#my first smut fic is still on ao3 and im sure it's awful but i refuse to reread it
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jackwolfes · 2 months ago
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I've been reading smut for nine years so you'd think I'd be able to at least write a little bit of it, right? And yet, the minute it comes to even a kiss scene I get all uncomfy and just can't do it. Lately I've been coming up with so many smut scenes I wanna write but I keep second guessing myself and feeling all embarrassed. Any words of wisdom from a smut veteran like yourself?
i've shared some advice on this in more detail before and also here but the key question i'd ask yourself is: why
like. why are you embarrassed writing smut. why THIS and not writing fluff or whump or very elaborate longfics. because smut is at the end of the day any other type of writing, with just as much feeling and action and weird messy fluids.
"sex is taboo and shameful and i've got catholic guilt" - so fair, we live in a society. but also, sex is natural and a 100% morally neutral act. i'd be surprised if this wasn't underlying some part of the embarrassment but at a certain point, if this is the key thing holding you back, you might just need to sit down and consider whether you want the hegemonic bastards that suck the dick of advertisers and snuff out any sort of difference to be the thing holding you back from what is already a transgressive weirdo hobby. accept that if this is your biggest sticking point, you might not be ready to jump straight into writing a graphic monsterfucking piss play orgy and might have to start with heavy petting and missionary that's more feelings and "i love you"s than descriptions of genitals. and maybe you need to write 10,000 kissing scenes first to build up the courage to write the word "cock", but that's never going to be wasted time. there's no race. you don't need to jump straight in.
"fear of being perceived" - you are the arbiter of who sees this. you can post it anonymously, you can post this under a sock puppet account you made with a completely different email, you can wait until youve written 5 million words and post it all at once, you can literally never ever ever ever ever post it ever. but don't not write it because of an audience that doesn't even exist yet.
"fear of being cancelled for writing something weird" - the ao3 block button is a beautiful, beautiful feature. if someone reads something they don't like, what are they going to do? nark in your comments? whine? launch a smear campaign? fuck em. you should practice good internet safety to avoid getting doxx'd anyway, and if you do literally the only thing they can do is complain, which means all you have to do to get them to shut up is block them
"i like what i'm writing a Bit Too Much and don't know how to process that" - 1) self indulgence is the fucking shit but also 2) the writing is the processing it. writing is a tool that can help you identify the things that get you hot or your underlying opinions on the concept of intimacy and love. and dear god it's fucking awful to be vulnerable but the benefit is very very worth it. also no one's gonna know if you have a wank because you wrote a fic so hot you turned yourself on unless you tell them, so if that's how you gotta process it, then that's between you and god
"it's going to be bad" - it will unfortunately continue to be bad without practice.
if it wasn't immediately obvious from this answer, the only reason i ever got to 'smut veteran' stage was because i got really really fucking shameless about a lot of things, including the fact that i cannot say sexual things out loud, sometimes turn bright red while writing smut, and have still been known to get so embarrassed by a fic that i have to slam my laptop shut and put it away because i can't cope. and i think that part of writing anything that makes you feel that way is acknowledging that 1) you're strong enough to get through that discomfort and 2) a little bit of discomfort is probably worse than not writing anything at all
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wesslan · 3 months ago
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20 questions for writers
thank you @adelfie for the tag<3
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
18! (and one hidden). i did not think it was that many??? thought it was 10 tops, lol
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
272,860
3. What fandoms do you write for?
batman, used to write some dsmp, but now im kinda eeh about it. i also (for some godforsaken reason) have a harry potter WIP thats been sitting in my docs for like two years that i kinda wanna finish, kinda not (jk r*wling suck my dick challenge)
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
cards on the table
when in gotham: don’t drink the water
robin radio
o bury me not on the lone prairie
and their dreams they dreamed awake
5. Do you respond to comments?
i try!!!! the number overwhelms me sometimes, but i try to answer when i have the energy! :,)
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
oh god, i mean… i pretty much only write happy/hopeful endings🤠 mayyyybe ‘you have (1) new message’? its not all the way angsty but it’s kind of?? angsty??
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
gee whizz buddy see above and take your pick, really
8. Do you get hate on fics?
i have gotten one (1) hate comment and i treasured it dearly until the person that posted it deleted it😭 other than that, nawt really. some people give unsolicited advice/critique, but thats about it
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
nope. not really my thing
10. Do you write crossovers?
again, not really my thing.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
not that i know of! sure hope it stays that way
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
yesss!!! so cool! they asked permission, and now my fic exists in a whole other language!!!
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
no, and i think i’d be really awful at it. i cant say no to stuff, i cant keep deadlines, and i dont enjoy people being in the kitchen when i cook, so to speak
14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?
BAYBEY!! you KNOW i was a klance shipper first and a human second when i was like? 14? now tho? i’m shipping myself with sixteen hours of sleep and financial freedom. but also, deep in my heart,,,, charlie and carlisle from twilight. you could have been so beautiful.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?
man at this point, who knows what i’ll finish. maybe instant repeater ‘99. i LOVE the concept and the world building. but also i kinda left the fandom,,,
16. What are your writing strengths?
people (including my interactive storytelling teacher) have told me im good at writing distinct characters/realistic dialogue! so i guess that! :,D
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
CONSISTENCY. finishing things. ending up hating what i’ve written like 3 months after it’s done.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?
well,,, that’s what i always do. english is another language to me! cop out answer, lmao. but other than that, i guess i could be persuaded to write a few lines in spanish here and there. did study it for 7 years, after all.
overall, i thinks it pretty cool! as long as there is an ez translation somewhere, easy to understand without a translation, or if it’s not done in a way that bi/multilinguals absolutely would not speak B)
19. First fandom you wrote for?
oh god. percy jackson. it’s still out there somewhere. i forgot my username and password so i’ll prolly never find it (thank god) but yeah. it was solangelo bc i was closeted and emo.
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
probably ‘mothman is real and he wants to kill me’. i had a lot of fun with it! i also really like ‘*cocks gun* manor’s haunted’ just because i based it off of the haunting of hill house which is like, one of the best books ever.
that was fun!!! thanks again for the tag! <3 i’m tagging whoever wants to do this, and also (no pressure) @quotidian-oblivion
puss å kram, skumbanan!!❤️
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officialgleamstar · 7 months ago
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
thank u for the tag @cerealmonster15 :] sorry for forcing you into tagging me and then FORGETTING TO DO IT ONCE I GOT OFF WORK but insomnia is killing me tonight sooo tag game time :3
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
127 fics on my account, and then 130 anonymous fics, and two? maybe three? orphaned fics lol
2. What's your total AO3 word count?
826,251! getting close to 1 mil... maybe that should be a writing goal for this year :0
3. What fandoms do you write for?
currently its oxventure all the way down, baby bfdjgfdhhj i have a few dndads fics im still working on though, and i have an aftg fic im working on for an event right now as well! i need to... make sure i finish that on time, actually
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
they aaare mostly anonymous LOL but! for fics i list, these ones. the way that three of these are from 2017 and 2018... i know that makes sense because theyve had more time to accumulate kudos and also are for more popular fandoms but :') man 1. Cleaning Up - Haikyuu!! - 908 kudos 2. heart under your sleeve - 3rd Life - 616 kudos 3. four am - All For the Game - 502 kudos 4. his soul - Empires SMP, 3rd Life - 391 kudos 5. "Are you dense, or do you just not know how to say no?" - All For the Game - 288 kudos
5. Do you respond to comments?
yes i do!!! im bad at it, but i do :D
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
just like cereal, i dont write much angst, but probably you know i love you, right? or these feelings, they're not gone :0
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
most of my fics are disgustingly sweet and sappy so its hard to judge
8. Do you get hate on fics?
i have a few times but not enough to be a trend, lol
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
yeah lol if i cant write pet play and/or breeding kink i wither up and die. who said that
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?
just once! (can you kiss me more) absolutely beloved
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
two times that i know of
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
yeah lol someone translated a handful of my old rpf fics into russian :]
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
yeah, but never a finished fic
14. What’s your all time favourite ship?
you simply cannot make me choose. you cant make me choose. please.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
Divorced Dad Rock Mix you are everything to me but chapter 3 thru 6 are probably never seeing the light of day
16. What are your writing strengths?
im really good at telling a compelling story in a very small amount of word :] also, SPEED WRITING. i can write very quickly when i put my mind to it!
