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coldresolve · 8 months ago

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Hi, I'm Elias, I'm a 26yo trans guy from Denmark. I write shit, I draw shit, and I get into unneccesarily tedious arguments with anons about torture apologia in fiction. I think that sums up my vibe

I've made a few posts about this already, but tl;dr: the Danish NHS has been refusing to treat me for gender dysphoria for the better part of a year now because they've deemed me "unstable." Unstable how, you ask?

I have depression.

No, that is quite literally it. Full context under the readmore.

Fighting to be heard and having the door repeatedly slammed in your face sucks peak ass, and I'm done now. The NHS is so lackluster when it comes to trans people, all of a sudden, it makes perfect sense to me why 31% of transgender Danes get HRT outside of the NHS.

And I'd rather not have to turn to the black market, so rn I'm hoping to get a prescription with GenderGP. The issue is, I'm poor as fuck and can't afford the start-up fees for the forseeable future - unless I do something like this. I hate asking others for money, and I hate it even more if I'm not in a place where I can give anything in return. But I also recognize I'm in over my head with this, so. If you've got a cent or two to spare, I'd be grateful as hell.

I've mathed it out, and my best estimate is that I need around 3500,- DKK / $500 USD. Again, this is just to cover the initial subscription as well as mandatory consultations/blood tests. I should be able to cover the prescriptions on my own, as well as further tests/consultations down the line, so I'm hoping this is a one-and-done sort of thing.

paypal: [email protected]

Also, important note. We're in a global cost of living/housing crisis and this isn't a strict life-or-death situation. If you're in a tough spot right now, don't send me anything, that'd just make me feel worse about asking. I appreciate the thought but you gotta take care of your own needs first. Peace and take care ✌️

So I've been dealing with major depressive disorder since I was 11. It runs in my family, and as you might imagine, after 15 years of living with this thing, I've learned how to manage it pretty well by now. I know what it's like to genuinely be unstable - and if I were in a place like that, no problem, I'd be open about that. I wouldn't be making decisions like this. I know myself. You kind of have to when you're dealing with a chronic mental illness.

Here's where I am right now: I've got no suicidal ideation, been clean from self harm for four years, no psychosis, no inpatient admissions for the last five years. I live on my own, take my meds, and I'm keeping my life in order. Depressed, yes, but about as stable as someone with my history can get, and ask anyone who knows me, me wanting to get on HRT isn't some spur of the moment decision. I've done a fucking decade of soul searching, and a few years ago, I finally (duh) reached the conclusion that living as a woman isn't something I can even fake being content with - believe me, I've tried. I'm well aware of the scope of medical transition, but I'm settled in who I am. And I just want to live like me now. That's the only thing I want.

If it counts for anything, my partner and family have supported me through this, which has been priceless obviously, but it also goes to show that me saying "I'm capable of making medical decisions" isn't purely a personal assessment. I'm pretty sure they'd speak up if they thought I was being unstable about it or whatever

But the CPH clinic for sexology, who have consistently refused to listen to me telling them all this, have somehow magically aquired divine knowledge on my capacity to make adult decisions about my own body, and on the basis that I have MDD, they're refusing to even set me up for a preliminary interview - one that would preceed a 6 month full-team psych evaluation before the prospect of HRT would even come up. They said in their latest refusal that they wont accept another referral from me until a year after my last in-clinic conversation with them, which happened on October 24th, 2023 - meaning that with the NHS, if they accepted my referral come October (which I don't have much faith they will), the earliest I could possibly get on HRT is April 2025. Arguing for my own sanity would've sucked enough as is, but it's made harder by the fact that they won't even talk to me. You're a trans guy who would like healthcare, but you have a mental illness? Good luck, you're on your own. Long live the Danish bureaucracy.

Dysphoria makes me fucking miserable. I'd rather not have to write a sob story here, and tumblr is like 80% trans people so I guess a good portion of you can imagine why waiting another year for the possibility of maybe-perhaps-if-all-goes-well getting on HRT would not actually make me less miserable about it.

So. I'm sitting down next week along with my mom to file a formal complaint with the patient's rights committee. I don't know what to call this other than some form of discrimination on the basis of mental illness, because nothing in my current situation would prohibit me from making medical decisions for myself. And I honestly don't think that a complaint is going to do much, but I intend to make it obnoxiously long, because by law, a specialized doctor and an attorney have to read through the whole thing. If you can't beat 'em, make 'em read 50 pages of you going into detail about why you think they suck, right

And yeah, like I said, in the meantime, I'm trying to go via GenderGP. It'd be nice if my poor ass could get HRT via the NHS instead of having to pay out of pocket, but apparently the bar for entry requires that you 1) have gender dysphoria to the point where it impedes normal function and 2) somehow aren't mentally ill. Who wrote these rules? Some 60yo cis guy in a suit in Christiansborg, I imagine.

Feel free ask about anything relating to this whole situation, I'll be as open as I can about it, cause I understand that if you're going to give money to someone, you want to know what it's going to. Though I hope you understand I'm not going to doxx myself more than I already have now, or give you my entire medical history - only what's relevant to my current situation.

I know Denmark is a welfare state and on a global scale we're doing alright, but I hope you don't mind if I say this: This shouldn't be happening as often as it does. Fuck the Danish NHS.

#other #slight self doxx ig #idec ill post my bare ass for testosterone #do rb if u want but also no pressure. i want this whole thing to be on a want-to only basis alright

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windywallflower · 1 year ago

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crazyk-imagine · 1 year ago

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Natasha raises a brow. “Why?”

“He hasn’t found a gift for our secret Santa,” Mickey chimes in.

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She nods, now understanding his problems.

“Finally, I beat you at something.”

“Does that really sound like a brag worthy thing?” She asks Jake.

“He’s always going on about how he's always got a plan and now he doesn’t while me, the amazing guy that I am does, yeah I’m gonna brag.” He smacks Javy’s shoulder. “How’s it feel?”

“Like a sin.”

“Here’s a Bible,” Bradley says, lifting one up for his friend.

“Where’d that come from?” Bob asks.

The mustached man shrugs, “I found it in the drawer.” He points to the night stand behind him.

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“What? Did you guys think I just walked around with a Bible on me at all times? How dirty do you think I am?”

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vicsbasement · 8 months ago

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Hey Vics!! For the F1 ask game: What started you on F1?

If you could swap any driver onto a different team, who would it be and to what team?

Do you enjoy any other types of racing outside of F1?

Hi, moss! How have you been? I hope you're doing great 💜 thank you for sending me these!!

