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#my friends will hear about this for... oh until it comes out
izzyy-stuff · 3 days
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GIRL FRIEND - CHOI SOOBIN
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bf!soobin x fem!reader
in which your relationship with your boyfriend starts breaking into pieces as his girl best friend tries to get between the two of you, and for the first time in your relationship with Soobin, you start feeling insecure.
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warnings angst, pet names, established relationship, featuring an oc Amy as Yeonjun's girlfriend and oc Dae as Beomgyu's girlfriend, soobin has a female friend called Micha, Soobin does mess up a lot, kinda misunderstanding ig(??), there's a few (a lot) texting parts but I was too lazy to make an actual fake text so hopefully it's not unreadable
↪ izzy speaks... rewrote one of my old fics again so if you feel like you've seen this before on a different app, it's from my wattpad acc. I wanted to give you guys something to read while I work on other stories so you don't have to wait too long, so here it is :))
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You had been sitting in the restaurant for more than twenty minutes already, trying to decide if you should leave and cry yourself to sleep or call him. Honestly, the first option sounded better. You didn’t even want to hear from him anymore. 
Still, you found the courage and unlocked your phone, opening your contacts. You called once. No response. You called for the second time, letting it ring longer. Still, no response. You could feel the anxiety building up as the phone call went into the mailbox, your boyfriend’s voice echoing in your ear as the pre-recorded line told you to leave a message, promising something about him trying to reach back to you soon. 
Your mind was a mess. Did something happen to him? Was he okay? Should you call the hospital and ask if he wasn’t there? Or was he completely okay and just decided to ignore you? 
While your mind was full of thoughts, your phone buzzed with a few new messages, making you come back to reality. 
Soobie boobie luvie <3  [ 19:46 ]
Soobie boobie luvie <3 Hii baby, what’s up??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am sorry, I can’t pick up the phone rn  [ you ] Oh  [ you ] What are you doing?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am with Mi  you Micha?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Mhmm  Soobie boobie luvie <3 She and her boyfriend had an argument  Soobie boobie luvie <3 So she asked if she could come hang out for a bit  Soobie boobie luvie <3 We’re rewatching jjk  [ you ] Oh Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love are u okay?  [ you ] Yeah sure  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You don’t sound too fine  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Do you want to come here too?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You could sleep over Soobie boobie luvie <3 I have cookies  [ you ] No, I'm good [ you ] Have fun :))  [ you ] I think I might ask Yeonjun or Beomgyu to hang out  [ you ] Maybe they could come to my fav onigiri place with me Soobie boobie luvie <3 Sure <3  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Call me later?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I love you lots    [ you ] Mhmm
bestiesss <3  [ 20:12 ]
[ you ] Is anyone free rn? [ you ] Please [ you ] Or I might cry [ you ] For the plot ofc ✌️😙 Jjunnie Girl are you good?? Kaikai What’s going on?? Ams Babes why are we crying Jjunnie Where are you?  Jjunnie At least turn on your location so I can come pick u up with Amy [ you ] You don’t need to pick me up [ you ] I just want to hang out withsomeone  Gyu (rat) Can’t text Soobin??  [ you ] He might or might not be the reason why I want to cry so no  Ams What did he do Imma beat him up [ you ] You don’t need to haha [ you ] Enjoy your night with Yeonjun :)) [ you ] Kai, are you free?? Kaikai Yeah sure I can be whenever soon Gyu (rat) I am coming too 😙😙 Gyu (rat) To annoy the shit out of you and makeyou laugh <3 [ you ] Love you guys <333
It took less than ten minutes for the two boys to come into the onigiri place. Good thing they were open until nine. You smiled, moving your stuff away from the chair beside you so they could sit down comfortably. 
“Okay, girl, give me the gossip,” Beomgyu proclaimed immediately as he slid into the chair next to you. Kai simply sat on the opposite side, his eyes as curious as Beomgyu’s. You sighed, taking out your phone again. “Just look at it. I’m going to order another piece to make myself at least a little happy,” you proclaimed, trying to sound as jokingly as possible, but you knew you weren’t doing the best job. You opened the chat for them before standing up from your chair, smiling at them once more to assure them you were fine when you saw the look on their faces. “Wait, put it on my card,” Huening proclaimed, reaching into his pocket for his wallet. “You don’t need to,” you shook your head, but before you could even blink, you had his card in front of you. 
“Aww, you love me!” Beomgyu exclaimed as if he were alone in the shop. You hit his shoulder immediately. “That’s what you got from the conversation?” 
“Well, I just saw that you want to hang out with me, so of course,” he grinned proudly, making you roll your eyes. “I am sorry,” Kai said, pity in his voice. “It’s all good. You guys are here now instead,” you smiled, trying to make it as genuine as possible. 
“Okay, but on a serious note–” Beomgyu started again, making you raise your eyebrow. Those were words you couldn't ever imagine coming from his mouth. “Shut up,” he glared at you before you could say anything about it. He knew exactly what you were thinking. “I knew he was an idiot, but this is another level of idiot. You even mentioned this place in the texts. He could have figured it out. I don’t know. I wouldn’t ditch my girl for a different hoe,” he said proudly. 
“You don’t need to talk about how great of a boyfriend Dae has again,” Kai stopped him before he could open his mouth again. “Just saying,” Gyu shrugged. 
“Yeah, I wouldn’t ditch him either,” you mumbled, taking a bite of your new onigiri. “Why don’t you just text him you had plans? Maybe he would come after all,” Huening suggested, but Beomgyu simply shook his head, deciding to answer instead. “Why would she want a boy who needs to hear he shouldn’t hang out with a different girl when they have plans.” 
“Exactly,” you nodded. “And he is already with her. What would he do? Kick her out? I don’t think so.” 
“I am going to text him,” Beomgyu stated suddenly, making both you and Kai look his way, your eyes widening. “Don’t, oh my fucking god.” 
“No, trust me. I’ll either prove that he is an absolute asshole or you’ll get your date.” 
“I don’t think that’s a good idea–” Huening tried to stop him, but when he saw Beomgyu already taking out his phone, he just sighed, exchanging a glance with you. 
Soob :]   [ 20:37 ]
Gyu :] Dude what are you doing  Gyu :] And omfg you better not bring up fucking Micha again   Soob :] Okay hello to you too??  Soob :] Since when do you have a problem with her??  Gyu :] Since like now  Gyu :] Why am I the one hanging out with your GIRLFRIEND instead of you?? Soob :] She said she wanted to hang out with you what are you talking about  Soob :] I told her she could come to my place and sleep here  Gyu :] Just stop talking and come here  Gyu :] shared location Soob :] I am with Micha rn tho  Gyu :] Is she more important than your girlfriend??  Soob :] No??  Gyu :] Then get your ass here  Soob :] I can’t just leave her here  Soob :] And you’re with her right now  Soob :] You can still drop her off at mine when you guys are done talking though??  Gyu :] Omfg you really are an ass  Soob :] What did I do??? 
“Okay so we came to the conclusion that he is an ass,” Gyu sighed, dropping his phone on the table, getting a headache from him. It didn’t matter to him that Soobin was his best friend. If he was being stupid, Beomgyu wasn’t going to be on his side. Especially when he knew his girlfriend didn’t deserve it at all. 
“Whatever,” you sighed, not even daring to raise your head and face any of the two. “Do you want to go buy a chocolate? Or ice cream?” Kai suggested, feeling sorry for you. “No, I'm good. Can anyone drop me off, though? I took a taxi here because I thought he would take me back later.” 
“I got it,” Beomgyu proclaimed, glancing over at Kai. “Want me to drop you off at Amy’s?” 
“No, no, I am just going to go home. She’s with Yeonjun anyway.” 
The three of you sat in silence the whole car ride. Even Beomgyu, who went there with the thought of cheering you up, was too scared to say anything. He was worried his jokes could make you feel even worse. 
You hugged Kai goodbye as you stepped out of the car, smiling at them and thanking them for coming to see you. But your smile dropped the second you heard the car driving off, feeling your eyes watering. You didn’t want to cry. It was just a stupid date, after all. But you couldn’t stop your tears, no matter how much you tried. 
You quickly wiped your tears off, looking at your phone again, deciding to call him. 
“Hey, love,” he greeted you immediately, and you could hear the smile on his face as he said it. You smiled a bit, too, greeting him back. “Are you still with Micha?” You asked, unlocking the front door of your apartment. “She left a few minutes ago,” he answered. “Are you coming home now? Can I come by? I want to see you.” 
You thought for a while, closing the door behind yourself. “I am kinda tired. Maybe tomorrow?” You suggested, dropping off your coat in the hallway and going straight into your room. “Ah, sorry, I already promised Micha we would hang out, and before that, I have work. I can come sometime after dinner, though? We could watch something.” 
“Right,” you mumbled, putting the phone on speaker and throwing it onto your bed so you could get changed into your pajamas. “We’ll see, I guess.” 
“Hey, Soobin,” you started again, making him freeze for a moment when he heard his first name. It might have been the first time he heard you call him Soobin since the day he asked you to be his girlfriend. He was always Soob, or Soobie, not Soobin. “I’m going to sleep now, but can you check our shared calendar later?” 
“Mhm, of course,” he nodded, still trying to figure out what he did for you to call him Soobin. “Good night, baby. I love you.” 
“I love you too,” you said, hanging up right after. You jumped into your bed, staring at the ceiling for a while, sorting all your thoughts. Eventually, when you saw Soobin blowing up your phone, you turned it off, getting up again to do your hygiene before going to bed. 
