder.

“Mm?” Liam hummed as he gulped down the contents of the red solo cup. His brown eyes widened at the sight of Calum, putting the cup down to hug him. As he did, Cheryl came by and greeted you with a smile.

“I assume you’re Calum’s girlfriend?” Cheryl asked politely.

“How’d you know?” You asked, a bit in awe as you looked at the beautiful brunette before you.

“Well, your hands are together, aren’t they?” Cheryl said with a fond smile, having you look down to see that. Calum was hugging Liam with one arm, refusing to let go of your hand. “It’s quite cute. What’s your name?”

“I’m Y/N,” you say politely, feeling your starstruckness mellow down as you finally met another girl. “You’re Cheryl, right? You’re really beautiful.”

“Aw, you’re so sweet!” Cheryl says as she gives you a gentle tap on your shoulder. It was exposed after all, as you were wearing a white, off-the-shoulder shirt. “You’re a button yourself.”

“And I thought I was going to get jealous from all the boys.” The two of you turn to see Calum and Liam staring at the two of you. Calum gave you a light squeeze of your hand. “Now I’m gonna get overworked by girls complimenting my girlfriend, too.”

“It’s alright, mate,” Liam tries to reassure. His oak eyes study you for a moment before he gives you a warm smile. “She is beautiful, you should be happy that other people see what you see, Cal.”

“Well, yeah, I guess,” Calum replies with a mutter, still overprotective as he pulled you over and leaned your side against his. His arm was back around your waist as he kissed your temple. “Still can’t help my jealousy though.”

“Understandable,” Liam replies as he takes Cheryl in his arms as well. “What’s your name, love?”

“Y/N...” you breathed, your eyes completely wide to see Liam in the flesh and as well calling you beautiful. The One Direction boys would be the end of Calum Hood soon. “You’re Liam P-Payne...” Your cheeks flushed pink as the other three laughed at you.

“Y/N!” A voice suddenly called for you, turning over to see the other side of the tennis table. Michael waved and gave you a wide smile, having you return it. C’mere!” Calum says goodbye to Liam and Cheryl for the both of you before going to the other side to meet Michael.

“Crystal!” Calum cheered, letting your hand go before going to the pink-haired girl a hug. Although it might’ve stung your heart a bit from jealousy, it was okay. Calum’s previous speech reassures you all the time, knowing that he very much loves you. Michael decides to go over to you and gives you a warm hug.

“I just saw you, y’know,” you began, giggling as Michael gave you such a warm embrace. “You’re acting like we haven’t seen you in years.”

“Calum has taken you ever since he got you,” Michael says, his voice semi-joking. “I’ve missed your constant appearance.”

“Aw, Mike!” You say sympathetically, pulling back to ruffle Michael’s hair. “You’re adorable, I miss you as well, Mikey. But I’ll be on tour with you guys for most of the time, so I’ll be seeing you practically every day.”

“I know that,” Michael mumbled, looking down at you with this surprising shine in his eyes. His forest green eyes seemed more intense than usual, having you ponder this random intensity. His hands were rested on your shoulders, having you look up at him in this confusing gaze.

“Hey.” The two of you looked over to see Calum holding Crystal’s arms. “Mind if I can share a dance with your woman, Michael?”

“I do mind, but because it’s you, I don’t,” Michael says with a chuckle, having Calum roll his eyes as the two walked over to where the other people were dancing. Maps began playing, having you and Michael stand awkwardly as you watched your lovers get close and dance.

“Well, shall we dance as well then?” Michael suggested, having you shrug before giving him a gentle nod.

20:09 P.M.

It’s been a few minutes now and several songs have passed. Yellow began to play, the slow melody causing a few people to take a seat while others grabbed their dance partners close. Michael politely kept a distance from you as he held you a little more above your waist so he didn’t seem disrespectful.

“You know it’s okay to hold my waist, right?” You said with a snort, your hands around Michael’s neck. “We’re childhood friends after all.”

“I know,” Michael mumbled, his green eyes dimming a bit. “I just prefer it like this.”

“Okay.” A few seconds pass, and a voice finally starts to sing in the song. The two of you slowly danced in a circle in simple 2-step motions. As you did, Michael seemed a bit bothered, with a tiny sad glimmer hinted in the shines of his eyes. They were directed towards Calum and Crystal, who were a little more closer than the both of you as she rested her head on his shoulder.

