#my sense of self has also kept improving. ive been processing the fact that im not allowed sex right now | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

ever-go-on · 4 months ago

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i think im getting less sensitive about online system bullshit. it still bothers me, but it doesnt ruin my day and put me in a foul mood - at worst i ruminate over it for a few hours and then cope by vaguely complaining and reposting things ive already said to make myself feel more secure

#my posts #i think sane interactions with people have helped me process the concept of systemhood and destigmatise plurality as a whole in my brain #now i can be critical of the idiotic parts of it without being triggered by it being mentioned at all #because when most people mention it they dont necessarily mean the idiotic parts anyway #my sense of self has also kept improving. ive been processing the fact that im not allowed sex right now #because my dissociation is bad and my boyfriend is not prepared to take these risks with me #and it scared me at first but theres been peace since #i feel somewhat secure now that its a hard no for the foreseeable future. ive been digesting maybe i will Actually never do it again #i think it definitely calmed the child part down. this is what they wanted #wanted it never again #me and constantly processing several things at once. just need to make sure im living at the same time

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