Soobie boobie luvie <3  [ 21:24 ]
Soobie boobie luvie <3 BABY I AM SO SORRY  Soobie boobie luvie <3 PLEASE  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I know I fucked up Soobie boobie luvie <3 I should have remembered  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Oh god I should have come right away when you called me  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I am so so so sorry  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please answer :(  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll come over, what do you think? Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please love  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I swear I didn’t mean to  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I can tell Micha we can’t hang out tomorrow and take you out instead
Soobie boobie luvie <3  [ 07:56 ]
Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love :((  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Please answer me  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I want to talk to you  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I can come on my lunch break  [ you ] Soobie it’s fine  [ you ] I made plans with Amy after our call last night so you don’t have to cancel any of your plans  [ you ] We can just see each other later :)  Soobie boobie luvie <3 It’s not fine at all though  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll come by on my lunch break, yea?  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I’ll get you flowers  Soobie boobie luvie <3 And something good to eat too Soobie boobie luvie <3 I swear I am never going to forget about our date again alright?  [ you ] Okay :))  [ you ] I love you soob <3  Soobie boobie luvie <3 I love you too my love
♡⸝⸝
bestiesss <3  [ 17:45 ]
Ams Never  Ams And I mean NEVER  Ams Trust a man  Jjunnie HEY  Ams You’re a liar too so shush  Jjunnie :(((  [ you ] I just don’t get it [ you ] Am I not enough anymore?? Ams That’s it I am coming to beat his ass  Gyu (rat) Can I watch  Dae<3 Boi  Gyu (rat) Yes my love 😍  [ you ] Fuck you :((  Gyu (rat) Hey I didn’t do anything  [ you ] You don’t act like that with her when I am not around [ you ] You just want to rub it in my face :(  Dae<3 Actually he does act like that nonstop  Dae<3 But hey that’s just because he is a weirdo so don’t mind him  [ you ] Okay great now she’s on his story  Jjunnie Wtfff  Jjunnie I should kick his ass too  Jjunnie Why the hell is he with her again
unknown  [ 17:54 ]
unknown Heyy girlieee  unknown Micha here :))  unknown I am with Soob right now and I saw him trying to call you so I am just reaching out because he looks really sad  unknown I don’t know exactly what you did to him but maybe next time think about him too yeah?  unknown He wanted to ask you to join us but I don’t think that’s a good idea  unknown After you’ve been so bitchy and you know  unknown He told me before that he couldn’t see me because of you?? Like that’s some mad controlling behavior  unknown Good thing I can just cry a bit and he comes running to me  unknown Anyway, there is no need to come here  unknown We are having a great time without you
bestiesss <3  [ 17:58 ]
[ you ] Okay stop she is texting me now Gyu (rat) Hope she khs 😙  Dae<3 GYU  Gyu (rat) I wish her the worst <3  Ams Give me her number ASAP  Jjunnie Alright now she pissed of Amy Jjunnie she really is getting the worst
Soobie boobie luvie <3  [ 18:04 ]
[ you ] Soobin I can’t anymore Soobie boobie luvie <3 Wdym??  [ you ] This  [ you ] You can’t even type it out anymore??  [ you ] And her  [ you ] Why are you bowling with Micha when we were supposed to go out today??  [ you ] When you texted me it was an emergency and that you couldn’t make it today I thought something bad happened but turns out you just want to be with a different girl  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Love it’s not like that  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You know she is just a friend  [ you ] Is she??  [ you ] Why does she get to see you more often than I do then??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Come on you’re overreacting now  [ you ] Am I??  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Baby just… Soobie boobie luvie <3 Wait a bit  Soobie boobie luvie <3 We’ll be done soon and I'll come to see you so we can talk about this okay?  [ you ] No not okay  [ you ] Remember when you told me you felt insecure about my relationship with Ryan before you found out he is gay?? I feel the exact same way  [ you ] But you don’t listen to me at all  [ you ] Last week I asked you not to go to lunch with her but you went anyway  [ you ] Then I wanted to come over  [ you ] But you were too busy listening to her troubles  [ you ] And now you are ditching me for her again  Soobie boobie luvie <3 Baby it’s different  Soobie boobie luvie <3 You would listen to Amy too if she got into an argument with Yeonjun  [ you ] I wouldn’t lie to you about it tho??  [ you ] And definitely wouldn’t go if I knew it made you uncomfy  [ you ] Soobin this is not the first time I’m bringing it up to you  [ you ] And respectfully tell her to stop fucking texting me or I’ll be rude  [ you ] She has no right to talk to me about my relationship 
Soobin glanced over from his phone at the girl in front of him. She was laughing at how badly she threw the bowling ball before she looked at him again, telling him it was his turn. “Did you text my girlfriend?” He asked, her smile suddenly dropping. “Well, yeah,” she shrugged. “You’ve been looking like someone died this whole time, so I just let her know you called. And that if she doesn’t want to show up, it’s fine, too, since we are having so much fun.” 
“Mi, this is none of your business,” he proclaimed, his voice suddenly stronger than she ever felt, angrier. She gulped, her whole body tensing from nervousness. “I’ve been sad the whole day because I miss my girlfriend. Which, by the way, is kind of your fault.” 
“I’m…sorry?” 
“Whatever,” he sighed, his fingers running through his hair. “You feel all better now, no? I need to go see her now.” 
“Wait– but what about–” she tried to stop him, even grabbing the hem of his shirt, but he just shook her off. “We are not like that, Micha. Do not touch me ever again.” 
“But I thought…” she started, letting go of his shirt when she saw the look in his eyes. She fucked up. “You were so nice to me. And that night when my boyfriend broke up with me, you–” 
“I hugged you. Like any friend would. It was nothing more than that and never will,” he interrupted her. “For fucks sake, I have a girl who I love with my whole heart, what were you even thinking??” 
“I don’t know! Maybe that you were having a hard time too when you were with me so much! I thought you liked me!” 
“Well, I don’t.” 
She stared at him for a while, trying to reach for his hand but he dodged her, not even looking back and walked away, leaving the bowling alley soon after when he grabbed his stuff. 
“You should not be calling me right now. I am on your girlfriend’s side in this,” Yeonjun proclaimed when he picked up Soobin’s call. “I know, I know, I’m team girlfriend, too. Always. So please, help me not lose her while I can still save it.” Yeonjun sighed. “Alright, what is your plan?” 
♡⸝⸝ 
It might have been the worst night you ever had. Tightly holding onto your pillow, your back against the wooden headboard, with a box of ice cream on your night table as you let tears run down your face, you couldn’t even think properly. Your mind was full of the happy moments you had spent with your boyfriend, making you smile, until you remembered how he laughed with Micha. You felt terrible. Terrible for not seeing it sooner, and for being so delusional and thinking his eyes were on you only. 
You didn’t even notice the night turn into another day as you sat on your bed. But as you saw the light peeking through your window, you knew it was time to come back to the real world. You had work to attend. You still had your daily life to live. 
So, in order to concentrate and do that, you decided it was for the best to ignore all his calls. 
You never hung up on him. You waited till it stopped ringing, watching his contact name disappear again as a new voicemail popped up on your screen. You didn’t open any of his messages, turning your phone off for the rest of the day when he started spamming you with texts during your meeting. 
It was for the best to ignore him. 
You tried to convince yourself, but every time you had a free minute at work, your eyes wandered to your phone, wishing for his name to pop up on your screen again. 
You needed to do something. Yell at him, cry, or even just hug him. 
But it felt like it was too late for that now. 
As if you had fucked up everything you could. 
♡⸝⸝ 
You sat on your bed again, scrolling through e-shops while waiting for Yeonjun to come over. He called you not so long ago, saying he was taking you out. You tried to refuse at first, but he wasn’t giving up, so it was eventually you who gave in. You haven't heard anything from Soobin since the afternoon, and honestly, it was stressing you out. You really needed Yeonjun to come and get your mind somewhere else. Somewhere where you wouldn’t need to think about the handsome giant Soobin was. 
But Yeonjun thought differently. 
“Where are we going?” You wondered, looking out of the car’s window. “Coffee shop,” he finally admitted, stopping at the red light in front of him. Your eyes widened as you looked at him. “You’re taking me to get coffee? Stop, I love you.” He laughed, shaking his head at you. 
Yeonjun parked his car in front of his favorite café, getting out of the car first so he could help you out. You simply smiled at him when he opened the door for you, jumping out of the car and looking around the place. You thought you tried out every café shop possible already, but turns out this one was still an exception. 
“Thank you. For everything,” you smiled at him as he locked the car’s door. “No need,” he shook his head. “Go inside and order something nice. I am going to call Amy real quick, okay?” You nodded to him, not saying anything else, and simply walked into the café. 
That was when you saw him in the corner, a cup of coffee already in front of him. You sighed, glancing outside at Yeonjun, who was mounting for you to join him there. You took a deep breath before turning around again and walking towards the table of two the black-haired boy occupied. 
“Hey,” you smiled a bit, catching his attention immediately. 
“Hey, love,” he smiled, his smile making you melt almost immediately. He moved the cup of iced coffee closer to you as you sat down before glancing at Yeonjun outside, exchanging some looks with him. 
“What’s this?” You asked, taking the cup of coffee and taking a sip right away. 
“I needed to see you,” he proclaimed. “Soobin,” you breathed out, the nervousness in him building up with each second. “Wait, let me talk first, please.” You calmly nodded to him, shifting in your place to sit more comfortably. “You can scream at me all you want after or do whatever you feel like in the moment, but let me just say a few things first.” 
“So, first of all, I blocked her. Everywhere. And I know it doesn’t apologize for anything I did until now, but I wanted you to know. She said something about thinking we were more than just friends earlier, so I turned her down immediately. I told her not to get close to me again and that I love you. I am so sorry for not seeing it before and doing things I shouldn’t. I wish I could change everything. I never wanted to make you uncomfortable and make you feel like I did. I just…, I don’t know,” he breathed out. 
“I don’t have any excuses. I know I behaved like an absolute asshole, and you have all rights to be mad at me and even break up with me if that’s what you want to do, but I hope you don’t because I have no idea what I’d do without you,” Soobin started talking faster and faster, making it almost impossible for you to understand what he was saying. Yet, you found your lips curving into a smile as you listened to his chaotic yap. 
You sat silently during his speech and even a bit after he finished, eventually reaching for his hand on the table. “I don’t want to break up with you,” you assured him. “I just…I don’t know either, if I am honest,” you sighed. “I am glad you cut her off, though. I don’t want to sound like I don’t want you to have friends. That’s not it at all, but I simply… felt so insecure when I saw you two together,” you admitted. “I felt like I wasn’t enough,” you whispered. 
“Love, you are more than I deserve,” he assured you. “I promise I won't ever make you feel like that again. And if I do, for whatever reason, tell me immediately, and I will do everything I can to change it. Nothing is more important to me than making you comfortable.” 
“Okay,” you nodded, smiling. “Let’s just go home now, please,” he said, squeezing your hand in his. “Let’s do that,” you agreed, standing up from your place and leaning towards him. 
In that moment, with your hands intertwined and your lips gently pressed on his, you felt like the whole world stopped spinning for a moment. As if it was just the two of you in the café, both nineteen again, as you kissed for the first time, confessing your love to each other. His kiss made you forget about everything bad that ever happened between you, leaving only the happy memories. 
“Let’s go home, Soobie,” you mumbled against his lips, smiling as he breathed out in relief. Only then did you realize it was always you and your boyfriend against the world until the very end.
