#my fingr hurts

[pix-writes]

Can you do a finger HCs for Ford pls? SFW/NSFW if you can include both

Ford's fingers HCs (sfw and nsfw below, so 18+)

SFW

Ford still has a little apprehension about his polydactly, some still remark on them or think he's freaky and constant childhood bullying and exclusion is no joke! So whilst he knows that he is not ashamed of them himself, he can't help but be tense at people's first responses to them either. Still has a habit of hiding them by standing with his hands behind his back most of the time.

Mabel's pure acceptance of his hands has undone some more of his insecurities and he definitely lets her paint them on occaision and he likes it a little, it's nice to feel acceptance. And if anyone comments on his hands when they are painted, he can just redirect the conversation to his niece to dodge their questions. Sometimes judgemental people are so focused on the fact that an older man has nail varnish on that the six fingers thing escapes their notice! "My grand-niece did these, she's so talented!"

In a relationship, he loves that you either a) didn't notice his six fingers at first b) forget that he has polydactly c) just thought that they were cool/interesting (a bit like Mabel did). Ford is the best person to hold hands with and somehow he doesn't know this? He has an extra finger space so when he holds your hand he totally envelops your five fingered hand with his! Will definitely gain more confidence about holding hands with you if you say this.

Everyone thought he would be a skilled musician because of his fingers (and that he was always good at physics) but he wasn't that great at it, had piano lessons at school but never did as well as the music teacher thought he should. Did play marching band with a woodwind instrument though. But he did learn this cool trick of rolling dice between his fingers, during his time in the portal ended up getting better at slight of hand, usually to do with shuffling cards (was more of his brother's forte though).

NSFW

Ford has pretty dextrous fingers and is pretty good with his fine motor skills, if you know what I mean! His touch can either be firm or delicate and his hands are also pretty big, being an over 6ft stocky guy, so his hands are likely to swallow yours up in comparison! All of this to say, he's good at fingering you. Is at least slightly aware of hurting you because of his fingers being larger than yours and long, but he also has a lot of patience, will open you up with care and curl his fingers in just the right way to stimulate your g and a spot, in ways you can never quite recreate by yourself!

Likes to see you take three of his fingers whilst his thumb brushes over your clit. Or if you're male, to see you take his fingers whilst he also has his other hand wrapped around your cock. Likes to run his hands all over your body, and thread his fingrs through your hair, if he can.

His extra finger does give him a little greivance though, he has learnt over time to do hand massages on himself, to help with some of the cramps he gets when he writes for extended periods of time, and that sort of thing. But it means he can do the same to you on your hands or feet, maybe you can also encourage him to massage your shoulders a little! His fingers can help dig into those knots and its pleasurable, will either get you in the mood or it can be something he offers as aftercare.

[floridamanbbh]

my fingr still hurts tumblr. i think i might die. keep calm, flip off ur local bbh with your splinted finger, and play LoL.

[an-ant-hill]

I forgot this is my personal blog as well and I can just vent So anyway,

TW//: under the cut are mentions of hospitals, ovaries, blood, surgery, vomit, suicide, whatever.

SO i tried going to bed at like 3 AM last friday. But my mission to eepytown was interrupted drastically by the worst stabbing pain in my lower abdomen that I'd Ever felt in my life. But I'm a stubborn son of a bitch, so I figured Ahhh It'll pass on it's own! Maybe it's just a fart!

it wasn't a fart.

After about two hours of squirming and groaning in pain, I took a buttload of painkillers and called my mom. She came running to my room immediately and called the emergency services. Meanwhile, I was busy spewing out the contents of my stomach. Including the painkillers. So I was back to square one.

Guess What The Emergency Fucking Services told us??

"Yeah nah just take some painkillers lol we can't do much for u now"

BITCH YOU COULD'VE PICKEd me UP. AND GAVE ME. SOMETHING STRONGER THAN FUCJING PARACETAMOL

We called back.

"Ah ye just try a suppository then!"

I was ready to kill them.

I didn't sleep. I couldn't sleep. My mom didn't sleep, she stayed with me the whole time, until the hospital opened and then she immediately drove me there.

The car ride was agonising. The waiting room was agonising. Hell, existence was agonising. I had two options in my head at that point. Either someone fucking helps me Right Now or I'll off myself somehow. I was in too much pain.

Finally, our doctor calls us and we go to their room so she can examine me.

SHE DOES AN INTERNAL EXAMINATION. HER FINGRS. GO INSIDE. MY [clown honk]. I SCREAMED IN PAIN. HOLY SHIt I HATED HER AT THAT MOMENT.

Anyway, she told us to rush to the emergency department. So we did. More questions, tests, etc. Sent off to gynaecology after receiving a very relieving injection of morphine (i'm gonna kiss the nurse who gave me that shit thank you so much)

ULTRASOUND :D WITH A ROD :D INSIDE MY [clown noise] more screaming.

They found a large cyst. I was admitted. I finally got a comfy bed and some IV fluids (i still couldn't hold down even one sip of water)

Hours pass. Have you ever been in excruciating pain while also being horribly exhausted? It's so fucking weird. You're writhing in pain yet simultaneously half-falling asleep.

OH and by the way, I hadn't eaten anything yet since dinner the night before. And now I wasn't allowed to, cuz I needed surgery.

I spent a total of 15 hours in agonising pain, some of which were soothed mildly by IV painkillers, until I finally got wheeled into the OR where they put me under for a laparoscopy. Pretty sure I told the surgeons to sleep tight when they put me under..

After only about an hour and a half, I woke up again as they were rolling me back to a room. I was immediately asking questions about the surgery, how it went, what they saw, what my insides look like, man I don't even know I was still out of it from the anaesthesia, but I was clearly Very Interested.

I was finally pain free. Apart from the surgical wounds, but that's a pain I could totally deal with compared to what I had.

Turns out, that large cyst they saw, (a very bloody one apparently) caused an ovarian torsion. My ovary had twisted. That's what hurt so much. What the hell, I didn't even know ovaries could do that. I'd heard about testicular torsion before but not ovarian.

