#my self image issues now are mostly like. vanity and fashion and not like. deep disgust at my existence. which is great!!! | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vanillabat99 · 5 months ago

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I have a brunch hangout in the morning and I decided to bust out my old binders to see if they still fit!! They're a bit snug, and I'm not the same proportions as I was when I got them. I haven't worn them in years, due to health issues, but I never really felt a need to wear them again. It was strange seeing my reflection and just seeing Me But In A Binder. I'm so used to seeing that reflection and feeling intense emotions over my gender presentation. I've had a very interesting Gender Journey, and while a chunk of it can definitely be attributed to my dissociative disorder, HRT has done wonders for my self-image to the point where I don't really experience gender dysphoria anymore!!

I know there are parts of myself that do very much experience gender dysphoria, so I don't plan on throwing the binders away, but I don't think I will be wearing one for brunch :3

#like yall this is so wild #i still have self image issues dont get me wrong but like. on average i am neutral about myself!!!!!!!!#and!! sometimes!!! i think i look quite good!!! dare i say hot n sexy even!!!!!!!#my self image issues now are mostly like. vanity and fashion and not like. deep disgust at my existence. which is great!!!#like. sometimes i freak out and think 'OH NO MAYBE IM NOT TRANS' but then its like. oh. i forgor. i literally transitioned and am happy now.#now all i worry about is styling my little outfits and fixing my hair :3 #batty blogging #text #batty gender #sidenote: really wild having parts that are dysphoric over being too fem and then other parts that are dysphoric over being masc.#truly a nonbinary moment.

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