1) How I got into the sport

Well, I've always been surrounded by sports. My dad is the ultimate sports fan, he watches absolutely every sport that he's able to. There's also my partner who, since he was a little kid, was a Schumacher fan. His mother was born in Germany and she'd always supported the Germany football team for the World Cup and since Schumi was already doing his rounds in F1 they started following him, too. We've been together a long time and since I already knew something about F1, (albeit my knowledge was merely peripheral) he convinced me to watch the Schumacher documentary that came out on Netflix around 2021. Let me tell you, that documentary got me so invested. All that he needed to tell me was that Mick was actually driving in Formula 1 to convince me to watch the races. But since neither of us were following the sport closely (it had been a while since he had dropped it, around Schumi's first retirement) we were a bit lost and took up DTS as a way to catch up. Well. That was a mistake. Or maybe the biggest win for him, I don't know, because I got obsessed. I got this huge crush in both Daniel Ricciardo and Charles Leclerc, it was just immediate tunnel vision and I just wanted to know more about all of them. So we ate the whole thing up, and suddenly I was following all of the grid on Instagram and we paid a subscription to watch the races immediately after we finished the whole of DTS. We started watching the races live around Miami in 2022 and haven't stopped since 😂

2) Swap a driver to any team

Huh. This is a tough question. You guys know I'm a huge Carlos fan. Obviously he's the one who comes to mind with these types of questions and, frankly, my favorite option for him isn't Mercedes or even Red Bull (I find their internal politics, CH and Helmut Marko repulsive) but Aston Martin. This would mean, though, that Lance would lose a seat, because I'd rather see Carlos driving with Fernando. I know that Fernando is a literal Disney Villain but if I go by interviews and vibes only I think he really does love Carlos and I think he would have a very similar relationship with him to the one he has with Lance, if not better. Like, they're almost family. So the Aston Martin project of it all seems as promising as it can be (even though they fumbled in the second half of last year and this year they haven't started with the right foot, but I have faith, dammit). I really do love the concept of two track terrorists just making life impossible for everyone else on the grid. But that's just the chaotic side of me.

3) Other types of racing

Currently not, no! I've been thinking of getting into Moto GP, but since we could no longer afford DAZN I don't really know where to watch it. The other day I was talking to someone in my family and they teased me that I should get into Moto GP because there are a bunch of Spaniards and since Carlos is my favorite in F1 I could definitely choose a fave easy in Moto GP 😂

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xltribe · 2 months ago

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alwastakenofc · 6 months ago

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hmmmmm so ! lesser-than-before rant incoming :)

i’ve been playing this game on my phone for the last 3ish weeks bc i’m tryna get $80 from getting to “grand sultan” level thru this app that gives me games to download and rewards me for playing them/hitting checkpoints and stuff idk it’s rly cool but that’s besides the point ! so i figured i would Bounce after the month is up bc like it’s just a gimmicky pay-to-win kind of game where if u don’t keep up daily u fall behind, BUT there’s also a Huge player base for the game (which makes it fun but also gives it that rly insanely competitive edge that makes it hard to miss days without feeling like ur behind). so one of the things i had to do was join a union/guild where i am partnered up with ppl like the guild leader and co-leader and elites and others members ya know? and we can do quests and stuff and it just gives u a good boost to everything which obviously helps u level faster ! so i was like “hmmmm maybe ill make one…” but then i noticed ppl talking in the all chat saying how they’re not new, this is their 3rd, 4th, 5th+ server that they’re hopping on bc they wanna start over again, etc etc so i was like “…. nah im not making my own union LOL” so i ended up joining this one that had free slots and rly didn’t like the guy leading it bc he was kinda rude… so i left, changed my name/avatar, and DM’d the leader of this guild i had my eye on in the first place but was full at the time! they now had 1 space free and i had to wait 24 hours to join bc i just left my last guild… so she said she’d save the spot and BAM, i got in! we talked in DMs abt how i left my last guild bc No One except the leader talked and when he did it was to Demand things from us like “Everyone better donate 200 diamonds or else.” and stuff!! lmao

SO. fast forward to now. it’s been about 3 weeks in the guild and MANNNNNN IVE MADE A FEW FRIENDS, THEYRE ALL SO NICEEEEE 🥺 me and a couple other guild members were up til Midnight last night just talking abt life and where we wanna travel and our jobs and education and Everything !! it was so wholesome and nice and so just idk. pure and innocent and Fun to just have casual conversations with ppl that were complete strangers 2 weeks ago, but who ive gotten closer to and now can have those nice long convos with !! and it was all just in the guild chat so anyone could read the next day lol but idc ! it was fun! plus my name on the game is selene which is Not my real name lol i just like the name a lot and it always makes me giggle when they say “lol, i know right selene??” and stuff and im like heh.. yea, das me 😎 idk the guild leader gave me the “life of the party” tag and said she loves my energy and it just feels so good bc i know i am just so cripplingly socially anxious irl and that’s why i can talk so easily online and love talking online so much more. like im still ME, but… not Fully being perceived to a point where i feel uncomfy or anything LOL . it’s been nice

i think imma keep playing after the month is up, i rly enjoy my guild and the ppl ive met thru it :’)

ANYWAYS!! i also think im gonna go to therapy/go to my family doctor to get reccs on therapists and maybe a psychiatrist? psychologist? idk i wanna get evaluated for… well let’s just save that for when i get evaluated bc if i don’t even have anything wrong with me and my dumbass rly gets laughed out of the office by the doctor saying “LUL no u rly just gotta try harder bruh” imma feel like a damn Fool LMAO. BUT yeah. that’ll hopefully be a thing i book this month.

also gonna be responsible and Not over spend on food when i get paid, like delivery and whatnot… but i Will be buying lifetime subscriptions to a couple japanese apps on my phone that i think will be easy access and help me learn japanese to a point of comfortability before i start college again. 😎

OKAY IM DONE WHEW. rant over :)

#personal #rant #were back and at it again LMFAO don’t mind me #just had a lot to get out abt this stupid lil game ive been playing #idk why i like it sm maybe bc it reminds me of kings choice and i played that for a while too #but i didn’t even make friends on that game like i have here ! the closest thing to it is afk arena which i still check up on too #my guild in afk arena is a living legend LOL i love them all #they all are so welcoming when i pop in the guild chat once in a while :’)#anyways game of sultans is consuming me a bit LOL but that’s ok !!#i got money incoming from it HOPEFULLY i can get this final 80 !!#i also rly gotta figure out my college stuff i need to request my transcript from my old college #ughhhhhhhhh that’s stressful to think abt -.-#OKAY GOODBYE LOLOL so much to think abt !!

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megan-loves-surveys · 8 months ago

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#21.

Do you prefer cold or room temperature drinking water? Both is fine, but when I'm working out or it's humid, I prefer it to be super cold.

Has a romantic partner ever given you a pet as a gift? No.

Did you ever go to daycare as a kid? No, I think I only went kindergarten/preschool. For preschool I remember going to the morning session mainly.

Who’s one of the most talented people you know? What are they talented at? I know lots of wrestlers, they're talented xD

How long have you had your current mattress? Probably too long, I think I got it in 2011 lol.

What’s your sexuality? Bi.

What’s your gender identity? I'm female.

Are you the type of person who can make friends with just about anyone? It depends.

Have you ever experienced a medical emergency? Yep.

Do you have one of those removable hand-held shower heads? No.

How many burners does your stove have? Four.

When you go to a restaurant, do you prefer to sit at a booth or a table? Depends.

What’s something you think everyone should do/experience at least once in their life? Travel, even if it's not far from where they live.

Has your car ever been broken into? I've never owned a car.

Have you ever read the Hunger Games series? No.

Do you live in the city or a rural area? Suburbs lol.

Have you ever been bitten by a wild animal? No.

Are you close to any of your cousins? No.

What song did you last listen to? Liberty X - Saturday

Do you watch a lot of movies? I don't like movies that much.

Ever witnessed a murder? No O_O

Does your room have a ceiling fan? No.

What are your religious views? Atheist.

Are you a romantic person? I can be.

Have you ever failed a subject before? Yep. Art, Maths and Photography. LOL.

