#my gf bday is soon! like next next week

[theo4eve]

The things I do for the people i love.

[w0nd3rb0ii]

GOOOOOOD MORNING MY MENTALLY ILL POOKIES (5.5.2024)

my life is suchhh a mess helloooooo im back

im just gonna post a little life recap because last time i was actually active on here was like may

june '23: binged ALL MONTH but was like leftover skinny from getting down to like 118 , life was insane, partied a ton, rehearsals all the time, was 6 months into a relationship

july '23: kept on eatingggg, broke up w my gf and started dating this guy frankie (shameless namedrop) which was a whole like plot arc a year and a half in the making, wizard of oz happened (i was tin man), i went to x games, also new york!

august '23: disney trip w frankie, week long beach trip with my friend whos super hot and skinny and it made me sad but i got a tan and it was super fun overall, i was literally js getting fatter and fatter tho, so yea. also i went to scotland and got cast as ms trunchbull in matilda! also school started so that was fun

october '23: relationship was still slaying, i was still fat but not getting fatter, i went to hoco and school was schooling

november '23: mini relapse got me skinnyish, school existed

december '23: binged consistently, was ugly, bf was still amazing, school was scary but ended up fine

january '24: pregnancy scare started a christianity arc for me, i joined choir, i consistently was only eating like 400 cals and i was feeling pretty good ab my body but then after matilda show weekend i started binging like crazyyy (show weekend slayed but everyone got sick during tech week)

february '24: winter formal happened and was sm fun, dance comp season started, still fat, me and frankie went on a break at 7 and a half months because we could never see each other, spring semester started at school, i went to church camp and broke up with him on the way home because religious guilt about all the stuff we had done together (so we lasted almost 8 months)

march '24: aftermath of breakup was a lot, i auditioned for this crazy hard to get into choir at school AND GOT IN (!!!). kiiinda messed up God era because this guy i met at the start of spring semester and i started talking and it became a whole fwb thing WHICH WAS FUNNY because i definitely was not and am still not all the way over my ex. but me and the other guy started dating! (on my bday actually lol), ALSO I GOT CAST AS CINDERELLA IN CINDERELLA FOR MY LAST SHOW AT MY STUDIOOOO

april '24: still fat but i feel like ive gotten a little prettier recently, school is terrifying because i cant make myself do anything productive, me and the guy slaying but we got into like 2 fights over spring break but we fixed it both times! (it was my b bc i lied to him ab drinking and vaping), we went to the renaissance faire and it was sm fun!

may '24: i found out my ex bf might have been talking to another girl towards the end of a relationship, theyre going to prom together, theyre a thing now and its like really hurt which is dumb bc ive fully been in a relationship for like a month now but idk if im fully even in it because the bf is transferring and going to college in the fall and im staying at our community college bc performance opportunities and choir. and i kinda have a crush on the guy thats my prince for cinderella but im not doing anything about it because if anythings meant to come from it hes coming to my school next year soo yea well see idrc. but yeah so that happened, me and the current bf saw john mulaney last night, im js now getting back into caring ab my body because i do NOT WANT TO BE FAT FOR SUMMER. so yeah. idk how much i weigh. ill figure it out as soon as i can but my mom hid my scale. well seeee

so yea thats my update ill try to be active on here bye pookies

[stuckinapatriarchalbullshitland]

Hello, dear Stuck! #AnonTheory here. Thanks for tagging me by the way. I’m sending you some drafts I had in my notes, this first one from October 25, just because now that the first act is finished we can theorize a little more if you want to.

“Draft (October 25)

The official narrative is on the way: They were taking some time apart to rethink their relationship since the VMA (C’s crying pics) and continued only with the events previously agreed for both, like GlobalC. Now they went to Mex to celebrate Papa Ale’s bday and try to rekindle they’re love in a special place, but there’s also another set of upsetting pics to come out soon that’ll be put 2 and 2 together: him not @ her in interviews, cute alone pics with T-dog, both alone and sad around the world. Here they still like and support “each other” very much.

I disagree with whoever thinks C will come out bad out of this PR. On the contraire my friends: both will have great images so that “they have always loved each other” card can be useful in the future. Would be a dumb move to make him diss her after in terms of marketing and image at least. If Camila gets the short side on the breakup for me is a sign that they won’t be associated in the future and bastards wouldn’t let that happen. They’re doing the still best friends things. Here will go for eventually supportive of “each other” fase.

The video of them in Oaxaca changes nothing real time or latergram. Gotta understand that everything that comes out is intentional. Nobody invaded her privacy: that was the goal all along. They expected fans to go and disturb her vacation. Maybe we’ll have a breakup told from the fans POV to look more real. Definitely something is up and it’s happening soon. Lauren indeed warned us just yesterday.”

