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Inoyamaland are Makoto Inoue and Yasushi Yamashita. The alias is a pairing of the friends` surnames – while the Land part perhaps refers to the imagined idylls that they paint with the music they make. YMO`s Haruomi Hosono produced the duo`s acclaimed and in-demand innovative 1983 “ambient” album, Danzindan-Pojidon.

While over the course of the subsequent three decades Inoyamaland`s recorded output, on the surface at least, might appear to have been sporadic, the LP`s initial success cemented a non-stop career composing for adverts, exhibitions, galleries, installations, museums, and theatre. In 2019, Visible Cloaks` Spencer Doran collected some of this commissioned work for an excellent compilation on Light In The Attic off-shoot, Empire Of Signs.

In the late 1990s Inoyamaland began collaborating with Kazunao Nagata, the founder of the important local electronic imprints, Transonic, Zero Gravity, and most recently, ExT Recordings. Last year, through the the latter, they released a new album of originals, entitled Swiva, while its follow-up, the terrific Trans Kunang, will be in stores tomorrow.

One of the four “ambient” acts scheduled to play Tokyo`s Seion event this Saturday, December 4th, at Galaxy Gingakei, it was an honor to speak to both Inoue-san and Yamashita-san.

Where are you from?

Yamashita: Musashino City, Tokyo.

Inoue: Yugawara Town, Kanagawa Prefecture.　

Where are you currently based?

Yamashita: Mitaka City, Tokyo.

Inoue: I still live in Yugawara.

When did you start making music?

Yamashita: I began improvising when I was around 14 years old, and then composing at around 17.

Inoue: My father ran a kindergarten and there I used to play the organ, piano, and xylophone, for the children since I was a child myself, but for me these things were really only “toys” that made sounds. It was just fun. I started playing music properly at around the age of 15. The first time I composed it was when I was in charge of the music for a 1977 performance called “COLLECTING NET”, with Yamashita-san.

How did the two of you meet?

Yamashita: We met as members of the same theatre production, in 1976. I was in charge of music, Inoue-san was in charge of art.

Inoue: It was the the following year that I worked with Yamashita-san on “COLLECTING NET”, this is when we started to make and play music together.

Before forming Inoyama Land, you both belonged to a group called Hikashu. Can you please tell us why you both decided to leave the group and the concept behind Inoyama Land?

Inoue: When we started in 1977, the name we gave ourselves was Hikashu. Then in 1978, Hikashu’s musical style changed to New Wave, with the addition of vocalist Koichi Makigami, guitarist Masamichi Kairin, and saxophonist Satoshi Tobe. Hikashu is still active with Koichi-san as the leader. By the time he left Hikashu in 1982, Yamashita-san had worked on four albums with the band. I was a member of Hikashu until 1991, and worked on a total of 10 albums with them. During that time, Inoyama Land’s activities continued in parallel, but from around 1990, requests for ambient music production – from Inoyama Land  – and my personal music production work increased, and so I left Hikashu. For me, the concept behind Inoyama Land is revisiting the memory of innocent sound-play, as in early childhood.

When did you first become interested in synthesizers and electronic music?

Yamashita: For synthesizers, 1968. I think I was around 15 years old when it came to electronic music. I heard Stockhausen’s Song Of The Youths on the radio.

Inoue: My interest was triggered by two solo albums that George Harrison produced while he was still a Beatle. Listening to Wonderwall Music, released in 1968, I learned about the fun of sound collage, produced by a Mellotron, and from Electronic Sound, in 1969, I was strongly attracted to the possibility of creating various sounds with a huge synthesizer.

What was the first synth you owned?

Yamashita: Roland SH-1000

Inoue: Roland SYSTEM-100

What kind of equipment do you have now?

Yamashita: CASIO TONE Large, medium, and small.

Inoue: Roland FANTOM, Kurzweil K2000, YAMAHA DX7, MELLOTRON M400, etc.

Do you have a favourite piece of equipment?

Yamashita: Really just electronic keyboards, electronic organs, pianos, etc.

Inoue: A Roland FANTOM with built-in MELLOTRON sound source.

When did you first become interested in ambient music?

Yamashita: From around 1967, I began to be interested in the ideas of John Cage and La Monte Young. Then I saw a performance by Takehisa Kosugi in 1969. The record No Pussyfooting by Fripp & Eno, in 1973, was also important.

Inoue: From around 1976, I became aware of the diverse possibilities of music, and new styles of jazz / fusion, released by German rock bands in West Germany, and the ECM Record label. I also became interested in Asian folk music, the early medieval music of Europe, Nino Rota and Akira Ifukube. I was interested in the movie soundtracks as well. I felt a new style of music in these things, which all led to “ambient”, and in the process of searching for more music in the same vein, I came across Eno’s Ambient series of LPs.

Haruomi Hosono produced your first album as Inoyama Land. How did you meet Hosono-san and how did you come to work with him?

Yamashita: We were introduced to Hosono-san by Koji Ueno.

Inoue: In 1981, I made the first Inoyama Land demo tape and handed it to Ueno-san, who was friends wth Hosono-san. Ueno-san had a group called, Guernica, and Hosono-san was working with them.  Ueno-san gave him the demo tape.

How was it working with Hosono-san? Have you ever worked with him on another project?

Yamashita: At that time, Hosono-san was interested in musicians like us, such as Harold Budd, so the work went very smoothly, but we didn’t work together again.

Do you still keep in touch Hosono-san?

Yamashita, Inoue: When INOYAMA-LAND’s first album, DANZINDAN POJIDON, was released as a new master edition in 2018, Hosono contributed some writing to the package. We also appeared on a radio program with him, and talked with him for the first time in more than 30 years.

There was almost a decade between the 1988 album, Recovery Relaxation, and the 1997 Inoyamaland album. What were you doing in the meantime?

Yamashita, Inoue: Since 1988, Inoyama Land has been commissioned by Sound Process Design to produce ambient music. Sound Process Design is an ambient music production company founded by Satoshi Ashikawa in 1983, while Munetaka Tanaka took over after Ashikawa’s death. Hiroshi Yoshimura and Yutaka Hirose also produced music for Sound Process Design. Around that time, the bubble economy had allowed the construction of pavilions for international expositions, museums, art galleries, and large commercial facilities, one after another in Japan, and Inoyama Land continued to create ambient music works for those facilities.

Were you friends with other artists on the Crescent / Wave Notation label, such as Hiroshi Yoshimura and Satoshi Ashikawa?

Yamashita: I met Satoshi Ashikawa in around 1976. He was a clerk at the Earl Vivant store at the time, and I asked him to import records such as those by Harry Partch. Hiroshi Yoshimura met for the first time in 1988.

Inoue: In 1998, Yoshimura-san collaborated with Inoyama Land to produce ambient music for the Yokohama International Stadium.

Yamashita: We was also worked with Takashi Sekiguchi, from Bamboo From Asia.

Did you discuss and share your ideas with them? Do you think there was an “ambient movement” in Tokyo or Japan at that time?

Yamashita: I had similar sensibilities to Hiroshi Yoshimura, and we talked about various musicians and composers. At that time, there was certainly an “ambient movement” in Tokyo and Japan. The central figure was Hiroshi Yoshimura.

How did you meet, and begin working with, 永田一直 (Nagata Kazunao) – first at Transonic, and then ExT Recordings?

Yamashita: In 1998, my cousin’s nephew, a studio engineer, Masuko Tatsuki, introduced me to Nagata-san, and we have been with him since then.

There was a 20 year gap between 1998`s 1984 Pithecanthropus and 2018`s Collecting Net. Again could you please tell us a little about your activities between these recordings?

Yamashita: Again, we were working with Sound Process Design, and producing music for exhibitions and museums.

Inoue: With the release of 1984 Pithecanthropus in 1998, we started playing live again. I`ve come to enjoy playing with Makigami-san’s Hikashu on a regular basis, and also with a younger generation artists, associated with Nagata-san and his labels. Many of the performances during this period were recorded digitally, and as of 2018 they have begun to be released on CD.

Can you please explain how the Commissions compilation for Empire Of Signs came about?

Yamashita: When I first received an email from Spencer Doran in 2017, he`d already drafted a compilation. We then had the opportunity to meet him in Tokyo and handed him some additional archival InoyamaLand material. The song selection, song order, album title, everything was done by Spencer.

Were you surprised by the International interest in your theatre and installations work?

Yamashita, Inoue: Yes. We were very surprised.

When I’ve written about your work in the past I’ve thought that there is a sense of humor at play, which distinguishes your music from that of your contemporaries. Would you say that this is true?

Yamashita: Yes. I think it’s true. 　

Do you listen to a lot of music? Could you please tell us a few pieces that you are currently enjoying?

Yamashita: I listen to a lot of music. My recent favourites are the following three songs:

Inoue: I don’t listen to ambient music so much these days. So my three favorite songs aren’t ambient music, but these pieces have had a big impact on my musical activities.

Nino Rota / Fellini Satyricon

Can you please tell me more about the new album, Trans Kunang?

Inoue: In the spring of 2011, I recorded a suite of ambient music for a high-rise hotel in central Tokyo. It was a work that I liked very much, but the hotel was closed down. So I took the pieces and reconstructed and re-recorded them to make a new album. The song arrangement was influenced by the idea of music playing at an Asian restaurant adjacent to the garden in the area in this hotel. There`s a strong South East Asian influence, and this was somewhere that Yamashita-san often visited at the time.

Is there a concept behind it?

Yamashita: The concept is Ambient, or New Age.

Inoue: It`s music to be played discreetly, on a jukebox, in a quiet hotel lounge.

How long did it take to record?

Yamashita, Inoue: About 3 months.

Were the lockdowns a creative and productive period for you?

Yamashita: For me, it was a creative and productive period, but I don’t think that it really had anything to do with COVID19 or the lockdowns. Rather, I feel that it`s related to my age.

Inoue: Although I had less chance to go out, I was busy with a lot of miscellaneous tasks that I had tackled before, and as the cycle of life changed, I encountered, found, new art in places that I hadn`t noticed before.

Other than the event at Galaxy Gingakei on December 4th, do you have any other gigs / performances scheduled?

Yamashita, Inoue: On December 18th, we play SUPER DOMMUNE, then on December 28th, we will be at Star Pines Cafe.

Ayane Shino`s Sakura will be released globally by WRWTFWW / Mental Groove on November 26th. The launch event takes place at Tokyo gallery,  Galaxy – Gingakei, on December 4th. Legendary ambient innovators, Inoyamaland and Takashi Kokubo – who both gained global recognition via Light In The Attic`s Grammy-nominated, Kankyo Ongaku – will share the bill alongside relative newcomers, Chillax, who themselves were one of the stars of Music For Dreams` “Japanese Chill Out” compilation, Oto No Wa. Renowned local DJ / Producer, Yakenohara, aka Unknown Me, will also perform, while Ayane-san takes the headline slot. The event will be open to a limited physical audience, and also available pay-per-view. The Lone Star crew are honoured to provide additional DJ support on the night, and also host the after-party at Bar Bonobo, in Harajuku.

Produced by Yellow Magic Orchestra’s Haruomi Hosono.

Inoyama Land’s 1983 Danzindan​-​Pojidon LP is getting its first international vinyl release this March via WRWTFWW.

Read more: The meticulous design of Japanese environmental sounds

Makoto Inoue and Yasushi Yamashita’s Inoyama Land project was active in Japan’s environmental music scene, working with key figures including Takashi Sekiguchi and Hiroshi Yoshimura – with whom they developed the sound design for the International Stadium in Yokohama.

Originally released on Haruomi Hosono’s Yen Records imprint, the new vinyl-only release features liner notes by Makoto Inoue.

Danzindan​-​Pojidon follows Light In The Attic Records sub-label Empire of Signs’ release of Inoue and Yamashita’s later environmental compositions, Inoyama Land’s Commissions: 1977-2000.

Head here for more info in advance of Danzindan​-​Pojidon’s 6th March release, check out the artwork and tracklist below.

Tracklist:

1. Shüffer 2. Pokala 3. Glass Chaim 4. Pon 5. Wässer 6. Mizue 7. Collecting Net 8. Apple Star 9.Meine Reflexion 10. 8·31

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Composing for space: The meticulous design of Japanese environmental sounds Visible Cloaks’ Spencer Doran explains the musical world of ‘kankyō ongaku’ – a strand of Japanese minimalism that emerged in the 1980s to soundtrack the architectural wonders and commercial advancements of the country’s economic boom years.

“This music could be said to be an object or sound scenery to be listened to casually. Not being music which excites or leads the listener into another world, it should drift like smoke and become part of the environment surrounding the listener’s activity.” This is how composer and minimalist Satoshi Ashikawa describes ‘kankyō ongaku’ – the umbrella term for a particularly deft form of Japanese music deemed ‘environmental’, or composed for specific environments.

Sharing structural similarities with minimalism in modern art and contemporary design, ‘kankyō ongaku’ sought to provide site-specific soundtracks to public and private spaces, or specially composed audio accompaniments to commercial products, like Takashi Kokubo’s Get At The Wave, composed for a new series of luxury Sanyo air-conditioning units.

Photo: Takashi Kokubo, courtesy of Studio ION

Many of these recordings were subsequently released, and have become highly sought after items concurrent with a growing interest in Japanese electronic music.

Visible Cloaks’ Spencer Doran is one of the collectors and enthusiasts who has been instrumental in bringing this sound to a wider audience. Eight years after his Music Interiors mix captured the essence of ‘kankyō ongaku’, Doran has overseen the first major compilation of the music.

Released by Light In the Attic, Kankyō Ongaku: Japanese Ambient, Environmental & New Age Music 1980-1990 collects 25 tracks on 3xLP, featuring the likes of Joe Hisaishi, Ryuichi Sakamoto, Yasuaki Shimizu, Haruomi Hosono and Jun Fukamachi.

We spoke to Spencer to find out more about the conceptual and historical framework for a musical world that is only beginning to be understood outside Japan.

How did you first discover Japanese environmental music and what attracted you to it?

I don’t think my personal relationship with this music is that important, but my most “environmental” entry point was probably Hosono’s Mercuric Dance, which I came to through YMO and Sakamoto. Shortly after, I discovered Hiroshi Yoshimura’s AIR in Resort while looking for more productions by Seigen Ono, as well as Music for Nine Post Cards and Satoshi Ashikawa’s Still Way from there. At this point I realised something very deep was happening in the orbit of these musicians, and I set out to learn more. I had long been interested in minimalist and ambient music, but these two records felt like what I always wanted US minimalism to sound like. Something far closer to the minimalist schools of modern art and contemporary design and more in touch with the use of space felt in design aesthetics. It was mind-blowing to me that neither were included in the cannon of minimalist music or ambient music.

Haruomi Hosono: Courtesy of The Masahi Kuwamoto Archives

The title of the compilation includes some of that canon and identifies its different strands as ‘ambient, environmental and new age music’. What differentiates these genres for you and why were they grouped together?

It’s a good way of mapping the three different, yet overlapping, branches happening within the material represented, but in part the sub-header is also a way to separate the release from Light in the Attic’s previous two boxset compilations in this style – I Am the Center and The Microcosm. These compilations were made with the intention of mapping and re-examining the history of “new age” music in America and Europe, but it was the wrong viewpoint to approach most of this music from. “New age” generally pertains to music that was an outgrowth of the loosely defined Western spiritual movement of the same name, a movement which isn’t connected to the bulk of the material here. There is certainly a spirituality that can be felt within it, but it is far more deeply-seated and works in relation to a shared cultural history, not Western exoticism of the spiritual “other”.

Photo: Iwasaki Art Museum buildings, designed by Fumihiko Maki, photos by Osamu Murai, courtesy of Kumi Murai and Teruko Murai

Satoshi Ashikawa’s “environmental” ideas exists as an extension of sociological theory and architecture – it flows from the lineage of the ’60s/’70s Tokyo avant garde, Eno’s ambient, Satie’s furniture music, and much of this was coming from the art world or the extended universe of high-end studio pop music. Interestingly, the most traditionally “new age” material included here comes from artists that found careers in what came to be called “healing music”, who were previously involved in the 1970s psychedelic rock scene – folks like Fumio Miyashita and Akira Ito. It’s quite useful to articulate the different forms this music took, and their separate linages as it shows that this sound wasn’t strictly a single uniform thing.

How did you choose what tracks/artists made the cut?

I wanted to tell the story of the scene and cultural landscape surrounding it – all the different permutations that the idea of ambient/environmental music went through, and the ways that it seeped into pop-culture and everyday life. There’s a very strong socio-economic dimension to a lot of this music, as it exists as a very clear extension of bubble-era hypercapitalism and the sense of lifestyle associated with it. I wanted the selections to reflect that. I decided to focus on specifically on the 1980s, as the end of the bubble era in late 1990 was a pretty firm end to the financial support that helped this music flourish. Beyond that, I wanted it to flow well as a tracklist and tried my best to program it with that in mind – a mix I made in 2011 called Music Interiors was an early version of what became the compilation and a fair amount of the structure of that is still intact.

Were there any tracks/artists whose work you weren’t able to include?

Of course. The bulk of the 4 years that this compilation took to come to fruition was time spent working out the licensing. It was an extremely complex process and a lot of compromises had to be made. Licensing from Japanese labels – particularly major ones – can be quite difficult. Plus with the sheer volume of material we were working with, we were bound to have some difficulties. The most significant was Midori Takada, who was pretty crucial to the story. We tried a bunch of different pieces and the requests all got rejected on the license-holder end. Midori is a friend – I’ve shared the stage with her, I spoke to her when doing my research and she’s of course a central figure to the scene, but we couldn’t include her music! That was super frustrating for me. Also, in the midst of working on the licensing, this music started to get really popular online, which actually made things more difficult on our end.

Midori Takada seems like something of a unique figure in this world. Is there a reason why a majority of these artists are male?

They’re not all male, but the gender imbalance is admittedly a huge bummer, it’s something I tried to address with the track selection but didn’t have much luck with. There were a few more on the initial tracklist – Midori/Mkwaju, Ichiko Hashimoto, Mayumi Miyata, etc., but as I mentioned, we couldn’t get the rights to include everything we wanted to, sadly, despite how hard we tried. Satsuki Shibano is also a friend and was consulted heavily in my research, but her original material, like Caresse, ‎was unfortunately too far outside of the time period we were focusing on. The same was true of Aki Tsuyuko. Even if we were able to include everything we wanted it would still be super imbalanced, because the fact of the matter is that the world Japanese music production at that time was super imbalanced, particularly in the patriarchal major label universe that a lot of this music emanates from. They haven’t really had the same movements to address these issues in the music industry as we have in the west, that’s something that’s just now starting to become a topic of conversation.

Photo: Iwasaki Art Museum buildings, designed by Fumihiko Maki, photos by Osamu Murai, courtesy of Kumi Murai and Teruko Murai

The idea of environmental sounds as music in public spaces, or for commercial/advertising purposes, seems to share similarities with Muzak. Why do you think this is being seen in a new light now?

Actually this couldn’t be further from the original intension of environmental music, as the movement’s conceptual architects (Kuniharu Akiyama, Ashikawa, etc) positioned the idea in direct opposition to historical notions of Muzak or Japanese BGM. For them Muzak was something excessive and deeply impersonal, whereas environmental music was deeply tuned to the space it was designed for, and devoid of a homogenised mood. It is specific, whereas Muzak is general – “other people’s music”, to use Akiyama’s phrase.

They envisioned environmental music as something that opens up a space for artistic expression, as something that affects the individual in a subtle but profound way – this is a really beautiful idea to me. There are lessons that can be learned from this distinction that we can easily apply to now, especially in Spotify’s neo-Muzak age of algorithmically-optimised non-music which permeates the modern city. We’re losing sense of the concept of music as something that is constructed for individualised experience and I think that a re-examining your own internal relationship to sound in physical space is one of the keys to unraveling this.

Photo: Fumio Miyashita, courtesy of BIWA Inc.

Given that much was composed for physical spaces, context seems pretty important to each track, and many have wonderful stories behind them. Are there any stories that particularly resonated with you?

The story of Art Vivant – the record and book store that Satoshi Ashikawa helped run – is a big one that stuck with me. It was this small shop inside of a department store adjacent to a modern art gallery. In the late ’70s and early ’80s it was a huge hub for what would become the kankyō ongaku scene: they were the first place in Japan to import Eno’s ambient records and they had niche selections of avant garde and ethnographic LPs that Ashikawa would recommend to people, in addition to art and theory books. Yoshimura, Yoshio Ojima, Midori, Satsuki Shibano would all hang out there – Masahiro Sugaya sold his early demo cassettes there, Munetaka Tanaka (who co-ran Sound Process Design) was also a clerk there. I was with Yoshio, Satsuki and Midori one day when they were all reminiscing about it – “we are all children of Art Vivant,” Yoshio said. As a person who’s spent probably far too much of my life in record and book stores (on both sides of the counter), I relate with that dynamic a lot – the record store as a culture-accelerating social space, a marketplace for ideas. It was also pretty amazing to be able to hone the genesis of a movement down to such a micro level.

Do environmental sounds have any precedent in Japanese music history or was it something that was imported with Eno & Satie?

I get into this a bit in the liner notes, but there are ambient sound-design traditions like suikinkutsu (an Edo-period “water zither” found in outdoor garden design formed by dripping water in a resonant, underground pot, which is listened to indirectly as part of the garden environment) or the tradition of temple bell ringing (toki no kane) that was used to mark the passage of time in early Japanese towns. Suikinkutsu came back into favour in the ’80s after being largely forgotten for hundreds of years, and Hiroshi Yoshimura actually wrote a whole book on toki no kane, his argument being that it functioned as a prototypical form of public sound art. Also, it can be said that Eno’s approach resonated because of some inherently Japanese underpinnings: specifically, John Cage’s philosophies that were drawn from studies of Zen Buddhism. Similarly when Satie first arose in popularity in Japan, there was a sense that his musical approach already felt culturally familiar, though it’s hard to pin down exactly why that was.

Photo: Jun Fukamachi, coutesy of the Jun Fukamachi Project

Library musicians and composers of incidental sounds tend to be somewhat overlooked (although with every KPM reissue that seems to be changing). What kind of status do composers of environmental sounds have in Japan?

Environmental sounds are most certainly appreciated, but as they’re more woven into the fabric of daily life in an almost unnoticeable way, the composers are generally pretty anonymous.

With that in mind, how would you describe the concept of ‘kankyō ongaku’ to someone unfamiliar to the term?

This quote from Satoshi Ashikawa does it better than I can: “This music could be said to be an object or sound scenery to be listened to casually. Not being music which excites or leads the listener into another world, it should drift like smoke and become part of the environment surrounding the listener’s activity.”

Stilt houses (also called pile dwellings or lake dwellings) are houses raised on stilts (or piles) over the surface of the soil or a body of water. Stilt houses are built primarily as a protection against flooding;[1] they also keep out vermin.[2] The shady space under the house can be used for work or storage.[3]

Raised rectangular houses are one of the cultural hallmarks of the Austronesian peoples and are found throughout the regions in Island Southeast Asia, Island Melanesia, Micronesia, and Polynesia settled by Austronesians. The structures are raised on piles, usually with the space underneath also utilized for storage or domestic animals. The raised design had multiple advantages, they mitigate damage during flooding and (in very tall examples) can act as defensive structures during conflicts. The house posts are also distinctively capped with larger-diameter discs at the top, to prevent vermin and pests from entering the structures by climbing them. Austronesian houses and other structures are usually built in wetlands and alongside bodies of water, but can also be built in the highlands or even directly on shallow water.[5][4][6][7]

Reconstruction of Latte period Chamorro buildings raised on capped stone pillars called haligi Building structures on pilings is believed to be derived from the design of raised rice granaries and storehouses, which are highly important status symbols among the ancestrally rice-cultivating Austronesians.[4][7] The rice granary shrine was also the archetypal religious building among Austronesian cultures and was used to store carvings of ancestor spirits and local deities.[7] While rice cultivation wasn’t among the technologies carried into Remote Oceania, raised storehouses still survived. The pataka of the Māori people is an example. The largest pataka are elaborately adorned with carvings and are often the tallest buildings in the Māori pā. These were used to store implements, weapons, ships, and other valuables; while smaller pataka were used to store provisions. A special type of pataka supported by a single tall post also had ritual importance and were used to isolate high-born children during their training for leadership.[4]

The majority of Austronesian structures are not permanent. They are made from perishable materials like wood, bamboo, plant fiber, and leaves. Because of this, archaeological records of prehistoric Austronesian structures are usually limited to traces of house posts, with no way of determining the original building plans.[8] Indirect evidence of traditional Austronesian architecture, however, can be gleaned from their contemporary representations in art, like in friezes on the walls of later Hindu-Buddhist stone temples (like in reliefs in Borobudur and Prambanan). But these are limited to the recent centuries. They can also be reconstructed linguistically from shared terms for architectural elements, like ridge-poles, thatch, rafters, house posts, hearth, notched log ladders, storage racks, public buildings, and so on. Linguistic evidence also makes it clear that stilt houses were already present among Austronesian groups since at least the Late Neolithic.[6][7]

Arbi et al. (2013) have also noted the striking similarities between Austronesian architecture and Japanese traditional raised architecture (shinmei-zukuri). Particularly the buildings of the Ise Grand Shrine, which contrast with the pit-houses typical of the Neolithic Yayoi period. They propose significant Neolithic contact between the people of southern Japan and Austronesians or pre-Austronesians that occurred prior to the spread of Han Chinese cultural influence to the islands.[6] Rice cultivation is also believed to have been introduced to Japan from a para-Austronesian group from coastal eastern China.[9] Waterson (2009) has also argued that the architectural tradition of stilt houses in eastern Asia and the Pacific is originally Austronesian, and that similar building traditions in Japan and mainland Asia (notably among Kra-Dai and Austroasiatic-speaking groups) correspond to contacts with a prehistoric Austronesian network.[7][10]

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When your ears hear a sound, they transmit it to the brain where echoic memory stores it for about 4 minutes. In that short time, the mind makes and stores a record of that sound so that you can recall it after the actual sound has stopped. This process is ongoing, whether you are aware of the sounds or not.

How the Echoic Memory Functions - WebMDhttps://www.webmd.com › … › Reference About featured snippets • Feedback People also ask Does sound affect memory? Non-auditory tasks such as short-term memory, reading and writing are also impaired by noise. Depending on the nature of the tasks and sounds, these impairments may result from specific interference with perceptual and cognitive processes involved in the focal task, and/or from a more general attention capture process.

Echoic memory is the ultra-short-term memory for things you hear. The brain maintains many types of memories. Echoic memory is part of sensory memory, storing information from the sounds you hear.

How Does Echoic Memory Work? When your ears hear a sound, they transmit it to the brain where echoic memory stores it for about 4 minutes. In that short time, the mind makes and stores a record of that sound so that you can recall it after the actual sound has stopped. This process is ongoing, whether you are aware of the sounds or not.

Storage or deletion. Within the short time the memory lasts, the brain decides to discard or store the echoic memory. If the sound has essential context, the brain will move the information to short-term memory. Here, it will stay for about 20 minutes before being deleted or moved to the long-term memory part of the brain. The length of stay of any echoic memory in long-term memory depends on how often you replay that information in your mind.

Duration of echoic memory. Your echoic memory operates on an ultra-short-term basis, so it lasts briefly. It depends on the specific situation. Because echoic memory is brief, your brain can record many echoic memories throughout the day.

Sometimes, two different pieces of audio information will overlap and reach your ears at the same time. The brain automatically recognizes the two separate pieces of information or a change in information. It relies on the echoic memory to hold these two pieces of information simultaneously.

Echoic Memory Impairment Your echoic memory can sometimes lose its functionality. The impairment results from a medical condition or event that tampers with the memory. When the impairment is in children, it causes problems with speech, and communication difficulties are present.

Some medical conditions that contribute to echoic memory loss include:

Stroke Damage of the temporal lobe in people with amnesia Alzheimer’s and dementia, which make it hard to store new memories Hearing loss or impairment Schizophrenia Impairment of the echoic memory affects your quality of daily life. If you notice that you have difficulties remembering sounds you once could easily remember, seek medical help. The doctor will do tests to determine if you have any memory impairments. Treatment options are available for each specific diagnosis.

Temporal Organization of Sound Information in Auditory Memory Kun Song1* and Huan Luo2,3,4* 1Department of Connectomics, Max Planck Institute for Brain Research, Frankfurt, Germany 2School of Psychological and Cognitive Sciences, Peking University, Beijing, China 3IDG/McGovern Institute for Brain Research, Peking University, Beijing, China 4Beijing Key Laboratory of Behavior and Mental Health, Peking University, Beijing, China Memory is a constructive and organizational process. Instead of being stored with all the fine details, external information is reorganized and structured at certain spatiotemporal scales. It is well acknowledged that time plays a central role in audition by segmenting sound inputs into temporal chunks of appropriate length. However, it remains largely unknown whether critical temporal structures exist to mediate sound representation in auditory memory. To address the issue, here we designed an auditory memory transferring study, by combining a previously developed unsupervised white noise memory paradigm with a reversed sound manipulation method. Specifically, we systematically measured the memory transferring from a random white noise sound to its locally temporal reversed version on various temporal scales in seven experiments. We demonstrate a U-shape memory-transferring pattern with the minimum value around temporal scale of 200 ms. Furthermore, neither auditory perceptual similarity nor physical similarity as a function of the manipulating temporal scale can account for the memory-transferring results. Our results suggest that sounds are not stored with all the fine spectrotemporal details but are organized and structured at discrete temporal chunks in long-term auditory memory representation.

Introduction Memory is a constructive and organizational process (Schacter et al., 1998; Schacter and Addis, 2007a,b). Taking vision as an example, it is known that instead of being stored with every detail, spatial information is represented in terms of gross spatial structures (Moser et al., 2008). Although visual memory is sensitive to details that are related with semantic processing (Brady et al., 2008); the spatial information is not stored pixel by pixel in visual memory, but gets organized in reference to certain spatial scales (Kjelstrup et al., 2008; Derdikman and Moser, 2010; Rowland and Moser, 2014). In contrast to vision, it is well acknowledged that auditory sounds are characterized by rich temporal dynamics, and time dimension plays a central role in organizing auditory inputs into temporal chunks of appropriate length. It is therefore natural to propose that there might exists critical temporal scales that structure auditory stimuli in memory.

Sussman and Gumenyuk (2005) used a non-speech auditory sequence to study listener’s temporal organization. They found that the auditory MMN cannot be elicited when the inter-stimulus-interval is larger than 200 ms (Sussman and Gumenyuk, 2005; Van Zuijen et al., 2005), suggesting that 200 ms is important for listener’s auditory organization. However, stimuli employed in these studies contain explicit temporal structures and it is difficult to assess whether the observed characteristic temporal scale derives from the dynamic properties of the stimuli themselves or they indeed represent general and intrinsic properties of auditory memory. Interestingly, several studies have shown that human subjects could form long-lasting memories even for random white noise sound, which contains neither semantic labels nor prominent acoustic features and it would be suitable to investigate auditory memory without interfering from semantic processing (Guttman and Julesz, 1963; Hanna, 1984; Warren et al., 2001; Kaernbach, 2004; Goossens et al., 2008, 2009; Agus et al., 2010; Agus and Pressnitzer, 2013; Kumar et al., 2014; Viswanathan et al., 2016). Specifically, one randomly generated white noise sound, as a ‘frozen noise,’ implicitly reoccurred among other non-reoccurring white noises. After repeated exposure, behavioral performance for the ‘frozen noise’ was increasingly enhanced compared to other non-reoccurring noises, suggesting a gradual formation of auditory memory for the re-occurred white noise (Agus et al., 2010). Moreover, the formed memory can last for several weeks indicating its consolidation into long-term memory. Most interestingly, recognition of the memorized noise can tolerate distortions in both spectral and temporal dimension to some extent, implicating that the stored memory for the specific white noise is not represented with all the spectrotemporal details, but instead gets organized at certain resolutions, as previously hypothesized.

The neural correlates of the white noise learning have also been examined using MEG or EEG on human subjects recently (Keceli et al., 2012; Luo et al., 2013; Andrillon et al., 2015). By employing the same experimental paradigm and white noise stimuli, a recent MEG experiment demonstrates that the establishment of a reliable neuronal phase pattern in low-frequency (3–8 Hz) auditory cortical responses mirrors the noise memory formation process. Specifically, with repeated exposure, original novel white noises are memorized and gradually produce robust phase responses in auditory cortex. Given that the neuronal oscillatory phase is known to reflect cyclic cortical excitability states and acts as a temporal reference frame to organize continuous inputs into units, the results thus suggest that the brain forms more reliable temporal segmentation pattern for the memorized white noise (Luo et al., 2013). Linking to previous temporal scale hypothesis, the results also suggest that the brain may gradually establish robust temporal organization for the memorized auditory inputs at certain temporal scales.

In the present study, we designed a series of behavioral experiments to examine the associated temporal scales in long-term auditory memory, by combining previous unsupervised noise memory paradigm (Agus et al., 2010; Luo et al., 2013; Andrillon et al., 2015) with the reversed sound manipulation method (Saberi and Perrott, 1999). In each trial, listeners were asked to determine the noise type (RN sound or N sound). Critically, one particular RN sound (i.e., sound A) was randomly chosen and implicitly presented repeatedly among other noise sounds that were played only once. Previous work has shown that auditory memory for the particular noise could be gradually formed after repeated exposures (Agus et al., 2010).

Here, each experimental block consisted of two concatenated experimental phases without break between them: learning phase and testing phase. During the learning phase, one particular noise (e.g., sound A) was presented repeatedly among others and subjects presumably would form implicit memory for the sound. Next, during the subsequent testing phase, the memorized noise A was replaced by noise A′, which was generated from sound A by a reversed sound manipulation method (Saberi and Perrott, 1999). Specifically, original sound A was first divided into chunks of certain temporal scale, and the sound signals within each chunk was then locally reversed in time. Next we systematically measured the A-to-A′ memory transferring performance at different temporal scales (e.g., from 31.25 to 500 ms).

If auditory memory is mediated at certain temporal scale and sound A′ is modified from sound A just at this critical temporal scale, the reversed manipulation would largely disrupt temporal representation of sound A in auditory memory and sound A′ would be treated as a completely new sound. As a result, the formed memory for sound A during the learning phase would not transfer to sound A′ during the testing phase. On the other hand, when the temporal scale employed in the modification is far away from the critical scale in auditory memory, sound A′ would maintain critical information about sound A in memory representation, and the formed memory for sound A would in turn be able to transfer to sound A′ during the testing phase. In other words, although sound A′ and sound A are acoustically distinct, they are similar in memory representation and are thus interchangeable in memory performance. This phenomenon was investigated previously and the authors concluded that the memory for a 500 ms noise segment can be transferred to its total reversal form (Agus et al., 2010). However, in previous work, the authors only showed that A′A′ showed memory effect; it is not clear whether this effect is a reflection of memory transfer or re-learning of the temporal manipulated sound. We added a new refRN sound BB in the testing phase; the BB sound would be re-learned after repeated exposure. We thus can investigate the AA to A′A′ memory transfer by comparing the listeners’ performance on A′A′ and BB. In summary, if auditory memory is mediated by certain temporal scale, we would expect to see a U-shape A-to-A′ memory transferring performance. In contrast, if there does not exist specific memory-associated temporal scale, a monotonically decrease in A-to-A′ memory transferring performance with increase in temporal scale in sound manipulation would be expected.

Materials and Methods Participants One hundred and forty-seven adults aged 18–24 participated in the memory transform experiments (Experiment 1–7). Sixteen subjects participated in Experiment 1. Fifteen subjects participated in Experiment 2. Fifteen subjects participated in Experiment 3. Sixteen subjects participated in Experiment 4. Sixteen subjects participated in Experiment 5. Twenty-two subjects participated in Experiment 6. Seventeen subjects participated in Experiment 7. Twenty-six subjects participated in the perceptual discrimination experiments (Experiment 8–9). All participants had normal hearing and had no history of psychiatric or neurological disorders. All participants provided the informed consent form, approved by the Research Ethics Committee at Institute of Biophysics, Chinese Academy of Sciences.

Sound Stimuli For all the experiments, the sound stimuli were generated using MATLAB R2009a (MATHWORKS®), with the sampling frequency of 44.1 kHz, and were presented at a comfortable sound level. Experiments were performed and controlled by the Psychtoolbox 3.0 toolbox (Brainard, 1997; Pelli, 1997). Sound stimuli were presented through Sennheiser HD215 headphone on a Dell OPTIPLEX380 PC. All the participants performed the experiments in an acoustically shielded sound-proof room.

Memory Transferring Experiments (Experiment 1 ∼ Experiment 7) As illustrated in Figures 1A,B, listeners were either presented with a noise sample generated by concatenating two identical 0.5 s noise segments (RN, blue divided rectangle) or a 1 s running noise (N sound, white rectangle) and were asked to determine the noise type (RN or N) by pressing corresponding keys (Yes or No). Critically, one particular exemplar of the RN sounds reoccurred, interspersed throughout each experimental block (RefRN, red divided rectangle; AA sound). As shown in the left panel of Figure 1C, during the learning phase, the ratio of N:RN:RefRN was set as 2:1:1 to keep the two noise types balanced (same Yes and No correct response). During the subsequent testing phase (right panel of Figure 1C), A′A′ sound (red divided rectangle), which was also a RefRN type sound and was a modified version of AA sound by the reversed sound manipulation method, replaced the original AA sound and reoccurred throughout each experimental block. In addition, as a control, a BB sound (green divided rectangle), which was also a RefRN type sound but was newly generated independent of original AA sound, also reoccurred in testing phase throughout each block. The ratio of N:RN:A′A′:BB was set as 2:1:0.5:0.5 to keep the two noise types balanced (same Yes or No correct response).

FIGURE 1 www.frontiersin.org FIGURE 1. Memory-transferring experimental paradigm (Experiment 1–7). (A) Stimulus types in the memory-transferring experiments. N-type (n, white rectangle): a 1 s running noise; RN-type (aa, blue divided rectangle): a noise sample generated by concatenating two identical 0.5 s noise segments. There were four classes of RN-type sound: RN (aa, blue divided rectangle): generated anew in each trial and presented only once; RefRN (AA, red divided rectangle): one particular exemplar of the RN sounds that reoccurred across trials during the learning phase; RefRN (A′A′, red divided rectangle): a modified version of original AA sound by the reversed sound manipulation, which reoccurred during the testing phase; RefRN (BB, green divided rectangle): another particular exemplar of the RN sounds that reoccurred across trials during the testing phase but newly generated independent of previous AA sound. (B) In each trial throughout each experimental block, subjects were either presented with a RN-type sound or an N-type sound and were asked to determine the noise type (RN or N) by pressing corresponding keys (Yes or No). Critically, one particular exemplar of the RN sounds reoccurred, interspersed throughout each experimental block (RefRN, red divided rectangle; AA sound). During the subsequent testing phase, A′A′ sound (red divided rectangle), which was also a RefRN type sound and was a modified version of AA sound by the reversed sound manipulation method, replaced the original AA sound and reoccurred throughout each experimental block. In addition, as a control, a BB sound (green divided rectangle), which was also a RefRN type sound but was newly generated independent of original AA sound, also reoccurred throughout each block. © Upper: the ratio of N:RN:RefRN was set as 2:1:1 to keep the two noise types balanced (same Yes and No correct response) during the learning phase; the ratio of N:RN:A′A′:BB was set as 2:1:0.5:0.5 to keep the two noise types balanced (same Yes or No correct response) during the testing phase. Lower: an example of hitting performance as a function of trial order throughout experiment block (blue line: aa; red line: AA during the learning phase and A′A′ during the testing phase; green line: BB during the testing phase). Note the gradually formed memory for AA during the learning phase (the red plots, trial 1–20). Critically, during the testing phase (trial 21–40), the formed memory for AA successfully transferred to A′A′ (the red plots closed to the vertical line around trial 20), whereas the BB showed a re-learning process (green line, gradually rising performance). (D) Definition of memory-transferring coefficient: the hit rate ratio between the early trials of A′A′ (or BB) during testing phase and the late trials of AA during learning phase.

Seven experiments (Experiment 1–7) were run on different subject groups, and each experiment consists of four experimental blocks. Those experiments mainly differ in the temporal scale employed in the reversed sound manipulation method to generate A′A′ from AA, except in Experiment 1 the A′A′ was exactly the AA (Orig condition). Specifically, as shown in Figures 2A,B, AA was first divided into chunks of certain temporal scale, and the sound signals within each segment was then locally flipped in time to generated A′A sound. The temporal scale used in Experiment 2 to Experiment 7 was 31.25, 62.5, 125, 166.6, 250, and 500 ms, respectively. The tasks and the stimulus ratio was the same in all the experiments (Experiment 1 to Experiment 7, left panel of Figure 2A).

FIGURE 2 www.frontiersin.org FIGURE 2. Memory-transferring performance at various reversed temporal scales. (A) Left: illustration of AA-to-A′A′ manipulation at various temporal scales (from top to bottom: Original, 31.25, 62.5, 125, 166 ms, and 250–500 ms). Specifically, sound AA was first divided into chunks of certain temporal scale, and the sound signals within each chunk was then locally reversed in time (B). Middle: grand averaging hitting performance as a function of trial order throughout experiment block (blue line: aa; red line: AA during the learning phase and A′A′ during the testing phase; green line: BB during the testing phase) at different manipulating temporal scales (from top to bottom: Original, 31.25, 62.5, 125, 166 ms, and 250–500 ms, corresponding to Experiment 1–7, respectively). Note the gradually formed memory for AA during the learning phase (the red plots, trial 1–20) under all conditions. Critically, during the testing phase (trial 21–40), the BB showed a re-learning process (green line, gradually rising performance) for all the conditions. However, the AA-to-A′A′ memory transferring performance differed across different manipulating temporal scales (the red plots closed to the vertical line around trial 20). Note a large decrease in A′A′ performance for temporal scales closed to 125 and 166 ms. Right: the calculated AA-to-A′A′ and AA-to-BB memory transferring coefficient for different manipulating temporal scales. (B) Illustration of local temporal reversed method. © Bar plots of AA-to-A′A′ (red bar) and AA-to-BB (green bar) memory-transferring coefficient averaged across different manipulating temporal scales. (D) Grand averaged AA-to-A′A′ (red line) and AA-to-BB (blue line) memory transferring coefficient as a function of manipulating temporal scales. Note the U-shape pattern for AA-to-A′A′ memory transferring performance with the minimum value around 166 ms and the flat pattern for AA-to-BB memory transferring performance. The asterisks denote statistically significance (p ≤ 0.05, permutation test).

Perceptual Similarity Experiment (Experiment 8 ∼ Experiment 9) Different from memory transferring experiment, all the sound stimuli in the perceptual similarity experiments were generated afresh in each trial and were only presented once, and there were no RefRN-type sounds.

Experimental Procedures Here we combined previous unsupervised noise memory paradigm (Agus et al., 2010) with the reversed sound manipulation method (Saberi and Perrott, 1999) to examine the associated temporal scales in auditory memory.

Unsupervised Noise Memory Paradigm As illustrated in Figures 1A,B, listeners were presented with either a RN-type sound (blue divided rectangle) or a N-type sound (white rectangle) and were asked to determine the noise type (RN or N) by pressing corresponding keys (Yes or No). Critically, one particular exemplar of the RN sounds reoccurred, interspersed throughout each experimental block (RefRN, red divided rectangle; AA sound), whereas other RN-type sounds were generated afresh in each trial and presented only once. Previous studies have shown that auditory memory could be formed implicitly for the reoccurring sound (i.e., AA sound here) after repeated exposure.

Memory Transferring Experiments Seven experiments (Experiment 1–7) were run on different subject groups, and each experiment consists of 4 experimental blocks, each of which contained 160 trials. As illustrated in Figure 1, each experimental block consisted of a learning phase and a testing phase, which were concatenated with each other and contained no breaks between them (Figure 1B). There were in total 80 trials (40 trials of different N sounds, 20 trials of different RN sounds, and 20 trials of one particular AA sound) in the learning phase. As demonstrated in previous studies, subjects could form auditory memory for RefRN sound (i.e., AA sound) to some extent (Left panel of Figure 1C).

The testing phase started right after the learning phase (Figure 1B). There were in total 160 trials in the leaning phase (80 trials of different N sounds, 40 trials of different RN sounds, 20 trials of one particular AA sound, 20 trials of one particular BB sound). Note that the A′A′ sound here was the temporally manipulated version of AA sound and was used as a probe to assess the memory-transferring performance from the learning phase to testing phase (i.e., from AA to A′A′). In addition, to disambiguate possible newly formed memory effects (repeated presentation of A′A′) on the AA-to-A′A′ memory-transferring performance, another RefRN sound (i.e., the BB sound) that was generated anew and was independent of AA sound, was presented during the testing phase. In other words, the learning phase contained only one RefRN-type sound (sound AA), whereas in the testing phase, there were two RefRN-type sound (sound A′A′ and sound BB), both of which occurred repeatedly across trials but differed in their relationship to the original AA sound. Specifically, A′A′ was the locally reversed version of AA sound and BB was independent of AA sound.

Perceptual Similarity Experiments Two experiments (Experiment 8–9) were run on different subject groups, and each experiment consisted of 4 experimental blocks, each of which contained 160 trials.

Repetition-detection experiment (Experiment 8) consisted of three experimental blocks, each of which contained 360 trials (120 N-type sounds, 120 RN-type sounds, and 120 mixed-type sounds). The 360 sound stimuli were generated anew in each trial and was presented only once in the experiment. The N-type sound and RN-type sounds were the same as that in memory transferring experiments such that N-type sound was a 1 s running noise (the correct answer would be No) and the RN-type sound was a sound consisted of two same 500 ms noise segments (the correct answer would be Yes). Notably, the mixed-type sound (i.e., aa′) was generated by seamlessly concatenating one 500 ms noise segment (a) and its locally temporally manipulated version (a′). Subjects were asked to determine whether the sound they heard on each trial contained two repetitive segments or not and the existence of the mix-type-sound (aa′) were unbeknownst to them (aa′) (Figure 3A). The logic here is that the more the a′ segment was perceived to be similar to the a segment, the more the subjects would respond with yes. Specifically, for the mixed-type sounds, there were six possible reversed temporal scales (i.e., 31.25, 62.5, 125, 166, 250, and 500 ms) employed to convert segment a into segment a′.

FIGURE 3 www.frontiersin.org FIGURE 3. Perceptual similarity experiments (Experiment 8–9). (A) Segment-repetition detection experiment (Experiment 8). There were three types of sound stimulus (1/3 N-type sounds, 1/3 RN-type sounds, and 1/3 mixed-type sounds). Subjects were asked to determine whether the sound contained two repetitive segments or not. Each sound was generated anew in each trial and presented only once in the experiment. Upper: the mixed-type sound (i.e., aa′) was generated by seamlessly concatenating one 500 ms noise segment (A) and its locally temporally manipulated version (a′). Lower: grand averaged repetition detection sensitivity for the mixed-type sounds (aa′) as a function of temporally reversed scale with a linear fitting line. Inserted figure: detection sensitivity of the RN-type sound (blue bar, rec.) was significantly larger than that of the mixed-type sounds (gray bar, rev.). (B) Same-different judging experiment (Experiment 9). Upper: subjects were presented with two 500 ms noise segments with 1 s interval between them, and were asked to determine whether the two noise segments were the same or different. The two noise segments were the same (same-sound trial), or totally different (different-sound trial), or a noise segment (A) and its temporally manipulated version (a′) respectively (the mixed-type trial). Lower: grand averaged same-different detection sensitivity for the mixed-type trials (a and a′) as a function of temporally reversed scale with a linear fitting line. Inserted figure: detection sensitivity of the same-sound trials (blue bar, rec.) was significantly larger than that of the mixed-type trials (gray bar, rev.). The asterisks ∗ denotes statistically significance (p < 0.05), ∗∗ denotes statistically significance (p < 0.01).

The same-different judging experiment (Experiment 9) consisted of 4 experimental blocks, each of which contained 360 trials. In each trial, participants were presented with two 500 ms noise segments with 1 s interval between them, and were asked to determine whether the two noise segments were the same or different. In one third of trials, the two noise segments were the same (the correct answer would be Yes), and in another one third of trials, the two noise segment were different (the correct answer would be No). Importantly, there were also one third of mixed-type trials (Figure 3B), in which the two noise segments presented in one trial were a noise segment (a) and its temporally manipulated version (a′). The logic here is that the more the a′ segment was perceived to be similar to the a segment, the more subjects would perceive that they were same. Specifically, for the mixed-type trials, there were 6 possible reversed temporal scales (i.e., 31.25, 62.5, 125, 166, 250, and 500 ms) employed to convert segment a into segment a′.

Data Analysis Memory-Transferring Coefficients In order to visualize the learning process, we calculated the grand averaged hit rates of aa, AA (in learning phase), and A′A′, BB (in testing phase) on each trial. Listeners’ response for sound aa, AA, A′A′, and BB was first averaged across the four blocks, respectively, to get a hit rate curve for each sound (Agus et al., 2010); and the hit rates for every sound were then averaged across listeners. Notably, given that any RefRN sound could be relearned after repeated exposure, hitting performance during the early trials rather than late trial in the testing phase would be most sensitive to tell whether the A′A′ performance derives from previously formed memory or relearning process.

The memory-transferring coefficient was calculated using the ground average hit as:

Transfer Coefficient AA→X=Hit rate of first trial of XHit Rate of last trial of AA Here, X could be A′A′ or BB. Hit rate calculation was corrected by replacing extreme value 0, 1 with 1/(2∗n) and 1-1/(2∗n) respectively, where n was the number of trials (Macmillan and Creelman, 2005). Note that the memory-transferring coefficients were also calculated based on other performance parameters (e.g., d prime, number of trials included in the calculation) and similar results were obtained (Supplementary Figure S2).

A permutation test was performed to examine which manipulating temporal scale significantly disrupted memory-transferring performance. Specifically, the raw data was randomly reshuffled across temporal scale conditions, and the memory-transferring coefficients were recalculated. This permutation was done 200 times, resulting in a distribution of memory-transferring coefficient for each temporally reversed scale. Based on the 200-point distribution of memory-transferring coefficient for each temporal scale, the 0.05 threshold was set to test the statistically significance of the original memory-transferring coefficient.

Perceptual Similarity Experiments For the repetition-detection experiment (Experiment 8), we calculated the detection sensitivity (d′) (Macmillan and Creelman, 2005) of the RN-type sounds relative to N-type sounds, as well as the d′ of the mixed-type sounds relative to N-type sounds at each temporal manipulation scale. Here the hit rates were calculated as the ratio between the number of response “yes” in the total number of RN-type or mixed-type sounds. And the false rate was calculated as the ratio the response “yes” in the total number of N-type sounds (Agus et al., 2010). For the same-different judging experiment (Experiment 9), we calculated the detection sensitivity d′ of the same-sound trials relative to the different-sound trials, as well as the mixed-type trials relative to the different-sound trials, at each temporal manipulation scale, respectively. The hit rate and false alarm rate were similarly calculated as in experiment 8.

Results Memory Maintaining and Sound Relearning (Experiment 1) Figure 2A plots the grand-averaged hitting performance as a function of trial order (trial 1 to trial 40) throughout each experiment block in the memory transferring experiments (Experiment 1–7). As shown in the middle panel of Figure 2A, each experimental block consists of a learning phase (first 20 trials) and a testing phase (last 20 trials). Note that at the start of each block, the RN sound (i.e., aa sound, blue line) and the RefRN sound (i.e., AA sound, red line) did not differ much in hitting performance. However, after several trials of repeated exposure to the particular AA sound in the learning phase (trial 1–20), the hitting performance for the AA sound (red line) began to develop increasingly compared to the aa sound (blue line), suggesting that the AA sound had begun to be learned and stored into auditory memory, consistent with previous findings (Agus et al., 2010; Luo et al., 2013).

Next and critically, during the testing phase right after the learning phase (trial 21–40), two RefRN sounds were presented (A′A′, red line; BB, green line) in addition to the RN sounds (aa sound, blue line). Both of A′A′ and BB reoccurred throughout experimental block but they differed in their relationship to the original presented AA sound in the testing phase. Specifically here in Experiment 1 (top panel of Figure 2A), sound A′A′ was exactly the same as the original AA sound, whereas sound BB was generated independently of the sound AA. As shown in the top panel of Figure 2A, it is quite clear that the formed memory for AA during the learning phase was successfully maintained on sound A′A′ (red line) at the start of the testing phase (starting from trial 21). The results were reasonable because here in Experiment 1, sound A′A′ was the same as sound AA. In contrast, the hitting performance for sound BB (green line) started from the same level as that of the RN sound (blue line), and gradually increased after repeated exposure, thus supporting a re-learning process for the new BB sound. In summary, both sound A′A′ and BB during the testing phase showed better hitting performance than RN sounds, indicating memory formation for both of them. However, they were mediated by different processes, i.e., A′A′ memory was actually transferred from AA memory formed during the learning phase, whereas BB memory was completely re-established during the testing phase.

We then quantified the memory transferring performance from AA (learning phase) to A′A′ or BB (testing phase), by calculating the memory transfer coefficients (Figure 1D) for each experiment, respectively (Experiment 1–7). Specifically, the ratio between the hitting performance for A′A′ or BB during the early trials in testing phase (when A′A′ and BB could not be re-learned yet given small repeated trials) and that for AA during the late trials in learning phase (when memory for AA was fully established and stabilized) was calculated (Figure 1D). Larger transfer coefficients thus indicate better memory transfer, whereas smaller transfer coefficients represent worse memory transfer. In Experiment 1 when A′A′ was the same as AA, The AA-to-A′A′ memory transfer coefficient was 0.96, larger than that of AA-to-BB (0.7) (Figures 1D, 2A).

Memory-Transferring at Different Reversed Temporal Scales (Experiment 2 to Experiment 7) We next examined the memory-transferring performance at different manipulating temporal scales (31.25–500 ms, Experiment 2–7) respectively. As illustrated in the middle panel of Figure 2A, during the learning phase (the first 20 trials within each experimental block), the memory for AA (red line) was gradually formed compared to the RN sound (i.e., aa sound, blue line) and reached a plateau around the end of the learning phase (close to trial 20). However, right at the start of the testing phase (starting from trial 21), the A′A′ performance varied largely for different manipulating temporal scales (red line). For example, the A′A′ performance kept relatively higher when temporal scale was either small (e.g., 31.25, 62.5 ms) or large (e.g., 250, 500 ms), suggesting that information manipulation on these temporal scales did not efficiently disrupt the previously stored AA representation auditory memory and thus the formed AA memory could successfully transfer to the new A′A′ sounds. In contrast, the A′A′ performance dropped significantly when the manipulating temporal scale was around 166 ms, indicating that information structured at the temporal window is critical in auditory memory. In sum, the AA-to-A′A′ memory transferring performance showed a U-shape curve as a function of reversed manipulating temporal scales with the minimum around 166 ms. In contrast, the BB performance (green plots) in all the experiments (Experiment 1 to 7) all started from a low level similar to the aa performance at the start of the testing phase, suggesting a complete re-learning process.

Figure 2D plots the calculated AA-to-A′A′ (red line) and AA-to-BB (green bar) memory transferring coefficients as a function of manipulating temporal scale (31.25–500 ms, Experiment 2–7). As expected, the AA-to-A′A′ showed a U-shape pattern suggesting that the manipulating temporal scales largely influenced the memory transferring such that when sound AA was disrupted at scale of ∼166 ms, the formed memory for AA cannot transfer to A′A′ successfully (red line). On the other hand, the AA-to-BB memory transfer coefficients were at lower level than that of AA-to-A′A′ (Figure 2C, t(6) = 7.2, p < 0.001, Figure 2D green bar), further confirming that BB performance was independent of AA performance. Permutation test further confirmed that the memory transfer coefficients at temporal scales of 125 and 165 ms were significantly smaller than the other conditions (Figure 2D, p ≤ 0.05, two-tailed).

Furthermore, similar U-shape-trend results were obtained when the memory transferring coefficients were calculated based on d′ (Supplementary Figures S2a,b). More interestingly, when the memory transfer coefficient was calculated with more trials (e.g., 1–10 trials of A′A′ and the last 1–10 trials of AA), the transfer coefficients at both large and small temporal scales (e.g., 31.25, 500 ms) were almost the same, indicating that listener’s performance on A′A′ kept high from the start of the testing phase to the end. However, the transfer coefficients at temporal scales of 125, 166 ms were increasing when more trials were included in analysis. This indicates that listeners’ performance for those A′A′ became better at the later stage of testing phase. Specifically, when using the total 20 trials of AA′ and 20 trials of AA for calculating transfer coefficient, no significant difference could be found between different temporal manipulating scales, and this is the same result as calculated by d′ and hit rate (Supplementary Figures S2a,b). On the contrary, the AA-BB memory transfer coefficient had an increasing trend at all temporal scale when more trials were included for analysis (Supplementary Figures S2c,d).

Perceptual Similarity at Different Reversed Temporal Scales (Experiment 8 to Experiment 9) The memory transferring experiments (Experiment 1–7) have demonstrated a U-shape memory transferring performance as a function of reversed temporal scale, with the minimum value around 166 ms, suggesting that ∼200 ms (125–250 ms) acts as a fundamental temporal chunk to structure sounds in auditory memory, also consistent with previous findings (Sussman and Gumenyuk, 2005; Van Zuijen et al., 2005). However, the results might also derive from the auditory perceptual similarity between the original AA sound and the manipulated A′A′ sound. For example, sound A′A′, which is the manipulated version of AA sound at 160 ms, might sound maximally distinct from sound AA, compared to other temporal scales, which may lead to the U-shape memory transferring performance. We thus further assessed the perceptual similarity between AA and A′A′ that are manipulated at various reversed temporal scales, in two experiments (Experiment 8–9), to examine whether perceptual dissimilarity performance could account for the U-shape memory performance.

In Experiment 8, we employed a repetition-detection paradigm (Figure 3A). Specifically, a random noise segment (sound a) was seamlessly concatenated with itself (a) or with a manipulated version of itself (sound a′, at various reversed temporal scales). Subjects were asked to determine whether the sound stimulus contains two repetitive segments or not. In general, sound aa showed better repetition detection performance than sound aa′ (Figure 3A, bar figure, p < 0.05). Interestingly, the aa′ repetition detection performance monotonously decreased as the reversed temporal scale increased [Figure 3A, line plots, one-way ANOVA, F(6,5) = 5.713, p < 0.001] and did not show the U-shape pattern as that in the memory transferring experiments (a straight line with negative slope fitted better than a horizontal line, p < 0.0107).

In Experiment 9, we employed a same-different judgment paradigm (Figure 3B) to assess the perceptual similarity between sound and its temporally reversed version at various reversed temporal scales. Specifically, in each trial, subjects were presented with two sounds -a noise segment (sound a) and its temporally reversed version (sound a′), and were asked to determine whether the two sounds were same or different. As shown in Figure 3B, again, instead of a U-shape pattern, the results showed a monotonous decrease as a function of increasing temporal scale (a straight line with a negative slope fitted better than a horizontal line, p < 0.0232), similar to the results of Experiment 8.

In summary, the above perceptual similarity experiments (Experiment 8–9) indicates that the perceptual similarity of the noise with its temporal manipulated form decreases as the temporal manipulation scale increases, consistent with previous results (Walker et al., 2008). This indicates that the observed U-shape memory transferring performances (Figure 2D) cannot be explained by AA-A′A′ perceptual similarity, but might indeed reflect general temporal scale that structures auditory representation in memory space.

Discussion In the present study, we examined the temporal structures of auditory memory by combining a previously developed unsupervised noise memory paradigm with a reversed sound manipulation method (Experiment 1–7). Our results demonstrated a U-shape memory transferring pattern as a function of reversed manipulating temporal scale. Specifically, memory-transferring performance dropped to the minimum level when the manipulating temporal scale was around 200 ms, suggesting that ∼200 ms might be a critical temporal window that organizes auditory information in memory space. The memory-transferring performance remained high when the manipulating temporal scale was deviated away from 200 ms, either smaller or larger. The entire reversal also remained high memory transfer, consistent with previous work (Agus et al., 2010). We further excluded perceptual similarity factors that may contribute to the U-shape memory-transferring results, by performing two control experiments (Experiment 8–9). Our results suggest that sounds are not stored with all the spectrotemporal details but are organized and structured at discrete temporal chunks in auditory memory representation.

Temporal Structures in Auditory Perception Auditory sounds are known to be characterized by rich dynamics on multiple temporal scales; meanwhile, it is well acknowledged that auditory perception does not require a detailed analysis of the signal and coarse representation is known to suffice. For example, natural speech recognition can tolerate large extents of distortions (Shannon et al., 1995; Elliott and Theunissen, 2009). Previous MEG studies on human subjects have also revealed that natural speech sounds elicit brain responses with robust neuronal phase patterns in theta band (3–5 Hz), suggesting that the brain segments incoming speech sounds into discrete temporal chunks of ∼200 ms, a temporal scale commensurate with syllable length across languages (Luo et al., 2013). Here we extended previous findings to auditory memory by demonstrating that there also exist critical temporal scales to structure sound information in auditory memory.

Temporal Structures in Auditory Memory Previous work has also provided evidence supporting ∼200 ms as a fundamental temporal unit in auditory memory (Sussman and Gumenyuk, 2005; Van Zuijen et al., 2005). However, those findings are possibly due to the dynamic properties or semantic meaning contained in the stimuli. Here we used randomly generated white noise that contains neither semantic label nor explicit temporal structures that may guide memory performance. Our results are thus first consistent with previous work but also add novel evidence supporting the critical role of ∼200 ms in auditory memory.

Noise Memory and Learning We employed a unsupervised auditory memory paradigm (Guttman and Julesz, 1963; Hanna, 1984; Kaernbach, 2004; Goossens et al., 2007, 2008; Agus et al., 2010; Agus and Pressnitzer, 2013; Kumar et al., 2014). Interestingly, the quickly formed auditory memory could last for several weeks and tolerate distortions in both spectral and temporal dimension to some extent (Agus et al., 2010; Agus and Pressnitzer, 2013). Our memory-transferring results are thus also in line with those findings, further supporting that the stored long-term memory for the sounds is not represented with all the spectrotemporal details. Meanwhile, different from previous work, our results systematically examined memory performances for sounds that are manipulated at various temporal scales, and extended previous finding by showing that the sounds are organized at temporal chunks of ∼200 ms in length in auditory memory.

One interesting question is what was learned by listeners. Agus and Pressnitzer (2013) suggested that the learning in the noise memory paradigm (Agus et al., 2010) is the 0.5 s noise token itself but not the modulation pattern of the waveform. Studies suggested that the underlying acoustic attribute for the noise memory is confined in a time length from 10 ms (Viswanathan et al., 2016) to about 100 ms (Kaernbach, 1993), suggesting that listeners might depend on some local physical features to form the memory of noise. However, these studies applied specific paradigms such as shuffle noise internally (Viswanathan et al., 2016) or noise feature tapping (Kaernbach, 1993) such that only the local physical features can be studied, and any form of organization of the sound segment will be skipped. Our result suggests a ∼200 ms temporal scale for auditory memory. Combing with evidence from our previous study on the neural mechanism of noise memory (Luo et al., 2013), which suggest a reliable neuronal phase pattern corresponding to a learned noise, we tend to believe that the noise memory also contains a component that represents the sound in an organized form, instead of just as a local feature.

Neural Mechanism for Auditory Memory Recently, an MEG study investigating neural mechanisms underlying the noise memory formation showed that the establishment of a reliable neuronal phase pattern in theta-band (3–8 Hz) auditory cortical responses mirrors the noise memory formation process, suggesting that the brain forms a more reliable temporal segmentation pattern for the memorized white noise (Luo et al., 2013). The theta-band corresponds to a temporal window of approximately ∼200 ms, thus also matching well with the present behavioral results. The ∼200 ms scale is also consistent with speech perception (Saberi and Perrott, 1999; van Wassenhove et al., 2007; Remez et al., 2008; Luo and Poeppel, 2012) and music perception (Hickok et al., 2015).

Physical Similarity Controls Moreover, our two control experiments (Experiment 8–9) have excluded the perceptual similarity interpretations for the U-shape memory-transferring results. We further quantified the similarity in acoustic property between the noise segment and its temporally reversed version in several ways: sound signals (Supplementary Figure S1a), temporal envelopes (Supplementary Figure S1b), and spectrum profiles (Supplementary Figure S1c). None of these physical similarity values showed a U-shape performance as a function of temporally reversed scales, as that in memory-transferring performance, further supporting that the observed temporal structures in auditory memory are independent of acoustic properties of sound stimuli.

Ethics Statement This study was carried out in accordance with the recommendations of the Research Ethics Committee at Institute of Biophysics, Chinese Academy of Sciences with written informed consent from all subjects. All subjects gave written informed consent in accordance with the Declaration of Helsinki. The protocol was approved by the Research Ethics Committee at Institute of Biophysics, Chinese Academy of Sciences.

Author Contributions KS took part in experimental design, data collection, data analysis and writing the paper. HL took part in project initiation, experimental design, data analysis, paper writing, and supplying research tools and infrastructure.

Funding This work was supported by the National Nature Science Foundation of China Grant 31522027 and 31571115 to LH.

Conflict of Interest Statement The authors declare that the research was conducted in the absence of any commercial or financial relationships that could be construed as a potential conflict of interest.

Acknowledgment

Sound the alarm: how sounds affect our memory and emotions Sound is used in movies, TV and music in order to manipulate our moods and perceptions DEVON YARBROUGH NOV 1, 2017 Comments

Sound plays an influential part in how we view the world. It gives us social cues and evokes certain emotions, such as a dog barking might instill fear or a baby laughing can cause happiness.

The official term for the study of sound is psychoacoustics, which includes the psychological and physiological responses to any sounds, music and speech. Sound affects our perception of depth, speed and motion, but more interestingly, sound, especially music, is a direct cognitive response to our memories, according to the Independent Hearing Professionals; this response in memory links directly to our emotions. It is also one of the reasons we can remember songs so well from many years ago, as they connect to a memory no matter how small and cause a positive or negative emotion.

Additionally, because sound is associated with memories, we can associate certain sounds with certain events. For example, we can tell the difference between a shriek of fear versus a shriek of happiness based on past experiences and present context. Or when watching horror movies, we know something is going to scare us when the suspenseful music starts to play based on past memories — film directors play off of this.

“Sound effects drive the story,” says Ed Hanson, artistic and executive director of Talking Horse Productions. “Sound adds to the realism of the production and allows the audience to be suspended.”

Hanson, who directs some of the plays at Talking Horse, says the process of sound production is well thought out and includes what sound effects are called in the script to as well as the musical choices. Hanson says they play music before and during transitions of the play to set the mood and get the audience emerged into the storyline.

“Sound is one of those things people take for granted as it is not a conscious thing,” Hanson says, “but we can all appreciate when sound is done well, the impact it has.”

This is a reason that sounds are often repeated, so that we memorize them and create appropriate behaviors in the brain to understand situations and responses to those sounds. This can include everything from TV theme songs to real-life situations, such as hearing an ambulance. Noise is all around us, and sounds give context and meaning to that particular noise.

‘Seeing is better than hearing.’ This proverb, in various forms, exists in a whole host of languages and dialects, ranging from African to Chinese. And it’s not just ancient wisdom that holds this idea to be true: modern research has demonstrated that the brain is better able to form memories when they are linked to sight, or even touch, rather than sound.

Message successfully transmitted Although it’s known that the hippocampus plays a vital role in memory, past studies have primarily focused on this part of the brain’s ability to register spatial information, and less on its relationship with everything else - smells, sounds, tastes - that feed into the making of a memory. Researchers have since found that, although the hippocampus does have a relationship with sound, the paths by which various sorts of information are transported to our brains are not all the same - and some, it seems, may be more efficient than others. There’s more than a little truth in the expression ‘in one ear and out the other,’ and it’s a reflection of the fact that the path by which sound makes its way to the hippocampus to be stored as a memory is not as effective as, say, the one by which sights and visual impressions are transmitted.

Auditory information, say researchers, is best retained with the assistance of repetition. This is why you may be introduced to someone and instantly forget their name, or get to the shop and have no recollection of what you were told to buy. At the same time, it’s why you may still remember the Latin conjugations for the verb ‘to be’, thanks to the endless classroom chanting led by your teacher, or know by heart the words of a song that’s frequently played on the radio.