Have you ever been injured in a car accident? I've been hit by a car if that counts.

What was your favorite television show as a child? Barney, Sesame Street, Simpsons, Pokémon, Saved By The Bell etc.

Are you afraid of insects? Yes.

Are you cold-natured? You mean personality wise or physically? Cos no to both. I actually run super hot, I can overheat even in cold weather and I sweat at the drop of a hat. In fact, the only part of me that gets super cold is my feet - I can be wearing a t-shirt and shorts but have big thick socks and ugg boots on my feet lol.

What annoys you most about social networking? People are fucking stupid, they believe any old shit they see and they forget real humans are on the other end of the posts.

What is your favorite kind of flower? Sunflowers.

Do you think you’re living a good life? Sure, yes.

Have you ever played on the Ouija board? No.

Do you wish your life were simpler or more interesting? More interesting.

Have you ever had a deadly animal as a pet? No.

Do you take naps daily? Rarely ever.

What’s the meanest thing you’ve ever said to someone? Dunno.

Have you ever been in a hot tub before? Loads of times. It was like a necessity in motels in NZ in the 90s to have a hot tub out the back on the patio xD

Who in your family has been married the longest? (and how long?) Probably my aunt and uncle, they've been married since before I was born, cos they were married when one of my cousins was born and he's like 6 years older than me.

Do you take your shoes off when you come inside? I take them off at the front door if they're wet, otherwise I take them off when I get to my room.

What’s your favorite movie series? Pirates Of The Caribbean.

What is something that’s considered a luxury, but you wouldn’t want to live without? All of my subscriptions to various websites like YouTube Premium etc.

What was the first social media site you ever used? One of the ones that died super quick like Hi5 or something. I never had Myspace lol.

Do you have any exes you really regret dating? Yes.

Is your best friend male or female? Female.

What’s your least favorite holiday? I only celebrate Christmas and Easter really lol.

Have you ever been sexually attracted to a fictional character? Hahaha yes.

Have you ever had a crush of a person of your own gender? Yes.

Who was someone you felt unsafe with but had to be around in your life? Nobody I can think of.

When was the first time you felt sexualized? No clue.

Are your values more conservative or liberal? I don't think I'm either cos I don't go for all that 'woke' stuff, but I also don't agree with a lot of the other side either, I'm more in the middle.

If you could go back in time and change something what would it be? Not get hit by a car, lol.

Have you ever lost a nail completely for any reason? What happened? Yes, my toenail got infected and I had to have it removed and let it grow back. It was weird.

Have you ever had any experience with alcoholism? No.

What color eyes do your pet(s) have? I don't have any pets.

Do you watch The Great British Bake Off (or The Great British Baking Show as it’s known in the US)? I don't think it airs here.

Are you the sort of person who can nap or sleep anywhere, anytime? I wish.

Will you ever call it X, or will you always call it Twitter? Twitter lol, like most people still do xD

Are you a fast walker? Not really, I have short legs so I struggle to keep up a lot of the time.

Were you susceptible to peer pressure as a teenager? Maybe?

What website do you spend the most time on? Probably YouTube or Reddit.

What was the hardest time of your life? 2017 from June onwards cos that's when I broke my shoulder, the rest of that year was taken up by healing and physiotherapy.

Who’s the person you feel safest with? My parents and my boyfriend.

What kinds of books do you read? Fantasy, non fiction etc.

The most serious injury you’ve ever had? I've had a few different ones - I broke my femur as a kid, and then in 2017 I broke my shoulder in 5 different places, and I also broke my other arm at the same time. It was rough.

Have you ever read someone’s diary, without them knowing? No.

The weirdest thing people have ever picked on, about your appearance? For being short. LOL, thinking back it makes no sense. What's wrong with being short? Loads of people are short xD Plus, we were kids so none of us had finished growing yet lol.

First time you met a transgender person? I probably met some and didn't know they were trans, but one of the wrestlers at my indie is trans, she's awesome. She's the first I can think of that I knew they were trans right off the bat (her thing is that she's the first trans wrestler in NZ).

What’s the most hurtful thing someone’s said about you? I don't usually care what people say about me, but once on a dating site a guy said I looked 'retarded' in my photo. Firstly, that's offensive in general, and second, I definitely don't look that way so fuck that dude.

Who is your most problematic crush? Dunno.

What is the worst thing one of your family members has done to you? Not to me personally, but my Uncle borrowed a bunch of money from my Mum, and never paid it back. Everytime she asked for him to pay her, he'd make up excuses as to why he couldn't. I told her not to give him the money, she ignored me, only to later admit I was right :/

Do you tend to speed when you drive? I don't drive.

Do you get bored with relationships quickly? No.

Who was the first person to ever give you flowers? No clue.

Do you have an online game that you play often? I don't play multiplayer games lol. Only games like Pokemon Go xD

Do you wear glasses? Yep, have done since I was 13.

How long does it take you to normally take a shower? 15 minutes or so, a bit longer if I have to shave haha.

Have you ever burned incense before? I hate incense, it smells horrible and gives me migraines, so no.

Ever been on a picnic? Yes.

Have you ever had a boyfriend/girlfriend who was depressed? Yes. He didn't tell me though, I found out after we broke up.

Would you be able to climb out your bedroom window to sneak out? I'm an adult xD Even if I was a teenager, I couldn't climb out cos I live on the second floor.

Was the last person you kissed younger or older than you? Older.

Have you ever purchased Girl Scout cookies? No.

Do you like waffles? Love them! Especially with banana and bacon.

Do you find piercings/tattoos attractive? Depends on the person.

Do you always wear your seatbelt? Definitely.

Have you ever liked someone much older than you? All the time. My boyfriend is 18 years older than me lol.

Do you have any secrets that nobody knows about? Sure.

Do you believe prayer really works? No.

Are tongue piercings slutty? Nah.

Is there anybody you think is hot over the age of 40? My boyfriend is far over 40 lmao for starts xD He's 54 haha and is sex on legs <3

Least favorite alcoholic drink? Beer. It's just gross to me.

Have you ever kissed someone named Paul or Luke? Not that I'm aware of.

How did you meet the last male you texted? We met while I was jogging haha, I stopped outside his house to catch my breath and he was outside at that time - we got to chatting.

Do you wear skirts a lot? Not a lot, but I do wear them sometimes.

How many pairs of jeans do you think you have? 10 or 11.

Are you one of those people who claim to live with no regrets? I only have small regrets, nothing life changing.

When was the last time you wore eyeshadow? No idea.

What is your favorite color eyeshadow to wear? -

Would you rather work with animals or work with children? Animals.

Would you rather work with children or work with teenagers? Neither, but if I had to pick, then teens.

Would you rather watch a movie, watch a TV show, or watch a YouTube video? YT video.

What was the last type of cookie you ate? Not sure, but prob chocolate chip.

What is your favorite type of frosting for a cake? Chocolate.

Do you know anyone who wants to be the president one day? No, cos where I live, we have a prime minister.

Do you have your mom’s or dad’s hair? Neither, they're both brunette and I'm naturally blonde lol.

Have your parents ever been out of the country? My Mum wasn't even born in NZ lol xD And my Dad has travelled loads of times.

Do your pets chase after bugs? -

Is the last person you spoke to in love? Yes. With me :P

Who was the main character in the last book you read? It was a non fiction book.