Anyway, I could finally sleep and eat and I no longer had to puke. The next day, at around 2pm, I was discharged. I immediately rented a wheelchair so I could catch a glimpse of the pride parade that was going on in my town lol.

Jesus christ. What a weekend.

[smulnsander]

Planned parenthood is evil the hurt my fingr

[333near]

i hurt my fingr

[justanotherpersonsuniverse]

jesus fuck i drew most of tha tpost with my stoopid laptop touchpad my fingr hurts

[reidimagines]

Could I make a request of you? Maybe Spencer and the reader are fostering a kid who has a disability of some sort, and they really decide they wanna be their parent?

ahh so cute! The child is deaf, and I made you a translator. I hope you like it!

“I can’t believe it’s over,” You couldn’t lie; you were sad, missed him already. “Isn’t there anything-” 

“Hey,” Spencer said softly, moving closer to you. “You know that he’ll feel his best there. You met them, they’re two lovely ladies, one is always home. Malcolm needs that.” 

As much as you knew he was right, it still hurt. You and Spencer had had that child in your protection, your care, for five months. It was hard to not get attached. You let him wrap his arms around you, slumping in his embrace. “I know.” You sighed finally, closing your eyes. 

“He’ll miss us, too,” You knew he only said it to make you feel better, but it didn’t work. “I mean, a child gets-” 

“Stop, you’re going to make me cry,” You chuckled, holding back tears. You still had Malcolm for another week, but his new guardians were coming in at least three times. “I think I need some air.” Just the thought of that - no matter how lovely they were - made you feel helpless, sad.

You pulled yourself away from Spencer, and soon found yourself sitting on the stairs to your apartment. You hadn’t expected saying goodbye to Malcolm would be so hard. You felt like he needed you, as silly as it was. You’d met the people who’d adopt him. They were good people, both had training in helping people, one even followed some classes around deafness. There was no better place for Malcolm to be, and yet… 

You heard the door behind you, and scooted over to let the person pass. But they didn’t. It was Spencer, he sat down next to you. “You can’t shut me out right now,” 

“I’m not, I just don’t want to talk right now.” You muttered. “I didn’t know it would be this hard.”

Spencer hesitantly put an arm around you, and once again, you let yourself lean into his touch. “I know.”

“Do you think we did well?” You asked, turning your head to face him. “Like, as parents?” 

He glanced at you, seeing the need for him to say the absolute right thing for once. “Yes,” He said. “We did well. We’re good parents. Much to learn, sure-“

You smiled softly, resting your head on his shoulder. “Do you think we could…” you trailed off, sighing deeply. “Start a family, one day?” 

He was quiet, at that. For a moment, you were worried you’d said something he wasn’t ready for, or something he couldn’t answer. You knew he wanted children, it was you who hadn’t been as vocal about it. He wanted children, but did he want them with you?

“I’d love that,” He eventually said. “Not right away, we’re both not in the right space for that, but…” 

“Someday soon?” You asked, almost hopeful. He chuckled, pulling you closer once more. 

“You’re just saying that because Malcolm gave you baby fever.” 

“Hmmm,” You hummed softly, closing your eyes. Now that Spencer was here, the breeze was comforting, and you felt… okay. At peace. “He’s not a baby, though.” 

“Don’t we have to pick him up?” 

“Yeah, wanna join? It’s perfect weather for a milkshake or something.” 

—

“Is there anything-” You said to the social worker, looking for the right words. “I mean, I know they’re pretty set, but... He’s been with us for the past few months, he’s adapting. I can’t imagine anyone taking better care of him.”

The social worker sighed, taking his glasses off. “I don’t know what you want me to say, they’re going to come in to talk to him, thy signed the paper-”

“There has to be a way,” Spencer jumped in. “He’s old enough to make a choice, right?”

You and Spencer, although a bit impulsively, had decided that you wanted to adopt Malcholm. It would be a bit of a fight, since most of the paperwork was already done by Nina and Ellie, but they had yet to meet the young boy.

“There’s nothing I can do. Unless they don’t like him, it’s a sealed deal. And I wouldn’t count on that.”

Your heart was racing, your eyes moved to Malcholm in the other room instantly. He was playing with cars. You knew there was little chance you could still have a chance, but you had to hope. You couldn’t lose him.

Nina and Ellie came in a few minutes late, you and Spencer watched from behind the window as they spoke with the social worker, as they talked to Malcholm.

“They can’t even sign right,” You huffed, although it was a bit petty. You’d studied it for years, they’d probably learned it a few months ago. “Why’s he crying?”

You grabbed Spencer’s hand, seeing the boy cry. Nina tried, but it didn’t really work. “You can go in, you know that, right?” Spencer said softly.

You didn’t want to, not really. As much as you wanted to adopt Maclcohlm, you knew the chance was small. But he needed you, so you went in with a soft smile. You grabbed his attention, and his arms went for you. 

“Do you mind?” You asked the woman, who shook her head. He couldn’t hear you, but you whispered little comforting nothings, took him in your lap and ran fingrs through his hair. When you looked up, all you saw was Spencer looking at both of you adorningly.

“You’re good with him,” Nina said with a smile, sitting next to you, moving to take his hand. He pulled back, burying his face in your neck.

“He’s a bit shy,” You said. “He just started to make friends at school. Where’s he going to school?”

“Well, there’s a special school not too far,” Nina said. “We live too far to keep him on the same school.”

You nodded, although you didn’t agree. In his file, it said he had problems with connecting with people, dragging him to another school again couldn’t be good. You knew Spencer had a similair comment on the tip of his tongue, but he didn’t speak when you shot him a glare. “Why’d you decide on Malcholm?”

“We didn’t want a baby, we wanted someone full of life-”

You laughed, you didn’t mean to, but you had to laugh. “Then you picked the wrong kid, he’s calm.”

--

“Wait, what?”

