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[90stvqueen]

when i was 11 and first got obsessed with wicked, i had no idea i was shipping these two women. which is insane because i'd already been reading fanfiction for years at that point. but with elphaba and galinda it was "their friendship is so beautiful and meaningful..." and it honestly wasn't until adulthood that i was like "...and also they lez out like crazy"

[arcadiabaytornado]

SPOILERS AHEAD Episode 5 Double Exposure Rapid Fire Thoughts After I Just Finished Two Route's:

A: I'm still so conflicted about Safi. I ended up refusing to help her because A: I do think she went to far multiple times. B: I don't feel like she really learned a lesson here. C: She broke her promises to Max by shapeshifting into Max and Amanda. If she can't even keep a promise like that then she's not someone Max can trust. HOWEVER...I do like her character in the evil type of way. I'm so bummed that we were so close to getting toxic yuri and then the game ripped it away. /hj

B: So. I don't like Amanda. At all. Will not be romancing again. She's just so...I literally don't know she see's in Max?? Every time Max speaks she's gets irritated, and she straight up says that she "dodged a bullet" if Max friendzoned her. I will admit I didn't really think about the moral implications about romancing someone on one timeline after being rejecting in the other, and I do think it's interesting that the game brought it up. I've literally never seen that addressed in a time travel story.

C: I can't believe how much I like Vinh?? He grew on me a lot through the course of the story, and I ended up liking his romance more than Amanda's, which is CRAZY. Him comparing Max to tarot card's in his social media message was cute, and I liked their little "focus on what's in front of you" exchange. (Though I prefer the Vinh/Max friendship route, I think) Overall I ended up really liking Vinh and his messiness, honestly he's one of my new favorites for all his nuances and complexities.

D: My favorite new character introduced in this game is Moses. He's been a great friend to Max since the start, and I really hope we get him again some day.

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E: They did so much Arcadia Bay/Chloe stuff in this episode, and I still feel like they didn't do enough??? They just explore any route thoroughly enough for tastes, but I did up preferring the Bae route again so, there's that. TBH I'm not holding out much hope that Max and Chloe will get back together. I would L O V E to be wrong....but IDK.

F: Diamond has powers I guess? I don't really have a lot of thoughts of her character TBH, and that's because I don't have a lot of thoughts on MOST of the characters. The only characters I ended up having any feelings toward were: Max, Gwen, Safi, Vinh, and Moses. The rest of them just faded into background noise for me, and I think a major complaint that I have is that every character feels kind of underdeveloped in a specific way that varies from character to character.

G: The end choice was...fine I guess?? For me it was the worst end choice in the franchise, and I feel like in the sequel it will only lead to a few small dialogue changes.

H: I I'd rate the game overall a 7/10, but I'd only rank this episode a 5/10. When the chapter ended my first thought was "What am I even supposed to say about this? It was underwhelming? It was slow? It made the entire game feel kind of pointless?" I'm not really finding any words it just...was a chapter I guess?? Like...I feel nothing strongly. Easily the best scenes were the ones with Max and Safi, but other than I found no substance anywhere. It was the chapter that just was....and my lingering feeling is disappointment.

If I was going to rank the episodes from how I liked them from most to least, I'd rank them: 2, 1, 3, 4, 5.

If I was going to rank the games from how I liked them from most to least, I'd rank them: LIS 1, LIS 2, Before The Storm, Double Exposure, True Colors. (It's weird because I think the high's of Double Exposure reached a high that True Colors never peaked at for me, but I also think the lows of Double Exposure reached a low that True Colors never dived to for me.)

Well. That sure a game. And I'm probably going to need a few days to be more eloquent than that.

[ninebaalart]

Chel and GLADOS

my first exposure to toxic yuri <3

[lumiolivier]

Getting some things off my chest (Alternatively, Why I Write)

So, I’m not over my trip to Michigan yet.  It was two weeks too long and the worst Thanksgiving ever on steroids.  I’m just going to get that out of the way now.  I know it was a month ago and I should be over it, but I’m not.  However, a little something, something kind of sprung from that in a weird epiphany.

While I was there, one of my family members asked me what I was doing (actually a lot of them did, but for the sake of argument, we’re going to narrow it down to one).  And I said that I was working on writing a book and maintaining five different stories a week.  And it’s gotten me a pretty big fan base, if I do say so myself.  She asked me what my numbers looked like and I said they were close to the two hundred thousand mark.  