Who are the last people you saw kiss? Hmm, not sure.

Have you ever posted a fanfiction on a website? Yes, I used to post on fanfiction.net.

What was the last unpleasant thing to wake you up? My alarm. HAHA.

When you get married, who will be the maid of honor/best man? -

What was the last thing you took a picture of? My lunch.

When you go to McDonalds, what drink do you usually get? Coke Zero Sugar. If it's not available, then I'll get frozen Coke or L&P.

When was the last time someone took a picture of you? My boyfriend the other day.

Would you date someone who’s shorter than you? I mean sure, but I don't know many guys who are shorter than 5'3" lol.

Do you mind being the third wheel? Depends.

Have you ever felt guilty after doing something sexual? No.

Do your parents know if you’re having sex? I'm an adult, so it's none of their business.

Do you prefer candy corn or conversation hearts? Never had candy corn, and the hearts are nice.

What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever had in your mouth? Haha...

Has anyone ever threatened you with a knife? No.

(If you’re a girl) Has anyone ever called you “shortie” instead of girl? Yes.

Do you think you’re more cute or sexy? Cute, I get called that all the time.

What did you eat for lunch today? I went to this really great café and had blueberry pancakes with bacon and fruit. I only get to go there once a month cos it's not near me, I only go there when I work in my company's second office.

What was the last thing you threw up? Dunno.

Last person’s house you were in? Apart from my own house, my boyfriend's.

Are you someone’s best friend? Yes.

Favorite gemstone? Ruby.

What is the last thing you said to the person you like? We were talking via text before, I said "I'm having dinner now" haha.

Missing anybody? No.

Do you want any tattoos? If yes, what? Not really.

What are your plans for the day? Today is almost over lol, it's 8pm. I had work today in our company's second office which I only do once a month for a few days.

What did you have for breakfast? Nothing.

What colour hair do you find sexiest on the opposite gender? All of them, I'm not fussy.

What celebrity did your most recent ex resemble? I've been told he looks like Mox actually... which is hilarious.

When did you last consume something that had peanut butter? Today!

#survey #surveys #personal survey #random survey

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brutus-the-skulldog · 9 months ago

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So I had a durge.

And so here I am now. Explaining my silly little fantasy world.

I have been working my ass off writing this thing and I'm really proud of it:3 imma explain/summarize every book/story for the people that will listen:D

Here's a little backstory because it's very important (I'll make a character post separately)

This entire story line thing was inspired by a school I went to and it kinda started the entire thing. It was a religious school that fucked me up frfr so I decided to cope by making a silly thing out of it:3 The world is in the year 3000 and is ruled by one family of rich people (eat the rich) who had a son who was said to inherit the rule. But they found out that he was gay so, being rich people, They made an entire school for people like him So that they can fix him and the other people. (This kids name is Maxwell btw)

1st book

(Gothic horror/magic/murder mystery/twisted romance??)

The story starts out with the mc Canine by explaining how he was going down the wrong path (addiction n shit like that) after his younger sister canceled her subscription to life. During this time his father who was a minister at the local church sent him and his brother off to a boarding school full of people like them. This is where the found family dynamic starts to come in but soon, people start to go missing and ominous letters from the outside start to come in. It's up to the people remaining to find out what's going on before no one is left to find out.

2nd book

(anarchy/gay/dystopian/magic)

Canine and Maxwell but they are all grown up and Maxwell has the throne now. Canine is Maxwell's right hand man and closest friend. But, Canine is living a double life as he is a part of a anti-dictater organization under the wing of Maxwell's sister, Maxine. This organization is regarded as terrorists to the public due to their attempts to assassinate Maxwell. Canine is also dealing with not remembering his past due to a chip implanted in his brain by Maxwell's family. The organization has a goal to dismantle the society that they reside in, so, they hatch a plan that takes months to perform. One thing after another, it's all in ruin. Canine is left with deathly wounds and nowhere to go but the forest miles and miles away.

3rd book

(mystery/gay/run away/suspense/supernatural/magic)

Canine wakes up in a medical tent with a familiar face treating his wounds. He can't exactly explain to himself where the face is from. But the face helps him to heal and get back into society step by step. But this person has a dark life, living with their abusive partner. Canine wants to help them get away so after a brutal fight they run away together. But their partner runs the city and wants them to come back, so they send out hitmen and PIs to track them down. Bla bla bla the chip from 2nd book is removed and he remembers who the face is, and omg, it's his lover from 1st book (his name is Lyrus). Canine uses his past to aid in the take down of Lyrus's partner.

4th book

(gay/recovery/supernatural/magic/tbd)

After the take down of Lyrus's partner, Canine and him start recovering from their previous trauma with therapy and whatnot. At the same time, they start dating and making friends. One of these friends (she's from 3rd book and she has a pet raccoon:D) is a journalist that is struggling to find stories so she reached out to Canine and Lyrus to help. They become amateur detectives and they start busting crime rings. But this reminds Canine of his past, which permits him to visit the ruins of his old home. Lyrus follows him and finds out what he did. Soon after this, the people left in the ruins want revenge and raid the new place.

Now, a good writer never spoils the ending;3 But I will tell you that there is two endings:D!!

I got lazy

#writers on tumblr #lgbtqia #this is what happens when autism:3 #writeblr

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gippyworm · 1 year ago

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ughghhgh

Saw a post from someone and it caused a pang of anxiety. Horrible situation and every time I see a post from any of the ppl involved I get so angry because I grew up with these people and they went from inseparable to not talking at all after one got with their partner and ugh idk. This partner is not a good person. Anyway I'm saying too much as it is. It just makes me so upset because this person is so sweet and in so much pain over this and its all the partners fault. God.

So, we should be camping under the stars in the bush by now but our car broke down for the 5th time since we bought it (which was only like 3 months ago). First the fuel injectors died, then the alternator blew, then we had to buy a new battery. And now, the radiator tube exploded (literally) and the engine is dead. Literally every single part in that car is fucked. Even the locks don't work. We have already spent hundreds on TOP of the warranty. At this point we may be legitimately looking at a retrade or refund because asking 18K for a car that is completely broken and unusable is fucking pathetic.

We are so poor we had to borrow money to buy fuel and a bit of food so we could go free camping, put $120 diesel in and then the car dies, money completely wasted. My car is out of fuel, we have no way to go camping. We're compromising by going to the beach tomorrow but to do so I have to use the money meant for my motorcycle rego.

I'm just so fucking sick of it. Neither of us can afford a single Christmas present. We can't even buy a fucking Christmas tree this year. I want to skip december because its seriously just not worth it, and I don't want to hear about gifts being commodified or whatever because I know and thats not the point. The point is I can't afford a single present for my favourite person in the world, I'm too exhausted and burnt out to make art instead, and I need bras and brin needs socks and I'm almost 100% out of fish food and to restock is going to cost $150-$200 and if it wasnt for money something really special might have happened and I just want to tear my hair out and scream. We have no streaming services, the only subscriptions are patreon for Brin and clip studio for my ipad. I have chopped as many expenses as I possibly can, now its basically a car rego each, and for me, motorbike rego as well. I never buy anything for myself. But still every fortnight we cant afford food.

We both just want a family, we want to have kids so badly. We can't afford it because we cant just make one for free. The life we want feels so far away and I can feel the strength to stay positive is slipping away. We're both depressed. Stressed. And fucking sick of fucking worrying about fucking money.

