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I'm re-reading the Discworld series for reasons, and honestly the most relatable part of reading these as an adult is how many of the protagonists start out being tired, used to their little routine and vaguely disgruntled by the interruption of the Plot. Sam Vimes wants to lie drunk in a gutter and absolutely doesn't want to be arresting dragons. Rincewind is yanked into every situation he's ever encountered, though he'd much rather be lying in a gutter too. (Minus the alcohol. Plus regretting everything he's ever done said witnessed or even heard about fourth-hand in his whole life.) Granny Weatherwax is deeply suspicious of foreign parts and that includes the next town over; Nanny has leaned into the armor of "nothing ever happens to jolly grannies who terrorize their daughters-in-law and make Saucy Jokes"
Only the young people don't seem to have picked up on this---and that's fortunate, because someone has to run around making things happen, if only so Vimes and Granny and Rincewind have a reason to get up (complaining bitterly the whole time) and put it all to rights. Without Carrot, Margrat, Eric, etc. these characters don't have that reason; they're likely to stay in the metaphorical gutter and keep wondering where it all went wrong or why anything has to change.
............well, that's not quite true. You get the sense that Vetinari knows how much certain people hate the Plot. And as the person sitting behind the metaphorical lighting board of Ankh-Morpork, he takes no small pleasure in forcing the Plot-haters specifically to stand up, and say some lines.
#I finished guards guards just yesterday and I forgot that vimes and wonse were set up to be mirror images#both boys from the shades of very different natures; who made good (ish) in wildly different ways#also it's interesting reading this books from an adult perspective; my mind isn't blown that these books exist#anymore; plus I've read so many good books since#and they're not perfectly constructed novels! especially these early books;#there are plenty of spots where I can feel the narrative get thin; where there's more handwaving than I remember#but each book IS better and tighter; the jokes are funnier and the irony sharpens; the footnotes are better utilized#the characters are getting more interesting and complicated as opposed to set-ups for jokes.#it's an illustration of someone getting better at their chosen field and that in itself is more impressive than I was anticipating.#discworld
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“The oven has a goofy face”
Octo-Oven Moment?
Just some past work experience
#WE’RE SO BACKKK#haha at least until I get real busy#need to catch up with my ask box#i’m also making a separate piece with them yipee#Marina’s got a complicated past with bioengineering it seems#Pearl doesn’t mind the oven screeching cus she doesn’t have to cook#but the toaster seems to have a vendetta against him#off the hook#splatoon#pearl houzuki#marina ida#pearlina#splatoon fanart#splatoon 3#great octoweapons#my art#squid asks
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My soul temporarily left my body when I heard her voice
#not totally in love with this one but it’s okay#midnight morrigan#my art#da4#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#da:tv#I originally had something way more complicated in mind but I got lazy#I’ll probably eventually make this into something else#morrigan
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☀️⭐🌙👁️👑
This is the way you are supposed to play this game.