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you

“Do you feel it?” Michael began again, going a little closer to you to speak more at your ear. You picked up your head a bit and looked up at Michael, seeing as his eyes were back to lock onto yours.

And everything you do... Yeah, they were all yellow

“Feel what?” You asked softly, small shatter happening around you as the peaceful song resumed to play.

“His love.” Silence emerged in your mind as you looked into Michael’s eyes. He was talking about Calum, wasn’t he? You bit your bottom lip a bit and nodded, giving him that as you answer as Michael nodded in return to take it. “Make sure to remember this feeling as much as possible.”

“Hm?” You were puzzled, unsure as to what Michael was getting at.

I came along... I wrote a song for you

“I know that the both of you just hooked up, but it’s obvious that love is at it’s strongest at the beginning for most cases,” Michael said lowly, diverting his eyes down to the floor as he spoke. “So I want you to remember this feeling very well.”

And all the things you do, and it was called yellow

“Why are you telling me this?” You asked softly. You weren’t angry or upset with him. Genuine curiosity sprouted in your mind while in this conversation with the bleach-haired boy. The music continues as the conversation stood still between the both of you.

“So that when there ever comes a time when you think you don’t feel it,” Michael began, raising his eyes once more to introduce you to that small hint touch of sadness. “Remind yourself of that feeling so you understand the difference of being loved properly and not.” You looked into Michael’s eyes, his sadness wiped away with genuine care.

Your skin, oh yeah your skin and bones

Turn into something beautiful

You know, you know I love you so

“Thank you, Mikey,” you said softly, getting a genuine smile from Michael’s lips. You went up and gave him a tight hug, feeling his arms wrap around you in return to create the embrace. His hand safey placed itself in your head, weaving into your hair slightly. It felt warm and safe, knowing how much Michael cared about you. No matter what happens, you’d know that Michael would be there, ready with his arms open and his warm smile welcoming.

You know I love you so...

“Hurry up and finish your damn bottle, Harry!” Liam demanded as Harry began chugging his Murphy’s bottle. You all cheered him on as he had a bit of beer streaming down the curve of his lips and down to his chin. It began dripping down to the carpet, having you all laugh as he lets out a loud burp.

“You’re fucking disgustin’ mate!” Niall yelled as he playfully waved the air in front of him. You with the entirety of 5SOS and 1D were sat in a circle with Cheryl and a few more party goers. Everyone wanted to play a bit of Truth or Dare, hence initiating this.

“At least he emptied it, yeah?” Louis joked, everybody laughing again as he nudged Niall. Harry wiped the streaming beer away as he rubbed his hands together in preparation for the game. As Liam announced the rules, Calum pulled you over between his legs, forcing you to pull your legs together from this new seating arrangement. Thankfully, you had shorts on so it was much easier to do so. Calum’s arms wrapped around your belly as he held you close, feeling his torso from your back.

“Alright, who wants to be the lucky bastard to go first?” Liam announces, having Luke wave his hand like a little kid in class trying to participate. “Alright Hemmings, here.” Liam places the bottle in the middle of everybody, having Luke stretch out from his comfortable seating as he spun the bottle. It landed on Niall.

“Oh, the lucky host gets the first go!” Calum cheered happily, having you giggle from his immense excitement. Niall’s eyes go a bit wide before laughing while looking at Luke.

“I dare you to chug these 3 cans of beers here in under 2 minutes,” Luke says as he glanced over at the beers behind him. He tosses them to Niall, who gladly takes them as Louis takes out his pocket knife to make a hole in the first one.

“Let’s go, Niall!” Harry screamed, initiating the start of the dare as Niall begins to down the can. It was so hyper and explosive, the energy of the game. Calum was as well into it, but couldn’t help peck a few kisses against your neck. He’d rub his fingertips against the spine of your back, seeing the way you contort your body slightly from the light, but strong motion.

In the end, Niall drank those beers in a minute and 42 seconds.

Everybody continued the game, all the fun in it as they did ridiculous dares. From Cheryl kissing another girl to Ashton giving a bad lap dance to Louis. You loved the atmosphere, even while Calum kept passing dares for you that involved doing things with other people that wasn’t him.

“Calum, it’s you,” a girl beside him announces as Calum looks past you to see the bottle pointed at his foot. He shrugs and let’s out a ‘can’t be helped’ as he looked over at who spun it. It was Harry, of course.

“Truth or dare, loser,” Harry asked, having Calum stick his tongue out at him as he thought for a good moment.