So far so good! Right now we have the best friends card being used leading the GP to his side (like the dog) and picturing her as the big dumped, like she captioned to leave no doubts in people’s minds. Now inside sources will spill the tea management wants: a need gf that could not keep this Prince Charming and now is bitter and being a bitch about it.

My fear is that this fase 2 of the PR still may have a big stunt to come. Something scandalous enough. But I really hope they don’t have that kind of power after the end of the contract. For me they either going to the scandal route or to bring a third party to the post show (a new gf for him if the goal is to boost his image). Maybe both? A girl who he cheated on C.

This was only the first week and the narratives are still running. Hopefully towards a better place for our girl. Thanks again for reading this even if you prefer not to post it in the end. The subject is saturated I know, but you have something relevant to add.

Hello AnonTheory. The truth is that I don't know what kind of narrative they are going to put out after the breakup other than the one the diva is known to want for her next heartbroken album. With Camila I don't know, maybe she's the bad guy in the movie, because penises always need to be the poor abandoned idiots who give their all for the "woman they love" in a very toxic relationship to caught more attention so whatever. Sorry for others. I do not know. Camila has been criticized for having the dog when the circus always claimed the narrative of him being allergic to dogs so at least that part is fine. Regardless that I don't like to talk about that PR dog, a bit of coherence was needed.

And the truth is that I am not interested in what comes as long as Camila can have her time as a solo artist in peace, dear friend. That is all.

[retrievablememories]

show me love | jaehyun

title: show me love pairing: jaehyun x reader genre: fluff request: “I have a fic idea for Valentine's Day 💀 Jaehyun's gf is busy trying to prepare a really sweet bday gift while Jaehyun is busy trying to prepare a really nice Valentine's Day gift for his gf?” word count: 2.2k warnings: alcohol use a/n: writing pure fluff is not as easy as you’d think, but maybe that’s only an issue when you’re emotionally constipated like me...💀 anyway, here’s to the birthday boy. 🌹

You want to be sure Jaehyun’s birthday gift is perfect this year, which is why you spent so much time saving up for it. To you, it often felt a little hard to measure up to all the lavish gifts he gets every year for his birthday from fans, friends, and family members—especially since it’s on Valentine’s Day—but he always claimed that you could get him anything and he’d love it.

You and Jaehyun haven’t met up very frequently this week, partly because you’d both been busy preparing your gifts for each other; you for his birthday, and him for Valentine’s Day. You weren’t too upset about that, though. Being able to see him when the day finally came around would make it even more special after the time spent away from each other.

It’d been a lot harder than you’d anticipated to keep your gift secret, but only because you’re so excited for him to finally know what you’d gotten for him. You’re eager to see his reaction to it and hear what he might say about it. You’re also wondering what he might be planning for you, but you’ve done your very best not to pester him about it too much—even though you really want to.

The day of his birthday, you’re so jittery that you even get up earlier than usual so you can get dressed and make sure your look for the day is perfect. You end up calling Jaehyun while you put your makeup on, not wanting to wait any longer to talk to him. It’s not too early in the day when you call, because you know he won’t like getting up at that hour, but maybe early enough to cause a small complaint.

“Hi Y/N,” he answers after a few seconds, voice a bit deeper than usual—probably because he just got up. You grin at the sound of his voice.

“Good morning! Happy birthday, baby! Did I wake you? I’m sorry, haha.”

“Y/N.” Jaehyun repeats your name and smiles on the other end. You can’t see this, but you can hear his laugh, which is full of happiness at your greeting. “Thank you, sweet girl. It’s fine, I don’t really care, I was gonna get up soon anyway.” You hear the sheets rustling in the background and figure that’s him getting up now. “And of course, Happy Valentine’s Day.”

“The day for lovers, how could I ever forget.” You smirk to yourself, sifting through your makeup bag for a certain highlighter. “By the way, you’re gonna come over today, right? I have something for you,” you tell him in a singsong-y mischievous tone.

“Oh?” Jaehyun perks up at that. “You want me to come over now? Because...I have something for you too, for Valentine’s Day, but it’s here at my place.”

“Ah, really?” You laugh. “Come to my place first, it’s your birthday and you should get your present first.”

“But since it’s my birthday, shouldn’t you come here? Do it for me~”

You almost roll over with laughter. “Aw, Jaehyun! I can’t believe you’re using that cute tone with me, I know you hate aegyo.”

He sighs, and you know he’s probably blushing from embarrassment. “Hmm, okay, okay. Never gonna do that one again. Should we flip a coin on it, then? If I win, you have to come over with whatever your gift is.”

You chuckle. “Flip a coin? You serious?”

“Dead serious. Get on FaceTime.”

“Now?” You snort and look at yourself in the mirror, makeup only half-done.