#dddaily4sherin#day 172!!#grian#smajor1995#pearlescentmoon#itlwart#goodtimeswithscar#trafficblr#traffic smp#secret life#secret life smp#secret life spoilers#life series#my art#cw blood#i had so many thoughts about this but itll be too complicated to explain it#so ill let u guys analyze it and take it how u want💥💥💥💥#(maybe ill change my mind and ramble about it later maybeeeeee idk BHASDAHW)#explodes. cant believe we can draw scar with all the winners now it still feels like a fucking hallucination
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the things im doing to lupin in my head
#lupin III#dont mind the shibari i think its funny if they kept trying more complicated and unintentionally sexually charged ways to restrain him#and he always gets out anyways#is there a tag for the lupin gang polycule. i feel like its so accepted that its just sort of implied#daisuke jigen#goemon ishikawa xiii#fujiko mine#koichi zenigata#my art tag#you KNOW im transing all their geners#and drawing them all with visible stomach . where the guts are#i like jigen with bangs and jigen with slicked back hair. hes so cute always forever#polygang
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I. think I might try on they/them for a bit. and see how it feels
#idk if i know what i wanna be yet but i don't think i wanna be a man#feelings are complicated rn and i might change my mind#idk#i still wanna be pops though
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"I'm sorry, Nya… I have to do this"
role swap au bc im evil
Isn't it funny how this would be the third time jay faces evil nya btw
#My inspiration was Jay “I can't dodge Evil Nya so I'm gonna yeeted her” Walker in s6#I didn't make this with the dad jay au in mind. But if you're curious if kaida is here too#Let's just say yes. But she and nya don't really have a mother-daughter dynamic#And they're not really that close as a family#and their relationship is a bit more complicated since nya instinctively takes on the older sister role like with lloyd#And kaida wants to be seen as an equal and is more emotionally closed off and more distrustful#And even more rebellious#ninjago au#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago nya#nya ninjago#jay walker#ninjago jay#jay ninjago#ninjago fanart#ninjago spoilers
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friday 13th, october, 2023
#they live in my mind#i love when scrimblos are creatures#sonic the werehog#sonic the gaiahog#black arms shadow#dark shadow#kinda.#its complicated#should be complimented tho#my art#this isnt thoam i just love my glowstick boy
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the west wing is the best show ever because you wouldn’t expect to come out of a hard-hitting, critically acclaimed political drama with the ultimate found family trope, right? and yet the president is a complete nerd, his wife is scary and the top in their relationship, the president and his chief of staff are Dad 1 and Dad 2, the deputy chief of staff and his assistant are in a years-long emotional affair and everyone knows it but them, the communications director is grumpy as hell and you love him so much, the press secretary is tall, hot and awesome, the deputy communications officer is the gay son and the president’s aide is the human personification of a pleasure to have in class. and they’re all family and love each other very much :)
#I feel like my descriptions of everyone (esp charlie and leo) have done them an injustice#but that’s what’s so great about them is that they’re all complicated and multi faceted characters!! :D#I love you the west wing you’ve been on my mind so much lately#the west wing
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[ID: Trigun fanart of the core four sitting together in a cozy room. Wolfwood seems to be telling a story with a smile. Milly has a ponytail and is laughing as Vash and Milly, both visibly drunk, lean against her. Vash is smiling softly and listening to Wolfwood, and Meryl is asleep and drooling. To the side, a cat is using the Punisher as a scratching post. End ID] - described by @princess-of-purple-prose
#my art#digital art#artists on tumblr#trigun#trigun stampede#meryl stryfe#milly thompson#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#merylmilly#vashwood#polygun#everybody loves milly#i like how trigun made me draw more complicated stuff#like... four people and a cat? that's a lot#and they all have legs#dont mind the tags it's late already
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I don’t know if it’s because people aren’t familiar with the comics or if it’s just because simplifying Jason’s relationship with his bio dad as “Willis is a cartoonishly stereotypical low income abusive dad whom Jason hates and feels nothing for” is more conducive to batfam hurt/comfort whump fic but the fact that Jason sought out vengeance for his dad’s death as Robin seems to get entirely memory holed out of fanon. You don’t seek out revenge for someone you don’t love. Like the fact that Willis resorted to working as a hired henchman to support his family should have huge implications on how Jason views crime, “criminals”, and how he operates as both Robin and Red Hood. Like that is such a deliciously fascinating concept and you would think that fanon would be interested in exploring this in a way that canon doesn’t and yet…
#Canon lowkey does a better job at this than fanon in general like if there’s one thing you can give rhato credit for it’s that#Rotating the Todds in my mind dying on the Jason has complicated feelings about but ultimately loves his dad hill#Jason Todd#dc
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been messing around with my drawing process so i decided to do a bunch of cephalopod group shots to get a bit more confident with it
[IMG ID: Image 1 is a group drawing of Shiver, Big Man, Frye, Callie, and Marie from Splatoon. The first four are posing for a photo with Marie in the back. They are in Alterna with the buildings and the hole in the sky visible in the back.
Image 2 is a group drawing of Agents 3, 4, and 8 in casual wear in an apartment all posing for a selfie. Various objects are littered in the background with a backpack, skateboard, and part of a switch being present by 8.