Am I going to have to defer? Work fulltime and battle through debilitating fatigue until we have at least some semblance of a savings? I just feel so exhausted. We have support networks but we still feel so alone.

Wish I could sleep.

#long 2am(ish) vent feel free to ignore #just having a rough go of it #chatterboxing #negative

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theladyrebecca2 · 1 year ago

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For a long time my partner has paid for the highest tier Netflix account so my household, his family members, and a friend could all share.

We knew the block was coming so I talked to him about how I wouldn’t normally mind paying for my own account. But with the WGA strike still going on, I absolutely refuse to pay a penny.

I will watch other stuff; I’ll pirate; I’ll make do. Easy peasy.

After talking further about the situation on how they’re treating their writers, he immediately researched more on the strike and got angry. He then quickly cancelled his subscription.

His sister and friend will probably get their own accounts by the end of the month, but that’s still a net loss. I really hope more people that paid for higher tiers jump ship like this. Netflix’s corporate greed has never been so transparent, and at a time when they’re refusing to pay their writers what they deserve? And give them protection from AI? They can fuck right off.

#🖕🖕🖕 to Netflix #anti netflix #wga strike #personal #rant #in other news I love my partner so much

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aneixart · 2 years ago

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mon fFebruary 6 2023

Inside an apartment i notice the front door is wide open all the lights in the house are on and cog is asleep on his bed I yell at him for leaving the door open and falling asleep then I notice a man inside we tussle I grab a knife and stab him in the chest he falls and the floor has blood i call the police but keep getting disconnected , my foster mom comes and yells at me saying I cant just stab people when I feel like. It dark outside but i see a yard of plants growing i knock on this guys door I take off my coat and give it to the gentleman with me and go on to pitch to them buying a subscription of our newspaper they like me and give me a check on the side of the house my partner waits giving me back my jacket I notice the ground in their yard it dead and turns to ash when I touch it. They don't like anyone my partner tells me. We walk and I get a strange feeling there is a woman dying i see her behind the glass window in the house she has this aura or power the glows around her an electric blue and dark blue with flames glowing i place my hand against the window and so does she our hands meet and then I hear music from an old movie i used to watch,, redSonja, its like I see bits of the movie playing but with new scenes. Then I'm inside a store the clerk doesn't want to take my card for some reason and I have to go to the atm I get out 80 dollars but I drop a 20 i tell the clerk the machine only gave me 60 and show the receipt she goes to open the machine to give me a 20 thats when I notice the 20 on the ground but I just pretend I don't see it then I see another man notice it slowly walk over and picked it up, I noticed i had more bills in my pocket I got a drink and left I met up with a guy then somehow I was at subway getting food for me him and cog I remember trying to remember what they liked and the woman behind the bar made our sandwiches all wrong I hated her a 100 my family was also with me ordering food . I saw tis she was showing me these skintight on her back I was laying down and she kept waking me up to show me we she was on a bed next to mine the room bright and the sheets were like gold silk I floated over to her to look at what she was talking about still laying down hovering over the bed I noticed tmw there as well then we began to talk about all the crazy stuff we used to do we began to fly ending passing different world jumping off cliffs to only defy gravity and amaze the people around us I laugh and told them i missed them and forgot how they would find ways to bring me out my shell, then I woke.

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manleycollins · 2 years ago

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Journal Entry #67 - Celebrating Another Year Around the Sun

JOURNAL ENTRY #67 Name: Manley M Collins Social Security Number: 5 7 9 – * * – 6 5 4 1 Date of Birth: 06/21 Place of Birth: Washington, District of Columbia Country of Birth: United States of America Date: May 1, 2021

TOPIC: Celebrating Another Year Around the Sun

I am working with Amtrak and Megabus scheduling trips to New York City on the regular so it was going to be a big celebration as usual. Boston Housing Authority had my hopes up as I had my interview and sent in the paperwork for a two bedroom apartment, but since I did not meet the requirements of the two bedroom (actually having two people), I was returned to the studio and one-bedroom waiting list. Boston Housing Authority had me get three Certificate of Homelessness.

I found Walmart….thank goodness.

I stayed at HI New York City for my 2021 birthday week in New York City. I went to Dave and Buster's Times Square. I went to the Juneteenth After Party with DJ Q at TimeOut Market New York, 5th Floor, 55 Water Street in DUMBO, Brooklyn.

I kept my Harvard University Extension School profile updated every time I filed my FAFSA.

I was involved with University of Phoenix Alumni Advocacy Network or Marketing, but I had to cease working with them until I found how life was going to help me use my doctoral degree.

I shared my graduation photos to help DeVry University celebrate its 90th anniversary.

I started encountering all types of service issues with Lyft's BlueBikes from smartphone app not working to bikes not docking to overcharging.

Strava and Nike were getting the craziest GPS maps of trips on everywhere I was going across Greater Boston on foot and bikes. I did use MBTA (T) public transportation when I am too far out or the day is very late in the evening/night.

I tried Apple TV+ trial subscription, but I actually found no content that I like.

UberEats and DoorDash started sending me on grocery runs or orders.

Therapy and Psychiatrist with Arbour Counseling Services topics were (Previous Journal topics - I just was repeating them to new people verbally)

Suspension from Federal Express work New routine Monday felt gravity and maybe bloatedness Lawsuits life crazy thoughts and pushed through while doing my workout Federal Express corporate doctor for Psychiatric/Psychological Evaluation #1 Want to beat up somebody at work (Federal Express) for not listening and not caring Talked to a long time friend Housing interview Walmart errand

On New York trip, Thursday evening, I had a panic attack at the Jane Hotel, which was a closed space in total darkness and 50 square feet. Nothing in my system except medicine. Question: Maybe close to family???? Slept with light on all other nights.

Traveling all over….other people are traveling….why life thought I was crazy?

Got a message while exploring the library to rebuild my music collection…just because I got the technology parts to do it.

Answers to complaint - Justice Dept heads to District Court - spoke to federal attorney

Release of information to Partners healthcare

US Dept Transportation tries to do mail security on trying not to send them anything through the mail or website.

Preparing to Commencement in Atlanta, Georgia

Photo shoot and social media - felt good buying and putting on MAC Cosmetics and beard dye.

Saw movie Moonlight and Waves on Showtime TV.

Feeling heavy like gravity trying to pull me to the floor.

Reminiscencing over stuff and events during my 30s through YouTube

New individual met in person

Good week overall

Not watching a lot of television and movies

Civil suit results

Birthday weekend in New York City

Blog and Picture release

Southampton Lawsuit BPHC

Fitness Gym

Upcoming Doctor's appointment

Saw a Federal Express colleague yesterday while on a DoorDash or UberEats run and it was kind of awkward

Rough sleep last night assuming based on lawsuit, NYC, and picture release.

Finished Mango Languages (learning French) provided through District of Columbia Public Library. Purchased Busuu language app subscription through the Apple store to continue French language learning.

Met with Psychiatrist

Lost emails and email cleansing on all major accounts.

Picture releasing and storytelling

Hospital emergency room visit for strained muscle or lymph node or hernia.

First time seeing Boston's Fourth of July fireworks from Boston Common

Came to Boston to not be bothered, but folks are doing, "don't listen, don't care."