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Honestly if I was batsis I'd pretend to have a crush on the batboys close friends(excluding Damian because he and Jon are still babies) just to annoy them. Jason bring Roy over? Suddenly I'm very interested in his tattoo's and I want to know all about archery. I catch kon in the kitchen in Tim? Suddenly i'm very into the conversation they're having and am making eye contact a lot with Kon. I feel liked they'd do something like this; Batsis: You know I really like your tattoos. Roy: Oh thanks. Jason: ... You gotta go, like, now. Roy: What-
Brilliant, anon!! What a great idea!! This was very fun to write :)
(don't mind the spelling mistakes please lol. i am tired out of my mind)
For starters, when Bruce first introduced the members of the Justice League to you (it took a lot of convincing), you just couldn’t help but flirt with them.
I mean, just LOOK at Aquaman. The moment you laid your eyes on him, you felt a spark. He hadn’t noticed you staring, but surely he had felt it too. Bruce, however, had noticed you staring. He didn’t seem particularly amused, almost as though he saw you daydreaming about your wedding with Aquaman. Just when you were making your way over to them, Bruce scowled and swiftly led Aquaman away. After that, you never saw him ever again…
Or that one time when Green Lantern came over. Wow. What a man. You didn’t waste a second walking up to him and introducing yourself. The giggles you were suppressing nearly slipped out after you saw Bruce’s eye twitch. Green Lantern entertained your advances, though you knew he wasn’t interested in you. Whenever Bruce started with his, “Hal. We should leave”, you would always interrupt him with more questions directed at Hal.
“So…do you like pasta? I’m actually really good at making it. You should come over, you know? I could treat you!” You all but winked at him.
Hal found it very interesting, don’t get him wrong, he thought you were very funny, but when Bruce is standing right there beside him, he felt…intimidated. So intimidated, in fact, that he can barely reply to your questions.
“Oh…um…” he nervously glanced at Bruce. “Green. You know what, kid? Your father and I have some business to attend to…so…see you next time. Good luck with the um…yeah, never mind.”
Hal sped off, leaving you and Bruce alone. You had been in the mood to laugh until your father turned to you with a serious expression. Suddenly you weren’t in the mood to laugh anymore. To put it simply, it was a clear warning: Don’t do it again, his look communicated.
Now, Constantine, he was fun to hang around with, likely because he isn’t as scared of Batman as the rest is. And also, he’s hot. “You are so cool, honestly. It’s really impressive how often you’ve escaped death”, you leaned against the wall. To be honest, you weren’t even listening to what he was saying, all you needed to hear was his strong English accent and little sprinkles of humor.
After some bribery, you had gotten Tim to tell you that Bruce was most concerned about you meeting Constantine. For some reason, you figured…
“So…I like older men, what about you?”, you batted your eyelashes at him. You didn’t have Bruce in your periphery, as you were focusing on John, but you could imagine him shaking in fury.
“Yeah, I like older men too”, he replied nonchalantly. Dammit, he got you. Well, he was a funny guy.
Bruce seemingly relaxed at that, but that’s not to say that he was satisfied with the interaction taking place. “You’re funny, are you single-”, you could barely finish your sentence before Dick dragged you away to spend time with you. Though, you believe that Bruce asked Dick to get you away just so you couldn’t talk to Constantine like that.
Bruce had way too many attractive friends. Well, almost all his friends were attractive: Wonder Woman, Superman, Flash…hell, even Martian Manhunter. I mean, he can read minds! Just imagine the potential…
“So, I heard you can read minds. Read mine right now”, your grin was…suspicious. Bruce couldn’t read minds like J’onn could, but he could imagine what you were thinking about. No, actually, he didn’t want to imagine it.
“J’onn.”, Bruce, ever so stern, called out and gestured towards the door. The J’onn in question had merely walked off in that direction silently, as though having understood Bruce’s point from one word. Martian Manhunter hadn’t read your mind that day, to your dismay. However, you had managed to make Bruce uncomfortable, so that was considered a win.
Dick himself had very attractive friends. Wally West, quite the flirt, was among them. Though, oddly enough, you had imagined him to be more flirty. It couldn’t be that Dick took a page out of Bruce’s book and told him to watch it, right?
“So, you’re fast, huh?”, you looked Wally up and down. “I happen to be”, Wally glanced at Dick.
“Okaayyyyy, Wally, you should leave”, Dick spoke with a strained smile.
“Yeah. Oh, by the way, what about the-”
“Now.”
Wally looked around awkwardly, “…right.”
And Raven—what a woman. Plus, Cyborg and Starfire filled your thoughts. Though Wally was the first and last friend of Dick’s you ever saw. A pity. He seemed to have learnt his lesson…
Now Roy Harper, Jason’s friend, was quite something. Tattoos? Archery? Hell yeah.
“Wow, so you like engineering books? Well, the manor has a huge variety. You should come by more often”, you smiled innocently.
“Um, actually, he will NOT be coming over ever again”, Jason frowned at your words.
“Why not?”, both you and Roy turned to Jason.
“BECAUSE I said so”, you and Roy made eye contact awkwardly.
“You”, Jason points at Roy, “Get out.”
“What? But you said you needed my he-”
“NOWWWW. Do NOT make me repeat myself.”
Yeah, Roy leaving was more awkward than anything else that had happened so far.
Jason didn’t have that many friends, as far as you knew at least. In other words: You would never see Roy ever again…
Now Tim, being charming himself, had many attractive friends.
For starters: Conner Kent.
You hadn’t had much contact with the Kents, however Conner had come over a few times. And wow. Despite being overly confident (and often obnoxious), he was very, very attractive. However, you have never talked to him. The reason? Tim makes sure he keeps you at arm’s length. In fact, you’re not sure you could ever find a way to interract with Tim’s friends…unless…
“Hey, Tim!”, Jason called out, “Bruce says you need to go to the cave right now.”
“What? But I have guests over…”, Tim eyes Jason suspiciously.
“I mean, if you wanna get in trouble with him, be my guest”, Jay raised his hands defensively.
“I-…fine. Conner, just a second, I will be right back. DO NOT move”, Tim sighs.
After Tim left, you shot Jason a thumbs-up and went to mingle with Superboy.
“Good evening. You must be Conner. I’ve heard a lot about you from Tim”, you say, taking it slow.
“Good evening! Hopefully you only heard good things!”, he grins.
“Oh, plenty of good things. Say, if you really can fly, then why don’t you take me for a ride? I haven’t ever seen the sky from…well, up in the sky”, you copied his grin.
“Ah, well, I would, really, but I’m not sure how Tim would feel, you know? I mean, he’s a bit of a-”, Conner started.
“A bit of a what.”, a new voice shocked the both of you.
Tim. Where the hell did he come from?
“I though I told you to leave if they started talking to you?”, Tim ignored you, only focusing on scolding Conner.
“Well, that would’ve been incredibly rude…”, Conner struggled to defend himself.
“You.”, Tim turns to you.
“Me?”, you said, though you weren’t scared of him anymore.
“Yes, you. What’s the big idea? Why did you pull that just to talk to Conner? I don’t know what you have planned, but forget it immediately. If you don’t leave right now, I’ll tell Bruce to reinstate the therapy sessions. Then you can explain to him why you enjoy sabotaging others so much.”
That was, quite frankly, terrifying. You hadn’t been this scared of Tim in a while.
Well, safe to say you won’t be doing this again…
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Barely Human Cap
Imagine Cap as more dollish than human. Even though he’s supposed to be extremely durable/bulletproof, I think he could take major injuries and brush them off. Like at most, it’ll slow him down a bit, but he’ll just go back to fighting. And the reason for think would be that he can’t feel pain. Hence, the whole doll thing. Like, I can imagine the JL is fighting this super strong and powerful monster or villain that’s even giving the powerhouses of the league trouble. They then have to witness Marvel get hit really hard and go flying. Let’s say Flash runs over to see if he’s alright and sees that Marvel’s entire lower jaw is just gone. One of his eyes is also popped out of the socket and he’s kinda just laying there so Flash, rightfully so, thinks he’s dead. That is until Billy moves and tries to pop his eye back into its socket. He succeeds but not to the horror of Flash. He then casually gets up, even brushes off his cape, and starts to look for his jaw. He then finds it and throws it into a pocket dimension all while Barry watches. Then, when the speedster finally snaps out of his daze he immediately rushes over to Marvel and starts bombarding him with questions as if the champion could answer. Thankfully for Billy, an explosion in the distance helps them remember there’s still a super difficult fight going on so he flies off back to the fight. He horrified the other members of the league during this too.
I also feel like there would be other things. (which might or might not actually be canon) Like, I don’t think Marvel has reproductive organs. And I think Billy would say something like this if the situation ever came down to it:
Superman: “Your tiger isn’t neutered?”
Marvel: “No? Why would he be? Also, he’s not my tiger. He’s just a tiger. That happens to be one of my bestest friends.”
Superman: *doesn’t really know what to say to the last three sentences.* “Right… Well, what if he, y’knows another tiger?”
Marvel: “Then he y’knows her. Trust me when I say getting neutered sucks. I know from personal experience.” (He doesn’t, he just knows his Captain Marvel form doesn’t have anything in the lower regions.)
Green Lantern: “You know from personal experience…?” *He looks horrified.*
Marvel: “Yeah, I do.” (Again, he doesn’t) “One day, the wizard called me in and was like, ‘Marvel, come here.’ So I did. Then, he waved his hand, and everything down under was just gone. That was like ten thousand years ago, but it’s still fresh in my mind.” (He made that up as he went)
Flash: “You… You poor soul.” *Pats Cap’s shoulder.*
I also wouldn’t be surprised if Marvel doesn’t have organs in the first place. Like I can see Clark getting constantly jumpscared by Marvel because the man doesn’t need to breathe, no lungs, he doesn’t have a heartbeat, no heart, and Clark can’t even hear muscles straining as he moves so that suggests he doesn’t have muscles too.
I can also see Billy using this to blatantly lie to press whenever they ask about his dating life (he’s like twelve, he doesn’t have nor want one.) or literally anything else:
Reporter: “Captain!” *Runs over to Billy, camera crew following behind her.*
Marvel: *Stops* “Yes?” *Looks between reporter and camera.*
Reporter: “Could we interview you for a few moments?”
Marvel: “Oh uh- Sure!” *Gives a thumbs up*
Reporter: *Gives cue to camera guy to start rolling* “Alright, so are there any lucky ladies in your life?”
Marvel: “Hm?” *Makes the most confused face and looks around to the aftermath of a battle between Black Adam and him. That was what he expected her to ask about.* “I didn’t catch that.”
Reporter: “Are there any lucky ladies in your life? You’re quite a handsome man, Captain. I’m sure you’ve had your share of women.”
Marvel: *Stares at the reporter for a few seconds with that blank, computing expression.* “Uh… no?” Think, Billy! Think! What can you say to end this fast? “I can’t feel romantic feelings for anyone.”