Image 3 is a a drawing of Pearl and Marina dressed in casual wear taking a selfie at night. /END ID]
#splatoon#do i have 2 tag literally every splatoon character..#shiver#frye#big man#callie cuttlefish#marie cuttlefish#agent 3#agent 4#agent 8#pearl houzuki#marina iida#good lord.#ive been playing wayyy too much of the game so its always on my mind rn LOL learning splatana wiper for fun just for the thrill of it#myart#ugh you cant move tags in the new editor..awful#im getting pretty confident drawing like this! im gonna try and record a timelapse of one#idk what tho..it cant be anything too complicated
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my favorite dumb personal headcanon is that finn tidestrider and specifically the elder triton have beef. none of the elders like him very much-- he's one of the most intelligent and widely recognized/respected names in the entire undersea, and he:
isn't religious in any way, shape, or form (alongside the rest of his family)
never married, but had a son later in life, that many people believe was the result of some kind of affair (of course, nothing was ever PROVEN)
had a blatant disregard for not only societal norms, but all the supposed "dangers" life outside of the capital had-- and frequently poked holes in their logic, especially in regards to the oversea
AND finn and his bastard son are the grandfather and father of the fucking chosen one. because of course they are. so yeah. the elders don't like him. but finn and the elder triton, for whatever fucking reason, have BEEF. why? no one knows. they hate finn's autistic swag.
#in my mind the elders and the tidestriders have a very. complicated. relationship.#they were so excited about the chosen one being born#and then they heard the surname “tidestrider” and decided they would hate that child forever#they wouldve waited until gill was older than FIVE to start his training#but they didnt want him picking ANY disobedience up from Some People in his family#jrwi riptide#jrwi headcanon#finn tidestrider#jrwi finn
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SAID HE LIKES CRAZY GIRLS,
BUT HE HATES WHEN I ACT CRAZY,
IT TAKES TWO TO TOXIC!
FINALLY!!! Finished these pics of jinx I’ve been working on!!!!! HOLY SHIT, these took so long…. But finally… they’re done… pls enjoy this art of my beautiful princess w a disorder. Featuring alternate colors for the big pic and also a closeup! Cuz I rlly like how both the lines and coloring on her face turned out… like the pink gradients w her eye… her deer in headlights expression,, like uve just startled a raccoon digging thru ur trashcan and r two seconds away from getting mauled.. m proud of it!
#arcane#league of legends#jinx#jinx arcane#arcane jinx#doodles#hate and love how hardcore I relate to jinx…#little sisters w dependency issues.. + a whole lot of other issues#anyway the ‘he’ in the ‘crazy girl’ lyrics is in my mind referring to both vi and silco lol#I’m sORRY! I keep seeing ppl hardcore pitting these 2 bad bitches against each other#and it’s like… silco is objectively. morally worse than vi.. vi is not like. a ruthless crime lord#vi IS 100% trying her best and loves her sister. but she still screwed up w jinx#and silco ALSO truly loves jinx. but also screwed up by fucking. trauma bonding w her ghgh-#like.. silco is too close. he’s like. yes go apeshit jinx I support and love you and understand u no matter what fucked up shit u do.#were the same. and that’s beautiful!!! I love how supportive he is…#but its like.. silcos too close. he just became a new person for jinx to glomp onto and base her self esteem around after vi left#and he doesn’t manipulate that on purpose but. he DOES effect that girls mental state. cuz he needs her too#meanwhile vi is too far away… she thinks she knows who jinx is. but jinx has changed… time marches forward. she’s not that little girl#anymore#and nOW! after the finale jinx has NOBODY TO BE CODEPENDENT W..#her mental state has always been so tied up in how the ppl she puts on pedestals view her#and now there’s no pedestal anymore. she knocked down the statues. she’s alone…#it’s interesting….#anyway I’m not trying to say vi is as bad as silco at ALL. just that she’s an equally important building block in jinx’s mind#that has made her into the fucked up lil person she is today. and I think that’s neat.#lol anyway! I’m hyped for season 2….#aLSO GOD DAMN THIS GIRLS OUTFIT IS COMPLICATED. WHY DO U GOT SO MANY BITS N BOBS JINX??? I mean I get it accessories rock.#but u take so much time to draw ghfhg- require so much brainpower#aLSO ADDENDUM. while silco is objectively morally worse than vi his relationship w jinx is genuinely. like. makes me emotional ghgh-#its not perfect. or healthy. but… it’s. the both of them. being seen. and accepted. and loved and understood.. and I love that shit.