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
im so awful at ending fics just absolutely dogshit at it
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?
its . writing dialogue in another language, i guess? lol its fine
19. First fandom you wrote for?
pokemon or harry potter i think. maybe my little pony or minecraft. or world of warcraft but i think that was later? id have to dig through my deviantart and i dont feel like it lol
20. Favourite fic you’ve written?
god that is a hard question to answer, i love all of my fics a lot bfdgfjhdbghjd i think... the first fic to come to mind was, naturally, my beloved your love is tried and true-blue. normscary <333 AND my glennry soulmate fic as well, so where do we begin? hmmm... the johnny spells thing comes from a very personal space, and its a fic that i thought about for literal years, so its very near and dear to me in that sense as well. and on our dates, it's never daytime is a super self-indulgent fic that i reread a lot because its so perfectly targeted at myself lol same thing for fall (back) in and i love mine, mine, mine for more recent examples. uh. okay thats a lot of rambling LOL those i guess :3
tagging: hmmmmm @bidoofenergy and @cookies-over-yonder i think!!! have fun guys
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anawrites3 · 11 months ago
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20 Questions for Fic Writers
I got tagged by @zeroducks-2, thanks love 💕💕 Sorry it took me so long to answer -3-
How many works do you have on AO3? It's 44 (+1 unrevealed)! And 19 of that are DC fics
What’s your total A03 word count? 163,947 I need to post more on ao3, huh
What fandoms do you write for? Mostly DC rn, tho I have a few fics for COD
What are your top five fics by kudos? on this account all of those are bakudeku because I've been very deep in the fandom until last year lmao so I'm going to cheat a little :3 and list the ones from DC fandom to self-promote myself a little 😂
1. taking a break (alone, please) at 345! I'm really happy with that and quite surprised because it's the very first proper sladick fic I wrote! Dick gets hurt during a mission so Slade takes him somewhere to take care of the wound and maybe have a little fun while he's at that. The only problem is that Dick's comm gets turned on at some point.
2. unexpectedly beneficial at 289. This is surprise since it's a New Year fic and those, in my experience, never get that much kudso lmao It's also my second fic! Dick's stuck at Brucie's New Year Eve's party. Slade comes over to keep him company
3. bunny-shaped trouble at 230 kudos, the idea came from Claudia who sent me a prompt 💕 Dick gets turned into a bunny and takes the opportunity to annoy the hell out of Slade
4. persistence at 219! This was my entry for sladerobin week and for some reason I was very anxious so I'm glad its so high in the ranks Dick goes on an undercover mission, where he has to seduce the target. Slade isn't very happy about that.
5. conflict resolution at 217 kudos! It's the first part of the series and well, let's be honest, compared to the rest (that is posted here on tumblr now, im working on it to post it properly on ao3) it isn't very exciting but I still love it and I'm happy it's so high as well! King Slade Wilson offers the way to stop the war between Gotham and Defiance. He will stop the attacks if prince Richard becomes his royal consort.
Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I always do!! Sometimes it just takes me longer (like rn oops) but I always make sure to respond to comments and show people how much I appreciate them taking the moment to share their thoughts with me 💕💕
What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? It's definitely keeping what's mine because Dick is having awful time in this one, to the point that I tagged it as hurt/no comfort because well, Dick is hurt and doesnt get any comfort. I mean, he kind of does? But it doesnt actually comfort him so yeah 😂
What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I write a lot of fluff so this is actually a very difficult question lmao but I would say it's (not) willing to share which is a short domestic fluff. And Dick has a cat so that's very happy for me haha
Do you get hate on your fic? I do not, actually! And I'm a little surprised by it because sladick and batkids ships gets hated on a lot
Do you write smut? More and more lately
Do you write crossovers? Not really right now, no
Have you ever had a fic stolen? Thankfully no or at least I dont know about it lol
Have you ever had a fic translated? Nope
Have you ever co-written a fic? Not yet but I think it would be really fun!
What‘s your all-time favourite ship? I have one of those for every fandom I'm in lmao and right now it's sladick
What’s the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Gosh, don't say that lmao! Buut *looks quickly through the list of my wips* probably the one I named "the middle of the night" which is like,,, undercover mision identity porn masquerade ball sladick story that Im very exciting about but for some reason I just keep moving it down on my list of wips sooo... yeah. Maybe cause masquerade balls need a lot of dance descriptions and I suck at that lmao
What’s your writing strengths? Writing dialogue! I like it a lot and I've been told I'm good at it :3
What’s your writing weaknesses? Actually sitting down to start writing 😂 and more complicated descriptions like fights or dances and stuff like that, I'm still working on it
Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I like it a lot actually but not if there's too much of it - just a few sentences are enough or just a few words thrown here and there, and there needs to be translation somewhere in the fic, in the notes or something because people should know what the characters are saying but yeah, I like how it directly shows that someone is speaking in another language instead of writing "he cursed in russian" or other stuff like that
First fandom you wrote for? *hides my face into my hands* Strawberry Shortcake probably... from when I was still a babey...
Favourite fic you’ve ever written? sun and sunflower, a little brudick story about Bruce being smitten and a coward
Tagging time! @roipecheur @wingdingery @blackbeanbao @enak-s and anyone who'd like to do it as well!
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bobataeminsuga · 4 years ago
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ik u haven't even posted ur first fic yet but I'm very excited for it ;; what are ur fav fic tropes I'm curious
AWE TY that actually means a lot to me i didn't think anyone was going to still be thinking about it, ill try to post the first chapter of my chilumi fic on ao3 very soon but I have to get it beta read first
uh the fanfic tropes that i like to read and like to write have some differences
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these are the ones i like to read (i need to go to horny jail LOL, i like a lot of dark things sorry not really) (i think thats why im so fascinated by the chilumi twt community)
(D tier is more absolutely not, C tier is more sure if the plot/author is good)
but writing wise it’s pretty much the same except I cannot write smut to save my life, if someone said “include smut in your fic or receive C90 barbara” i guess i’ll be getting barbara for the rest of my rolls ...im also not that great at writing AUs bc my world building is just trash
i dunno if my fics are dark enough to be considered dark fics tho so uh that might be lower on the tierlist too
i’ve also had some fun writing a few crackfics, i only do crack fics when i need a break from writing tons of angst lol
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mithranqueersmusings · 4 years ago
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Before This Dance Is Through V
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Chapter: 5/16
Rating: M (Smut Warning)
Summary: Ringo's being going through a dry spell for the last year or so and when he regretfully tells his best friend John, he insists on taking them to an all-male strip club for some "fun". Ringo isn't sure whether it's the alcohol, his desperation or a mixture of the two but he thinks he might be falling in love with a stripper.
Tags: AU - Strippers, Modern Setting, Smut, Slow Burn
Pairings: George Harrison/Ringo Starr, John Lennon/Paul McCartney
AO3 link here / Fic masterlist here
Despite what John had suggested, Ringo didn't go back to The Helter Skelter the following week; he'd considered it when John sent him yet another late night text but ultimately decided it wasn't the best idea. Spike had been playing on his mind daily and Ringo wasn't sure he was prepared to face him again. Instead he focused on his drumming and searched for a few more students to teach, which were fairly easy to find. Usually Ringo enjoyed his time off, he understood he was lucky that he didn't have to work a 9-5 job just to get by, but recently he wanted his fill his time up as much as possible, to distract himself.
One of his new students seemed incredibly interested in him, they'd spent an hour just chatting in his living room before they'd even moved over to the drum kit. Ringo wasn't too fussed, he was getting paid by the hour so wasting time was beneficial to him but he didn't want to give the guy the wrong impression. He was a little bit older and attractive enough but Ringo simply wasn't interested.
"Why didn't you just go for it?" John had asked him when they next met up.
"I dunno..." Ringo mumbled, but a part of him knew very well.
He'd given the guy another lesson since then and it became clear that the guy's interest in him wasn't going away any time soon. Ringo felt bad about the whole thing, wasn't he just doing exactly what Spike was doing to him? He tried to act as professional as possible the second time around in attempt to get the guy to back off, considering he hadn't heard from him since he was hoping it had worked. What was wrong with him? Was he really going to make himself suffer like this all because of one guy? And not just any guy, a stripper who had shown absolutely no interest in him at all. It was ridiculous, he kept telling himself, but no matter how much he tried to convince himself that he had to get over Spike, he would still think about him every day without fail. Trying to distract himself with clients had been working somewhat, but it had been difficult, especially when his best friend was John Lennon.
       youre gonna love me
The text came through when Ringo was sat in a café getting some lunch. He'd finished with one of his younger students, a sweet girl who's parents had tried to convince her to try a more 'ladylike' instrument but she had promised only to give up the drums if she was awful; much to her delight, and Ringo's for being able to prove the stereotypical parents wrong, she was pretty good. Seeing her always put Ringo in a good mood, the parents mostly stayed away partly due to the noise but mostly due to disappointment, which meant they could joke around together. Ringo could tell she admired him and he welcomed it gladly, one of the best things about teaching was inspiring others, at least for him it was.
        do i not already?
        well yes         but youre gonna love me EVEN more
        what have you done
        well i happened to stop by the club last night
        oh god what did you do
        wow is that how little you trust me
        can you blame me
        suppose not         ANYWAY i got talking to paulie
        surprise surprise
        do you want the good news or not???
        fine fine sorry
        AS I WAS SAYING i was talking to paulie         and he told me that your special little someone has an onlyfans account
        first of all fuck you for calling him that         second of all wtf is onlyfans
        oh sorry i didnt realise you werent living in the 21st century
        ......         care to grace me with your knowledge?
        basically its a website where you can post exclusive stuff for ONLY FANS to see         its not a porn site or anything but its basically where people sell their nudes         MEANING spike has an account so you can totally see loads of raunchy filthy perverted pics of him
        but i have to pay?
        well weve all gotta make a living
        i can basically see him naked for free
        but this way you wont get all freaked out and embarrassed         well you will but nobody will know at least         so do you want the link or not???