Automatically, auto-fuckin-matically, her next question was if I was getting any money from it.  If I was, Aunt Gladys (I don’t have an Aunt Gladys, but again, sake of argument), I sure as hell wouldn’t be there.  No.  I don’t make any money off my writing.  And yeah, it sucks.  Let’s say I was.  Let’s say I was making a dollar per view.  Let’s bring up my view chart on FFN right now in current time on June 29th, 2017 at 11:30PM.

The number on the far right is its current overall view count.  If I got a dollar for every view I got, my Black Butler series would’ve bought me a damn nice house.  My Ouran High School Host Club series would’ve gotten me a damn nice car.  Everything else would be able to pay my bills.  

But unfortunately, that’s not the way this works.  So, I’m a broke ass bitch.

And what really broke me was when I told her I wasn’t making any money off of it, she asked me what the point was and that because I wasn’t making any money off it, I was wasting my time.

As if my depression and my anxiety wasn’t bad enough while I was there, that got me spiraling even worse.  I was going to scrap everything I’ve worked on, hang up my writer hat, and never speak of it again.  But tonight, I got to thinking.

Because of my “pointless” writing career, you know what it’s given me up to this point?  Because of the Ouran fic, I’ve given a lot of my regularly scheduled viewers a weekly hug and a place to vent if need be that’s a safe place.  Not to mention, it’s where I vent if need be.  And I don’t know about you, but I’ve made a few friends because of that story and I love them dearly.

Because of the Black Butler fic, some of my naughtiest fantasies have played out in front of me and it’s gotten me to where I am today.  Granted, it’s not all smut, but there are a few chapters that are rather spicy.  It’s what started my tenure on FFN and I’m not going anywhere anytime soon.  But it’s also broken me out of a lot of comfort zones, too.  It’s where I grew the confidence to post my stuff online in the first place.

Because of the Death Note fic, it’s made me more analytical.  I’d reread my own writing and find so many other routes to so many other things.  I know what blood splatters from a high place are meant to look like and I’ve gotten a lot of my spastic, fangirl feelings about L out in that story.

Because of the Avengers/Jessica Jones crossover, I’ve learned how to put in a beautifully woven web of underlying psychology in a story and not make it sound awful.  I learned about the effects of PTSD and manipulation and toxic people being toxic.  I learned more about human psychology in writing this story than I did in the entire semester I spent in a psychology class in high school.  Not only that, but because of one Clint Barton (actual angel and most underrated Avenger), I taught myself ASL.  And because of Natasha Romanoff (also an actual angel, underappreciated Avenger), I might have taught myself how to curse in Russian.

Speaking of languages!  Because of the Dramatical Murder fic, I learned German.  Noiz is German.  His brain goes on autopilot when he’s first waking up in the morning.  He reverts to his first language.  Also, when he’s under great deals of stress.  But that’s here nor there.  Because of (believe it or not) the Yuri!!!On Ice fic, I learned a LOT of Russian.  I learned a little bit of Japanese.  I learned Italian, French.  Why?  Because a lot of the characters are from different countries and they’re multilingual.  However, I will say this.  I learned more Japanese from the Ouran fic than the YOI fic.  And while we’re on the subject of languages...

Because of the Supernatural fic (and the Black Butler fic), I learned Latin!  Because in Supernatural, there’s the exorcisms, the spells, all that excitingness.  But I also learned lore and myth and I can’t tell you how weirdly interested I got in it.  

Also because of the Yuri!!!On Ice fic, I’d be up at one in the morning, choreographing Yuri and Yurio’s programs, so in a way, I learned to dance, too.  I needed to know how to describe the movements and the best way I could do that was to actually do them.  And I learned how long certain injuries take to heal.  

Because of the Fullmetal Alchemist fic, I had to teach myself basic chemistry.  I needed to know what you could and couldn’t transmute to get certain things (because the foundation of alchemy is that you need to have like elements in order to create).  I also learned what color flames certain chemical compounds produced.  I have a picture of my notes somewhere deep in the bowels of my Tumblr if you feel like doing some archaeology in my blog.  

So, no.  It’s not a great waste of time.  No, I don’t make any money at this, but that doesn’t mean I’m not getting any exposure.  I fully and whole-heartedly believe that I will get published one day.  I know it’s not going to be right now, but some day, someone’s going to see me, say I want her, and I’m going to be happily published with a steady contract.  Writing fic may seem stupid to some people, but to me, it’s home.  It’s my comfort.  And it’s my life, Aunt Gladys!  Let me live!  I know this is a long post, but I needed to get some things off my chest.  And to reward you for sticking around through my rant, here’s a GIF of a kitten.

Whoops...Wrong kitten.  (No joke, though, this came up when I searched the GIFs for kitten.  It gave me Yurio doing pirouettes while being miserable as hell because of Lilia)

There we go...<3