Reporter: “Can you elaborate?” *Holds mic up to his face.*
Marvel: *thinking of how he can make this make sense* “Well, you see I… don’t have a brain! So I’m not really able to feel things like that.”
Reporter: “ -Oh. Uhm.” *Shocked and looking to the camera man before looking back at Marvel.* “Well—”
Marvel: *Cuts her off* “Okay, bye!” *Flies off fast.*
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ohtobeleah · 18 hours
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Day One: [My Lover, My Hero]
Summary: After a nasty break-up with your Ex, Rhett, he comes to your rescue when two burly patrons don’t take no for an answer.
Warnings: Sexual Assault, Physical Assault, Deception, Rhett Abbott x F!reader. Mentions of Sex. Betrayal. Public Torture/Public Use, Stressful Position.
Whumptober Prompt Day One: Public Torture/Public Use, Stress Sosition, “If you cry, we’ll go easy on you.”
Word Count: 1.4k
Author Note: Please make sure you read the warnings provided. Disclaimer: I do not condone nor endorse the actions that are written about during the month of October. These works of fiction are just that, fiction and should be treated as such. Thank you to @ailesswhumptober for this year's prompt list.
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You knew what the whole town thought of you. It wasn’t something people turned their heads and whispered about. If it was a quiet night, sometimes, a drunk or two would tell you right to your face. 
You couldn’t say the rumours weren’t true to some extent. They were, without fail, exaggerated beyond belief. But in small country towns like Wabang, the town gossip was mostly mundane and lightweight. People can’t help but be noisy, it’s in our inherent nature to want to know things that have nothing to do with us. They couldn’t help but talk about the breakup, and how ever since, you’d been letting anyone you could stand to be with, bury themselves inside you just to numb the pain. 
The pain of losing Rhett in a stupid argument about the Rodeo life. How it would someday kill him before he had a chance to make it big. To make all the broken bones, bruised ribs and late nights away from you worth it. 
You liked sex, and had sex a lot. But you always chose when and who with and were safe while riding your highs. It didn’t mean you welcomed the groping, the comments, or the workplace harassment. You were always in control….. 
Until you weren’t anymore. 
“Shut the fuck up,” The man who held you against his chest by hooking your arms with his, growled into your ear. He licked up the side of your neck, sending a shiver of terror down your spine. “If you keep crying girly, maybe we’ll go easy on you.” The tone of the man’s voice was like ice against your skin. So cold that it burned. You couldn’t get away no matter how hard you tried to wiggle free. 
“Let me go, you sick son of a bitch!” You growled as you struggled to free yourself. The discarded bag of cans you were taking out to the trash laid not far away. It was closing time at the bar. The local watering hole, just on the outskirts of town. There was another bar closer to town, but it was more high-end and had a bistro attached. It was known as a more family-friendly establishment. The bar you worked at was a tried and true dive bar. Somewhere a person could go to cause some trouble and no one would bat an eye. 
“C’mon now, Y/n,” The man walking towards you grinned. “You’ve given it out to half the goddamn town at this point,” He chuckled to his friend who tightened his grip on you as you tried your best to free yourself. “It’s our turn now, don’t you think?” It was a closed question, but even if you had gone ahead and said no, the answer was always going to be a yes in his eyes. 
“I think the lady said enough,” You heard a low growl come from the darkness. The slur, the tone, you knew who it was and you’d never been more thankful to hear his voice. “And I don’t know about her but I wouldn’t touch you for all the money in the world.” 
“Oh get off your high horse there, Abbott,” The man who stood before you shouted over your shoulder. Rhett took a few steps out of the darkness and into the dim light of the lone spotlight hanging from the side of the building. “Don’t you have some goals or ambitions in life besides babysitting the town tramp?” It made your heart burn in anguish inside your chest. You weren’t a tramp. You weren’t a whore. You didn’t ask for any of this. All you wanted was for Rhett to see how much of his life he was missing out on chasing a pipe dream. 
“I always found that if you had a goal, you might not reach it,” Rhett chuckled to himself as he walked over with his hands in his pockets, looking at you like you lit up all the stars in the night sky just for him. “But if you have none? Well, then you’re never disappointed.” You knew where this was going, it could only really end one of two ways. The first being Rhett loses and you experience the worst this town has to offer. The second being Rhett wins, and you never leave the house without a taser or pepper spray again. 
“And I gotta say, it feels phenomenal.” Rhett gave you a quick wink before he threw the first punch, landing a right hook against the man’s cheek. You couldn’t say it wasn’t a good feeling seeing him stumble back. After all, he and his buddy still had you on lock with nothing but horrible intentions. 
“Rhett!” You sobbed as you watched Rhett take on the man who had clearly been the orchestrator of your attack. “Please–!” You didn’t want this, you didn’t want any of this. You didn’t want either of these men to touch you. You didn’t want either of these men anywhere near you. But you also didn’t want Rhett to go through hell and back to get you out of a mess you felt responsible for. Maybe if you hadn’t been so flirty, or fed into the rumours and the reputation as much as you had, then none of this would be happening. 
None of this would make your mama proud. 
“This doesn’t concern you, Abbott!” The man who’d been holding you threw you down into the gravel beneath your feet. Rhett saw the commotion from the corner of his eyes before he turned away from the first assaulter to give some special attention to the man now coming directly at his bloodied self. 
“Not nearly as much as your hair does,” Rhett remarked as it was now and always had been, two-on-one. Your knees bleed from the small rocks cutting into your skin as you shook with fear and shock. How was this happening? How had not a single person besides Rhett stopped to help you? 
“Fucking piece of shit!” 
“Is that all you’ve got?” 
“Ahhh get the fuck up kid–come on, stand up!” 
“Careful old man, wouldn’t wanna flare up your osteoporosis,” 
“SHIT,” 
“Come on man, let’s get outta here,” 
It was all a blur of punches, kicks and groans as the three men went at it in the near-empty back alley of the dive bar you worked at. By the time you were on your feet, the man who had been holding you had run away. Leaving behind his friend, the clear ringleader. 
“Okay Romeo, let me help you up there,” Rhett sighed as he offered the man a hand as he laid breathless on his back. It was more than you would have offered, but Rhett was different. Rhett was kind, he was the best of what Wabang had to offer. Some people would disagree with you on that one, but they just didn’t know him like you did. 
Or so you thought. 
“Get the hell off of me you bastard!” The man hissed as he spat blood right near Rhett’s boot. “Fuck you, and fuck your whore of a girlfriend too.” 
“I’m not his girlfriend you ass, and I’m not some piece of meat you can just manhandle into submission either.” You spat back as he retreated from the scene of the almost crime. Leaving you and Rhett standing side by side in the dust that had been kicked about. 
“Well, at least that didn’t escalate,” You sighed sarcastically as you buried your face in Rhett’s chest, overcome with his scent. Cedarwood and bourbon. “Thank you so much, Rhett, I was really worried I wasn’t getting out of that one.” 
Rhet didn’t move a muscle as he let you hug him, he just stood there, like a bloodied and beaten statue. 
“Rhett?” You questioned as you looked up to see a look in his eyes you didn’t recognise. “What’s wrong?” You nearly whispered, too afraid of the answer after what had just happened. 
“You know I paid them good money–” Rhett spoke in a monotone voice you didn’t recognise, or just didn’t want to. “But at the last minute, I couldn’t watch,” Rhett explained as you tried to back away. Rhett had gripped at both your wrists before you could move. 
“Rhett, let me go–” You sobbed all the while trying to process everything. “Rhett, stop it! What are you–” 
“But I’m sick and fucking tired of seeing you fuck the whole damn town,” With one fluid motion, Rhett’s forehead connected with yours, immediately breaking your nose and forcing blood to splatter across his mouth. “I got you, I got you.” Rhett cooed as he caught your unconscious self. 
Throwing you over his shoulder as he made his way back to his beloved truck. Ready to get his money’s worth.
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Elevator Encounter pt 2
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Master List
Characters: Jensen Ackles, Reader, readers friends, Jared
Warnings: Panic Attack, Grounding technique, fluff
A/N: This was another idea given to me by my sweet friend @cheekygirl2309. Thanks sweetie for all the wonderful ideas for this chapter. You’re the best!! This is a work of fiction and doesn’t depict real life. No disrespect to Jensen or his family. Jensen is single. Just Jensen being sweet and comforting. I’m going to my first convention in about 2 weeks, and I’m really hoping I don’t have a panic attack in Jensen’s presence. 😂
Might be a few chapters. :) 
*Trigger Warning* Panic Attacks
I was startled awake by Sarah jumping on my bed beside me. “Girl! What time did you get in, and who were you with?” I groaned and pulled the blanket over my head, “Please let me sleep a little longer.” “Y/N, get up. We have the first panel in about an hour.” “Ugh, I’m so tired.”
Sarah laughed, “What time did you get in? I didn’t hear you at all.” “I think it was about 3. But I didn’t fall asleep until after 5.” Sarah’s eyes went wide, “Why? Panic attack again?” I smiled, “No, I met someone and we were talking for a few hours.” Sarah grinned, “Girl, tell me all about him.” I shook my head, “Not right now. First I need a shower, food and coffee. Then I’ll talk.” 
I climbed out of bed, grabbing clothes and taking my phone in the bathroom with me. I saw it was just before 9am. I sent Jensen a text.
Me: Good morning. I hope you feel better than I do. I need about a gallon of coffee. 😂
Jensen: Good morning, darlin’. Yeah, I’m tired too, but talking to you last night was worth it. I can have coffee sent to your room.
Me: You don’t have to do that. I’m about to jump in the shower then we are heading down and getting some. 
Jensen: A shower, huh? Thanks for the image. 😉
Me: You’re welcome. 😉 What are you doing?
Jensen: Downstairs eating breakfast and listening to Jared talk about his kids. Oh and drinking lots of coffee.
Me: His kids are adorable. Enjoy your breakfast and coffee. Jumping in the shower now. I’ll see you soon.
Jensen: Again with the imagery. You’re killing me. 😏 See you soon.
I jumped in the shower and let the hot water run over me. I couldn’t believe Jensen was thinking about my body. My breath hitched. I can’t wait to see him later. 
After I was finished with the shower, I got ready for the day. Sarah and Emily were waiting for me. When I finally finished getting ready we walked to the elevator. Which was full of other fans. We were all chatting with our friend groups when I overheard some girls near me.
“Did you hear that Jensen was seen out at a bar with some girl?” One of the girls said. The other one with her gasped, “No! Do you know who it was? Is he dating her?” Sarah heard them and turned to face them, “Sorry, but did you say Jensen is dating someone?” “We think so, he was seen out last night with a woman at a bar. Nobody got a picture of her, but he definitely was out with her for a while.” 