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DP x DC Prompt #91
Jason has been told time and time again by so many that he’s tainted. He’s no longer a hero. He’ll never be a hero again. He’s accepted it. But how is he supposed to turn down a clearly terrified teen who has traveled across the country, stating Jason is the only one who can help his friend.
#finemeal prompt#dp x dc#jason todd#tucker foley#danny fenton#tucker tracks down red hood to help danny out#and red hood is an anti-hero#but anti-hero still has hero in it#jason todd would help a child#teenager's aren't children#but also they sorta are#listen it's complicated#they're all minors#and jason would help them#change my mind#you can't
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'We need to tell them, Stevie, we can't keep going on like this.'
I know. You're right. We should. But the words stay stuck in Steve's throat, so instead, he buries his head in the crook of Eddie's neck, resting against his warm shoulder, curls tickling against his cheek and his nose.
He can feel by the way Eddie pulls him close and wraps him all up in the safety of his arms, that he doesn't need to explain to him what he's thinking right now.
'We can't let them find out like this, that wouldn't be fair,' Eddie murmurs against Steve's hair.
And Steve remembers the way Dustin squinted at them when he saw how flushed and disheveled they were looking the other day; he remembers how Lucas frowned when he asked Steve why he hadn't been on a date in weeks; he remembers Max's teasing remarks when she noticed the presence of Steve's car at the trailer park yet another morning.
Eddie is right: they can't keep this up. Those kids are geniuses, they'll probably piece together what's going on in less than a week if they don't tell them.
And it's not like Steve wants to hide it. It's not like he's unsure, or ashamed, but... He is afraid. He wishes he would have more time. More time in which the kids see him exactly like they see him now. More time in which he's just Steve, their friend, instead of Steve, their queer friend. More time in which he won't give them a reason to reject him, to hate him, to look at him all differently.
He knows, logically, that nothing like that will happen. The kids love him, they love Eddie. Will has been called much worse things than queer and that never stopped them from being friends with him.
But he can't shut off that gnawing what if in the back of his mind. What if this will change everything? What if –
No. He can't let his mind go there.
He takes a deep breath and focuses on the sensation of Eddie's fingers combing through his hair, on the rhythm of Eddie's heartbeat right next to his ear.
'I don't wanna make you do this if you're not ready yet,' Eddie says softly. 'I'd wait for you, no problem, I swear. But they're gonna find out sooner rather than later. They're too fucking smart, man.'
Steve hums and lifts his head to let his lips find Eddie's. He moves slowly, taking his time, barely more than a brush against Eddie's mouth.
Then, he directs his attention to Eddie's hand, laces their fingers together, squeezes gently.
'I'm not gonna lie, I don't think I'm entirely ready just yet,' he finally says. 'But I do wanna do it on my terms – on our terms. We should tell them.'
Eddie squeezes back and lifts his other hand to trace one finger over Steve's jaw, a light touch that conveys so much gentleness that it sends a shiver down Steve's spine, makes him want to pull Eddie impossibly close in his arms again.
Eddie's eyes pierce into his soul, holding Steve frozen in his place, unable to speak.
'Together,' Eddie whispers against his skin.
And that single word is enough to ease Steve's nerves, even if it's just a little bit. Whatever happens, they'll get through it together.
XXX
It's pizza night but Steve can barely get even one bite through his throat; his stomach is twisting violently and no matter what he does, that hollow feeling just won't go away. He keeps seeking out Eddie's gaze, trying to find some comfort in those deep brown eyes, but he can't reach out and touch him – not yet. He desperately wishes he could.