Auditory memory’s reliance on repetition explains why we immediately recognise sounds which have become familiar through experience - the voice of a relative and the squeal of a boiling kettle, for example, or the ‘bips’ that signal it’s safe to step into the road at a pedestrian crossing.

The almost forgotten sounds Even so, as modern life progresses and technological advances are made, there are sounds which are no longer heard on a regular basis. Mobile telephones don’t have dial tones, for instance, and laptops don’t offer the ‘clackety-clack’ of typewriter keys. Internet-based access to music and television means that we never hear the tangled shrivel of lyrics as the thread of a cassette tape gets mangled in the heads of a player, nor the mechanical slide of a video cassette into the belly of a VCR machine. The coming generations may never hear these at all - but would those sounds even be recognisable now to those for whom they were once familiar?

A hearing context Where long term memory is concerned, it seems that there is often more to retention than repetition: context also plays a significant role. Without seeing hands flying across a typewriter, without the visual cue of the VCR, one might struggle to place the sound, despite its familiarity from years past. This is why radio contests, where a snippet of a popular song is played for an entrant to identify, often sees the caller confused and hesitant: removed from a broader context, the sounds are less recognisable.

Emotion provides another layer of context to our ability to recall sounds and it is for this reason that some sounds are impossible to forget. It has frequently been demonstrated that sufferers of dementia, or patients in a coma, will respond, however faintly, to the voice of a loved one, yet not to that of a doctor. Not only does repetition and familiarity play a part but, unlike a dial tone or electric kettle, certain sounds are loaded with emotional meaning - and, since the context is deeply rooted in the psyche, it doesn’t depend on other external stimuli, like sights, or a more complete picture for it to be recognisable.

Sound Unique Sounds Did you know that there are sounds in space? And that there are sounds so high pitched you can’t preceive them?

LEARN MORE When we experience something with a certain sound, it can be filed away in our brains in a catalogue of emotions. Sensory information and emotional information get packaged together and stored in the auditory cortex - so, in the same way that a certain fragrance might take you back in your mind to Sunday afternoons in your aunt’s living room, sound gets imbued with an emotional meaning. Indeed, a group of researchers in Switzerland found that emotion plays a key role in the formation of memory and that strong emotional responses to certain sounds enhance the memories created around the particular experience associated with that sound.

The brain’s ability to contextualise sound also explains why we don’t react when we hear a siren while in the comfort of our own home, but may startle if we are driving, or on the street. It contributes to why a gunshot-type ‘bang!’ heard on New Year’s Eve might cause someone to think ‘fireworks,’ while on another occasion, more disquieting images may come to mind: our brains sort through our sound catalogue to make sense of what we are hearing and to trigger an appropriate physical response - in this case, either to look at the sky to enjoy the spectacle, or to take cover.

Sounds trigger emotions Past experience, on the other hand, often means that some individuals have higher anxiety levels than others and for them, such loud or sudden noises may always elicit fear responses. For someone who has witnessed first hand the atrocities of war, it might be impossible to disentangle loud and sudden noises from horrific memories. In addition, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) has been linked with heightened sensitivity to noise, frequently meaning that even sounds that don’t have negatively contextual layers can be, at best, jarring and at worst, unbearable. In other disorders, the brain may struggle to find context, making it difficult for the sufferer to distinguish between sounds that ought or ought not to provoke certain fear responses, with generalised anxiety the result.

In the absence of these types of generalised anxieties, however, some sounds can produce almost universal responses in people: nature sounds, for instance, are nearly always associated with peace and relaxation, while the noise of a persistently ringing phone will spark irritation. Beautiful music promotes a sense of contentment or happiness, even if the listener doesn’t have a latent memory associated with the piece. It’s unlikely that many people have heard the otherworldly calls of dolphins in real life, yet listening to recordings is associated with heightened feelings of pleasure and peace. Sometimes the emotion itself IS the experience.

Music notes Music and Memories Music doesn’t just have the power to evoke memories, it makes us feel a whole range of emotions.

LEARN MORE Brains remember, memory forgets When research has demonstrated that we have difficulty in holding on to the memory of sound without the presence of other factors, why then are we so receptive to it? One reason could be that our bodies are comprised primarily of water: a potent conductor of the waves from which sound is formed. Although debated by scientists, famous experiments performed by Japanese professor Dr Masaru Emoto examined the effects of various words and music on water, finding that, when examined microscopically, the water exposed to classical music and expressions of gratitude had formed breathtaking crystalline patterns, while the water over which violent music and words of hatred had been played had turned swampy and dull.

In the same way that not all responses to sound are based on experience, not all memories are formed from an easily identifiable event. Babies can hear long before they exit the womb, and are already developing their neurological and emotional responses to sound: one study demonstrated that, even though the subjects had only experienced a certain language in their earliest formative years and now had no knowledge of it, they still engaged the left side of their brain - the side with which speech is interpreted - rather than the right side, by which sounds are interpreted - to make sense of the language to which they were exposed. Brains remember even when memory forgets.

Hearing and the brain Yet the same cannot be said for the actual act of hearing. When it comes to hearing, the ears and brain must work in tandem for optimum results, in the same way that an impressive set of muscles depends on a mental commitment to continuing to work out and eat healthily. Although ears transmit the sounds, it is the brain that process these into coherent messages; it’s for this reason that hearing loss, if left untreated, can contribute to cognitive difficulties. Just as in the example of exercising for a strong physique, the hearing ‘muscle’ can become flabby and weak with disuse, making it more difficult to reinstate the ear-to-brain pathways once help is, eventually, sought. Additionally, the brain shrinkage that is associated with the normal ageing process is accelerated in those with reduced hearing capacity.

Hearing Loss How Hearing Loss Affects the Brain Andrew King, Professor of Neurophysiology studies the brain processes that affect hearing, and knows the answer.

Since hearing is so emotive, one of the dangers in losing the ability to hear comfortably is losing that ability to experience the emotional reaction that hearing memory-triggering or dopamine-releasing sounds can evoke. Listening to an opera can fail to open those oddly satisfying and cathartic floodgates of tears. A walk in the woods, unenhanced by the susurrations of trees, the crackle of leaves underfoot, the scampering of wildlife, may be disconcerting rather than calming. The voices of loved ones may seem indistinct. Faced with the difficulties of listening, people with hearing problems often retreat further, alienating themselves from friends and family, losing connection not only with their own emotional triggers but also with the support and companionship of loved ones.

Hearing and the brain, both in its sensory processing function and memory storing function, are inextricably linked; the loss or impairment of either can be incredibly disorienting and isolating. While there are some sounds that must inevitably be lost over time - the roar of a Tyrannosaurus, the static dial-in of a modem - there are others deeply rooted in our emotional pathways, whether by way of personal experience or vibrational energy. Recognising and responding to these is vital to our emotional well being, if we are healthy, and could be critical in our recovery or reconnection, if we are not.

The Sound of Memory New research shows you remember the things you hear Posted September 16, 2017

You remember things that happen to you, right? Episodes of your life play out before your mind’s eye. Just like a soap or sitcom, they have colour, sound, movement; they have a location — they happen somewhere. Some even have an accompanying laugh track from the audience, like when you shook the ketchup bottle without first holding down the lid.

Neuroscientists, in a typical demonstration of the biting wit we’re renowned for, call this memory for epsiodes of your life… episodic memory. And you thought being a neuroscientist was hard. We know the hippocampus is crucial for episodic memory. Most famously from the case of Henry Molaison, who had operations to remove his hippocampus on both sides of his brain to cure his extreme epilepsy. It worked: but he could not form a memory of anything that happened to him.

Weirdly, while we know hippocampus is essential for making memories of things that happen to us, neuroscience mainly studies what its neurons know about space (as in, where you are in the world and where things are in relation to you — not planets, stars, and aliens). Now a new study has opened a whole new chapter: the hippocampus knows about sound.

Making an episodic memory needs two ingredients. First, your brain needs to represent all the things that are happening right now, the episode. Then it needs to store them, make the memory. Yet our detailed knowledge of the neurons in the hippocampus barely mentions either how it represents or makes a memory of all the things around us, of the sounds, colours, and smells. No, our understanding of what the neurons in the hippocampus do is based almost entirely on the study of how they represent the position you’re in, right now.

If this were the only thing the hippocampus did then the only things we would remember would be the locations in which stuff happened. Anecdotes would consist entirely of “I arrived at the house, then I went into the main room, walked around there for five hours, and then I woke up on a sofa. What a party!” Yikes. So do the neurons in the hippocampus know about stuff around us — the colour, sounds, and smells? Or is the hippocampus the world’s most obessesive (real) estate agent, laser-focussed on location, location, location?

A new study by David Tank’s lab (carried out by Dmitrly Aronov and Rhino Nevers) tackled this question. They simply asked: do neurons in the hippocampus know about other things we experience? In this case: do hippocampus neurons know about the experience of pushing a lever to change a sound? They trained a bunch of rats to push a lever while a single, continuous tone sounded. The pitch of the tone increased for as long as the rats held down the lever. Why would a rat want to do such a thing? Because if the rat moved the tone up close to a specific pitch, it got rewarded with a drink. So thirsty rats learnt to push the lever just long enough to get the tone’s pitch were it needed to be. Better still, once they understood this basic set-up, when the target pitch was changed they adapted quickly, learning the new target. (And by changing how fast the pitch changed, the experimenters could show that the rats learnt the pitch itself, not how long to hold down the lever for). Rats are smart.

Once the rats had this down cold, the experimenters started recording from groups of neurons in their hippocampus. And they found a menagerie of neurons. Some neurons fired only at the start of the lever press. Some neurons fired only when the reward was delivered. Quite a lot of neurons fired only for a small range of pitches. So each represented a “sound field”, a particular “place” in the set of all possible pitches. And as the rat increased the pitch of the tone, so each neuron fired in turn, as the pitch passed through its sound field.

Great, so hippocampus knows about pitch. So what? Actually, not just the pitch. The neurons were representing the experience of the pitch changing. The experimenters showed this in a simple, elegant way: they played the rats the same tone and increased its pitch, with no lever or reward — some rats just sitting about, listening to the dullest music of all time. The exact same neurons responded with? Nothing. So the neurons were not just responding to a particular pitch (like they would do in, say, auditory cortex). They did not represent just any sound, but the personal experience of the sound in that particular moment, a sound that was relevant to the animal in that moment.

A straightforward answer, for once. Do neurons in hippocampus represent experiences other then “where you are”? Yes: they also represent “the sound is changing”.

This raised an immediate question: how does the representation of pitch relate to how these same neurons represent location? Does hippocampus have one set of neurons for place and one for sound? Or do these all get mixed together into one set of neurons? So the experimenters took the same rats, put them in a big box they could run around in, and recorded from the same neurons. The answer was: um. Some neurons that represented sound also represented specific locations, like the corner of the box. Some represented only location. Some only sound. And some, none of the above. There are not then different dedicated sets of neurons for sounds and for places in the hippocampus. No, all the information is gathered together, just as you’d need to form an episode of your life (if your life was pushing a lever in a small box. Which it might be. Let us know in the comments…).

In many respects the results of this study are not surprising. We know hippocampus does memory. Many had assumed that location was just one aspect of memory (its dominance in neuroscience explained by the fact that it is an easily accessible aspect of memory, as we know how to relate the firing of neurons to the location of the animal). Indeed, we’ve long known that a neuron’s firing in a specific location could be changed just by changing the smell of the arena, or even the current rules of the maze. Why would hippocampus neurons need to do that if they only represented the place, and nothing else? So it always seemed likely that hippocampus would represent more than just location.

What this new study does is give an extra, hard shove away from the idea that the hippocampus is about space, to the idea that space is just one aspect of an experience, of an episode of life to be recorded. This study immediately opens up a range of new things to test about forming memories of episodes in your life. What exactly does the hippocampus represent? Smells? This seems likely, as we know how a whiff of strong cheese immediately whips your mind back to that experimental burger you once made with stilton and chèvre (seriously, what were you thinking?) (And not least because the bit of cortex that deals with smell has privileged direct access to the neurons in hippocampus). What about touch? Taste? Colour? To form a memory of an episode of your life, surely it needs to know about all these things. Surely to vividly remember that party last year, your hippocampus needed to know about the thumping music, the taste of the prosecco, the smell of the pizza, the feel of the fluffy sofa cushions as you sank into oblivion?

But the brain is constantly surprising us. Things that we think must be true about how neurons work often end up trashed by reality. So it is not a foregone conclusion that the hippocampus must represent all the sights, sounds, and smells of the world. And we know less about the brain than you think. No, less than that. A bit less than that too. About as much as you know about how to build the screen you’re looking at, when starting from the raw materials dug out of the ground (“we need some silicon, and some metals, and do some melting, and something-magic-with-LCDs-and-sensors-and-processors, and voila! Screen!”. Neuroscience has the exact equivalent: “we have some neurons, and some connections between them, and they fire, and something-magic-happens, and voila! Memory”!). All we’ve talked about here is the representation of what is happening right now. How does this become a memory of an episode in your life? We don’t know. But when we find out, our hippocampus will remember that experience for us.

FEATURED ARTICLE: Memory Replacement, Confabulation, and Repression: Remembering Creatively By Michael C. Wiseman 2010, VOL. 2 NO. 10 | PG. 1/1CITE REFERENCES PRINT 17 KEYWORDS: Confabulation Memory Memory Replacement Imagination Inflation Alzheimers Amnesia Memory Repression The specific purpose of this paper is to discuss some of the factors that would permit an individual to dissociate himself from his true identity, including at a minimum threshold the change in knowledge of some personal events. It is not required that a person believe he is superman to have dissociated from his true identity; all that is required to fit the definition is for the person to blot out a memory of a single event and replace it with another. If someone goes to the store and buys apples yet distinctly remembers buying pears, this would be a perfect example of the phenomenon. With this scenario in mind, this paper asks: what could make a person replace an existing memory with a new one?

The two main concepts involved in this discussion are confabulation and repression. A secondary factor called the “misinformation effect” can provide additional elucidation on the subject. Confabulation is the falsification of memory in which gaps in recall are filled by fabrications that the generating individual accepts as fact (APA, 2006). Patients with confabulatory disorders have been known to fabricate information, remember the confabulation, be presented with proof of the truth and continue to believe their initial confabulation. Sometimes this disparity causes them to produce a secondary confabulation to justify the first one (Gilboa et al., 2006). The process of secondary confabulation brings to mind a tongue-in-cheek witticism attributed to a fictitious philosopher who observed that “No set of mutually inconsistent observations can exist for which some human intellect cannot conceive a coherent explanation, however complicated”.  Repression is a psychological defense mechanism in which painful experiences are removed from consciousness (APA, 2006).

A low intensity form of confabulation is a very common phenomenon that can be best observed through the children’s game of “broken telephone”. One child whispers a phrase in another’s ear and due to noise from fidgeting and giggling the recipient receives only a portion of the original message intact. The receiving child must then translate the garbled message into a coherent phrase and will attempt to infer the first child’s intention. More often than not this inference will be incorrect and a similar sounding, but corrupted message will be transmitted. When the second child tries to edit the garbled portions of the message into something coherent he is confabulating: skipping over the unintelligible phonemes leaves gaps in the word; the new phonemes that make the word different are pure fabrications to fill in these gaps in his recall. The addition of new phonemes is an example of provoked confabulation.

Frederick Bartlett was a British psychologist who worked in the period following World War I. His work is significant in that he was one of the first to study the combination of confabulation and repression in some form. One of his other interests was anthropology and he wanted to study similarities and differences in cultures through the differences in very similar folk tales (Bartlett, 1920). Many cultures, for example, have stories about the creation of the world or of a great flood that destroyed everything except for a family in a boat with animals. He surmised that over generations of retelling the original story had become corrupted, hence the differences in the legends. Bartlett was one of the first researchers to study confabulation.

To simulate the transmission of a folk tale he first adapted a Native American folk story entitled The War of the Ghosts. The adapted version of the story was very short but contained a lot of confusing language: it used many unfamiliar words, much vague language, did not make clear which characters were speaking and was overall very difficult to read.

Bartlett had subjects read the story and asked them to write down what they remembered at various intervals, sometimes extending to months, afterward. He noticed a pattern in the sort of corruptions and with the help of observations about the subjects during the reproduction sessions came to the conclusion that people have a concept about how things should be and that images that contradict that schema are uncomfortable and are quickly amended to less offensive images. The jerky flow of the narrative was very uncomfortable for the subjects and was often “corrected” with both errors of omission and errors of commission (Bartlett, 1928). The conclusion that the presentation of confusing material often results in errors of commission has been corroborated in more recent controlled experiments (Loftus et al., 1978). This phenomenon is called the misinformation effect.

One of the first things Bartlett noticed was that his subjects felt a need to “rationalize” the experience: they needed to integrate the confusing information into their schema of the world in a way that the inconsistencies of the story would disappear and there would be no more nagging questions. Many subjects simply remarked that the story was “not English” or “a dream”. One exemplary subject passed the story off as “a murder concealment dream” and in his subsequent reproductions, corrupted the story to better fit the schema he had established.

Brewer and Treyens set up an experiment to show the effects of schema congruity on memory. The experimenters made individual subjects wait in their office for a short while and then took them out and asked them to list as many objects that were in the office as they could. The objects that fit the schema of the office were remembered by a greater number of subjects than the objects unusual for an office were (skull, picnic basket, bottle of wine). Some office schema objects that had not been present were also listed by many subjects (Brewer & Treyens, 1981).

An experiment by Attali et al. further demonstrated Bartlett’s findings that incongruity of experience with the existing schema, rather than mere gaps in knowledge contribute to confabulation. The experimenters had three kinds of information for Alzheimer’s and non-Alzheimer’s subjects to hear and be tested on: commonly known fairy tales, brand new fairy tales, and familiar fairy tales that have been altered in content to clash with the original story i.e. Goldilocks enters a house belonging to dogs and eats all of their spaghetti. The results were that in both groups there was more confabulatory and “I don’t know” responses for the altered fairy tales than for the completely knew fairy tales, which would contain more gaps in knowledge. This experiment shows that gaps in memory AND schema conflict contribute to confabulation and forgetting (Attalli et al., 2009).

More potent forms of confabulation are less common and are associated with memory loss conditions, primarily Alzheimer’s Disease (AD), Korsakoff’s Syndrome (KS) and various strokes and aneurysms in the brain. Confabulation was first described in 1887 by Russian neurologist Sergei Korsakoff concerning certain heavily alcoholic patients who often made up anecdotes about their past (Borsutzky et al., 2008). As a result of brain damage from malnutrition and alcoholism, KS patients have severe memory impairments. Patients often develop both anterograde and retrograde amnesia (Korsakoff’s Syndrome, 2006) which often leads to a feeling of temporo-spatial distortion (Kopelman, 2009); about a quarter of KS patients require hospitalization.

These patients have difficulty connecting present experiences with past ones. Since their memories of events are full of holes, KS patients are unable to coherently recall even personal events yet, when questioned on information they cannot possibly have, they are able to fabricate and believe plausible, but false narratives to fit the questions. They are exceptionally bad at accurately recalling episodic memory but also have impairments in semantic memory (Borsutzky et al., 2008). Most of the early research on confabulation is based on the observation of KS patients (Attali et al., 2009).

Work done by M. Kopelman corroborates the long standing theory that there are two distinct forms of confabulation, spontaneous and provoked, with different etiologies. Spontaneous confabulations are formed from scraps of real memories that are not temporally linked to other events. The spontaneous confabulator tries to stitch these scraps together into a fabrication. Since these scraps have been taken out of context before the fabrication, spontaneous confabulations are very inconsistent and incoherent. If it could be physically represented, a spontaneous confabulation may resemble a quilt. In some contexts, spontaneous confabulation is also called primary confabulation.

Provoked confabulation differs from spontaneous confabulation in that the fabrication is based off of temporo-spatially established material; it is like a patch over a hole in a garment.  (Kopelman, 1987). Provoked confabulation is sometimes known as secondary confabulation because it is the type of confabulation that a patient makes when he believes a primary confabulation, is presented with the truth, and must reconcile the two sets on information. Temporo-spatial establishment is not the only factor in confabulation. This is evidenced by semantic confabulations: confabulations whose nature does not involve events, the definition of a word or a piece of trivia for instance. The existence of semantic confabulation demonstrates that poor memory retrieval is at least partially responsible for confabulation (Gilboa et al, 2006).

In both types of confabulation under either explanation, the final fabrication will be based around some pre-existing schemata; the scraps of memory in spontaneous confabulation are highly fragmented but they do provide a schema of sorts.  Though it is impossible to perform the necessary background checks on KS patients to verify on any more than an anecdotal level, that spontaneous confabulations are based off of actual experiences, there is documented evidence to indicate that this is indeed the case (Attali et al., 2009; Borsutzky et al., 2008). Oftentimes a subject’s only intact representation of an event or concept is his schema of it; these schemata serve as a  scaffold (Gilboa et al., 2006) for memory reconstruction. The immediate acceptance or rejection of a statement is proportional to its conformity to the schema.

The spontaneous nature of spontaneous confabulators is usually due to severe impairment of memory functions and thus spontaneous confabulation is not suitable for the use as the mode of confabulation needed to answer the question of how otherwise normal people can replace and accept confabulated memories in place of natural ones. Even if a subject were to spontaneously confabulate a retelling of an event, they would probably lack the memory capacity to remember it. It is more favorable to hold provoked confabulation, a “normal response to a faulty memory” (Kopelman, 1987) as a more likely method.

The discussion at the end of Gilboa et al. highlights a pair of mental systems that can help explain the process of the acceptance or rejection of an experience or a memory as true. The first is the feeling of right, which is established by comparing the event to a schema. These schemas can change based on setting and framing in response to a person’s drive to achieve a goal, which is most evident in autobiographical exercises.  (Conway, Plydell-Pearce, 2000). This is the system behind “gut feeling” responses.

The second system is a more advanced system that checks the new event against old memories. A new event may not necessarily significantly clash with a schema, but may be factually wrong. This system, the monitoring system, cross references new material with the corpus of previously accumulated knowledge. Because many confabulators do not have good memory retrieval, either due to faults in the retrieval process or due to the quality of the memories’ original encoding, this system will not filter out incorrect statements. All the confabulators are left with is the feeling of right response. When normal people say they make a gut decision, they are still comparing the available responses to their corpi of knowledge; their gut decisions are potentially more accurate than confabulators’. The confabulator is more vulnerable to accepting new information as true because they do not have as much capacity to filter out garbage. Gilboa demonstrated this filter malfunction by feeding subjects semantic statements that they must accept or deny; confabulators tended to accept these statement indiscriminately with a strong feeling of right.

Up to this point, this paper has summarized some of the evidence that points to the ability of the mind to unconsciously create new material to fill in gaps. Most people do not suffer from pathologies that tend to give rise to significant gaps in memory. The next part of this paper will discuss how gaps can be created in a string of memories through the process of repression. The concept of memory repression was first described by Freud in 1915 as a “banishment of unacceptable thoughts, feelings or wishes”.  (Repression, 2001). That that is “unacceptable” is to be defined as that which cannot be assimilated into the repressor’s schema.

The concept of repression has been the center of a foggy debate over the authenticity of “False Memory Syndrome”. The original “case” of FMS was when a woman under hypnosis allegedly uncovered a repressed memory of her father sexually abusing her. The parents championed the cause that the therapist planted the false memory in the daughter’s mind when she was in a highly suggestible state. The majority opinion from the psychological community is that there is a dual possibility of the memory being true or false and cannot be verified without external corroborating evidence (Colangelo, 2009).

In the APA’s statement summarizing their neutrality policy towards FMS, they raised the issue of memories being affected by questioning (APA, 1993). Memory manipulation by questioning schemata is an important issue in forensic psychology. Eyewitnesses who confer with other eyewitnesses who have emphasized different aspects of an event may make themselves less reliable. Witnesses will pick up on the differences in testimony and try to assimilate the incongruity into the schemata of his testimony, polluting it (Roedigger et al., 2001).

When the patient undergoes hypnosis and enters that suggestible state, things the therapist says, objects in the therapist’s office and still a third set of things that the patient associates with the other two classes all provide an inventory of possible pollutants to the “testimony” of the patient’s memory.

Bartlett briefly touched upon this issue in 1928 but did not further investigate it (Bartlett did not dismiss it, though). After one reproduction a subject remarked that he had “a sort of feeling that there was something about a rock, but [he couldn’t] fit it in”. The subject concluded that there was no rock in the story (there wasn’t). In the reproduction two months later the subject had incorporated the rock into the story (Bartlett, 1928). By thinking about the rock and weighing the pros and cons of its inclusion, the subject had incorporated the possibility of a rock being in the story.

Repression can create holes in an individual’s memory. Confabulation, suggestion and the memory effect can fill these holes with plausible filler material that fits the patient’s schemata. In the example of Bartlett’s rock a gap in memory was created by forgetting. The subject’s mind knew that there was a hole and other bits of information in it confabulated to form the image of the rock. Although the subject at first dismissed the presence of the rock, he had subjected himself to the suggestion effect: his opponent in his inner dialogue over whether to include the rock took the place of the second eyewitness. The slightly reinforced schema of a present rock was then enough to serve the basis for a provoked confabulation and include the rock in the story.

The well known phenomenon of psychiatrically healthy people believing that they have been abducted and molested by extraterrestrials are more recognizable examples of the case of a person replacing an actual experience with a false one. The memory that they were taken up is a false replacement of a more mundane experience of rogue stimuli acting on the unconscious nervous system. As there is little evidence to support the presence of extraterrestrial invaders, the only explanations left to justify these experiences are that a given abductee is either lying or confabulating. The abduction confabulation may be based off of an element in a dream (either remembered from the dream stage or actively intruding into consciousness) and elaborated upon by other elements consistent with a cultural schema (McNally& Clancy, 2005). Because this interpretation is based on the subject’s schema, it may not be filtered out by the feeling of right mechanism and said subject will believe that the constructed memory feels right. This feeling will be eradicated by the monitoring mechanism, that everyone knows that there is no such thing as aliens, and be repudiated by most people. Those who believe in a personal alien abduction may have a less proficient monitoring mechanism and be unable to reject this nonsense.

In summary, various properties of confabulation can construct a false reality out of memory gaps and mental schemas. Defects in filtering mechanisms can allow these mistakes to be accepted. Conflicting information and subsequent memory repression via the misinformation effect can cause deletions in memory that induce provoked confabulation.

References

Psychotherapy and Psychiatric Hospitalization Robert M. Kliegman MD, in Nelson Textbook of Pediatrics, 2020

Psychodynamic Psychotherapy At the core of psychodynamic psychotherapy lies adynamic interaction between different dimensions of the mind. This approach is based on the belief that much of one’s mental activity occurs outside one’s awareness. The patient is often unaware of internal conflicts because threatening or painful emotions, impulses, and memories are repressed. Behavior is then controlled by what the patient does not know about himself or herself. Therapy objectives are to increase self-understanding, increase acceptance of feelings, and develop realistic relationships between self and others. This therapy is nondirective to allow a patient’s characteristic patterns to emerge, so that self-understanding and a corrective emotional experience can then be fostered.

Psychodynamic psychotherapy has shown applicability for the treatment of anxiety and depression as well as maladaptive aspects of personality. Brief, time-limited psychodynamic psychotherapy can be appropriate for youth who are in acute situational distress. Long-term therapy can be appropriate when the biologic or social factors destabilizing the child’s adaptation and development are chronic, or the psychological difficulties caused by comorbidities are complex, or if entrenched conflicts and developmental interferences are present.

Legal Ramifications of Memory Work Every treatment involving potential repressed memories or childhood abuse must be preceded by a thorough explanation of the therapeutic and legal ramifications and a complete informed consent. Because of these potential problems some courts have restricted the admissibility of the testimony of hypnotized witnesses. Patients need to be warned about the fallibility surrounding hypnotically (or indeed any, even nonhypnotically) recovered memories, including the possibilities of confabulation, concreting, and the difficulty of differentiating between fantasized or remembered memories. It is difficult to avoid potential contamination using any memory enhancement (e.g., imagery work, hypnosis, EMDR, and conventional psychotherapy); thus, the therapist must use a neutral tone throughout the entire treatment. If hypnosis is to be used, therapists may guide patients through the experience, but at all times must avoid using leading or suggestive questions. The goal is to avoid contamination by introducing or suggesting information during the course of treatment. Indeed, hypnosis and any other nonhypnotic method of memory enhancement, including police interrogation, can distort memory by any of three ways: confabulation (the creation of pseudomemories, which are then reported as real); concreting (an unwarranted increased sense of confidence with which hypnotized individuals report their memories, whether these are true or false), or as the result of an additional recall trial.

More recently, there has been concern about the creation of false memories. Nevertheless, we must remember that the mind is not an accurate tape recorder that registers every experience we have. Because of the way people register, encode, and recover filed memories, false memories are by no means rare. In fact, most people probably are in doubt about certain aspects of their past. At times it may be difficult to differentiate things that we have seen, said, or done from those we have dreamed or just imagined. It is very likely that the most frequent source of false memory is the accounts we give to others of our experiences. Usually, such accounts are almost always made both more simple and more interesting than the truth. In fact, memory can be understood as a capacity for the organization and reconstruction of past experiences and impressions in the service of present needs, fears, and interests. Thus, therapists must be aware that not every memory recovered with the use of hypnosis (or any other method of memory enhancement) is necessarily true. Hypnosis can facilitate improved recall of both true as well as confabulated material.

If memories of abuse are recovered, we do not encourage our patients to take legal action. There is no scientific evidence indicating that confrontation with alleged perpetrators of childhood abuse provides any therapeutic benefit to patients. The same is true for the pursuit of legal action or retribution toward perpetrators. It is impossible for therapists or the courts to be certain of the veracity of the memories recovered by either conventional therapy or hypnosis. Without objective external confirmation, therapists cannot distinguish among memories that are real, those that are the result of confabulation, and those that result from a combination of both. Furthermore, clinical experience in abuse cases suggests that not only would it be difficult to substantiate many of the allegations, but also little can be done in order to protect patients from the embarrassment, humiliation, and further trauma that would be imposed on them by virtue of the legal proceedings.

Several professional organizations have established clear guidelines regarding the use of hypnosis in instances where hypnosis is used as a method of memory enhancement. The guidelines suggest that when hypnosis or any other memory enhancement method is being used for forensic purposes or in the context of working out traumatic memories, especially those related to childhood physical and/or sexual abuse, multiple steps should be applied to minimize the possibility of memory contamination and maximizing the integrity of original memory.

Liaison psychiatry Adam Feather MBBS, FRCP, FAcadMEd, in Kumar and Clark’s Clinical Medicine, 2021

Aetiology Functional brain scans differ between healthy controls feigning a motor abnormality and people with a similar conversion motor symptom, which suggests that dissociation involves different areas of the brain from simulation(Fig. 25.1). Functional brain scanning of a patient with conversion paralysis has shown that recalling a past trauma not only activated the emotional areas, such as the amygdala, but also reduced motor cortex activity. This would suggest that conversion involves a disinhibition of voluntary will at an unconscious level, so that the patient can no longerwill something to happen.

The psychoanalytical theory of dissociation is that it is the result of emotionally charged memories that are repressed into the unconscious at some point in the past. Symptoms are explained as the combined effects of repression and the symbolic conversion of this emotional energy into physical symptoms. This hypothesis is difficult to test, although there is some evidence that people with dissociative disorders are more likely to have suffered childhood abuse. Caution should be taken when such a history is obtained by therapies that recover childhood memories previously completely unknown to the patient.

Cognitive Psychology of Memory E. Eich, … J.P. Forgas, in Learning and Memory: A Comprehensive Reference, 2008

2.15.2.3 False and Recovered Memories Another possibility for the impression that one has harbored repressed memories is that a failure to remember traumatic events took place because such events did not actually occur in the first place (Loftus, 1998). On first impression, the idea that someone might remember having experienced a trauma that never took place seems an unlikely account for repression. Yet, people have recollected atrocities that never happened and have been experiencing the emotional pain paralleled with their belief in the authenticity of their memories. Some of the improbable traumatic events for which people claim to have recovered memories in recent years involve satanic ritual abuse (Scott, 2001) and abduction by space aliens (Mack, 1994; Clancy, 2005), memories which are occasionally ‘recovered’ during psychotherapy. In reviewing the influence of psychotherapy, Lindsay and Read (1994: 304) concluded that “there are good reasons to believe that: (1) some recollections produced by intensive memory recovery may be false; and (2) when such techniques are used it is very difficult to discriminate between clients who are remembering accurately and clients who believe they are remembering accurately but are not.”

The fact that a growing number of former patients have retracted their claims of CSA also suggests that false CSA memories can be induced by therapists. Most retractor cases involve adults who had sought psychotherapy for depression or related complaints. During therapy, memories of CSA were recovered. However, later patients come to believe that the ‘recovered memories’ were only products of therapeutic suggestion (e.g., Ost et al., 2002).

In the 1990s, the experimental research community responded in earnest to these frequent memory reports by patients claiming their experiences had been previously repressed. If these memories were not authentic, where could they have come from? If they were false, how could they develop? With these questions in mind, several lines of research on the development of false beliefs and memories began to flourish (for reviews, see Laney and Loftus, 2005; Smeets et al., 2005). One of the best-known tasks that has been strikingly successful in creating pseudo-memories in the laboratory is the Deese-Roediger-McDermott (DRM) paradigm (Deese, 1959; Roediger and McDermott, 1995). In this task, participants often falsely recall and recognize a nonpresented word or critical lure (such as ‘sleep’) following presentation of several of its strongest associates (‘bed, rest, awake, tired,’ and the like).

The DRM paradigm relies on semantic material. Yet, apart from semantic material, research has demonstrated that techniques such as imagination inflation (Garry et al., 1996), dream interpretation (Mazzoni et al., 1999), and suggestions containing incorrect feedback (Crombag et al., 1996; Hyman and Billings, 1998; Jelicic et al., 2006) may create false beliefs and pseudo-memories. Moreover, recent studies have successfully employed doctored photographs (e.g., a youngster riding in a hot-air balloon) to suggest childhood events that never happened to the child or adult participants (Wade et al., 2002). Additionally, studies have shown that experimental manipulations intended to implant pseudo-memories may have overt behavioral consequences (Bernstein et al., 2005).

Madness in historical perspective Andrew Scull PhD, in Canadian Medical Association Journal, 2016

Four decades have past since I began to work on the history of psychiatry, examining the rise of the asylum in Victorian England and the transformation of “mad-doctors” into a profession that eventually called itself psychiatry.1 In 1970, most academic and elite psychiatrists in North America thought that madness and meaning were intimately intertwined. Psychoanalysis had initially made inroads in America following Freud’s visit to Clark University in 1909. Hitler’s persecution of Jews led to an influx of refugee analysts from the early 1930s onward, and World War II provided a further impetus for psycho-dynamically oriented psychiatry — in part the fortuitous consequence of the appointment of the psychoanalytically inclined William C. Menninger as chief of psychiatry in the US Army, and in part the impact of the link between modern industrial warfare and mental breakdowns.

The existence of mass psychiatric casualties in the military gave new credibility to theories of mental illness that linked its origins to the social and the psychological. Between 1945 and the 1970s, psychoanalysis occupied the commanding heights (such as they were) of psychiatry in the United States. Freud’s doctrines also heavily influenced popular culture during these years: the visual arts; literature and drama; advertising; and that quintessentially American dream factory, Hollywood. When it came to understanding mental illness, most pointed to the existence of half-murdered memories and repressed traumas, whose pernicious effects on the human psyche surfaced in all sorts of heavily disguised but deeply disturbing and distressing symptoms.

Frontispiece from John Charles Bucknill and Daniel Hack Tuke’sA Manual of Psychological Medicine (1858), one of the first widely used textbooks on the diagnosis and treatment of insanity. Like other alienists, Bucknill and Tuke believed that madness took different forms and that distinct types of insanity could be read on the countenances of their patients.

Image courtesy of Courtesy Wellcome Library, London If the origins of madness lay buried in the recesses of human (un)consciousness, its cure likewise revolved around questions of meaning. It was by making the unconscious conscious and by reconfronting meanings we had fruitlessly sought to repress that we could successfully overcome the demons that lurked within us. Madness was indeed all about meaning.

Contemporary psychiatry has a very different view. Where an earlier generation of psychiatrists sought to disentangle and make sense of the disturbed behaviours, emotions and cognitions of their patients, their modern-day counterparts are disposed to dismiss these surface manifestations of mental illness as so much epiphenomenal noise. Madness, they claim, is brain diseasetout court. Its origins lie in disturbances of the chemical soup that bathes our brain cells, in defects in our hereditary endowment or in some mysterious mix of the two. Breakthroughs in psychopharmacology are sought to repair these underlying somatic lesions and make the mad sane. The symptoms of mental illness are of no enduring significance or interest, save as the surface manifestations of a bodily disease and the visible markers that permit the profession to identify the (very) many who need its interventions. Psychiatric treatments are resolutely directed at defective bodies, not unhinged minds.

Jungian Theory K. Jones, in Encyclopedia of Creativity (Second Edition), 2011

The Unconscious Mind The unconscious is the second psychic structure to which Jung referred. Consciousness is the unconscious’ opposite and houses information that is not accessible to the ego but may later be accessible. The unconscious is vast in size and fluid in movement. The relationship, or link, between consciousness and the unconscious is referred to as compensation. Compensation means balancing or adjusting. In this case, compensation comes into play when consciousness is too one-sided, leading the unconscious to try and reach a balance. The personal and the collective are the two substructures of the unconscious. Both substructures serve as a source of art, although in very different ways (which will soon be illustrated). First we take a closer look at the personal and the collective unconscious.

Personal unconscious The personal unconscious, the first layer, is that part of the unconscious specific to the individual. Included in the personal unconscious are repressed memories (memories that have been pushed down into the unconscious without one’s control), ideas that are painful, and information without the strength, or the timing, to reach consciousness. Material in the personal unconscious was once conscious and may later be conscious again.

Collective unconscious The collective unconscious, the second and deeper layer, is that part of the psyche that is shared by all people, in all cultures, throughout the ages. Jung believed that the collective unconscious is much more important then the personal unconscious because it is the seat of power, wholeness, and internal transformation. The collective unconscious holds dreams, visions, religious experiences, and myths.

He arrived at the idea of the collective unconscious through his knowledge of mythology, anthropology, religion, and art. The collective unconscious concept was further materialized from Jung’s work with patients who were diagnosed with schizophrenia (importantly, the collective unconscious is found in everyone, not just in psychotic patients.) Furthermore, in his work he realized that images in people’s dreams were not from their own personal experience, or life, but rather reminiscent of archaic symbols and images. He began to recognize these images in ancient works and religions that the patient who dreamed the material was not aware of. In many of Jung’s original writings he unknowingly referred to the collective unconscious and the archetypes interchangeably. This confusion has led subsequent authors to speak of the collective unconscious and the archetypes together, not as separate structures.

Archetypes are universal structures in the collective unconscious that allow for the potentiality of ideas, but they are not ideas themselves. This point is often a source of confusion and the distinction is important to understand. Archetypes are known because of the archetypal image they represent in consciousness – in other words, how the archetypal images appear. The image is what gives proof of the existence of the archetype. You cannot see an archetype; you can see an archetypal image. Archetypes, and archetypal images, have a strong creative force along with many other qualities. Among the qualities present are that of favorability, emotion, number, intensity, and type. Archetypes are neither all bad nor all good. Rather, they simply exist, and understanding the importance of the structure is what is key. Intense emotion exudes from archetypal images. Experiences may be within the likeness of all human behavior, but the experiences that manifest within the category of archetypal are extraordinarily human. Going beyond the ordinary into the realm of the extraordinary, emotional response to an archetypal imagery is enthralling, bigger than life.

Because of the emotional magnitude of the archetypal image it acts as a communication device from the unconscious mind of the individual who produced the work, to the unconscious mind of the individual seeing or reading the work, through the symbolism inherent in the image. The communication is further enhanced by the image relating to mythological figures, or motifs, from ancestry. The manifestations of archetypal images change based on the current culture but are always linked to the past. When an archetypal image is seen or heard or read it evokes a great deal of emotion, power, and release. It is as though we are connected to our past and the past of all mankind.

Examples of archetypes There are infinite numbers of archetypes and archetypal images. Some of the key archetypes that will be discussed are the anima and the animus, the shadow, the persona, and the self. Other archetypes are the mother, father, warrior, and wise old man, to name a few.

Unconscious archetypes of the opposite sex are referred to as the anima and animus, in Latin these words mean “the soul.” The anima refers to a man’s image of a woman; and animus refers to a woman’s image of a man (which Jung viewed in traditional roles of the 19th century). The anima and animus are thought of as guides, primarily throughout the terrain of the unconscious creating a richer level of understanding of one’s internal world. Another way of thinking about the anima and the animus is in their role of moderating between the conscious ego and the unconscious mind.

The anima was intensely studied by Jung as well as his followers. Less was written by Jung, and his followers, on the concept of the animus. The anima and animus are important for many reasons; especially in relation to the creative process. They are both portrayed continuously in fairy tales, myths, literature, film, and other art forms.

The shadow is another archetypal figure or image. The essence of the shadow is that part of everyone’s personality that is disliked and incongruent with how one would like to be perceived. The part that harbors unacceptable feelings, thoughts, or wishes, distasteful impulses, and negative assessments of oneself. The shadow is actually the part of ourselves that we can only sometimes see and in varying degrees. Just as the sun creates shadows on all that catches its light, the shadow can be further thought of as the darker, uglier, and evil side of life (for example, violence, wars, and tragedy, as well as that part of the person who commits such crimes). Further, the shadow is the side of the personality that most people would wish to disown or pretend did not exist. The opposite, or counterpart, to the shadow is the ego. The shadow is often portrayed in movies, books, and art of all kinds.

Persona is the archetype Jung referred to as the mask that we all wear at times. The persona is thought of as the mediator between the ego and the outside world. The concept of the mask suggests that we respond to the expectations of society by presenting ourselves in a certain light, even though the persona is not our true or complete self. In extreme instances, the mask, or persona, is represented in the person who cannot leave his or her professional identity aside. For example, the lawyer is always arguing a point; the preacher is always wearing his or her religious garb and reading from the Bible. The true personality, or person, of the lawyer or preacher is unknown to the people in their lives. A common example is that most of us have different roles in society, such as brother, sister, daughter, son, student, date, employee, and so on. We show different sides of our personality as we relate to others in those varying roles. The self archetype is that of wholeness and completion.

The self further refers to the ability of the conscious and unconscious to work together in order for an individual to be free to be her or his true self. The integration of all parts of the psyche allows the individual to live in a creative and symbolic fashion – to be truly an individual. The self archetype is the representation of individuation, which will soon be discussed. Another concept often compared and contrasted to archetypes is that of the complexes (referred to in the section on consciousness). Jung suggested that there are many complexes in the psyche; unlike the archetypes that number is finite. However, like the archetypes they are neither all bad nor all good; rather they are a part of the psyche to be understood. The autonomy of the complex is such because the conscious mind does not regulate or control the information. In other words, information comes and goes on its own. The autonomous complex operates when there is enough energy to move information from the unconscious to consciousness. Even though the information is conscious it is only perceived, not known. The creative complex is one of the autonomous complexes. The autonomous complex is the living part of the creative process, the part that takes on a life of its own (which will be discussed in detail).

Cognitive Psychology of Memory J.V. Wertsch, in Learning and Memory: A Comprehensive Reference, 2008

2.48.3 Collective Memory as Semiotic Distribution The third tradition of collective memory studies I shall consider provides yet another answer to the question: What makes collective memory collective? The starting point in this case is the notion of a distributed, as opposed to a strong, version of collective remembering (Wertsch, 2002). In this view, remembering is taken to be distributed in the sense that along with active individuals, it requires cultural tools such as written symbols or mnemotechnics (Yates, 1966). And what makes it collective is that members of a group share the same cultural tool kit (Bruner, 1990). All this does not mean that the tools somehow remember on their own, a claim that would amount to instrumental reductionism, but it does emphasize how extensively humans rely on semiotic means provided by their cultural, historical, and institutional contexts.

As an example of distributed memory at the individual level, consider the analysis of Hutchins (1995) of how a cockpit remembers its speed. By seeming to give cognitive instruments their own agency (“a cockpit remembers”), Hutchins emphasizes the importance that they can play in cognition and memory. In this particular case, he examines how a pilot can set and then check with recording devices in an airplane cockpit to keep track of information, and in the process he argues that any assignment of memory to the individual or to instrumentation alone is misguided. Instead, both human agents and the cultural tools they employ must be viewed as integral components of a memory system.

In most studies of semiotically distributed remembering, the emphasis is on how written or spoken language serves as a cultural tool. A major historical transformation in this regard came with what Donald (1991) calls the third transition in human cognitive evolution, one characterized by “the emergence of visual symbolism and external memory as major factors in cognitive architecture” (Donald, 1991: 17). The primary engine of change in this case was not within the individual, but external symbolic storage such as written texts and financial records. Donald stresses that these new forms of external symbolic storage have a transformational impact on psychological and neurological processes; they “impose search strategies, new storage strategies, new memory access routes, new options in both the control of an analysis of one’s own thinking” (Donald, 1991: 19). As a contemporary example in the early twenty-first century consider the new skills and strategies that have emerged with the appearance of Google and other search engines on the Internet.

Approaching memory from the perspective of semiotic distribution raises the question of how the use of different linguistic tools gives rise to different forms of memory. Instead of being viewed as simply facilitating existing forms of memory, leaving them otherwise unchanged, such tools are assumed to shape remembering in fundamental ways. A further twist to this line of reasoning stems from the fact that the primary function of language is not to serve as a cognitive or memory tool. Instead, its primary function is communication, and the role it takes on as a tool for remembering is derivative in an important sense. Authors such as Middleton and Brown (2005) have made this point in their study of collective memory. There they argue that the language used to recount the past may depend as much on the need to be convincing or on other communicative goals as it depends on any inclination to be accurate.

A major focus in the study of how language affects remembering is narrative. Researchers from a variety of disciplines have found it useful to make a basic distinction between forms of memory that are mediated by narratives and those that are not. In the case of individual memory, for example, Pillemer (1998) distinguishes between imagistic and narrative forms of “personal event memories” (Pillemer, 1998: 7). Pillemer and White (1989) argue that imagistic memory is “present from birth and operational throughout life … The memories are expressed through images, behaviors, or emotions” (Pillemer and White, 1989: 326). In contrast, the narrative memory system “emerges during the preschool years … Event representations entering the higher-order system are actively thought about or mentally processed and thus are encoded in narrative form. … Memories in the higher-order system can be accessed and recounted in response to social demands” (Pillemer and White, 1989: 326).

Pillemer formulated this distinction in order to analyze developmental issues such as childhood amnesia, where the concern is how imagistic memory is eventually supplemented by remembering mediated by narratives. This does not mean, however, that the former is thought to disappear. Instead, imagistic memory is assumed to continue to exist in adulthood, a claim reflected in Brown and Kulik’s account of flashbulb memory, which they speculated “is not a narrative and not even in verbal form, but represented in other, perhaps imaginal ways” (Brown and Kulik, 1977: 85).

Other discussions in the research literature on individual memory focus on distinctions between implicit and explicit memory (Roediger, 1990; Schacter, 1996) or unaware and aware uses of memory (Jacoby, 1988). An essential property of implicit memory is that it is nonconscious (Tulving and Schacter, 1990), which contrasts with explicit memory involving episodic form, which, in turn, is usually taken to involve narrative. Such narrative form is taken to be essential in organizing information and making it available to consciousness. According to Schacter (1994), “a key function of the episodic system is to bind together perceptual with other kinds of information (e.g., semantic, contextual) and thereby allow subsequent recall or recognition of multiattribute events” (Schacter, 1994: 257).

The relationship between imagistic and narrative forms of remembering is often formulated in terms of translation. For example, Pillemer provides an alternative account of repressed memories in terms of a failure of translation (Pillemer, 1998: 133). From this perspective, it is a failure to translate imagistic forms of remembering into narratives that gives rise to what others have called repression. And in the quite distinct realm of historical research, the semiotician Lotman (1990) made an analogous claim.

Even when the historian is an observer of the events described (examples of this rare occurrence are Herodotus and Julius Caesar), the observations still have to be mentally transformed into a verbal text, since the historian writes not of what was seen but a digest of what was seen in narrative form … The transformation of an event into a text involves, first, narrating it in the system of a particular language, i.e., subjecting it to a previously given structural organization. (Lotman, 1990: 221)

From a psychological perspective, one of the important implications of such translation is that it makes possible reflection and control, processes that take on particular importance when dealing with traumatic experience. In a discussion of overcoming traumatic events, for example, Harber and Pennebaker (1992) report that “victims must consciously confront the memories and emotions associated with their traumatic ordeals. This confrontation is best accomplished by translating the chaotic swirl of traumatic ideation and feelings into coherent language” (Haber and Pennebaker, 1992: 360).

As in the case of research on memory in individuals, narrative form provides the basis for distinguishing between different types of collective remembering. The Egyptologist and historian Assmann (2006), for example, distinguishes between cultural memory, under which he includes nonnarrative forms such as foods and landscapes, on the one hand, and national narratives, which impose “a coherent ordering of events along a strict narrative line serving as an intellectual and emotional backbone of national identity” (Assmann, 2006: 21), on the other. This latter form of representation brings along with it tendencies toward being “mono-perspective, ethnocentric, and narcissistic” (Assmann, 2006: 21). As is the case for narratives in general, national narratives are assumed to “grasp together” (Ricouer, 1985: 44) events, characters, and motives into a coherent representation of the past, much in the way that Schacter says episodic memory binds together information.

Research on individual and collective remembering is distinguished, however, by assumptions about the source of the narratives involved. Psychological studies of episodic memory typically assume that narrative organization is generated by the individual. There is little doubt that narrative cognition (Feldman and Kalmar, 1996) is widely used in the effort after meaning that shapes collective remembering as well, but it is typically viewed as involving narrative tools that are provided by the sociocultural context in which individuals function. Again, from this perspective, what makes collective memory collective is the fact these narrative tools are shared across the members of a group.

In this account, collective remembering harnesses existing narratives in the “tool kit” that is “already ‘there,’ deeply entrenched in culture and language” (Bruner, 1990: 11) to make sense of the past. Of course active agents are always involved and every use of these tools is unique, even creative in some way, but this performance is viewed as harnessing items in what MacIntyre (1984) calls a society’s stock of stories. One implication is that Orwell’s dictum could be restated as: He who controls the present, controls ‘narratives about’ the past. He who controls ‘narratives about’ the past, controls the future.

Memory Distortions and Biases Memories are not stored as exact replicas of reality; rather, they are modified and reconstructed during recall.

Key Points Because memories are reconstructed, they are susceptible to being manipulated with false information. Much research has shown that the phrasing of questions can alter memories. Children are particularly suggestible to such leading questions. People tend to place past events into existing representations of the world ( schemas ) to make memories more coherent. Intrusion errors occur when information that is related to the theme of a certain memory, but was not actually a part of the original episode, become associated with the event. There are many types of bias that influence recall, including fading-affect bias, hindsight bias, illusory correlation, self-serving bias, self-reference effect, source amnesia, source confusion, mood-dependent memory retrieval, and the mood congruence effect. Key Terms consolidation: The act or process of turning short-term memories into more permanent, long-term memories. schema: A worldview or representation. leading question: A query that suggests the answer or contains the information the examiner is looking for. Memory Errors Memories are fallible. They are reconstructions of reality filtered through people’s minds, not perfect snapshots of events. Because memories are reconstructed, they are susceptible to being manipulated with false information. Memory errors occur when memories are recalled incorrectly; a memory gap is the complete loss of a memory.

Schemas In a 1932 study, Frederic Bartlett demonstrated how telling and retelling a story distorted information recall. He told participants a complicated Native American story and had them repeat it over a series of intervals. With each repetition, the stories were altered. Even when participants recalled accurate information, they filled in gaps with false information. Bartlett attributed this tendency to the use of schemas. A schema is a generalization formed in the mind based on experience. People tend to place past events into existing representations of the world to make memories more coherent. Instead of remembering precise details about commonplace occurrences, people use schemas to create frameworks for typical experiences, which shape their expectations and memories. The common use of schemas suggests that memories are not identical reproductions of experience, but a combination of actual events and already-existing schemas. Likewise, the brain has the tendency to fill in blanks and inconsistencies in a memory by making use of the imagination and similarities with other memories.

Leading Questions Much research has shown that the phrasing of questions can also alter memories. A leading question is a question that suggests the answer or contains the information the examiner is looking for. For instance, one study showed that simply changing one word in a question could alter participants’ answers: After viewing video footage of a car accident, participants who were asked how “slow” the car was going gave lower speed estimations than those who were asked how “fast” it was going. Children are particularly suggestible to such leading questions.

Intrusion Errors Intrusion errors occur when information that is related to the theme of a certain memory, but was not actually a part of the original episode, become associated with the event. This makes it difficult to distinguish which elements are in fact part of the original memory. Intrusion errors are frequently studied through word-list recall tests.

Intrusion errors can be divided into two categories. The first are known as extra-list errors, which occur when incorrect and non-related items are recalled, and were not part of the word study list. These types of intrusion errors often follow what are known as the DRM Paradigm effects, in which the incorrectly recalled items are often thematically related to the study list one is attempting to recall from. Another pattern for extra-list intrusions would be an acoustic similarity pattern, which states that targets that have a similar sound to non-targets may be replaced with those non-targets in recall. The second type of intrusion errors are known as intra-list errors, which consist of irrelevant recall for items that were on the word study list. Although these two categories of intrusion errors are based on word-list studies in laboratories, the concepts can be extrapolated to real-life situations. Also, the same three factors that play a critical role in correct recall (i.e., recency, temporal association, and semantic relatedness) play a role in intrusions as well.

Types of Memory Bias A person’s motivations, intentions, mood, and biases can impact what they remember about an event. There are many identified types of bias that influence people’s memories.

Fading-Affect Bias In this type of bias, the emotion associated with unpleasant memories “fades” (i.e., is recalled less easily or is even forgotten) more quickly than emotion associated with positive memories.

Hindsight Bias Hindsight bias is the “I knew it all along!” effect. In this type of bias, remembered events will seem predictable, even if at the time of encoding they were a complete surprise.

Illusory Correlation When you experience illusory correlation, you inaccurately assume a relationship between two events related purely by coincidence. This type of bias comes from the human tendency to see cause-and-effect relationships when there are none; remember, correlation does not imply causation.

Mood Congruence Effect The mood congruence effect is the tendency of individuals to retrieve information more easily when it has the same emotional content as their current emotional state. For instance, being in a depressed mood increases the tendency to remember negative events.

Mood-State Dependent Retrieval Another documented phenomenon is mood-state dependent retrieval, which is a type of context-dependent memory. The retrieval of information is more effective when the emotional state at the time of retrieval is similar to the emotional state at the time of encoding. Thus, the probability of remembering an event can be enhanced by evoking the emotional state experienced during its initial processing.

Salience Effect This effect, also known as the Von Restorff effect, is when an item that sticks out more (i.e., is noticeably different from its surroundings) is more likely to be remembered than other items.

Self-Reference Effect In the self-reference effect, memories that are encoded with relation to the self are better recalled than similar memories encoded otherwise.

Self-Serving Bias When remembering an event, individuals will often perceive themselves as being responsible for desirable outcomes, but not responsible for undesirable ones. This is known as the self-serving bias.

Source Amnesia Source amnesia is the inability to remember where, when, or how previously learned information was acquired, while retaining the factual knowledge. Source amnesia is part of ordinary forgetting, but can also be a memory disorder. People suffering from source amnesia can also get confused about the exact content of what is remembered.

Source Confusion Source confusion, in contrast, is not remembering the source of a memory correctly, such as personally witnessing an event versus actually only having been told about it. An example of this would be remembering the details of having been through an event, while in reality, you had seen the event depicted on television.

Considerations for Eyewitness Testimony Increasing evidence shows that memories and individual perceptions are unreliable, biased, and manipulable.

LEARNING OBJECTIVES Analyze ways that the fallibility of memory can influence eyewitness testimonies

KEY TAKEAWAYS Key Points Eyewitness testimony has been considered a credible source in the past, but its reliability has recently come into question. One factor that influences the encoding of memory is the duration of the event being witnessed. Recall is better for events that last longer. The other-race effect is a studied effect in which eyewitnesses are not as good at facially identifying individuals from races different from their own. The weapon-focus effect is the tendency of an individual to hyper-focus on a weapon during a violent or potentially violent crime; this leads to encoding issues with other aspects of the event. The time between the perception and recollection of an event can also affect recollection. The accuracy of eyewitness memory degrades rapidly after initial encoding; the longer the delay between encoding and recall, the worse the recall will be. Research has consistently shown that even very subtle changes in the wording of a question can influence memory. Questions whose wording might bias the responder toward one answer over another are referred to as leading questions. Age has been shown to impact the accuracy of memory; younger witnesses are more suggestible and are more easily swayed by leading questions and misinformation. Other factors, such as personal biases, poor visibility, and the emotional tone of the event can influence eyewitness testimony. Key Terms leading question: A question that suggests the answer or contains the information the examiner is looking for. eyewitness: Someone who sees an event and can report or testify about it. Eyewitness testimony has been considered a credible source in the past, but its reliability has recently come into question. Research and evidence have shown that memories and individual perceptions are unreliable, often biased, and can be manipulated.

Encoding Issues Nobody plans to witness a crime; it is not a controlled situation. There are many types of biases and attentional limitations that make it difficult to encode memories during a stressful event.

Time When witnessing an incident, information about the event is entered into memory. However, the accuracy of this initial information acquisition can be influenced by a number of factors. One factor is the duration of the event being witnessed. In an experiment conducted by Clifford and Richards (1977), participants were instructed to approach police officers and engage in conversation for either 15 or 30 seconds. The experimenter then asked the police officer to recall details of the person to whom they had been speaking (e.g., height, hair color, facial hair, etc.). The results of the study showed that police had significantly more accurate recall of the 30-second conversation group than they did of the 15-second group. This suggests that recall is better for longer events.

Other-Race Effect The other-race effect (a.k.a., the own-race bias, cross-race effect, other-ethnicity effect, same-race advantage) is one factor thought to affect the accuracy of facial recognition. Studies investigating this effect have shown that a person is better able to recognize faces that match their own race but are less reliable at identifying other races, thus inhibiting encoding. Perception may affect the immediate encoding of these unreliable notions due to prejudices, which can influence the speed of processing and classification of racially ambiguous targets. The ambiguity in eyewitness memory of facial recognition can be attributed to the divergent strategies that are used when under the influence of racial bias.

Weapon-Focus Effect The weapon-focus effect suggests that the presence of a weapon narrows a person’s attention, thus affecting eyewitness memory. A person focuses on a central detail (e.g., a knife) and loses focus on the peripheral details (e.g. the perpetrator’s characteristics). While the weapon is remembered clearly, the memories of the other details of the scene suffer. This effect occurs because remembering additional items would require visual attention, which is occupied by the weapon. Therefore, these additional stimuli are frequently not processed.

Retrieval  Issues Trials may take many weeks and require an eyewitness to recall and describe an event many times. These conditions are not ideal for perfect recall; memories can be affected by a number of variables.

Time The accuracy of eyewitness memory degrades swiftly after initial encoding. The “forgetting curve” of eyewitness memory shows that memory begins to drop off sharply within 20 minutes following initial encoding, and begins to level off around the second day at a dramatically reduced level of accuracy. Unsurprisingly, research has consistently found that the longer the gap between witnessing and recalling the incident, the less accurately that memory will be recalled. There have been numerous experiments that support this claim. Malpass and Devine (1981) compared the accuracy of witness identifications after 3 days (short retention period) and 5 months (long retention period). The study found no false identifications after the 3-day period, but after 5 months, 35% of identifications were false.

image The forgetting curve of memory: The red line shows that eyewitness memory declines rapidly following initial encoding and flattens out after around 2 days at a dramatically reduced level of accuracy.

Leading Questions In a legal context, the retrieval of information is usually elicited through different types of questioning. A great deal of research has investigated the impact of types of questioning on eyewitness memory, and studies have consistently shown that even very subtle changes in the wording of a question can have an influence. One classic study was conducted in 1974 by Elizabeth Loftus, a notable researcher on the accuracy of memory. In this experiment, participants watched a film of a car accident and were asked to estimate the speed the cars were going when they “contacted” or “smashed” each other. Results showed that just changing this one word influenced the speeds participants estimated: The group that was asked the speed when the cars “contacted” each other gave an average estimate of 31.8 miles per hour, whereas the average speed in the “smashed” condition was 40.8 miles per hour. Age has been shown to impact the accuracy of memory as well. Younger witnesses, especially children, are more susceptible to leading questions and misinformation.

Bias There are also a number of biases that can alter the accuracy of memory. For instance, racial and gender biases may play into what and how people remember. Likewise, factors that interfere with a witness’s ability to get a clear view of the event—like time of day, weather, and poor eyesight—can all lead to false recollections. Finally, the emotional tone of the event can have an impact: for instance, if the event was traumatic, exciting, or just physiologically activating, it will increase adrenaline and other neurochemicals that can damage the accuracy of memory recall.

Memory Conformity “Memory conformity,” also known as social contagion of memory, refers to a situation in which one person’s report of a memory influences another person’s report of that same experience. This interference often occurs when individuals discuss what they saw or experienced, and can result in the memories of those involved being influenced by the report of another person. Some factors that contribute to memory conformity are age (the elderly and children are more likely to have memory distortions due to memory conformity) and confidence (individuals are more likely to conform their memories to others if they are not certain about what they remember).

Repressed Memories Some research indicates that traumatic memories can be forgotten and later spontaneously recovered.

LEARNING OBJECTIVES Discuss the issues surrounding theories about repressed memories

KEY TAKEAWAYS Key Points The issue of whether memories can be repressed has been the topic of much heated debate. Evidence in support of repressed memories includes research on how traumatic memories are encoded. In traumatic memories, there is a narrowed attentional focus on the emotional aspects of the memory; in contrast, non-traumatic memories encode a full narrative of the event. Some theorize that survivors of childhood sexual abuse may use repression to cope with the traumatic experience. Detractors of the theory of repressed memories claim that for most people, the difficulty with traumatic memories is their intrusiveness—that people are unable to forget them despite often wanting to. Given how unreliable memory is, some argue that attempting to recover a repressed memory runs the risk of implanting ” pseudomemories.” At this point it is impossible, without other corroborative evidence, to distinguish a true memory from a false one. Key Terms pseudomemory: A false or otherwise inaccurate memory that has usually been implanted by some form of suggestion. This term is generally used by people who do not believe that memories can be repressed and later recalled. encode: To convert sensory input into a form able to be processed and deposited in the memory. repressed memory: A hypothetical concept used to describe a significant memory, usually of a traumatic nature, that has become unavailable for recall. The issue of whether memories can be repressed is controversial, to say the least. Some research indicates that memories of traumatic events, most commonly childhood sexual abuse, may be forgotten and later spontaneously recovered. However, whether these memories are actively repressed or forgotten due to natural processes is unclear.

Support for the Existence of Repressed Memories In one study where victims of documented child abuse were re-interviewed many years later as adults, a high proportion of the women denied any memory of the abuse. Some speculate that survivors of childhood sexual abuse may repress the memories to cope with the traumatic experience. In cases where the perpetrator of the abuse is the child’s caretaker, the child may push the memories out of awareness so that he or she can maintain an attachment to the person on whom they are dependent for survival.

Traumatic memories are encoded differently than memories of ordinary experiences. In traumatic memories, there is a narrowed attentional focus on certain aspects of the memory, usually those that involved the most heightened emotional arousal. For instance, when remembering a traumatic event, individuals are most likely to remember how scared they felt, the image of having a gun held to their head, or other details that are highly emotionally charged. The limbic system is the part of the brain that is in charge of giving emotional significance to sensory inputs; however, the limbic system (particularly one of its components, the hippocampus ) is also important to the storage and retrieval of long-term memories. Supporters of the existence of repressed memories hypothesize that because the hippocampus is sensitive to stress hormones and because the limbic system is heavily occupied with the emotions of the event, the memory-encoding functionality may be limited during traumatic events. The end result is that the memory is encoded as an affective (i.e., relating to or influenced by the emotions) and sensory imprint, rather than a memory that includes a full account of what happened. In this way, traumatic experiences appear to be qualitatively different from those of non-traumatic events, and, as a result, they are more difficult to remember accurately.

Psychological disorders exist that could cause the repression of memories. Psychogenic amnesia, or dissociative amnesia, is a memory disorder characterized by sudden autobiographical memory loss, said to occur for a period of time ranging from hours to years. More recently, dissociative amnesia has been defined as a dissociative disorder characterized by gaps in memory of personal information, especially of traumatic events. These gaps involve an inability to recall personal information, usually of a traumatic or stressful nature. In a change from the DSM-IV to the DSM-5, dissociative fugue is now classified as a type of dissociative amnesia. Psychogenic amnesia is distinguished from organic amnesia in that it is supposed to result from a nonorganic cause; no structural brain damage or brain lesion should be evident, but some form of psychological stress should precipitate the amnesia. However, psychogenic amnesia as a memory disorder is controversial.

Opposition to the Existence of Repressed Memories Memories of events are always a mix of factual traces of sensory information overlaid with emotions, mingled with interpretation and filled in with imaginings. Thus, there is always skepticism about the factual validity of memories.

There is considerable evidence that, rather than being pushed out of consciousness, traumatic memories are, for many people, intrusive and unforgettable. Given research showing how unreliable memory is, it is possible that any attempt to “recover” a repressed memory runs the risk of implanting false memories. Researchers who are skeptical of the idea of recovered memories note how susceptible memory is to various manipulations that can be used to implant false memories (sometimes called “pseudomemories”).

A classic study in memory research conducted by Elizabeth Loftus became widely known as the “lost in the mall” experiment. In this study, subjects were given a booklet containing three accounts of real childhood events written by family members and a fourth account of a fictitious event of being lost in a shopping mall. A quarter of the subjects reported remembering the fictitious event, and elaborated on it with extensive circumstantial details.

image “Lost in the mall” experiment: Some of the early research in memory conformity involved the “lost in the mall” technique.

While this experiment does show that false memories can be implanted in some subjects, it cannot be generalized to say that all recovered memories are false memories. Nevertheless, these studies prompted public and professional concern about recovered-memory therapy for sexual abuse. According to the American Psychiatric Association, “most leaders in the field agree that although it is a rare occurrence, a memory of early childhood abuse that has been forgotten can be remembered later. However, these leaders also agree that it is possible to construct convincing pseudomemories for events that never occurred. The mechanism(s) by which both of these phenomena happen are not well understood and, at this point it is impossible, without other corroborative evidence, to distinguish a true memory from a false one.”

Repressed Memories: Real or Imagined? December 17, 2013 • By Elise Curtin, GoodTherapy.org Staff Writer fingers clenched on rebar fenceMany people believe that when experiences are too painful or difficult to face, they end up tucked into the unseen corners of the unconscious in the form of repressed memories. The presence of hidden truths in the psyche may then manifest in myriad ways in waking life: panic attacks, nightmares, anxiety, depression, sexual dysfunction, and issues with self-esteem, to name a few.

Sexual trauma, in particular, is viewed by a number of therapists as being especially susceptible to repression (Loftus, 1993). The memories may remain locked away for years before surfacing, which typically occurs in a therapeutic setting.

Several people, mainly women, who recollect memories of abuse 10, 20, 30, or more years after the abuse occurred have sued the perpetrators in court for damages to physical and psychological well-being. Many have won.

However, over the past few decades, the notion of repressed memories has sparked a great deal of controversy in the mental health field. This became especially heated during what became known as the “memory wars” of the 1990s.

Clinical psychologists and therapists who have witnessed adult clients remembering repressed experiences of childhood abuse argue that the memories are real, vivid, detailed, and reliable. Researchers tend to be more hesitant to accept the concept of repression as fact due to the lack of scientific evidence in support of it (Association for Psychological Science, 2013).

Findings reported recently in Psychological Science suggest that this controversy remains just as prevalent today, and that skepticism has actually increased with time. One of the researchers, Lawrence Patihis of the University of California, Irvine, said in a press release issued by the Association for Psychological Science (2013), “Whether repressed memories are accurate or not, and whether they should be pursued by therapists, or not, is probably the single most practically important topic in clinical psychology since the days of Freud and the hypnotists who came before him.”