I bit my lip praying the elevator would open up soon. Sarah and Emily started making guesses on who the mystery woman was. I kept quiet. Sarah turned to me, “Hey, you were out and about last night, did you see anything?” “No, I kept to myself. I didn’t really pay attention to anyone else.”
Stepping off the elevator, Emily, Sarah and I went to grab some breakfast and coffee. The hotel had a made to order breakfast, so we went to grab something. Walking in the restaurant we noticed a table in the back full of people. Sarah was the first to recognize the people filling the table. 
She squealed, “Guys, look who it is!” I turned and saw Jensen, Jared and some of the other cast sitting enjoying breakfast. Their bodyguards and handlers around them. Emily smiled, “Come on, let’s grab that table close to them.” I took a deep breath and walked with them. 
Before we could sit down Jensen and Jared looked up. Jensen made eye contact with me and smiled. Sarah and Emily waved and blushed. Jared waved and grinned. Emily giggled, “Oh my god I don’t think I can eat now.” I laughed, “Girl stop. You don’t want your stomach growling when you hug him, do you?” She shook her head no. 
I felt my phone go off. I grabbed it and checked it carefully, not knowing who was texting.
Jensen: You looked beautiful. 
My cheeks filled with red.
Me: Thank you. You clean up pretty good yourself. 
I smiled and bit my lip. Sarah looked at me, “What’s got you blushing and biting your lip?” “Huh, oh, nothing.” “Is it mystery man?!?!” She gasped. I just nodded.
Jensen: First you tease me with the shower comment, now you’re biting your lip. What are you trying to do to me? 
Me: 😀 Sorry. 
I bite my lip again and grin.
Jensen: 🥴 you’re such a tease
Me: Hmm maybe. 😉
Jensen: Enjoy your breakfast and drink your coffee. I’ll see you later.
Me: Thanks. I can’t wait for our photo op. I have some ideas.
Jensen looked up and saw Jared watching him. Jared leaned over, “Hey, what has you smiling so much?” “I met someone.” Jensen smiled at Jared and then looked up at me. Jared followed his gaze. I looked over and saw Jensen and Jared staring at me. My heart was pounding in my chest. Jared leaned over to Jensen, “She’s cute. Just be careful man.” Jensen nodded
Sarah, Emily and I ate breakfast while laughing and talking about the weekend and what we were anticipating the most. My answer was the panels and photo ops. We were having a great time and I noticed Jensen and the rest of his group started to get up to leave. 
As they walked past our table, Jared stopped. “Hey guys, hope you’re having a great time. I’m Jared, and this is Jensen.” Sarah’s mouth was on the table, and Emily was speechless. I laughed, “Hello Jared and Jensen. Nice to officially meet you two. We can’t wait for the panels and photo ops later.” Jared looked at Jensen, “What’s your name?” “I’m Y/N, that’s Sarah and Emily.” Jared stuck his hand out, “Nice to meet you guys. So what photo ops do you have?” 
“We have one with both of you, and I have an individual one with Jensen.” My eyes met Jensen’s and he smiled. Jared smiled and looked at Jensen, elbowing him. “Well, I’ll let you three get back to your breakfast. See you three later.” “Bye.” I smiled at them as they walked away.
Sarah and Emily were still gobsmacked. I laughed and they finally came back down to Earth. 
The rest of the morning was filled with anticipation for the photo ops and the gold panel. The three of us took our seats for the panel. My phone went off with a text.
Jensen: Hey darlin’. I hope you’ve had a great day so far. I can’t wait to see you during the panel. 
Me: I’m sitting here waiting for you. I can’t wait to see you either. 
Jensen: Where are you sitting?
Me: Not telling. You have to find me. Just know I’m close. 😉
Jensen: TEASE
Me: Yep 🤭
The music started and Rob introduced Jared and Jensen. Cheers and applause erupted in the room. My heart pounded in my chest as I waited for Jensen to take the stage. The guys came on stage and took their seats. I noticed Jensen looking around, he still hadn’t seen me yet. I sat up a little taller. His head turned towards my side of the room, and he found me. His smile stretched to his eyes, and his cute little eye crinkles more defined. 
I smiled at him and bit my lip, knowing it would drive him crazy. He shook his head, laughing and ran his fingers through his hair. Now that drove me wild. 
The panel went by quickly. Throughout the panel Jensen would look over at me and smile. Sarah and Emily were engrossed in the panel; they didn’t pay much attention to Jensen and I. 
After the panel was over it was time for the photo ops. Jensen and Jared’s duo op was first. We were sitting waiting for them to call gold tickets first. The time was ticking and we were growing concerned. I felt my phone vibrate.
Jensen: Can you sneak away? I need you.
Me: What’s wrong?
Jensen: I need to talk to you, please, Y/N.
Me: Okay. What about the photo ops.
As I hit send an announcement was made that there was a schedule change and Jared’s photo ops would go first. Sarah and Emily had a ticket for it. I told them I needed to use the bathroom, and I’d be back. 
I slipped out of the room only to be approached by one of the handlers I saw with Jensen earlier. “Ma’am, are you Y/N?” I nodded, “Yes I am.” “Okay, great. I need you to come with me. Jensen asked me to get you.” I nodded and followed her towards the back. She motioned to a closed door, “He’s inside there.” I took a deep breath and opened the door. What I saw broke my heart. 
Clif was standing over Jensen, who was on the floor gasping for air and crying. I immediately ran to his side. He was having a really bad panic attack. I dropped to my knees and took his hands in mine. “Jensen, come on look at me.” Jensen’s green eyes looked up at me. 
I placed his hands on my chest, “Come on Jensen, focus on my heart beat and breathe with me. Come on, you’ve got this honey. Deep breath in through your nose, and blow it out.” My hands were holding his hands to my chest so he could feel the steady beating of my heart. 
Clif stood to the side and watched in awe. “Jensen, come on sweetie. Tell me 5 things you can see.” Jensen took a shaky breath and started to name 5 things, “I see Cliff, the damage to the wall over there, my water bottle, your beautiful y/e/c eyes, your hands on mine, your soft lips.” I smiled, “You’re doing great baby, now tell me 4 things you can feel.”  “I feel the softness of your hands, the carpet under me, me sitting on the floor, and your heart beating.” “Perfect, Jensen, now tell me 3 things you can hear.” Jensen took a deep breath, his breathing starting to even out, and the panic starting to subside, “I hear your sweet voice, I hear the laughter from outside the room, and I hear my heart beating in my ears.” “You’re doing amazing, Jensen. Keep going. Now 2 things you can smell.” “I can smell the coffee that was just brewed, and your sweet perfume.” I smiled, “Okay, now tell me one thing you can taste.” Jensen smiled softly, his breathing steady and the panic gone from his face, he leaned forward, inches from my lips. “I can taste your lips on mine.” He placed a soft kiss on my lips. 
Clif saw Jensen was calm and decided to step out of the room to give us privacy. Jensen cupped my face as he pulled back. “Thank you sweetheart. I’m sorry about that. The panic attack came out of nowhere.” I placed my hand on his face and he leaned into it, “Jensen, it’s okay. I’m glad I was able to help you through it. Do you know what caused it?” 
Jensen looked down, looking almost ashamed. “Jensen, you can talk to me.” He took a deep breath, “Yeah, um I got in my head.” “I understand that. I do it all the time. Is there anything I can help you with?” “Well, it was about you, well us.” 
I gasped, “Me?” Jensen nodded, “Yeah. I can’t get you out of my head. I started thinking about you and me, and what kind of future we might have. Then I realized after tomorrow we both are going back to our normal lives and I panicked. I don’t want this weekend to end.” I cupped his face and kissed his lips. I have no idea what came over me, but I felt like I needed to kiss him. He deepened the kiss by putting his hands in my hair and pulling me closer to him. 
“Jensen, I think you and I can figure it out if it’s something we both want.” Jensen smiled, “Well I want it, do you?” I smiled, kissed him again and said, “More than you know.” 
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mattyriddlegf · 2 days
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The Stupid Closet (18)
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Hello! Happy Sunday release day, I’m so sorry it’s late!!
I want to dedicate this chapter to Maggie Smith who passed earlier this week. Professor McGonagall, we’ll miss you so much <3
Enjoy!!
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You walk out together, walking down the hall, “you know I never thought you’d be so sappy” you mention casually.
“Well you’ve never seen me in love.” He looks to the side to glance at you, “and I’m not that sappy.” He adds.
“Yes you totally are!” You chuckle, watching him try to deny it.
“I’ve turned soft haven’t I?” He asks, throwing his head back as he walks.
You stop walking and he notices, him stopping too and looking at you, “you haven’t turned soft” you mutter out.
You look up into his eyes, him looking back and forth and between your eyes and your lips.
He pulls you in and kisses you gently.
You pull away after a moment, “how much do you want to bet that Pansy is drunk off her ass right now?”
“I know better than to take that bet.” Mattheo tucks a piece of your hair behind your ear before Draco turns the corner and spots you.
Mattheo clenches his jaw, “what do you want Malfoy?”
“Lovely that I ran into you guys but I wasn’t looking for you.” Draco says sarcastically.
Mattheo rolls his eyes before Malfoy continues, “I’m looking for Theo. When we got back earlier, he seemed off and then he left.”
“What do you mean he left?” Mattheo asks.
“I mean he’s gone. He hasn’t come back to celebrate.” Draco responds before continuing, “I’m gonna check the prefect's bathroom, he’s stolen my keys before.”
Draco takes off in that direction. You turn to Mattheo and speak up, “I wonder where he is…doesn’t seem like him to skip out on a quidditch win party.”
“I’m sure he’ll be fine…” Mattheo trails off looking at the ground.
You grab his chin and lift it up so he looks at him, “I’m sorry he won’t talk to you. You don’t deserve that.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.” Mattheo shrugs it off.
He avoids your eyes as you look at him sympathetically until it hits you.
“I know where he is.” You say.
“How?” He asks.
“He told me this story about you two when we were together and he said it’s where you two became friends.”
“The clock tower.” It finally dawns on Mattheo before you two take off in that direction, holding hands.
When you turn the corner and see the clock tower, Theo is sitting underneath it, on a stair step.
Theo lifts his head up when he hears your shoes on the concrete, shaking his head and scoffing.
“Unbelievable.”
“What happened Theo? Why’d you leave the party?” You speak up softly.
“What happened? What happened was I saw you guys break off from the group. I saw you guys go in that potions closet.”
You let out a breath as Mattheo lets out a soft, sarcastic laugh.
“Theo…” you start.
“No, no, no. I don’t want to hear it. I’m tired of pretending to be okay about this.” He leans forward, resting his elbows on his legs.
“I’m sorry.” You say softly.
“Why did you even date me? Hm? Was it because I’d sleep with you?”