“They backed out,” The social worker said. “I know it’s last minute, but they felt little connection with Malcholm. I know it’s unusual, but if you want, you can come fill in the paperwork.”

You looked at Spencer, surprise evident on your face. “What?” He asked.

“I’ll call you for an appointment, thank you, sir.”

“What?” Spencer repeated. “You’re lookng at me funny.”

“Nina -” You began. “They- we... we can sign to adopt Malcholm.”

He looked as surprise as you’d imagined your own face before grinning and wrapping you in a hug. “Oh my god, we’re going to be parents.”

“I know,” you said, getting a bit teary. “I can’t believe it.”

“I love you,” He said. “We’re going to be amazing parents.”

[notthatiwilleverwriteit]

You wouldn’t think a single squeeze of hand could break my heart like this. But it sure can. One last squeeze before Aki let go for good.

They had known each other’s hands for years. Aki’s hands were strong and muscular, surprisingly nimble and delicate despite their size. They had grabbed a hold of Ugetsu many times – his forearm, shoulder, hips, ass, back of his neck, a fistful of his hair, back of his thighs. Aki’s hands were sensitive for Ugetsu’s provocations and easily rose to his bait. His slightly thicker and rough fingers had brushed through Ugetsu’s soft locks hundreds of times. They had aimlessly stroked his head while they were laying around in bed, both too lazy to get up just yet. They had tucked especially stubborn curls behind Ugetsu’s ear before his performance. They had played with the curled tips, damp with sweat, while Ugetsu’s head was resting on his chest, listening to Aki’s heartbeat slowing down. The big hands had landed to annoyingly tussle the top of Ugetsu’s head countless times and barely escaped his irritated swat. The wide palms had enveloped his face to capture Ugetsu’s mouth in a kiss. The calloused thumbs had stroked his cheek both in love and comfort. Ugetsu didn’t think there were any parts of him left, both body and soul, where Aki hadn’t touched him with those hands.

Ugetsu’s hands were slimmer and smaller but they were quick. Sometimes he didn’t have the time to think before his hands were already moving and he ended up breaking, shattering, swinging, hurting. He had hurt Aki, both his body and soul, plenty of times with his hands. But they also tried to fix it right after – scoop, cup and hold whatever he had broken back together. Ugetsu’s hands gave away his emotions, they always betrayed him. Anger, impatience, restlessness, pain, loneliness. They fumbled with the lighter, tapped against the dark mahogany of the violin bow, ripped off pages of his notebook in fits of frustration. But they were also quick to tease and play. Cold fingers sneaking under the hem of Aki’s shirt and skittering across his warm skin like quicksilver. Over the years Ugetsu’s hands had gained confidence – they had gone from tentatively wrapping around Aki’s shoulders to demandingly tugging on his hair, fingertips digging into his back. Ugetsu’s hands and fingers were like magic – they drew out the most beautiful sounds when sliding along the violin strings. His hands connected all the emotions welling inside him to the lifeless piece of wood, making it resonate in perfect harmony. It unnerved Ugetsu every time Aki took hold of his hands and pulled them to touch him instead of the violin.

Their hands had so many memories of each other. Their fingres slipping apart was the last one.

[twilightofthesandwiches]

That’s right! I’m still thinking about that scene! And I have more to say!

Like I mentioned in my previous post about this scene, if Aziraphale REALLY wanted to ‘lose the gut’, it would’ve probably been as easy for him as snapping his fingres. He looks like a soft, chubby middle-aged man because that’s legit just the way he likes to present himself. 

So... like... what he have here in This Scene, is not *just* a character being body-shamed - but a Queer character being told by.... his employer, a family member, a supposed ‘friend’... however you wanna read Aziraphale’s relation to Gabriel: “Hey, I know we tolorated that weird way you present yourself before. But we both now that’s shameful and embarrassing. Come on!  We both know that deep down what you REALLY are is that Other Thing we consider acceptable and cool! (and is like me!) Isn’t that right?” And it HURTS because even though Aziraphale is physically capable of doing what Gabriel asks, that’s not how he wants to present. That’s not who he wants to be.

And if Heaven wins that war, it’s entirely possible he won’t ever get to be who he likes to be be ever again.

[michealharrypotter]

Clingy and Cows Chapter 5

Sorry about the POV’s, they’re a little choppy. 

Harry POV

The wind whistled in my ears as we ripped down the highway at 45 miles an hour which doesn’t seem too fast but when you’re in an open vehicle it is. Trust me. I watched as we passed pasture after pasture. Each one was unique. Some already had golden hay in neat lines, some fresh green still growing, and others completely different.

I was actually truly amazed by what I saw. 

We took a right onto a dirt road and continued up it until we came to this ring like thing. 

I am not scared. I am not scared. I am not scared……. I’m scared. 

I looked at everyone around me and they all had accumulated sunglasses at some point and I don’t know when. 

“Babe? Should I have a pair of sunnies too?” 

“Probably. That is why I packed yours. It gets really  dusty on the trail if you haven’t noticed already,” Laurie said. 

“Wow, okay. You are really prepared”

“Yep. I mean I spent my childhood here. I know the ins and outs of everything in this damn county”

We set off with us in the lead and everyone else behind us. 

It’s truly beautiful. 

There were sunflowers covering the whole mountain. As we got further up into the mountain, we started seeing huge pine trees. I mean huge. 

I felt extremely bad for not wanting to come here sooner. I assumed it was only going to be dead grass, but boy was I wrong. 

“Laurie. This is just so... “

“Amazing?”

“Yeah. If that’s even the word to explain it”

“You know, we’re coming up on this part where as a little girl I always imagined getting proposed to”

She pointed to a field to my left that was covered in wildflowers. 

Good Lord. She wasn’t kidding when she said she dreams of wildflowers. I would too if I had grown up here.

Laurie’s POV

We rode past the field of wildflowers that I have dreamed of getting proposed to for years. Jake and I used to talk about how one day he would propose to me. Although Harry didn’t need to know that detail

What would it have been like if I had never met Harry? Would Jake and I actually be married right now? Would I have my books? Would I be going to university to get my Phd? God, Laurie you need to stop. You are happy with him. You wouldn’t change it for the world. 