The study conducted by Patihis and colleagues involved an online survey of practicing clinicians, psychotherapists, research psychologists, and alternative therapists. Their responses revealed that though skepticism regarding repressed memories has increased in the past 20 years for “mainstream psychotherapists and clinical psychologists,” approximately 60 to 80% of the clinicians, psychoanalysts, and therapists who responded to the survey believe that memories of trauma are often repressed and can be retrieved in therapy.

They also gathered data that shows the widespread acceptance of repressed memories as real among the general public. On the other hand, less than 30% of research psychologists believe in the validity of repressed memories.

REPRESSED-MEMORY TESTIMONY FUELS CONTROVERSY One of the primary concerns of skeptics is that “repressed-memory testimony” may be used in court to indict someone. Being able to testify against long-ago abusers has been known to aide in the healing and recovery of many who endured childhood sexual or physical abuse. However, there have been instances where an adult child accuses parents of abuse years after the fact and the parents vehemently deny the accusation; this inevitably tears apart familial relationships and leaves the accused feeling victimized (Loftus, 1993).

Repressed-memory testimony has also been used to solve unsolved cases of murder, as in the 1990 case of Eileen Franklin, who experienced sudden and vivid repressed memory recall as a 29-year-old mother that revealed a dark secret: When she was 8 years old, her father had raped and murdered her best friend; Eileen had been witness to the crime, and her father had threatened to kill her if she ever told anyone. Her then 51-year-old father George was tried in court and convicted largely based on the evidence provided via Eileen’s memories, although corroborating evidence gathered at the time of the crime was also taken into consideration.

The disturbing number of cases related to repressed experiences of childhood sexual abuse by Catholic priests and other private group leaders has also stirred much dialogue over whether memories that surface years after an alleged incident occurred should be used as evidence in legal cases. As recently as October 2013, Governor Jerry Brown of California vetoed legislation that would have allowed more victims of childhood sexual abuse to take action against the Catholic Church, Boy Scouts, and other private organizations (Miller).

For those who experienced the abuse, being able to seek justice for the wrongs committed against them is essential to their ability to move on and recover. Many of them experience years of psychological torment prior to remembering in full the abuse that took place, and their supporters believe lawsuits should be an option regardless of how long it takes for those memories to appear (Miller, 2013).

Considering that the truth of a resurfaced memory is often nearly impossible to prove with scientific evidence, this may be a situation where researchers should defer to the practicing psychologists and therapists who have witnessed countless cases of repressed recall in action, as well as the people who attest to their validity firsthand and experience intuitive healing as a result.

References:

Association for Psychological Science. (2013, December 13). Scientists and practitioners don’t see eye to eye on repressed memory. [Press Release]. Retrieved from http://www.psychologicalscience.org/index.php/news/releases/scientists-and-practitioners-dont-see-eye-to-eye-on-repressed-memory.html Miller, J. (2013, October 13). SEX ABUSE: Governor vetoes bill to allow more victims. The Press-Enterprise. Retrieved from http://www.pe.com/local-news/politics/jim-miller-headlines/20131013-sex-abuse-governor-vetoes-bill-to-allow-more-victims.ece Loftus, E. (1993). The reality of repressed memories. American Psychologist, 48, 518-537. Retrieved from http://faculty.washington.edu/eloftus/Articles/lof93.htm © Copyright 2013 GoodTherapy.org. All rights reserved.

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dan December 17th, 2013 at 11:54 PM repressed memories can cause a lot of pain to the person as I can imagine. it would not be easy to come face to face with memories from the past when they are ugly and could bring back episodes that are best forgotten.

as far as legality is concerned, truth is truth whether it is from memory or from repressed memory. as long as it is medically proven that it is indeed repressed memories then there should be no hinderance to considering it is evidence.

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Cat December 18th, 2013 at 3:40 AM The temptation must be great to dismiss a repressed memory as something that one is making up but I think that in most cases you can look back at the life of a person and determine that they are probably telling the truth. What would they have to gain from lying about something as critical as this? And they have obviously experienced a lot of pain in their lives as a result of something that they have experienced in the past but just didn’t remember until they were prepared to handle all of the ramifications of remembering. I know that it is tricky but imagine the damage that will be done of what they have to say os just discounted. We have to be willing to at least consider that what someone is saying was repressed for years is the truth.

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William April 26th, 2017 at 10:47 AM It’s not a lie, per se. It’s a failure of memory.

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Wadsworth August 25th, 2017 at 3:48 PM Most people are not completely discounting any truth of the memory. The problem is that the mind is a very complex tool. Complex enough to repress a memory to the point of complete ignorance. The memory is never repressed instantaneously. It might be hours, days, months or even years before full repression takes effect. By that point, the mind has reacted with a million different emotions and thoughts including biased assumptions condemning or justifying (or both) the traumatic event based on personal emotions / relations one has to the event and those involved in the event. If the event truly is traumatic, all of these thoughts can and will influence not only one’s feelings about the event, but can actually affect and even alter the actual memory of the event itself. It’s a normal response to a traumatic event because the mind might not want to believe what it saw, or it might want to draw conclusions and inferences that go beyond what it saw based on pre-existing feelings, assumptions, prejudices, etc. There is no way around that. That’s the way the mind works. So now the memory has already been compromised the moment it happens, and then is continued to be compromised up until the point of complete repression. Then you have 5, 10, 40 years pass where that memory has been locked up in a vault next to a slew of other traumatic memories, forgotten memories, forgotten thoughts/ideas/dreams etc. Mixing around like a washing machine. These memories can and will mix with those other memories and there is no way to know what actually happened, what was a just a thought, fantasy or nightmare you had, what event went with what, etc. It should be taken cases by case but there HAS to be plenty of collaborating physical evidence to go with it, just like any other case. The person could be flat out lying without anyone knowing. That can happen with a current event or a 40 year old event. Doesn’t really matter. And i’m not talking collaborating evidence in the form of eye witness accounts from other adults trying to remember something that happened 30-40 years ago … I don’t trust eye witnesses for events that happened two days ago, let alone 40 years … And yes, I have repressed memories, many of which never actually happened, some that did happen but are now mixed with other memories that did not, and some that are 100% real. At least that is what my brain has determined as of now.

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Carr December 18th, 2013 at 9:56 AM I thought all you True Believers in RMT would be thrilled to know that my beloved wife grieved herself to death 3 and ½ years after our daughters made their false accusations against me and cut off all contact with us. She was in such a state of grief it compromised her immune system, caused pancreatic cancer to develop, and she died in agony January 11. They would not even come to her memorial. Someday all you True Believers will come to comprehend the enormous harm you have done to innocent people. I do pity you when that day comes and you can hardly live with the guilt from the enormous harm you have caused. Because you all believe we should “defer to the practicing psychologists and therapists” regardless of the lack of scientific basis for RMT, you are causing enormous harm to thousands of families. May God have mercy on your souls!!!

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garrison December 18th, 2013 at 2:31 PM wow carr that’s a lot of anger and emotion that you are dealing with there, man- I think that you should find someone to talk to to help you through all of that anger that you are so obviously feeling. Sounds like there are a lot of unresolved family issues that trouble you, and you lost your spouse and all of this combined would be hard on anyone. Peace and love, man, and hopefully you too will eventually find some of that too.

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Jeffrey December 26th, 2013 at 6:00 AM These memories boiling beneath the surface can be so damaging to one’s life, that to think that someone would ever make up something like this is kind of unthinkable to me. If they have struggled through their lives with no real obvious reason, maybe there is snomething that that other people don’t know about, and perhaps working with a therapist could help them to get those memories to the surface so that they can deal with them once and for all. It can’t be good for anyone to have all of that going on inside but they not really be aware of them or fully understand the magnitude of what they have repressed.

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Bob January 12th, 2014 at 8:48 AM I am curious. How do you explain cases where a client has a repressed memory of childhood sexual abuse where you also have overwhelming evidence that the memory is false? For example, an adult patient accuses an uncle of abusing her when she was a kid, but he was stationed in another country for the entire time.

The ethical issue I have is that it is impossible to tell the difference between a real case, and a confabulated case without corroborating evidence.

In one case I recently reviewed, a teacher was accused of abusing a student back in the 90’s based on a recovered memory. Almost all of the story was provably true. The patient did have a private tutoring session with the teacher. Everything was spot-on, except for the abuse part. The teacher video-taped every private tutoring session they ever did, and actually had the tapes to prove the abuse never happened (every tape showed drop-off to pick up, without gaps).

The presentation was no different than in cases where the abuse was provably true.

Without those tapes, that teacher could have gone to jail.

How do we defend the ethics of this?

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Ric M August 13th, 2014 at 10:19 PM Here’s my biggest problem with the so-called mental health experts, the therapists: in so many cases they just ASSUME that what some “victim” is saying is true! They do zero research in establishing the true before determining a course of treatment! I know, ’cause it happened to me. My daughter, after 22 years with a beautiful, healthy relationship, told me she had memories of my “inappropriately touching” her. I KNOW this didn’t happen, and her therapists has her on a whole regimen of drugs to soften the “trauma” she experienced. There was no attempt at all to determine the truth before the drugs and continuous psychotherapy were prescribed. It’s an obvious racket in some cases.

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dawn December 15th, 2014 at 1:11 AM I had memories… They were triggered by someone messing with my emotions… My memories were of my brother dying…it was ruled a suicide… He was murdered… It took 20 years to remember..i am now.. Trying to get help to investigate it…my memories were of the entire night in detail of every action I witnessed by my brother and the killer… I know… I will never be the same… Mentally… I’m 39… But mentally at the most… 20.. My brain constantly thinks about when i was young… Things that I say to ppl…they ask how I remember that stuff…idk…something happened to me…I’m different…but it turned out strange… I have a lot in my head…but at the same time..I’m content…pleasant… And have peace of mind… Which is awesome… But it took me a while to learn to live with my memories being there constantly… Thankfully I did… To everyone else that goes thru the memories that come back after decades and then…never go away.. As if they are a part of u…I wish u all the best… In finding a way to deal with it.. :)

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jessi January 17th, 2015 at 3:56 AM I know that repressed memory isn’t something that people can say they trust 100%, but I just find it odd that I can remember such vivid details of the setting. For example the plasticine that I didn’t recall for 8 years, that was on a table, and it wasn’t even an English word to me when I was four. It was in Spanish when I lived in Colombia. I recalled what I had seen. And so i tried googling the description of plasticine and finally found what my memory was recovering ir what my memory was viewing. So then I googled the translation of plasticine to Spanish because I had forgotten the name of this stuff in Spanish as well, and when I read plastilina in Spanish, it seemed so familiar. I had already said and heard the word in the past. And I was recovering the memory by saying it in Spanish even more. I knew what the stuff was, what it felt like, what it looked like, the different colors, and when I saw the pictures of the plasticine and how some where stacked in a row, I remembered even more of the time when I was about 4 years old. I was a curious child. And I wanted to play with that. But not only do I remember this. I remember a sex position book. I didnt even know that books such as those existed at age 14 when I started ‘recovering’ and having parts of flashbacks of this, but somehow I knew at that age that sex position books existed, or else how could I have just invented the idea of such an object? I remember the closet, mainly because I recall having to run quickly into one to get my clothes back on and hide there because someone else was entering the house. I remember feeling guilt and embarrassment, like I needed to hide this information from everyone. And what’s worse is that now that I am 17, I feel like I already know what it is like to have intercourse and that when I DO “again” I will be familiar with it. Kind of like saying the word plastilina. It disgusts me. Why would I ever make up such horrid things? This is something on an online website, what am I seeking or getting out of this by saying this? The only reason I say this, isn’t for attention, rather more for your knowledge out there. I still fear that it really did happen. But I definitely cant just rule out the possibility that it happened, mainly because of the details that I portrayed in this paragraph. And my own questions in my head currently: how could I know these vivid objects existed, if they weren’t already in my memory? In my past..

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rene January 22nd, 2015 at 4:48 AM My friend and I were abducted and attacked when we were very young so badly my friend was left infertile, and we spent time in hospital, because we were badly damaged It is common knowledge in my old town, we moved away shortly after the attack.I can not remember any of it. My family don’t really want to talk about it and say to leave it alone that it is a good thing that i don’t remember anything. All my life I had people coming to me and saying Werent you attacked when you were a child my answer was always No what are you talking about? the reply was always nothing sorry and an embarrassed quick exit or on one occasion the person burst into sobs and just ran away. After this happened enough times I asked my family if this was true, they said it was but refuse to go any further into it.I dont know if they are right or wrong should I just leave it and not remember it or should i try to find out more and try to unlock the memory? I am 40 years old now but it has bothered me along time.

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tra February 12th, 2015 at 4:34 AM i was brought up by my grandparents after losing parents at three, my grandmother died 6 years later so was jus me my grandfather an uncle,the violence started then up until 16 when i ran away,the physical an mental abuse was common knowledge by then through people witnessing the violence etc,ive always been praised an admired by others for my mental strength an even have a child psychology diploma,the uncle died a week ago but now ive all these episodes flashing through my head,incidents i can actually see everything clear as day, i even feel the fright an confusion of the child in my memories which most of the time brings me to tears,now tho im seeing sexual behaviour toward me, touching inappropriately i’m now scared to sleep as i don’t know what i’ll see next, is this things ive locked away? why isnt this stuff stayed fresh in my mind? esp since the violence was ongoing,so confused and hes not even buried yet..?..

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Jeffrey Von Glahn November 1st, 2015 at 8:21 PM For many examples, all of which were audiotaped, of how my client recovered from many repressed experiences from the earliest days of her life, see: Jessica: The autobiography of an infant.

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Teddy December 2nd, 2015 at 9:22 PM All of a sudden when I got sober one day something some flash back at my grandpas house that now I must have repressed again because It was so vivid i ran out of my AA meeting hysterical. I must have 4 or 5 years old and somehow my cousin is involved the deeper I investigated the worse it looked, every photo I found of him and me at that age I looked like I was screaming for help. I wish I could remember exactly what that memory was all I have is a hatred for this cousin one that I’ve subconsciously had my entire life, I’ve always been jealous when he gave my sister attention or dreaded Christmas at his moms house and would relapse I never put two and two together. I finally came out about it and have broken my family apart, is there a certain kind of therapy that can truly help me unlock these memories so I can get some closure and know the truth?

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Brandi October 11th, 2016 at 7:14 PM It seems to me there is a 500 pound gorilla in this room. On the one hand, someone references a case that convinces at least them that a particular claim about repressed memories is false. Another references a case that does the opposite. Some of these stories are quite poignant, and kinds undoubtedly carry deep personal significance. People on both sides of the fence then conclude from the evidence that moves them most deeply that repressed memories are or are-not legitimate.

Whoa. Stop. Put on the brakes people! This is faulty reasoning!

Just because you have a powerful story of the abuse of the concept of repressed memory doesn’t mean there aren’t any. Just because you have a story of confirmed repressed memory doesn’t mean there aren’t any false claims or abuse of the concept.

In any particular case there are multiple questions. (1) Is repressed memory plausible in general. (2) Does a particular case have the marks of a valid memory recovery? (3) If so, is it reasonable to conclude that the details are accurate or could they be mistaken? I’ve personally made a study of this topic. I just reviewed some recent research on the question. In spite of severe doubts by some researchers, somewhere in the range of 60% to 80% of practicing therapists and psychologists believe traumatic memory can be repressed and recovered because they see so many apparently valid cases. That is a far cry from legitimizing every claim or even every clinical practice.

With that as preface, I’ll tell this much of my own story. A repressed memory involving a violent death and sexual abuse (different incidents). Recovered around 30 years after the events, outside of therapy, spontaneously upon encountering a person involved. Eye witnesses to the events have confirmed the general outlines of the story. This seems to a bona fide case of recovered memory of traumatic events. However, not even I am willing to say that the details I “remember” have to be correct. I can’t imagine anyone trying to base a lawsuit or criminal charge primarily on such evidence. So, let’s agree that abuses of the concept are indeed possible. If you are a victim of such abuse, I am sincerely sorry for you. No one should invalidate your very real pain. If you were a victim of trauma and have gone through the agony of recovering that memory, I am sincerely sorry for you too. No one should invalidate your pain either. So, let’s just not be silly about things. People have been victimized on both sides of this fence.

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Repressed September 19th, 2018 at 5:52 AM Coming from someone that is 37 years old and having 2 siters we all 3 have repressed memory. I only rememberbits and pieces of my child hood and even still it’s nothing I would be happy to share. My youngest sister (35) and I often talk about our childhood trying to jog one or both of our memories but we have had no luck. I didn’t start remembering anything that happened in my life till I was 15-16 and for her it was about 13-14. We did notice our memory started “sticking” when we got away from our mother. From what was told to us by our mother is that my father was abusive and a drunk and our father said that my mother was verbally and mentally abusive. My sister has taken one for the team and is talking to a therapist. The therapist saod that the method she uses for everyone isn’t working on her so she now has to figure out another way to jog her memory. If she can do this then that will push me to go talk to a therapist and find out what had happened in my childhood. I don’t wish this in anyone at all. Your childhood should be filled with happy fun times that includes family and friends not a huge gap where you are clueless and feel so out of place leaving you to wonder what the hel happened. I will keep you informed! Eish me luck!

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Connie C. May 22nd, 2019 at 5:23 AM My daughter is on disability after being diagnosed with PTSD from emotional, physical and sexual abuse in her childhood. These things were all uncovered during a session to recover repressed memories. It has torn our family apart!!! Problem is/it never happened! She is repeating things she heard about that happened to my sister and me. Her siblings all confirmed that none of it is true. My in laws lived next door to us and say it is all false. Corporal punishment was not practiced in our home. She owned 4 CBRF homes for 20 years and is very familiar with symptoms of various mental conditions. How do I restore my family’s unity and reputation. My heart hurts that a family, once so close, has been torn apart by falsehoods of this magnitude

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Steve August 7th, 2019 at 3:29 PM This goes back 30 years. Why are part of an event as vivid as watching a TV screen and other parts cannot be recalled at all. Walked in on my wife and another guy that I suspected she was having an affair. After forcing the door open I can vividly remember her face as she came up the hall…he was standing in front of me and I cannot recall the look on his face. Normally I would have gone physical on both but all I did, I assume, is turned around, walked out to the car, drove home and went to bed. Don’t remember if I said anything, don’t remember what route I took going home, don’t remember his reaction to me (surprise or fear), don’t remember the look on her face…but I vividly remember coming up to the house and looking into the bedroom window and seeing them together as clear as if it were yesterday. It is as if my brain shut down. On occasion that part of seeing them initially will come back when I go to bed but only that part I recall. When it does it is vivid.

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Lisa November 26th, 2019 at 10:49 AM What happens when your not believed and have so many f****d up psychological diagnoses whats wrong with me? and there are so many cover ups and how high it it goes and that there have already been numerous attempts upon your life tell me please what do i do im lost and have no one to talk to at all so i type on my computer get it all off my chest and then delete it i dont feel safe at all do you know about rampant corruption and greed and so many cover ups and going back 35 years to know of all my issues and problems thought you didnt i thought you wouldnt understand how much proof do you need and years and decades of trauma and surpressed trauma and how many people can be charged by my memories too and truthfully to im petrified once again i have no one to turn to without being punished for telling the truth what another detainment more medications more injections more community treatments orders and yep you guessed it once again childhood threats growing up and all now coming true as well pleas etell em what shoudl i do i am now placing myself at risk by typing this but the truth is i have tried committing suicide more than 50 plus times since i was 17 and im now 40 with nothing to look forward to in my life whom can i trust and get help from im sick of it all the abuse smany forms methods and ways used on me to and many try and shut me up trauma issues once again and now i got a speech impediment to you know the old fashioned sayings will i been dealing with sickos majority of my life im delicate and extremely senstive i think im a freak with what others have done to me to. one thing i wanted to let you know or say is that psychological abuse is one of the worst forms of absuses as well as hard prove and in my case not beleived and dismissed and thrown into the mental health system so nobody cares about me or cares about anything i have to say im just considered another fruit loop and the other thing is as well nobody speaks out against the crown (royalty) without consequences and so many cover ups please be brave like me and make a post of truths with what you been through to

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Victoria April 5th, 2021 at 9:41 AM I have repressed memories from when I was 4, obviously I don’t remember most of them. My father was abusive to me and my siblings at that time, and my mom filed for divorce. Growing up, I didn’t know about repressed memories, but I always felt like something was missing. It was like there were a bunch of blank spaces where all of these memories of abuse were supposed to be. My family was relieved, but it always made me uncomfortable. It’s not that I was too young to remember anything from that time of my life, because I do have lots of memories from that time too, of playing with toys, visiting the neighbors, how the basement looked, how we would play toddler games on the computer, blathering nonsensical sentences because I didn’t understand how to speak yet, our cousins visiting, and how my older sister wouldn’t let me play with her toys because I was to careless, and would break them. So it bothered me until I was 12 or 13 years old. My mother had full custody over the 4 of us until she was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, and we moved back in with our dad. He was still abusive. There was a dream that I’d been having in different variations for years. The first was about the Freddi Fish games from Humongous Entertainment. In the dream, I was trying to find a place, but it was locked to me. Every time that I had a dream about that game afterwards, I would look for it, because I knew it was there…but I didn’t know what, and I still don’t. The other was about me getting in the clothes dryer and tumbling inside. In the dream, I was laughing, and it was pleasantly warm, like a sauna. My dad was standing nearby. I had the sense that it was like a fun ride, and it was very positive…however the dream stuck with me, because there was something familiar and unpleasant about it. My dad had begun abusing us again, and I assume that’s where the shift came from. We were abused for poor grades or for incomplete chores. I dreaded the thought of him coming home, and desired to hide, but there was nowhere to hide. I read a lot of books, Harry Potter made me feel better especially. At the worst point, I had been doused in water and forced to sit in the laundry room on the washer/dryer for several hours in the dark. It reminded me of the strange dream…and in that moment that dream suddenly felt very optimistic, and grotesque, and wrong and black. The real memory was hiding beneath, and all I had to do was pick apart the broken fragments on the top. It was like staring into a black abyss where there was no hope, a pit of despair. The memory was of when I was 4 or younger. I was playing hide and seek with my sisters. I had decided to hide in the dryer, even though it was not allowed by our parents. I figured there was no real harm in it, since I could push the door open and closed, since the reason we weren’t supposed to was a fear of us being locked in and having the dryer turned on. My dad came over to do his laundry, and I got anxious, because I wasn’t supposed to be there. I decided to come clean and reveal my hiding space, because I didn’t want to get dried with his clothes. I opened the door and said “here I am” to let him know I was there. He proceeded to throw his clothes in the dryer on top of me, and forced me to stay inside. He closed the door. It was dark and cold, and I asked him to let me out, because he was blocking the door and had closed it again when I’d tried to open it. He didn’t respond, and turned the dryer on with me still inside. I went in circles a few times, then realizing that I had no mobility to open the door, I turned sideways to face the door. I tried again to push the door open, but the back of the dryer burned my feet. At this point it was becoming difficult to breathe, as it was becoming rather stuffy from the heat, and while the denim pants were wet, they weren’t all that cold anymore. I tried to use the denim to keep my feet from burning, but couldn’t hold it with my feet. Learning from all of this, I turned to face the spin again, fearing that I was about to break my neck, but didn’t. I was relieved to find that by holding the denim with my hands, I could kick the door open by completely extending my body the length of the dryer from the back, while I didn’t burn my hands on the back. It felt rather cold when the door opened, and yellow light filed the dryer from the lights that turn on inside. I was furious, and I screamed at him, how could he do that to me? He said something about how he had better never find me in the dryer ever again, and forced me to say that I understood. The way he spoke to me afterwards was terrifying. He’d done it on purpose, to teach me some sort of twisted lesson?

Anyway, the point is, that repressed memories are definitely real…I don’t really understand why there is an argument about whether or not they are. While I did go therapy as a child, there ISN’T ANY kind of therapy used on children that would cause a false recollection of a memory as I’ve seen described by skeptics. Again, this memory resurfaced while I was still a child, and while we had therapists, they never really did anything to help us and therapy for children is a joke, because therapists tell everything to your abusive parents… x_x

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richard February 11th, 2022 at 10:04 AM I was personally sexually abused by my fellow classmates in a parochial school and that experience substantially ruined my entire life. I was 13 & just passed thru puberty. This experience made it nearly impossible to trust anyone thereafter and this hesitancy ruined several relationships because i just could NOT give ANYONE 100 percent trust. A recent experience triggerred that terrible memory Because it was repressed for so long; I now cannot remember the names of ANY of the 6 fellow students involved So ~ YES ~ there ARE repressed memories AND ~ NO I have not had any re-call therapy altho now I am in old age; this memory triggers a wide range of emotions inclusive of RAGE / SHAME / regret that I NEVER took revenge etc I wish I knew if recall thru therapy WORKS ! ONE more observation ~ in MY world; teens should NEVER be unsupervised re: this happened in a CATHOLIC school during UNSUPERVISED lunch break

Mbira From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Jump to navigationJump to search “Kalimba” redirects here. For other uses, see Kalimba (disambiguation). “Zanza” redirects here. For the Rurouni Kenshin character, see Sagara Sanosuke. Mbira Mbira dzavadzimu 1.jpg Mbira dzavadzimu Other instrument Other names finger harp, gourd piano, ikembe, kalimba, kilembe, likembe, likimba, marimbula, mbla, sansa, sansu, sanza, thumb piano, timbrh, zanzu Classification Lamellophone, Plucked Idiophone Hornbostel–Sachs classification 122.1 (Plucked idiophone) Timbre clear, percussive, chimelike Volume low Attack fast Decay moderate Playing range Varies, see Tuning

low to medium Mbira (pronounced m-BEE-ra , /əmˈbɪərə/) are a family of musical instruments, traditional to the Shona people of Zimbabwe. They consist of a wooden board (often fitted with a resonator) with attached staggered metal tines, played by holding the instrument in the hands and plucking the tines with the thumbs (at minimum), the right forefinger (most mbira), and sometimes the left forefinger. Musicologists classify it as a lamellaphone, part of the plucked idiophone family of musical instruments. In Eastern and Southern Africa, there are many kinds of mbira, often accompanied by the hosho, a percussion instrument. It is often an important instrument played at religious ceremonies, weddings, and other social gatherings. The “Art of crafting and playing Mbira/Sansi, the finger-plucking traditional musical instrument in Malawi and Zimbabwe” was added to the UNESCO Representative List of the Intangible Cultural Heritage of Humanity in 2020.[1]

A modern interpretation of the instrument was commercially produced and exported by ethnomusicologist Hugh Tracey from the late 1920s onward, popularising similar instruments outside of Africa. Tracey’s design was modeled after the mbira nyunga nyunga and named ‘Kalimba’ after an ancient predecessor of the mbira family of instruments.

Mbira, known as the Kalimba, became popularized in the 1960s and early 1970s largely due to the successes of such musicians as Maurice White of the band Earth, Wind and Fire and Thomas Mapfumo in the 1970s.[2] These musicians included mbira on stage accompanying modern rock instruments such as electric guitar and bass, drum kit, and horns. Their arrangements included numerous songs directly drawn from traditional mbira repertoire. Other notable influencers bringing mbira music out of Africa are: Dumisani Maraire, who brought marimba and karimba music to the American Pacific Northwest; Ephat Mujuru, who was one of the pioneer teachers of mbira dzavadzimu in the United States; and the writings and recordings of Zimbabwean musicians made by Paul Berliner. Claire Jones, a student of Dumisani Maraire in the 1970s, has been playing and teaching mbira for more than 40 years. She is also a Festival Coordinator for Zimfest, a Zimbabwean Music Festival held annually in North America that offers many opportunities to learn and listen to mbira.[3][4]

Joseph H. Howard and Babatunde Olatunji have both suggested that mbira (and other metal lamellaphones) are thoroughly African, being found only in areas populated by Africans or their descendants.[5] Similar instruments were reported to be used in Okpuje, Nsukka area of the south eastern part of Nigeria in the early 1900s

History

A Zimbabwean mbira dza vadzimu Various kinds of plucked idiophones and lamellaphones have existed in Africa for thousands of years. The tines were originally made of bamboo but over the years metal keys have been developed. These types of instrument appear to have been invented twice in Africa: a wood or bamboo-tined instrument appeared on the west coast of Africa about 3,000 years ago, and metal-tined lamellophones appeared in the Zambezi River valley around 1,300 years ago.[7] Metal-tined instruments traveled all across the continent, becoming popular among the Shona of Zimbabwe (from which the word mbira comes) and other indigenous groups in Zimbabwe and Mozambique.[8] The mbira was differentiated in its physical form and social uses as it spread. Kalimba-like instruments came to exist from the northern reaches of North Africa to the southern extent of the Kalahari Desert, and from the east coast to the west coast, though many or most groups of people in Africa did not possess mbiras. There were thousands of different tunings, different note layouts, and different instrument designs, but there is a hypothetical tuning and note layout of the original metal-tined instrument from 1,300 years ago, referred to as the 'kalimba core’.[9][10]

In the mid 1950s mbira instruments were the basis for the development of the kalimba, a westernized version designed and marketed by the ethnomusicologist Hugh Tracey, leading to a great expansion of its distribution outside Africa.[11][12]

Acoustics Lamellophones are instruments which have little tines, or “lamellae”, which are played by plucking. Unlike stringed instruments or air-column instruments like flutes, the overtones of a plucked lamella are inharmonic, giving the mbira a characteristic sound. The inharmonic overtones are strongest in the attack and die out rather quickly, leaving an almost pure tone. When a tine is plucked, the adjacent tines also create secondary vibrations that increase the harmonic complexity of an individual note.[13]

Rhythm Mbira music, like much of the sub-Saharan African music traditions is based on cross-rhythm. An example from the kutsinhira part of the traditional mbira dzavadzimu piece “Nhema Musasa” is given by David Peñalosa, who observes that the left hand plays the ostinato “bass line,” while the right hand plays the upper melody. The composite melody is an embellishment of the 3:2 cross-rhythm (also known as a hemiola).[14]

Tuning

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Tuning chart for the Tracey 15-note alto kalimba.

mbira dzavadzimu tuning and key layout

* Same color keys are the same notes (usually octaves) * Key “1” is the lowest note, ascending to the highest note key “23” * Key “2” is often only found on the mavembe tuning * Some mbira have extra keys (e.g. extra “17” on left side, or higher notes on the right beyond key “23” are most common) * Note intervals can vary, but all the octaves are divided into a heptatonic scale, many being diatonic or at least nearly diatonic * This diagram does not represent every mbira dzavadzimu, but does represent the most common layout * The key numbering and color codes portrayed here are arbitrary and simply to communicate the layout (not traditional approach) It is common on African mbira and other lamellophones to have the lowest notes in the center with higher notes to the far left and the far right—this is an ergonomic nicety, in that the thumb can pivot such that all the tines are easy to reach. However, traditional African tunings use notes that do not lie on the grid of the Western tempered scale, and traditional mbira note layouts are often idiosyncratic, sometimes with adjacent tines making part of a scale, but then an odd note thrown in that defies the pattern.

Historically, mbira tunings have not mapped exactly onto Western scales; it is not unusual for a seven-note sequence on a mbira to be “stretched” over a greater range of frequencies than a Western octave and for the intervals between notes to be different from those in a Western scale. Tunings have often been idiosyncratic with variations over time and from one player to another. A mbira key produces a rich complex of overtones that varies from one instrument to another depending on its maker’s intentions and accidents of fabrication, such that some instruments simply sound better when some notes of a familiar tuning are pushed.[15] With the increased popularity of the mbira dzavadzimu in North America, Europe, and Japan in recent decades, Zimbabwean mbira makers have tended to tune their instruments more uniformly for export, but much variation is still found among mbira in their homeland.[16]

Tunings vary from family to family referring to relative interval relationships and not to absolute pitches. The most common tuning played throughout Zimbabwe and among non-Zimbabwean mbira players worldwide is Nyamaropa, similar to the western Mixolydian mode.[17][18][19][20][21] Names may also vary between different families; Garikayi Tirikoti has developed a “mbira orchestra” that has seven different tunings, each starting on a different interval of the same seven-note scale, where it is possible to play all instruments in a single performance.[22] The seven tunings that Garikayi uses are: Bangidza, Nyabango, Nhemamusasa, Chakwi, Taireva, Mahororo, and Mavembe (all of which are also names of traditional songs save for Mavembe and Nyabango). The closest to what is commonly named “Nyamaropa” is his “Nhemamusasa” tuning.[23][24]

Specific tunings Common names for tunings are:

Nyamaropa (close to Mixolydian mode) (considered the oldest and most representative in Shona culture) It emphasizes togetherness through music, creating polyrhythms through having two Mbira players at once, having singing styles accompany an Mbira such as Huro (High emotional notes that are at the top of a singer’s range) & Mahon'era (a soft breathy voice at the bottom of the singer’s range) or both elements. A single Mbira is considered incomplete for a performance.[25] MENU0:00 Dambatsoko (close to Ionian mode), played by the Mujuru family. The name refers to their ancestral burial grounds. Dongonda, usually a Nyamaropa tuned mbira with the right side notes the same octave as the left (an octave lower than usual). Katsanzaira (close to Dorian mode), the highest pitch of the traditional mbira tunings. The name means “the gentle rain before the storm hits”. MENU0:00 Mavembe (also: Gandanga) (close to Phrygian mode), Sekuru Gora claims to have invented this tuning at a funeral ceremony. The mourners were singing a familiar song with an unfamiliar melody and he went outside the hut and tuned his mbira to match the vocal lines. Other mbira players dispute that he invented it. MENU0:00 Nemakonde (close to Phrygian mode), same musical relationship as the mavembe, but the nemakonde tuning is a very low pitched version. MENU0:00 Saungweme (flattened whole tone, approaching seven tone equal temperament). MENU0:00 Variants Mbira dzavadzimu

Mbira dzavadzimu in a deze. In Shona music, the mbira dzavadzimu (“voice of the ancestors”, or “mbira of the ancestral spirits”, national instrument of Zimbabwe[26]) is a musical instrument that has been played by the Shona people of Zimbabwe for thousands of years. The mbira dzavadzimu is frequently played at religious ceremonies and social gatherings called mapira (sing. “bira”). The mbira dzavadzimu can be used to play over one hundred songs, such as Kariga mombe.

A typical mbira dzavadzimu consists of between 22 and 28 keys constructed from hot- or cold-forged metal affixed to a hardwood soundboard (gwariva) in three different registers—two on the left, one on the right.

While playing, the little finger of the right hand is placed through a hole in the bottom right corner of the soundboard, with the little finger entering from the front of sound board, and the ring finger and middle finger reaching around the back to stabilize the instrument. This leaves the thumb and index finger of the right hand open to stroke the keys in the right register from above (thumb) and below (index finger). The fingers of the left hand stabilize the left side of the instrument, with most fingers reaching slightly behind the instrument. Both registers on the left side of the instrument are played with the left thumb. Some mbira possess an extra key in the upper left register which is hit from below by the left index finger.

Bottle caps, shells, or other objects (“machachara”[27]) are often affixed to the soundboard to create a buzzing sound when the instrument is played. In a traditional setting, this sound is considered extremely important, as it is believed to attract ancestral spirits.

During a public performance, an mbira dzavadzimu is frequently placed in a deze (calabash resonator) to amplify its sound.

The mbira dza vadzimu is very significant in Shona religion and culture, considered a sacred instrument by the Shona people. It is usually played to facilitate communication with ancestral spirits, bringing the spirit of the dead back on its homestead.[28] Within the Shona tradition, the mbira may be played with paired performers in which the kushaura, the caller, leads the performed piece as the kutsinhira, the responder, “interlocks” a subsequent part.[29] The ritual is known as the Bira. During these all-night ceremonies, people call upon the spirits to answer questions. The variations of notes in an Mbira piece aid the participants in going into trance, which in Shona culture aids the spirits in taking over the participant’s body.[30]

Albert Chimedza, director of the Mbira Centre in Harare, has estimated that “there are at most ten thousand people in the world who play mbira.”[2]

Mbira Nyunga Nyunga The nyunga nyunga which normally has 15 keys, originated from Manicaland where it traditionally played the entertainment role during social gatherings and commemorations.[28] Jeke (Jack) Tapera introduced the mbira nyunga nyunga in the 1960s from Tete province of Mozambique to Kwanongoma College of African music (now United College of Music) in Bulawayo. Two keys were then added to make fifteen (Chirimumimba, 2007), in two rows. The mbira nyunga nyunga is similar in construction to the mbira dzavadzimu, but has no hole in the soundboard. Key pitch radiates out from the center, rather than from left to right.

Zimbabwe’s Dumisani Maraire originated mbira nyunga nyunga number notation. The upper row keys (from left) are keys 2, 4, 6, 8, 10, 12, and 14 while the bottom row keys are notated as 1, 3, 5, 7, 9, 11, 13, and 15. Maraire brought awareness of this instrument to the United States when he came to the University of Washington as a visiting artist from 1968 to 1972.

Recently a Midlands State University (Gweru, Zimbabwe) lecturer in the department of music and musicology has suggested a letter notation; the upper keys as (from first left upper key) E, D, C, F, C, D, and E and the lower or bottom keys as (from the first lower key) A, G, F, A, F, C, D, and E. But the Maraire number notation has remained the internationally accepted system (Chirimumimba, 2007).

Njari mbira Njani mbira has 30 to 32 keys and was also originated from Zimbabwe particularly Masvingo and Makonde.[28]

Nhare The nhare has 23 to 24 keys and was originated from Zimbabwe. In the Zimbabwean tradition, nhare was used for rituals of communicating with Musikavanhu or Nyadenga (God).[28]

Mbira matepe Main article: Matepe

A Zimbabwean matepe Mbira matepe which has 26 keys originated from along the borders of Zimbabwe and Mozambique.[28]

Outside Africa In the diaspora See also: marimbula

A Kalimba player in Brazil by Eduard Hildebrandt (1846). The first documentation of Kalimbas in Brazil dates back to 1723 where they are referred to as marimbas (not to be confused with marimbas).[31] They seem to have faded into obscurity as they didn’t make it to the present day, although “modern” Kalimbas now exist in Brazil.[32]

An example of a Marimbula in Haiti. In Cuba African lamellophones along with the Cajón influenced the origins of the marimbula, whose history is poorly documented but is suspected to have originated in eastern Cuba.[33]

Hugh Tracy The Hugh Tracey kalimbas are tuned diatonically in the key of G. The arrangement of the notes on the Hugh Tracey kalimba borrows from the typical scheme with the lowest notes in the center and the upper notes on the left and the right, with the notes in the ascending scale alternating strictly right-left and going outwards towards the two sides.

The diatonic western kalimba tuning which Tracey used was practical for a worldwide instrument—with hundreds of African kalimba tunings, the chosen Western standard would maximize the number of people who would immediately connect with the kalimba. The practicality of this note arrangement, with notes going up the scale in a right-left-right-left progression, is that modal 1-3-5 or 1-3-5-7 chords are made by playing adjacent tines. If chords are played in the lower octave, the same notes will appear on the opposite side of the kalimba in the upper octave, which makes it very easy to simultaneously play a melody in the upper octave and an accompanying harmony in the lower octave. So, the arrangement of notes on the Hugh Tracey kalimba (and on virtually any kalimba that copies the instrument) makes certain complex musical operations very simple.[34]

Alternative tunings are possible, as the tines of most kalimbas are easily pushed in and out to sharpen or flatten their pitch. Some alternative tunings simply change the key of the kalimba, without changing the note layout scheme. C major is a popular tuning, sold by multiple manufacturers. Other alternative tunings move the kalimba to non-modal scales (such as Middle-Eastern scales). Each note of the kalimba can be tuned independently (unlike a guitar), so any scale, western or non-western, is possible, and traditional African scales are still accessible to this modern African instrument. Composer Georg Hajdu has tuned the Hugh Tracey alto kalimba to the chromatic steps of the Bohlen–Pierce scale in a piece called Just Her – Jester – Gesture. The Bohlen–Pierce scale subdivides the just twelfth into 13 steps.[citation needed]

Hugh Tracey treble kalimba

An octagonal mbira of high craftsmanship which spans two octaves.

Related instruments

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Signature Series Gravikord Instruments related to or inspired by the mbira include:

Array mbira, a modern invention consisting of as many as 150 tines configured in a special order based on the circle of fifths (see Isomorphic keyboard). Gravikord, an electrified double harp that is a modern kora and kalimba hybrid, inspired by the cross rhythms of the mbira. The Gravikord was invented in 1986 by Bob Grawi an American musician and artist. It is also tuned in the key of G major/E minor in an extended version of the Hugh Tracey kalimba tone layout with a range of 3+1⁄2 octaves. Music and playing techniques learned on this kalimba can be easily transferred and played on the Gravikord. Guitaret, an electric lamellophone made by Hohner and invented by Ernst Zacharias, in 1963. Ikembe, an instrument common among the Hutu of Rwanda, Burundi, and eastern DR Congo. Modern kalimba, the mbira inspired instruments of Hugh Tracey. Named after the original kalimba (ancestor of mbira). Kisanji among Ngala-speaking people of western DR Congo and eastern Congo Republic. Thoom Otieno (also tom, thom or toom), popular in Gambela Region, in Western Ethiopia on the border of South Sudan.

polyphony, in music, the simultaneous combination of two or more tones or melodic lines (the term derives from the Greek word for “many sounds”). Thus, even a single interval made up of two simultaneous tones or a chord of three simultaneous tones is rudimentarily polyphonic.

The Philippines is a tropical paradise laid with powdery white sand and crystalline waters. The country has become known worldwide for its stunning white sand beaches in Boracay and Palawan, but there are more natural wonders that can be explored around the the Philippines’ 7641 islands.

If you’re itching to swim in crystal clear and turquoise-colored waters, a lot of natural attractions await you when you book all-inclusive vacation packages in the Philippines. Alongside the rocky coastlines are the country’s best-kept secrets, including the natural swimming pools that appear during low tide.

Here are some of the best natural cave pools, rock pools, tide pools, and lagoons in the Philippines that you should explore soon!

11. Bantayan Island cave pools (Cebu) Entrance to Ogtong Cave

Apart from its unspoiled white sand beaches, Bantayan Island in Cebu has several hidden treasures. Inside this quaint island paradise are various inland attractions that are worth a visit. A Bantayan Island tour includes some of the majestic cave pools in the Philippines such as Ogtong Cave and Sto. Nino Cave Pool.

Ogtong Cave is a small natural pool cave that lies inside Ogtong Cave Resort. It has clear blue waters that are open for swimming. Another magnificent marvel on Bantayan Island is the Sto. Nino Cave Pool, which is bigger than the Ogtong Cave. An entrance fee is required for guests to access the 8-hectare resort’s spring-fed pool, zoo, and fish spa.

Sorsogon is famous for the whale sharks in Donsol. But, aside from swimming with these gentle giants locally known as Butandings, travelers can also visit the white-sand shores of Paguriran Island in Baranggay Sawanga, Sorsogon. Enclosed between jagged rock formations of the island is a stunning mini lagoon with clear emerald waters stretching toward the shore.

Check out other top tourist spots in Sorsogon It is best for swimming since the water remains shallow despite the shifting tides. The turquoise-colored lagoon is knee-deep and only rises to 4 feet when the tides are high. Paguriran Island Lagoon is a sight to behold, and the view is even more striking when the waves hit the shore.

A sound is literally a vibration that travels through a medium (air) in waves by changing the air pressure as it moves. These waves hit our ear drums and our brains convert these into sounds that we can hear and understand. The compression and rareification of air can be represented graphically as shown below.

The image from the oscilloscope shows a sound wave with varying amplitudes and frequencies. If we were to look at the y values, then we would see that the sound wave is fundamentally analogue in nature. Research It When we talk about sound, we often use the terms volume and pitch. What do these terms actually mean with reference to a sound wave? Why would it be problematic to store analogue representations of sound on a computer? 2 Analogue to Digital Learn It Sound waves are analogue, which means continuously changing. Anything stored on a computer has to be stored in a digital format as a series of binary numbers 0’s and 1’s with nothing in between. In order to store sound in a digital format, there are a few steps that need to be followed: The Analogue sound must first be captured with an input device (Microphone). This sound is then converted to an electrical analogue signal. The signal amplitude (Height of the wave) is measured ar regular intervals (Sampled). The digital data is then rounded to a level (Quantisation). The digital data can then be stored as a series of binary numbers. Research It Use online resources to find out how a microphone can capture vibrations in the air and convert them to an analogue electrical signal. 3 Sampling Learn It Sampling is the process of converting an analogue sound wave into a digital format, and is a measure of amplitude. The accuracy with which an analogue sound wave is converted to a digital format depends on two things, Sample Resolution and Sample rate. Sample Resolution is the number of bits used to store each sample. This is sometimes also referred to as Bit Depth. The process involves recording the amplitude of an electrical signal at set intervals, rounding the value (Quantisation) and converting it to binary (typically 16 or 32 bits for sound). Sampling Rate is the frequency with which you record the amplitude of the sound, i.e. the number of samples per second. This is usually measured in Hertz (Hz). 1 Hz means one sample per second. 1 MHz (Megahertz) means one million times per second. The more frequently the sound is sampled, the better the quality and smoother the playback will sound. For sound, this sampling normally occurs 44,100 times per second. We call this the Sample Resolution and it is normally expressed as 44.1kHz. Obviously, the higher the Sample Rate and the larger the bit depth, the higher the quality of the resulting audio.

The image above is a graphical representation of how an analogue electrical signal can be sampled and converted to an integer, ready for storing as a binary integer. 4 Calculating Sound File and Bit Rate Size Learn It - Sample Rate (Frequency) - The number of samples per second. - Sample Resolution - The number of bits used to store each sample. - Seconds - The length in seconds of the whole sound file. - The file size of a sample in bits = sample rate x sample resolution x number  of seconds. - The file size of a sample in bytes = sample rate x sample resolution x number  of seconds / 8. For Example

Bit Rate (amount of Bits per second) = Sampling Rate * Sampling Resolution. CD has a sample rate of 44,100Hz, a Resolution of 16 bits. A sample rate of 44.1Hz is typically used for CD audio, with a sample resolution of 16 bits per sample. Bit Rate = 44,100 * 16 (bits) = 705,600bps / 1,000 = 705.6Kbps(Kilobits per second). File Size can then be calculated using the Bit Rate and length of the audio (seconds). CD has a Bit Rate of 705.6Kbps and has one song which is 3 minutes long: File Size = 705.6Kbps * 180 seconds (3 * 60) = 127008Kb(Kilobits) / 1000 (Mega) / 8 (Bytes) = 15.88MB

Abstract Repeated copies of genes, whether in tandem or dispersed, are often recognized by the cell and silenced. Tandem repeat silencing is associated with a heterochromatin-like complex. Dispersed gene silencing can be mediated by the repressive Polycomb Group complex or involve post-transcriptional silencing presumably involving double-stranded RNA. The I retrotransposable element in Drosophila appears to be susceptible to dispersed gene silencing, potentially by both post-transcriptional and transcriptional processes. Some mutations that eliminate RNA interference in Caenorhabditis elegans result in the mobilization of many transposons and two of these mutations desilence tandem repeats in the germline. One challenge for the future is to determine the nature of any relationship between post-transcriptionally and transcriptionally based mechanisms. The silencing mechanisms potentially act as a protection against high expression of transposons and viruses.

Representing sound Computers work in binary. All data must be converted into binary in order for a computer to process it. Sound is no exception. To do this, analogue sound is captured - usually by a microphone - and then converted into a digital signal.

Our (Mother’s) Mitochondria and Our Mind Peter Kramer and Paola Bressan Author information Copyright and License information Disclaimer This article has been cited by other articles in PMC. Go to: Abstract Most of the energy we get to spend is furnished by mitochondria, minuscule living structures sitting inside our cells or dispatched back and forth within them to where they are needed. Mitochondria produce energy by burning down what remains of our meal after we have digested it, but at the cost of constantly corroding themselves and us. Here we review how our mitochondria evolved from invading bacteria and have retained a small amount of independence from us; how we inherit them only from our mother; and how they are heavily implicated in learning, memory, cognition, and virtually every mental or neurological affliction. We discuss why counteracting mitochondrial corrosion with antioxidant supplements is often unwise, and why our mitochondria, and therefore we ourselves, benefit instead from exercise, meditation, sleep, sunshine, and particular eating habits. Finally, we describe how malfunctioning mitochondria force rats to become socially subordinate to others, how such disparity can be evened off by a vitamin, and why these findings are relevant to us.

Keywords: mitochondria, free radicals, aging, Alzheimer’s disease, Parkinson’s disease, depression, ketogenic diet Some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal.

—Albert Camus, Notebooks: 1942–1951 Some of us go about life with less energy than others. For many suffering from one of the myriad neurodegenerative, neurological, cognitive, and mental disorders humans are blessed with, such lack of energy is much more than a metaphor. Most of the energy we get to spend is delivered by minuscule living structures dispatched back and forth or docked in crucial districts inside our cells, mitochondria, by burning down what remains of our meal after we have digested it. From this material, mitochondria produce energy for the cells to run on—in a grander view, energy for the body and brain to run on. Thus, how strong and active and ultimately happy we can be depends a great deal on how well this lowly machinery is working.

We have previously presented a broad overview, in plain English, of how invading microbes, viruses, and other selfish entities have to various extents become integrated into people’s body and brain and actively shape human behavior (P. Kramer & Bressan, 2015). Here we extend our overview to the descendants of one spectacularly successful bacterial invasion: mitochondria. We review how mitochondria have retained various bacterial characteristics and a small amount of independence from humans, almost like enslaved but separate creatures; why they can have powerful effects, both good and bad, on people’s mental health; and what can be done to increase the good and decrease the bad.

Go to: Love in a Cold Climate Life on earth has existed for around 4 billion years (Dodd et al., 2017). For the first 2 billion, all creatures alive were single cells with no nucleus (Dacks et al., 2016). Then—according to a leading theory (Martin & Müller, 1998; Martin, Neukirchen, Zimorski, Gould, & Sousa, 2016)—certain bacteria invaded certain archaea, members of a separate domain of microbes. At the time, these archaea lived around volcanic ridges on the ocean floor and fed on carbon dioxide and on hydrogen from submarine hydrothermal vents. The bacteria lived in the vicinity, fed on organic compounds, and discharged as waste products precisely the carbon dioxide and hydrogen that the archaea made use of. Microbes do sometimes break into one another and the result is rarely a happy marriage. After tolerating the bacteria for a while, however, the invaded archaea evolved to take advantage of them and ended up integrating them for good. In the process, the bacteria became mitochondria, the milk cows of their hosts, and shed most of their genetic material (Lane, 2015; Lane & Martin, 2010). Thanks to their new milk cows, the hosts had plenty of energy ready for use and could afford to pick up parts of the discarded material, build a kind of control center out of it—a cell “nucleus”—and evolve from prokaryotes (organisms made of one cell with no nucleus) into eukaryotes (organisms made of one or more cells with a nucleus, like us).

Regardless of whether eukaryotes emerged this way (Lane, 2015; Martin & Müller, 1998) or a different one (Koonin, 2015), all eukaryotes contain either bacteria-like mitochondria with bacterial DNA or, in exceptional cases, remnants of it (Martin et al., 2016). Prokaryotes are sexless and reproduce by making copies of themselves. Occasionally, they exchange chunks of genetic material with one another (Hanage, 2016) and hand down the resulting mix to the next generation via cloning. Eukaryotes, on the other hand—including virtually all of those that can clone themselves—reproduce sexually at least some of the time (Speijer, 2016). Sex mixes up genes extraordinarily well and this bears various potential advantages. It forces parasites to constantly readapt (Tooby, 1982), for example, and it does in fact diminish their ability to break through host defenses (Auld, Tinkler, & Tinsley, 2017). Sexual reproduction involves passing on not only genes but also all the rest of the fertilized egg, including live mitochondria. Yet, although eukaryotic parents mix their genes, they avoid mixing their mitochondria; in the overwhelming majority of cases only one parent—almost always the mother—passes them on (Breton & Stewart, 2015). Why this should be so continues to be debated (see next section), but given that it is the case and that only eukaryotes have mitochondria, only eukaryotes have sex, and nearly all eukaryotes have sex at least some of the time, many agree that the evolution of sex is likely to have a lot to do with mitochondria (Lane, 2015; Speijer, 2016).

Sexual reproduction complicates the lives of those involved considerably. Unlike prokaryotes, eukaryotes usually do not exchange genetic material with just any other eukaryote; they need to find a suitable mate that must be of the same species, opposite sex, and either won over to collaborate or forced to do so. Meanwhile they may face the risks of retribution (for example, in case of attempted rape), of contracting a sexually transmitted disease, and—especially if they are human females—of potentially fatal complications during labor. To ensure that genes and mitochondria are nevertheless passed on from one generation to the next, individuals must therefore somehow be compensated—“bribed,” in our species, with “intense erotic pleasure; presumably mild pleasure is not enough” (Lane, 2005, p. 206).

Most of our DNA (including some 20,000 genes) sits in the nucleus of each of our cells, and this nuclear DNA regulates much of how our mitochondria function (Mattson, Gleichmann, & Cheng, 2008). Outside the nucleus, however, mitochondria have retained some DNA of their own (including, in humans, 37 genes) and this gives them a small degree of independence. Human mitochondrial DNA, unlike nuclear DNA, is passed on only from mothers (Pyle et al., 2015). So, any mutations in mitochondrial DNA are weeded out of the gene pool only if they harm women and not if they harm men; for mitochondria, men are just about dead ends, and their future makes no difference to mitochondrial future. Men and women have much in common, and what is harmful to men is usually also harmful to women, but there is at least one exception.

From digested food, mitochondria produce both adenosine triphosphate (ATP)—a chemical that cells use as fuel—and heat, which can be spent to maintain body temperature. The more heat, the less ATP and vice versa. People in cold climates are more likely than those in hot ones to have inherited mitochondria that produce relatively much heat (Ruiz-Pesini et al., 2000). For men, however, there is a catch, because they host one cell type that happens to be particularly sensitive to a loss in ATP: sperm. To be fast, sperm cells need to be small. Typically they accommodate only up to a few dozen mitochondria (there to provide swimming energy), whereas other body cells carry on average 300 to 400 and egg cells, which are huge, about 100,000 (Lane, 2015). If those few sperm mitochondria do not make enough ATP, fertility diminishes. But because only women pass on their mitochondria and women do not carry sperm, the genes of inefficient sperm mitochondria may become more frequent than they otherwise would have. Indeed, mitochondrial DNA associated with reduced male fertility has been found to be more common in men who live in colder climates than in those who live in warmer ones (Ruiz-Pesini et al., 2000): in Swedes (22%) more than in Germans (12%) and in Germans more than in the Druz from the Middle East (4%).

Unlike a cell’s nucleus that has just one set of DNA, each mitochondrion can carry several (e.g., Cavelier, Johannisson, & Gyllensten, 2000)—meaning up to hundreds or thousands of copies per cell. Each set is used in the production of the same proteins. Should one set no longer function properly, due for example to accumulation of mutations, another can compensate and this renders mitochondria much more resilient than they otherwise would be. The number of copies of mitochondrial DNA is not the same for everyone, though, and this is not an easy number to interpret. A smaller one should stand for reduced mitochondrial efficiency, and on such grounds reduced efficiency of body and brain (Cao, Zhao, Zhou, Chen, & Yang, 2012). Among healthy elderly women, in fact, those who do worse in a cognitive abilities test have fewer copies than those who do better (J. W. Lee, Park, Im, Kim, & Lee, 2010), and those who are depressed have fewer copies than those who are not (Kim, Lee, Kang, Kim, & Lee, 2011). However, healthy young adults with a history of either depression, anxiety, substance use disorder, childhood parental loss, or maltreatment have more DNA copies than people without such a history (Tyrka et al., 2016). Arguably, this increase could be an early compensatory response to adversity that is progressively overwhelmed as one gets older or sicker (Tyrka et al., 2016).

Go to: Air, Fire, and Dangerous Things Mitochondria corrode To produce ATP, mitochondria burn down digested food with the help of the oxygen we inhale. In the process, they dump several waste products: carbon dioxide (which eventually we can exhale), water (which eventually we can pee out), and free radicals. Free radicals are chemicals that are highly corrosive, first and foremost to the mitochondria themselves but also to their hosts. Indeed, how healthy a cell is can be judged by the shape of its mitochondria: They are tubular when all is well, turn into donut forms under the stress of too many free radicals, and into blobs when damage is irreversible. In a vicious cycle, the more its shape departs from normal, the more free radicals the mitochondrion produces (Ahmad et al., 2013).

The fact that mitochondria generate free radicals has led to an interesting idea about why much of the genetic material of the bacterial ancestors of mitochondria ended up in their host cell’s nucleus: Not only is that material useful to the cell, but in the nucleus it is also better protected from free radicals than in the mitochondria themselves (Speijer, 2016). The genes left in the mitochondria keep accumulating mutations and are quite tarnished by the time people reach reproductive age; yet these genes do not appear to be passed to the next generation in their damaged state. To solve the conundrum, it has been proposed that egg cells carry solely fresh, unspoiled “template mitochondria” that they do not put to use but just keep in storage (Allen, 1996; Allen & de Paula, 2013; supporting evidence in de Paula, Lucas, Agip, Vizcay-Barrena, & Allen, 2013). Egg cells can afford this extravagance because they mostly just stay put, and the little energy they need they can get from much less efficient sources than mitochondria or from the mitochondria of nearby cells in the ovary.

Sperm cells, whose only life plan is to win a swimming race, are forced instead to get as much mileage as possible out of their own mitochondria, at the cost of getting them marred by free radicals in the process. It is interesting that sperm mitochondria turn out to be already tagged with a kiss-of-death protein from the outset and are demolished straight off upon encountering the egg’s destruction machinery (Sutovsky et al., 1999). Thus both parents seem to be in (unusual) genetic agreement that only maternal mitochondria will serve as a template for all of the future baby’s. As Allen’s (1996) influential theory goes, most newly molded mitochondria are immediately activated and pressed into service, but in female embryos some are stored away in the developing ovaries in their pristine state, ready for the next generation—immortal, in a way— quite a good reason why exclusively maternal inheritance of mitochondria may have arisen. Tellingly, mice that have been forced to inherit mitochondria from both parents turn out to have physical, emotional, and cognitive problems (Sharpley et al., 2012).

To prevent as much as possible the damage (technically, oxidation) brought forth by free radicals, our mitochondria either manufacture antioxidants or use those we consume with our meals (Fraunberger, Scola, Laliberté, Duong, & Andreazza, 2016). Yet not all free radicals can be neutralized, and making the best of a bad predicament the body manages to put the remaining ones to good use. For example, activation of our immune system typically causes an increase in free radicals and vice versa (López-Armada, Riveiro-Naveira, Vaamonde-García, & Valcárcel-Ares, 2013), and both mechanisms help kill parasites. Free radicals that likely stem from sources other than mitochondria serve also as signaling molecules in learning and memory (Kishida & Klann, 2007). Thus, whereas carrying a high level of free radicals is bad, so is trying to eliminate them completely (Ristow & Schmeisser, 2011). In fact, although antioxidant supplementation can be beneficial in some groups of people, in others it appears harmful and can even hasten death (Villanueva & Kross, 2012).

When injury cannot be avoided, damaged mitochondria can be repaired (Boesch et al., 2011). If the repair mechanisms fail, parts still in working order can often be recycled. To that purpose, pairs of malfunctioning mitochondria fuse together and come apart again; in the process, the best components of each pair are left in one mitochondrion and the other is targeted for destruction (Youle & van der Bliek, 2012). Yet this is not always enough, and cells that harbor too many dysfunctional mitochondria, or have incurred too much free-radical damage themselves, become dysfunctional too. To avoid reproducing—and make way for healthier substitutes—such cells instruct their own mitochondria to kill them and to commit suicide in turn. Unfortunately, on the large scale of things the benefits of this intervention are only temporary.

A place where mitochondrial trouble occurs frequently is the brain. Although its mass is a mere 2% of the body’s total, the human adult brain uses up to 25% of the body energy (Herculano-Houzel, 2012). By comparison, it is only 13% in other primates and 2% to 8% in the vast majority of vertebrates (Mink, Blumenschine, & Adams, 1981). A resting cortical neuron turns out to consume 4.7 billion ATP molecules per second; a resting human brain goes through nearly 6 kilograms of them per day (Zhu et al., 2012). Inevitably, brain mitochondria produce a lot of free radicals and this contributes to making the brain itself particularly vulnerable to free-radical damage—or “brain rust” as it has been called (de Oliveira, Ferreira Lima, & El-Bachá, 2012). Cognitive symptoms in Alzheimer’s disease are preceded by energy deficits in neurons (Kapogiannis & Mattson, 2011), and mitochondrial dysfunction is associated with Parkinson’s disease (Haddad & Nakamura, 2015) and is enough to cause Parkinson-like symptoms in rats (Mattson et al., 2008).

As people age, their blood flow diminishes and the brain gets progressively less blood and thus less glucose and oxygen for mitochondria to make ATP with. Eventually (as argued in de la Torre, 2002), brain mitochondria no longer meet the normal energy demand and neurons degenerate, leading to dementia—whose prevalence, between the ages of 55 and 90, increases 400-fold (Harvey, Skelton-Robinson, & Rossor, 2003; Prince et al., 2015). The most disrupted region in Alzheimer’s disease is the hippocampus—an area, involved in memory, that compared to most other areas of the brain contains remarkably low levels of a protein that helps oxygen diffuse to the mitochondria (Burmester, Weich, Reinhardt, & Hankeln, 2000; Moens & Dewilde, 2000). The most disrupted region in Parkinson’s disease is the substantia nigra pars compacta—an area involved in motor planning, each of whose large and highly interconnected neurons is estimated to house an impressive 2 million mitochondria, with a mandatory replacement rate of over 20 new mitochondria every minute (Shlevkov & Schwarz, 2017). Only the neurons in the pars compacta are affected in Parkinson’s disease; the much smaller, much less branched, much less energy-demanding ones in nearby regions are spared (Pacelli et al., 2015). All of these are unlikely to be coincidences.

Mitochondria multitask Whatever the price, the nervous system cannot possibly function without mitochondria (Markham, Bains, Franklin, & Spedding, 2014; Mattson et al., 2008). Neurons relay information by firing and mitochondria provide the energy for this. Transported by miniature motors along tubular tracks, they travel extensively inside the neuron to furnish ATP where it is needed (Sheng & Cai, 2012). Although neurons use up ATP even when all they are doing is basic housekeeping, energy is in highest demand at synapses, where most of the action occurs. Mitochondria are transferred and docked there only when they are in good shape. As soon as they become unfit and in need of replacement they are promptly destroyed, either on the spot (Ashrafi, Schlehe, LaVoie, & Schwarz, 2014) or after having been removed and transported away (Lin & Sheng, 2015). Poor quality control at this stage is linked to neurodegenerative diseases (Martinez-Vicente, 2017); poor transport of mitochondria precedes the onset of Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s diseases (Correia, Perry, & Moreira, 2016; Shlevkov & Schwarz, 2017) and might play a part in schizophrenia and depression as well (Deheshi, Pasqualotto, & Rintoul, 2013).

Every time it fires, a neuron is invaded by sodium ions. If enough of them have gotten inside, channels are unblocked that let calcium ions in as well. Both types of ions must be removed before the neuron can fire again; mitochondria give a hand by temporarily locking calcium away and dispensing energy for other structures in the neuron to do so. When somewhere in the neuron ATP runs low or calcium gets in, approaching mitochondria are disengaged from the transport system so that they can do their job at that particular site (Sheng & Cai, 2012). However, an inordinate accumulation of calcium in mitochondria causes them to kill both their host neuron and themselves—which can happen when firing is excessive, as in epileptic seizures (Delorenzo, Sun, & Deshpande, 2005). As shown in vitro, the cold sore virus (herpes-simplex virus type 1) can boost neuronal calcium levels while at the same time impeding mitochondria from killing their host. The raised calcium levels prevent the transport system from taking mitochondria as passengers and possibly allow the virus to take a ride instead, speeding up its spread through the brain (T. Kramer & Enquist, 2012). By age 60, up to 90% of the population in most countries is infected with the cold sore virus; in individuals with both a genetic predisposition and a weak immune system, its presence has been linked to neurodegeneration (Caggiu et al., 2016; Itzhaki, 2016) and schizophrenia (Carter, 2009).

When all is well, a rise in calcium levels can set off a chain of reactions that renders the neuron more responsive to future stimulation; a reduction does the opposite. Calcium affects this so-called synaptic plasticity in all kinds of manners, not least by sparking the release of brain-derived neurotrophic factor (BDNF for short), a protein that stimulates the growth and repair of active neurons and synapses (Markham et al., 2014). Mitochondria affect synaptic plasticity both ways: On the one hand, prompted by BDNF, they supply the energy needed to strengthen neuronal connections; on the other, by delivering the same enzymes they use when forced to kill off their host cell, they can prune connections away (Jeanneteau & Arango-Lievano, 2016; Markham et al., 2014).

At this point, one must expect mitochondria to be entangled in about every possible mental process—especially those that require a great deal of firing. Indeed, a particular area of monkeys’ prefrontal cortex that is involved in working memory—a capacity that is heavily used all the time—harbors resident mitochondria near most of its synapses. The larger the number of properly shaped (and the smaller the number of donut-shaped) mitochondria one finds there, the better monkeys do on a working memory test (Hara et al., 2014). As an interesting aside, the formation of donuts can be prevented by antioxidants, and estrogen is a formidable one. If female monkeys’ ovaries are removed, a maneuver that cuts off estrogen and induces menopause, the number of misshaped mitochondria increases nearly by half and monkeys become much worse on the test. Both changes are reversed by cyclic injections of estrogen—suggesting that it is, at least partly, by restoring mitochondrial health that hormone replacement therapy may improve cognitive functioning (Hara et al., 2014; Sherwin, 1988). Curiously, compared to premenopausal ones, monkeys that have transitioned naturally into menopause harbor actually more, rather than fewer, good mitochondria near their synapses. This may reflect a compensatory mechanism against the mitochondrial dysfunction expected with natural female aging (Hara et al., 2014).

Mitochondria do not merely help regulate calcium levels and provide energy. Their ATP can also be used as a signaling molecule in its own right, for example as a neurotransmitter. Adenosine triphosphate (ATP) can be stripped of one or all three of its phosphate groups and become, respectively, adenosine diphosphate (ADP) or simply adenosine, and both these substances work as signaling molecules too. Dysregulation of the receptors of either ATP, ADP, or adenosine has been implicated in disorders ranging from a reduced urge to empty one’s bladder (whose stretching releases ATP: Cook & McCleskey, 2000) to depression and schizophrenia (Krügel, 2016) and the early stages of Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s disease (Burnstock, 2016). As a neurotransmitter, ATP can leave cells only in a controlled way, usually in small quantities. As a result of injuries such as a cut, however, cells can rupture and spill a large amount of it. In such occasions ATP acts as a sentinel by activating nearby receptors on the outside of cells that function like alarm bells; we feel this as pain and know we have been hurt and need to take action (Wirkner, Sperlagh, & Illes, 2007).

ATP and its derivatives are not the only signaling molecules that mitochondria produce. Mostly in the ovaries, testes, and adrenal gland, they derive the precursor of steroid hormones like estrogen and testosterone by partially burning down cholesterol (Rossier, 2006). In the same way, mitochondria even manufacture small quantities of steroids, called neurosteroids, inside neurons. Neurosteroids have fast local effects on the brain whereas other steroids have slower systemic ones (King, 2013). Steroids and neurosteroids affect brain and behavior in a wide range of ways. Some neurosteroids can affect how much calcium enters the neuron, and this, in turn, has an impact on learning and memory, the risk of epileptic seizures, and mental health more generally (King, 2013; Korinek et al., 2011).