Ringo paused for a few moments, he was gripping his phone tightly in both of his hands as he unblinkingly looked at John's words. If his mind was going to decide to make him suffer by enabling his intense interest in Spike, he may as well get something out of it.
        fine
        where are your manners richard??
        can i please have the link to the strippers nude photos please john please
        alright calm down         let me know if its worth while i might have a look
        idk if im even gonna look at it         paying for porn is a little dated
        treat yourself ringo         id offer to pay but im broke
        if youre broke why were you at the strip club last night?
        well SOMEONE had to go
        they really didnt
        im supporting my local economy
        i dont think thats how that works
        sure it is         anyway here you go
Ringo stared at the link for a while, his eyes even began to blur, he didn't want to risk opening it in public even though he knew there was little chance of anyone seeing. He finished his lunch in a hurry and headed home quickly, only when he was in the privacy of his bedroom did he dare open it. First he had to make an account, when he saw the screen loading up asking for an email address and password he just turned his screen off and put the phone down. This was far too much effort for something he shouldn't really have been doing in the first place. But it only took a few minutes for him to pick the phone back up and begin signing up, he used an old email as it felt less seedy that way and he didn't want to risk his name cropping up anywhere for Spike to see. Now he could load up the link properly and take a proper look at Spike's profile.
Just looking at the small profile picture was enough to startle Ringo a little, the dark eyes looking into the camera with that unreadable glimmer behind them. He was shirtless in the picture, Ringo wondered why that didn't catch his attention first, with the frame cutting off just before it showed anything too explicit. The header was a photo taken from the club, showing him in tight, leather pants and tassels on his nipples which matched the whip he held in his hand. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea. He'd spent so much time and effort trying not to think about this man, attempting to keep him out of his mind as much as possible. Ringo knew that if he went through with this all that progress would be lost, he'd be giving in to whatever strange obsession he'd developed for Spike, one that no doubt wasn't going to lead to anything good.
Ringo kept staring at the screen as though it was going to tell him what he should do. Spike's profile had no description, which wasn't very surprising, and it dashed any hope Ringo had of discovering something new about him. Right before he was about to put his phone down again, it vibrated.
        howd the wank go??
        john i dont care how long weve been friends asking how my wank was will always be weird
        youre right sorry         so how did it go???
        if you must know         i havent had a wank         i havent even paid for entry
        now whos the one being inappropriate??
        ha ha
        why havent you???
        feels weird
        oh i see         youll consume a bunch of unethical porn for free but god forbid you actually give sex workers any actual money
        you are the last person who can lecture me about unethical porn
        hey now watch yourself         ringo if you dont get a subscription I WILL
        go ahead
        and ill tell you every day what sexy sexy pictures hes posting         ill tell you EVERY SINGLE TIME i have a wank over them
        every time? i dont think youve got enough data for that
        im not joking
        neither am i         you wank A LOT
        ringooooo just buy it i swear to god         if its not worth it or you regret it or whatever ill give you the money back
        on top of the money you already owe me?
        have you always been such a capitalist
        youre not doing a very good job of convincing me
        fine         spikes cock         now are you convinced???
        maybe
        naked pictures of spike whenever and wherever you want them all for the low low price of 10 quid a month         convinced??
        fine fine         if itll shut you up
        im starting to think thats code for 'i really wanna do this but im too embarrassed to admit it'
        i hate you
        now that DEFINITELY code for 'john youre right'         anyway theres no time to be telling me how right i am all the time youve got dick pics to look at         even i wont stand in the way of a good wank         so dont bother replying to me until youve paid for that subscription young man
        im older than you
        DONT BOTHER REPLYING
Ringo let out a sigh and rested his head against the bedroom wall from where he was laying on the bed. He opened up the link again and his thumb hovered over the subscription button, why couldn't he just do it? The money wasn't an issue, it could've cost half as much or be double the price and he'd still be debating it all the same. Somehow it felt like an invasion of privacy, after all Spike hadn't told Ringo about it himself, but then again that didn't necessarily mean he didn't want Ringo to see it. After all it was like John said: everyone has to make a living somehow. Sometimes Ringo wished he could turn off that part of his brain that was so empathetic, so concerned about how everyone felt and what they were thinking. He knew that he wanted this, so why wasn't he allowing himself to have it? Ringo could see that he was being ridiculous, as he was with almost anything involving Spike, and after lying there for a while pondering and debating he decided to flip a coin. Heads would mean he got the subscription, tails that he didn't. He watched the coin spinning through the air after he flicked it upwards, then snatched it and slammed it down onto his forearm before slowly moving his hand away: it was tails. What a relief. Ringo chuckled to himself for being so foolish, settling down into his bed; it was still only around midday but he didn't have anywhere he needed to be.
So why didn't he feel relieved in the slightest?
This whole thing was getting tiring, the constant debate between what he believed he should do and what he wanted to do, and it seemed like it wasn't going to be ending anytime soon. Apparently he was in this for the long run, whatever that meant, but if he was going to turn down relatively attractive guys practically throwing themselves at him, he may as well go all the way. While he was putting in his credit card information, he stopped to think around three of four times, but once he'd finished and the images became accessible to him, his brain was barely able to conjure up a coherent sentence.
"Jesus..." Ringo breathed out as his eyes flicked across the plethora of pictures loading up on his screen.
There was a lot of them, and a lot of Spike was on display. Most of them were pictures taken at the club, either from a professional photographer in the audience or photos he'd taken himself in the mirrors backstage - Ringo could even see glimpses of Paul in the background of some of them. The ones that caught Ringo's eyes the most were those that seemed to be taken in his house, these also happened to be the ones in which Spike tended to be fully naked. It was very different experience to see him like this: a static image that he'd intentionally taken of himself and posted for so many people to see, an image that couldn't look back at Ringo and make him feel that strange mixture of excitement and shame. He began scrolling down the feed which only revealed more and more enticing photos. Ringo began to feel himself hardening, he suspected it had been happening for a while now but he'd been far too distracted to notice. He felt like a teenager discovering porn for the first time, it was difficult to remind himself that this wasn't anything new. Seeing Spike naked shouldn't have excited him so much, and yet it did.
One picture in particular drew Ringo's attention: Spike was stood in front of a bathroom mirror with a loose black tie lying against his bare chest, one hand was holding a phone and the other gripping his cock. He had dark eye make up on and his hair was messy. Ringo wasn't sure exactly what it was about this photo that was so enticing but he couldn't take his eyes off it. The prominence of his collarbones, the faint curls of his dark hair, how his slim fingers wrapped around himself. Slowly Ringo slid his own hand under the waistband of his boxers as he stared at the picture. At first he hesitated, his fingers stopped right above the base. It's not like this would've been the first time he'd touched himself while thinking about Spike, it would've been far from the last he imagined, but this was different. It was more concrete, more of an admission. Nothing felt quite as real when it's only being imagined, the haziness of lust fuzzing up the mind as it so often did, but now with a very real photo of Spike in front of him - which he'd paid to see - the feeling was far more tangible, far harder to ignore.
He'd come this far, he told himself as his hand sunk lower until his fingers were running along the length of his semi-hard cock, he may as well go all the way. To begin with Ringo stayed looking at this single picture as he slowly pumped himself, but as his lust began to grow he perused through more and more pictures: Spike kneeling naked in front of a mirror with a loose cigarette hanging from his lips, lying in the bath with bubbles only just about covering his nakedness, spread out on the bed with a gag in his mouth, handcuffs forcing his slim arms behind his back with his cock throbbing. None of this was anything Ringo hadn't seen before, like most people in this day and age he'd searched through the darker corners of the internet - sometimes willingly, sometimes John was to blame - but to see Spike in such a way was like an entirely new rush. Each picture drove Ringo further and further on, at times he almost dropped his phone with how sloppy his movements were becoming. Who took these photos? Ringo figured it was best not to think about it, the possibility that Spike had a boyfriend who took all these pictures of him would've been the quickest way to kill his erection.
