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the-amber-droid-dreams · 1 year ago

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being a big part of my local trans community is really fun and rewarding until i have to watch yet another baby trans person whos only Just figured things out immediately have accepting parents and access to hrt. its genuinely a good thing ! this is what we fight for ! but,,

it burns so badly when i know i wont be able to even *begin* the process for another 5-9 years, that i will eventually have to abandon my home country and family because of it. it burns so badly when i have to watch them all applying for surgery and getting their hormone prescriptions and im just. sitting here. with barely any hope.

#my one pre-everything transmasc friend already passes so much better than me and it hurts to think about sometimes #we have similar body types but he just. idfk. the way he dresses and styles his hair and his voice and...#i *know* being visibly trans is horrible in many ways but god it hurts so badly to just #walk through life w everyone unflinshingly assuming im a cis girl #i feel like im not even trying. like ive given up before i even started. nothing i could do would make me look any way else #vent #amber actually saying stuff #mmm gender

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