“You don’t want to? What are you hiding?” Now his voice takes on a sneaky note.

“I’m not hiding anything, but if that’s what you want, then prepare yourself...”

You both hang up and Jaehyun calls you on FaceTime a few seconds later. You smile when you see his face on the other end, still bare from just waking up. One corner of his mouth tugs up in a smirk when he sees you, then he bursts into a full grin, giggling at your half-made-up face. 

“Well, that was unexpected.”

“Yes, yes, laugh it up! My own boyfriend clowning me on Valentine’s Day, how sweet of you.” You pout for good measure.

“You laugh at me nearly everyday,” he points out, and you must admit that he’s right. “Anyway, you always look pretty to me.” Then he pulls a hand through his hair in a way that he knows can always make you swoon, and you sigh in defeat.

“...Okay, you’re forgiven.”

You see him rummage around for a moment before the phone straightens again; now he holds a coin between his fingers. “So. What side do you want?”

“I guess heads.”

Jaehyun snickers momentarily before affecting a nonchalant expression again. “Yeah, I’ll take tails then.”

“Stop being dirty-minded,” you complain, rolling your eyes.

“I’m not, Y/N,” he insists, though his tone suggests otherwise. He flips the coin into the air and points the phone camera to where it landed on the ground—heads.

“I won! Now you have to come over,” you cheer.

“Fine, fine.” He shakes his head and laughs. “I’ll be over soon. Wait for me.”

“I wouldn’t go anywhere else, now would I?”

Jaehyun arrives at your place a little while later, and he’s a bit starstruck when you open the door. Now with your makeup finished, you’re wearing a red dress with heels to match and your hair is styled prettily, falling over your shoulders. You smile happily at him, pulling at his shoulders to get him to come inside.

“Hi Jaehyun,” you say, closing the door after him and hugging him. He squeezes you back tightly, leaving a kiss on your bare shoulder and breathing in the scent of your hair.

“Y/N. How do you manage to get prettier everyday?”

“Because you love me so much.” You give him a kiss and tug his hand to guide him into the living room. You lead him to sit down on your couch, though you don’t sit next to him just yet. “Okay, before I give you your gift, you gotta close your eyes first.”

“Close my eyes? What is it?” Jaehyun keeps hold of your hand as he asks this, grinning up at you.

“You won’t know until you do what I say, silly!” He relents, although a bit reluctantly, and lets go of your hand so he can close his eyes. You go to get his gift from your bedroom and come back into the living room with it, holding it out in front of him. “Open your eyes now.”

When he does, he sees you holding a small wrapped box. “Why’d I have to close my eyes? I still can’t tell what it is.” He chuckles as he takes it from you. “The suspense is gonna kill me,” he jokes as he begins unwrapping it.

When Jaehyun finally gets the wrapping off and gets the box open, his face softens as he sees what’s inside and takes it in his hand. You clasp your own hands together, your skin warming at his smile. “It might not be what you’re used to in terms of like, luxury, you know...but it looked nice and I thought it’d look good on you.”

“Y/N…you must’ve spent a lot on this,” Jaehyun murmurs, examining the shiny new face of the watch in his hand. He holds it as if it were a rare jewel, turning it on all its sides to examine it. It’s mostly black leather and silver, but it was still more than usual for your budget, costing you a few hundred dollars.

“I did save up for some months...and still had to use a payment plan for it. Good thing we never broke up in that timespan or I woulda been shit outta luck.” Jaehyun snorts and shakes his head at your statement, knowing you’d say something like that to lighten the mood.

“Thank you baby,” he says, sliding his new watch onto his wrist. “You know this means the world to me.” He goes over to the window to see it better in the natural lighting, holding it up to the light to see it sparkle. You go over to him and peek over his shoulder, grinning softly. “I’ll have to pay you back.” You raise your eyebrows.

“What? It’s your birthday present, why would you—” 

“You’ll see later,” he says mysteriously, and you give him a curious look. “Meanwhile, we should go somewhere. The day’s still early, so let’s enjoy it.”

“You’re right,” you say, glancing at the new watch once more and then kissing him on the cheek. “Let’s go, then.”

It’s evening by the time you get back to Jaehyun’s place, having already eaten at an upscale restaurant that he’d reserved. You’d had no idea about it, and you were glad you’d taken the initiative to dress up today. Both of you spent the earlier part of the day going out to brunch and then exploring the city for a few hours, which even included taking one of those romantic boat rides that the nearby lake always offers on Valentine’s Day. You thought it would be kind of cheesy at first, but it turned out way more fun than you could imagine.

When you step inside his place, you’re surprised to see everything is decorated pretty lavishly; the overhead lights are dimmed, leaving a bunch of small tea lights as the main illumination. There are rose petals spread everywhere, too, and the sitting room is set up with pillows and blankets and a nice spread of chocolates and wine on the coffee table.