I snapped out of the trance when Harry said, “I need to pee.”

I nodded then signaled to my fellow riders that we were pulling over. 

Sammy pulled up to my side, “Why are we stopping?”

“My boyfriend has the bladder of a two year old, that’s why,” I said. 

Sammy rolled her eyes.

Jake’s POV

I wonder what would have happened if she hadn’t met that dickwad, Harry? Would we have been married? I mean probably, I love her still. I would have proposed to her in that field,  then   we would get married in my backyard with all of our friends.  We would live in a nice house with our dogs and horses. 

“Hey mate,” said Harry.

“I’m not your mate,” I said bitterly.

“Jesus, I’m just trying to be friendly,” Harry snapped back. 

“Well it ain’t working. So I suggest you move along now and stay out of my way. Okay?”

“Look if this is about Laurie coming over the other night crying, I’m sorry. We made up. We’re okay now,”

“Does it look like I give a fuck whether you made up or not?” I asked.

“Actually no. Let me answer that for you. I don’t care because either way, you made her sad. Men aren’t supposed to hurt their women. You hear me? So if I hear one more damn time that you were treating her wrong, boy you don’t even want to know what I’ll do.”

“God. You know what? I thought you were a cool dude at first but guess I was wrong,” Harry said.

“ Get out of my face,” I said back

“Or what?” 

I took a step forward ready to swing. 

“Jake no! Do you really want to do this? Laurie is less than a mile up the road with Sammy. I know damn well it would hurt her more than anything to see you beating up her boyfriend,” said Evan. 

“Fine, Styles. Be grateful I let you go so easy this time,” I said while glaring at him “Next time, I won’t be as forgiving” and with that I walked back to my fourwheeler. 

Laurie’s POV

“Hey we heard what sounded like arguing, everything okay?” I asked Harry? 

“Yeah, no problem here baby”

“Okay” 

I was a little suspicious, I knew the boys don’t like each other all too well. 

“Alright, everyone ready?”

“Yes ma’am”

“Yep”

“Okay, do y’all mind if I take the lead with Harry”

“No that’s alright,” said Evan. 

I looked over just in time to see Jake rolling his eyes. 

What the hell was that all about? 

I dismissed it and started up the ATV again. 

Harry’s POV

We had gotten back to the house just over a little bit ago and everyone had gone home. 

“Laurie?” 

“Yes baby?” she asked while hugging me. 

“Do you have any idea as to why Jake wouldn’t like me?”

“Well not really. I’m sure he’s just being over protective. I mean he’s basically family. I’m sure he’s just looking out for me” 

“Okay. Thank you baby” 

“Mhm. Would you like  to take a nap with me. I’m quite tired ?” I asked her. 

“No thank you baby. I think I’ll just head on outside to the porch and read for a bit”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, come and get me if you need anything”

“Mmm” I kissed her lightly then headed upstairs to take a nap. 

Laurie’s POV

I walked to the kitchen to get myself a cup of tea to sip on while reading my book. I chose one of my favorites, gingerbread tea. 

Once the tea was done, I grabbed by book and headed outside. I was currently reading Homeless Bird by Gloria Whelan. It is quite lovely, yet amazingly sad. It’s about a young woman who is sold into a marriage but then her husband dies. The poor young girl has to live with her evil mother-in-law. The mother-in-law can’t stand her anymore and abandoned her in a city for widows. 

I had finished by tea and had gotten to the end of my book when I was letting myself indulge in the serenity around me. 

I have been blessed with this beautiful earth, loving boyfriend, and friends. 

I got so lost in my thoughts that I didn’t hear Jake coming around the house to sit me. 

“Laurie,” Jake whispered. 

I jumped quite high in my chair, “Good lord man, I think you about killed me”

“Sorry, sorry,” he chuckled. 

“What are you doing here Jake?”

“Oh Laurs,” he said while looking at me. 

“Jake, why are you here?” I asked again. 

“You have no idea how much I love you do you?”

“Jake, what are you saying?”

“I’m saying that I love you Laurie! And have since the day we met. I have never stopped loving you. And when I drove past that field today, it just reminded me how much I miss you,” he paused for a second. “Laurie, I love you”.

“Jake don’t do this” I said quietly. 

“Why? Why not? I love you Laurie. Do you not love me?”

“No Jake, I love you, just not like that. I’m not 18 anymore Jake. I’ve grown. I have a new life in Utah. I have a boyfriend of whom I love very much”

“Oh fuck your boyfriend. The guys a dumbass anyway”

“Excuse me? You do NOT have the right to talk about him like that. I love him Jake. Why can’t you just wrap your head around the fact that I love Harry?”

“Because Laurie, it was supposed to be us. We were supposed to be here right now. I was supposed to be the one to call you baby and to ride with you through the canyon. We were supposed to be getting married in the summer of ‘17,” he said while his voice raised. 

“Jake, you can’t tell me that you still think after all these years that we are going to get married. God Jake, we made that promise when we were like 16. For God’s sake let it go. We were innocent. We didn’t think we would ever find love outside of ourselves” I yelled. 

Just then a sleepy Harry opened the door, “Baby, what’s wrong?”

“Nothing Harry, just please go back inside”

Instead of going inside he walked over to me and stood by my side. 

“No, I want to know why I was awoken by the sound of Jake telling my girlfriend why he loves her and planned to marry her” 

“Baby, it’s nothing” 

Jake interrupted, “Actually, it’s not nothing. I was just about to say that Laurie deserves so much better than you. She deserves a gentleman, like me”

“Oh good Christ, would someone explain to me what I missed?”

I turned towards Harry, “Well baby, when we were younger, Jake and I used to be together. We were together for about 2 ½ years. We were convinced that we were going to get married. But then I got accepted into Uni, started writing my books and met you. I stopped loving Jake like that and loved him more as a brother. Although, Jake here, still loves me in not such a sisterly way”

Harry just stood still for a second then turned to Jake. 