Ringo began moaning and cursing wantonly as he got closer and closer to his orgasm, he had to stop flicking through the pictures because he could hardly concentrate on what his other hand was doing, so he settled on a final one to help him finish; it wasn't particularly strategic but he was definitely grateful that he selected the one that he did. In it Spike was looking directly into the camera, allowing Ringo to gaze longingly into the rich brown of his eyes and how his dark lashes curled beautifully around them. He was shirtless with nothing but a necklace on, the same necklace that Ringo had seen him wearing in the record store and Ringo couldn't help feeling a sense of satisfaction that he'd seen it with his own eyes, as though it meant something. Deep down he knew that it didn't but his inebriated mind was latching onto it. The nudity in the photo was hardly interesting Ringo by this point, although it would be wrong to say that he completely ignored the flatness of his stomach or the faint shadows of his ribs beneath his pale skin, it was the personal aspect which truly affected him.
This wasn't just lust. Lust Ringo could understand, he could compartmentalise it and give into it without much shame or a second thought. If this was just lust, he would've bought the subscription without a care and touched himself looking at the nakedness of Spike's body as though it meant nothing more than a way to get off. Yet here he was on the brink of orgasm looking into another man's eyes, eyes that felt like they were looking straight back at him as though they were sharing this moment together. It wasn't hard to imagine Spike's hand in place of his own, those deep eyes watching Ringo come undone piece by piece. Ringo's hip began to stutter, his leg twitching a little as he had to drop the phone down onto his lap as his head fell back against his pillow as his orgasm approached. It wasn't the image of Spike's naked body that filled Ringo's mind as he came, it wasn't his arse or his cock or even his chest, it was his face, his voice, it was him.
Ringo lay breathless on his bed for a while, the clarity that arrived as his orgasm subsided wasn't welcome in the slightest and he was reluctant to pick his phone back up to see Spike's eyes looking at him once again. There was no use in feeling ashamed about it, no point in trying to deny it any longer: his feelings for Spike were more than a mere passing fancy, that was clear. Exactly what he was meant to do about these feelings was far from clear but that wasn't something Ringo could figure out right now with cum on his stomach and the daylight seeping through his bedroom curtains.
When he'd picked up his phone he'd closed all the apps immediately, doing his best not to catch a glimpse of what he'd been so eagerly looking at before. Just as he was about to step into the shower to clean himself off, his phone buzzed; he almost couldn't hear it over the music he was blasting out. It alerted him for a moment as though it was going to be a message from Spike stating he knew exactly what Ringo had just done - it wouldn't have really surprised him had that been the case, Spike's face almost always looked like he knew something that nobody else did - but fortunately, or perhaps unfortunately, it was John.
        sooo how did the wank go
         who knows          but on a totally unrelated note im about to get into the shower
         well before you do that i have even more good news 
         can it not wait?
         NO because you might cum just at the thought of it and then youd be wasting a good shower
         well arent you considerate          and unnecessarily graphic
         thats me          anyway im taking you to the club next tuesday whether you like it or not
         im still waiting for the good news
         well if youd let me FINISH          next week theyre doing a special event and we just have to go          youll never guess what it is
         what is it?
         guess
         you just said ill never guess
         youre no fun
         WHAT IS IT
         alright alright keep your hair on          its a crossdressing event          high heels make up probably a few wigs all that good stuff
         im still waiting for the good news
         OH COME ON youre telling me you dont want to see spike in heels and fishnets with some lovely lipstick on
Ringo gulped. It wasn't a difficult image to conjure up his mind, considering he'd been staring at photos of Spike for the past twenty minutes and it excited him to say the least. He did want to see that, very much indeed.
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noussommeslessquelettes · 5 years ago
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ooo 4 the dipping chart im usually lawful evil, lawful good, true neutral, or neutral evil lol... and for the ask ill just start with 3 (omg I love these things too much lol) - ink, time-lapse, and playlist (& critic can be a bonus one if you want :) -ATC
all the evils, ur Power is unmatched
Ink: What do you do to “set the mood” when writing?
I have Tumblr open in another window constantly when I write, as well as my fic folder in Google Drive (which is named, quite aptly if I do say so myself, “shiznak”) The former is so I can keep an even level of stimulation so I don’t get distracted if I’m not in a hyperfocus, and the latter is to keep track of how many suggestions I still have in my editing (Left as in Gone is currently at 678, btw. I had a mini party in my deskchair when I got it under 1000 I’m ngl)
I have a couple of spots where I typically do my writing, basically just strategically angling my computer screen away from people so I don’t have to worry about onlookers. At times like now (usually after my meds have worn off) I usually have my bangs back in a hairband/kerchief so it doesn’t distract me
Time-lapse: How long have you been writing (as a hobby or for work)?
I think my first attempt at writing was when I was about 18? I didn’t finish anything and never thought of posting it. The first work I actually finished and uploaded to AO3 was in September of 2016. Before that I’d written exclusively headcanons, but that was like my first successful attempt at writing a completed thing. I’ve never written anything outside of fanfiction, although when I was a young teen I’d always fantasised about publishing my own novel (bitch never came up with a cogent plot tho so like 14 year old me can take a fucken SEAT)
Playlist: What kind of music/songs help you write? Do you have a writing playlist?
Because of the ADHD I can’t listen to music while I’m writing or editing (which I’m pretty sure I’ve said a billion times but for posterity’s sake ull hear it from me again OTL)
One song that does help me focus if there’s a lot of background noise is called Eclipse by Marketa Irglova, which if I’m correct hasn’t been uploaded anywhere on the internet (got it off my mum’s CD copy #ballers). It’s basically a piano/violin track in some minor key, though if u asked me to identify which one I’d activate a smoke bomb and get the fuck outta dodge. I only listen to it if I’m in a noisy place and can’t focus otherwise and the mofo’s on repeat
Although I will say something quite awful about me is that every time I’ve written smut in recent times, the song Pony by Ginuwine plays on nonstop loop in my head. It’s the horniest song I know, and while it does little to set the mood it happens nonetheless.
So yeah keep that in mind whenever ur reading my fanfics: if u pass by a smut scene, make sure to crank Pony to get urself in the headspace I wrote it in
Critic (bonus extra writing advice bc I inhale that shit)
It’s not advice I’ve received, per se, but it’s advice I like to give: please vary your sentence structure. If I have to read five sentences in a row starting with the POV character’s third person pronoun, or if all your sentences have the same clausal structure, I might very well turn my eyeballs off for good. Repetition is good when it’s used as a literary device. Repetition is not good when it results from you not knowing how to construct your sentences in any other way.
I’m not gonna say your writing has to be perfectly grammatical (in fact, I love it a lot more when the narration leans closer to the pattern of the spoken word rather than academic writing) but learning syntax and using it to your advantage is a fairly easy way of really elevating your writing
writer asks 📃
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nivks · 6 years ago
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what are some gryles fic recs for someone who’s read a lot of the most obvious fan faves eg doasl, everything by hllangel etc?