You gasp, studying the surroundings. “How did you arrange all this? We were together all day.” 

“Had some help from the guys; they came while we were gone. Hope they didn’t take anything, though...” Jaehyun shrugs as if this whole setup is no big deal, but his dimples poke out from the gleeful smile on his lips. He picks up an unlit candle from the coffee table, and you notice there are a few more spread around. “Now that we’re here, we can light these. Safety first, you know.”

“Of course,” you snicker, taking your jacket and shoes off so you can sit down on one of the pillows. You take up the bottle of wine and inspect the label while Jaehyun finds a lighter for the candles. “Considering that we already drank at the restaurant...don’t be surprised if I’m off my ass by the end of the night.”

“We don’t have to drink it if you don’t want to,” he suggests, raising one eyebrow.

“Oh no, I want to!” Jaehyun laughs at your enthusiasm as you open the wine and pour a glass for each of you. Once he’s done lighting the candles, he goes into his room. You lean back on the cushion and take your glass in your hand, waiting for him to come back.

Jaehyun returns soon with his blazer discarded and the first few buttons of his shirt undone. “I see you’ve gotten relaxed, too.” You smirk, crossing your legs. “You look so handsome with your new watch. I’m glad I got it for you.”

“Then I think you’ll like this even more.”

“Hmm?” You turn to Jaehyun as he sits on one of the pillows beside you. Your eyes widen when he pulls out a velvet case you didn’t notice before. It’s not a ring case, though, which really would’ve caused you to fall out; it’s the kind you use for bracelets or necklaces. He places it in your hands, and you gingerly take it from him like it might vanish if handled too roughly. “Oh...what is…?”

“You have to open it.” He grins, mimicking your earlier teasing of him with his own gift. You set down your wine glass and open the velvet rectangle to find a delicate necklace lying inside. At the end of it is a small circle with tiny diamonds embedded in it.

“Oh wow...it’s perfect,” you whisper, taking it out of the box and looking it over with enamored eyes. “Is this what you meant by ‘paying me back’? Because, Jesus, this is Cartier. I think you’ve done more than enough.” You smile wistfully and shake your head.

“Let me put it on you,” he says, and you give him the necklace so he can do so. You turn away from him, and you shiver a little at the feeling of his breaths on the back of your neck and his fingertips brushing your skin. You face him again when he’s done fastening it and throw your arms around his neck, hugging him closer to you and smiling against his dimpled cheek.

“I love you, Jaehyun. Thank you so much.”

Jaehyun’s lips curve up at your words, and he tucks his face against you, pressing a gentle kiss to the side of your jaw. “I love you, Y/N.”

[cattles-bians]

exes au part 14

post directory

obsetress:

obsetress: viola

em: holy shit

em: i think viola could hold a truly ridiculous number of things in her hands

em: danis like i have a little fanny pack right here- and violas like (turns up nose) absolutely not

obsetress: pre therapy viola during her relationship w dani: buys dani a birkin too, is like "here baby, so you don't have to use that fanny pack"

obsetress: dani's like "oh. i, um. like my fanny pack"

obsetress: viola therapy era after her relationship with dani: buys her a hermes fanny pack instead

obsetress: jamie rolls her eyes but dani is literally

em: i think a lot abt viola offering solutions completely unprompted n then being really offended when ppl dont take her up on it

em: pre therapy obvs

obsetress: SAME

obsetress: oh link is gross

obsetress: cost is grosser

obsetress: but viola lloyd dropping $2550 on a fanny pack for her ex gf? chefs kiss

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obsetress: ok just remembered viola slouching or leaning or w/e n like

obsetress: brain practically applying that to exes au and imagining when and where she'd slouch n everyone's reactions to htat

obsetress: bc like she has perfect posture but when she chooses to do it it's a power move

obsetress: and i. hm

em: yeah

obsetress: viola sitting up stock straight when they first get to brunch and as soon as she's ordered her bloody mary shes pulling off her sunglasses and dropping them on the table and just sinking back

em: how to phrase this w/o sounding too much like a whore

em: actually no way to say this but like i feel v strongly abt the way we make women take up less space wrt to knees together calves touching type deal and i think maybe

em: maybe viola can manspread a bit as a treat

em: hate that term but i cant think of a better one

obsetress: nah she does n it's hot

obsetress: just had this image pre divorce of viola and arthur at marriage counseling on opp ends of the couch n arthur's sitting v tight close and vi is just

obsetress: leaning and spreading a lil

obsetress: the first time jamie sees her do it she's so taken aback

obsetress: because she's NOT expecting it

em: jamies like ah ok late in life lesbian deal and then jokes on her viola is fluent in dyke slouch

obsetress: jamie immediately trying to suss out just how long viola has been fucking women

obsetress: she says to dani later "i thought she was all proper like" and dani's like "she is" and jamie's like "so wot was that then" and dani's like "well, people are gay, jamie,"

em: ghfjhgljkJFDASJKKJFGA

em: jamies like so wait how long HAS viola been

obsetress: jamie: so you were vi's first serious girlfriend right? dani: dani: jamie: right???????