“Mate, let it go, She’s mine”

“I’m not going to let it go” 

“Please, it isn’t worth it” I said. 

“Laurie, please. Tell me you still love me” Jake said desperately. 

“That’s the thing Jake, I can’t”

Jake quickly grew red in the face. 

“This is all your fucking fault, Styes,”He said, pointing a fingre at Harry, “If you hadn’t come along and charmed your way into Laurie’s life she would still be mine! We would be married! We would have kids! We would be living the dream!” He shouted. 

“Mate, you clearly don’t know anything about Laurie. She has told me on many occasions she doesn’t want kids. She told me she didn’t want to live the ranch life” Harry said. 

I looked Jake in the eyes and said, “Jake, please go home. I’m begging you. If you truly want me to be happy, leave me alone”

He looked at me for a while, then turned on his feet and walked back to his truck. 

Just when we were about to back inside, Jake turned back around and swung at Harry. 

“Ah fuck he hit me proper in the nose”

“Jesus Christ, Jake! Get the fuck out of here!” I said. 

And with that, Jake got in the truck and left. 

“I can’t wait to tell the boys about this,” Harry said while holding his nose. 

[kaitymccoy123]

✿ and Obviously our favorite Scotsman! lol -@Whatif-anImagineblog

Scotty x reader (Academy AU) (not fully gender neutral though I am trying - I just needed him to say ‘lass’)

29. Kisses to bruised skin

There was a knock at your dormitory door. You threw on your red Academy hoodie and padded barefoot across the thin carpet, not bothering to turn off your study music playing from your PADD. 

You swung the door open to see...

“Monty?” you whispered. “Oh god, what happened?” you gasped. 

Scotty’s head hung, looking more dejected than you’d ever seen him, but you could still make out the dark circle around his cheekbone and eye. It almost looked like a smudge of dirt. But from the way he was standing, the way he was flinching when he moved it, you knew something had happened. 

“Could I... could I come in?” he spoke softly, his voice far from the jovial, excited one you knew so well. 

“Of course,” you said and stepped aside, holding the door so he could enter. 

It was only when you shut the door that you noticed he was also soaking wet. 

“Geez, Monty, were you stuck out in the rain? You must be frozen.” You rushed into your tiny bathroom and retrieved two large towels. 

“Take off your coat and as much as you can underneath,” you instructed. 

He stripped slowly, and you made a small pile of sopping wet clothes on the floor with each layer. Once down to a white undershirt, he stopped, and you quickly wrapped one towel around him. You lead him over to your desk chair, quickly turning down the music and laying the other towel on the chair seat. You took the wet clothes and hung them over your shower curtain rod. 

He was trying to take off his boots when you came back, but his fingers were extremely white and shaking. 

“Here, let me,” you said softly, pushing his freezing fingers out of the way and started undoing the laces. “Will you tell me what happened?” 

You looked up for a moment to meet his eyes. His eyes that were usually so full of light and laughter. Empty. There may have even been tears on his lashes. 

“What happened?” you whispered, touching your fingers to his that were rested on his thigh. 

Scotty’s fingers flinched, but he didn’t pull away, and he exhaled through his nose. “It was so stupid,” he mumbled. “So bloody stupid.”

He had pulled his gaze from yours so you kept working at his boots, sliding them off once you got them untied and setting them by the door.

“What was stupid?” You asked, settling on the floor just in front of his feet. 

“There were these lads... nae... boys, tha’ were causing trouble a’ the bar down campus. They were real rowdy an’ then...” You could tell he was debating whether or not to tell you the next part.  You reached up and hooked your fingres in his again, giving them a squeeze. He exhaled, squeezed back, and continued. 

“Then I heard yer name.”

“My name?”

He nodded solemnly. “They were talking about how they knew ye from the one science class ye must take wit’ them.”

“Oh my god I know exactly who you are talking about. Idiots. The lot of them.”

Scotty let out a snort of laughter  and your heart skipped hopefully as you looked up at him. 

“The lot o’ them. Now yer really startin’ t’ae sound li’ me.”

“I must be spending too much bloody time with you, then.” You smiled and inched closer on your knees. “Then what happened?” you prompted, placing your free hand on his other knee. 

“They weren’t talking very... nice things abou’ ye; things I don’ want t’a repeat meself; ‘specially not t’a you.” He rested his free hand over yours. “I confronted them...”

“Monty, you didn’t.”

“Aye, I did. I’ll admit I was a wee bit tipsy, bu’ sober enough t’ae know when someone’s takin’ it too far.” His fingers curled over yours tightly. “I took a swing a’ one of ‘em; got in a good hit too, but there were three o’ them and one o’ me. So, this happened.” He gestured with his pointer finger to his cheek, still keeping your hand in his. 

“Oh my god,” you breathed after a moment, processing the whole story. “YOU IDIOT!” you admonished, slapping your connected hands down on his thighs and raising up so you were face to face level with him. “You don’t ever have to resort to violence for me. Ever.”

“Anythin’ for my lass,” he said quietly, not quite meeting your eyes. 

My lass. Your hear skipped a beat. 

“Oh, Monty,” you cooed, taking your hand from him and cupping his cheeks gently. 

Leaning in, you pressed a kiss to his uninjured cheek. You traced his forming bruise with your thumb gently before kissing along the border of the injury. Then, a gentle kiss to the corner of his eye. 

He hissed in a breath, but kept you close by his fingers knotted in the back of your hoodie. 

“I don’t ever want you to get hurt for me again, okay?” you warned, pulling back and looking him firmly in the eyes. 

You kissed him before he could respond, taking your time and showing him how much he meant to you through the kiss. 

“I’d do anythin’ for you, love.”

[thepriceofbeingaroseisloneliness]

Oita is now over. It was the best, totally a blast.