Colon cancer screening Responses to civil suit Laundry Walmart Unexpected income Apple unexpected transaction Federal Express Calm week Emotional in the beginning Email cleansing Doctor's Appointment

Other topics from Summer of 2021:

I had United Healthcare with Federal Express for medical care and it was accepted by Massachusetts General Hospital. However, I never understood behind the scenes what was happening with MassHealth (BMC Community Health Plan now WellSense) and United Healthcare. I got a new MGH Primary Care Physician and Psychiatrist.

I sent a physical card to my ex-girlfriend for the passing of her mother. She is happily married and her children are doing well.

I was trying to schedule professional photography session because my University of Phoenix commencement was coming up in Atlanta, Georgia. Initially, it was Joe Henson, but he closed the New York City studio so I ended up with Beaupix in Burlington, Massachusetts. During the process, I discovered hennaking . com had a plant-based beard dye and beard or moustache care. I did repurchase and got update on getting my MAC Cosmetics foundation and concealer.

For UberEats and DoorDash, I saw that I needed to purchase a powerbank for my Apple iPhone because I always had to end my day when my phone dies.

I researched Boston nightclubs by TimeOut and Google.

After Federal Express suspension, they sent me in the direction of Paid Medical Leave while on Leave of Absence. Federal Express tried to do Suspension with Pay, but that was short lived….James "Jim" McSweeney took or hold badge. Gary, another new manager, took cellphone locker key. I had to sign a document to see corporate doctor for Center of Cognitive Wellness. I was assigned to a Health Human Capital Management Federal Express person - Cynthia "Cindy" Roten. I ended up applying for Paid Family and Medical Leave (PFML) with Massachusetts Department of Family and Medical Leave. I got denied, then I appealed, and I got approved for a specified time period. I am still on United Healthcare.

I booked my flight with Delta Airlines, rented a car with Enterprise Rent-A-Car, and lodged at Marriott Towne Suites. See photoblogs and tweets for media.

I had the opportunity to apply for Lifeline or the America Rescue Plan for my telephone and data or network plan. I got denied initially due to my address so I had to work the information through AT&T. AT&T knows I will pay whatever price for dependable, reliable, and quality service…yes, 90% of my telecommunications experience, I always purchase the highest cost plan. I believe this is due to having a professional background in telecommunications and educated through my degrees regarding telecommunications.

I sent information to TLC TV Dr. Pimple Popper / Dr. Lee for the small mole on my back for Season Two (2). I never got to audition or feedback on the information sent.

I started researching new places to eat (when I was eating every meal). I saw the Haley House. I went to Haley House, but the food was super heavy food - rice, beans, eggs, etc. for breakfast.

I attended Shakespeare in the Common supporting Commonwealth Shakespeare Company 25th Anniversary play named the The Tempest. It was good. Weather cooperated well. I even talked to a young lady from Arizona.

I was scheduling appointments to use the computer at the Boston Public Library.

I met a friend and went to J.P. Licks, then walked the park from Boston to Cambridge to Beacon Hill in circle.

I was attended virtual service with First Baptist Church of the City of Washington, DC.

I donated street money to Pine Street Inn, St. Francis House, Massachusetts General Hospital, and Boston Police Foundation.

#birthday #manley marvell collins #shakespeare #pfml #pine street inn #st francis house #boston police foundation #ATT #telecommunications #amtrak #megabus #boston public library #television #movies #new york city #boston #massachusetts

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gallavichthings · 4 years ago

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It’s finally time to interview the hottest new sensation in the fandom, the self-proclaimed fluff queen, Grayola aka @gallavichy, author of fics you have definitely heard of, like her wips Cooperative Gameplay and Everything About You, sequence to the super acclaimed Like Real People Do, and her one-shot Inside This Room For Two.

GT: tell us a bit about yourself.

G:I was always someone who agonized over the “about me” section of their social media profile, so this is hard. 😆 I’m Gray. I’m a Pisces. I was born and lived just outside Atlanta until I was 17. I’m the middle child in a very large family, which I feel explains a lot about me. When I was 12, I hand-wrote Lizzie McGuire fanfiction for an English assignment, my teacher wrote me kind comments, and I genuinely think that changed my life. I love writing. I’ve been in and out of online fandoms since I was a young teenager, but Shameless is really the only one in which I’ve ever actually engaged and talked with people, my past experiences being simply writing things and staying on the outskirts. I love music. I’m a literature instructor. I tend to be long-winded because I can never figure out how to end things.

GT: As a teacher, that's very nice to hear, that we can actually make a difference in people's lives.

How did you discover fanfiction? Or did you just happen to write it without ever reading it before?

G: Yeah, definitely! I was always a creative kid, always a daydreamer, always coming up with little stories, and an adult I admired praising my silly fanfiction about three characters being best friends and taking down a bully gave me a sense of validation I think I really needed--especially coming from a family in which no one cared or understood my desire to write stuff like that. Teachers are the best.

That’s really how I started writing fanfiction. It’s ALWAYS been the way I engaged in fandom, even when I didn’t post anything. I was always a kid who’d write stories about characters in movies or TV shows I liked. It wasn’t until I was around 13-14 that I learned fanfiction was a legit thing that people wrote and posted online. That was the age when I got really into fan forums and stuff like that--mostly Harry Potter--and I remember there being threads in which a person would type and post fic, bit by bit, in the replies. I never posted anything, but I read and wrote a little. I used to have a password protected document on the family computer where I’d write all my stories. Everything was super tame, no romance plots, I didn’t even swear in my writing, but fic has always been a super private thing for me, and I kept it a secret.

GT: When did you start posting your stories?

G: Back in LJ days when I was a teenager, I posted a couple things on my own personal journal but didn't promo them or post to any communities, so I think I only had maybe 2-3 readers. But then when I was in college, I posted a couple things for the QAF fandom. I still didn't get many readers, and I gave it up pretty quickly, as it was at the tail-end of my interest in the show and just before I moved on to other things, but it gave me enough confidence to keep going. It felt like a baby step.

GT: When did you start watching Shameless?

G:I'm very much a newcomer to the show. I didn't start watching it until December '19/January '20, so I'm one of those fans who came over from Netflix.

GT: What made you enjoy Gallavich?

G: Because I was able to watch all the way through season 9 on Netflix, then got a Showtime subscription through Hulu so I could catch up with season 10, I think shipping Ian/Mickey was a natural thing for me, as I was able to view the complete arc of their growth and development as characters and partners. Plus, they are the epitome of the exact dynamic I love--enemies to friends to lovers--and I genuinely fell in love with them as characters, rooted for them, felt heartbreak with them, and wanted so badly for them to be happy.

GT: Do you prefer writing Ian or Mickey?

G: I like writing Mickey through Ian’s eyes. I like writing Ian falling in love with him, caring for him. I like writing Ian experiencing Mickey's love for him. ♥️

GT: That's adorable. What's the best thing about writing them?

G:The thing about Ian/Mickey is that their dynamic can be applied to so many different scenarios that I feel like you can literally do anything with them. Additionally, their personal backstories and struggles are compelling from a writer’s standpoint. I always want to explore them because in many very general ways I relate to them, and I want to bring the characters love and healing as much as I can in a way that I think is sort of therapeutic for me. Mickey has so many feelings that he keeps inside because he doesn’t feel like he’s allowed to feel them. Ian, I think, has so many self-worth issues stemming from his experiences. I want to bring these characters hope, growth, and happiness because they deserve it.

