#my skin crawling like bugs are biting me or like theres a ton of glass shards stuck in my skin but theres nothing there

[staywskz143]

today has been a DAY

so to start the day we go to my court hearing to appeal my request for disability, this stressed me out the past entire month and im glad its over with but i was HEAVILY masking all throughout the hearing.

anyway lawyer person said i did a good job! :D

decide to go get a quick coffee and hot chocolate at a nearby cafe (both drinks we horrible, idk how they fucked up both in the same way but both tasted watery, tasteless and bitter), then go to noodles to get lunch and im just tired at this point, i wanna flop on the couch, face down and pass out.

get home and get to rest for like maybe half an hour, then dad is like "hey i was gonna go shopping wanna come with?" and i felt like i could so i went with, we go shopping and i go through smelling every single shampoo and conditioner in the store to TRY and find one that i like (we did yay!) so my nose is sensory overloaded.

im just filled with the anxious energy that feels like its buzzing under your skin but it doesnt actually make you have the energy to do stuff so you end up over doing it the whole day.

anyway,, back home and my dad is gonna change the light bulb of one of the basement lights, i hear glass breaking and my dad shout "FUCK" and run to see what happened.

the old bulb that died had exploded, so broken glass all over our carpet and my dad got glass stuck in his hand, the original base of the old light bulb is stuck up in the socket with a ton of broken glass and is screwed in too tight so we cant get it out.

we spent like an hour just picking up the glass and trying to get the old bulb base out, no success on the bulb base but we did pick up all the glass we could see as well as vacuumed.

now i am so fucking tired, i have no energy left and i just want to death because im so tired, but i left my earrings out last night when i was taking pics of them so all of my earrings are just on my couch and i cant lay down.

today was awful, and idk i needed to tell someone..

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