When I saw the venue, I was like "omg so tiny!” and it actually was when I got in. It looked totally as it is was an european venue. The stage so was soooo low and the barrier was so close to the stage that when the came out they were super closer. The stage was so small that even if I was in front of Toshiya, Kyo was in my sight, Kaoru as well. When they came out, I had a bad feeling. Toshiya and Kyo looked somehow moody and I got a bit tense. I cant explain it, it was just that feeling, like they werent in good mood. They started with "the fatal believer" and it was epic, probably  the most powerful start of all the shows from this tour for me. I teamed up with two japanese girls (later more lol) and we were screaming "toshiyaaa toshiyaa" in all parts when it was time to scream. In one he got so pumped, that started pointing at us while with his hand he asked for more screaming. And we did. I literally screamed out my lungs out.  In "repetition of hatred" again the parts that we have to sing and the part we sing along with Toshiya was amazing. The energy was even painful lol. In Namameshiki and conceived it got very emotional. Toshiya crossed himself at some point and sang the lyrics sooo emotional that it was amazing. "Grief" was intense as always, Toshiya came closer the stage to give us the finger and the people did it back to him, at some point he switched places with Die and Die did the same lol Then "Maggots" came and man, it was so fucking intense. The singing, the music, the crowd..... Toshiya at some point slipped and fell, it was so "omg wat happened" but he got up fast laughing as if nothing had happened. Someone from the crew asked him if he was ok and nodded politely. Kyo said "last song" before the last song of the main set and it was "Revelation"....I really needed the encore time to recover cause even if I wasnt so tired and the crowd wasnt as packed as Shinkiba, I need a break to recover. The encore started with "byou shin" and then "karma", kyo came out with no make up and his face looked so relaxed and pleased, cheering the crowd asking for more. Lots of "are you still alive" "more" "otoko" and "onna".... at some point he was like "are you aliveeee" "I cant hear you at all" and we were screaming like if our lives depended on it lol. "Clever" came too, and same. Singing "under the name of the justice".....the crowd really was awesome. Even if the venue was tiny it felt like a huge hall xD Utafumi and "un deux" were the last songs, and I was really like "please 2/3 songs more" even if I could barely feel my arms or feet xd People pushed to get closer the stage but it didnt even hurt, I should have been totally in trance. So in the end,  after the throwing picks and so ritual, Die came to the mic and said "Oita, the weather is always horrible (last time they played here there was a typhon and today there was strong rain) but it was fun, with this humidity my hair looks....we will back, Oita" and the whole venue screamed. Oh, when Toshiya gave out the beer bottle, it fell and got broken, Toshiya kneeled and was so sorry, first to the people who almost got it and then to the staff asking them to clean it. It was so good. Sad for not being able to go to Okinawa but it was the best last show ever. Thank you!  Marrow is the best ;) random stuff Kaoru make up is already in most of his face. Its so cool cause he just does one side so it looks like if he had an evil side or a side infected by something lol At some random point in the middle of the set he simply opened a bottle and start throwing water, dont know if he thought he needed it. Also it was funny cause as the stage was so small, in the break parts he was so close to the crowd that he tried to avoid eye contact and was like playing with his fingre. Something was bothering Die at his back, he was doing small jumps trying to adjust it several times, maybe it was part of the gear....

Toshiya being Toshiya, thats all :) Im so happy he enjoyed the super attention he got tonight xd Shinya was the one I could see the least, so I cant actually say anything more that when he came to throw goods and the stuff. And Kyo, well he looked pleased tonight so Im glad in the end it was a good live for them too. Kyo screaning "Oiiiiiiita" was dope. So, Mode of marrow is over for mebut was worth every penny. Im gonna miss the album played lived and gonna miss them until I can figure out a next tour. Thank you :)

[drunkxnectobiologya]

@diligentpsychopomp replied to your post: my fingr hurts nd i s2g i hve nt slammed it in n e...

Aw, neeD some ice?

dont think ice will help i mean all my fingrs feel like ice atm maybe i burnt it ystrday?

[lllegirl]

mourn + mae & areum oops my fingr slipped

Send me a “Mourn” and I’ll write a drabble about one character mourning the death of the other

im sad & if u could read all of this then i applaud u

         People often wondered who actually passed away ever since Areum was gone. Was it really just Areum who had died or had she managed to drag a part of Maeying with her down the flames of hell?         The way she carried herself around nowadays seemed to resemble that of an old rotten corpse, now roaming around aimlessly like a forgotten ghost. There were no tears. No emotion whatsoever as she made her way up the stairs, every step feeling heavier and heavier, almost as if the steps were endless. Her shoulders were slacked and her head hung low, hiding her face with her hair in a weak attempt to let no one know how tired her eyes were, how lifeless her artificial smile looked— if that was even was possible for someone like Maeying. From the moment the death of someone who was probably the closest thing to a best friend was confirmed, she had trouble showing that infamous grin of hers. It was as if she had to scold herself for smiling when mourning, wanting to show respect in the smallest of things. No one was even allowed to mention her name around her for a while. It simply hurt too much. And what hurt her the most was how every single little thing around her happened to remind her of the other.         She shouldn’t be like this, though. Why was she like this? People die. It’s how life works, especially that of one who is involved in gang-related stuff.          After what felt like hours in her mind, she reached the top, only to stop and stare at the rusty door in front of her. At first, she was unsure why she was stopping, was it because she was simply tired? Or was it really because of the many memories spent on this roof together with her. It was the latter, of course.A trembling sigh escaped her lips, before her even shakier hands began to push the door open carefully, scared to face reality and scared to damage whatever was waiting for her behind that door but praying the feeling of being free would not change. She wished. She wished things were different all the time, only to accept it with a sour feeling, forever leaving a bitter taste in her mouth and rage storming through her head.           With a sad creaking sound announcing her entrance she pushed the door open all the way, finally confronting the empty roof she had dreaded to visit. It’s only been a few days, but she could definitely feel as if it was all just one big prank.                       Areum is still alive and she’s just waiting for me to sit at the                                   edge so that she can scare me. That thought made her blood boil quickly. Areum was dead.          She was dead and there’s nothing she can do about it. She was dead but if she was there she could have helped, why did she leave her alone in this world?          Her thoughts made her want to throw up. She can’t get her back, and it felt so selfish of her to wish she could just see her one more time, tell her how important she actually was to her. How much she really loved her. Funny, Maeying was always the one to be so clueless about something called love, never admitting it or even feeling something. Perhaps the absence of the other who was remotely close to her made her realise how much she actually cared about her.