GT: What do you struggle with when writing them?

G: I’m a fluff queen. I love writing softness and kindness. So I think my biggest struggle is sometimes writing my fluffy stories and keeping them passably in character. As a writer who’s writing for a very specific purpose (for the enjoyment of it, to tell happy, sweet stories), I’m a-okay with softening canonical Ian/Mickey in a way that some people who are super loyal to canon interpretations would find a little OOC. But! I still want to maintain their essential characterizations, even if the context has been shifted, allowing them to develop into slightly softer versions of themselves. I loved Ian/Mickey dancing and singing together in the bathroom in 11x07, as well as a lot of Ian’s sweet little lines (“Do you wanna make dinner together?” “‘Cause you’re my husband…”) in the most recent episodes because that’s absolutely something my characters would do/say, and it was sort of validating in a way lol. I remain convinced that Ian/Mickey are absolute softies, despite what the series decides to show us.

GT: They are, I agree. But they're also a product of their upbringings, so if you change that, as one does in an AU, it's reasonable to say that a lot of their behaviors would be different as well.

You said you're a fluff queen. Is that what you enjoy writing the most, fluffy stories?

G: I like to write super-long slow burns in which both characters have massive crushes on the other but no one's admitting feelings until the last possible second, then endings that are hopefully just feel-good fluff. I write what makes me feel good. I do like writing angst, but mostly angst born of personal/emotional stuff. For example, in my fic "Cooperative Gameplay," Mickey's struggling with issues related to his dad, and he doesn't want Ian to know about it, so he builds up walls that frustrate Ian to no end because he doesn't understand what's going on with him and Mickey isn't sharing. And then all my fics sort of have a running theme of "he doesn't like me the way I like him" until that's straightened out. That kind of thing is a lot of fun to write.

GT: It's a lot of fun to read too! Where do you get the inspiration from when coming up with the plot?

G: Things in my life, and things I'm into, mostly. I actually had planned to write "Like Real People Do" as a quarantine-based fic in which Ian and Mickey were using an app meant to connect people during COVID quarantine. But then I decided I didn't actually want to deal with COVID in the fic, so I tried to come up with another way Ian and Mickey could meet, still through the app premise, and made Ian an escort working through an app, instead. I've always loved reading texting/epistolary fanfic, so LRPD was my way of indulging. And then with "Cooperative Gameplay," I'm a gamer--super casually--and I was thinking about s1 Mickey playing video games, and it seemed fun to work with, Mickey as a gamer/streamer. I'm also really interested in fandom dynamics, especially on social media, and I've found it fun to explore that through this fic.

GT: What's your writing process like?

G: I outline a fic to death before I write a single word of it. That way, the writing process is basically just taking my bullet points and putting them into a cohesive story. I tend to write in large chunks for hours at a time over the span of several days rather than little by little over a longer period, and when I'm done with a chapter, I like to sleep on it before I edit and then post it once I'm done.

GT: Do you do any research for your fics?

G: Yes, definitely--particularly location stuff. It helps a fic feel "real" to me when I'm able to place the characters in real locations (real hotels, real restaurants, attractions, etc.), so I tend to use Google Maps while I write. I like to use street view and walk down the streets/explore the areas where my characters will be. I also almost always have my characters get meals from real restaurants in the area, even if I don't always name the restaurant, so I research local restaurants and their menus. My most recent "Cooperative Gameplay" chapter primarily takes place in LA, so I found myself on hiking blogs finding the best trails to see the Hollywood sign, using street view to plan my characters' routes around the city, etc. It's a little exhausting sometimes, and I often find myself with 10+ tabs open while I'm writing, but it ultimately makes me feel closer to my characters and the stories I'm telling.

GT: I do the same thing with the menus, I totally get it. It might not seem important, but it does help make the story more real, both in our heads and in the imagination of those reading it.

Which other characters from the show do you enjoy? Do you include them in your fics?

G: I adore Lip and think he's had the most relatively consistently solid storylines for most of the show's run. When it comes to writing him, I do love a good brothers moment, so he always makes an appearance to hang out with Ian and talk about life and Mickey. I also like Mandy a lot, but mostly s1 Mandy. In my fics, I love giving Mickey an annoying little sister he secretly loves and protects and Ian a best friend with whom he can be a silly teen/young adult.

GT: What about OCs? How and when do you create them?

G: I do love giving Ian and Mickey OC friends. Typically, they come in the form of giving Ian someone his age with whom to hang out and talk and giving Mickey a figure in his life that can love, guide, and make him feel safe and cared for. In LRPD, he has an elderly landlady with whom he develops a grandchild-grandparent relationship and in CG, he has an older agent friend who acts as his big sister but also does her share of mothering him. I think these characters come purely out of my desire for them to have people to love them platonically, outside the bounds of romance. Especially considering where they are at the beginning of my fics, they desperately need support, kindness, and care.

GT: I do wish the show had given them more canon friendships. Let's backtrack a little: tell me about your usernames on Tumblr and on AO3. Why did you choose them?

G: I really wish I was someone who had a meaningful username they've stuck with since the beginning of their fandom life, but I really just don't. I have zero emotional attachments to my usernames and typically create a new one for every fandom because I've never been super active and certainly not "known" before--at least enough to maintain a username lol. "Grayola" is just gray + Crayola like the crayon. And then "gallavichy" is just gallavich with the "y" suffix because suffixes after names/ships/objects were popular on Tumblr at the time I registered. I honestly sort of dislike it because it weirdly doesn't feel like me and will probably change it at some point if I can be bothered lol

GT: Well, you're definitely renowned now! What kinds of comments have you been getting? Which are your favorites?

G: My readers are some of the kindest people I’ve ever had the pleasure of interacting with, and anything they leave is absolutely cherished. I have a particular fondness for genuine reaction comments, like emojis and exclamatory phrases. They make me laugh. I love the people who take the time to leave me in-depth, analytical comments that leave me in awe. I adore hearing from people who have been impacted emotionally in positive ways by my fic. Those are the ones that really sit with me. Especially comments I’ve received on LRPD. In it, Mickey’s a 26-year-old with zero relationship experience, and I’ve heard from some folks around that age and older in a similar boat who have told me that it made them feel less alone and gave them hope that they’d find love one day. Those are really special to me. At the end of the day, that’s why I write.

GT: That's very sweet. I've seen a lot of fanart for your fics as well!

G: Yes! They're amazing! I'm so blown away that anyone would take the time to do that for something I've written. And they're all exceptionally talented! The art gives me the warm fuzzies. It's seriously the coolest thing, and I get so happy every time I see it!

GT: Let's talk about the reading side of you now. What are some of your favorite tropes when reading?

G: Enemies to friends to lovers in the absolute most painfully slow transition as possible. I love a slow burn so much. Sometimes I completely lose interest in a fic once the pairing officially gets together. It's all about the anticipation for me!

GT: What kinds of fics do you avoid?

G: Major character death because my heart can't take it. Abuse in any form. I'm also not really into fics that go to super dark places, which surprises me because when it comes to non-fandom lit I like to read, the darker the better. I think I just tend to go to fic to feel soft, warm things with the characters I love as a source of comfort.

GT: Safe to say you haven't read Teenagers Scare The Living Shit Out of Me then?

What are some of your favorite fics and/or writers in the fandom?