hearts gonna drop - fiddleyoumust (3k+, established relationship, blowjobs, sep 2012)
shine a light through - cyclogenesis (-1k, curtain fic, sep 2012)
give it up (first times is best times) - loafers (4k+, fucking, sep 2012)
know you now - tilda (1k+, established relationship, sep 2012)
i should ink my skin with your name - crucios (9k+, fluff, sep 2012)
do you think about me now and again - preromantics (1k+, fluff, sep 2012)
thanks for being an ear or whatever - jellyfishes (9k+, getting together, sep 2012)
can i get a tech support in here - mrsyt31 (2k+, first i love you, sep 2012)
i tried to do handstands for you - chex (6k+, fluff, blowjobs, oct 2012)
wished for infinity - crucios (4k+, fluff, moving in, oct 2012)
i came in here for that special offer - becka (-1k, frottage, nov 2012)
accidental domesticity - erstwhiled (1k+, fluff, nov 2012)
coming to yours - cyclogenesis (7k+, christmas fic, jan 2013)
first and last - estrella30 (5k+, curtain fic, jan 2013)
if you say it with your hands - pastlives (2k+, smut, post harrys 19th, feb 2013)
yes were going to party party - estrella30 (5k+, established relationship, post harrys 19th, feb 2013)
no reason to run - sandwich_armada (1k+, eloping!, feb 2013)
gotta hand it to you - rivers_bend (2k+, smut, feb 2013)
a day at the races - lottiem (1k+, concert, feb 2013)
nobodies waiting for me - chex (5k+, age swap, mar 2013)
a very very fine house - loafers (1k+, KIDFIC, mar 2013)
just five things - preromantics (1k+, coming out, fluff, mar 2013)
waking up song - tilda (1k+, touring, established relationship, apr 2013)
the city of love - trishapocalypse (2k+, smut, apr 2013)
dont come knocking at my door - fiddleyoumust (2k+, post-break up, sex, kinda hopeful ending, apr 2013)
friday im in love - becka (1k+, coming out,  may 2013)
figure it out - trishapocalypse (5k+, smut, may 2013)
easy like - loafers (3k+, rimming, may 2013)
were gonna bury this town tonight - trishapocalypse (6k+, dj!nick and model!harry, jun 2013)
oh tainted love - orphan_account (1k+, demon au,  jun 2013)
and then you became real and it was awful - blueandbrady (12k+, getting together, jul 2013)
An Abridged Sexual History of Nick Grimshaw: A Love Story - mrsronweasley (12k+, getting together, smut, jul 2013)
door number two - littlemousling (2k+, smut,  jul 2013)
howling through - chex (31k+, magic au, aug 2013)
words words words - mrsronweasley (5k+, sex, aug 2013)
be sure to wear some flowers in your hair - blamefincham (10k+, san fran au, aug 2013)
every ten thousand nights - tweedlebeebum (8k+, vampire au, aug 2013)
beginners mathematics for dummies - hostagesfic (33k+, mpreg, established relationship, aug 2013)
and the deep blue sea - chex (7k+, mermaid au, sep 2013)
tomorrow ill miss you - vae (-1k, clothes sharing, sep 2013)
and you know that i will - fueledbysquee (1k+, fluff, oct 2013)
identity parade - mrsronweasley (12k+, woke up a girl, oct 2013)
lover to lover - lately (5k+, hooker au, nov 2013)
come on baby be with me - fiddleyoumust (13k+, the holiday au, dec 2013)
OKAY! that list was basically me going to the nickharry tag on ao3, setting it from oldest to newest, then putting together most of the fics between the start of the tag to dec 2013 that i dont see talked about too often on here!! theres still plenty from 2014+ that i havnt added and theres still various other fics from estrella30, becka, rivers_bend, littlemousling, chex, waspabi, ymorton, blueandbrady, fiddleyoumust, junkshopdisco, tilda, mrsronweasley and sunsetmog posted in 2012/2013 but i feel like theyre pretty popular 💓
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blissedoutphil · 7 years ago
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Dan’s Purpose
When I first watched actual phan say this, my first thought was “wow im def gonna write lotsa smut about this” but somehow I ended up with....this? A smut blog writing angst?? What happened here :x
But I hope you enjoy my first attempt at (almost) non-smut!! Do give me feedback, like if I should just stick to smut or something lmao bc I honestly dont know if this is any good
EDIT: THANK YOU for voting for this fic in the phanficawards!! It's won third place in the Undiscovered Gem category :) thank you for motivating me and helping me every time I doubt my writing <33
4428 words of neko!dan, owner!Phil, angst, a lil fluff, mentions of smut, grinding, punishment
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Dan is Phil’s good little kitten. He’s proud of it. He loves it when his Master shows him off to people, loves it when his Master is proud of owning him. He knows he’s lucky to have Phil, especially since he could’ve ended up with anyone in this world, and there are many horrible, awful people out there.
Phil was fair, he was kind. He didn’t abuse his power like so many people did to nekos. He keeps Dan safe and he makes Dan feel loved. Phil treats Dan like a princess, always spoiling him.
Technically Dan was still Phil’s slave. No matter how nicely Phil treats him, he can’t escape from his fate in this world where nekos were just born, bred and sold to serve. Few lucky ones out there got training to serve in better jobs, but most nekos were just sold as pleasure slaves. Dan spent years afraid of being sold to someone nasty. He may not have been lucky enough to get training for a better job, but at least he was lucky enough to be sold to Phil. At least he wasn’t like some of the most unfortunate nekos who had no home and were just left on the street, vulnerable to anyone who mean harm.
When Dan first met Phil at 16, he had expected the worst. Phil was so tall and Dan barely reached his shoulders. He was terrified of Phil and he’d expected to be used immediately by the man 5 years older, but Phil barely touched him. Phil was caring and careful. He made the effort to earn Dan’s trust. He knew how nekos were generally treated terribly, especially since he grew up with one mistreated by his own family. He might have decided to buy a neko only to prove to himself that he wasn’t like his family. It took a while, but Dan warmed up to him soon enough.
And Dan learned that sex wasn’t always painful and scary like the nekos he’d met described. Phil was so gentle with him, he paid attention to Dan’s needs and he never made Dan do anything he was uncomfortable with. As a natural submissive, Dan discovered that he actually enjoyed pleasuring Phil. Soon he realised that he wanted to serve his owner - sexually or not. It was something he never thought was possible before being owned.
Phil did set rules and tasks, although he was lenient with them. Dan obeys them like the good cat he was. Simple things for Dan’s sake, really, like eating healthy, exercising, helping out with chores around the house, and no humping against furniture. Phil would only discipline him if he broke any rule or disobeyed him, but it was a rare occasion.
Dan loves it when his Master shows him off to people, but not this time. Adam crouched down to scritch the back of his ear, but Dan only flattened his ears. He wanted to hiss at Adam to shoo him away, but he knew his Master wouldn’t appreciate that. Dan was hiding under the office table, and with his back pressed against the wall, he realised it was a bad hiding spot.
“I don’t know what’s gotten into him today, he’s usually not that shy,” Phil spoke, addressing Adam who was standing back up.
When Adam left the room, Phil crouched down to have a proper look at Dan. “What’s wrong, pet?”
“Nothing...” Dan mumbled, “just. You didn’t warn me that we were gonna have company today.”
“Sorry about that, I’ll explain later, alright?” Phil said before hurrying out.
Technically, Dan was still Phil’s slave. He should be doing what Phil wants him to, should know what was expected of him even without verbal commands. In that moment, he was expected to greet this Adam guy politely. He knew that was what Phil wanted him to do. But Dan also knew that Phil wasn’t like normal neko slave owners. He wouldn’t get into trouble for acting against his owner’s wishes.
Although he never knew about this Adam guy before today, Dan just didn’t like him. He wasn’t even sure why, because the guy honestly seemed like a nice person. Phil won’t hang out with neko abusers, and he certainly won’t introduce such people to his beloved neko. So Dan knew that Adam was a nice guy. But still he couldn’t help feeling uneasy about him.
Perhaps it was the way Dan saw them entering the apartment, all huddled up together. Perhaps it was the way Phil smiled at Adam, a smile that made the corners of his eyes crinkle that usually, only Dan caused. Something about these little things made Dan’s stomach drop.
Dan quietly crawled and peeked around the office door in time to see Adam leaving. When he saw Adam kiss Phil goodbye, his heart stopped and that was when he knew he was in trouble.
Later that night, Phil was hugging Dan close in bed as they always do when they went to sleep.
“I didn’t plan for Adam to visit us tonight, sorry about that. We were just caught up in rain and we were only 2 blocks away from here, so I decided to bring him back for some warmth while waiting for the rain to stop before he could go home,” Phil stroked Dan’s curls as he spoke, and Dan’s ears perked up, listening intently.
“I’ve never heard of Adam before,” Dan muttered. Phil told him everything, his owner barely had any friends. Phil chuckled sheepishly.
“Yeah sorry bout that too. I’ve been seeing Adam for almost 3 weeks now? I never told you because I didn’t know if it was going to be a serious thing or just like a fling. But I think we might actually get serious.”
Phil was smiling now, a dreamy look on his face. He hadn’t had a partner in ages. He’d been single since before he bought Dan, and Dan’s been with him for 4 years. Dan knew this, so he should be happy for his owner. He really should.
But.
But he couldn’t stop the sinking feeling in his chest. He received lots of training at the neko centre on how to be a proper slave for his owner. How to serve and how to provide pleasure. But he was never taught on how to deal with heartache. Because who would think that a neko would fall in love with their owner?
Dan was in trouble.
Dan wasn’t stupid. He knew this day would come. Of course Phil would finally find someone one day. How could he not? Such a charming, positive and loving guy would surely win someone’s heart soon enough. And of course he wouldn’t expect a human to fall in love with a neko. Yes, he knows that Phil loves him, but not that way. So naturally, he shouldn’t fall in love with a human either.
Except.
Except Dan was stupid. How could anyone fall in love with someone who bought them? Someone he was technically a slave for? But then again, could he be blamed for falling for Phil? The only person in his life who ever showed care for him? Someone who treats him with respect despite their status? Dan was in love and he was stupid.
He was also silent for a bit too long. Phil was looking at him now, and he cleared his throat awkwardly.
“That’s. That’s great, Sir,” he said softly, avoiding eye contact.
Phil either didn’t notice anything wrong or he didn’t want to mention it because he kissed Dan goodnight and that was the end of the conversation.
Since then, Phil started coming home late. Once, he even spent the night at Adam’s and forgot to inform Dan, leaving Dan to sleep alone confused and worried.
