#my first time planetside and whatnot

[syoddeye]

hi. this got long, i'm sorry. you don't know me, i'm a lurker and usually i only reblog fic. i ocassionally write authors but not a lot so here it goes. i read reminiscent because i love reading a/b/o and as an asexual/aromantic transman i was interested how you would combine a/b/o and asexuality. i saw that y/n was soap's sister and that the story takes place after he dies, but i wasn't prepared to be eviscerated. i say that in friendly manner lol (:

as an asexual and aromantic person, one of my biggest fears is being left behind or alone. since i came out as trans i only talk to my sister so that fear is times ten with her. reading the story i felt that for y/n and simon. in the beginning i noticed it right away when simon tries to look at soap in the van but remembers he's dead and when y/n thinks about him at the funeral.

i am scared of ending up alone because of who i am but reading how simon and y/n live together and warm up to each other gives me some hope i will find someone or people who won't leave me or will come back for me. thank you for writing it. i hope you write more a/b/o for cod.

🧡 howdy! sorry for the delay!

so first, don't apologize for sending a longer ask and it's totally cool if you just lurk. as long as your age is in your bio and your blog isn't completely blank, i don't mind. i'm always floored when people send or leave comments like this.

asexuality and sex ramblings under the cut.

not gonna lie, i got a little teary eyed reading this at work. reminiscent was hard to write for a few reasons, but getting feedback like this makes all that worrying worth it.

the fear of being left behind is such a huge thing. i can't speak to the aromantic experience, but i am asexual.

in my 20s, even in my current relationship (which is the most solid and safe relationship i've ever had), i was constantly afraid of being dumped. i'd date people and wait to tell them i wasn't actually into physical touch or sex because i was so desperate for companionship. and like, that fear is valid, because i would tell them, and they'd either dump me or let it fizzle out. which obviously sucks! it contributes to that fear and feeling of 'brokenness' because you're not into this one thing that's a major deal breaker for folks.

while my current relationship with sex is complicated (and not something i will go into depth here), i wanted to write a reader whose relationship to sex reflected how i felt in my 20s: zero percent interested, and somewhat repulsed. which to be abundantly clear - there is nothing wrong with that.

but combining that particular ~flavor~ of asexuality with a dystopian lite omegaverse was hard, because anyway you look at it, asexuality is not going to be a Thing that's respected—it's going to be seen as undesirable, especially with an omega. but. it's also the story i wanted to tell. i wanted to self-flagellate a little, because i wanted a story where, even when you're considered broken or a misfit or, more harshly, a waste, you can still find your people or person. like-to-like sort of thing. sometimes your life doesn't look like how you thought it would look, and sometimes your person isn't who you thought they would be.

and i think that is true in the real world, too. it might take more time and effort than you thought, but i believe finding your people is a worthwhile process. it's also not a one-and-done thing—i am +30, and i've 'found' my people several times over. i hope that you do not give up hope. 🫂

i dunno if i'll write omegaverse again anytime soon, but never say never. thanks for popping in! 💐

[risingsouls]

[A few Raditz and his parents hcs because I'm salty about a post of Gine caps with the caption "Gine (Goku's mother)" and the blatant Radman erasure so:

While he looked up to and basically revered his father despite his spotty involvement in his life, Raditz was absolutely a mama's boy (because he was one of the very few allowed to be considering his mother wasn't a soldier, remained planetside with her job as a butcher, and her overall different mindset than most of their race).

He couldn't wait to get home from missions to visit Gine at the first chance he got. He was also probably one of few that got to live with his mother (or either parent) part time.

I wouldn't be surprised if he got teased for his "odd" (by Saiyan standards) relationship, and for how his mother "wasn't a real Saiyan" because she didn't possess the same lust for violence and fighting as most Saiyans and held a mubdane job. But Raditz always took up for her. He didn't mind that his mom was "different" and, when he got older, counted himself as lucky in some ways for her caring nature and guidance. He would say he's just as proud of his mother as he is his father.

Gine definitely helped train him, too, but they spent time together in more ways than just training, which was fairly out of the ordinary. I can see her teaching him a thing or two about butchering and cooking meats and whatnot, too.

He attributes his strength in halfway maintaining his sanity while working with Vegeta and Nappa later in life to his mother because I'm sure he saw and heard what other Saiyans, old and young, whispered about her willfully abandoning her post as a soldier to become a "lowly" butcher (this is obvs my hc about it; miss me with that damsel in distress Minus threw at us). When things got bad, he remembered how strong and firm Gine was in the face of that criticism. It is because of her that, unlike most other Saiyans, he can appreciate other types of strength and skills outside of the physical and combat to a better degree (which still isn't by much because working in the force it was absolutely kill or be killed much of the time so physical strength and power was most important, but that's getting into to deeper HCs for another potential post).]

