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areyouwho-ithinkyouare · 1 year ago

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it does break my heart a little bit when i think about how i absolutely would have stuck with/pursued ice skating (at least as a hobby) if my feet hadn’t been so fucked up that i’d realistically have needed custom skates that my family could never ever have afforded. especially when i was a kid and learning and growing so those skates would have needed replacing way more regularly. like. yeah i skated in generic boots yeah it was FINE but the structural state of my feet meant that doing much more than waltz jumps was always gonna be too unsafe & unreliable. so i kinda just faded out of the rink bcus it was like. well. shit i’m never really gonna progress at this thing that i love. and now i’m in my mid 20s and maybe (???) gonna need SURGERY to fix the exact same fucking foot issues that have continued to plague me ever since. and i’m just. thinking a lot about all the ways this has impacted me and my life. and i think that losing skating was maybe the one i’m saddest about.

#obviously i still enjoy it as like. a sport and an art form to spectate.#but participating??? yeah. lost that.#maybe one day if i can actually get my feet fixed i’ll start going to the rink again #but i’ll still never be able to commit to it the way i might have done when i was a kid.#and all that time has been taken away by some shitty genetics that messed up my bones #like. lmao IF i need this surgery by the time i actually get it done and then by the time i’ve healed enough to skate…..#my fucking inherited arthritis will be really starting to amp up and i’ll be looking towards hip replacements #like ok cool the universe gave me a love for ice skating and then put every possible road block in the way of me ever actually DOING it

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