G: I haven’t, but not actually for that reason! I just haven’t been able to start it yet. It’s on my Marked for Later list on AO3. The premise for that one actually sounds super great, I’ve heard it’s amazing, and Mellow_Yellow is an incredible writer. I love “Boy in the Box.” I guess the “dark” places I refer to are more the central pairing having a violent, obsessive, and borderline abusive relationship. Maybe “dark relationship places” is how I should’ve phrased it. Nothing even comes to mind in this fandom, really, but I have vivid memories of reading fics like that in previous fandoms that were objectively great but made me feel a bit uneasy.

My favorite fic is “Love is a Ballfield” by and_i_take_it. I could go on and on about that Ian and Mickey. I love everything by pink_ink, who is just such an incredible writer. Anything by BeckyHarvey29 [@beckyharvey29 .] Loftec [@loftec ]. horror_business. “Two of Your Earth Minutes” by @the-rat-wins . “UnReal” and “Camp Kiabi'' by clovesfanfic. DodgerBear’s stuff makes me so happy. And the fic I keep coming back to because of the precious s2 summer feels is “Seal My Fate” by allyasavedtheday. I could talk all day about that one, too.

GT: Those are some great recommendations right there. As for TSTLSOOM, I agree that the theme is not something I'd chose to read normally, I remember I couldn't read it during the night because I was literally scared I'd have a nightmare, but it's so brilliantly done that I had to read it. And Boy in The Box is also incredible.

Let's talk about Shameless. What is your favorite season and why?

G: Season 4! 4x11 and 4x12, especially, are god-tier in every way. The writing is incredible, it has episodes that hit emotionally in extraordinarily impactful ways, and it's such a strong season for Mickey's character. Then it has the ending that marks the beginning of the arc of Ian and Mickey dealing with Ian's bipolar diagnosis, and though it obviously doesn't end well at the end of season 5, I do love that arc and what it reveals about the characters' love for each other.

GT: Mickey humping the police car was an iconic moment.

G: Yes! His lines there and "You've got a demon mind and a devil's womb and heart. And your coochie smells of brimstone and sulfur!!" are my favorite lines from the show to quote. lol

GT: Oh my god, I miss Sheila! She was one of my favorite characters. And that scene was also iconic. Do you have a favorite Gallavich scene?

G: My favorite scene is “Sorry I’m late.” It's so beautiful and tender. Every time I see it, I have to watch it over and over again. Many of the Ian/Mickey scenes dealing with Ian’s bipolar, really. They tug at my heartstrings. Also, more recently, the 11x11 “barbarian” bed scene. “You’re my husband.” Literal heart-eyes.

GT: What did you think of the last seasons? Did you like the way it ended?

G: In general, I have a pretty high tolerance for bad endings due to past experiences. I had a mini-breakdown when I reached the end of QAF and Brian and Justin parted ways. The last episode of Sherlock s4 was bad enough that at first we all thought it was a fake cut after it leaked and we saw it early. So the ending of Shameless didn't truly bother me, though I genuinely hated how open everything was left because it feels super lazy. I like an open ending, but this was open to the point of making much of the season feel pointless. And overall, I just really wish the season had hit the ground running with the types of episodes that started popping up mid-season. Ian/Mickey's arc alone, they wasted so much time on them fighting that all the actual serious, emotional stuff that hit later in the season felt rushed and like it wasn't properly resolved. It kind of felt as if at the end of the season, they were just getting to where I wanted them to be all season long. And Lip's ending killed me, though I get it. I just really wanted something to look up for him, even though I feel like it definitely will in the future. Overall, I'm really happy with what it gave us Ian/Mickey wise in the end, the two of them having no doubt the best ending of the bunch. I just wish the season as a whole had leaned much more into drama rather than comedy, and I ultimately wish that the finale was more like 7x12, which I thought was excellent. I was absolutely banking on the characters coming out at the end, breaking the fourth wall, and telling us to leave, that it was over, and I'm slightly annoyed that they didn't do it because I feel like it would've been such a great touch lol. Out of all the seasons, s11 sort of feels like one of the only ones that I probably won't spend much time rewatching. But that's fine. That's what fanfic's for--to fill in all the gaps and to solve all the problems with canon.

"The ending of Shameless didn't truly bother me" I say and then proceed to list a series of complaints. lol

GT: Do you have any headcanons for their future?

G: I like to think Ian and Mickey are going to become super successful with their business (though it makes me anxious as hell that they're carrying around weapons while on parole). They'll stay at their West Side apartment for a few years, but I think they'll buy a house eventually, probably South Side, and then they'll obtain a kid they're able to give an incredible life. I hope they get financially comfortable enough that they're able to travel a bit when their parole's over. They deserve a nice, long beach vacation--maybe a belated honeymoon. I think they'll have a life that's more stereotypically "American Dream, married with 2.5 kids" than Mickey ever expected to have and one that Ian always hoped to have, but I think they'll also stick to their roots, not afraid to throw down when they have to, willing to do whatever it takes for their family. They're going to be together forever. I think they're the only couple who will last until the end. I think Lip and Tami are going to one day part ways but will be good, amicable co-parents. I think Debbie's going to struggle with relationships for most of her life. I think Carl's going to have a few [more] kids from some relationships, maybe a marriage and divorce in there somewhere, but then will eventually find someone to settle down with for the long haul. And I think Liam's going to be reasonable and responsible and will focus on other things until he's in his late-30s. Ian and Mickey, though? Beginning to end. Lasting. Sustainable.

GT: I love that. If you could change one Gallavich scene, which would you chose?

G: It’s tough for me to separate the horrible 5x12 break-up and subsequent lack of Mickey from the behind-the-scenes drama, but I just wish there had been a better way to deal with the Mickey situation rather than the complete implausibility of him being sentenced to prison for so many years for what he did to Sammi. And y'know, I also really hated them beating the crap out of each other in 11x03. I'm really glad that they seemed to have grown away from that behavior later in the season, but watching them engaged in such a violent act as a married couple was painful. I kind of just wish that scene didn't exist at all and that the two of them expressed their frustrations in a different way and were able to maturely work on their communication in the aftermath.

GT: I wholeheartedly agree, 5x12 was pure bullshit and made no sense at all. And yes, I don't understand why the writers insist on them physically fighting.

Finally, I know you have a couple of WIPs, but do you have any other projects in the works?

G: I'm currently writing, little by little, a one-shot of Ian and Mickey "obtaining" a baby. It takes place about 2 years post-canon and is a lot of fun, though I'm not sure where it's going quite yet. It's going to be a one-shot in an eventual series of one-shots, but I'm still working with the big picture. We'll see where it goes!

GT: Sounds great, I can't wait! 😍 That's all, thank you so, so much for taking the time to do this. Any final words? A message for your many fans?

G: Thank you for interviewing me! This was fun, and these are so cool! I love reading them! My "many fans" 😭😭 Stop! Haha. My readers are amazing and bring so much joy to my life. I'd just like to thank them for their support, for taking the time out of their days to read my silly little stories, and for being truly kind people who make me laugh and smile even when I don't feel like it sometimes. They are absolutely cherished and give me motivation to keep doing what I like to do, and for that, I'll be forever grateful. ❤️️

GT: They're far from "silly little stories" I am sure you bring a small to their faces as well when they read them. Thank you, you were a delight. ❤️

G: ❤️️❤️️❤️️ Thank YOU!

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