[syxhenry]

ALL THE EMOJIS!

⍤ : What does your muse’s voice sound like? Is it light? High pitched? Scratchy? Deep?

previously answered for sidereus: imma be honest, i wouldn’t know how to describe voices so i’m not going to attempt. henry’s voice is like his actual english talking voice in my head, of which i give you an example here.

✍ : What is your muse’s handwriting like? Is it neat? Sloppy? Fancy?

henry writes very seldom. when he does it’s usually quick, squiggly lines only for his own eyes to see (and be able to read). he hasn’t been taught how to write properly, after all, so most of his skill is self-taught with help from a few trusted friends over the years.

☕ : Does your muse prefer coffee or tea?

either works although other people prefer for him to drink tea usually, considering he turns into an even more hyperactive bouncing ball after coffee. of his own accord he tends to just drink water, nothing too fancy.

⌚ : Is your muse good with keeping on schedule for meetings, appointments, or events, or are they always late? Or, are they always a bit early?

surprisingly henry runs a very tight schedule. the only time he’ll be late for something is if he didn’t make the appointment himself. aside from that he is always on time with everything. that is not to say the time in between deadlines or appointments is spent in an organised fashion, but he will always be on time with things if he promised to be done/there by a certain moment.

♿ : Has your muse had any injuries in the past?

plenty injuries. he works a rather dangerous job, after all. the most notable ones are not from work, however. there is the time he broke his leg and then the time he got consequently hit by a bullet in the shoulder and slashed by a sword over his abdomen. he still has the scars from these wounds. anything else is hardly worth mentioning (according to henry).

☺ : What is your muse’s smile like? Do they smile often?

goofy and stupid. he grins like that all the time. however, when he genuinely smiles it’s more warm and he blinks his eyes slowly like a cat would do to signify all is well. this doesn’t happen often at all.

⚡ : How does your muse feel about storms? Are they afraid of them, or do they calm them?

asteroid storms? not really his cup of tea. they usually ruin the ship and give him a truckload of extra work to do. storms on planets don’t bother him much. he is very fond of lightning because it’s absolutely beautiful to his eyes, but he is not going to stand outside with a long iron pole to attract some, he’s a tiny bit smarter than that.

⚠ : How does your muse react to possibly dangerous situations? Do they face them head-on, or do they plan out their actions first?

head-on, unplanned and usually with so little preparation that it’s extra dangerous. the only time henry ever plans something out is when he considers what he’s going to be eating next.

☃  : What is your muse’s favorite season? What about their least favorite season, if they have one?

previously answered for sullivan: henry doesn’t know seasons that well. he doesn’t care very much about them either. if it’s cold he puts on an extra sweater, if it’s warm he takes something off. it’s all the same to him. he’s most used to sitting aboard a ship with regulated temperatures and doesn’t go planetside very often, so really; who cares?

☂  : Does your muse like rain?

he doesn’t particularly like nor dislike rain. it just is. and sometimes he is in the middle of it.

☼ : Does your muse like daytime or nighttime more?

previously answered for casta: henry hardly knows sunlight because of the haze in beaumonde and spending most of his life after that aboard a spaceship out in space, so he’s very accustomed to dark outside and having artificial lights to help him see. it’s not that he truly prefers one or the other, but he’s just a lot more used to darkness outside and very much not used to actual suns. it happens more often when he goes out in daylight that he’s wearing protective glasses even if it’s not that bright just because he isn’t very used to it.

🏨  : How well does your muse sleep?

previously answered for kafka: very well. he sleeps full nights whenever he can manages and regularly takes naps throughout the day because he doesn’t manage often. that’s not because of him being unable to sleep, however, but simply because there is so much stuff to do aboard a ship like serenity and henry has a hard time not doing things.

❤ : What are your muse’s thoughts on love? If they are not in a relationship, do they believe that they will ever find a perfect someone for them?

henry loves love. he loves to love and he loves to be loved. he loves the emotions that come with it and the warmth it can make a person feel. having said that, henry has never actually been in a relationship with someone, despite having harboured feelings for several people throughout his life.

circumstances have made him a little less focused on finding someone for him to be with and more on other things. but should he ever come across someone he truly loves, he will probably do everything he can to keep them around. (once he realises how he feels, of course. and if it’s not too late before he does the realising.)

he doesn’t actually believe there is a ‘perfect’ someone out there for everyone, nor does he look for someone with x and y qualifications. he just lives and feels his emotions; and whenever he falls in love with someone, he will go for it. if it doesn’t work out, so be it, he doesn’t consider that person less ‘perfect’ for him than the one who eventually will. those are not things he keeps busy with, after all.

