#my math teachers were always like that (until i was in remedial math in 12th grade that was awesome)

[doebt]

one thing i miss abt school is drawing during class LOL i really do miss that.

[wota-tenebrarum]

I wonder if I should get tested for dyscalculia. People have always told me that me being bad at math was just me not studying enough or just being lazy “because math is all logic so it should automatically make sense” but it has just never made any sense to me. Until recently though, I thought they were right and just assumed that because I didn’t like it it just didn’t stick. Or that the reason I don’t understand division is that the day we started learning it my abusive teacher sent me to the office just to make me cry. Only recently, when I kept making errors calculating my translation times at work, or when I noticed how little sense my bank statements make to me, did I actually look to see if this was a “thing”. And apparently it’s called dyscalculia and is a thing. And just like when I first found out what OCD really was, the list of symptoms reads like a checklist of my own experiences, so... seems like something to get checked for?????? Maybe?????????? I was especially struck by this warning sign: “operates from short-term memory, but lacks deep understanding”, because that is exactly how I passed my math classes in school. I studied really hard the night before, got a C, and scraped by at the end of the semester with like, a 72 (in a country where 69 or lower means failure). The only reason I got through 12th grade was because I made the school put me in discrete math, which was essentially a remedial math class and was mostly logic and graphs. I can do logic just fine. Numbers and their processes just don’t make sense to me.