#my only goals in life rn really are like. run a sub-4hr marathon and go hiking once in a while. and don't get fired.

[bsaka7]

i'm back in job application mode for winter and it IS like. okay do i want to stick with what i'm doing. or do i want to like. move somewhere and get a real job. and being real rn if i were to move somewhere it would be the TC. do i want that??? also like starting to think i should either commit to this career path (because it pays not very well and it's a process to move up the ladder) or fuck off and try something else. i've basically done fuckall since college and i don't like, HATE my job by any means, though there are things i dislike about it, and like i could be ambitious if i tried. but what else would i do? DO i want to be an educator??? i don't MIND doing ed stuff but i don't think i'm particularly passionate about it either. i do really enjoy the variety of my current field. but like ngl i could use my brain more lol! all my experience is in like public history/education/interpretation which is FINE but like. if i wanted to do something else. what would it even BE. do i want to be outdoors more? do i want to do something more sciencey? am i willing to be in an office? do i want something with more goals and deadlines? do i want to work with kids? do i need to feel like i'm "doing good"? do i want to provide a public service? and there's always going back to school (i loved school)! WHO KNOWS!!!! NOT ME!!!!