“How about truth?” Calum said, almost suggestively, as he held you tight. Everybody else groaned a bit, as they didn’t enjoy truths. They were typically boring at most parties.

“Hmm...” Harry thought, tapping at his chin as he stared up at the ceiling. But then his green eyes darted back down to you and his lips suddenly formed into a smirk. “Tell us your real feelings about Y/N. And be honest.”

A frenzy of ‘ooo’s began as all the girls stared at Calum eagerly. Even the boys seemed interested in what Calum has to say. You blushed, looking behind at Calum as he studied your face closely. He held a stern face, but his lips slowly curved into a soft smile before turning back to the circle.

“My real feelings?” Calum repeated. “I’d have to say that I adore her with every single atom of my body. If you’re asking for my real feelings, that’s the only real response I can give you. Nobody here would ever get to understand my feelings for her with mere words. Not even lyrics to songs dedicated to her could do justice over my love for her. I wish I could tell you guys, though. But let’s just say that my love for her is unconditional, unreasonable, and inexplicable.” With that, Calum finishes by placing a cheek against the back of your neck.

Silence stilled in the circle before Ashton chirped in.

“Well shit,” Ashton began, staring at the both of you with a heavy gaze. “Fuck me, I’m glad my cousin isn’t dating so much of a dickhead.”

“Pardon you!” Calum spat as he wrapped his arms around you tightly while everybody else laughed. Everyone continued the game fine, but as for yourself, you were too busy thinking about Calum’s words. They meant so much to you that you were in disbelief that you could even breathe. He always knew how to make you breathless, and these were the kinds of moments where you couldn’t even imagine how he was even yours in the first place.

22:15 P.M.

It was barely late, but the night was not as young as it once was. The game of Truth or Dare lasted a little under 2 hours, exhausting everybody from the new facts everybody learned about one another. But Calum decided that being in the house too long was choking. So he led the both of you outside to the pool, which was practically vacant. Few couples were there as well, sharing either sentimental conversations or heated kisses.

“Are you having a good time, love?” Calum asked softly into your ear as he kissed your cheek. You nod, swishing your feet slowly in the pool as Calum grabbed your waist and pulled you closer. He places your legs over his sloppily, the tips of your toes now touching the water.

“Yeah, it’s been really nice,” you respond softly, leaning your head against Calum’s shoulder as he rubs your shoulder. “Everybody was so nice and accepting of me, it was so wild. Especially One Direction, that was a roller coaster on my heart.”

“Same here,” Calum said with a low chuckle. “Although I really wanted you to meet them, I was very jealous when they complimented you so much.”

“There’s no need to be,” you tried reassuring Calum, rubbing his knee a bit with your hand. “I’m only set on you.”

“I know that, baby,” Calum responded softly, planting a soft kiss on the top of your head. “And I’m glad everybody acknowledges how gorgeous you are, because you are. I just get a little insecure.” You give his shoulder a kiss before leaning on it once more.

“I’m all yours, Calum, I promise.”

The both of you allowed silence to swallow the conversation, having you appreciating one another’s company. Calum then stops leaning with his other arm and sits up a bit. He takes you into both of his arms to give you a real hug. One warm and full of love. He rubs your arm slowly, admiring the smoothness of it with his calloused hand.

“I love you, Y/N,” Calum whispers on your head. You felt those plump lips against your scalp, feeling him give you another light squeeze. “I love you so, so much.” At that moment, you felt all sorts of elated and excited. Not only because of how he loved you, but how he was going to show you it as the two of you develop your new relationship.

You felt the sparkle strongly there as your eyes noticed a large star in the sky. In that vast universe, there were little freckles of stars on them without knowing where they’ve come from. But here was this large star, shining much brighter than the rest as it looked down at the both of you.

It looked a little more yellow than just a simple white dot.

You felt Calum rest his head against yours, his breathing a little heavier than just a moment ago. He was likely taking himself a small nap, with his arms still tightly around you. A few quiet snores escaped his nose as your pairs of feet floated on the chlorinated water. Giving focus to that star once more, you smile and close your eyes as well.

I can feel it, Michael. I feel properly loved by him, I promise.

ahhh this was so long wth ! im so sry that it ended up so long, but i lost a bit of control aha. please do tell me whatcha think right over here. thank you all for the support, it is insanely amazing and i love it so much. i might not be able to write as frequently now due to class, but i will continue writing. for ya’ll xx

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