After use, or if present in excess, hormones and neurotransmitters tend to be stored away or broken down. The breaking down is again partly accomplished by mitochondria, by way of two enzymes of their own: MAO-A and MAO-B. Both metabolize, and thus curtail, critical neurotransmitters such as serotonin, dopamine, and noradrenalin (Buckholtz & Meyer-Lindenberg, 2008). Low levels of these enzymes during development—because of faulty genes on the X-chromosome—have been associated with abnormal behavior, and in the case of the MAOA gene most notably with aggressiveness, in both mice and men. Female mammals have two X-chromosomes, and if one is defective the other can (at least partially) compensate for it. Males, however, have only one X-chromosome and if this is defective they are stuck with it. If one directly knocks out the MAOA gene during development, as has been done in mice, MAO-A is no longer produced, serotonin and noradrenalin levels in the brain rise, and aggressiveness goes up (Buckholtz & Meyer-Lindenberg, 2008). In Western society, about one third of men carry a less active variant of the MAOA gene. Compared to those with the more active variant, these people are more inclined to retaliate when wronged, even when such retaliation comes at a cost to them (McDermott, Tingley, Cowden, Frazzetto, & Johnson, 2009). Eight men from the same Dutch family, studied because their MAOA gene did not work at all, showed violent outbursts following hardly any provocation at all (Brunner, Nelen, Breakefield, Ropers, & van Oost, 1993; Brunner, Nelen, van Zandvoort, et al., 1993). Some of them had engaged in an assortment of criminal behaviors, including arson, assault, attempted murder, and attempted or successful rape of family members.

Mitochondria derange Given the multiple first-rate jobs that mitochondria do in the nervous system, it is hardly accidental that their malfunctioning has been associated with virtually every mental or neurological affliction on earth, including chronic psychological stress and fatigue, cognitive deficits, Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s disease, anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, autism, multiple sclerosis, and Down syndrome (Arbuzova, Hutchin, & Cuckle, 2002; Burroughs & French, 2007; Jeanneteau & Arango-Lievano, 2016; Kaplan, Rucklidge, Romijn, & McLeod, 2015; Manji et al., 2012; Morris & Berk, 2015; Toker & Agam, 2015; Valenti, de Bari, De Filippis, Henrion-Caude, & Vacca, 2014). People diagnosed with an inherited disorder that affects all of their mitochondria have been reported to carry a 50% to 70% probability—more than two or three times as high as ordinary people’s—of developing a psychiatric condition at some point in life (Fattal, Link, Quinn, Cohen, & Franco, 2007; Inczedy-Farkas et al., 2012; Mancuso et al., 2013; for a review, see Kaplan et al., 2015). Not unexpectedly, given its effects on mitochondria, dysregulation of either calcium or BDNF has been implicated in numerous mental afflictions too (Autry & Monteggia, 2012; Markham et al., 2014). Mitochondrial malfunctioning also arouses the immune system (Markham et al., 2014), and an activated immune system drives mitochondria to produce even more free radicals (López-Armada et al., 2013). A chronically activated immune system is so common among people suffering from mental illness that this has become the focus of an entire field of research (Pariante, 2016).

Considering all of the above, it should come as no surprise that mental disorders are apt to hinge together (Devaraju & Zakharenko, 2017). For example, schizophrenia patients are often depressed (Buckley, Miller, Lehrer, & Castle, 2009), autism patients are often anxious (van Steensel, Bögels, & Perrin, 2011), Down syndrome patients tend to develop premature dementia (N.-C. Lee, 2017), and current depression predicts dementia later on (Manji et al., 2012; Mirza et al., 2016).

Why should faulty mitochondria be consistently involved in disorders that are so very different from one another is poorly understood. Perhaps mitochondrial dysfunction increases the vulnerability of brain cells to disease-specific factors (Devaraju & Zakharenko, 2017; Toker & Agam, 2015) such as infections, defective genes, or maternal antibodies during fetal life (P. Kramer & Bressan, 2015). Perhaps, which particular disease will turn up is determined by where the (worst) mitochondrial dysfunction happens to be located or what the nature of the dysfunction is (Devaraju & Zakharenko, 2017; Toker & Agam, 2015). What is malfunctioning, for example, might be the transport of ATP to the host cell or mitochondria’s antioxidant defense against free radicals. When forced to spend half an hour in a closed tube, mice with the first problem have an abnormally large rise of the stress hormone corticosterone and mice with the second problem an abnormally small one (Picard et al., 2015). As well, different types of mitochondrial dysfunction have different effects on neurotransmitters such as dopamine, adrenalin, noradrenalin, and serotonin (Picard et al., 2015). Notice that dysregulation of these neurotransmitters is common in mental disease; for example, excessive dopamine levels have been associated with schizophrenia (Grace, 2016).

Psychologists and psychiatrists focus on mental rather than physical health; but to uncover the cause of mental illness, cues from the body should not be overlooked. It raises a red flag when patients with a mental problem also complain of a variety of physical issues, most notably constant fatigue, or when they respond to psychotropic drugs by getting worse (Anglin, Rosebush, & Mazurek, 2012). Antipsychotics can have antiparasitic effects (Jones-Brando, Torrey, & Yolken, 2003)—which may unintentionally contribute to their success, since some forms of psychosis could be caused by parasites (P. Kramer & Bressan, 2015). Given that our bacteria-like mitochondria resemble parasites, however, it is not at all unexpected that such drugs can harm them too (Manatt & Chandra, 2011, and references therein). At recommended treatment durations and doses, drugs that directly target bacteria, such as common antibiotics, also cripple mitochondria in one or another of an assortment of ways: They wreck their outer wall, damage their DNA, mess up their quality control, and disrupt their energy production (Kalghatgi et al., 2013; Wang, Ryu, Houtkooper, & Auwerx, 2015). For similar reasons, mitochondria get damaged by exposure to any of a wide array of regularly used pesticides and other environmental pollutants (Karami-Mohajeri & Abdollahi, 2013; Meyer et al., 2013; Mostafalou & Abdollahi, 2013).

Go to: The Art of Mitochondria Maintenance Not all mental disorders can be cured, and at least for the time being we have no way of stopping the eventual degeneration of our body and brain. Yet we can improve our mental health and slow down our decline—if only we were willing to pay the unfashionable price at which this comes: getting enough sleep, exercising regularly, practicing relaxation techniques, eating less than we may like and less frequently, and choosing unprocessed, nutrient-rich foods.

As soon as we fall asleep, our brain cells shrink in size (Xie et al., 2013). This move—possibly a side effect of reduced firing activity—expands the space between cells by more than 60%. Throughout the brain, the extra space strikingly increases the perpetual flow of cerebrospinal fluid that flushes waste products out into the bloodstream, for eventual detoxification in the liver. In particular, the main component of Alzheimer’s plaques, beta-amyloid, is washed out of the brain twice as fast while one sleeps than while one is awake (shown in mice: Xie et al., 2013). Neurons manufacture beta-amyloid for good reasons, and in normal concentrations this substance is far from harmful (D’Andrea, 2016; Kumar, Eimer, Tanzi, & Moir, 2016; Soscia et al., 2010). First, it defends neurons against bacteria and other pathogens—some of which have been implicated in Alzheimer’s disease itself. Second, partly by helping calcium ions get into neurons when they fire, it promotes learning and memory. Still, if too much of it accumulates inside a neuron, beta-amyloid ends up harming the neuron and specifically its mitochondria (Rodrigues, Solá, Silva, & Brites, 2000)—perhaps exactly because they resemble bacteria. That beta-amyloid builds up while we are awake and is cleared while we are asleep (Huang et al., 2012) may thus be at least one of the reasons why lack of sleep damages mitochondria, interferes with learning and memory, and ultimately leads to dementia and death (Qiu et al., 2016; Xie et al., 2013; Zhao et al., 2016).

During sleep, the body and brain continue to spend energy, but the usual source of that energy, glucose, is gradually depleted and not replenished. The same happens during prolonged exercise. Mitochondria must switch to burning something else, and on that account the liver breaks down stored fat into molecules called ketone bodies. This switch means that metabolic circumstances have changed; besides acting as a circulating source of energy, ketone bodies appear to serve as carriers of this useful piece of information too (Newman & Verdin, 2014; Sleiman et al., 2016). Through the bloodstream, they reach the brain where they proceed to signal the news by regulating gene expression—targeting specifically the gene responsible for the production of BDNF. This causal chain, from exercise to ketone bodies to BDNF release, has recently been demonstrated in mice that were allowed to run on a wheel as much as they liked (Sleiman et al., 2016). Exercise actually stimulates the production of BDNF in more than one way at the same time (e.g., Sleiman et al., 2016; Wrann et al., 2013). For our ancestors, after all, physical effort tended to occur at times when one had better be smart and learn fast: when responding to danger, locating hazards, tracking prey, or exploring unfamiliar environments (Mattson, 2015; Noakes & Spedding, 2012).

Rest rusts, say the Dutch, but of course the flip side of lack of rest is a greater production of ATP and thus of free radicals. Rats that swam either 10 or 30 minutes per day had, after 20 weeks, fewer mutations in their mitochondrial DNA than rats that did nothing. However, whereas swimming daily for 10 or, much better, 30 minutes increased the number of mitochondrial DNA copies, doing it for 60 or 90 minutes markedly decreased it (Cao et al., 2012). Indeed, the benefits of regular exercise appear to outweigh its inescapable costs only so long as this is practiced at low-to-moderate intensities (Gradari, Pallé, McGreevy, Fontán-Lozano, & Trejo, 2016). Repeated mild stresses upregulate various antioxidant and repair mechanisms so that the body is better placed to cope with major stresses at a future time (Goto, Naito, Kaneko, Chung, & Radák, 2007). Note, incidentally, that this chain of events—and with it the health-promoting effects of exercise—is blocked by taking antioxidant supplements (Peternelj & Coombes, 2011).

A rule of moderation seems to apply to all forms of stress. For example, low levels of the stress hormone corticosterone, even when chronic, strengthen mitochondria but higher levels harm them (shown in rats: Markham et al., 2014). The effects of constant intense stress counteract those of BDNF, increase free-radical production, and reduce mitochondria’s capacity to create energy and lock away calcium. Practicing stress-management techniques that move one’s attention away from everyday concerns—like meditation, yoga, tai chi, or repetitive prayer—can engender positive effects on body functions within minutes. Especially in people who practice them regularly, these techniques upregulate genes that reduce free-radical damage, downregulate those that foster inflammation, and support the production of ATP and its use by cells (Bhasin et al., 2013).

Similar benefits as those brought about by getting enough sleep and exercising, and at least partly via the same glucose-depletion mechanism, can be achieved by eating enough but less than one would be spontaneously inclined to do (Gano, Patel, & Rho, 2014; Maalouf, Rho, & Mattson, 2009; Mattson, 2012). Evolutionarily speaking, protracted food restriction may signal famine and dictate that energy be directed away from current reproduction efforts and toward maintenance and repair mechanisms that will allow one to reproduce at a future, more appropriate time. It is unclear whether the restriction that matters is that of calories or meal frequency (Longo & Panda, 2016), of specific food categories, such as carbohydrate-dense products like flour and sugar (Spreadbury, 2012), or of specific food components, such as the amino acid methionine in proteins (McIsaac, Lewis, Gibney, & Buffenstein, 2016). Most of these regimens raise the level of ketone bodies, which have beneficial effects quite apart from their ability to recruit BDNF. Besides promoting mitochondrial reproduction and energy generation, ketone bodies protect cells, including neurons, from an impressive variety of insults (Newman & Verdin, 2014). The so-called ketogenic diet contains a good deal of fat and some protein but very little carbohydrate; the unavailability of glucose (which chiefly comes from carbohydrate but can also be created from protein) massively raises the levels of ketone bodies in the blood. The diet has a long history of success in treating epilepsy in children—even when they do not respond to drugs—with benefits that in most cases appear to linger after its discontinuation (Martinez, Pyzik, & Kossoff, 2007). A multitude of other neurological and nonneurological conditions have been reported to get better with a ketogenic diet, including autism (Castro et al., 2015), Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s disease, traumatic brain injury, and stroke (Barañano & Hartman, 2008; Gano et al., 2014).

Food can be scarce, and we may not have evolved a great desire to restrict our diets. Whether or not we manage to eat less, however, and more important, we can feed our mitochondria those vitamins, minerals, enzymes, cofactors, polyphenols, and other nutrients they need to do their job (Liu & Ames, 2005; Parikh et al., 2009). In combinations and concentrations that, unlike in supplements (Villanueva & Kross, 2012), tend to be harmless, some or other of these crucial substances can be found in unprocessed natural foods. These foods include fruit and vegetables, fish, shellfish and seaweeds, meats and organ meats like liver and heart, nuts and seeds, and fermented fare. Vitamin D, a hormone that forms rapidly in the unprotected skin during sunbathing, should be high on the list too. In people with low levels of vitamin D in the blood, vitamin D supplements make mitochondria work better, possibly by regulating the entry of calcium in them (Sinha, Hollingsworth, Ball, & Cheetham, 2013). Adoption of a lifestyle designed to help mitochondrial function, pivoting on an outstandingly nutrient-rich diet, has been reported to have gotten a physician with progressive multiple sclerosis out of her wheelchair (Wahls, 2011).

Properly feeding one’s mitochondria could even improve one’s social rank—as suggested by a study on rats. In rats, just like in humans, motivation and social competition are regulated by the nucleus accumbens, a brain structure whose malfunctioning contributes to depression and anxiety (Bewernick et al., 2010; Chen, Rada, Bützler, Leibowitz, & Hoebel, 2012; Levita, Hoskin, & Champi, 2012). Anxious rats have lower concentrations of ATP (implying worse-functioning mitochondria) in their nucleus accumbens than less anxious ones, and they tend to become subordinate to them during social encounters (Hollis et al., 2015). The causal nature of the connection between malfunctioning mitochondria and submissiveness was exposed by treating some rats’ nucleus accumbens with drugs that happen to either inhibit or enhance mitochondrial energy production. When two equally anxious male rats met, the one whose mitochondria had been inhibited was more likely than the other to become submissive—although not more likely to become less sociable or sick in any way. Conversely, an anxious rat that would normally have surrendered to a less anxious one became as likely as the other to play first fiddle when its nucleus accumbens was infused with vitamin B3, a stimulator of mitochondrial function (Hollis et al., 2015). Individual differences in social behavior are thus regulated, in rats, by how well the mitochondria work in a brain structure that is also present with a similar function in humans. It does not seem too farfetched to speculate that the unwillingly submissive among us might be able to become more assertive, and perhaps less depressed, if they supply their own mitochondria with the nutrients they need.

We tend to think of ourselves as human beings and human beings only: Yet 38 trillion microbes (Sender, Fuchs, & Milo, 2016), distributed into at least 2,172 known species (Hugon et al., 2015), populate each of us in places as supremely personal as our mouth, armpits, gut, genitals—and brain (Branton et al., 2013). It is a sobering thought that we house at least as many foreign as human cells (Sender et al., 2016), and those cells that we consider human stem from archaea and bacteria. With the single exception of red blood cells, which got rid of their nucleus too, each of these “human” cells is itself densely inhabited by direct descendants of bacteria in the form of mitochondria. They have made themselves indispensable and this is good and bad news. On the one hand, mitochondria make our mental health—besides furnishing the energy for the brain to function at all, they enable synaptic plasticity, produce hormones and signaling molecules, dish neurotransmitters out and rein neurotransmitters in. On the other, they also break it—even their proper operation corrodes our brain, while their malfunctioning is associated with cognitive deficits, intellectual disabilities, neurodegenerative disorders, and mental illness. Whether as victims or as perpetrators, mitochondria are right in the middle of virtually all human afflictions. They still look a little like their bacterial forefathers and still retain a bit of independence from us. But because of the deal they struck with archaea 2 billion years ago, their health is now entwined with ours. So, to help get the best out of us as humans, we may actually want to do what is best for our bacteria-like components: exercise, sleep, spend time in the sun, eat well, and meditate.

The results of a study by researchers at the University of Cambridge suggest that mitochondria—the “batteries” that power our cells—may play an unexpected role in common diseases such as type 2 diabetes (T2D) and multiple sclerosis. The study, involving data from more than 350,000 participants in the UK Biobank (UKBB), found that genetic variants in mitochondrial DNA passed to offspring could increase the risk of developing different conditions, as well as influence characteristics such as height and lifespan. There was also evidence that some changes in mitochondrial DNA were more common in people with Scottish, Welsh or Northumbrian genetic ancestry, implying that mitochondrial DNA and nuclear DNA (which accounts for 99.9% of our genetic make-up) interact with each other.

Research co-lead Joanna Howson, PhD, who carried out the work while at the Department of Public Health and Primary Care at the University of Cambridge, said, “Aside from mitochondrial diseases, we don’t generally associate mitochondrial DNA variants with common diseases. But what we’ve shown is that mitochondrial DNA— which we inherit from our mother—influences the risk of some diseases such as type 2 diabetes and MS as well as a number of common characteristics.” Research co-lead Patrick Chinnery, PhD, from the MRC Mitochondrial Biology Unit at Cambridge, added, “If you want a complete picture of common diseases, then clearly you’re going to need to factor in the influence of mitochondrial DNA. The ultimate aim of studies of our DNA is to understand the mechanisms that underlie these diseases and find new ways to treat them. Our work could help identify potential new drug targets.”

The scientists say the findings could ultimately help to identify new drug targets, but they could also have implications for the success of a new technique known as mitochondrial transfer therapy that is being developed to prevent offspring developing mitochondrial diseases. Howson and colleagues report their findings in a paper titled in Nature Genetics, which is titled “An atlas of mitochondrial DNA genotype-phenotype associations in the UK Biobank.”

Almost all the DNA that makes up the human genome is contained within the nuclei of our cells. Nuclear DNA codes for the characteristics that make us individual as well as for the proteins that do most of the work in our bodies.

Our cells’ mitochondria provide the energy to power cellular processes. They do this by converting the food we consume into ATP, a molecule that can release energy very quickly. Mitochondria also contain a tiny amount of DNA—mitochondrial DNA, mtDNA —which makes up only 0.1% of the overall human genome, but is passed down exclusively from mother to offspring. The authors explained, “The 16,569-bp human mitochondrial genome has a compact genomic organization, with ~95% of the sequence encoding 13 proteins, 22 transfer RNAs and 2 ribosomal RNAs that are essential for oxidative phosphorylation (OXPHOS) and production of cellular energy in the form of ATP.”

While errors in mitochondrial DNA can lead to mitochondrial diseases, which can be severely disabling, until now there had been little evidence that variants in mitochondrial DNA can influence more common diseases. Several small-scale studies have hinted at this possibility, but scientists have been unable to replicate their findings. “Mitochondrial DNA (mtDNA) variation in common diseases has been underexplored,” the University of Cambridge team noted. “Initial mtDNA association studies in complex traits were underpowered and yielded conflicting findings that were rarely replicated.”

For their newly reported research, the team developed a technique to study mitochondrial DNA and its relation to human diseases and characteristics in samples taken from 358,000 volunteers as part of U.K. Biobank, a large-scale biomedical database and research resource.

The results suggested that in fact mitochondrial DNA might influence diseases such as type 2 diabetes, multiple sclerosis, and factors such as liver and kidney function, blood count parameters, lifespan and height. “When applied to the UKBB, the workflow has provided a comprehensive reference dataset of mtDNA variant–trait associations to date, highlighting 260 new mtDNA–phenotype associations,” the authors wrote. Interestingly, they pointed out, “Mitochondrial dysfunction has been observed in several of the diseases that were associated with mtSNVs [mitochondrial single nucleotide variants] in our analyses, such as multiple sclerosis, T2D and abdominal aortic aneurysms.”

Some of the effects were seen more extremely in patients with rare inherited mitochondrial diseases—for example, patients with severe disease are often shorter than average—whereas the effects in healthy individuals tended to be much subtler, likely accounting for just a few millimeters’ height difference, for example.

There are several possible explanations for how mitochondrial DNA exerts its influence, the team suggested. One is that changes to mitochondrial DNA lead to subtle differences in our ability to produce energy. However, it is likely to be more complicated, affecting complex biological pathways inside our bodies—the signals that allow our cells to operate in a coordinated fashion.

Unlike nuclear DNA, which is passed down from both the mother and the father, mitochondrial DNA is inherited exclusively from the mother. This would indicate that the two systems are inherited independently, so that there should be no association between an individual’s nuclear DNA and mitochondrial DNA. However, this was not what the team’s results indicated. The study found that certain nuclear genetic backgrounds are associated preferentially with certain mitochondrial genetic backgrounds, particularly in Scotland, Wales and Northumbria. This suggested that our nuclear and mitochondrial genomes have evolved—and continue to evolve—side-by-side and interact with each other.

One reason that may explain this is the need for compatibility. ATP is produced by a group of proteins inside the mitochondria called the respiratory chain. There are over 100 components of the respiratory chain, 13 of which are coded for by mitochondrial DNA, the remainder being encoded by nuclear DNA. Even though proteins in the respiratory chain are being produced by two different genomes, the proteins need to physically interlock like pieces of a jigsaw.

If the mitochondrial DNA inherited by a child was not compatible with the nuclear DNA inherited from the father, the jigsaw would not fit together properly, thereby affecting the respiratory chain and, consequently, energy production. This might subtly influence an individual’s health or physiology, which over time could be disadvantageous from an evolutionary perspective. Conversely, matches would be encouraged by evolution and therefore become more common.

This could have implications for the success of mitochondrial transfer therapy, a new technique that enables scientists to replace a mother’s defective mitochondria with those from a donor, to prevent her child from having a potentially life-threatening mitochondrial disease.

“It looks like our mitochondrial DNA is matched to our nuclear DNA to some extent – in other words, you can’t just swap the mitochondria with any donor, just as you can’t take a blood transfusion from anyone,” Chinnery said. “Fortunately, this possibility has already been factored into the approach taken by the team at Newcastle who have pioneered this therapy.”

The authors concluded, “Our current findings establish the key role played by mtDNA variants in many quantitative human traits, and confirm their contribution to common disease risk … understanding mitochondrial genetic architecture and the interaction between the nuclear and mitochondrial genomes will be important for reducing the burden of cardiometabolic and neurodegenerative diseases, among others … The atlas of UKBB mtSNV–trait associations provided here lays a firm foundation for future studies at the whole-mitochondrial genome level.”

Father Tongue hypothesis From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia Jump to navigationJump to search Language families and Y-DNA distributions in Africa

Distribution of language families

Distribution of Y-DNA:E1b1a（Related to Niger-Congo languages）

Distribution of Y-DNA:E1b1b（Related to Afro-Asiatic languages）

Distribution of Y-DNA:A（Related to Khoisan languages and part of Nilo-Saharan languages） The Father Tongue hypothesis proposes that humans tend to speak their father’s language. It is based on the discovery, in 1997, of a closer correlation between language and Y-chromosomal variation than between language and mitochondrial DNA variation. The initial work was performed on African and European samples by a team of population geneticists led by Laurent Excoffier.[1][2] On the basis of these and similar findings by other geneticists, the hypothesis was elaborated by historical linguist George van Driem in 2010 that the teaching by a mother of her spouse’s tongue to her children is a mechanism by which language has preferentially been spread over time.[3]

Focusing on prehistoric language shift in already settled areas, examples worldwide[4] show that as little as 10–20% of prehistoric male immigration can (but need not) cause a language switch, indicating an élite imposition such as may have happened with the appearance of the first farmers or metalworkers in the Neolithic, Bronze and Iron Ages.

Contents 1 Early autosomal research 2 Origin of the hypothesis 3 Discovery of Y-chromosomal markers for languages 4 Examples of father tongues 5 Implications 6 Exceptions 7 See also 8 References Early autosomal research Before the discovery of mtDNA variation and Y-chromosomal variation in the 1980s and 1990s, respectively,[5][6] it was not possible to distinguish male from female effects in population genetics. Instead, researchers had to rely on autosomal variation, starting with the first population genetic study using blood groups by Ludwik Hirszfeld in 1919.[7] Later other genetic polymorphisms were used, for example polymorphisms of proteins of the blood plasma, polymorphisms of human lymphocyte antigens or polymorphisms of immunoglobulins.[8] On this basis, correlations between languages and genetic variation occasionally were proposed,[9][10] but sex-specific questions could not be addressed until the 1990s, when both mtDNA and Y-chromosomal variation in humans became available for study.

Origin of the hypothesis The Y chromosome follows patrilineal inheritance, meaning it is only passed on among males, from father to son. Mitochondrial DNA on the other hand follows matrilineal inheritance, meaning it is only passed on from the mother to her children and from her daughters to their children. In 1997 Laurent Excoffier, his student Estella Poloni and his team reported that they had found a strong correlation between the Y-chromosomal sequence P49a,f/Taql variation and linguistics, while not being able to find such a correspondence for the mtDNA variation. Poloni et al. proposed the possible consequences of such a correlation, i.e. the Father Tongue hypothesis:

“As a consequence, the female-specific diversity of our genome would fit less well with geography and linguistics than would our male-specific component. […] If that were to prove to be the case, then the common belief that we speak our mother’s tongue should be revised in favor of the concept of a ‘father’s tongue’.”[1] Estella Poloni also presented the Father Tongue hypothesis at an international conference in Paris in April 2000.[11]

On the basis of this population genetic work, historical linguist George van Driem elaborated the Father Tongue hypothesis in his ethnolinguistic publications and in population genetic publications which he has co-authored.[12] At the Indo-Pacific Prehistory Association conference in Taipei in 2002 he proposed that

“a mother teaching her children their father’s tongue has been a recurrent, ubiquitous and prevalent pattern throughout linguistic history, […] some of the mechanisms of language change over time are likely to be inherent to the dynamics of this pathway of transmission. Such correlations are observed worldwide.”[13] Discovery of Y-chromosomal markers for languages The next development was the discovery of specific Y-chromosomal markers linked to a language.[14][15][16] These Y-chromosomal variants do not cause language change, but happened to be carried by the historic or prehistoric male speakers spreading the language. These language-specific Y-chromosomal markers create correlations such as those observed by Poloni et al. 1997, and furthermore allow the geographic extent, the time depth and the male immigration level underlying an unrecorded (prehistoric) language change to be determined.

Examples of father tongues Distributions of Uralic languages and Y-DNA:N

Distribution of Uralic languages (and Yukaghir languages)

Distribution of Haplogroup N (Y-DNA) Distributions of Sino-Tibetan languages and Y-DNA:O2

Distribution of Sino-Tibetan languages

Distribution of Haplogroup O2 (Y-DNA) There are several salient examples where the prehistoric diffusion of a language family correlates strongly with the diffusion of Y-chromosomal haplogroups.[4]

The dispersal of Indo-Europeans from a proposed homeland in the Pontic–Caspian steppe according to the Kurgan hypothesis is suggested to be linked to the spread of the R haplogroup subclade, R1a1, into Europe.[14] R1a1 may also reflect the arrival of the Indo-Aryans into northern India.[12][17] The Y-chromosomal lineage L could potentially reflect an earlier patrilingual dispersal of Elamo-Dravidian emanating from a region in modern day Iran.[17] However, the Elamo-Dravidian proposal continues to be rejected by mainstream linguists. Austroasiatic speakers show a high frequency of the O2a haplogroup subclade. For example, Munda speakers in north and northeast India show high frequencies of O2a, not found in their regional neighbours who speak languages other than Austroasiatic, whilst their mtDNA haplogroups seem to be those frequent in their region independent of language affinity.[15] A population genetic study of 23 Han Chinese populations[18] has shown that the Han expansion southward during the sinification of what today is southern China was predominantly male-biased and is an uncontroversial example of the Father Tongue hypothesis.[12] It has also been suggested that Bantu and other Niger-Congo languages correlate well with Y-chromosomal haplogroups.[19][20] The spread of Afroasiatic languages has been linked to the expansion of E1b1b haplogroup.[21] Implications The Father Tongue hypothesis has far-reaching implications for several processes in linguistics such as language change, language acquisition and sociolinguistics. The Father Tongue hypothesis also has implications for language acquisition, as the hypothesis suggests an evolutionary explanation for why females may be better in some aspects of language performance and acquisition.[22][23][24][25][26][27][28][29][30]

The historical linguist George van Driem interpreted the correlation of Y-chromosomal haplogroups and language families as indicating that the spread of language families was often mediated by male-biased migration, whether these intrusions were martial or something less spectacular. He conjectured that the majority of language communities spoke father tongues rather than mother tongues.[17]

The Father Tongue hypothesis has implications for linguists’ understanding of language change. It must be assumed that the dynamics of language change whereby mothers pass on the language of their spouses to their offspring differ from the dynamics of language change in a monolingual community and even from the dynamics of change in a bilingual community where mothers pass on their own language to their children.[31] As a consequence, such dynamics can introduce a discontinuity with the past. For example, it has been observed that Michif, genetically an Algonquian language (like Plains Cree), was relexified by Métis women with Métis French, the language of their husbands, and so the genetic affinity of Michif has come to be almost unidentifiable.[32][33][34] If the process of relexification went beyond the possibility of linguistic reconstruction, the dynamics of such a process may obscure the true linguistic heritance of a community.[31]

Exceptions Genetics does not determine the language spoken by a human being, and the link between Y-chromosomal haplogroups and linguistic affinities is an observed correlation and not a causal link. While father tongues predominate, exceptions to father tongues exist in the world. Two very well-known exceptions are the Balti in northern Pakistan and Hungarians. The mtDNA haplogroups most frequent among Balti are the same as those of the neighbouring Tibetan communities, whereas the Y-chromosomal haplogroups most frequent in Balti males appear to have entered Baltistan from the west with the introduction of Islam. The Balti speak one of the most conservative Tibetan languages.[12] The language of the Balti corresponds to the mtDNA and not to the Y chromosome and is in effect a salient example of a mother tongue.[17] The other well-known exception is Hungarian. The N1c haplogroup of the Y chromosome, distinguished by Tat-C deletion, is found at a high frequency throughout Uralic language communities, but is virtually missing in Hungarian males. Therefore, while the intrusion of the Magyars into what is today Hungary is historically attested and has left clear linguistic evidence, genetically the Magyar intrusion has left no salient genetic traces. Instead, from a genetic point of view, Hungarians strongly resemble a Western Slavic language community.[31]

Tree Time By Sumana Roy August 30, 2021FIRST PERSON

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At first it was the underwear. I wanted to become a tree because trees did not wear bras.

Then it had to do with the specter of violence. I loved the way in which trees coped with dark and lonely places while sunlessness decided curfew hours for me. I liked, too, how trees thrived on things that were still freely available—water, air, and sunlight; and no mortgage in spite of their lifelong occupation of land.

My amorphous fancies about trees began to coalesce when I entered middle age and began to weigh the benefits of a freelancer’s life against that of a salaried professional. An epiphany wrapped me like a tendril—were trees freelancers or salaried employees? A tree was a daily wage laborer, its life of work bound to the cycle of sunlight. Holidays, vacations, weekends, the salaried life, pension, loans—all of these were recent inventions, nothing more than consolations offered to employees like myself.

So, when I look back at the reasons for my disaffection with being human, and my desire to become a tree, I can see that at root lay the feeling that I was being bulldozed by time. As I removed my watch from my wrist, and clocks from my walls, I realized that all my flaws—and this I now discover I share with many others—came from my failure to be a good slave to time. I began envying the tree, its disobedience to human time. All around me were estate developers sending their fleets of workers to construct skyscrapers to tight schedules.The trees they planted in the gated communities annoyed them—they would grow at their natural pace. It was impossible to rush plants, to tell a tree to “hurry up.” In envy, in admiration and with ambition, I began to call that pace “tree time.” (Was it this that Salvador Dalí wanted to invoke when he placed so many of his melting clocks on trees in his paintings?)

I was tired of speed. I wanted to live to tree time. This I felt most excruciatingly during examination hall invigilation, while keeping guard over the exhausted faces of my students, their having to condense a year into a few hours, the learning acquired at different times of the day and in different places cramped into a few hours of writing time. That was how one passed examinations, got degrees and jobs, measured success. A tree did not stay up all night to become a successful examinee the next morning. Plant life, in spite of its various genres of seasonal flowers and fruits, did not—could not—do that. One can’t tinker with the timing of a yawn, one cannot play with tree time.

I began by abandoning newspapers, news television, and news suppliers. These capsules of heightened and condensed time had come to divide our attention, splintered our life into bullets. Plants were not newsmakers because they could not cause coups or wars. Plants were not news consumers because their world remained unaffected by changes in governments and results of cricket matches. Apart from the weather—not its forecast, mind you, that comedy show on television—the plant world was indifferent to every occurrence, man-made or natural, outside the locality of its amphitheater. The day’s work anesthetized me, left me incompetent to deal with humans, their order and orders. Talk, the incessant word-by-word relay of the goings-on, always and inevitably of humans, on the earth, in the air, under water, generated a claustrophobia in me that is difficult to explain—I am daughter to a man who is a news junkie, who watches the same piece of news on the state-sponsored Doordarshan channel in Bangla, Hindi, and then Urdu. I found myself in a world where being a repository of news—as telegrams—turned one into a sort of activist. And all the news that mattered was, of course, almost exclusively bad news. This timbre of nervous energy that had turned the world into an apocalypse movie was the resident spirit of the newsroom—we were all doomed, all moving toward a terrifying end, we were all a part of the news.

The newspaper was the new holy book and the news reader the new priest. The unnatural rhythm of news, the panting pace at which it now moved, caused me breathlessness. I wanted to move out, out of this news as neighborhood. And so my attraction to the tree and its complete indifference to the hypnosis of news.

Once upon a time, I was certain, men and trees moved to the same rhythm, lived their lives to the same time. To gain an understanding of this concept that, of course, existed only in my imagination, I began planting saplings to mark births and beginnings. When my nephew was born five years ago, for instance, I planted a neem tree in our backyard. The little boy stands at three feet or so. The neem tree is taller than my husband, who is six feet tall. But before this there was the tree that is as old as my marriage. I did not plant it. The municipal corporation did, as part of its city greening project. It was just a happy happenstance, then, that the gulmohar tree, with its yellow flowers, came to be planted a few days before my wedding, and just opposite the room from where my married life would begin. It is now taller than our three-storied house, and it allows me to imagine an alternative version of my marriage as a tree, a life I might have lived had I allowed myself to live to tree time.

Allied to human notions of time is an overwhelming ageism. People have often told me—I refrain from using the word compliment because I cannot think of “youthful looks” as praise—that I looked young for my age. I found the words offensive and discriminatory: wasn’t every division of age—old, middle, the many varieties that came as prefix and critique—beautiful? One morning, when I received such a “compliment,” I couldn’t help wondering how a tree might have reacted. If I was a forty-year-old tree, would I not have felt insulted to be considered twenty on the basis of my appearance? Age, I was certain, was important to trees. The wrinkles on our face and neck, the accumulation of folds around hips and thighs had become embarrassing to humans. The age of trees was to be found in similar lines, in circles denoting lived years, in the girth of time that gave aged trees a kind of sober dignity. By looking at trees one could see that time was an obese creature. And that history, whether it was reflected in lines or folds, loose bark or skin, new colors or pigmentation, was a beautiful thing. Our lives in the industrial age, lived bizarrely as an approximation of machines, had made us think of age as ugly—in the way machines rusted, wasted, and gradually became ugly before they fell apart.

But how does one live to tree time in this deadlined world? I began by trying to dismantle the architecture of time units inside my head. It wasn’t completely a conscious effort, but the whole manner of our timekeeping begins to look silly when one asks a tree the question that inaugurates application forms and conversations: “When is your birthday?” I had taken information about my birthday off Facebook, for instance. I felt awkward when people asked me about my birth date. I also couldn’t understand why our culture, both social and bureaucratic, placed such great emphasis on the date of our arrival into the world. I knew no one who celebrated the birthdays of trees. I also found it difficult to picture trees celebrating death anniversaries. Wedding anniversaries would be a joke given the number of “marriages” a tree went through in its lifespan. What exactly was tree time then? I wandered aimlessly through philosophical discussions on time until it came to me one night, in my salty sleep: carpe diem, seize the moment, living in the present—that was tree time, a life without worries for the future or regret for the past. There’s sunlight: gulp, swallow, eat; there’s night: rest. And I began writing this to tree time, recording thoughts as they arrived, events as they occurred, and fighting insomnia and its derivative poetry like a good tree.

What is a Moon Jellyfish? I don’t think you’re ready for this jelly JANUARY 3, 2022 OceanImageBank_RonWatkins_14 © RON WATKINS/OCEAN IMAGE BANK Robyn Stegman AUTHOR 29872048_10101029678623234_3152220774169394205_o SHARE Share On Facebook Share On Twitter Share via Email SECTIONS Ocean Life Moon jellies have a special place in my heart. Once on a family vacation, we wrapped up a hike at Acadia National Park to find hundreds of moon jellies floating near the shore. It was a magical sight. It felt as if we had crossed over into some alien dimension, the rocky coastline transformed into a sea filled with these other-worldly creatures.

What do moon jellyfish look like? Moon jellyfish get their name from their translucent bell-shape that looks a bit like a full moon. They are best identified by four purple glowing circles on the top that loop around in a clover-like formation. They have short wispy tentacles that hang below and tend to float just below the surface of the water.

See more wonderful ocean animals! Enter Your Email Enter Your Email Can they sting me? Moon jellyfish can sting with their tentacles. Don’t let this scare you away from these beautiful creatures! Their sting has little effect on humans beyond slight discomfort and a rash that will last only a few hours.  But if you happen to be a plankton or mollusk that has learned to read and found access to the internet, well, I have bad news: That jellyfish sting is going to immobilize you to become the jellyfish’s next meal. Learn more about how jellyfish sting.

How do moon jellyfish move? Jellyfish don’t need fins or skeletons to swim; they use their bells. They are able to create a pocket of water to project themselves. As a moon jellyfish opens and contracts its bell, it creates a vortex, several vortices, in fact, that create a high-pressure wall of water that becomes its runway to blast off. Scientists are studying this unique method of locomotion to inspire the ways future underwater robots might move.

What eats moon jellyfish? Moon jellyfish are considered a delectable snack by all sorts of turtles, birds and fish. Their clear gelatinous structure might not look nutritious, but moon jellyfish contain some fatty acids crucial to growth and reproduction. Plus, they are pretty slow, making it easy for their predators to have a lazy afternoon lunch.

Moon jellyfish in SPACE? Yes, living up to their lunar namesake, moon jellies took a trip to space! In 1991 NASA launched over 2,478 jellyfish polyps (a.k.a. jellyfish babies) on a trip that was out of this world. They wanted to see how being raised in a low gravity situation would change jellyfish behavior once they were back on Earth. This would provide insights on how human space babies might be affected since both jellyfish and humans need gravity to orientate themselves. There are calcium sulfate crystals in a moon jellyfish’s bell that move with gravity, telling the jellyfish whether it is moving up or down. We humans also have calcium crystals in our inner ears that help us understand gravity’s pull. Turns out the space jelly babies (which should be the name of the next Muppet movie) did turn out to have issues navigating on Earth after being raised in a place without gravity.

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kog ang polite synonymous to prideful thirsty brainded boi pila ray pugong sa imong walay pulos nga tinder languge kaayo thinbutcher's profile picture bagong buhay nagyud kay di naman mo ingon ug incapable of such an emotion basta ignon nasuko ? thinbutcher's profile picture +(´?`)+ you thibk na jud ni padulngan like for real kay ako goods ewww haha whaat payts raman nako wala basta ikaw pang temporary adrenaline rushx kay ana mana atong pag ka dating buhay temporary thinbutcher's profile picture masuko man ka nga polite ko nya ikaw di. masuko sab ka nga nag puyo rako dire while ikaw sig lakaw iyot2. you think so low of me dugay ra and karon u can't accept whats happening details daw sa whats happening thinbutcher's profile picture ikaw nay bahala mag assume oy you thrive on that bcos you take so much pride being physically iyotless for months ofc iyotfull gyud ka in other ways na aids gyud imong brainzzs tungods mga meaningless hetero jerjerings thinbutcher's profile picture you think its unimportant lang being physically intimate with other people but i don't. now im not allowed to suko if na numbalik imong pa ka palaiyot now that we are actually normal thingy again, oh who said di ka pwede nasuko thinbutcher's profile picture kasuko dirag taman oy whaaat why the hell would i be so suko if i put emotional, metaphysical intimacy on a pedestal higher than physical nag iyot mo thru your soul with your 144 thats good for you, asa naman diay ang ka chaste na gipang hambog nimo thinbutcher's profile picture nag iyot mo thru ur soul and ur mind and your physical body sa imong mga ka bookingsss luora bitaw, the sentence alone makes me want to yarok my niecea big big wet sulfuric poopooo earlier and the energy to compose that haha ngano luod man! thinbutcher's profile picture *?? bcos you think it thinbutcher's profile picture bcos i think what again? plus nganong but i dont but i dont man ka anang physical intimacy biiii nga imk naman pud kong gi give away Replied to you plus nganong but i dont but i dont man ka anang physical intimacy biiii nga imk naman pud kong gi give away aysag lahia ang topic bi, abi kay di na comfortable para nimo thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you bcos you think it bcos i think what im not blaming you waiiiit nga na salaag kog not in good hands im emphasising nga wala sa lugar¿¿¿ imong pag ka angery or judgment nga i was out hoeing nga hagbay na baya gyud ko nimong gi neglect im in good hands lage, im in my own hands, im in the best hands thinbutcher's profile picture wait sa oy nganong luod? unsay luod man????????? what am i just semi suko now bug bug suko now is that you can just say nga you want kita kay cool lang sa not pa dalos dalos but instead you answer me nga skeptical ra kaayo ko, ofc here comes the reminder that idk what we are man jud fake it dira ug taman dzzzong good hands but kung hubog mag bitch pa tawag kay whaaat idk to entertain me with the carnival performance you're so dying to show thinbutcher's profile picture lol i call you bitch once and it wasn't even to call u about hoeing around and u cant shut up about it in good hands but, half of the things in spite, i dont want to sound egotistic already but insert what i said about the chastity pact being derivative ganiiiii wasnt it to show your maoy thinbutcher's profile picture even if it is. whats so wrong about me texting you when i was drunk that one time diay? but cooolio, you are bagong buhay incognito, you generally been so well without my presence i mean sometimes fighting can be the verge of an absence and im starting to think you get highs off my almost absences than my presence let me just feel that okay if you're in good hands dont do this Replied to you but cooolio, you are bagong buhay incognito, you generally been so well without my presence i mean oh you are too, your life improved man pd kaayo without me where's the hostile aura man thinbutcher's profile picture i was asking you unsay luod gane naunsa i never had boookings god, i respect but it aint me, and it just came out iof me as a cheap brag like you did with ur fren almost kissing n dulog you thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i never had boookings god, i respect but it aint me, and it just came out iof me as a cheap brag like you did with ur fren almost kissing n dulog you if i was u i would still bring this up again and again in the future and insist on what i wanna believe in and then for an entire month you were seriously cold with me and then my absence for a day when my niece arrived just suddenly makes u serious or your level of serious that i understand as your surface serious or deep serious idk waaait i didnt actually have liiike a hey and fuck kinda of deal, the two of them were really just spontaneous and the first one was for the drugs he had and it was forced but i was toooooo passive to fish myself out of it, yeah i really like our conversations it was stimulating his end mostly lol, until our meeting and seeing the meltdown of the version of him that he portrays i felt betrayed n raped mentally gyud and i mean i knew he din get but yes he jus doesnt get it and you're going to say something about it if i dont tell you know but i gave him the necklace i wore at lanipga not your necklace for fucksake thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and you're going to say something about it if i dont tell you know but i gave him the necklace i wore at lanipga what soooo pleaseuuu its luod for me unlike your previous hoeing with pleasure felt n being aroused n cumming n that's what makes me envy monotentacled beings for that ability to have release when its beyond their capacity and touch exception for the last one i did have pleasure thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and you're going to say something about it if i dont tell you know but i gave him the necklace i wore at lanipga reading comprehension daw nya iyang message kay ingon ani and it was experienced knowing i can leave without having a dumb obscure alibi bcos the fox texted me at the hour You replied reading comprehension daw nya iyang message kay ingon ani asa ang misaligned comprehensio You replied to yourself and then for an entire month you were seriously cold with me and then my absence for a day when my niece arrived just suddenly makes u serious or your level of serious that i understand as your surface serious or deep serious idk pwede reacc ka diri ginagmay thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you pwede reacc ka diri ginagmay mana you just continue to gara me to this day thinbutcher's profile picture you continue to gara everything that i say to this very fucking conversation i really dont know what you mean i answer with all of me thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i really dont know what you mean i answer with all of me yeah it is all of you i know man haha the sarcasm and the dodgey answers screams you when reacting to questions all of me gyud, dala anger, kinagwang, brinaytan, binuang, binogo, laway, kaspa, sud an nako gahapon, kalag , lawas, kumagkog thinbutcher's profile picture so what do you mean gane when you said luod kay i think of it You replied yeah it is all of you i know man haha the sarcasm and the dodgey answers screams you when reacting to questions do i dodge okay thats very dodge for u but liiike unaware dogde bcos of what im made of flabs n waves mo boing boing gyud na whaaaat, how is it not luod to you to imagine the person you used to iyot your soul mind body spirit heart with do that bare minimum of it with some random bcos its soooo luod for me to think about you in that picture but you just dodge and permit me to think those things bcos you just cant say no you arent or yes you are and were like so tell me, when did you cut your chastity ribbon, last week, theee days ago whaaaaat, garai ko ug taman eohwwwwww tooo sooon whats take me back, take the 144 too just you and the painful things that will come along of course you arent going to answer that thinbutcher's profile picture no of course it is luod for me, it is yawa yawa yawa lami mong duha sunogon while gabuhat mo ana kind of luod whyeu apil me (???,) i was trying to mock you man when you said i iyot them with my soul. like like like like idk if you actually think that or youre just assuming or you're actually a big dumb fucking baby apil gyud ka kamo gud duha gabuhat and wait duha diay na ka affair with another guy? so kamo 3 ako sunogon oy thinbutcher's profile picture ana ka luod bogo man siguro ka wooow affair, thats in your world raman, kay imo naa may commitment imo naa man say commitment naa gane iyot2 thinbutcher's profile picture bogo lol paabtag one month hahahha unya pina boyf pa sa iyang girlf pina baby imy pa commitment manang ma aids ka lifetime baya na, should i remind u thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you lol paabtag one month hahahha ngeee mao ni imo counter argument ayawg i karer ang pagka bogo oy mao gani luod kay ang luod bogo ay mahadluk ka naay ka competition sa bogo career sorry Replied to you imo naa man say commitment nice man diay ning mo suhid nimo no nga mag assume2 lang sad ta ba, project2 lang imma take it up a notch ay wait ikaw man diay ni take up sa notch aw in diay Replied to you lol paabtag one month hahahha if i know naay hidden agenda parehas sa hidden albums, idk basin diay ga Plano nasad kag book ugma thinbutcher's profile picture am i doing this right master? wala pa nimo nalupigan akong signature mga salamangkero hooooy ayaw ug unha then what lagiiii mag pa totoy kog bata wala gi bazooka akong blackhole with a screw driver thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you wala pa nimo nalupigan akong signature mga salamangkero unsa oy ang bib kay blindfold unya ang umbilical cord kay for binding, ohh diba biocore biodegradable shibari plus ingon ko wala pa nimo na lupigan akong pag ka salamangkero go pa thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ingon ko wala pa nimo na lupigan akong pag ka salamangkero unsay example ani mam asa naman ang notch notch balongotch ambot ikaw raman juy audience sa akong ~magic thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ambot ikaw raman juy audience sa akong ~magic charot ka why are you so judgey about my binogo escapades nga pirting cold baya ka for a whole faaaaaking month and diba kinumustahay raman ta or something cool Replied to you ambot ikaw raman juy audience sa akong ~magic /(/ /•/?/•/ /)/ thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why are you so judgey about my binogo escapades nga pirting cold baya ka for a whole faaaaaking month and diba kinumustahay raman ta or something cool your reasoning is getting cheaper and cheaper maygad nagka aids na imong utok sa imong iyot2 i just really thought you asking to be serious was serious but it's just even more gara to the pwoer 69695996969969y You replied your reasoning is getting cheaper and cheaper maygad nagka aids na imong utok sa imong iyot2 mas imo cheap counters copy paste, kung naa palang niy patent, or copyright hala hilom gyugs mark ani thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you mas imo cheap counters copy paste, kung naa palang niy patent, or copyright hala hilom gyugs mark ani copy oy alangan para maka dungog kas imong kaugalingon im not saying you cznt afford im saying you wouldnt pay for my stupidity anyway thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you im not saying you cznt afford im saying you wouldnt pay for my stupidity anyway oh cos they paid? You replied copy oy alangan para maka dungog kas imong kaugalingon ka imal, lipaya nako karon nga ang dugay nang bungol ka dungog na jud kandungog najud si dzzzong mark You replied oh cos they paid? hol0y fuckincshitaake, for the copyright of my bogo karer counters You replied to yourself ka imal, lipaya nako karon nga ang dugay nang bungol ka dungog na jud kandungog najud si dzzzong mark or maybe not bungol pero kanang gi luwa na jud iyang gi kaon nga binogo pud pa nga libo ka hektarya hala unsa namang orasa diba ting kapoy na makig storya nako nga tingka ligid na tingkaling kalimg kaaaAliiing ?°??~ oo pero na worked up jud ko ani hehe gi hingal jud ko aning storyaha da thinbutcher's profile picture wa lage kay milk dewties karon ay diba ting milk dewties naman nimo ron ato man siguro, tig milk og anything excpet babies gi milk hahahaha thinbutcher's profile picture yawa her last feed was 6 moon n also she din cry paman n her night melk is limited edition i been on water bender detwtties however, for 3 semi moons na, i mean i need to prolong what to soothe n pacify the nonexistent burns from you Replied to you i been on water bender detwtties however, for 3 semi moons na, i mean i need to prolong what to soothe n pacify the nonexistent burns from you wow karon paka nag ingon ana ako kay been months na kaayu ciphertv's profile picture ciphertv

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thinbutcher's profile picture looks like the tropang bad n boujie November 13, 2020 4:02 am thinbutcher's profile picture i hate youuuuuu November 13, 2020 5:31 am coming from the one who continues to gara me im sorry thinbutcher's profile picture you gara me "take me back"but still holding things back, hiding whatever it is that you're not letting me know, never really serious about what this means to me i soooOoooooO hate you thinbutcher's profile picture you said something then before i said take me back that made me unsure if it isnt too early for it what? it implies that so if i wasnt actually serious, then you did, so in the span of us trying to take each other back, you werent serious? idk anymore, i guess you're just actually forced to keep doing this, since this time your keeping has a time frame "too early" Replied to you it implies that so if i wasnt actually serious, then you did, so in the span of us trying to take each other back, you werent serious? wow for a change youre asking normally you would just assume right away with no intention of listening Replied to you idk anymore, i guess you're just actually forced to keep doing this, since this time your keeping has a time frame time frame my ass take that dick off your mouth you say things like time and actions doesn't count, you are delusional tinder for friends, fucking for drugs and what was the other dudes reason again? and idk if you will ever understand this with that biggass brain of yours but yes i was serious and me talking to you for the past days is me trying to figure out what i should do you really think you can just come back and just resume being us right away??? just cos i love you doesn't mean it can happen easily like that look i know that you love me too but after all that happened us loving each other isn't enough, YOU made me realize that cos again no matter how much i love you you wont listen to me and my past actions still got the better of what we have you're too smart you're starting to say dumb things Replied to you look i know that you love me too but after all that happened us loving each other isn't enough, YOU made me realize that cos again no matter how much i love you you wont listen to me and my past actions still got the better of what we have had thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and idk if you will ever understand this with that biggass brain of yours but yes i was serious and me talking to you for the past days is me trying to figure out what i should do *i am November 13, 2020 2:24 pm thinbutcher's profile picture why are you ignoring me im not ignoring you defending is for somebody who's got something to win and i dont want to fight for myself bcos there's no need. i have already met my loss and this is it i really believed we could defyyyy our self if we had a third time around whos defending? im only trying to prove a point thinbutcher's profile picture did u at least read what i sent and that point is the love is there but the want aAND the should vanished You replied did u at least read what i sent lots of times at different times im tired of trying to better than my worst in this relationship, or what we had im so sick of dealing with myself when im being hostile, cheap, brainless and i have made my unhealthy obsession with everything that has to do with you my entire and only personality and im sick of constantly wanting to die You replied to yourself and that point is the love is there but the want aAND the should vanished if this is your point then what is dont ignore me thinbutcher's profile picture i am not ignoring you You replied you really think you can just come back and just resume being us right away??? just cos i love you doesn't mean it can happen easily like that what's the basis of being us You replied and idk if you will ever understand this with that biggass brain of yours but yes i was serious and me talking to you for the past days is me trying to figure out what i should do dont use me as a direction or a point of comparison i need some rousing if you want to squeeze out the bitch in me thinbutcher's profile picture im sorry apology accepted if you have some more things to say and ask i am here listening thinbutcher's profile picture honestly idk what to say at this point bcos theres no point thinbutcher's profile picture well there's really no need for a "point" did you materialise the need for it thinbutcher's profile picture tell me what do you feel about me right now is you being here just an opportunity for you to tell me what ive missed struggling im not struggling to feel anything for you what i feel about you is struggle wait mag pa feed sa ako ... wait thinbutcher's profile picture not seen you lang i think my energy for this got leeched by the past moons hingal war i was asked to put soil in the small mesetera and tang tang curtains and balhin refrigerator its okay dont hingal na thinbutcher's profile picture im tired of hingal war why do you like me more when im away (/`?´)/ ? 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(?o???????o????) ?(???????)? thinbutcher's profile picture sometimes i feel like im a gold fish i just want to thumb suck god fingerus until snoozey aaaaand it's okay again i feel like i can't see myself no you're moss rarely feel like im here, more than half the time i want to be eaten by a fig i just wanna go back to the first day of my math class when i was at silliman Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture you're there when you attend the foxling yes you want to be sixteen again thinbutcher's profile picture i wouldve graduated already by now and raising a child would be much less hard and i wouldve invested more and more with the idea of it with you did you miss your math class you have a lot to catch up on investments then you would have been the most wonderful mom by now not really, my point is i wish i could go back and just graduate sooner thinbutcher's profile picture why didn't we have her earlier this year again bcos my vessel was too weak to carry her bajillion voltage orb we kept smoking and smoking and smoking and mountain dew as water didnt we put her on hold to recover our vessels i couldve stopped for her but i remember i was afraid to this year cos again i wanna finish school diay, school bothers me a lot thinbutcher's profile picture we did i wanted to bring her to silliman baya when we fetch you I was duyan earlier and a coconut dropped i almost got tagakan Replied to you i wanted to bring her to silliman baya when we fetch you i remember vividly when you said this Replied to you i wanted to bring her to silliman baya when we fetch you I've told few of my frens and my nephew about ths thinbutcher's profile picture wait i didnt think of the process of how to quit hell or tell my parents it was automatic for me to be at dooma raising her You replied i remember vividly when you said this id manifest a coconut on ur head if u dont but then that misfortune is worse than lighting but then your hard head break it into husks, a little sand papering and she could helmet it to your hell wobbling as she waddles i dont want her to cushion the burden of telling us to get it together, it's on us bcos she's on us you could have been kurat bajillion kurats by my trubbish jacket bcos it suddenly squirms and moving i know i would be a tinamban mama gyud but that's what i take pride in, then, i dont know about now, i think i only had the heart for the idea of it im sorry youd stop for her, you'd everything for her, including choosing her over me and that's not so bad you'd even chonk for her, at least the reboot catalyst for your chonk, we'd stop ordering outside and cook every semi moon for her, she'd start eating solids on her second moon, she'd devour volcanoes on her first hydramoon, she'd suck asteroids like sago alamat.ng.panaginip's profile picture alamat.ng.panaginip

alamat.ng.panaginip Ang Alamat ng mga Taong Kalachuchi November 13, 2020 7:33 pm i haaaays you howchu kno jud thinbutcher's profile picture im really serious when i said to myself im not gonna marry and have a family anymore after we got separated¿ she's always gonna be my first and only child, that we never had. i like how we are so confident and certain in ourselves that no matter what, if we have her we wouldnt let her feel like her origins are close to separating or that stress her out with wars Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you alamat.ng.panaginip's profile picture alamat.ng.panaginip

alamat.ng.panaginip Ang Alamat ng mga Taong Kalachuchi they're like gumamela ponyos ¿ i thought you were going to say they're the miscarried ?}`]]?°?`??*?s we had frolicking in ur illidan hair we should be here for each other not just her Replied to you we should be here for each other not just her i know i know i am here for you but not as you'd want me to, just as how i could best be thinbutcher's profile picture least worst diay You replied i am here for you but not as you'd want me to, just as how i could best be what's your idea of what i wany t i don't know, maybe like how we were before thinbutcher's profile picture i dont know really but i think i just know that im not fully what you would want me to be, for me to be there for you thanks for being honest with me at least that way, it be easier for me to lose feelings for you in other words, you think you know it'll never be the same and that's cynical of you. it's you because i knew and you knew that you'd just get it and will always do. but if that's what you became or unraveled from deep within you, then i am never meant to end up with somebody like that Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. my dad asked if i put sugar im the spaghetti i cooked just now but my bowl is salty and i dint put salt say something sure i got that from u thinbutcher's profile picture i honestly think it can never be the same but doesn't mean it can just be something lesser. i honestly dont want you to lose feelings for me at the same time i want you to lose them not being there is the leastest Replied to you in other words, you think you know it'll never be the same and that's cynical of you. it's you because i knew and you knew that you'd just get it and will always do. but if that's what you became or unraveled from deep within you, then i am never meant to end up with somebody like that if im being more honest this seems pretty vague thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you not being there is the leastest i can be there for you i aaaaam here for you, i just think not as much that you'd be contented with kind of there/here for you delusional, my favourite part about me perhaps my fatally immaculate dimension and now you made me reach a point to hate it. i dream about you every fucking moment my eyelids separate me from realities unwarned but inevitable and never not wake shivering with panic and confusion. i believed when it happens you're calling me back or not done with me. the endless rain and that were a few significant reasons i came back when i read it until the words are misspelling themselves what you said loving is not enough and this is the part where i woke up from my delusion. and if i actually believe that we can be together something better at a time where we are soooo apart physically barely encompassing the metaphysical of love that we invented then it's a right time to awaken from this delusion i wish you werent right but you're tooo right Replied to you i wish you werent right me too thinbutcher's profile picture happens all the time and i hate it most of the times my just kind of kind kf there isnt when you're off your phone and doing the things you like it's just the time you arent giving me bcos you are too afraid to let go and disconnect and forget other people you met along the way when i was away You replied happens all the time and i hate it most of the times lol dont be funny, its just this time thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you my just kind of kind kf there isnt when you're off your phone and doing the things you like it's just the time you arent giving me bcos you are too afraid to let go and disconnect and forget other people you met along the way when i was away is this another one of your assumptions? You replied to yourself my just kind of kind kf there isnt when you're off your phone and doing the things you like it's just the time you arent giving me bcos you are too afraid to let go and disconnect and forget other people you met along the way when i was away is this the part where youll tell me i wish i werent right thinbutcher's profile picture do you know who i talk to everyday? jeses thinbutcher's profile picture im not trynna fight or get worked up or something, i am just really astonished by how you were still able to say that dont use my insecurity against me thinbutcher's profile picture dont mince your words d o d g e not me obviously, u dont talk to me you repel me incognito thinbutcher's profile picture you do that to me too and its not as subtle pa tagak daw ug coconut ugma nana kay bukol kay u always mimic me November 14, 2020 8:24 am do u hate me thinbutcher's profile picture

November 14, 2020 11:46 am v vv v much kaaayo yesu you unhan me i squint na unta vv esrly mooon to ask what ratio of love and hate and apathy you have for me, if the hate and cynism is at least toppled over by if you like me still but i din bcos i got stiff neck and sno0ze balik halo halo that's vvv cute duck (n?o?n) it's on the paved kalsada lagi are you training it thinbutcher's profile picture i just marathon lavandera dewties kinadaghanan kaayu

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holdap maniiii sa imong lippstick S(-`?´-?;)??(#???)?+??(?_°)?°??(??°/?\)??° thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you holdap maniiii sa imong lippstick S(-`?´-?;)??(#???)?+??(?_°)?°??(??°/?\)??° :;(n´?`n);: halaaa wala ko man, kissms lang ako mahatag please ( ?-???-c) he heheheh wala siya kahibaw lipstick O(???)O(/¯? ? ?)/¯ ~ ??? are you being prettiii extra extra lagiiii 1(*/?\*)??•?•?? also you show me na the your moth hmmmm You replied :;(n´?`n);: halaaa wala ko man, kissms lang ako mahatag please ( ?-???-c) hkmmmMm sigi ambi lang kana makabuhi na na nako (n?n)(???????)? i was fixing my swampu bcos i exchange lamesa with the aning (?_?) Replied to you hkmmmMm sigi ambi lang kana makabuhi na na nako (n?n)(???????)? ikaw ang nakabuhi na babuy na dugay kayo na wala (n?n) thinbutcher's profile picture i camt believe its gonna be sunmoon na dayun then hell na dayun ("=?=) November 14, 2020 4:47 pm You replied i was fixing my swampu bcos i exchange lamesa with the aning (?_?) your wampu is vv anti igang kaayu v nice, nice colou swampu i was sno0zey n the pterodactyle brokw it, she always seems to poopoo me n ihi on the fox but me is she poopoo gyud You replied ikaw ang nakabuhi na babuy na dugay kayo na wala (n?n) ikaw only babuy me not ihaw babuy me ?:?(;´n`;)?:??(???? ?? ? )?????????_??_?????·??(*´°?????????°???????? )?(´°?????????°????????`) whaaaAaaat when you said it last hydraooon it felt like next eon pa hell, but aaaA aaaa initiate the palit pan sidequesrts but no gif them baningkal pleadeuuu ours mana binangkal ?:?(???\?)???(*´°?????????°???????? )?(´°?????????°????????`) i just sukod the pants that i bought and it is vv guot diay aaaa i shouldve trusted the salesladys reaction when i asked for 29 na hawak and she was like !!?? and i vv confident lang now i haf to balik this ??? ??(`?´)?? ??? toopid disproportionate body thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ikaw only babuy me not ihaw babuy me ?:?(;´n`;)?:??(???? ?? ? )?????????_??_?????·??(*´°?????????°???????? )?(´°?????????°????????`) i ihaw u ??? November 14, 2020 6:22 pm whaaat what happened to the two hoel skirt we bpught at the cangs¿ thinbutcher's profile picture its still here man but i dont think i need that vv formal ra kaayu when i went there i saw 2 girls they just vv casual man only the actual officials are on uniform (+_+) November 14, 2020 8:03 pm i taho na unta skirt but you're even ulaw where my dresss gani but you still wore it eeee ( •´?•??` )??´? ?? ?`??. * yesuu where diay the gumamela popsicle dress ?(?Q?)? dids chu kno the ccocoronald is trainign to bonsai bougainvillea.mp3 na hngHhh (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? i reqlly askdd for cutting of the bush in frony of the swwmp but he suko me para unsa paman na now he copy me bonsai You replied i ihaw u ??? (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ??says the one cant even alsa me dids you know I also had stiff neck early moon bcos i snozey so early here on the duyan and yesu i woke u early as well like 5 moon na but i balik sleep lang Replied to you (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ??says the one cant even alsa me i can alsa you man gud ?(ò_ó?)? you just scared whenever i do it (=???=) or just even try to do it (*´?`*) thinbutcher's profile picture no i wasn't ulaw bcos of the dress i ulaw cos my hair not long enough man gud toopid November 14, 2020 11:39 pm Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. kkkkkwkkekeetkkrk i hate you November 15, 2020 5:48 am thinbutcher's profile picture i would hate u if u didn't November 15, 2020 7:27 am thinbutcher's profile picture

what game gani are we playing thinbutcher's profile picture idk what its called, i so bad at naming man what the mechanics thinbutcher's profile picture i not know man mechanics play it yourself oy okay thinbutcher's profile picture you should see this coming already cos how childish i am soo yea i not gonna view the rest of your stories cos i kinda got the gist of it na cos you're being shady and why should you keep taking a peek, im glad you remember that you dont actually follow me for some reason i dont know maybe it's not to hide from me but maybe hide from somebody is it or isit not? im asking since I already said im childish thinbutcher's profile picture the reason why i dont wanna follow you is cos if i do i would inevitably look thru your followrs/followed and see who u were fucking with and trust me that's not gonna help this that is like mixing black tar in tea November 15, 2020 10:13 am i was thinking of replying later but too much damage to restructure it in my head i love how your attempt at derailing you is more derail on me bcos you know id do, had done such habit so it's either empathy or shade that you restrict me from ur profile. and no need to indirectly tell me you still follow your ka camgirls dili mani iyot kay online man emergency lets iyot na kung ma abli na balik ang borders carefully selected potentials from ur 144 bcos why do you. if it's not to ignite your na intervene na malalim na pagsamahan or na udlot na camgirl sessions, give me even just one bad reason, the good one is to keep for yourself fpara peace og mind nimo, your search will be to no avail. im not like you who still wants to connect with their ka thank you sa pag hatag ug burjer steak, or fucking for petroleum jelly nga ma palit ras mini mart nga dili dti registered pa siguro. bcos at bajillion points ive wanted to disappear, have not a single mind and soul have a residual memory of me, be it vvv sweet or horrible or mundane and more importantly i just dont want to be affiliated with them or erase the fact that we were and place a boundary of impermanence or emphasise their insignificance to my life and my self. so idk im gona project again, and say perhaps they're still a little bit significant to you or someday they will be tell me even jusssst just one bad reason dont add the being polite here cos that's your whole being so implied na na it annoys me to the bone that you keep on saying that, and as much as i wanna say the same, that you actually went into all the trouble and effort to fuck those ppl and meet those ppl even with the covid around lmao but i say those ppl to us mean the same but you, im sure they have or had more significance and time invested on them to you than me to the ones i matched. you can project all you want but for me you cant say that our actions have the same gravity thinbutcher's profile picture and im sorry sorry you cant disconnect with them? nice, you're pointing out how irresponsible i was when i was actually suuuper careful. is that an attempt to nullify that you didnt yourself fuck around spreading meaningless aids before and if we're talking irresponsible, whatever amount of intimacy or closeness holds equal gravity and probability catching the virus, and im pretty sure youve had more host contact than i did lol is jus the same as drinking, inviting your friends to your room, letting your friend feed you and tapad you do u even know who they were with before, it exponentiates. you wanted numbers, right, then there remember it took me just finding out you fucked that sugar girl to actually disconnect/ unfollow her or was that ig a.i. that did it thinbutcher's profile picture yea cos i keep them for future purposes right? if i dared you you wouldnt even do it and i did noooot and wouldnt just wouldn't do something out of the way to fuck, i think it over a million times in consideration that i go back to kumintang every saturday its not the point and rather unneccessary but for transparency, the one with intergalakshit was a pit stop from my balamban trip and i tried to steer the events into a different road it was just horrible of me that i didnt do enough to avoid it. the last boi was just terrible serendipity, i was catching up with a friend thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you its not the point and rather unneccessary but for transparency, the one with intergalakshit was a pit stop from my balamban trip and i tried to steer the events into a different road it was just horrible of me that i didnt do enough to avoid it. the last boi was just terrible serendipity, i was catching up with a friend friend so if you're looking for a cartograph of how to get to those places with red buttons and strings to manipulate and align stars and coordinates, im sorry i cant show you. it doesnt exist my plugs girlfrien

thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you its not the point and rather unneccessary but for transparency, the one with intergalakshit was a pit stop from my balamban trip and i tried to steer the events into a different road it was just horrible of me that i didnt do enough to avoid it. the last boi was just terrible serendipity, i was catching up with a friend is this the tinder for friends that u wont shut up about haha ok last na we ate drugden burjer n made ugly cute rings to sell n i told her i gif to busay kids n i made one for her cousin who katkat the gate cos na lockan me sa ilang compound You replied is this the tinder for friends that u wont shut up about haha ok last na yeah more, dzong dili ko mo unfollow for future references he kept called me 4 times at 1am bcos the depressing shithole of the room he had reserved like at 8pm might go closed n i even let my friend answer the calls n i hate how she didnt ask my permission to tell him my name, ive said no a couple of times and actually left the hangout spot at 11 to make rings with my fren. okay i just wanted to get it over with na gyud palihug sabot sa gramor but it still happend thinbutcher's profile picture +(´?`)+ i see that both of us can never move forward from this thinbutcher's profile picture i can not when you're all kinds of attached with your babies haha no i cant fully thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you not when you're all kinds of attached with your babies yeah2 whatever makes you feel like ur better than me i know what i did when i did them i had in the front of my mind that im only adding up to the shackles that keep us from moving forward, not that at that time you were willing to, you didnt seem like you were willing to take me thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i know what i did when i did them i had in the front of my mind that im only adding up to the shackles that keep us from moving forward, not that at that time you were willing to, you didnt seem like you were willing to take me my ass can you at least let me say that it all feeeelt wrooooong and it all felt nooooot riiiiight but it was louder, the idea that you gave me away that it stopped being an idea thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you can you at least let me say that it all feeeelt wrooooong and it all felt nooooot riiiiight no bcos u wanna project like u do it for a liviiiiin''' i gave myself away too thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i gave myself away too ah truth, I'm familiar aws gege no lang kung no no no no no bahala ka oy, idk why you still have those "insignificant" peopel in your virtual life thinbutcher's profile picture w8 w9 w12 You replied but it still happend ohhh oh ywah, nawng sa we were over in aweek pero na extend og month¿ kay maoy kapalit sa petroleum jelly nga mapalit ras mini mart nga dili pa dti registered siguro if we sound the same perhaps you're a lil funnier, i give u props i wonder if ur tinder profile has still recently active on it, too bad chaste naman ko i think wrong send imo clown reacc para nimo, chaste kuno pero recently active on tinder, cant fulllly detach with matches so erases the fotos nalang? talk about insignificant kmp.phl's profile picture kmp.phl

kmp.phl #CagayanNeedsHelp ... [...] thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. what a relief the maci is jus ok November 15, 2020 2:01 pm tell me what do you wanna hear from me thinbutcher's profile picture don't ?? my faceu please you already know what to do mark you just keep asking stupid questions you can answer and in fact i have answered thinbutcher's profile picture no im asking again genuinely bcos maybe something changed i said you know what to do i don't want to be anything to you bcos too many people exist in your world you make it like theyre always going to be around we can stop talking until you choose me which seems impossible and it's fine , im used to you not choosing me when im not the only one who is around but that doesnt mean im letting that happen again what has changed for you? do you want a threesome now genuinely asking thinbutcher's profile picture no not really i almost had one i just needed two more people thinbutcher's profile picture haha ofc you did, good for you not really, come on, im sure youve thought of it You replied no not really is this all u can reply to what i said ofc i did, you brought it up few times thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you is this all u can reply to what i said i guess yeah but you didnt want to suck bibois balls seems petty and insufficient to wrap up all this man gud thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you yeah but you didnt want to suck bibois balls no i dont haha we brought it up but you hated it so much, now you tell me youve always dreamt of it okay im glad we both lost feelings and interest for each other fuck all your 144 whats it called ... orgy just seems too divine for you and your cheap matches thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you we brought it up but you hated it so much, now you tell me youve always dreamt of it i said thought of it maybe a landfill You replied i said thought of it you didnt say this lol Replied to you fuck all your 144 whats it called ... orgy just seems too divine for you and your cheap matches yea cos urs aren't cheap. they got so much meaning man gud thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you not really, come on, im sure youve thought of it i agreed to this so technically yea you wanted arantxa admit ut you always bring her up when you see porn on those lodge tvs you fucking disgust me thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you fucking disgust me u disgust urself see it takes just little effort to deny or not go bang her she's stupid and brainded like you you could give her 1 of your 2 personalities you likin this convo i see no thinbutcher's profile picture i was gonna say that u like it man lol bcos u lowkey want her thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you see it takes just little effort to deny or not meh do ur thing bet you wish you matched with her first instead of me thinbutcher's profile picture hahahaha why do u wanna fk her so bad lol lol kamu ra duha oy pisti thinbutcher's profile picture haha kamu lang ay kog pakit a hahah i bet ur dick up proof kung wala thinbutcher's profile picture bet ur wet af ;) proof sad thinbutcher's profile picture ikaw una no binogo napud ka ill send u hers hahahah fuck you you know im kidding haha ofc u have it sige mo cangirl no thinbutcher's profile picture hahah ay susi kaayo siya nahan mo join thinbutcher's profile picture haha ganahan kayo ka no ayg i push oy kay klaro kaayo ka Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. get ready 2 b wet are u really that desperate to csmgirl rn and using your young nieces account November 15, 2020 7:23 pm