em: violas been fucking women longer than jamie has lbr

em: i mean shes clearly only 35, jamie,

obsetress: jamie: so... vi... viola: hm? jamie: you're, uh, gay, right? viola: obviously jamie: right. well dani told me you've been dating women since–– viola: since i was 15, yes jamie: but you married a man

em: violas like u went to jail everyone does stupid shit occasionally

em: jamie: so how long have you been dating women viola: since i was 15 jamie: no i meant like. in years viola raises her eyebrows and jamies just like haha nevermind fuck

obsetress: she tried!

obsetress: she tried

em: jamie on her 35th birthday pencilling 'many happy returns' into violas ????th 35th birthday card

em: yknow i think

em: i think something's afoot

obsetress: jamie, giving up on the direct approach

obsetress: slipping in next to rebecca at the wine bar

obsetress: "becca"

obsetress: "hi, jamie" "hi. how old is your girlfriend"

em: am fucking losing it thinking abt jamie like. realising how much gay energy viola has

em: like taken ABACK

obsetress: fksljfLKSDJFLJ

obsetress: just like

obsetress: why are jamies reactions to viola so funny

obsetress: montage of jamie realizing how much gay energy viola has

obsetress: jamie watching viola sitting

obsetress: jamie watching viola pick up a variety of glasses and mugs

obsetress: jamie watching viola compare hand sizes with dani, jamie's girlfriend and viola's ex girlfriend who she dated for literal years and whose hand size she definitely already knows

em: NOT THE HAND SZIES

em: they go for a walk and viola immediately complains about the sun and jamie's like

em: i have a spare hat but ur not gonna like it

em: its a snapback that says daddy or smthn in gold, owen got it for jamie for her bday, jamie Loathes it

obsetress: BYE

obsetress: viola looks better in it than jamie does

em: jamie has that

em: am i attracted to viola? moment

em: it passses

em: she has already compartmentalised the weird psychosexual power play

em: queen of compartmentalising

obsetress: jamie: had another one of those moments today dani: what moments? jamie: where i thought i might be attracted to vi dani: well, you did let her fuck you... what was it, four? times in one night, so

em: jamie; yeah but like that aside

em: jamie 'thats neither here nor there' taylor

obsetress: she is the queen of compartmentalizing tho

em: i was gonna be like. 'jamies like wait i dont remember saying four' but. i think she would tell dani

em: because the flip of that is dani callin up vi n i dont think she would necessarily

obsetress: i think she would and dani would make her anyway

obsetress: well make her is harsh but

obsetress: dani would very curiously ask in very convincing ways

em: lovingly coax it out of her

em: dani: what if i fucked you four times in o

obsetress: dani: let me do five

em: viola probably wears so many rings jamie doesn’t even clock the ever present thumb ring

obsetress: jamie just. writes it all off

em: am laughing abt like. viola v meticulously taking off every single ring and putting it in its proper location before...

obsetress: there is something. so hot about that

obsetress: im gonna scream i think

em: i was just meming and now im thinking abt it and

em: truly played myself

em: actually this is me refusing to unpack whatever the hell theo crain gloves made me feel

obsetress: sdkfmsldjfa

obsetress: fair

em: sublimate it into rings

obsetress: i just like um

obsetress: thinkin about when she and dani are together and like

obsetress: it's intentional and everything has its place but vi also makes a show out of it

obsetress: and like

obsetress: she's SO painstaking about it and definitely makes dani wait a little bit and

em: helps dani outta her big ass earrings

em: i mean dani doesnt even Need the help

em: viola meticulous lloyd

em: i mean she just wears so much goddamn jewellry

obsetress: she can tell when dani's getting impatient and goes even slower

em: viola has like

em: viola is one of thos ppl thats really into expensive watches

obsetress: !!!!!!

