#my mom has cancer

[hafwen]

My mom was supposed to have a CT but when she got there they wanted her to drink 2 16 oz water bottles with radiation to prep and she told them if they did that she would throw up. So that's canceled

[tickldpnk8]

Listen folks, there’s really nothing like the comfort of a good fanfic after some of the shittiest news you can get. It’s so nice to be able to be able to bury yourself into fandom posts to take your mind off heavy thoughts. Thanks fandom fam.

[ibijau]

ahah yeah I love last minute plans

and being around people I don't know well (or at all) without an easy way to leave if I don't feel the vibe

and also I'm a big fan of family gatherings in general yeah, how did you guess!!

[thesarcasticism]

i did not think it was possible for them to make shinjiro any sexier in reload. i mean fuck, bro look at this.

then i saw his fucking battle attire and, well. i have been proven wrong.

[mistress-light]

I am so bloody uncomfortable and upset atm. My mom just came to my house, and she was so upset and burst out in tears. I can't go into details too much but I just need to vent a lil? Let's just say that after my grandfather's funeral, the contact between my step grandmother is over. I hate her so freaking much.

[jittyjames]

throwing up, screaming, crying. y'all send good vibes tomorrow. pray if you do that. idk idk idk.

[hafwen]

My mom had a PET scan last week and the results are not great

They are going to start her on a new clinical trial

[drowning-in-deadlines]

Haven't been following the James Somerton drama closely but it's become so ridiculous that it's funny

Is no one going to talk about the fact that he said that he thought it was okay for him to mention Vito Russo in the opening credits and then never mention him again because his book was out of print and Russo was dead....

And then in the same breath say that he was 'extending Russo's legacy' like my brother in Christ do you even hear yourself-

[ghostpyre]

I drive 12 hours to help a friend with an emergency only to also have two other emergencies happen and I'm angry and scared and I hate this.

[kyr-kun-chan]

I knew there was something more to that break up. I was ready to hate hyeon jun if he did cheat but it turned out to be more complicated than that.

I dont know what everyone else was thinking when they saw seok ryu and hyeon jun argue but to me heon jun didnt do anything wrong. Even saying the things he said to seok ryu about her "damned depression" i can forgive him. It was a mean thing to say and seok ryu had the right to get angry but taking care of a sick person takes a toll on you. Its hard. Its frustrating. Even if you love this person so much you can get angry that you have to deal with it. You wish it wasnt like this. You want to escape and not think about it even for just one day. That's why he wanted to party. Seok ryu took that as him not caring about her but i think he did that to stay sane and forget about all the bad things for a while. But since seok ryu cant do that, she cant just forget and run away from it because she is the one dealing with it personally, she felt betrayed. I do think he shouldnt have said the things about his reputation and her dragging him down with him. That was too much. But everything else i understand.

I think he does actually still love her and has a right to love her and come find her again to win her back. And seok ryu knows this and that's why she did consider getting back with him for a moment. But it's too late because she has moved on.

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

my mom read one or two articles with supposed "statistics" that say sleeping in a bra or even just frequently wearing a bra causes breast cancer and like I cannot believe that she's fearmongering to me about "would you rather wear a bra to bed because 'it's so uncomfortable without it' and have to fight breast cancer, or would you rather get your priorities fixed?"

[creepyscritches]

My therapist has had to walk me thru the curse of knowledge at least 3 times now bc I forget cancer science basics are in fact. Not basics for everyone. Very funny interactions to say the least.

Me: idk, it just feels like I don't have anything to contribute beyond deep research dives for specific cancers. I don't see value in my general neoplasm reviews where I just break down the differences between malignant primary/secondary, benign, carcinoma in situ, and uncertain vs unspecified behavior tumor classifications. :(

My therapist, taking the deepest breath possible: The curse of knowledge, once more from the top

[plantanarchy]

I survived Christmas somehow yeehaw

[twinknote]

auughhhhh i feel rly anxious and i need to get this somewhat out of my head. cw breast cancer screening

ok so i have an appt scheduled at planned parenthood tomorrow bc i found a lump under my armpit and there is history of breast cancer in both sides of my family. and first of all i need to call them tomorrow bc i forgot that when i scheduled the appt online it said they didn't accept my insurance even though i've literally been to planned parenthood before and my insurance website says they're covered? so i have to fucking call them and idek if i'm going to end up having the appt. which is stressful on its own

but also there is the factor of being TransgenderedTM and not really knowing if whatever doctor i might see will be trans-competent or if it will be a deadnaming + "girl power!!!" situation. plus just. yk. having anyone see and feel my fucking titties who i'm not fucking is like. strange and unnerving. and there is Also the factor of having sexual trauma so having anyone see and feel my fucking titties who i'm not fucking (and sometimes even who i Am fucking!!!!) is EXTRA strange and unnerving!!!! also idk if i would just be having some kind of exam or if i would be having a mammogram or if they even Have the ability to do a mammogram or if they would just be like Yup that's a lump [insert thumbs up emoji bc i'm typing this in an anxiety-fueled rage on my computer] have fun!

idk man i'm justreally really anxious abt this and it's making it worse not actually knowing if it's happening or not or if i'll have to make one billion calls around to find somewhere else to go or if i'll have to wait like 2 months to see someone back home in which case the cancer will have spread to my entire body and killed me and i also won't have insurance. basically i should just die anyway bc this all seems like way too much stress and way too complicated and maybe i should just not see a doctor about it and just simply keel over and die [insert another thumbs up emoji for good measure]

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[eazy-peazy54]

The songs that Iare the most relatable to me from In Case I Make It are Euthanasia and Against The Kitchen Floor

I MIGHT be cooked 🙏🗣🔥💯‼️ (I'm definitely cooked)