When he gets to the fridge to grab some more drinks for everyone, Eddie appears behind him, moving close into his space like he always does.
'You don't exactly look like you're having a grand time tonight, Stevie,' he murmurs under his breath.
'I'm fucking nervous, man.'
Eddie chuckles, reaches out to squeeze his shoulder – just an innocent touch but enough to set Steve a little bit more at ease.
'Yeah, I can see that, big boy.'
'Aren't you?'
'Nah, not really,' Eddie immediately says. 'Whatever happens, happens, right?'
And Steve is, yet another time, struck by how different the two of them are. He will probably never understand some parts of Eddie's brain; like how little he worries about what people might think of him. He can only wish he could find a little bit more of that in himself.
'Hey,' Eddie whispers. 'I can't promise you it's all gonna be alright, because I don't know that for sure, but I strongly suspect that they'll all be amazing about it. Okay?'
Steve nods.
'You wanna wait a little longer or just get it over with?'
'Let's get it over with.'
'Alright, little shrimps, listen up!' Eddie immediately raises his voice and stomps his feet on the ground, startling everyone at the table and making them whip their heads towards where Steve and Eddie are standing with curious eyes.
'Steve and I have an announcement to make,' Eddie says, in a mockingly solemn voice while making jazz-hands for additional dramatic effect.
Lucas gasps. 'Are you gonna –'
Max hisses at him and moves slightly in her seat; when Lucas lets out a yelp before he can finish his sentence, Steve can fill in the blanks of what happened underneath the tabletop.
Eddie turns his head to look at Steve. His gaze is softer than ever.
'Do you wanna tell 'em or should I?'
Maybe they should've prepared this, Steve thinks. He swallows, doesn't think he'll be able to get more than a couple words out of his mouth with the way he's feeling like a whole goddamn army of Demobats has made themselves at home inside of him. But it would feel weak, to let Eddie do the talking. He's known those kids the longest; he owes it to them to be honest. They deserve to hear it from him.
He breathes in. Breathes out. Looks at Eddie. Looks at the group in front of him. And says the words that might change everything.
'Eddieandmearedating.'
A second passes. Two, three.
'Steve, are you, um – are you okay?' Dustin asks, his face all scrunched up in... something. Disgust? Shock? Worry?
Steve tries to smile, but his face doesn't feel right at all. He feels Eddie’s arm moving behind his back, his hand gently squeezing his shoulder, the warmth of his body now pressed against his side.
'Kinda depends on what you're about to say,' he weakly admits.
'Depends on what we're – Steve! We love you, what the hell? Did you think that we – that we –'
Lost for words, Dustin shoots a helpless look at his friends.
'I don't know, okay, I –' But before Steve can finish his sentence, Dustin launches himself out of his chair to crash into Steve and Eddie like a cannonball, wrapping both of them in a tight embrace, soon joined by El and Max and Lucas, and then by Will and Mike, until both of them are buried in a slightly suffocating group hug of smelly teenagers.
'We already knew, man,' Dustin says, sounding muffled because of the way his head is buried against Steve's chest.
'You – what?!'
'We've known for weeks,' Max admits with a slightly malicious grin. 'You weren't exactly subtle about it.'
'So why didn't you say anything?! Aren't you mad that we kept a secret from you?'
'Mike was,' Lucas says.
'What the hell, Lucas!' Mike yells back at him.
'We were talking about it at Mike's, and Nancy kinda overheard us,' Will explains with a somewhat apologetic look on his face. 'And she explained why we should wait for you to be ready.'
A warm rush of gratefulness for Nancy washes over Steve.
'She also told us that we should say thank you for trusting us or whatever,' Mike adds with a look on his face like he just swallowed a whole lemon and an awkward shrug of his shoulders. 'So, thanks, I guess.'
'We love you, man,' Lucas says, and it sounds so sincere that it almost makes Steve tear up. 'We're happy for you.'
#am i projecting my own complicated feelings about big coming out moments onto steve?#nooooo not at all#don't mind me rambling about stranger things#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#stranger things#fruity ficlet
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