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November 16, 2020 8:40 am i kno it looks like my silhouette i got pennyboard lessons from her Replied to you i got pennyboard lessons from her its a cruiser board like uuuhhh big brother of a penny thinbutcher's profile picture i was gonna comment na actually before you reply me but the administrator lady came in you're an idiot that's why gani i said penny board kay it looks smol under her bogo stop viewing my profile stupid why do u think its okay to balik gara me when din even conclude or reconcile yesterdays conversation, that's more ludicrous than leaving for months and just coming back ha thinbutcher's profile picture you're still so hostile so i cant be after you just escaped the hostility and if i feel iffy n uncomfortable talking to you while you're still following those girls and they still follow you let me be hostile bcos you dont actually want me to be yours and only yours anymore you think your pa porma "hey" cured it all first of i already addressd what u said yesterday, i said gane its petty, unsatisfactory thinbutcher's profile picture and ofc i say hey what i supposed to say man bazinga? its unsatisfactory to disconnect from your emergency iyots okay i already told you, you know what to do you didnt even give me one bad reason why you still have them in your life however remote or intimate it could be, im genuinely asking gyud baya You replied and ofc i say hey what i supposed to say man bazinga? you sound stupid gyud, and getting more and more AND MORE CrEatiVe November 16, 2020 11:11 am Replied to you you sound stupid gyud, and getting more and more AND MORE CrEatiVe u more creative was i really paporma hey u lmao thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you didnt even give me one bad reason why you still have them in your life however remote or intimate it could be, im genuinely asking gyud baya bcos its matters 0% to me and kapoy go thru all of my followers lmao and besides its very petty jud November 16, 2020 12:25 pm thinbutcher's profile picture besides why you private n unprivate man your account November 16, 2020 4:08 pm thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to your story no more bad days even for me? ?????? im a bad day *infinity thinbutcher's profile picture there a name balbina November 17, 2020 5:17 pm you landed help desk duties not init pan by paramore duties thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. hope you're doing well ? not bad day November 17, 2020 8:54 pm thinbutcher's profile picture i could right a very good letter of acceptance November 17, 2020 11:23 pm how about letter of invitation to the two other people to complete ur threesome . November 18, 2020 2:56 pm thinbutcher's profile picture ok November 18, 2020 6:23 pm thinbutcher's profile picture (?o_o) i dont get it thinbutcher's profile picture what do u not get, i want you to be not suko me i dont get it, after finding out that you after all wanted to threesome with me n were so mad at me for putting that thought in our heads before, you were so luod me at the taclobo swamp and you said if i ever think i can be in love woth two people at once, one them is a fake feeling. all of a sudden you °not really° want it now. there's no more best kept secret revelation i think i can handle anymore and worse you hid behind your secret obsession with my friend by exhibiting your hatred for her what kind of beta voyeurism. its so quick for you to disgust me with °other dudes but when it's the idea of you a nd another person aka the one we've hung out with a few times, is so appealing to you what the fuck thinbutcher's profile picture did i even say those things? is there something that happened you want my attention only now you are so lost in your own projections i bet you imagined that argument before in your head so many times Replied to you i dont get it, after finding out that you after all wanted to threesome with me n were so mad at me for putting that thought in our heads before, you were so luod me at the taclobo swamp and you said if i ever think i can be in love woth two people at once, one them is a fake feeling. all of a sudden you °not really° want it now. there's no more best kept secret revelation i think i can handle anymore ??¿????? Replied to you and worse you hid behind your secret obsession with my friend by exhibiting your hatred for her what kind of beta voyeurism. its so quick for you to disgust me with °other dudes but when it's the idea of you a nd another person aka the one we've hung out with a few times, is so appealing to you ??????? thinbutcher's profile picture can you cite anything that i said to make your claim seem real? you way pulos reply me at all my insecure projections, you expect instant no suko what the fuck, how dense can you go Replied to you you way pulos reply me at all my insecure projections, you expect instant no suko not instant man when did i say i not suko me now na dayun thinbutcher's profile picture you're so ahead of everything and your skeptical questions is your best attempt at reassuring me thinbutcher's profile picture well not surprising cos i dont really have something to say even in our relationship before i told you im sick of my toxic mind first of all thinbutcher's profile picture no i don't want any threesome with you i cant keep this confusion alive we cant why arent you sick of it thinbutcher's profile picture and so much more not with your maybe secretly inlove with you friend of course not with me Replied to you why arent you sick of it i dont exactly know either Replied to you of course not with me why are you being childish, im supposed to be the childish one thinbutcher's profile picture also wait a bit You replied why are you being childish, im supposed to be the childish one not with me the thressemé ba thinbutcher's profile picture not gane and most certainly not with you enjoy add a ladyboi i been told by my ladyboi fren they enojoy anal which was something i couldnt pleasure u with are you serious thinbutcher's profile picture why you been pushing me to fuck other ppl ??? you said not with me, okay then with who thinbutcher's profile picture who bogo Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. angboat nimo, you wrote ur sentence like its going to happen but just not with me You replied not gane and most certainly not with you the with implies it okay fair enough but no threesome nooo ganeree thinbutcher's profile picture grrrrrr kaaa it still doesny unsuko me its ok i know u not unsuko me now thinbutcher's profile picture doesn't need to be like that you only like me when im away like i said, im still uncomfortable with a lot of things, dodged things doesnt need to be like that your ass thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you doesnt need to be like that your ass yea thats what my ass said when u try to put something in jt you like this me

You replied yea thats what my ass said when u try to put something in jt sure tdili tikaw undangan tikaw You replied to yourself like i said, im still uncomfortable with a lot of things, dodged things take 2 or uhhh 18490209q0q thinbutcher's profile picture wait imong wait thinbutcher's profile picture not exactly dodging them, just didn't wanna answer those questions, kinda tired cos you dont even listen to what i have to say and its been like that the whole time man youre tired naman diay, and you shouldnt be bcos you signed up for this, or so until then im tired but i wont rest until it's clear again but it gets vague every day, close from improving not close Replied to you im tired but i wont rest until it's clear again but it gets vague every day, close from improving youre tired naman diay pod thinbutcher's profile picture aaaand you shouldn't too bcos hello it me us u yeah and ur 144 thinbutcher's profile picture yea and ur how many were they again? i forgot bcos idc it the same who are lone gone in my life, disposed, erased, ctrl x, undid bcos they don't exist unlike you who are still one wave away it's fine, kasabot naman ko, your value for your time and not wasting a miniscule amount of it on making me feel comfortable is more important than me comfortable your alt account must have fire tweets and too sayang to just be thrown away You replied to yourself yeah and ur 144 i mean that they r still part of you n no wala silay apil sa "us" it's either me only or them (??? _ ???)(??`_?´) n you're indirectly making something clear 2me ok wait look for the 144 ok check them out and see who i should remove thinbutcher's profile picture lets comb them out if there are still there ew i just looked at ur story n left left left thinbutcher's profile picture left happy what do you want maaaaan thinbutcher's profile picture go look for the 144 no bogo man ka thinbutcher's profile picture why not? essentially anything that i would do to react to what you're saying is not gonna work? you're skewing this so immaturely then what have you been doing the whole time? thinbutcher's profile picture i thot the same lang (???) something you're still so horny for hahaha otherwise the lack thereof extinguished that lightyears agi and something rly so miniscule of your time you're twisting to prolong which is which owns agony wait u keep on bringing up the144 and now that you can confirm it na with your eyes cos apparently what i say doesn't reach you, you ignore it thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and something rly so miniscule of your time you're twisting to prolong which is which owns agony mi nis kol so im not doing what you're supposed to do to relieve me of my incurable insecurity of the idea that you arent mine anymore You replied mi nis kol miss ko na mi kiss kols miniscule of my time???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? ??????????????????????? ??????????????????????????? woooooooooowwwwwwzzsaa thinbutcher's profile picture apparently that's a trigger for me damn ohhh sorry meaningful man pud diay sila scratch the pud , yuck bogo ko hahaha thinbutcher's profile picture wait still dodgy man im done

ewww the faaak ing ani ka lami ang pixelated aids mark screw u pa limpyo naa pay wala na daginot oh iyang exclusive aidspara nimo ayuda lamiaaaaa kill yourself ka luod nimo im rly fucking crying blood thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you kill yourself haha mao ba ni ang "my worst" na imo ingon when you said you didn't leave? wow dodgy not kill yourself oy bogo she'll slowly kill you with her l o v e aids i cant believe you're in love thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you wow dodgy dodgy kay wa naman sad kay ears gud so unsay point na na nanana in love haha ang nag sulti ay thinbutcher's profile picture bisan suya jud ang na inlove and you deny your malalim na pinagsamahan n no commitment nga alter level na gani mo i feel so gi bastos rn thinbutcher's profile picture imagine sig lakaw even naay covid cases sa ila para lang iyot You replied imagine sig lakaw even naay covid cases sa ila para lang iyot which happened? 0 times mao na inlove thinbutcher's profile picture yiieeeeinlove sa stonersz ang in love dili ka let go oy thinbutcher's profile picture ug unsa gane to isa ka guy? ayee in love sa shabuubabyyy thinbutcher's profile picture kuyaw man diay ka ma inlove noooo samot na ka may pa alter pa thinbutcher's profile picture sa sobra ka bright nimo imo argument kay bright pod kaayo unsay story ni inday mickle iyang na udlot na camgirl behind the scenes thinbutcher's profile picture ngeeeek unsaon daw ang cut off sa imo life na hahahah ayeee dili mo share kay s a c r e d cut off ba nga dili ka let go sa iyang alter nga exclusive ra para nimo kunohay dili committed hoy bright nga meena bisan pag mo ingon ko nga kapoy ug lantaw followers ug gina follow di man sab ka maminaw kay lage bright kaayo ka nya gi aids na imong utok sa otin sa mgs stoners and briiiiighttt juuuudd thinbutcher's profile picture kaayo kaaaa i rly think you're the one who's more rotten here, you have a twisted meaning of faithful and calling it chaste and chaste as twisted too, n just your lack of PHYSICAL IYOT OR INTIMACY like your reasons are so admissible like damn CUT OFF UNSAY CUT OFF BOGO PILA RA PAG FOLLOW BALIK PILA RA LAG TEXT BALIK HOY BRIGHT thinbutcher's profile picture ngek and i think your hatred and disgust for me stems for your self anger nga wala ka ka iyot nga pwede na unta cos u thot whole time wala ko, pero hagbay na unta liiike uhh dang self say sike unsa na alkansi You replied PILA RA PAG FOLLOW BALIK gani diba mao naa forever thinbutcher's profile picture nalimot rako ana remove na acc kay nalimot sad ko nga naa na kay wa man sab nay gamit2 na acc You replied nalimot rako ana remove na acc kay nalimot sad ko nga naa na kay wa man sab nay gamit2 na acc that doesnt mean it wasnt used exclusive to sext wuth u chaste mY FUCKING ASS I CANT GYUD pero di gyud ka maminaw ana kay ssakto man ka sige Replied to you i rly think you're the one who's more rotten here, you have a twisted meaning of faithful and calling it chaste and chaste as twisted too, n just your lack of PHYSICAL IYOT OR INTIMACY i think ur sick thinbutcher's profile picture ur sickle for the mickle kaayo You replied nalimot rako ana remove na acc kay nalimot sad ko nga naa na kay wa man sab nay gamit2 na acc lol what abt the other one, cant remove my mains main ahahahah Replied to you chaste mY FUCKING ASS I CANT GYUD BOGO NI INGON NA GANE KO BEFORE THE WRONG ANG WORD NA AKO GAMIT thinbutcher's profile picture i mean bright diay lagi unsa man thinbutcher's profile picture di gane chaste hays pala iyot withour practice thinbutcher's profile picture sa imo ka bright lugos na sab ka kabasa ???? just say ut if you're somebody who can feed two mouths or 144 i bet ur having so much fun i keep bringing up mickle when the real "best selected match must be just under the bushes overlooked right it's too late you're in love na gyud i mean i shouldnt be this angry i let this happen n surprisingly im not as mad as i feared i would Replied to you it's too late you're in love na gyud yea youre in love na gyud thinbutcher's profile picture u got fucked so good u speak like that na why are u so shy to admit it thinbutcher's profile picture say what oy bright does she know youre cheating on her ing na, ma turn on na siya samot, homewrecking fetish baya ma reverse udlot gyud to inyo camgirl thinbutcher's profile picture dayun in love si bungi oh pangutan a siya bogo kamo duha nay secret acct basta gi ingnan ko nga naa pud siyay mga murag karpentero fetish hahaha shiiit n u thot u were so special soryy baby statistic ra ka statistiktiktiititititjtk timinga, nice kaayo pics nako na bilin nimo, goals gyud for her thinbutcher's profile picture ok sige sige, maynta ur contented with your truths ohhh she told u u were more hahaha ok ofc the secret accs prove it n her main thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you timinga, nice kaayo pics nako na bilin nimo, goals gyud for her hala edi maayo na working out very well for u not for me oy bogo karpentero look world record gyud for her thinbutcher's profile picture haha bitaw i bet ur so happy that it didnt come from you the thing u were so embarassed or just protective of the sacred to admit how youre in love with her and your us thinbutcher's profile picture haha true mao nay suko at sumusuko still witty tho thinbutcher's profile picture this is me becoming what you have in your mind so i created your garbage soul and u just let it i love ur personality the devoid of it so yeah im becoming that version of me that is in your head, the version of me that is guilty of your every projections and accusations from now on imma just agree to what you think is what happened thinbutcher's profile picture like a detective narrating how he had solved Every mystery of a crime at least i could not prolong the disgust by the unsolicited transparency bcos i actually just dont want to prolong disgust thinbutcher's profile picture and me the suspect admitting everything you say You replied and me the suspect admitting everything you say i know how this ends, Replied to you at least i could not prolong the disgust by the unsolicited transparency bcos i actually just dont want to prolong disgust well u just do what you want man podhahaha so yea works well for u still Replied to you i know how this ends, u know everything man thinbutcher's profile picture pod they didnt become it, they manipulated and influenced the detective to think it so it's easier to accept when it happens You replied well u just do what you want man podhahaha so yea works well for u still ewww unlike u pa thrilling pa sa in love kay ko with mermaids Replied to you they didnt become it, they manipulated and influenced the detective to think it so it's easier to accept when it happens how creative pls continue thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ewww unlike u pa thrilling pa sa in love kay ko with mermaids haha word your denial is so obvious thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you your denial is so obvious yaaaa i know just tell me what you like about her daw maybe id stop teasing her love* thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you just tell me what you like about her daw maybe id stop teasing her idk haha what you think? kanang.... ayaw pud ng wala niya ang naa nako kay yawnssss buloka gyud nangutana na gani i should atop saying bogo murag reverse safe word lagi na nimo thinbutcher's profile picture idk tell me what you think cos that's the only right answer man sad hahaa dali kay ma aroused Replied to you i should atop saying bogo murag reverse safe word lagi na nimo u should thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you dali kay ma aroused fast af sacred much??? or Replied to you sacred much??? or or thinbutcher's profile picture wait ta sa choicess nothing else duh thinbutcher's profile picture hahaha she's your everything na dayun??? Replied to you nothing else duh nothing nothing lang ako answer Replied to you she's your everything na dayun??? dayun? ngeee na wa man oy maygad u only like me when we argue thinbutcher's profile picture ma wa basta mo agree ko pssshh ew can i still like u ewwwWzzzzz Replied to you ew can i still like u idk thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ewwwWzzzzz yaks to be honest at least mo admit ko nga im relived u dont know how those "bookings" look like or how they are like thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you to be honest at least mo admit ko nga im relived u dont know how those "bookings" look like HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHA relieved thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you to be honest at least mo admit ko nga im relived u dont know how those "bookings" look like me 2 ikaw murag shy kaayu mo admit in love, oy yaw ana Replied to you ikaw murag shy kaayu mo admit in love, oy yaw ana hala oy abi kay sumakabilang oten na naka inlove naka dayun thinbutcher's profile picture otens diay kay more than 1 yeah bcos your basis of in love is so sacred, dili gyud mo in details thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you yeah bcos your basis of in love is so sacred, dili gyud mo in details yours is more sacred naa ran nimo mas naa rana nimo di man ka maminaw kay lage sakto man jud ka kanunay intawn thinbutcher's profile picture if im being honest, you'd probably be one of my biggest loss but i hope lang youre contented with your own "truths" after you're totally done with me Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. 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Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. what i didnt call the milk prssed thinbutcher's profile picture what the milk pressed it thinbutcher's profile picture oh ok i thought it was u oh i was totally negotiating with a boooking oof thinbutcher's profile picture really? bogo no i wasnt didnt i say milk for context no i didnt and no i wouldnt thinbutcher's profile picture oh idk i honestly would just believe whatever you say from this point im just reassuring and coming clean, i dont want baya you to feel uncomfortable biggest loss your ass you gained enough more to yield that loss dont my loss my loss me ikaw loslos thinbutcher's profile picture no, you are and you're still not detaching and disconnecting bcos youre not ready to experienc eanother loss thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and you're still not detaching and disconnecting bcos youre not ready to experienc eanother loss bcos there is nothing to disconnect from oh yeah i witnessed it mr uber sa alter thinbutcher's profile picture that's her alter, i dont have any, i forgot that acc exist and like u foreshadowed, pila ray pag folow thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and like u foreshadowed, pila ray pag folow if u agree to this then ur disagreeing with urself big time why do u deny ur malalim na pinagsamahan it's an obvious element You replied if u agree to this then ur disagreeing with urself big time as if i dont revel in being contradictory thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you as if i dont revel in being contradictory that answer doesnt mean anything how did u even tiis staying so long with somebody else like genuinely askinh You replied that answer doesnt mean anything your biography Replied to you your biography still doesn't mean anything Replied to you how did u even tiis staying so long with somebody else like genuinely askinh so you genuinely believe about the malalim na pinagsamahan? and that im inlove with her? and everything in between that you kept on pushing? tell me since you said genuinely tell me now yes or no yes or no ra thinbutcher's profile picture yes or no ba since you enjoyed what you were hearing yes or no thinbutcher's profile picture genuinely asking man kaha and looks like you are not denying whats real anytime soon igna ko karon dayun thinbutcher's profile picture tell me mao diay ni change sa bio nga nothing real lasts kay this one is real na real dan dan dan dalandan na gyud awwwww duh bcos u didnt give me another version to believe in lol thinbutcher's profile picture tell me yes ka bogo oy You replied to yourself duh bcos u didnt give me another version to believe in read this again and again, and thats for everything thinbutcher's profile picture ok you let me suffer with my assumptions bcos when i make my own version you just allow me to n milk it thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you yes ka bogo oy say it again just to make sure im not hallucinating at least youre entertained yoi only left ur sextmachine like few minutes lang b*go bigo ako Replied to you at least youre entertained im pretty sure you're the one whos more than entertained by yourself thinbutcher's profile picture in this and of course youre going to let me get by things are fine again bcos you denied the things i accused with sarcasm or something v indirect how many assumptions are you going to tolerate or get pissed off at until you just say the truth your self when you're being a pathological liar, dont do it with me tell me again what i am denying thinbutcher's profile picture so i can admit them for you all you do is wait for me to ask wait for me to assume yeah my bad i guess thinbutcher's profile picture so tell me na can you just start thinbutcher's profile picture what you want me to admit or deny you already KNOW MY ASSUMPTIONS thinbutcher's profile picture i forgot man biggest loss pero mag pina way pulos thinbutcher's profile picture i mean i cant think of any right now pulooss nag huot silas exit sa ako utok thinbutcher's profile picture just tell me lage after this you'll be relieved na bitaw start with i fucked nalang bogo thinbutcher's profile picture uuuuhhh im in love... or i dont want you to talk to me i dont want us anymore we're not going to make it or thinbutcher's profile picture i didn't actually fuck someone bcos i think thats too much, camgirl yes i did not overpowering u lol Replied to you bogo not really im actually very smart Replied to you im in love... no thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you or i dont want you to talk to me i want you to talk to me but also lowkey no cos hurt You replied not really im actually very smart sure bcos you pick people who are just dumber than u except me opkors uwu thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i dont want us anymore i wanted us, but idk what i want now you're just the lesser dumb hahahaha tbh thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i wanted us, but idk what i want now i want to be numb n die drug overdose me too thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you we're not going to make it i hope we do make it You replied i hope we do make it lol 144 thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you not overpowering u lol nothing overpowers me except my own actions this soinds like a convo a dumb match will give me tbh you are in fact not v smart thinbutcher's profile picture what else can you get any dumber mark thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you can you get any dumber mark maybe yes. but it takes a lot of effort when tried to do consciously just emochi me when u want attention balik lol you rly arent trying Replied to you you rly arent trying u too thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you lol 144 this isnt trying sure i left n came back diba? Replied to you sure i left n came back diba? that's how it was for me thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you sure i left n came back diba? wait this is another thing man i only reply a way pulos like what once n u use that against me to justify ur 19929 way pulos are you done with the assumptions im denying? Replied to you i only reply a way pulos like what once n u use that against me to justify ur 19929 way pulos inaccurate thinbutcher's profile picture you had a conversation with but me no conversation not even message like 90% of them of course not with you, bcos yoi dont exist in our conversations 91 percenté of the time Replied to you of course not with you, bcos yoi dont exist in our conversations 91 percenté of the time also inaccurate but if anything you had lage monopoly over everything stick to the assumptions ta bi thinbutcher's profile picture di ko nahan balik2 ato you want it easier for u lol thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you want it easier for u it literally says im trying to asnwer YOUR ASSUMPTIONS pa limpyo gyud n u let me do everything, rly unprivating n naa pay na balin nga hugae thinbutcher's profile picture so actually trying to make things easier for u first bcos u dont want to think, u dint want to suffer with every thought like i di do You replied so actually trying to make things easier for u first thats so sweet baby thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you bcos u dont want to think, u dint want to suffer with every thought like i di does this just justify everything hurtful u said to me? ayyy everyones baby diay You replied does this just justify everything hurtful u said to me? and everything hurtful you SAID AND DID TO ME N BEHIND ME Replied to you and everything hurtful you SAID AND DID TO ME N BEHIND ME were u any better Replied to you ayyy everyones baby diay u really dont want me na jud haha thinbutcher's profile picture message received i left daw so ikaw ra diay mag butag basis sa wjen i left, i left when u started a tinder? n when u camgirled ur cheap Catches we were stilllll talking, you just decided i left and that was rly self fulfilling for u Replied to you i left daw so ikaw ra diay mag butag basis sa wjen i left, i left when u started a tinder? n when u camgirled ur cheap Catches tell me again if u didn't then what did u do Replied to you we were stilllll talking, you just decided i left and that was rly self fulfilling for u this agaaaaaiiin?? thinbutcher's profile picture didn't i send you screenshots na You replied u really dont want me na jud haha hahaha, ikaw ra nag pa tawag baby nag no ka? did u even at leadt tell ur baby who that weirdo was to u and told u about ur tweet thinbutcher's profile picture and how u blocked me no???diba??bcos u were afraid lossloss napud siya wala pa gani ko ni leave diba nag tinder naka? pila ray pag unblock bigo Replied to you wala pa gani ko ni leave diba nag tinder naka? wait sa, di ba ga tinder man ka ato ni adtu ko nimo diras cebu Replied to you pila ray pag unblock bigo ????? Replied to you wala pa gani ko ni leave diba nag tinder naka? ASA ATO ANG SIGN NA WA PA KA NI LEAVE IGNA KO YAWA UNSA ATO AKO NA MKSS NA SIGN ASA ATO ASA ASA ASAAAAA thinbutcher's profile picture ASA ATO ANG NAG INGON NA WA PAKA NI LEAVE You replied wait sa, di ba ga tinder man ka ato ni adtu ko nimo diras cebu waiiiit, i started but no conversation man gani ikaw gyud wala pako ni leave ga simp simp na unsa to thinbutcher's profile picture YAWAAAA ASAAAAAAAAAA show off pa sa bogo kaayo nga tatu hilasa kay naka tatu ug bati proud the lining is great ang tatu lang jud ba show off pas ka fuck ato nga time thinbutcher's profile picture lage oy kay gi gamit man sad to nimos imo ex kita kos imo mgs altersssssaccontss edi wow ka fuck siyag nay tatu yeaaah obsessed kay ka with me??? doing it for the balos balos thinbutcher's profile picture same pictures pajud, and ana pa is "u" if ever ma aids gyud ka, ma una ta nag ka infectt physically imo tatu You replied same pictures pajud, and ana pa is "u" ????? what thinbutcher's profile picture may gane i just happn to really like moth haha how miserable if ang reason ani na moth tattoo kay kato imo pictures gi send haha you copied me You replied may gane i just happn to really like moth haha how miserable if ang reason ani na moth tattoo kay kato imo pictures gi send haha lol, exactly the same, must bbbbbb a coincidence duuuh, the universe gyud oyyy gilok gilok me and my spirit Replied to you lol, exactly the same, must bbbbbb a coincidence duuuh, the universe gyud oyyy gilok gilok me ???? same set of pictures oy mgad thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you lol, exactly the same, must bbbbbb a coincidence duuuh, the universe gyud oyyy gilok gilok me unsa man ni na response? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ganiii it was from 2017 and you got a tatu bcos of it thinbutcher's profile picture u wish it was all the reason awww tuo gyud ko in love ka nako unhealthily You replied u wish it was all the reason ayyy para diay naay lang samad no,arun ma.... petroleum jellihan hahahahah thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you awww tuo gyud ko in love ka nako aw tuo gyud ko na sa imo kaugalingon ra ka mo tuo, nag binata napod kay di kaibaw mo react sa ako gipang sulti pina, i wish she didnt mean it pa sa bubong sa bunk bed lol ka daghag she sa imong life thinbutcher's profile picture if mao ni imo way of suffering thru and not make things easier for me and you most of all you still keep your 144 bcos of emergency reasons ka immature ba kaayo nimo Replied to you and you most of all you still keep your 144 bcos of emergency reasons dibaaa bisan ka pila i confront ang issue balik2 ra gyud para nimo omg thinbutcher's profile picture omg pero not once na deny diba thinbutcher's profile picture omgoooshhhh lol omg thinbutcher's profile picture hahaha i see spare me sa imong i forgot bruh thinbutcher's profile picture bahahah spoiled brat kay daghan kay dapat ma digest guro ato nga time see i guess this ends the assumptions Replied to you i guess this ends the assumptions na ambot lang nimo oy diba ma satisfy ra kas answer basta gikan nimo rapod grabeha rehas ramos imong amiga oy thinbutcher's profile picture mga braindead just deny it or not lol hahaha brainded si ako? thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you just deny it or not lol bogo ni tubag nko ana ganeha haha kwaa gud ng otin sa imong utok at least kahibaw ko brainded ko ikaw sa sobra ka brainded di na kahibaw brainded ka You replied bogo ni tubag nko ana ganeha haha kwaa gud ng otin sa imong utok you didnt you just cant reassure me siguro bcos i suppose thats so cliche for u ambot lang gyud if ako answer ako hatag nimo di ka thinbutcher's profile picture if mo agree ko nimo di sad ka i applaud ur style of saying yes thinbutcher's profile picture gi unsa man ka pag change oil na na gani ning ako nag fill in the blanks na change oil jud pag ayo ga balik2 gud rag gubang makina thinbutcher's profile picture samot ka guba so its a yes nohh, for emergency??? asa naman tong easy 4 me ipascrill pagyud ko nimo nga overused na kaayu ni ako hands thinbutcher's profile picture ni answer nako ani huhu grabeha kay puros stoners ba u kno... limp otenszs Replied to you asa naman tong easy 4 me ipascrill pagyud ko nimo nga overused na kaayu ni ako hands oh bitaw overused pag change oil Replied to you kay puros stoners ba u kno... limp otenszs awa lage haha sige na murag lipay raman sad ka oy thinbutcher's profile picture ikaw ray ga gara2 nako ani emergency emergency emergerd You replied ni answer nako ani huhu grabeha imo ta gi make sure nga na sabtan nako arun way balik balik diba bogo baya ang kalaban haaays thinbutcher's profile picture ok2 tan awa mo deny or agree ni, humot kag tae not your odor bogo ha, dugaya ka deny oy hahahhahaha walay sense ot urgency emergency lang thinbutcher's profile picture dili lage, gipalantaw na sab ka nako if naa pa ba ang 144, and idk if kasabot ka ani ako gipang storya pero sige lang, not 144 jud totally ang ni follow sa insta ha, idk how many pod but lage di na sila pang emergency kay wala na gane sila. and if naa pa nabilin ambot lang, wa ko ka remember sa ila mga acc i couldve missed one so yeah no jud sya in so many levels you kno i was hesitant to tinder again, bcos of the idea matching with wjo u matched but yeah, our taste in people are south n north riiight in love gyud with mermaids dili gyud ka let go pero again pila ray pag private balik to follow again or alter or whatever creative shady thing ur cheating mechanic may kaayu pa us us paasa naaah thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you riiight in love gyud with mermaids dili gyud ka let go well i hope your niece doesn't think like this sure mickle defender you just showed me how rotten you could get You replied to yourself riiight in love gyud with mermaids dili gyud ka let go tell me nalang gud what youre so in love with her about, heres my long paragraph the blank ohhh waiiit, are u writing your reasons to her secret acc lol of course of coirse its between u two ra diay ka suuuuper sacred maybe im superficial but ive pissed na outsuperficial ko nimo, change owelra gyud ka kutob, shows how you're mad at urself kay wala ka ni iyot when you could've, daghan nata kag wobbuffets next eon next eut ohhh, not really regret or remorse me lol dont skew your own intentions dont wash your own intentions ka in love ba oyyyy mao na You replied to yourself tell me nalang gud what youre so in love with her about, heres my long paragraph the blank genuine bitaw ni, sagdia lang nga hilig kog segue ug mga gara or ka bogo, ma turn off unya ka im never forgiving you for talking about my niece here and telling your mom selfish its not your story to tell thinbutcher's profile picture im sorry for telling my mom about it ingnis aning sa imong mga jerjering history You replied im sorry for telling my mom about it soooorry""" asa sa ang sorry mga in love kos lain bi hahaha You replied well i hope your niece doesn't think like this you should die for this thinbutcher's profile picture i genuinely hope you wont regret any of your decisions whatever i do to.make it easy in my way, you will never reassure me of wjat you want and feel and how badly you do or not You replied i genuinely hope you wont regret any of your decisions which is? giving you away to get infected Forwarded a message whatever i do to.make it easy in my way, you will never reassure me of wjat you want and feel and how badly you do or not im sorry i don't understand this thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you which is? generally lang i already gave you a multiple choice argument bcos u cant handly open ended one yes or no pa gyud nga multiple idk why u cant disconnect from your baby police son fucker carpentero fetishist and the rest, to spite or piss on me, or theyre just that sacred n ypure too polite Replied to you idk why u cant disconnect from your baby police son fucker carpentero fetishist and the rest, to spite or piss on me, or theyre just that sacred n ypure too polite no matter how many times i asnwer this its usless thinbutcher's profile picture sorry kapoy2 balik2 You replied no matter how many times i asnwer this its usless i never got an answer gyud can u at least do it lol bcos annoying bitaw iya nanwng thinbutcher's profile picture haha samoka nimo oy, but i understand, you're sick man so sabot rako hahaha okay theres my share of v cheap n petty You replied haha samoka nimo oy, but i understand, you're sick man so sabot rako sabot lol karon pa naabot imo sabot thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you idk why u cant disconnect from your baby police son fucker carpentero fetishist and the rest, to spite or piss on me, or theyre just that sacred n ypure too polite for the 4th time nalimot lage ko nga naa na na acc, i removed naman that from the follower i forgot i followed that acc diay man. so there. if you still bring that up then it says a lot to what this conversation means to you of course i already told u you know what to do but you wanted it detailed and spoonfed for you, the lack of care is so manifest but at least you're such a peasant and slave for me

this says emergency kaayu lol she's actually so useful with my standard i mean i wish we didnt have beef bcos seeing her name in the accounts of people ive talked to helps me what boundary to set thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you

again sa followers rko nang remove cos i forgot i followed those accounts why cant you just, imong mickle baby ra ako pasabot oy or naa pa dira lol thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why cant you just, imong mickle baby ra ako pasabot oy or naa pa dira lol why cant i unsa man ???? ngano wa kay duka run why uso initiative sa imoha thinbutcher's profile picture got worked up cos of this and something happened here you just relish in seeing my childish siiick meltdowns ohhh was that why you wanted my "uninvested"attention coa something happened pray tell You replied to yourself why uso initiative sa imoha way thinbutcher's profile picture what 0000 last i guess, but gif daw ratio of your disgust for me and your self anger kay wala ka naka iyot dont dodge this just to redeem yourself Replied to you last i guess, but gif daw ratio of your disgust for me and your self anger kay wala ka naka iyot 0% thinbutcher's profile picture 0:0 ratio oy salaaaamt thinbutcher's profile picture ya pisti ay kog e misgender mybad thinbutcher's profile picture yea do you love me . (??`_?´) shall we begin the birth of a parabola yes thinbutcher's profile picture but i dont know what to do with it you're so braindead for me i love it thinbutcher's profile picture im sorry for being who im braindead for yes thinbutcher's profile picture for everything i guess it's hard to say something after something like this thinbutcher's profile picture i know, and I'd like to think its fine lang. you don't have to say anything right now. you've said enough milk November 19, 2020 10:10 am disappearing is sweet and tempting thinbutcher's profile picture its called leaving dont rush me thinbutcher's profile picture why are you leaving i know, i am a manmade creature too absorbed in escaping the dangerous things the world is injecting in my head, instinct and fear and confusion fueling my search for a safe place then at the top of where i got, i am looking below suddenly aware of the things surrounding and only seeing now the aftermath of what i ruined looking for the safe place thinbutcher's profile picture are you coming back after you leave that's what's making it hard to say something after it. i peeled out of my skin to see from another angle how much of a piece of shit i am i am a masterpiece of shit wow wait, tweeting that who said anything about me leaving pa introha ko i miss being dramatic thinbutcher's profile picture okay sorry i want to be dramatic man gud pod i know at this point i dont care about the repercussions of the things ive said especially things i dont even like to think or wouldnt think of, and how it will pan out maybe im still looking forward to a fight or a beginning of an issue or a drama. but the good thing about is confronting the idea that im still my worst form of me, masterpiece of shit, and that i never improved. it's a good starting point to move, any direction just away from it, significantly faintly far. at least at least i still dont know when my suko will end it seems like the price of your honesty or proclaimation of your faithfulness(before ni) is cheap fucking things i do that are stupid extreme, how low do you want me to go makes it feel insincere but tell me how do we make it you do know that for this to actually be easier is not doing things that would make this more difficult, adding ~entanglements to get in between. likeactually killing it from the source, like it's romanticising us being okay with being toxic to each other, if we just let people in, complicatw things bcos we believe we'll always have each other at the end of every episode no, they shouldn't even begin, we dont need side characters riiiight is this you leaving? but i dont know, im still bitter that you dont want me to be yours alone and you dont want to be mine alone You replied to yourself is this you leaving? where was yesterdays horny energy thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. seaweed farm please say something when you can ill wait Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. imong wait :> thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. did your baby nag report na pls preserve purity thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you did your baby nag report na stop na ani please she's not cooperating? You replied stop na ani please ha ha ikaw stop dugay kaayo ka ni stop unya ako imo e pa stop lol ayyy basin you're arguing oa pa but pleaseuuu tho stop na gyud bitaw :< empty recycle bin , reformat, no back up ok maybe you're forgetting the gist of everything that happened yesterday when i mean disconnecting from yoir 144 isnt limited to virtual, it means never having to talk to them again or thibk of them again i uli lang just now Replied to you dugay kaayo ka ni stop unya ako imo e pa stop lol dugay naman ko ni stop the thing is i dont know what i feel man, but i remember how to feel what it feels like dat like dat thinbutcher's profile picture like i dont suko you man but i should be suko you and luod you from all you been saying to me but i dont exactly feel it but i know and remember how it feels im baby and im sorry doing thinking psycho tantrum lifeless sepukku mission biatch bitch dead brain thumb sucking earlicking good baby :< Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture buzzer beater smoke before going i and my meaning of everything love is baby as well, like sooo baby :< i remember so many times cursing our sextmachines, it's so useless and useful at once, i just wanted to hide behind habol of tree vines in a cave mountain with you and not have a phone and just do everything again again lets grow up and not grow up together and grow but you jud grow jud big big (???,)

thinbutcher's profile picture (?-???-c) i h8 u kaayu whyueu ?????(>?<)????? uou not suko me but you hate me na sad nag binayby na sad (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? thinbutcher's profile picture (???") you're miiiind baaa i is a whaaaa ah noooo i mean ba your miiiind jud baaa juuuud thinbutcher's profile picture (-???-)? i anx anx rightnow °??(? _??,) ????? your mind is a vvv not spotless mind thinbutcher's profile picture eternal surge of a polka patterned coral mind November 19, 2020 5:31 pm Post Unavailable This post is unavailable because it was deleted. remove please i took that i hate you you were like that ka bagag nawng when i was "away" each time its somewhat okay, a new discovery rewinds it thinbutcher's profile picture took you long enough are you laughing at me you are gara gyud me why are having so much fun its a fad too, did u sabot your 144 about this and when the coast is clear balik again thinbutcher's profile picture no im not laughing at you i deleted that on my fone gani and you have the audacity to sjow me again what else paman what else are your tinaguan nga gara gara that image that version of you, THAT DIMENSION OF YOU wouLDNOOOOT AND NEVER EXIST WITHOUT ME you know that idc abt not giving me foto credit how about a dimension or persona credit would be exquisite luora nimo mark you didnt even "vibe" that day and you make it like it ws such a beautiful moment, you showed how tired you were baya very halo head pala utang type deal and sig post ug bag o pinalit shit pero nag kalisod toxic positib sa etch ivy sa spotless dili gani mo echo utok kay gamayg ulo nga dako stop na this my asss dont even archive it you shit, delete it from your fone and back up all that shit, like you did with my pictures my face you wanted cropped delete it show me why do i even bother go ahead say something some more tell me everything you feel like i need to know thinbutcher's profile picture tell me now mo you know everything you have things that are still under your shade that I NEED TO KNOW ?? did u delete na do it now thinbutcher's profile picture no, really tell me if there's anything worth saying to me before you cant say it anymore that picture of you everywhere including the places it exists, in other peoples fones perhaps show me u deleted it first no i didn't and i wont, im keeping it for myself thinbutcher's profile picture anything else no you can't it wouldn't exist with out me fuck you delete it oh you know what dont ever tell me you loved me, all you ever care about is you Replied to you it wouldn't exist with out me admirable notion Replied to you it wouldn't exist with out me can you read this Replied to you oh you know what dont ever tell me you loved me, all you ever care about is you and this back to back its my fault for forgetting how it felt when i received similar words from you before thinbutcher's profile picture but thanks for reminding you're welcome i hate how i still love you rn thinbutcher's profile picture I dont know if you'll understand this since you're so deep in your smartass woke mind but you actually only care about yourself and what you think and i mean so little to you. i wish you didn't remind me that did you delete it yet November 19, 2020 8:58 pm You replied i hate how i still love you rn mmmm aaa always trying to shake islands and mountains at the face of what you cant face if i ceased to care about my self in what we had and this lamentable attempt to replicate it then my hand will pop out of the soil of my one dimension grave would you even listen? keep it for yourself bcos thats how grand your priority is to glorify you than my own suffering. that picture i romanticised jist to forget how shitty i felt and you were being inside your asshole we were there, i wish i didnt remind myself that too, or those or this or that or that or that or that or thaaaat oooooor thaaat maybe i thought you'd understand why you should perish that terrible memory because you care about me too, i dont care if its little compared to how u care about yourself and impressing really hoo0llow people in your life but why are you so scared to leave behind an ugly horizon of ugly memories when you can make, always form new ones and best ones, with me... but i suppose you dont romanticise things wihtout pain. okay okay okay but same it will never hold meaning when i say this since youre a fetishist for the meaningless and not real, but you never not know what to do but you choose the side of favouring you of course, we are all we have maybe you should get that dick off. or is it why you dont like things inside ur asshole, it's only sacred for ur own proud dick that desperately dove into it i wish there was one godamn good reason i love you go cri cri sumbong to your real god scotty i mean bibooo you even copied his smoke post squatting or something, are u secretly the arantxa to his mischa hahaha bet thats why you resonate with my friend oh yeah incessant ignoring , exactly the best thing someone who claims they love you would do November 19, 2020 11:31 pm

why not this instead, it's my favoirite picture, this didnt have a double edged background, just you being happy me being happy that we are so vv vhappy scum November 20, 2020 6:28 am thinbutcher's profile picture i didn't ignore you i was sleeping na November 21, 2020 12:07 pm thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to your story awe dids your bookings left you already? that's quick November 21, 2020 1:14 pm it's you oh i thought its one of your 26 thinbutcher's profile picture and when did i leave you man, im here man you just shoo me man lol i mean it's you like ohhh .. it's you you nasad you .. isa you you must have mistaken me for some other match, i dont do bookings you been talking about are you still peevish you havent gotten that dream boooking with her lol, but ill try to be her and my chance with you. so when do you wanna do it thinbutcher's profile picture nevermind awww can't finish what you instigated or... cant finish ehe oh i was just trying to copy you thinbutcher's profile picture I don't know how to do it jud oh you don't want to do it diay You replied and when did i leave you man, im here man you just shoo me man bcos you wont consider my reasons to delete that picture i must really be a walking scare crow to you Replied to you bcos you wont consider my reasons to delete that picture is the basis mainly bcos you're the one who took it? im in the picture

thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i must really be a walking scare crow to you yea and i am corn i suppose you'd rather have it than have me no of course bogo even how u so bad to me i not like that why do you hate that image so much thinbutcher's profile picture also i posted that out of spite before and now out of spite or to impress your halo head frens just delete it naaaaaa bcos i gave u that dimension of u stupid You replied to yourself out of spite or to impress your halo head frens im p sure you hid the comments bcos ooooh so sacred halo head comments thinbutcher's profile picture

frim your phone Replied to you im p sure you hid the comments bcos ooooh so sacred halo head comments how can you expect me to do better than this when talking to you when you're so fucking hostile and horrible thinbutcher's profile picture im not evsn sure if you're being serious i am thinbutcher's profile picture cos it really just seem like you're being sarcastic and toying with me i hate everything about that picture, inside it when we were in it thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i am well that's not what im getting are u stupid thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i hate everything about that picture, inside it when we were in it u hhate it now i never liked it either i just edited it for the romanticism of it we were both unhappy when the picture was taken remmeber i regret it so much Replied to you i never liked it either i just edited it for the romanticism of it well i tried asking you to take an imageu of me but yea you cant hear me thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you we were both unhappy when the picture was taken remmeber i wasn't now youre not you just take beautiful things from me and show them to your cockroaches friends and make them believe you found them alone probably bcos you think you looked so pretty and rebellious in a dress lol dare you to wear it with your dad and brother bcos you cant do it alone, you only have that dimension with me which wouldnt exist. well thats good at least if it's a tailored or really you, you're not afraid showing it out of spite your ass naaah do it for halo head approval bitch if youre not considering my reason and just those conditions that calcify your adamancy to keep that picture i edited for an hour and the emotional burden behind taking it why not post the other ones i took youre in it scum post your mass starvation pics YOURE IN IT you really tried so hard to seduce those 144 i mean spite, you even copy my editing style ohwhere did you go, oh its 3 o clock already youre back to your biboi shrine worshipping thinbutcher's profile picture before anything else, you've said a loooot of horrible things that described me and how i am like this and like that but are you serious about it? and why are you still here anyway? if you're so sure about those things about me then waht is this? if you're waiting for my apology about those things then just say it November 21, 2020 5:06 pm thinbutcher's profile picture why are you ignoring me? oh its what oclock time to worship your halo head bookings and puff puff away friends hahahahahahaha did you delete it i snoozey bcos my utrrus hurts and hooray not going to have a puff puff away beep bo00p boom baaap szoowz woo0z baby congratulate us you n me, at lea st

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your pointing finger here is the hottest finger and me pointing finger is my hottest trait i mean your neverending presence at the peak of it attests the statement why cant you just delete it and end all this shit i deleted it already omgoah thinbutcher's profile picture gosh i said delete it from every platform and your phone perish it to the core unsa diay ako gi ingon? thinbutcher's profile picture i deleted it yawa so when i say horrible things it just shoots out of a vortex of me or a hole in the sky and not bcos of my resentment for your continuous horrible things you do to me thinbutcher's profile picture

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You replied to yourself maybe i thought you'd understand why you should perish that terrible memory because you care about me too, i dont care if its little compared to how u care about yourself and impressing really hoo0llow people in your life but why are you so scared to leave behind an ugly horizon of ugly memories when you can make, always form new ones and best ones, with me... but i suppose you dont romanticise things wihtout pain. okay okay okay but same ay kog yawa bcos really? like reallly? you did na gyud? bcos i was really looking forward to the latter part of this Replied to you ay kog yawa bcos really? like reallly? you did na gyud? bcos i was really looking forward to the latter part of this first of all i didnt know it was that bad of a memory for you thinbutcher's profile picture and the fact that you think you made me is just beyond comical but at the end of the day there's no way i can change your mind so just keep thinking that i knew you'd simplify what i said which just takes off the dimension of the essence of what i feel about the dimension you wouldnt have untapped without me oh so you're so at the end of the day tyoe deal now god why do you have all your g's turned on, do you know how radioactive that is to your body you have wifi on na gani well the aesthetic and joy and aura of it was of course way better cos i was with you but if you think that was the first time of me wearing a dress on public its not. thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you god why do you have all your g's turned on, do you know how radioactive that is to your body you have wifi on na gani well its nothing compared to what I'm receiving from you _(:???)_ You replied well the aesthetic and joy and aura of it was of course way better cos i was with you but if you think that was the first time of me wearing a dress on public its not. you don't get it you know i hate it every time yoi try to impress your halo head friends amd i think you forget about keeping things sacred when it comes to them you don't get it bcos if you really think it's not less superficial than just dresses in public and jirachi buns in public noooo didnt you tell everyone you were gonna be a dad just so you have the most shocking story on your stupid christmas reunion and keep your attention seeking streak on thinbutcher's profile picture WELL THEN WAHT THE FUCK IS THIS and just so you could keep your horny kinky boi biga on boi facade on by telling them you cant wait for pregnant sex I AM A HORRIBLE PERSON WHAT ELSE THEN WHY ARE YOU HERE WHAT DO YOU WSNT FROM THIS WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME thinbutcher's profile picture HALO HEAD MY ASS YOURE ALL THE SAME says the leader YES I AM thinbutcher's profile picture SO WHAT but its fine i know who i am AAAAATTTTTTYYYENFNFBDBRBRHDHRTTH AT WHAT Replied to you but its fine i know who i am GOOD FOR YOU NOW WHAT WHAAAAAAT YAWA YAWAAAAAAAAA YAWAAAAA KAAAA YAWA MOOOO thinbutcher's profile picture YAWA MONG TANAN ahhh you probs think i will screenshot this meltdown para mo viral ka no naaaah thinbutcher's profile picture OK SO WHAT classix you WHAT YEA CLASSIC ME thinbutcher's profile picture THEN WHAT did you delete it thinbutcher's profile picture UNSA OY BOGO trash empty like as in Replied to you did you delete it BOGO KA GI DELETE NA GANE NAKO BOGOOOOO BOGOOOOK thinbutcher's profile picture HAHAHAHA TYPO THE K BUT STILL GOES WITH IT ahhh okay kays closed thinbutcher's profile picture UNSAA PA MAAAAAN YAWA ikaw ngano na pa ka diri BASIN NAA PA KA LAIN TUYO thinbutcher's profile picture BOGO also im not changing into caps bcos i rly feel in lowercase Replied to you also im not changing into caps bcos i rly feel in lowercase ALSO NOBODY ASKED YOU THAT Replied to you i knew you'd simplify what i said which just takes off the dimension of the essence of what i feel about the dimension you wouldnt have untapped without me YES YOU WWERE THE ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR THAT thinbutcher's profile picture NOW WHAT naahhh ill say nalang bcos maing nan napud tag enigmatic n mysterious n hit hot WHAT ELSE YOU WANNA HEAR FRONME thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you naahhh ill say nalang bcos maing nan napud tag enigmatic n mysterious n hit YEAH DONT TRY TOO HARD COS IT MIGHT BE OBVIOUS why are you mad at me do u feel controlled lol thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why are you mad at me do u feel controlled lol WHY ARE YOU MAD AT ME FOR NOT FUCKING AROUND SPREADING COVID LOL ojhh naa ra mao na na run ang kalagot just stems lang jud nga wala siya ka iyot dili ka tungod love ko niya ahuhuhuh dali oy excited nako ma du ng og mo ingon kag o kay mo ingon man jud kag o kay ni ingon man ko lol thinbutcher's profile picture HAHAHA ANG IMO KALAGOT NAG STEM LANG SA IMO SELF OY ang imo kalagot gani nako bgogo thinbutcher's profile picture HAHAHAHAHA BALIK2 ABI NAKOG YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE XAXAXAXACA wala nag comprehend so dzong ohh i said gani lagot ka nako kay sore loser kas imong gi bati nga wala ka ka iyot mentras buwag ta bogo Replied to you wala nag comprehend so dzong ohh HAHAHAHAHAHAHA NAKA SUHID KO NI MASTER Replied to you i said gani lagot ka nako kay sore loser kas imong gi bati nga wala ka ka iyot mentras buwag ta HAHAHAHAAH IKAW MAN DAE BOGO HAHAHA COMPREHEND OY YAWSAHAHAHAHAH thinbutcher's profile picture I SAID GANE LAGOT RAKA NAKO BUT ACTUALLY NAG LAGOT KAS IMO SELF KAY NAG IYOT2 KA HAHAHAHAHAHA NYA AKO WAAAA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA NYA YOU WANT ME TO FEEL BAD FOR NOT GETTING SUM HALO PUSSY lagot kay ka nako kay dili man ko nimo gi possess gyud, lagot ka sa fact nga wala ka ka iyot nya daghan na kay kag jerjering opportunities gi pass WHILE IKAW NA DALI UG HALO HEAD DICKERINO HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA BOGOOOO thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you dili ka tungod love ko niya ahuhuhuh HAHAHAHAHAHA BOGO LOVE LOVE PAJUD SYA OH ANA PA SYA WE DIDN'T BREAK UP NYA NAG IYOTW AGGAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHA ngano lagot kos ako self YOU ONLY AGREED NALANG WHEN I SAID NAGBUWAG TA SO IT WOULDNT LOOK SO BAD ON YOU HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HOY YAWA SAYANG IMO KA BRIGHT KAY DELUSIONAL KAAYO BUT OF COURSE IT WOULDNT MATTER KAY IMO RAMAN KA SELF MAG LISTEN thinbutcher's profile picture HAHAHAAHSHSHSHAHSHSHSH lingawa mo witness ug taw nga ka alagad ni duterte oy dili na kahibaws iyang gipang yawit thinbutcher's profile picture IKAW LAGE? HAHAHAHAHAHA dili pud ABOT NAMAN KAG DDS OY NAUNSA MAN HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA OK RA KA? NGITA KAG LAIN IKA DISS NYA DDS??? thinbutcher's profile picture MAYGAD NARATOL NAKA DIHA maybe im finally getting the message, youre disrespecting me highkey para lang mo offline nako loook at how you're talking to me my god DISRESPECT??????????? HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA Replied to you loook at how you're talking to me my god WAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH LOOK LOOK IMONG ULOK KABASA SAD KAS IMONG GIPANG SEND SAKOA? thinbutcher's profile picture DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW YOU TALKTO ME HAHAHAAHAHHAA sige di man ko kamao mo ad hominem in words thinbutcher's profile picture ARE YOU BLIND ad hominem in pics nala ng my classic thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you loook at how you're talking to me my god but this thoio maka kita kaa imong ulok diri do you know how you talk to me tho? Replied to you loook at how you're talking to me my god ?????? thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you maybe im finally getting the message, youre disrespecting me highkey para lang mo offline nako ????? wowooow you got that from mermaids brain aids Replied to you wowooow you got that from mermaids brain aids ngeee you got that from being chaned oil thinbutcher's profile picture by a halo head whats the difference with changed oil virtually months pa gyud ang mileage haha yawa luora namukol ko baliks ka luod Replied to you whats the difference with changed oil virtually haha 0 effort oy di parehas sa uban diraaaa na nag effort gyud thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you months pa gyud ang mileage haha months daw hahahaha kabogo bogo balik napud ta ani Replied to you bogo balik napud ta ani aw mao man imong styke thinbutcher's profile picture mao man ino ganahan lahi ug calibre ang physical sa emotional og mental og soul oy hahahah thinbutcher's profile picture hahaha okay ra kaa????? im just copying your style LMAO na aids gud apil imo aura dOng Replied to you lahi ug calibre ang physical sa emotional og mental og soul oy hahahah bitaw lahi gyud unya ikaw kay mas malalim jud ang punagsamhn thinbutcher's profile picture mi Offer pag half sa bookings h You replied hahaha okay ra kaa????? im just copying your style LMAO bogo unya ma liki kung gi ing nag i made yu thinbutcher's profile picture hahaahaha so polite boogo thinbutcher's profile picture with feelings man kaagi pa tilawa das tas imo personality bi i mean kung naa hahahahah thinbutcher's profile picture haghahaha unsay liki oy imong liki nga gi sudlan nas uban polite diay mo ghost after one day ikaw na pay pa jackpot nga baby ewwww thinbutcher's profile picture tilaw2 dayun sya ooh wa pa ka na husto ato imo tilaw2 dira? hahahahahaha baby sa tanan baby sa dalan thinbutcher's profile picture hahahaah ghost diay ga plano man gane ka makig usab hahahaaha You replied haghahaha unsay liki oy imong liki nga gi sudlan nas uban that's it hahahah na attach man guhhd that's it my ass thinbutcher's profile picture you fucking hypocrite lol wait sa gud kay dili ka ready sa akong e sulti wait sa guuueeewwddd sige dayun naunss sigeee dayun thinbutcher's profile picture naunss man ning saint oy makig usab lol bogo thinbutcher's profile picture be sure you wont take it back lang haaaaaa ngano ikaw dili mo tug an na attached daghan kay kag ma estorya dong nga 144 at a time man unya paabatan mag months mao diay balik balik nalang ang gi pang storya kay na exhaust ngeeeeekkkkk thinbutcher's profile picture mao na ang di ko ready maka dungog??? ngeeeek kay wala ka iyot bisag ka usa thinbutcher's profile picture dungog naman ko ana oyssssxxxtt wait sa oy ay nag huwat ka thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ngeeeek kay wala ka iyot bisag ka usa ngeeek kay i chose to not man hahaha nya ikaw na dalig halo head ngano siguro wala namay lami akong e sulti aaahhhh thinbutcher's profile picture kapoy lagot siguro ka wa na ka ka tilaws sa liki nako nga walay lami mana ako rage mini rage big rage thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you lagot siguro ka wa na ka ka tilaws sa liki nako nga walay lami lami man ewww para na attached gyud thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you lagot siguro ka wa na ka ka tilaws sa liki nako nga walay lami and yes of course gi mingaw jud ko bogo sacred lagi ang malalim na pinagsamahan kung open palang ang borders ato ay shiiiit malalim ang mararating gyud to aha thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you kung open palang ang borders ato ay sus mo anha jud ko nimo dayun basin dili na mo reply sa akong ia this wrong kay wrong na wrong unta hahahah thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you basin dili na mo reply sa akong ia this wrong kay wrong na wrong unta unsa oy ayaw ana oy anhi dayun wanay detour basin ma flattan kag ligid didto ka mag pa change oluk hapit adto dayun nimi my ass you pushed me so hardcore away when i went to samboan to see you thinbutcher's profile picture did i na unsa man ka you kept asking why was i doing this why cant i see you thinbutcher's profile picture what if i was just shocked diay bi, of course it wouldnt matter what i felt it barely did i wanted to hubo there and be the rust to the walls of the boat thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why cant i see you cos i was being realistic and fuck you im worried kay bogo ka asa man daw nag sleep ato bi??? ok na diay ang covid situation dira?? kita ka ato gi dismember ka bayi diras cebu???? bogo ka ba soooo para nimo life or death oy bogo thinbutcher's profile picture so what haaaa bogo ka i told my mama gane na what if you were coming here bogo kalimot nako thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you para nimo life or death oy kay unsa man diay bogo kalimot naka nako mao gani thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you kalimot naka nako yuck kung para nimo, life or death ako buhaton bogo Replied to you para nimo life or death oy oh i mean para sakoa ba ang life or death ang situation ba thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you kung para nimo, life or death ako buhaton bogo bogo ayaw pa sweet2 kalit dira yawa ka wala gyud ko gi kilig diri ikaw ra thinbutcher's profile picture pero bisan naaaa what if na quarantin ndaw ka bi pwede wala nalang ko nag huna huna sa risks Replied to you wala gyud ko gi kilig diri ikaw ra bahala kag wa ka kiliga ako gi kilig ko cant do nothing bout it thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you pwede wala nalang ko nag huna huna sa risks nag huna2 unta ka kay unsa paman bi ug namatay na ka mangamatay nalang ta ani usbon man gani to nako, kahibaw ka convo namo sa mg conductor og chuoper puros mga pier Replied to you kalimot naka nako ayaw gyud kog igna ani kay mo hilak gyud ko kay yawa ka i thought of you everyday mdfka thinbutcher's profile picture hay way lami nagka corny nako haaays kalimot naka nako, i mean nga kalimot naka nga mag pa in danger ko para lang maabot nimi nimo basta lage wa ko kasabot sa ako gibati ato nya top of it all i was worried nimo bogo Replied to you nimo kabalo ko bogo kaaaa baaaaaa and im sorry if i didn't tell you enough how worried i was i was mad thinbutcher's profile picture i an still man ayaw hilak paslak tinag kalimba imong lowboay lowboat bisan unsa pa lageee you can't change how those months felt for me same as i cant change how it was for you thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ayaw hilak paslak tinag kalimba imong lowboay pag hilom basin ako na pintalan imo kilay ug black balik unya ako???ga panic pud ko oy wala na gani ko kasabots ako gi huna huna they were alll telling me dili dili at some point gi pa tuo ko sa conductor nga maka labang ra jud ko thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you unya ako???ga panic pud ko oy wala na gani ko kasabots ako gi huna huna they were alll telling me dili dili at some point gi pa tuo ko sa conductor nga maka labang ra jud ko lageeee and i believe you and i was mad at myself for not doing it earlier i mean i had so much time pwede ta ko maka barangay ug health center pa medical ato before hand i was just scared i was running out of time i closed my eyes the whole ride kay i didnt wanna enjoy the ride i wasnt there for it nooo ayaw na black ako kilay please ma desirable ko nimo balik and im not blaming you for any of that thinbutcher's profile picture

ngano cant change how you felt in those past months hala Replied to you ngano cant change how you felt in those past months hala cos it already happened and i went through it already thinbutcher's profile picture ??? hoy i was trying to stop you to stop talking to your growing 144 then but you still did and naabot pa gyud mog facebook yawa luora even after i attacked her you still went on for more months yawa ka ikaw mauy bottomless bogo wala kaha na na inlove thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you hoy i was trying to stop you to stop talking to your growing 144 then but you still did and naabot pa gyud mog facebook yawa luora oh she was forcing me to talk to her man and we baaaaaaarely talked sig ingog brainded ayyy naay brainded fetish gyud nis dzoooong oh sure ang block dili uso basta polite no??? thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you hoy i was trying to stop you to stop talking to your growing 144 then but you still did and naabot pa gyud mog facebook yawa luora you didn't attack her for the purpose na I would stop talking to her man and im barely on ny phone those times man sad pa send pics pa everyday with new shades yaaawaaa did you even at least twll hee what that weirdo meant to you, oghh wait why am i asking something i already know Replied to you pa send pics pa everyday with new shades yaaawaaa oh i send it man her to biboi and von GC and to my hs gc and ylmy other friends thinbutcher's profile picture i even storied it ang pp nimo gi story pud hahahhaha fuck you yawa Replied to you did you even at least twll hee what that weirdo meant to you, oghh wait why am i asking something i already know i did, i even told her maci was our child thinbutcher's profile picture i knoooow god why do you let in these kinds of people in your life idk abt the 144 could ve worse than her or even more malalim gyud bcos it also unneccessarily gets into my head i hate it so much so you mean to say you dont have any equivalent sa imo side? thinbutcher's profile picture or youre just pushing the "malalim" just so you could say na at least sa imoha didn't mean anything and only lasted a daym dont pretend to be curious about me now maybe im pushing the malalim bcos nothing that i did to stop you from accumulating them made you choose me and go thru some more shit with me bahala na balik balik cos we signed up for this and tan awa, naay 144 naay 26 na hitabo pero kita gihapon ga atubang diri i mean i hope so and please wala na intawn nothing that you did what thinbutcher's profile picture you were pretty clear that you're done with me stop binogo thinbutcher's profile picture

if that was seriously only towards you i wouldnt even attempt to reach out to you everyday thinbutcher's profile picture

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im done with you bcos i wanted to have a neck tatoo ?