obsetress: yeah

obsetress: nice lil canon nod too

em: she drags dani to antique auctions n danis like i cant. actually tell the difference between the real and the forgery and violas like (passionately explains it for like 30 minutes) and dani is

em: like shes mentally checked out but also v intensely watching violas hands as she points to the parts of the watch

em: rebecca gets it tho

em: rebecca Gets It

obsetress: dani shoving vi into the bathroom at the auction house and tugging vi's hand between her legs v rebecca grabbing her own auction paddle and bidding against viola for the same watch

obsetress: (rebecca n vi fuck in the car on the ride home)

em: dani grabs a paddle n mimes spanking viola n then the auctioneer is like '$250 to 201' and danis like aw Fcuk

em: violas like i cant take u Anywhere

obsetress: dani gives her the 🥺😌and viola's immediately over it and pulling out $250

obsetress: dani: i didn't even want it, i was just–– vi: i know dani: what am i even gonna do with a–– vi: i'll sell it for $500 at a private auction next week dani: so technically i'm making you money dani, grinning: it's like i'm your employee dani: do you have any more assignments for me, boss? vi: dani get your hand out of my pocket i need to focu––

[journal-kyanite]

Well, lion just said that we have to meet next week instead. I’m glad that he told me at a good time bc otherwise that’d suck.

I cannot say I am not disappointed bc ugh. I was so excited. I was preparing myself though, to not get let down, especially when he moved it to next week. A week before my bday.

This does give me more time to prepare, and talk with Nel and Cassie about the situation. I also have time to play Breath of the Wild and get deeper into Horizon to talk about it like it’s a book.

I can also read said novel I’m not far in yet, and I can overall read some other books (said library books) and journal some more ig in prep.

I can also really see if I wanna do the bf question thing. Ugh. I hate the fact that he’s an hour away, so close yet so far. I wonder if he would be willing to meet me I’m over summer half way after I get my license so we can hang out. This just makes me wanna get it even faster: that I’ll be able to hang out with the person everyone is telling me I have a crush on, even though I do keep denying it. Then we could hang out for an extra hour. I wonder if he would be willing to do something random like go to a bookstore or a small park and hang out. I def don’t wanna talk about bible stuff. That’d be bad.

Nel said yesterday that Nick was and has been staring at her and looking at her when she’s not looking, etc. that’s a mode of what happens when a person likes another but I gotta say, I don’t think he does but I do wonder what’s gonna happen. She’s leaving soon and it’s gonna hurt all of us. She has to briefly be in WP and then jam. But I’m just ughhhh.

Me Nel and jojo are all having not probs. Jojo has this crush on this one guy who has a gf and she doesn’t like the girl simply bc she wants the guy. The gf seems pretty normal which is really cool. Like, I wasn’t expecting that. The other guy keeps staring at her in a bad way, and he has a fiancé. I hope that my fiancé/husband won’t be like that, I hope he won’t be looking at other girls- especially I hope he doesn’t try to make me jealous to get my attn or anything like that. I also hope that if I have a bf and he wants to break up with me, that he will make me not like him so I break up with him instead, so it doesn’t hurt so much.

I hate this thing I have on lion. If we were to become more- whatever that means, I wouldn’t wanna lose him as a friend simply bc we break up. Like, I don’t wanna be not friends. That’d suck. But I also think it may not suck worse than never knowing what could happen bn us. Also, I doubt he thinks of me more than I think of him, which sucks but that’s okay. I do talk to him each day, I do lead the convo, but only bc I want to talk to him, and Nel basically said that’s a part of my character.

Ultimately, I think that only time can determine what happens, even if the chemistry and good times are there. I feel like a secret that he doesn’t even tell to the one I have yet to meet. I also wanna meet his gato. So bad. He’s so fluffy.

I miss himbs. Now it’s next week that I’ll see him. It I feel like someone waiting for their long lost love to come home from the war 🤦🏾‍♀️🙈

Anyway. Rn I’m watching Interstellar. I think it’s on my top movies list. I’m in love with it. Timothee is beautiful. Just saying. He was probably 16 in the movie. Ugh. So cute. I was also that age 🙈 this movie is so much fun. As in, there’s a lot of beauty in it. I wanna become a director just bc of Christopher Nolan’s creative genius. I wonder if I should do that.

🌸xoxo🌸

kyanite

[jigsisanalien]

i dont know what he expected from this...im so tired of this story to the point that honestly, why on earth i got along with those people for that long.

I dont want to repeat myself, im tired of this, not so such a long story short, ive tried to be friends with the dude, but even though he knew i had someone, he kept putting his hands on me (calling it being friendly), that was not acceptable specially when i was clearly uncomfortable and was trying to get away (grabbing by the ribs next to boob, rubbing the inner tight...). Even that, i kept trying to be his friend, he wasnt living in our country so that was doable. We planned a vacay to his country, but when my friend told me he was coming aswell, i was like, nope, im not about to sleep in the same room as him.

When he came back i tried to be his friend again(because he was in our group of friends), well, that didnt worked, soon he started to act like i was his gf, specially in front of our friends and HIS family, he wanted to bring me to his brothers house for dinner because his SIL wanted to meet me...why??? He used to put me against the wall, trying to know things “oh if youre not coming to meet me what are you going to do, so how was your nephew...” just shit like that, trying to caught me in a lie and shit, because i didnt wanted to meet him, then try to make me say yes to go with him, which i had to turn down at last minute because i honestly didnt felt comfortable in going.