         It was sudden, but all she could do when she stepped foot onto the rooftop was scream her lungs out. Never in her entire life had she screamed for anything. Blood for mercy and mercy for those who are weak.         The tears wouldn’t stop flowing, blurring her vision and making her stop from aimlessly stomping around with her hands fisted in her hair, preventing herself from recklessly walking into her own death several hundred meters down below. Though that idea didn’t seem that bad after all.        No, she couldn’t just end it like this, even Areum would laugh at the gates of hell if she’d end it here. Areum’s laugh. Oh, how she missed that laugh. This rooftop was some sort of safe haven for the two, they could just be themselves here. Laugh at each other’s silliness and forget how dangerous they actually were.

        She mentally cursed at herself for crying so hard she started hiccuping, it wouldn’t even surprise her if someone would have noticed her grieving. So in order to try and calm down, she proceeded to sit at the familiar edge, swinging her legs and enjoying the feeling of being weightless. She had to stop herself from looking next to her, expecting somebody to sit next to her like always, but the empty spot next to her only made her feel like suffocating as if it was trying to push her away. Her legs folded and she hugged them tightly, hiding her face in her knees and softly whimpering, too exhausted to cry even harder. If people would see her like this they would probably have to look twice, when was the last time Maeying felt this weak and small?

        The rough pads of her hands wiped away the remainder of tears, as well as trying to rub away the tiredness that was now heavy in her eyes. Sleep was all she wanted, just to escape everything happening right now, wanting to forget about the real world and its torture. She stretched her legs out again and lied down, feeling the cool asphalt against her head— a huge contrast for whatever is burning up inside her mind now.         Time was always so deceiving. One moment you are out and about with someone dear, the next they’re gone. One moment you’re throwing a tantrum, the next you don’t even notice the stars had already decided to come out, decorating the night sky and surrounding the big, pale moon. A lonely tear left her eye and slowly made its way towards her ear, but she wasn’t sure if she was still crying about Areum or because of those moments when they would count the endless stars.

        Maeying was never a hundred percent sure about anything in life, but one thing she knew was real, and that was pain.         Pain was a reminder to never forget, and she was sure she’d never forget Areum.

                                                                                   “I promise I will avenge you.”

[1mrhyde]

rpg au!

setting and world:ok here we go this time rpg au will be in a world we ra nature rule than tech nolo gy(i eman even more than what it shows in theseries ike for example instead of brieges made of stone are bridges that are atually really big roots )welp nothe less this time is different at differnt of the shiny rod chosing its owner its waiting or its owner you see the shiny rod dissapeared long ago after certain ncident happend you see chariot in this au is a arch magicina animist that alongside the shiny rod cretaes amzing speel related to nature animals an dteh enviroment due that she feels that nature itself is magical and its the living prro thta life is wonderful since ths world is more connected to nartue itsel chariot was more famous and known than the series itself sh eapears on cristall balls magic scrolls and by visions spells but not everyone was happy with he rfriend the alchemist artificer croix she didnt get why caring a lot for nature you see everytime that humanity wanted to advance technolgically the magic creatures (and persons) were agains it and destroys every possible way to happen and nature was the wwinner croix wantng to humanity to advanced decide to sabotaged chariot show just that this time by making invocations hex and use of alchemist it doe not work until she accidnetally makes a final speel conving a invocation with a hex fuelled with negative power make a invctaion of a poweful demon known as noir he begins consuming everyone living foce and then invocate portals to use it minnions to attck near towns villages and everithing thta have a himan being (oh yeah by using his influence to affec evryon that see the show)the demon touches a certain blonde woman and her duaghter scream and telling him to stop another girl use minii fireworks to help the moter and said to the blonde gril get down and use the firework saving th blonde girla nd her mother bu then variou demons suround her the mtoher hugging th two girls while tryin to prtoect them suddeny a rar of light destroys the demon it was chariot she begins destroying the demons and finally fattaly hurts their leader and hides away in the darkness succesfully saving everyone and tis time not losing the shiny rod by her fut!....but rather croix fault the great grandmother mother eatrh spirit known as yggdrassil congratuates her by her efforts but also says that she will punish croix by her insolence with her life chariot angry with her friend but not the enought f wanting her death decides to give her right of the shiny rod to save her yggdrassil ws surprised by it so sehd ecides to et croix to live and givin gher new possition s great mage and giving her a magnificent wand but croix was cursed to become souless tree creature to wander the earth and she will return to normal wehn she lerns all her wrodoings croix was angry of this ot happpen and curse chariot of ever meeting ther and vanish with a fog speell and dispears and yggdrasil dissapears after teeling to chariot to be herself and tech toher her way of livng then a excited brown haire girl goes were chariot and aks her to be her teacher she wa shappy of her new role as a teacher she wanted to ask tot he blond girl but t she and her mother dissapeared and so the shiny rod was lost in some forest waiting for the right person to use it since that day akko and chariot trained tgether since they met growning closer lik mother nd daughter (this time chariot was still havingg her happy youg self an de xpand it in her adult years) so one day akko would be stroung enought to reclaim it !

the guild:but this world is also dagerous full of traps monsters ceature and demons and bad peope her quest wont be easy so she alone cnat do it she ask chariot to help her but she says she mist find croix after so many yeras of dissapearing so sh says no with no worringly so since her favorite teacher cnat help her she decides to go alone (akko is warrior class) but she fails a lot and gets hurt badly a ot so she decides to make a guld "the shiny stars of the stars " nd goes to near villages towns and unnown parts to creta eher guild an dready for advetures!