The couple stumbled into the apartment late one night, and Dan caught a glimpse of Adam pushing Phil against the door as soon as it closed, the two of them urgently making out. Dan retreated to the office, he couldn’t bear to hear or watch them.
When he was too tired to stay up any longer, he went to the bedroom only to find the door closed, and sounds of sex coming from the other side of the door. Dan sighed and waited by the corridor.
Soon enough the sounds stopped. Dan’s ears were flattened, trying to drown them out. He felt dirty and wrong for hearing them. Perhaps even jealous, but he would never admit that. He waited for Phil to come out and look for him to go to sleep together. Silently hoped that Adam would leave. But time passed and the silence dragged on.
If Adam can satisfy Phil’s sexual needs then...what was Dan’s purpose there anymore? If Adam was now here to keep Phil company, was Dan still needed?
Technically, Dan was Phil’s slave. His purpose was to serve Phil sexually and satisfy his needs and wants. Phil was a lonely guy who needed company when he bought Dan. But if his needs and desires were being met by someone else...Dan was of no use.
His chest began heaving and tears slipped down his cheeks. He considered knocking on the door; even if he couldn’t sleep in bed with Phil, his cat bed was next to Phil’s bed. But he quickly decided against it, Phil was probably asleep already and who was Dan to disturb his Master’s rest?
He tried to stand to go to the lounge and sleep on the sofa, but his limbs felt heavy and he suddenly had no energy to move. He felt out of breath and he couldn’t stop trembling. Nekos who weren’t needed by their owners usually had two fates - either be sold to someone else or just abandoned. Was Phil as exceptional as Dan had thought all this time, or will he be just like any other neko owner out there?
Dan hiccuped and willed himself to shut his brain up and just go to sleep.
It was Adam who saw Dan first the next morning when he opened the bedroom door. Dan woke with a startle when the door swung open, losing his balance as he was curled up against the door.
“Oh! Dan, good morning,” Adam chirped, too enthusiastic in the early hours of the day for Dan’s liking.
Dan didn’t reply, only curled his tail around himself and shied away from the door. He heard Phil exclaim from inside the room, then heard Phil’s footsteps rushing to the door. Dan wanted to hide. He looked pitiful, with his swollen eyes and dried tear tracks down his face.
“Oh I’m so sorry I forgot to let you in, pet,” Phil apologised sincerely, crouching down to Dan.
“It’s okay,” Dan mumbled.
He felt like crying again, how pathetic. He tried his best to keep his composure and quickly went to the bathroom to wash up.
When Dan was done showering and changing, he went to the kitchen and found that Adam had cooked them breakfast. His tail hung between his legs. That was another thing he was meant to do. Adam was replacing him in every way and it was crushing him.
“Dan! Adam made us pancakes, come have some,” Phil gestured to the stack of pancakes on the kitchen table.
It smelled so good, but one look at Adam happily eating next to Phil and Dan’s appetite was gone.
“Not hungry,” Dan simply said and started to retreat from the kitchen.
“Dan, it’s not good to skip breakfast,” Phil’s voice was stern, he always placed importance on Dan’s eating habits.
Dan exhaled shakily, how stupid of him to deny his Master’s requests. Then again, if he was going to be disowned soon anyway, what’s the point of following orders? He steadied his breathing and walked out of the kitchen, ignoring Phil’s confused look.
After breakfast, Adam finally left and Phil took the opportunity to ask Dan about his behaviour earlier.
“Don’t lie to me, Dan. I can tell you only didn’t want to eat because breakfast was made by Adam, isn’t that right?” Phil asked, but he didn’t sound angry, just upset.
Dan didn’t want to admit that he could be so easily read by Phil, so he pawed at his tail nervously.
“Don’t you want to show Adam that you’re my good kitty?” Phil continued.
Dan frowned, how could Phil try to make him feel guilty like it was his fault that Adam was doing all his work now.
When Phil was met with silence again, he sighed. “I don’t know what you want when you don’t even want to talk to me. I have to go,” he got up and left the house, leaving Dan feeling absolutely hurt because Phil didn’t even kiss him goodbye like he always did before going to work.
Dan had a good cry and a great nap afterwards. In his nap, he dreamt of the last time he had sex with Phil. Phil had rimmed him slow and sweet, turning him into a moaning mess before fucking him gently, lovingly.
He was just about to get to the good part where Phil sucked him off while he came, but he suddenly woke up, panting and with a hard on.
Great. Dan groaned, he didn’t know when Phil was coming back since he never seemed to care to update Dan anymore, so he didn’t know how long he’d have to wait to get some relief from Phil. He thought about his dream and felt a mix of anger and lust. It’s been a month since they last had sex. A month since he got an orgasm, which is the longest he ever went without an orgasm since he moved in with Phil.
Then Dan got an idea. He already broke a rule in the morning, breaking another wouldn’t hurt. It’s not like Phil would find out anyway. Dan got out of bed and rushed to the couch in the lounge.
Perfect. It’s always been his favourite place to grind against until Phil placed the rule. The armrest especially gave the perfect amount of friction he needed. He hurriedly pushed his pants down and began humping the side of the couch.
It felt so good, he didn’t even care that he was breaking a rule. So what if he was? Phil doesn’t need him anymore. He’d be thrown out either way, so he should at least get some relief before meeting his fate.
Dan moved his hips urgently, feeling orgasm pool inside him. But tears suddenly blurred his vision as his thoughts drifted to Phil. This is all your fault, he thought. So stupid for falling for your owner. What kind of freak. Your fault, breaking your own heart like this. Now you gotta resort to humping against the couch for pleasure. Fucking pathetic.
Phil found Dan humping the couch. What on earth? First he refused to eat, now this? Breaking two rules in one day isn’t like Dan at all.
“Your fault, this is your own fault,” Dan kept muttering between sniffles, hips thrusting randomly even though he’d already come. It wasn’t even a satisfying orgasm, he was too caught up in his thoughts. He didn’t hear Phil enter the room either.
“Dan!” Phil shouted, and Dan stumbled away from the couch in surprise.
“What do you think you’re doing?!” Phil scolded.
Dan responded with a sob. He looked downright miserable, with his ears turned down and his tail limp behind him. Phil shook his head in disapproval.
“Don’t think looking like that will gain you sympathy points,” Phil reprimanded, “So are you going to explain to me why you’re misbehaving so much today?”
Dan looked at the floor. It was hard enough to accept the fact that he was no longer valuable in this place, why did Phil have to make him say it?
“It’s been a month since I got off,” he weakly argued instead.
“Well then you could’ve asked me to help you out!” Phil said exasperatedly.
“Pfft, as if you would,” Dan huffed.
Phil’s eyes widened in disbelief at what he heard.
“I’ve had it with your attitude today, Daniel,” he growled, “I let you off without a punishment this morning, but looks like I shouldn’t have.” 
Phil grabbed Dan’s arm, ignoring his yelp of protest. Dan sobbed loudly as he was dragged into the bedroom. Phil pulled out his cage from the closet and Dan whimpered at the sight of it. He could count the number of times he’d been in there with only one hand because he was a good neko who rarely got punished. But he hated the times he’d spent in there.
“You’re going to stay in here until you’ve come back to your senses, and until you finally decide to properly talk to me,” Phil stated.
Phil tutted when Dan looked up at him with wide, pleading eyes. “Honestly, what’s gotten in to you, Dan? I come back early from work to get ready for my one month anniversary dinner with Adam but now I gotta waste time cleaning your cum off the furniture!”
Phil pointed at the cage, and Dan’s shoulders drooped in defeat. There was no point in arguing. Dan started to feel guilty for his actions, ruining his Master’s anniversary in such an unpleasant way. His Master was a good man who didn’t deserve him, no matter how much Dan loved him. He wasn’t cruel, he was only trying to discipline him. So, Dan crawled into the cage with his tail hung between his legs.
Phil locked the cage. It was big enough for Dan to sit up and lay curled up. Phil was nice enough to always include a bowl of water and a small pillow and blanket in there.
Muttering in annoyance, Phil left the room to clean Dan’s mess. He then came back to get dressed for his dinner, never once looking at Dan despite his whining and whimpering. He left without a word, and Dan was surprised to find that he still hadn’t run out of tears.
Dan didn’t expect Phil to come home soon, in fact he was prepared for Phil to spend the night at Adam’s. It was obviously the better option than bringing Adam back here to see a miserable, useless neko in the room. But Dan told himself that he deserved it. He deserved having to spend the night in the cage, deserved being abandoned, deserved everything for being so naive and careless by falling for his owner.
After spending the night trying not to drown in all his negative thoughts and failing, he finally exhausted himself enough to go to sleep. His rest was short-lived however, as Phil actually returned a while later.
He quickly sat back up when he heard footsteps padding towards the room. He listened for a second pair of footsteps, but it seemed like Phil was alone.