“I-“
“I didn’t know you were that desperate.”
“Theo, shut the fuck up man.” Mattheo speaks up.
“Oh that’s rich coming from you. I always defended you when you drank every day and slept with a different girl every chance you got but you still had to take mine. My girl.” Theo stands up, heated.
Mattheo clenches his jaw before taking a step forward, stopping him with your arm.
“Look Theo. I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I fucked up and put you through that. You can hate and ignore me for the rest of your life for all I care but you have to stop taking it out on Mattheo. He didn’t…” you look to Mattheo before looking back and continuing, “he tried to stay away and I pushed him. It wasn’t until he told me he loved me that-“
“He loves you?” Theo asks. He turns his gaze to Mattheo, “you love her?”
Mattheo blinks, avoiding eye contact with Theo.
“I could’ve loved you.” Theo says quietly, staring at you.
“I know.” You respond with little breath to spare.
“Despite what you might think, I don’t sleep around. I don’t date just anyone. You meant something to me.” He explains, almost like he’s pleading.
“You meant something to me too. I didn’t want to hurt you. You have to believe me.” You return the sentiment, pleading your case.
You maintain eye contact with each other for a moment before Theo speaks up, “you could’ve come talk to me.” His eyes shift to Mattheo.
Mattheo steps forward, standing beside you now, “I didn’t know how to. You were my best friend and I didn’t know what to say or do that sounded okay.”
“Are.” Theo responds.
“Are?” Mattheo asks, confused.
“You said I was your best friend. I still am.” Theo smiles softly, showing just a tiny bit of remorse.
Matthew looks down at the ground, trying to hide his relief.
“Theo I really hope you forgive me. Eventually, at least, I don’t want us to hate each other.” You say softly.
“I don’t hate you. I just…” he lets out a breath, “I need time.”
“Sure. I can do that.” You smile gently as you back away, holding Mattheo’s hand, “we’ll see you back in the common room, right?”
“Yeah I’ll catch up in a bit.” Theo responds.
You smile one more time, relieved that you had this talk. While it was uncomfortable, it was needed.
You back away with Mattheo and turn the corner before letting out a breath.
You look at Mattheo and place your hand on his cheek, “I love you.”
“I love you.” He responds before cupping your jawline, kissing you passionately.
“Hey maybe not here” you mention to him, implying that Theo was still close by.
“I’m sorry, I just can’t help myself.” Mattheo smirks as he rubs his thumb across your cheek, still cupping your face. “Hey, I’m gonna stay for a bit, you ok going back alone?”
“Sure. I’ll see you later.” You smile and start to walk away. After you get down to the end of the hall, you see Mattheo turning back towards the clock tower.
You walk back to the Slytherin house, very content with how today has turned out.
When you arrive back, the celebration is still in full swing. Draco walks back shortly after you out of breath, “I couldn’t find him.”
“D, we took care of it.”
“What?” He asks, squinting his eyes.
“Mattheo’s with him right now. It's all good.”
“You mean to tell me I’ve been running around the castle for the last 15 minutes trying to find him for no reason?”
“Sounds like it.” Blaise speaks up, laughing as he takes a sip of his drink.
‘I’m sorry’ you mouth to Draco as he rolls his eyes and walks up to his dorm, leaving the party behind. Typical Malfoy meltdown.
Theo and Mattheo walk in together, still talking. Blaise looks over to you and you smirk before he looks back and engages in their conversation.
Everything seemed ok. Finally, for the first time this year, everybody you cared about was in a good place.
You go over and link your arm in Mattheo’s, your hand on his back, his arm around your waist.
The celebration seemed to go on forever but you didn’t mind, eventually it was just your group of friends and a few others lingering down in the common room before you all decided to finally go to sleep.
You and Mattheo reach your dorm door. He connects his lips with yours, slowly. After a moment he pulls away, “Thank you.”
You smile softly and place your hand on his jaw, him placing his hand on top of yours.
“Goodnight Matty.” You say quietly.
“Goodnight my love.” He pecks you on the lips one more time before lightly squeezing your hand and walking away, back to his own dorm.
You open your dorm door and walk in. You lightly close the door behind you and take a deep breath.
Everything was ok.
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ineedhjalp · 10 months
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ahh. I'm so normal, so tickety-boo, so sane. I'm GOOD YEH IM FEELIN ALRIGHT BEBE IMMA HAVE THE BEST FUCKIN
GOOD OMENS 3 CONFIRMATION
of my LIFE
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To the world.
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lesbiansanemi · 6 months
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I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao
#i have had to piss for probably the better part of an hour now#because they decided to take a shower together and have been in there for well OVER an hour now#and this is a nightly occurence atp sometimes MULTIPLE times a day#we have one bathroom.... can yall not be considerate enough to not be in there for up to TWO HOURS AT A TIME???#also it's such a waste of fucking water....#idk we've hit a point where i literally hear the bf doing anything and i get pissed off#but also tell me why i'm sitting in my room (which shares a wall with the bathroom) and i can hear this man hacking and spitting shit up#and this is also something that happens multiple times a day#like.... dude.... why are you spitting up toothpaste so fucking loudly oh my fucking god#but yeah no i'm like my roommate's only friend atp and he's about to not have me lmao like we're about to reach#'i'm cutting you off when i move out' levels of me being pissed off with this whole situation type shit#and apparently the bf convinced him to come out to his family which his mom was chill which is good#his dad's side of the family though....? not great. and my roommate KNEW that would be the case cuz we'd talked about it before#also love that my roommate has constantly talked about moving out of the city we live in because he hates and also there's no good career#opportunities for him here (which is true)#and now. MAGICALLY. he's like 'idk i think it'd be best for me to stay here'#like oh my GOD???? are you hearing yourself???? are you fucking stupid???? you fucking hate it here???#but sure throw your life away and ruin all your meaningful relationships for a guy you met six months ago jfc#and the thing is i *know* my roommate we've been close CLOSE friends for nearly a decade now#i know he is not like this.... like yeah he's being insane by allowing this but also i know these aren't the kinds of decisions he would ma#and also i know he wouldn't treat me like this all on his own#it's the deranged fucking control freak of a guy he decided to date and my roommate has too many of his own issues to put his foot down#about certain things and tell the guy no so he's just allowing him to completely take over his life#and fuck everything up until the bf is the only thing he has left once it's all said and done#and yeah. it's painful to watch. but also wtf am i supposed to do because obviously my opinion is not respected nor wanted regarding this#that has been made PAINFULLY clear#ugh this is so fucking horrendous#what is it with ppl who start to date someone and then go clinically fucking insane and destroy their lives all for this one person#who. realistically. they barely know in comparison to all the other ppl in their life#like explain it to me jfc
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newtness532 · 10 months
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im so annoyed with everything today, i think i need some tasty food and a million hours of sleep and then I'll be back to normal
#the teacher at the first class today was so dibsjdhdhdhdhsgs 😫#like she was teaching us things that are like unrelated to the class that shes teaching so idek why she was teaching it#but also its things that we have been learning since the 1st semester and we've done them in at least 10 classes and she was acting like#this was the 1st time we were hearing about it#like oh yeah we're on the 7th semester of studying nutrition but no one bothered to tell us how many calories are in a gram of fat#and she gave us homework 'to see if we know this' like#oh yes i can make a meal plan for a child with crohns or cystic fibrosis or celiac disease or everything else we've done this semester and#all the other semesters but i guess i cant tell you what micronutrients are in this one breakfast meal#like fuck off and stick to what you're supposed to be teaching#anyway i know im getting more annoyed than i should but she was just even more annoying than usual today#like she interrupted the lesson every 5 minutes to yell at someome to be quiet i wasnt even aware there were people talking until she yelled#anyway#also my new earphones aren't working well idk why ive definitely not been mistreating them that much for them to break in less than a month#like i had my old pair for at least 4 years until the broke and i dont think the wire got cut in them like the sound was coming out weird#but there was sound coming out. in the new ones you need to hold them in a very specific angle for sound to come out#and like im careful with how i put them away so what is up with them?#my theory is that they make wired earphones shitty on purpose so that you will spend a lot of money and buy wireless#also we had said from Tuesday that we would hang out with my friends today but i guess they forgot or idk and they made other plans#(to go home and sleep) and during the weekend the one friend wont be here and next week my family will be here so we probably wont hang out#again until next year and we have exams almost immediately so we wont be hanging out much then either#also my period is supposed to come soon and i hope that it will either come today or it will wait until after Christmas#ideally it will never come ever again but we cant always get what we want#anyway im gonna go eat the rest of my μεσογειακό and go take a nap#jo says stuff#personal ramblings
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muu-kun · 1 year
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#; ♡ ; okay to reblog#muu has admittedly been describing is self perceived melancholy and isolation regarding it#as being comparable to the circle drawn around Sadness in Inside Out due to others finding his emotions to be Too Much in capacity#and that as such he has thus been persistently trying to make himself very very small in spaces#so that maybe perhaps someone would soon be able to reside in the circle with him just until he gets to where he feels he is supposed to be#muu has also stated on numerous actions that while he is adamant about self healing he is not necessarily of preference#to not have the assistance of peers and their feedback and he tends he show it most predominantly in asking them to hear Everything#about himself in the form of the big box because one he wants assurances at the end of it all but also because he Has to be explaining#his processes of thought and general state of where he is now to people so that they may go Oh so that why you do the neurotic shit you do#but it really be hard out here when you don't know how to self advocate for a persistently emotionally present romantic partner#you don't really have any friends and you are either God awful at making new ones or you don't want to try for reasons of either#feeling scorned past close friends of yours have left time and time again OR#because you don't know what version of yourself is the Real one or the Good one or the Authentic one so you avoid socializing#until you can properly answer that dilemma but in turn you've left yourself with 1 person to seek out and talk to#but with that comes the existential dread of either a this person is also going to leave me or#b I am in fact so totally codependent on them that it isn't fair to be my sole research for assistance that I ought to fend for myself#but what do you even do to fend for yourself when you don't even know how to Advocate for yourself??#you devise a plan to shrink down and provide no indication to those around you that you are struggling with anything#that perhaps shriveling yourself down like that will allow for people to find you tolerable enough to be around#and that their presences will patch up every interpersonal wound in your system until eventually what you are faking has come true#; ♡ ; inner thoughts
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britneyshakespeare · 2 years
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being aroace is weird bc i’m queer but other queer ppl for the most part don’t understand the way i’m queer unless theyre also aro and/or ace
#i belong to the queer community but ppl think i'm an asterisk#queer on a technicality#queer because i'm definitely definitely definitely not straight#and i relate to other ppl under the queer umbrella but i feel like they don't. relate. to me#most likely bc they haven't seen or heard from many ppl w my experience which is...... hmph#bc i didn't really see or hear from anyone w my experience until i realized... oh shit that's me#& had to go seeking out others. i had to be inclined for my own self-interested reasons. which were totally fair#but like most other ppl are just. not. inclined to learn about aspecs especially not arospecs#which frankly i think i just get more and more aro w age#tales from diana#i'm gray aro (but very VERY aro okay very very disinterested in romance & borderline romance repulsed)#it's happened a couple times.... briefly for the most part. the 'gray' area is not very important to me nowadays#but when i was younger & i had NO CLUE i was aro & i just wanted romance i was very very confused#trying to figure out if i liked girls or not...... which i do....... but like...... in the same...... lukewarm way i liked boys#so i am sapphic and when i finally started to accept that side of myself around 18-19 it felt very important to me#& i still am sapphic. i still am queer in that way. but i hardly hardly ever care to define myself as bi these days.#not because i'm NOT bi anymore. but bc the way almost everyone uses 'bi' i just don't really feel represents me.#im aroace... that's what i am. other aroaces & their experiences represent me#my friends irl all know i'm queer but only like 3 of them even know i'm ace. bc it's not easy to come out as.#but i... do not like to tell ppl i'm bi. not anymore. they get the wrong assumptions in their head.#& those assumptions don't make me uncomfortable except for. it's not ME.#that's the only thing wrong w it. it's that there's this big missing MOST OF MY IDENTITY in my relationships.#i wish ppl fuckin understood more widely the aspec experience. for real.#my fellow aspecs i love you all btw.