did u still mean me when u tweeted that

things were pretty clear for me man thinbutcher's profile picture and if the question if you left me is asked agaun things were pretty clear based on unresolved assumptions I'd say yes thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you things were pretty clear based on unresolved assumptions oh you talk about assumptions now i mean i assume a lot but i say it to your fucking face i assume first then ask second thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i mean i assume a lot but i say it to your fucking face i assume first then ask second you never ask but you dont, you assume first and biga second i ask you bogo i ask in non question form haha kaysa ikaw derecho tinder para resolba ang problema not even out of spite You replied

this is arantxa by the way, even before every one else we roleplay shit for fun???? thinbutcher's profile picture dont worry i pretty much reconciled with myself regarding those man also i just rode on our shit bcos that was her way of comforting me after always bringing up our "breakup" or things leading to it reconciled what Replied to you also i just rode on our shit bcos that was her way of comforting me after always bringing up our "breakup" or things leading to it i honestly dont wanna hear any of this Replied to you also i just rode on our shit bcos that was her way of comforting me after always bringing up our "breakup" or things leading to it but yea cool you can find fault in anything i say thinbutcher's profile picture its okay same as i dont wana see any of your 144 increasing thinbutcher's profile picture 144 and 26 is the same 26 that got rid off na dayun sure you did thinbutcher's profile picture but if i say that i didn't message 90% of them im sure YOU did was just too lazy to do something about their accs you wouldnt believe me thinbutcher's profile picture but then again its fine im sure it's fine thinbutcher's profile picture i can deal with that reality i wish i didnt copy that stuff on twitter i wish i didnt copy that stuff on twitter Replied to you im done with you bcos i wanted to have a neck tatoo the video i meant the video on the link Replied to you not even out of spite it is Replied to you this is arantxa by the way, even before every one else we roleplay shit for fun???? look how petty snd shallow your reason is its so half assed but i believe you still Replied to you i wish i didnt copy that stuff on twitter what thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and tan awa, naay 144 naay 26 na hitabo pero kita gihapon ga atubang diri h8 u the video seemed pretty internal monologue, like dancing the hallucinations away? what was reconciley about it??? You replied to yourself i wish i didnt copy that stuff on twitter i still ended up dating the disappointment those thread of tweets was mostly addressed to the inverted triangles got an inverted i im sleepy na dayun, being hostile to you really really drains my energy thinbutcher's profile picture even tho i did a very poor job at it You replied what i mean hyprocrite gihapon kaayo me, clown clown me You replied h8 u why man hate again You replied look how petty snd shallow your reason is its so half assed but i believe you still you think it's half assed bcos you think i like her like that its ok man h8 but like not threatening h8 maybe but like basta thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you think it's half assed bcos you think i like her like that nah i didn't even thought of it that far, it just sounds halfassd sarsabasta barisat half of my ass os my whole ass thinbutcher's profile picture drowzy na me kaayu cos i got no ass thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you cos i got no ass yea cos the bir always make you sit down what do you want me to say i hate it you for giving me unexpected kilig i hate you too pud loook i got booking for life Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture why wont it load our niece is v vv powerful it's like that pud your videos with maci Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture i not know what to say i want to undang this na but i still cant trust myself thinbutcher's profile picture what that mean i gona hostile permanemte i dont want to hostile you sige lang ?????(>?<)?????(???,)?:?(???\?)??? not gani us emochi this moon (???????)? yea that is bad kaayu man, it's okay if you hostile me but i cant even hold you so its just bad and it hurts even balik2 thinbutcher's profile picture i hate it so much i dont know how to respond to it that i just hostile lang pud which not really my thing can i hostile the n0t ReAlLye mY thAnG ?(`?´?)?(/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ??(¬?¬)?(????)? (¬?¬) and i know not gara na bi me and not gara na you pud undangi na tikaw like this and undangi napud ko but only like this but not also not take it slow that it's not natural na but it's neither received or delivered that way man like unnatural, seems not unnatural but bag o han maybe and confusing November 22, 2020 12:10 am wow my last message really directed my dream, i damgo you just now but the aning pukaw me at the duyan. it was a nightmare diay thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you not gara na bi me and not gara na you pud undangi na tikaw like this and undangi napud ko but only like this but not also not take it slow that it's not natural na but it's neither received or delivered that way man like unnatural, i mot get it November 22, 2020 8:43 am the yoir night mare danced on my uterus gyud a v v vdelicate daxology and when i mata na abstract blueprint of it seeped on my linapsan shorts i lapsan the blueprint of our nightmare you did jud in my dream you had a dumb ass looking boyfriend and girlfriend and it was vv funny i mean they look funny thinbutcher's profile picture ibstill camt play the video whmm mmm we the manifestation of the banal trinity of scattered revelations and civilizations of space time also waiiit are you blaming me for your dream if they look ugly you casted the charqcters, like it's funny how you're the only one who has ever seen what they look like and me no, dodchu kno faces and imageus in your dream you seen na it somewhere in reality You replied you did jud in my dream you had a dumb ass looking boyfriend and girlfriend and it was vv funny maybe i jus their tail raman like wobbuffet is just the brain tail with a neon blue uncircumcised pp punching pack you screenshot lagi the video lagi

it this one stupid thinbutcher's profile picture toopiiid looking meena i are the wobbuffet

the lola visiting right now even she our silingan kaayo and she sakpan me umod my faceu on the bepis and she pa dungog to peeps here "ayaw pag kiss kiss sa baby dili man gani ka ka beso beso sa imong b0oyFrRieNd" ?+?('??`*)?+??(?_°)? thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you the lola visiting right now even she our silingan kaayo and she sakpan me umod my faceu on the bepis and she pa dungog to peeps here "ayaw pag kiss kiss sa baby dili man gani ka ka beso beso sa imong b0oyFrRieNd" ?+?('??`*)?+??(?_°)? whaaaaaat well she not wrong tho (´?`) she's the only body here who asks about you (??? _ ???) still are you okay like what you feel man right now ( ?????) i baya collect vvv 5 shiny for you still so dapat you got 10 melyon stardust Replied to you she's the only body here who asks about you (??? _ ???) awe its like that one person who bbelieves in a very rare and unfamiliar folklore, preserving my spirit there in the kumintang thinbutcher's profile picture i feel vvv behind right now i don't know what exactly but yea just a folklore, sad but shant be thinbutcher's profile picture im like jack frost and she that one kid that believes i exist that's why i still have a faint wraith roaming around there the kumintang wait i done na make tinamban spaghetto for them

yesu she kinda like the ayumi umi who saw different colours and different forms cramned in the periphery of her eyes and begging me to show her and the aning the powers she knows but i don't have anymore capricious wraith yesu and half atis thief plowing the seeds in the kumibdang sky thats why there are noe stars here and falling comets fruit i haven't had any of those red atis you have there (?o_o) can you make carbonora thinbutcher's profile picture the flat white ones bitaw they my favorite pasta i love it kaayu aaa that ones gif me trauma, we balik balik have that before that the gardner would mix with same veggies he put in the his smoothies but all pasta are all v vv best except macacarona bcos it taste lik christmas n fake people but yesu but it got chickenu n cream n pineapple n nata its lami man i tinamban vvv nice carbonala with a random colored veggie pasta i found n put eggplaaaant i love gyud eggplant itd be much nice cooking it with fire ans smoke bcos eggplant just has to be grilled to squeeze its prime for some reason ill try make you carbonara ( ?????) hmm first process is try make you like it. i try make you carbonala with manatitmilk ?(?? ? ?? ? ) You replied to yourself capricious wraith yesu and half atis thief plowing the seeds in the kumibdang sky thats why there are noe stars here and falling comets fruit therr are more ?°??°?`?°

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this not carbonara man (¬_¬) yea i dont really like macaroni as well, have to mix it with a lot of fruits and nice milku to make me like it thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you

still look niceu put ppepr salt November 22, 2020 2:39 pm

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ohmy god the look the dog is like na ligoan sa gata eeeeee You replied

yoir hand is smol na lagi it's gona get v hurot fast before maabtan daut and ferment You replied

the macistant hand vvv kyooot and doeant look hilabtanun hand (·?·)( ?????) i remember yestermoon i pa kalo the foxling with white kalo and she looks vvv meena kitchen assitant sous chef kaayu it's primi lagi mature coconut incorporated in kakanin i not seen once the young coconut, just for drinking consumption only but it's cool you got mature coconut na there for the gargoyles weapon at bitaug it's hurot na U??.??U can you padala the special nuclear kagod lusak nanab berrys nuclear form here, that baya i palit gyud with my baynti when the tailor gif me baynti secretly for extra snacks November 22, 2020 7:03 pm there brownout here and ulan kaayu vv cold (?o_o) wait i just checked i didn't send you the maci helping me but how didchu know she the macistant assistant lupak lopak Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. the service is vv hinay kaayu here its being sucked in by the rogue clouds in the seakiss whore it even claimed a poste of kurenti na bago pa ilis Replied to your story (?ì _ í?) theanimallworld's profile picture theanimallworld

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[...] is your red glasses matching with somebody Post Unavailable This post is unavailable because it was deleted. like hers no it doesn't it actually broke when i got so drunk before and i roasted this guy so hard in front of our friends and he asked me if he could borrow it and then he threw it to the pool the moment i gave it to him thinbutcher's profile picture but then i went back to the store where i purchased it for something unrelated but then i saw the exact same one and i bought it now i have new one ok thinbutcher's profile picture you can't ruin my mood, im watching bloopers of the office sure with who ever that girl is as the bg you can't be serious right now thinbutcher's profile picture ( T?T) i just want to burn so sorry for ruining THE MOOD thinbutcher's profile picture wowza you pili2 which you emphasize of what i say (-?-)(???,)(?•´?•`?) it's okay man nothing's ur fault when i expect certain things tooo much thinbutcher's profile picture its just I've also developed a certain response mechanism to your hostilities im sorry (?-?-?) do you get it i wasnt being unhostile sorry for what? you're only sorry now that you gave me this foul dimension i cant stand bcos it burns every part of me. sorry that i expect manifold times of faithfulness from you which i shouldnt right??? bcos as far as you're concerned you dont know what this is what we are, so why not behave in certain ways that would make it more obscure to decipher i was never even like this fuck it fuck everything. when we only started to date i didnt mind or had the itch or need to scrutinise your account anything to do with online activities i even had my instagram n twitters n facebook down bcos get this, i actually believed you were obsessively devoted n faithful with me aha ha aaahahahah and when do you think it started to change?so drastically at that, and overnight? when i found you keep things that you should have told me from me for months thru logging your account into my phone, i dont know if that was a blessing or curse but you really punished me dont you think reading things from you and without the need to screenshot it bcos it simmered in my head n burnt "this is why it's so hard to be faithful" and when one of ur wannabe muslim fren made a statement that this girl you were sharing in ur groupchat had a boyfren you said "this makes me hard" and i know those things are ancient but i dont know why they haunt me still and they dictate my actions tooo, and my time online and it's not even helping when you make me think that you matched sunglasses with a halo head nga mura rag ma punit sa baseline inig sinulog like okay are they your fren, do they make art that u like, they must be so useful to you or your eyes or something else idk brown out nasad siguro November 22, 2020 11:29 pm i was playing dota with my friend thinbutcher's profile picture are you there are you playing with me rn no im not im sorry for being me i guess, for the horrible parts. im sorry i just thought of retaliation whenever i felt like you did me wrong i really don't know what else to tell you, i thought the first few weeks of me talking to you was my worst version but it turns out its not and even if its less worse it still deals practically the same amount of pain to you. the reason why i didn't tell you those was pretty cliche man but aside from not wanting you to not like me, which i wouldnt like, what else am i supposed to do i thought we could be happy if i just kept those from you bcos no matter how i thought of it you'd still be this mad and angry at me if you found out then or now and i chose to try and be happy with you thinbutcher's profile picture are you just gonna ignore this did you just ignore what i had to say no, im sorry if it seemed like that im gonna sleep na soon if you dont read this now thinbutcher's profile picture tomorrow nalang ka read i did read it but what, it didnt address anything you sound playing i said im sorry i mean that's what i was trying to say what you said was pretty vague man pod thinbutcher's profile picture i mean if its about before, didn't i addressd that already. or you just wanna balik it vague vague vaguuuueeee its what u comprehend when youre trying not to comprehen i wanna balik what, i was trying to emphasise how shady actions can amplify that stupid trait i developed retaliation by what? having boners to a halo head???? thinbutcher's profile picture im feeling the timeline is a bit mixed up but nonetheless, its not necessarily boner man but knowing you, it could be categorized as such you think being unfaithful incognito can exist with happiness ??? yeah your type can be found in one place, in fact all of the people you have boners and your friends just one place thinbutcher's profile picture i cut everybody off when its decided that you going to duma You replied i cut everybody off when its decided that you going to duma oh okay oh okay what i said naman that before did you even listen thinbutcher's profile picture or read it i dont see the point of us talking anymore if your basis for being faithful is being available again physically Replied to you i dont see the point of us talking anymore if your basis for being faithful is being available again physically its so convenient doing things in your own terms right thinbutcher's profile picture i hate that i have to say this again what, so you just want to fuck other people now unless i can go there you've given??me a winless condition. until i can go to duma lol? which has an indefinite standpoint at this case but you criticize so much my want of physical affection and use it sometimes as confirmations but even then, not physically were you that really invested in me? why is it that you can always call me out of the things i did before and me on the other hand i cant justify to you any reason for it thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you've given??me a winless condition. until i can go to duma lol? which has an indefinite standpoint at this case you already mentioned it beforehand its fine mark i dont want to hear this anymore thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you its fine mark i dont want to hear this anymore of course just go quench your need for physical affection thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you just go quench your need for physical affection didn't you unhan me already unhan wow so the intention was there how petty thinbutcher's profile picture dont dodge it i dont want to go to duma thinbutcher's profile picture dont twist my sarcasm so you could use it against me i dont want to be the end of your being pala iyot with other people dont use me like that dont use me to clean ur impurities thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you just go quench your need for physical affection aren't you the one who did something like this na You replied aren't you the one who did something like this na what the fuck this was before we talked about taking each other back just tell me now thinbutcher's profile picture cos every picture i like i wanna fuck man gud diba right now, do you want to fuck somebody while still getting to talk to me thinbutcher's profile picture ? ? ?(´?`?)? ? ? you astound me maybe im not for you and you are not for me and im just here fucking pushing it can i question your certainty of faithfulness or not? (?'?'?) Replied to you maybe im not for you and you are not for me and im just here fucking pushing it maybe you're just as twistedly selfish dont ignore this thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you can i question your certainty of faithfulness or not? (?'?'?) can iiiiii go do it the answer is pretty short aren't you gonna be mad at me for questioning it thinbutcher's profile picture or is questioning it even justifiable it is aren't you gonna suko me thinbutcher's profile picture for questioning it im suko now you're delaying thinbutcher's profile picture delaying what what arent you going to expound it thinbutcher's profile picture expound whaaat im asking you man gud those was it rhetorical question and not leading to explaining something? thinbutcher's profile picture i thought you'd care about what i would thiiiiink hahahahaha how silly of me to think that i was waiting for your answer thinbutcher's profile picture hahaha you wouldnt even care to say more than a sentence. is that how certain you are to yourself that you are that faithful You replied hahaha you wouldnt even care to say more than a sentence. is that how certain you are to yourself that you are that faithful whaaaat you purposefully wrote that vaguely no its fine thinbutcher's profile picture really tho. its nothing new You replied can i question your certainty of faithfulness or not? (?'?'?) read this again without making out that you are trying to lay out the basis of what's faithful and what is not okay i didnt get it, now i do, thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you read this again without making out that you are trying to lay out the basis of what's faithful and what is not wow then use your basis of being faithful then. if it got so many different meanings well it isnt to be doubted Replied to you well it isnt to be doubted why you sending shorts now, youre bestfriend came over to your house and is itching to role play na or wht thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why you sending shorts now, youre bestfriend came over to your house and is itching to role play na or wht am i doing this right haha we can discuss this but we cant keep spiraling and spiraling the same spiral growing haywire if i dont know how you're trying to let this pan out, it seems like your sarcasm decided your advocacy final thinbutcher's profile picture you sound so different i dont get it???i dont find my faithfulness to you then (when we were still together) and after we talked about taking each other back, (my first ever yaya duties) questionable. you must be really tired of this thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i dont get it???i dont find my faithfulness to you then (when we were still together) and after we talked about taking each other back, (my first ever yaya duties) questionable. also i dont get this im sick mostly of finding another random halo head that you probably have an alter with i don't have any alter im not you thinbutcher's profile picture who got a million alters lol bam016301701 i made them for you thinbutcher's profile picture you see baya the dates ???? what you made one that wasnt for me its not like i make alters to cheat on my disappointment ohhh brown out napud ka unpredictably predictable ba You replied can i question your certainty of faithfulness or not? (?'?'?) you think i am not or wasnt faithful just bcos you think i am not or wasnt lol just for the sake of questioning me thinbutcher's profile picture i didn't make them to use it to cheat man it was pretty obvious i did almost nothing to hide it Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you think i am not or wasnt faithful just bcos you think i am not or wasnt lol just for the sake of questioning me even if that's the case lmao which it isn't wow you certainly got a twisted definition of cheating thinbutcher's profile picture can we address one thing at a time so if its hidden its cheating if its not then shesjust dumb to take the clues that you were playing with her okay address the thing where you wait for my my arrival to duma to "rescue" your pa apas na hoe phase thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you so if its hidden its cheating if its not then shesjust dumb to take the clues that you were playing with her still cheating i didn't say its not i dont know which butt cheek pressed the call but def not the tag iya thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you okay address the thing where you wait for my my arrival to duma to "rescue" your pa apas na hoe phase after you found out about me and vic a lot happened and then i got my tattoo then 1 or 2 days after we managed to still talk but even before that i was trying to get things right naman, but then again i was already cheating when i talked to you you could just balik2 that You replied i thought you'd care about what i would thiiiiink hahahahaha how silly of me to think that why did you stop you were already on the brink of hostile carry on my wayward son Replied to you so if its hidden its cheating if its not then shesjust dumb to take the clues that you were playing with her really tho. can you see this??? i didn't even say anything but you just straight up escalated thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why did you stop you were already on the brink of hostile carry on my wayward son oh im sorry that's just not me You replied really tho. can you see this??? i didn't even say anything but you just straight up escalated waiiit if you hear my head rn this isnt the loudest lmao chill oh so you just tried to rile me by questioning me being faithful for the sake of questioning me but it didnt work because i didnt get the question sheeeet sayang, imagine the length this conversation would have stretched thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you oh so you just tried to rile me by questioning me being faithful for the sake of questioning me but it didnt work because i didnt get the question for the sake of for the sake of You replied for the sake of for the sake of of his soropaul fashion thinbutcher's profile picture you just said for the sake of, for the sake of devaluing what i was trying to say i said finish your rhetoric thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you oh so you just tried to rile me by questioning me being faithful for the sake of questioning me but it didnt work because i didnt get the question but you did naman now but still didn't say anything it being unfinished seemed really just for the sake of Replied to you it being unfinished seemed really just for the sake of nah you just dont care that much about it thinbutcher's profile picture or youre stalling to think of what to say im not dodging okay and i was gani faitful waiting for something im gonna say and then focus on it again thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you im not dodging okay and i was gani faitful ok continue wait so you expect me to point out times i was being unfaithful with you that is triggered by a vague question about questionibg it thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you wait so you expect me to point out times i was being unfaithful with you that is triggered by a vague question about questionibg it up to you you are again making me exert the effort i cant satisfy u with 1. 2. 3. 696969696. lista nimo oh dili na fill in the blanksz oyyy Replied to you wait so you expect me to point out times i was being unfaithful with you that is triggered by a vague question about questionibg it totally up to you thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you wait so you expect me to point out times i was being unfaithful with you that is triggered by a vague question about questionibg it you can just erase this message and I'll forget you asked this cos i don't think you can answer your own question im pretty sure you had no effort before in proving my faithfulness either Replied to you im pretty sure you had no effort before in proving my faithfulness either not the point if you need time to stall or come up with something just tell me thinbutcher's profile picture for realsiess this is abt the tinder thing again thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you this is abt the tinder thing again idk? how should i know lmao or about the times i gave your number to security guard and habal driver waaait I'm genuinely giving you time to answer it and you should give me this authority even once, this lang baya i guess the time i questioned you directly about kt thinbutcher's profile picture also i could really use some sleep yeah bcos you're deviating the direction of this conversation from the fact that you just made me question your faithfulness again i questioned na gani it ganina pun an pa gyud og im not gonna cut people off until u come to duma edi pak pak paaaaak thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you pun an pa gyud og im not gonna cut people off until u come to duma did i say this bot oy lulu aaaa silang tanan thinbutcher's profile picture huhu You replied did i say this bogoa sa shipda thinbutcher's profile picture dodgyyyyy man kaayo ka ron oy haha You replied i cut everybody off when its decided that you going to duma mao gani Replied to you mao gani yeah but i didnt say i won't if you wont go to duma thinbutcher's profile picture OMG aint that dodgy lulu nalang lagi sila thinbutcher's profile picture wait sa biiii huwat paman ka at least if i dont go, variety pa nga aids ma lulu nimo Replied to you huwat paman ka at least if i dont go, variety pa nga aids ma lulu nimo ikaw sad hahaha thinbutcher's profile picture variety oils ayyy ka boring pirmi guid derivative sa akong pag ka genius thinbutcher's profile picture alangan ikaw gud ga da sa tanan you know what you're letting me name my instances of unfaithfulness when i seriously cant, the main point we had this conversation was bcos i was doubting you again bcos of a certain action that gave me a traumatic flashback thinbutcher's profile picture sleepy na ko, you can just answer the question about your faithfulness later today. of course i would answer you again as well you really dodging everything not me wow Replied to you you know what you're letting me name my instances of unfaithfulness when i seriously cant, the main point we had this conversation was bcos i was doubting you again bcos of a certain action that gave me a traumatic flashback and if i said it doesn't mean anything???? thinbutcher's profile picture would you believe what doesnt mean anything you think ga budlat ako mata diri unya gi damay tika thinbutcher's profile picture that very straining, consciously and purposefully double tap i did in a picture i saw while scrolling also yesu i still have insomnia but you can sleep raman with a heavy feeling on urbchest ayyy dili man diay ka affected siguro thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ayyy dili man diay ka affected siguro affected man pero maka sleep rako sa part nga di man sad ka gyud maminaw sa unsa ako ika sulti ahh ohh to a halo head with a v vv unique art style that you were such a fan of for really poetic reasons yes thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ahh ohh to a halo head with a v vv unique art style that you were such a fan of for really poetic reasons wooooowwwwwwwwzzaaa really a fan of You replied affected man pero maka sleep rako sa part nga di man sad ka gyud maminaw sa unsa ako ika sulti now that i listwn dili pud ka hahaha hoyyyy pakapin ra bitaw nang now that i listen biiitch i been here thinbutcher's profile picture di man sad ka mo tuo bisan unsaon bitaw, you'd just keep on balik2 every mistake i did You replied affected man pero maka sleep rako sa part nga di man sad ka gyud maminaw sa unsa ako ika sulti ako e ka sulti para ako ipa sulti unsa man ganahan nimo ba thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ako e ka sulti para ako ipa sulti unsa man ganahan nimo ba what You replied di man sad ka mo tuo bisan unsaon bitaw, you'd just keep on balik2 every mistake i did i did NOT BALIK IT i was okaaay i kinda didnt word things unhostiley but i need to emphasise it bcos lagi it reminded me of what u did not for the sake of balik balik lang it see you still dodged the duma thing Replied to you see you still dodged the duma thing i didn't thinbutcher's profile picture you just didn't read my response you did ahhh okay so you get lagi to fuck other people n talk to me Replied to you ahhh okay so you get lagi to fuck other people n talk to me now this is a new discovery dodging the answer hahaha youre just twisting everything i say thinbutcher's profile picture why u always do that bcos what you say is twisted you proposeful twist them to be twisted thinbutcher's profile picture meh you just said you needed physical affection pud you just twist them jud so it'll be more comfortable for you to add more things to make it look and seem like i did wrongs again and again Replied to you you just said you needed physical affection pud seeee omgosh thinbutcher's profile picture you really don't listen to anything i say and im an idiot gyud i say that all the time but i still try to answer or explain to you You replied you just twist them jud so it'll be more comfortable for you to add more things to make it look and seem like i did wrongs again and again i didnt twist theeeeMmmmMmmmmmmmm thinbutcher's profile picture look with this kind of attitude towards these issues, we can balik balik, spiral lang you just seem to enjoy ironically claiming my assumptions to dodge the effort of telling the truth or maybe that was the truth na diay, you just want to add confusion to divert the issue from u issue imong mama thinbutcher's profile picture can we sleep na please no can we do this tomorrow early lang thinbutcher's profile picture please we are not even together mag isa kalang tulog mo yknow what thinbutcher's profile picture you're so hardsh and disrespectful to me bitaw like soooo much why do u ask permission from me, thats pretty much insulting since you have always slept on me like this so im sorry if that was rude n i was rude thinbutcher's profile picture im sorry thats insulting na for you, you set the bar tooooo high ra man gud sleepy daw kig argue paman thinbutcher's profile picture dont hold back oy ikaw ayawg hold back gamiton pajud ko as a condition para ma pure ka balik i still dont get why you said it for "sarcasm" you know how detrimental that is if it's not your intention jud to make me overdoubt ayyyy dili na mo reply, nag pa hold na siya sa lain like he said what you're trying to do is way worse than detrimental Replied to you ayyyy dili na mo reply, nag pa hold na siya sa lain sige lang kag ingon ani thinbutcher's profile picture sige lang You replied what you're trying to do is way worse than detrimental which is what gani, beg for faithfulness from a relationship thats vague yes i might be wrong doing that thinbutcher's profile picture hope you never doubt yourself ??\(^_^\) ? if you want me to stop why are you holdi ng back i meant that thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you if you want me to stop why are you holdi ng back im not holding back man if youre talking about me being hostile me and doubt myself are in the same room You replied im not holding back man if youre talking about me being hostile what i mean, youre holding back in telling me that i am asking too much again lagi and im not un the position bcos of the disposition of what we have?? thinbutcher's profile picture sleep nako bitaw, sobra na imo pang sulti sakoa sorry ay nalag expect ugma oy kung nag expect nga inig tulog nimo ma spotless na tanan mo reset rani ig mata nako, pwede na sad ka mag ingon ka disrespectful and insulting ana sakoa actually its more than insulting and disrespectful pero bogo ra kayo ko to find a word for it thinbutcher's profile picture really hope we get over this unsa naa kay disrespect kink if thats how i really am to you without considering the triggers then ngano storya paman ka nako your we seems like it's just a you at me seee you want a shortcut to happy dayun, you just want to jump OVER things and not go through them, find the root cause, not adding to the vagueness of it, like actually sulod it narrowly, finely, dont put yourself in the we if youre not willibg to make tge effort thinbutcher's profile picture csn you letmre send lastmessage fbefore sleep i lowbaaa na November 24, 2020 10:47 am i don't know if i still want to be me im sorry if me saying you "h0tter" with black eye brows adds to the confusion thinbutcher's profile picture but you is still you man you (?-???-c) i mean any version of you is still you ?(??—??)? wait saaa dont unhan me i just had foxling to ligo man thinbutcher's profile picture aaaaa pleaseu forgif i just got balik from doing some habal hell dewties man gud. i feel like im gonna get sick init and hangin and vv bugnaw aircon you're not gona sick man, you're you baya (n?n) pleaseu dala ug bakbak when you haf climate change dewtieus it's not lalim get sick right now i cant see you November 24, 2020 5:51 pm

maci in the dumpsite thinbutcher's profile picture i feel like i slip into a reality of a moment and then die and then goes back to this reality several times a day, especially when im driving. November 24, 2020 7:17 pm You replied

maci frolickign in maelstrom of butterfly nebula lagoon why she beast mode You replied i feel like i slip into a reality of a moment and then die and then goes back to this reality several times a day, especially when im driving. eeeee this happens to me every time i get on the time machine that kidnaps me from you speeding to seaboo she not man beastmode that's how she "smile" when entertaining the camera jud i really feel like i was gonna get sick earlier then i just tried to not mind it and then after lunch i palit bioflu then felt a bit better had energy pa but when i abot na jud here i vv kapoy na dayun and now i feel vvv cold kaayu its just like earlie, my vessel is still trying to get rid of the foreign organisms in me. even 2 of my kauban sa office was absent today as well and i should be one of them but my immune system is obviously way stronger than them that i lasted pa this long maybe tomorrow i not go i feel vv tired, i not wan to go tomorrow thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you eeeee this happens to me every time i get on the time machine that kidnaps me from you speeding to seaboo every other time i then get occupied by the thought of asking myself "i wasn't disgrssya earlier right"im okay¿" i couldve died"i couldve died" i had man those thoughts before but not as eminent as this You replied to yourself eeeee this happens to me every time i get on the time machine that kidnaps me from you speeding to seaboo it's more noticeable transportation when im static but the bus rides are more memorable and gets stuck with me. i usually avoid crashes by looking out the window jud, when im keeping busy like dig my vv vheavy bagpack. when the speed is high it feels so still and then the sudden stops i get inertia-ed to another realm that's never been entered upon by any material thing just me, it's like a half reality there that i build per bus sudden stops, i dont haf it as smooth as you do like slipping, it takes a while to be thrown back to the former reality i was inside the bus, and the longest time im not in the reality is when the bus lands at the terminal and back to kumintang dungeon , that's why the ride is always shortest bcos the death or catapult is its longest and i have to make a special deal with the tenant there to escape but i refuse man to consider its deaths that you clicks you inside it. as we don't die you and i, the instant buzzer beater ~cancel well is ypu cancelling the deaths and intervening, and i also like to think i do meddle with the rides and intervene those uneven interval long deaths yeaaaah i still think my life is fake at this point, like it's all my residual memory functioning nalang post my real death which was probably a motorcycle accident or me allergic attack or bus on the pangpang and i want to meet somebody who can see ghosts and can distinguish the mass of the energies of ghost and not ghost like human living thinbutcher's profile picture Post Unavailable This post is unavailable. You replied i really feel like i was gonna get sick earlier then i just tried to not mind it and then after lunch i palit bioflu then felt a bit better had energy pa but when i abot na jud here i vv kapoy na dayun and now i feel vvv cold kaayu its just like earlie, my vessel is still trying to get rid of the foreign organisms in me. even 2 of my kauban sa office was absent today as well and i should be one of them but my immune system is obviously way stronger than them that i lasted pa this long maybe tomorrow i not go i feel vv tired, i not wan to go tomorrow noooo (n?n) i am the mastermind for the radioactive toxic organisms naaag rebolusyon in your head i know your vessel gyudnis strong but the orrganism you got from me :< are pataka pislit pislit the buttons controlling the ammonuintion of your vessel i am sorry i forced you not to sleep those moons also look thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. your v v v matang lawin na kaayo but hopefully not that kind of matang lawin hi hi thats a vvv limpyo bugi lagi i tried to kill it yestermoon by pislit2 it till i tear up but it grew still<(-?-)> thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you your v v v matang lawin na kaayo but hopefully not that kind of matang lawin hi hi what this means (?o_o) You replied what this means (?o_o) its that marks Replied to you its that marks hehe thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you its that marks i hate how this made me kilig a bit You replied i tried to kill it yestermoon by pislit2 it till i tear up but it grew still<(-?-)> my faaaav feeling which is vv perks kaayo growing it bcos the feeling is so fulfilling is when it yelo and brown from the blood clot and it tagak iyaha thinbutcher's profile picture i not use fan right now bcos it cold naman but too hot to cover with the wooly habol but then im being feasted by mosquitoes na You replied i hate how this made me kilig a bit hehe im glad i made u bukad bukad your nose Replied to you hehe im glad i made u bukad bukad your nose it sakit a bit to bukad thinbutcher's profile picture also aaaa i not poopoo diay this moon aaaaaa and vv awkward sleeping position last night Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. pleaseuu help me not jinx daut mata in a row na gyud that inverted crater on my eyelid and same eyelid i not gani matang lawin¿¿¿only normal things and fungi farming raman i see and watching also i found nice place at seaboob, but it feels more embroidered than the lanipga, the lanipga is like rendered lang on the spot for us so it's not that v v v as pretty but the dalan man sad diay got "fixed" You replied also aaaa i not poopoo diay this moon aaaaaa and vv awkward sleeping position last night did i tell you i like the smell of filtered blood of red jellyfishu when its fading na, it smells vv addictive like i can see it change color inside my lungs ans nose You replied Post Unavailable This post is unavailable. this man you when you hostile me or copy me hostile style hoestyle and then not dayun or at least you say it, i agree nalang sad not lang hell detwies tomorrow ??•?•? ali lang to me?(???,)(???????)??:?(;´n`;)?:? Replied to you in a row na gyud that inverted crater on my eyelid and same eyelid i not gani matang lawin¿¿¿only normal things and fungi farming raman i see and watching if you get daut mata you cant duol the foxling thinbutcher's profile picture i tried to poopoo but no man success o(-?-)o i can feel my physical consciousness being enveloped by the foreign organisms i don't want to daut mata but the tailor not tabi tabi po it when i gantisilyo You replied i tried to poopoo but no man success o(-?-)o i can feel my physical consciousness being enveloped by the foreign organisms didchu try volt in if i cant poopooo i replace my vessel with bionic robot form and utilise it to extract poopoo you number 4 your limbs Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you not lang hell detwies tomorrow ??•?•? ali lang to me?(???,)(???????)??:?(;´n`;)?:? yesvyesu i not hell lang siguro tomorrow i just luko beneath your feet till i stripped of my external impurities you :;(n´?`n);:(?-?-?)(-???-) the position manipulates enough the organs and massages the foreign organismsssms out thinbutcher's profile picture yoiugot leess chonk(/?\)( T?T)(?o?)(???,)(?-_-?)(???)(?•´?•`?)(n?n)(?o?)(-?-)(/?\)(-_-)( T?T)(????)(???)S(????;)?S(????;)?S(????;)? pleaseu noy say the bionic trunks is got thin, they did but my bagtak still v v vv maskulado kaayo pa it ok man it vv scary now your kicks are more powerful it could buho my body instead of just send it flyonhhg thinbutcher's profile picture i piyong usa kadali please u why my feet lang ?(???? ?? ? )?????????_??_?????·?? the chub chub lumpy space scjoliotic back still exists and incinerate and pulverise your macaroni bones and you can gif me new gills as well You replied i piyong usa kadali please u i hope there's a draeing of me at the back of your eyelids i hope the drawing of me at the back of your eyelids is feeding you nice grapes November 25, 2020 1:35 am Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. ikso soerryy soorrryyeu November 25, 2020 6:32 am aassassssssssssssssaaaaa whyyyyuee why you look emo lageee and you singing gum lageedder thinbutcher's profile picture :;(n´?`n);: November 25, 2020 7:49 am Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. November 25, 2020 10:42 am your hair is suko me and pasuyo me and extending out of spite (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? i was snoozey again after i jusy got pukaw bcos the i na the foxlings basinet thinbutcher's profile picture yes but not suko suko kaayu just questioning why youre hair not extrnding as well (???) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. aaaa aaa and cute kaayo the maci lambing the spots, he's the only thing she doesng fite Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you aaaa aaa and cute kaayo the maci lambing the spots, he's the only thing she doesng fite and the tauriel too but tauriel is locked in man bcos she always kiat and she might be preggu so yaaaaa haha i knew it gyud thinbutcher's profile picture 800down's profile picture 800down

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[...] it's like theyre a 4 headed hydra eel that just gif birth to shrimpusuu is the k0ya b3H diay mooon offf right now and bonding the little rascals ?(*???*)? thinbutcher's profile picture they are called lamprey diay S (???;) it really sounds like a Pokemon name and i thought they are leeches but hybrid bcos they from the sea aaaaa the powers of the flowers of the foxxxlliiiing aaaa the bansheee just said tigjt now we ligo dagat this saturnmooon the baaansheee nana haaaaa and dala the bepissss but inside lang the sakyanan pa silong pa sun the 6moon sun and she asked me if i know any i said the liloan stitch /(? x ?)\ You replied they are called lamprey diay S (???;) it really sounds like a Pokemon name and i thought they are leeches but hybrid bcos they from the sea i think one of its idiosyncrasies woild be the blessing of opening all its bajilion eyes, its got a future sight, past sights and sights to all fucked and unfucked timelines and it spins when its na buang na with so much stuff going on at the same time is its disadvantage can you sea slug gazing for me (?-_-?)(/?\) thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and she asked me if i know any i said the liloan stitch /(? x ?)\ WAAAAOOOOOOOOWWWWW do you still like me i think you'll got different answer if you looked into my po0okiedex ?????(n?n)(* >?<) thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i think you'll got different answer if you looked into my po0okiedex ?????(n?n)(* >?<) like you gonna go ligo ayodont tellmeyou got shiny wobbifufkdxf mmmmhmmmmmm mm...mmmmm thinbutcher's profile picture liiiiikee i was saying like like are you gonna go ligo sayo kaayo with the foxling at the liloan stitch dagat (O_O;) i was actually been thinking bout the liloan memories and all the time we were there and how it feels to be there recently but we war pa man then i didn't tell you lang noo00 i said danao man but layuan naman, but i was thinking about the hoy piste dagat man when i suggested not the spot we got married in , or we had our reception first bcos we always bali bali like that, and nn nn nn aaaand yeaaaaah tell meeee You replied liiiiikee i was saying like like are you gonna go ligo sayo kaayo with the foxling at the liloan stitch dagat (O_O;) i was actually been thinking bout the liloan memories and all the time we were there and how it feels to be there recently but we war pa man then i didn't tell you lang you know when i go there with you it doesn't feel like there's a dagat, then i remember where na diay ko na lunod ehehegkofeo92922ien im soffry (n?n) thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you mmmmhmmmmmm mm...mmmmm *more intense HzhzmmmHhmmmmmmmmzzz* ihatryou Replied to you you know when i go there with you it doesn't feel like there's a dagat, then i remember where na diay ko na lunod ehehegkofeo92922ien whhyyuuu man you vvv pakilig i like it but i roll my eyes but yesu you kill kilig kilig my kili kili (????)????? thinbutcher's profile picture /(/ /•/?/•/ /)/ no999 fuk you dont say it out loud, maygani i wear a mask right now theyll think i nabuang nasad, last time they saw this was last eon pa or earlier in this eon thinbutcher's profile picture whaaaattchuu meeaan man last time thy say this this what man :;(n´?`n);: You replied whhyyuuu man you vvv pakilig i like it but i roll my eyes but yesu you kill kilig kilig my kili kili no0ooo i just remembered that it takes a short while to remember, bcos we like pa palid to the wind where we go and think of liloan stich to ligo or something but we never end up ligo jud, just glued to the broken bridge like the smuggled creatures there or the sand and like there's no sea and its3never even tooo scorchy angry the sun when we go there You replied whaaaattchuu meeaan man last time thy say this this what man :;(n´?`n);: last time vv v v higj voltage, ngisi ngisi na saniban doppleganger ngisi me baaaaa they seaaa so yawa killligieaehehhejwje You replied to yourself no0ooo i just remembered that it takes a short while to remember, bcos we like pa palid to the wind where we go and think of liloan stich to ligo or something but we never end up ligo jud, just glued to the broken bridge like the smuggled creatures there or the sand and like there's no sea and its3never even tooo scorchy angry the sun when we go there vv v v v pa obvious kaaayo na we lunod na lunod na doay daaan (?-_-?)/(? x ?)\(* >?<)(/?\) (n?n)(n?n)(n?n)(n?n)(n?n)(n?n)(n?n)(n?n)(n?n) Replied to you no0ooo i just remembered that it takes a short while to remember, bcos we like pa palid to the wind where we go and think of liloan stich to ligo or something but we never end up ligo jud, just glued to the broken bridge like the smuggled creatures there or the sand and like there's no sea and its3never even tooo scorchy angry the sun when we go there yaaaa come to think of it it was never sakit sa panit init pan init just suwaw is the closest to it lang and yaaa we never ligo ligo there jud Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. u suwaw thinbutcher's profile picture i gonna make a nilopak and i gonna use some ripe bananas with it eeeee the aning not here they all not here noone can buyag and tell me not to (?*>?<)? ?(? ? v ?) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied i gonna make a nilopak and i gonna use some ripe bananas with it eeeee the aning not here they all not here noone can buyag and tell me not to (?*>?<)? ?(? ? v ?) oouuuh hhh aaaAsshh aaaaahhh it's vvv gonsa be designer gourmet linusak aaaaa the macistant willl tinker tinker apil eeee i just finished it and i dont like it (???) buttt my mind at peace nooow bcos i know na jud why not include the hinog ones ("=?=) wow i look like this and you actually love me thinbutcher's profile picture whyyy omgosh i look horrid (¯?¯)(?.?)(°?°?) heyyy000onio00oo why you say that about my love mannn ?(???? ?? ? )?????????_??_?????·???:?(;´n`;)?:? you tryna insult my gem butttt t tnooo000 nno ?(`?´?)??(o`?'o)?s(·`?´·;)?(?-`?´-)?(?s?)?(????)??(????)??(`?´?)? (?s?) thinbutcher's profile picture (?-_-?) i look vv ugly there man like a Picasso painting pikaaapikaaa chuuu my eyes not tungog and my facial muscles look like pasmado muscle frozen mid twitch thinbutcher's profile picture (/?\) bcos you was loook at the sedusa medusa cebuada maaaan ????(????)? Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture the ayumi literally just asked if "luto na ni? " can we talk about how textured ypir faceu was why you glow up man there at the bitaug na, ?(`?´?)? i gona jinx the texture strawberry bcos i love it whaaaaAaaaag youncoook pa diay it, i think she thinks its the premature of a banana cake but ita actually final na thinbutcher's profile picture waaaaittyy i kaon bugnaw food thry not hikay man for lunch kos they go to the silingan Birthday (+_+) so i left herr with from ganena buntag food lang hmmmm intensifieeedd vvvv angkol dewtiess °~°~`??`??°??`??`? aaaaa they abot na and laf at my nilopak nilusak (?_?) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i palit ukay jeans and it ulan right now (???) i camt uli yeeeet thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. November 25, 2020 6:09 pm

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look i fixed the aning eye glasses with a zip tie Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. look jaweh sud an the nilopak we laf kaayu here hahahahahaha thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you can we talk about how textured ypir faceu was why you glow up man there at the bitaug na, ?(`?´?)? i gona jinx the texture strawberry bcos i love it i not man gud glow up here (/?\) i glow up diaaayy no man guuuud i got pimple ganeee ??? You replied aaaaa they abot na and laf at my nilopak nilusak (?_?) eeee e hihi they must be uli from vvv kapoy lakaw or a not so eventful mundane moon and they abot it and lightened their spirits gyud not na ka discoiraged haaathe tinamban little rascal ohhhh ?(ò_ó?)? but they laf gyud lagi the tinamban kitchen i pud make them cheesecake before and they say gyud i vvv maayo cook mexican food , ?(#???)?+? they tease it was quesadilla na nalay bluberry (???;) whaaAaa aaaat i thot it was one of the bata of the aning, its joehbadobeh deaaaaaayyyy i noy recognise recho thinbutcher's profile picture until now i not know what is tinamban baya (?v?;) but yes yesuu i not discouraged gyud bcos i got 1 nice and genuine review by someone who tasted it and it was jaweeehh she said lamiiii maaan she liked it so much she sud.an it (/???)/ for00giifff i just now balik pid, bcos vvv panic earlier the foxling flowers vs the her gas and she won na unta but it balos vvv forfeit cheater balos the gas, and she acid reflux to her vvv bionic nose , the banshee hunat pa gyud that i dont know how to use the improvised breather but its vvv simplemphysics ra gani ?(#???)?+? but vvv luyo man my bepis was lisod ginhawa like her abuelo, also his swag test he din pass thank gooodness {{|+(>o< )+|}} it was high cholestrol diay luoy the jawiishhwutch is witch man gud vvv hyped with sari sari ingredients of a bubbling tinamban but tinamban with a heart cauldron a hi hii hiiiie not know diay tinamban, you can tinamban man pud what it is +(=^?^=)++(=^?^=)+ it was also raining here, like a foreshadowing of a desert to overrule the universe sooon bcos the sky was like vvv marigold it also rain pud, my kaspa vv v minnie kaayo and i wearing baya emo colours shirt [??`?´??] also you know ba the wafers crumbs tagak on the cup of my facemask ans i wear it nabalik properly and i inhaled and i got tuk an but vv sweet choke we going haf sweet monggos right now Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied dids you know maci loves sayote kaayu you haf na diay third coralbone is the its the macistant eee that's why but you know ba the sayote is vvv skull shroom frooot You replied

the gardner found his stash of this , and he psuedo joked na he put it daw on my batiis para i canot na takas sa kadlawn (¬?¬?)[??`?´??]S(-`?´-?;)? blaaablaaablaaa i not hear it lalalalala but yeaaah its stronger than our bones toheyher vvv soft bones baya us you'll hippie core the jeans nooohhhh ¿¿¿ thinbutcher's profile picture oohh nooooo the foxling diay adversaries counter types started to show na. not worry vvv worry kaayu bcos that's just how lings are maaan at least that what i think they just really have many obstacles with their vv soft and fragile body and still configuring internal settings (¬?¬?) Replied to you it was also raining here, like a foreshadowing of a desert to overrule the universe sooon bcos the sky was like vvv marigold it also rain pud, my kaspa vv v minnie kaayo and i wearing baya emo colours shirt [??`?´??] also you know ba the wafers crumbs tagak on the cup of my facemask ans i wear it nabalik properly and i inhaled and i got tuk an but vv sweet choke THIS WHAT I WAS ASKING WHY YOU LOOK LIKE THAT EMO STYLEZSZZ KAAYU AND WHY SANG THE GUMOOSE GINAMOOSEBLOOD SONG ALL OF A SUDDEN but then maybe just lavandera dewties lang the garments and not pa dry bcos rain(???) thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you'll hippie core the jeans nooohhhh ¿¿¿ aaaaaaa wait i show you Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i only noticed it earlier when the aning asked me if i was able to buy some jeans and when i looked at kay i saaaww thinbutcher's profile picture what were you singing ( T?T) i camnt here bcos rain hmmmmmmit got organic hippie ¿¿¿¿ You replied what were you singing ( T?T) i camnt here bcos rain whaaaay i was singing diay you hwar it it was rain laman i hear to you thinbutcher's profile picture

i was singing the passionfruot by paramore bcos me and the fox were discussing tooopid sick pedos ?(????(?_?) thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. \(?o?)/ Replied to you whaaaay i was singing diay you hwar it it was rain laman i hear to you you were singing (???) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture lets kick them pedos the bad n bojie raba karate kid cosplay kaayu ooohh You replied

iz ze french verzion of ze banda aaaaa the aurora borealis ligjts of bitaug it's not diay the ayumi the big one it's jawehhh na diay vvv big pud Replied to you iz ze french verzion of ze banda i was thinking thaaaaat aaaa noooo you copy me it me baya z french impersonator (?-?-?) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture the aning impromptu pa picture dayun when she saw me took pictures of the rascalsssszz you bought this inside a time rift and and nnn the murderer of the French 1975 not dispose the garment and the impostor 1975 altered the timeline really but you can reverse the glitch with thiiiiis eeee and debunk them rats . i wonder where the rest four are now You replied i was thinking thaaaaat aaaa noooo you copy me it me baya z french impersonator (?-?-?) me man guuuud puuuud moi by z 1975 vêtements pour hommes by z 1975 thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you bought this inside a time rift and and nnn the murderer of the French 1975 not dispose the garment and the impostor 1975 altered the timeline really but you can reverse the glitch with thiiiiis eeee and debunk them rats . i wonder where the rest four are now it the timeline where the robbers is a disco song?(¯???) voleuses by ze 1975 hmmMmmm it the timeline the choke let is about shrooms they ride the space shuttle with minnnie flowers and peave sings and the rasss got vlong hair thinbutcher's profile picture waaaiiitittt meeeemememee You replied it the timeline where the robbers is a disco song?(¯???) eeee here we danced danced and you tjrew your neon bra at them and me throw art museum frank oceans i mO0ng waA-8 You replied THIS WHAT I WAS ASKING WHY YOU LOOK LIKE THAT EMO STYLEZSZZ KAAYU AND WHY SANG THE GUMOOSE GINAMOOSEBLOOD SONG ALL OF A SUDDEN i was jus asked by my subconscious why i never wore this with you or bring it thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i was jus asked by my subconscious why i never wore this with you or bring it YES WHY why you remove whayaaaa whaaaatt i remove what maaaan kikikiki thinbutcher's profile picture (s???)s you legit me thinbutcher's profile picture i legit thought this was one of your Korean pop names ?(???*) no00 it was thaaaattttt man guuuud ?(?(?)?)? Replied to you i mO0ng waA-8 i legit thought this was one of your Korean pop names ?(???*) thats why i removed iiiitt the emochi pikaaasss i gonna send it man gud balik (?o_o) aaa there it is again Replied to you eeee here we danced danced and you tjrew your neon bra at them and me throw art museum frank oceans aaa colours i show you the other jeans i bought and it got colours took i mean vv minor lang but it nice kaayu touches i like kaayu i fit it gud dayun (´?`) are you suko me S(?°? °; )?

thinbutcher's profile picture ,(???+---- ?°(?´?´)?*:??? noo00 i was help Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. the guardner suho the yaya lychee pa tawag the banshee him from the hospital he'll uli na tomorrow mooon Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied

hmmmmm not man kaayo soft touches but vvv loud reggae touches i like the jeans urdu on it °???(°?°)???° are you suko sanguko me now ?(´?`)? the banshee pa solbad the picture size dilemma of the tv she just andar but not even paying attention to it just noise music You replied aaa colours i show you the other jeans i bought and it got colours took i mean vv minor lang but it nice kaayu touches i like kaayu i fit it gud dayun (´?`) hmmmmMmmm i sea daw how it fit the smol smol boyscput paa Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. wwwwhaaaat you send doay video can i ask somethinf suko me jud °??° aaaa you watching diay the encantadiaaaa thr jaaawwehh got pauli sayo she not seen it man no it not Reggae( ???) it never crossed my mind jud it reggae nooo maaan guuudd(?°?°)??(\ .o.)\ the colors vv niceu baya im thinking bags and shoes i never got when i was smol thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you the guardner suho the yaya lychee pa tawag the banshee him from the hospital he'll uli na tomorrow mooon the guardner diay at the hospital ?(???;) eee e e i sakpan you thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you can i ask somethinf what is it maaan (?o_o) i nit man want that the bullets jus shot and not haf the strays fall eventually they will follow but not prolong it im sorry tje war is signed peace treaty without writing it, i mean it wrote itself through every little and full and all sorts of comprehension response to the thinfs we bring up that bothers us or brings more clarity to this can you tell me what else you find problemamtic aboutmme i wasnt in any way not offering my willingness can i thinbutcher's profile picture :((( ;(((((( i like that tooo Replied to you can you tell me what else you find problemamtic aboutmme i wasnt in any way not offering my willingness i feel jud like there's always a need to say things like this, it's not like you to say this and i like how you say this even though its not like you to say this i dont really keep track of what is "problematic" about you man. even when we war it takes some effort to come up with a list. but i do have something to say and its not inherently problematic in nature man, i guess. also i hate how a little misunderstanding between us feels like it could cost our relationship na dayun, every damn time. makes me tense and yknow how being too careful and anxious of what you do takes the happy or essence out of it natural.biology's profile picture natural.biology

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[...] pleaseu forgif this i just feel like i need to lighten the mood a bit like a vv smol advertisement lang then (?o_o) it does not take away the essence or happy out of it unless the things done or in the process of doing are intended to tarnish those things, i know it cant be helped to feel that way, too careful or anxious but too careful seems like an afterthought of something double edged or malicious or not pure in nature but i think i get what you mean that the injuries have led to a mental infection to the point of gaslighting the innocence or wholesomeness or nonchalance of what we do i kinda wish you didn't think that, not in a hostile way but its just sad that one can't avoid but associate malicious with being too careful. but yea you get what i mean right. it would be way better if we could do things in a way that our shoulders are loosened up a bit thinbutcher's profile picture bcos yknow the being too careful and anxious taints you're being too careful to the point where you question if its malicious or not. i mean it lingers in your mind as it is at most. i suko it sooo much when you counter my arguments with questioning or making stand on my sense of perfection. i dont. have a sense of perfection, the arguments itself is a sign of me being purely not perfect. and i hate that you think that the opposite of making mistakes, having done dirty unforgivable things, questionably faithful is automatically perfect, it doesnt give me room both of us room required to feel truly bad about the hurt in exchange of the wrongs done to us like the ultimate capacity of a partner¿is just to feel sorry for the other bcos they dont act like them or they are not as spotless as them, bcos for me like what i truly get out of when wrong things are done is ultimately pain that is hard to get over, not pity that you cant match my spotlessness which is inexistent but i want to believe you said it from a place of making me realise that i am at fault, i know. i have done more wrong than good to you and i have done more wrong that you ever had to me to you, im sorry i still havent learned how to not use unneccessary horrible things, i know it's an absolute projection of me and me alone and that's why im mostly unguilty when i bitiw them but not thinking of the cost which is damage and trauma on your part im sorry im jus not add a emochi but you kno i say it with emochi man ?:?*+;(?´???`?);+*?:??:?(;´n`;)?:? ?:?(;´n`;)?:? thinbutcher's profile picture nooo there no emochi man gud, if we talk about things like this, faults and projections if there no emochi, there no emochi gyuud im jsut vvvv scared and we are vvv vulnerable it still confuses me about the certainty of faithful you wouldnt bring it up cup pool times if it just wasnt for the sake i know You replied also i hate how a little misunderstanding between us feels like it could cost our relationship na dayun, every damn time. makes me tense and yknow how being too careful and anxious of what you do takes the happy or essence out of it i never neeeeever neveeeer neeeever thought of throwing this away for superficial things i know my extreme reactions, extreme self, surge of barbed coral coral mind just dont match the superficiality of the predicaments i stil cant play the aning spotting video Replied to you it still confuses me about the certainty of faithful you wouldnt bring it up cup pool times if it just wasnt for the sake i know this is similar to what you said about me responding to an issue or argument using a question, bcos it gets to a point where i find it ridiculous and absurd that I'm accused of or for such an idea to exist especially persistently. for me man gud, and i think its pretty common, using a question to respond is the quickest way to convincing or answering someone. i mean its vvvv close kaayu to being sarcastic but its still distinguishable. cos come to think of it if i answer with a question, then ideally you would ask yourself that question diba and if you'd come to a conclusion in where you get what im trying to say (which is supposedly the counterargument) then you wouldn internalize it already in your own monologue and thered be no need for me to say and expand on things that also may include unnecessary hostilities. cos if answered or addressed normally there's a bigger chance it could be misunderstood, especially when the argument concerns non tangible variables and things alike thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i never neeeeever neveeeer neeeever thought of throwing this away for superficial things i know my extreme reactions, extreme self, surge of barbed coral coral mind just dont match the superficiality of the predicaments but it feels like man gud and i get vv anxious na dayun and you ignore me and not pansin me na. also i think its also bcos we have vv limited time together together that I'd worry so much about resolving it. cos i also worry and count the hours man gud that i could hold you that i feel like i have the need to reconcile or fix things as fast as possible November 25, 2020 11:35 pm thinbutcher's profile picture (/?\)(?-_-?)(?-???-c) no0000 are tou still ther, the waves are barbed abdb stiifff |-|+ ^ | | v You replied this is similar to what you said about me responding to an issue or argument using a question, bcos it gets to a point where i find it ridiculous and absurd that I'm accused of or for such an idea to exist especially persistently. for me man gud, and i think its pretty common, using a question to respond is the quickest way to convincing or answering someone. i mean its vvvv close kaayu to being sarcastic but its still distinguishable. cos come to think of it if i answer with a question, then ideally you would ask yourself that question diba and if you'd come to a conclusion in where you get what im trying to say (which is supposedly the counterargument) then you wouldn internalize it already in your own monologue and thered be no need for me to say and expand on things that also may include unnecessary hostilities. cos if answered or addressed normally there's a bigger chance it could be misunderstood, especially when the argument concerns non tangible variables and things alike you just shed light on what makes this mechanism despicable and more steps backwards than normally addressing it, i vvv sleepy snoozey na kaatu ( T?T) anfd i got arat tutunlan (=?=) and tjere newnorn puupies outside i cam jere tjeeeem Replied to you you just shed light on what makes this mechanism despicable and more steps backwards than normally addressing it, also i not man sayigg this a btter way or superior wys lf addressinggthings haaa it justtt meee nnnn aaaaaaa sleepppnaaaaa tayyuuuu thinbutcher's profile picture ?(~ - — - ~)? me as eelll i also jus ganina weave n unsew my words in my mind but it's not too wobbly specific that its abstract ill answer when my answer feels right sad marrrks thinbutcher's profile picture aaareee youuusoukomeee whaawetttno0000000000ooooo whyeu i suko noooo maaaan my mind is frustrated trying to word the all words in a new order so you not kapoy it or eeel your eyes thinbutcher's profile picture yesyu yesuu feell better sleeping kmownotsuko meee i really the eopitome of the head empty but wuv you ?:?(;´n`;)?:? also i not answer rawly aaaaand retcho bcos its night na Kaayo aaaaand the words feel susceptible to beong heard with a blurred tone and pitch causing rhe foreign organisms to pisli pidl and t haywire our buttons w. zuvvv uuu kaayyuuuuu:;(n´?`n);: ( T?T)(???,)(?•´?•`?)(???):;(n´?`n);: sleeppvnss thinbutcher's profile picture tsyyuuu Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. qwee e doee that mean you tandsgmmay tandayme meee you this time thinbutcher's profile picture yeesshugsmmyy Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. you say it lagi na badkkk ewweowowpeeepepepe noo00 not ew w .wha weeee EeeÈeeeee e e emy soul is doing the eeeeeEeeeep tagna what i did to that imageu jus now thinbutcher's profile picture kkssimzs ut You replied yeesshugsmmyy hug pud apilbthe baby You replied kkssimzs ut i ask lang always sno0zey marks biiiii vvv vv pacute kaayu (´·` ) ( c//”-}{-*\x)?(???????????)?? (?? ? ?? ? )(?-???-???_-???-???)?(?-???-???_-???-???)?(?-???-???_-???-???)?(?-???-???_-???-???)?(?-???-???_-???-???)? °pindot rhe white bugi to initisate smalll spo0nn the big babuyyAZaa?` nnn sno0ey snzowwyy lagii tomorow napud thinbutcher's profile picture tmrw npusdllessu uuuu m yuuou paling na the suga pRa you not kita i kismma kisnasmsmz your eyelahamsh November 26, 2020 6:32 am thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. November 26, 2020 8:07 am thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. November 26, 2020 9:30 am i tulo laway man jud not sleeping when i sea you ???•??•????( ??????? )? yoir bugi is disappear na <(???)

he not finish his bahug it become na buffet oitside n nn look the oatmeal n apol vv karaan na there brown one na oatmeal cookie na (´·` ) yaaaa the tauriel like that as well, they get vv sad man gud and not wan to eat (?_?) thinbutcher's profile picture you hate gyud the bear bears filter hahaha you din screenshot it the other one laaaangS(???") whaaaaaaaaaat i hate it man but nothing overpowers me will to screenshot man

You replied to yourself he not finish his bahug it become na buffet oitside n nn look the oatmeal n apol vv karaan na there brown one na oatmeal cookie na (´·` ) his mechnism for dealing with jealousy is threatening to biting us but i not man labot he snugggle me man still (*/?\*) but the basnhee ted talks him every gabiii with hot seat Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. it also the the schedule anxiety pud he not got fed by the routine he got used to and got anxious and confused sensing the smolest changes vv v bpd feeelszszszsz yesu relate Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture

i jus wondering about the temporary hell nyoo00m, is that ¿¿¿¿mm mmmm i like the style of the bagum beans it's cooked very valkyrie i was calling moth moooth moooths earlier i reckon they not like the very init, or maybe not like the anemic, which i think i.am becomeing i need???•??•??? some beaaaans gif me beaaans (????) bcos i vvv envy the bansheee she was duaw by vvvv pretttty geishawk moth nnn wearing a abstract kimono mooncycles ago that the incubating foxling flowers was being pollinated by Replied to you i jus wondering about the temporary hell nyoo00m, is that ¿¿¿¿mm mmmm i like the style of the bagum beans it's cooked very valkyrie i finally balon some riceu bcos the rice here i not like and also para tipid and not that alkansi and it also cute my balonan is v smol man but actually pack enough riceu Replied to you

the bola bola actually 5 peso and it actually taste not so bad and the batong pakitong kitong whole servee the lady misheardd me i said half lang gane thinbutcher's profile picture i.am vvv jealous as well bcos i never saw that in real life i guess that color (?_?) ihate.you ihateyou.are :< thinbutcher's profile picture whay.(/?\) bato.ng thinbutcher's profile picture bak.it you balik the linkeruuu it make me cri cri bcos meet me half waaaay right at the borderrline is where im going away 4.u thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you balik the linkeruuu it make me cri cri bcos meet me half waaaay right at the borderrline is where im going away 4.u i thot you tuyo it, beans and pea.s tu.yo fried pat.is ginamoose dresss rehearsals for dagat moon Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. ?*:.?. o(???)o .?.:*? is it bad , that i dont know whay to feeel about fox buying things for the foxling like a smol organism carrier its vv endearing man and motherly but it made me taint my mama instincts tooo bcos i was soooo sure it would've beeen us na unta, kuri kuri how to alsa the baby, i was so sure we would leaf lampin her vvv pinku bossoms with poopoo icing there and ilog pa gani clean it, sayaw sayaw her in snake skin carrier, her crib would be ukay dresses pinned to a bougainvilea thornless vine bonsai and anddd and it would be fine ra jud kaayo and happy and just vvv v v just perfect thinbutcher's profile picture kangaroo emoji~ November 26, 2020 5:48 pm ?:?(;´n`;)?:?(?-_-?)? ????????????? Replied to you is it bad , that i dont know whay to feeel about fox buying things for the foxling like a smol organism carrier its vv endearing man and motherly but it made me taint my mama instincts tooo bcos i was soooo sure it would've beeen us na unta, kuri kuri how to alsa the baby, i was so sure we would leaf lampin her vvv pinku bossoms with poopoo icing there and ilog pa gani clean it, sayaw sayaw her in snake skin carrier, her crib would be ukay dresses pinned to a bougainvilea thornless vine bonsai and anddd and it would be fine ra jud kaayo and happy and just vvv v v just perfect it really woulda been us, but nooo just let the fox man gud i think maybe that's her mama way and i bet she vv happy pili2 kaayu what to buy for the foxling(*>.<*) hmmmmm are you the big suya kaayu hmMmMmm intensifies hhmmMmmmmm dids you know i had to race with the sun again when driving balik here bcos i forgot to get the light fixed bcos i was so preoccupied by myself showing you my paniudto (???") thinbutcher's profile picture my head huuurrtttsss again (?>?<) it doesn't wang me to see it noo0 noo not complain maaaan or jelly jelly liiiike i feeel ba inferior ba (???,) whahwhyyyh you gots headache laaang me unta gif na unta headache but no lang the ache heeewahattta88aaz×^^$849czcsnsksozzgs!=+/× -?-?(???;)? i just had dunner with the aning and she padungog me "mao nay anak" narrating my vvv out of nowhere cousin being nice and generous to her and her igsuons but it not affect me kaayu bcoss sakit ako ulo (???) thinbutcher's profile picture whyyy you feel inferior maaan :< You replied i just had dunner with the aning and she padungog me "mao nay anak" narrating my vvv out of nowhere cousin being nice and generous to her and her igsuons but it not affect me kaayu bcoss sakit ako ulo (???) is she pasabot "maayo naay anak" forgiiiffff fffff fo0rgggifffff tooopid ice breaker Replied to you is she pasabot "maayo naay anak" woooow you jud on a streeeaaak haaaa thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you forgiiiffff fffff fo0rgggifffff tooopid ice breaker kkikikikikiki pakyut forgif maaaan i ka ikog haf a baby myself bcos of vvvv tinamban mama wayszsz ?:?*+;(?´???`?);+*?:??(???? ?? ? )?????????_??_?????·???? ( ?????)?? but hypocritixally i hate the term tending to a baby is trial and error, itslike living yes but they not ask for it baya, but also not what i mean but mUsT sEpArAte scIencE fRom LOvE aNd faitH also ignore the sticky tacks i was quoting anti conscious laaang thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you also ignore the sticky tacks i was quoting anti conscious laaang i really really just wan to rest on your bionic trumks and ask you to pull my hair bcos i sakit ulo kaayuuu (?_?)(?_?)(?_?)(/?\)(?_?)(/?\)( T?T)(-_-)(-_-)(?o?)(???,) You replied woooow you jud on a streeeaaak haaaa no0oooo i think i got it from you and nooo i also dont get what the aning trying to prove Replied to you i ka ikog haf a baby myself bcos of vvvv tinamban mama wayszsz ?:?*+;(?´???`?);+*?:??(???? ?? ? )?????????_??_?????·???? ( ?????)?? but hypocritixally i hate the term tending to a baby is trial and error, itslike living yes but they not ask for it baya, but also not what i mean but mUsT sEpArAte scIencE fRom LOvE aNd faitH it v not trial and error /(ò.ó)????? thinbutcher's profile picture /(ò.ó)????? ?(`?´?)? \(?O?)/\(?O?)/ even the baby gona suko that the mooon is steaming kaayo its her mmMmmmmm mmm yesuuuuu i pull your illidan hair vvv gentle big stronk man style, even i kno you hapit tickle my bionic trunks at the kiliti zone o( ><)oS(-`?´-?;)? THE KILITI ZONE thinbutcher's profile picture KILIKILITITZONEE noo00 whyeuuUuu is it bad thinbutcher's profile picture it bad my kiliti ko chan bcos i cant kiliti it now thinbutcher's profile picture ??? ??(>?<)?? ??? it just the vvv v bionix trunk of the trunkest trunk raman not even the corners gyud bcos if itskiliti there it takdan my throat and it's vvv gilok all the way na the world becomes gilok thinbutcher's profile picture can you gilok my head bcos it sakit i want no head nalang and its trigger for a lot kf things that i scared gyud patid you on command thinbutcher's profile picture it always surprise me to hear youssay you scared of something cos you dont say that very often and its funny you scared of that lostmyhead insert kikikiki laugh thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you lostmyhead dont nooo0 im not threatened by me man, im scared of the effect like you might patid me back also bungi you more and bungi me back and i got vvv stronk but unreliable calcaneus Replied to you nooo0 im not threatened by me man, im scared of the effect like you might patid me back hmmmmmm yesu i see that could vv catastrophic but i don't think i could ever kick you or something like that even reflexively langS(?>_<;)? 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stilll not play jud thinbutcher's profile picture aaaaa i tried jud to goomgle it but i didn't look at the 2nd search result (?_?) You replied

eeeeee i tuyo it man cherish jericho bcos of the dyslexic art is vv fruitful ivvvv want man gud kaayu to kiliti you and do some wweeeee but i get h. 00rn.. y man gud dayun bcos so much flu.f boinng you laf laf laf kaayu vv luoy when asking stop naaaaa hshshskioikikij thinbutcher's profile picture :< it not play diay it the maci man asking me to open her makaon gif by aning You replied ivvvv want man gud kaayu to kiliti you and do some wweeeee but i get h. 00rn.. y man gud dayun bcos so much flu.f boinng you laf laf laf kaayu vv luoy when asking stop naaaaa hshshskioikikij delete [??`?´??]?(`?´?)? ?(#???)?+? You replied hmmmmmm yesu i see that could vv catastrophic but i don't think i could ever kick you or something like that even reflexively langS(?>_<;)? i received vv v v minnie clavicle n chin chinggudiii from you and just the vvv slight reflexive stabbing of your balisongag bonesszzs to chub chub man gets addictive gigil me hmmmMm thats why gani the threat abojt the wwe is v vv madugay pa the loveboingjinggay You replied

eee E the cherish and the jericho are older than the kofi naaa and speaking kf kofi, we welcomed the guardner to kumjntang flames and he got naniwang ?+?('??`*)?+? and he lili the foxling crib n na tambokikoy naman ni bata pag balik nako tinuod ni Replied to you i received vv v v minnie clavicle n chin chinggudiii from you and just the vvv slight reflexive stabbing of your balisongag bonesszzs to chub chub man gets addictive gigil me hmmmMm thats why gani the threat abojt the wwe is v vv madugay pa the loveboingjinggay delete (?°?°)?? /( ??? )\ thinbutcher's profile picture i camt even enjoy duyan2 which my rest activiy bcos if i dont duyan tjere lamok and it not so niceu feeling but if i duhysnmy head sskt You replied ivvvv want man gud kaayu to kiliti you and do some wweeeee but i get h. 00rn.. y man gud dayun bcos so much flu.f boinng you laf laf laf kaayu vv luoy when asking stop naaaaa hshshskioikikij whaaaaAaat you man jud that vvvv overkill you died pa stop me you even v v confused why i enjoy kaayo it and you anticipate me pa to attempt to revv the smackdown maybe thinking i do it is a tease n you just teasing to stop but yesuuuu i overdoing na diay it and you find it annoying na dayun like when i tagak riceu on your shorts when you nyoom and v hungry pa and me kay is..... mmmm whyeu get lamokan man youre not type o+ diay [??`?´??] hala ka stay at home gyud ????????