He squinted when the lights were turned on, and blinked as he looked up. Phil was staring at him from the doorway, and Dan’s heart ached when he saw the look of disappointment on Phil’s face.
“I’ll have you know,” Phil talked lowly as he approached Dan, “Adam invited me over to his place after dinner but I could never leave you overnight like this.”
Dan didn’t understand. Why, why would Phil rather go back to a dumb neko than spend his anniversary night at his partner’s place? But his heart ached further at the knowledge that Phil actually cared enough to come back for him. He was a merciful Master who wouldn’t leave his pet in a cage for even a night, even though it was common to let nekos spend their whole sad lives caged up. Dan whimpered, Phil was making it harder for him to leave this privileged life and start a new one with some heartless owner.
Phil crouched down to be eye level with Dan. “You ready to talk to me now?” he questioned.
Dan nodded pitifully, sniffling. Phil unlocked the cage, but Dan didn’t move. He remained sat cross legged near the entrance. He did start speaking, though.
“Why?”
“Why what?” Phil asked. When he saw that Dan wasn’t going to move, he sat cross legged at the cage door, facing Dan.
“Why’d you come back when- when you could’ve spent the night with your. Your boyfriend? Why d-do you still care about me? Y-you’re making it harder for me!” Dan stuttered, unable to stop himself from crying again.
“Harder for you? I don’t understand, Dan. Of course I still care about you,” Phil spoke softly, brows furrowed in confusion. He wanted to hug Dan, but Dan didn’t look like he wanted any physical contact in that moment.
“Stop,” Dan sniffled, “just st-stop pretending already, I know I’m. I’m just a slave and. I’m a useless one and- and. Does no one want to buy me? Is that why? Nobody wants to take me off your hands?”
Phil was stunned by what he just heard. “Dan...” he began, but Dan wasn’t finished.
“I’m sorry, Master,” he stopped crying; it was easy when he finally accepted his fate, “Sorry because I tried to be a good pet for you, but I wasn’t good enough. Sorry I’m just wasting your space and time here now. Sorry for making you care for me even though you don’t need me anymore.”
“Dan-”
“I’m sorry you have to spend your anniversary night here, with a lousy neko. I should spend the night in the cage, it’s what I deserve,” Dan continued, speaking so fast he lost his breath.
He paused and looked up into Phil’s eyes, and was surprised to see that Phil was tearing up.
“Dan,” Phil shook his head and gently placed his hand on Dan’s shoulder, “listen here. I love you, Dan. Okay, it may not be the same way I love Adam, but I still love and care for you so much. You are still more important to me than he is, even if it’s our anniversary. You think you’re being replaced by Adam? No, honey, no. You’ll never be replaced, I’ll never sell you off, understand?”
Phil stroked Dan’s cheek, and the touch calmed Dan slightly as he leaned into it.
“And you don’t deserve to be punished for longer than necessary, okay, no neko deserves that. Nekos don’t deserve to be slaves, and I’d never take advantage of you or treat you as just a servant. You are a good pet, you’re my good pet. I may not need you to “serve” me anymore, but I still want you. Your personality, your company. Your warmth, the way your dimples appear when I make you smile. I still want all of that, how could I ever throw all of that away- throw you away?”
Dan had slowly moved to sit in Phil’s lap as Phil spoke. Phil cradled Dan and swayed them slowly, feeling Dan’s tail wrap around his waist.
“You’re amazing, Dan. And I’m sorry, too. I’m so sorry for neglecting you the past month. I’m sorry for not sharing with you about Adam sooner, I should’ve eased you into it instead of just breaking the news to you the way I did. I haven’t been the best owner recently, but I promise I’ll take care of you. Just because Adam’s in the picture now doesn’t mean I would forget you.”
Dan smiled for the first time since he knew about Adam, and Phil was happy to see his dimples again. Dan looked up at Phil, his eyes glimmering with adoration. Phil smiled back and kissed his forehead.
“If you’re not fond of Adam, I understand. But I hope you’ll warm up to him. He really likes you, you know?” Phil said hopefully.
“He does? Even though I never talked to him?” Dan said, amused.
“Mm-hmm,” Phil nodded vigorously.
Six months later
“Wake up, sleepyhead.”
“Mmphh,” Dan groaned, curling around the warm body next to him tighter.
“It’s your turn to make breakfast!”
“Urghhh why can’t Adam do it!” Dan grumbled, headbutting the shoulder next to him.
“Hey, ‘twas your idea to make it a taking turns thing,” Adam mumbled and pulled the blanket over his head.
Phil chuckled at the sight before him. He would’ve just made breakfast himself, but Dan had insisted that every chore around the house should be done in turns just so he could still feel useful. Even though Phil assured him plenty of times that he was more than okay with having Dan just be the lazy and cute pet in their little family.
After a few more minutes, Dan got up and stumbled his way to the bathroom. He brushed his teeth and let his mind wonder. Life is good. He may not be legally free of his slave status, but he is fortunate enough to live with not just one but two Masters who treat him with respect, shower him with love and care and spoil him more than any neko owner out there would.
Dan learned that his purpose in life wasn’t what the training centre brainwashed him into thinking. He wasn’t meant to merely be a servant, he was meant to bring happiness into his little family, to love and be loved. Just because he wasn’t doing what his status requires him to, it doesn’t mean he was of no use; he can still be cherished.
Sure, Phil may not love him the same way he loved Adam, but Phil still loved him and that was enough for Dan. He kept his promise on taking care of him and never leaving him. Dan felt so grateful to have him in his life.
He walked out of the bathroom and saw Adam still sleeping, his boxers still on the floor where it was thrown carelessly the previous night before they had sex. Dan smiled at the memory. He’d learned that the only thing more fun than pleasuring his Master, is getting to pleasure two Masters.
He entered the kitchen and saw Phil leaning against the counter, playing some game on his phone while waiting for the kettle to boil. Phil looked up when he heard Dan come in.
“Finally, you’re up!” Phil exclaimed, “I was about to just make breakfast myself.”
“You know you’re not supposed to do that! It’s my turn,” Dan tried to sound grouchy, but he couldn’t stop himself from smiling.
“G’mornin,” Phil smiled back and kissed Dan’s forehead.
Technically, Dan is Phil’s - and now Adam’s - slave. But Dan is also the luckiest neko in the world.
I originally wanted to end it with angst where Dan actually does get sold off but. I can’t imagine Phil to be that heartless haha and I don’t like sad endings either so yay for happy ending ^^
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bughead-fic-request · 7 years ago
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This is an effort to spread the word about all fan fiction writers in our little fandom. If you would like to be featured or nominate a writer, please contact me. Please reblog this post if you can and check out some of @juggiehasmyheart17 work!
1. First things first, if someone wanted to read your stories where can they find them.
Hello! My multific "Dancing Heels" can be found on ao3 and fanfiction as well as here on tumblr. My oneshots can be found here on tumblr.
2. Tell us a little about yourself.
I am 20 years old, I live in Baltimore, MD, United States. I work at a Pizza shop but I am currently in College. I recently switched my major to ASL Interpreting which I'm nervous and excited about. Um that’s it? Im pretty boring lol.
3. What do you never leave home without?
My phone, Stereotypical Millennial that I am. No but really I don’t feel safe without it.
4. Are you an early bird or a night owl?
Definitely a night owl! It is currently midnight where I live and I'm drinking a slurpee and watching videos on facebook.
5. If you could live in any fictional world which one would you choose and why?
Gilmore Girls for sure. A small town with so much love and quacky characters is a great place to be. Besides who wouldn't want to live in a world where Luke Danes lives?
6. Who is the most famous person you’ve ever met.
Um I met a famous Baltimore Orioles baseball player named Boog Powel.
7. What are some of your favorite movies/TV?
TV: Riverdale obiviously. New Girl, Gilmore Girls, The facts of life, Girlboss, Chasing Life, Switched at Birth. Movies: Fried Green Tomatoes, Dirty Dancing, Grease, I'm such a movie buff so there's a lot I won't bore you lol
8. What are some of your favorite bands/musicians?
Panic! At the disco, Taylor Swift, Lukas Graham, anything Broadway really.
9. Favorite Books?
Divergent Series, The Selection Series, The Chemical garden series. Can you tell I like dystopia trilogies?
10. Favorite Food?
Tomatoes like I will eat just tomatoes and salt lol
11. Biggest pet peeve?
Repeating noises like beeping. Someone saying things to me that make me feel stupid or dumb, calling me "Young Lady"
12. What did you want to be when you were little? What do you want to be now?
I wanted to be a cashier- like what was wrong with me lol now I want to be a published writer. 
13. What are your biggest fears? Do you have any strange fears?
Heights= panic attacks its awful, crickets, being out of control of things, ending up alone.