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Gilear and gortholax i am rotating them in my mind
#random thoughts#fantasy high#gilear absolutely fucking instigates it are you kidding me#like after a while of gilear and gorthalax hanging out for fig's sake they're in a weird 'only friends cuz out kids are friends' kinda thing#except their kids are the same kid#also they both work at the school so they're in meetings and at school events#and gilear keeps the cooler in the locker room stocked with drinks and snacks for the bloodrush players so you KNOW#you KNOW they're bumping into each other#the teachers have a bimonthly get-together where the location changes each time#sometimes it's at krom's diner or basrar's soda fountain but it's MOSTLY at the black pit for drinks#before gorthalax started his job gileat never attended one of these get-togethers because 1. he's gilear and 2. couldn't afford it#gorthalax didn't hear about it until he was in a conversation with a fellow teacher and gilear and the teacher brought it up#gorthalax's like 'why didn't you tell me about this??? we're going' because that man LOVES SOCIAL INTERACTION#and he offers to cover all gilear's drinks because he just wants him to get out of the house already#and gilear's like 'well if you're paying i suppose it would be rude of me not to indulge'#gorthalax is the designated driver for the night </3 baby can't drink#gilear gets absolutely SMASHED for the first time in god knows how long#he goes from ramrod straight 'i am extremely inebriated' to loose and giggly and leaning into gorthalax's side because he's very warm#and there is some point in the night where gorthalax goes from 'hell yeah im helping my friend have a good time' to 'oh dude'#'i think you should sit down' to 'oh you are VERY MUCH COMING ONTO ME and you are VERY DRUNK'#he eventually takes gilear home early (it's fine porter doesnt drink either) and stays there until he falls asleep#and also sleeps on the couch because he's a LITTLE concerned gilear's gonna get up to some shit#just imagine gorthalax sleeping on this tiny couch. like a mastiff in a cat bed#he ends up cooking him breakfast which gilear takes in the COMPLETELY WRONG WAY and is like 'oh god did we . . . ???'#and gorthalax is immediately like 'NO NO NO YOU WERE WAYYYY TOO DRUNK I JUST STAYED OVER BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU'D HURT YOURSELF OR SOMETHING'#'btw your kitchen is like. super sparse. i bought you some groceries.'#gilear is also very apologetic for coming onto him 👏 the 👏 whole 👏 night 👏 and hopes he didn't make him uncomfortable#and gorthalax is like 'oh no you're fine i would have stopped you if you crossed a line. would have stopped you very easily actually'#'im eight feet tall' and gilear's like 'that you are'#gilear's flirting is the epitome of 'how tall are you?' 'idk 8 feet 8'5 with the horns' 'with the horns you're SO funny' babygirl's deranged
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thegempage · 2 months
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eeeuuuuggghhh i'm gonna bitch in the tags a bit bcus this isn't like. serious enough to put more effort into it than that but i also don't want it to sit in my brain.
#little rock.txt#venting#self harm in tags btw#anyway. wow i hate intrusive thoughts.#like great guys. it's so cool that the way we're deciding to spend our time is constantly thinking about ways to hurt myself#oh wow stabbing myself with a knife someone left on the counter? so original. never been seen before#oh starving myself?? even when my lovely friend made us a whole dinner?? that's lovely. wow. not even a little bit rude#standing in traffic until someone comes and hits me? at least that wouldn't damage my fucking car like your other ideas!#taking something sharp to my sunburns for a two-birds-one-stone thing?? i guess you're making the best of the circumstances#like jesus fucking christ Grow Up. am i fifteen goddamn years old again#like if we're being So real the consequences of actually self-harming Far outweigh the benefits so i'm not at any real risk#(i do Not want to deal with the fallout of 1. cleaning those wounds 2. confronting my housemates with active self-harm#they actively do not deserve that happening to them)#(hi guys btw sorry. i'm fine)#but that just means i'm sitting here like. so are you gonna be productive or....?#like i had plans of what i wanted to do with my brain power tonight. was gonna write. maybe clip a stream. and we're...?#oh just sitting on my laptop playing music too loud bcus if i could hear my own thoughts it'd be a nightmare? neat.#jesus christ can i be a normal goddamn person for like fifteen minutes and get out of this anxiety spiral. it's been over 24 hours.#whatever. like at this point it's fucking whatever. if i can't drag myself into being productive i'm just gonna go to bed.#“opal is being mean to yourself really going to help” i don't know. i doubt it. unfortunately i am in the mood to be a bitch#and the only person who deserves to deal with bitchy opal is me. so.#anyway if you read all of this uuuhhh sorry. i am like this. but hey. thank you for caring
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fingertipsmp3 · 10 months
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Does anyone else have a friend who will panic and call you if they don’t receive a response to their message within 15 minutes, but will regularly leave you on read or delivered or go fully MIA for days
#that’s my best friend and also my granddad#she calls me i’m like ‘fuck that i’ll call back; i’m not talking to her while i’m in a towel it feels weird’ (just got out of the shower)#2 mins later she calls again. i have a shirt on & a towel over my bottom half. i answer like ‘what? what’s the emergency?’#why does this woman say ‘you weren’t responding to my messages :(‘ i check and i’m like ‘you mean the message you sent 12 minutes ago?#i was in the shower’ ‘oh’ ‘so what’s up’ ‘do you want to go to the shop with me?’ ‘ma’am it’s 8:15pm on a sunday in december and i am mostly#wearing my pyjamas. what do you think’#i love her but she tests me every day#my granddad is so much worse actually. he’ll text me or my mom (he gets us mixed up in his messenger app. sometimes he even messages#my stepdad something that’s meant for one of us. or presumably his bowling friends as well. i think sometimes he can’t be bothered to put#his glasses on and just clicks into the most recent conversation and hopes his message will find its way to the relevant person)#then if they don’t read it & respond within… about 1-5 minutes. he calls my mom; then her landline; then me; then my stepdad#and repeats ad nauseam until someone answers their phone. he does this faster and with more dedication and urgency if it’s NOT an emergency#the most fun part of this is when i see a call come in from him; don’t manage to answer it in time; call him back and he literally doesn’t#answer because he’s either already calling someone else OR he’s abandoned his phone and walked off#and he never puts his hearing aids in and also leaves his phone on vibrate so it doesn’t ring anywhere near as loud as he needs it to#he’s also constantly leaving his phone at home. i’m like JOHN. it’s a mobile.#if i need my grandparents i literally just call their landline because if no one answers that tells me everything i need to know#which is that they are out which means my granddad either doesn’t have his phone; or has it but won’t answer it#my grandma’s hearing is fine but she has a visceral hatred of phones (she doesn’t own one) so she won’t answer it or tell him it’s ringing#so yeah. my granddad expects everyone else on the planet to be available 24/7 but refuses to make himself available an equal amount#like if you want time away from your phone just say that. i love time away from my phone#but in that same vein you also cannot get mad when i don’t answer my phone if YOU don’t answer your phone. lol#personal
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eddiesxangel · 3 months
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1-800-HOT-TO-GO | E.M
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Anonymous asked: Can i request a fic where either the reader reveals during a pizza and beers hangout she was a phone sex operator for a brief time and everyone is shocked and one of them jokingly asks if she was any good and she whispers something dirty in their ear and it changes their friendship
Cw: fem!reader, allusions to male masturbation, dirty talk 1.7k words
“Come again?”
“I used to work a sex hotline,” you shrug like it was no big deal.
“No way,” Eddie shakes his head. “I don’t believe you.”
You hear Steve and the others giggle around you, also in disbelief.
“Wanna bet?”
“Try me.” He wants to call your bluff because no way in hell did he not know this about you. You always were reserved when it came to talking about sex; you never had you seemed promiscuous.
You hold up your hand to your ear, pretending it is a phone, and Eddie follows your lead.
“Ring ring,” he giggles.
“Hello.” You changed the pitch of your voice to be more sultry.
“Hi,” he smirks.
“Can I get a name, handsome?”
“ Eddie”
“Mmmm, hi, Eddie. I’m Candy.”
“Candy?”
He breaks character, but you don’t.
“the boys say it’s because I’m so sweet.” You fake giggle.
“This is my first time calling. I’m not sure what to do here.”
“That’s okay, I’ll walk you through it… you want to get comfortable for me?”
Eddie looks around the room at the others, who are trying to stifle their giggles. This night was supposed to be chill, with pizza and beers. He wasn’t really sure how you all ended up here.
“I’m comfortable.” He says without actually moving.”
“I wish I could see; you sound so sexy.” You sigh.
Another giggle leaves Eddie’s lips because who is this person who’s taken over your body?
“Yeah? you wish you could see be, Dollface?” Playing into it more.
You lean in to whisper so only he can hear it this time. “oh yeah, big boy; I bet your cock is already nice and hard for me. Such a good boy, I want you to fill me.” You sit back, take a loose tendril, twirl his hair around your finger, and watch Eddie’s eyes widen at what you just said.
“Oh-okay, that’s enough.” He chuckles, trying not to give away how turned on he just got. “I believe you!”
You sit back with a giggle and grab another slice of pizza like nothing just happened.
Everyone looked at you with shock.