November 26, 2020 11:18 pm kotaarrrruuuu kotarooooooOo November 27, 2020 6:45 am thinbutcher's profile picture i woke up like 4 am something and i before that i wss dreaming about you and about habimg zé beb.í m. ¤~%~_ß®pa and it was not dream it was nighmaeeeeree (???)(???,)(?-_-?)(?•´?•`?)(n?n)(n?n)(n?n) but i frogot pa what happened but i hated it and when i woke up the towel and the mosquitoes killer lamp looked like that guy frok sxhool snd it was so fucking ugltnand annoying tooblook at and i hsd to bakod pa to takeitdown ( T?T)(?-?-?)o(-?-)o(-???-) November 27, 2020 8:24 am thinbutcher's profile picture whyyuuu mee kotaarrooo kotarooo0000 its raining diay that why my dream was vv v v long but one layer visible lang and itnwas about you and your froends had a secret plot to dispatcha me and rven the artsy girl with matching sred sunglasses with you you still not tell me who she is and why match sungleasdss and i wokeup and im the only one in the rooom na bilin i thought the tudik tusok in my void area of yhe chest is part of the dream but i woke up again just minutes ago and it physicslly there vv v tusok one tusok thinbutcher's profile picture we both had vvv bad dreams (?-???-c) but mine was like the universe and the destiny and fate are against me like every thing is wrong, the roads are not the same, lamp post misplaced, grass less green and every step i make to get closer us is answered by a no you remoce cvvv :(((?? thinbutcher's profile picture what man i remove ?( º?º )? whaaaaaaaAaaat so it is destined i get killed by your freiwnds and the girl witg red sunglssaesses why you noy tell me whoo

ooohhhg my time zone is a minute behixnd and youre a minute earlier and we are different dimensions coexisting but stll managed to overlap thinbutcher's profile picture nooooo im saying the my dream that i hhaaaad baaaa and i thought i told you na she man i guess from tinder man (?_?) she nobody she just happen to own a vv common red sunglasses with pointy pounts ?+?('??`*)?+? aaa the lucky few that you seem not cant uconnect from :< thinbutcher's profile picture whaaaatt i disconnect them namanaaaasbsbbssbsnszbx You replied we both had vvv bad dreams (?-???-c) but mine was like the universe and the destiny and fate are against me like every thing is wrong, the roads are not the same, lamp post misplaced, grass less green and every step i make to get closer us is answered by a no ?+?('??`*)?+? why you believe man in desyiny no i not believe in destiny it was just implied in my dream that such a concept is real but

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i remember you chNhed your user to tinyscuba thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i remember you chNhed your user to tinyscuba no i did not >:( it had a story i canot view and it was red and all my fingerprints was banned no00 ooo my dream ba you haf soap in your bio pa gyu?? maybe bcos im wearing this florida emo shirt thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you maybe bcos im wearing this florida emo shirt aaaa nooooo is that na dayun (?_?) noo0 it's like an bluepring of destiny that was made into a miniature slowly materialised aand given power through your mind ina adream thinbutcher's profile picture tinyscuba?? actually kinda cute right but doesn't fit me man still you know baaa when my friend and i she jus like boook a 200 peso flight to pampanga for us a yeah ahead n nn when jt got close na i said she nalang go alone n it.got closer she said me nalang go bcos i chanhed my mind n then when it got close na gyud we both took the chance n like 2 days before the flight pampanga airport crumbled by the earthquake thinbutcher's profile picture aaaaa that what i mean when my actions are answered with a no by the universe in my dream n the flight got reroute at first i was skeptical about the universe but dint automatically agree it was a no, n then we got rerouted to manila n nn there were no buses to sagada gyuuuud, we fought a lot there at the terminal n i not even binuang said we not sagada nalang n then there was brownout there and there was a couple fighting n it was tagalog na dayun, the realms were v v v reareanged she tried again make hangyo the ticket person and we got the chance passenger seats with a creepy dude who stopped talking to us after we answered his relentless question if we were seeing ba our bana at sagada n we said its us man the together ooo0f he had no teeth from betel nut at ifugao and i just let the two of them talk while i was negotiating with the universe, and i looked up the bus that tado rode ending his life and its the florida one n i was wearing florida pa gyud and we got the chance passenger, we probably died na, but still going about this simulation and i got alive again bcos i died in motorcrashes and went about and alive bcos i died n yeaaah no concept of universe or destiny or big bang atomic collision is even containing mass to begin to be thought if i mean when you bring up destiny it says no and it is a grandly cold shouldered unit of no its like you're saying you dont believe in destiny but one way to prove its inexistence is to bring it up it mirrors the atheist vision we esakpan i think man destiny is true for other people, its half real when one believes in it. thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you we esakpan suckpeen im not saying not inexisting im saying maybe we are mutated too thinbutcher's profile picture mew tiddy you suckpeen thinbutcher's profile picture no no kotarooOoo i do haf mew peen thinbutcher's profile picture are you the watching the anime of that kotaro wana see Replied to you wana see yes

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You replied are you the watching the anime of that kotaro you did¿¿¿ ni000 i thought you luod me i remove it nalang i baya balik here the talinglingting tingaling bcos there agriculture review (?´?`?) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture noooo i not luod man guuuddd how is it called a review when the last agricultural lessons we got is grade six paman itss vv rear na kaayu aaaaaaa is it theoretical lang i not see the layout of the program i only saw lunch vvv fast kaayo bomb thinbutcher's profile picture did you pamahaw naaaa thats why no pamahaw pa maybe still ligid2 there i not there being ligid ligid over (???) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i know ?(?_°)? the milo looks not lasaw n it isnt n the rain is reserving the constellation kurentreetiddy n i only got 4 % nalanh sextmachine we don't know when this will be back (?'????`??? ??) November 27, 2020 11:30 am thinbutcher's profile picture noo0000oo whyyyy how there brownout in kumintang you're literally tapad the power there (???)<(-?-)> November 27, 2020 3:56 pm thinbutcher's profile picture wheeeereee is the constellationsss kurryeenttteeew ---?( º _ º?)

thinbutcher's profile picture your nails are so cleeeeaaamm (?o 3 o) November 27, 2020 8:24 pm thinbutcher's profile picture /(ò.ó)????? November 27, 2020 9:43 pm (?-_-?)?:?(;´n`;)?:?

are you in calcutta india right now Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i am you this moon i got massive massive sakot sa ulo ?+?('??`*)?+?(?'????`??? ??) but i iii know na a new batarplaiii knifeu move eeeee i teach me lang hinumo(?-_-?)murag korek where're the whee ere reereee did the vebus fly trap you took.home from the agricuultere review eat you (?-_-?) (???,) or there was a dawn of an epipjany of retrqcing your earthly roots and im one og those you decided to have no material attachment with ??? ? (? ????´ ????`) ??? ??? ? (? ????´ ????`) ??? (???,) (???) (???)(???)(???)(???) the kuryentree balik before fove moon which was the saad, and i was carryingbthe folxong she sparked the energy with her vv big utong charging the constelllation corners n also i went out na to libot and observe nature at night n played with snails vvvv gargutuan snails it made my finger bend vv heavy gyud cant raise it to seesaw it bcos feasting on the alugbsti and carisa gumameala, leaves, and i think thats last time i washed my hands n i touch tocuh my faceu alot n i higda pa ghud in my room v v no limpyo since foxling incubation pa and also nvm (???,) November 28, 2020 4:19 am Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. November 28, 2020 7:41 am (?-???-c) Replied to you

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i actually uli vv sayo bayaaa i sabot my kauban we ditch the agriculture event na and just pauli so i still had time to do some things i want to and not just sleep na dayun but you is the brownout pajuuud (=?=) thinbutcher's profile picture pleaseu show me the murag korek bumterfly trick moves (*>.<*) innghmg sakpsj ieeee istio so bv dboo0zy but checking if you mata na ba aaaaseeewwa halo haoooloo ?:?(;´n`;)?:? thst a lipay enochi imagine it i vv sleepy go to tye enochiapp thinbutcher's profile picture i mataa naaa the 4 am moon. bcos the lamok feasting on me na and i vv paningot bcos brownout as well i balhin the duyan2 dayun whewwwwwas uou not diay attebd the agro revieee i wa auya gani kay you migtj be vvv expert na doubkw expert earthbeder thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you whewwwwwas uou not diay attebd the agro revieee i artend man guuud but 3 moon kay hapjt na man human they na handing out snacks and fit n right and coke so i just got the snakxs and we pauli S(???") my vblaader hurtd :< i think i simulated wanting ti marang bcos i jus let the fan be even when it got tooncold at 333 moon but N i cang reach it bcos of the landfill so i cang crawl witn mt back now my blader n pa***s9nf*ooot hruts my dreams were vv mch puzzles of dreans pa i vvv sure i am about to dream, i not have a full one gyud this position is vivid dream agent but i remember i changed my poses a lot i even patung my feeties on the csanina n also sanina the other one ans the cpu the my bagtai k mh windowsn ar eclosedomhhggg how diay i mananged to sleep like that >??< Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i banyabnow?(???? ?? ? )?????????_??_?????·?? destroying my 3 moknnstreak with a grace igmhmhmooomg you na the devirginan thenfit and right ayuda pangkabuhayan pakcgae eeeee it's unuversal pangkabuhyan diay n not lang a deaf aid thing but talingthing pud as well hmmm the snakcs alsoo meat roll heh why not me man lamo00kkkk (*´°?????????°???????? )?(´°?????????°????????`)????(? ? ?)????? (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? You replied to yourself thst a lipay enochi imagine it i vv sleepy go to tye enochiapp wyhyeu heart reacc this thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you my dreams were vv mch puzzles of dreans pa i vvv sure i am about to dream, i not have a full one gyud this position is vivid dream agent but i remember i changed my poses a lot i even patung my feeties on the csanina n also sanina the other one ans the cpu the my bagtai bagta.i imong bagta i bagtai kaaaa thinbutcher's profile picture kikiki kkkkkk ikaw maaaan dili pasimot ganiii Replied to you ikaw maaaan dili pasimot bcos ew thinbutcher's profile picture i ate just now and i swear jud the overmarinated karne kille d my tasetbudss (¯?¯) You replied i ate just now and i swear jud the overmarinated karne kille d my tasetbudss (¯?¯) i not even ligo recho sitting pa on themy throne to sext you (???) You replied i ate just now and i swear jud the overmarinated karne kille d my tasetbudss (¯?¯) i sensei the sensei gona poo00pooo in 5 por 3 2 thinbutcher's profile picture rolermbrladeuusuu aeeee it v v ibiggg baya mga bajillion sizes too big it can fit another giant feetie crosswise i barug na ligo b4 mabinhug napid Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. you singlehandedly mindlessly did that <(/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ????? ? (? ????´ ????`) ???(?-_-?)?:?(;´n`;)?:?????(?? ? ?)????? Replied to you you singlehandedly mindlessly did that (?o_o) pleaseu forgif for that meeeee (???) thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you aeeee it v v ibiggg baya mga bajillion sizes too big it can fit another giant feetie crosswise yaaaa it even more bigg now bcos you mgot less big (?-_-?) November 28, 2020 12:02 pm You replied (?o_o) pleaseu forgif for that meeeee (???) ??? ? (? ????´ ????`) ???(???) You replied (?o_o) pleaseu forgif for that meeeee (???) i hink we gona ahaf mickle mouse themed kushm000sh tweeee o00f nggggg(?-_-?)

eeeeh my faaav time bcos the bandshee hand n my hand abot when patuyok the lights n closest i get to hold her haaand why like that man talk me on telegram ganiiii, (?-_-?)are you gona uli me to the dumbpsite Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. mana ! a !! (???) (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? wooowzaa slight paibog the crescelia maaan (?-_-?) the aning actually butang Christism lights like dugay ra she butang na dayun September pa ganeee now some of them guba na daan before the Christmas abot hahahaha Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture i just discovered how to do that thing bun where it doesnt touch my likod naaa aaaavv lifehack for me eeeee3êree freee pearl imagueuu ?( ´? ? ? `)??(?>?<)y ?(n?n) i am looking not respectufully You replied now some of them guba na daan before the Christmas abot hahahaha you unhsn me i rehearwsed kaayo earlier mama palaw banat, but hut but but yeaasuuu the nansheee yestermoon she shagit me why daw i luto the riceu sa stove n she was solarflare na akyo and i vvv calmly sakd, asa man diay brownoutman (n?n) aaa the rare exclusive high i get when i get kasab an for something i not do they end up debunking themself hmmm ohhhshit me, must be genetics(*´°?????????°???????? )?(´°?????????°????????`)(/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? You replied i just discovered how to do that thing bun where it doesnt touch my likod naaa aaaavv lifehack for me shcolarly but i never knew preservving the illidan hair could be such a qualm for you ?(··)? You replied wooowzaa slight paibog the crescelia maaan (?-_-?) not man pasuya gud suya diay ka you undangan naman the pookie you caught na diay the musharna theeeen haloooo why retire dayun n suya (??? _ ???) alsoo0000 everybody was liiike oddly outside together and i panakaw hug hugmm00sh the foxling no00 but eewwwwweee sopreeesoupreee cant help it cnat help, v v v not violent moosh raman, jus i kno its safe bcos it feels safe embraced with her in her anti gravity swaddle even just smol part of me touch it but it's v stranded island shipwreck feeling n sleepint the catastorphe til morning is pulled Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Replied to you alsoo0000 everybody was liiike oddly outside together and i panakaw hug hugmm00sh the foxling no00 but eewwwwweee sopreeesoupreee cant help it cnat help, v v v not violent moosh raman, jus i kno its safe bcos it feels safe embraced with her in her anti gravity swaddle even just smol part of me touch it but it's v stranded island shipwreck feeling n sleepint the catastorphe til morning is pulled whaaatt but you no ligo for manu moons na man and you moosh the foxling halaaaa kaaa (????)

thinbutcher's profile picture you vvv look like the banshee here (?o_o)( ºÄº )S( ° ? °|||)?(???;)S( ° ? °)(?¯?¯?)S(???")S(O_O;)Ó( ° ? °|||) You replied whaaatt but you no ligo for manu moons na man and you moosh the foxling halaaaa kaaa noo00 my hair is vvv softt na gani its invisble gani and i humot man?(?>?<)y ? maybe that younjsut suya thinbutcher's profile picture my hair man gud aso vv soft but its vv long na i really wan 2 cut it bcos i not like it gyud this long (???) ? ? (?o???????o????) ? why you palongit not pahungit to me but for realszzs s why is it bcos of the anak singer meme *big hinambid* You replied

whyeuu thisss i look likw quentin tarantinos forhead Replied to you ? ? (?o???????o????) ? why you palongit not pahungit to me what man palongit (?o_o) thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you but for realszzs s why is it bcos of the anak singer meme and whaaaat what for realssz man pa long it the illidan i was looking for my habal license btw bcos the aning want go somewhere she vvv bad mood rn vv catalyst kaayu to my big bad mood thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you pa long it the illidan i pa long it bcos this not actually intended but there just no one to cut it here i got traumatized na by siquijor hair cutters man i cut vv welllll i got 4 suke na You replied i was looking for my habal license btw bcos the aning want go somewhere she vvv bad mood rn vv catalyst kaayu to my big bad mood btwww wovllyouuu wammiyouu bubbleyoubabol gaaang You replied i was looking for my habal license btw bcos the aning want go somewhere she vvv bad mood rn vv catalyst kaayu to my big bad mood its lieks dictate thr seakiaswjore weather thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you btwww wovllyouuu wammiyouu bubbleyoubabol gaaang what thsi you btw mee it been a while since i go yawa and i should constantly yawa baya just to let some of steam steameroff thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you btw mee bcos im v close to yawaing this place theeeen theeeen you y...ouuuuu you yawa the bitaug ! ! ! ! !!! can i throw an accounting book at the peacekepper brother im pretty sure someones waiting to do it, and it would be a consolation for many (n?n)? ? (?o???????o????) am i.wroong ??(··)? i.am thinbutcher's profile picture why you like me man (?-_-?) did you do something(??? ????) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied why you like me man (?-_-?) please tell me please i dont know if i can take my consciousness and the parasites ?(··)? pleaae are you okay (n?n) maybe this is your way of asking yourself if you still actually like me im confused n scared n comfused you tell me lang please what's happening and what you want (???,) thinbutcher's profile picture just wait a bit You replied why you like me man (?-_-?) i got my reasons maaaaanb ut can you gif reasons why i shouldmt and why i should stop i want to not be comfused anymore tomorrow mext few moons, but if you are confused, we should just be confused together and working on not making it us more confused and working on making us less confused i.will Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. yessuueeuueu i try breathe lang not hold breath i mean but did you take the lavanasheee to the mangrove isle you made me take a look before, like a accidentally pushing the button of ypur controller tooo hard and tearing the mario cart rainbow road grid with a zoom and ending up at that hidden isle Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. aaa thr ayumi as well said delivery padala when she was carrying the psyduck in the box whyyyuu you show me those maaan vv smol pa kaayu (??? ? ??)?(/?\)( T?T) thinbutcher's profile picture makes my headache worse kaayu but at least that's the reason not sum stupid init and bad sleep pattern sleep position noo000 yesuuuu vvv labad gyud sa ulokekekekekkkekekukukukukuku thebanshee and guardner not know wjat was ahead of them upon the grand eruption of celestial yuckyuck You replied makes my headache worse kaayu but at least that's the reason not sum stupid init and bad sleep pattern sleep position how to unbox man the sakit <(???) thinbutcher's profile picture the smol m3en%¥.ab eiiiies. imagirsu I can't comprehend and not expect kaayu that's why my head hurtssamot you is the vvv not like you nooow and also ofc look like you still but jts like a glimpse of how tje blueprint of the our m(%•.s.hr+na looks like too bad though i not haf smol me imageus you say that gyuuuuud but i still sour fries you say it vvvv loud kaayu bcos i was already cross hatchibg the map of a smol me loook vvv congorilla blneded with °?° insert what creature smol organism you here was ?° thinbutcher's profile picture one thing i also wished kaayo if we had lang a camera before or maybe just a lot of imageus but no man (?_?) You replied why you like me man (?-_-?) xcna tyout tell me about this when the sakit is gone na/(? x ?)\ why every gma episode got a mark maaaaan 1/(? x ?)\ November 28, 2020 11:17 pm thefvnky's profile picture thefvnky

thefvnky Little princess... [...] i really feel like you get it but you're trying too hard to forget bcos what ive said and what i did turned all of it into an illusion, but you do, my heart belongs to you i dont belong to anything else but you and it hurts that it's not the same for you but don't be fooled by what's not true to you, but if you were stripped of your skin, your walls, your body, your thoughts, your petals, your image leaving the very colourful nothing darkness everything essence of you hooked to a makeshifted fishing rod and casted to a blinding void of glowing filth and carniverous debris and objects, my dive would be long but breathless, ephemeral but depthless and id find you whatever shape you ever took form in, id belong to it, i belong to your wounds and rust and hues and stings and thorns and wings and darkness and your nothing and your ache and euphoria and death and arbitrary and your illusion it physically painful to suppress the expanse of how much i miss you can you just tell me im soooo stooopid and take me back again but i dont know, i cant be split and you are me and i will only take you whole the banshee will blame the kaabog of sa akong room why i got sip od and reiterate make me clean it naabtan nalag pasko i am so hideous that i made you think you are November 29, 2020 5:23 am time and time again i find myself static, not moving in all dimensions. I'm aware of what's around me but i couldn't care. its like a mandatory stop or rest. be it in a middle of a conversation, in the middle of feeling something. in a middle of a thought. i question the things that threaten me and if it really matters if they actually do. time and time again i notice myself that no matter what i won't place my own sake before others. it even takes a lot of effort to say sorry. trust me i really dont apologize for anything anymore. very rarely since what happened to us. im not saying its your fault bcos its not but you're one of the reasons i untapped this unapologetic version of me but mostly its bcos this is just me. my ability to care and love diminished before that i am not sure if im capable of it now. please believe me when i say i love you because i really did, or at least yes i did. i kept on saying this but you were the last person i loved, its still there but i just d i just dont know what to do with it, its as if its touch became so unfamiliar. thinbutcher's profile picture im sorry im like this, my thoughts are still in shambles and i really can't feel anything grand anymore and I've always been afraid to tell you things like this bcos you might not get what im trying to say and im sorry for that but here na im telling you trying to tell you what i myself not know exactly how to say November 29, 2020 9:19 am i know it's not my fault, id rather believe in the law of diminishing marginal utility but i admire the souls living against the defiance of it, but it is been a law and still is for a reason i thought its diminishing marital unity Replied to you i know it's not my fault, id rather believe in the law of diminishing marginal utility vvv accounting

thinbutcher's profile picture i like this comic kaayu ive seen that na i know i know thinbutcher's profile picture also what you mean man cheese my own tail oooo i was milkmaid n basinet consciousness bending was just disappointed raman na it's not you who drew that and i hope you dont like it bcos they got a child hahaha and for the reason they're in pambalay and they are humanised and not interpreted in full time villain vvv pee noiiii kaayu lifetsyle thinbutcher's profile picture okay what nationality man lifestyle i should like it for hahaha i knew it was kulang a prefix. but i hope u like it for the reson thery in pambalay n they look pee noii kaayu which i like pud idk the bulingon and all that baaaa bcos bawal like baby oriented triggers nopee nopppe it aint us chiiip thinbutcher's profile picture delivery from that realm we raising ant ant sanctuaries it reminds of me of a short story i developed from a recurring theory i had longg looong ago that there were tiny tiny snails living behind my phone keypads which was the white one and na papas na MNO6 smol box bcos i used to text there with lots of ooOooOooos n mmMmmmm n 666666 now the garnder has it as a hand me down from me and they typed the story of my life that blotted very slow tho i didnt dare open it bcos im scared theyd fall off and things started to not speed up but my life was typed out of nowhere n left the snails story open ended the only thing that made sense was a colony of jellyfishes conquered and let my lifr sentence be a run on with no "ands" but "buts" when i dropped it in my pee i realised it seemed like a child like me would want to read and i turned myself into a six year old child who wore transparent everything, n when theyd needed to look for something in the bag it's very predictable but theyd not find it and it would ba very long scene focusing on the sidekicks agitation lol but not lol and the jellyfishes wrote the deletion of the contacts on the phone except a number with an unidentified area code and it was an-about-8-year-old astronaut's who the keypad kid texted to help them write their life back i did see an end to it i wasnt that fulfilled with, it lacked the dark psychological ooomph i was looking for but mmmm the stories ive just thought could only happen in my head somehow unfolded with you. i must be an inkheart. inkheart but make it a paperfan gi-ni-ang-ni November 29, 2020 2:07 pm why did you even like me im nothing but psychedelic data Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. 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November 29, 2020 6:07 pm thinbutcher's profile picture one of the reasons i like that comic is bcos of the idea that haunts me, if we ever had a child and what if its a wobbufet, that scares me to be honest. it scares me how you would treat or condition the child with your obsession of having a girl baby. and that i support jud kaayu that if there were a way jud to have a guaranteed baby girl i would but its always been 50/50. your fear is literally caused by how deep and incurable your conditioned views are on what makes a person a boy or a girl and the same goes for a child. it's so sad but knowing that is a binary exists for you maybe thats an instinct of a sort to protect them from this conditioned world but, succumbing? im glad we didnt have that baby why would you want to bring a innocent being of love made from lust, im not sure if i even still have lust left, love there is but it just feels incomplete to have a baby with you and when neither of us can provide love and lust prematurely i don't know exactly why but the smoking-meena-infront-of-the liloan-fire-station is maybe the version of you im fondest with. its one of the memories that is very reoccurring for the past weeks. its like a breather for the soul, like smoking cigarettes but would later on hurt your throat as you inhale the smoke. the view from the window doesn't even scream liloan but the pieces of the perspective are the actual triggers and very2 random and specific miniscule routine things. i could remember how you were also sleepless but still very soft and warm and chilly at the same time. i could see your baby hairs of your cheek and your nose. your eyebags are visibile but the rest of your skin was still milk and pearl with soft smoke. i could hardly sense any hostility. but than a click, a tap on the back, a very calling stare and simply a falling leaf takes me back to real time. thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you your fear is literally caused by how deep and incurable your conditioned views are on what makes a person a boy or a girl and the same goes for a child. it's so sad but knowing that is a binary exists for you maybe thats an instinct of a sort to protect them from this conditioned world but, succumbing? im glad we didnt have that baby i dont exactly get what you mean by this You replied i don't know exactly why but the smoking-meena-infront-of-the liloan-fire-station is maybe the version of you im fondest with. its one of the memories that is very reoccurring for the past weeks. its like a breather for the soul, like smoking cigarettes but would later on hurt your throat as you inhale the smoke. the view from the window doesn't even scream liloan but the pieces of the perspective are the actual triggers and very2 random and specific miniscule routine things. i could remember how you were also sleepless but still very soft and warm and chilly at the same time. i could see your baby hairs of your cheek and your nose. your eyebags are visibile but the rest of your skin was still milk and pearl with soft smoke. i could hardly sense any hostility. but than a click, a tap on the back, a very calling stare and simply a falling leaf takes me back to real time. good for her thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i don't know exactly why but the smoking-meena-infront-of-the liloan-fire-station is maybe the version of you im fondest with. its one of the memories that is very reoccurring for the past weeks. its like a breather for the soul, like smoking cigarettes but would later on hurt your throat as you inhale the smoke. the view from the window doesn't even scream liloan but the pieces of the perspective are the actual triggers and very2 random and specific miniscule routine things. i could remember how you were also sleepless but still very soft and warm and chilly at the same time. i could see your baby hairs of your cheek and your nose. your eyebags are visibile but the rest of your skin was still milk and pearl with soft smoke. i could hardly sense any hostility. but than a click, a tap on the back, a very calling stare and simply a falling leaf takes me back to real time. there's actually a weird high one can get when talking about s subject like this a dosage that i would rather let its yield exclusively soothe ur soul bcos, oh you know me, ive been catered by stoners na baya so id skip my turn thinbutcher's profile picture why are you saying that why are you in this for the chase thinbutcher's profile picture i am not, you still dont get my situation. and that's fine but also not bcos it would be a lot easier for us if you knew you kept it from me bcos you found it so entertaining to be chased that's why you gave me and yet again, the weight of figuring the rest out, puzzling the fragments of my questions with shapes that dont fit those your-answer-designated-holes You replied i am not, you still dont get my situation. and that's fine but also not bcos it would be a lot easier for us if you knew how can i get something unelaborated l o l your replies lately have been too good to be true and lubricant also why cant i make you appall me more biii thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you kept it from me bcos you found it so entertaining to be chased you say it like its been going on for months and no i am not keeping anything from you bcos i find it entertaining to be chased you're right i dont know you you know you know me well more than anybody thinbutcher's profile picture and if you say that you're contradicting yourself so hard you have walls up in your hallowed so precious whale of yours with cigarette ashes as a salt circle and a caution tape to emphasise to the braindeads it took you awhile to realise that allowing me to peek at you and know you was one of your grandest mistakes huuuh huuuh go fuck that clueless, been lied to behind their back me on the shiny tooth of your hallowed whale creep thinbutcher's profile picture its really like you didn't read anything i said, go say nalang what you want and you can just stop talking to me when you're done na (?-_-?) did u remove my message thinbutcher's profile picture no i didn't, i don't think its possible to remove man You replied its really like you didn't read anything i said, go say nalang what you want and you can just stop talking to me when you're done na (?-_-?) go listen to your own advise naaah you're like that man jud giving me away again to idk where u want me flung wow it not even close to you pinagpipilitan me to other ppl, always other ppl apil the conversation everytime Replied to you naaah you're like that man jud giving me away again to idk where u want me flung this is nowhere close to what i said thinbutcher's profile picture (?-_-?) November 29, 2020 11:35 pm Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. November 30, 2020 7:34 am You replied im sorry im like this, my thoughts are still in shambles and i really can't feel anything grand anymore and I've always been afraid to tell you things like this bcos you might not get what im trying to say and im sorry for that but here na im telling you trying to tell you what i myself not know exactly how to say can you just be direct with what you want without being indirect thinbutcher's profile picture waaaiittt (?_?) You replied wow it not even close to you pinagpipilitan me to other ppl, always other ppl apil the conversation everytime but not even close to you pinagpalitan me with other people (?-_-?)(?•´?•??`?) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i vow to never love again i vow November 30, 2020 10:16 am loooook Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. November 30, 2020 3:09 pm Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i uli na gikam fishu catching adventure with my nephew we had a lot of fun thinbutcher's profile picture peep the elephant tumblr i dagsa there's a lot of dagsa kaayo bcos vv balud man these days holyyyyshii it kaenennenen \(//?//)\ ghere a vvv smol one kaayu that ate the moon, and eeee ooo0f i sea sad a lot of preggus C:?? maybe 2 premature caviar > mature caviar ! it looks like a blast, even the fishu looks not bothered being caught and dead and demolished soon

look there man gud no pregugu thinbutcher's profile picture (‘?’) looks vv pregnany

well youll kno na if ther balas balas in your dila it would haf been nice as well to dagsa the beaver mooon yeet clips super high tide and first mooncycle of the foxling but our multicab is got na matay kalit vvv weird timing C:?? thinbutcher's profile picture aaa didd you know the fishu caviar eggus are vv nice kaayu and lami ( =?=) the caviar of that fish¿ Replied to you

just busog lusog man gud ?(`?´)? thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you the caviar of that fish¿ any fishu (?o_o) i loooove caviar vvv big caviar eater waiiiit you thi k i not eat the caviars diaaay insulting..... thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i loooove caviar vvv big caviar eater it me i said first ??\(^0^\) ?(/^-^)/? (¬?¬) nooo but whos the big eater of the big caviar eater Replied to you waiiiit you thi k i not eat the caviars diaaay insulting..... pleaseu forgif i thought man the kumintang dungeon not so fond of fishu for food thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you nooo but whos the big eater of the big caviar eater \(-?-)/ ? ? ? ooooh i haf to go and feed the foxling thinbutcher's profile picture (?°?°)??(\ .o.)\ that's me flipping you go gogogog fast na feed na feeeed me man big interrupter of the food chain, they like fishu but me no but like kaayu the unborn fishu the tulinga is v big sewage sighed weaponC:?? tulingan the one that gets big when you cook it why i been saying big in a row big big na thinbutcher's profile picture :;(n´?`n);: big abandoned C:?? you gonna make me panuhot i not ilis pa now just bilangkad infkrnt of the electric fuan big psnuhot thinbutcher's profile picture (?¯?¯?) but um so so excited you chap chap na the fishu in your plate and prove me right about the preggu You replied you gonna make me panuhot i not ilis pa now just bilangkad infkrnt of the electric fuan S(-`?´-?;)? ?(ò_ó?)? me alsa you to the toda you kamtoda me you to your kwarto and ilis na to hayahay ladlad shit shirt thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. spite me not ladlad but harecore spite na the scrunch scrunch nose pa cute 1?(????)(´_`?) thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. (;?:)noo00 is that pa your pamahaw pa reverse ?(ò_ó?)? :<<<<<< Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. noooo I had man pamahaw daan earlierthat my vv overdue paniudtue man but it ok i kaon dayun bud bud andpan bcos the my body demanding right now\>(?_?)</ thinbutcher's profile picture i was looking for pictures to greet my old roommie and i found gems instead sakpan unta is it selfirs of short hair you 9(´(?)`) the dyslexic nine is a nice add on to the emotion like the bear is tuk tu k you Replied to you is it selfirs of short hair you 9(´(?)`) how didchu kno S( ° ? °) no screemshot it bcos it vvv catalyst to a lot of things i can think thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i was even planning to tell you not send me i hated the background happenings of that era are you doing this on purpose first, you brought and not for the first time an emphasis of how you prefered the old me and other things and now this reminder of this epoch . sigh . Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture it was foolish of me to highlight how the liloan you was very intoxicating, i wasn't going to remind you but there are no low res man, i just wanted to tell you how the you smoking infront of the fire station memory was vvv reoccurring yeah a subliminal way of telling me that it was a steady decline from there , your attraction you said it was your most fondest, me when i was still damaged by myself and alot of things still less damaged i need to rest for a while my bpd axting up Replied to you yeah a subliminal way of telling me that it was a steady decline from there , your attraction how did you come to this conclusion, no there was no decline man thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you said it was your most fondest, me when i was still damaged by myself and alot of things i can still be fond of the general and have a favorite one that means something different to me, how can you be jealous of yourself i knew you'd say that last part, is that your best analysis thinbutcher's profile picture i loved almost every memory of us, you telling me jud indirectly or directly how i cant do this or that, feel this or that, act like this or that. yyou telling me i can't have a special fondness to one of our memories? maybe it just happened to be one of the sprouts of the a*xxolutbe??a°•~ms, less rustless, less dustless, less and you said it's refreshing in spite of it being reoccuring, to me it silently screams in blades to glass a bold yearning for the emptier and prototype canvas You replied i loved almost every memory of us, you telling me jud indirectly or directly how i cant do this or that, feel this or that, act like this or that. yyou telling me i can't have a special fondness to one of our memories? im sorry that's how i took it, im not saying you cant attach biases and favoritism to our memories, and it feels very invasive of me to call it ours bcos your memory is a very one of a kind possession but it's a very gratifying and intoxicating that i live in that bubble with you viewing the horizons in the exact same coordinate that we have one of the same eyes You replied to yourself maybe it just happened to be one of the sprouts of the a*xxolutbe??a°•~ms, less rustless, less dustless, less and you said it's refreshing in spite of it being reoccuring, to me it silently screams in blades to glass a bold yearning for the emptier and prototype canvas i just completely aligned the variables blindsided im sorry about that but but but im still butthurt tho (´_`?) thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. also im very self conditioned to not overrhapsodise too much the pre january axolutbeams, even the early ones had less debris of the august war than the recent ones but making memories in this strange hallucination is hard to distinguish but doesnt lessen its calibre because i think we are in same wave floating buoying on the vvv premature memories more tangible fossil of us together than a blouse with a fading scent of fusion of you that i have ayyy fakk Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied to yourself also im very self conditioned to not overrhapsodise too much the pre january axolutbeams, even the early ones had less debris of the august war than the recent ones but making memories in this strange hallucination is hard to distinguish but doesnt lessen its calibre because i think we are in same wave floating buoying on the vvv premature memories more tangible fossil of us together than a blouse with a fading scent of fusion of you that i have idk what kind of stroke i had reading hthsi and i again am wrong making an assumptiom out of loose interpretation but whatchiuu mean man reoccuring, like that memory is like lightning or it's filed and you ibot ibot it and play on command it okay man, i wasn't expecting a sorri fron you, never really expect sorri sorryu from you bcos i forgif naman you daan (?_?)(?-_-?)(???) thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and i again am wrong making an assumptiom out of loose interpretation but whatchiuu mean man reoccuring, like that memory is like lightning or it's filed and you ibot ibot it and play on command there vv specific and random triggers i not control (=?=) You replied it okay man, i wasn't expecting a sorri fron you, never really expect sorri sorryu from you bcos i forgif naman you daan (?_?)(?-_-?)(???) toxic but copy me Replied to you toxic but copy me toxic by Britney Spears thinbutcher's profile picture $?_?) toke sick

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these clipboard graveyard sexdts from january i still got it i dong even know what they contain wnna see even though the perspective is not the same and the viewing eyes not the same too we man looked at the same thing and it can't be helped for a difference to be there jud bcos its a reminder of ourselves baya and vv sorry me if not like kaayu how i saw them (?_?)(?•´?•`?)(-???-)? thinbutcher's profile picture yes yesu¿ (?´?`?) hesitant bcos it might make the bitaug weather more windy kaayu but yesuu ifguess my eyes radar dayun the ****sharna n otot mathic its mostly about the baby thinbutcher's profile picture yes it is mostly about her i .. the winsd got fiery kinda wish i unread thinbutcher's profile picture it got calmer really¿ she's worked up bcos she heard her name just soft whisper and i hear the flaps of her ears im sorry, its too early gyud ¿ it is i not know i not tell you this but when it was raining very hard, remember i not go to my temporary work that moon then the afternoon it rained so hard when i pauli, there's actually a tug on my left arm of my jacket it was too firm for the wind and too specific for it too I'd like to think it was some ghost who happend to hitch a ride on a rainy afternoon but i dont think so the black one fishu earlier is actually hard to catch by hook and line and i think it was her who tricked them to bite thinbutcher's profile picture and i asked a few friends of mine if they seea butterfly cross their motorcycle when driving and they say no, but me everytime jud everytime and i mean everytime evry single time there jud a butterfly You replied i not tell you this but when it was raining very hard, remember i not go to my temporary work that moon then the afternoon it rained so hard when i pauli, there's actually a tug on my left arm of my jacket it was too firm for the wind and too specific for it too I'd like to think it was some ghost who happend to hitch a ride on a rainy afternoon but i dont think so i second this, i know and i seen no ghost that would hitch or alight a vehicle in a conventional way, they'd lay flat on the dashboard or earth skii with theor chains hinged by the motorcyle side mirror but i know gyud it's her, she stubbornly dislikes driving infront of you and its either a baba while she's on the saddle on her webbed feet or riding shotgun pillion leaning aginst your back facing the world chasing her becoming smoler and smoler and her pores purifiying the tambucho smoke and blehhh at the camote riders, it's her, and i know you noticed that you got a flat tire and the road you drove was left with v v subtle craters and shimmering coraline cracks i hate to break it to you but your broken clavicle and elbow and its healing will take a little bit longer bcos her vvv heavy hands and grips but she's not tuyo man it okaaay, it couldn't be that bad to me if i was kimpang and she'd let me win a shatum this time, its a nice reason of a slow decay, like a favoirite toy she'd choose over a new one , daaaang it shouldn't be in the genes the toxic but it's a seemingly good toxic lel llamaw You replied and i asked a few friends of mine if they seea butterfly cross their motorcycle when driving and they say no, but me everytime jud everytime and i mean everytime evry single time there jud a butterfly hol0yshitaake shr00ms na kabuhi napud iyang kaspa sa m00oshmo0sha(´(?)`) You replied and i asked a few friends of mine if they seea butterfly cross their motorcycle when driving and they say no, but me everytime jud everytime and i mean everytime evry single time there jud a butterfly hmmmm unsaon ganiiiii the mark do this baaay may mi agi bang alibangbang kaba kaba sa imong habal kon mag maneho ka? `°insert seakisshwore encantation°° *(?•??•??)??*?:.? did i do it right thinbutcher's profile picture although imvvv sleepy na with all this mooshtalk that made meggigglea bit, no i notmantalk like that(?-?-?) but i not blame her man, she might use her extra hard earned hmmm easy pa cute earned sinsilyo and gif it to you para hangin the flat tire meg.boggs's profile picture meg.boggs

meg.boggs Them: So why workout then if not for weight loss???... [...] i heard this in your frenxh accent om0 i dont kno her but her smol.orhanism name is maci thinbutcher's profile picture plessdueu forgif for the unwanted mooshtalk inputfromme (?_?)(?_?)??????) are you ntosleepy whyyou not sleep maaan the strong men pretty kuratme You replied plessdueu forgif for the unwanted mooshtalk inputfromme (?_?)(?_?)??????) are you ntosleepy whyyou not sleep maaan the strong men pretty kuratme unwaaaaanted? ?????? ???????? whaaaaat any mo0shtalk any talk katokntokkenzz man is not unwanted mann vvv wanted man kaayu?????(>?<)????? thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. whaaaat i dont remember that me lahgi9<(???) it's a dnoozey memory to me, like i sleepwalk there but conscious only when holding you i recognise kaayo that its in seabooxb from the feeling itself that immediatelt erased dooma at my memory compass but i look v hard n crytsal inn ¿ its gabii nal lagi there i can almost feel the warmth of the burning sadness of the puddle i dissipated into bcos it was getting closer na hatud you to thentoopid terminal, the tears feel fresh Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. waaaaAiiiit saaa aa not snooz0ey last nalunnnggg loooo00k v vvv cuteeee me (*´ ? `*).?oO ( alsoo00 pahabol sleeep tambal pleasezueu, forgiiif i say that yestermoon about the baby and not want to haf with you, it's not what i mean and i was saying something i didnt mean i never everever ever regret every second that was devoted to the euphoric thought of having baby with you (???????)? i wish i could unsay it not even unthink it bcos i dint think it and just said without thinking bcos i v stooopid big stoppid big botete would never ever think of something like that mata pleaaeeuuuseu and not read anything laaang just loo0ok the last imageu lang that onliii my snooz0eeeeey favour (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? and we sleeeep na lagiiiiii eeenee9eeeiee92 i suk suk na eel loook0k and tanday na ohhhh no00 haaaands ma aaaaaaaay(??? _ ???) ??(?´(00)`?)??(? ????

December 1, 2020 6:29 am thinbutcher's profile picture (???) December 1, 2020 8:23 am thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. is thzf the prototype of the from lemur to lemur podcast/symphony <(???) thinbutcher's profile picture the google ai knows ai bcos love made in china love know whats diaaay <(???) there's not much going on for me i feel like the end of my rope is soon idk if its wrong that im just letting you know that i dont think ill get better and im not doing well and no one can help but the biggest is but ill be here still, ill give what's left of my being to take what you would like to give too now that i think of it, its not so different from what i am in right now. except im clearly being selfish. there's nothing much going on on my side as well, in my head theres so much that i just chose to zoom out and it would just look like its just a pattern of a tapestry that i can not mind. yes thinbutcher's profile picture like my mind is being conquered by ants but if you look far enough it would just seem like its just transformating into a crimsom chrysalis like a second layer of skull i switch my being with that crimson chrysalis on auto pilot but it's not so much switching as compressing to its holographic tabula rasa, an untouchable hive breeze hovering the core of your skull i feel that i am even so end of the rope to feel that snails retired from typing my story but unborn caviar i wish i could be just half as magnificent and engraved as those ants but our similarity is the illusion of enveloping and beating, if your crimson reverse aquarium is shaking do you think there will be asymmetrical holes drilled on the macaroni ivory surface or the creauture in side it is violently vibrating ready to crack your skull prison and my temporary being with its delicatewings can we make a deal with the snails unborn caviar to postpone the chapter of the metamorphosis or would you rather have it written with its 78 bajillion hieroglyphs toppling of a letter ladder hovering on a lone pixel of the stoneslab and smashed, a pixel hiding a future and ancient secret behind a unwrittable hieroglyphic that our story created snailliam snailspeares how many of you and you theeereeeszzz but what a catastrophe had the words be smashed, its shadow falling to the other side of the stoneslab would be smashed too, creating a slightly topsy tirvy somersaluted clone of our infinite hieroglyph myth whosever finger the marionette of the words a soft tubby fingers the tip of the words are curled around even the accidental touch is scintillating i think ive heard in the future or somewhere in the past, the strum we strum together with string of 78 bajilion hieroglyph will produce the rarest scintillating soundbeam nuclear and serene and hypnotising and delicious but inaudible was the intermingled moan that announced the first asteroid of the orb illuminating the galaxy of moosharna thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. December 1, 2020 1:24 pm i wish i could balos sour price you there °??(??°/?\)??° hmmm i just tago behind vv a h2o galon i kugos and look thru it and be entertained by you dancing your shoulders bcos youre singing maaaan that wojld be the kaleidoscope itself and i even secret put vvv minnnie sud an in your balonan runny eggux, make a hell halod head ana ccomplice and maybr i sakpan you nahingogmo ganiii ?(*???*)? Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. hi chewkno that i got na a 7th eye kn my ankle, it got swirly lilac and pink irises Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. its like 2 inchdes, the material that slashed it scooped my chubby skin first and zuiiiikkkskskzkkzsiiikk it realy cant fit an eye socket of an albino lamb can what is thaaatt whyyyu why maaan (???)(¯?¯)S(?°? °; )?(|||???)Ó( ° ? °|||)S(O_O;)?(`?´)??(`?´)??(`?´)??(`?´)??(`?´)??(`?´)? thinbutcher's profile picture whyu you samad maaaan ( ?_?) it looks biiig and sermyus December 1, 2020 4:29 pm thinbutcher's profile picture where are you man (?_?) are you sent to the hospital to treat that wound (???) (???,)(?•´?•`?)(???) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture can you guess what faceu i making Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. are you subjecging me to a challenge (/¯? ? ?)/¯ ~ ??? hmmm i engage Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture the aning "cleaned" my dumpsite(¯?¯) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. also vv proud hardcore lodger always wearing it and yoi know ba those are taken different mooons of you thinbutcher's profile picture whyu you assume the challenge and all i see my faceu lang (???) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. your panborit0e ehaaattt whom faxceu paman diay i put there, the mystery faceu naman pud mu resting defsult faceu pud(???) it your faceu unta (?•??•??) thinbutcher's profile picture i pooping right now bcos whole day i not poop at the office man bcos i not comfortable jud there no lock in the room and it a weird room You replied i pooping right now bcos whole day i not poop at the office man bcos i not comfortable jud there no lock in the room and it a weird room hl0ysshiiiit i o-o right now kaayo ojr tinae vv spiritaully connected thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. but it feels like i had been hopeful the water poo pou streak gona end but its not, j havent had a fruit since i balhin to mt fuji tit and i had man but its pagyud frootus and i thought i saved the orange one but the pineapol flavour diay all this time it caviaarAaara a aaaa waiiit when diay you b0omer°¦ng.jpeg man (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? oh it really just busog lusog fishu (???,) You replied the aning "cleaned" my dumpsite(¯?¯) she tekken advantage kaayo your temporary hell timetable to hilabot and just to labay vv minnie pa barely touched kaha of cloud machiebs and not kasaba lang thats the way na of reprimanding or punisjment hmmm like banshee do you harness your inner wallflower at your hell aa a a avv vv breakdanxe kaayo for the dota fngerus adjusting but hypnotic tp look at from my pov Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. 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Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture noooo aaaa i ws one hand man gud and there something liquid on my sextmacjine screen it was boomerang diay pleasey frogif not tuyo it ( T?T) i hate it here thinbutcher's profile picture you look so genuinely amused here (???) why is live in so hard to sabot man for them whye whyeheyuuu reallt putting their pride before the baby's upbringing and future oh nooo they not want the father of the foxling there¿ thinbutcher's profile picture fafoxling .tmhy uand vv shaking Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. you loook like the inly thing in the wirld i go to abd be safest in Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. i don't know exactly how but i developed a vv specific fondness to image of uou drinking softdrinks thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you .tmhy uand vv shaking bcos you man just put bandiand kn the samad and it klaro kaayu need more thsn bandiaid (?_?) you losing so much red jelly fishu i know it kinda feels high baya but pleaseu not pjt banddaid lang ?(´?`???´?`)? December 1, 2020 8:40 pm if still 8 moon padiay i want na to end this day(???,) thinbutcher's profile picture whyyu maaan :< i mean that how i feel man when i go to work like when i get there i want uli na dayun (?_?) You replied i don't know exactly how but i developed a vv specific fondness to image of uou drinking softdrinks C:?? eee E e ee does it sound vain sounding but eee i so vvv killl league that you tell me this liiike eee ypu still get it pagyud until now hehehe hhhhiiiii hiiiIiiiiii ! halooöoo bcos its v much such arcane possession of us individually but unspoken flow and getting that each other will gets it aa a aaaa liiike baaasta, like that pud diay you but like a growing collection of flow nalang ba not a reminder or refresher or a point of diminishing the sense of alienation You replied i don't know exactly how but i developed a vv specific fondness to image of uou drinking softdrinks this kaayo gif fascinating contrast with my fixation in you holding a fruits or a makaons like i dont know if its the subject of me being junkie and unhealthy that oddly is a novelty to you and that's why i contrast it woth you versus mga makaon and being busog lusog køya beeEhHhhH but not kaayo contrast diay like an intersection in a diagram of kinkeuu bcos fixation in itself has unhealthy as an element to make it a fixation and borderline anywayz vv blindsided copy me ?((·?·))? (???)/ hi hiiii aaaaa nooooo i say it first ( ºÄº ) bleeehhhh you copy meee (´ ?`) thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. frog0tif the foxling got na milku reflux also negativity reflux maaaan vvv hostile dungeon v super not gyudgood any form of good for kaayo for the budding babie (n?n) whaaaaat i screenashot na baya tjpse imageus earlier befofe you replied but hurry hurry yaya dewtidddies and whaaay vvv unready kaayo my organs and lungs kaayo with the imageu younsent, the your fingerus and my fingerus is like sabud sabud lagi there ?(???? ?? ? )?????????_??_?????·?? vv unhan by my own vengeful scheme diay cppy me jud grrrrrrrrRrrrr ?(`?´?)??(????)? also you timing gyud cute sides of me ?(`?´?)? nnnn i look like a back of a overdue caterpilar got na wili pa chonk chonk with leafs suko me ¿panickkipanick ?:?(;´n`;)?:? Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. woo00wza your nails lagi short and clea n i reverse woowza but it's still pretyy man but it's v nice the portable compost pit nails vv faaaav thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you also you timing gyud cute sides of me ?(`?´?)? nnnn you not v often say cute and let alone say you cute sides of me hahaha ccute(?´?`) i wonder what fruit that comets from your old smol elfb0900iiiii garden that will be punit punit by that keen eye of yours thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied you not v often say cute and let alone say you cute sides of me hahaha ccute(?´?`) whaaaat that was an irony maaaan but i knew the caterpilar simile appeared to ve compliment hinuon bcos caterpillars man cute but i not man on the imageu, me looks anything but cute You replied you not v often say cute and let alone say you cute sides of me hahaha ccute(?´?`) boo0nk go to pacute jail biiii thinbutcher's profile picture it made my sleepy droopy eyes sulot a bit and aaaaa isiaid baya im immortal and my body is timeless and i look "this old" na forveer like not looking older or younger just that but why taht reverse kaayu why the fuckkk why diaaay big big watohek me ?(`?´?)? im slep

thinbutcher's profile picture lookmat that i saw earlieri screenshot itsbowyou yaaaa and bitbit pagyud a fruits minnnie frooots binitbit look like gyud pa a growing child thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you yaaaa and bitbit pagyud a fruits minnnie frooots binitbit look like gyud pa a growing child i not ??? ??(`?´)?? ??? You replied

i w0oo0w your wowo00w You replied i not ??? ??(`?´)?? ??? hehgihhihih hehehehee chuckle chuckle drink na chukkieee ohh para grow grow the bata thinbutcher's profile picture aayyyyywait i wow diay first before screemhsott it (´?`) hehe judging v vhard nigjt morde thinbutcher's profile picture bcos hurt eyesman cansleeep naaaa You replied

it looosk gyud like it questionz itz existence every sand that rises thinbutcher's profile picture whyythat coldn dark messagebeforesleep man bcos you not talk me man about your jhell thinbutcher's profile picture okay okay itll you tomorrow but be calm n resst there lang bcos there man nothing much going on except bslik2 task vv few lang that r new (???,) i gona snoz0e her e lang sa ubos bcos tricking me that its new environment and my vessel wil shape to the elasticity of the night of this side iof the downstairs dungeon and maybe haf new properties in my sleep You replied whyythat coldn dark messagebeforesleep man sext no i say messageman bcos i wasgonnas say quote but i camt find other word closing remarks for thrbnight not messgae message bit like

oolk now we sleeonaa Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture where you na sleep na mii skeep na pod the baby you in that timeline and mepod You replied no i say messageman bcos i wasgonnas say quote but i camt find other word closing remarks for thrbnight no0 i say its not whaaa i say sext man bcos v v vvv v hot to me when you point out my unsolicited pretentiousness bcos00s yessuuu call me daddiezzz lil pretenshious Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. sext this is a sext You replied where you na sleep na mii skeep na pod the baby you in that timeline and mepod babay youuu me lagi no babay thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. hiiiii laaang kanunY pirmi thinbutcher's profile picture ok nowgoodnight na nag good night na gane the baby you in the box holiding makaon so esleepna Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied ok nowgoodnight na nag good night na gane the baby you in the box holiding makaon so esleepna ew my ankle bleed samut not kasanbot tinder language it not tidnerlanguage man gud aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa thinbutcher's profile picture AAAAAAAAA ITS NOT TINDEER LANGUAGE ( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)(?-_-?)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)(???,)(?-_-?)(???,)(?-_-?)(???,)(???)(???,)(???)(???,)( T?T)(???,)(???,)( T?T)(?o?)( T?T)(?o?)( T?T)(-?-)( T?T)(-?-)(-_-)(-?-)(-_-)(/?\)(-_-)(/?\)(-_-)(/?\)(-_-)(/?\)( T?T)(/?\)( T?T) tindrr and baby one sentnece we been keewnnew thinbutcher's profile picture i jate yyoy goodnight ans baby diaaay lo0ook the tinder na nuon part na of language me im not your good night and i not your baby maaaan aaaregggjgh ghb gh imong yotyy thinbutcher's profile picture okokyou you knowit not what I meant exactly but i eillsleepnow jd and knowthat i suko yousleep suko me i send insid of yiou atyyYyyyyy not na tagad me katulgan me again me lagii last sexr lageek sgii?(`?´?)? Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. ne

December 2, 2020 8:47 am you not guess pa what froo0t this is thinbutcher's profile picture that man is a guava big big guava (+_+) December 2, 2020 10:49 am thinbutcher's profile picture TAAAAAAA THERE A MAMA AND HER SMOL ORGANISM DUOL ME AND ASK FOR TUBIG AND I HAD TO GO AND GET MIX COLD AND WARM TUBIG BCOS WE NOT HAVE ROOM TEMPERATURE H20 AND WHEN I GAVE IT TO HER THE BASO WAS SO BIIIIG ANS SHE HELD IT WITH HER TINY HANDS AND SHE HUROT IT VVV FAST KAAYU (/?\)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T)( T?T) ?(=? x ?=)??(?????)? its c vv v v endearing mkaayo you vvv na igo with the smol organism and mama enocounter e eeeeE e e e I CAPSLOCK PUD BIII YOUR EXCITEMENT ITS ONE OF THE FEW RAINS OF SUNSHINE ABOUT HELL AND RVEN IF ITS NOT A TASK ACCOMPLISHED IT FEELS LIKE IT'S THE BEST ACCOMPLISHMENG THERE EVER WAS FOR YOU eeeeee e e e e tiny hamssszs yaaaas sit vv feeling of accomplishment kaayu ?(???*)o thinbutcher's profile picture hmmm there man no accomplishing kayau tasks here like the only big task was scanning and double team a 300 page k-12 binder i not exactly know what it took the whoke afternoon gyud not even tiwas then that na when i absent bcos sick (?'?'?) December 2, 2020 1:27 pm

thinbutcher's profile picture looookk omgoshhh (???) the tuburan fsaaaak i wish i not quit hell and do a relief oper operaiton volutnterer there bcos vvv easy acces the !+7÷ bir there i ask my friendu You replied

whyeywhwyyyywhyyyy i not know a wing of seaboob is vvv broken like that thinbutcher's profile picture i thought jud it was lain tuburan but like it noooot it the cebu and and (((even tho you not take me there(¬_¬))) it vvv shockimg mews kaayu it's the tapad of the balambaaaan maaan loo0k

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no000 tje yelo hut is like vvv primary school premises kaayo i hope no kid outside gyud was there and they naka bakwit na when it the murky reflux of the nature duay the tuburan Replied to your story I FHDHEJSJDKSAKSKKSSK i listen to this baya before but i forogt na and the last time i checked this out i didnt have the enthusiasm na to listen to it again as much sas before thinbutcher's profile picture

the feather olology is medicine i dint think it would get me throught the khuaran ting and you know what happened baya during it, our breakup and i passively listened jn the middle of sum episodes until i slept and it sped up the moons and it gave me my bellyache laughters in a time that seemed like that would be rare it wasnt improvement but at least it made me sleepy and not keep munimuni at night and vvv dmt drramszzzz and but the plumology jud the bestest and hunny bee keeper ology as well, and corvid ology and polyp ology a aa a a and the spiderweb ology gyud v v funny cute fucking schlong flimsy creTures when they take drugs there webs are v vv kayamukat kaayo and it the feather diay that make sound when a bird dip dives to the top film of the sea i wish my smol organism would like lisyening to it as well /(? x ?)\ thinbutcher's profile picture there a debatw here if the type of id from the bir is bir or TIN the type of people who make the id is debatable 9(*???*) thinbutcher's profile picture the buzzer beater add emochi You replied

this the lastikman of the oceanszs Replied to you the feather olology is medicine i dint think it would get me throught the khuaran ting and you know what happened baya during it, our breakup and i passively listened jn the middle of sum episodes until i slept and it sped up the moons and it gave me my bellyache laughters in a time that seemed like that would be rare it wasnt improvement but at least it made me sleepy and not keep munimuni at night and vvv dmt drramszzzz and but the plumology jud the bestest and hunny bee keeper ology as well, and corvid ology and polyp ology a aa a a and the spiderweb ology gyud v v funny cute fucking schlong flimsy creTures when they take drugs there webs are v vv kayamukat kaayo and it the feather diay that make sound when a bird dip dives to the top film of the sea aaaaaa yesudids you know the spider drink coffee it makes crooked webs vv abstract art thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you this the lastikman of the oceanszs not lastikman (?o_o) whaaat you tink batman is beter than lafikman You replied aaaaaa yesudids you know the spider drink coffee it makes crooked webs vv abstract art yesuuu the my faaaav os the caffeiene gyud art hoe spider You replied aaaaaa yesudids you know the spider drink coffee it makes crooked webs vv abstract art also i refrained from using abstract bcos i know one of us was gonna say it haaaaa aaaa it's 4 oclock na baya here and its3 vvv dark na here Replied to you also i refrained from using abstract bcos i know one of us was gonna say it haaaaa aaaa what is the haaaaaa aaa hahahaaaa aaa thinbutcher's profile picture abs.tract no0 yourgrand.ma thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you yesuuu the my faaaav os the caffeiene gyud art hoe spider my favorite no yet bcos they not test enough liquids drink spider ugly man the spider drinking the rc cola man i expected v v high kaayo waaait ut its still caffein man gihapin the spiders here haf vvv polygonus lang webs like not spherical like the ruffles of curtina looks too proper i thibk bcos they drink the gardners smoothie hajaha yuckk if the spiderr drink your pee it will be heart beat line they make ironic uwu

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i dont think ive seen this man you watch raman gud english cartoons and also animu is that thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. ywsuuu she got minnnie anak including a dragonfly that she adopted with her bana and there hausu gots kites and teapots and vvv ugly lord farquardnlooking villain thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ywsuuu she got minnnie anak including a dragonfly that she adopted with her bana and there hausu gots kites and teapots and vvv ugly lord farquardnlooking villain may i see the lord farquardlooking villain im pretty sure not thst ugly

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looks like the kaworo nagisa from the Eva the art stlye is v v vvv baroque and fatal and it cuts me You replied looks like the kaworo nagisa from the Eva i dont speak weaboo ¿¿¿ thinbutcher's profile picture wooooow i speaok thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied looks like the kaworo nagisa from the Eva lmao no you not weaboo diay your references are rookie njmbers kaayo he he i can see the scoff with the lmao thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you not weaboo diay your references are rookie njmbers kaayo yes i m twrying to look for a imageu of mewith alpiril in my hair bcos j think i got jud but maybe its a gem that dont exist thinbutcher's profile picture i thought this Canadian soft ball reference and finally giving me emo vibes but no diay the outside is v v vblurry bcos of the rain Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. waiait you not na wear masku at siquijor ? ? (?o???????o????) ? still wear pa oyy even got no cases therddd wheyyyyyyyy also ppeleaseu hinay hinay lang padagan when you habal dewtidies and not kaayo pa shocketh by the mew butterflies December 2, 2020 6:22 pm Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. the kurente just balik nooowaaaaaaaaa

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nooo0 the big amol feller must be resin contendant kright now Replied to you nooo0 the big amol feller must be resin contendant kright now oohh it is jud kaayu unta that feller (*>.<*) there baya like a hundred of tjem scattered around the floor of the court and i picked one up thw most lijokan and i got samad bcos toopid me tried to pull it off my finger and it latched nuon harder and it pooped at me as well vv baho kaayu yaks thinbutcher's profile picture but it ok man (=???=) You replied

im now sadder i nevet got the polo right away, but i pa reserve it gyud bcos i was unsure of it being my colours the next two days i saw it being sold on a online ukay for 450 by somone naka una n its 100 there vv modus and it looks even nicer now realising that its a broken mosaic of what looks like the motherland cave of those beetles and your shirt is the macabre funeral in a mass beetle death celebrations is it with me ba or yoh ?((·?·))? (n?n) Replied to you and it looks even nicer now realising that its a broken mosaic of what looks like the motherland cave of those beetles and your shirt is the macabre funeral in a mass beetle death celebrations yeeeeeesuu like as if its the environment and the atmosphere and the mine was the bakukang bokokokang fellers mind it with me (*´?`*) thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you im now sadder i nevet got the polo right away, but i pa reserve it gyud bcos i was unsure of it being my colours the next two days i saw it being sold on a online ukay for 450 by somone naka una n its 100 there vv modus i unsure as well bcos of how the colour brown is vv dominant kaayu i like baya those colours but the brown mo on my top tier but i vv like it still so i got it haaays zalamat i thought i put it with the mga panghatag to our paryente ? ?? ? ??? thinbutcher's profile picture whaaaaaaaaAatt that would a bin disastrously eventful kaayu (¯?¯) im dorry ?:?(???\?)??? aaaaa helo dorry vv kasabwat kaayu of the meee the destiny thinbutcher's profile picture

i man the amonenminnie except you man the giant blue tang fish n me vv tiny and smol whhaleshork Replied to you i man the amonenminnie ok ok you not want diay ha thinbutcher's profile picture you the amonenenieee yesuuu you man to the clownfizhu eggu galaxy tago in the amnemonemney Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture (p~?~q) Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied ok ok you not want diay ha i stay the amonenini until i sea the finding creamdorery Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. no000 its the salida on yhe tv that turned this into a cursed imagey December 2, 2020 9:28 pm you sayu anajud anoozey it makes me sayu sno0ose t pud 1(???????)? Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. December 3, 2020 8:16 am Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture vv sayo me sleep bcos the brownout sige brownout i not even charge my phone may gsne it buzzer beater siga lik 7 moon naaaaa (?ì _ í?) oh0my gogggg f g pinkyuu thinbutcher's profile picture i buzzer beater ilis this bcos the one i was supposed to wear diay kay hanged lang by the keeper in my room and its wet pa diay Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. no000o i cant let you be toopid alone (* >?<)(n?n) fordgigffff i jkst wathced it again and itmade me laugh gyud still kaayo and it balik played and i laughed again and it balik and i laughed even more pa gyud and its not gyud puol comedy skit (·?·)(*/?\*) thinbutcher's profile picture aaaaaaa aaa i felt bad baya remembering thay we stole the pineapple and later on i remember again that you bilin diay fiddy (?¯?¯?) big sigh relief and its just a smol gesture i guess a poor attempt to put a sky inyour hell, it's vvv morbid there or at least sometimes it gets and you jud v v vbig big brainwash me that you not like pinku or good in pinku and i not kunot shore at pink garments na bcos you might not like but ee e E e you look man vv v eqxquisite man with the pinku and the brown sinbad varnish of your chrysalis even is just two of the colorus of the visible spectrum it's like my feeling is not jist twoo but v vv full of bursting someonejust collased here at the orientation S( ° ? °) Replied to you and you jud v v vbig big brainwash me that you not like pinku or good in pinku and i not kunot shore at pink garments na bcos you might not like but ee e E e you look man vv v eqxquisite man with the pinku and the brown sinbad varnish of your chrysalis even is just two of the colorus of the visible spectrum it's like my feeling is not jist twoo but v vv full of bursting whaaaaaAatt i diay say i not like pinku (???) i not i have decided im gonna cut my own hair tonight (?o_o)(*´?`*)

fuck ??? ??(`?´)?? ??? you thinbutcher's profile picture me cut my hair not gesture that i not want see you na man gud (?-?-?) ?(????) its ur hair man pud thinbutcher's profile picture why you al WA ys guilt guilt me wjen cut my hair ?_? but its ur hair man pud but okay its ur hair man pud why dint u do that kaha before, and tell me like tonight i decided im gona make a tinder profile whyyy daw biii bright December 5, 2020 6:12 am thinbutcher's profile picture https://www.facebook.com/13539254023/posts/10158369320129024/ December 5, 2020 9:40 am is that your haircut footage? December 5, 2020 11:50 am i hope you believe me when i tell you that im sorry for not being there when you needed me, i blame myself and my chronic assumption that you no longer needed me in all places in your life. this is supposed to be purely an apology but it wouldn't come from me whiteout it being a little twisted. i want you to know that i am not worthy of being forgiven by you and forgive me for thinking that way, please forgive me for this but i want you to stop giving me your forgiveness December 5, 2020 2:49 pm thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i hope you believe me when i tell you that im sorry for not being there when you needed me, i blame myself and my chronic assumption that you no longer needed me in all places in your life. this is supposed to be purely an apology but it wouldn't come from me whiteout it being a little twisted. i want you to know that i am not worthy of being forgiven by you and forgive me for thinking that way, please forgive me for this but i want you to stop giving me your forgiveness well its stupid of you to think that, you remember its you right? so yeah i"m going to do it right this time Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message.

thinbutcher's profile picture where did u take this one it's so hd, it gave me flashbacks of my astral travel there in april 78 miles but it feels like immeasurable December 5, 2020 5:54 pm i remember now its the downhill road thinbutcher's profile picture it really looks like the outside of my old boardinghouse December 5, 2020 8:48 pm i didn't cut my hair yet actually. but i feel like cutting it soon i don't know if its selfish of me to ask this but can you make me feel easy about getting it cut :< thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to your story das not even rollee coaster You replied i don't know if its selfish of me to ask this but can you make me feel easy about getting it cut why u copy me i was going to ask you to be gentle and softer with me earlier but i din nalang that doesn't mean i am not asking you if can speak gentle and be soft with me i really couldnt take anythint harsh at this fragility thinbutcher's profile picture i try man to be gentle most of the time (?•´?•`?) i dont really have anything im good at, let alone be good with alleviating your dis-ease thinbutcher's profile picture i wanna ask you to support me in this. getting my hair cut (?_?) i know it won't have any good thing you can get out of it. but i really need it. and still your words matter to me or have weight to me again i will just repeat myself that it's your hair man but it's just it's your first long roots and you also told me you grew it for me no i mean it's what you wanted to do before and i found it offensive that something that's like angay buhaton you're going to inform me like i have monopoly of your hair, but the things not angay buhaton gani you do behind my back or you do, period which noooo nooo never why me (/?\) you're not even making me feel like it's still me even a day of losing coverage from you got me believing we dont know anything about one another, like the gap of our life is making those two ends hit the edge of something but i planted my suicide letter naman on my fathers bucket of soil and dirt and worms You replied i wanna ask you to support me in this. getting my hair cut (?_?) i know it won't have any good thing you can get out of it. but i really need it. and still your words matter to me or have weight to me the still seems unnatural, like its just my footprints not the beat itself thinbutcher's profile picture we both did things man we didn't like, and as much as it seems to each of us na we say it was really nothing and nothing serious was invested i know still hurts the same. i know baya i did things that made it hard for but this me trying to salvage choices i can make right. and i know its my hair i know, but i need you to at least tell me its fine cos again it i did grew it for you. why you think im asking you this approval of some sort. my hair isn't just a piece for my head. i grew it for you baya and it has so many reminders each centimeter almost have memories that reminds us of our old self and how we were us before its become like this nag lisod gyud gihapon ko (*/?\*) thinbutcher's profile picture this baya more like a refresher (?_?) refresh what U??.??U(????) thinbutcher's profile picture yknow it like ba a kuaaaan like removing sand from your underwear, like less of a resurrection, like taking a very quick warm bath. emptying your lungs of all the smoke you inhaled the day before December 6, 2020 5:23 am it s too goodto be true for me December 6, 2020 12:10 pm hi id like to think and it's not a fancy thought but a v v vvv lonely smol smol big of love incarnate awoke from her coma and has decided at last, as a promise to herself, the one infinity to spend her immortality and id like to think she knows that except in this, im dead in all dimensions it still holds true that i love and will love you and all that is you to death or rather, for as long as all of my life and i do and i will but im going to tell you that the love never stopped, it's just the end of me and i did what i can but its not enough to at least let my love last longer than my own life in this world in this reality i wish i could take it to wherever, whatever that is i am going or am not going. it was the only thing that made me believe in life December 6, 2020 1:55 pm why do you ignore me tooo long December 6, 2020 3:18 pm