I didnt want to be around him because he made me uncomfortable, he looked like a creep to me, and his actions showed just that, and the worst part was that he had our group of friends manipulating us, or at least me, and pushing him to do it, to get upon me, even after what he did last year, i felt so grossed out.

Our group went down while that and we started to talk again, we talk everything down like, everything, he was the first to tell me he liked me as a good friend and that he liked someone else, i though everything was done, but nope, he started to push the boundaries again, and being pushy to know about a dude that said by mistake, it was an hypotheses not for real, i was trying to make my other friend to stop putting us to as a couple, i felt disgusted just by listening to that, literaly i wanted to puke, he kept pushing me to say it, but i didnt budge and soon after i cut my communication again with him.

The thing is, is not just the creepy part of him, hes also a plain bread, his convos always lead to his family and shit, noticing that he never leaves the house, i get bored going out with him, he never gets along with nothing minimally fun, like at all, hes boring. Then theres the disgusting stories about how he fucked this and that, specially at work, and the way he tells them, like, only now he is telling them, nobody ever seen him with a girl, like ever, there was no way he would have time to do that, they all seem like a lie, but why he tell us that? Gross, i dont tell about the people i fuck to nobody.

Yet i kept going out with him because either it was our friends bday, or just a lunch, i kept my communications short aswell in person and i try not even to dress myself up as i usually do. Also, i never gave him a hint that i was interested, i think i did the other way around, yet he keeps pushing and pushing, seeing if i break. As a person i wouldnt be near interested in him, its already meh to be his friend, after all he did, no way in hell and dont even want to see his face.

So he had this girl he was trying with, tbh it all seemed like a made up shit just like he always did, specially the timing she appeared when i step away from him because everybody was telling stuff about him being too creep on me and that he liked me. A couple of weeks ago he stopped talking to my friend, she though it was odd, even after the second third, nothing, he just cut off, after a week he wanted to meet with her for lunch, yet he said nothing to her, he just said it was nothing about the girl, neither it was about me and my friend. We were confused, yet he stopped talking for a week again, i decided to text him too, but he only answer after a week saying that nothing was alright, asking how i was and if i could meet him, i didnt answer to him, hell no i was going to meet him alone, and why he wasnt telling her even tho he was going to cry to her, and why in the hell he was wanting to talk to me.

I told him i was busy, but maybe next week (or not), just didnt wanted to go. He once again stopped talking for days, he then asks again to go out with my friend for lunch...im starting to find it odd tbh. She told him out of the blue that i was in another city (the city of the person im with and like), and he started to be cold to her *rolls eyes*, actually i had to come early so i was able to go to the lunch, he didnt knew and saw me there. He tryed to make convo but i wasnt budging or shits. Then what happen was like...are you retarded? Anyway, my friend needed to go to a store, but only one person could enter, we were both outside, me seeing her looking around lost went to the other side to see her better and see if she saw me to help her, but she didnt, i tried to look around from that place for what she was looking for but didnt, i called my sister in the mean while, once i looked he was gone, i though he was sat somewhere, anyway, someone left the store and i went to see her. When we leave the store, we dont see him anywhere, she starts to call him, it rings and rings and nothing, he hangs up the call after 2min, then texts her saying he was outside...honestly i wouldnt be surprised that he went away. But why all of this crap, i was trying to help my friend not necessarily stay away from him, i think im an adult enough to deal with him, i dont need to ran away like he did.

Like my friend says also, hes 20yo, im almost 30, for crying out loud, he should be living his best years yet hes doing all of this crap...also, isnt he the one who talks how he fucks all of those girls and shit? Why cant he get one now then?

I honestly just want him to leave us two alone. We both tried to be his friend but hes impossible and i honestly will never forget the creepy part of him calling it “this is how i am friendly” mmh k, yes ill start to touch my friends dicks too from now on out of friendship.

[heartsoftruth]

bruna went back to brazil. coincidentally neymar is in the news with the courts again... just when i started hoping that this time around she'll support him,be there for him in hard times too. i feel sad and sorry for neymar he's in love with someone thats there for the fun but goes away when though times come. life's not only parties and expensive wine. as a fan, how can i muster support for their relationship and be happy for them if one is stupidly blind in love and the other so very selfish?

huh???? She went back?? whut?? Why? Brazilian media also thought she would stay until his bday and I kinda thought so too since it’s almost his bday! Im so confuseeeeeed. Can brumar ever not be confusing? XD 

I feel so bad all this footage and parts of his declaration was leaked... Poor Ney... MY poor little munchkin... 