14. When you are on your deathbed what would be the one you’d regret not doing?
Not taking chances and always playing it safe and not traveling like I want to.
Okay... lets talk about your writing!
15. Which is your favorite of the fics you've written for the Bughead fandom?
My Dancing Heels fic, I've never been so excited to write something! I've fallen in love with it really.
16. Which was the hardest to write, in terms of plot?
Dancing Heels is kinda easy in the sense that it's based off of Dirty Dancing so the story is set already. But It's also difficult because I'm trying to pay homage to the film but also change it so people don’t get bored with it. It's hard to find a happy medium.
17. How do you come up with the ideas for you fic(s)? Do you people watch? Listen to music? Get inspired by TV/movies?
For oneshots I make are generally ideas I come up with by daydreaming about my crush and then I’m like ooooo that matches Riverdale. Or they come from prompts. And then Dancing Heels was inspired by Dirty Dancing.
18. Idea that you always wanted to write but could never make work?
Theres so many plots Ive come up with but I just cant put it on paper so I give them to other writers to use. One I’ve always toyed with is an arranged marriage fic where the girl is pregnant and her parents send her off to the guy and then they fall in love, kinda like "Magic of Ordinary Days" with Skeet Ulrich who knows I might try it after Dancing Heels is over.
19. Least favorite plot point/chapter/moment you’ve written?
Hmmm probably my portrayal of Archie in Dancing Heels, poor guy isn’t in the fic that much.
20. Favorite plot point/chapter/moment you’ve written?
My favorite moment is yet to come 😉 It's a moment like 2 chapters from now but the idea popped in my head so i wrote it ahead of time.
21.Favorite character to write?
I love writing Jughead in Dancing Heels! He is a very Angsty and guarded Jughead in this and I love peeling back his layers in the story.
22. Favorite line or lines of dialogue that you've written?
I know it's simple but so far my favorite is "That, Baby, is how we dance around here."
23. Best comment/review you’ve ever received?
I got a review on ao3 which included a lot of exclamation points and she asked me to update "asap you know like tomorrow"
24. How do you handle bad reviews or comments?
I don’t have a lot of experience with this but I always see that all the encouraging comments and rave reviews I get really out weigh those few bad comments. You have to put it all in perspective.
25. If you could change anything in any of your stories, what would it be?
Im bad at smut lol wish I could change the way I write it!
26. What is your favorite story you’ve ever written? Any fandom?
My favorite story ive written is actually not fanfiction. It’s a book I wrote while I was in high school and I hope to publish it one day.
27. What are you reading right now? Both fan fiction and general fiction?
I am reading "Summer Storms" by @lazydaizies which is a Bughead AU that I binge read the other night but its still being written. I also am reading "Fate of a Golden Rose" by @bliggyy which is a Beauty and The Beast Bughead AU.
28. Do you have an advice for writers that want to get into this fandom but might be scared? 
Riverdale has such amazing characters that are amazing to write! There is so many different aspects of these characters that you can tap into. Also the riverdale fandom is so loving especially Bughead shippers. They are the best, so welcoming and they literally die at any chance to read more bughead fics. So get out there and try it!!!
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bangtanficrecs · 7 years ago
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Lost & Found Batch #6
Been a while, but here’s a new batch of fics that us admins couldn’t find! If you happen to know the fic, reply to this post or send us an ask with the request number and title/author. Thank you! ~ Admin P
1)  hi! theres a fic i've been searching for recently. it's relatively new (i think) and it's taegi. tae is kinda feminine and wears jeans with flower patches (i think?) and is a stripper. yoongi is a mob boss/ganster and has a private session with tae. i think jimin or jungkook find out about yoongi requesting tae and warn him? thats as far as i got. thanks so much!!
2)  Hi! I was looking for a hybrid/shapeshifting au that I'm p sure hasnt been updated in a long time but I still wanna reread (and it's lost in my hundred subscriptions,,) Jimin is abused pretty fuckin awful by his past caretaker/the homeowner who's backyard he was borrowing. Namjin(?) finds him in an alleyway or smth covered in burns and injuries. They take him to a hospital but he's took weak to shift to hybrid form n stuck as a dog n unable to communicate. Thats all I remember 😩
Burn by Jimout
3)  can you help me find this yoonmin fic where jimin had a crush on jungkook but jungkook started dating taehyung and jimin was getting rly jealous? and yoongi was his tutor i think? there was this scene where yoongi was sleeping next to jimin or smthing and mumbled his name and jimin said smthing like "hyung you can't" i wanna find it so bad!!
Of Heartbreaks and Not-Too-Hidden Solutions by yoonmint
4)  hey! i was wondering if you knew this super power au fic where jungkook and taehyung are the pairing ? i think they're forced to have sex but smth happens to taehyung's powers? - hello !!!! it's the super powers anon ?? i don't think taekook had sex ??? but i remember taehyung created this large barrier with his power and only jungkook pushed through ?
Naughty Readings For Naughty Readers by Supermans_crib, chapter 12
5)  does anyone know the fic where i think it's yoongi and jimin who are art students and they run into each other when yoongi goes to get paint and like they're like wow cutie mchottie and then they get stuck in an elevator and have sex, I don't remember where it's from, sorry ;-;
Blame It On the Elevator by dom_joonie
6)  Hellooo. I was wondering if you could help me find a doc bc I'm slowly going insane over here in my dear search for it lmao. I don't remember the title but it's Yoonmin & the plot is that Jimin has a ~thing~ for Yoongi's voice, Yoongi finds out and teases him with it and I don't remember what else unfortunately :( help would be appreciated but if not it's cool!! thank you so much xx
Love at First Sigh by Elemir
7)  Hey! If you don't mind helping me I'm looking for this jikook fic, it's like an ot7 relationship but jin won't let jungkook join in with the 'adult' stuff until he's actually an adult. So on his 18th birthday he jumps jimin and adult things happen X''D Thank you so much!!!
Jungkook wants to Play too by staycute1234
8)  Hey I was wondering if u know a smut with jungkook where the reader is a chubby cheerleader and jungkook likes her and asks her to meet him outside after a basketball game he played and they get it on etc ❗️❓❗️❓❗️ - NOTE: Please do not send us anymore asks regarding reader fics. It’s in the FAQ, we don’t read them, we’re not much help, @bangtanreaderficrec are much better equipped to help you
9)  Do you know the fic where everyone made fun of Jk and then Namjoon told them to stop and later Jk made Namjoon suck his dick??
10)  Hey i know this sounds weird but im trying to find this fanfiction where jungkook forces Yoongi to have sex and yoongi gets recenge by tying jungkook to a pipe or sonething and doing it back. I love your blog so much thanks!
I Want To Have You by jenistark
11)  hi! I've been searching for a Yoonmin fic since forever and I just can't recall the name! basically it's a story about how yoongi wears a skirt and it's not because he's trans or he cross dresses or anything, im p sure it was something that just made him comfortable?? and it was just a story of his and jimins relationship development. if it rings a bell pls lmk, thanks!!
I don't know by PiscesYoongi
12) Uhm hey! i was looking for a jikook fic that i think its not completed, it has like an older jungkook thats a boxer. and i vaguely remember jimin being a masseuse?? i can't find it anywhere, n i swore i bookmarked it. thank you!
Just For Training [Re-Upload] by bangtanscreams
13)  Do you know the yoonmin fic where Jimin is an alpha and Yoongi is a beta and is going through a heat that happens every 6 or so months?? I can't find it anymore :/
We are Ours by signifying_nothing
14)  hiii do you by any chance know a yoonmin fic where yoonmin fall ij love but yoongi does drugs and starts to drift away so jimin commits suicide in thebathtub and yoongi comes back one day vowing to make it up to jm only to find that he's dead?,? thank youuu
15)  hi loves! do any of you lovely admins know the fic on ao3 where jungkook stops time and each time he does sexy stuff ;) with a member? he doesn't like stop time himself, it just happens, everything freezes and he does stuff, it would really help me out if you found it! if you can't, i appreciate you trying, good luck 💖
Somewhere Close to Reality by Trilluvium
16)  hi there is this one fic can't remember much but it was taekook and tae was scared of relationship and really didn't want one and kook was in love with tae and i think tae rejected him and he avoided kook??i don't remember anything else but please help 😔
City of Trees by GinForInk
17)  Can you guys help me find a fic where Namjin are adults and adopt the rest of them, but they all come from abusive families?? I remember it took place in New York and the title was in Korean
그 손을 내밀어줘 by sugavevo
18)  there was this one fic where yoongi was a church boy? or a pastor? and hobi was a demon and they fucked and hobi asks if he wants a dick in his mouth too and I think jimin appears with his dick out or something? can you help me find it?
father forgive me (for i have sinned) by sungmin (jeonggukkie)
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