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ho90lyyzhit the diver seaaa tea my smol buslot2 basket baaa i put it on the top of the tuods lang and then when i picked it up a vv nice colours pattern eel diay was conspiring of eating some of my catch thinbutcher's profile picture i tried to catch it i used one of the fishu i caught as bait but i think it was blind man and did not notice tdayun the dead fish bait the catcgh look cvv swapu habitat creatures thinbutcher's profile picture me and my nephew got vv healthy sand bloodworms this moon cos we got a nice spot man and when you balik here naaaa i will teach you how to catch and i swear jud ut vvvv satisfying kaayu like they just lived underneath a blanket of mosses and musty with no hint of rainbow from moons of rain thinbutcher's profile picture yaaaaas vv diverse kaayu this moon like 9 races jud i guess the eel be liiike getting that interracial bread vv v ethnic complexion all of them, and omg i love bloodworms it's v v vvital to gather a legion of axolotls, chonkkuuu axolotl transportation You replied me and my nephew got vv healthy sand bloodworms this moon cos we got a nice spot man and when you balik here naaaa i will teach you how to catch and i swear jud ut vvvv satisfying kaayu tooo optimistic and sweet, lets see if im buhi pa gyud, but eee i guess it's a word more than satisfying even jus maintaining the water level of a fishu on the rod in stardew valley is maddening n gut punchy but the long coveted successful catch makes me cry (“???”) with a flimsy bamboo strand rod, i caught a catfish at liloan but it felt staged man like the ph level of the water there made them want to thrive inland ohhh aaaaand you go ilis naaaa your ninaaaa (/?\) i not ilis pa man i still bilsangkad rn getting feasted btymoswuitos agaim i dry my hair i almost fell like few times and got my butt tusok by the minnie kaayu mangrove spikes sss but i vv style bender thinbutcher's profile picture i actually samad my left knee but hecc December 6, 2020 5:13 pm i we sammmme faaav word You replied i almost fell like few times and got my butt tusok by the minnie kaayu mangrove spikes sss but i vv style bender a smol smol skateboard on your bosom did some cool flips but im vvv sleepg it took 2 semi mooon to quench the apppetite of the foxling she pulverised 2 bottles in an hour acultually its a draw, her hiccup is abattle accesory You replied to yourself i i noticed it a little longer tha usual you suing the i beginning You replied i actually samad my left knee but hecc may i see the blood You replied i not ilis pa man (/`?´)/ ? ?:’?:??,. ?? dont br suko me i wasnt scoffing maaaan :< December 6, 2020 6:38 pm bcos man gud you emphasize kaayu the yooouuuu and i try to be more soft man gud but at the same time not confusing (?_?) thinbutcher's profile picture dids you know my nephews mama, my cousin apas to thesea earlier and she was documentjng vlogging and she brought us pan and watee bcos last time we frogot. and she tryning to record my nephew earlier and vvv funny kaayu "bali, ayaw ko bidjo bidjohe ma" your bio is my best prens fav quote my soul is yours to devour thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you my soul is yours to devour nope or is it another way thinbutcher's profile picture okay i regret it now why I've been hestant to use it but i was rereading something about the character that says that line and i got excited again thinbutcher's profile picture why u kmow it ( T?T) cunning lad isnt it like the valar morghulis for dota Replied to you cunning lad a dota character says this too thinbutcher's profile picture ..... omggggg i think we talked about this no we didn't, something similar lang :3 thinbutcher's profile picture also im playing tthe character that says the ozh jcha gluth izh sol now i couldnt care about playing but i love listening to vvv devoted gamer frens when they ramble about the land scape, escape of another world in game, i like the idea that they think i will listen and am interested and i am Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i couldnt care about playing but i love listening to vvv devoted gamer frens when they ramble about the land scape, escape of another world in game, i like the idea that they think i will listen and am interested and i am im interested in the lore i learn about races and creatures with no powers and incorporate machines whereas the other races summon a maga it's like being street smart somehow idk why the lore that which has no odds??? hahaomg Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. magina culture Replied to you the lore that which has no odds??? what this means also was the imageu related or not lang the lore is vv nice man gud and all those races you mean are in the lore as well. thinbutcher's profile picture also you sound vvv old kaayu trying to be hip magina culture (=?=) December 6, 2020 11:30 pm thinbutcher's profile picture pleased dont December 7, 2020 8:55 am You replied what this means it's this marks thinbutcher's profile picture

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the top is how my insides look probably thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you what am i inside your head a big jumpluff sorry thinbutcher's profile picture what am i voice thinbutcher's profile picture a voice in your head mmm i dust thinbutcher's profile picture dust d(us)t thinbutcher's profile picture i still not cut my hair yet. I was going to sunday but we got so lingaw at sea catching fishu with my nephew i think the fishu entertained me to really giveme time how i cut it proud of u i reallyam for what thinbutcher's profile picture proud of me for what man December 7, 2020 1:49 pm im jus here lang i mean that its v v v unavoidable for me to tumble and be nailed to the v v embracing and alluring bed of the void and preparing the milk is auto pilot but the feeding cradling foxling is a conscious reminder that im so alive still but im calibrating it not to be gateway to enter another warp and be stranded there forever and im only quiet bcos the atmosphere of my thoughts and words is seemingly too early and you got hell as well ????? Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. agaiiibn (*/?\*) Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture aaaaaa i bossom dialed it diaatyyy Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. but hecc Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. /(/ /•/?/•/ /)/ thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. December 9, 2020 11:02 am

say something about thid this Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture this is quite big of an event youre starting dont ignore me now i was feeding??? big of an event lol am i ruining u guys re blossoming relationship thinbutcher's profile picture is that all you can say? i cant ignore after u ignored me when i brought her up fucking bogo what can u get out of talking to me about this are u so devastated about the discovery of ur intention and filth im aware that if u can say and think that abt her u sure as hell have thought polar opposites of what u say to me awwwww is that all u can say first of, I'd like to see you right an article about me, i mean comments? thats a bit cheap isn't it and i didn't ignore you aftee you mentioned her, i just didn't reply in general bcos i have stuff im going through myself? i mean you wouldn't know that since you think you're the only one suffering, not to mention theee most did you even know what we talked about? i mean the fact that you did that commenting and all without knowing what i asked her for, astonishing yknow might as well make a podcast, right an article put up some info about me. thinbutcher's profile picture it'll save you time and effort you're missing the point you were celebrated for checkin up like a gooood friend nah i don't think i care about points now thinbutcher's profile picture it doesn't work with you such a waste of time to thibk abt u oh really don't stop now its unfinished do something more please make it grand thinbutcher's profile picture kulang pa to oy you're terrible sige pa thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you're terrible and you're a saint after the cheap things u said abt her youd take advantage of her vulnerability is that your poin t? cmon thinbutcher's profile picture make it comprehensive at leasr why me dont u got exclainung 4 yrself to do see u dont believe in points

thinbutcher's profile picture make it grand bcos u dont feel the need to feel guilt thinbutcher's profile picture please let her blow up thinbutcher's profile picture for real its her turn lol is that all? thinbutcher's profile picture you were just gonna comment? is that all shes not my friend so its ur obligation bitch lmao hahaha there so much for not being a halo head thinbutcher's profile picture is that it tho ohhclassic thinbutcher's profile picture you were just gonna comment? that's all you were going for? you always bring up halo head shit bcos thats all u can do be one thinbutcher's profile picture well i learned from the biggest one maybe its called untapping bitch stop denying cmoooon help her thinbutcher's profile picture help her make this grand ur just tryna bruise my inexistent ego comment ra ka taman? thats it? thinbutcher's profile picture genuinely asking im not part of this lol u ignored me gani to suggest im not involved kamo duha oy thinbutcher's profile picture oh you are a very big part of this let ur brains fuck thinbutcher's profile picture how are you not part of this lmao see u let me do the fixing whats ur ambag always me bcos u got nothing to say u own up to nothing LMAAAAOOOO i let you do the fixing thinbutcher's profile picture hahahah why fix it wasnt that what we tryna do for months n nothings changed u let urself do what you want, and all you did wasthe opposite of fixing thinbutcher's profile picture i thought you were trynna destory me before being done with me ikaw kutob ra ka hilom thinbutcher's profile picture do something more than a comment oy make it viral want that ur wettest dream wasnt u stupid wasnt me myself destroyed when i made that comment thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ikaw kutob ra ka hilom ofc cos i ask ppl unlike you who doesn't care about what ppl have to say before making an action u think when its totally shit that's where u credit being victim thinbutcher's profile picture really though, are you just gonna comment???? really tho are u just gona let it sit there thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you u think when its totally shit that's where u credit being victim nah you're always the victim bayaaaaa also she din send the whole thing ask her thinbutcher's profile picture comment ra ka taman jud? and see for urself why i dont need to make it grand thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and see for urself why i dont need to make it grand oh wait you're missing something You replied comment ra ka taman jud? you sound like ur the most scared gyud most threatened thinbutcher's profile picture this is already grand, i meant grander just tell her theres nothing to be fixed fam thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you sound like ur the most scared gyud are you wet now why involve her with ur shit thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why involve her with ur shit ???? u know ba she lost n friend thinbutcher's profile picture why involve her with ur shit???? and u know how much ive weaponized her existence against our relationshipt thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you u know ba she lost n friend bitaaaaw why you disturb her tho You replied why involve her with ur shit???? bogo u started it You replied bitaaaaw why you disturb her tho bogo why u disturb her tho reach out "" thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you and u know how much ive weaponized her existence against our relationshipt oh you weaponizdd everything that i do and what surrounds me u cant even answer bcos u tryna take advantage of her Replied to you bogo why u disturb her tho did i disturb her? are you not getting any hint that its your comment lmaooo thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you bcos u tryna take advantage of her you are LMAO You replied did i disturb her? are you not getting any hint that its your comment lmaooo u brought her back into the picture stop playing blind thinbutcher's profile picture you're the one whos been doing that lmaooo werent u done with her thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you werent u done with her waaaaaa hahaha the delusion doesn't stop so making a comment is disturbing but not reaching out to her to be fake and all is being a friend Replied to you so making a comment is disturbing oh that comment was very peaceful thinbutcher's profile picture assumptions You replied waaaaaa hahaha the delusion doesn't stop oh sorry for ruining ur relationship that u wish didnt end thinbutcher's profile picture that should be your special move if you were a Pokemon like urs is mega jakol n yawning why are u so affected lmao i see shes such a big deal thinbutcher's profile picture gosh you really dont care about what people have to say dont you. i mean you don't give a shit jud just your own opinion mgosh how convenient to live that way oh gosh the girl who used to fuck for beefsteak hates u even more now sorry are u bruised bcos u didnt get what u want when it u were thisssss thiiis close do you even read what i send to you or you just see asterisks, im gonna contradict myself by this but im still gonna ask thinbutcher's profile picture why are you doing this? You replied why are you doing this? why are you even doing this you blame me for disturbing somebody's peace cant i at least spare them from the bullshit that youre going to wreak you were so selfish but then again, you still have 144 left that hasnt had a foreshadow of u remember you are the author of this convincing the observers that im the anti thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you blame me for disturbing somebody's peace i don't see how i did this, you did this you're asking me to apologise for saying those things about her lmao im just the hermes of your true message no i am not asking you to apologize thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you im just the hermes of your true message wow i can see that you're so affected thinbutcher's profile picture im asking you why youre doing this you've had more to say on this than on anything we've ever talked abt doing what i did it already theres no sequel so yeah im sorry the girl you used to fuck for beefsteak hates u even more now sorry thinbutcher's profile picture why gane why are you doing this, for what what do you think you're gonna get out of this what's "this" im no lomger doing it gani theres no sequel thinbutcher's profile picture im really just gonna ask bcos unlike you i do not thrive on assumptions sorry you're im glad youre still here is gone lol your thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you sorry you're im glad youre still here is gone lol waaaiittt and your kapoyaaa kapoy na kaayo ka is the one thats left standing thinbutcher's profile picture so you were trying to save her from me but also wish she was dead??? youre really blaming me that you spinned her head with lies thinbutcher's profile picture you can choose to answer my questions or just dont give a shit lang that she offered u kindness but thats all u had to give her lmao she wish she's dead bcos gi ilad siya nimi lmao yourethe biggest fucking saint wow thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you sorry you're im glad youre still here is gone lol then what does this mean??? why dont bandaid this with what ure truly best at telling her that none of those things were true lol You replied then what does this mean??? bare fucking minimum you tryna im glad ure here ur way into her beefsteak you know what why am i still here ?youre just asking me to fix your reblossoming relationship im sorry i cant do that you ruined what we had Replied to you you tryna im glad ure here ur way into her beefsteak wait so youre assuming again? everything nalang? thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you know what why am i still here ?youre just asking me to fix your reblossoming relationship im sorry i cant do that assuming again napod again? aaa a aaaa aaa bare minimum im glad ure here bare minimum fixing it you already know how damaged i was finding out abt ur secret with her and u tryna slither ur way again into her beefsteak should i take that as a sign nga u really are the one who's done with me wow just wow jud (soft genuine wow) thinbutcher's profile picture so you want me but you dont give a shit about what i have to say? no dont want u thinbutcher's profile picture oh okay that's a start u got 144 you're never content thinbutcher's profile picture you're Answering na why you disturb her lagi thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you u got 144 awe this again bcos it still feels like it so you want me but want other people too? not that u do go make that tinder with ur dumb pics na thinbutcher's profile picture no dont want u u got 29 carefully selected matches and 2 other guys so what thinbutcher's profile picture so what of course you don't care you ignored me just to set up another tinder profile how could i keep caring for somebody who keeps trying to hurt me thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you how could i keep caring for somebody who keeps trying to hurt me same you already have my permission?? i think thats just the reason why ure bugging me make that tinder profile and leave me Replied to you you ignored me just to set up another tinder profile ??? you sent me a long confusing message after i told you i wss gonna cut my hair which is not there na cos u removed them and you said right when you weree gonna make a tinder thinbutcher's profile picture profile i was gonna make a tinder what the fuck ??? i tell you i was thinbutcher's profile picture gonna so your misreading me making a tinder made u decide to make a tinder profile as well cut my thinbutcher's profile picture hair it didnt make sense to me why you were telling me to cut ur hair which was angay buhaton but you wouldnt tell me that you are making tinder which is not angay buhaton you reached out to her to ask for pictures she took of u while u "dated" so u could set up a tinder why are u still here

the "i" was me making a dialogue for u like why dint u do that before, ohhh im gonna cut my hair ohhh im gonna make a tinder profile you were really playing and you're using that misread piece of my words to setup a tinder which has been at the top of ur head for the longest time December 9, 2020 8:18 pm

that burato barato pic is too catfishing , use this to lure the real ones bro December 10, 2020 12:32 am i just woke up and st this point you would understand if is dont know what to say rught Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. thinbutcher's profile picture if you could answer thatd be good December 10, 2020 10:30 am Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. Video Chat Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. You replied if you could answer thatd be good i had to sleep early in attempt to avoid feeling more hideous things that would make me do more hideous things you do know that me calling back means id still go through with you to talk things over December 10, 2020 2:02 pm its fine thinbutcher's profile picture do what you must. maybe I'll call you on your phone number later tonight lang. December 10, 2020 10:18 pm thinbutcher's profile picture did you just report my picture ? thinbutcher's profile picture what's ur smart number again was that u who else would it bs thinbutcher's profile picture were u expecting someone else? yes the old u thinbutcher's profile picture i thought its so bad to be fond with our old selves fond where thinbutcher's profile picture are you gonna asnwer or not can u be straightforward on our call thinbutcher's profile picture what call in 3 minutes thinbutcher's profile picture why? im not in a place for a call rn thinbutcher's profile picture ur feeding? only the old u called me thinbutcher's profile picture are you stalling? u so busy ? thinbutcher's profile picture i have to tell you something just cal thinbutcher's profile picture that's why im going out of my way to call i balhin and u can call n9w December 11, 2020 12:54 am tell me again why thinbutcher's profile picture i meanyou can tell me againwhy December 11, 2020 7:59 am you never called back thinbutcher's profile picture i will December 11, 2020 3:22 pm thinbutcher's profile picture why did you remove remove what thinbutcher's profile picture the how you miss to smoke oh because i felt it wasnt compelling enough to kill ur boredom at work enjoy swiping yet? thinbutcher's profile picture nah dont call me tonight whays the point thinbutcher's profile picture Disappearing Message Use the Instagram app to see this type of message. December 13, 2020 6:09 pm thinbutcher's profile picture you're right December 14, 2020 8:28 am are you asking for betrayal December 14, 2020 3:32 pm can u call tonight or when you're not tired please thinbutcher's profile picture i was going to even u not say u get it still another reason to be thankful u and i are technical December 14, 2020 11:13 pm im still calling thinbutcher's profile picture please answer was that u tho thinbutcher's profile picture why you always have to say something like that need to look for something i can hear better with wait ill say when pwede na thinbutcher's profile picture make it soon cos i don't have all night char ayaw nalang call when u got all the night i got na unta my earphones pero December 15, 2020 12:52 am thinbutcher's profile picture maybe not this late again ok December 15, 2020 4:30 pm here i just am. i dont knkw how to act that's all :< nvm dont ever call just call it quits i dony understand this anymore n im not gona try i rly do hope somebody will love u for whAt you are good for nothing biboys minion piece of shit get a personality n stop using emochis u never did before we started talking im going to ruin every relationship ure going to have thinbutcher's profile picture i cant even be happy for my dog ? u blocked m from ur stories bogo its fine who r u but im going to make everything hell for u youre puro filters to mask how rotten u are same but like wa kay angay whats ur dads official account again thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you ? u blocked m from ur stories bogo cos this is exactly what im trying to avoid why call me why talk to me when im no longer someone u want to share to bcos ur dick misses me?? naaah Replied to you but im going to make everything hell for u you've been doing it na man thinbutcher's profile picture i don't know what you want exactly but i will never allow u to be happy with other people thinbutcher's profile picture what lage you want so i could give it to you i want u to die and never be happy do it asap thinbutcher's profile picture okay will ur mom post abt it thinbutcher's profile picture hope you're happy when you finally get what you want you dont fucking care hope you can share that happiness with your elite non halo head friends too thinbutcher's profile picture :))) i wont rest until ur not in a shallow grave dont fucking take me with u, uve already done that to me. its time for u to go alone bcos u revel in killing people killing me i actually forgot to remove you from the hide story setting, i was even gonna send it to you. i took it down a lot of times. i didn't feel good about myself still. i was hesitant but im really happy for my dog really happy i cried a bit when ayumi sent me a video of it. it was foolish of me to think there's still something we could save out of this, that is worth saving but then i get reminded napud. thinbutcher's profile picture so long i guess is this what you want to leave me with before you kill yoursefl make me still believe you by dying make it grand make it real make it not a metaphor anymore December 20, 2020 1:28 pm why thinbutcher's profile picture i didn't mean to balik this account any sooner but somehow it did, idk how. just go balik ur alter or other account u have nothing to see here, so do i December 20, 2020 3:22 pm thinbutcher's profile picture alter not my thing im tired of this and can u tell me what ur agenda is thinbutcher's profile picture im sorry December 20, 2020 5:44 pm as u should, u bailed on that important call and now u want to encore ruin my life December 20, 2020 6:55 pm i didn't bail on that call, you palong it thinbutcher's profile picture thats what makes this much harder, you want now now dayun like i dont have things going on aside from this it's the only way to end this two way torture if we don't have to do anything with one another You replied i didn't bail on that call, you palong it "microphone turned off" December 20, 2020 9:48 pm i not turn off anything my phone was put down and inot touch it thinbutcher's profile picture i not palong i swear/mic off December 20, 2020 11:13 pm too bad my love. swearing to it still doesnt do anything, so it was jus fine if the discussion was left hovering, scopes not touching anything, if it mattered, u would have called back i hope whatever ur attempting to do with me is thrilling ur boredom December 21, 2020 6:21 pm thinbutcher's profile picture i don't know how you will feel or react if you see me right now wdym thinbutcher's profile picture its so haaaard still idk why when it doesnt matter 2u we can do it thinbutcher's profile picture i just really be like :(((( you can do it ! thinbutcher's profile picture can i talk to you later

whatchu waiting 4 thinbutcher's profile picture i meant can i call you later ba dont b shy why me why call me just to narrate another episode of u getting rid of me You replied to yourself

this obviously a joke but you have your way of making me ur enabler in chief i wont answer ur question bcos the answer is already there several times. and it will answer my question more please u kno this will spare us the agony can u just lay out what u want sooner than later i really want to start over, i just don't want to keep repeating the same day bcos being this shit gives my days no difference even if the elements inside it were happy i dony think im no longer PHYSICALLY capable of giving chances and look at how passive ur all taking this i switch between ?______? and grrrrr x . X ani diay ook thinbutcher's profile picture no nalang (?o_o) December 22, 2020 12:31 am this is exactly why i never bothered having seconds thoughts about wishing you profound and genuine and vast unhappiness but then that is where your happy lies soooo December 22, 2020 1:58 am no thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you but then that is where your happy lies soooo thid os bb wrohg December 22, 2020 7:48 pm thinbutcher's profile picture you mad amgry at me either way man run me over then atras abante balik para sure then apila imong titi nga 2 inches thinbutcher's profile picture exactly who doesnt want a lying cheater to die diba why do u think u deserve to live dili man ka mag ilis imo titi nga uk uk size ray ga huna huna pirmi mao diay na pasabot nimo nga hard sorry im not the right person to call bitch, call ur emergency fren or wudrva thinbutcher's profile picture i have close friends too yknow lol childish also the select few who's ur hypemen/hypehoes when u cheat as if there is something interesting to see in ur v smol halo life nah i dont even need to cite the things that you also do, that's childish thinbutcher's profile picture why aren't you blocking me yet man u keep saying that when u already know u choking on ur own dick to death will be my peace December 23, 2020 1:37 am just had vvv bad nightmarr supppsedtp be uss please cam we stop mna thinbutcher's profile picture i sorryna plese December 23, 2020 9:26 am what the fuck u mean supposed to be us like IM SUPPOSED TO BE STUCK WITH A FOREVER LYING CHEATER :< please simbako that pleaseeee December 24, 2020 6:55 pm you're the only thing i got going on my mind all day in every second im aware of and i want that to be your only only only last gift to me is forgetting everything the misery and the euphoria that came along with you i want to forget you i want to forget us so badly now its easier for me to reply to this. everytime i try to come back here and say something the previous message of this would always remind me why i left it on read lang thinbutcher's profile picture this is why i tried embracing the concept of peace with in this chaotic path that we are in right now bcos i know for a fact i cannot forget you even if i tried. and at least a foolish hope would be at peace with you or the image the idea concept feeling of you is something i can achieve. and even not its fine still, even i not find peace or any serenity its ok lang bcos after all i don't deserve that man pod as you would say. you always occupy the most sacred parts of my mind man pod i even had 3 straight dreams na with you in it aw 2 lang diay bcos the other one was a nightmare one of tje scariest ako na nightmare. it corny but i hate how i would just randomly sing the first lines of never meant out of nowhere bcos it hurts pod baya forme that i would do thatsing out of nowhere those lines December 25, 2020 2:50 pm we used to say next year will be our year, you know. i found an escape from being mad but it's too late to say whatever there is left to say. things will change for us two, right? i hope so i hope thinbutcher's profile picture did u greet my mama and maci ??? i unfriend na gani her and ayumi waiiiit im play thinbutcher's profile picture what u play nami from woldd rift thinbutcher's profile picture who u play with agg lamok and asinsalt idk random sdding tagalogersz yknow i got the bestest possible reaction from bodjie thinbutcher's profile picture then im vv happy na dayun with my hair cos she really likes it i wouldnt recognis3 u probably thinbutcher's profile picture i sure hope the fox said i no angay this game even i exceed expectationdmss i think u opao it you should just play cod thinbutcher's profile picture no i not opao it yet no kay i opao my sideburns nama thinbutcher's profile picture u also cut ur hair December 25, 2020 5:58 pm bcos a leshie told me not like lesbean ba like this leshiieee

it reinstalled the threatening aura sea swamp of my neighbours barren land now spirng onion plantation Replied to you not like lesbean ba like this leshiieee kekekekek thinbutcher's profile picture i shoulda just said that nalang diay maybe you woulda been a bit ok with me getting my hair cut i dont get why gyud bitaw u restrict your hair when it comes to me but not your heart or your time bcos youre not my significant other na baya or even my friend or anything for you to have these urges to need my approval thats why its frustrating bcos you put me in a pedestal but then the boundaries na gani there ba, so i guess my position in this nalang gyud is be indifferent neither to be okay or not to be okay bcos youre not my boyfriend anymore or each others anything so please you're single, it's what you wanted and how you acted despite still in a tangle with me for these past few months so act like it, enjoy it embrace it, your blessing from me i guess see i was done na man unta being angry pero ikaw you balik gyud this pedestal thing i just dont get it thinbutcher's profile picture i wanna say something jud kaayu to what you just said now but i dont want any escalations so imma just not say nalang i bet you gots nothing to say man sad u just drop empty threats lol bad idea gyud pirmi makig smol talk or any talk katok with u ughhh not man threat haha that's not my thing man thinbutcher's profile picture i just wanted to say na what u just said wrong man and only pushes it but then again balik2 napod why wrong thinbutcher's profile picture bcos you dont know anything about how i feel and you also a hippo crip December 25, 2020 9:22 pm aaa spoken by da omega hippiecrate who NEVER CARED WHAT I WOULD FEEL OR SPIRAL TO WHEN HE KEPT THINGS FROM ME 24/7 its balik na bitaw thanks to u bogox, keep ur hair shit to ur self oy all i wanted to emphasise was our boundaries gani but duhhhh ur mind went erro 404 if u still care about my opinion keep it to urself pa kitang taw kay kang dako with all ur i still give a fuck bout whatchu think naaah but who sees those shit first diba the pasigarbong "cL0s3 Fr9enDs" lel kauwaaaaw my gods my pader n brador are a pulizmanzsz idk why this stuff is still going on between u and me, i mean this sending meaningless words to each other anyways for all this is worth, my position on ur hair n approval about the shit u do is indifferent, same way you showed me that my position on ur dick is indifferent lmao, idc anymore if it gets a boner every 2 semimoons to a random person or u jerk off to your close frens face or image ot them in ur head or get it ran over by your girlfriend with her car if your death is at her disposal then she must be so important so go ask her about your head hair or dick hair if its okay for her to get it cut or not lol im glad u got boring na gyud its less harder for me to convince myself nga walay na sayang wala jud December 27, 2020 6:20 pm why did you remove them so soon thinbutcher's profile picture also i just tried to message you earlier to see if you blocked me or something bcos the last time i tried to man gud i cant man gud thats it? and u cant say your goal was to make misery out of my day after disrespecting what i felt and all u can send is sum gibberish i sent this

thinbutcher's profile picture you can just block me yknow you're the dumbest n the worst you can just ignore me for eternity u kno thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you're the dumbest n the worst im all this and that but you still want me in ur life how lol??? bogo gyud maybe u want me lol im the one who still has those dating apps and talking abt thoughts n lofe here n there with othet ppl, im the one who got telegram to camgirl with sum boi, ur so good at twlling me im projecting but when i rly am? ur slow? so jus get rid of me, get it? thinbutcher's profile picture wait what December 30, 2020 12:17 am why are u acting acting-surprised December 30, 2020 3:52 pm thinbutcher's profile picture why are you still here you're breaking ur own rules by asking that thinbutcher's profile picture ??? you should be asking urself that why u here thinbutcher's profile picture why am i still on my own instagram... December 30, 2020 5:54 pm this is an interface? this is my own account too why ba you still want me in your life thinbutcher's profile picture why not block me you sound like u want to block me but im here bcos i now know why i am thinbutcher's profile picture why wait my game startint na dont spam yet madr paker wa ko ka last hti hit thinbutcher's profile picture yaks stop ot messes with the connecting ill go auto pilot buyaaa

look my mage im becomign soft for her kay even many mystical assasins and humanoids i like her best and most mystical she is i guess u qould call a marionette bcos she ensorcelled her care ber she cqn boss around and 8 eons years old pa her i dont haf that skin yet but the beta is quite limited, she should haf alice wonderland skin unta December 31, 2020 11:10 am

thinbutcher's profile picture i show that lang bcos you showed me your annie bear oh nice lagi that ur extra terratistral milotic charmer sheathe n wearing the bracelet lagi pa °??° why u kno that annie thinbutcher's profile picture i sleep-downloaded it earlier i not know so i tried it nalang also i preregister it before man daan long ago pa i gif ta my fren code but i forogt i uninstalled it ganiha jus to play dragon raja You replied i sleep-downloaded it earlier i not know so i tried it nalang also i preregister it before man daan long ago pa i unstalled it bcos i got most my missions and the season will restart like soon and i dont wanna rank bcos everybody there playing safe it takes 11 minutes to first blood and i sacrifice lang forst blood bcos i love to wrath thinbutcher's profile picture dragon raja lame i about to play gihapon December 31, 2020 1:50 pm

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i back now on my wife reef thinbutcher's profile picture marionette again (?.?) January 3, 2021 8:37 pm why didn't you just replied why did u remove ur reply earlier man i reply lang bcos i still viewd ur story even i tried hard not to and i saw those imageus thinbutcher's profile picture nevermind am i January 4, 2021 8:13 am thinbutcher's profile picture are you what January 6, 2021 12:20 pm fleeting raman unta half an eon what we were when had it together but why still is it as if not being paralysed by everything we lost is twice as longer, is everlasting why do u keep coming back to me why its not as if for me, i really did lost almost everything when after us. everything peaked for me then and if you won't believe that it doesn't matter to me. kabalo ko you'd always that's not true this not true that thinbutcher's profile picture the love wasn't fake January 6, 2021 1:47 pm thinbutcher's profile picture please don't remove the messages if you want me to read them January 6, 2021 3:17 pm isnt that why why undo was used. the words essence just offbeat and lost na dayun this actually what i want u to read: why are u coming back to me i thought it was obvious why man you come back to me maybe we have same answer thinbutcher's profile picture dont worry i not copy i left u alone for two days u the one come back man i almost asked your vonnie why and let him gif u sum support and advice why thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i left u alone for two days u the one come back man that time/instance lang ang basis for the coming back? tthat was before man thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i almost asked your vonnie why and let him gif u sum support and advice why i assure you none of them can answer aside from me i din expect answer i expect them to gif you enlightenment bcos i dont understand anymore, he was ur confidante of ur secrets so maybe he still is, maybe he can help me advise if i should stop talking to u or not i wanted to vent earlier bcos i was crying or bali why do u miss me they're not exactly my confidant we talk and the words we exchange between us is between us man. one could ask but its not necessarily a secret if the information is withheld man. you can ask them but i can tell you na they pretty much know nothing about me that is relevant to this. but you can ask maybe you will hear things that might amuse you or your theories thinbutcher's profile picture i dont necessarily man pud balik to you. I am perpetually haunted by everything that concerned us and you everyday. you cant deny man pud that you and you and me left an imprint on a looot of things You replied they're not exactly my confidant we talk and the words we exchange between us is between us man. one could ask but its not necessarily a secret if the information is withheld man. you can ask them but i can tell you na they pretty much know nothing about me that is relevant to this. but you can ask maybe you will hear things that might amuse you or your theories why are you adding confetti on soup thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why are you adding confetti on soup im sorry im so braindead na gyud my disturbance to their peace or attempt wasnt significantly concerning us or the after us, it was how you are doing okay or not, they used to be the forst to know who you fucked with before so perhaps their knowledge of the recent one or none thereof would help me with the mechanics of ur coming back i am weak but maybe the items stacking would boost me defeating you You replied to yourself my disturbance to their peace or attempt wasnt significantly concerning us or the after us, it was how you are doing okay or not, they used to be the forst to know who you fucked with before so perhaps their knowledge of the recent one or none thereof would help me with the mechanics of ur coming back generally just how you are doing ra gyud, if u have big problema they might know of, and you reappearing occassionally is your allusion to that why man, you're haunted so you just haunt for its sake im sorry i did that to you, but i actually had a purpose, i wanted to weigh more than a ghost when i came back whatever timeline but i dont know about this one thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why man, you're haunted so you just haunt for its sake i not haunt you theres just an opportunity to contact you why thinbutcher's profile picture i thought it was implied that you not blocking me includes a chance of me messaging the opportunity actually thrills you is thag but not the fruit of the opportunity message me with no substance thinbutcher's profile picture it's not like i want to contact you jud i tried so hard not to message you just asking me why and then fading away i thought you have exhausted your words Replied to you and then fading away bcos that's how i feel there's no thrilling feeling for me in this Replied to you i thought you have exhausted your words so you understood it literally thinbutcher's profile picture but no its not like that so just for the sake lagi of adding more chaos thinbutcher's profile picture block me please if you dont wanna hear from me na well tell me what u get out of messaging me Replied to you so just for the sake lagi of adding more chaos no its false hope on maybe could add clear to my confusion thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you well tell me what u get out of messaging me nothing lage idk maybe it was kind of a acquired anxiety from all this wishing each other dead thing im not messaging you bcos i am taunting you or disturbing you thinbutcher's profile picture i come to a point where i message you lang bcos of how ddisturbed i am i want you to die most of the time, but the relief of when u reply block me lage if you want to expect no message from me thinbutcher's profile picture as long as there's a way i csn message you i can't guarantee i wont You replied i come to a point where i message you lang bcos of how ddisturbed i am you just paraphrased disturbance invitation good for two thinbutcher's profile picture why wont you block me man if you dont want me disturbing you You replied block me lage if you want to expect no message from me do you know how cancer this sounds like ur playing to lose Replied to you do you know how cancer this sounds wow do you know how cancer you are doing as well thinbutcher's profile picture what was the reason u not block me gane the cancer of me is the ghost i left inside u not me anymore Replied to you not me anymore ??? thinbutcher's profile picture so ur saying you torturing me is justified and not cancer you cancer me bcos my ghost cancers u the torture ended naman thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you the torture ended naman you thought i felt realllllllllly realllly so much energy was wasted gyud and you remember how you acted when i called every fucking minute thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you i felt realllllllllly realllly so much energy was wasted gyud and you remember how you acted when i called every fucking minute how man? you were irrevocably done every time thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you you were irrevocably done every time that was your goal diba to torture me by calling every minute so hypothetically if you got na sumbody kay they fell for ur constant pseudo flirting you still gonna disturb me bcos i dont block and bcos my torture left a tail of loose threads Replied to you so hypothetically if you got na sumbody kay they fell for ur constant pseudo flirting you still gonna disturb me bcos i dont block and bcos my torture left a tail of loose threads no also no thinbutcher's profile picture and no You replied that was your goal diba to torture me by calling every minute gani, whatttt man gyud my presence torture my absencr torutre ughhhhh ********* ***** ****** ill just send thus to vonnie and maybe he'll talk u out of this kay you're so disturbed naman jud ohhh Replied to you kay you're so disturbed naman jud ohhh i am bcos of how confusing you aree thinbutcher's profile picture you not even answer me why u not block me im done running around my own labyrinth naaa Replied to you im done running around my own labyrinth naaa aaand?? thinbutcher's profile picture why are you not dome with me man? why you not block me? why you still want me in your life man??? i mean done but still am but done with keeping imonh mama u not block me seeee if my presence was torture when i called u there was the block button yelling at u u should have donethat Replied to you u should have donethat ?????? thinbutcher's profile picture still not answer me why not block me bcos im fine with not thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you bcos im fine with not but not fine with the chance of me messaging??? You replied but not fine with the chance of me messaging??? im going to ask vonnie na why paman disturb thinbutcher's profile picture well balik2 ra ta ani if you not block me then expect that there a chance jud ? thinbutcher's profile picture ? play nalang ta para nakay gamit imo.disturbi advil lavigne 7038 thinbutcher's profile picture unsamani pwede pasintabi ang jejemon diri thinbutcher's profile picture unsa na game na man anniiieeee thinbutcher's profile picture ok

this one lang i wanna start na bcos garnder will abot from hoesptal soons apara dali dali hugas pinggu no or not thinbutcher's profile picture yes ??? ????? thinbutcher's profile picture yes ba play that account use ur supposed to gamit ur pagkadisturbo u not play diay fuck u Replied to you u not play diay fuck u ???? Replied to you ur supposed to gamit ur pagkadisturbo gane we play gane but i not play now pa cos still here thinbutcher's profile picture not uli yet why but cant play later wangame laaang human dayun can it wait 10 mins thinbutcher's profile picture hapit na human oh 5 na game hapit og 5 pud abot the garnden garndrner 9 mins in work is idle naman oy its for packing up n retouch lol u retouch diay ur highlights n fake lashes i haf 2 update pa thinbutcher's profile picture u can lang ask me later to plsy the 1 game disturbance game January 6, 2021 5:57 pm why man u man got my diadem and mumbers im still v unsatisfied with my game theres more disturbed residue left to be wooshwoooshh thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you why man u man got my diadem and mumbers what jus say lang dika mo dula this mental soul torture raman u like dula Replied to you this mental soul torture raman u like dula nah its u who like to dula that

thinbutcher's profile picture i cant lageee there na ill gif u axolut skin if we win thinbutcher's profile picture what time r we gonna play man i not play official match yet u got inscribed na we r gona league with sum ngyuens nguyens why soooop0 slow thinbutcher's profile picture im sorry i not familiar with the hero i thought i was gonna play the unicorn lady aaa the copper cresselia ??? sorakoflako that my first heroine pud its fine man i play gani one lang the frost archer ther baya comstellation eel leech hero, it has zpinning suns orbiting it but its v v feedable but i use gihapon bcos of its mantra anyways if i talk that means me na nag disturbo to u so i balik now na, sposed to be not kilig about the game and when u sunod sunod flutter behind my cape thinbutcher's profile picture ya the sora man. sorry sora sora i not use sora sora kayo you can use the fishumanoid nami minaaaa butt greerrree u man disturbo mo oh me ohh umii

im sorry i had to rush and go to cebuana to get money that i asked from my brother bcos i have no money for lunch cos i used it for gas and load bcos the entire capitol no internet no bayad on time man thinbutcher's profile picture im kinda braindead na jud now bcos of the assignments its vv little title but assignments are kinda heavy its fine, teleporting to the butterfly creek jungle man pud is my way to channel my braindead bcos i dont haf to think theres alot of thinking required when im being fought here and kasaba and being told im a weirdo and irritant it haunts me man not jud for the thrill of disturbing you i had to rush time out bcos i forgot bcos i still have to review a contract and guess what the company is from cebu and i help but sigh and roll my eyes bcos again even if its lapu lapu and not consolacion, how hard could iit be to associate it with you thinbutcher's profile picture if you're rolling over ur higdaan bcos u think im doing well no i am not, i don't even like this

no there is wild rift tagalog live action rn its my hero and the garen annoying garen only say one line super blind patriotic You replied if you're rolling over ur higdaan bcos u think im doing well no i am not, i don't even like this it coming from u na gani that my eixstence is torture i can neither disappear or be here thinbutcher's profile picture Replied to you it coming from u na gani that my eixstence is torture nah you directly chose to torture me yoi know there are flashbacks baya of my old hell when i made you like hell numbers and i wonder if u are required gyud na to acquire it for sum papers and bank stuff and i guilt over how your number pa is in seaboo and its a lot of hassle n i cant help at all i jus shrug You replied nah you directly chose to torture me how this is about right now, are you bitin with it or is this to avenge the time you lost no? i don't know what exactly is now but i want to not bother you anymore. since its been my fault man thinbutcher's profile picture that's why im asking you to block me i can jus why dont u have man an answer why u bother pa me im not angry anymore, i said before i know why i was here again, i just dont expect sumthing anymore. this is air, perhaps what this universe is made of that i unconsciosly inhale it was ur statement that riled my peace that i want u back in my life sumthing sumthing thinbutcher's profile picture no i not lage bother you. its me on my end ba me what's going inside my zombie brain zombrain that makes actioms and one of them is messaging very rarely because unbothered bother is really bothering, ill be here when youre ready to say it but ill try my hardest not to calculate bcos why right why anymore the discipline is your responsibility man not mine, thats why if u want to not bother me you jus block me thinbutcher's profile picture fair enough

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im just a vessel for the sound n thoughts n emotions of old earth

two moons straight woke up in ... dangerous place... now i wake with iridescent wings

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my cum, regular cum, swamp water, turmeric, vetala blood & soju, tears with a drop of crushed xanor

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Everyone is a non-fiction book with a fantasy theme.

"Showing Gratitude." I believe that good things are not hidden but are in plain sight and that has taught me to count what I have as blessings and not is yet to arrive as the greatest thing that will have happened to you. This has become my conduit to be more compassionate with people whom life hasn't treated fairly and hence treat others with such unfairness. It is wrong to take your negativity on others, an effect of gratitude is humility and when you are humble, you know how to ask for help in alleviating your situation instead of bringing everyone else down to your ditch.

Personally, I want to ease my troubles with sleeping and I think my work should be able to add to the factors that worsen it, like anxieties, backlog and bad blood with people I encounter through my job. In work, I want to feel efficient and not an impostor on overdrive or auto-pilot. . I want to make friends from work for keeps too, no matter the zodiac sign.

When it's around 8 in the morning and I hear birds chirping and my baby niece begin crying, I'm reminded that my life this year has changed drastically since last year. I want to be another source of peace for her since most of time that is what we lack at home. I hope to peacefully move out with her and my sister from this chaos. I don't want her to be raised in screams and love instead.

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Nuclear fallout is the residual radioactive material propelled into the upper atmosphere following a nuclear blast, so called because it "falls out" of the sky after the explosion and the shock wave has passed. It commonly refers to the radioactive dust and ash created when a nuclear weapon explodes why remain fascinated. free.

despair translted.

you woke up from a nap, that makes u recongise yourself.

a person or thing situated away or detached from the main body or system. "less accessible islands and outliers" a person or thing differing from all other members of a particular group or set. "an outlier in Faulkner's body of work" GEOLOGY a younger rock formation isolated among older rocks.

you look up the , smiling... blushing... the sky is endless space, with dark corners, thunder, dryness, friction  colour

vaporwave smol font cloud sailing the soft lightworker behind aestheticsxchin serenading

any advice on journaling? is it good? do u recommend?

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put pizza on turntable !!!

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ma adhd possibl si musharna simbakoo

intervention..kurt kobain : "His dealer was right there. He wanted to get fucked up into oblivion ... He wanted to die, that's what he wanted to do."[12]:333

He also found a suicide note with a pen stuck through it inside a flower pot

im a cute sigh coke sis

. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know! Kurt had been hiding in his greenhouse remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

kurt had an imaginary fren BODDAH

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my imaginary friend FOREST amd fairy my langaue not be confused w myth

a silogan is literally the hospital to me when im nearly passed out daruuuunk

well im glad you're sharing what you like with me it's like sharing what you are like too, idk idkkkkkkkkk

who's to tell you that i mean i see everyone i like as a nudibranch and the ones i dont are like *draws a stickman* it's like your red is not rly my red. we are in a simulation

There is a quick bitter taste of wolfsbane in her blood, she is a dancer in the dark illuminated by the moon. As constellations spin and the young moon fattens she feels the pull and sway of all oracle readers, of the witches in the wood. She knows the scent of news in the wind.

Brown is the most formidable color to god. 𝓑𝓮𝓱𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝓲𝓽 ! she commands, and for a moment you have her vision: and the dry grass undulates like a self-weaving tapestry, and the wood is a twinkling kaleidoscope, and the deer's fur glows with inner-sun starflame

my personal favourite is

a friend is night vision gear, but appears in the sun.

affair with the night. veiled of night, ridden with malady.

failed to report the summary... there was a bit of a feud... tame...not having to sacrifices them in the fight

if youre saying that theyre imaginary what about those with aphantasia?

spirit guides

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dressed in moonlight ???? " oyster mushrooms textures recently so decided to apply it here Smiling face with open mouth and cold sweat"

maybe no one has to know, but whats the pointin hiding the good? im going to sleep, wake and have a...wait for me.

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for a few, if not almost extinct, of our kind, there's still a fondness we carry for halloween and every impossibility that comes with it. for others, it starts as early as october that's gets fondly called spooktober as soon as the invisible wave of festive yet eerie enthralls the air but if you grew up in the philippines, the concept and aesthetic of spook transcends all seasons, undying or at least sustained by raconteurs & explorers & inhabitants alike bearing something to tell via arcane observation.

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...reflects what they want.. wishing pokemon jirachis arises every 1000 yrs what we reall hide.. premonition.. "true" eye.

magindara the eye of the adult that becomes a pearl-like relic

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planetray scalechemistry changed! our nuclear famcig butts are plastic cancer tamppons... pollutants of the sea ive alwas took care of my eyelashes bcos it is loveden brothel for dustmites but i didnt know that its a massacre. bed bugs impale their mate per coitus en garde. utility penises: phallus flatworms.sex means saying goodbye to their penis. CHROMODORIS sea slugMeet Chromodoris reticulata, a type of sea slug, that has to reckon with a scary reality: sex means saying goodbye to their penis. At least, for the day. hermaphrodites After sex, they shed their single-use penis into the ocean’s abyss. Chromodoris reticulata are hermaphrodites and fertilize each other simultaneously during sex. Each has a three-centimeter-long schlong, but they only extend a centimeter of their penis when copulating. After sex, they shed their single-use penis into the ocean’s abyss. But this loss doesn’t mean their sex life is over: they have at least two more disposable penis segments hidden away. As soon as 24 hours later, the slug will be back in action. macropod!!! - brandon!!!roadkill 1. Sunbathers beware! Much of the crystal white sand forming tropical beaches is former parrotfish poop: After digesting coral rock, it's excreted as sand. 2. Measuring more than four feet in length and weighing in at 100 pounds, bumphead parrotfish from the Indo-Pacific are the family's largest member. 3. When bedding down for the night, a few species enshroud their bodies in mucus bubbles blown from their mouths (as in the photo here). The translucent nightgowns protect the slumbering fish from bloodsucking parasites and predators. 7. With the loss of a harem's dominant male, the group's largest female will, in a matter of weeks, change sex, which confers a gaudy new coat and the exclusive right to mate with the remaining ladies. We interrupt your regularly scheduled news programming to bring you this wonderful piece of trivia about kangaroo genitals. t’s not the size that matters, they say, but it is hard not to be impressed by the scale of the barnacle penis. Indeed, biologists since Charles Darwin have marvelled at its amazing member, which measures in some species up to a whopping nine times the length of its body. Why is the barnacle thus endowed? As adults, these marine crustaceans cement themselves to rocks in intertidal zones, hulls of boats and the bodies of turtles and whales. This lifestyle makes sexual reproduction somewhat challenging. Although barnacles are hermaphrodites, carrying both male and female genitalia, they rarely have sex with themselves. Instead, they use their extraordinarily long penises to reach out and find a mate within striking distance. Barnacle penises resemble muscular telescopes. They have a series of folded rings that allow it to stretch to great lengths. It is also covered with chemical-sensing bristles that “sniff out” receptive mates. Outside of the breeding season, the penis shrinks, and in some species falls off completely, only to be regrown the next time it’s needed. To the untrained eye it is hard to pick the females in a clan of spotted hyenas. That’s because females not only ‘wear the pants’, with even the lowliest female dominating the highest-ranking male, but also sport a pendulous clitoris that looks very much like a penis and a fleshy pseudo-scrotum. Like the penis, the clitoris – or ‘pseudo-penis’ – is used to urinate and is capable of erection. Females also have no vagina, which means that mating can be a hit-and-miss affair where the males (with their actual penis) must inseminate the females through the narrow clitoral opening. Birth for first-time mums is even more eye-watering, as the pups exit through this same narrow canal, splitting it open. More than half the pups suffocate on their way out. The biology behind the masculine-looking clitoris is not yet fully understood. It appears to develop without the influence of male sex hormones. One suggestion is that the cellular receptors that detect male sex hormones could be faulty in spotted hyenas, so that the receptors are permanently switched on. Other hyena species – brown ones, striped ones and aardwolves – have escaped this evolutionary quirk. Tweet Though barnacles are hermaphrodites, it is their male side that most shows the scale of attachment issues. Credit: Getty Images / Kevin Massey-Borman / EyeEmHere is the list of the most peculiar sex lives of animals. From barnacles to marsupials, we explore six of the weirdest cases. Going the distance: the barnacle (Balanus nubilus and others)It’s not the size that matters, they say, but it is hard not to be impressed by the scale of the barnacle penis. Indeed, biologists since Charles Darwin have marvelled at its amazing member, which measures in some species up to a whopping nine times the length of its body. Why is the barnacle thus endowed? As adults, these marine crustaceans cement themselves to rocks in intertidal zones, hulls of boats and the bodies of turtles and whales. This lifestyle makes sexual reproduction somewhat challenging. Although barnacles are hermaphrodites, carrying both male and female genitalia, they rarely have sex with themselves. Instead, they use their extraordinarily long penises to reach out and find a mate within striking distance. Barnacle penises resemble muscular telescopes. They have a series of folded rings that allow it to stretch to great lengths. It is also covered with chemical-sensing bristles that “sniff out” receptive mates. Outside of the breeding season, the penis shrinks, and in some species falls off completely, only to be regrown the next time it’s needed. Spot the difference: the spotted hyena (Crocuta crocuta) While it may be hard to spot the females in a pack of spotted hyenas, they certainly stand out from the females of other hyena species.While it may be hard to spot the females in a pack of spotted hyenas, they certainly stand out from the females of other hyena species. Credit: Getty Images / Martin Harvey To the untrained eye it is hard to pick the females in a clan of spotted hyenas. That’s because females not only ‘wear the pants’, with even the lowliest female dominating the highest-ranking male, but also sport a pendulous clitoris that looks very much like a penis and a fleshy pseudo-scrotum. Like the penis, the clitoris – or ‘pseudo-penis’ – is used to urinate and is capable of erection. Females also have no vagina, which means that mating can be a hit-and-miss affair where the males (with their actual penis) must inseminate the females through the narrow clitoral opening. Birth for first-time mums is even more eye-watering, as the pups exit through this same narrow canal, splitting it open. More than half the pups suffocate on their way out. The biology behind the masculine-looking clitoris is not yet fully understood. It appears to develop without the influence of male sex hormones. One suggestion is that the cellular receptors that detect male sex hormones could be faulty in spotted hyenas, so that the receptors are permanently switched on. Other hyena species – brown ones, striped ones and aardwolves – have escaped this evolutionary quirk. Screwing around: the Argentine blue-billed duck (Oxyura vittata) Paddling softly but carrying a big stick. Twisted organs are a classic case of an evolutionary battle of the sexes. Paddling softly but carrying a big stick. Twisted organs are a classic case of an evolutionary battle of the sexes. Credit: Getty Images / Wolfgang KaehlerThe Argentine blue-billed duck is another animal that rates highly in the penis-to-body length stakes. With a penis that can stretch to be as long as its body, it boasts the longest of any vertebrate (even if it’s not as impressive as the barnacle’s). But size is far from the only remarkable thing about the blue-bill’s penis. For a start, the fact it even has one is unusual. Just 3% of birds – including ducks, ostriches, emus and kiwis – have penises. The rest mate by males and females touching their respective ‘cloacae’ – all-in-one orifices for both reproductive and digestive functions – in a move called a “cloacal kiss”. Duck penises are twisted like corkscrews, and grow anew each year. Duck vaginas corkscrew in the opposite direction. The twisted organs are a classic case of an evolutionary battle of the sexes. In this case, the females have the upper hand. Their vaginas, which also have numerous ‘dead-end’ pockets, are a physical barrier against forced mating by randy males. When a female is receptive to a male’s advances, however, her vagina relaxes, allowing access to her labyrinthine reproductive tract and a greater chance of fertilising her eggs. dead end... the vagene eath by sex might not sound like much of a strategy, but for the antechinus, a small Australian marsupial, it’s a way of life. In all but one of more than a dozen antechinus species, males live for a single frenzied season of fornication and die soon after. It is not uncommon for insects and fish such as Pacific salmon to put their resources into a single bout of mating before they cark it. In mammals, however, suicidal reproduction, or ‘semelparity’, has evolved in only four groups – three small mouse-like, insect-munching marsupials like the antechinus, and the northern quoll (Dasyurus hallucatus), which is the size of a small cat. Food supply is the most likely culprit. In places where insect availability is highly variable across seasons, females squeeze their mating into a short window so their offspring will be born when food is plentiful. This is especially important for marsupials, whose pouched young need to be suckled for several months. The result is that a male antechinus is a kamikaze Casanova, staking all his resources on frantic mating marathons lasting up to 14 hours. This goes on for two to three weeks, by the end of which he is on death’s door. His fur falls out, his stress hormones are through the roof and his immune system collapses. Then he dies, though hopefully his genes will live on in the next generation. A female deep sea anglerfish (Edriolychnus schmidti) with two males on her back. Credit: Getty Images / Clive BromhallAnglerfish, with their bobbly lures hanging off their heads, are weird creatures at the best of times. But how the males lure females into sex is stranger still. Other male fish impress prospective mates with brightly coloured scales or mating dances. Not so for some species of anglerfish. A young male, which is significantly smaller than a female, will hunt down a companion and sink his teeth into her flesh. Enzymes in the suitor’s mouth then melt away his own mouth and his mate’s skin, fusing the two together. Thus attached, the male becomes a tumour-like parasite, relying on the female for food, delivered directly via their now melded blood vessels. Nutrition aside, the parasitic male is also afforded prime real estate from which to release sperm when the female releases her eggs. That’s not to say there is no competition; in some species, females have been observed with up to eight males attached. Koalas and other marsupials have bifurcated sexual organs. Credit: Getty Images / Abhishek Saini / EyeEmFemale marsupials – mammals that carry their young in pouches – aren’t plumbed like other mammals. Whereas humans and most other mammals have a single vagina, leading to a single uterus, marsupials – such as koalas, kangaroos, wombats, opossums and sugar-gliders – have three vaginas and two uteri. The left and right vaginas carry sperm from the penis – which is two-pronged, so as to inseminate both vaginas at once – while the central vagina serves as a birth canal for the jelly-bean-sized joeys that, once born, make their way to the mother’s pouch to continue their development. It’s perhaps not a coincidence that pouches and multiple vaginas developed together. The narrow size of the central passage probably makes early birth followed by development of the young in a pouch a necessity. Related reading: Painful pooping may stop panda sex NINE OF THE WEIRDEST PENISES IN THE ANIMAL KINGDOMA short list of some of nature’s most curious phalluses, from the echidna’s four-headed unit to the dolphin’s prehensile member Echidnas have a four-headed penis, though only two heads are put to use at a time. Birds have them, bees have them, even regular old fleas have them, but in the animal kingdom, no penis is exactly like the next. Across vastly different species and ecosystems, unique environmental pressures have allowed creatures of many species to evolve an array of shapes and sizes—from the electric blue penis of the leopard slug to the blue whale’s ten-foot phallus. The more scientists learn about penises, the more they realize how varied sex organs are. Just ask Emily Willingham, a biologist and journalist who’s been studying penises for over a decade. Her book, Phallacy: Life Lessons from the Animal Penis, hit shelves in September. Phallacy plunges readers into the wild and wacky world of animal genitalia while exploring the social and cultural significance of penises as symbols of power and identity. Typically, a penis helps male animals reproduce sexually with a female—however, exceptions exist. Gender and sex rarely fit into tidy categories and animal penises are no different. Many of the creatures packing the most surprising phalluses are hermaphrodites, meaning they also have female reproductive organs. “There's not a binary that is categorically one thing or the other when it comes to genitalia,” says Willingham. These blurred lines often give rise to nature's most fascinating sexual organs. Here are eight penises that are as cool and surprising as the creatures that wield them: Sometimes one just isn’t enough. Or so it seems for the echidna, a spiny egg-laying mammal, which has evolved a four-headed penis. During copulation, echidna penises operate on a part-time schedule: half the penis temporarily shuts down while the other two heads are responsible for fertilization. But those extra two heads aren’t there just to show off. Next time the echidna mates, he’ll alternate which half he uses. By shutting down half of their penis at a time, male echidnas fit perfectly with the female��s two-branched reproductive tract. This creature’s coat of quills don’t spare its genitalia, which features penile spines—a horrifying frequent trait in the animal kingdom (even humans once had them) which may increase fertilization success or trigger ovulation. Dolphins have particularly dexterous phalluses. (Brent Durand / Getty Images)Dolphins are known for their intelligence, promiscuity and absurdly dexterous penises. They have a prehensile penis, meaning it can swivel, grab and grope, much like a human hand. A prehensile penis helps males navigate the complex, labyrinth-like reproductive tracts of female dolphins. Dolphins don’t just use their penises for baby-making, either. Bottlenose dolphins frequently copulate for pleasure, and often with members of the same sex. Dolphin sex doesn’t last long, only about ten seconds, but males can ejaculate multiple times an hour. This flatworm engages in penis fights. (Jens Petersen via Wikimedia Commons under [CC BY-SA 3.0])En garde! Many animals use their penises for love, but flatworms also use theirs to fight. Like many organisms with intriguing phalluses, flatworms that engage in penis fights are hermaphrodites—just one example that showcases how a sex binary system fails to account for the range, fluidity and diversity of many organisms. Some species of flatworm engage in this duel to see who can inseminate the other. Their two-headed penises resemble tiny swords, and battles can last for up to an hour as they take turns attempting to stab the other. The winner pierces the flesh of the other flatworm to deposit their sperm, something scientists refer to as “traumatic insemination.” Mating can be competitive, with a single flatworm fertilizing another. In other cases, like with the tiger flatworm, they can play both roles: each flatworm gives and receives sperm from its partner. Blue whales have the largest penis in the animal kingdom—around eight to ten feet. (NOAA Photo Library via flickr under [CC BY 2.0])Blue whales are the largest creature to ever roam the earth, and they certainly have the phallus to match. Blue whale penises range between eight and ten feet, with a foot-long diameter. Each of its testes along can weigh up to 150 pounds and can ejaculate gallons of sperm in a single go. Whale penises are so famously oversized that in Moby Dick, Herman Melville suggests using the skin of a sperm whale’s phallus as a floor-length apron to stay tidy while skinning the rest of the whale. We’ll have to take Melville’s word on that one. Barnacles have penises nearly eight times their body length. (Stux via Pixabay under [CC0])The blue whale might have the world’s biggest penis, but size is relative. Barnacles have the biggest penis-to-body size ratio, with genitalia nearly eight-times their total body length. Barnacles are stuck in place for life, so they use their super-long penises to reach other nearby crustaceans, blindly depositing sperm inside their neighbors. Like flatworms, barnacles are hermaphrodites that can fertilize others, be fertilized or both. Scientists have found that barnacle penis features change based on where they live. Those in rougher waters have shorter, stouter penises, while those in calmer areas have long, slender penises. If humans had the same penis-to-body-sized ratio as barnacles, our penises would be as long as a humpback whale, so about 50 feet in length, says Willingham. Bed bugs stab their partner during copulation. (Centers for Disease Control and Prevention via Wikimedia Commons under [CC0])Bed bugs are famous for their aggressive, stabbing sex. Sometimes, overzealous males kill females with their saber-like penis in the process. Willingham explains that this violent process has caused bedbugs to evolve “something very vagina-like where they tend to get stabbed.” This special less-armored area of their abdomen might minimize harm as the male injects his sperm into the female’s circulatory system. Females of this cave insect species wield a penis-like organ. (Biodiversity Heritage Library via Wikimedia Commons under [CC0])Not much shocks Willingham about animal penises anymore, but she says she was surprised to learn about a microscopic, eyeless cave insect, which upends how scientists understand sex. Males of the species have a vagina-like pouch containing sperm, while females have a special penis-like organ that penetrates and vacuums up sperm from the male. Unlike other species that use a similar process—butterflies, mites, beetles—males of these species don’t have a similar penetrative organ, only the females do, says Willingham. This sea slug has a single-use penis. (Bernard Dupont via Wikimedia Commons under [CC BY-SA 2.0])Meet Chromodoris reticulata, a type of sea slug, that has to reckon with a scary reality: sex means saying goodbye to their penis. At least, for the day. Chromodoris reticulata are hermaphrodites and fertilize each other simultaneously during sex. Each has a three-centimeter-long schlong, but they only extend a centimeter of their penis when copulating. After sex, they shed their single-use penis into the ocean’s abyss. But this loss doesn’t mean their sex life is over: they have at least two more disposable penis segments hidden away. As soon as 24 hours later, the slug will be back in action. Leopard slugs sport giant electric blue penises. (Cimabue via Pixabay under [CC-BY])Sometimes, penises pose logistical challenges. That is certainly the case for the leopard slug, which is so well-endowed that it has to go to extreme measures to reproduce. Mating leopard slugs dangle from branches by a shared rope of their own slime with their penises hanging below. As hermaphrodites, these slugs inseminate each other during sex so, once the action starts, two penises are on display. And their penises are easily spotted: They’re electric blue and roughly the size of the slugs themselves. “You just need to go look that one up,” says Willingham. You can see a video of the slugs in action here. The act is a messy tangle, but nothing goes to waste. Once copulation is complete, one partner slurps down the slimy sex rope as a post-coitus snack. you have a libido of a dolphin

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Another thing that needs to be understood by gay and bi men, when you try to compare your (genuinely disgusting) fetishization at the hands of straight women, to our fetishization at the hands of straight men…

This is what our fetishization ends up in:

Oh, also, the “secret boyfriend” is 51 years old, while the girl they murdered was 24, as is his cunt of a straight girlfriend who pretended to be a lesbian to then surprise her with a threesome with a man.

That’s what our fetishization leads to. That, or corrective rape.

And the worst of it all? Watch how this will be lumped in with general violence against women, instead of being statistically recognized as specific misogynistic homophobia. Because that is what always happens to us and to our stories. That is why the official statistics of the violence we face seem so low. They’re easy to hide and straight people and men in general love to hide it.

I don’t say this in an attempt to antagonize you, guys. I say it because most of you are so blind to what we go through and refuse to believe us even in that we do face a lot of violence, not just for being women, but for being gay women.

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This was my best friend, my confidant….it wasn’t perfect but I still had and will always have love for him. He killed himself on the night of what would’ve been our 7 year anniversary because his family disowned him and he felt so hopeless….I identified his body yesterday morning…I want to do right by him because my gut tells me his family won’t…I don’t want him in an unmarked grave. Please donate to my paypal https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/MagicalMoonBoi to help me get my best friend cremated. If you can’t donate please reblog please!

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Journals, articles, books & texts, on folklore, mythology, occult, and related -to- general anthropology, history, archaeology. 

Some good and/or interesting (or hokey) ‘examples’ included for most resources. tryin to organize & share stuff that was floating around onenote.

Journals (open access) – Folklore, Occult, etc

Culutural Analysis - folklore, popular culture, anthropology – The Mythical Ghoul in Arabic Culture

Folklore - folklore, anthropology, archaeology – The Making of a Bewitchment Narrative, Grecian Riddle Jokes

Incantatio - journal on charms, charmers, and charming – Verbal Charms from a 17th Century Manuscript

Oral Tradition – Jewish Folk Literature, Noises of Battle in Old English Poetry

Journal of Ethnology and Folkloristics – Nani Fairtyales about the Cruel Bride, Energy as the Mediator between Natural and Supernatural Realms

International Journal of Intangible Heritage 

Studia Mythologica Slavica (many articles not English) – Dragon and Hero, Fertility Rites in the Raining Cave, The Grateful Wolf and Venetic Horses in Strabo’s Geography

Folklorica - Slavic & Eastern European folklore association – Ritual: The Role of Plant Characteristics in Slavic Folk Medicine, Animal Magic

Esoterica - The Journal of Esoteric Studies – The Curious Case of Hermetic Graffiti in Valladolid Cathedral 

The Esoteric Quarterly

Mythological Studies Journal

Luvah - Journal of the Creative Imagination – A More Poetical Character Than Satan

Transpersonal Studies – Shamanic Cosmology as an Evolutionary Neurocognitive Epistemology, Dreamscapes

Beyond Borderlands  – tumblr

Paranthropology

GOLEM - Journal of Religion and Monsters – The Religious Functions of Pokemon, Anti-Semitism and Vampires in British Popular Culture 1875-1914

Correspondences - Online Journal for the Academic Study of Western Esotericism – Kriegsmann’s Philological Quest for Ancient Wisdom 

– History, Archaeology

Adoranten - pre-historic rock art

Chitrolekha - India art & design history – Gomira Dance Mask

Silk Road – Centaurs on the Silk Road: Hellenistic Textiles in Western China

Sino-Platonic - East Asian languages and civilizations – Discursive Weaving Women in Chinese and Greek Traditions

MELA Notes - Middle East Librarians Association

Didaskalia - Journal for Ancient Performance

Ancient Narrative - Greek, Roman, Jewish novelistic traditions – The Construction of the Real and the Ideal in the Ancient Novel

Akroterion - Greek, Roman – The Deer Hunter: A Portrait of Aeneas

Greek, Roman and Byzantine Studies  – Erotic and Separation Spells, The Ancients’ One-Horned Ass

Roman Legal Tradition - medieval civil law – Between Slavery and Freedom 

Phronimon - South African society for Greek Philosophy and the Humanities – Special Issue vol. 13 #2, Greek philosophy in dialogue with African+ philosophy

The Heroic Age - Early medieval Northwestern Europe – Icelandic Sword in the Stone

Peregrinations - Medieval Art and Architecture – Special Issue vol. 4 #1, Mappings 

Tiresas - Medieval and Classical – Sexuality in the Natural and Demonic Magic of the Middle Ages

Essays in Medieval Studies  – The Female Spell-caster in Middle English Romances, The Sweet Song of Satan

Hortulus - Medieval studies – Courtliness & the Deployment of Sodomy in 12th-Century Histories of Britain, Monsters & Monstrosities issue, Magic & Witchcraft issue

Annual of Medieval Studies at CEU

Medieval Archaeology – Divided and Galleried Hall-Houses, The Hall of the Knights Templar at Temple Balsall

Medieval Feminist Forum  – multiculturalism issue; Gender, Skin Color and the Power of Place … Romance of Moriaen, Writing Novels About Medieval Women for Modern Readers, Amazons & Guerilleres

Quidditas - medieval and renaissance 

Medieval Warfare

The Viking Society - ridiculous amount of articles from 1895-2011

Journals (limited free/sub/institution access)

Al-Masaq - Journal of the Medieval Mediterranean – Piracy as Statecraft: The Policies of Taifa of Denia, free issue

Mythical Creatures of Europe - article + map

Folklore - limited free access – Volume 122 #3, On the Ambiguity of Elves

Digital Philology -  a journal of medieval cultures – Saracens & Race in Roman de la Rose Iconography

Pomegranate - International Journal for Pagan Studies

Transcultural Psychiatry

European Journal of English Studies  – Myths East of Venice issue, Esotericism issue

Books, Texts, Images etc. – Folklore, Occult etc.

Magical Gem Database - Greek/Egyptian gems & talismans [x] [x]

Biblioteca Aracana - (mostly) Greek pagan history, rituals, poetry etc. – Greater Tool Consecration, The Yew-Demon

Curse Tablets from Roman Britain - [x]

The Gnostic Society Library – The Corpus Hermeticum, Hymn of the Robe of Glory

Grimoar - vast occult text library – Grimoires, Greek & Roman Necromancy, Queer Theology, Ancient Christian Magic

Internet Sacred Text Archive - religion, occult, folklore, etc. ancient texts

Verse and Transmutation - A Corpus of Middle English Alchemical Poetry

– History

The Internet Classics Archive - mainly Greco-Roman, some Persian & Chinese translated texts

Bodleian Oriental Manuscript Collection - [x] [x] [x]

Virtual Magic Bowl Archive - Jewish-Aramaic incantation bowl text and images [x] [x] 

Vindolanda Tablets - images and translations of tablets from 1st & 2nd c. [x]

Corsair - online catalog of the Piedmont Morgan library (manuscripts) [x] [x]

Beinecke rare book & manuscripts  – Wagstaff miscellany, al-Qur'ān–1813

LUNA - tonnes from Byzantine manuscripts to Arabic cartography

Maps on the web - Oxford Library [x] [x] [x]

Bodleian Library manuscripts - photographs of 11th-17th c. manuscripts – Treatises on Heraldry, The Worcester Fragments (polyphonic music), 12 c. misc medical and herbal texts

Early Manuscripts at Oxford U - very high quality photographs – (view through bottom left) Military texts by Athenaeus Mechanicus 16th c. [x] [x], MS Douce 195 Roman de la Rose [x] [x]

Trinity College digital manuscript library  – Mathematica Medica, 15th c.

eTOME - primary sources about Celtic peoples

Websites, Blogs – Folklore, Occult etc.

Demonthings - Ancient Egyptian Demonology Project 

Invocatio - (mostly) western esotericism

Heterodoxology - history, esotericism, science – Religion in the Age of Cyborgs

The Recipes Project - food, magic, science, medicine – The Medieval Invisible Man (invisibility recipes)

Morbid Anatomy - museum/library in Brooklyn

– History 

Islamic Philosophy Online - tonnes of texts, articles, links, utilities, this belongs in every section; mostly English

Medicina Antiqua - Graeco-Roman medicine

History of the Ancient World - news and resources – The So-called Galatae, Gauls, Celts in Early Hellenistic Balkans; Maidens, Matrons Magicians: Women & Personal Ritual Power in Late Antique Egypt

Διοτίμα - Women & Gender in Antiquity

Bodleian Library Exhibitions Online – Khusraw & Shirin, Hebrew Manuscripts as a Meeting-Place of Cultures

Medievalists – folk studies, witchcraft, mythology, science tags

Atlas Obscura – Bats and Vampiric Lore of Pére Lachaise Cemetery 

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balisong & hello kitty taser neutrois

sword lesbian this, axe lesbian that…I myself? A weighty dagger lesbian. Thank you for reading my post.

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isn’t rick and morty that thing you get when you die and your body gets all stiff

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hmm? what’s that? oh, you don’t like my seeds? *evolves into a fruit that bears no seeds but is now a monoculture that is especially susceptible to pests and disease* how about that idiot 

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Jake Gyllenhaal ASMR Interview for W Magazine (December 2017)