Eddie quickly gets up and excuses himself to go to the bathroom.
“What did you say?!” Robin begs.
You shrug in response like it was another day at work… which it has been.
“Damn, is it hot in here?” Steve pops the collar of his shirt.
“You guys need to loosen up, my god.”
While you were still enjoying your pizza, Eddie was having a crisis. Never had he thought of you in that way until moments ago, listening to those filthy words slip from your lips.
“I bet your cock is already nice and hard for me. Such a good boy, I want you to fill me,” your words replayed in his mind while he tried to fight the blood rushing to his stiffening cock.
He can’t go back out there like this. Eddie splashed cold water on his face to try to snap him out of it, but it didn’t help.
A quick rap on the door startles Eddie out of his inner monologue.
“You okay, big boy? You’ve been in there fifteen minutes.” He hears you laugh from the other side.
Had it really been that long?
Eddie’s issue had not been resolved; in fact, it had worsened as he tried to push down the thought of you naked and spread out for him… talking to him like that.
“Yeah-I-uh- just a minute.” Eddie wanted to pull his hair out at how frustrated you had made him.
You were just pals, bubbies, amigos.
You weren’t attractive… were you?
Eddie never thought to look at you in that way; you’re just a friend, always had been, always will be… unless?
The more Eddie thought about it, the more he realized he did think your hair looked really pretty tonight. The way you always did your makeup really brought out your beautiful features…and when he got a whiff of your delicious perfume when you twirled his hair, he thought his.
“You sure?” You try to jiggle the door handle, but it’s locked.
“Shit,” Eddie curses under with breath.
“Come on, Ed, talk to me, please?”
You hear the lock unlatch and watch the doorknob slowly turn as Eddie pokes his head out.
“Hi,” he’s short and sounds a bit out of breath.
“I hope what I said didn’t make you uncomfortable.”
Ed saw the worried look in your eyes.
“No! Well, I mean, yes, but…no.”
“Yes, but no?”
Eddie let out a deep sigh. He didn’t see a way out of this. He stepped aside to let you in and shut the door behind you.
“Eddie?” You look up at him.
“Hm?”
His eyes snap to your concerned face.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t think it was a big deal! It did it all the time for work; I just… I don’t know. I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay.”
“No, it’s not. clearly, I overstepped a boundary-“
“You’re not the only one.”
“What do you mean?”
Eddie moves his strategically placed hands to reveal the tent formed in his jeans and watches as your face falls into amused shock.
You cup your mouth to stifle an unexpected giggle.
“That’s not the reaction a guy wants when he shows a girl how turned on he is.”
“I’m sorry, I just!-didn’t think?”
“It’s okay. I’m just trying to get rid of it, but it’s not going away.”
“You mean?”
“I’m waiting it out.”
“Oh, ok.” You nod awkwardly.
An awkward silence washes over the both of you as you try so hard not to stare at his crotch.
“Don’t worry, I’m not going to ask for your help if that’s what you’re thinking.”
“I wasn’t!”
“Ok…”
Another very uncomfortable silence settled between the two of you as you fiddled with the hem of your shirt, trying to do everything in your power so as not to look down.
“I um… I guess I’ll just.” You point to the door that he’s blocking.
“Uh. Ok,” he nods and steps to the side.
You close the door behind you but don’t leave. You lean against the door and take a deep breath, trying to make sense of the evening.
Why did the thought of turning Eddie on excite you? He’s a friend. Just a friend. I always had and always will be.
With a deep breath, you go to push yourself up off the door, but before you’re able to, you hear your name being moaned from the other side of the door.
You froze. You knew you should move, but your feet were locked in place. More heavy breaths and the sound of muffled moans seeped from under the door gap, and you pressed your ear to the door.
Eddie was jerking off because of you… and you liked it?
Eddie bit back screaming your name as he finally released himself into the bathroom tissue. Finally, he could return to rejoin everyone without being physically uncomfortable.
He discarded his release, tucked himself back in, washed his hands, and unlocked the door, but he was ambushed when you fell onto him when he went to open the door.
You let out a squeak as you lost your balance, falling into Eddie as the door was opened from under you.
“Woah,” Eddie catches you before you’re able to fall. His rage hands wrap around your biceps, gripping tightly to brace your fall.
“Were you spying on me?”
“Oh god, sorry” you’re so embarrassed. The whole evening has been one shit show. You scramble to find your fitting to create space between you and Eddie.
“You were spying on me!”
“Shhhhh! Keep your voice down.”
“You totally were spying on me!” He accused.
“You’re the one who moaned my name!” You defend.
Eddie’s cheeks reddened.
“You’re the one who said all those… things!” his hands flailed.
“You’re the one who egged it on!”
“So!”
“So?”
“Yeah, so!”
“Woah, guys, what’s going on here?” Steve pops his head around the corner.
“Nothing,” you both glare.
“Ohhhhhkayyyyyyyy,” Steve turns a heel and walks back to the kitchen to grab a drink.
“Eddie,” you sigh, “I don’t want to argue. This is dumb, and we can pretend it never happened.”
“We could, but I gotta know.”
“What’s that?”
“Did you like it?” He took a step closer, filling the gap between you.
“What?” You look up at him.
“I asked if you like listening to me?” he brushed your hair behind your shoulder.
You gulp, not expecting Eddie’s demeanour to switch on a dime.
“I… I don’t know?”
“I think you did, and you’re too scared to admit it.” You can smell him. He is so close to you.
“Eddie, what are you doing?” You watch as he leans in closer.
“Just trust me.” His hands find the back of your neck, pulling you close.
“Eddie?”
“Let me try something.”
“Kay,” you whisper.
Eddie’s lips graze yours ever so lightly before he presses them fully.
A million and one thoughts run through your mind as Eddie kisses you.
You blame the cheap beer for letting this happen. You blame the beer for liking it. You blame the beer for kissing him back. You blame the beer for the tongue slip and the beer for how you wanted to moan when he pulled away.
“Woah”
“Yea woah,” you repeated dumbly.
“um… did you like it?”
“Yeah… did you?”
“Yeah.”
“cool… now what?”
“go out with me,” Eddie states confidently.
“Like a date?”
“what else would it be?” He chuckles.
“I don’t know?” You shrug, embarrassed that Eddie is getting you all flustered.
“You’re cute when you don’t know what to say.” He smirks.
���I’m cute?” You never thought hearing Eddie say those words would send butterflies fluttering through your tummy.
Eddie doesn’t answer verbally; he leans in to kiss you again to confirm his statement.
“We should get back to the others.” You sigh as you pull away.
“You didn’t answer me.”
“You didn’t ask me anything.”
“Yes, I did. I asked you out.”
“No, you said go out with me. That’s a statement, not a question.”
“Are you kidding me?”
“No,” Yes, you were totally messing with him.
“Will you go out on a date with me?”
“Just say yes! You’ve been gone for half an hour!” You hear Robin yell from the living room.
“Robin!” You hear Steve scold.
“What?”
You can’t help but laugh and can’t believe the next world’s coming out of your mouth.
“Okay, I’ll go out with you, Eddie.”
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your neighbor sukuna who lives in one of the apartments upstairs may be a rough and dangerous man, but he’s funny and nice to you, so you become friends anyway. you even develop a little crush on him, and when he calls you little pet names like sweetheart and doll, you start to think he might like you too. one night you decide to go out for drinks, and as he drinks more he lets out more about his past and you learn he is a little more dangerous than you thought. he talks about how he broke into people’s houses at night all the time to steal their things and when he finally did get caught and locked up, he had probably broke into over 200 people’s houses by then.
“that’s crazy, but you wouldn’t get that lucky with me though”
he sets his beer down, raising his eyebrow at you in question.
“what do you mean?”
“i mean that im a very light sleeper, always have been. and there’s no way you couldn’t break into my apartment without me knowing it.”
he picks his beer back up and takes a swig before looking back at you with a smirk.
“you sure about that?”
you confidentially smirk back at him.
“oh absolutely. i get woken up if the wind blows a little too hard against the window. i even woke up that one time i had a mouse in my apartment and i could hear it scurrying across the floor. i would definitely hear you open my door and walk around.”
sukuna taps his fingers against the bar counter with his head in his hands and his eyes still on you, thinking.
“how about we make a bet.”
“a bet? on what?”
“if i can get into your locked apartment and into your bedroom without waking you up, i win. if i do, you win.”
“and what do i get when i win?”
sukuna chuckles at that, almost like a villain’s laugh.
“i wouldn’t worry too much about that.”
you roll your eyes at him.
“oh please, you sound way to confident in your impossible chance at winning.”
he laughs at you again.
“i am. there’s a reason i was able to break in so many people’s houses while they were still in there without getting caught. it’s kind of my specialty.”
you take another sip of your drink and lean back.
“your specialty, huh? and you still haven’t mentioned what we get if we win.”
“what do you want?”
his tone caught you off guard for a second, getting deeper and more serious without you expecting it.
“u-um, i don’t know. you can pick.”
he smiles at you again, a devious smile this time as he leans in closer to you.
“if i win, i get to do whatever i want to you. if you win, you get to do whatever you want to me.”
time stops for a minute and you don’t realize that you’re just staring at him until after several seconds.
“what do you m-mean by that?”
he leans back to hold his beer and his playful demeanor is back.
“well according to you, you won’t have to worry about that, right?”
a couple of days went by and you were still on edge. you mentally slept with your eyes open and even kept your bedroom door cracked, just in case you really couldn’t hear him come in. even though you knew it was just a bet and a silly little game, you couldn’t stop your heart from pounding against your chest. maybe because you still didn’t really know what he said meant. and there was also the eerie feeling that you were essentially waiting for him to break into your apartment, like a real robber. like the robber he used to be. and even though you knew he wasn’t dangerous to you and wouldn’t hurt you, you were still admittedly a little scared. you truly didn’t know what to expect.
it had been a couple of weeks now and you were sure sukuna was fucking with you. whenever you saw him in passing, he was his normal playful and flirty self, and mentioning nothing of the bet. you were starting to think he was kidding, just making that up to scare you and mess with you. or you also thought he could have just forgotten, since he was drinking a little and couldn’t have forgotten all about it.
but little did you know that you were playing right into his hands. he was waiting on you to lose your edge, to slowly get comfortable enough again to slip into deep and dream-filled sleeps. that’s why you didn’t expect it, why you didn’t expect to lose.
when you woke up one night, you felt your heart fall out of your body and your eyes almost jump from their sockets. there he was, in your apartment, in your bedroom, on your bed, leaning over you on his hands and knees. when he saw that you were awake and too stunned to speak, he smirked and leaned in closer to you until his face was just inches from yours.
“guess i win, sweetheart.”
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