Anonymous said:Rafa might not be crying every night into his pillow at the video but come on, he has to be a little upset! Like what the anon said, they're literally acting like kids with the whole 'I have a gf and you don't' thing. No ones saying that Rafa is on the verge of ending his friendship with Neymar but the video was SO childish. You could literally see the part where bruna points at Rafa as if to say "neymar make sure you record how lonely rafinha is! We're couple goals and he's alone lolololol" ugh

Exactly! It’s not the end of the world and with guys it’s probably less of a problem but if someone did that with me I would NOT be amused. Lemme tell you that haha.

Anonymous said:This is completely random but Rafinha looks sooooooo hot in all hot😩😍💘

SO HOT! And I hope he finally grows his hair again then he will be too hot to handle haha.

Anonymous said:Do you think Neymar would look cute with any other celeb aside from bruna? I think he'd be cute with Kendall, if she was shorter

Of course! He would look cute with many! I have to think about who, because i can't come up with names now haha. 

Anonymous said:I feel like Neymar is rushing this relationship like usually exes would start as friends but beh literally went from exes to I'm gonna engaged to you sometime within the next few months couple like wtf

Thats because they already have history so maybe thats why they skip a few phases haha. Let’s hope engagement etc isn't for a while tho. That would be too soon seeing how on and off they were in the past. Let them be steady for a year or 2 and then think about engagement (we already know they won't but ok xD)

Anonymous said:Bruna is literally a nobody in any country even Brazil. She's irrelevant and when she came to Spain and was in the airport WIH Neymar, she wasn't even recognized. People are saying it's because Neymar told her to stand far away so reporters wouldn't ask about their relationship, but if she was well known she would've been spotted

I dont think she’s a nobody in Brasil. I KNOW she isn't. But indeed here in Europe nobody cares about her thats true. Now they do bc she’s Ney’s girl, but it isn't like they would photograph her at the airport or be recognized much... She’s famous in Brazil but not that much outside of it. Anonymous said:Bruna fans who don't like Neymar call him a favela boy, like isn't that so rude?

That sounds rude AFFFFF to me. I havent seen that anywhere tbh, but they probably mean it in a rude way. 

Anonymous said:You know when people are like "Awww they're so cute I love them or they're goals" well I feel like barely anyone feels that way about brumar. They're literally a trophy couple. They're relationship is just for show and means nothing... To me at least bruna is so fake like she went from Neymar to marlon to Oliver to no one to Neymar

Hahah, go through the Brumar tag on Insta and you will see many people saying how cute they think they are. Or even from people on Twitter I think. I mean I dont have to see every move or everything they do, but if they wanna share that.. I mean its their lives not mine haha. 

Anonymous said:I love when you answer asks your replies are so interesting to read!!!!

Thank you!! 😊Anonymous said:Ney and Bruna are cute together (mostly cuz they're both cute themselves lol) but they don't look like they have any chemistry to me.. usually with couples in love you can see it but them.. I literally feel no romantic chemistry there even when they're kissing... they look more like friends...

I havent analyzed them that much tbh... I think they look cute together indeed. 

Anonymous said:I don't think Brumar is a PR stunt. They've been back together for months now and they only started posting stories together a few weeks ago. I genuinely think Neymar *feels he's mature enough* for a serious relationship now and is ready to settle down. Everyone around him is starting to settle down and start families, and I just think he wants that for himself at this point. We know Ney, he's always happy and smiling, but hasn't anyone noticed the 5% extra happiness recently? Idk just imo lol

I also dont think PR in football could be something. And I just won't believe Ney would ever do that... Could indeed be that he thinks he needs to settle down now that hes a certain age. 

[beach-fairy]

i was gonna meet a friend in the city for lunch today but she cancelled coz she wanted to work and its ok coz she cant work next week so she wants to make as much as she can now but it is nice outside and i was planning on fixing my yellow dress to wear and putting on make up but now all i got is a doctors appointment:( 4 buses and 2 trains today plus a lot of waiting around. i sent my sister a message to meet up soon i feel like a burden but i haven't seen her in a long time and i just added a lot of hearts and smiley faces to the message to seem as relaxed as possible but maybe tooo many and i came across as creepy idk:( if i could be friends with joel id hang out with him but he is probably busy with his new gf but i want him to be happy so its ok i guess:( ill just work on this sewing thing im making for my sisters bday on sunday the sister who i think just finds me annoying also i think i lost a lot of the thread for it if thats the case then i won't make her present tonight at least i had a bad sleep last night and the night before so ill be asleep early tonight im so... complainy maybe i will go to the shops after the doctors and buy some dumplings for dinner thats like a lot of waiting around tho then i can get my old roommates bday present too the one who for months i thought hated me and now i still cant be too sure:)