croix role:ok here we go youse tehre is no only human here they are held dwarfes goblins orcs and many more and her es teh thing croix cursed staet was quite known in the upper world that everyone hates her for ibertaing the demon and her minnion smaking destrution so she live in under world shee befriend the dwarfes and she teach ehr o her technlogy sloly becaems a expert on their technology so much that combining their technology and speels croix mangae to almost recover her normal state her taent in the manafucture wa sso impriseive tht she cerates a company in th e sahdows and became a powrful an dinfluecing as always so she wants to ue taht power tot ke over the world adn reclim the shiny rod detriy ygddrasi an dthe 9nwitches and having he revnege aginst chariot! but she can do ti alone she comands the dwarfes and other underwod inhabitant to capture els human orcs devils...and noir minnions she experiment on them braiwashing them and modifying them with mechanical parts and comand them to make chaos and destruction around the world while in the upper world she uses a more human disguise in order to make del wihth nobe families and trick them to help her growimg empire in military na d fianncial way but her destruction dersoy million o life by eefct

diana the elf princess:diana is a elf princees that in he ryounger years was curious of the outside world so she and her mother goe to a a certain show and bad things happen a monster grabs her other making her screm and her veins infected by the touch of the devil was screaming a nd pleading somebody save her she was cryong an dbeging soebody to help he rmother then suddenly se hears a voice telling her get down launching fireworks to the monster svaing her seeing whowas her shinig prince was surprised to see that was a young brown haired girl and she gets coser to dian and asks her are you ok? she then says shyli "y-yes.." andhelp her mother with the help of the girl she sks he rduring all tht chaous "whoa re you ?" "oh youa re asking my name welp my name is akatsu akatsuragi but i preffer "akko"! dian says with shiny eyes "akko" then akko notices something on the girls it was fire she stops the fire but see diana ears and sh ask are youa elf? yess "awesome ""really?" before they continut heri conversation the monster was going to kill them chariot saves them adter what happens akko dcide to go where chariot was and tells dian to go wtih her dian amzed was going to followe her but sudeenly when akko turns to se chariot some elf guardians grab her an he rother an say that they cat and dian abegs to be with akko that seh is the princess that she can do what she wants but before she begins a agrument with the guard bernadette stops and tells to ehr hat she cn met ako...later she sadly agress to her request after seeing who hurt she was so they telported before akko culd notice it and aks where she went then the next day dian wanders the fores thing whta happened losin i her thouhts she hears soemoen greeting ehr itw as akko she was hesttitant at first but go where she was and decide to spend the dya with her akko telling of chariot and her magic while daian say about her mother and elve magic and soemtimes they train wat hey learnt diana also said thats i dangerous for her to be utside since she is aelf akko asks why she is spending time with her diana says becaus eh trust her she beives tha she is not harm that she can be friends with r akko is grateful for it so they spend thei time toether in far parts fo the forests during the afternoon until night they spend their togethr during years diana become a great elven mage astrolonger an akko a great warrio captain when they became teenager thanks by akko dian could be better an dhandle her mothe rdepature btter akko became open minded of magic and people and became great friends with diana bu their together shortendian became the actual queen of her pple and akko begins traing hand to hand combat with chariot once akko decde to amke guild sh tells to dian and she says thats a stupid idea akko get angry of it but diana tells her why the hel does she need the shiny rod if she by herslef can make great things to happen akko wa sblushing by dian saying suh silly thing but she says that shee need the shny rod if she wnats to get rid of the demon onc eand for all and that cna also make mircales dina sti thinking be stup thing but anyway supports akko akkow as happy to hear that that ask dian to join her gud dian says that i she could do it she would joint it but she cnat due of her repsonsibilieties and that she must return to the kingdom imeedtaly but before that diana wnat to ask something to akko but she wnated to say it in the night and akko confused she agrees so she oes going to another near own with her good lucky self while dian sees while smilng from afar her dumb friend during the night dian with a fancy dress waits for kko for a loooong while she gets worr thinking that akko was not interetsed in their conversation until one of eh rguardinas tell her that akko was in the near hot sring relaxings after sufferin lots oof damage dina use telpeortation magic where she i with exreme worry oh knowng wat happend to akko she explains she tries to recruit memeber sfor her guild in a bar wth the most dangerous ruthless people ver known diann samks her at ther head ansd tells her not to do somehtng foolish like taht ever gain akko says she promises (while crossing her fingrs) and dian lets her rest but herr woorry grow stronge revry inch away form akko so she decides to train in combat steat archery and difffenet kindof self defense to help he rand dres sherself like a ninja (you know like zelda and sheik)sowhen she finsh he rtraining she will help akko while using another identfy to hlp eh rgather the shiny rod by 2 reasons 1.to help akko of dying 2. to discver the secets o the shiny rod nd becam e the scond meber of the guild oh and asks her assitnts hannah and barabra to comand the elven ingdom while she is away

amanda and her mercenary gang:ok here we go remeber in the other au thta conz works with croix to help he rthis time is backwards she wnat to destroy her you see this time the whole grren team wher echildhood frinds sine the noir demon left them the 3 of them withouth parents conz was scard nd jams was traumatized and amanda became their leader ate early yers she save both conz and jams form the demon attacks and she promise to them no matte rwhat happens he woun abbandon tem and will make the one responsible to pay for what she have done so the trhee od them gos to adventure togenther jamnska is a berser axe wileder conz is creatonist hammer wileder and manada an rogue with doule blade together they create a fearsome tro that goes to dangerus adventure earn lots of gold and got to amainzg adventures they were relaxing on a bar thinking what to do next until a idiotic girl ask he rif they join wither on he rguild

species: oh yeah croix is hald wood creature tecnology hybried jams is part giant conz is a tecno magician dwarfe and manda is fae (fairy that likes to make michieves)

[drunkxnectobiologya]

my fingr hurts nd i s2g i hve nt slammed it in n e thin bittn it hd a bug/cat bit it or strnd it fuuuuuuuck its like rite @ my fingr tip 2