☘ : Does your muse believe in luck? How about fate?

previously answered for casta: henry takes things as they come and doesn’t spend much time thinking about the why. if life throws him a shitty situation or a really good thing, he just takes it in stride and continues on with it (with possible attached emotions of course) but he doesn’t stop to think about things like luck and fate. it’s all stories for people who need reasons to be, henry is happy just being.

⚯ : Does your muse have good eyesight? If not, what is it like? Are they nearsighted or farsighted? Or both? Do they use glasses? Or do they prefer contacts?

henry’s eyesight is just fine. he doesn’t require any glasses nor contacts and is very capable of reading fine print at quite a distance.

👓 : If your muse wears glasses, what are their glasses frames like?

although he doesn’t require glasses to see properly, he puts a lot of glasses on. mostly safety goggles while working, but sometimes he also wears glasses to protect his eyes from bright daylight. 

♨ : Does your muse have good table manners? How do they feel about bad table manners?

previously answered for kafka: what even are good table manners? according to henry good table manners means eating the food you’re given and either putting whatever you used with the rest of the dishes or cleaning it up nicely if there are no other dishes. so according to those manners; yes, henry is very nice eater. people who don’t follow these guidelines are truly uneducated and shouldn’t be in the company of others.

actual table manners, though? he eats with his hands when he feels like it, wouldn’t know a fish knife from an actual one and regularly talks while his mouth is still half full. you decide for yourself whether you take offence or not.

❀ : What is your muse’s opinion about flower crowns?

henry’s opinion on flower crowns is entirely absent as he has never been faced with one before. but the minute he does (when he’s going out in his particular summery outfit perhaps) he will most probably love it and wear it tirelessly until the flowers wilt. (although, he tells me, this also depends on who exactly gives the flower crown to him)

♬ : Does your muse sing well? Regardless of whether they sing well or not, do they enjoy singing?

previously answered for sidereus: henry sings relatively well. he’s learned rhythm from all the working songs that used to be sung back home, and has always managed to keep a tone properly. he actually really loves singing and will randomly hum or softly sing a song while working (mostly out of habit) but he doesn’t belt things out for the entire ship to hear. not that he minds other people overhearing him sing either, though.

📐 : Is your muse good at math? Do they like it, or do they hate it?

previously answered for ephraim: extremely. he doesn’t know it’s math specifically, but he uses it for all his calculations whenever he builds or fixes something. it’s part of his affinity with machines and wires and whatnot, so he loves doing it all the same. but if you’d give him ten math problems on paper and ask him to solve them he’s going to give you a look and then turn back to his actual work.

♞ : What is your muse’s favourite animal?

previously answered for ephraim: henry does not favour any animal over the other. he has never had a pet, so he’s never made any specific attachment because of that, neither has he actually lived with many animals throughout his life. however, it’s not that he doesn’t care about animals. he finds them really interesting, but also slightly intimidating. (because you can’t screw a panel loose and figure one out, mostly.)

εїз : How does your muse feel about bugs and insects?

previously answered for ephraim: same way he feels about other animals. he has hardly been confronted with bugs or insects, so he isn’t annoyed by them. they intrigue and intimidate him all the same as for instance a cow does. when he was little he used to occasionally try catching a few of them but most of his time was spent on machines and metal even back then.

📱 : Does your muse prefer calling or texting?

previously answered for ephraim: to have a proper conversation he prefers talking out loud, so calling, but if it’s about calling someone over or quickly passing on necessary information he usually prefers to text. unless it’s necessary to pass it on really quickly then he just shouts into the comm at the top of his lungs.

☆ : Of the sun, stars, and the moon, which is your muse’s favourite?

previously answered for casta: is that even a question to be asked? the symbol for this one is also the answer.

ツ : Does your muse prefer lots of friends, or just a few close ones?

henry enjoys being ‘friends’ with everyone aboard the ship who can stand being in his company for more than five minutes. however, when asked who he would like to keep around for the rest of his life, he will only mention a select few that have become truly close to him over the years.

✝ : Is your muse religious?

previously answered for casta: very much not. henry doesn’t require any higher power or anything of the sorts to believe in. he doesn’t go as far as to ridicule people who do, but don’t try and make him believe what you believe because it will end badly for all parties involved. (and if there was an existing friendship it can easily break by force-feeding him your religion.)